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  Thefellowsathistablestoodup。Hestoodupandpassedoutamongtheminthefile。Hehadtodecide。Hewascomingnearthedoor。Ifhewentonwiththefellowshecouldnevergouptotherectorbecausehecouldnotleavetheplaygroundforthat。AndifhewentandwaspandiedallthesameallthefellowswouldmakefunandtalkaboutyoungDedalusgoinguptotherectortotellontheprefectofstudies。

  Hewaswalkingdownalongthemattingandhesawthedoorbeforehim。

  Itwasimpossible:hecouldnot。Hethoughtofthebaldyheadoftheprefectofstudieswiththecruelno-colouredeyeslookingathimandheheardthevoiceoftheprefectofstudiesaskinghimtwicewhathisnamewas。

  Whycouldhenotrememberthenamewhenhewastoldthefirsttime?Washenotlisteningthefirsttimeorwasittomakefunoutofthename?

  Thegreatmeninthehistoryhadnameslikethatandnobodymadefunofthem。Itwashisownnamethatheshouldhavemadefunofifhewantedtomakefun。Dolan:itwaslikethenameofawomanwhowashedclothes。

  Hehadreachedthedoorand,turningquicklyuptotheright,walkedupthestairsand,beforehecouldmakeuphismindtocomeback,hehadenteredthelowdarknarrowcorridorthatledtothecastle。Andashecrossedthethresholdofthedoorofthecorridorhesaw,withoutturninghisheadtolook,thatallthefellowswerelookingafterhimastheywentfilingby。

  Hepassedalongthenarrowdarkcorridor,passinglittledoorsthatwerethedoorsoftheroomsofthecommunity。Hepeeredinfrontofhimandrightandleftthroughthegloomandthoughtthatthosemustbeportraits。

  Itwasdarkandsilentandhiseyeswereweakandtiredwithtearssothathecouldnotsee。Buthethoughttheyweretheportraitsofthesaintsandgreatmenoftheorderwhowerelookingdownonhimsilentlyashepassed:saintIgnatiusLoyolaholdinganopenbookandpointingtothewordsAdMajoremDeiGloriaminit;saintFrancisXavierpointingtohischest;LorenzoRicciwithhisberrettaonhisheadlikeoneoftheprefectsofthelines,thethreepatronsofholyyouth-saintStanislausKostka,saintAloysiusGonzago,andBlessedJohnBerchmans,allwithyoungfacesbecausetheydiedwhentheywereyoung,andFatherPeterKennysittinginachairwrappedinabigcloak。

  Hecameoutonthelandingabovetheentrancehallandlookedabouthim。ThatwaswhereHamiltonRowanhadpassedandthemarksofthesoldiers\'

  slugswerethere。Anditwastherethattheoldservantshadseentheghostinthewhitecloakofamarshal。

  Anoldservantwassweepingattheendofthelanding。Heaskedhimwherewastherector\'sroomandtheoldservantpointedtothedooratthefarendandlookedafterhimashewentontoitandknocked。

  Therewasnoanswer。Heknockedagainmoreloudlyandhisheartjumpedwhenheheardamuffledvoicesay:——

  Comein!

  Heturnedthehandleandopenedthedoorandfumbledforthehandleofthegreenbaizedoorinside。Hefounditandpusheditopenandwentin。

  Hesawtherectorsittingatadeskwriting。Therewasaskullonthedeskandastrangesolemnsmellintheroomliketheoldleatherofchairs。

  Hisheartwasbeatingfastonaccountofthesolemnplacehewasinandthesilenceoftheroom:andhelookedattheskullandattherector\'skind-lookingface——

  Well,mylittleman,saidtherector,whatisit?

  Stephenswalloweddownthethinginhisthroatandsaid:——

  Ibrokemyglasses,sir。

  Therectoropenedhismouthandsaid:——

  O!

  Thenhesmiledandsaid:——

  Well,ifwebrokeourglasseswemustwritehomeforanewpair——

  Iwrotehome,sir,saidStephen,andFatherArnallsaidIamnottostudytilltheycome——

  Quiteright!saidtherector。

  Stephenswalloweddownthethingagainandtriedtokeephislegsandhisvoicefromshaking——

  But,sir——

  Yes?——

  FatherDolancameintodayandpandiedmebecauseIwasnotwritingmytheme。

  Therectorlookedathiminsilenceandhecouldfeelthebloodrisingtohisfaceandthetearsabouttorisetohiseyes。

  Therectorsaid:——

  YournameisDedalus,isn\'tit?——

  Yes,sir——Andwheredidyoubreakyourglasses?——

  Onthecinder-path,sir。AfellowwascomingoutofthebicyclehouseandIfellandtheygotbroken。Idon\'tknowthefellow\'sname。

  Therectorlookedathimagaininsilence。Thenhesmiledandsaid:——

  O,well,itwasamistake;IamsureFatherDolandidnotknow——

  ButItoldhimIbrokethem,sir,andhepandiedme——

  Didyoutellhimthatyouhadwrittenhomeforanewpair?therectorasked——

  No,sir——

  Owellthen,saidtherector,FatherDolandidnotunderstand。YoucansaythatIexcuseyoufromyourlessonsforafewdays。

  Stephensaidquicklyforfearhistremblingwouldpreventhim:——

  Yes,sir,butFatherDolansaidhewillcomeintomorrowtopandymeagainforit——

  Verywell,therectorsaid,itisamistakeandIshallspeaktoFatherDolanmyself。Willthatdonow?

  Stephenfeltthetearswettinghiseyesandmurmured:——

  Oyessir,thanks。

  TherectorheldhishandacrossthesideofthedeskwheretheskullwasandStephen,placinghishandinitforamoment,feltacoolmoistpalm——

  Gooddaynow,saidtherector,withdrawinghishandandbowing——

  Goodday,sir,saidStephen。

  Hebowedandwalkedquietlyoutoftheroom,closingthedoorscarefullyandslowly。

  Butwhenhehadpassedtheoldservantonthelandingandwasagaininthelownarrowdarkcorridorhebegantowalkfasterandfaster。Fasterandfasterhehurriedonthroughthegloomexcitedly。Hebumpedhiselbowagainstthedoorattheendand,hurryingdownthestaircase,walkedquicklythroughthetwocorridorsandoutintotheair。

  Hecouldhearthecriesofthefellowsontheplaygrounds。Hebrokeintoarunand,runningquickerandquicker,ranacrossthecinderpathandreachedthethirdlineplayground,panting。

  Thefellowshadseenhimrunning。Theyclosedroundhiminaring,pushingoneagainstanothertohear——

  Tellus!Tellus!——

  Whatdidhesay?——

  Didyougoin?

  Whatdidhesay?——

  Tellus!Tellus!

  Hetoldthemwhathehadsaidandwhattherectorhadsaidand,whenhehadtoldthem,allthefellowsflungtheircapsspinningupintotheairandcried:——

  Hurroo!

  Theycaughttheircapsandsentthemupagainspinningsky-highandcriedagain:——

  Hurroo!Hurroo!

  Theymadeacradleoftheirlockedhandsandhoistedhimupamongthemandcarriedhimalongtillhestruggledtogetfree。Andwhenhehadescapedfromthemtheybrokeawayinalldirections,flingingtheircapsagainintotheairandwhistlingastheywentspinningupandcrying:——

  Hurroo!

  AndtheygavethreegroansforBaldyheadDolanandthreecheersforConmeeandtheysaidhewasthedecentestrectorthatwaseverinClongowes。

  Thecheersdiedawayinthesoftgreyair。Hewasalone。Hewashappyandfree;buthewouldnotbeanywayproudwithFatherDolan。Hewouldbeveryquietandobedient:andhewishedthathecoulddosomethingkindforhimtoshowhimthathewasnotproud。

  Theairwassoftandgreyandmildandeveningwascoming。Therewasthesmellofeveningintheair,thesmellofthefieldsinthecountrywheretheydiggedupturnipstopeelthemandeatthemwhentheywentoutforawalktoMajorBarton\'s,thesmelltherewasinthelittlewoodbeyondthepavilionwherethegallnutswere。

  Thefellowswerepractisinglongshiesandbowlinglobsandslowtwisters。

  Inthesoftgreysilencehecouldhearthebumpoftheballs:andfromhereandfromtherethroughthequietairthesoundofthecricketbats:

  pick,pack,pock,puck:likedropsofwaterinafountainfallingsoftlyinthebrimmingbowl。

  Chapter2UncleCharlessmokedsuchblacktwistthatatlasthisnephewsuggestedtohimtoenjoyhismorningsmokeinalittleouthouseattheendofthegarden——

  Verygood,Simon。Allserene,Simon,saidtheoldmantranquilly。

  Anywhereyoulike。Theouthousewilldomenicely:itwillbemoresalubrious——

  Damnme,saidMrDedalusfrankly,ifIknowhowyoucansmokesuchvillainousawfultobacco。It\'slikegunpowder,byGod——

  It\'sverynice,Simon,repliedtheoldman。Verycoolandmollifying。

  Everymorning,therefore,uncleCharlesrepairedtohisouthousebutnotbeforehehadgreasedandbrushedscrupulouslyhisbackhairandbrushedandputonhistallhat。Whilehesmokedthebrimofhistallhatandthebowlofhispipewerejustvisiblebeyondthejambsoftheouthousedoor。

  Hisarbour,ashecalledthereekingouthousewhichhesharedwiththecatandthegardentools,servedhimalsoasasounding-box:andeverymorninghehummedcontentedlyoneofhisfavouritesongs:O,twinemeabowerorBlueEyesandGoldenHairorTheGrovesofBlarneywhilethegreyandbluecoilsofsmokeroseslowlyfromhispipeandvanishedinthepureair。

  DuringthefirstpartofthesummerinBlackrockuncleCharleswasStephen\'sconstantcompanion。UncleCharleswasahaleoldmanwithawelltannedskin,ruggedfeaturesandwhitesidewhiskers。OnweekdayshedidmessagesbetweenthehouseinCarysfortAvenueandthoseshopsinthemainstreetofthetownwithwhichthefamilydealt。StephenwasgladtogowithhimontheseerrandsforuncleCharleshelpedhimveryliberallytohandfulsofwhateverwasexposedinopenboxesandbarrelsoutsidethecounter。

  HewouldseizeahandfulofgrapesandsawdustorthreeorfourAmericanapplesandthrustthemgenerouslyintohisgrandnephew\'shandwhiletheshopmansmileduneasily;and,onStephen\'sfeigningreluctancetotakethem,hewouldfrownandsay:——

  Takethem,sir。Doyouhearme,sir?They\'regoodforyourbowels。

  WhentheorderlisthadbeenbookedthetwowouldgoontotheparkwhereanoldfriendofStephen\'sfather,MikeFlynn,wouldbefoundseatedonabench,waitingforthem。ThenwouldbeginStephen\'srunroundthepark。MikeFlynnwouldstandatthegateneartherailwaystation,watchinhand,whileStephenranroundthetrackinthestyleMikeFlynnfavoured,hisheadhighlifted,hiskneeswellliftedandhishandsheldstraightdownbyhissides。Whenthemorningpracticewasoverthetrainerwouldmakehiscommentsandsometimesillustratethembyshufflingalongforayardorsocomicallyinanoldpairofbluecanvasshoes。AsmallringofwonderstruckchildrenandnursemaidswouldgathertowatchhimandlingerevenwhenheanduncleCharleshadsatdownagainandweretalkingathleticsandpolitics。ThoughhehadheardhisfathersaythatMikeFlynnhadputsomeofthebestrunnersofmoderntimesthroughhishandsStephenoftenglancedathistrainer\'sflabbystubble-coveredface,asitbentoverthelongstainedfingersthroughwhichherolledhiscigarette,andwithpityatthemildlustrelessblueeyeswhichwouldlookupsuddenlyfromthetaskandgazevaguelyintothebluedistancewhilethelongswollenfingersceasedtheirrollingandgrainsandfibresoftobaccofellbackintothepouch。

  OnthewayhomeuncleCharleswouldoftenpayavisittothechapeland,asthefontwasaboveStephen\'sreach,theoldmanwoulddiphishandandthensprinklethewaterbrisklyaboutStephen\'sclothesandontheflooroftheporch。Whileheprayedhekneltonhisredhandkerchiefandreadabovehisbreathfromathumbblackenedprayerbookwhereincatchwordswereprintedatthefootofeverypage。Stephenkneltathissiderespecting,thoughhedidnotshare,hispiety。Heoftenwonderedwhathisgrand-uncleprayedforsoseriously。PerhapsheprayedforthesoulsinpurgatoryorforthegraceofahappydeathorperhapsheprayedthatGodmightsendhimbackapartofthebigfortunehehadsquanderedinCork。

  OnSundaysStephenwithhisfatherandhisgrand-uncletooktheirconstitutional。

  Theoldmanwasanimblewalkerinspiteofhiscornsandoftentenortwelvemilesoftheroadwerecovered。ThelittlevillageofStillorganwasthepartingoftheways。EithertheywenttothelefttowardstheDublinmountainsoralongtheGoatstownroadandthenceintoDundrum,cominghomebySandyford。Trudgingalongtheroadorstandinginsomegrimywaysidepublichousehiseldersspokeconstantlyofthesubjectsnearertheirhearts,ofIrishpolitics,ofMunsterandofthelegendsoftheirownfamily,toallofwhichStephenlentanavidear。Wordswhichhedidnotunderstandhesaidoverandovertohimselftillhehadlearntthembyheart:andthroughthemhehadglimpsesoftherealworldaboutthem。Thehourwhenhetoowouldtakepartinthelifeofthatworldseemeddrawingnearandinsecrethebegantomakereadyforthegreatpartwhichhefeltawaitedhimthenatureofwhichheonlydimlyapprehended。

  Hiseveningswerehisown;andheporedoveraraggedtranslationofTheCountofMonteCristo。Thefigureofthatdarkavengerstoodforthinhismindforwhateverhehadheardordivinedinchildhoodofthestrangeandterrible。Atnighthebuiltupontheparlourtableanimageofthewonderfulislandcaveoutoftransfersandpaperflowersandcolouredtissuepaperandstripsofthesilverandgoldenpaperinwhichchocolateiswrapped。Whenhehadbrokenupthisscenery,wearyofitstinsel,therewouldcometohismindthebrightpictureofMarseille,ofsunnytrellises,andofMercedes。

  OutsideBlackrock,ontheroadthatledtothemountains,stoodasmallwhitewashedhouseinthegardenofwhichgrewmanyrosebushes:andinthishouse,hetoldhimself,anotherMercedeslived。Bothontheoutwardandonthehomewardjourneyhemeasureddistancebythislandmark:andinhisimaginationhelivedthroughalongtrainofadventures,marvellousasthoseinthebookitself,towardsthecloseofwhichthereappearedanimageofhimself,grownolderandsadder,standinginamoonlitgardenwithMercedeswhohadsomanyyearsbeforeslightedhislove,andwithasadlyproudgestureofrefusal,saying:——

  Madam,Inevereatmuscatelgrapes。

  HebecametheallyofaboynamedAubreyMillsandfoundedwithhimagangofadventurersintheavenue。Aubreycarriedawhistledanglingfromhisbuttonholeandabicyclelampattachedtohisbeltwhiletheothershadshortsticksthrustdaggerwisethroughtheirs。Stephen,whohadreadofNapoleon\'splainstyleofdress,chosetoremainunadornedandtherebyheightenedforhimselfthepleasureoftakingcounselwithhislieutenantbeforegivingorders。Thegangmadeforaysintothegardensofoldmaidsorwentdowntothecastleandfoughtabattleontheshaggyweed-grownrocks,cominghomeafteritwearystragglerswiththestaleodoursoftheforeshoreintheirnostrilsandtherankoilsoftheseawrackupontheirhandsandintheirhair。

  AubreyandStephenhadacommonmilkmanandoftentheydroveoutinthemilk-cartoCarrickmineswherethecowswereatgrass。Whilethemenweremilkingtheboyswouldtaketurnsinridingthetractablemareroundthefield。Butwhenautumncamethecowsweredrivenhomefromthegrass:

  andthefirstsightofthefilthycowyardatStradbrookwithitsfoulgreenpuddlesandclotsofliquiddungandsteamingbrantroughs,sickenedStephen\'sheart。Thecattlewhichhadseemedsobeautifulinthecountryonsunnydaysrevoltedhimandhecouldnotevenlookatthemilktheyyielded。

  ThecomingofSeptemberdidnottroublehimthisyearforhewasnottobesentbacktoClongowes。ThepracticeintheparkcametoanendwhenMikeFlynnwentintohospital。Aubreywasatschoolandhadonlyanhourortwofreeintheevening。Thegangfellasunderandtherewerenomorenightlyforaysorbattlesontherocks。Stephensometimeswentroundwiththecarwhichdeliveredtheeveningmilkandthesechillydrivesblewawayhismemoryofthefilthofthecowyardandhefeltnorepugnanceatseeingthecowhairsandhayseedsonthemilkman\'scoat。Wheneverthecardrewupbeforeahousehewaitedtocatchaglimpseofawellscrubbedkitchenorofasoftlylightedhallandtoseehowtheservantwouldholdthejugandhowshewouldclosethedoor。Hethoughtitshouldbeapleasantlifeenough,drivingalongtheroadseveryeveningtodelivermilk,ifhehadwarmglovesandafatbagofgingernutsinhispockettoeatfrom。Butthesameforeknowledgewhichhadsickenedhisheartandmadehislegssagsuddenlyasheracedroundthepark,thesameintuitionwhichhadmadehimglancewithmistrustathistrainer\'sflabbystubble-coveredfaceasitbentheavilyoverhislongstainedfingers,dissipatedanyvisionofthefuture。InavaguewayheunderstoodthathisfatherwasintroubleandthatthiswasthereasonwhyhehimselfhadnotbeensentbacktoClongowes。

  Forsometimehehadfelttheslightchangeinhishouse;andthosechangesinwhathehaddeemedunchangeableweresomanyslightshockstohisboyishconceptionoftheworld。Theambitionwhichhefeltastirattimesinthedarknessofhissoulsoughtnooutlet。Adusklikethatoftheouterworldobscuredhismindasheheardthemare\'shoofsclatteringalongthetramtrackontheRockRoadandthegreatcanswayingandrattlingbehindhim。

  HereturnedtoMercedesand,ashebroodeduponherimage,astrangeunrestcreptintohisblood。Sometimesafevergatheredwithinhimandledhimtorovealoneintheeveningalongthequietavenue。Thepeaceofthegardensandthekindlylightsinthewindowspouredatenderinfluenceintohisrestlessheart。Thenoiseofchildrenatplayannoyedhimandtheirsillyvoicesmadehimfeel,evenmorekeenlythanhehadfeltatClongowes,thathewasdifferentfromothers。Hedidnotwanttoplay。

  Hewantedtomeetintherealworldtheunsubstantialimagewhichhissoulsoconstantlybeheld。Hedidnotknowwheretoseekitorhow,butapremonitionwhichledhimontoldhimthatthisimagewould,withoutanyovertactofhis,encounterhim。Theywouldmeetquietlyasiftheyhadknowneachotherandhadmadetheirtryst,perhapsatoneofthegatesorinsomemoresecretplace。Theywouldbealone,surroundedbydarknessandsilence:

  andinthatmomentofsupremetendernesshewouldbetransfigured。

  Hewouldfadeintosomethingimpalpableunderhereyesandtheninamomenthewouldbetransfigured。Weaknessandtimidityandinexperiencewouldfallfromhiminthatmagicmoment。

  Twogreatyellowcaravanshadhaltedonemorningbeforethedoorandmenhadcometrampingintothehousetodismantleit。Thefurniturehadbeenhustledoutthroughthefrontgardenwhichwasstrewnwithwispsofstrawandropeendsandintothehugevansatthegate。Whenallhadbeensafelystowedthevanshadsetoffnoisilydowntheavenue:andfromthewindowoftherailwaycarriage,inwhichhehadsatwithhisred-eyedmother,StephenhadseenthemlumberingalongtheMerrionRoad。

  TheparlourfirewouldnotdrawthateveningandMrDedalusrestedthepokeragainstthebarsofthegratetoattracttheflame。UncleCharlesdozedinacornerofthehalffurnisheduncarpetedroomandnearhimthefamilyportraitsleanedagainstthewall。Thelamponthetableshedaweaklightovertheboardedfloor,muddiedbythefeetofthevan-men。

  Stephensatonafootstoolbesidehisfatherlisteningtoalongandincoherentmonologue。Heunderstoodlittleornothingofitatfirstbuthebecameslowlyawarethathisfatherhadenemiesandthatsomefightwasgoingtotakeplace。Hefelt,too,thathewasbeingenlistedforthefight,thatsomedutywasbeinglaiduponhisshoulders。ThesuddenflightfromthecomfortandreveryofBlackrock,thepassagethroughthegloomyfoggycity,thethoughtofthebarecheerlesshouseinwhichtheywerenowtolivemadehisheartheavy,andagainanintuition,aforeknowledgeofthefuturecametohim。Heunderstoodalsowhytheservantshadoftenwhisperedtogetherinthehallandwhyhisfatherhadoftenstoodonthehearthrugwithhisbacktothefire,talkingloudlytouncleCharleswhourgedhimtositdownandeathisdinner——

  There\'sacrackofthewhipleftinmeyet,Stephen,oldchap,saidMrDedalus,pokingatthedullfirewithfierceenergy。We\'renotdeadyet,sonny。No,bytheLordJesusGodforgivemenothalfdead。

  Dublinwasanewandcomplexsensation。UncleCharleshadgrownsowitlessthathecouldnolongerbesentoutonerrandsandthedisorderinsettlinginthenewhouseleftStephenfreerthanhehadbeeninBlackrock。Inthebeginninghecontentedhimselfwithcirclingtimidlyroundtheneighbouringsquareor,atmost,goinghalfwaydownoneofthesidestreetsbutwhenhehadmadeaskeletonmapofthecityinhismindhefollowedboldlyoneofitscentrallinesuntilhereachedthecustomhouse。Hepassedunchallengedamongthedocksandalongthequayswonderingatthemultitudeofcorksthatlaybobbingonthesurfaceofthewaterinathickyellowscum,atthecrowdsofquayportersandtherumblingcartsandtheill-dressedbeardedpoliceman。ThevastnessandstrangenessofthelifesuggestedtohimbythebalesofmerchandisestockedalongthewallsorswungaloftoutoftheholdsofsteamerswakenedagaininhimtheunrestwhichhadsenthimwanderingintheeveningfromgardentogardeninsearchofMercedes。AndamidthisnewbustlinglifehemighthavefanciedhimselfinanotherMarseillebutthathemissedthebrightskyandthesum-warmedtrellisesofthewineshops。

  Avaguedissatisfactiongrewupwithinhimashelookedonthequaysandontheriverandontheloweringskiesandyethecontinuedtowanderupanddowndayafterdayasifhereallysoughtsomeonethateludedhim。

  Hewentonceortwicewithhismothertovisittheirrelatives:andthoughtheypassedajovialarrayofshopslitupandadornedforChristmashismoodofembitteredsilencedidnotleavehim。Thecausesofhisembittermentweremany,remoteandnear。Hewasangrywithhimselfforbeingyoungandthepreyofrestlessfoolishimpulses,angryalsowiththechangeoffortunewhichwasreshapingtheworldabouthimintoavisionofsqualorandinsincerity。

  Yethisangerlentnothingtothevision。Hechronicledwithpatiencewhathesaw,detachinghimselffromitandtastingitsmortifyingflavourinsecret。

  Hewassittingonthebacklesschairinhisaunt\'skitchen。Alampwithareflectorhungonthejapannedwallofthefireplaceandbyitslighthisauntwasreadingtheeveningpaperthatlayonherknees。Shelookedalongtimeatasmilingpicturethatwassetinitandsaidmusingly:——

  ThebeautifulMabelHunter!

  Aringlettedgirlstoodontiptoetopeeratthepictureandsaidsoftly:——

  Whatisshein,mud?——

  Inapantomime,love。

  Thechildleanedherringlettedheadagainsthermother\'ssleeve,gazingonthepicture,andmurmuredasiffascinated:——

  ThebeautifulMabelHunter!

  Asiffascinated,hereyesrestedlonguponthosedemurelytauntingeyesandshemurmureddevotedly:——

  Isn\'tsheanexquisitecreature?

  Andtheboywhocameinfromthestreet,stampingcrookedlyunderhisstoneofcoal,heardherwords。Hedroppedhisloadpromptlyonthefloorandhurriedtohersidetosee。Hemauledtheedgesofthepaperwithhisreddenedandblackenedhands,shoulderingherasideandcomplainingthathecouldnotsee。

  Hewassittinginthenarrowbreakfastroomhighupintheolddark-windowedhouse。Thefirelightflickeredonthewallandbeyondthewindowaspectralduskwasgatheringupontheriver。Beforethefireanoldwomanwasbusymakingteaand,asshebustledatthetask,shetoldinalowvoiceofwhatthepriestandthedoctorhadsaid。Shetoldtooofcertainchangestheyhadseeninheroflateandofheroddwaysandsayings。Hesatlisteningtothewordsandfollowingthewaysofadventurethatlayopeninthecoals,archesandvaultsandwindinggalleriesandjaggedcaverns。

  Suddenlyhebecameawareofsomethinginthedoorway。Askullappearedsuspendedinthegloomofthedoorway。Afeeblecreaturelikeamonkeywasthere,drawnthitherbythesoundofvoicesatthefire。Awhiningvoicecamefromthedoorasking:——

  IsthatJosephine?

  Theoldbustlingwomanansweredcheerilyfromthefireplace:——

  No,Ellen,it\'sStephen——

  OO,goodevening,Stephen。

  Heansweredthegreetingandsawasillysmilebreakoverthefaceinthedoorway——

  Doyouwantanything,Ellen?askedtheoldwomanatthefire。

  Butshedidnotanswerthequestionandsaid:——

  IthoughtitwasJosephine。IthoughtyouwereJosephine,Stephen。

  And,repeatingthisseveraltimes,shefelltolaughingfeebly。

  Hewassittinginthemidstofachildren\'spartyatHarold\'sCross。

  Hissilentwatchfulmannerhadgrownuponhimandhetooklittlepartinthegames。Thechildren,wearingthespoilsoftheircrackers,dancedandrompednoisilyand,thoughhetriedtosharetheirmerriment,hefelthimselfagloomyfigureamidthegaycockedhatsandsunbonnets。

  Butwhenhehadsunghissongandwithdrawnintoasnugcorneroftheroomhebegantotastethejoyofhisloneliness。Themirth,whichinthebeginningoftheeveninghadseemedtohimfalseandtrivial,waslikeasoothingairtohim,passinggailybyhissenses,hidingfromothereyesthefeverishagitationofhisbloodwhilethroughthecirclingofthedancersandamidthemusicandlaughterherglancetravelledtohiscorner,flattering,taunting,searching,excitinghisheart。

  Inthehallthechildrenwhohadstayedlatestwereputtingontheirthings:thepartywasover。Shehadthrownashawlaboutherand,astheywenttogethertowardsthetram,spraysofherfreshwarmbreathflewgailyabovehercowledheadandhershoestappedblithelyontheglassyroad。

  Itwasthelasttram。Thelankbrownhorsesknewitandshooktheirbellstotheclearnightinadmonition。Theconductortalkedwiththedriver,bothnoddingofteninthegreenlightofthelamp。Ontheemptyseatsofthetramwerescatteredafewcolouredtickets。Nosoundoffootstepscameupordowntheroad。Nosoundbrokethepeaceofthenightsavewhenthelankbrownhorsesrubbedtheirnosestogetherandshooktheirbells。

  Theyseemedtolisten,heontheupperstepandsheonthelower。Shecameuptohisstepmanytimesandwentdowntohersagainbetweentheirphrasesandonceortwicestoodclosebesidehimforsomemomentsontheupperstep,forgettingtogodown,andthenwentdown。Hisheartdanceduponhermovementslikeacorkuponatide。Heheardwhathereyessaidtohimfrombeneaththeircowlandknewthatinsomedimpast,whetherinlifeorrevery,hehadheardtheirtalebefore。Hesawherurgehervanities,herfinedressandsashandlongblackstockings,andknewthathehadyieldedtothemathousandtimes。Yetavoicewithinhimspokeabovethenoiseofhisdancingheart,askinghimwouldhetakehergifttowhichhehadonlytostretchouthishand。AndherememberedthedaywhenheandEileenhadstoodlookingintothehotelgrounds,watchingthewaitersrunningupatrailofbuntingontheflagstaffandthefoxterrierscamperingtoandfroonthesunnylawnandhow,allofasudden,shehadbrokenoutintoapealoflaughterandhadrundowntheslopingcurveofthepath。

  Now,asthen,hestoodlistlesslyinhisplace,seeminglyatranquilwatcherofthescenebeforehim——

  Shetoowantsmetocatchholdofher,hethought。That\'swhyshecamewithmetothetram。IcouldeasilycatchholdOfherwhenshecomesuptomystep:nobodyislooking。Icouldholdherandkissher。

  Buthedidneither:and,whenhewassittingaloneinthedesertedtram,hetorehisticketintoshredsandstaredgloomilyatthecorrugatedfootboard。

  Thenextdayhesatathistableinthebareupperroomformanyhours。

  Beforehimlayanewpen,anewbottleofinkandanewemeraldexercise。

  Fromforceofhabithehadwrittenatthetopofthefirstpagetheinitiallettersofthejesuitmotto:A。M。D。G。Onthefirstlineofthepageappearedthetitleoftheverseshewastryingtowrite:ToE-C。HeknewitwasrighttobeginsoforhehadseensimilartitlesinthecollectedpoemsofLordByron。Whenhehadwrittenthistitleanddrawnanornamentallineunderneathhefellintoadaydreamandbegantodrawdiagramsonthecoverofthebook。HesawhimselfsittingathistableinBraythemorningafterthediscussionattheChristmasdinnertable,tryingtowriteapoemaboutParnellonthebackofoneofhisfather\'ssecondmoietynotices。Buthisbrainhadthenrefusedtograpplewiththethemeand,desisting,hehadcoveredthepagewiththenamesandaddressesofcertainofhisclassmates:RoderickKickhamJohnLawtonAnthonyMacSwineySimonMoonanNowitseemedasifhewouldfailagainbut,bydintofbroodingontheincident,hethoughthimselfintoconfidence。Duringthisprocessallthoseelementswhichhedeemedcommonandinsignificantfelloutofthescene。

  Thereremainednotraceofthetramitselfnorofthetram-mennorofthehorses:nordidheandsheappearvividly。Theversestoldonlyofthenightandthebalmybreezeandthemaidenlustreofthemoon。Someundefinedsorrowwashiddenintheheartsoftheprotagonistsastheystoodinsilencebeneaththeleaflesstreesandwhenthemomentoffarewellhadcomethekiss,whichhadbeenwithheldbyone,wasgivenbyboth。AfterthisthelettersL。D。S。werewrittenatthefootofthepage,and,havinghiddenthebook,hewentintohismother\'sbedroomandgazedathisfaceforalongtimeinthemirrorofherdressing-table。

  Buthislongspellofleisureandlibertywasdrawingtoitsend。Oneeveninghisfathercamehomefullofnewswhichkepthistonguebusyallthroughdinner。Stephenhadbeenawaitinghisfather\'sreturnfortherehadbeenmuttonhashthatdayandheknewthathisfatherwouldmakehimdiphisbreadinthegravy。ButhedidnotrelishthehashforthementionofClongoweshadcoatedhispalatewithascumofdisgust——

  Iwalkedbangintohim,saidMrDedalusforthefourthtime,justatthecornerofthesquare——

  ThenIsuppose,saidMrsDedalus,hewillbeabletoarrangeit。

  ImeanaboutBelvedere——

  Ofcoursehewill,saidMrDedalus。Don\'tItellyouhe\'sprovincialoftheordernow?——

  Ineverlikedtheideaofsendinghimtothechristianbrothersmyself,saidMrsDedalus——

  Christianbrothersbedamned!saidMrDedalus。IsitwithPaddyStinkandMickyMud?No,lethimsticktothejesuitsinGod\'snamesincehebeganwiththem。They\'llbeofservicetohiminafteryears。Thosearethefellowsthatcangetyouaposition——

  Andthey\'reaveryrichorder,aren\'tthey,Simon?——

  Rather。Theylivewell,Itellyou。YousawtheirtableatClongowes。

  Fedup,byGod,likegamecocks。

  MrDedaluspushedhisplateovertoStephenandbadehimfinishwhatwasonit——

  Nowthen,Stephen,hesaid,youmustputyourshouldertothewheel,oldchap。You\'vehadafinelongholiday——

  O,I\'msurehe\'llworkveryhardnow,saidMrsDedalus,especiallywhenhehasMauricewithhim——

  O,HolyPaul,IforgotaboutMaurice,saidMrDedalus。Here,Maurice!

  Comehere,youthick-headedruffian!DoyouknowI\'mgoingtosendyoutoacollegewherethey\'llteachyoutospellc。a。t。cat。AndI\'llbuyyouanicelittlepennyhandkerchieftokeepyournosedry。Won\'tthatbegrandfun?

  Mauricegrinnedathisfatherandthenathisbrother。

  MrDedalusscrewedhisglassintohiseyeandstaredhardatbothhissons。Stephenmumbledhisbreadwithoutansweringhisfather\'sgaze——

  Bythebye,saidMrDedalusatlength,therector,orprovincialrather,wastellingmethatstoryaboutyouandFatherDolan。You\'reanimpudentthief,hesaid——

  O,hedidn\'t,Simon!——

  Nothe!saidMrDedalus。Buthegavemeagreataccountofthewholeaffair。Wewerechatting,youknow,andonewordborrowedanother。And,bytheway,whodoyouthinkhetoldmewillgetthatjobinthecorporation?

  ButI`Iltellyouthatafter。Well,asIwassaying,wewerechattingawayquitefriendlyandheaskedmedidourfriendherewearglassesstill,andthenhetoldmethewholestory——

  Andwasheannoyed,Simon?——

  Annoyed?Nothe!Manlylittlechap!hesaid。

  MrDedalusimitatedthemincingnasaltoneoftheprovincial。

  FatherDolanandI,whenItoldthemallatdinneraboutit,FatherDolanandIhadagreatlaughoverit。YoubettermindyourselfFatherDolan,saidI,oryoungDedaluswillsendyouupfortwicenine。

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