Itwasnotlongbeforetheinevitablechangecameinthespiritofthesituation;moreandmorewasSheltonconsciousofaquaintuneasinessintheverybreathingofthehousehold。
\"Curiousfellowyou\'vegotholdofthere,Shelton,\"Mr。Dennantsaidtohimduringagameofcroquet;\"he\'llneverdoanygoodforhimself,I\'mafraid。\"
\"InonesenseI\'mafraidnot,\"admittedShelton。
\"Doyouknowhisstory?Iwillbetyousixpence\"——andMr。Dennantpausedtoswinghismalletwithaproperaccuracy\"thathe\'sbeeninprison。\"
\"Prison!\"ejaculatedShelton。
\"Ithink,\"saidMr。Dennant,withbentkneescarefullymeasuringhisnextshot,\"thatyououghttomakeinquiries——ah!missedit!
Awkwardthesehoops!Onemustdrawthelinesomewhere。\"
\"Inevercoulddraw,\"returnedShelton,nettledanduneasy;\"butI
understand——I\'llgivehimahinttogo。\"
\"Don\'t,\"saidMr。Dennant,movingafterhissecondball,whichSheltonhadsmittentothefartherend,\"beoffended,mydearShelton,andbynomeansgivehimahint;heinterestsmeverymuch——
averyclever,quietyoungfellow。\"
ThatthiswasnothisprivateviewSheltoninferredbystudyingMr。
Dennant\'smannerinthepresenceofthevagabond。Underlyingthewell-bredbanterofthetranquilvoice,theguardedquizzicalityofhispalebrownface,itcouldbeseenthatAlgernonCuffeDennant,Esq。,J。P。,accustomedtolaughatotherpeople,suspectedthathewasbeinglaughedat。Whatmorenaturalthanthatheshouldgropeabouttoseehowthiscouldbe?AvagrantalienwasmakinghimselffeltbyanEnglishJusticeofthePeace——nosmalltribute,this,toFerrand\'spersonality。Thelatterwouldsitsilentthroughameal,andyetmakehiseffect。He,theobjectoftheirkindness,education,patronage,inspiredtheirfear。Therewasnolongeranydoubt;itwasnotofFerrandthattheywereafraid,butofwhattheydidnotunderstandinhim;ofhorridsubtletiesmeanderinginthebrainunderthatstraight,wet-lookinghair;ofsomethingbizarrepoppingfromthecurvinglipsbelowthatthin,lopsidednose。
ButtoSheltoninthis,asinallelse,Antoniawaswhatmattered。
Atfirst,anxioustoshowherloverthatshetrustedhim,sheseemednevertiredofdoingthingsforhisyoungprotege,asthoughshetoohadsetherheartonhissalvation;but,watchinghereyeswhentheyrestedonthevagabond,SheltonwasperpetuallyremindedofhersayingonthefirstdayofhisvisittoHolmOaks,\"Isupposehe\'sreallygood——Imeanallthesethingsyoutoldmeaboutwereonly……\"
Curiosityneverleftherglance,nordidthatstoryofhisfourdays\'
starvingleavehermind;asentimentalpicturesquenessclungaboutthatincidentmorevaluablebyfarthanthismerehumanbeingwithwhomshehadsostrangelycomeincontact。ShewatchedFerrand,andSheltonwatchedher。Ifhehadbeentoldthathewaswatchingher,hewouldhavedenieditingoodfaith;buthewasboundtowatchher,tofindoutwithwhateyessheviewedthisvisitorwhoembodiedalltherebelliousunder-sideoflife,allthatwasabsentinherself。
\"Dick,\"shesaidtohimoneday,\"younevertalktomeofMonsieurFerrand。\"
\"Doyouwanttotalkofhim?\"
\"Don\'tyouthinkthathe\'simproved?\"
\"He\'sfatter。\"
Antonialookedgrave。
\"No,butreally?\"
\"Idon\'tknow,\"saidShelton;\"Ican\'tjudgehim。\"
Antoniaturnedherfaceaway,andsomethinginherattitudealarmedhim。
\"Hewasonceasortofgentleman,\"shesaid;\"whyshouldn\'thebecomeoneagain?\"
Sittingonthelowwallofthekitchen-garden,herheadwasframedbygoldenplums。Thesunlaybarredbehindthefoliageoftheholmoak,butalittlepatchfilteringthroughagaphadrestedintheplum-
tree\'sheart。Itcrownedthegirl。Herraiment,thedarkleaves,theredwall,thegoldenplums,werewovenbythepassingglowtoablockofpagancolour。Andherfaceaboveit,chaste,serene,waslikethescentlesssummerevening。Abirdamongstthecurrantbusheskeptalittlechantvibrating;andalltheplum-tree\'sshapeandcolourseemedalive。
\"Perhapshedoesn\'twanttobeagentleman,\"saidShelton。
Antoniaswungherfoot。
\"Howcanhehelpwantingto?\"
\"Hemayhaveadifferentphilosophyoflife。\"
Antoniawasslowtoanswer。
\"Iknownothingaboutphilosophiesoflife,\"shesaidatlast。
Sheltonansweredcoldly,\"Notwopeoplehavethesame。\"
Withthefallingsun-glowthecharmpassedoffthetree。Chilledandharder,yetlessdeep,itwasnomoreablockofwovencolour,warmandimpassive,likeasoutherngoddess;itwasnowanortherntree,withagreylightthroughitsleaves。
\"Idon\'tunderstandyouintheleast,\"shesaid;\"everyonewishestobegood。\"
\"Andsafe?\"askedSheltongently。
Antoniastared。
\"Suppose,\"hesaid——\"Idon\'tpretendtoknow,Ionlysuppose——whatFerrandreallycaresforisdoingthingsdifferentlyfromotherpeople?Ifyouweretoloadhimwithacharacterandgivehimmoneyonconditionthatheactedasweallact,doyouthinkhewouldacceptit?\"
\"Whynot?\"
\"Whyaren\'tcatsdogs;orpagansChristians?\"
Antoniasliddownfromthewall。
\"Youdon\'tseemtothinkthere\'sanyuseintrying,\"shesaid,andturnedaway。
Sheltonmadeamovementasifhewouldgoafterher,andthenstoodstill,watchingherfigureslowlypass,herheadoutlinedabovethewall,herhandsturnedbackacrosshernarrowhips。Shehaltedatthebend,lookedback,then,withanimpatientgesture,disappeared。
Antoniawasslippingfromhim!
Amoment\'svisionfromwithouthimselfwouldhaveshownhimthatitwashewhomovedandshewhowasstandingstill,likethefigureofonewatchingthepassageofastreamwithclear,direct,andsulleneyes。
CHAPTERXXVIII
THERIVER
OnedaytowardstheendofAugustSheltontookAntoniaontheriver——
theriverthat,likesoftmusic,soothestheland;theriverofthereedsandpoplars,thesilverswan-sails,sunandmoon,woods,andthewhiteslumbrousclouds;wherecuckoos,andthewind,thepigeons,andtheweirsarealwayssinging;andintheflashofnakedbodies,theplayofwaterlilyleaves,queergoblinstumps,andthetwilightfacesofthetwistedtree-roots,Panlivesoncemore。
ThereachwhichSheltonchosewasinnocentoflaunches,champagnebottlesandloudlaughter;itwasuncivilised,andseldomtroubledbythesehumanisinginfluences。Hepaddledslowly,silentandabsorbed,watchingAntonia。Anunaccustomedlanguorclungabouther;hereyeshadshadows,asthoughshehadnotslept;colourglowedsoftlyinhercheeks,herfrockseemedallalightwithgoldenradiance。ShemadeSheltonpullintothereeds,andpluckedtworoundedliliessailinglikeshipsagainstslow-movingwater。
\"Pullintotheshade,please,\"shesaid;it\'stoohotouthere。\"
Thebrimofherlinenhatkeptthesunfromherface,butherheadwasdroopinglikeaflower\'sheadatnoon。
Sheltonsawthattheheatwasreallyharmingher,astoohotadaywilldimtheicyfreshnessofanorthernplant。Hedippedhissculls,theripplesstartedoutandswamingravediminuendotilltheytouchedthebanks。
Heshottheboatintoacleft,andcaughtthebranchesofanoverhangingtree。Theskiffrested,balancingwithmutinousvibration,likealivingthing。
\"IshouldhatetoliveinLondon,\"saidAntoniasuddenly;\"theslumsmustbesoawful。Whatapity,whenthereareplaceslikethis!Butit\'snogoodthinking。\"
\"No,\"answeredSheltonslowly!\"Isupposeitisnogood。\"
\"TherearesomebadcottagesatthelowerendofCrossEaton。IwentthemonedaywithMissTruecote。Thepeoplewon\'thelpthemselves。
It\'ssodiscouragingtohelppeoplewhowon\'thelpthemselves。\"
Shewasleaningherelbowsonherknees,and,withherchinrestingonherhands,gazedupatShelton。Allaroundthemhungatentofsoft,thickleaves,and,below,thewaterwasdeep-dyedwithgreenrefraction。Willowboughs,swayingabovetheboat,caressedAntonia\'sarmsandshoulders;herfaceandhairalonewerefree。
\"Sodiscouraging,\"shesaidagain。
Asilencefell……Antoniaseemedthinkingdeeply。
\"Doubtsdon\'thelpyou,\"shesaidsuddenly;\"howcanyougetanygoodfromdoubts?Thethingistowinvictories。\"
\"Victories?\"saidShelton。\"I\'dratherunderstandthanconquer!\"
Hehadrisentohisfeet,andgraspedstuntedbranch,cantingtheboattowardsthebank。
\"Howcanyouletthingsslidelikethat,Dick?It\'slikeFerrand。\"
\"Haveyousuchabadopinionofhim,then?\"askedShelton。Hefeltonthevergeofsome,discovery。
Sheburiedherchindeeperinherhands。
\"Ilikedhimatfirst,\"shesaid;\"Ithoughtthathewasdifferent。
Ithoughthecouldn\'treallybe——\"
\"Reallybewhat?\"
Antoniadidnotanswer。
\"Idon\'tknow,\"shesaidatlast。\"Ican\'texplain。Ithought——\"
Sheltonstillstood,holdingtothebranch,andtheoscillationoftheboatfreedaninfinityoftinyripples。
\"Youthought——what?\"hesaid。
Heoughttohaveseenherfacegrowyounger,morechildish,eventimid。Shesaidinavoicesmooth,round,andyoung:
\"Youknow,Dick,Idothinkweoughttotry。IknowIdon\'ttryhalfhardenough。Itdoesn\'tdoanygoodtothink;whenyouthink,everythingseemssomixed,asiftherewerenothingtolayholdof。
Idosohatetofeellikethat。Itisn\'tasifwedidn\'tknowwhat\'sright。SometimesIthink,andthink,andit\'sallnogood,onlyawasteoftime,andyoufeelattheendasifyouhadbeendoingwrong。\"
Sheltonfrowned。
\"Whathasn\'tbeenthroughfire\'snogood,\"hesaid;and,lettinggothebranch,satdown。Freedfromrestraint,theboatedgedouttowardsthecurrent。\"ButwhataboutFerrand?\"
\"Ilayawakelastnightwonderingwhatmakesyoulikehimso。He\'ssobitter;hemakesmefeelunhappy。Heneverseemscontentwithanything。Andhedespises\"——herfacehardened——\"Imean,hehatesusall!\"
\"SoshouldIifIwerehe,\"saidShelton。
Theboatwasdriftingon,andgleamsofsunlightchasedacrosstheirfaces。Antoniaspokeagain。
\"Heseemstobealwayslookingatdarkthings,orelseheseemsasif——asifhecould——enjoyhimselftoomuch。Ithought——Ithoughtatfirst,\"shestammered,\"thatwecoulddohimgood。\"
\"Dohimgood!Ha,ha!\"
Astartledratwentswimmingforitslifeagainstthestream;andSheltonsawthathehaddoneadreadfulthing:hehadletAntoniawithajerkintoasecretnothithertoadmittedevenbyhimself——thesecretthathereyeswerenothiseyes,herwayofseeingthingsnothisnoreverwouldbe。Hequicklymuffleduphislaughter。Antoniahaddroppedhergaze;herfaceregaineditslanguor,butthebosomofherdresswasheaving。Sheltonwatchedher,rackinghisbrainstofindexcusesforthatfatallaugh;nonecouldhefind。Itwasalittlepieceoftruth。Hepaddledslowlyon,closetothebank,inthelongsilenceoftheriver。
Thebreezehaddiedaway,notafishwasrising;saveforthelostmusicofthelarksnobirdswerepiping;alone,asinglepigeonatbriefintervalscooedfromtheneighbouringwood。
Theydidnotstaymuchlongerintheboat。
Onthehomewardjourneyinthepony-cart,roundingacorneroftheroad,theycameonFerrandinhispince-nez,holdingacigarettebetweenhisfingersandtalkingtoatramp,whowassquattingonthebank。Theyoungforeignerrecognisedthem,andatonceremovedhishat。
\"Thereheis,\"saidShelton,returningthesalute。
Antoniabowed。
\"Oh!\"she,cried,whentheywereoutofhearing,\"Iwishhe\'dgo。
Ican\'tbeartoseehim;it\'slikelookingatthedark。\"
CHAPTERXXIX
ONTHEWING
Thatnight,havinggoneuptohisroom,Sheltonfilledhispipeforhisunpleasantduty。HehadresolvedtohinttoFerrandthathehadbettergo。Hewasstilldebatingwhethertowriteorgohimselftotheyoungforeigner,whentherecameaknockandFerrandhimselfappeared。
\"Ishouldbesorry,\"hesaid,breakinganawkwardsilence,\"ifyouweretothinkmeungrateful,butIseenofutureformehere。Itwouldbebetterformetogo。Ishouldneverbecontenttopassmylifeinteachinglanguages\'cen\'estgueredansmoncaractre\'。\"
Assoonaswhathehadbeencudgellinghisbrainstofindawayofsayinghadthusbeensaidforhim,Sheltonexperiencedasenseofdisapproval。
\"Whatdoyouexpecttogetthat\'sbetter?\"hesaid,avoidingFerrand\'seyes。
\"Thankstoyourkindness,\"repliedthelatter,\"Ifindmyselfrestored。IfeelthatIoughttomakesomegoodeffortstodominatemysocialposition。\"
\"Ishouldthinkitwellover,ifIwereyou!\"saidShelton。
\"Ihave,anditseemstomethatI\'mwastingmytime。Foramanwithanycouragelanguagesarenocareer;and,thoughI\'vemanydefects,Istillhavecourage。\"
Sheltonlethispipegoout,sopatheticseemedtohimthisyoungman\'sfaithinhiscareer;itwasnopretendedfaith,butneitherwasit,hefelt,histruemotivefordeparture。\"He\'stired,\"hethought;\"that\'sit。Tiredofoneplace。\"AndhavingtheinstinctivesensethatnothingwouldkeepFerrand,heredoubledhisadvice。
\"Ishouldhavethought,\"hesaid,\"thatyouwouldhavedonebettertohaveheldonhereandsavedalittlebeforegoingofftoGodknowswhat。\"
\"Tosave,\"saidFerrand,\"isimpossibleforme,but,thankstoyouandyourgoodfriends,I\'veenoughtomakefronttofirstnecessities。I\'mincorrespondencewithafriend;it\'sofgreatimportanceformetoreachParisbeforealltheworldreturns。I\'veachancetoget,apostinoneoftheWestAfricancompanies。Onemakesfortunesoutthere——ifonesurvives,and,asyouknow,Idon\'tsettoomuchstorebylife。\"
\"Wehaveaproverb,\"saidShelton,\"\'Abirdinthehandisworthtwobirdsinthebush!\'\"
\"That,\"returnedFerrand,\"likeallproverbs,isjusthalftrue。
Thisisanaffairoftemperament。It\'snotinmycharactertodandleonewhenIseetwowaitingtobecaught;\'voyager,apprendre,c\'estplusfortquemoi\'。\"Hepaused;then,withanervousgoggleoftheeyesandanironicsmilehesaid:\"Besides,\'monchermonsieur\',itisbetterthatIgo。Ihaveneverbeenonetohugillusions,andIseeprettyclearlythatmypresenceishardlyacceptableinthishouse。\"
\"Whatmakesyousaythat?\"asked,Shelton,feelingthatthemurderwasnowout。\"
\"Mydearsir,alltheworldhasnotyourunderstandingandyourlackofprejudice,and,thoughyourfriendshavebeenextremelykindtome,Iaminafalseposition;Icausethemembarrassment,whichisnotextraordinarywhenyoureflectwhatIhavebeen,andthattheyknowmyhistory。\"
\"Notthroughme,\"saidSheltonquickly,\"forIdon\'tknowitmyself。\"
\"It\'senough,\"thevagrantsaid,\"thattheyfeelI\'mnotabirdoftheirfeather。Theycannotchange,neithercanI。IhaveneverwantedtoremainwhereI\'mnotwelcome。\"
Sheltonturnedtothewindow,andstaredintothedarkness;hewouldneverquiteunderstandthisvagabond,sodelicate,socynical,andhewonderedifFerrandhadbeenswallowingdownthewords,\"Why,evenyouwon\'tbesorrytoseemyback!\"
\"Well,\"hesaidatlast,\"ifyoumustgo,youmust。Whendoyoustart?\"
\"I\'vearrangedwithamantocarrymythingstotheearlytrain。I
thinkitbetternottosaygood-bye。I\'vewrittenaletterinstead;
hereitis。Ileftitopenforyoutoreadifyoushouldwish,\"
\"Then,\"saidShelton,withacuriousminglingofrelief,regret,good-will,\"Isha\'n\'tseeyouagain?\"
Ferrandgavehishandastealthyrub,andhelditout。
\"Ishallneverforgetwhatyouhavedoneforme,\"hesaid。
\"Mindyouwrite,\"saidShelton。
\"Yes,yes\"——the,vagrant\'sfacewasoddlytwisted——\"youdon\'tknowwhatadifferenceitmakestohaveacorrespondent;itgivesonecourage。Ihopetoremainalongtimeincorrespondencewithyou。\"
\"Idaresayyoudo,\"thoughtSheltongrimly,withacertainqueeremotion。
\"YouwilldomethejusticetorememberthatIhaveneveraskedyouforanything,\"saidFerrand。\"Thankyouathousandtimes。
Good-bye!\"
Heagainwrunghispatron\'shandinhisdampgrasp,and,goingout,leftSheltonwithanoddsensationinhisthroat。\"YouwilldomethejusticetorememberthatIhaveneveraskedyouforanything。\"
Thephraseseemedstrange,andhismindflewbackoverallthisqueeracquaintanceship。Itwasafact:fromthebeginningtotheendtheyouthhadneverreallyaskedforanything。Sheltonsatdownonhisbed,andbegantoreadtheletterinhishand。ItwasinFrench。
DEARMADAMEitran,Itwillbeinsupportabletome,afteryourkindness,ifyoutakemeforungrateful。Unfortunately,acrisishasarrivedwhichplungesmeintothenecessityofleavingyourhospitality。Inalllives,asyouarewellaware,thereariseoccasionsthatonecannotgovern,andI
knowthatyouwillpardonmethatIenterintonoexplanationonaneventwhichgivesmegreatchagrin,and,aboveall,rendersmesubjecttoanimputationofingratitude,which,believeme,dearMadame,bynomeansliesinmycharacter。Iknowwellenoughthatitisabreachofpolitenesstoleaveyouwithoutinpersonconveyingtheexpressionofmyprofoundreconnaissance,butifyouconsiderhowharditisformetobecompelledtoabandonallthatissodistinguishedindomesticlife,youwillforgivemyweakness。Peoplelikeme,whohavegonethroughexistencewiththeireyesopen,haveremarkedthatthosewhoareendowedwithricheshavearighttolookdownonsuchasarenotbywealthandbreedingfittedtooccupythesameposition。Ishallneverdisputearightsonaturalandsalutary,seeingthatwithoutthisdistinction,thissuperiority,whichmakesofthewell-bornandthewell-bredaraceapart,therestoftheworldwouldhavenostandardbywhichtoruletheirlives,noanchortothrowintothedepthsofthatvastseaoffortuneandofmisfortuneonwhichweothersdrivebeforethewind。Itisbecauseofthis,dearMadame,thatIregardmyselfsodoublyfortunatetohavebeenableforafewminutesinthisbitterpilgrimagecalledlife,tositbeneaththetreeofsafety。Tohavebeenable,ifonlyforanhour,tositandsetthepilgrimspass,thepilgrimswiththeblisteredfeetandraggedclothes,andwhoyet,dearMadame,guardwithintheirheartsacertainjoyinlife,illegaljoy,likethedesertairwhichtravellerswilltellyoufillsmenaswithwinetobeablethustositanhour,andwithasmiletowatchthempass,lameandblind,inalltheragsoftheirdeservedmisfortunes,canyounotconceive,dearMadame,howthatmustbeforsuchasIacomfort?Whateveronemaysay,itissweet,fromapositionofsecurity,towatchthesufferingsofothers;itgivesoneagoodsensationintheheart。
Inwritingthis,IrecollectthatImyselfoncehadthechanceofpassingallmylifeinthisenviablesafety,andasyoumaysuppose,dearMadame,IcursemyselfthatIshouldeverhavehadthecouragetostepbeyondtheboundariesofthisfinetranquilstate。Yet,too,therehavebeentimeswhenIhaveaskedmyself:\"Dowereallydifferfromthewealthy——weothers,birdsofthefields,whohaveourownphilosophy,grownfromthepainsofneedingbread——wewhoseethatthehumanheartisnotalwaysanaffairoffigures,orofthosegoodmaximsthatonefindsincopy-books——dowereallydiffer?\"ItiswithshamethatIconfesstohaveaskedmyselfaquestionsoheretical。Butnow,whenforthesefourweeksIhavehadthefortuneofthisrestbeneathyourroof,IseehowwrongIwastoentertainsuchdoubts。Itisagreathappinesstohavedecidedonceforallthispoint,foritisnotinmycharactertopassthroughlifeuncertain——mistaken,perhaps——onpsychologicalmatterssuchasthese。
No,Madame;resthappilyassuredthatthereisagreatdifference,whichinthefuturewillbesacredforme。For,believeme,Madame,itwouldbecalamityforhighSocietyifbychancethereshouldariseamongstthemanyunderstandingofallthatsideoflifewhich——vastastheplainsandbitterasthesea,blackastheashesofacorpse,andyetmorefreethananywingsofbirdswhoflyaway——issojustlybeyondthegraspoftheirphilosophy。Yes,believeme,dearMadame,thereisnodangerintheworldsomuchtobeavoidedbyallthemembersofthatcircle,mostillustrious,mostrespectable,calledhighSociety。
>FromwhatIhavesaidyoumayimaginehowharditisformetotakemyflight。Ishallalwayskeepforyouthemostdistinguishedsentiments。Withtheexpressionofmyfullregardforyouandyourgoodfamily,andofagratitudeassincereasitisbadlyworded,Believeme,dearMadame,YourdevotedLOUISFERRAND。
Shelton\'sfirstimpulsewastoteartheletterup,butthishereflectedhehadnorighttodo。Remembering,too,thatMrs。
Dennant\'sFrenchwasorthodox,hefeltsureshewouldneverunderstandtheyoungforeigner\'ssubtleinnuendoes。Heclosedtheenvelopeandwenttobed,hauntedstillbyFerrand\'spartinglook。
Itwaswithnosmallfeelingofembarrassment,however,that,havingsentthelettertoitsdestinationbyanearlyfootman,hemadehisappearanceatthebreakfast-table。BehindtheAustriancoffee-urn,filledwithFrenchcoffee,Mrs。Dennant,whohadplacedfoureggsinaGermanegg-boiler,said\"Good-morning,\"withakindlysmile。
\"Dick,anegg?\"sheaskedhim,holdingupafifth。
\"No,thankyou,\"repliedShelton,greetingthetableandfittingdown。
Hewasalittlelate;thebuzzofconversationrosehilariouslyaround。
\"Mydear,\"continuedMr。Dennant,whowastalkingtohisyoungestdaughter,\"you\'llhavenochancewhatever——nottheleastlittlebitofchance。\"
\"Father,whatnonsense!Youknowweshallbeatyourheadsoff!\"
\"Beforeit\'stoolate,then,Iwilleatamuffin。Shelton,passthemuffins!\"Butinmakingthisrequest,Mr。Dennantavoidedlookinginhisface。
Antonia,too,seemedtokeephereyesawayfromhim。ShewastalkingtoaConnoisseuronArtofsupernaturalappearances,andseemedinthehighestspirits。Sheltonrose,and,goingtothesideboard,helpedhimselftogrouse。
\"WhowastheyoungmanIsawyesterdayonthelawn?\"heheardtheConnoisseurremark。\"Struckmeashavingan——er——quiteintelligentphysiog。\"
Hisownintelligentphysiog,raisedataslightslantsothathemightlookthebetterthroughhisnose-nippers,wastheverypatternofapproval。\"It\'scurioushowone\'salwaysmeetingwithintelligence;\"itseemedtosay。Mrs。Dennantpausedintheactofaddingcream,andSheltonscrutinisedherface;itwashare-like,andsuperiorasever。Thankgoodnessshehadsmeltnorat!Hefeltstrangelydisappointed。
\"YoumeanMonsieurFerrand,teachin\'ToddlesFrench?Dobson,theProfessor\'scup。\"
\"IhopeIshallseehimagain,\"cooedtheConnoisseur;\"hewasquiteinterestingonthesubjectofyoungGermanworkingmen。Itseemstheytrampfromplacetoplacetolearntheirtrades。Whatnationalitywashe,mayIask?\"
Mr。Dennant,ofwhomheaskedthisquestion,liftedhisbrows,andsaid,\"AskShelton。\"
\"HalfDutch,halfFrench。\"
\"Veryinterestingbreed;IhopeIshallseehimagain。\"
\"Well,youwon\'t,\"saidTheasuddenly;\"he\'sgone。\"
Sheltonsawthattheirgoodbreedingalonepreventedallfromadding,\"Andthankgoodness,too!\"
\"Gone?Dearme,it\'svery——\"
\"Yes,\"saidMr。Dennant,\"verysudden。\"
\"Now,Algie,\"murmuredMrs。Dennant,\"it\'squiteacharmin\'letter。
Musthavetakenthepooryoungmananhourtowrite。\"
\"Oh,mother!\"criedAntonia。
AndSheltonfelthisfacegocrimson。HehadsuddenlyrememberedthatherFrenchwasbetterthanhermother\'s。
\"Heseemstohavehadasingularexperience,\"saidtheConnoisseur。
\"Yes,\"echoedMr。Dennant;\"he\'shadsomesingularexperience。Ifyouwanttoknowthedetails,askfriendShelton;it\'squiteromantic。Inthemeantime,mydear;anothercup?\"
TheConnoisseur,neverquitedevoidofabsent-mindedmalice,spurredhiscuriositytoafurthereffort;and,turninghiswell-defendedeyesonShelton,murmured,\"Well,Mr。Shelton,youarethehistorian,itseems。\"
\"Thereisnohistory,\"saidShelton,withoutlookingup。
\"Ah,that\'sverydull,\"remarkedtheConnoisseur。
\"MydearDick,\"saidMrs。Dennant,\"thatwasreallyamosttouchin\'
storyabouthisgoin\'withoutfoodinParis。\"
SheltonshotanotherlookatAntonia;herfacewasfrigid。\"Ihateyourd——dsuperiority!\"hethought,staringattheConnoisseur。
\"There\'snothing,\"saidthatgentleman,\"moreenthrallingthanstarvation。Come,MrShelton。\"
\"Ican\'ttellstories,\"saidShelton;\"nevercould。\"
HecarednotastrawforFerrand,hiscoming,going,orhishistory;
for,lookingatAntonia,hisheartwasheavy。
CHAPTERXX
THELADYFROMBEYOND
Themorningwassultry,brooding,steamy。Antoniawasathermusic,andfromtheroomwhereSheltontriedtofixattentiononabookhecouldhearherpractisingherscaleswithacoldfurythatcastanaddedgloomuponhisspirit。Hedidnotseeheruntillunch,andthensheagainsatnexttheConnoisseur。Hercheekswerepale,buttherewassomethingfeverishinherchattertoherneighbour;shestillrefusedtolookatShelton。Hefeltverymiserable。Afterlunch,whenmostofthemhadleftthetable,therestfelltodiscussingcountryneighbours。
\"Ofcourse,\"saidMrs。Dennant,\"therearetheFoliots;butnobodycallsonthem。\"
\"Ah!\"saidtheConnoisseur,\"theFoliots——theFoliots——thepeople——
er——who——quiteso!\"
\"It\'sreallydistressin\';shelookssosweetridin\'about。Manypeoplewithworsestoriesgetcalledon,\"continuedMrs。Dennant,withthatlargefranknessofintrusionupondoubtfulsubjectswhichmaybemadebycertainpeopleinacertainway,\"but,afterall,onecouldn\'taskthemtomeetanybody。\"
\"No,\"theConnoisseurassented。\"IusedtoknowFoliot。Thousandpities。Theysayshewasaveryprettywoman。\"
\"Oh,notpretty!\"saidMrs。Dennant!\"moreinterestinthanpretty,I
shouldsay。\"
Shelton,whoknewtheladyslightly,noticedthattheyspokeofherasinthepast。HedidnotlooktowardsAntonia;for,thoughalittletroubledatherpresencewhilesuchasubjectwasdiscussed,hehatedhisconvictionthatherface,wasasunruffledasthoughtheFoliotshadbeenaseparatespecies。Therewas,infact,acuriosityabouthereyes,afaintimpatienceonherlips;shewasrollinglittlecrumbsofbread。Suddenlyyawning,shemutteredsomeremark,androse。Sheltonstoppedheratthedoor。
\"Whereareyougoing?\"
\"Forawalk。\"
\"Mayn\'tIcome?\"。
Sheshookherhead。
\"I\'mgoingtotakeToddles。\"
Sheltonheldthedooropen,andwentbacktothetable。
\"Yes,\"theConnoisseursaid,sippingathissherry,\"I\'mafraidit\'salloverwithyoungFoliot。\"
\"Suchapity!\"murmuredMrs。Dennant,andherkindlyfacelookedquitedisturbed。\"I\'veknownhimeversincehewasaboy。Ofcourse,Ithinkhemadeagreatmistaketobringherdownhere。Notevenbein\'abletogetmarriedmakesitdoublyawkward。Oh,Ithinkhemadeagreatmistake!\"
\"Ah!\"saidtheConnoisseur,\"butd\'yousupposethatmakesmuchdifference?EvenifWhat\'s——his-namegaveheradivorce,Idon\'tthink,don\'tyouknow,that——\"
\"Oh,itdoes!Somanypeoplewouldbeinclinedtolookoveritintime。Butasitisit\'shopeless,quite。Soveryawkwardforpeople,too,meetin\'themabout。TheTelfordsandtheButterwicks——
bytheway,they\'recomin\'heretodineto-night——livenearthem,don\'tyouknow。\"
\"Didyouevermeetherbefore-er-beforetheflood?\"theConnoisseurinquired;andhislipspartingandunexpectedlyrevealingteethgavehimashadowyresemblancetoagoat。
\"Yes;IdidmeetheronceattheBranksomes\'。Ithoughtherquiteacharmin\'person。\"
\"Poorfellow!\"saidtheConnoisseur;\"theytellmehewasgoingtotakethehounds。\"
\"Andtherearehisdelightfulcoverts,too。Algieoftenusedtoshootthere,andnowtheysayhejusthashisbrotherdowntoshootwithhim。It\'sreallyquitetoomelancholy!Didyouknowhim,Dick?\"
\"Foliot?\"repliedSheltonabsently。\"No;Inevermethim:I\'veseenheronceortwiceatAscot。\"
ThroughthewindowhecouldseeAntoniainherscarletTam-o\'-
shanter,swingingherstick,andhegotupfeigningunconcern。JustthenToddlescameboundingupagainsthissister。Theywentoffarminarm。Shehadseenhimatthewindow,yetshegavenofriendlyglance;Sheltonfeltmoremiserablethanever。Hesteppedoutuponthedrive。Therewasalurid,gloomycanopyabove;theelm-treesdroopedtheirheavyblackishgreen,thewontedrustleoftheaspen-
treewasgone,eventherooksweresilent。Astoreofforcelayheavyontheheartofnature。Hestartedpacingslowlyupanddown,hisprideforbiddinghimtofollowher,andpresentlysatdownonanoldstoneseatthatfacedtheroad。Hestayedalongtimestaringattheelms,askinghimselfwhathehaddoneandwhatheoughttodo。
Andsomehowhewasfrightened。Asenseoflonelinesswasonhim,soreal,sopainful,thatheshiveredintheswelteringheat。Hewasthere,perhaps,anhour,alone,andsawnobodypassalongtheroad。
Thencamethesoundofhorse\'shoofs,andatthesametimeheheardamotor-carapproachingfromtheoppositedirection。Theridermadeappearancefirst,ridingagreyhorsewithanArab\'shighsetheadandtail。Shewasholdinghimwithdifficulty,forthewhirroftheapproachingcargreweverymomentlouder。Sheltonrose;thecarflashedby。Hesawthehorsestaggerinthegate-way,crushingitsriderupagainstthegatepost。
Heran,butbeforehereachedthegatetheladywasonfoot,holdingtheplunginghorse\'sbridle。
\"Areyouhurt?\"criedSheltonbreathlessly,andhe,too,grabbedthebridle。\"Thosebeastlycars!\"
\"Idon\'tknow,\"shesaid。\"Pleasedon\'t;hewon\'tletstrangerstouchhim。\"
Sheltonletgo,andwatchedhercoaxthehorse。Shewasrathertall,dressedinagreyhabit,withagreyRussiancapuponherhead,andhesuddenlyrecognisedtheMrs。Foliotwhomtheyhadbeentalkingofatlunch。
\"He\'llbequietnow,\"shesaid,\"ifyouwouldn\'tmindholdinghimaminute。\"
Shegavethereinstohim,andleanedagainstthegate。Shewasverypale。
\"Idohopehehasn\'thurtyou,\"Sheltonsaid。Hewasquiteclosetoher,wellabletoseeherface——acuriousfacewithhighcheek-bonesandaflatfishmoulding,enigmatic,yetstrangelypassionateforallitslistlesspallor。Hersmiling,tightenedlipswerepallid;
pallid,too,hergreyanddeep-seteyeswithgreenishtints;aboveall,paletheashymassofhaircoiledunderhergreycap。
\"Th-thanks!\"shesaid;\"Ishallbeallrightdirectly。I\'msorrytohavemadeafuss。\"
Shebitherlipsandsmiled。
\"I\'msureyou\'rehurt;doletmegofor——\"stammeredShelton。
\"Icaneasilygethelp。\"
\"Help!\"shesaid,withastonylittlelaugh;\"oh,no,thanks!\"
Sheleftthegate,andcrossedtheroadtowhereheheldthehorse。
Shelton,toconcealembarrassment,lookedatthehorse\'slegs,andnoticedthatthegreywasrestingoneofthem。Heranhishanddown。
\"I\'mafraid,\"hesaid,\"yourhorsehasknockedhisoffknee;it\'sswelling。\"
Shesmiledagain。
\"Thenwe\'rebothcripples。\"
\"He\'llbelamewhenhegetscold。Wouldn\'tyouliketoputhiminthestablehere?I\'msureyououghttodrivehome。\"
\"No,thanks;ifI\'mabletoridehimhecancarryme。Givemeahandup。\"
Hervoicesoundedasthoughsomethinghadoffendedher。Risingfrominspectionofthehorse\'sleg,SheltonsawAntoniaandToddlesstandingby。Theyhadcomethroughawicketgateleadingfromthefields。
Thelatterranuptohimatonce。
\"Wesawit,\"hewhispered——\"jollysmash-up。Can\'tIhelp?\"
\"Holdhisbridle,\"answeredShelton,andhelookedfromoneladytotheother。
Therearemomentswhentheexpressionofafacefixesitselfwithpainfulclearness;toSheltonthiswassuchamoment。Thosetwofacesclosetogether,undertheircoveringsofscarletandofgrey,showedacontrastalmostcruellyvivid。Antoniawasflushed,hereyeshadgrowndeepblue;herlookofstartleddoubthadpassedandleftaquestioninherface。
\"Wouldyouliketocomeinandwait?Wecouldsendyouhome,inthebrougham,\"shesaid。
TheladycalledMrs。Foliotstood,onearmacrossthecrupperofhersaddle,bitingherlipsandsmilingstillherenigmaticsmile,anditwasherfacethatstayedmostvividlyonShelton\'smind,itsashyhail,itspallor,andfixed,scornfuleyes。
\"Oh,no,thanks!You\'reverykind。\"
OutofAntonia\'sfacethetimid,doubtingfriendlinesshadfled,andwasreplacedbyenmity。Withalong,coldlookatbothofthemsheturnedaway。Mrs。Foliotgavealittlelaugh,andraisedherfootforShelton\'shelp。Heheardahissofpainasheswungherup,butwhenhelookedathershesmiled。
\"Anyway,\"hesaidimpatiently,\"letmecomeandseeyoudon\'tbreakdown。
Sheshookherhead。\"It\'sonlytwomiles。I\'mnotmadeofsugar。\"
\"ThenIshallsimplyhavetofollow。\"
Sheshruggedhershoulders,fixingherresoluteeyesonhim。
\"Wouldthatboyliketocome?\"sheasked。
Toddlesleftthehorse\'shead。
\"ByJove!\"hecried。\"Wouldn\'tIjust!\"
\"Then,\"shesaid,\"Ithinkthatwillbebest。You\'vebeensokind。\"
Shebowed,smiledinscrutablyoncemore,touchedtheArabwithherwhip,andstarted,Toddlestrottingatherside。
SheltonwasleftwithAntoniaunderneaththeelms。Asuddenpuffoftepidairblewintheirfaces,likeawarningmessagefromtheheavy,purpleheatclouds;lowrumblingthundertravelledslowlyfromafar。
\"We\'regoingtohaveastorm,\"hesaid。
Antonianodded。Shewaspalenow,andherfacestillworeitscoldlookofoffence。
\"I\'vegotaheadache,\"shesaid,\"Ishallgoinandliedown。\"
Sheltontriedtospeak,butsomethingkepthimsilent——submissiontowhatwascoming,likethemutesubmissionofthefieldsandbirdstothemenaceofthestorm。
Hewatchedhergo,andwentbacktohisseat。Andthesilenceseemedtogrow;theflowersceasedtoexudetheirfragrance,numbedbytheweightyair。Allthelonghousebehindhimseemedasleep,deserted。
Nonoisecameforth,nolaughter,theechoofnomusic,theringingofnobell;theheathadwrappeditroundwithdrowsiness。Andthesilenceaddedtothesolitudewithinhim。Whatanunluckychance,thatwoman\'saccident!DesignedbyProvidencetoputAntoniafurtherfromhimthanbefore!Whywasnottheworldcomposedoftheimmaculatealone?Hestartedpacingupanddown,torturedbyadreadfulheartache。
\"Imustgetridofthis,\"hethought。\"I\'llgoforagoodtramp,andchancethestorm。\"
LeavingthedriveheranonToddles,returninginthehighestspirits。
\"Isawherhome,\"hecrowed。\"Isay,whataripper,isn\'tshe?
She\'llbeaslameasatreeto-morrow;sowillthegee。Jollyhot!\"
ThismeetingshowedSheltonthathehadbeenanhouronthestoneseat;hehadthoughtitsometenminutes,andthediscoveryalarmedhim。Itseemedtobringtheimportofhismiserablefearrighthometohim。Hestartedwithaswingingstride,keepinghiseyesfixedontheroad,theperspirationstreamingdownhisface。
CHAPTERXXXI
THESTORM