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  Wehadafamouslaughtogetheroverit。Ha!Ha!Ha!

  MrDedalusturnedtohiswifeandinterjectedinhisnaturalvoice:——

  Showsyouthespiritinwhichtheytaketheboysthere。O,ajesuitforyourlife,fordiplomacy!

  Hereassumedtheprovincial\'svoiceandrepeated:——

  ItoldthemallatdinneraboutitandFatherDolanandIandallofuswehadaheartylaughtogetheroverit。Ha!Ha!Ha!

  ThenightoftheWhitsuntideplayhadcomeandStephenfromthewindowofthedressing-roomlookedoutonthesmallgrass-plotacrosswhichlinesofChineselanternswerestretched。Hewatchedthevisitorscomedownthestepsfromthehouseandpassintothetheatre。Stewardsineveningdress,oldBelvedereans,loiteredingroupsabouttheentrancetothetheatreandusheredinthevisitorswithCeremony。Underthesuddenglowofalanternhecouldrecognizethesmilingfaceofapriest。

  TheBlessedSacramenthadbeenremovedfromthetabernacleandthefirstbencheshadbeendrivenbacksoastoleavethedaisofthealtarandthespacebeforeitfree。AgainstthewallsstoodcompaniesofbarbellsandIndianclubs;thedumbbellswerepiledinonecorner:andinthemidstofcountlesshillocksofgymnasiumshoesandsweatersandsingletsinuntidybrownparcelstherestoodthestoutleather-jacketedvaultinghorsewaitingitsturntobecarrieduponthestageandsetinthemiddleofthewinningteamattheendofthegymnasticdisplay。

  Stephen,thoughindeferencetohisreputationforessaywritinghehadbeenelectedsecretarytothegymnasium,hadhadnopartinthefirstsectionoftheprogrammebutintheplaywhichformedthesecondsectionhehadthechiefpart,thatofafarcicalpedagogue。HehadbeencastforitonaccountofhisstatureandgravemannersforhewasnowattheendofhissecondyearatBelvedereandinnumbertwo。

  Ascoreoftheyoungerboysinwhiteknickersandsingletscamepatteringdownfromthestage,throughthevestryandtothechapel。Thevestryandchapelwerepeopledwitheagermastersandboys。Theplumpbaldsergeantmajorwastestingwithhisfootthespringboardofthevaultinghorse。

  Theleanyoungmaninalongovercoat,whowastogiveaspecialdisplayofintricateclubswinging,stoodnearwatchingwithinterest,hissilver-coatedclubspeepingoutofhisdeepside-pockets。Thehollowrattleofthewoodendumbbellswasheardasanotherteammadereadytogouponthestage:andinanothermomenttheexcitedprefectwashustlingtheboysthroughthevestrylikeaflockofgeese,flappingthewingsofhissoutanenervouslyandcryingtothelaggardstomakehaste。AlittletroopofNeapolitanpeasantswerepractisingtheirstepsattheendofthechapel,somecirclingtheirarmsabovetheirheads,someswayingtheirbasketsofpapervioletsandcurtsying。Inadarkcornerofthechapelatthegospelsideofthealtarastoutoldladykneltamidhercopiousblackskirts。Whenshestoodupapink-dressedfigure,wearingacurlygoldenwigandanold-fashionedstrawsunbonnet,withblackpencilledeyebrowsandcheeksdelicatelyrougedandpowdered,wasdiscovered。Alowmurmurofcuriosityranroundthechapelatthediscoveryofthisgirlishfigure。Oneoftheprefects,smilingandnoddinghishead,approachedthedarkcornerand,havingbowedtothestoutoldlady,saidpleasantly:——

  Isthisabeautifulyoungladyoradollthatyouhavehere,MrsTallon?

  Then,bendingdowntopeeratthesmilingpaintedfaceundertheleafofthebonnet,heexclaimed:——

  No!UponmywordIbelieveit\'slittleBertieTallonafterall!

  Stephenathispostbythewindowheardtheoldladyandthepriestlaughtogetherandheardtheboys\'murmursofadmirationbehindhimastheypassedforwardtoseethelittleboywhohadtodancethesunbonnetdancebyhimself。Amovementofimpatienceescapedhim。Helettheedgeoftheblindfalland,steppingdownfromthebenchonwhichhehadbeenstanding,walkedoutofthechapel。

  Hepassedoutoftheschoolhouseandhaltedundertheshedthatflankedthegarden。Fromthetheatreoppositecamethemufflednoiseoftheaudienceandsuddenbrazenclashesofthesoldiers\'band。Thelightspreadupwardsfromtheglassroofmakingthetheatreseemafestiveark,anchoredamongthehulksofhouses,herfrailcablesoflanternsloopinghertohermoorings。

  Asidedoorofthetheatreopenedsuddenlyandashaftoflightflewacrossthegrassplots。Asuddenburstofmusicissuedfromtheark,thepreludeofawaltz:andwhenthesidedoorclosedagainthelistenercouldhearthefaintrhythmofthemusic。Thesentimentoftheopeningbars,theirlanguorandsupplemovement,evokedtheincommunicableemotionwhichhadbeenthecauseofallhisday\'sunrestandofhisimpatientmovementofamomentbefore。Hisunrestissuedfromhimlikeawaveofsound:andonthetideofflowingmusicthearkwasjourneying,trailinghercablesoflanternsinherwake。Thenanoiselikedwarfartillerybrokethemovement。

  Itwastheclappingthatgreetedtheentryofthedumbbellteamonthestage。

  Atthefarendoftheshednearthestreetaspeckofpinklightshowedinthedarknessandashewalkedtowardsithebecameawareofafaintaromaticodour。Twoboyswerestandingintheshelterofadoorway,smoking,andbeforehereachedthemhehadrecognisedHeronbyhisvoice——

  HerecomesthenobleDedalus!criedahighthroatyvoice。Welcometoourtrustyfriend!

  ThiswelcomeendedinasoftpealofmirthlesslaughterasHeronsalaamedandthenbegantopokethegroundwithhiscane——

  HereIam,saidStephen,haltingandglancingfromHerontohisfriend。

  Thelatterwasastrangertohimbutinthedarkness,bytheaidoftheglowingcigarettetips,hecouldmakeoutapaledandyishfaceoverwhichasmilewastravellingslowly,atallovercoatedfigureandahardhat。Herondidnottroublehimselfaboutanintroductionbutsaidinstead:——

  IwasjusttellingmyfriendWalliswhatalarkitwouldbetonightifyoutookofftherectorinthepartoftheschoolmaster。Itwouldbearippinggoodjoke。

  HeronmadeapoorattempttoimitateforhisfriendWallistherector\'spedanticbassandthen,laughingathisfailure,askedStephentodoit——

  Goon,Dedalus,heurged,youcantakehimoffrippingly。Hethatwillnothearthechurchalethimbetotheeaastheheathenaandthepublicana。

  TheimitationwaspreventedbyamildexpressionofangerfromWallisinwhosemouthpiecethecigarettehadbecometootightlywedged——

  Damnthisblanketyblankholder,hesaid,takingitfromhismouthandsmilingandfrowninguponittolerantly。It\'salwaysgettingstucklikethat。Doyouuseaholder?——

  Idon\'tsmoke,answeredStephen——

  No,saidHeron,Dedalusisamodelyouth。Hedoesn\'tsmokeandhedoesn\'tgotobazaarsandhedoesn\'tflirtandhedoesn\'tdamnanythingordamnall。

  Stephenshookhisheadandsmiledinhisrival\'sflushedandmobileface,beakedlikeabird\'s。HehadoftenthoughtitstrangethatVincentHeronhadabird\'sfaceaswellasabird\'sname。Ashockofpalehairlayontheforeheadlikearuffledcrest:theforeheadwasnarrowandbonyandathinhookednosestoodoutbetweentheclose-setprominenteyeswhichwerelightandinexpressive。Therivalswereschoolfriends。Theysattogetherinclass,knelttogetherinthechapel,talkedtogetherafterbeadsovertheirlunches。Asthefellowsinnumberonewereundistinguisheddullards,StephenandHeronhadbeenduringtheyearthevirtualheadsoftheschool。

  Itwastheywhowentuptotherectortogethertoaskforafreedayortogetafellowoff——

  Obytheway,saidHeronsuddenly,Isawyourgovernorgoingin。

  ThesmilewanedonStephen\'sface。Anyallusionmadetohisfatherbyafelloworbyamasterputhiscalmtoroutinamoment。HewaitedintimoroussilencetohearwhatHeronmightsaynext。Heron,however,nudgedhimexpressivelywithhiselbowandsaid:——

  You\'reaslydog——

  Whyso?saidStephen——

  You\'dthinkbutterwouldn\'tmeltinyourmouthsaidHeron。ButI\'mafraidyou\'reaslydog——

  MightIaskyouwhatyouaretalkingabout?saidStephenurbanely——

  Indeedyoumight,answeredHeron。Wesawher,Wallis,didn\'twe?

  Anddeucedlyprettysheistoo。Andinquisitive!AndwhatpartdoesStephentake,MrDedalus?AndwillStephennotsing,MrDedalus?YourgovernorwasstaringatherthroughthateyeglassofhisforallhewasworthsothatIthinktheoldmanhasfoundyououttoo。Iwouldn\'tcareabit,byJove。She\'sripping,isn\'tshe,Wallis?——

  Nothalfbad,answeredWallisquietlyasheplacedhisholderoncemoreinacornerofhismouth。

  AshaftofmomentaryangerflewthroughStephen\'smindattheseindelicateallusionsinthehearingofastranger。Forhimtherewasnothingamusinginagirl\'sinterestandregard。Alldayhehadthoughtofnothingbuttheirleave-takingonthestepsofthetramatHarold\'sCross,thestreamofmoodyemotionsithadmadetocoursethroughhimandthepoemhehadwrittenaboutit。Alldayhehadimaginedanewmeetingwithherforheknewthatshewastocometotheplay。Theoldrestlessmoodinesshadagainfilledhisbreastasithaddoneonthenightoftheparty,buthadnotfoundanoutletinverse。Thegrowthandknowledgeoftwoyearsofboyhoodstoodbetweenthenandnow,forbiddingsuchanoutlet:andalldaythestreamofgloomytendernesswithinhimhadstartedforthandreturneduponitselfindarkcoursesandeddies,wearyinghimintheenduntilthepleasantryoftheprefectandthepaintedlittleboyhaddrawnfromhimamovementofimpatience——

  Soyoumayaswelladmit,Heronwenton,thatwe\'vefairlyfoundyououtthistime。Youcan\'tplaythesaintonmeanymore,that\'sonesurefive。

  Asoftpealofmirthlesslaughterescapedfromhislipsand,bendingdownasbefore,hestruckStephenlightlyacrossthecalfofthelegwithhiscane,asifinjestingreproof。

  Stephen\'smomentofangerhadalreadypassed。Hewasneitherflatterednorconfused,butsimplywishedthebantertoend。Hescarcelyresentedwhathadseemedtohimasillyindelicatenessforheknewthattheadventureinhismindstoodinnodangerfromthesewords:andhisfacemirroredhisrival\'sfalsesmile——

  Admit!repeatedHeron,strikinghimagainwithhiscaneacrossthecalfoftheleg。

  Thestrokewasplayfulbutnotsolightlygivenasthefirstonehadbeen。Stephenfelttheskintingleandglowslightlyandalmostpainlessly;

  and,bowingsubmissively,asiftomeethiscompanion\'sjestingmood,begantorecitetheConfiteor。Theepisodeendedwell,forbothHeronandWallislaughedindulgentlyattheirreverence。

  TheconfessioncameonlyfromStephen\'slipsand,whiletheyspokethewords,asuddenmemoryhadcarriedhimtoanotherscenecalledup,asifbymagic,atthemomentwhenhehadnotedthefaintcrueldimplesatthecornersofHeron\'ssmilinglipsandhadfeltthefamiliarstrokeofthecaneagainsthiscalfandhadheardthefamiliarwordofadmonition:——

  Admit。

  Itwastowardsthecloseofhisfirstterminthecollegewhenhewasinnumbersix。Hissensitivenaturewasstillsmartingunderthelashesofanundivinedandsqualidwayoflife。HissoulwasstilldisquietedandcastdownbythedullphenomenonofDublin。Hehademergedfromatwoyears\'spellofreverytofindhimselfinthemidstofanewscene,everyeventandfigureofwhichaffectedhimintimately,disheartenedhimoralluredand,whetheralluringordisheartening,filledhimalwayswithunrestandbitterthoughts。Alltheleisurewhichhisschoollifelefthimwaspassedinthecompanyofsubversivewriterswhosejibesandviolenceofspeechsetupafermentinhisbrainbeforetheypassedoutofitintohiscrudewritings。

  TheessaywasforhimthechieflabourofhisweekandeveryTuesday,ashemarchedfromhometotheschool,hereadhisfateintheincidentsoftheway,pittinghimselfagainstsomefigureaheadofhimandquickeninghispacetooutstripitbeforeacertaingoalwasreachedorplantinghisstepsscrupulouslyinthespacesofthepatchworkofthepathwayandtellinghimselfthathewouldbefirstandnotfirstintheweeklyessay。

  OnacertainTuesdaythecourseofhistriumphswasrudelybroken。MrTate,theEnglishmaster,pointedhisfingerathimandsaidbluntly:——

  Thisfellowhasheresyinhisessay。

  Ahushfellontheclass。MrTatedidnotbreakitbutdugwithhishandbetweenhisthighswhilehisheavilystarchedlinencreakedabouthisneckandwrists。Stephendidnotlookup。Itwasarawspringmorningandhiseyeswerestillsmartingandweak。Hewasconsciousoffailureandofdetection,ofthesqualorofhisownmindandhome,andfeltagainsthisnecktherawedgeofhisturnedandjaggedcollar。

  AshortloudlaughfromMrTatesettheclassmoreatease——

  Perhapsyoudidn\'tknowthat,hesaid——

  Where?askedStephen。

  MrTatewithdrewhisdelvinghandandspreadouttheessay——

  Here。It\'sabouttheCreatorandthesoul。RrmrrmrrmAh!withoutapossibilityofeverapproachingnearer。That\'sheresy。

  Stephenmurmured:——

  Imeantwithoutapossibilityofeverreaching。

  ItwasasubmissionandMrTate,appeased,foldeduptheessayandpasseditacrosstohim,saying:——

  OAh!everreaching。That\'sanotherstory。

  Buttheclasswasnotsosoonappeased。Thoughnobodyspoketohimoftheaffairafterclasshecouldfeelabouthimavaguegeneralmalignantjoy。

  AfewnightsafterthispublicchidinghewaswalkingwithaletteralongtheDrumcondraRoadwhenheheardavoicecry:——

  Halt!

  Heturnedandsawthreeboysofhisownclasscomingtowardshiminthedusk。ItwasHeronwhohadcalledoutand,ashemarchedforwardbetweenhistwoattendants,heclefttheairbeforehimwithathincaneintimetotheirsteps。Boland,hisfriend,marchedbesidehim,alargegrinonhisface,whileNashcameonafewstepsbehind,blowingfromthepaceandwagginghisgreatredhead。

  AssoonastheboyshadturnedintoClonliffeRoadtogethertheybegantospeakaboutbooksandwriters,sayingwhatbookstheywerereadingandhowmanybookstherewereintheirfathers\'bookcasesathome。StephenlistenedtotheminsomewondermentforBolandwasthedunceandNashtheidleroftheclass。Infact,aftersometalkabouttheirfavouritewriters,NashdeclaredforCaptainMarryatwho,hesaid,wasthegreatestwriter——

  Fudge!saidHeron。AskDedalus。Whoisthegreatestwriter,Dedalus?

  Stephennotedthemockeryinthequestionandsaid:——

  Ofprosedoyoumean?——

  Yes——

  Newman,Ithink——

  IsitCardinalNewman?askedBoland——

  Yes,answeredStephen。

  ThegrinbroadenedonNash\'sfreckledfaceasheturnedtoStephenandsaid:——

  AnddoyoulikeCardinalNewman,Dedalus?——

  O,manysaythatNewmanhasthebestprosestyle,Heronsaidtotheothertwoinexplanation,ofcoursehe\'snotapoet——

  Andwhoisthebestpoet,Heron?askedBoland——

  LordTennyson,ofcourse,answeredHeron——

  O,yes,LordTennyson,saidNash。Wehaveallhispoetryathomeinabook。

  AtthisStephenforgotthesilentvowshehadbeenmakingandburstout:——

  Tennysonapoet!Why,he\'sonlyarhymester!——

  O,getout!saidHeron。EveryoneknowsthatTennysonisthegreatestpoet——

  Andwhodoyouthinkisthegreatestpoet?askedBoland,nudginghisneighbour——

  Byron,ofcourse,answeredStephen。

  Herongavetheleadandallthreejoinedinascornfullaugh——

  Whatareyoulaughingat?askedStephen——

  You,saidHeron。Byronthegreatestpoet!He\'sonlyapoetforuneducatedpeople——

  Hemustbeafinepoet!saidBoland——

  Youmaykeepyourmouthshut,saidStephen,turningonhimboldly。

  Allyouknowaboutpoetryiswhatyouwroteupontheslatesintheyardandweregoingtobesenttotheloftfor。

  Boland,infact,wassaidtohavewrittenontheslatesintheyardacoupletaboutaclassmateofhiswhooftenrodehomefromthecollegeonapony:AsTysonwasridingintoJerusalemHefellandhurthisAlecKafoozelum。ThisthrustputthetwolieutenantstosilencebutHeronwenton:——

  InanycaseByronwasahereticandimmoraltoo——

  Idon\'tcarewhathewas,criedStephenhotly——

  Youdon\'tcarewhetherhewasahereticornot?saidNash——

  Whatdoyouknowaboutit?shoutedStephen。Youneverreadalineofanythinginyourlifeexceptatrans,orBolandeither——

  IknowthatByronwasabadman,saidBoland——

  Here,catchholdofthisheretic,Heroncalledout。InamomentStephenwasaprisoner——

  Tatemadeyoubuckuptheotherday,Heronwenton,abouttheheresyinyouressay——

  I\'lltellhimtomorrow,saidBoland——

  Willyou?saidStephen。You\'dbeafraidtoopenyourlips——

  Afraid?——

  Ay。Afraidofyourlife——

  Behaveyourself!criedHeron,cuttingatStephen\'slegswithhiscane。

  Itwasthesignalfortheironset。NashpinionedhisarmsbehindwhileBolandseizedalongcabbagestumpwhichwaslyinginthegutter。StrugglingandkickingunderthecutsofthecaneandtheblowsoftheknottystumpStephenwasbornebackagainstabarbedwirefence——

  AdmitthatByronwasnogood——

  No——

  Admit——

  No——

  Admit——

  No。No。

  Atlastafterafuryofplungeshewrenchedhimselffree。HistormentorssetofftowardsJones\'sRoad,laughingandjeeringathim,whilehe,halfblindedwithtears,stumbledon,clenchinghisfistsmadlyandsobbing。

  WhilehewasstillrepeatingtheConfiteoramidtheindulgentlaughterofhishearersandwhilethescenesofthatmalignantepisodewerestillpassingsharplyandswiftlybeforehismindhewonderedwhyheborenomalicenowtothosewhohadtormentedhim。Hehadnotforgottenawhitoftheircowardiceandcrueltybutthememoryofitcalledforthnoangerfromhim。Allthedescriptionsoffierceloveandhatredwhichhehadmetinbookshadseemedtohimthereforeunreal。EventhatnightashestumbledhomewardsalongJones\'sRoadhehadfeltthatsomepowerwasdivestinghimofthatsudden-wovenangeraseasilyasafruitisdivestedofitssoftripepeel。

  Heremainedstandingwithhistwocompanionsattheendoftheshedlisteningidlytotheirtalkortotheburstsofapplauseinthetheatre。

  Shewassittingthereamongtheothersperhapswaitingforhimtoappear。

  Hetriedtorecallherappearancebutcouldnot。Hecouldrememberonlythatshehadwornashawlaboutherheadlikeacowlandthatherdarkeyeshadinvitedandunnervedhim。Hewonderedhadhebeeninherthoughtsasshehadbeeninhis。Theninthedarkandunseenbytheothertwoherestedthetipsofthefingersofonehanduponthepalmoftheotherhand,scarcelytouchingitlightly。Butthepressureofherfingershadbeenlighterandsteadier:andsuddenlythememoryoftheirtouchtraversedhisbrainandbodylikeaninvisiblewave。

  Aboycametowardsthem,runningalongundertheshed。Hewasexcitedandbreathless——

  O,Dedalus,hecried,Doyleisinagreatbakeaboutyou。You\'retogoinatonceandgetdressedfortheplay。Hurryup,youbetter——

  He\'scomingnow,saidHerontothemessengerwithahaughtydrawl,whenhewantsto。

  TheboyturnedtoHeronandrepeated:——

  ButDoyleisinanawfulbake——

  WillyoutellDoylewithmybestcomplimentsthatIdamnedhiseyes?

  answeredHeron——

  Well,Imustgonow,saidStephen,whocaredlittleforsuchpointsofhonour——

  Iwouldn\'t,saidHeron,damnmeifIwould。That\'snowaytosendforoneoftheseniorboys。Inabake,indeed!Ithinkit\'squiteenoughthatyou\'retakingapartinhisballyoldplay。

  ThisspiritofquarrelsomecomradeshipwhichhehadobservedlatelyinhisrivalhadnotseducedStephenfromhishabitsofquietobedience。

  Hemistrustedtheturbulenceanddoubtedthesincerityofsuchcomradeshipwhichseemedtohimasorryanticipationofmanhood。Thequestionofhonourhereraisedwas,likeallsuchquestions,trivialtohim。Whilehismindhadbeenpursuingitsintangiblephantomsandturninginirresolutionfromsuchpursuithehadheardabouthimtheconstantvoicesofhisfatherandofhismasters,urginghimtobeagentlemanaboveallthingsandurginghimtobeagoodcatholicaboveallthings。Thesevoiceshadnowcometobehollow-soundinginhisears。Whenthegymnasiumhadbeenopenedhehadheardanothervoiceurginghimtobestrongandmanlyandhealthyandwhenthemovementtowardsnationalrevivalhadbeguntobefeltinthecollegeyetanothervoicehadbiddenhimbetruetohiscountryandhelptoraiseupherlanguageandtradition。Intheprofaneworld,asheforesaw,aworldlyvoicewouldbidhimraiseuphisfather\'sfallenstatebyhislaboursand,meanwhile,thevoiceofhisschoolcomradesurgedhimtobeadecentfellow,toshieldothersfromblameortobegthemoffandtodohisbesttogetfreedaysfortheschool。Anditwasthedinofallthesehollow-soundingvoicesthatmadehimhaltirresolutelyinthepursuitofphantoms。Hegavethemearonlyforatimebuthewashappyonlywhenhewasfarfromthem,beyondtheircall,aloneorinthecompanyofphantasmalcomrades。

  Inthevestryaplumpfresh-facedjesuitandanelderlyman,inshabbyblueclothes,weredabblinginacaseofpaintsandchalks。Theboyswhohadbeenpaintedwalkedaboutorstoodstillawkwardly,touchingtheirfacesinagingerlyfashionwiththeirfurtivefingertips。Inthemiddleofthevestryayoungjesuit,whowasthenonavisittothecollege,stoodrockinghimselfrhythmicallyfromthetipsofhistoestohisheelsandbackagain,hishandsthrustwellforwardintohisside-pockets。Hissmallheadsetoffwithglossyredcurlsandhisnewlyshavenfaceagreedwellwiththespotlessdecencyofhissoutaneandwithhisspotlessshoes。

  Ashewatchedthisswayingformandtriedtoreadforhimselfthelegendofthepriest\'smockingsmiletherecameintoStephen\'smemoryasayingwhichhehadheardfromhisfatherbeforehehadbeensenttoClongowes,thatyoucouldalwaystellajesuitbythestyleofhisclothes。Atthesamemomenthethoughthesawalikenessbetweenhisfather\'smindandthatofthissmilingwell-dressedpriest:andhewasawareofsomedesecrationofthepriest\'sofficeorofthevestryitselfwhosesilencewasnowroutedbyloudtalkandjokinganditsairpungentwiththesmellsofthegas-jetsandthegrease。

  Whilehisforeheadwasbeingwrinkledandhisjawspaintedblackandbluebytheelderlyman,helisteneddistractedlytothevoiceoftheplumpyoungjesuitwhichbadehimspeakupandmakehispointsclearly。HecouldhearthebandplayingTheLilyofKillarneyandknewthatinafewmomentsthecurtainwouldgoup。Hefeltnostagefrightbutthethoughtoftheparthehadtoplayhumiliatedhim。Aremembranceofsomeofhislinesmadeasuddenflushrisetohispaintedcheeks。Hesawherseriousalluringeyeswatchinghimfromamongtheaudienceandtheirimageatoncesweptawayhisscruples,leavinghiswillcompact。Anothernatureseemedtohavebeenlenthim:theinfectionoftheexcitementandyouthabouthimenteredintoandtransformedhismoodymistrustfulness。Foroneraremomentheseemedtobeclothedintherealapparelofboyhood:and,ashestoodinthewingsamongtheotherplayers,hesharedthecommonmirthamidwhichthedropscenewashauledupwardsbytwoable-bodiedpriestswithviolentjerksandallawry。

  Afewmomentsafterhefoundhimselfonthestageamidthegarishgasandthedimscenery,actingbeforetheinnumerablefacesofthevoid。Itsurprisedhimtoseethattheplaywhichhehadknownatrehearsalsforadisjointedlifelessthinghadsuddenlyassumedalifeofitsown。Itseemednowtoplayitself,heandhisfellowactorsaidingitwiththeirparts。Whenthecurtainfellonthelastsceneheheardthevoidfilledwithapplauseand,throughariftinasidescene,sawthesimplebodybeforewhichhehadactedmagicallydeformed,thevoidoffacesbreakingatallpointsandfallingasunderintobusygroups。

  Heleftthestagequicklyandridhimselfofhismummeryandpassedoutthroughthechapelintothecollegegarden。Nowthattheplaywasoverhisnervescriedforsomefurtheradventure。Hehurriedonwardsasiftoovertakeit。Thedoorsofthetheatrewereallopenandtheaudiencehademptiedout。Onthelineswhichhehadfanciedthemooringsofanarkafewlanternsswunginthenightbreeze,flickeringcheerlessly。Hemountedthestepsfromthegardeninhaste,eagerthatsomepreyshouldnoteludehim,andforcedhiswaythroughthecrowdinthehallandpastthetwojesuitswhostoodwatchingtheexodusandbowingandshakinghandswiththevisitors。Hepushedonwardnervously,feigningastillgreaterhasteandfaintlyconsciousofthesmilesandstaresandnudgeswhichhispowderedheadleftinitswake。

  Whenhecameoutonthestepshesawhisfamilywaitingfor\'himatthefirstlamp。Inaglancehenotedthateveryfigureofthegroupwasfamiliarandrandownthestepsangrily——

  IhavetoleaveamessagedowninGeorge\'sStreet,hesaidtohisfatherquickly。I\'llbehomeafteryou。

  Withoutwaitingforhisfather\'squestionsheranacrosstheroadandbegantowalkatbreakneckspeeddownthehill。Hehardlyknewwherehewaswalking。Prideandhopeanddesirelikecrushedherbsinhisheartsentupvapoursof,maddeningincensebeforetheeyesofhismind。Hestrodedownthehillamidthetumultofsudden-risenvapoursofwoundedprideandfallenhopeandbaffleddesire。Theystreamedupwardsbeforehisanguishedeyesindenseandmaddeningfumesandpassedawayabovehimtillatlasttheairwasclearandcoldagain。

  Afilmstillveiledhiseyesbuttheyburnednolonger。Apower,akintothatwhichhadoftenmadeangerorresentmentfallfromhim,broughthisstepstorest。Hestoodstillandgazedupatthesombreporchofthemorgueandfromthattothedarkcobbledlanewayatitsside。HesawthewordLottsonthewallofthelaneandbreathedslowlytherankheavyair。

  Thatishorsepissandrottedstraw,hethought。Itisagoododourtobreathe。Itwillcalmmyheart。Myheartisquitecalmnow。Iwillgoback。

  StephenwasonceagainseatedbesidehisfatherinthecornerofarailwaycarriageatKingsbridge。HewastravellingwithhisfatherbythenightmailtoCork。AsthetrainsteamedoutofthestationherecalledhischildishwonderofyearsbeforeandeveryeventofhisfirstdayatClongowes。Buthefeltnowondernow。Hesawthedarkeninglandsslippingawaypasthim,thesilenttelegraph-polespassinghiswindowswiftlyeveryfourseconds,thelittleglimmeringstations,mannedbyafewsilentsentries,flungbythemailbehindherandtwinklingforamomentinthedarknesslikefierygrainsflungbackwardsbyarunner。

  Helistenedwithoutsympathytohisfather\'sevocationofCorkandofscenesofhisyouth,atalebrokenbysighsordraughtsfromhispocketflaskwhenevertheimageofsomedeadfriendappearedinitorwhenevertheevokerrememberedsuddenlythepurposeofhisactualvisit。Stephenheardbutcouldfeelnopity。TheimagesofthedeadwereallstrangerstohimsavethatofuncleCharles,animagewhichhadlatelybeenfadingoutofmemory。Heknew,however,thathisfather\'spropertywasgoingtobesoldbyauction,andinthemannerofhisowndispossessionhefelttheworldgivethelierudelytohisphantasy。

  AtMaryboroughhefellasleep。WhenheawokethetrainhadpassedoutofMallowandhisfatherwasstretchedasleepontheotherseat。Thecoldlightofthedawnlayoverthecountry,overtheunpeopledfieldsandtheclosedcottages。Theterrorofsleepfascinatedhismindashewatchedthesilentcountryorheardfromtimetotimehisfather\'sdeepbreathorsuddensleepymovement。Theneighbourhoodofunseensleepersfilledhimwithstrangedread,asthoughtheycouldharmhim,andheprayedthatthedaymightcomequickly。Hisprayer,addressedneithertoGodnorsaint,beganwithashiver,asthechillymorningbreezecreptthroughthechinkofthecarriagedoortohisfeet,andendedinatrailoffoolishwordswhichhemadetofittheinsistentrhythmofthetrain;andsilently,atintervalsoffourseconds,thetelegraph-polesheldthegallopingnotesofthemusicbetweenpunctualbars。Thisfuriousmusicallayedhisdreadand,leaningagainstthewindowledge,helethiseyelidscloseagain。

  TheydroveinajingleacrossCorkwhileitwasstillearlymorningandStephenfinishedhissleepinabedroomoftheVictoriaHotel。Thebrightwarmsunlightwasstreamingthroughthewindowandhecouldhearthedinoftraffic。Hisfatherwasstandingbeforethedressing-table,examininghishairandfaceandmoustachewithgreatcare,craninghisneckacrossthewater-juganddrawingitbacksidewaystoseethebetter。

  Whilehedidsohesangsoftlytohimselfwithquaintaccentandphrasing:`\'TisyouthandfollyMakesyoungmenmarry,Sohere,mylove,I\'llNolongerstay。

  Whatcan\'tbecured,sure,Mustbeinjured,sure,SoI\'llgotoAmerikay。

  `Myloveshe\'shandsome,Myloveshe\'sbony:

  She\'slikegoodwhiskyWhenitisnew;

  Butwhen\'tisoldAndgrowingcoldItfadesanddieslikeThemountaindew。\'Theconsciousnessofthewarmsunnycityoutsidehiswindowandthetendertremorswithwhichhisfather\'svoicefestoonedthestrangesadhappyair,droveoffallthemistsofthenight\'sillhumourfromStephen\'sbrain。

  Hegotupquicklytodressand,whenthesonghadended,said:——

  That\'smuchprettierthananyofyourothercome-all-yous——

  Doyouthinkso?askedMrDedalus——

  Ilikeit,saidStephen——

  It\'saprettyoldair,saidMrDedalus,twirlingthepointsofhismoustache。Ah,butyoushouldhaveheardMickLacysingit!PoorMickLacy!

  Hehadlittleturnsforit,gracenotesthatheusedtoputinthatIhaven\'tgot。Thatwastheboywhocouldsingacome-all-you,ifyoulike。

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