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  TheywerenamedBastinandBickley。Bastin——BasilwashisChristianname——wasanuncouth,shock—headed,flat—footedpersonoflarge,ruggedframeandequallyruggedhonesty,withamindalmostincrediblysimple。Nothingsurprisedhimbecausehelackedthefacultyofsurprise。Hewaslikethatkindoffishwhichliesatthebottomoftheseaandtakeseverykindoffoodintoitsgreatmawwithoutdistinguishingitsflavour。Metaphoricallyspeaking,heavenlymannaanddecayedcabbagewerejustthesametoBastin。Hewasnotfastidiousandbothwerementalpabulum——ofasort——togetherwithwhateverlaybetweentheseextremes。Yethewasgood,sopainfullygoodthatonefeltthatwithoutexertiontohimselfhehadbookedafirst—classticketstraighttoHeaven;

  indeedthathisguardianangelhadtieditroundhisneckatbirthlestheshouldloseit,alreadynumberedanddatedlikeanidentificationdisc。

  IamboundtoaddthatBastinneverwentwrongbecauseheneverfelttheslightesttemptationtodoso。ThisIsupposeconstitutesrealvirtue,since,inviewofcertainBiblesayings,thepersonwhoistemptedandwouldliketoyieldtothetemptation,isequallyasinnerwiththepersonwhodoesyield。

  Tobetrulygoodoneshouldbetoogoodtobetempted,ortooweaktomaketheeffortworththetempter’swhile——inshortnotdeservingofhispowderandshot。

  IneedhardlyaddthatBastinwentintotheChurch;indeed,hecouldnothavegoneanywhereelse;itabsorbedhimnaturally,asdoubtlessHeavenwilldoinduecourse。OnlyIthinkitlikelythatuntiltheygettoknowhimhewillboretheangelssomuchthattheywillcontinuallymovehimuphigher。Alsoiftheyhaveanysusceptibilitiesleft,probablyhewilltreadupontheirtoes——anartinwhichIneverknewhisequal。However,IalwayslovedBastin,perhapsbecausenooneelsedid,afactofwhichheremainedtotallyunconscious,orperhapsbecauseofhisbrutalwayoftellingonewhatheconceivedtobethetruth,which,ashehadlessimaginationthanadormouse,generallyitwasnot。

  Forifthetruthisajewel,itisonecolouredandveiledbymanydifferentlightsandatmospheres。

  Itonlyremainstoaddthathewaslearnedinhistheologicalfashionandthatamonghisfurtherpeculiaritiesweretheslow,monotonousvoiceinwhichheutteredhisviewsinlongsentences,andhistotalindifferencetoadverseargumenthoweversoundandconvincing。

  Myotherfriend,Bickley,wasapersonofaquitedifferentcharacter。LikeBastin,hewaslearned,buthistendenciesfacedanotherway。IfBastin’somnivorousthroatcouldswallowacamel,especiallyatheologicalcamel,Bickley’swouldstrainatthesmallestgnat,especiallyatheologicalgnat。Theverybestandmostuprightofmen,yethebelievedinnothingthathecouldnottaste,seeorhandle。Hewasconvinced,forinstance,thatmanisabrute—descendedaccidentandnomore,thatwhatwecallthesoulorthemindisproducedbyacertainactionofthegreymatterofthebrain;thateverythingapparentlyinexplicablehasaperfectlymundaneexplanation,ifonlyonecouldfindit;thatmiraclescertainlyneverdidhappen,andneverwill;thatallreligionsarethefruitofhumanhopesandfearsandthemostconvincingproofofhumanweakness;thatnotwithstandingourinfinitevariationswearethesubjectsofNature’ssinglelawandthevictimsofblind,blackandbrutalchance。

  SuchwasBickleywithhisclever,well—cutfacethatalwaysremindedmeofacameo,andthoughtfulbrow;hisstrong,capablehandsandhisrathersteelymouth,themeresetofwhichsuggestedcontroversyofanuncompromisingkind。NaturallyastheChurchhadclaimedBastin,somedicineclaimedBickley。

  NowasithappenedthemanwhosucceededmyfatherasvicarofFulcombewasgivenabetterlivingandwentawayshortlyafterI

  hadpurchasedtheplaceandwithittheadvowson。JustatthistimealsoIreceivedaletterwritteninthelarge,sprawlinghandofBastinfromwhomIhadnotheardforyears。Itwentstraighttothepoint,sayingthathe,Bastin,hadseeninaChurchpaperthatthelastincumbenthadresignedthelivingofFulcombewhichwasinmygift。HewouldthereforebeobligedifI

  wouldgiveittohimastheplacehewasatinYorkshiredidnotsuithiswife’shealth。

  HereImaystatethatafterwardsIlearnedthatwhatdidnotsuitMrs。Bastinwastheorganist,whowaspretty。ShewasbynatureawomanwithatemperamentsoinsanelyjealousthatactuallyshemanagedtobesuspiciousofBastin,whomshehadcapturedinanunguardedmomentwhenhewasthinkingofsomethingelseandwhowouldassoonhavethoughtofevenlookingatanywomanashewouldofworshippingBaal。Asamatteroffactittookhimmonthstoknowonefemalefromanother。ExceptaspossibleprovidersofsubscriptionsandpropsofMothers’

  Meetings,womenhadnointerestforhim。

  Toreturn——withthatengaginghonestywhichIhavementioned——

  Bastin’sletterwentontosetoutallhisowndisabilities,which,headded,wouldprobablyrenderhimunsuitablefortheplacehedesiredtofill。HewasaHighChurchman,afactwhichwouldcertainlyoffendmany;hehadnoclaimstobeingapreacheralthoughhewasextraordinarilywellacquaintedwiththewritingsoftheEarlyFathers。(Whatonearthhadthattodowiththequestion,Iwondered。)Ontheotherhandhehadgenerallybeenconsideredagoodvisitorandwasfondofwalking(hemeanttocallondistantparishioners,butdidnotsayso)。

  Thenfollowedapageandahalfontheevilsoftheexistingsystemofthepresentationtolivingsbyprivatepersons,endingwiththesuggestionthatIhadprobablycommittedasininbuyingthisparticularadvowsoninordertoincreasemylocalauthority,thatis,ifIhadboughtit,apointonwhichhewasignorant。

  Finallyheinformedmethatashehadtochristenasickbabyfivemilesawayonacertainmooranditwastoowetforhimtoridehisbicycle,hemuststop。Andhestopped。

  Therewas,however,aP。S。totheletter,whichranasfollows:

  \"Someonetoldmethatyouweredeadafewyearsago,andofcourseitmaybeanothermanofthesamenamewhoownsFulcombe。

  Ifso,nodoubtthePostOfficewillsendbackthisletter。\"

  Thatwashisonlyallusiontomyhumbleselfinallthosediffusepages。ItwasalongwhilesinceIhadreceivedanepistlewhichmademelaughsomuch,andofcourseIgavehimthelivingbyreturnofpost,andeveninformedhimthatIwouldincreaseitsstipendtoasumwhichIconsideredsuitabletotheposition。

  AbouttendayslaterIreceivedanotherletterfromBastinwhich,asascrawlontheflapoftheenvelopeinformedme,hehadcarriedforaweekinhispocketandforgottentopost。

  Exceptbyinferenceitreturnednothanksformyintendedbenefits。Whatitdidsay,however,wasthathethoughtitwrongofmetohavesettledamatterofsuchspiritualimportanceinsogreatahurry,thoughhehadobservedthatrichmenwerenearlyalwaysselfishwheretheirtimewasconcerned。Moreover,heconsideredthatIoughtfirsttohavemadeinquiriesastohispresentcharacterandattainments,etc。,etc。

  TothisepistleIrepliedbytelegraphtotheeffectthatI

  shouldassoonthinkofmakinginquiriesaboutthecharacterofanarchangel,orthatofoneofhisHighChurchsaints。Thistelegram,hetoldmeafterwards,heconsideredunseemlyandevenribald,especiallyasithadgivengreatoffencetothepostmaster,whowasoneofthesidesmeninhischurch。

  ThusitcameaboutthatIappointedtheRev。BasilBastintothelivingofFulcombe,feelingsurethathewouldprovidemewithendlessamusementandactasamoraltonicanddiscipline。

  AlsoIappreciatedtheman’sbluntcandour。Induecoursehearrived,andIconfessthatafterafewSundaysofexperienceI

  begantohavedoubtsastothewisdomofmychoice,gladasIwastoseehimpersonally。Hissermonsatonceboredme,and,whentheydidnotsendmetosleep,excitedinmeadesirefordebate。

  Howcouldhebesoprofoundlyacquaintedwithmysteriesbeforewhichtheworldhadstoodamazedforages?Wastherenothingtoohotortooheavyinthespiritualwayforhimtodismissinafewblunderingandcasualwords,ashemightanyordinaryincidentofevery—daylife,Iwondered?AlsohisideaofHighChurchobservanceswasnotmine,or,Iimagine,thatofanybodyelse。

  ButIwillnotattempttosetitout。

  Hispeculiarities,however,wereeasytoexcuseandentirelyswallowedupbytheinnategoodnessofhisnaturewhichsoonmadehimbelovedofeveryoneintheplace,foralthoughhethoughtthatprobablymostthingsweresins,Ineverknewhimtodiscoverasinwhichheconsideredtobebeyondthereachofforgiveness。

  Bastinwasindeedamostcharitablemanandinhiswaywide—minded。

  ThepersonwhomIcouldnottolerate,however,washiswife,who,tomyfancy,moreresembledavessel,averyunattractivevessel,fullofvinegarthanawoman。HernamewasSarahandshewassmall,plain,flat,sandy—hairedandodious,quiteobsessed,moreover,withherjealousiesoftheRev。Basil,atwhomitpleasedhertosupposethateverywomaninthecountrysideunderfiftywasthrowingherself。

  HereIwillconfessthattothebestofmyabilityItookcarethattheydidinoutwardseeming,thatis,whenevershewaspresent,instructingthemtositasidewithhimindarkenedcorners,topresenthimwithflowers,andsoforth。Severalofthemeasilyfellintothehumourofthething,andIhaveseenhimdepartfromadinner—partyfollowedbythatgloweringSarah,withahandfulofrosebudsandviolets,tosaynothingofthetraditionalofferingsofslippers,embroideredmarkersandthelike。Well,itwasmyonlywayofcomingevenwithher,whichI

  thinksheknew,forshehatedmepoisonously。

  SomuchforBasilBastin。NowforBickley。HimIhadmetonseveraloccasionssinceourcollegedays,andafterIwassettledatthePrioryfromtimetotimeIaskedhimtostaywithme。Atlengthhecame,andIfoundoutthathewasnotatallcomfortableinhisLondonpracticewhichwasofanatureuncongenialtohim;further,thathedidnotgetonwithhispartners。Then,afterreflection,Imadeasuggestiontohim。I

  pointedoutthat,owingtoitspopularityamongstseasidevisitors,theneighbourhoodofFulcombewasarisingone,andthatalthoughthereweredoctorsinit,therewasnoreallyfirst—classsurgeonformiles。

  NowBickleywasafirst—classsurgeon,havingheldveryhighhospitalappointments,andindeedstillholdingthem。Why,I

  asked,shouldhenotcomeandsetuphereonhisown?IwouldappointhimdoctortotheestateandalsogivehimchargeofacottagehospitalwhichIwasendowing,withlibertytobuildandarrangeitasheliked。Further,asIconsideredthatitwouldbeofgreatadvantagetometohaveamanofrealabilitywithinreach,IwouldguaranteeforthreeyearswhateverincomehewasearninginLondon。

  Hethankedmewarmlyandintheendactedontheidea,withstartlingresultssofarashisprospectswereconcerned。Verysoonhisreallyremarkableskillbecameknownandhewasearningmoremoneythanasanunmarriedmanhecouldpossiblywant。

  Indeed,scarcelyabigoperationtookplaceatanytownwithintwentymiles,andevenmuchfartheraway,atwhichhewasnotcalledintoassist。

  Needlesstosayhisadventwasagreatboontome,forashelivedinahouseIlethimquitenearby,wheneverhehadaspareeveninghewoulddropintodinner,andfromourabsolutelyoppositestandpointswediscussedallthingshumananddivine。

  ThusIwasenabledtosharpenmywitsuponthehardsteelofhisclearintellectwhichwasyet,inasense,solimited。

  ImustaddthatIneverconvertedhimtomywayofthinkingandheneverconvertedmetohis,anymorethanheconvertedBastin,forwhom,queerlyenough,hehadaliking。Theypoundedawayateachother,Bickleyfrequentlygettingthebestofitintheargument,andwhenatlastBastinrosetogo,hegenerallymadethesameremark。Itwas:

  \"Itreallyissad,mydearBickley,tofindamanofyourintellectsoutterlywrongheadedandmisguided。Ihaveconvictedyouoferroratleasthalfadozentimes,andnottoconfessitismerepigheadedness。Goodnight。IamsurethatSarahwillbesittingupforme。\"

  \"Sillyoldidiot!\"Bickleywouldsay,shakinghisfistafterhim。\"Theonlywaytogethimtoseethetruthwouldbetosawhisheadopenandpouritin。\"

  Thenwewouldbothlaugh。

  Suchweremytwomostintimatefriends,althoughIadmititwasratherliketheequatorcultivatingcloserelationshipswiththenorthandsouthpoles。CertainlyBastinwasasfarfromBickleyasthosepointsoftheearthareapart,whileI。asitwere,satequallydistantbetweenthetwo。However,wewereallveryhappytogether,sinceincertaincharacters,therearefewthingsthatbindmenmorecloselythanprofounddifferencesofopinion。

  NowImustturntomymorepersonalaffairs。Afterall,itisimpossibleforamantosatisfyhissoul,ifhehasanythingofthesortabouthimwhichintheremotestdegreeanswerstothatdescription,withthehusksofwealth,luxuryandindolence,supplementedbyoccasionaltheologicalandotherargumentsbetweenhisfriends;Becomingprofoundlyconvincedofthistruth,Isearchedroundforsomethingtodoand,likeNoah’sdoveonthewasteofwaters,foundnothing。ThenIaskedBickleyandBastinfortheiropinionsastomybestfuturecourse。Bickleyprovedabarrendraw。HerubbedhisnoseandfeeblysuggestedthatImightgoinfor\"researchwork,\"which,ofcourse,onlyrepresentedhisownambitions。IaskedhimindignantlyhowIcoulddosuchathingwithoutanyscientificqualificationswhatever。Headmittedthedifficulty,butrepliedthatImightendowotherswhohadthequalifications。

  \"Inshort,becomeamuchcowforsuckingscientists,\"I

  replied,andbrokeofftheconversation。

  Bastin’sideawas,first,thatIshouldteachinaSundaySchool;secondly,thatifthiscareerdidnotsatisfyallmyaspirations,Imightbeordainedandbecomeamissionary。

  Onmyrejectionofthisbrilliantadvice,heremarkedthattheonlyotherthinghecouldthinkofwasthatIshouldgetmarriedandhavealargefamily,whichmightpossiblyadvantagethenationandultimatelyenrichtheKingdomofHeaven,thoughofsuchthingsnoonecouldbequitesure。Atanyrate,hewascertainthatatpresentIwasinpracticeneglectingmyduty,whateveritmightbe,andinfactoneofthosecumberersoftheearthwho,heobservedinthenewspaperhetookinandreadwhenhehadtime,were\"veryhappilynamed——theidlerich。\"

  \"Whichremindsme,\"headded,\"thattheclothing—clubfinancesareinaperfectlyscandalouscondition;infact,itis?5indebt,anamountthatasthesquireoftheparishIconsideritincumbentonyoutomakegood,notasacharitybutasanobligation。\"

  \"Lookhere,myfriend,\"Isaid,ignoringalltherest,\"willyouanswermeaplainquestion?Haveyoufoundmarriagesuchasuccessthatyouconsiderityourdutytorecommendittoothers?

  Andifyouhave,whyhaveyounotgotthelargefamilyofwhichyouspeak?\"

  \"Ofcoursenot,\"herepliedwithhisusualfrankness。\"Indeed,itisinmanywayssodisagreeablethatIamconvinceditmustberightandforthegoodofallconcerned。AsregardsthefamilyI

  amsureIdonotknow,butSarahneverlikedbabies,whichperhapshassomethingtodowithit。\"

  Thenhesighed,adding,\"Yousee,Arbuthnot,wehavetotakethingsaswefindtheminthisworldandhopeforabetter。\"

  \"WhichisjustwhatIamtryingtodo,youunilluminatingolddonkey!\"Iexclaimed,andlefthimthereshakinghisheadovermattersingeneral,butIthinkprincipallyoverSarah。

  Bytheway,Ithinkthatthevillagersrecognisedthisgoodlady’svinegarynature。Atleast,theyusedtocallher\"SourSal。\"

  ChapterIII

  NatalieNowwhatBastinhadsaidaboutmarriagestuckinmymindashisblunderingremarkshadawayofdoing,perhapsbecauseofthegrainofhonesttruthwithwhichtheywereoftenpermeated。

  Probablyinmypositionitwasmoreorlessmydutytomarry。Butherecametherub;Ihadneverexperiencedanyleaningsthatway。

  Iwasasmuchamanasothers,moresothanmanyare,perhaps,andIlikedwomen,butatthesametimetheyrepelledme。

  Myoldfastidiousnesscamein;tomytastetherewasalwayssomethingwrongaboutthem。Whiletheyattractedonepartofmynaturetheyrevoltedanotherpart,andonthewholeIpreferredtodowithouttheirintimatesociety,ratherthanworkviolencetothissecondandhigherpartofme。Moreover,quiteatthebeginningofmycareerIhadconcludedfromobservationthatamangetsonbetterinlifealone,ratherthanwithanothertodragathisside,orbywhomperhapshemustbedragged。Stilltruemarriage,suchasmostmenandsomewomenhavedreamedofintheiryouth,hadalwaysbeenoneofmyideals;indeeditwasonandaroundthisvisionthatIwrotethatfirstbookofminewhichwassosuccessful。SinceIknewthistobeunattainableinourimperfectconditions,however,notwithstandingBastin’sstrictures,againIdismissedthewholematterfrommymindasavainimagination。

  AsanalternativeIreflecteduponaparliamentarycareerwhichIwasnottoooldtobegin,andeventoyedwithoneortwoopportunitiesthatofferedthemselves,asthesedotomenofwealthandadvancedviews。Theynevercametoanything,forintheendIdecidedthatPartypoliticsweresohatefulandsodishonest,thatIcouldnotbringmyselftoputmyneckbeneaththeiryoke。IwassurethatifItriedtodoso,IshouldfailmorecompletelythanIhaddoneattheBarandinLiterature。

  Here,too,IamquitecertainthatIwasright。

  TheupshotofitallwasthatIsoughtrefugeinthatlastexpedientofwearyEnglishmen,travel,notasaglobe—trotter,butleisurelyandwithaninquiringmind,learningmuchbutagainfinding,liketheancientwriterwhomIhavequotedalready,thatthereisnonewthingunderthesun;thatwithcertainvariationsitisthesamethingoverandoveragain。

  No,Iwillmakeanexception,theEastdidinterestmeenormously。Thereitwas,atBenares,thatIcameintotouchwithcertainthinkerswhoopenedmyeyestoagreatdeal。Theyreleasedsomehiddenspringinmynaturewhichhithertohadalwaysbeenstrivingtobreakthroughthecrustofourconventionsandinheritedideas。IknownowthatwhatIwasseekingwasnothinglessthantheInfinite;thatIhad\"immortallongingsinme。\"Ilistenedtoalltheirsolemntalkofepochsandyearsmeasurelesstoman,andreflectedwithathrillthatafterallmanmighthavehispartineveryoneofthem。Yes,thatbirdofpassageasheseemedtobe,flyingoutofdarknessintodarkness,stillhemighthavespreadhiswingsinthelightofothersunsmillionsuponmillionsofyearsago,andmightstillspreadthem,grownradiantandglorious,millionsuponmillionsofyearshenceinatimeunborn。

  IfonlyIcouldknowthetruth。WasLife(accordingtoBickley)

  merelyashortactivityboundedbynothingnessbeforeandbehind;

  or(accordingtoBastin)aconventionalgolden—harpedandhaloedimmortality,awordofwhichhedidnotintheleastunderstandthemeaning?

  Orwasitsomethingquitedifferentfromeitherofthese,somethingvastandsplendidbeyondthereachofvision,somethingGod—sent,beginningandendingintheEternalAbsoluteandatlastpartakingofHisattributesandnatureandfromaeontoaeonshotthroughwithHislight?Andhowwasthetruthtobelearned?IaskedmyEasternfriends,andtheytalkedvaguelyoflongasceticpreparation,ofyearsuponyearsoflearning,fromwhomIcouldnotquitediscover。Iwassureitcouldnotbefromthem,becauseclearlytheydidnotknow;theyonlypassedonwhattheyhadheardelsewhere,whenorhowtheyeithercouldnotorwouldnotexplain。SoatlengthIgaveitup,havingsatisfiedmyselfthatallthiswasbutaneffortofOrientalimaginationcalledintolifebythesweetinfluencesoftheEasternstars。

  Igaveitupandwentaway,thinkingthatIshouldforget。ButIdidnotforget。Iwasquickwithanewhope,oratanyratewithanewaspiration,andthatsecretchildofholydesiregrewandgrewwithinmysoul,tillatlengthitflasheduponmethatthissoulofminewasitselfthehiddenMasterfromwhichImustlearnmylesson。NowonderthatthoseEasternfriendscouldnotgivehisname,seeingthatwhatevertheyreallyknew,asdistinguishedfromwhattheyhadheard,anditwaslittleenough,eachofthemhadlearnedfromtheteachingofhisownsoul。

  Thus,then,Itoobecameadreamerwithonlyonelonging,thelongingforwisdom,forthatspirittouchwhichshouldopenmyeyesandenablemetosee。

  YetnowithappenedstrangelyenoughthatwhenIseemedwithinmyselftohavelittlefurtherinterestinthethingsoftheworld,andleastofallinwomen,I,whohadtakenanotherguesttodwellwithme,thosethingsoftheworldcamebacktomeandintheshapeofWomantheInevitable。Probablyitwassodecreedsinceisitnotwrittenthatnomancanlivetohimselfalone,orlosehimselfinwatchingandnurturingthegrowthofhisownsoul?

  Ithappenedthus。IwenttoRomeonmywayhomefromIndia,andstayedthereawhile。OnthedayaftermyarrivalIwrotemynameinthebookofourMinistertoItalyatthattime,SirAlfredUpton,notbecauseIwishedhimtoaskmetodinner,butforthereasonthatIhadheardofhimasamanofarcheologicaltastesandthoughtthathemightenablemetoseethingswhichotherwiseIshouldnotsee。

  AsitchancedheknewaboutmethroughsomeofmyDevonshireneighbourswhowerefriendsofhis,anddidaskmetodinneronthefollowingnight。Iacceptedandfoundmyselfoneofaconsiderableparty,someofthemdistinguishedEnglishpeoplewhoworeOrders,asiscustomarywhenonedineswiththerepresentativeofourSovereign。Seeingthese,andthisshowsthatinthebestofusvanityisonlylatent,forthefirsttimeinmylifeIwassorrythatIhadnoneandwasonlyplainMr。

  Arbuthnotwho,asSirAlfredexplainedtomepolitely,mustgointodinnerlast,becausealltheresthadtitles,andwithoutevenaladyastherewasnotonetospare。

  NorwasmylotbetteredwhenIgotthere,asIfoundmyselfseatedbetweenanItaliancountessandaRussianprince,neitherofwhomcouldtalkEnglish,while,alas,Iknewnoforeignlanguage,notevenFrenchinwhichtheyaddressedme,seemingsurprisedthatIdidnotunderstandthem。Iwashumiliatedatmyownignorance,althoughinfactIwasnotignorant,onlymyeducationhadbeenclassical。IndeedIwasagoodclassicandhadkeptupmyknowledgemoreorless,especiallysinceIbecameanidleman。InmyconfusionitoccurredtomethattheItaliancountessmightknowLatinfromwhichherownlanguagewasderived,andaddressedherinthattongue。Shestared,andSirAlfred,whowasnotfaroffandoverheardme(healsoknewLatin),burstintolaughterandproceededtoexplainthejokeinaloudvoice,firstinFrenchandtheninEnglish,totheassembledcompany,whoallbecameinfectedwithmerrimentandalsostaredatmeasacuriosity。

  ThenitwasthatforthefirsttimeIsawNatalie,forowingtoamistakeofmydriverIhadarrivedratherlateandhadnotbeenintroducedtoher。Asherfather’sonlydaughter,hermotherbeingdead,shewasseatedattheendofthetablebehindafan—likearrangementofwhiteMadonnalilies,andshehadbentforwardand,liketheothers,waslookingatme,butinsuchafashionthatherheadfromthatdistanceseemedasthoughitweresurroundedandcrownedwithlilies。Indeedthegreatestartcouldnothaveproducedamorebeautifuleffectwhichwas,however,reallyoneofnakedaccident。

  AnangellookingdownuponearththroughtheliliesofHeaven——thatwastheratherabsurdthoughtwhichflashedintomymind。Ididnotquiterealiseherfaceatfirstexceptthatitseemedtobebothdarkandfair;asafactherwavinghairwhichgrewratherlowuponherforehead,wasdark,andherlarge,softeyesweregrey。Ididnotknow,andtothismomentIdonotknowifshewasreallybeautiful,butcertainlythelightthatshonethroughthoseeyesofhersandseemedtobereflecteduponherdelicatefeatures,wasbeautyitself。Itwaslikethatglowingthroughathinvaseofthepurestalabasterwithinwhichalampisplaced,andIfeltthiseffecttoarisefromnochance,likethatofthelily—setting,but,asitwere,fromthelampofthespiritwithin。

  Oureyesmet,andIsupposethatshesawthewonderandadmirationinmine。Atanyrateheramusedsmilefaded,leavingthefaceratherserious,thoughstillsweetlyserious,andatingeofcolourcreptoveritasthefirsthueofdawncreepsintoapearlysky。ThenshewithdrewherselfbehindthescreenofliliesandfortherestofthatdinnerwhichIthoughtwasnevercomingtoanend,practicallyIsawhernomore。OnlyInotedasshepassedoutthatalthoughnottall,shewasroundedandgracefulinshapeandthatherhandswerepeculiarlydelicate。

  Afterwardsinthedrawing—roomherfather,withwhomIhadtalkedatthetable,introducedmetoher,saying:

  \"Mydaughteristherealarchaeologist,Mr。Arbuthnot,andI

  thinkifyouaskher,shemaybeabletohelpyou。\"

  Thenhebustledawaytospeaktosomeofhisimportantguests,fromwhomIthinkhewasseekingpoliticalinformation。

  \"Myfatherexaggerates,\"shesaidinasoftandverysympatheticvoice,\"butperhaps\"——andshemotionedmetoaseatatherside。

  ThenwetalkedoftheplacesandthingsthatImoreparticularlydesiredtoseeand,well,theendofitwasthatI

  wentbacktomyhotelinlovewithNatalie;andassheafterwardsconfessed,shewenttobedinlovewithme。

  Itwasacuriousbusiness,morelikemeetingaveryoldfriendfromwhomonehadbeenseparatedbycircumstancesforascoreofyearsorsothananythingelse。Wewere,sotospeak,intimatefromthefirst;weknewallabouteachother,althoughhereandtherewassomethingnew,somethingdifferentwhichwecouldnotremember,linesofthought,veinsofmemorywhichwedidnotpossessincommon。OnonepointIamabsolutelyclear:itwasnotsolelytheeverydayandancientappealofwomantomanandmantowomanwhichdrewustogether,thoughdoubtlessthishaditspartinourattachmentasunderourhumanconditionsitmustdo,seeingthatitisNature’sbaittoensurethecontinuanceoftherace。Itwassomethingmore,somethingquitebeyondthatelementaryimpulse。

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