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  \"Oh,no;sheisprobablyalone。\"

  \"Butshemustbedreadfullybored,\"saidGaston。

  \"Wespendmostofoureveningtogether,orshecallstomewhenshecomesin。Shenevergoestobedbeforetwointhemorning。

  Shecan\'tsleepbeforethat。\"

  \"Why?\"

  \"Becauseshesuffersinthechest,andisalmostalwaysfeverish。\"

  \"Hasn\'tsheanylovers?\"Iasked。

  \"IneverseeanyoneremainafterIleave;Idon\'tsaynooneevercomeswhenIamgone。OftenintheeveningImeetthereacertainComtedeN。,whothinksheismakingsomeheadwaybycallingonheratelevenintheevening,andbysendingherjewelstoanyextent;butshecan\'tstandhim。Shemakesamistake;heisveryrich。ItisinvainthatIsaytoherfromtimetotime,\'Mydearchild,there\'sthemanforyou。\'She,whogenerallylistenstome,turnsherbackandrepliesthatheistoostupid。Stupid,indeed,heis;butitwouldbeapositionforher,whilethisolddukemightdieanyday。Oldmenareegoists;

  hisfamilyarealwaysreproachinghimforhisaffectionforMarguerite;therearetworeasonswhyheislikelytoleavehernothing。Igivehergoodadvice,andsheonlysaysitwillbeplentyoftimetotakeonthecountwhenthedukeisdead。Itisn\'tallfun,\"continuedPrudence,\"tolivelikethat。Iknowverywellitwouldn\'tsuitme,andIshouldsoonsendtheoldmanabouthisbusiness。Heissodull;hecallsherhisdaughter;

  looksafterherlikeachild;andisalwaysintheway。Iamsureatthisverymomentoneofhisservantsisprowlingaboutinthestreettoseewhocomesout,andespeciallywhogoesin。\"

  \"Ah,poorMarguerite!\"saidGaston,sittingdowntothepianoandplayingawaltz。\"Ihadn\'tanotionofit,butIdidnoticeshehasn\'tbeenlookingsogaylately。\"

  \"Hush,\"saidPrudence,listening。Gastonstopped。

  \"Sheiscallingme,Ithink。\"

  Welistened。Avoicewascalling,\"Prudence!\"

  \"Come,now,youmustgo,\"saidMme。Duvernoy。

  \"Ah,thatisyourideaofhospitality,\"saidGaston,laughing;

  \"wewon\'tgotillweplease。\"

  \"Whyshouldwego?\"

  \"IamgoingovertoMarguerite\'s。\"

  \"Wewillwaithere。\"

  \"Youcan\'t。\"

  \"Thenwewillgowithyou。\"

  \"Thatstillless。\"

  \"IknowMarguerite,\"saidGaston;Icanverywellpayheracall。\"

  \"ButArmanddoesn\'tknowher。\"

  \"Iwillintroducehim。\"

  \"Impossible。\"

  WeagainheardMarguerite\'svoicecallingtoPrudence,whorushedtoherdressing-roomwindow。IfollowedwithGastonassheopenedthewindow。Wehidourselvessoasnottobeseenfromoutside。

  \"Ihavebeencallingyoufortenminutes,\"saidMargueritefromherwindow,inalmostanimperioustoneofvoice。

  \"Whatdoyouwant?\"

  \"Iwantyoutocomeoveratonce。\"

  \"Why?\"

  \"BecausetheComtedeN。isstillhere,andheisboringmetodeath。\"

  \"Ican\'tnow。\"

  \"Whatishinderingyou?\"

  \"Therearetwoyoungfellowsherewhowon\'tgo。\"

  \"Tellthemthatyoumustgoout。\"

  \"Ihavetoldthem。\"

  \"Well,then,leavetheminthehouse。Theywillsoongowhentheyseeyouhavegone。\"

  \"Theywillturneverythingupsidedown。\"

  \"Butwhatdotheywant?\"

  \"Theywanttoseeyou。\"

  \"Whataretheycalled?\"

  \"Youknowone,M。GastonR。\"

  \"Ah,yes,Iknowhim。Andtheother?\"

  \"M。ArmandDuval;andyoudon\'tknowhim。\"

  \"No,butbringthemalong。Anythingisbetterthanthecount。I

  expectyou。Comeatonce。\"

  MargueriteclosedherwindowandPrudencehers。Marguerite,whohadrememberedmyfaceforamoment,didnotremembermyname。I

  wouldratherhavebeenrememberedtomydisadvantagethanthusforgotten。

  \"Iknew,\"saidGaston,\"thatshewouldbedelightedtoseeus。\"

  \"Delightedisn\'ttheword,\"repliedPrudence,assheputonherhatandshawl。\"Shewillseeyouinordertogetridofthecount。Trytobemoreagreeablethanheis,or(IknowMarguerite)shewillputitalldowntome。\"

  WefollowedPrudencedownstairs。Itrembled;itseemedtomethatthisvisitwastohaveagreatinfluenceonmylife。IwasstillmoreagitatedthanontheeveningwhenIwasintroducedintheboxattheOperaComique。Aswereachedthedoorthatyouknow,myheartbeatsoviolentlythatIwashardlyabletothink。

  Weheardthesoundofapiano。Prudencerang。Thepianowassilent。Awomanwholookedmorelikeacompanionthanaservantopenedthedoor。Wewentintothedrawing-room,andfromthattotheboudoir,whichwasthenjustasyouhaveseenitsince。A

  youngmanwasleaningagainstthemantel-piece。Marguerite,seatedatthepiano,letherfingerswanderoverthenotes,beginningscrapsofmusicwithoutfinishingthem。Thewholescenebreathedboredom,themanembarrassedbytheconsciousnessofhisnullity,thewomantiredofherdismalvisitor。AtthevoiceofPrudence,Margueriterose,andcomingtowarduswithalookofgratitudetoMme。Duvernoy,said:

  \"Comein,andwelcome。\"

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  \"Good-evening,mydearGaston,\"saidMargueritetomycompanion。

  \"Iamverygladtoseeyou。Whydidn\'tyoucometoseemeinmyboxattheVarietes?\"

  \"Iwasafraiditwouldbeindiscreet。\"

  \"Friends,\"andMargueritelingeredovertheword,asiftointimatetothosewhowerepresentthatinspiteofthefamiliarwayinwhichshegreetedhim,Gastonwasnotandneverhadbeenanythingmorethanafriend,\"friendsarealwayswelcome。\"

  \"Then,willyoupermitmetointroduceM。ArmandDuval?\"

  \"IhadalreadyauthorizedPrudencetodoso。\"

  \"Asfarasthatgoes,madame,\"Isaid,bowing,andsucceedingingettingmoreorlessintelligiblesoundsoutofmythroat,\"I

  havealreadyhadthehonourofbeingintroducedtoyou。\"

  Marguerite\'sbeautifuleyesseemedtobelookingbackinmemory,butshecouldnot,orseemednotto,remember。

  \"Madame,\"Icontinued,\"Iamgratefultoyouforhavingforgottentheoccasionofmyfirstintroduction,forIwasveryabsurdandmusthaveseemedtoyouverytiresome。ItwasattheOperaComique,twoyearsago;IwaswithErnestde——。\"

  \"Ah,Iremember,\"saidMarguerite,withasmile。\"Itwasnotyouwhowereabsurd;itwasIwhowasmischievous,asIstillam,butsomewhatless。Youhaveforgivenme?\"

  Andsheheldoutherhand,whichIkissed。

  \"Itistrue,\"shewenton;\"youknowIhavethebadhabitoftryingtoembarrasspeoplethefirsttimeImeetthem。Itisverystupid。MydoctorsaysitisbecauseIamnervousandalwaysill;

  believemydoctor。\"

  \"Butyouseemquitewell。\"

  \"Oh!Ihavebeenveryill。\"

  \"Iknow。\"

  \"Whotoldyou?\"

  \"Everyoneknewit;Ioftencametoinquireafteryou,andIwashappytohearofyourconvalescence。\"

  \"Theynevergavemeyourcard。\"

  \"Ididnotleaveit。\"

  \"Wasityou,then,whocalledeverydaywhileIwasill,andwouldneverleaveyourname?\"

  \"Yes,itwasI。\"

  \"Thenyouaremorethanindulgent,youaregenerous。You,count,wouldn\'thavedonethat,\"saidshe,turningtowardM。deN。,aftergivingmeoneofthoselooksinwhichwomensumuptheiropinionofaman。

  \"Ihaveonlyknownyoufortwomonths,\"repliedthecount。

  \"Andthisgentlemanonlyforfiveminutes。Youalwayssaysomethingridiculous。\"

  Womenarepitilesstowardthosewhomtheydonotcarefor。Thecountreddenedandbithislips。

  Iwassorryforhim,forheseemed,likemyself,tobeinlove,andthebitterfranknessofMargueritemusthavemadehimveryunhappy,especiallyinthepresenceoftwostrangers。

  \"Youwereplayingthepianowhenwecamein,\"Isaid,inordertochangetheconversation。\"Won\'tyoubesogoodastotreatmeasanoldacquaintanceandgoon?\"

  \"Oh,\"saidshe,flingingherselfonthesofaandmotioningtoustositdown,\"Gastonknowswhatmymusicislike。ItisallverywellwhenIamalonewiththecount,butIwon\'tinflictsuchapunishmentonyou。\"

  \"Youshowmethatpreference?\"saidM。deN。,withasmilewhichhetriedtorenderdelicatelyironical。

  \"Don\'treproachmeforit。Itistheonlyone。\"Itwasfatedthatthepoormanwasnottosayasingleword。HecastareallysupplicatingglanceatMarguerite。

  \"Well,Prudence,\"shewenton,\"haveyoudonewhatIaskedyoutodo?\"

  \"Yes。

  \"Allright。Youwilltellmeaboutitlater。Wemusttalkoverit;don\'tgobeforeIcanspeakwithyou。\"

  \"Wearedoubtlessintruders,\"Isaid,\"andnowthatwe,orratherI,havehadasecondintroduction,toblotoutthefirst,itistimeforGastonandmetobegoing。\"

  \"Notintheleast。Ididn\'tmeanthatforyou。Iwantyoutostay。\"

  Thecounttookaveryelegantwatchoutofhispocketandlookedatthetime。\"Imustbegoingtomyclub,\"hesaid。Margueritedidnotanswer。Thecountthereuponlefthispositionbythefireplaceandgoinguptoher,said:\"Adieu,madame。\"

  Margueriterose。\"Adieu,mydearcount。Areyougoingalready?\"

  \"Yes,IfearIamboringyou。\"

  \"Youarenotboringmeto-daymorethananyotherday。WhenshallIbeseeingyou?\"

  \"Whenyoupermitme。\"

  \"Good-bye,then。\"

  Itwascruel,youwilladmit。Fortunately,thecounthadexcellentmannersandwasverygood-tempered。HemerelykissedMarguerite\'shand,whichsheheldouttohimcarelesslyenough,and,bowingtous,wentout。

  Ashecrossedthethreshold,hecastaglanceatPrudence。Sheshruggedhershoulders,asmuchastosay:

  \"Whatdoyouexpect?IhavedoneallIcould。\"

  \"Nanine!\"criedMarguerite。\"LightM。leComtetothedoor。\"

  Weheardthedooropenandshut。

  \"Atlast,\"criedMarguerite,comingback,\"hehasgone!Thatmangetsfrightfullyonmynerves!\"

  \"Mydearchild,\"saidPrudence,\"youreallytreathimtoobadly,andheissogoodandkindtoyou。Lookatthiswatchonthemantel-piece,thathegaveyou:itmusthavecosthimatleastthreethousandfrancs,Iamsure。\"

  AndMme。Duvernoybegantoturnitover,asitlayonthemantel-piece,lookingatitwithcovetouseyes。

  \"Mydear,\"saidMarguerite,sittingdowntothepiano,\"whenI

  putononesidewhathegivesmeandontheotherwhathesaystome,itseemstomethathebuyshisvisitsverycheap。\"

  \"Thepoorfellowisinlovewithyou。\"

  \"IfIhadtolistentoeverybodywhowasinlovewithme,I

  shouldn\'thavetimeformydinner。\"

  Andshebegantorunherfingersoverthepiano,andthen,turningtous,shesaid:

  \"Whatwillyoutake?IthinkIshouldlikealittlepunch。\"

  \"AndIcouldeatalittlechicken,\"saidPrudence。\"Supposewehavesupper?\"

  \"That\'sit,let\'sgoandhavesupper,\"saidGaston。

  \"No,wewillhavesupperhere。\"

  Sherang,andNanineappeared。

  \"Sendforsomesupper。\"

  \"WhatmustIget?\"

  \"Whateveryoulike,butatonce,atonce。\"

  Naninewentout。

  \"That\'sit,\"saidMarguerite,jumpinglikeachild,\"we\'llhavesupper。Howtiresomethatidiotofacountis!\"

  ThemoreIsawher,themoresheenchantedme。Shewasexquisitelybeautiful。Herslendernesswasacharm。Iwaslostincontemplation。

  WhatwaspassinginmymindIshouldhavesomedifficultyinexplaining。Iwasfullofindulgenceforherlife,fullofadmirationforherbeauty。Theproofofdisinterestednessthatshegaveinnotacceptingarichandfashionableyoungman,readytowasteallhismoneyuponher,excusedherinmyeyesforallherfaultsinthepast。

  Therewasakindofcandourinthiswoman。Youcouldseeshewasstillinthevirginityofvice。Herfirmwalk,hersupplefigure,herrosy,opennostrils,herlargeeyes,slightlytingedwithblue,indicatedoneofthoseardentnatureswhichsbedaroundthemasortofvoluptuousperfume,likeEasternvials,which,closethemastightlyasyouwill,stillletsomeoftheirperfumeescape。Finally,whetheritwassimplenatureorabreathoffever,therepassedfromtimetotimeintheeyesofthiswomanaglimmerofdesire,givingpromiseofaveryheavenforonewhomsheshouldlove。ButthosewhohadlovedMargueritewerenottobecounted,northosewhomshehadloved。

  Inthisgirltherewasatoncethevirginwhomamerenothinghadturnedintoacourtesan,andthecourtesanwhomamerenothingwouldhaveturnedintothemostlovingandthepurestofvirgins。

  Margueritehadstillprideandindependence,twosentimentswhich,iftheyarewounded,canbetheequivalentofasenseofshame。Ididnotspeakaword;mysoulseemedtohavepassedintomyheartandmyheartintomyeyes。

  \"So,\"saidsheallatonce,\"itwasyouwhocametoinquireaftermewhenIwasill?\"

  \"Yes。\"

  \"Doyouknow,itwasquitesplendidofyou!HowcanIthankyouforit?\"

  \"Byallowingmetocomeandseeyoufromtimetotime。\"

  \"Asoftenasyoulike,fromfivetosix,andfromeleventotwelve。Now,Gaston,playtheInvitationAlaValse。\"

  \"Why?\"

  \"Topleaseme,firstofall,andthenbecauseInevercanmanagetoplayitmyself。\"

  \"Whatpartdoyoufinddifficult?\"

  \"Thethirdpart,thepartinsharps。\"

  Gastonroseandwenttothepiano,andbegantoplaythewonderfulmelodyofWeber,themusicofwhichstoodopenbeforehim。

  Marguerite,restingonehandonthepiano,followedeverynoteonthemusic,accompanyingitinalowvoice,andwhenGastonhadcometothepassagewhichshehadmentionedtohim,shesangout,runningherfingersalongthetopofthepiano:

  \"Do,re,mi,do,re,fa,mi,re;thatiswhatIcannotdo。Overagain。\"

  Gastonbeganoveragain,afterwhichMargueritesaid:

  \"Now,letmetry。\"

  Shetookherplaceandbegantoplay;butherrebelliousfingersalwayscametogriefoveroneofthenotes。

  \"Isn\'titincredible,\"shesaid,exactlylikeachild,\"thatI

  cannotsucceedinplayingthatpassage?WouldyoubelievethatI

  sometimesspendtwohoursofthemorningoverit?AndwhenI

  thinkthatthatidiotofacountplaysitwithouthismusic,andbeautifully,Ireallybelieveitisthatthatmakesmesofuriouswithhim。\"Andshebeganagain,alwayswiththesameresult。

  \"ThedeviltakeWeber,music,andpianos!\"shecried,throwingthemusictotheotherendoftheroom。\"HowcanIplayeightsharpsoneafteranother?\"Shefoldedherarmsandlookedatus,stampingherfoot。Thebloodflewtohercheeks,andherlipshalfopenedinaslightcough。

  \"Come,come,\"saidPrudence,whohadtakenoffherhatandwassmoothingherhairbeforetheglass,\"youwillworkyourselfintoarageanddoyourselfharm。Bettercomeandhavesupper;formypart,Iamdyingofhunger。\"

  Margueriterangthebell,satdowntothepianoagain,andbegantohumoveraveryriskysong,whichsheaccompaniedwithoutdifficulty。Gastonknewthesong,andtheygaveasortofduet。

  \"Don\'tsingthosebeastlythings,\"IsaidtoMarguerite,imploringly。

  \"Oh,howproperyouare!\"shesaid,smilingandgivingmeherhand。\"Itisnotformyself,butforyou。\"

  Margueritemadeagestureasiftosay,\"Oh,itislongsincethatIhavedonewithpropriety!\"AtthatmomentNanineappeared。

  \"Issupperready?\"askedMarguerite。\"Yes,madame,inonemoment。\"

  \"Apropos,\"saidPrudencetome,\"youhavenotlookedround;come,andIwillshowyou。\"Asyouknow,thedrawing-roomwasamarvel。

  Margueritewentwithusforamoment;thenshecalledGastonandwentintothedining-roomwithhimtoseeifsupperwasready。

  \"Ah,\"saidPrudence,catchingsightofalittleSaxefigureonaside-table,\"Ineverknewyouhadthislittlegentleman。\"

  \"Which?\"

  \"Alittleshepherdholdingabird-cage。\"

  \"Takeit,ifyoulikeit。\"

  \"Iwon\'tdepriveyouofit。\"

  \"Iwasgoingtogiveittomymaid。Ithinkithideous;butifyoulikeit,takeit。\"

  Prudenceonlysawthepresent,notthewayinwhichitwasgiven。

  Sheputthelittlefigureononeside,andtookmeintothedressing-room,wheresheshowedmetwominiatureshangingsidebyside,andsaid:

  \"ThatistheComtedeG。,whowasverymuchinlovewithMarguerite;itwashewhobroughtherout。Doyouknowhim?\"

  \"No。Andthisone?\"Iinquired,pointingtotheotherminiature。

  \"ThatisthelittleVicomtedeL。Hewasobligedtodisappear。\"

  \"Why?\"

  \"Becausehewasallbutruined。That\'sone,ifyoulike,wholovedMarguerite。\"

  \"Andshelovedhim,too,nodoubt?\"

  \"Sheissuchaqueergirl,oneneverknows。Thenighthewentawayshewenttothetheatreasusual,andyetshehadcriedwhenhesaidgood-byetoher。\"

  JustthenNanineappeared,totellusthatsupperwasserved。

  Whenweenteredthedining-room,Margueritewasleaningagainstthewall,andGaston,holdingherhands,wasspeakingtoherinalowvoice。

  \"Youaremad,\"repliedMarguerite。\"YouknowquitewellthatI

  don\'twantyou。Itisnogoodattheendoftwoyearstomakelovetoawomanlikeme。Withus,itisatonce,ornever。Come,gentlemen,supper!\"

  And,slippingawayfromGaston,Margueritemadehimsitonherrightattable,meonherleft,thencalledtoNanine:

  \"Beforeyousitdown,telltheminthekitchennottoopentoanybodyifthereisaring。\"

  Thisorderwasgivenatoneo\'clockinthemorning。

  Welaughed,drank,andatefreelyatthissupper。Inashortwhilemirthhadreacheditslastlimit,andthewordsthatseemfunnytoacertainclassofpeople,wordsthatdegradethemouththatuttersthem,wereheardfromtimetotime,amidsttheapplauseofNanine,ofPrudence,andofMarguerite。Gastonwasthoroughlyamused;hewasaverygoodsortoffellow,butsomewhatspoiledbythehabitsofhisyouth。ForamomentItriedtoforgetmyself,toforcemyheartandmythoughtstobecomeindifferenttothesightbeforeme,andtotakemyshareofthatgaietywhichseemedlikeoneofthecoursesofthemeal。ButlittlebylittleIwithdrewfromthenoise;myglassremainedfull,andIfeltalmostsadasIsawthisbeautifulcreatureoftwentydrinking,talkinglikeaporter,andlaughingthemoreloudlythemorescandalouswasthejoke。

  Nevertheless,thishilarity,thiswayoftalkinganddrinking,whichseemedtomeintheothersthemereresultsofbadcompanyorofbadhabits,seemedinMargueriteanecessityofforgetting,afever,anervousirritability。Ateveryglassofchampagnehercheekswouldflushwithafeverishcolour,andacough,hardlyperceptibleatthebeginningofsupper,becameatlastsoviolentthatshewasobligedtoleanherheadonthebackofherchairandholdherchestinherhandseverytimethatshecoughed。I

  sufferedatthethoughtoftheinjurytosofrailaconstitutionwhichmustcomefromdailyexcesseslikethis。Atlength,somethingwhichIhadfearedandforeseenhappened。TowardtheendofsupperMargueritewasseizedbyamoreviolentfitofcoughingthananyshehadhadwhileIwasthere。Itseemedasifherchestwerebeingtornintwo。Thepoorgirlturnedcrimson,closedhereyesunderthepain,andputhernapkintoherlips。

  Itwasstainedwithadropofblood。Sheroseandranintoherdressing-room。

  \"WhatisthematterwithMarguerite?\"askedGaston。

  \"Shehasbeenlaughingtoomuch,andsheisspittingblood。Oh,itisnothing;ithappenstohereveryday。Shewillbebackinaminute。Leaveheralone。Sheprefersit。\"

  Icouldnotstaystill;and,totheconsternationofPrudenceandNanine,whocalledtometocomeback,IfollowedMarguerite。\"

  Chapter10

  Theroomtowhichshehadfledwaslitonlybyasinglecandle。

  Shelaybackonagreatsofa,herdressundone,holdingonehandonherheart,andlettingtheotherhangbyherside。Onthetablewasabasinhalffullofwater,andthewaterwasstainedwithstreaksofblood。

  Verypale,hermouthhalfopen,Margueritetriedtorecoverbreath。Nowandagainherbosomwasraisedbyalongsigh,whichseemedtorelieveheralittle,andforafewsecondsshewouldseemtobequitecomfortable。

  Iwentuptoher;shemadenomovement,andIsatdownandtookthehandwhichwaslyingonthesofa。

  \"Ah!itisyou,\"shesaid,withasmile。

  Imusthavelookedgreatlyagitated,forsheadded:

  \"Areyouunwell,too?\"

  \"No,butyou:doyoustillsuffer?\"

  \"Verylittle;\"andshewipedoffwithherhandkerchiefthetearswhichthecoughinghadbroughttohereyes;\"Iamusedtoitnow。\"

  \"Youarekillingyourself,madame,\"Isaidtoherinamovedvoice。\"IwishIwereafriend,arelationofyours,thatImightkeepyoufromdoingyourselfharmlikethis。\"

  \"Ah!itisreallynotworthyourwhiletoalarmyourself,\"sherepliedinasomewhatbittertone;\"seehowmuchnoticetheotherstakeofme!Theyknowtoowellthatthereisnothingtobedone。\"

  Thereuponshegotup,and,takingthecandle,putitonthemantel-pieceandlookedatherselfintheglass。

  \"HowpaleIam!\"shesaid,asshefastenedherdressandpassedherfingersoverherloosenedhair。\"Come,letusgobacktosupper。Areyoucoming?\"

  Isatstillanddidnotmove。

  ShesawhowdeeplyIhadbeenaffectedbythewholescene,and,cominguptome,heldoutherhand,saying:

  \"Comenow,letusgo。\"

  Itookherhand,raisedittomylips,andinspiteofmyselftwotearsfelluponit。

  \"Why,whatachildyouare!\"shesaid,sittingdownbymysideagain。\"Youarecrying!Whatisthematter?\"

  \"Imustseemverysillytoyou,butIamfrightfullytroubledbywhatIhavejustseen。\"

  \"Youareverygood!Whatwouldyouhaveofme?Icannotsleep。I

  mustamusemyselfalittle。Andthen,girlslikeme,whatdoesitmatter,onemoreorless?ThedoctorstellmethatthebloodI

  spitupcomesfrommythroat;Ipretendtobelievethem;itisallIcandoforthem。\"

  \"Listen,Marguerite,\"Isaid,unabletocontainmyselfanylonger;\"Idonotknowwhatinfluenceyouaregoingtohaveovermylife,butatthispresentmomentthereisnoone,notevenmysister,inwhomIfeeltheinterestwhichIfeelinyou。IthasbeenjustthesameeversinceIsawyou。Well,forHeaven\'ssake,takecareofyourself,anddonotliveasyouarelivingnow。\"

  \"IfItookcareofmyselfIshoulddie。AllthatsupportsmeisthefeverishlifeIlead。Then,asfortakingcareofoneself,thatisallverywellforwomenwithfamiliesandfriends;asforus,fromthemomentwecannolongerservethevanityorthepleasureofourlovers,theyleaveus,andlongnightsfollowlongdays。Iknowit。Iwasinbedfortwomonths,andafterthreeweeksnoonecametoseeme。\"

  \"ItistrueIamnothingtoyou,\"Iwenton,\"butifyouwillletme,Iwilllookafteryoulikeabrother,Iwillneverleaveyourside,andIwillcureyou。Then,whenyouarestrongagain,youcangobacktothelifeyouareleading,ifyouchoose;butIamsureyouwillcometopreferaquietlife,whichwillmakeyouhappierandkeepyourbeautyunspoiled。\"

  \"Youthinklikethatto-nightbecausethewinehasmadeyousad,butyouwouldneverhavethepatiencethatyoupretendto。\"

  \"Permitmetosay,Marguerite,thatyouwereillfortwomonths,andthatfortwomonthsIcametoaskafteryoueveryday。\"

  \"Itistrue,butwhydidyounotcomeup?\"

  \"BecauseIdidnotknowyouthen。\"

  \"Needyouhavebeensoparticularwithagirllikeme?\"

  \"Onemustalwaysbeparticularwithawoman;itiswhatIfeel,atleast。\"

  \"Soyouwouldlookafterme?\"

  \"Yes。\"

  \"Youwouldstaybymeallday?\"

  \"Yes。

  \"Andevenallnight?\"

  \"AslongasIdidnotwearyyou。\"

  \"Andwhatdoyoucallthat?\"

  \"Devotion。\"

  \"Andwhatdoesthisdevotioncomefrom?\"

  \"TheirresistiblesympathywhichIhaveforyou。\"

  \"Soyouareinlovewithme?Sayitstraightout,itismuchmoresimple。\"

  \"Itispossible;butifIamtosayittoyouoneday,itisnotto-day。\"

  \"Youwilldobetternevertosayit。\"

  \"Why?\"

  \"Becauseonlyoneoftwothingscancomeofit。\"

  \"What?\"

  \"EitherIshallnotaccept:thenyouwillhaveagrudgeagainstme;orIshallaccept:thenyouwillhaveasorrymistress;awomanwhoisnervous,ill,sad,orgaywithagaietysadderthangrief,awomanwhospitsbloodandspendsahundredthousandfrancsayear。Thatisallverywellforaricholdmanliketheduke,butitisverybadforayoungmanlikeyou,andtheproofofitisthatalltheyoungloversIhavehadhaveverysoonleftme。\"Ididnotanswer;Ilistened。Thisfrankness,whichwasalmostakindofconfession,thesadlife,ofwhichIcaughtsomeglimpsethroughthegoldenveilwhichcoveredit,andwhoserealitythepoorgirlsoughttoescapeindissipation,drink,andwakefulness,impressedmesodeeplythatIcouldnotutterasingleword。

  \"Come,\"continuedMarguerite,\"wearetalkingmerechildishness。

  Givemeyourarmandletusgobacktothedining-room。Theywon\'tknowwhatwemeanbyourabsence。\"

  \"Goin,ifyoulike,butallowmetostayhere。\"

  \"Why?\"

  \"Becauseyourmirthhurtsme。\"

  \"Well,Iwillbesad。\"

  \"Marguerite,letmesaytoyousomethingwhichyouhavenodoubtoftenheard,sooftenthatthehabitofhearingithasmadeyoubelieveitnolonger,butwhichisnonethelessreal,andwhichIwillneverrepeat。\"

  \"Andthatis……?\"shesaid,withthesmileofayoungmotherlisteningtosomefoolishnotionofherchild。

  \"Itisthis,thateversinceIhaveseenyou,Iknownotwhy,youhavetakenaplaceinmylife;that,ifIdrivethethoughtofyououtofmymind,italwayscomesback;thatwhenImetyouto-day,afternothavingseenyoufortwoyears,youmadeadeeperimpressiononmyheartandmindthanever;that,nowthatyouhaveletmecometoseeyou,nowthatIknowyou,nowthatI

  knowallthatisstrangeinyou,youhavebecomeanecessityofmylife,andyouwilldrivememad,notonlyifyouwillnotloveme,butifyouwillnotletmeloveyou。\"

  \"But,foolishcreaturethatyouare,Ishallsaytoyou,likeMme。D。,\'Youmustbeveryrich,then!\'Why,youdon\'tknowthatIspendsixorseventhousandfrancsamonth,andthatIcouldnotlivewithoutit;youdon\'tknow,mypoorfriend,thatI

  shouldruinyouinnotime,andthatyourfamilywouldcastyouoffifyouweretolivewithawomanlikeme。Letusbefriends,goodfriends,butnomore。Comeandseeme,wewilllaughandtalk,butdon\'texaggeratewhatIamworth,forIamworthverylittle。Youhaveagoodheart,youwantsomeonetoloveyou,youaretooyoungandtoosensitivetoliveinaworldlikemine。

  Takeamarriedwoman。Yousee,Ispeaktoyoufrankly,likeafriend。\"

  \"Butwhatthedevilareyoudoingthere?\"criedPrudence,whohadcomeinwithoutourbearingher,andwhonowstoodjustinsidethedoor,withherhairhalfcomingdownandherdressundone。I

  recognisedthehandofGaston。

  \"Wearetalkingsense,\"saidMarguerite;\"leaveusalone;wewillbebacksoon。\"

  \"Good,good!Talk,mychildren,\"saidPrudence,goingoutandclosingthedoorbehindher,asiftofurtherempbasizethetoneinwhichshehadsaidthesewords。

  \"Well,itisagreed,\"continuedMarguerite,whenwewerealone,\"youwon\'tfallinlovewithme?\"

  \"Iwillgoaway。\"

  \"Somuchasthat?\"

  Ihadgonetoofartodrawback;andIwasreallycarriedaway。

  Thisminglingofgaiety,sadness,candour,prostitution,herverymalady,whichnodoubtdevelopedinherasensitivenesstoimpressions,aswellasanirritabilityofnerves,allthismadeitcleartomethatiffromtheverybeginningIdidnotcompletelydominateherlightandforgetfulnature,shewaslosttome。

  \"Come,now,doyouseriouslymeanwhatyousay?\"shesaid。

  \"Seriously。\"

  \"Butwhydidn\'tyousayittomesooner?\"

  \"WhencouldIhavesaidit?\"

  \"ThedayafteryouhadbeenintroducedtomeattheOperaComique。\"

  \"IthoughtyouwouldhavereceivedmeverybadlyifIhadcometoseeyou。\"

  \"Why?\"

  \"BecauseIhadbehavedsostupidly。\"

  \"That\'strue。Andyetyouwerealreadyinlovewithme。\"

  \"Yes。\"

  \"Andthatdidn\'thinderyoufromgoingtobedandsleepingquitecomfortably。Oneknowswhatthatsortoflovemeans。\"

  \"Thereyouaremistaken。DoyouknowwhatIdidthatevening,aftertheOperaComique?\"

  \"No。\"

  \"IwaitedforyouatthedooroftheCafeAnglais。Ifollowedthecarriageinwhichyouandyourthreefriendswere,andwhenIsawyouweretheonlyonetogetdown,andthatyouwentinalone,I

  wasveryhappy。\"

  Margueritebegantolaugh。

  \"Whatareyoulaughingat?\"

  \"Nothing。\"

  \"Tellme,Ibegofyou,orIshallthinkyouarestilllaughingatme。\"

  \"Youwon\'tbecross?\"

  \"WhatrighthaveItobecross?\"

  \"Well,therewasasufficientreasonwhyIwentinalone。\"

  \"What?\"

  \"Someonewaswaitingformehere。\"

  Ifshehadthrustaknifeintomeshewouldnothavehurtmemore。Irose,andholdingoutmyhand,\"Goodbye,\"saidI。

  \"Iknewyouwouldbecross,\"shesaid;\"menarefrantictoknowwhatiscertaintogivethempain。\"

  \"ButIassureyou,\"Iaddedcoldly,asifwishingtoprovehowcompletelyIwascuredofmypassion,\"IassureyouthatIamnotcross。Itwasquitenaturalthatsomeoneshouldbewaitingforyou,justasitisquitenaturalthatIshouldgofromhereatthreeinthemorning。\"

  \"Haveyou,too,someonewaitingforyou?\"

  \"No,butImustgo。\"

  \"Good-bye,then。\"

  \"Yousendmeaway?\"

  \"Nottheleastintheworld。\"

  \"Whyareyousounkindtome?\"

  \"HowhaveIbeenunkindtoyou?\"

  \"Intellingmethatsomeonewaswaitingforyou。\"

  \"Icouldnothelplaughingattheideathatyouhadbeensohappytoseemecomeinalonewhentherewassuchagoodreasonforit。\"

  \"Onefindspleasureinchildishenoughthings,anditistoobadtodestroysuchapleasurewhen,bysimplyleavingitalone,onecanmakesomebodysohappy。\"

  \"ButwhatdoyouthinkIam?Iamneithermaidnorduchess。I

  didn\'tknowyoutillto-day,andIamnotresponsibletoyouformyactions。SupposingonedayIshouldbecomeyourmistress,youareboundtoknowthatIhavehadotherloversbesidesyou。Ifyoumakescenesofjealousylikethisbefore,whatwillitbeafter,ifthataftershouldeverexist?Inevermetanyonelikeyou。\"

  \"ThatisbecausenoonehaseverlovedyouasIloveyou。\"

  \"Frankly,then,youreallyloveme?\"

  \"Asmuchasitispossibletolove,Ithink。\"

  \"Andthathaslastedsince——?\"

  \"SincethedayIsawyougointoSusse\'s,threeyearsago。

  \"Doyouknow,thatistremendouslyfine?Well,whatamtodoinreturn?\"

  \"Lovemealittle,\"Isaid,myheartbeatingsothatIcouldhardlyspeak;for,inspiteofthehalf-mockingsmileswithwhichshehadaccompaniedthewholeconversation,itseemedtomethatMargueritebegantosharemyagitation,andthatthehoursolongawaitedwasdrawingnear。

  \"Well,buttheduke?\"

  \"Whatduke?\"

  \"Myjealousoldduke。\"

  \"Hewillknownothing。\"

  \"Andifheshould?\"

  \"Hewouldforgiveyou。\"

  \"Ah,no,hewouldleaveme,andwhatwouldbecomeofme?\"

  \"Youriskthatforsomeoneelse。\"

  \"Howdoyouknow?\"\"Bytheorderyougavenottoadmitanyoneto-night。\"\"Itistrue;butthatisaseriousfriend。\"

  \"Forwhomyoucarenothing,asyouhaveshutyourdooragainsthimatsuchanhour。\"

  \"Itisnotforyoutoreproachme,sinceitwasinordertoreceiveyou,youandyourfriend。\"

  LittlebylittleIhaddrawnnearertoMarguerite。Ihadputmyarmsaboutherwaist,andIfelthersupplebodyweighlightlyonmyclaspedhands。

  \"IfyouknewhowmuchIloveyou!\"Isaidinalowvoice。\"Reallytrue?\"

  \"Iswearit。\"

  \"Well,ifyouwillpromisetodoeverythingItellyou,withoutaword,withoutanopinion,withoutaquestion,perhapsIwillsayyes。\"

  \"Iwilldoeverythingthatyouwish!\"

  \"ButIforewarnyouImustbefreetodoasIplease,withoutgivingyoutheslightestdetailswhatIdo。Ihavelongwishedforayounglover,whoshouldbeyoungandnotself-willed,lovingwithoutdistrust,lovedwithoutclaimingtherighttoit。

  Ihaveneverfoundone。Men,insteadofbeingsatisfiedinobtainingforalongtimewhattheyscarcelyhopedtoobtainonce,exactfromtheirmistressesafullaccountofthepresent,thepast,andeventhefuture。Astheygetaccustomedtoher,theywanttoruleher,andthemoreonegivesthemthemoreexactingtheybecome。IfIdecidenowontakinganewlover,hemusthavethreeveryrarequalities:hemustbeconfiding,submissive,anddiscreet。\"

  \"Well,Iwillbeallthatyouwish。\"

  \"Weshallsee。\"

  \"Whenshallwesee?\"

  \"Lateron。\"

  \"Why?\"

  \"Because,\"saidMarguerite,releasingherselffrommyarms,and,takingfromagreatbunchofredcamelliasasinglecamellia,sheplaceditinmybuttonhole,\"becauseonecannotalwayscarryoutagreementsthedaytheyaresigned。\"

  \"AndwhenshallIseeyouagain?\"Isaid,claspingherinmyarms。

  \"Whenthiscamelliachangescolour。\"

  \"Whenwillitchangecolour?\"

  \"To-morrownightbetweenelevenandtwelve。Areyousatisfied?\"

  \"Needyouaskme?\"

  \"NotawordofthiseithertoyourfriendortoPrudence,ortoanybodywhatever。\"

  \"Ipromise。\"

  \"Now,kissme,andwewillgobacktothedining-room。\"

  Sheheldupherlipstome,smoothedherhairagain,andwewentoutoftheroom,shesinging,andIalmostbesidemyself。

  Inthenextroomshestoppedforamomentandsaidtomeinalowvoice:

  \"ItmustseemstrangetoyouthatIamreadytotakeyouatamoment\'snotice。ShallItellyouwhy?Itis,\"shecontinued,takingmyhandandplacingitagainstherheartsothatIcouldfeelhowrapidlyandviolentlyitpalpitated;\"itisbecauseI

  shallnotliveaslongasothers,andIhavepromisedmyselftolivemorequickly。\"

  \"Don\'tspeaktomelikethat,Ientreatyou。\"

  \"Oh,makeyourselfeasy,\"shecontinued,laughing;\"howevershortatimeIhavetolive,Ishalllivelongerthanyouwillloveme!\"

  Andshewentsingingintothedining-room。

  \"WhereisNanine?\"shesaid,seeingGastonandPrudencealone。

  \"Sheisasleepinyourroom,waitingtillyouarereadytogotobed,\"repliedPrudence。

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