Shewas,itseems,thewidowofBenington,whomIknewinSpain。ThismanwasanEnglishmerchantsettledatBarcelona,towhomIhadbeencommendedbyLudloe\'sletters,andthroughwhommypecuniarysupplieswerefurnished……Muchintercourseandsomedegreeofintimacyhadtakenplacebetweenus,andIhadgainedaprettyaccurateknowledgeofhischaracter。Ihadbeeninformed,throughdifferentchannels,thathiswifewasmuchhissuperiorinrank,thatshepossessedgreatwealthinherownright,andthatsomedisagreementoftemperorviewsoccasionedtheirseparation。Shehadmarriedhimforlove,andstilldoatedonhim:
theoccasionsforseparationhavingarisen,itseems,notonhersidebutonhis。Ashishabitsofreflectionwerenowisefriendlytoreligion,andashers,accordingtoLudloe,wereoftheoppositekind,itispossiblethatsomejarringhadarisenbetweenthemfromthissource。Indeed,fromsomecasualandbrokenhintsofBenington,especiallyinthelatterpartofhislife,Ihadlongsincegatheredthisconjecture……Something,thoughtI,maybederivedfrommyacquaintancewithherhusbandfavourabletomyviews。
IanxiouslywaitedforanopportunityofacquaintingLudloewithmyresolution。Onthedayofourlastconversation,hehadmadeashortexcursionfromtown,intendingtoreturnthesameevening,buthadcontinuedabsentforseveraldays。Assoonashecameback,Ihastenedtoacquainthimwithmywishes。
Haveyouwellconsideredthismatter,saidhe。Beassureditisofnotrivialimport。Themomentatwhichyouenterthepresenceofthiswomanwilldecideyourfuturedestiny。Evenputtingoutofviewthesubjectofourlateconversations,thelightinwhichyoushallappeartoherwillgreatlyinfluenceyourhappiness,since,thoughyoucannotfailtoloveher,itisquiteuncertainwhatreturnshemaythinkpropertomake。Much,doubtless,willdependonyourownperseveranceandaddress,butyouwillhavemany,perhapsinsuperableobstaclestoencounteronseveralaccounts,andespeciallyinherattachmenttothememoryofherlatehusband。Astoherdevouttemper,thisisnearlyalliedtoawarmimaginationinsomeotherrespects,andwilloperatemuchmoreinfavourofanardentandartfullover,thanagainsthim。
Istillexpressedmywillingnesstotrymyfortunewithher。
Well,saidhe,Ianticipatedyourconsenttomyproposal,andthevisitIhavejustmadewastoher。Ithoughtitbesttopavetheway,byinformingherthatIhadmetwithoneforwhomshehaddesiredmetolookout。Youmustknowthatherfatherwasoneofthesesingularmenwhosetavalueuponthingsexactlyinproportiontothedifficultyofobtainingorcomprehendingthem。
Hispassionwasforantiques,andhisfavouritepursuitduringalonglifewasmonumentsinbrass,marble,andparchment,oftheremotestantiquity。Hewaswhollyindifferenttothecharacterorconductofourpresentsovereignandhisministers,butwasextremelysolicitousaboutthenameandexploitsofakingofIrelandthatlivedtwoorthreecenturiesbeforetheflood。Hefeltnocuriositytoknowwhowasthefatherofhiswife\'schild,butwouldtravelathousandmiles,andconsumemonths,ininvestigatingwhichsonofNoahitwasthatfirstlandedonthecoastofMunster。Hewouldgiveahundredguineasfromthemintforapieceofolddecayedcoppernobiggerthanhisnail,providedithadaukwardcharactersuponit,toomuchdefacedtoberead。
Thewholestockofagreatbooksellerwas,inhiseyes,acheapexchangeforashredofparchment,containinghalfahomilywrittenbySt。Patrick。HewouldhavegratefullygivenallhispatrimonialdomainstoonewhoshouldinformhimwhatpendragonordruiditwaswhosetupthefirststoneonSalisburyplain。
Thisspirit,asyoumayreadilysuppose,beingsecondedbygreatwealthandlonglife,contributedtoformaverylargecollectionofvenerablelumber,which,thoughbeyondallpricetothecollectorhimself,isofnovaluetohisheiressbutsofarasitismarketable。Shedesignstobringthewholetoauction,butforthispurposeacatalogueanddescriptionarenecessary。Herfathertrustedtoafaithfulmemory,andtovagueandscarcelylegiblememorandums,andhasleftaveryarduoustasktoanyonewhoshallbenamedtotheoffice。Itoccurredtome,thatthebestmeansofpromotingyourviewswastorecommendyoutothisoffice。
Youarenotentirelywithouttheantiquarianfrenzyyourself。
Theemployment,therefore,willbesomewhatagreeabletoyouforitsownsake。Itwillentitleyoutobecomeaninmateofthesamehouse,andthusestablishanincessantintercoursebetweenyou,andthenatureofthebusinessissuch,thatyoumayperformitinwhattime,andwithwhatdegreeofdiligenceandaccuracyyouplease。
Iventuredtoinsinuatethat,toawomanofrankandfamily,thecharacterofahirelingwasbynomeansafavourablerecommendation。
Heanswered,thatheproposed,bytheaccountheshouldgiveofme,toobviateeveryscrupleofthatnature。Thoughmyfatherwasnobetterthanafarmer,itisnotabsolutelycertainbutthatmyremoterancestorshadprincelybloodintheirveins:butaslongasproofsofmylowextractiondidnotimpertinentlyintrudethemselves,mysilence,or,atmost,equivocalsurmises,seasonablymadeuseof,mightsecuremefromallinconveniencesonthescoreofbirth。Heshouldrepresentme,andIwassuch,ashisfriend,favourite,andequal,andmypassionforantiquitiesshouldbemyprincipalinducementtoundertakethisoffice,thoughmypovertywouldmakenoobjectiontoareasonablepecuniaryrecompense。
Havingexpressedmyacquiescenceinhismeasures,hethusproceeded:Myvisitwasmadetomykinswoman,forthepurpose,asIjustnowtoldyou,ofpavingyourwayintoherfamily;but,onmyarrivalatherhouse,Ifoundnothingbutdisorderandalarm。Mrs。
Benington,itseems,onreturningfromalongerridethancustomary,lastThursdayevening,wasattackedbyrobbers。Herattendantsrelatedanimperfecttaleofsomebodyadvancingatthecriticalmomenttoherrescue。Itseems,however,theydidmoreharmthangood;forthehorsestooktoflightandoverturnedthecarriage,inconsequenceofwhichMrs。Beningtonwasseverelybruised。Shehaskeptherbedeversince,andafeverwaslikelytoensue,whichhasonlyleftheroutofdangerto-day。
Astheadventurebeforerelated,inwhichIhadsomuchconcern,occurredatthetimementionedbyLudloe,andasallothercircumstanceswerealike,IcouldnotdoubtthatthepersonwhomtheexertionofmymysteriouspowershadrelievedwasMrs。
Benington:butwhatanill-omenedinterferencewasmine!Therobberswouldprobablyhavebeensatisfiedwiththefewguineasinherpurse,and,onreceivingthese,wouldhavelefthertoprosecuteherjourneyinpeaceandsecurity,but,byabsurdlyofferingasuccour,whichcouldonlyoperateuponthefearsofherassailants,Iendangeredherlife,firstbythedesperatedischargeofapistol,andnextbythefrightofthehorses……
Myanxiety,whichwouldhavebeenlessifIhadnotbeen,insomedegree,myselftheauthoroftheevil,wasnearlyremovedbyLudloe\'sproceedingtoassuremethatalldangerwasatanend,andthathelefttheladyintheroadtoperfecthealth。Hehadseizedtheearliestopportunityofacquaintingherwiththepurposeofhisvisit,andhadbroughtbackwithhimhercheerfulacceptanceofmyservices。Thenextweekwasappointedformyintroduction。
Withsuchanobjectinview,Ihadlittleleisuretoattendtoanyindifferentobject。Mythoughtswerecontinuallybentupontheexpectedintroduction,andmyimpatienceandcuriositydrewstrength,notmerelyfromthecharacterofMrs。Benington,butfromthenatureofmynewemployment。Ludloehadtrulyobserved,thatIwasinfectedwithsomewhatofthisantiquarianmaniamyself,andInowrememberedthatBeningtonhadfrequentlyalludedtothiscollectioninpossessionofhiswife。Mycuriosityhadthenbeenmorethanonceexcitedbyhisrepresentations,andIhadformedavagueresolutionofmakingmyselfacquaintedwiththisladyandherlearnedtreasure,shouldIeverreturntoIrelandOtherincidentshaddriventhismatterfrommymind。
Meanwhile,affairsbetweenLudloeandmyselfremainedstationary。Ourconferences,whichwereregularanddaily,relatedtogeneraltopics,andthoughhisinstructionswereadaptedtopromotemyimprovementinthemostusefulbranchesofknowledge,theyneveraffordedaglimpsetowardsthatquarterwheremycuriositywasmostactive。
Thenextweeknowarrived,butLudloeinformedmethatthestateofMrs。Benington\'shealthrequiredashortexcursionintothecountry,andthathehimselfproposedtobearhercompany。Thejourneywastolastaboutafortnight,afterwhichImightpreparemyselfforanintroductiontoher。
Thiswasaveryunexpectedanddisagreeabletrialtomypatience。Theintervalofsolitudethatnowsucceededwouldhavepassedrapidlyandpleasantlyenough,ifaneventofsomuchmomentwerenotinsuspense。Books,ofwhichIwaspassionatelyfond,wouldhaveaffordedmedelightfulandincessantoccupation,andLudloe,bywayofreconcilingmetounavoidabledelays,hadgivenmeaccesstoalittlecloset,inwhichhisrarerandmorevaluablebookswerekept。
Allmyamusements,bothbyinclinationandnecessity,werecenteredinmyselfandathome。Ludloeappearedtohavenovisitants,andthoughfrequentlyabroad,oratleastsecludedfromme,hadneverproposedmyintroductiontoanyofhisfriends,exceptMrs。Benington。Myobligationstohimwerealreadytoogreattoallowmetolayclaimtonewfavoursandindulgences,nor,indeed,wasmydispositionsuchastomakesocietyneedfultomyhappiness。Mycharacterhadbeen,insomedegree,modelledbythefacultywhichIpossessed。Thisderivingallitssupposedvaluefromimpenetrablesecrecy,andLudloe\'sadmonitionstendingpowerfullytoimpressmewiththenecessityofwarinessandcircumspectioninmygeneralintercoursewithmankind,Ihadgraduallyfallenintosedate,reserved,mysterious,andunsociablehabits。Myheartwantednotafriend。
Inthistemperofmind,IsetmyselftoexaminethenoveltieswhichLudloe\'sprivatebook-casescontained。\'Twillbestrange,thoughtI,ifhisfavouritevolumedonotshowsomemarksofmyfriend\'scharacter。Toknowaman\'sfavouriteormostconstantstudiescannotfailoflettinginsomelittlelightuponhissecretthoughts,andthoughhewouldnothavegivenmethereadingofthesebooks,ifhehadthoughtthemcapableofunveilingmoreofhisconcernsthanhewished,yetpossiblymyingenuitymaygoonestepfartherthanhedreamsof。YoushalljudgewhetherIwasrightinmyconjectures。
ChapterIX。
Thebookswhichcomposedthislittlelibrarywerechieflythevoyagesandtravelsofthemissionariesofthesixteenthandseventeenthcenturies。Addedtotheseweresomeworksuponpoliticaleconomyandlegislation。Thosewriterswhohaveamusedthemselveswithreducingtheirideastopractice,anddrawingimaginarypicturesofnationsorrepublics,whosemannersorgovernmentcameuptotheirstandardofexcellence,were,allofwhomIhadeverheard,andsomeIhadneverheardofbefore,tobefoundinthiscollection。AtranslationofAristotle\'srepublic,thepoliticalromancesofsirThomasMoore,Harrington,andHume,appearedtohavebeenmuchread,andLudlowhadnotbeensparingofhismarginalcomments。Inthesewritersheappearedtofindnothingbuterrorandabsurdity;andhisnoteswereintroducedfornootherendthantopointoutgroundlessprinciplesandfalseconclusionsThestyleoftheseremarkswasalreadyfamiliartome。Isawnothingnewinthem,ordifferentfromthestrainofthosespeculationswithwhichLudlowwasaccustomedtoindulgehimselfinconversationwithme。
Afterhavingturnedovertheleavesoftheprintedvolumes,I
atlengthlightedonasmallbookofmaps,fromwhich,ofcourse,Icouldreasonablyexpectnoinformation,onthatpointaboutwhichIwasmostcurious。Itwasanatlas,inwhichthemapshadbeendrawnbythepen。Noneofthemcontainedanythingremarkable,sofarasI,whowasindeedasmattereringeography,wasabletoperceive,tillIcametotheend,whenInoticedamap,whoseprototypeIwaswhollyunacquaintedwith。Itwasdrawnonaprettylargescale,representingtwoislands,whichboresomefaintresemblance,intheirrelativeproportions,atleast,toGreatBritainandIreland。Inshapetheywerewidelydifferent,butastosizetherewasnoscalebywhichtomeasurethem。Fromthegreatnumberofsubdivisions,andfromsigns,whichapparentlyrepresentedtownsandcities,Iwasallowedtoinfer,thatthecountrywasatleastasextensiveastheBritishisles。Thismapwasapparentlyunfinished,forithadnonamesinscribeduponit。
Ihavejustsaid,mygeographicalknowledgewasimperfect。
ThoughIhadnotenoughtodrawtheoutlinesofanycountrybymemory,IhadstillsufficienttorecognizewhatIhadbeforeseen,andtodiscoverthatnoneofthelargerislandsinourgloberesembledtheonebeforeme。Havingsuchandsostrongmotivestocuriosity,youmayeasilyimaginemysensationsonsurveyingthismap。Suspecting,asIdid,thatmanyofLudlow\'sintimationsalludedtoacountrywellknowntohim,thoughunknowntoothers,Iwas,ofcourse,inclinedtosupposethatthiscountrywasnowbeforeme。
Insearchofsomecluetothismystery,Icarefullyinspectedtheothermapsinthiscollection。InamapoftheeasternhemisphereIsoonobservedtheoutlinesofislands,which,thoughonascalegreatlydiminished,wereplainlysimilartothatofthelandabovedescribed。
ItiswellknownthatthepeopleofEuropearestrangerstoverynearlyonehalfofthesurfaceoftheglobe。*Fromthesouthpoleuptotheequator,itisonlythesmallspaceoccupiedbysouthernAfricaandbySouthAmericawithwhichweareacquainted。
Thereisavastextent,sufficienttoreceiveacontinentaslargeasNorthAmerica,whichourignorancehasfilledonlywithwater。
InLudlow\'smapsnothingwasstilltobeseen,intheseregions,butwater,exceptinthatspotwherethetransverseparallelsofthesoutherntropicandthe150thdegreeeastlongitudeintersecteachother。OnthisspotwereLudlow\'sislandsplaced,thoughwithoutanynameorinscriptionwhatever。
IneedednottobetoldthatthisspothadneverbeenexploredbyanyEuropeanvoyager,whohadpublishedhisadventures。WhatauthorityhadLudlowforfixingahabitablelandinthisspot?andwhydidhegiveusnothingbutthecoursesofshoresandrivers,andthesciteoftownsandvillages,withoutaname?
AssoonasLudlowhadsetoutuponhisproposedjourneyofafortnight,Iunlockedhiscloset,andcontinuedrummagingamongthesebooksandmapstillnight。BythattimeIhadturnedovereverybookandalmosteveryleafinthissmallcollection,anddidnotopentheclosetagaintillneartheendofthatperiod。
MeanwhileIhadmanyreflectionsuponthisremarkablecircumstance。
CouldLudlowhaveintendedthatIshouldseethisatlas?Itwastheonlybookthatcouldbestyledamanuscriptontheseshelves,anditwasplacedbeneathseveralothers,inasituationfarfrombeingobviousandforwardtotheeyeorthehand。Wasitanoversightinhimtoleaveitinmyway,orcouldhehaveintendedtoleadmycuriosityandknowledgealittlefartheronwardbythisaccidentaldisclosure?IneithercasehowwasItoregulatemyfuturedeportmenttowardhim?WasItospeakandactasifthisatlashadescapedmyattentionornot?Ihadalready,aftermyfirstexaminationofit,placedthevolumeexactlywhereIfoundit。OneverysuppositionIthoughtthiswasthesafestway,andunlockedtheclosetasecondtime,toseethatallwaspreciselyintheoriginalorderHowwasIdismayedandconfoundedoninspectingtheshelvestoperceivethattheatlaswasgone。Thiswasatheft,which,fromtheclosetbeingunderlockandkey,andthekeyalwaysinmyownpocket,andwhich,fromtheverynatureofthethingstolen,couldnotbeimputedtoanyofthedomestics。
Afterafewmomentsasuspicionoccurred,whichwassoonchangedintOcertaintybyapplyingtothehousekeeper,whotoldmethatLudlowhadreturned,apparentlyinmuchhaste,theeveningofthedayonwhichhehadsetoutuponhisjourney,andjustafterIhadleftthehouse,thathehadgoneintotheroomwherethisclosetofbookswas,and,afterafewminutes\'stay,cameoutagainandwentaway。Shetoldmealso,thathehadmadegeneralenquiriesafterme,towhichshehadanswered,thatshehadnotseenmeduringtheday,andsupposedthatIhadspentthewholeofitabroad。Fromthisaccountitwasplain,thatLudlowhadreturnedfornootherpurposebuttoremovethisbookoutofmyreach。Butifhehadadoublekeytothisdoor,whatshouldhinderhishavingaccess,bythesamemeans,toeveryotherlockedupplaceinthehouse?
Thissuggestionmademestartwithterror。Ofsoobviousameansforpossessingaknowledgeofeverythingunderhisroof,I
hadneverbeentillthismomentaware。Suchistheinfatuationwhichlaysourmostsecretthoughtsopentotheworld\'sscrutiny。
Wearefrequentlyinmostdangerwhenwedeemourselvesmostsafe,andourfortressistakensometimesthroughapoint,whoseweaknessnothing,itshouldseem,buttheblindeststupiditycouldoverlook。
Myterrors,indeed,quicklysubsidedwhenIcametorecollectthattherewasnothinginanyclosetorcabinetofminewhichcouldpossiblythrowlightuponsubjectswhichIdesiredtokeepinthedark。ThemorecarefullyIinspectedmyowndrawers,andthemoreIreflectedonthecharacterofLudlow,asIhadknownit,thelessreasondidthereappearinmysuspicions;butIdrewalessonofcautionfromthiscircumstance,whichcontributedtomyfuturesafety。
FromthisincidentIcouldnotbutinferLudlow\'sunwillingnesstoletmesofarintohisgeographicalsecret,aswellasthecertaintyofthatsuspicion,whichhadveryearlybeensuggestedtomythoughts,thatLudlow\'splansofcivilizationhadbeencarriedintopracticeinsomeunvisitedcorneroftheworld。
Itwasstrange,however,thatheshouldbetrayhimselfbysuchaninadvertency。Onewhotalkedsoconfidentlyofhisownpowers,tounveilanysecretofmine,and,atthesametime,toconcealhisowntransactions,hadsurelycommittedanunpardonableerrorinleavingthisimportantdocumentinmyway。Myreverence,indeed,forLudlowwassuch,thatIsometimesentertainedthenotionthatthisseemingoversightwas,intruth,aregularcontrivancetosupplymewithaknowledge,ofwhich,whenIcamematurelytoreflect,itwasimpossibleformetomakeanyilluse。Thereisnouseinrelatingwhatwouldnotbebelieved;andshouldIpublishtotheworldtheexistenceofislandsinthespaceallottedbyLudlow\'smapstothese~incognitae~,whatwouldtheworldanswer?
Thatwhetherthespacedescribedwasseaorlandwasofnoimportance。Thatthemoralandpoliticalconditionofitsinhabitantswastheonlytopicworthyofrationalcuriosity。SinceIhadgainednoinformationuponthispoint;sinceIhadnothingtodisclosebutvainandfantasticsurmises;Imightaswellbeignorantofeverything。Thus,fromsecretlycondemningLudlow\'simprudence,Igraduallypassedtoadmirationofhispolicy。Thisdiscoveryhadnoothereffectthantostimulatemycuriosity;tokeepupmyzealtoprosecutethejourneyIhadcommencedunderhisauspices。
IhadhithertoformedaresolutiontostopwhereIwasinLudlow\'sconfidence:towaittillthesuccessshouldbeascertainedofmyprojectswithrespecttoMrs。Benington,beforeImadeanynewadvanceintheperilousandmysteriousroadintowhichhehadledmysteps。But,beforethistediousfortnighthadelapsed,Iwasgrownextremelyimpatientforaninterview,andhadnearlyresolvedtoundertakewhateverobligationheshouldlayuponme。
Thisobligationwasindeedaheavyone,sinceitincludedtheconfessionofmyvocalpowers。Initselftheconfessionwaslittle。Topossessthisfacultywasneitherlaudablenorculpable,norhaditbeenexercisedinawaywhichIshouldbeverymuchashamedtoacknowledge。Ithadledmeintomanyinsinceritiesandartifices,which,thoughnotjustifiablebyanycreed,wasentitledtosomeexcuse,onthescoreofyouthfulardourandtemerity。Thetruedifficultyinthewayoftheseconfessionswasthenothavingmadethemalready。Ludlowhadlongbeenentitledtothisconfidence,and,thoughtheexistenceofthispowerwasvenialorwhollyinnocent,theobstinateconcealmentofitwasadifferentmatter,andwouldcertainlyexposemetosuspicionandrebuke。Butwhatwasthealternative?Toconcealit。Toincurthosedreadfulpunishmentsawardedagainsttreasoninthisparticular。Ludlow\'smenacesstillrunginmyears,andappalledmyheart。HowshouldIbeabletoshunthem?ByconcealingfromeveryonewhatI
concealedfromhim?Howwasmyconcealmentofsuchafacultytobesuspectedorproved?UnlessIbetrayedmyself,whocouldbetrayme?