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  Iaskedhimtoshowmethegrave,forthereisnofindingone\'swaywithoutaguideinthiscityofthedead,whichhasitsstreetslikeacityoftheliving。Thekeepercalledoveragardener,towhomhegavethenecessaryinstructions;thegardenerinterruptedhim,saying:\"Iknow,Iknow。——Itisnotdifficulttofindthatgrave,\"headded,turningtome。

  \"Why?\"

  \"Becauseithasverydifferentflowersfromtheothers。\"

  \"Isityouwholookafterit?\"

  \"Yes,sir;andIwishallrelationstookasmuchtroubleaboutthedeadastheyoungmanwhogavememyorders。\"

  Afterseveralturnings,thegardenerstoppedandsaidtome:

  \"Hereweare。\"

  Isawbeforemeasquareofflowerswhichonewouldneverhavetakenforagrave,ifithadnotbeenforawhitemarbleslabbearinganame。

  Themarbleslabstoodupright,anironrailingmarkedthelimitsofthegroundpurchased,andtheearthwascoveredwithwhitecamellias。\"Whatdoyousaytothat?\"saidthegardener。

  \"Itisbeautiful。\"

  \"Andwheneveracamelliafades,Ihaveorderstoreplaceit。\"

  \"Whogaveyoutheorder?\"

  \"Ayounggentleman,whocriedthefirsttimehecamehere;anoldpalofhers,Isuppose,fortheysayshewasagayone。Verypretty,too,Ibelieve。Didyouknowher,sir?\"\"Yes。\"

  \"Liketheother?\"saidthegardener,withaknowingsmile。\"No,I

  neverspoketoher。\"

  \"Andyoucomehere,too!Itisverygoodofyou,forthosethatcometoseethepoorgirldon\'texactlycumberthecemetery。\"

  \"Doesn\'tanybodycome?\"

  \"Nobody,exceptthatyounggentlemanwhocameonce。\"

  \"Onlyonce?\"

  \"Yes,sir。\"

  \"Henevercamebackagain?\"

  \"No,buthewillwhenhegetshome。\"

  \"Heisawaysomewhere?\"

  \"Yes。\"

  \"Doyouknowwhereheis?\"

  \"IbelievehehasgonetoseeMlle。Gautier\'ssister。\"

  \"Whatdoeshewantthere?\"

  \"Hehasgonetogetherauthoritytohavethecorpsedugupagainandputsomewhereelse。\"

  \"Whywon\'theletitremainhere?\"

  \"Youknow,sir,peoplehavequeernotionsaboutdeadfolk。Weseesomethingofthateveryday。Thegroundherewasonlyboughtforfiveyears,andthisyounggentlemanwantsaperpetualleaseandabiggerplotofground;itwillbebetterinthenewpart。\"

  \"Whatdoyoucallthenewpart?\"

  \"Thenewplotsofgroundthatareforsale,theretotheleft。Ifthecemeteryhadalwaysbeenkeptlikeitisnow,therewouldn\'tbethelikeofitintheworld;butthereisstillplentytodobeforeitwillbequiteallitshouldbe。Andthenpeoplearesoqueer!\"

  \"Whatdoyoumean?\"

  \"Imeanthattherearepeoplewhocarrytheirprideevenhere。

  Now,thisDemoiselleGautier,itappearsshelivedabitfree,ifyou\'llexcusemysayingso。Poorlady,she\'sdeadnow;there\'snomoreofherleftthanofthemthatnoonehasawordtosayagainst。Wewaterthemeveryday。Well,whentherelativesofthefolkthatareburiedbesideherfoundoutthesortofpersonshewas,whatdoyouthinktheysaid?Thattheywouldtrytokeepheroutfromhere,andthatthereoughttobeapieceofgroundsomewhereapartforthesesortofwomen,likethereisforthepoor。Didyoueverhearofsuchathing?Igaveittothemstraight,Idid:well-to-dofolkwhocometoseetheirdeadfourtimesayear,andbringtheirflowersthemselves,andwhatflowers!andlooktwiceatthekeepofthemtheypretendtocryover,andwriteontheirtombstonesallaboutthetearstheyhaven\'tshed,andcomeandmakedifficultiesabouttheirneighbours。Youmaybelievemeornot,sir,Ineverknewtheyounglady;Idon\'tknowwhatshedid。Well,I\'mquiteinlovewiththepoorthing;Ilookafterherwell,andIletherhavehercamelliasatanhonestprice。SheisthedeadbodythatI

  likethebest。Yousee,sir,weareobligedtolovethedead,forwearekeptsobusy,wehavehardlytimetoloveanythingelse。\"

  Ilookedattheman,andsomeofmyreaderswillunderstand,withoutmyneedingtoexplainittothem,theemotionwhichI

  feltonhearinghim。Heobservedit,nodoubt,forhewenton:

  \"Theytellmetherewerepeoplewhoruinedthemselvesoverthatgirl,andloversthatworshippedher;well,whenIthinkthereisn\'toneofthemthatsomuchasbuysheraflowernow,that\'squeer,sir,andsad。And,afterall,sheisn\'tsobadlyoff,forshehashergravetoherself,andifthereisonlyonewhoremembersher,hemakesupfortheothers。Butwehaveotherpoorgirlshere,justlikeherandjustherage,andtheyarejustthrownintoapauper\'sgrave,anditbreaksmyheartwhenIheartheirpoorbodiesdropintotheearth。Andnotasoulthinksaboutthemanymore,oncetheyaredead!\'Tisn\'tamerrytrade,ours,especiallywhenwehavealittleheartleft。Whatdoyouexpect?Ican\'thelpit。Ihaveafine,strappinggirlmyself;

  she\'sjusttwenty,andwhenagirlofthatagecomeshereIthinkofher,andIdon\'tcareifit\'sagreatladyoravagabond,I

  can\'thelpfeelingitabit。ButIamtakingupyourtime,sir,withmytales,anditwasn\'ttohearthemyoucamehere。IwastoldtoshowyouMlle。Gautier\'sgrave;hereyouhaveit。IsthereanythingelseIcandoforyou?\"

  \"DoyouknowM。ArmandDuval\'saddress?\"Iasked。

  \"Yes;helivesatRuede——;atleast,that\'swhereIalwaysgotogetmymoneyfortheflowersyouseethere。\"

  \"Thanks,mygoodman。\"

  Igaveonemorelookatthegravecoveredwithflowers,halflongingtopenetratethedepthsoftheearthandseewhattheearthhadmadeofthefaircreaturethathadbeencasttoit;

  thenIwalkedsadlyaway。

  \"DoyouwanttoseeM。Duval,sir?\"saidthegardener,whowaswalkingbesideme。

  \"Yes。\"

  \"Well,Iamprettysureheisnotbackyet,orhewouldhavebeenherealready。\"

  \"Youdon\'tthinkhehasforgottenMarguerite?\"

  \"Iamnotonlysurehehasn\'t,butIwouldwagerthathewantstochangehergravesimplyinordertohaveonemorelookather。\"

  \"Whydoyouthinkthat?\"

  \"Thefirstwordhesaidtomewhenhecametothecemeterywas:

  \'HowcanIseeheragain?\'Thatcan\'tbedoneunlessthereisachangeofgrave,andItoldhimallabouttheformalitiesthathavetobeattendedtoingettingitdone;for,yousee,ifyouwanttomoveabodyfromonegravetoanotheryoumusthaveitidentified,andonlythefamilycangiveleaveforitunderthedirectionofapoliceinspector。ThatiswhyM。DuvalhasgonetoseeMlle。Gautier\'ssister,andyoumaybesurehisfirstvisitwillbeforme。\"

  Wehadcometothecemeterygate。Ithankedthegardeneragain,puttingafewcoinsintohishand,andmademywaytotheaddresshehadgivenme。

  Armandhadnotyetreturned。Ileftwordforhim,begginghimtocomeandseemeassoonashearrived,ortosendmewordwhereI

  couldfindhim。

  Nextday,inthemorning,IreceivedaletterfromDuval,tellingmeofhisreturn,andaskingmetocallonhim,ashewassowornoutwithfatiguethatitwasimpossibleforhimtogoout。

  Chapter6

  IfoundArmandinbed。Onseeingmeheheldoutaburninghand。

  \"Youarefeverish,\"Isaidtohim。\"Itisnothing,thefatigueofarapidjourney;thatisall。\"\"YouhavebeentoseeMarguerite\'ssister?\"\"Yes;whotoldyou?\"\"Iknewit。Didyougetwhatyouwanted?\"

  \"Yes;butwhotoldyouofmyjourney,andofmyreasonfortakingit?\"

  \"Thegardenerofthecemetery。\"

  \"Youhaveseenthetomb?\"

  Iscarcelydaredreply,forthetoneinwhichthewordswerespokenprovedtomethatthespeakerwasstillpossessedbytheemotionwhichIhadwitnessedbefore,andthateverytimehisthoughtsorspeechtravelledbacktothatmournfulsubjectemotionwouldstill,foralongtimetocome,provestrongerthanhiswill。Icontentedmyselfwithanodofthehead。

  \"Hehaslookedafteritwell?\"continuedArmand。Twobigtearsrolleddownthecheeksofthesickman,andheturnedawayhisheadtohidethemfromme。Ipretendednottoseethem,andtriedtochangetheconversation。\"Youhavebeenawaythreeweeks,\"I

  said。

  Armandpassedhishandacrosshiseyesandreplied,\"Exactlythreeweeks。\"

  \"Youhadalongjourney。\"

  \"Oh,Iwasnottravellingallthetime。IwasillforafortnightorIshouldhavereturnedlongago;butIhadscarcelygottherewhenItookthisfever,andIwasobligedtokeepmyroom。\"

  \"Andyoustartedtocomebackbeforeyouwerereallywell?\"

  \"IfIhadremainedintheplaceforanotherweek,Ishouldhavediedthere。\"

  \"Well,nowyouarebackagain,youmusttakecareofyourself;

  yourfriendswillcomeandlookafteryou;myself,firstofall,ifyouwillallowme。\"

  \"Ishallgetupinacoupleofhours。\"

  \"Itwouldbeveryunwise。\"

  \"Imust。\"

  \"Whathaveyoutodoinsuchagreathurry?\"

  \"Imustgototheinspectorofpolice。\"

  \"Whydoyounotgetoneofyourfriendstoseeafterthematter?

  Itislikelytomakeyouworsethanyouarenow。\"

  \"Itismyonlychanceofgettingbetter。Imustseeher。EversinceIheardofherdeath,especiallysinceIsawhergrave,I

  havenotbeenabletosleep。Icannotrealizethatthiswoman,soyoungandsobeautifulwhenIlefther,isreallydead。Imustconvincemyselfofit。ImustseewhatGodhasdonewithabeingthatIhavelovedsomuch,andperhapsthehorrorofthesightwillcuremeofmydespair。Willyouaccompanyme,ifitwon\'tbetroublingyoutoomuch?\"

  \"Whatdidhersistersayaboutit?\"

  \"Nothing。SheseemedgreatlysurprisedthatastrangerwantedtobuyaplotofgroundandgiveMargueriteanewgrave,andsheimmediatelysignedtheauthorizationthatIaskedherfor。\"

  \"Believeme,itwouldbebettertowaituntilyouarequitewell。\"

  \"Havenofear;Ishallbequitecomposed。Besides,IshouldsimplygooutofmymindifIwerenottocarryoutaresolutionwhichIhavesetmyselftocarryout。IsweartoyouthatIshallneverbemyselfagainuntilIhaveseenMarguerite。Itisperhapsthethirstofthefever,asleeplessnight\'sdream,amoment\'sdelirium;butthoughIweretobecomeaTrappist,likeM。deRance\',afterhavingseen,Iwillsee。\"

  \"Iunderstand,\"IsaidtoArmand,\"andIamatyourservice。HaveyouseenJulieDuprat?\"

  \"Yes,IsawherthedayIreturned,forthefirsttime。\"

  \"DidshegiveyouthepapersthatMargueritehadleftforyou?\"

  Armanddrewarollofpapersfromunderhispillow,andimmediatelyputthemback。

  \"Iknowallthatisinthesepapersbyheart,\"hesaid。\"ForthreeweeksIhavereadthemtentimesovereveryday。Youshallreadthem,too,butlateron,whenIamcalmer,andcanmakeyouunderstandalltheloveandtendernesshiddenawayinthisconfession。ForthemomentIwantyoutodomeaservice。\"

  \"Whatisit?\"

  \"Yourcabisbelow?\"

  \"Yes。

  \"Well,willyoutakemypassportandaskifthereareanylettersformeattheposterestante?MyfatherandsistermusthavewrittentomeatParis,andIwentawayinsuchhastethatIdidnotgoandseebeforeleaving。Whenyoucomebackwewillgotogethertotheinspectorofpolice,andarrangeforto-morrow\'sceremony。\"

  Armandhandedmehispassport,andIwenttoRueJeanJacquesRousseau。ThereweretwolettersaddressedtoDuval。Itookthemandreturned。WhenIre-enteredtheroomArmandwasdressedandreadytogoout。

  \"Thanks,\"hesaid,takingtheletters。\"Yes,\"headded,afterglancingattheaddresses,\"theyarefrommyfatherandsister。

  Theymusthavebeenquiteatalosstounderstandmysilence。\"

  Heopenedtheletters,guessedatratherthanreadthem,foreachwasoffourpages;andamomentafterfoldedthemup。\"Come,\"hesaid,\"Iwillanswertomorrow。\"

  Wewenttothepolicestation,andArmandhandedinthepermissionsignedbyMarguerite\'ssister。Hereceivedinreturnalettertothekeeperofthecemetery,anditwassettledthatthedisintermentwastotakeplacenextday,atteno\'clock,thatI

  shouldcallforhimanhourbefore,andthatweshouldgotothecemeterytogether。

  IconfessthatIwascurioustobepresent,andIdidnotsleepallnight。judgingfromthethoughtswhichfilledmybrain,itmusthavebeenalongnightforArmand。WhenIenteredhisroomatnineonthefollowingmorninghewasfrightfullypale,butseemedcalm。Hesmiledandheldouthishand。Hiscandleswereburnedout;andbeforeleavinghetookaveryheavyletteraddressedtohisfather,andnodoubtcontaininganaccountofthatnight\'simpressions。

  HalfanhourlaterwewereatMontmartre。Thepoliceinspectorwastherealready。WewalkedslowlyinthedirectionofMarguerite\'sgrave。Theinspectorwentinfront;ArmandandI

  followedafewstepsbehind。

  FromtimetotimeIfeltmycompanion\'sarmtrembleconvulsively,asifheshiveredfromheadtofeet。Ilookedathim。Heunderstoodthelook,andsmiledatme;wehadnotexchangedawordsinceleavingthehouse。

  Justbeforewereachedthegrave,Armandstoppedtowipehisface,whichwascoveredwithgreatdropsofsweat。Itookadvantageofthepausetodrawinalongbreath,forI,too,feltasifIhadaweightonmychest。

  Whatistheoriginofthatmournfulpleasurewhichwefindinsightsofthiskind?Whenwereachedthegravethegardenerhadremovedalltheflower-pots,theironrailinghadbeentakenaway,andtwomenwereturningupthesoil。

  Armandleanedagainstatreeandwatched。Allhislifeseemedtopassbeforehiseyes。Suddenlyoneofthetwopickaxesstruckagainstastone。AtthesoundArmandrecoiled,asatanelectricshock,andseizedmyhandwithsuchforceastogivemepain。

  Oneofthegrave-diggerstookashovelandbeganemptyingouttheearth;then,whenonlythestonescoveringthecoffinwereleft,hethrewthemoutonebyone。

  IscrutinizedArmand,foreverymomentIwasafraidlesttheemotionswhichhewasvisiblyrepressingshouldprovetoomuchforhim;buthestillwatched,hiseyesfixedandwideopen,liketheeyesofamadman,andaslighttremblingofthecheeksandlipsweretheonlysignsoftheviolentnervouscrisisunderwhichhewassuffering。

  Asforme,allIcansayisthatIregrettedhavingcome。

  Whenthecoffinwasuncoveredtheinspectorsaidtothegrave-digger:\"Openit。\"Theyobeyed,asifitwerethemostnaturalthingintheworld。

  Thecoffinwasofoak,andtheybegantounscrewthelid。Thehumidityoftheearthhadrustedthescrews,anditwasnotwithoutsomedifficultythatthecoffinwasopened。Apainfulodouraroseinspiteofthearomaticplantswithwhichitwascovered。

  \"OmyGod,myGod!\"murmuredArmand,andturnedpalerthanbefore。

  Eventhegrave-diggerdrewback。

  Agreatwhiteshroudcoveredthecorpse,closelyoutliningsomeofitscontours。Thisshroudwasalmostcompletelyeatenawayatoneend,andleftoneofthefeetvisible。

  Iwasnearlyfainting,andatthemomentofwritingtheselinesI

  seethewholesceneoveragaininallitsimposingreality。

  \"Quick,\"saidtheinspector。Thereupononeofthemenputouthishand,begantounsewtheshroud,andtakingholdofitbyoneendsuddenlylaidbarethefaceofMarguerite。

  Itwasterribletosee,itishorribletorelate。Theeyeswerenothingbuttwoholes,thelipshaddisappeared,vanished,andthewhiteteethweretightlyset。Theblackhair,longanddry,waspressedtightlyabouttheforehead,andhalfveiledthegreenhollowsofthecheeks;andyetIrecognisedinthisfacethejoyouswhiteandrosefacethatIhadseensooften。

  Armand,unabletoturnawayhiseyes,hadputthehandkerchieftohismouthandbitit。

  Formypart,itwasasifacircleofirontightenedaboutmyhead,aveilcoveredmyeyes,arumblingfilledmyears,andallIcoulddowastounstopasmellingbottlewhichIhappenedtohavewithme,andtodrawinlongbreathsofit。

  ThroughthisbewildermentIheardtheinspectorsaytoDuval,\"Doyouidentify?\"

  \"Yes,\"repliedtheyoungmaninadullvoice。

  \"Thenfastenitupandtakeitaway,\"saidtheinspector。

  Thegrave-diggersputbacktheshroudoverthefaceofthecorpse,fastenedupthecoffin,tookholdofeachendofit,andbegantocarryittowardtheplacewheretheyhadbeentoldtotakeit。

  Armanddidnotmove。Hiseyeswerefixedupontheemptygrave;hewasaswhiteasthecorpsewhichwehadjustseen。Helookedasifhehadbeenturnedtostone。

  Isawwhatwascomingassoonasthepaincausedbythespectacleshouldhaveabatedandthusceasedtosustainhim。Iwentuptotheinspector。\"Isthisgentleman\'spresencestillnecessary?\"I

  said,pointingtoArmand。

  \"No,\"hereplied,\"andIshouldadviseyoutotakehimaway。Helooksill。\"

  \"Come,\"IsaidtoArmand,takinghimbythearm。

  \"What?\"hesaid,lookingatmeasifhedidnotrecogniseme。

  \"Itisallover,\"Iadded。\"Youmustcome,myfriend;youarequitewhite;youarecold。Theseemotionswillbetoomuchforyou。\"

  \"Youareright。Letusgo,\"heansweredmechanically,butwithoutmovingastep。

  Itookhimbythearmandledhimalong。Helethimselfbeguidedlikeachild,onlyfromtimetotimemurmuring,\"Didyouseehereyes?\"andheturnedasifthevisionhadrecalledher。

  Nevertheless,hisstepsbecamemoreirregular;heseemedtowalkbyaseriesofjerks;histeethchattered;hishandswerecold;aviolentagitationranthroughhisbody。Ispoketohim;hedidnotanswer。Hewasjustabletolethimselfbeledalong。Acabwaswaitingatthegate。Itwasonlyjustintime。Scarcelyhadheseatedhimself,whentheshiveringbecamemoreviolent,andhehadanactualattackofnerves,inthemidstofwhichhisfearoffrighteningmemadehimpressmyhandandwhisper:\"Itisnothing,nothing。Iwanttoweep。\"

  Hischestlaboured,hiseyeswereinjectedwithblood,butnotearscame。ImadehimsmellthesaltswhichIhadwithme,andwhenwereachedhishouseonlytheshiveringremained。

  WiththehelpofhisservantIputhimtobed,litabigfireinhisroom,andhurriedofftomydoctor,towhomItoldallthathadhappened。Hehastenedwithme。

  Armandwasflushedanddelirious;hestammeredoutdisconnectedwords,inwhichonlythenameofMargueritecouldbedistinctlyheard。

  \"Well?\"Isaidtothedoctorwhenhehadexaminedthepatient。

  \"Well,hehasneithermorenorlessthanbrainfever,andveryluckyitisforhim,forIfirmlybelieve(Godforgiveme!)thathewouldhavegoneoutofhismind。Fortunately,thephysicalmaladywillkillthementalone,andinamonth\'stimehewillbefreefromtheoneandperhapsfromtheother。\"

  Chapter7

  IllnesseslikeArmand\'shaveonefortunatethingaboutthem:theyeitherkilloutrightorareverysoonovercome。AfortnightaftertheeventswhichIhavejustrelatedArmandwasconvalescent,andwehadalreadybecomegreatfriends。DuringthewholecourseofhisillnessIhadhardlylefthisside。

  Springwasprofuseinitsflowers,itsleaves,itsbirds,itssongs;andmyfriend\'swindowopenedgailyuponhisgarden,fromwhicharevivingbreathofhealthseemedtocometohim。Thedoctorhadallowedhimtogetup,andweoftensattalkingattheopenwindow,atthehourwhenthesunisatitsheight,fromtwelvetotwo。IwascarefulnottorefertoMarguerite,fearinglestthenameshouldawakensadrecollectionshiddenundertheapparentcalmoftheinvalid;butArmand,onthecontrary,seemedtodelightinspeakingofher,notasformerly,withtearsinhiseyes,butwithasweetsmilewhichreassuredmeastothestateofhismind。

  Ihadnoticedthateversincehislastvisittothecemetery,andthesightwhichhadbroughtonsoviolentacrisis,sorrowseemedtohavebeenovercomebysickness,andMarguerite\'sdeathnolongerappearedtohimunderitsformeraspect。Akindofconsolationhadsprungfromthecertaintyofwhichhewasnowfullypersuaded,andinordertobanishthesombrepicturewhichoftenpresenteditselftohim,hereturneduponthehappyrecollectionsofhisliaisonwithMarguerite,andseemedresolvedtothinkofnothingelse。

  Thebodywastoomuchweakenedbytheattackoffever,andevenbytheprocessofitscure,topermithimanyviolentemotions,andtheuniversaljoyofspringwhichwrappedhimroundcarriedhisthoughtsinstinctivelytoimagesofjoy。Hehadalwaysobstinatelyrefusedtotellhisfamilyofthedangerwhichhehadbeenin,andwhenhewaswellagainhisfatherdidnotevenknowthathehadbeenill。

  Oneeveningwehadsatatthewindowlaterthanusual;theweatherhadbeensuperb,andthesunsanktosleepinatwilightdazzlingwithgoldandazure。ThoughwewereinParis,theverdurewhichsurroundedusseemedtoshutusofffromtheworld,andourconversationwasonlynowandagaindisturbedbythesoundofapassingvehicle。

  \"Itwasaboutthistimeoftheyear,ontheeveningofadaylikethis,thatIfirstmetMarguerite,\"saidArmandtome,asifhewerelisteningtohisownthoughtsratherthantowhatIwassaying。Ididnotanswer。Thenturningtowardme,hesaid:

  \"Imusttellyouthewholestory;youwillmakeabookoutofit;

  noonewillbelieveit,butitwillperhapsbeinterestingtodo。\"

  \"Youwilltellmeallaboutitlateron,myfriend,\"Isaidtohim;\"youarenotstrongenoughyet。\"

  \"Itisawarmevening,Ihaveeatenmyrationofchicken,\"hesaidtome,smiling;\"Ihavenofever,wehavenothingtodo,I

  willtellittoyounow。\"

  \"Sinceyoureallywishit,Iwilllisten。\"

  Thisiswhathetoldme,andIhavescarcelychangedawordofthetouchingstory。

  Yes(Armandwenton,lettinghisheadsinkbackonthechair),yes,itwasjustsuchaneveningasthis。Ihadspentthedayinthecountrywithoneofmyfriends,GastonR——。WereturnedtoParisintheevening,andnotknowingwhattodowewenttotheVarietes。Wewentoutduringoneoftheentr\'actes,andatallwomanpassedusinthecorridor,towhommyfriendbowed。

  \"Whomareyoubowingto?\"Iasked。

  \"MargueriteGautier,\"hesaid。

  \"Sheseemsmuchchanged,forIdidnotrecogniseher,\"Isaid,withanemotionthatyouwillsoonunderstand。

  \"Shehasbeenill;thepoorgirlwon\'tlastlong。\"

  Irememberthewordsasiftheyhadbeenspokentomeyesterday。

  Imusttellyou,myfriend,thatfortwoyearsthesightofthisgirlhadmadeastrangeimpressiononmewheneverIcameacrossher。Withoutknowingwhy,Iturnedpaleandmyheartbeatviolently。Ihaveafriendwhostudiestheoccultsciences,andhewouldcallwhatIexperienced\"theaffinityoffluids\";asforme,IonlyknowthatIwasfatedtofallinlovewithMarguerite,andthatIforesawit。

  Itiscertainlythefactthatshemadeaverydefiniteimpressionuponme,thatmanyofmyfriendshadnoticeditandthattheyhadbeenmuchamusedwhentheysawwhoitwasthatmadethisimpressionuponme。

  ThefirsttimeIeversawherwasinthePlacedelaBourse,outsideSusse\'s;anopencarriagewasstationedthere,andawomandressedinwhitegotdownfromit。Amurmurofadmirationgreetedherassheenteredtheshop。Asforme,Iwasrivettedtothespotfromthemomentshewentintillthemomentwhenshecameoutagain。Icouldseeherthroughtheshopwindowsselectingwhatshehadcometobuy。Imighthavegonein,butI

  darednot。Ididnotknowwhoshewas,andIwasafraidlestsheshouldguesswhyIhadcomeinandbeoffended。Nevertheless,I

  didnotthinkIshouldeverseeheragain。

  Shewaselegantlydressed;sheworeamuslindresswithmanyflounces,anIndianshawlembroideredatthecornerswithgoldandsilkflowers,astrawhat,asinglebracelet,andaheavygoldchain,suchaswasjustthenbeginningtobethefashion。

  Shereturnedtohercarriageanddroveaway。Oneoftheshopmenstoodatthedoorlookingafterhiselegantcustomer\'scarriage。

  Iwentuptohimandaskedhimwhatwasthelady\'sname。

  \"MademoiselleMargueriteGautier,\"hereplied。Idarednotaskhimforheraddress,andwentonmyway。

  Therecollectionofthisvision,foritwasreallyavision,wouldnotleavemymindlikesomanyvisionsIhadseen,andI

  lookedeverywhereforthisroyallybeautifulwomaninwhite。

  AfewdayslatertherewasagreatperformanceattheOperaComique。ThefirstpersonIsawinoneoftheboxeswasMargueriteGautier。

  TheyoungmanwhomIwaswithrecognisedherimmediately,forhesaidtome,mentioninghername:\"Lookatthatprettygirl。\"

  AtthatmomentMargueriteturnedheropera-glassinourdirectionand,seeingmyfriend,smiledandbeckonedtohimtocometoher。

  \"Iwillgoandsay\'Howdoyoudo?\'toher,\"hesaid,\"andwillbebackinamoment。\"

  \"Icouldnothelpsaying\"Happyman!\"

  \"Why?\"

  \"Togoandseethatwoman。\"

  \"Areyouinlovewithher?\"

  \"No,\"Isaid,flushing,forIreallydidnotknowwhattosay;

  \"butIshouldverymuchliketoknowher。\"

  \"Comewithme。Iwillintroduceyou。\"

  \"Askherifyoumay。\"

  \"Really,thereisnoneedtobeparticularwithher;come。\"

  Whathesaidtroubledme。IfearedtodiscoverthatMargueritewasnotworthyofthesentimentwhichIfeltforher。

  InabookofAlphonseKarrentitlesAmRauchen,thereisamanwhooneeveningfollowsaveryelegantwoman,withwhomhehadfalleninlovewithatfirstsightonaccountofherbeauty。Onlytokissherhandhefeltthathehadthestrengthtoundertakeanything,thewilltoconqueranything,thecouragetoachieveanything。Hescarcelydaresglanceatthetrimanklewhichsheshowsassheholdsherdressoutofthemud。Whileheisdreamingofallthathewoulddotopossessthiswoman,shestopsatthecornerofthestreetandasksifhewillcomehomewithher。Heturnshishead,crossesthestreet,andgoessadlybacktohisownhouse。

  Irecalledthestory,and,havinglongedtosufferforthiswoman,IwasafraidthatshewouldacceptmetoopromptlyandgivemeatoncewhatIfainwouldhavepurchasedbylongwaitingorsomegreatsacrifice。Wemenarebuiltlikethat,anditisveryfortunatethattheimaginationlendssomuchpoetrytothesenses,andthatthedesiresofthebodymakethussuchconcessiontothedreamsofthesoul。Ifanyonehadsaidtome,Youshallhavethiswomanto-nightandbekilledtomorrow,I

  wouldhaveaccepted。Ifanyonehadsaidtome,youcanbeherloverfortenpounds,Iwouldhaverefused。Iwouldhavecriedlikeachildwhoseesthecastlehehasbeendreamingaboutvanishawayasheawakensfromsleep。

  Allthesame,Iwishedtoknowher;itwasmyonlymeansofmakingupmymindabouther。IthereforesaidtomyfriendthatI

  insistedonhavingherpermissiontobeintroducedtoher,andI

  wanderedtoandfrointhecorridors,sayingtomyselfthatinamoment\'stimeshewasgoingtoseeme,andthatIshouldnotknowwhichwaytolook。Itried(sublimechildishnessoflove!)tostringtogetherthewordsIshouldsaytoher。

  Amomentaftermyfriendreturned。\"Sheisexpectingus,\"hesaid。

  \"Isshealone?\"Iasked。

  \"Withanotherwoman。\"

  \"Therearenomen?\"

  \"No。\"

  \"Come,then。\"

  Myfriendwenttowardthedoorofthetheatre。

  \"Thatisnottheway,\"Isaid。

  \"Wemustgoandgetsomesweets。Sheaskedmeforsome。\"

  Wewentintoaconfectioner\'sinthepassagedel\'Opera。Iwouldhaveboughtthewholeshop,andIwaslookingabouttoseewhatsweetstochoose,whenmyfriendaskedforapoundofraisinsglaces。

  \"Doyouknowifshelikesthem?\"

  \"Sheeatsnootherkindofsweets;everybodyknowsit。

  \"Ah,\"hewentonwhenwehadlefttheshop,\"doyouknowwhatkindofwomanitisthatIamgoingtointroduceyouto?Don\'timagineitisaduchess。Itissimplyakeptwoman,verymuchkept,mydearfellow;don\'tbeshy,sayanythingthatcomesintoyourhead。\"

  \"Yes,yes,\"Istammered,andIfollowedhim,sayingtomyselfthatIshouldsooncuremyselfofmypassion。

  WhenIenteredtheboxMargueritewasinfitsoflaughter。I

  wouldratherthatshehadbeensad。Myfriendintroducedme;

  Margueritegavemealittlenod,andsaid,\"Andmysweets?\"

  \"Heretheyare。\"

  Shelookedatmeasshetookthem。Idroppedmyeyesandblushed。

  Sheleanedacrosstoherneighbourandsaidsomethinginherear,atwhichbothlaughed。EvidentlyIwasthecauseoftheirmirth,andmyembarrassmentincreased。AtthattimeIhadasmistressaveryaffectionateandsentimentallittleperson,whosesentimentandwhosemelancholylettersamusedmegreatly。IrealizedthepainImusthavegivenherbywhatInowexperienced,andforfiveminutesIlovedherasnowomanwaseverloved。

  Margueriteateherraisinsglaceswithouttakinganymorenoticeofme。Thefriendwhohadintroducedmedidnotwishtoletmeremaininsoridiculousaposition。

  \"Marguerite,\"hesaid,\"youmustnotbesurprisedifM。Duvalsaysnothing:youoverwhelmhimtosuchadegreethathecannotfindawordtosay。\"

  \"Ishouldsay,onthecontrary,thathehasonlycomewithyoubecauseitwouldhaveboredyoutocomeherebyyourself。\"

  \"Ifthatweretrue,\"Isaid,\"IshouldnothavebeggedErnesttoaskyourpermissiontointroduceme。\"

  \"Perhapsthatwasonlyinordertoputoffthefatalmoment。\"

  HoweverlittleonemayhaveknownwomenlikeMarguerite,onecannotbutknowthedelighttheytakeinpretendingtobewittyandinteasingthepeoplewhomtheymeetforthefirsttime。Itisnodoubtareturnforthehumiliationswhichtheyoftenhavetosubmittoonthepartofthosewhomtheyseeeveryday。

  Toanswerthemproperly,onerequiresacertainknack,andIhadnothadtheopportunityofacquiringit;besides,theideathatI

  hadformedofMargueriteaccentuatedtheeffectsofhermockery。

  Nothingthatdamefromherwasindifferenttome。Irosetomyfeet,sayinginanalteredvoice,whichIcouldnotentirelycontrol:

  \"Ifthatiswhatyouthinkofme,madame,Ihaveonlytoaskyourpardonformyindiscretion,andtotakeleaveofyouwiththeassurancethatitshallnotoccuragain。\"

  ThereuponIbowedandquittedthebox。IhadscarcelyclosedthedoorwhenIheardathirdpealoflaughter。Itwouldnothavebeenwellforanybodywhohadelbowedmeatthatmoment。

  Ireturnedtomyseat。Thesignalforraisingthecurtainwasgiven。Ernestcamebacktohisplacebesideme。

  \"Whatawayyoubehaved!\"hesaid,ashesatdown。\"Theywillthinkyouaremad。\"

  \"WhatdidMargueritesayafterIhadgone?\"

  \"Shelaughed,andsaidshehadneverseenanyonesofunny。Butdon\'tlookuponitasalostchance;onlydonotdothesewomenthehonouroftakingthemseriously。Theydonotknowwhatpolitenessandceremonyare。Itisasifyouweretoofferperfumestodogs——theywouldthinkitsmelledbad,andgoandrollinthegutter。\"

  \"Afterall,whatdoesitmattertome?\"Isaid,affectingtospeakinanonchalantway。\"Ishallneverseethiswomanagain,andifIlikedherbeforemeetingher,itisquitedifferentnowthatIknowher。\"

  \"Bah!Idon\'tdespairofseeingyouonedayatthebackofherbox,andofbearingthatyouareruiningyourselfforher。

  However,youareright,shehasn\'tbeenwellbroughtup;butshewouldbeacharmingmistresstohave。\"

  Happily,thecurtainroseandmyfriendwassilent。Icouldnotpossiblytellyouwhattheywereacting。AllthatIrememberisthatfromtimetotimeIraisedmyeyestotheboxIhadquittedsoabruptly,andthatthefacesoffreshvisitorssucceededoneanotherallthetime。

  IwasfarfromhavinggivenupthinkingaboutMarguerite。Anotherfeelinghadtakenpossessionofme。ItseemedtomethatIhadherinsultandmyabsurditytowipeout;IsaidtomyselfthatifIspenteverypennyIhad,IwouldwinherandwinmyrighttotheplaceIhadabandonedsoquickly。

  BeforetheperformancewasoverMargueriteandherfriendleftthebox。Irosefrommyseat。

  \"Areyougoing?\"saidErnest。

  \"Yes。\"

  \"Why?\"

  Atthatmomenthesawthattheboxwasempty。

  \"Go,go,\"hesaid,\"andgoodluck,orratherbetterluck。\"

  Iwentout。

  Iheardtherustleofdresses,thesoundofvoices,onthestaircase。Istoodaside,and,withoutbeingseen,sawthetwowomenpassme,accompaniedbytwoyoungmen。Attheentrancetothetheatretheyweremetbyafootman。

  \"TellthecoachmantowaitatthedooroftheCafe\'Anglais,\"

  saidMarguerite。\"Wewillwalkthere。\"

  AfewminutesafterwardIsawMargueritefromthestreetatawindowofoneofthelargeroomsoftherestaurant,pullingthecamelliasofherbouquettopieces,onebyone。Oneofthetwomenwasleaningoverhershoulderandwhisperinginherear。I

  tookupmypositionattheMaison-d\'or,inoneofthefirst-floorrooms,anddidnotlosesightofthewindowforaninstant。AtoneinthemorningMargueritegotintohercarriagewithherthreefriends。Itookacabandfollowedthem。ThecarriagestoppedatNo。9,Rued\'Antin。Margueritegotoutandwentinalone。Itwasnodoubtamerechance,butthechancefilledmewithdelight。

  Fromthattimeforward,IoftenmetMargueriteatthetheatreorintheChamps-Elysees。Alwaystherewasthesamegaietyinher,thesameemotioninme。

  Atlastafortnightpassedwithoutmymeetingher。ImetGastonandaskedafterher。

  \"Poorgirl,sheisveryill,\"heanswered。

  \"Whatisthematter?\"

  \"Sheisconsumptive,andthesortoflifesheleadsisn\'texactlythethingtocureher。Shehastakentoherbed;sheisdying。\"

  Theheartisastrangething;Iwasalmostgladathearingit。

  EverydayIwenttoaskafterher,withoutleavingmynameormycard。IheardshewasconvalescentandhadgonetoBagneres。

  Timewentby,theimpression,ifnotthememory,fadedgraduallyfrommymind。Itravelled;loveaffairs,habits,work,tooktheplaceofotherthoughts,andwhenIrecalledthisadventureI

  lookeduponitasoneofthosepassionswhichonehaswhenoneisveryyoung,andlaughsatsoonafterward。

  Fortherest,itwasnocredittometohavegotthebetterofthisrecollection,forIhadcompletelylostsightofMarguerite,and,asItoldyou,whenshepassedmeinthecorridoroftheVarietes,Ididnotrecogniseher。Shewasveiled,itistrue;

  but,veiledthoughshemighthavebeentwoyearsearlier,I

  shouldnothaveneededtoseeherinordertorecogniseher:I

  shouldhaveknownherintuitively。Allthesame,myheartbegantobeatwhenIknewthatitwasshe;andthetwoyearsthathadpassedsinceIsawher,andwhathadseemedtobetheresultsofthatseparation,vanishedinsmokeatthemeretouchofherdress。

  Chapter8

  However(continuedArmandafterapause),whileIknewmyselftobestillinlovewithher,Ifeltmoresureofmyself,andpartofmydesiretospeaktoMargueriteagainwasawishtomakeherseethatIwasstrongerthanshe。

  Howmanywaysdoesthehearttake,howmanyreasonsdoesitinventforitself,inordertoarriveatwhatitwants!

  Icouldnotremaininthecorridor,andIreturnedtomyplaceinthestalls,lookinghastilyaroundtoseewhatboxshewasin。

  Shewasinaground-floorbox,quitealone。Shehadchanged,asI

  havetoldyou,andnolongerworeanindifferentsmileonherlips。Shehadsuffered;shewasstillsuffering。ThoughitwasApril,shewasstillwearingawintercostume,allwrappedupinfurs。

  Igazedathersofixedlythatmyeyesattractedhers。Shelookedatmeforafewseconds,putupheropera-glasstoseemebetter,andseemedtothinksherecognisedme,withoutbeingquitesurewhoIwas,forwhensheputdownherglasses,asmile,thatcharming,femininesalutation,flittedacrossherlips,asiftoanswerthebowwhichsheseemedtoexpect;butIdidnotrespond,soastohaveanadvantageoverher,asifIhadforgotten,whilesheremembered。Supposingherselfmistaken,,shelookedaway。

  Thecurtainwentup。IhaveoftenseenMargueriteatthetheatre。

  Ineversawherpaytheslightestattentiontowhatwasbeingacted。Asforme,theperformanceinterestedmeequallylittle,andIpaidnoattentiontoanythingbuther,thoughdoingmyutmosttokeepherfromnoticingit。

  PresentlyIsawherglancingacrossatthepersonwhowasintheoppositebox;onlooking,IsawawomanwithwhomIwasquitefamiliar。Shehadoncebeenakeptwoman,andhadtriedtogoonthestage,hadfailed,and,relyingonheracquaintancewithfashionablepeopleinParis,hadgoneintobusinessandtakenamilliner\'sshop。IsawinherameansofmeetingwithMarguerite,andprofitedbyamomentinwhichshelookedmywaytowavemyhandtoher。AsIexpected,shebeckonedtometocometoherbox。

  PrudenceDuvernoy(thatwasthemilliner\'sauspiciousname)wasoneofthosefatwomenoffortywithwhomonerequiresverylittlediplomacytomakethemunderstandwhatonewantstoknow,especiallywhenwhatonewantstoknowisassimpleaswhatIhadtoaskofher。

  ItookadvantageofamomentwhenshewassmilingacrossatMargueritetoaskher,\"Whomareyoulookingat?\"

  \"MargueriteGautier。\"

  \"Youknowher?\"

  \"Yes,Iamhermilliner,andsheisaneighbourofmine。\"

  \"DoyouliveintheRued\'Antin?\"

  \"No。7。Thewindowofherdressing-roomlooksontothewindowofmine。\"

  \"Theysaysheisacharminggirl。\"

  \"Don\'tyouknowher?\"

  \"No,butIshouldliketo。\"

  \"ShallIaskhertocomeovertoourbox?\"

  \"No,Iwouldratherforyoutointroducemetoher。\"

  \"Atherownhouse?\"

  \"Yes。

  \"Thatismoredifficult。\"

  \"Why?\"

  \"Becausesheisundertheprotectionofajealousoldduke。\"

  \"\'Protection\'ischarming。\"

  \"Yes,protection,\"repliedPrudence。\"Pooroldman,hewouldbegreatlyembarrassedtoofferheranythingelse。\"

  PrudencethentoldmehowMargueritehadmadetheacquaintanceofthedukeatBagneres。

  \"That,then,\"Icontinued,\"iswhysheisalonehere?\"

  \"Precisely。\"

  \"Butwhowillseeherhome?\"

  \"Hewill。\"

  \"Hewillcomeforher?\"

  \"Inamoment。\"

  \"Andyou,whoisseeingyouhome?\"

  \"Noone。\"

  \"MayIoffermyself?\"

  \"Butyouarewithafriend,areyounot?\"

  \"Mayweoffer,then?\"

  \"Whoisyourfriend?\"

  \"Acharmingfellow,veryamusing。Hewillbedelightedtomakeyouracquaintance。\"

  \"Well,allright;wewillgoafterthispieceisover,forIknowthelastpiece。\"

  \"Withpleasure;Iwillgoandtellmyfriend。\"

  \"Go,then。Ah,\"addedPrudence,asIwasgoing,\"thereisthedukejustcomingintoMarguerite\'sbox。\"

  Ilookedathim。Amanofaboutseventyhadsatdownbehindher,andwasgivingherabagofsweets,intowhichshedippedatonce,smiling。ThenshehelditouttowardPrudence,withagesturewhichseemedtosay,\"Willyouhavesome?\"

  \"No,\"signalledPrudence。

  Margueritedrewbackthebag,and,turning,begantotalkwiththeduke。

  Itmaysoundchildishtotellyouallthesedetails,buteverythingrelatingtoMargueriteissofreshinmymemorythatI

  cannothelprecallingthemnow。

  IwentbacktoGastonandtoldhimofthearrangementIhadmadeforhimandforme。Heagreed,andweleftourstallstogoroundtoMme。Duvernoy\'sbox。WehadscarcelyopenedthedoorleadingintothestallswhenwehadtostandasidetoallowMargueriteandtheduketopass。Iwouldhavegiventenyearsofmylifetohavebeenintheoldman\'splace。

  Whentheywereonthestreethehandedherintoaphaeton,whichhedrovehimself,andtheywerewhirledawaybytwosuperbhorses。

  WereturnedtoPrudence\'sbox,andwhentheplaywasoverwetookacabanddroveto7,Rued\'Antin。Atthedoor,Prudenceaskedustocomeupandseehershowrooms,whichwehadneverseen,andofwhichsheseemedveryproud。YoucanimaginehoweagerlyI

  accepted。ItseemedtomeasifIwascomingnearerandnearertoMarguerite。Isoonturnedtheconversationinherdirection。

  \"Theolddukeisatyourneighbours,\"IsaidtoPrudence。

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