Mr。FailinghadaletterfromStockholm。Itwasneverknownwhatimpulsesentthemthere。\"Iamsorryaboutitall,butitwastheonlyway。\"ThelettercensuredthelawofEngland,\"whichobligesustobehavelikethis,orelseweshouldnevergetmarried。I
shallcomebacktofacethings:shewillnotcomebacktillsheismywife。Hemustbringanactionsoon,orelseweshalltryoneagainsthim。Itseemsallveryunconventional,butitisnotreally。itisonlyadifficultstart。Wearenotlikeyouoryourwife:wewanttobejustordinarypeople,andmakethefarmpay,andnotbenoticedallourlives。\"
Andtheywerecapableoflivingastheywanted。Theclassdifference,whichsointriguedMrs。Failing,meantverylittletothem。Itwasthere,butsowereotherthings。
Theybothcaredforworkandlivingintheopen,andfornotspeakingunlesstheyhadgotsomethingtosay。Theirloveofbeauty,liketheirloveforeachother,wasnotdependentondetail:itgrewnotfromthenervesbutfromthesoul。
\"IbelievealeafofgrassisnolessthanthejourneyworkofthestarsAndthepismireisequallyperfect,andagrainofsand,andtheeggofthewren,Andthetreetoadisachef—d’oeuvreforthehighest,Andtherunningblackberrywouldadorntheparloursofheaven。\"
Theyhadneverreadtheselines,andwouldhavethoughtthemnonsenseiftheyhad。Theydidnotdissect——indeedtheycouldnot。Butshe,atallevents,divinedthatmorethanperfecthealthandperfectweather,morethanpersonallove,hadgonetothemakingofthoseseventeendays。
\"Ordinarypeople!\"criedMrs。Failingonhearingtheletter。Atthattimeshewasyounganddaring。\"Why,they’redivine!They’reforcesofNature!They’reasordinaryasvolcanoes。Weallknewmybrotherwasdisgusting,andwantedhimtobeblowntopieces,butweneverthoughtitwouldhappen。Dolookatthethingbravely,andsay,asIdo,thattheyareguiltlessinthesightofGod。\"
\"Ithinktheyare,\"repliedherhusband。\"Buttheyarenotguiltlessinthesightofman。\"
\"Youconventional!\"sheexclaimedindisgust。
\"Whattheyhavedonemeansmiserynotonlyforthemselvesbutforothers。Foryourbrother,thoughyouwillnotthinkofhim。Forthelittleboy——didyouthinkofhim?Andperhapsforanotherchild,whowillhavethewholeworldagainsthimifitknows。
Theyhavesinnedagainstsociety,andyoudonotdiminishthemiserybyprovingthatsocietyisbadorfoolish。ItisthesaddesttruthIhaveyetperceivedthattheBelovedRepublic\"——
hereshetookupabook——\"ofwhichSwinburnespeaks\"——sheputthebookdown——\"willnotbebroughtaboutbylovealone。Itwillapproachwithnoflourishoftrumpets,andhavenodeclarationofindependence。Self—sacrificeand——worsestill——self—mutilationarethethingsthatsometimeshelpitmost,andthatiswhyweshouldstartforStockholmthisevening。\"Hewaitedforherindignationtosubside,andthencontinued。\"Idon’tknowwhetheritcanbehushedup。Idon’tyetknowwhetheritoughttobehushedup。Butweoughttoprovidetheopportunity。Thereisnoscandalyet。Ifwego,itisjustpossiblethereneverwillbeany。Wemusttalkoverthewholethingand——\"
\"——Andlie!\"interruptedMrs。Failing,whohatedtravel。
\"——Andseehowtoavoidthegreatestunhappiness。\"
Therewastobenoscandal。BythetimetheyarrivedRoberthadbeendrowned。Mrs。Elliotdescribedhowtheyhadgoneswimming,andhow,\"sincehealwayslivedinland,\"thegreatwaveshadtiredhim。Theyhadracedfortheopensea。
\"Whatareyourplans?\"heasked。\"IbringyouamessagefromFrederick。\"
\"Iheardhimcall,\"shecontinued,\"butIthoughthewaslaughing。WhenIturned,itwastoolate。Heputhishandsbehindhisbackandsank。Forhewouldonlyhavedrownedmewithhim。I
shouldhavedonethesame。\"
Mrs。Failingwasthrilled,andkissedher。ButMr。Failingknewthatlifedoesnotcontinueheroicforlong,andhegaveherthemessagefromherhusband:Wouldshecomebacktohim?
Tohisintenseastonishment——atfirsttohisregret——shereplied,\"Iwillthinkaboutit。IfIlovedhimtheveryleastbitI
shouldsayno。IfIhadanythingtodowithmylifeIshouldsayno。ButitissimplyaquestionofbeatingtimetillIdie。
Nothingthatiscomingmatters。Imayaswellsitinhisdrawing—roomanddusthisfurniture,sincehehassuggestedit。\"
AndMr。Elliot,thoughhemadecertainstipulations,waspositivelygladtoseeher。Peoplehadbeguntolaughathim,andtosaythathiswifehadrunaway。Shehadnot。ShehadbeenwithhissisterinSweden。Inahalfmiraculouswaythematterwashushedup。EventheSiltsonlyscented\"somethingstrange。\"WhenStephenwasborn,itwasabroad。WhenhecametoEngland,itwasasthechildofafriendofMr。Failing’s。Mrs。Elliotreturnedunsuspectedtoherhusband。
Butthoughthingscanbehushedup,thereisnosuchthingasbeatingtime;andastheyearspassedsherealizedherterriblemistake。Whenherloversank,eludingherlastembrace,shethought,asAgneswastothinkafterher,thathersoulhadsunkwithhim,andthatneveragainshouldshebecapableofearthlylove。Nothingmattered。Shemightaswellgoandbeusefultoherhusbandandtothelittleboywholookedexactlylikehim,andwho,shethought,wasexactlylikehimindisposition。ThenStephenwasborn,andalteredherlife。Shecouldstilllovepeoplepassionately;shestilldrewstrengthfromtheheroicpast。Yet,tokeeptoherbond,shemustseethissononlyasastranger。Shewasprotectedbetheconventions,andmustpaythemtheirfee。Andacuriousthinghappened。Hersecondchilddrewhertowardsherfirst。ShebegantoloveRickiealso,andtobemorethanusefultohim。Andasherloverevived,sodidhercapacityforsuffering。Life,moreimportant,grewmorebitter。
Shemindedherhusbandmore,notless;andwhenatlasthedied,andshesawagloriousautumn,beautifulwiththevoicesofboyswhoshouldcallhermother,theendcameforheraswell,beforeshecouldrememberthegraveinthealiennorthandthedustthatwouldneverreturntothedearfieldsthathadgivenit。
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Stephen,thesonofthesepeople,hadoneinstinctthattroubledhim。Atnight——especiallyoutofdoors——itseemedratherstrangethathewasalive。Thedrygrassprickedhischeek,thefieldswereinvisibleandmute,andherewashe,throwingstonesatthedarknessorsmokingapipe。Thestonesvanished,thepipewouldburnout。Buthewouldbehereinthemorningwhenthesunrose,andhewouldbathe,andruninthemist。Hewasproudofhisgoodcirculation,andinthemorningitseemedquitenatural。Butatnight,whyshouldtherebethisdifferencebetweenhimandtheacresoflandthatcooledallroundhimuntilthesunreturned?
Whatluckychancehadheatedhimup,andsenthim,warmandlovable,intoapassiveworld?Hehadotherinstincts,butthesegavehimnotrouble。Hesimplygratifiedeachasitoccurred,providedhecoulddosowithoutgraveinjurytohisfellows。Buttheinstincttowonderatthenightwasnottobethusappeased。
AtfirsthehadlivedunderthecareofMr。Failingtheonlypersontowhomhismotherspokefreely,theonlypersonwhohadtreatedherneitherasacriminalnorasapioneer。Intheirrarebutintimateconversationsshehadaskedhimtoeducateherson。
\"IwillteachhimLatin,\"heanswered。\"Therestsuchaboymustremember。\"Latin,atallevents,wasafailure:whocouldattendtoVirgilwhenthesoundofthethresherarose,andyouknewthatthestackwasdecreasingandthatratsrushedmoreplentifullyeachmomenttotheirdoom?ButhewasfondofMr。Failing,andcriedwhenhedied。Mrs。Elliot,apleasantwoman,diedsoonafter。
Therewassomethingfatalintheorderofthesedeaths。Mr。
Failinghadmadenoprovisionfortheboyinhiswill:hiswifehadpromisedtoseetothis。ThencameMr。Elliot’sdeath,and,beforethenewhomewascreated,thesuddendeathofMrs。Elliot。
ShealsoleftStephennomoney:shehadnonetoleave。ChancethrewhimintothepowerofMrs。Failing。\"Letthingsgoonastheyare,\"shethought。\"Iwilltakecareofthisprettylittleboy,andtheuglylittleboycanlivewiththeSilts。Aftermydeath——well,thepaperswillbefoundaftermydeath,andtheycanmeetthen。Iliketheideaoftheirmutualignorance。Itisamusing。\"
Hewasthentwelve。Withafewbriefintervalsofschool,helivedinWiltshireuntilhewasdrivenout。Lifehadtwodistinctsides——thedrawing—roomandtheother。Inthedrawing—roompeopletalkedagooddeal,laughingastheytalked。Beingclever,theydidnotcareforanimals:onemanhadneverseenahedgehog。Intheotherlifepeopletalkedandlaughedseparately,orevendidneither。Onthewhole,inspiteofthewetandgamekeepers,thislifewaspreferable。Heknewwherehewas。Heglancedattheboy,orlaterattheman,andbehavedaccordingly。Therewasnolaw——
thepolicemanwasnegligible。Nothingboundhimbuthisownword,andhegavethatsparingly。
Itisimpossibletoberomanticwhenyouhaveyourheart’sdesire,andsuchaboydisappointedMrs。Failinggreatly。Hisparentshadmetforonebriefembrace,hadfoundonelittleintervalbetweenthepoweroftherulersofthisworldandthepowerofdeath。Hewasthechildofpoetryandofrebellion,andpoetryshouldruninhisveins。Buthelivedtoonearthethingshelovedtoseempoetical。Partedfromthem,hemightyetsatisfyher,andstretchouthishandswithapagan’syearning。Asitwas,heonlyrodeherhorses,andtrespassed,andbathed,andworked,fornoobviousreason,uponherfields。Affectionshedidnotbelievein,andmadenoattempttomouldhim;andhe,forhispart,wasverycontenttohardenuntouchedintoaman。Hisparentshadgivenhimexcellentgifts——health,sturdylimbs,andafacenotugly,——giftsthathishabitsconfirmed。Theyhadalsogivenhimacloudlessspirit——thespiritoftheseventeendaysinwhichhewascreated。Buttheyhadnotgivenhimthespiritoftheirsityearsofwaiting,andloveforonepersonwasnevertobethegreatestthingheknew。
\"Philosophy\"hadpostponedthequarrelbetweenthem。Incuriousabouthispersonalorigin,hehadacertaininterestinoureternalproblems。Theinterestneverbecameapassion:itsprangoutofhisphysicalgrowth,andwassoonmergedinitagain。Or,asheputithimself,\"Imustgetfixedupbeforestarting。\"Hewassoonfixedupasamaterialist。Thenhetoreupthesixpennyreprints,andneveramusedMrs。Failingsomuchagain。
Aboutthetimehefixedhimselfup,hetooktodrink。Heknewofnoreasonagainstit。Theinstinctwasinhim,andithurtnobody。Here,aselsewhere,hismotionsweredecided,andhepassedatoncefromroaringjollitytosilence。Forthosewholiveonthefuddledborderland,whocrawlhomebytherailingsandmaunderrepentanceinthemorning,hehadabitingcontempt。
Amanmusttakehistumbleandhisheadache。Hewas,infact,aslittledisgustingasisconceivable;andhithertohehadnotstrainedhisconstitutionorhiswill。NordidhegetdrunkasoftenasAgnessuggested。Thcrealquarrelgatheredelsewhere。
Presentablepeoplehaverunwildintheiryouth。Butthehourcomeswhentheyturnfromtheirboorishcompanytohigherthings。
ThishournevercameforStephen。Somewhatabullybynature,hekeptwherehispowerswouldtell,andcontinuedtoquarrelandplaywiththemenhehadknownasboys。Heprolongedtheiryouthunduly。\"Theywon’tsettledown,\"saidMr。Wilbrahamtohiswife。
\"They’rewantingthings。It’sthegermofaTradesUnion。Ishallgetridofafewoftheworst。\"ThenStephenrusheduptoMrs。
Failingandworriedher。\"Itwasn’tfair。So—and—sowasagoodsort。Hedidhiswork。Keenaboutit?No。Whyshouldhebe?Whyshouldhebekeenaboutsomebodyelse’sland?Butkeenenough。
Andverykeenonfootball。\"Shelaughed,andsaidawordaboutSo—and—sotoMr。Wilbraham。Mr。Wilbrahamblazedup。\"Howcouldthefarmgoonwithoutdiscipline?HowcouldtherebedisciplineifMr。Stepheninterfered?Mr。Stephenlikedpower。Hespoketothemenlikeoneofthemselves,andpretendeditwasallequality,buthetookcaretocomeouttop。Natural,ofcourse,that,beingagentleman,heshould。Butnotnaturalforagentlemantoloiteralldaywithpoorpeopleandlearntheirwork,andputwrongnotionsintotheirheads,andcarrytheirnewfangledgrievancestoMrs。Failing。Whichpartlyaccountedforthedeficitonthepastyear。\"SherebukedStephen。Thenhelosthistemper,wasrudetoher,andinsultedMr。Wilbraham。
TheworstdaysofMr。Failing’sruleseemedtobereturning。AndStephenhadapracticalexperience,andalsoatasteforbattle,thatherhusbandhadneverpossessed。Hedrewupalistofgrievances,someabsurd,othersfundamental。Nonewspapersinthereading—room,youcouldputaplateundertheThompsons’door,nolevelcricket—pitch,noallotmentsandnotimetoworkinthem,Mrs。Wilbraham’sknife—boyunderpaid。\"Aren’tyoualittleunwise?\"sheaskedcoldly。\"Iammoreboredthanyouthinkoverthefarm。\"Shewaswantingtocorrecttheproofsofthebookandrewritetheprefatorymemoir。InherirritationshewrotetoAgnes。Agnesrepliedsympathetically,andMrs。Failing,cleverasshewas,fellintothepoweroftheyoungerwoman。Theydiscussedhimatfirstasawretchofaboy;thenhegotdrunkandsomehowitseemedmorecriminal。Allthatsheneedednowwasapersonalgrievance,whichAgnescasuallysupplied。Thoughvindictive,shewasdeterminedtotreathimwell,andthoughtwithsatisfactionofourdistantcolonies。Butheburstintoanoddpassion:hewouldsoonerstarvethanleaveEngland。\"Why?\"sheasked。\"Areyouinlove?\"Hepickedupalumpofthechalk—theywerebythearbour——andmadenoanswer。Thevicarmurmured,\"Itisnotlikegoingabroad——GreaterBritain——bloodisthickerthanwater——\"A
lumpofchalkbrokeherdrawing—roomwindowontheSaturday。
ThusStephenleftWiltshire,half—blackguard,half—martyr。Donotbrandhimasasocialist。Hehadnoquarrelwithsociety,noranyparticularbeliefinpeoplebecausetheyarepoor。Heonlyheldthecreedof\"hereamIandthereareyou,\"andthereforeclassdistinctionsweretrivialthingstohim,andlifenodecorousscheme,butapersonalcombatorapersonaltruce。Forthesamereasonancestryalsowastrivial,andamannotthedearerbecausethesamewomanwasmothertothemboth。YetitseemedworthwhiletogotoSawstonwiththenews。Perhapsnothingwouldcomeofit;perhapsfriendlyintercourse,andahomewhilehelookedaround。
Whentheywrongedhimhewalkedquietlyaway。Heneverthoughtofallottingtheblame,nororappealingtoAnsell,whostillsatbroodingintheside—garden。Heonlyknewthateducatedpeoplecouldbehorrible,andthatacleanlivermustneverenterDunwoodHouseagain。Theairseemedstuffy。Hespatinthegutter。Wasityesterdayhehadlainintherifle—buttsoverSalisbury?Slightlyaggrieved,hewonderedwhyhewasnotbacktherenow。\"Ioughttohavewrittenfirst,\"hereflected。\"Hereismymoneygone。Icannotmove。TheElliotshave,asitwere,practicallyrobbedme。\"Thatwastheonlygrudgeheretainedagainstthem。Theirsuspicionsandinsultsweretohimasthecursesofatrampwhomhepassedbythewayside。Theyweredirtypeople,nothissort。Hesummedupthecomplicatedtragedyasa\"takein。\"
WhileRickiewasbeingcarriedupstairs,andwhileAnsell(hadheknownit)wasdashingaboutthestreetsforhim,helayunderarailwayarchtryingtosettlehisplans。Hemustpaybackthefriendswhohadgivenhimshillingsandclothes。HethoughtofFlea,whoseSundayshewasspoiling——poorFlea,whooughttobeinthemnow,shiningbeforehisgirl。\"Idaresayhe’llbeashamedandnotgotoseeher,andthenshe’lltaketheotherman。\"Hewasalsoveryhungry。ThatwormMrs。Elliotwouldbethroughherlunchbynow。Tryinghisbracesroundhim,andtearingupthoseoldwetdocuments,hesteppedforthtomakemoney。Avillainousyoungbrutehelooked:hisclothesweredirty,andhehadlostthespringofthemorning。Touchingthewalls,frowning,talkingtohimselfattimes,hesloucheddisconsolatelynorthwards;nowonderthatsometawdrygirlsscreamedathim,orthatmatronsavertedtheireyesastheyhurriedtoafternoonchurch。Hewanderedfromonesuburbtoanother,tillhewasamongpeoplemorevillainousthanhimself,whoboughthistobaccofromhimandsoldhimfood。Againtheneighbourhood\"wentup,\"andfamilies,insteadofsittingontheirdoorsteps,wouldsitbehindthickmuslincurtains。Againitwould\"godown\"intoamoreavoweddespair。Farintothenighthewandered,untilhecametoasolemnrivermajesticasastreaminhell。ThereinweregatheredthewatersofCentralEngland——thosethatflowoffHindhead,offtheChilterns,offWiltshirenorthofthePlain。Thereintheyweremadeintolerableeretheyreachedthesea。Butthewatershehadknownescaped。TheircourselaysouthwardintotheAvonbyforestsandbeautifulfields,evenswift,evenpure,untiltheymirroredthetowerofChristchurchandgreetedtherampartsoftheIsleofWight。Ofthesehethoughtforamomentashecrossedtheblackriverandenteredtheheartofthemodernworld。
Herehefoundemployment。Hewasnothamperedbygenteeltraditions,and,asitwasnearquarter—day,managedtogettakenonatafurniturewarehouse。HemovedpeoplefromthesuburbstoLondon,fromLondontothesuburbs,fromonesuburbtoanother。
Hiscompanionswerehurriedandquerulous。Inparticular,heloathedtheforeman,apioushumbugwhoallowednoswearing,butindulgedinsomethingfarmoredegraded——theCockneyrepartee。
TheLondonintellect,sopertandshallow,likeastreamthatneverreachestheocean,disgustedhimalmostasmuchastheLondonphysique,whichforallitsdexterityisnotpermanent,andseldomcontinuesintothethirdgeneration。Hisfather,hadheknownit,hadfeltthesame;forbetweenMr。Elliotandtheforemanthegulfwassocial,notspiritual:bothspenttheirlivesintryingtobeclever。AndTonyFailinghadonceputthethingintowords:\"There’snosuchthingasaLondoner。He’sonlyacountrymanontheroadtosterility。\"
Attheendoftendayshehadsavedscarcelyanything。Oncehepassedthebankwhereahundredpoundslayreadyforhim,butitwasstillinconvenientforhimtotakethem。ThendutysenthimtoasuburbnotveryfarfromSawston。Intheeveningamanwhowasdrivingatrapaskedhimtoholdit,andbymistaketippedhimasovereign。Stephencalledafterhim;butthemanhadawomanwithhimandwantedtoshowoff,andthoughhehadmeanttotipashilling,andcouldnotaffordthat,heshoutedbackthathissovereignwasasgoodasanyone’s,andthatifStephendidnotthinksohecoulddovariousthingsandgotovariousplaces。
Ontheactionofthismanmuchdepends。Stephenchangedthesovereignintoapostalorder,andsentitofftothepeopleatCadford。Itdidnotpaythemback,butitpaidthemsomething,andhefeltthathissoulwasfree。
Afewshillingsremainedinhispocket。TheywouldhavepaidhisfaretowardsWiltshire,agoodcounty;butwhatshouldhedothere?Whowouldemployhim?Todaythejourneydidnotseemworthwhile。\"Tomorrow,perhaps,\"hethought,anddeterminedtospendthemoneyonpleasureofanotherkind。Two—pencewentforarideonanelectrictram。Fromthetophesawthesundescend——adiscwithadarkrededge。ThesamesunwasdescendingoverSalisburyintolerablybright。Outofthegoldenhazethespirewouldbepiercing,likeapurpleneedle;thenmistsarosefromtheAvonandtheotherstreams。Lampsflickered,butintheouterpuritythevillageswerealreadyslumbering。SalisburyisonlyaGothicupstartbesidethese。Forgenerationstheyhavecomedowntohertobuyortoworship,andhavefoundinherthereasonablecrisisoftheirlives;butgenerationsbeforeshewasbuilttheywereclingingtothesoil,andrenewingitwithsheepanddogsandmen,whofoundthecrisisoftheirlivesuponStonehenge。ThebloodofthesemenraninStephen;thevigourtheyhadwonforhimwasasyetuntarnished;outonthosedownstheyhadunitedwithroughwomentomakethethinghespokeofas\"himself\";thelastofthemhasrescuedawomanofadifferentkindfromstreetsandhousessuchasthese。Asthesundescendedhegotoffthetramwithasmileofexpectation。Apublic—houselayopposite,andaboyinadirtyuniformwasalreadylightingitsenormouslamp。
Hislipsparted,andhewentin。
Twohourslater,whenRickieandHerbertweregoingtherounds,abrickcamecrashingatthestudywindow。Herbertpeeredintothegarden,andahooliganslippedbyhimintothehouse,wreckedthehall,lurchedupthestairs,fellagainstthebanisters,balancedforamomentonhisspine,andslidover。Herbertcalledforthepolice。Rickie,whowasuponthelanding,caughtthemanbythekneesandsavedhislife。
\"Whatisit?\"criedAgnes,emerging。
\"It’sStephencomeback,\"wastheanswer。\"Hullo,Stephen!\"
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HitherhadRickiemovedintendays——fromdisgusttopenitence,frompenitencetolongingfromalifeofhorrortoanewlife,inwhichhestillsurprisedhimselfbyunexpectedwords。Hullo,Stephen!Forthesonofhismotherhadcomeback,toforgivehim,asshewouldhavedone,tolivewithhim,asshehadplanned。
\"He’sdrunkthistime,\"saidAgneswearily。Shetoohadaltered:
thescandalwasageingher,andAnsellcametothehousedaily。
\"Hullo,Stephen!\"
ButStephenwasnowinsensible。
\"Stephen,youlivehere——\"
\"Goodgraciousme!\"interposedHerbert。\"Myadviceis,thatweallgotobed。Thelesssaidthebetterwhileournervesareinthisstate。Verywell,Rickie。Ofcourse,Wonhamsleepsthenightifyouwish。\"Theycarriedthedrunkenmassintothespareroom。Amassofscandalitseemedtooneofthem,asymbolofredemptiontotheother。Neitheracknowledgeditaman,whowouldanswerthembackafterafewhours’rest。
\"Ansellthoughthewouldneverforgiveme,\"saidRickie。\"Foroncehe’swrong。\"
\"Cometobednow,Ithink。\"AndasRickielaidhishandonthesleeper’shair,headded,\"Youwon’tdoanythingfoolish,willyou?Youarestillinamorbidstate。Yourpoormother——Pardonme,dearboy;itismyturntospeakout。Youthoughtitwasyourfather,andminded。Itisyourmother。Surelyyououghttomindmore?\"
\"Ihavebeentoofarback,\"saidRickiegently。\"Anselltookmeonajourneythatwasevennewtohim。Wegotbehindrightandwrong,toaplacewhereonlyonethingmatters——thattheBelovedshouldrisefromthedead。\"
\"Butyouwon’tdoanythingrash?\"
\"WhyshouldI?\"
\"RememberpoorAgnes,\"hestammered。\"I——Iamthefirsttoacknowledgethatwemighthavepursuedadifferentpolicy。Butwearecommittedtoitnow。Itmakesnodifferencewhosesonheis。
Imean,heisthesameperson。YouandIandmysisterstandorfalltogether。Itwasouragreementfromthefirst。Ihope——Nomoreofthesedistressingsceneswithher,there’sadearfellow。Iassureyoutheymakemyheartbleed。\"
\"Thingswillquietdownnow。\"
\"Tobednow;Iinsistuponthatmuch。\"
\"Verywell,\"saidRickie,andwhentheywereinthepassage,lockedthedoorfromtheoutside。\"Wewantnomoremuddles,\"heexplained。
Mr。Pembrokewasleftexaminingthehall。ThebustofHermeswasbroken。Sowasthepotofthepalm。HecouldnotgotobedwithoutoncemoresoundingRickie。\"You’lldonothingrash,\"hecalled。
\"Thenotionofhimlivingherewas,ofcourse,apassingimpulse。Wethreehaveadoptedacommonpolicy。\"
\"Now,yougoaway!\"calledavoicethatwasalmostflippant。\"I
neverdidbelongtothatgreatsectwhosedoctrineisthateachoneshouldselect——atleast,I’mnotgoingtobelongtoitanylonger。Goawaytobed。\"
\"Agoodnight’srestiswhatyouneed,\"threatenedHerbert,andretired,nottofindoneforhimself。
ButRickieslept。Theguiltofmonthsandtheremorseofthelasttendayshadalikedeparted。Hehadthoughtthathislifewaspoisoned,andlo!itwaspurified。Hehadcursedhismother,andAnsellhadreplied,\"Youmayberight,butyoustandtooneartosettle。Stepbackwards。Pretendthatithappenedtome。Doyouwantmetocursemymother?Now,stepforwardandseewhetheranythinghaschanged。\"Somethinghadchanged。Hehadjourneyed——
asonrareoccasionsamanmust——tillhestoodbehindrightandwrong。Onthebanksofthegreytorrentoflife,loveistheonlyflower。AlittlewayupthestreamandalittlewaydownhadRickieglanced,andheknewthatshewhomhelovedhadrisenfromthedead,andmightriseagain。\"Comeaway——letthemdieout——letthemdieout。\"Surelythatdreamwasavision!To—nightalsohehurriedtothewindow——toremember,withasmile,thatOrionisnotamongthestarsofJune。
\"Letmedieout。Shewillcontinue,\"hemurmured,andinmakingplansforStephen’shappiness,fellasleep。
NextmorningafterbreakfastheannouncedthathisbrothermustliveatDunwoodHouse。Theywereawedbytheverymoderationofhistone。\"There’snothingelsetobedone。Cadover’shopeless,andaboyofthosetendenciescan’tgodrifting。Thereisalsothequestionofaprofessionforhim,andhisallowance。\"
\"WehavetothankMr。Ansellforthis,\"wasallthatAgnescouldsay;and\"Iforeseedisaster,\"wasthecontributionofHerbert。
\"There’splentyofmoneyabout,\"Rickiecontinued。\"Quiteaman’s—worthtoomuch。Ithasbeenoneofourabsurdities。Don’tlooksosad,Herbert。I’msorryforyoupeople,buthe’ssuretoletusdowneasy。\"ForhisexperienceofdrunkardsandofStephenwassmall。
Hesupposedthathehadcomewithoutmalicetorenewtheofferoftendaysago。
\"ItistheendofDunwoodHouse。\"
Rickienodded,andhopednot。Agnes,whowasnotlookingwell,begantocry。\"Oh,itistoobad,\"shecomplained,\"whenI’vesavedyoufromhimalltheseyears。\"Buthecouldnotpityher,norevensympathizewithherwoundeddelicacy。Thetimeforsuchnonsensewasover。Hewouldtakehisshareoftheblame:itwascanttoassumeitall。
Perhapshewasover—hard。Hedidnotrealizehowlargehissharewas,norhowhisveryvirtuesweretoblameforherdeterioration。
\"IfIhadagirl,I’dkeepherinline,\"isnottheremarkofafoolnorofacad。Rickiehadnotkepthiswifeinline。Hehadshownheralltheworkingsofhissoul,mistakingthisforlove;
andinconsequenceshewastheworsewomanaftertwoyearsofmarriage,andhe,onthismorningoffreedom,washarderuponherthanheneedhavebeen。
Thespareroombellrang。Herberthadapainfulstrugglebetweencuriosityandduty,forthebellforchapelwasringingalso,andhemustgothroughthedrizzletoschool。Hepromisedtocomeupintheinterval,Rickie,whohadrappedhisheadthatSundayontheedgeofthetable,wasstillforbiddentowork。Beforehimaquietmorninglay。Secureofhisvictory,hetooktheportraitoftheirmotherinhishandandwalkedleisurelyupstairs。Thebellcontinuedtoring。
\"Seeabouthisbreakfast,\"hecalledtoAgnes,whoreplied,\"Verywell。\"Thehandleofthespareroomdoorwasmovingslowly。\"I’mcoming,\"hecried。Thehandlewasstill。Heunlockedandentered,hisheartfullofcharity。
Butwithinstoodamanwhoprobablyownedtheworld。
Rickiescarcelyknewhim;lastnighthehadseemedsocolorless,nonegligible。Inafewhourshehadrecapturedmotionandpassionandtheimprintofthesunlightandthewind。Hestood,notconsciouslyheroic,witharmsthatdangledfrombroadstoopingshoulders,andfeetthatplayedwithahassockonthecarpet。Buthishairwasbeautifulagainstthegreysky,andhiseyes,recallingtheskyunclouded,shotpasttheintruderasiftosomeworthiervision。SointentwastheirgazethatRickiehimselfglancedbackwards,onlytoseetheneatpassageandthebanistersatthetopofthestairs。Thenthelipsbeattogethertwice,andoutburstatorrentofamazingwords。
\"Additallup,andletmeknowhowmuch。I’dsoonerhavedied。
Itnevertookmethatwaybefore。Imusthavebrokenpounds’worth。
Ifyou’llnottellthepolice,Ipromiseyoushan’tlose,Mr。
Elliot,Iswear。ButitmaybemonthsbeforeIsendit。
Everythingistobenew。You’venottobeapennyoutofpocket,doyousee?Doletmego,thisonceagain。\"
\"What’sthetrouble?\"askedRickie,asiftheyhadbeenfriendsforyears。\"Mydearman,we’veotherthingstotalkabout。
Graciousme,whatafuss!Ifyou’dsmashedthewholehouseI
wouldn’tmind,solongasyoucameback。\"
\"I’dsoonerhavedied,\"gulpedStephen。
\"Youdidnearly!ItwasIwhocaughtyou。Nevermindyesterday’srag。Whatcanyoumanageforbreakfast?\"
Thefacegrewmoreangryandmorepuzzled。\"Yesterdaywasn’tarag,\"hesaidwithoutfocusinghiseyes。\"Iwasdrunk,butnaturallymeantit。\"
\"Meantwhat?\"
\"Tosmashyou。BadliquordidwhatMrs。Elliotcouldn’t。I’veputmyselfinthewrong。You’vegotme。\"
Itwasapoorbeginning。
\"AsIhavegotyou,\"saidRickie,controllinghimself,\"Iwanttohaveatalkwithyou。Therehasbeenaghastlymistake。\"
ButStephen,withacountryman’spersistency,continuedonhisownline。Hemeanttobecivil,butRickiewentcoldroundthemouth。Forhehadnotevenbeenangrywiththem。Untilhewasdrunk,theyhadbeendirtypeople——nothissort。Thenthetrivialinjuryrecurred,andhehadreeledtosmashthemashepassed。
\"AndIwillpayforeverything,\"washisrefrain,withwhichthesighingofraindropsmingled。\"Youshan’tloseapenny,ifonlyyouletmefree。\"
\"You’llpayformycoffinifyoutalklikethatanylonger!Willyou,one,forgivemyfrightfulbehaviour;two,livewithme?\"Forhisonlyhopewasinacheerfulprecision。
Stephengrewmoreagitated。Hethoughtitwassometrick。
\"IwassayingImadeanunspeakablemistake。Ansellputmeright,butitwastoolatetofindyou。Don’tthinkIgotoffeasily。
Anselldoesn’tspareone。Andyou’vegottoforgiveme,tosharemylife,tosharemymoney。——I’vebroughtyouthisphotograph——I
wantittobethefirstthingyouacceptfromme——youhavethegreaterright——Iknowallthestorynow。Youknowwhoitis?\"
\"Ohyes;butIdon’twanttodragallthatin。\"