\"Ohno,\"shecalled;\"it\'snotnotnearly。
\"Keeponputtingthemtogether,ifyouloveme。\"
\"YouknowIloveyou,\"answeredShelton,inasmotheredvoice。
Antoniagazedathimacrosshershoulder;puzzledandinquiringwasherface。
\"I\'mnotabitlikeyou,\"shesaid。\"Whatwillyouhaveforyourroom?\"
\"Choose!\"
\"Cornflowersandclovepinks。Poppiesaretoofrivolous,andpinkstoo——\"
\"White,\"saidShelton。
\"Andmignonettetoohardand——\"
\"Sweet。Whycornflowers?\"
Antoniastoodbeforehimwithherhandsagainsthersides;herfigurewassoslimandyoung,herfaceuncertainandsograve。
\"Becausethey\'redarkanddeep。\"
\"Andwhyclovepinks?\"
Antoniadidnotanswer。
\"Andwhyclovepinks?\"
\"Because,\"shesaid,and,flushing,touchedabeethathadsettledonherskirt,\"becauseofsomethinginyouIdon\'tunderstand。\"
\"Ah!AndwhatflowersshalltgiveYOU?\"
Sheputherhandsbehindher。
\"Therearealltheotherflowersforme。\"
SheltonsnatchedfromthemassinfrontofhimanIcelandpoppywithstraightstemandacurvedneck,whitepinks,andsprigsofhard,sweetmignonette,andhelditouttoher。
\"There,\"hesaid,\"that\'syou。\"ButAntoniadidnotmove。
\"Ohno,itisn\'t!\"andbehindherbackherfingersslowlycrushedthepetalsofablood-redpoppy。Sheshookherhead,smilingabrilliantsmile。Theblossomsfell,heflunghisarmsaroundher,andkissedheronthelips。
Buthishandsdropped;notfearexactly,norexactlyshame,hadcometohim。Shehadnotresisted,buthehadkissedthesmileaway;hadkissedastrange,cold,frightenedlook,intohereyes。
\"Shedidn\'tmeantotemptme,then,\"hethought,insurpriseandanger。\"Whatdidshemean?\"and,likeascoldeddog,hekepthistroubledwatchuponherface。
CHAPTERXXV
THERIDE
\"Wherenow?\"Antoniaasked,wheelingherchestnutmare,astheyturnedupHighStreet,OxfordCity。\"Iwon\'tgobackthesameway,Dick!\"
\"WecouldhaveagalloponPortMeadow,crosstheUpperRivertwice,andgethomethatway;butyou\'llbetired。\"
Antoniashookherhead。Aslanthercheekthebrimofastrawhatthrewacurveofshade,herearglowedtransparentinthesun。
Adifferencehadcomeintheirrelationssincethatkiss;outwardlyshewasthesamegoodcomrade,coolandquick。Butasbeforeachangeonefeelsthesubtledifferenceinthetemperofthewind,soSheltonwasaffectedbytheinnerchangeinher。Hehadmadeablotuponhercandour;hehadtriedtorubitoutagain,buttherewasleftamark,anditwasineffaceable。Antoniabelongedtothemostciviliseddivisionoftheracemostcivilisedinalltheworld,whosecreedis\"Letusloveandhate,letusworkandmarry,butletusnevergiveourselvesaway;togiveourselvesawayistoleaveamark,andthatispastforgiveness。Letourlivesbelikeourfaces,freefromeverykindofwrinkle,eventhoseoflaughter;inthiswayalonecanwebereallycivilised。\"
Hefeltthatshewasruffledbyavaguediscomfort。Thatheshouldgivehimselfawaywasnatural,perhaps,andonlymadeherwonder,butthatheshouldgiveherthefeelingthatshehadgivenherselfawaywasaverydifferentthing。
\"DoyoumindifIjustaskattheBishop\'sHeadforletters?\"hesaid,astheypassedtheoldhotel。
Adirtyandthinenvelopewasbroughttohim,addressed\"Mr。RichardShelton,Esq。,\"inhandwritingthatwaspassionatelyclear,asthoughthewriterhadputhissoulintosecuringdeliveryoftheletter。Itwasdatedthreedaysback,and,astheyrodeaway,Sheltonreadasfollows:
IMPERIALPEACOCKHOTEL,FOLKESTONE。
MONCHERMONSIEURSHELTON,ThisisalreadythethirdtimeIhavetakenuppentowritetoyou,but,havingnothingbutmisfortunetorecount,Ihesitated,awaitingbetterdays。Indeed,IhavebeensoprofoundlydiscouragedthatifI
hadnotthoughtitmydutytoletyouknowofmyfortunesIknownotevennowifIshouldhavefoundthenecessaryspirit。\'Leschosesvontdemalenmal\'。FromwhatIheartherehasneverbeensobadaseasonhere。Nothinggoingon。Allthesame,Iamtormentedbyamoboflittlematterswhichbringmenotsufficienttosupportmylife。Iknownotwhattodo;onethingiscertain,innocaseshallIreturnhereanotheryear。Thepatronofthishotel,mygoodemployer,isoneofthoseinnumerablespecimenswhodonotforgeorstealbecausetheyhavenoneed,andiftheyhadwouldlackthecourage;whoobservethemarriagelawsbecausetheyhavebeenbroughtuptobelieveinthem,andknowthatbreakingthembringsriskandlossofreputation;whodonotgamblebecausetheydarenot;donotdrinkbecauseitdisagreeswiththem;gotochurchbecausetheirneighboursgo,andtoprocureanappetiteforthemid-daymeal;
commitnomurderbecause,nottransgressinginanyotherfashion,theyarenotobliged。Whatistheretorespectinpersonsofthissort?Yettheyarehighlyesteemed,andformthreequartersofSociety。Therulewiththesegoodgentlemenistoshuttheireyes,neverusetheirthinkingpowers,andclosethedooronallthedogsoflifeforfeartheyshouldgetbitten。
Sheltonpaused,consciousofAntonia\'seyesfixedonhimwiththeinquiringlookthathehadcometodread。Inthatchillyquestioningsheseemedtosay:\"Iamwaiting。Iampreparedtobetoldthings——
thatis,usefulthings——thingsthathelponetobelievewithouttheriskoftoomuchthinking。\"
\"It\'sfromthatyoungforeigner,\"hesaid;andwentonreadingtohimself。
Ihaveeyes,andhereIam;Ihaveanose\'pour,flairerlehumbug\'。
Iseethatamongstthevalueofthingsnothingistheequalof\"freethought。\"Everythingelsetheycantakefromme,\'onnepentpasm\'otercela\'!Iseenofutureformehere,andcertainlyshouldhavedepartedlongagoifIhadhadthemoney,but,asIhavealreadytoldyou,allthatIcandobarelysufficestoprocureme\'dequoivivre\'。
\'Jemesensecceuye\'。DonotpaytoomuchattentiontomyJeremiads;
youknowwhatapessimistIam。\'Jeneperdspascourage\'。
Hopingthatyouarewell,andinthecordialpressingofyourhand,I
subscribemyself,YourverydevotedLOUISFERRAND。
Herodewiththeletteropeninhishand,frowningatthecuriousturmoilwhichFerrandexcitedinhisheart。Itwasasthoughthisforeignvagranttwangedwithinhimaneglectedstring,whichgaveforthmoansofamutiny。
\"Whatdoeshesay?\"Antoniaasked。
Shouldheshowittoher?Ifhemightnot,whatshouldhedowhentheyweremarried?
\"Idon\'tquiteknow,\"hesaidatlast;\"it\'snotparticularlycheering。\"\'
\"Whatishelike,Dick——Imean,tolookat?Likeagentleman,orwhat?\"
Sheltonstifledadesiretolaugh。
\"Helooksverywellinafrock-coat,\"hereplied;\"hisfatherwasawinemerchant。\"
Antoniaflickedherwhipagainstherskirt。
\"Ofcourse,\"shemurmured,\"Idon\'twanttohearifthere\'sanythingIoughtnot。\"
ButinsteadofsoothingShelton,thesewordshadjusttheoppositeeffect。Hisconceptionoftheidealwifewasnotthatofonefromwhomthehalfoflifemustbeexcluded。
\"It\'sonly,\"hestammeredagain,\"thatit\'snotcheerful。\"
\"Oh,allright!\"shecried,and,touchingherhorse,flewoffinfront。\"Ihatedismalthings。\"
Sheltonbithislips。Itwasnothisfaultthathalftheworldwasdark。Heknewherwordswereloosedagainsthimself,and,asalwaysatasignofherdispleasure,wasafraid。Hegallopedafterheronthescorchedturf。
\"Whatisit?\"hesaid。\"You\'reangrywithme!\"
\"Ohno!\"
\"Darling,Ican\'thelpitifthingsaren\'tcheerful。Wehaveeyes,\"
headded,quotingfromtheletter。
Antoniadidnotlookathim;buttouchedherhorseagain。
\"Well,Idon\'twanttoseethegloomyside,\"shesaid,\"andIcan\'tseewhyYOUshould。It\'swickedtobediscontented\";andshegallopedoff。
Itwasnothisfaultiftherewereathousanddifferentkindsofmen,athousanddifferentpointsofview,outsidethefenceofherexperience!\"Whatbusiness,\"hethought,digginginhisdummyspurs,\"hasourclasstopatronise?We\'retheonlypeoplewhohaven\'tanideaofwhatlifereallymeans。\"Chipsofdriedturfanddustcameflyingback,stinginghisface。Hegainedonher,drewalmostwithinreach,then,asthoughshehadbeenplayingwithhim,waslefthopelesslybehind。
Shestoopedunderthefarhedge,fanningherflushedfacewithdock-
leaves:
\"Aha,Dick!Iknewyou\'dnevercatchme\"andshepattedthechestnutmare,whoturnedherblowingmuzzlewithcontemptuoushumourtowardsShelton\'ssteed,whileherflanksheavedrapturously,graduallydarkeningwithsweat。
\"We\'dbettertakethemsteadily,\"gruntedShelton,gettingoffandlooseninghisgirths,\"ifwemeantogethomeatall。\"
\"Don\'tbecross,Dick!\"
\"Weoughtn\'ttohavegallopedthemlikethis;they\'renotincondition。\"We\'dbettergohomethewaywecame。\"
Antoniadroppedthereins,andstraightenedherbackhair。
\"There\'snofuninthat,\"shesaid。\"Outandbackagain;Ihateadog\'swalk。\"
\"Verywell,\"saidShelton;hewouldhaveherlongertohimself!
Theroadledupandupahill,andfromthetopavisionofSaxonialaydisclosedinwavesofwoodandpasture。Theirwaybrancheddownagatelessglade,andSheltonsidledclosertillhiskneetouchedthemare\'soff-flank。
Antonia\'sprofileconjuredupvisions。Shewasyouthitself;hereyessobrilliant,andsoinnocent,hercheekssoglowing,andherbrowunruffled;butinhersmileandinthesettingofherjawlurkedsomethingresoluteandmischievous。Sheltonputhishandouttothemare\'smane。
\"Whatmadeyoupromisetomarryme?\"hesaid。
Shesmiled。
\"Well,whatmadeyou?\"
\"I?\"criedShelton。
Sheslippedherhandoverhishand。
\"Oh,Dick!\"shesaid。
\"Iwant,\"hestammered,\"tobeeverythingtoyou。DoyouthinkI
shall?\"
\"Ofcourse!\"
Ofcourse!Thewordsseemedverymuchorverylittle。
Shelookeddownattheriver,gleamingbelowthegladeinacurvingsilverline。\"Dick,therearesuchalotofsplendidthingsthatwemightdo。\"
Didshemean,amongstthosesplendidthings,thattheymightunderstandeachother;orweretheyfatedtopretendtoonly,intheoldtime-honouredway?
Theycrossedtheriverbyaferry,androdealongtimeinsilence,whilethetwilightslowlyfellbehindtheaspens。Andallthebeautyoftheevening,withitsrestlessleaves,itsgraveyoungmoon,andlightedcampionflowers,wasbutapartofher;thescents,thewitcheryandshadows,thequaintfieldnoises,theyokels\'whistling,andthesplashofwater-fowl,eachseemedtohimenchanted。Theflightingbats,theformsofthedimhayricks,andsweet-brierperfume-shesummedthemallupinherself。Thefingermarkshaddeepenedunderneathhereyes,alanguorcameuponher;itmadeherthemoresweetandyouthful。Hershouldersseemedtobearonthemtheveryimageofourland——graveandaspiring,eageryetcontained——
beforetherecameuponthatlandthegrinofgreed,thefoldsofwealth,thesimperofcontent。Fair,unconscious,free!
Andhewassilent,withabeatingheart。
CHAPTERXXVI
THEBIRD\'OFPASSAGE
Thatnight,aftertheride,whenSheltonwasabouttogotobed,hiseyesfellonFerrand\'sletter,andwithasleepysenseofdutyhebegantoreaditthroughasecondtime。Inthedark,oak-panelledbedroom,hisfour-postbed,withbackofcrimsondamaskanditsdaintysheets,waslightedbythecandleglow;thecopperpitcherofhotwaterinthebasin,thesilverofhisbrushes,andthelineofhiswell-polishedbootsallshone,andShelton\'sfacealonewasgloomy,staringattheyellowishpaperinhishand。
\"Thepoorchapwantsmoney,ofcourse,\"hethought。Butwhygoonforeverhelpingonewhohadnoclaimonhim,ahopelesscase,incurable——onewhomitwashisdutytoletsinkforthegoodofthecommunityatlarge?Ferrand\'svagabondrefinementhadbeguiledhimintocharitythatshouldhavebeenbestowedonhospitals,oranycharitableworkbutforeignmissions。Togiveahelpinghand,abitofhimself,anodoffellowshiptoanyfellow-beingirrespectiveofaclaim,merelybecausehehappenedtobedown,wassentimentalnonsense!Thelinemustbedrawn!Butinthemutteringofthisconclusionheexperiencedatwingeofhonesty。\"Humbug!Youdon\'twanttopartwithyourmoney,that\'sall!\"
So,sittingdowninshirt-sleevesathiswritingtable,hepennedthefollowingonpaperstampedwiththeHolmOaksaddressandcrest:
MYDEARFERRAND,Iamsorryyouarehavingsuchabadspell。Youseemtobedeadoutofluck。Ihopebythetimeyougetthisthingswillhavechangedforthebetter。Ishouldverymuchliketoseeyouagainandhaveatalk,butshallbeawayforsometimelonger,anddoubtevenwhenI
getbackwhetherIshouldbeabletorundownandlookyouup。Keepme\'aucourant\'astoyourmovements。Iencloseacheque。
Yourssincerely,RICHARDSHELTON。
Beforehehadwrittenoutthecheque,amothflutteringroundthecandledistractedhisattention,andbythetimehehadcaughtandputitouthehadforgottenthatthechequewasnotenclosed。Theletter,removedwithhisclothesbeforehewasawake,waspostedinanemptystate。
Onemorningaweeklaterhewassittinginthesmoking-roominthecompanyofthegentlemancalledMabbey,whowastellinghimhowmanygrousehehaddeprivedoflifeonAugust12lastyear,andhowmanyheintendedtodepriveoflifeonAugust12thisyear,whenthedoorwasopened,andthebutlerentered,carryinghisheadasthoughitheldsomefatalsecret。
\"Ayoungmanisaskingforyou,sir,\"hesaidtoShelton,bendingdowndiscreetly;\"Idon\'tknowifyouwouldwishtoseehim,sir。\"
\"Ayoungman!\"repeatedShelton;\"whatsortofayoungman?\"
\"Ishouldsayasortofforeigner,sir,\"apologeticallyrepliedthebutler。\"He\'swearingafrock-coat,buthelooksasifhehadbeenwalkingagooddeal。\"
Sheltonrosewithhaste;thedescriptionsoundedtohimominous。
\"Whereishe?\"
\"Iputhimintheyoungladies\'littleroom,sir。\"
\"Allright,\"saidShelton;\"I\'llcomeandseehim。Now,whatthedeuce!\"hethought,runningdownthestairs。
Itwaswithaqueercomminglingofpleasureandvexationthatheenteredthelittlechambersacredtothebirds,beasts,racquets,golf-clubs,andgeneralyoungladies\'litter。Ferrandwasstandingunderneaththecageofacanary,hishandsfoldedonhispinched-uphat,anervoussmileuponhislips。HewasdressedinShelton\'soldfrock-coat,tightlybuttoned,andwouldhavecutastylishfigurebutfarhislookoftravel。Heworeapairofpince-nez,too,whichsomewhatveiledhiscynicalblueeyes,andclashedalittlewiththepaganlookofhim。Inthemidstofthestrangesurroundingshestillpreservedthatairofknowing,andbeingmasterof,hisfate,whichwashischiefattraction。
\"I\'mgladtoseeyou,\"saidShelton,holdingouthishand。
\"Forgivethisliberty,\"beganFerrand,\"butIthoughtitduetoyouafterallyou\'vedoneformenottothrowupmyeffortstogetemploymentinEnglandwithoutlettingyouknowfirst。I\'mentirelyattheendofmyresources。\"
ThephrasestruckSheltonasonethathehadheardbefore。
ButIwrotetoyou,\"hesaid;\"didn\'tyougetmyletter?\"
Aflickerpassedacrossthevagrant\'sface;hedrewtheletterfromhispocketandhelditout。
\"Hereitis,monsieur。\"
Sheltonstaredatit。
\"Surely,\"saidhe,\"Isentacheque?\"
Ferranddidnotsmile;therewasalookabouthimasthoughSheltonbyforgettingtoenclosethatchequehaddonehimarealinjury。
Sheltoncouldnotquitehideaglanceofdoubt。
\"Ofcourse,\"hesaid,\"I——I——meanttoencloseacheque。\"
Toosubtletosayanything,Ferrandcurledhislip。,\"Iamcapableofmuch,butnotofthat,\"heseemedtosay;andatonceSheltonfeltthemeannessofhisdoubt。
\"Stupidofme,\"hesaid。
\"Ihadnointentionofintrudinghere,\"saidFerrand;\"Ihopedtoseeyouintheneighbourhood,butIarriveexhaustedwithfatigue。I\'veeatennothingsinceyesterdayatnoon,andwalkedthirtymiles。\"Heshruggedhisshoulders。\"Yousee,Ihadnotimetolosebeforeassuringmyselfwhetheryouwerehereornot。\"
\"Ofcourse——\"beganShelton,butagainhestopped。
\"Ishouldverymuchlike,\"theyoungforeignerwenton,\"foroneofyourgoodlegislatorstofindhimselfinthesecountryvillageswithapennyinhispocket。Inothercountriesbakersareobligedtosellyouanequivalentofbreadforapenny;heretheywon\'tsellyouasmuchasacrustundertwopence。Youdon\'tencouragepoverty。\"
\"Whatisyourideanow?\"askedShelton,tryingtogaintime。
\"AsItoldyou,\"repliedFerrand,\"there\'snothingtobedoneatFolkestone,thoughIshouldhavestayedthereifIhadhadthemoneytodefraycertainexpenses\";andagainheseemedtoreproachhispatronwiththeomissionofthatcheque。\"Theysaythingswillcertainlybebetterattheendofthemonth。NowthatIknowEnglishwell,IthoughtperhapsIcouldprocureasituationforteachinglanguages。\"
\"Isee,\"saidShelton。
Asafact,however,hewasfarfromseeing;heliterallydidnotknowwhattodo。ItseemedsobrutaltogiveFerrandmoneyandaskhimtoclearout;besides,hechancedtohavenoneinhispocket。
\"ItneedsphilosophytosupportwhatI\'vegonethroughthisweek,\"
saidFerrand,shrugginghisshoulders。\"OnWednesdaylast,whenI
receivedyourletter,Ihadjusteighteen-pence,andatonceImadearesolutiontocomeandseeyou;onthatsumI\'vedonethejourney。
Mystrengthisnearlyatanend。\"
Sheltonstrokedhischin。
\"Well,\"hehadjustbegun,\"wemustthinkitover,\"whenbyFerrand\'sfacehesawthatsomeonehadcomein。Heturned,andsawAntoniainthedoorway。\"Excuseme,\"hestammered,and,goingtoAntonia,drewherfromtheroom。
Withasmileshesaidatonce:\"It\'stheyoungforeigner;I\'mcertain。Oh,whatfun!\"
\"Yes,\"answeredSheltonslowly;\"he\'scometoseemeaboutgettingsomesortoftutorshiporother。DoyouthinkyourmotherwouldmindifItookhimuptohaveawash?He\'shadalongishwalk。Andmighthehavesomebreakfast?Hemustbehungry。\"
\"Ofcourse!I\'lltellDobson。ShallIspeaktomother?Helooksnice,Dick。\"
Hegaveheragrateful,furtivelook,andwentbacktohisguest;animpulsehadmadehimhidefromherthetrueconditionofaffairs。
Ferrandwasstandingwherehehadbeenlefthisfacestillclothedinmordantimpassivity。
\"Comeuptomyroom!\"saidShelton;andwhilehisguestwaswashing,brushing,andotherwiseembellishinghisperson,hestoodreflectingthatFerrandwasbynomeansunpresentable,andhefeltquitegratefultohim。
Hetookanopportunity,whentheyoungman\'sbackwasturned,ofexamininghiscounterfoils。Therewasnorecord,naturally,ofachequedrawninFerrand\'sfavour。Sheltonfeltmoremeanthanever。
AmessagecamefromMrs。Dennant;sohetookthetravellertothedining-roomandlefthimthere,whilehehimselfwenttotheladyofthehouse。HemetAntoniacomingdown。
\"Howmanydaysdidyousayhewentwithoutfoodthattime——youknow?\"
sheaskedinpassing。
\"Four。\"
\"Hedoesn\'tlookabitcommon,Dick。\"
Sheltongazedatherdubiously。
\"They\'resurelynotgoingtomakeashowofhim!\"hethought。
Mrs。Dennantwaswriting,inadark-bluedressstarredoverwithwhitespots,whosefinelawncollarwasthreadedwithblackvelvet。
\"HaveyouseenthenewhybridAlgy\'sbroughtmebackfromKidstone?
Isn\'titcharmin\'?\"andshebentherfacetowardsthisperfectrose。
\"Theysayunique;I\'mawfullyinterestedtofindoutifthat\'strue。
I\'vetoldAlgyIreallymusthavesome。\"
Sheltonthoughtoftheuniquehybridbreakfastingdownstairs;hewishedthatMrs。Dennantwouldshowinhimtheinterestshehadmanifestedintherose。Butthiswasabsurdofhim,heknew,forthepotentlawofhobbiescontrolledtheupperclasses,forcingthemtotakemoreinterestinbirds,androses,missionaries,orlimitedandhighly-boundeditionsofoldbooksthings,inaword,intreatingwhichyouknewexactlywhereyouwerethaninthemanifestationsofmerelifethatcamebeforetheireyes。
\"Oh,Dick,aboutthatyoungFrenchman。Antoniasayshewantsatutorship;now,canyoureallyrecommendhim?There\'sMrs。RobinsonattheGatewayswantssomeonetoteachherboyslanguages;and,ifhewerequitesatisfactory,it\'sreallytimeToddleshadafewlessonsinFrench;hegoestoEtonnexthalf。\"
Sheltonstaredattherose;hehadsuddenlyrealisedwhyitwasthatpeopletakemoreinterestinrosesthaninhumanbeings——onecoulddoitwithaquietheart。
\"He\'snotaFrenchman,youknow,\"hesaidtogainalittletime。
\"He\'snotaGerman,Ihope,\"Mrs。Dennantanswered,passingherforgersroundapetal,toimpressitsfashiononherbrain;\"Idon\'tlikeGermans。Isn\'thetheoneyouwroteabout——comedownintheworld?Suchapitywithsoyoungafellow!Hisfatherwasamerchant,Ithinkyoutoldus。Antoniasayshe\'squiterefinedtolookat。\"
\"Oh,yes,\"saidShelton,feelingonsafeground;\"he\'srefinedenoughtolookat。\"
Mrs。Dennanttooktheroseandputittohernose。
\"Deliciousperfume!Thatwasaverytouchin\'storyabouthisgoin\'
withoutfoodinParis。OldMrs。Hopkinshasaroomtolet;Ishouldliketodoheragoodturn。I\'mafraidthere\'saholeintheceilin\',though。Orthere\'stheroomhereintheleftwingontheground-floorwhereJohnthefootmanusedtosleep。It\'squitenice;
perhapshecouldhavethat。\"
\"You\'reawfullykind,\"saidShelton,\"but——\"
\"Ishouldliketodosomethingtorestorehisself-respect,\",wentonMrs。Dennant,\"if,asyousay,he\'scleverandallthat。Seein\'alittlerefinedlifeagainmightmakeaworldofdifferencetohim。
It\'ssosadwhenayoungmanlosesself-respect。\"
Sheltonwasmuchstruckbythepracticalwayinwhichshelookedatthings。Restorehisself-respect!Itseemedquiteasplendidnotion!Hesmiled,andsaid,\"You\'retookind。Ithink——\"
\"Idon\'tbelieveindoin\'thingsbyhalves,\"saidMrs。Dennant;\"hedoesn\'tdrink,Isuppose?\"
\"Oh,no,\"saidShelton。\"He\'sratheratobaccomaniac,ofcourse。\"
\"Well,that\'samercy!Youwouldn\'tbelievethetroubleI\'vehadwithdrink,especiallyovercooksandcoachmen。AndnowBunyan\'stakentoit。\"
\"Oh,you\'dhavenotroublewithFerrand,\"returnedShelton;\"youcouldn\'ttellhimfromagentlemanasfarasmannersgo。\"
Mrs。Dennantsmiledoneofherrathersweetandkindlysmiles。
\"MydearDick,\"shesaid,\"there\'snotmuchcomfortinthat。LookatpoorBobbySurcingle,lookatOliverSemplesandVictorMedallion;
youcouldn\'thavebetterfamilies。Butifyou\'resurehedoesn\'tdrink!Algy\'lllaugh,ofcourse;thatdoesn\'tmatter——helaughsateverything。\"
Sheltonfeltguilty;beingquiteunpreparedforsorapidanadoptionofhisclient。
\"Ireallybelievethere\'salotofgoodinhim,\"hestammered;\"but,ofcourse,Iknowverylittle,andfromwhathetellsmehe\'shadaverycuriouslife。Ishouldn\'tlike——\"
\"Wherewasheeducated?\"inquiredMrs。Dennant。\"TheyhavenopublicschoolsinFrance,soI\'vebeentold;but,ofcourse,hecan\'thelpthat,pooryoungfellow!Oh,and,Dick,there\'sonething——hasherelations?Onehasalwaystobesocarefulaboutthat。It\'sonethingtohelpayoungfellow,butquiteanothertohelphisfamilytoo。Oneseessomanycasesofthatwheremenmarrygirlswithoutmoney,don\'tyouknow。\"
\"Hehastoldme,\"answeredShelton,\"hisonlyrelationsaresomecousins,andtheyarerich。\"
Mrs。Dennanttookoutherhandkerchief,and,bendingabovetherose,removedatinyinsect。
\"Thesegreen-flygetineverywhere,\"shesaid。
\"Verysadstory;can\'ttheydoanythingforhim?\"andshemaderesearchesintherose\'sheart。
\"He\'squarrelledwiththem,Ibelieve,\"saidShelton;\"Ihaven\'tlikedtopresshim,aboutthat。\"
\"No,ofcoursenot,\"assentedMrs。Dennantabsently——shehadfoundanothergreen-fly\"Ialwaysthinkit\'spainfulwhenayoungmanseemssofriendless。\"
Sheltonwassilent;hewasthinkingdeeply。Hehadneverbeforefeltsodistrustfuloftheyouthfulforeigner。
\"Ithink,\"hesaidatlast,\"thebestthingwouldbeforyoutoseehimforyourself。\"
\"Verywell,\"saidMrs。Dennant。\"Ishouldbesogladifyouwouldtellhimtocomeup。ImustsayIdothinkthatwasamosttouchin\'
storyaboutParis。Iwonderwhetherthislight\'sstrongenoughnowformetophotographthisrose。\"
Sheltonwithdrewandwentdown-stairs。Ferrandwasstillatbreakfast。Antoniastoodatthesideboardcarvingbeefforhim,andinthewindowsatTheawithherPersiankitten。
Bothgirlswerefollowingthetraveller\'smovementswithinscrutableblueeyes。AshiverrandownShelton\'sspine。Tospeaktruth,hecursedtheyoungman\'scoming,asthoughitaffectedhisrelationswithAntonia。
CHAPTERXXVII
SUBROSA
>Fromtheinterview,whichSheltonhadthemixeddelightofwatching,betweenFerrandandtheHonourableMrs。Dennant,certaindefiniteresultsaccrued,thechiefofwhichwasthepermissionaccordedtheyoungwanderertooccupytheroomwhichhadformerlybeentenantedbythefootmanJohn。SheltonwaslostinadmirationofFerrand\'smannerinthisscene……Itssubtlecombinationofdeferenceanddignitywasalmostparalysing;paralysing,too,thesubterraneansmileuponhislips。
\"Charmin\'youngman,Dick,\"saidMrs。Dennant,whenSheltonlingeredtosayoncemorethatheknewbutverylittleofhim;\"IshallsendanoteroundtoMrs。Robinsonatonce。They\'rerathercommon,youknow——theRobinsons。Ithinkthey\'lltakeanyoneIrecommend。\"
\"I\'msuretheywill,\"saidShelton;\"that\'swhyIthinkyououghttoknow——\"
ButMrs。Dennant\'seyes,fervent,hare-like,werefixedonsomethingfaraway;turning,hesawtheroseinatallvaseonatallandspindlystool。Itseemedtonodtowardstheminthesunshine。Mrs。
Dennantdivedhernosetowardshercamera。
\"Thelight\'sperfectnow,\"shesaid,inavoicemuffledbythecloth。
\"Ifeelsurethatlivin\'withdecentpeoplewilldowondersforhim。
Ofcourse,heunderstandsthathismealswillbeservedtohimapart。\"
Shelton,doublyanxious,nowthathiseffortshadlodgedhisclientinaplaceoftrust,fell,backonhopingforthebest;hisinstincttoldhimthat,vagabondasFerrandwas,hehadacuriousself-
respect,thatwouldsavehimfromameaningratitude。
Infact,asMrs。Dennant,whowasbynomeansvoidofcommon-sense,foresaw,thearrangementworkedallright。FerrandenteredonhisdutiesasFrenchtutortothelittleRobinsons。IntheDennants\'
householdhekepthimselftohisownroom,which,dayandnight,heperfumedwithtobacco,emergingatnoonintothegarden,or,ifwet,intothestudy,toteachyoungToddlesFrench。Afteratimeitbecamecustomaryforhimtolunchwiththehouse-party,partlythroughamistakeofToddles,whoseemedtothinkthatitwasnatural,andpartlythroughJohnNoble,oneofShelton\'sfriends,whohadcometostay,anddiscoveredFerrandtobeamostawfullyinterestingpersonhewasalways,indeed,discoveringthemostawfullyinterestingpersons。Inhisgraveandtonelessvoice,brushinghishairfromoffhisbrow,hedescanteduponFerrandwithenthusiasm,towhichwasjoinedakindofshockedamusement,aswhoshouldsay,\"Ofcourse,Iknowit\'sveryodd,butreallyhe\'ssuchanawfullyinterestingperson。\"ForJohnNoblewasapolitician,belongingtooneofthosetwoPeculiarparties,which,thoroughlyinearnest,ofanhonestyabovesuspicion,andalwaysverybusy,areconstitutionallyaversetoanythingpeculiarforfearoffindingtheyhaveoversteppedthelimitofwhatispracticalinpolitics。Assuchheinspiredconfidence,notcaringforthingsunlesshesawsomeimmediatebenefittobehadfromthem,havingaperfectsenseofdecency,andasmallimagination。HediscussedallsortsofthingswithFerrand;ononeoccasionSheltonoverheardthemarguingonanarchism。
\"NoEnglishmanapprovesofmurder,\"Noblewassaying,inthegloomyvoicethatcontrastedwiththeoptimisticcastofhisfinehead,\"butthemainprincipleisright。Equalisationofpropertyisboundtocome。Isympathisewiththen,notwiththeirmethods。\"
\"Forgiveme,\"struckinFerrand;\"doyouknowanyanarchists?\"
\"No,\"returnedNoble;\"Icertainlydonot。\"
\"Yousayyousympathisewiththem,butthefirsttimeitcomestoaction——\"
\"Well?\"
\"Oh,monsieur!onedoesn\'tmakeanarchismwiththehead。\"
Sheltonperceivedthathehadmeanttoadd,\"butwiththeheart,thelungs,theliver。\"Hedrewadeepermeaningfromthesaying,andseemedtosee,curlingwiththesmokefromFerrand\'slips,thewords:
\"Whatdoyou,anEnglishgentleman,ofexcellentposition,andalltheprejudicesofyourclass,knowaboutusoutcasts?Ifyouwanttounderstandusyoumustbeanoutcasttoo;wearenotplayingatthegame。\"
Thistalktookplaceuponthelawn,attheendofoneofToddles\'sFrenchlessons,andSheltonleftJohnNoblemaintainingtotheyouthfulforeigner,withstubbornlogic,thathe,JohnNoble,andtheanarchistshadmuch,incommon。Hewasreturningtothehouse,whensomeonecalledhisnamefromunderneaththeholmoak。There,sittingTurkishfashiononthegrass,apipebetweenhisteeth,hefoundamanwhohadarrivedthenightbefore,andimpressedhimbyhisfriendlytaciturnity。HisnamewasWhyddon,andhehadjustreturnedfromCentralAfrica;abrown-faced,large-jawedman,withsmallbutgoodandsteadyeyes,andstrong,sparefigure。
\"Oh,Mr。Shelton!\"hesaid,\"IwonderedifyoucouldtellmewhattipsIoughttogivetheservantshere;aftertenyearsawayI\'veforgottenallaboutthatsortofthing。\"
Sheltonsatdownbesidehim;unconsciouslyassuming,too,across-
leggedattitude,whichcausedhimmuchdiscomfort。
\"Iwaslistening,\"saidhisnewacquaintance,\"tothelittlechaplearninghisFrench。I\'veforgottenmine。Onefeelsahopelessdufferknowingno,languages。\"
\"IsupposeyouspeakArabic?\"saidShelton。
\"Oh,Arabic,andadialectortwo;theydon\'tcount。Thattutorhasacuriousface。\"
\"Youthinkso?\"saidShelton,interested。\"He\'shadacuriouslife。\"
Thetravellerspreadhishands,palmsdownwards,onthegrassandlookedatSheltonwith,asmile。
\"Ishouldsayhewasarollingstone,\"hesaid。\"It\'sodd,I\'veseenwhitemeninCentralAfricawithagooddealofhislookaboutthem。
\"Yourdiagnosisisagoodone,\"answeredShelton。
\"I\'malwayssorryforthosefellows。There\'sgenerallysomegoodinthem。Theyaretheirownenemies。Abadbusinesstobeunabletotakeprideinanythingonedoes!\"Andtherewasalookofpityonhisface。
\"That\'sexactlyit,\"saidShelton。\"I\'veoftentriedtoputitintowords。Isitincurable?\"
\"Ithinkso。\"
\"Canyoutellmewhy?\"
Whyddonpondered。
\"Iratherthink,\"hesaidatlast,\"itmustbebecausetheyhavetoostrongafacultyofcriticism。Youcan\'tteachamantobeproudofhisownwork;thatliesinhisblood\";foldinghisarmsacrosshisbreast,heheavedasigh。Underthedarkfoliage,hiseyesonthesunlight,hewasthetypeofallthoseEnglishmenwhokeeptheirspiritsbrightandweartheirbodiesoutinthedarkplacesofhardwork。\"Youcan\'tthink,\"hesaid,showinghisteethinasmile,\"howdelightfulitistobeathome!Youlearntolovetheoldcountrywhenyou\'reawayfromit。\"
Sheltonoftenthought,afterwards;ofthisdiagnosisofthevagabond,forhewasalwaysstumblingoninstancesofthatpowerofsubtlecriticismwhichwastheyoungforeigner\'sprimeclaimtobe\"amostawfullyinteresting\"andperhapsarathershockingperson。
Anoldschool-fellowofShelton\'sandhiswifewerestayinginthehouse,whoofferedtotheeyethepictureofaperfectdomesticity。
Passionlessandsmiling,itwasimpossibletoimaginetheycouldeverhaveadifference。Shelton,whosebedroomwasnexttotheirs,couldheartheminthemorningstalkinginexactlythetonestheyusedatlunch,andlaughingthesamelaughs。Theirlifeseemedtoaccordthemperfectsatisfaction;theyweresuppliedwiththeirconvictionsbySocietyjustas,whenathome,theyweresuppliedwithalltheothernecessariesoflifebysomeco-operativestores。Theirfairlyhandsomefaces,withthefairlykindexpressions,quicklyandcarefullyregulatedbyasenseofcompromise,begantoworryhimsomuchthatwheninthesameroomhewouldevenreadtoavoidtheneedoflookingatthem。Andyettheywerekind——thatis,fairlykind——
andcleanandquietinthehouse,exceptwhentheylaughed,whichwasoften,andatthingswhichmadehimwanttohowlasadoghowlsatmusic。
\"Mr。Shelton,\"Ferrandsaidoneday,\"I\'mnotanamateurofmarriage——neverhadthechance,asyoumaywellsuppose;but,inanycase,youhavesomepeopleinthehousewhowouldmakememarktimebeforeIwentcommittingit。Theyseemtheidealyoungmarriedpeople——don\'tquarrel,haveperfecthealth,agreewitheverybody,gotochurch,havechildren——butIshouldliketohearwhatisbeautifulintheirlife,\"andhegrimaced。\"ItseemstomesouglythatIcanonlygasp。Iwouldmuchrathertheyill-treatedeachother,justtoshowtheyhadthecornerofasoulbetweenthem。Ifthatismarriage,\'Dieum\'engarde!\'\"
ButSheltondidnotanswer;hewasthinkingdeeply。
ThesayingofJohnNoble\'s,\"He\'sreallyamostinterestingperson,\"
grewmoreandmoreuponhisnerves;itseemedtodescribetheDennantattitudetowardsthisstrangerwithintheirgates。Theytreatedhimwithasortofwonderonthe\"don\'ttouch\"system,likeanobjectinanexhibition。Therestoration,however,of,hisself-respectproceededwithsuccess。ForallthesemblanceofhavinggrowntoobigforShelton\'sclothes,forallhisvividlyburntface,andthequickbutguardedplayofcynicismonhislips——hedidmuchcredittohispatrons。Hehadsubduedhisterrorofarazor,andlookedwellinasuitofShelton\'sflannels。For,afterall,hehadonlybeeneightyearsexiledfrommiddle-classgentility,andhehadbeenawaiterhalfthattime。ButSheltonwishedhimatthedevil。Notforhismanners\'sake——hewasnevertiredofwatchinghowsubtlythevagabondadaptedhisconducttotheconductofhishosts,whilekeepinguphiscriticaldetachment——butbecausethatcriticaldetachmentwasaconstantspurtohisownvision,compellinghimtoanalysethelifeintowhich,hehadbeenbornandwasabouttomarry。
Thisprocesswasdisturbing;andtofindoutwhenithadcommenced,hehadtogobacktohismeetingwithFerrandonthejourneyupfromDover。
Therewaskindnessinahospitalitywhichopenedtosostrangeabird;admittingthekindness,Sheltonfelltoanalysingit。Tohimself,topeopleofhisclass,theuseofkindnesswasaluxury,notsignificantofsacrifice,butproductiveofapleasantfeelingintheheart,suchasmassagewillsetupinthelegs。\"Everybody\'skind,\"hethought;\"thequestionis,Whatunderstandingisthere,whatrealsympathy?\"Thisproblemgavehimfoodforthought。
Theprogress,whichMrs。Dennantnotunfrequentlyremarkedupon,inFerrand\'sconquestofhisstrangeposition,seemedtoSheltonbutasignthathewasgettingwhathecouldoutofhissuddenvisittogreenpastures;underthesamecircumstances,Sheltonthoughtthathehimselfwoulddothesame。Hefeltthattheyoungforeignerwasmakingaconvenientbowtoproperty,buthehadmorerespectforthesarcasticsmileonthelipsofFerrand\'sheart。