Almostatthecommencementofthefirstletter,Ihadtheunexpectedpleasureofseeinghimblush;butheimmediatelyturnedhisbacktomeandfinishedtheperusalatthewindow。Atthesecond,Isawhim,onceortwice,raisehishandandhurriedlypassitacrosshisface。Coulditbetodashawayatear?Whenhehaddone,therewasanintervalspentinclearinghisthroatandstaringoutofthewindow,andthen,afterwhistlingafewbarsofafavouriteair,heturnedround,gavemebackthelettersandsilentlyshookmebythehand。
`I’vebeenacursedrascal,Godknows,’saidheashegaveitaheartysqueeze,`butyouseeifIdon’tmakeamendsforit——G——dd——nmeifIdon’t!’
`Don’tcurseyourself,Mr。Hattersley;ifGodhadheardhalfyourinvocationsofthatkind,youwouldhavebeeninhelllongbeforenow——andyoucannotmakeamendsforthepastbydoingyourdutyforthefuture,inasmuchasyourdutyisonlywhatyouowetoyourMaker,andyoucannotdomorethanfulfilit——anothermustmakeamendsforyourpastdelinquencies。
Ifyouintendtoreform,invokeGod’sblessing,Hismercy,andHisaid;
notHiscurse。