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  Shewas,itseems,thewidowofBenington,whomIknewinSpain。ThismanwasanEnglishmerchantsettledatBarcelona,towhomIhadbeencommendedbyLudloe\'sletters,andthroughwhommypecuniarysupplieswerefurnished……Muchintercourseandsomedegreeofintimacyhadtakenplacebetweenus,andIhadgainedaprettyaccurateknowledgeofhischaracter。Ihadbeeninformed,throughdifferentchannels,thathiswifewasmuchhissuperiorinrank,thatshepossessedgreatwealthinherownright,andthatsomedisagreementoftemperorviewsoccasionedtheirseparation。Shehadmarriedhimforlove,andstilldoatedonhim:

  theoccasionsforseparationhavingarisen,itseems,notonhersidebutonhis。Ashishabitsofreflectionwerenowisefriendlytoreligion,andashers,accordingtoLudloe,wereoftheoppositekind,itispossiblethatsomejarringhadarisenbetweenthemfromthissource。Indeed,fromsomecasualandbrokenhintsofBenington,especiallyinthelatterpartofhislife,Ihadlongsincegatheredthisconjecture……Something,thoughtI,maybederivedfrommyacquaintancewithherhusbandfavourabletomyviews。

  IanxiouslywaitedforanopportunityofacquaintingLudloewithmyresolution。Onthedayofourlastconversation,hehadmadeashortexcursionfromtown,intendingtoreturnthesameevening,buthadcontinuedabsentforseveraldays。Assoonashecameback,Ihastenedtoacquainthimwithmywishes。

  Haveyouwellconsideredthismatter,saidhe。Beassureditisofnotrivialimport。Themomentatwhichyouenterthepresenceofthiswomanwilldecideyourfuturedestiny。Evenputtingoutofviewthesubjectofourlateconversations,thelightinwhichyoushallappeartoherwillgreatlyinfluenceyourhappiness,since,thoughyoucannotfailtoloveher,itisquiteuncertainwhatreturnshemaythinkpropertomake。Much,doubtless,willdependonyourownperseveranceandaddress,butyouwillhavemany,perhapsinsuperableobstaclestoencounteronseveralaccounts,andespeciallyinherattachmenttothememoryofherlatehusband。Astoherdevouttemper,thisisnearlyalliedtoawarmimaginationinsomeotherrespects,andwilloperatemuchmoreinfavourofanardentandartfullover,thanagainsthim。

  Istillexpressedmywillingnesstotrymyfortunewithher。

  Well,saidhe,Ianticipatedyourconsenttomyproposal,andthevisitIhavejustmadewastoher。Ithoughtitbesttopavetheway,byinformingherthatIhadmetwithoneforwhomshehaddesiredmetolookout。Youmustknowthatherfatherwasoneofthesesingularmenwhosetavalueuponthingsexactlyinproportiontothedifficultyofobtainingorcomprehendingthem。

  Hispassionwasforantiques,andhisfavouritepursuitduringalonglifewasmonumentsinbrass,marble,andparchment,oftheremotestantiquity。Hewaswhollyindifferenttothecharacterorconductofourpresentsovereignandhisministers,butwasextremelysolicitousaboutthenameandexploitsofakingofIrelandthatlivedtwoorthreecenturiesbeforetheflood。Hefeltnocuriositytoknowwhowasthefatherofhiswife\'schild,butwouldtravelathousandmiles,andconsumemonths,ininvestigatingwhichsonofNoahitwasthatfirstlandedonthecoastofMunster。Hewouldgiveahundredguineasfromthemintforapieceofolddecayedcoppernobiggerthanhisnail,providedithadaukwardcharactersuponit,toomuchdefacedtoberead。

  Thewholestockofagreatbooksellerwas,inhiseyes,acheapexchangeforashredofparchment,containinghalfahomilywrittenbySt。Patrick。HewouldhavegratefullygivenallhispatrimonialdomainstoonewhoshouldinformhimwhatpendragonordruiditwaswhosetupthefirststoneonSalisburyplain。

  Thisspirit,asyoumayreadilysuppose,beingsecondedbygreatwealthandlonglife,contributedtoformaverylargecollectionofvenerablelumber,which,thoughbeyondallpricetothecollectorhimself,isofnovaluetohisheiressbutsofarasitismarketable。Shedesignstobringthewholetoauction,butforthispurposeacatalogueanddescriptionarenecessary。Herfathertrustedtoafaithfulmemory,andtovagueandscarcelylegiblememorandums,andhasleftaveryarduoustasktoanyonewhoshallbenamedtotheoffice。Itoccurredtome,thatthebestmeansofpromotingyourviewswastorecommendyoutothisoffice。

  Youarenotentirelywithouttheantiquarianfrenzyyourself。

  Theemployment,therefore,willbesomewhatagreeabletoyouforitsownsake。Itwillentitleyoutobecomeaninmateofthesamehouse,andthusestablishanincessantintercoursebetweenyou,andthenatureofthebusinessissuch,thatyoumayperformitinwhattime,andwithwhatdegreeofdiligenceandaccuracyyouplease。

  Iventuredtoinsinuatethat,toawomanofrankandfamily,thecharacterofahirelingwasbynomeansafavourablerecommendation。

  Heanswered,thatheproposed,bytheaccountheshouldgiveofme,toobviateeveryscrupleofthatnature。Thoughmyfatherwasnobetterthanafarmer,itisnotabsolutelycertainbutthatmyremoterancestorshadprincelybloodintheirveins:butaslongasproofsofmylowextractiondidnotimpertinentlyintrudethemselves,mysilence,or,atmost,equivocalsurmises,seasonablymadeuseof,mightsecuremefromallinconveniencesonthescoreofbirth。Heshouldrepresentme,andIwassuch,ashisfriend,favourite,andequal,andmypassionforantiquitiesshouldbemyprincipalinducementtoundertakethisoffice,thoughmypovertywouldmakenoobjectiontoareasonablepecuniaryrecompense。

  Havingexpressedmyacquiescenceinhismeasures,hethusproceeded:Myvisitwasmadetomykinswoman,forthepurpose,asIjustnowtoldyou,ofpavingyourwayintoherfamily;but,onmyarrivalatherhouse,Ifoundnothingbutdisorderandalarm。Mrs。

  Benington,itseems,onreturningfromalongerridethancustomary,lastThursdayevening,wasattackedbyrobbers。Herattendantsrelatedanimperfecttaleofsomebodyadvancingatthecriticalmomenttoherrescue。Itseems,however,theydidmoreharmthangood;forthehorsestooktoflightandoverturnedthecarriage,inconsequenceofwhichMrs。Beningtonwasseverelybruised。Shehaskeptherbedeversince,andafeverwaslikelytoensue,whichhasonlyleftheroutofdangerto-day。

  Astheadventurebeforerelated,inwhichIhadsomuchconcern,occurredatthetimementionedbyLudloe,andasallothercircumstanceswerealike,IcouldnotdoubtthatthepersonwhomtheexertionofmymysteriouspowershadrelievedwasMrs。

  Benington:butwhatanill-omenedinterferencewasmine!Therobberswouldprobablyhavebeensatisfiedwiththefewguineasinherpurse,and,onreceivingthese,wouldhavelefthertoprosecuteherjourneyinpeaceandsecurity,but,byabsurdlyofferingasuccour,whichcouldonlyoperateuponthefearsofherassailants,Iendangeredherlife,firstbythedesperatedischargeofapistol,andnextbythefrightofthehorses……

  Myanxiety,whichwouldhavebeenlessifIhadnotbeen,insomedegree,myselftheauthoroftheevil,wasnearlyremovedbyLudloe\'sproceedingtoassuremethatalldangerwasatanend,andthathelefttheladyintheroadtoperfecthealth。Hehadseizedtheearliestopportunityofacquaintingherwiththepurposeofhisvisit,andhadbroughtbackwithhimhercheerfulacceptanceofmyservices。Thenextweekwasappointedformyintroduction。

  Withsuchanobjectinview,Ihadlittleleisuretoattendtoanyindifferentobject。Mythoughtswerecontinuallybentupontheexpectedintroduction,andmyimpatienceandcuriositydrewstrength,notmerelyfromthecharacterofMrs。Benington,butfromthenatureofmynewemployment。Ludloehadtrulyobserved,thatIwasinfectedwithsomewhatofthisantiquarianmaniamyself,andInowrememberedthatBeningtonhadfrequentlyalludedtothiscollectioninpossessionofhiswife。Mycuriosityhadthenbeenmorethanonceexcitedbyhisrepresentations,andIhadformedavagueresolutionofmakingmyselfacquaintedwiththisladyandherlearnedtreasure,shouldIeverreturntoIrelandOtherincidentshaddriventhismatterfrommymind。

  Meanwhile,affairsbetweenLudloeandmyselfremainedstationary。Ourconferences,whichwereregularanddaily,relatedtogeneraltopics,andthoughhisinstructionswereadaptedtopromotemyimprovementinthemostusefulbranchesofknowledge,theyneveraffordedaglimpsetowardsthatquarterwheremycuriositywasmostactive。

  Thenextweeknowarrived,butLudloeinformedmethatthestateofMrs。Benington\'shealthrequiredashortexcursionintothecountry,andthathehimselfproposedtobearhercompany。Thejourneywastolastaboutafortnight,afterwhichImightpreparemyselfforanintroductiontoher。

  Thiswasaveryunexpectedanddisagreeabletrialtomypatience。Theintervalofsolitudethatnowsucceededwouldhavepassedrapidlyandpleasantlyenough,ifaneventofsomuchmomentwerenotinsuspense。Books,ofwhichIwaspassionatelyfond,wouldhaveaffordedmedelightfulandincessantoccupation,andLudloe,bywayofreconcilingmetounavoidabledelays,hadgivenmeaccesstoalittlecloset,inwhichhisrarerandmorevaluablebookswerekept。

  Allmyamusements,bothbyinclinationandnecessity,werecenteredinmyselfandathome。Ludloeappearedtohavenovisitants,andthoughfrequentlyabroad,oratleastsecludedfromme,hadneverproposedmyintroductiontoanyofhisfriends,exceptMrs。Benington。Myobligationstohimwerealreadytoogreattoallowmetolayclaimtonewfavoursandindulgences,nor,indeed,wasmydispositionsuchastomakesocietyneedfultomyhappiness。Mycharacterhadbeen,insomedegree,modelledbythefacultywhichIpossessed。Thisderivingallitssupposedvaluefromimpenetrablesecrecy,andLudloe\'sadmonitionstendingpowerfullytoimpressmewiththenecessityofwarinessandcircumspectioninmygeneralintercoursewithmankind,Ihadgraduallyfallenintosedate,reserved,mysterious,andunsociablehabits。Myheartwantednotafriend。

  Inthistemperofmind,IsetmyselftoexaminethenoveltieswhichLudloe\'sprivatebook-casescontained。\'Twillbestrange,thoughtI,ifhisfavouritevolumedonotshowsomemarksofmyfriend\'scharacter。Toknowaman\'sfavouriteormostconstantstudiescannotfailoflettinginsomelittlelightuponhissecretthoughts,andthoughhewouldnothavegivenmethereadingofthesebooks,ifhehadthoughtthemcapableofunveilingmoreofhisconcernsthanhewished,yetpossiblymyingenuitymaygoonestepfartherthanhedreamsof。YoushalljudgewhetherIwasrightinmyconjectures。

  ChapterIX。

  Thebookswhichcomposedthislittlelibrarywerechieflythevoyagesandtravelsofthemissionariesofthesixteenthandseventeenthcenturies。Addedtotheseweresomeworksuponpoliticaleconomyandlegislation。Thosewriterswhohaveamusedthemselveswithreducingtheirideastopractice,anddrawingimaginarypicturesofnationsorrepublics,whosemannersorgovernmentcameuptotheirstandardofexcellence,were,allofwhomIhadeverheard,andsomeIhadneverheardofbefore,tobefoundinthiscollection。AtranslationofAristotle\'srepublic,thepoliticalromancesofsirThomasMoore,Harrington,andHume,appearedtohavebeenmuchread,andLudlowhadnotbeensparingofhismarginalcomments。Inthesewritersheappearedtofindnothingbuterrorandabsurdity;andhisnoteswereintroducedfornootherendthantopointoutgroundlessprinciplesandfalseconclusionsThestyleoftheseremarkswasalreadyfamiliartome。Isawnothingnewinthem,ordifferentfromthestrainofthosespeculationswithwhichLudlowwasaccustomedtoindulgehimselfinconversationwithme。

  Afterhavingturnedovertheleavesoftheprintedvolumes,I

  atlengthlightedonasmallbookofmaps,fromwhich,ofcourse,Icouldreasonablyexpectnoinformation,onthatpointaboutwhichIwasmostcurious。Itwasanatlas,inwhichthemapshadbeendrawnbythepen。Noneofthemcontainedanythingremarkable,sofarasI,whowasindeedasmattereringeography,wasabletoperceive,tillIcametotheend,whenInoticedamap,whoseprototypeIwaswhollyunacquaintedwith。Itwasdrawnonaprettylargescale,representingtwoislands,whichboresomefaintresemblance,intheirrelativeproportions,atleast,toGreatBritainandIreland。Inshapetheywerewidelydifferent,butastosizetherewasnoscalebywhichtomeasurethem。Fromthegreatnumberofsubdivisions,andfromsigns,whichapparentlyrepresentedtownsandcities,Iwasallowedtoinfer,thatthecountrywasatleastasextensiveastheBritishisles。Thismapwasapparentlyunfinished,forithadnonamesinscribeduponit。

  Ihavejustsaid,mygeographicalknowledgewasimperfect。

  ThoughIhadnotenoughtodrawtheoutlinesofanycountrybymemory,IhadstillsufficienttorecognizewhatIhadbeforeseen,andtodiscoverthatnoneofthelargerislandsinourgloberesembledtheonebeforeme。Havingsuchandsostrongmotivestocuriosity,youmayeasilyimaginemysensationsonsurveyingthismap。Suspecting,asIdid,thatmanyofLudlow\'sintimationsalludedtoacountrywellknowntohim,thoughunknowntoothers,Iwas,ofcourse,inclinedtosupposethatthiscountrywasnowbeforeme。

  Insearchofsomecluetothismystery,Icarefullyinspectedtheothermapsinthiscollection。InamapoftheeasternhemisphereIsoonobservedtheoutlinesofislands,which,thoughonascalegreatlydiminished,wereplainlysimilartothatofthelandabovedescribed。

  ItiswellknownthatthepeopleofEuropearestrangerstoverynearlyonehalfofthesurfaceoftheglobe。*Fromthesouthpoleuptotheequator,itisonlythesmallspaceoccupiedbysouthernAfricaandbySouthAmericawithwhichweareacquainted。

  Thereisavastextent,sufficienttoreceiveacontinentaslargeasNorthAmerica,whichourignorancehasfilledonlywithwater。

  InLudlow\'smapsnothingwasstilltobeseen,intheseregions,butwater,exceptinthatspotwherethetransverseparallelsofthesoutherntropicandthe150thdegreeeastlongitudeintersecteachother。OnthisspotwereLudlow\'sislandsplaced,thoughwithoutanynameorinscriptionwhatever。

  IneedednottobetoldthatthisspothadneverbeenexploredbyanyEuropeanvoyager,whohadpublishedhisadventures。WhatauthorityhadLudlowforfixingahabitablelandinthisspot?andwhydidhegiveusnothingbutthecoursesofshoresandrivers,andthesciteoftownsandvillages,withoutaname?

  AssoonasLudlowhadsetoutuponhisproposedjourneyofafortnight,Iunlockedhiscloset,andcontinuedrummagingamongthesebooksandmapstillnight。BythattimeIhadturnedovereverybookandalmosteveryleafinthissmallcollection,anddidnotopentheclosetagaintillneartheendofthatperiod。

  MeanwhileIhadmanyreflectionsuponthisremarkablecircumstance。

  CouldLudlowhaveintendedthatIshouldseethisatlas?Itwastheonlybookthatcouldbestyledamanuscriptontheseshelves,anditwasplacedbeneathseveralothers,inasituationfarfrombeingobviousandforwardtotheeyeorthehand。Wasitanoversightinhimtoleaveitinmyway,orcouldhehaveintendedtoleadmycuriosityandknowledgealittlefartheronwardbythisaccidentaldisclosure?IneithercasehowwasItoregulatemyfuturedeportmenttowardhim?WasItospeakandactasifthisatlashadescapedmyattentionornot?Ihadalready,aftermyfirstexaminationofit,placedthevolumeexactlywhereIfoundit。OneverysuppositionIthoughtthiswasthesafestway,andunlockedtheclosetasecondtime,toseethatallwaspreciselyintheoriginalorderHowwasIdismayedandconfoundedoninspectingtheshelvestoperceivethattheatlaswasgone。Thiswasatheft,which,fromtheclosetbeingunderlockandkey,andthekeyalwaysinmyownpocket,andwhich,fromtheverynatureofthethingstolen,couldnotbeimputedtoanyofthedomestics。

  Afterafewmomentsasuspicionoccurred,whichwassoonchangedintOcertaintybyapplyingtothehousekeeper,whotoldmethatLudlowhadreturned,apparentlyinmuchhaste,theeveningofthedayonwhichhehadsetoutuponhisjourney,andjustafterIhadleftthehouse,thathehadgoneintotheroomwherethisclosetofbookswas,and,afterafewminutes\'stay,cameoutagainandwentaway。Shetoldmealso,thathehadmadegeneralenquiriesafterme,towhichshehadanswered,thatshehadnotseenmeduringtheday,andsupposedthatIhadspentthewholeofitabroad。Fromthisaccountitwasplain,thatLudlowhadreturnedfornootherpurposebuttoremovethisbookoutofmyreach。Butifhehadadoublekeytothisdoor,whatshouldhinderhishavingaccess,bythesamemeans,toeveryotherlockedupplaceinthehouse?

  Thissuggestionmademestartwithterror。Ofsoobviousameansforpossessingaknowledgeofeverythingunderhisroof,I

  hadneverbeentillthismomentaware。Suchistheinfatuationwhichlaysourmostsecretthoughtsopentotheworld\'sscrutiny。

  Wearefrequentlyinmostdangerwhenwedeemourselvesmostsafe,andourfortressistakensometimesthroughapoint,whoseweaknessnothing,itshouldseem,buttheblindeststupiditycouldoverlook。

  Myterrors,indeed,quicklysubsidedwhenIcametorecollectthattherewasnothinginanyclosetorcabinetofminewhichcouldpossiblythrowlightuponsubjectswhichIdesiredtokeepinthedark。ThemorecarefullyIinspectedmyowndrawers,andthemoreIreflectedonthecharacterofLudlow,asIhadknownit,thelessreasondidthereappearinmysuspicions;butIdrewalessonofcautionfromthiscircumstance,whichcontributedtomyfuturesafety。

  FromthisincidentIcouldnotbutinferLudlow\'sunwillingnesstoletmesofarintohisgeographicalsecret,aswellasthecertaintyofthatsuspicion,whichhadveryearlybeensuggestedtomythoughts,thatLudlow\'splansofcivilizationhadbeencarriedintopracticeinsomeunvisitedcorneroftheworld。

  Itwasstrange,however,thatheshouldbetrayhimselfbysuchaninadvertency。Onewhotalkedsoconfidentlyofhisownpowers,tounveilanysecretofmine,and,atthesametime,toconcealhisowntransactions,hadsurelycommittedanunpardonableerrorinleavingthisimportantdocumentinmyway。Myreverence,indeed,forLudlowwassuch,thatIsometimesentertainedthenotionthatthisseemingoversightwas,intruth,aregularcontrivancetosupplymewithaknowledge,ofwhich,whenIcamematurelytoreflect,itwasimpossibleformetomakeanyilluse。Thereisnouseinrelatingwhatwouldnotbebelieved;andshouldIpublishtotheworldtheexistenceofislandsinthespaceallottedbyLudlow\'smapstothese~incognitae~,whatwouldtheworldanswer?

  Thatwhetherthespacedescribedwasseaorlandwasofnoimportance。Thatthemoralandpoliticalconditionofitsinhabitantswastheonlytopicworthyofrationalcuriosity。SinceIhadgainednoinformationuponthispoint;sinceIhadnothingtodisclosebutvainandfantasticsurmises;Imightaswellbeignorantofeverything。Thus,fromsecretlycondemningLudlow\'simprudence,Igraduallypassedtoadmirationofhispolicy。Thisdiscoveryhadnoothereffectthantostimulatemycuriosity;tokeepupmyzealtoprosecutethejourneyIhadcommencedunderhisauspices。

  IhadhithertoformedaresolutiontostopwhereIwasinLudlow\'sconfidence:towaittillthesuccessshouldbeascertainedofmyprojectswithrespecttoMrs。Benington,beforeImadeanynewadvanceintheperilousandmysteriousroadintowhichhehadledmysteps。But,beforethistediousfortnighthadelapsed,Iwasgrownextremelyimpatientforaninterview,andhadnearlyresolvedtoundertakewhateverobligationheshouldlayuponme。

  Thisobligationwasindeedaheavyone,sinceitincludedtheconfessionofmyvocalpowers。Initselftheconfessionwaslittle。Topossessthisfacultywasneitherlaudablenorculpable,norhaditbeenexercisedinawaywhichIshouldbeverymuchashamedtoacknowledge。Ithadledmeintomanyinsinceritiesandartifices,which,thoughnotjustifiablebyanycreed,wasentitledtosomeexcuse,onthescoreofyouthfulardourandtemerity。Thetruedifficultyinthewayoftheseconfessionswasthenothavingmadethemalready。Ludlowhadlongbeenentitledtothisconfidence,and,thoughtheexistenceofthispowerwasvenialorwhollyinnocent,theobstinateconcealmentofitwasadifferentmatter,andwouldcertainlyexposemetosuspicionandrebuke。Butwhatwasthealternative?Toconcealit。Toincurthosedreadfulpunishmentsawardedagainsttreasoninthisparticular。Ludlow\'smenacesstillrunginmyears,andappalledmyheart。HowshouldIbeabletoshunthem?ByconcealingfromeveryonewhatI

  concealedfromhim?Howwasmyconcealmentofsuchafacultytobesuspectedorproved?UnlessIbetrayedmyself,whocouldbetrayme?

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