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  Buthehadasayingaboutourclericalfriends,thathewouldneverletoneofthemputhistwofeetunderhismahogany。

  Dantebrokeinangrily:——

  Ifweareapriest-riddenraceweoughttobeproudofit!TheyaretheappleofGod\'seye。Touchthemnot,saysChrist,fortheyaretheappleofMyeye——

  Andcanwenotloveourcountrythen?askedMrCasey。Arewenottofollowthemanthatwasborntoleadus?——

  Atraitortohiscountry!repliedDante。Atraitor,anadulterer!

  Thepriestswererighttoabandonhim。ThepriestswerealwaysthetruefriendsofIreland——

  Werethey,faith?saidMrCasey。

  Hethrewhisfistonthetableand,frowningangrily,protrudedonefingerafteranother——

  Didn\'tthebishopsofIrelandbetrayusinthetimeoftheunionwhenBishopLaniganpresentedanaddressofloyaltytotheMarquessCornwallis?

  Didn\'tthebishopsandpriestsselltheaspirationsoftheircountryin1829inreturnforcatholicemancipation?Didn\'ttheydenouncethefenianmovementfromthepulpitandintheconfessionbox?Anddidn\'ttheydishonourtheashesofTerenceBellewMacManus?

  HisfacewasglowingwithangerandStephenfelttheglowrisetohisowncheekasthespokenwordsthrilledhim。MrDedalusutteredaguffawofcoarsescorn——

  O,byGod,hecried,IforgotlittleoldPaulCullen!AnotherappleofGod\'seye!

  DantebentacrossthetableandcriedtoMrCasey:——

  Right!Right!Theywerealwaysright!Godandmoralityandreligioncomefirst。

  MrsDedalus,seeingherexcitement,saidtoher:——

  MrsRiordan,don\'texciteyourselfansweringthem——

  Godandreligionbeforeeverything!Dantecried。Godandreligionbeforetheworld。

  MrCaseyraisedhisclenchedfistandbroughtitdownonthetablewithacrash——

  Verywellthen,heshoutedhoarsely,ifitcomestothat,noGodforIreland!——

  John!John!criedMrDedalus,seizinghisguestbythecoatsleeve。

  Dantestaredacrossthetable,hercheeksshaking。MrCaseystruggledupfromhischairandbentacrossthetabletowardsher,scrapingtheairfrombeforehiseyeswithonehandasthoughheweretearingasideacobweb——

  NoGodforIreland!hecried。WehavehadtoomuchGodInIreland。

  AwaywithGod!——

  Blasphemer!Devil!screamedDante,startingtoherfeetandalmostspittinginhisface。

  UncleCharlesandMrDedaluspulledMrCaseybackintohischairagain,talkingtohimfrombothsidesreasonably。Hestaredbeforehimoutofhisdarkflamingeyes,repeating:——

  AwaywithGod,Isay!

  Danteshovedherchairviolentlyasideandleftthetable,upsettinghernapkin-ringwhichrolledslowlyalongthecarpetandcametorestagainstthefootofaneasy-chair。MrsDedalusrosequicklyandfollowedhertowardsthedoor。AtthedoorDanteturnedroundviolentlyandshouteddowntheroom,hercheeksflushedandquiveringwithrage:——

  Deviloutofhell!Wewon!Wecrushedhimtodeath!Fiend!

  Thedoorslammedbehindher。

  MrCasey,freeinghisarmsfromhisholders,suddenlybowedhisheadonhishandswithasobofpain——

  PoorParnell!hecriedloudly。Mydeadking!

  Hesobbedloudlyandbitterly。

  Stephen,raisinghisterror-strickenface,sawthathisfather\'seyeswerefulloftears。

  Thefellowstalkedtogetherinlittlegroups。

  Onefellowsaid:——

  TheywerecaughtneartheHillofLyons——

  Whocaughtthem?——

  MrGleesonandtheminister。Theywereonacar。Thesamefellowadded:——

  Afellowinthehigherlinetoldme。

  Flemingasked:——

  Butwhydidtheyrunaway,tellus?——

  Iknowwhy,CecilThundersaid。Becausetheyhadfeckedcashoutoftherector\'sroom——

  Whofeckedit?——

  Kickham\'sbrother。Andtheyallwentsharesinit——

  Butthatwasstealing。Howcouldtheyhavedonethat?——

  Afatlotyouknowaboutit,Thunder!Wellssaid。Iknowwhytheyscut——

  Telluswhy——

  Iwastoldnotto,Wellssaid——

  O,goon,Wells,allsaid。Youmighttellus。Wewon\'tletitout。

  Stephenbentforwardhisheadtohear。Wellslookedroundtoseeifanyonewascoming。Thenhesaidsecretly:——

  Youknowthealtarwinetheykeepinthepressinthesacristy?——

  Yes——

  Well,theydrankthatanditwasfoundoutwhodiditbythesmell。

  Andthat\'swhytheyranaway,ifyouwanttoknow。

  Andthefellowwhohadspokenfirstsaid:——

  Yes,that\'swhatIheardtoofromthefellowinthehigherline。

  Thefellowsallweresilent。Stephenstoodamongthem,afraidtospeak,listening。Afaintsicknessofawemadehimfeelweak。Howcouldtheyhavedonethat?Hethoughtofthedarksilentsacristy。Thereweredarkwoodenpressestherewherethecrimpedsurpliceslayquietlyfolded。Itwasnotthechapelbutstillyouhadtospeakunderyourbreath。Itwasaholyplace。Herememberedthesummereveninghehadbeentheretobedressedasboatbearer,theeveningoftheProcessiontothelittlealtarinthewood。Astrangeandholyplace。Theboythatheldthecenserhadswungitliftedbythemiddlechaintokeepthecoalslighting。Thatwascalledcharcoal:andithadburnedquietlyasthefellowhadswungitgentlyandhadgivenoffaweaksoursmell。Andthenwhenallwerevestedhehadstoodholdingouttheboattotherectorandtherectorhadputaspoonfulofincenseinitandithadhissedontheredcoals。

  Thefellowsweretalkingtogetherinlittlegroupshereandthereontheplayground。Thefellowsseemedtohimtohavegrownsmaller:thatwasbecauseasprinterhadknockedhimdownthedaybefore,afellowoutofsecondofgrammar。Hehadbeenthrownbythefellow\'smachinelightlyonthecinderpathandhisspectacleshadbeenbrokeninthreepiecesandsomeofthegritofthecindershadgoneIntohismouth。

  Thatwaswhythefellowsseemedtohimsmallerandfartherawayandthegoalpostssothinandfarandthesoftgreyskysohighup。Buttherewasnoplayonthefootballgroundsforcricketwascoming:andsomesaidthatBarneswouldbeprofandsomesaiditwouldbeFlowers。Andallovertheplaygroundstheywereplayingroundersandbowlingtwistersandlobs。

  Andfromhereandfromtherecamethesoundsofthecricketbatsthroughthesoftgreyair。Theysaid:pick,pack,pock,puck:littledropsofwaterinafountainslowlyfallinginthebrimmingbowl。

  Athy,whohadbeensilent,saidquietly:——

  Youareallwrong。

  Allturnedtowardshimeagerly——

  Why?——

  Doyouknow?——

  Whotoldyou?——

  Tellus,Athy。

  AthypointedacrosstheplaygroundtowhereSimonMoonanwaswalkingbyhimselfkickingastonebeforehim——

  Askhim,hesaid。

  Thefellowslookedthereandthensaid:——

  Whyhim?——

  Isheinit?

  Athyloweredhisvoiceandsaid:——

  Doyouknowwhythosefellowsscut?Iwilltellyoubutyoumustnotletonyouknow——

  Tellus,Athy。Goon。Youmightifyouknow。

  Hepausedforamomentandthensaidmysteriously:——

  TheywerecaughtwithSimonMoonanandTuskerBoyleinthesquareonenight。

  Thefellowslookedathimandasked:——

  Caught?——

  Whatdoing?

  Athysaid:——

  Smugging。

  Allthefellowsweresilent:andAthysaid:——

  Andthat\'swhy。

  Stephenlookedatthefacesofthefellowsbuttheywerealllookingacrosstheplayground。Hewantedtoasksomebodyaboutit。Whatdidthatmeanaboutthesmugginginthesquare?Whydidthefivefellowsoutofthehigherlinerunawayforthat?Itwasajoke,hethought。SimonMoonanhadniceclothesandonenighthehadshownhimaballofcreamysweetsthatthefellowsofthefootballfifteenhadrolleddowntohimalongthecarpetinthemiddleoftherefectorywhenhewasatthedoor。ItwasthenightofthematchagainsttheBectiveRangers;andtheballwasmadejustlikearedandgreenappleonlyitopenedanditwasfullofthecreamysweets。AndonedayBoylehadsaidthatartelephanthadtwotuskersinsteadoftwotusksandthatwaswhyhewascalledTuskerBoylebutsomefellowscalledhimLadyBoylebecausehewasalwaysathisnails,paringthem。

  Eileenhadlongthincoolwhitehandstoobecauseshewasagirl。Theywerelikeivory;onlysoft。

  ThatwasthemeaningofTowerofIvorybutprotestantscouldnotunderstanditandmadefunofit。Onedayhehadstoodbesideherlookingintothehotelgrounds。Awaiterwasrunningupatrailofbuntingontheflagstaffandafoxterrierwasscamperingtoandfroonthesunnylawn。Shehadputherhandintohispocketwherehishandwasandhehadfelthowcoolandthinandsoftherhandwas。Shehadsaidthatpocketswerefunnythingstohave:andthenallofasuddenshehadbrokenawayandhadrunlaughingdowntheslopingcurveofthepath。Herfairhairhadstreamedoutbehindherlikegoldinthesun。TowerofIvory。HouseofGold。Bythinkingofthingsyoucouldunderstandthem。

  Butwhyinthesquare?Youwenttherewhenyouwantedtodosomething。

  Itwasallthickslabsofslateandwatertrickledalldayoutoftinypinholesandtherewasaqueersmellofstalewaterthere。AndbehindthedoorofoneoftheclosetstherewasadrawinginredpencilofabeardedmaninaRomandresswithabrickineachhandandunderneathwasthenameofthedrawing:Balbuswasbuildingawall。Somefellowhaddrawnitthereforacod。Ithadafunnyfacebutitwasverylikeamanwithabeard。Andonthewallofanotherclosettherewaswritteninbackhandinbeautifulwriting:JuliusCaesarwroteTheCalicoBelly。Perhapsthatwaswhytheyweretherebecauseitwasaplacewheresomefellowswrotethingsforcod。ButallthesameitwasqueerwhatAthysaidandthewayhesaidit。Itwasnotacodbecausetheyhadrunaway。Helookedwiththeothersacrosstheplaygroundandbegantofeelafraid。

  AtlastFlemingsaid:——

  Andwearealltobepunishedforwhatotherfellowsdid?——

  Iwon\'tcomeback,seeifIdo,CecilThundersaid。Threedays\'silenceintherefectoryandsendingusupforsixandeighteveryminute——

  Yes,saidWells。AndoldBarretthasanewwayoftwistingthenotesothatyoucan\'topenitandfolditagaintoseehowmanyferulaeyouaretoget。Iwon\'tcomebacktoo。

  Yes,saidCecilThunder,andtheprefectofstudieswasinsecondofgrammarthismorning——

  Letusgetuparebellion,Flemingsaid。Willwe?

  Allthefellowsweresilent。Theairwasverysilentandyoucouldhearthecricketbatsbutmoreslowlythanbefore:pick,pock。

  Wellsasked:——

  Whatisgoingtobedonetothem?——

  SimonMoonanandTuskeraregoingtobeflogged,Athysaid,andthefellowsinthehigherlinegottheirchoiceoffloggingorbeingexpelled——

  Andwhicharetheytaking?askedthefellowwhohadspokenfirst——

  AllaretakingexpulsionexceptCorrigan,Athyanswered。He\'sgoingtobefloggedbyMrGleeson——

  Iknowwhy,CecilThundersaid。Heisrightandtheotherfellowsarewrongbecauseafloggingwearsoffafterabitbutafellowthathasbeenexpelledfromcollegeisknownallhislifeonaccountofit。BesidesGleesonwon\'tfloghimhard——

  It\'sbestofhisplaynotto,Flemingsaid——

  Iwouldn\'tliketobeSimonMoonanandTuskerCecilThundersaid。

  ButIdon\'tbelievetheywillbeflogged。Perhapstheywillbesentupfortwicenine——

  No,no,saidAthy。They\'llbothgetitonthevitalspot。Wellsrubbedhimselfandsaidinacryingvoice:——

  Please,sir,letmeoff!

  Athygrinnedandturnedupthesleevesofhisjacket,saying:Itcan\'tbehelped;

  Itmustbedone。

  SodownwithyourbreechesAndoutwithyourbum。Thefellowslaughed;buthefeltthattheywerealittleafraid。Inthesilenceofthesoftgreyairheheardthecricketbatsfromhereandfromthere:pock。Thatwasasoundtohearbutifyouwerehitthenyouwouldfeelapain。Thepandybatmadeasoundtoobutnotlikethat。Thefellowssaiditwasmadeofwhaleboneandleatherwithleadinside:andhewonderedwhatwasthepainlike。Thereweredifferentkindsofsounds。Alongthincanewouldhaveahighwhistlingsoundandhewonderedwhatwasthatpainlike。Itmadehimshiverytothinkofitandcold:andwhatAthysaidtoo。

  Butwhatwastheretolaughatinit?Itmadehimshivery:butthatwasbecauseyoualwaysfeltlikeashiverwhenyouletdownyourtrousers。

  Itwasthesameinthebathwhenyouundressedyourself。Hewonderedwhohadtoletthemdown,themasterortheboyhimself。Ohowcouldtheylaughaboutitthatway?

  HelookedatAthy\'srolled-upsleevesandknucklyinkyhands。HehadrolleduphissleevestoshowhowMrGleesonwouldrolluphissleeves。

  ButMrGleesonhadroundshinycuffsandcleanwhitewristsandfattishwhitehandsandthenailsofthemwerelongandpointed。PerhapsheparedthemtoolikeLadyBoyle。Buttheywereterriblylongandpointednails。

  Solongandcrueltheywere,thoughthewhitefattishhandswerenotcruelbutgentle。Andthoughhetrembledwithcoldandfrighttothinkofthecruellongnailsandofthehighwhistlingsoundofthecaneandofthechillyoufeltattheendofyourshirtwhenyouundressedyourselfyethefeltafeelingofqueerquietpleasureinsidehimtothinkofthewhitefattishhands,cleanandstrongandgentle。AndhethoughtofwhatCecilThunderhadsaid:thatMrGleesonwouldnotflogCorriganhard。AndFleminghadsaidhewouldnotbecauseitwasbestofhisplaynotto。ButthatwasnotwhyAvoicefromfaroutontheplaygroundcried:——

  Allin!

  Andothervoicescried:——

  Allin!Allin!

  Duringthewritinglessonhesatwithhisarmsfolded,listeningtotheslowscrapingofthepens。MrHarfordwenttoandfromakinglittlesignsinredpencilandsometimessittingbesidetheboytoshowhimhowtoholdhispen。Hehadtriedtospellouttheheadlineforhimselfthoughheknewalreadywhatitwasforitwasthelastofthebook。Zealwithoutprudenceislikeashipadrift。Butthelinesoftheletterswerelikefineinvisiblethreadsanditwasonlybyclosinghisrighteyetightandstaringoutofthelefteyethathecouldmakeoutthefullcurvesofthecapital。

  ButMrHarfordwasverydecentandnevergotintoawax。Alltheothermastersgotintodreadfulwaxes。Butwhyweretheytosufferforwhatfellowsinthehigherlinedid?Wellshadsaidthattheyhaddrunksomeofthealtarwineoutofthepressinthesacristyandthatithadbeenfoundoutwhohaddoneitbythesmell。Perhapstheyhadstolenamonstrancetorunawaywithandsellitsomewhere。Thatmusthavebeenaterriblesin,togointherequietlyatnight,toopenthedarkpressandstealtheflashinggoldthingintowhichGodwasputonthealtarinthemiddleofflowersandcandlesatbenedictionwhiletheincensewentupincloudsatbothsidesasthefellowswungthecenserandDominicKellysangthefirstpartbyhimselfinthechoir。ButGodwasnotinitofcoursewhentheystoleit。Butstillitwasastrangeandagreatsineventotouchit。Hethoughtofitwithdeepawe;aterribleandstrangesin:itthrilledhimtothinkofitinthesilencewhenthepensscrapedlightly。Buttodrinkthealtarwineoutofthepressandbefoundoutbythesmellwasasintoo:butitwasnotterribleandstrange。Itonlymadeyoufeelalittlesickishonaccountofthesmellofthewine。Becauseonthedaywhenhehadmadehisfirstholycommunioninthechapelhehadshuthiseyesandopenedhismouthandputouthistonguealittle:andwhentherectorhadstoopeddowntogivehimtheholycommunionhehadsmeltafaintwinysmellofftherector\'sbreathafterthewineofthemass。Thewordwasbeautiful:wine。ItmadeyouthinkofdarkpurplebecausethegrapesweredarkpurplethatgrewinGreeceoutsidehouseslikewhitetemples。

  Butthefaintsmelloftherector\'sbreathhadmadehimfeelasickfeelingonthemorningofhisfirstcommunion。Thedayofyourfirstcommunionwasthehappiestdayofyourlife。AndoncealotofgeneralshadaskedNapoleonwhatwasthehappiestdayofhislife。Theythoughthewouldsaythedayhewonsomegreatbattleorthedayhewasmadeanemperor。Buthesaid:——

  Gentlemen,thehappiestdayofmylifewasthedayonwhichImademyfirstholycommunion。

  FatherArnallcameinandtheLatinlessonbeganandheremainedstill,leaningonthedeskwithhisarmsfolded。FatherArnallgaveoutthetheme-booksandhesaidthattheywerescandalousandthattheywerealltobewrittenoutagainwiththecorrectionsatonce。ButtheworstofallwasFleming\'sthemebecausethepageswerestucktogetherbyablot:andFatherArnallhelditupbyacornerandsaiditwasaninsulttoanymastertosendhimupsuchatheme。ThenheaskedJackLawtontodeclinethenounmareandJackLawtonstoppedattheablativesingularandcouldnotgoonwiththeplural——

  Youshouldbeashamedofyourself,saidFatherArnallsternly。You,theleaderoftheclass!

  Thenheaskedthenextboyandthenextandthenext。Nobodyknew。FatherArnallbecameveryquiet,moreandmorequietaseachboytriedtoansweritandcouldnot。Buthisfacewasblack-lookingandhiseyeswerestaringthoughhisvoicewassoquiet。ThenheaskedFlemingandFlemingsaidthatthewordhadnoplural。FatherArnallsuddenlyshutthebookandshoutedathim:——

  Kneeloutthereinthemiddleoftheclass。YouareoneoftheidlestboysIevermet。Copyoutyourthemesagaintherestofyou。

  Flemingmovedheavilyoutofhisplaceandkneltbetweenthetwolastbenches。Theotherboysbentovertheirtheme-booksandbegantowrite。

  AsilencefilledtheclassroomandStephen,glancingtimidlyatFatherArnall\'sdarkface,sawthatitwasalittleredfromthewaxhewasIn。

  WasthatasinforFatherArnalltobeinawaxorwasheallowedtogetintoawaxwhentheboyswereidlebecausethatmadethemstudybetterorwasheonlylettingontobeinawax?Itwasbecausehewasallowed,becauseapriestwouldknowwhatasinwasandwouldnotdoit。Butifhediditonetimebymistakewhatwouldhedotogotoconfession?Perhapshewouldgotoconfessiontotheminister。Andiftheministerdidithewouldgototherector:andtherectortotheprovincial:andtheprovincialtothegeneralofthejesuits。Thatwascalledtheorder:andhehadheardhisfathersaythattheywereallclevermen。Theycouldallhavebecomehigh-uppeopleintheworldiftheyhadnotbecomejesuits。AndhewonderedwhatFatherArnallandPaddyBarrettwouldhavebecomeandwhatMrMcGladeandMrGleesonwouldhavebecomeiftheyhadnotbecomejesuits。Itwashardtothinkwhatbecauseyouwouldhavetothinkoftheminadifferentwaywithdifferentcolouredcoatsandtrousersandwithbeardsandmoustachesanddifferentkindsofhats。

  Thedooropenedquietlyandclosed。Aquickwhisperranthroughtheclass:theprefectofstudies。Therewasaninstantofdeadsilenceandthentheloudcrackofapandybatonthelastdesk。Stephen\'sheartleaptupinfear——

  Anyboyswantflogginghere,FatherArnall?criedtheprefectofstudies。Anylazyidleloafersthatwantflogginginthisclass?

  HecametothemiddleoftheclassandsawFlemingonhisknees——

  Hoho!hecried。Whoisthisboy?Whyisheonhisknees?Whatisyourname,boy?——

  Fleming,sir——

  Hoho,Fleming!Anidlerofcourse。Icanseeitinyoureye。Whyisheonhisknees,FatherArnall?——

  HewroteabadLatintheme,FatherArnallsaid,andhemissedallthequestionsingrammar——

  Ofcoursehedid!criedtheprefectofstudies,ofcoursehedid!

  Abornidler!Icanseeitinthecornerofhiseye。

  Hebangedhispandybatdownonthedeskandcried:——

  Up,Fleming!Up,myboy!

  Flemingstoodupslowly——

  Holdout!criedtheprefectofstudies。

  Flemingheldouthishand。Thepandybatcamedownonitwithaloudsmackingsound:one,two,three,four,five,six——

  Otherhand!

  Thepandybatcamedownagaininsixloudquicksmacks——

  Kneeldown!criedtheprefectofstudies。

  Flemingkneltdown,squeezinghishandsunderhisarmpits,hisfacecontortedwithpain;butStephenknewhowhardhishandswerebecauseFlemingwasalwaysrubbingrosinintothem。Butperhapshewasingreatpainforthenoiseofthepandybatwasterrible。Stephen\'sheartwasbeatingandfluttering——

  Atyourwork,allofyou!shoutedtheprefectofstudies。Wewantnolazyidleloafershere,lazyidlelittleschemers。Atyourwork,Itellyou。FatherDolanwillbeintoseeyoueveryday。FatherDolanwillbeintomorrow。

  Hepokedoneoftheboysinthesidewithhispandybat,saying:——

  You,boy!WhenwillFatherDolanbeinagain?——

  Tomorrow,sir,saidTomFurlong\'svoice——

  Tomorrowandtomorrowandtomorrow,saidtheprefectofstudies。

  Makeupyourmindsforthat。EverydayFatherDolan。Writeaway。You,boy,whoareyou?

  Stephen\'sheartjumpedsuddenly——

  Dedalus,sir——

  Whyareyounotwritingliketheothers?——

  ImyHecouldnotspeakwithfright——

  Whyishenotwriting,FatherArnall?——

  Hebrokehisglasses,saidFatherArnall,andIexemptedhimfromwork——

  Broke?WhatisthisIhear?Whatisthisyournameis!saidtheprefectofstudies——

  Dedalus,sir——

  Outhere,Dedalus。Lazylittleschemer。Iseeschemerinyourface。

  Wheredidyoubreakyourglasses?

  Stephenstumbledintothemiddleoftheclass,blindedbyfearandhaste——

  Wheredidyoubreakyourglasses?repeatedtheprefectofstudies——

  Thecinder-path,sir——

  Hoho!Thecinder-path!criedtheprefectofstudies。Iknowthattrick。

  StephenliftedhiseyesinwonderandsawforamomentFatherDolan\'swhite-greynotyoungface,hisbaldywhite-greyheadwithfluffatthesidesofit,thesteelrimsofhisspectaclesandhisno-colouredeyeslookingthroughtheglasses。Whydidhesayheknewthattrick?——

  Lazyidlelittleloafer!criedtheprefectofstudies。Brokemyglasses!

  Anoldschoolboytrick!Outwithyourhandthismoment!

  Stephenclosedhiseyesandheldoutintheairhistremblinghandwiththepalmupwards。Hefelttheprefectofstudiestouchitforamomentatthefingerstostraightenitandthentheswishofthesleeveofthesoutaneasthepandybatwasliftedtostrike。Ahotburningstingingtinglingblowliketheloudcrackofabrokenstickmadehistremblinghandcrumpletogetherlikealeafinthefire:andatthesoundandthepainscaldingtearsweredrivenintohiseyes。Hiswholebodywasshakingwithfright,hisarmwasshakingandhiscrumpledburninglividhandshooklikealooseleafintheair。Acrysprangtohislips,aprayertobeletoff。Butthoughthetearsscaldedhiseyesandhislimbsquiveredwithpainandfrightheheldbackthehottearsandthecrythatscaldedhisthroat——

  Otherhand!shoutedtheprefectofstudies。

  Stephendrewbackhismaimedandquiveringrightarmandheldouthislefthand。Thesoutanesleeveswishedagainasthepandybatwasliftedandaloudcrashingsoundandafiercemaddeningtinglingburningpainmadehishandshrinktogetherwiththepalmsandfingersinalividquiveringmass。Thescaldingwaterburstforthfromhiseyesand,burningwithshameandagonyandfear,hedrewbackhisshakingarminterrorandburstoutintoawhineofpain。Hisbodyshookwithapalsyoffrightandinshameandragehefeltthescaldingcrycomefromhisthroatandthescaldingtearsfallingoutofhiseyesanddownhisflamingcheeks——

  Kneeldown,criedtheprefectofstudies。

  Stephenkneltdownquicklypressinghisbeatenhandstohissides。Tothinkofthembeatenandswollenwithpainallinamomentmadehimfeelsosorryforthemasiftheywerenothisownbutsomeoneelse\'sthathefeltsorryfor。Andasheknelt,calmingthelastsobsinhisthroatandfeelingtheburningtinglingpainpressedintohissides,hethoughtofthehandswhichhehadheldoutintheairwiththepalmsupandofthefirmtouchoftheprefectofstudieswhenhehadsteadiedtheshakingfingersandofthebeatenswollenreddenedmassofpalmandfingersthatshookhelplesslyintheair——

  Getatyourwork,allofyou,criedtheprefectofstudiesfromthedoor。FatherDolanwillbeineverydaytoseeifanyboy,anylazyidlelittleloaferwantsflogging。Everyday。Everyday。

  Thedoorclosedbehindhim。

  Thehushedclasscontinuedtocopyoutthethemes。FatherArnallrosefromhisseatandwentamongthem,helpingtheboyswithgentlewordsandtellingthemthemistakestheyhadmade。Hisvoicewasverygentleandsoft。ThenhereturnedtohisseatandsaidtoFlemingandStephen:——

  Youmayreturntoyourplaces,youtwo。

  FlemingandStephenroseand,walkingtotheirseats,satdown。Stephen,scarletwithshame,openedabookquicklywithoneweakhandandbentdownuponit,hisfaceclosetothepage。

  Itwasunfairandcruelbecausethedoctorhadtoldhimnottoreadwithoutglassesandhehadwrittenhometohisfatherthatmorningtosendhimanewpair。AndFatherArnallhadsaidthatheneednotstudytillthenewglassescame。ThentobecalledaschemerbeforetheclassandtobepandiedwhenhealwaysgotthecardforfirstorsecondandwastheleaderoftheYorkists!Howcouldtheprefectofstudiesknowthatitwasatrick?Hefeltthetouchoftheprefect\'sfingersastheyhadsteadiedhishandandatfirsthehadthoughthewasgoingtoshakehandswithhimbecausethefingersweresoftandfirm:buttheninaninstanthehadheardtheswishofthesoutanesleeveandthecrash。Itwascruelandunfairtomakehimkneelinthemiddleoftheclassthen:andFatherArnallhadtoldthemboththattheymightreturntotheirplaceswithoutmakinganydifferencebetweenthem。HelistenedtoFatherArnall\'slowandgentlevoiceashecorrectedthethemes。Perhapshewassorrynowandwantedtobedecent。Butitwasunfairandcruel。Theprefectofstudieswasapriestbutthatwascruelandunfair。Andhiswhite-greyfaceandtheno-colouredeyesbehindthesteel-rimmedspectacleswerecruellookingbecausehehadsteadiedthehandfirstwithhisfirmsoftfingersandthatwastohititbetterandlouder——

  It\'sastinkingmeanthing,that\'swhatitis,saidFleminginthecorridorastheclasseswerepassingoutinfiletotherefectory,topandyafellowforwhatisnothisfault——

  Youreallybrokeyourglassesbyaccident,didn\'tyou?NastyRocheasked。

  StephenfelthisheartfilledbyFleming\'swordsanddidnotanswer——

  Ofcoursehedid!saidFleming。Iwouldn\'tstandit。I\'dgoupandtelltherectoronhim——

  Yes,saidCecilThundereagerly,andIsawhimliftthepandy-batoverhisshoulderandhe\'snotallowedtodothat——

  Didtheyhurtyoumuch?NastyRocheasked——

  Verymuch,Stephensaid——

  Iwouldn\'tstandit,Flemingrepeated,fromBaldyheadoranyotherBaldyhead。It\'sastinkingmeanlowtrick,that\'swhatitis。I\'dgostraightuptotherectorandtellhimaboutitafterdinner——

  Yes,do。Yes,do,saidCecilThunder——

  Yes,do。Yes,goupandtelltherectoronhim,Dedalus,saidNastyRoche,becausehesaidthathe\'dcomeintomorrowagainandpandyyou——

  Yes,yes。Telltherector,allsaid。

  Andthereweresomefellowsoutofsecondofgrammarlisteningandoneofthemsaid:——

  ThesenateandtheRomanpeopledeclaredthatDedalushadbeenwronglypunished。

  Itwaswrong;itwasunfairandcruel;and,ashesatintherefectory,hesufferedtimeaftertimeinmemorythesamehumiliationuntilhebegantowonderwhetheritmightnotreallybethattherewassomethinginhisfacewhichmadehimlooklikeaschemerandhewishedhehadalittlemirrortosee。Buttherecouldnotbe;anditwasunjustandcruelandunfair。

  HecouldnoteattheblackishfishfritterstheygotonWednesdaysinlentandoneofhispotatoeshadthemarkofthespadeinit。Yes,hewoulddowhatthefellowshadtoldhim。Hewouldgoupandtelltherectorthathehadbeenwronglypunished。Athinglikethathadbeendonebeforebysomebodyinhistory,bysomegreatpersonwhoseheadwasinthebooksofhistory。AndtherectorwoulddeclarethathehadbeenwronglypunishedbecausethesenateandtheRomanpeoplealwaysdeclaredthatthemenwhodidthathadbeenwronglypunished。ThosewerethegreatmenwhosenameswereinRichmalMagnall\'sQuestions。HistorywasallaboutthosemenandwhattheydidandthatwaswhatPeterParley\'sTalesaboutGreeceandRomewereallabout。PeterParleyhimselfwasonthefirstpageinapicture。

  Therewasaroadoveraheathwithgrassatthesideandlittlebushes:

  andPeterParleyhadabroadhatlikeaprotestantministerandabigstickandhewaswalkingfastalongtheroadtoGreeceandRome。

  Itwaseasywhathehadtodo。Allhehadtodowaswhenthedinnerwasoverandhecameoutinhisturntogoonwalkingbutnotouttothecorridorbutupthestaircaseontherightthatledtothecastle。Hehadnothingtodobutthat:toturntotherightandwalkfastupthestaircaseandinhalfaminutehewouldbeinthelowdarknarrowcorridorthatledthroughthecastletotherector\'sroom。Andeveryfellowhadsaidthatitwasunfair,eventhefellowoutofsecondofgrammarwhohadsaidthataboutthesenateandtheRomanpeople。

  Whatwouldhappen?

  Heheardthefellowsofthehigherlinestandupatthetopoftherefectoryandheardtheirstepsastheycamedownthematting:PaddyRathandJimmyMageeandtheSpaniardandthePortugueseandthefifthwasbigCorriganwhowasgoingtobefloggedbyMrGleeson。Thatwaswhytheprefectofstudieshadcalledhimaschemerandpandiedhimfornothing:and,straininghisweakeyes,tiredwiththetears,hewatchedbigCorrigan\'sbroadshouldersandbighangingblackheadpassinginthefile。ButhehaddonesomethingandbesidesMrGleesonwouldnotfloghimhard:andherememberedhowbigCorriganlookedinthebath。Hehadskinthesamecolourastheturf-colouredbogwaterintheshallowendofthebathandwhenhewalkedalongthesidehisfeetslappedloudlyonthewettilesandateverystephisthighsshookalittlebecausehewasfat。

  Therefectorywashalfemptyandthefellowswerestillpassingoutinfile。Hecouldgoupthestaircasebecausetherewasneverapriestoraprefectoutsidetherefectorydoor。Buthecouldnotgo。Therectorwouldsidewiththeprefectofstudiesandthinkitwasaschoolboytrickandthentheprefectofstudieswouldcomeineverydaythesame,onlyitwouldbeworsebecausehewouldbedreadfullywaxyatanyfellowgoinguptotherectorabouthim。Thefellowshadtoldhimtogobuttheywouldnotgothemselves。Theyhadforgottenallaboutit。No,itwasbesttoforgetallaboutitandperhapstheprefectofstudieshadOnlysaidhewouldcomein。No,itwasbesttohideoutofthewaybecausewhenyouweresmallandyoungyoucouldoftenescapethatway。

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