Thesethingsweredoneyesterday：Ihavegiventwowholedaystothepreparationforourdeparture，thatFrederickmayhavemoretimetopreparetherooms，andRacheltopackupthethings——forthelattertaskmustbedonewiththeutmostcautionandsecresy，andthereisnoonebutmetoassisther：Icanhelptogetthearticlestogether，butIdonotunderstandtheartofstowingthemintotheboxes，soastotakeupthesmallestpossiblespace；andthereareherownthingstodo，aswellasmineandArthur’s。Icanillaffordtoleaveanythingbehind，sinceIhavenomoney，exceptafewguineasinmypurse；——andbesides，asRachelobserved，whateverIleftwouldmostlikelybecomethepropertyofMissMyers，andIshouldnotrelishthat。
ButwhattroubleIhavehadthroughoutthesetwodaysstrugglingtoappearcalmandcollected——tomeethimandherasusual，whenIwasobligedtomeetthem，andforcingmyselftoleavemylittleArthurinherhandsforhourstogether！ButItrustthesetrialsareovernow：Ihavelaidhiminmybedforbettersecurity，andnevermore，Itrust，shallhisinnocentlipsbedefiledbytheircontaminatingkisses，orhisyoungearspollutedbytheirwords。Butshallweescapeinsafety？Oh，thatthemorningwerecome，andwewereonourwayatleast！Thisevening，whenIhadgivenRachelalltheassistanceIcould，andhadnothingleftmebuttowait，andwishandtremble，Ibecamesogreatlyagitated，thatI
knewnotwhattodo。Iwentdowntodinner，butIcouldnotforcemyselftoeat。Mr。Huntingdonremarkedthecircumstance。
`What’stodowithyounow？’saidhe，whentheremovalofthesecondcoursegavehimtimetolookabouthim。
`Iamnotwell，’Ireplied：`IthinkImustliedownalittleyouwon’tmissmemuch？’