IfFlorencecouldhavestoodwithintheroomandlookedupontheoriginaloftheshadowthrownuponthewallandroof,asitcoweredthusoverthefire,aglancemighthavesufficedtorecallthefigureofGoodMrs。Brown;notwithstandingthatherchildishrecollectionofthatterribleoldwomanwasasgrotesqueandexaggeratedapresentmentofthetruth,perhaps,astheshadowonthewall。ButFlorencewasnottheretolookon;andGoodMrs。Brownremainedunrecognised,andsatstaringatherfire,unobserved。
Attractedbyaloudersputteringthanusual,astheraincamehissingdownthechimneyinalittlestream,theoldwomanraisedherhead,impatiently,tolistenafresh。Andthistimeshedidnotdropitagain;
fortherewasahanduponthedoor,andafootstepintheroom。
`Who\'sthat?\'shesaid,lookingoverhershoulder。
`Onewhobringsyounews,\'wastheanswer,inawoman\'svoice。
`News?Wherefrom?\'
`Fromabroad。\'
`Frombeyondseas?\'criedtheoldwoman,startingup。
`Aye,frombeyondseas。\'
Theoldwomanrakedthefiretogether,hurriedly,andgoingclosetohervisitorwhohadentered,andshutthedoor,andwhonowstoodinthemiddleoftheroom,putherhanduponthedrenchedcloak,andturnedtheunresistingfigure,soastohaveitinthefulllightofthefire。
Shedidnotfindwhatshehadexpected,whateverthatmightbe;forsheletthecloakgoagain,andutteredaquerulouscryofdisappointmentandmisery。
`Whatisthematter?\'askedhervisitor。
`Oho!Oho!\'criedoldwoman,turningherfaceupward,withaterriblehowl。
`Whatisthematter?\'askedthevisitoragain。
`It\'snotmygal!\'criedtheoldwoman,tossingupherarms,andclaspingherhandsaboveherhead。`Where\'smyAlice?Where\'smyhandsomedaughter?They\'vebeenthedeathofher!\'
`They\'venotbeenthedeathofheryet,ifyourname\'sMarwood,\'saidthevisitor。
`Haveyouseenmygal,then?\'criedtheoldwoman。`Hasshewrotetome?\'
`Shesaidyoucouldn\'tread,\'returnedtheother。
`NomoreIcan!\'exclaimedtheoldwoman,wringingherhands。
`Haveyounolighthere?\'saidtheother,lookingroundtheroom。
Theoldwoman,mumblingandshakingherhead,andmutteringtoherselfaboutherhandsomedaughter,broughtacandlefromacupboardinthecorner,andthrustingitintothefirewithatremblinghand,lighteditwithsomedifficultyandsetitonthetable。Itsdirtywickburntdimlyatfirst,beingchokedinitsowngrease;andwhentheblearedeyesandfailingsightoftheoldwomancoulddistinguishanythingbyitslight,hervisitorwassittingwithherarmsfolded,hereyesturneddownwards,andahandkerchiefshehadwornuponherheadlyingonthetablebyherside。
`Shesenttomebywordofmouththen,mygal,Alice?\'mumbledtheoldwoman,afterwaitingforsomemoments。`Whatdidshesay?\'
`Look,\'returnedthevisitor。
Theoldwomanrepeatedthewordinascareduncertainway;and,shadinghereyes,lookedatthespeaker,roundtheroom,andatthespeakeronceagain。
`Alicesaidlookagain,mother;\'andthespeakerfixedhereyesuponher。
Againtheoldwomanlookedroundtheroom,andathervisitor,androundtheroomoncemore。Hastilyseizingthecandle,andrisingfromherseat,sheheldittothevisitor\'sface,utteredaloudcry,setdownthelight,andfelluponherneck!
`It\'smygal!It\'smyAlice!It\'smyhandsomedaughter,livingancomeback!\'screamedtheoldwoman,rockingherselftoandfrouponthebreastthatcoldlysufferedherembrace。`It\'smygal!It\'smyAlice!
It\'smyhandsomedaughter,livingandcomeback!\'shescreamedagain,droppingonthefloorbeforeher,claspingherknees,layingherheadagainstthem,andstillrockingherselftoandfrowitheveryfranticdemonstrationofwhichhervitalitywascapable。
`Yes,mother,\'returnedAlice,stoopingforwardforamomentandkissingher,butendeavouring,evenintheact,todisengageherselffromherembrace。`Iamhere,atlast。Letgo,mother;letgo。Getup,andsitinyourchair。Whatgooddoesthisdo?\'
`She\'scomebackharderthanshewent!\'criedthemother,lookingupinherface,andstillholdingtoherknees。`Shedon\'tcareforme!
afteralltheseyears,andallthewretchedlifeI\'veled!\'
`Why,mother!\'saidAlice,shakingherraggedskirtstodetachtheoldwomanfromthem:`therearetwosidestothat。Therehavebeenyearsformeaswellasyou,andtherehasbeenwretchednessformeaswellasyou。Getup,getup!\'
Hermotherrose,andcried,andwrungherhands,andstoodatalittledistancegazingonher。Thenshetookthecandleagain,andgoingroundher,surveyedherfromheadtofoot,makingalowmoaningallthetime。Thensheputthecandledown,resumedherchair,andbeatingherhandstogethertoakindofwearytune,androllingherselffromsidetoside,continuedmoaningandwailingtoherself。
Alicegotup,tookoffherwetcloak,andlaiditaside。Thatdone,shesatdownasbefore,andwithherarmsfolded,andhereyesgazingatthefire,remainedsilentlylisteningwithacontemptuousfacetoheroldmother\'sinarticulatecomplainings。
`DidyouexpecttoseemereturnasyouthfulasIwentaway,mother?\'
shesaidatlength,turninghereyesupontheoldwoman。`Didyouthinkaforeignlife,likemine,wasgoodforgoodlooks?Onewouldbelieveso,tohearyou!\'
`Itan\'tthat!\'criedthemother。`Sheknowsit!\'
`Whatisitthen?\'returnedthedaughter。`Ithadbestbesomethingthatdon\'tlast,mother,ormywayoutiseasierthanmywayin。\'
`Hearthat!\'exclaimedthemother。`Afteralltheseyearsshethreatenstodesertmeinthemomentofhercomingbackagain!\'
`Itellyou,mother,forthesecondtime,therehavebeenyearsformeaswellasyou,\'saidAlice。`Comebackharder?OfcourseIhavecomebackharder。Whatelsedidyouexpect?\'
`Hardertome!Toherowndearmother!\'criedtheoldwoman。
`Idon\'tknowwhobegantohardenme,ifmyowndearmotherdidn\'t,\'
shereturned,sittingwithherfoldedarms,andknittedbrows,andcompressedlipsasifshewerebentonexcluding,byforce,everysofterfeelingfromherbreast。`Listen,mother,toawordortwo。Ifweunderstandeachothernow,weshallnotfalloutanymore,perhaps。Iwentawayagirl,andhavecomebackawoman。Iwentawayundutifulenough,andhavecomebacknotbetter,youmayswear。Buthaveyoubeenverydutifultome?\'
`I!\'criedoldwoman。`Tomygal!Amotherdutifultoherownchild!\'
`Itsoundsunnatural,don\'tit?\'returnedthedaughter,lookingcoldlyonherwithherstern,regardless,hardy,beautifulface;`butI
havethoughtofitsometimes,inthecourseofmyloneyears,tillIhavegotusedtoit。Ihaveheardsometalkaboutdutyfirstandlast;
butithasalwaysbeenofmydutytootherpeople。Ihavewonderednowandthen——topassawaythetime——whethernooneeverowedanydutytome。\'
Hermothersatmowing,andmumbling,andshakingherhead,butwhetherangrilyorremorsefully,orindenial,oronlyinherphysicalinfirmity,didnotappear。
`TherewasachildcalledAliceMarwood,\'saidthedaughter,withalaugh,andlookingdownatherselfinterriblederisionofherself,`born,amongpovertyandneglect,andnursedinit。Nobodytaughther,nobodysteppedforwardtohelpher,nobodycaredforher。\'
`Nobody!\'echoedthemother,pointingtoherself,andstrikingherbreast。
`Theonlycaresheknew,\'returnedthedaughter,`wastobebeaten,andstinted,andabusedsometimes;andshemighthavedonebetterwithoutthat。Shelivedinhomeslikethis,andinthestreets,withacrowdoflittlewretcheslikeherself;andyetshebroughtgoodlooksoutofthischildhood。Somuchtheworseforher。Shehadbetterhavebeenhuntedandworriedtodeathforugliness。\'
`Goon!goon!\'exclaimedthemother。
`Iamgoingon,\'returnedthedaughter。`TherewasagirlcalledAliceMarwood。Shewashandsome。Shewastaughttoolate,andtaughtallwrong。Shewastoowellcaredfor,toowelltrained,toowellhelpedon,toomuchlookedafter。Youwereveryfondofher——youwerebetteroffthen。
Whatcametothatgirlcomestothousandseveryyear。Itwasonlyruin,andshewasborntoit。\'
`Afteralltheseyears!\'whinedtheoldwoman。`Mygalbeginswiththis。\'
`She\'llsoonhaveended,\'saidthedaughter。`TherewasacriminalcalledAliceMarwood——agirlstill,butdesertedandanoutcast。Andshewastried,andshewassentenced。Andlord,howthegentlemenintheCourttalkedaboutit!andhowgravethejudgewasonherduty,andonherhavingpervertedthegiftsofnature——asifhedidn\'tknowbetterthananybodythere,thattheyhadbeenmadecursestoher!——andhowhepreachedaboutthestrongarmoftheLaw——soverystrongtosaveher,whenshewasaninnocentandhelplesslittlewretch;andhowsolemnandreligiousitallwas。Ihavethoughtofthat,manytimessince,tobesure!\'
Shefoldedherarmstightlyonherbreast,andlaughedinatonethatmadethehowloftheoldwomanmusical。
`SoAliceMarwoodwastransported,mother,\'shepursued,`andwassenttolearnherduty,wheretherewastwentytimeslessduty,andmorewickedness,andwrong,andinfamy,thanhere。AndAliceMarwoodiscomebackawoman。Suchawomanassheoughttobe,afterallthis。Ingoodtime,therewillbemoresolemnity,andmorefinetalk,andmorestrongarm,mostlikely,andtherewillbeanendofher;butthegentlemenneedn\'tbeafraidofbeingthrownoutofwork。There\'scrowdsoflittlewretches,boyandgirl,growingupinanyofthestreetstheylivein,that\'llkeepthemtotillthey\'vemadetheirfortunes。\'
Theoldwomanleanedherelbowsonthetable,andrestingherfaceuponhertwohands,madeashowofbeingingreatdistress——orreallywas,perhaps。
`There!Ihavedone,mother,\'saidthedaughter,withamotionofherhead,asifindismissalofthesubject。`Ihavesaidenough。Don\'tletyouandItalkofbeingdutiful,whateverwedo。Yourchildhoodwaslikemine,Isuppose。Somuchtheworseforbothofus。Idon\'twanttoblameyou,ortodefendmyself;whyshouldI?That\'salloverlongago。
ButIamawoman——notagirl,now——andyouandIneedn\'tmakeashowofourhistory,likethegentlemenintheCourt。Weknowallaboutitwellenough。\'
Lostanddegradedasshewas,therewasabeautyinher,bothoffaceandform,which,eveninitsworstexpression,couldnotbutberecognisedassuchbyanyoneregardingherwiththeleastattention。Asshesubsidedintosilence,andherfacewhichhadbeenharshlyagitated,quieteddown;whileherdarkeyes,fixeduponthefire,exchangedtherecklesslightthathadanimatedthem,foronethatwassoftenedbysomethinglikesorrow;thereshonethroughallherwaywornmiseryandfatigue,arayofthedepartedradianceofthefallenangel。
Hermother,afterwatchingherforsometimewithoutspeaking,venturedtostealherwitheredhandalittlenearertoheracrossthetable;
andfindingthatshepermittedthis,totouchherfaceandsmoothherhair。
Withthefeelingasitseemed,thattheoldwomanwasatleastsincereinthisshowofinterest,Alicemadenomovementtocheckher;so,advancingbydegrees,sheboundupherdaughter\'shairafresh,tookoffherwetshoes,iftheydeservedthename,spreadsomethingdryuponhershoulders,andhoveredhumblyabouther,mutteringtoherself,assherecognisedheroldfeaturesandexpressionmoreandmore。
`Youareverypoor,mother,Isee,\'saidAlice,lookinground,whenshehadsatthusforsometime。
`Bitterpoor,mydeary,\'repliedtheoldwoman。
Sheadmiredherdaughter,andwasafraidofher。Perhapsheradmiration,suchasitwas,hadoriginatedlongago,whenshefirstfoundanythingthatwasbeautifulappearinginthemidstofthesqualidfightofherexistence。
Perhapsherfearwasreferable,insomesort,totheretrospectshehadsolatelyheard。Bethisasitmight,shestood,submissivelyanddeferentially,beforeherchild,andinclinedherhead,asifinapitifulentreatytobesparedanyfurtherreproach。
`Howhaveyoulived?\'
`Bybegging,mydeary。\'
`Andpilfering,mother?\'
`Sometimes,Ally——inaverysmallway。Iamoldandtimid。Ihavetakentriflesfromchildrennowandthen,mydeary,butnotoften。Ihavetrampedaboutthecountry,pet,andIknowwhatIknow。Ihavewatched。\'
`Watched?\'returnedthedaughter,lookingather。
`Ihavehungaboutafamily,mydeary,\'saidthemother,evenmorehumblyandsubmissivelythanbefore。
`Whatfamily?\'
`Hush,darling,Don\'tbeangrywithme,Ididitfortheloveofyou。Inmemoryofmypoorgalbeyondseas。\'Sheputoutherhanddeprecatingly,anddrawingitbackagain,laiditonherlips。
`Yearsago,mydeary,\'shepursued,glancingtimidlyattheattentiveandsternfaceopposedtoher。`Icameacrosshislittlechild,bychance。\'
`Whosechild?\'
`Nothis,Alicedeary;don\'tlookatmelikethat;nothis。Howcoulditbehis?Youknowhehasnone。\'
`Whosethen?\'returnedthedaughter。`Yousaidhis。\'
`Hush,Ally;youfrightenme,deary。Mr。Dombey\'s——onlyMr。Dombey\'s。
Sincethen,darling,Ihaveseenthemoften。Ihaveseenhim。\'
Inutteringhislastword,theoldwomanshrunkandrecoiled,asifwithasuddenfearthatherdaughterwouldstrikeher。Butthoughthedaughter\'sfacewasfixeduponher,andexpressedthemostvehementpassion,sheremainedstill:exceptthatsheclenchedherarmstighterandtighterwithineachother,onherbosom,asiftorestrainthembythatmeansfromdoinganinjurytoherself,orsomeoneelse,intheblindfuryofthewraththatsuddenlypossessedher。
`LittlehethoughtwhoIwas!\'saidtheoldwoman,shakingherclenchedhand。
`Andlittlehecared!\'mutteredherdaughter,betweenherteeth。
`Buttherewewere,\'saidtheoldwoman,`facetoface。Ispoketohim,andhespoketome。Isatandwatchedhimashewentawaydownalonggroveoftrees:andateverystephetook,Icursedhimsoulandbody。\'
`Hewillthriveinspiteofthat,\'returnedthedaughterdisdainfully。
`Aye,heisthriving,\'saidthemother。
Sheheldherpeace;forthefaceandformbeforeherwereunshapedbyrange。Itseemedasifthebosomwouldburstwiththeemotionsthatstrovewithinit。Theeffortthatconstrainedandhelditpentup,wasnolessformidablethantherageitself:nolessbespeakingtheviolentanddangerouscharacterofthewomanwhomadeit。Butitsucceeded,andsheasked,afterasilence:
`Ishemarried?\'
`No,deary,\'saidthemother。
`Goingtobe?\'
`NotthatIknowof,deary。Buthismasterandfriendismarried。
Oh,wemaygivehimjoy!Wemaygive\'emalljoy!\'criedtheoldwoman,huggingherselfwithherleanarmsinherexultation。`Nothingbutjoytouswillcomeofthatmarriage。Mindme!\'
Thedaughterlookedatherforanexplanation。
`Butyouarewetandtired:hungryandthirsty,\'saidtheoldwoman,hobblingtothecupboard;`andthere\'slittlehere,andlittle\'——divingdownintoherpocket,andjinglingafewhalf-penceonthetable——`littlehere。Haveyouanymoney,Alice,deary?\'
Thecovetous,sharp,eagerfacewithwhichsheaskedthequestionandlookedon,asherdaughtertookoutofherbosomthelittlegiftshehadsolatelyreceived,toldalmostasmuchofthehistoryofthisparentandchildasthechildherselfhadtoldinwords。
`Isthatall?\'saidthemother。
`Ihavenomore。Ishouldnothavethis,butforcharity。\'
`Butforcharity,eh,deary?\'saidtheoldwoman,bendinggreedilyoverthetabletolookatthemoney,whichsheappeareddistrustfulofherdaughter\'sstillretaininginherhand,andgazingon。`Humph!sixandsixistwelve,andsixeighteen——so——wemusttakethemostofit。I\'llgobuysomethingtoeatanddrink。\'
Withgreateralacritythanmighthavebeenexpectedinoneofherappearance——forageandmiseryseemedtohavemadeherasdecrepitasugly——shebegantooccupyhertremblinghandsintyinganoldbonnetonherhead,andfoldingatornshawlaboutherself:stilleyeingthemoneyinherdaughter\'shand,withthesamesharpdesire。
`Whatjoyistocometousofthismarriage,mother?\'askedthedaughter。`Youhavenottoldmethat。\'
`Thejoy,\'shereplied,attiringherself,withfumblingfingers,`ofnoloveatall,andmuchprideandhate,mydeary。Thejoyofconfusionandstrifeamong\'em,proudastheyare,andofdaughter-danger,Alice!\'
`Whatdanger?\'
`IhaveseenwhatIhaveseen。IknowwhatIknow!\'
chuckledthemother。`Letsomelooktoit。Letsomebeupontheirguard。
Mygalmaykeepgoodcompanyyet!\'
Then,seeingthatinthewonderingearnestnesswithwhichherdaughterregardedher,herhandinvoluntarilycloseduponthemoney,theoldwomanmademorespeedtosecureit,andhurriedlyadded,`butI\'llgobuysomething;I\'llgobuysomething。\'
Asshestoodwithherhandstretchedoutbeforeherdaughter,herdaughter,glancingagainatthemoney,putittoherlipsbeforepartingwithit。
`What,Ally!Doyoukissit?\'chuckledtheoldwoman。`That\'slikeme——I
oftendo,Oh,it\'ssogoodtous!\'squeezingherowntarnishedhalfpenceuptoherbagofathroat,`sogoodtousineverythingbutnotcominginheaps!\'
`Ikissit,mother,\'saidthedaughter,`orIdidthen——Idon\'tknowthatIeverdidbefore——forthegiver\'ssake。\'
`Thegiver,eh,deary?\'retortedtheoldwoman,whosedimmedeyesglistenedasshetookit。`Aye!I\'llkissitforthegiver\'ssake,too,whenthegivercanmakeitgofarther。ButI\'llgospendit,deary。I\'llbebackdirectly。\'
`Youseemtosayyouknowagreatdeal,mother,\'saidthedaughter,followinghertothedoorwithhereyes。`Youhavegrownverywisesinceweparted。\'
`Know!\'croakedtheoldwoman,comingbackasteportwo,`Iknowmorethanyouthink。Iknowmorethanhethinks,deary,asI\'lltellyoubyandbye。Iknowallabouthim。\'
Thedaughtersmiledincredulously。
`Iknowofhisbrother,Alice,\'saidtheoldwoman,stretchingoutherneckwithaleerofmaliceabsolutelyfrightful,`whomighthavebeenwhereyouhavebeen——forstealingmoney——andwholiveswithhissister,overyonder,bythenorthroadoutofLondon。\'
`Where?\'
`BythenorthroadoutofLondon,deary。Youshallseethehouseifyoulike。Itan\'tmuchtoboastof,genteelashisownis。No,no,no,\'
criedtheoldwoman,shakingherheadandlaughing;forherdaughterhadstartedup,`notnow;it\'stoofaroff;it\'sbythemilestone,wherethestonesareheaped;——to-morrow,deary,ifit\'sfine,andyouareinthehumour。ButI\'llgospend——\'
`Stop!\'andthedaughterflungherselfuponher,withherformerpassionraginglikeafire。`Thesisterisafair-facedDevil,withbrownhair?\'
Theoldwoman,amazedandterrified,noddedherhead。
`Iseetheshadowofhiminherface!It\'saredhousestandingbyitself。Beforethedoorthereisasmallgreenporch。\'
Againtheoldwomannodded。
`InwhichIsatto-day!Givemebackthemoney。\'
`Alice!Deary!\'
`Givemebackthemoney,oryou\'llbehurt。\'
Sheforceditfromtheoldwoman\'shandasshespoke,andutterlyindifferenttohercomplainingsandentreaties,threwonthegarmentsshehadtakenof,andhurriedout,withheadlongspeed。
Themotherfollowed,limpingafterherasshecould,andexpostulatingwithnomoreeffectuponherthanuponthewindandrainanddarknessthatencompassedthem。Obdurateandfierceinherownpurpose,andindifferenttoallbesides,thedaughterdefiedtheweatherandthedistance,asifshehadknownnotravelorfatigue,andmadeforthehousewhereshehadbeenrelieved。Aftersomequarterofanhour\'swalking,theoldwoman,spentandoutofbreath,venturedtoholdbyherskirts;butsheventurednomore,andtheytravelledoninsilencethroughthewetandgloom。Ifthemothernowandthenutteredawordofcomplaint,shestifleditlestherdaughtershouldbreakawayfromherandleaveherbehind;andthedaughterwasdumb。
Itwaswithinanhourorsoofmidnight,whentheylefttheregularstreetsbehindthem,andenteredonthedeepergloomofthatneutralgroundwherethehousewassituated。Thetownlayinthedistance,luridandlowering;
thebleakwindhowledovertheopenspace;allaroundwasblack,wild,desolate。
`Thisisafitplaceforme!\'saidthedaughter,stoppingtolookback。`Ithoughtso,whenIwasherebefore,to-day。\'
`Alice,mydeary,\'criedthemother,pullinghergentlybytheskirt。`Alice!\'
`Whatnow,mother?\'
`Don\'tgivethemoneyback,mydarling;pleasedon\'t。Wecan\'taffordit。Wewantsupper,deary。Moneyismoney,whoevergivesit。Saywhatyouwill,butkeepthemoney。\'
`Seethere!\'wasallthedaughter\'sanswer。`ThatisthehouseImean。Isthatit?\'
Theoldwomannoddedintheaffirmative;andafewmorepacesbroughtthemtothethreshold。TherewasthelightoffireandcandleintheroomwhereAlicehadsattodryherclothes;andonherknockingatthedoor,JohnCarkerappearedfromthatroom。
Hewassurprisedtoseesuchvisitorsatsuchanhour,andaskedAlicewhatshewanted。
`Iwantyoursister,\'shesaid。`Thewomanwhogavememoneyto-day。\'
Atthesoundofherraisedvoice,Harrietcameout。
`Oh!\'saidAlice。`Youarehere!Doyourememberme?\'
`Yes,\'sheanswered,wondering。
Thefacethathadhumbleditselfbeforeher,lookedonhernowwithsuchinvinciblehatredanddefiance;andthehandthathadgentlytouchedherarm,wasclenchedwithsuchashowofevilpurpose,asifitwouldgladlystrangleher;thatshedrewclosetoherbrotherforprotection。
`ThatIcouldspeakwithyou,andnotknowyou!ThatIcouldcomenearyou,andnotfeelwhatbloodwasrunninginyourveins,bythetinglingofmyown!\'saidAlice,withamenacinggesture。
`Whatdoyoumean?WhathaveIdone?\'
`Done!\'returnedtheother。`Youhavesatmebyyourfire;youhavegivenmefoodandmoney;youhavebestowedyourcompassiononme!
You!whosenameIspitupon!\'
Theoldwoman,withamalevolencethatmadeheruglinessquiteawful,shookherwitheredhandatthebrotherandsisterinconfirmationofherdaughter,butpluckedherbytheskirtsagain,nevertheless,imploringhertokeepthemoney。
`IfIdroppedatearuponyourhand,mayitwitheritup!IfIspokeagentlewordinyourhearing,mayitdeafenyou!IfItouchedyouwithmylips,maythetouchbepoisontoyou!Acurseuponthisroofthatgavemeshelter!Sorrowandshameuponyourhead!Ruinuponallbelongingtoyou!\'
Asshesaidthewords,shethrewthemoneydownupontheground,andspurneditwithherfoot。
`Itreaditinthedust:Iwouldn\'ttakeitifitpavedmywaytoHeaven!Iwouldthebleedingfootthatbroughtmehereto-day,hadrottedoff,beforeitledmetoyourhouse!\'
Harriet,paleandtrembling,restrainedherbrother,andsufferedhertogoonuninterrupted。
`ItwaswellthatIshouldbepitiedandforgivenbyyou,oranyoneofyourname,inthefirsthourofmyreturn!Itwaswellthatyoushouldactthekindgoodladytome!I\'llthankyouwhenIdie;I\'llprayforyou,andallyourrace,youmaybesure!\'
Withafierceactionofherhand,asifshesprinkledhatredontheground,andwithitdevotedthosewhowerestandingtheretodestruction,shelookeduponceattheblacksky,andstrodeoutintothewildnight。
Themother,whohadpluckedatherskirtsagainandagaininvain,andhadeyedthemoneylyingonthethresholdwithanabsorbinggreedthatseemedtoconcentrateherfacultiesuponit,wouldhaveprowledabout,untilthehousewasdark,andthengropedinthemireonthechanceofrepossessingherselfofit。Butthedaughterdrewheraway,andtheysetforth,straight,ontheirreturntotheirdwelling;theoldwomanwhimperingandbemoaningtheirlossupontheroad,arefretfullybewailing,asopenlyasshedared,theundutifulconductofherhandsomegirlindeprivingherofasupper,ontheveryfirstnightoftheirreunion。
Supperlesstobedshewent,savingforafewcoarsefragments;
andthoseshesatmumblingandmunchingoverascrapoffire,longafterherundutifuldaughterlayasleep。
Werethismiserablemother,andthismiserabledaughter,onlythereductiontotheirlowestgrade,ofcertainsocialvicessometimesprevailinghigherup?Inthisroundworldofmanycircleswithincircles,dowemakeawearyjourneyfromthehighgradetothelow,tofindatlastthattheylieclosetogether,thatthetwoextremestouch,andthatourjourney\'sendisbutourstarting-place?Allowingforgreatdifferenceofstuffandtexture,wasthepatternofthiswoofrepeatedamonggentlebloodatall?
Say,EdithDombey!AndCleopatra,bestofmothers,letushaveyourtestimony!
[NextChapter][TableofContents]DICKENS:DombeyandSon,Chapter35[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]CHAPTERXXXVTheHappyPairTHEdarkblotonthestreetisgone。Mr。Dombey\'smansion,ifitbeagapamongtheotherhousesanylonger,isonlysobecauseitisnottobeviedwithinitsbrightness,andhaughtilycaststhemoff。Thesayingis,thathomeishome,beitneversohomely。Ifitholdgoodintheoppositecontingency,andhomeishomebeitneversostately,whatanaltartotheHouseholdGodsisraiseduphere!
Lightsaresparklinginthewindowsthisevening,andtheruddyglowoffiresiswarmandbrightuponthehangingsandsoftcarpets,andthedinnerwaitstobeserved,andthedinnertableishandsomelysetforth,thoughonlyforfourpersons,andthesideboardiscumbrouswithplate。
Itisthefirsttimethatthehousehasbeenarrangedforoccupationsinceitslatechanges,andthehappypairarelookedforeveryminute。
Onlysecondtotheweddingmorning,intheinterestandexpectationitengendersamongthehousehold,isthiseveningofthecominghome。Mrs。
Perchisinthekitchentakingtea;andhasmadethetouroftheestablishment,andpricedthesilksanddamasksbytheyard,andexhaustedeveryinterjectioninthedictionaryandoutofitexpressiveofadmirationandwonder。Theupholsterer\'sforeman,whohaslefthishat,withapocket-handkerchiefinit,bothsmellingstronglyofvarnish,underachairinthehall,lurksaboutthehouse,gazingupwardsatthecornices,anddownwardatthecarpets,andoccasionally,inasilenttransportofenjoyment,takingaruleoutofhispocket,andskirmishinglymeasuringexpensiveobjects,withunutterablefeelings。Cookisinhighspirits,andsaysgiveheraplacewherethere\'splentyofcompanyasshe\'llbetyousixpencetherewillbenow,forsheisofalivelydisposition,andshealwayswasfromachild,andshedon\'tmindwhoknowsit;whichsentimentelicitsfromthebreastofMrs。Percharesponsivemurmurofsupportandapprobation。Allthehousemaidhopesis,happinessfor\'em——butmarriageisalottery,andthemoreshethinksaboutit,themoreshefeelstheindependenceandthesafetyofasinglelife。Mr。Towlinsonissaturnineandgrim,andsaysthat\'shisopiniontoo,andgivehimWarbesides,anddownwiththeFrench——forthisyoungmanhasageneralimpressionthateveryforeignerisaFrenchmanandmustbebythelawsofnature。
Ateachnewsoundofwheels,theyallstop,whatevertheyaresaying,andlisten;andmorethanoncethereisageneralstartingupandacryof`Heretheyare!\'Butheretheyarenotyet;andCookbeginstomournoverthedinner,whichhasbeenputbacktwice,andtheupholsterer\'sforemanstillgoeslurkingabouttherooms,undisturbedinhisblissfulreverie!
Florenceisreadytoreceiveherfatherandhernewmama。Whethertheemotionsthatarethrobbinginherbreastoriginateinpleasureorinpain,shehardlyknows。Buttheflutteringheartsendsaddedcolourtohercheeks,andbrightnesstohereyes;andtheysaydownstairs,drawingtheirheadstogether——fortheyalwaysspeaksoftlywhentheyspeakofher——howbeautifulMissFlorencelooksto-night,andwhatasweetyoungladyshehasgrown,poordear!Apausesucceeds;andthenCook,feeling,aspresident,thathersentimentsarewaitedfor,wonderswhether——andtherestops。Thehousemaidwonderstoo,andsodoesMrs。Perch,whohasthehappysocialfacultyofalwayswonderingwhenotherpeoplewonder,withoutbeingatallparticularwhatshewondersat。Mr。Towlinson,whonowdescriesanopportunityofbringingdownthespiritsoftheladiestohisownlevel,sayswaitandsee;hewishessomepeoplewerewelloutofthis。Cookleadsasighthen,andamurmurof`Ah,it\'sastrangeworld,itisindeed!\'
andwhenithasgoneroundthetable,addspersuasively,`butMissFlorencecan\'twellbetheworseforanychange,Tom。\'Mr。Towlinson\'srejoinder,pregnantwithfrightfulmeaning,is`Oh,can\'tshethough!\'andsensiblethatameremancanscarcelybemoreprophetic,orimproveuponthat,heholdshispeace。
Mrs。Skewton,preparedtogreetherdarlingdaughteranddearson-in-lawwithopenarms,isappropriatelyattiredforthatpurposeinaveryyouthfulcostume,withshortsleeves。Atpresent,however,herripecharmsarebloomingintheshadeofherownapartments,whenceshehasnotemergedsinceshetookpossessionofthemafewhoursago,andwheresheisfastgrowingfretful,onaccountofthepostponementofdinner。
Themaidwhooughttobeaskeleton,butisintruthabuxomdamsel,is,ontheotherhand,inamostamiablestate:consideringherquarterlystipendmuchsaferthanheretofore,andforeseeingagreatimprovementinherboardandlodging。
Wherearethehappypair,forwhomthisbravehomeiswaiting?
Dosteam,tide,wind,andhorses,allabatetheirspeed,tolingeronsuchhappiness?Doestheswarmoflovesandgraceshoveringaboutthemretardtheirprogressbyitsnumbers?Aretheresomanyflowersintheirhappypath,thattheycanscarcelymovealong,withoutentanglementinthornlessroses,andsweetestbriar?
Theyarehereatlast!Thenoiseofwheelsisheard,growslouder,andacarriagedrivesuptothedoor!AthunderingknockfromtheobnoxiousforeigneranticipatestherushofMr。Towlinsonandpartytoopenit;andMr。Dombeyandhisbridealight,andwalkinarminarm。
`MysweetestEdith!\'criesanagitatedvoiceuponthestairs。
`MydearestDombey!\'andtheshortsleeveswreaththemselvesaboutthehappycoupleinturn,andembracethem。
Florencehadcomedowntothehalltoo,butdidnotadvance:reservinghertimidwelcomeuntiltheseneareranddearertransportsshouldsubside。
ButtheeyesofEdithsoughtherout,uponthethreshold;anddismissinghersensitiveparentwithaslightkissonthecheek,shehurriedontoFlorenceandembracedher。
`Howdoyoudo,Florence?\'saidMr。Dombey,puttingouthishand。
AsFlorence,trembling,raisedittoherlips,shemethisglance。
Thelookwascoldanddistantenough,butitstirredherhearttothinkthatsheobservedinitsomethingmoreofinterestthanhehadevershownbefore。Itevenexpressedakindoffaintsurprise,andnotadisagreeablesurprise,atsightofher。Shedarednotraisehereyestohisanymore;
butshefeltthathelookedatheronceagain,andhotlessfavourably。
Ohwhatathrillofjoyshotthroughher,awakenedbyeventhisintangibleandbaselessconfirmationofherhopethatshewouldlearntowinhim,throughhernewandbeautifulmama!
`Youwillnotbelongdressing,Mrs。Dombey,Ipresume?\'saidMr。Dombey。
`Ishallbereadyimmediately。\'
`Letthemsendupdinnerinaquarterofanhour。\'
WiththatMr。Dombeystalkedawaytohisowndressingroom,andMrs。Dombeywentupstairstohers。Mrs。SkewtonandFlorencerepairedtothedrawing-room,wherethatexcellentmotherconsidereditincumbentonhertoshedafewirrepressibletears,supposedtobeforcedfromherbyherdaughter\'sfelicity;andwhichshewasstilldrying,verygingerly,withalacedcornerofherpocket-handkerchief,whenherson-in-lawappeared。
`Andhow,mydearestDombey,didyoufindthatdelightfullestofcities,Paris?\'sheasked,subduingheremotion。
`Itwascold,\'returnedMr。Dombey。
`Gayasever,\'saidMrs。Skewton,`ofcourse。\'
`Notparticularly。Ithoughtitdull,\'saidMr。Dombey。
`Fie,mydearestDombey!\'archly;`dull!\'
`Itmadethatimpressionuponme,madam,\'saidMr。Dombey,withgravepoliteness。`IbelieveMrs。Dombeyfounditdulltoo。Shementionedonceortwicethatshethoughtitso。\'
`Why,younaughtygirl!\'criedMrs。Skewton,rallyingherdearchild,whonowentered,`whatdreadfullyhereticalthingshaveyoubeensayingaboutParis?\'
Edithraisedhereyebrowswithanairofweariness;andpassingthefolding-doorswhichwerethrownopentodisplaythesuiteofroomsintheirnewandhandsomegarniture,andbarelyglancingatthemasshepassed,satdownbyFlorence。
`MydearDombey,\'saidMrs。Skewton,`howcharminglythesepeoplehavecarriedouteveryideathatwehinted。Theyhavemadeaperfectpalaceofthehouse,positively。\'
`Itishandsome,\'saidMr。Dombey,lookinground。`Idirectedthatnoexpenseshouldbespared;andallthatmoneycoulddo,hasbeendone,Ibelieve。\'
`Andwhatcanitnotdo,dearDombey?\'observedCleopatra。
`Itispowerful,madam,\'saidMr。Dombey。
Helookedinhissolemnwaytowardshiswife,butnotawordsaidshe。
`Ihope,Mrs。Dombey,\'addressingherafteramoment\'ssilence,withespecialdistinctness;`thatthesealterationsmeetwithyourapproval?\'
`Theyareashandsomeastheycanbe,\'shereturned,withhaughtycarelessness。`Theyshouldbeso,ofcourse。AndIsupposetheyare。\'
Anexpressionofscornwashabitualtotheproudface,andseemedinseparablefromit;butthecontemptwithwhichitreceivedanyappealtoadmiration,respect,orconsiderationonthegroundofhisriches,nomatterhowslightorordinaryinitself,wasanewanddifferentexpression,unequalledinintensitybyanyotherofwhichitwascapable。WhetherMr。
Dombey,wrappedinhisowngreatness,wasatallawareofthis,orno,therehadnotbeenwantingopportunitiesalreadyforhiscompleteenlightenment;
andatthatmomentitmighthavebeeneffectedbytheoneglanceofthedarkeyethatlightedonhim,afterithadrapidlyandscornfullysurveyedthethemeofhisself-glorification。Hemighthavereadinthatoneglancethatnothingthathiswealthcoulddo,thoughitwereincreasedtenthousandfold,couldwinhimforitsownsake,onelookofsoftenedrecognitionfromthedefiantwoman,linkedtohim,butarrayedwithherwholesoulagainsthim。Hemighthavereadinthatoneglancethatevenforitssordidandmercenaryinfluenceuponherself,shespurnedit,whilesheclaimeditsutmostpowerasherright,herbargain——asthebaseandworthlessrecompenseforwhichshehadbecomehiswife。Hemighthavereadinitthat,everbaringherownheadforthelightningofherowncontemptandpridetostrike,themostinnocentallusiontothepowerofhisrichesdegradedheranew,sunkherdeeperinherownrespect,andmadetheblightandwastewithinhermorecomplete。
Butdinnerwasannounced,andMr。DombeyleddownCleopatra;Edithandhisdaughterfollowing。Sweepingpastthegoldandsilverdemonstrationonthesideboardasifitwereheaped-updirt,anddeigningtobestownolookupontheeleganciesaroundher,shetookherplaceathisboardforthefirsttime,andsat,likeastatue,atthefeast。
Mr。Dombey,beingagooddealinthestatuewayhimself,waswellenoughpleasedtoseehishandsomewifeimmovableandproudandcold。Herdeportmentbeingalwayselegantandgraceful,thisasageneralbehaviorwasagreeableandcongenialtohim。Presiding,therefore,withhisaccustomeddignity,andnotatallreflectingonhiswifebyanywarmthorhilarityofhisown,heperformedhisshareofthehonoursofthetablewithacoolsatisfaction;andtheinstallationdinner,thoughnotregardeddownstairsasagreatsuccess,orverypromisingbeginning,passedoff,above,inasufficientlypolite,genteel,andfrostymanner。
Soonaftertea,Mrs。Skewton,whoaffectedtobequiteovercomeandwornoutbyheremotionsofhappiness,arisinginthecontemplationofherdearchildunitedtothemanofherheart,butwho,thereisreasontosuppose,foundthisfamilypartysomewhatdull,assheyawnedforonehourcontinuallybehindherfan,retiredtobed。Edith,also,silentlywithdrewandcamebacknomore。Thus,ithappenedthatFlorence,whohadbeenupstairstohavesomeconversationwithDiogenes,returningtothedrawing-roomwithherlittlework-basket,foundnoonetherebutherfather,whowaswalkingtoandfro,indrearymagnificence。
`Ibegyourpardon。ShallIgoaway,papa?\'saidFlorencefaintly,hesitatingatthedoor。
`No,\'returnedMr。Dombey,lookingroundoverhisshoulder;`youcancomeandgohere,Florence,asyouplease。Thisisnotmyprivateroom。\'
Florenceentered,andsatdownatadistantlittletablewithherwork:findingherselfforthefirsttimeinherlife——fortheveryfirsttimewithinhermemoryfromherinfancytothathour——alonewithherfather,ashiscompanion。She,hisnaturalcompanion,hisonlychild,whoinherlonelylifeandgriefhadknownthesufferingofabreakingheart;who,inherrejectedlove,hadneverbreathedhisnametoGodatnight,butwithatearfulblessing,heavieronhimthanacurse;whohadprayedtodieyoung,soshemightonlydieinhisarms;whohad,allthrough,repaidtheagonyofslightandcoldness,anddislike,withpatientunexactinglove,excusinghim,andpleadingforhim,likehisbetterangel!
Shetrembled,andhereyesweredim。Hisfigureseemedtogrowinheightandbulkbeforeherashepacedtheroom:nowitwasallblurredandindistinct;nowclearagain,andplain;andnowsheseemedtothinkthatthishadhappened,justthesame,amultitudeofyearsago。Sheyearnedtowardshim,andyetshrunkfromhisapproach。Unnaturalemotioninachild,innocentofwrong!Unnaturalthehandthathaddirectedthesharpplough,whichfurroweduphergentlenatureforthesowingofitsseeds!
Bentuponnotdistressingoroffendinghimbyherdistress,Florencecontrolledherself,andsatquietlyatherwork。Afterafewmoreturnsacrossandacrosstheroom,heleftoffpacingit;andwithdrawingintoashadowycorneratsomedistance,wheretherewasaneasychair,coveredhisheadwithahandkerchief,andcomposedhimselftosleep。
ItwasenoughforFlorencetosittherewatchinghim;turninghereyestowardshischairfromtimetotime;watchinghimwithherthoughts,whenherfacewasintentuponherwork;andsorrowfullygladtothinkthathecouldsleep,whileshewasthere,andthathewasnotmaderestlessbyherstrangeandlong-forbiddenpresence。
Whatwouldhavebeenherthoughtsifshehadknownthathewassteadilyregardingher;thattheveiluponhisface,byaccidentorbydesign,wassoadjustedthathissightwasfree,andthatitneverwanderedfromherfaceaninstant!Thatwhenshelookedtowardshim,intheobscuredarkcorner,herspeakingeyes,moreearnestandpatheticintheirvoicelessspeechthanalltheoratorsofalltheworld,andimpeachinghimmorenearlyintheirmuteaddress,methis,anddidnotknowit!Thatwhenshebentherheadagainoverherwork,hedrewhisbreathmoreeasily,butwiththesameattentionlookeduponherstill——uponherwhitebrowandherfallinghair,andbusyhands;andonceattracted,seemedtohavenopowertoturnhiseyesaway!
Andwhatwerehisthoughtsmeanwhile?Withwhatemotionsdidheprolongtheattentivegazecovertlydirectedonhisunknowndaughter?Wastherereproachtohiminthequietfigureandthemildeyes?Hadhebeguntofeelherdisregardedclaims,anddidtheytouchhimhomeatlast,andwakenhimtosomesenseofhiscruelinjustice?
Thereareyieldingmomentsinthelivesofthesternestandharshestmen,thoughsuchmenoftenkeeptheirsecretwell。Thesightofherinherbeauty,almostchangedintoawomanwithouthisknowledge,mayhavestruckoutsomesuchmomentseveninhislifeofpride。Somepassingthoughtthathehadhadahappyhomewithinhisreach——hadhadahouseholdspiritbendingathisfeet——hadoverlookeditinhisstiffneckedsullenarrogance,andwanderedawayandlosthimself,mayhaveengenderedthem。Somesimpleeloquencedistinctlyheard,thoughonlyutteredinhereyes,unconsciousthathereadthem,as`Bythedeath-bedsIhavetended,bythechildhoodIhavesuffered,byourmeetinginthisdrearyhouseatmidnight,bythecrywrungfrommeintheanguishofmyheart,oh,father,turntomeandseekarefugeinmylovebeforeitistoolate!\'mayhavearrestedthem。
Meanerandlowerthoughts,asthathisdeadboywasnowsupersededbynewties,andhecouldforgivethehavingbeensupplantedinhisaffection,mayhaveoccasionedthem。Themereassociationofherasanornament,withalltheornamentandpompabouthim,mayhavebeensufficient。Butashelooked,hesoftenedtoher,moreandmore。Ashelooked,shebecameblendedwiththechildhehadloved,andhecouldhardlyseparatethetwo。Ashelooked,hesawherforaninstantbyaclearerandabrighterlight,notbendingoverthatchild\'spillowashisrival——monstrousthought——butasthespiritofhishome,andintheactiontendinghimselfnoless,ashesatoncemorewithhisbowed-downheaduponhishandatthefootofthelittlebed。Hefeltinclinedtospeaktoher,andcallhertohim。Thewords`Florence,comehere!\'wererisingtohislips——butslowlyandwithdifficulty,theyweresoverystrange——whentheywerecheckedandstifledbyafootsteponthestair。
Itwashiswife\'s。Shehadexchangedherdinnerdressforalooserobe,andunboundherhair,whichfellfreelyaboutherneck。Butthiswasnotthechangeinherthatstartledhim。
`Florence,dear,\'shesaid,`Ihavebeenlookingforyoueverywhere。\'
AsshesatdownbythesideofFlorence,shestoopedandkissedherhand。Hehardlyknewhiswife。Shewassochanged。Itwasnotmerelythathersmilewasnewtohim——thoughthathehadneverseen:buthermanner,thetoneofhervoice,thelightofhereyes,theinterest,andconfidence,andwinningwishtoplease,expressedinall——thiswasnotEdith。
`Softly,dearMama。Papaisasleep。\'
ItwasEdithnow。Shelookedtowardsthecornerwherehewas,andheknewthatfaceandmannerverywell。
`Iscarcelythoughtyoucouldbehere,Florence。\'
Again,howalteredandhowsoftened,inaninstant!
`Ilefthereearly,\'pursuedEdith,`purposelytositupstairsandtalkwithyou。But,goingtoyourroom,Ifoundmybirdwasflown,andIhavebeenwaitingthereeversince,expectingitsreturn。\'
Ifithadbeenabird,indeed,shecouldnothavetakenitmoretenderlyandgentlytoherbreast,thanshedidFlorence。
`Come,dear!\'
`Papawillnotexpecttofindme,Isuppose,whenhewakes,\'hesitatedFlorence。
`Doyouthinkhewill,Florence?\'saidEdith,lookingfulluponher。
Florencedroopedherhead,androse,andputupherworkbasket。
Edithdrewherhandthroughherarm,andtheywentoutoftheroomlikesisters。Herverystepwasdifferentandnewtohim,Mr。Dombeythought,ashiseyesfollowedhertothedoor。
Hesatinhisshadowycornersolong,thatthechurchclocksstruckthehourthreetimesbeforehemovedthatnight。AllthatwhilehisfacewasstillintentuponthespotwhereFlorencehadbeenseated。Theroomgrewdarker,asthecandleswanedandwentout;butadarknessgatheredonhisface,exceedinganythatthenightcouldcast,andrestedthere。
FlorenceandEdith,seatedbeforethefireintheremoteroomwherelittlePaulhaddied,talkedtogetherforalongtime。Diogenes,whowasoftheparty,hadatfirstobjectedtotheadmissionofEdith,and,evenindeferencetohismistress\'swish,hadonlypermitteditundergrowlingprotest。But,emergingbylittleandlittlefromtheante-room,whitherhehadretiredindudgeon,hesoonappearedtocomprehend,thatwiththemostamiableintensionshehadmadeoneofthosemistakeswhichwilloccasionallyariseinthebest-regulateddogs\'minds;asafriendlyapologyforwhichhestuckhimselfuponendbetweenthetwo,inaveryhotplaceinfrontofthefire,andsatpantingatit,withhistongueout,andamostimbecileexpressionofcountenance,listeningtotheconversation。
Itturned,atfirst,onFlorence\'sbooksandfavouritepursuits,andonthemannerinwhichshehadbeguiledtheintervalsincethemarriage。
Thelastthemeopeneduptoherasubjectwhichlayverynearherheart,andshesaid,withthetearsstartingtohereyes:
`Oh,Mama!Ihavehadagreatsorrowsincethatday。\'
`Youagreatsorrow,Florence!\'
`Yes。PoorWalterisdrowned。\'
Florencespreadherhandsbeforeherface,andweptwithallherheart。ManyaswerethesecrettearswhichWalter\'sfatehadcosther,theyflowedyet,whenshethoughtorspokeofhim。
`Buttellme,dear,\'saidEdith,soothingher。`WhowasWalter?
Whatwashetoyou?\'
`Hewasmybrother,Mama。AfterdearPauldied,wesaidwewouldbebrotherandsister。Ihadknownhimalongtime——fromalittlechild。
HeknewPaul,wholikedhimverymuch;Paulsaid,almostatthelast,`TakecareofWalter,dearpapa!Iwasfondofhim!\'Walterhadbeenbroughtintoseehim,andwastherethen——inthisroom。\'
`AnddidhetakecareofWalter?\'inquiredEdith,sternly。
`Papa?Heappointedhimtogoabroad。Hewasdrownedinshipwreckonhisvoyage,\'saidFlorence,sobbing。
`Doesheknowthatheisdead?\'askedEdith。
`Icannottell,Mama。Ihavenomeansofknowing。DearMama!\'
criedFlorence,clingingtoherasforhelp,andhidingherfaceuponherbosom,`Iknowthatyouhaveseen——\'
`Stay!Stop,Florence。\'Edithturnedsopale,andspokesoearnestly,thatFlorencedidnotneedherrestraininghanduponherlips。`TellmeallaboutWalterfirst;letmeunderstandthishistoryallthrough。\'
Florencerelatedit,andeverythingbelongingtoit,evendowntothefriendshipofMr。Toots,ofwhomshecouldhardlyspeakinherdistresswithoutatearfulsmile,althoughshewasdeeplygratefultohim。Whenshehadconcludedheraccount,tothewholeofwhichEdith,holdingherhand,listenedwithcloseattention,andwhenasilencehadsucceeded,Edithsaid:
`WhatisitthatyouknowIhaveseen,Florence?\'
`ThatIamnot,\'saidFlorence,withthesamemuteappeal,andthesamequickconcealmentofherfaceasbefore,`thatIamnotafavouritechild,Mama。Ineverhavebeen。Ihaveneverknownhowtobe。Ihavemissedtheway,andhadnoonetoshowittome。Oh,letmelearnfromyouhowtobecomedearertoPapa。Teachme!you,whocansowell!\'andclingingclosetoher,withsomebrokenferventwordsofgratitudeandendearment,Florence,relivedofhersadsecret,weptlong,butnotaspainfullyasofyore,withintheencirclingarmsofhernewmother。
Paleeventoherlips,andwithafacethatstroveforcomposureuntilitsproudbeautywasasfixedasdeath,Edithlookeddownupontheweepinggirl,andoncekissedher。Thengraduallydisengagingherself,andputtingFlorenceaway,shesaid,stately,andquietasamarbleimage,andinavoicethatdeepenedasshespoke,buthadnoothertokenofemotioninit:
`Florence,youdonotknowme!Heavenforbidthatyoushouldlearnfromme!\'
`Notlearnfromyou?\'repeatedFlorence,insurprise。
`ThatIshouldteachyouhowtolove,orbeloved,Heavenforbid!\'
saidEdith。`Ifyoucouldteachme,thatwerebetter;butitistoolate。
Youaredeartome,Florence。Ididnotthinkthatanythingcouldeverbesodeartome,asyouareinthislittletime。\'
ShesawthatFlorencewouldhavespokenhere,socheckedherwithherhand,andwenton。
`Iwillbeyourtruefriendalways。Iwillcherishyou,asmuch,ifnotaswellasanyoneinthisworldcould。Youmaytrustinme——IknowitandIsayit,dear,——withthewholeconfidenceevenofyourpureheart。
Therearehostsofwomenwhomhemighthavemarried,betterandtruerinallotherrespectsthanIam,Florence;butthereisnotonewhocouldcomehere,hiswife,whoseheartcouldbeatwithgreatertruthtoyouthanminedoes。\'
`Iknowit,dearMama!\'criedFlorence。`FromthatfirstmosthappydayIhaveknownit。\'
`Mosthappyday!\'Edithseemedtorepeatthewordsinvoluntarily,andwenton。`Thoughthemeritisnotmine,forIthoughtlittleofyouuntilIsawyou,lettheundeservedrewardbemineinyourtrustandlove。
Andinthis——inthis,Florence;onthefirstnightofmytakingupmyabodehere;IamledonasitisbestIshouldbe,tosayitforthefirstandlasttime。\'
Florence,withoutknowingwhy,feltalmostafraidtohearherproceed,butkepthereyesrivetedonthebeautifulfacesofixeduponherown。
`Neverseektofindinme,\'saidEdith,layingherhanduponherbreast,`whatisnothere。Neverifyoucanhelpit,Florence,fallofffrommebecauseitisnothere。Littlebylittleyouwillknowmebetter,andthetimewillcomewhenyouwillknowme,asIknowmyself。Then,beaslenienttomeasyoucan,anddonotturntobitternesstheonlysweetremembranceIshallhave。\'
ThetearsthatwerevisibleinhereyesasshekeptthemfixedonFlorence,showedthatthecomposedfacewasbutasahandsomemask;
butshepreservedit,andcontinued:
`Ihaveseenwhatyousay,andknowhowtrueitis。Butbelieveme——youwillsoon,ifyoucannotnow——thereisnooneonthisearthlessqualifiedtosetitrightorhelpyou,Florence,thanI。Neveraskmewhy,orspeaktomeaboutitorofmyhusband,more。Thereshouldbe,sofar,asdivision,andasilencebetweenustwo,likethegraveitself。\'
Shesatforsometimesilent;Florencescarcelyventuringtobreathemeanwhile,asdimandimperfectshadowsofthetruth,andallitsdailyconsequences,chasedeachotherthroughherterrified,yetincredulousimagination。Almostassoonasshehadceasedtospeak,Edith\'sfacebegantosubsidefromitssetcomposuretothatquieterandmorerelentingaspect,whichitusuallyworewhensheandFlorencewerealonetogether。Sheshadedit,afterthischange,withherhands;andwhenshearose,andwithanaffectionateembracebadeFlorencegoodnight,wentquickly,andwithoutlookinground。
ButwhenFlorencewasinbed,andtheroomwasdarkexceptfortheglowofthefire,Edithreturned,andsayingthatshecouldnotsleep,andthatherdressing-roomwaslonely,drewachairuponthehearth,andwatchedtheembersastheydiedaway。Florencewatchedthemtoofromherbed,untilthey,andthenoblefigurebeforethem,crownedwithitsflowinghair,andinitsthoughtfuleyesreflectingbacktheirlight,becameconfusedandindistinct,andfinallywerelostinslumber。
Inhersleep,however,Florencecouldnotloseanundefinedimpressionofwhathadsorecentlypassed。Itformedthesubjectofherdreams,andhauntedher;nowinoneshape,nowinanother;butalwaysoppressively;
andwithasenseoffear。Shedreamedofseekingherfatherinwildernesses,offollowinghistrackupfearfulheights,anddownintodeepminesandcaverns;ofbeingchargedwithsomethingthatwouldreleasehimfromextraordinarysuffering——sheknewnotwhat,orwhy——yetneverbeingabletoattainthegoalandsethimfree。Thenshesawhimdead,uponthatverybed,andinthatveryroom,andknewthathehadneverlovedhertothelast,andfelluponhiscoldbreast,passionatelyweeping。Thenaprospectopened,andariverflowed,andaplaintivevoicesheknew,cried,`Itisrunningon,Floy!Ithasneverstopped!Youaremovingwithit!\'Andshesawhimatadistancestretchingouthisarmstowardsher,whileafiguresuchasWalter\'susedtobe,stoodnearhim,awfullysereneandstill。Ineveryvision,Edithcameandwent,sometimestoherjoy,sometimestohersorrow,untiltheywerealonguponthebrinkofadarkgrave,andEdithpointingdown,shelookedandsaw——what!——anotherEdithlyingatthebottom。
Intheterrorofthisdream,shecriedoutandawoke,shethought。
Asoftvoiceseemedtowhisperinherear,`Florence,dearFlorence,itisnothingbutadream!\'andstretchingoutherarms,shereturnedthecaressofhernewmama,whothenwentoutatthedoorinthelightofthegreymorning。Inamoment,Florencesatupwonderingwhetherthishadreallytakenplaceornot;butshewasonlycertainthatitwasgreymorningindeed,andthattheblackenedashesofthefirewereonthehearth,andthatshewasalone。
Sopassedthenightonwhichthehappypaircamehome。
[NextChapter][TableofContents]DICKENS:DombeyandSon,Chapter36[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]CHAPTERXXXVIHousewarmingMANYsucceedingdayspassedinlikemanner;exceptthattherewerenumerousvisitsreceivedandpaid,andthatMrs。Skewtonheldlittleleveesinherownapartments,atwhichMajorBagstockwasafrequentattendant,andthatFlorenceencounterednosecondlookfromherfather,althoughshesawhimeveryday。Norhadshemuchcommunicationinwordswithhernewmama,whowasimperiousandproudtoallthehousebuther——Florencecouldnotbutobservethat——andwho,althoughshealwayssentforherorwenttoherwhenshecamehomefromvisiting,andwouldalwaysgointoherroomatnight,beforeretiringtorest,howeverlatethehour,andneverlostanopportunityofbeingwithher,wasoftenhersilentandthoughtfulcompanionforalongtimetogether。
Florence,whohadhopedforsomuchfromthismarriage,couldnothelpsometimescomparingthebrighthousewiththefadeddrearyplaceoutofwhichithadarisen,andwonderingwhen,inanyshape,itwouldbegintobeahome;forthatitwasnohomethen,foranyone,thougheverythingwentonluxuriouslyandregularly,shehadalwaysasecretmisgiving。Manyanhourofsorrowfulreflectionbydayandnight,andmanyatearofblightedhope,Florencebestowedupontheassurancehernewmamahadgivenhersostrongly,thattherewasnooneontheearthmorepowerlessthanherselftoteachherhowtowinherfather\'sheart。AndsoonFlorencebegantothink——resolvedtothinkwouldbethetruerphrase——thatasnooneknewsowell,howhopelessofbeingsubduedorchangedherfather\'scoldnesstoherwas,soshehadgivenherthiswarning,andforbiddenthesubjectinverycompassion。Unselfishhere,asinhereveryactandfancy,Florencepreferredtobearthepainofthisnewwound,ratherthanencourageanyfaintforeshadowingsofthetruthasitconcernedherfather;tenderofhim,eveninherwanderingthoughts。Asforhishome,shehopeditwouldbecomeabetterone,whenitsstateofnoveltyandtransitionshouldbeover;andforherself,thoughtlittleandlamentedless。
Ifnoneofthenewfamilywereparticularlyathomeinprivate,itwasresolvedthatMrs。Dombeyatleastshouldbeathomeinpublic,withoutdelay。Aseriesofentertainmentsincelebrationofthelatenuptials,andincultivationofsociety,werearranged,chieflybyMr。DombeyandMrs。Skewton;anditwassettledthatthefestiveproceedingsshouldcommencebyMrs。Dombey\'sbeingathomeuponacertainevening,andbyMr。andMrs。
Dombey\'srequestingthehonourofthecompanyofagreatmanyincongruouspeopletodinneronthesameday。
Accordingly,Mr。Dombeyproducedalistofsundryeasternmagnateswhoweretobebiddentothisfeastonhisbehalf;towhichMrs。Skewton,actingforherdearestchild,whowashaughtilycarelessonthesubject,subjoinedawesternlist,comprisingCousinFeenix,notyetreturnedtoBaden-Baden,greatlytothedetrimentofhispersonalestate;andavarietyofmothsofvariousdegreesandages,whohad,atvarioustimes,flutteredroundthelightofherfairdaughter,orherself,withoutanylastinginjurytotheirwings。Florencewasenrolledasamemberofthedinner-party,byEdith\'scommand——elicitedbyamoment\'sdoubtandhesitationonthepartofMrs。Skewton;andFlorence,withawonderingheart,andwithaquickinstinctivesenseofeverythingthatgratedonherfatherintheleast,tookhersilentshareintheproceedingsoftheday。
TheproceedingscommencedbyMr。Dombey,inacravatofextraordinaryheightandstiffness,walkingrestlesslyaboutthedrawing-roomuntilthehourappointedfordinner;punctualtowhich,anEastIndiaDirector,ofimmensewealth,inawaistcoatapparentlyconstructedinserviceabledealbysomeplaincarpenter,butreallyengenderedinthetailor\'sart,andcomposedofthematerialcallednankeen,arrivedandwasreceivedbyMr。
Dombeyalone。ThenextstageoftheproceedingswasMr。Dombey\'ssendinghiscomplimentstoMrs。Dombey,withacorrectstatementofthetime;andthenext,theEastIndiaDirector\'sfallingprostrate,inaconversationalpointofview,andasMr。Dombeywasnotthemantopickhimup,staringatthefireuntilrescueappearedinthepersonofMrs。Skewton;whomthedirector,asapleasantstartinlifefortheevening,mistookforMrs。
Dombey,andgreetedwithenthusiasm。
ThenextarrivalwasaBankDirector,reputedtobeabletobuyupanything——humanNaturegenerally,ifheshouldtakeitinhisheadtoinfluencethemoneymarketinthatdirection——butwhowasawonderfullymodest-spokenman,almostboastfullyso,andmentionedhis`littleplace\'
atKingston-uponThames,anditsjustbeingbarelyequaltogivingDombeyabedandachop,ifhewouldcomeandvisitit。Ladies,hesaid,itwasnotforamanwholivedinhisquietwaytotakeuponhimselftoinvite——butifMrs。Skewtonandherdaughter,Mrs。Dombey,shouldeverfindthemselvesinthatdirection,andwoulddohimthehonourtolookatalittlebitofashrubberytheywouldfindthere,andapoorlittleflower-bedorso,andahumbleapologyforapinery,andtwoorthreelittleattemptsofthatsortwithoutanypretension,theywoulddistinguishhimverymuch。
Carryingouthischaracter,thisgentlemanwasveryplainlydressed,inawispofcambricforaneckcloth,bigshoes,acoatthatwastoolooseforhim,andapairoftrousersthatweretoospare;andmentionbeingmadeoftheOperabyMrs。Skewton,hesaidheveryseldomwentthere,forhecouldn\'taffordit。Itseemedgreatlytodelightandexhilaratehimtosayso:andhebeamedonhisaudienceafterwards,withhishandsinhispockets,andexcessivesatisfactiontwinklinginhiseyes。
NowMrs。Dombeyappeared,beautifulandproud,andasdisdainfulanddefianttothemallasifthebridalwreathuponherheadhadbeenagarlandofsteelspikesputontoforceconcessionfromherwhichshewoulddiesoonerthanyield。WithherwasFlorence。Whentheyenteredtogether,theshadowofthenightofthereturnagaindarkenedMr。Dombey\'sface。
Butunobserved:forFlorencedidnotventuretoraisehereyestohis,andEdith\'sindifferencewastoosupremetotaketheleastheedofhim。
Thearrivalsquicklybecamenumerous。Moredirectors,chairmenofpubliccompanies,elderlyladiescarryingburdensontheirheadsforfulldress,CousinFeenix,MajorBagstock,friendsofMrs。Skewton,withthesamebrightbloomontheircomplexion,andverypreciousnecklacesonverywitherednecks。Amongthese,ayoungladyofsixty-five,remarkablycoollydressedastoherbackandshoulders,whospokewithanengaginglisp,andwhoseeyelidswouldn\'tkeepupwell,withoutagreatdealoftroubleonherpart,andwhosemannershadthatindefinablecharmwhichsofrequentlyattachestothegiddinessofyouth。AsthegreaterpartofMr。Dombey\'slistweredisposedtobetaciturn,andthegreaterpartofMrs。Dombey\'slistweredisposedtobetalkative,andtherewasnosympathybetweenthem,Mrs。Dombey\'slist,bymagneticagreement,enteredintoabondofunionagainstMr。Dombey\'slist,who,wanderingabouttheroomsinadesolatemanner,orseekingrefugeincorners,entangledthemselveswithcompanycomingin,andbecamebarricadedbehindsofas,andhaddoorsopenedsmartlyfromwithoutagainsttheirheads,andunderwenteverysortofdiscomfiture。