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  shecried。\"Whenweasktobedoctors,lawyers,law—makers,anythingbutill—paiddrudges,theysay——No;butyouhavemen’schivalrousattention;

  nowthinkofthatandbesatisfied!Whatwouldyoudowithoutit?\"

  Thebitterlittlesilverylaugh,soseldomheard,rangoutacrossthebushes。Shebitherlittleteethtogether。

  \"IwascomingupinCobb&Co。’stheotherday。Atalittlewaysidehotelwehadtochangethelargecoachforasmallone。Weweretenpassengers,eightmenandtwowomen。AsIsatinthehousethegentlemencameandwhisperedtome,’Thereisnotroomforallinthenewcoach,takeyourseatquickly。’Wehurriedout,andtheygavemethebestseat,andcoveredmewithrugs,becauseitwasdrizzling。Thenthelastpassengercamerunninguptothecoach——anoldwomanwithawonderfulbonnet,andablackshawlpinnedwithayellowpin。

  \"’Thereisnoroom,’theysaid;’youmustwaittillnextweek’scoachtakesyouup;’butsheclimbedontothestep,andheldonatthewindowwithbothhands。

  \"’Myson—in—lawisill,andImustgoandseehim,’shesaid。

  \"’Mygoodwoman,’saidone,’Iamreallyexceedinglysorrythatyourson—

  in—lawisill;butthereisabsolutelynoroomforyouhere。’

  \"’Youhadbettergetdown,’saidanother,’orthewheelwillcatchyou。’

  \"Igotuptogivehermyplace。

  \"’Oh,no,no!’theycried,’wewillnotallowthat。’

  \"’Iwillratherkneel,’saidone,andhecroucheddownatmyfeet;sothewomancamein。

  \"Therewerenineofusinthatcoach,andonlyoneshowedchivalrousattention——andthatwasawomantoawoman。

  \"Ishallbeoldandugly,too,oneday,andIshalllookformen’schivalroushelp,butIshallnotfindit。

  \"Thebeesareveryattentivetotheflowerstilltheirhoneyisdone,andthentheyflyoverthem。Idon’tknowiftheflowersfeelgratefultothebees;theyaregreatfoolsiftheydo。\"

  \"Butsomewomen,\"saidWaldo,speakingasthoughthewordsforcedthemselvesfromhimatthatmoment,\"somewomenhavepower。\"

  Sheliftedherbeautifuleyestohisface。

  \"Power!Didyoueverhearofmenbeingaskedwhetherothersoulsshouldhavepowerornot?Itisborninthem。Youmaydamupthefountainofwater,andmakeitastagnantmarsh,oryoumayletitrunfreeanddoitswork;butyoucannotsaywhetheritshallbethere;itisthere。Anditwillact,ifnotopenlyforgood,thencovertlyforevil;butitwillact。

  IfGoethehadbeenstolenawayachild,andrearedinarobberhordeinthedepthsofaGermanforest,doyouthinktheworldwouldhavehad\"Faust\"

  and\"Iphegenie?\"ButhewouldhavebeenGoethestill——stronger,wiserthanhisfellows。Atnight,roundtheirwatch—fire,hewouldhavechantedwildsongsofrapineandmurder,tillthedarkfacesabouthimweremovedandtrembled。Hissongswouldhaveechoedonfromfathertoson,andnervedtheheartandarm——forevil。DoyouthinkifNapoleonhadbeenbornawomanthathewouldhavebeencontentedtogivesmalltea—partiesandtalksmallscandal?Hewouldhaverisen;buttheworldwouldnothaveheardofhimasithearsofhimnow——amangreatandkinglywithallhissins;hewouldhaveleftoneofthosenamesthatstaintheleafofeveryhistory——

  thenamesofwomen,who,havingpower,butbeingdeniedtherighttoexerciseitopenly,ruleinthedark,covertly,andbystealth,throughthemenwhosepassionstheyfeedonandbywhomtheyclimb。

  \"Power!\"shesaid,suddenly,smitingherlittlehandupontherail。\"Yes,wehavepower;andsincewearenottoexpenditintunnellingmountains,norhealingdiseases,normakinglaws,normoney,noronanyextraneousobject,weexpenditonyou。Youareourgoods,ourmerchandise,ourmaterialforoperatingon;webuyyou,wesellyou,wemakefoolsofyou,weactthewilyoldJewwithyou,wekeepsixofyoucrawlingtoourlittlefeet,andprayingonlyforatouchofourlittlehand;andtheysaytruly,therewasneveranacheorpainorbrokenheartbutawomanwasatthebottomofit。Wearenottostudylaw,norscience,norart,sowestudyyou。Thereisneveranerveorfibreinaman’snaturebutweknowit。Wekeepsixofyoudancinginthepalmofonelittlehand,\"shesaid,balancingheroutstretchedarmgracefully,asthoughtinybeingsdisportedthemselvesinitspalm。\"There,wethrowyouaway,andyousinktothedevil,\"shesaid,foldingherarmscomposedly。\"Therewasneveramanwhosaidonewordforwomanbuthesaidtwoforman,andthreeforthewholehumanrace。\"

  Shewatchedthebirdpeckingupthelastyellowgrains;butWaldolookedonlyather。

  Whenshespokeagainitwasverymeasuredly。

  \"Theybringweightyargumentsagainstuswhenweaskfortheperfectfreedomofwomen,\"shesaid;\"but,whenyoucometotheobjections,theyarelikepumpkindevilswithcandlesinside,hollow,andcan’tbite。Theysaythatwomendonotwishforthesphereandfreedomweaskforthem,andwouldnotuseit!

  \"Ifthebirddoeslikeitscage,anddoeslikeitssugarandwillnotleaveit,whykeepthedoorsoverycarefullyshut?Whynotopenit,onlyalittle?Dotheyknowthereismanyabirdwillnotbreakitswingsagainstthebars,butwouldflyifthedoorswereopen?\"Sheknitherforeheadandleanedfurtheroverthebars。

  \"Thentheysay,’Ifthewomenhavethelibertyyouaskfor,theywillbefoundinpositionsforwhichtheyarenotfitted!’Iftwomenclimboneladder,didyoueverseetheweakestanywherebutatthefoot?Thesurestsignoffitnessissuccess。Theweakestneverwinsbutwherethereishandicapping。Nature,lefttoherself,willasbeautifullyapportionaman’sworktohiscapacitiesaslongagesagoshegraduatedthecoloursonthebird’sbreast。Ifwearenotfit,yougiveus,tonopurpose,therighttolabour;theworkwillfalloutofourhandsintothosethatarewiser。\"

  Shetalkedmorerapidlyasshewenton,asonetalksofthatoverwhichtheyhavebroodedlong,andwhichliesneartheirhearts。

  Waldowatchedherintently。

  \"Theysaywomenhaveonegreatandnobleworkleftthem,andtheydoitill。Thatistrue;theydoitexecrably。Itistheworkthatdemandsthebroadestculture,andtheyhavenoteventhenarrowest。Thelawyermayseenodeeperthanhislaw—books,andthechemistseenofurtherthanthewindowsofhislaboratory,andtheymaydotheirworkwell。Butthewomanwhodoeswoman’sworkneedsamany—sided,multiformculture;theheightsanddepthsofhumanlifemustnotbebeyondthereachofhervision;shemusthaveknowledgeofmenandthingsinmanystates,awidecatholicityofsympathy,thestrengththatspringsfromknowledge,andthemagnanimitywhichspringsfromstrength。Webeartheworld,andwemakeit。Thesoulsoflittlechildrenaremarvellouslydelicateandtenderthings,andkeepforevertheshadowthatfirstfallsonthem,andthatisthemother’soratbestawoman’s。Therewasneveragreatmanwhohadnotagreatmother——itishardlyanexaggeration。Thefirstsixyearsofourlifemakeus;allthatisaddedlaterisveneer;andyetsomesay,ifawomancancookadinnerordressherselfwellshehascultureenough。

  \"Themightiestandnoblestofhumanworkisgiventous,andwedoitill。

  Sendanavvietoworkintoanartist’sstudio,andseewhatyouwillfindthere!Andyet,thankGod,wehavethiswork,\"sheadded,quickly——\"itistheonewindowthroughwhichweseeintothegreatworldofearnestlabour。

  Themeanestgirlwhodancesanddressesbecomessomethinghigherwhenherchildrenlookupintoherfaceandaskherquestions。Itistheonlyeducationwehaveandwhichtheycannottakefromus。\"

  Shesmiledslightly。\"Theysaythatwecomplainofwoman’sbeingcompelledtolookuponmarriageasaprofession;butthatsheisfreetoenteruponitorleaveit,asshepleases。

  \"Yes——andacatsetafloatinapondisfreetositinthetubtillitdiesthere,itisundernoobligationtowetitsfeet;andadrowningmanmaycatchatastrawornot,justashelikes——itisagloriousliberty!Letanymanthinkforfiveminutesofwhatoldmaidenhoodmeanstoawoman——andthenlethimbesilent。Isiteasytobearthroughlifeanamethatinitselfsignifiesdefeat?todwell,asnineoutoftenunmarriedwomenmust,underthefingerofanotherwoman?Isiteasytolookforwardtoanoldagewithouthonour,withouttherewardofusefullabour,withoutlove?I

  wonderhowmanymentherearewhowouldgiveupeverythingthatisdearinlifeforthesakeofmaintainingahighidealpurity。\"

  Shelaughedalittlelaughthatwasclearwithoutbeingpleasant。

  \"Andthen,whentheyhavenootherargumentagainstus,theysay,’Goon;

  butwhenyouhavemadewomanwhatyouwish,andherchildreninheritherculture,youwilldefeatyourself。Manwillgraduallybecomeextinctfromexcessofintellect,thepassionswhichreplenishtheracewilldie。’

  Fools!\"shesaid,curlingherprettylip。\"AHottentotsitsattheroadsideandfeedsonarottenbonehehasfoundthere,andtakesouthisbottleofCape—smokeandswillsatit,andgruntswithsatisfaction;andtheculturedchildofthenineteenthcenturysitsinhisarmchair,andsipschoicewineswiththelipofaconnoisseur,andtastesdelicatedisheswithadelicatepalate,andwithasatisfactionofwhichtheHottentotknowsnothing。Heavyjawandslopingforehead——allhavegonewithincreasingintellect;buttheanimalappetitesaretherestill——refined,discriminative,butimmeasurablyintensified。Fools!Beforemenforgaveorworshipped,whiletheywereweakontheirhindlegs,didtheynoteatanddrink,andfightforwives?Whenallthelatteradditionstohumanityhavevanished,willnotthefoundationonwhichtheyarebuiltremain?\"

  Shewassilentthenforawhile,andsaidsomewhatdreamily,moreasthoughspeakingtoherselfthantohim,\"Theyask,Whatwillyougain,evenifmandoesnotbecomeextinct?——youwillhavebroughtjusticeandequalityontotheearth,andsentlovefromit。Whenmenandwomenareequalstheywilllovenomore。Yourhighly—

  culturedwomenwillnotbelovable,willnotlove。

  \"Dotheyseenothing,understandnothing?ItisTantSanniewhoburieshusbandsoneafteranother,andfoldsherhandsresignedly,——’TheLordgave,andtheLordhathtakenaway,andblessedbethenameoftheLord,’——

  andshelooksforanother。Itisthehard—headed,deepthinkerwho,whenthewifewhohasthoughtandworkedwithhimgoes,canfindnorest,andlingersnearhertillhefindssleepbesideher。

  \"Agreatsouldrawsandisdrawnwithamorefierceintensitythananysmallone。Byeveryinchwegrowinintellectualheightourlovestrikesdownitsrootsdeeper,andspreadsoutitsarmswider。Itisforlove’ssakeyetmorethanforanyotherthatwelookforthatnewtime。\"

  Shehadleanedherheadagainstthestones,andwatchedwithhersad,softeyestheretreatingbird。\"Thenwhenthattimecomes,\"shesaidlowly,\"whenloveisnomoreboughtorsold,whenitisnotameansofmakingbread,wheneachwoman’slifeisfilledwithearnest,independentlabour,thenlovewillcometoher,astrange,suddensweetnessbreakinginuponherearnestwork;notsoughtfor,butfound。Then,butnotnow——\"

  Waldowaitedforhertofinishthesentence,butsheseemedtohaveforgottenhim。

  \"Lyndall,\"hesaid,puttinghishanduponher——shestarted——\"ifyouthinkthatthatnewtimewillbesogreat,sogood,youwhospeaksoeasily——\"

  Sheinterruptedhim。

  \"Speak!speak!\"shesaid,\"thedifficultyisnottospeak;thedifficultyistokeepsilence。\"

  \"Butwhydoyounottrytobringthattime?\"hesaidwithpitifulsimplicity。\"WhenyouspeakIbelieveallyousay;otherpeoplewouldlistentoyoualso。\"

  \"Iamnotsosureofthat,\"shesaidwithasmile。

  Thenoverthesmallfacecamethewearylookithadwornlastnightasitwatchedtheshadowinthecorner,Ah,soweary!

  \"I,Waldo,I?\"shesaid。\"Iwilldonothinggoodformyself,nothingfortheworld,tillsomeonewakesme。Iamasleep,swathed,shutupinself;

  tillIhavebeendeliveredIwilldelivernoone。\"

  Helookedatherwondering,butshewasnotlookingathim。

  \"Toseethegoodandthebeautiful,\"shesaid,\"andtohavenostrengthtoliveit,isonlytobeMosesonthemountainofNebo,withthelandatyourfeetandnopowertoenter。Itwouldbebetternottoseeit。Come,\"shesaid,lookingupintohisface,andseeingitsuncomprehendingexpression,\"letusgo,itisgettinglate。Dossisanxiousforhisbreakfastalso,\"

  sheadded,wheelingroundandcallingtothedog,whowasendeavouringtounearthamole,anoccupationtowhichhehadbeenzealouslyaddictedfromthethirdmonth,butinwhichhehadneveronanysingleoccasionprovedsuccessful。

  Waldoshoulderedhisbag,andLyndallwalkedonbeforeinsilence,withthedogclosetoherside。Perhapsshethoughtofthenarrownessofthelimitswithinwhichahumansoulmayspeakandbeunderstoodbyitsnearestofmentalkin,ofhowsoonitreachesthatsolitarylandoftheindividualexperience,inwhichnofellowfootfalliseverheard。Whateverherthoughtsmayhavebeen,shewassooninterrupted。Waldocameclosetoher,andstandingstill,producedwithawkwardnessfromhisbreast—pocketasmallcarvedbox。

  \"Imadeitforyou,\"hesaid,holdingitout。

  \"Ilikeit,\"shesaid,examiningitcarefully。

  Theworkmanshipwasbetterthanthatofthegrave—post。Theflowersthatcovereditweredelicate,andhereandtheresmallconicalprotuberanceswereletinamongthem。Sheturneditroundcritically。Waldobentoveritlovingly。

  \"Thereisonestrangethingaboutit,\"hesaidearnestly,puttingafingerononelittlepyramid。\"Imadeitwithoutthese,andIfeltsomethingwaswrong;Itriedmanychanges,andatlastIletthesein,andthenitwasright。Butwhywasit?Theyarenotbeautifulinthemselves。\"

  \"Theyrelievethemonotonyofthesmoothleaves,Isuppose。\"

  Heshookhisheadasoveraweightymatter。

  \"Theskyismonotonous,\"hesaid,\"whenitisblue,andyetitisbeautiful。Ihavethoughtofthatoften;butitisnotmonotony,anditisnotvarietymakesbeauty。Whatisit?Thesky,andyourface,andthisbox——thesamethingisinthemall,onlymoreintheskyandinyourface。

  Butwhatisit?\"

  Shesmiled。

  \"Soyouareatyouroldworkstill。Why,why,why?Whatisthereason?

  Itisenoughforme,\"shesaid,\"ifIfindoutwhatisbeautifulandwhatisugly,whatisrealandwhatisnot。Whyitisthere,andoverthefinalcauseofthingsingeneral,Idon’ttroublemyself;theremustbeone,butwhatisittome?IfIhowltoalleternityIshallnevergetholdofit;

  andifIdidImightbenobetteroff。ButyouGermansarebornwithanaptitudeforborrowing;youcan’thelpyourselves。Youmustsniffafterreasons,justasthatdogmustafteramole。Heknowsperfectlywellhewillnevercatchit,buthe’sundertheimperativenecessityofdiggingforit。\"

  \"Buthemightfindit。\"

  \"Might!——butheneverhasandneverwill。Lifeistooshorttorunaftermights;wemusthavecertainties。\"

  Shetuckedtheboxunderherarmandwasabouttowalkon,whenGregoryRose,withshiningspurs,anostrichfeatherinhishat,andasilver—

  headedwhip,careeredpast。Hebowedgallantlyashewentby。Theywaitedtillthedustofthehorse’shoofshadlaiditself。

  \"There,\"saidLyndall,\"goesatruewoman——onebornforthespherethatsomewomenhavetofillwithoutbeingbornforit。Howhappyhewouldbesewingfrillsintohislittlegirl’sfrocks,andhowprettyhewouldlooksittinginaparlour,witharoughmanmakinglovetohim!Don’tyouthinkso?\"

  \"Ishallnotstayherewhenheismaster,\"Waldoanswered,notabletoconnectanykindofbeautywithGregoryRose。

  \"Ishouldimaginenot。Theruleofawomanistyranny;buttheruleofaman—womangrindsfine。Whereareyougoing?\"

  \"Anywhere。\"

  \"Whattodo?\"

  \"See——seeeverything。\"

  \"Youwillbedisappointed。\"

  \"Andwereyou?\"

  \"Yes;andyouwillbemoreso。Iwantthingsthatmenandtheworldgive,youdonot。Ifyouhaveafewyardsofearthtostandon,andabitofblueoveryou,andsomethingthatyoucannotseetodreamabout,youhaveallthatyouneed,allthatyouknowhowtouse。ButIliketoseerealmen。Letthembeasdisagreeableastheyplease,theyaremoreinterestingtomethanflowers,ortrees,orstars,oranyotherthingunderthesun。

  Sometimes,\"sheadded,walkingon,andshakingthedustdaintilyfromherskirts,\"whenIamnottoobusytryingtofindanewwayofdoingmyhairthatwillshowmylittlenecktobetteradvantage,oroverotherworkofthatkind,sometimesitamusesmeintenselytotraceouttheresemblancebetweenonemanandanother:toseehowTantSannieandI,youandBonaparte,St。Simononhispillow,andtheemperordiningofflarks’

  tongues,areoneandthesamecompound,merelymixedindifferentproportions。

  \"Whatismicroscopicinoneislargelydevelopedinanother;whatisarudimentaryinonemanisanactiveorganinanother;butallthingsareinallmen,andonesoulisthemodelofall。Weshallfindnothingnewinhumannatureafterwehaveoncecarefullydissectedandanalyzedtheonebeingweevershalltrulyknow——ourself。TheKaffergirlthrewsomecoffeeonmyarminbedthismorning;Ifeltdispleased,butsaidnothing。TantSanniewouldhavethrownthesauceratherandswornforanhour;butthefeelingwouldbethesameirritateddispleasure。IfahugeanimatedstomachlikeBonapartewereputunderaglassbyaskilfulmentalmicroscopist,evenhewouldbefoundtohaveanembryonicdoublingsomewhereindicativeofaheart,andrudimentarybuddingsthatmighthavebecomeconscienceandsincerity。LetmetakeyourarmWaldo。

  \"Howfullyouareofmealiedust。No,nevermind。Itwillbrushoff。Andsometimeswhatismoreamusingstillthantracingthelikenessbetweenmanandman,istotracetheanalogytherealwaysisbetweentheprogressanddevelopmentofoneindividualandofawholenation;or,again,betweenasinglenationandtheentirehumanrace。Itispleasantwhenitdawnsonyouthattheoneisjusttheotherwrittenoutinlargeletters;andveryoddtofindallthelittlefolliesandvirtues,anddevelopmentsandretrogressions,writtenoutinthebigworld’sbookthatyoufindinyourlittleinternalself。ItisthemostamusingthingIknowof;butofcourse,beingawoman,Ihavenotoftentimeforsuchamusements。

  Professionaldutiesalwaysfirst,youknow。Ittakesagreatdealoftimeandthoughtalwaystolookperfectlyexquisite,evenforaprettywoman。

  Istheoldbuggystillinexistence,Waldo?\"

  \"Yes,buttheharnessisbroken。\"

  \"Well,Iwishyouwouldmendit。Youmustteachmetodrive。ImustlearnsomethingwhileIamhere。IgottheHottentotgirltoshowmehowtomakesarsartiesthismorning;andTantSannieisgoingtoteachmetomakekapjes。Iwillcomeandsitwithyouthisafternoonwhileyoumendtheharness。\"

  \"Thankyou。\"

  \"No,don’tthankme;Icomeformyownpleasure。IneverfindanyoneI

  cantalkto。Womenboreme,andmen,Italksoto——’Goingtotheballthisevening?Nicelittledogthatofyours。Prettylittleears。Sofondofpointerpups!’Andtheythinkmefascinating,charming!Menareliketheearth,andwearethemoon;weturnalwaysonesidetothem,andtheythinkthereisnoother,becausetheydon’tseeit——butthereis。\"

  Theyhadreachedthehousenow。

  \"Tellmewhenyousettowork,\"shesaid,andwalkedtowardthedoor。

  Waldostoodtolookafterher,andDossstoodathisside,alookofpainfuluncertaintydepictedonhissmallcountenance,andonelittlefootpoisedintheair。Shouldhestaywithhismasterorgo?Helookedatthefigurewiththewidestrawhatmovingtowardthehouse,andhelookedupathismaster;thenheputdownthelittlepawandwent。Waldowatchedthembothinatthedoorandthenwalkedawayalone。Hewassatisfiedthatatleasthisdogwaswithher。

  Chapter2。V。TantSannieHoldsAnUpsitting,andGregoryWritesALetter。

  Itwasjustaftersunset,andLyndallhadnotyetreturnedfromherfirstdriving—lesson,whentheleancolouredwomanstandingatthecornerofthehousetoenjoytheeveningbreeze,sawcomingalongtheroadastrangehorseman。Verynarrowlyshesurveyedhim,asslowlyheapproached。Hewasattiredinthedeepestmourning,theblackcreperoundhistallhattotallyconcealingtheblackfelt,andnothingbutadazzlingshirt—frontrelievingthefunerealtoneofhisattire。Herodemuchforwardinhissaddle,withhischinrestingontheuppermostofhisshirt—studs,andtherewasanairofmeeksubjectiontothewillofHeaven,andtowhatmightbeinstoreforhim,thatbespokeitselfeveninthewayinwhichhegentlyurgedhissteed。Hewasevidentlyinnohurrytoreachhisdestination,forthenearerheapproachedtoittheslackerdidhisbridlehang。Thecolouredwomanhavingdulyinspectedhim,dashedintothedwelling。

  \"Hereisanotherone!\"shecried——\"awidower;Iseeitbyhishat。\"

  \"GoodLord!\"saidTantSannie;\"it’stheseventhI’vehadthismonth;butthemenknowwheresheepandgoodlooksandmoneyinthebankaretobefound,\"sheadded,winkingknowingly。\"Howdoeshelook?\"

  \"Nineteen,weakeyes,whitehair,littleroundnose,\"saidthemaid。

  \"Thenit’she!thenit’she!\"saidTantSannietriumphantly;\"littlePietVanderWalt,whosewifediedlastmonth——twofarms,twelvethousandsheep。

  I’venotseenhim,butmysister—in—lawtoldmeabouthim,andIdreamedabouthimlastnight。\"

  HerePiet’sblackhatappearedinthedoorway,andtheBoer—womandrewherselfupindignifiedsilence,extendedthetipsofherfingers,andmotionedsolemnlytoachair。Theyoungmanseatedhimself,stickinghisfeetasfarunderitastheywouldgo,andsaidmildly:

  \"IamLittlePietVanderWalt,andmyfatherisBigPietVanderWalt。\"

  TantSanniesaidsolemnly:\"Yes。\"

  \"Aunt,\"saidtheyoungman,startingupspasmodically;\"canIoff—saddle?\"

  \"Yes。\"

  Heseizedhishat,anddisappearedwitharushthroughthedoor。

  \"Itoldyouso!Iknewit!\"saidTantSannie。\"ThedearLorddoesn’tsenddreamsfornothing。Didn’tItellyouthismorningthatIdreamedofagreatbeastlikeasheep,withredeyes,andIkilledit?Wasn’tthewhitewoolhishair,andtheredeyeshisweakeyes,andmykillinghimmeantmarriage?Getsupperreadyquickly;thesheep’sinsideandroaster—cakes。

  Weshallsituptonight。\"

  ToyoungPietVanderWaltthatsupperwasaperiodofintensetorture。

  TherewassomethingoverawinginthatassemblyofEnglishpeople,withtheirincomprehensiblespeech;andmoreover,itwashisfirstcourtship;

  hisfirstwifehadcourtedhim,andtenmonthsofseveredomesticrulehadnotraisedhisspiritnorcourage。Heatelittle,andwhenheraisedamorseltohislipsglancedguiltilyroundtoseeifhewerenotobserved。

  Hehadputthreeringsonhislittlefinger,withtheintentionofstickingitoutstifflywhenheraisedacoffee—cup;nowthelittlefingerwascurledmiserablyamongitsfellows。Itwassmallreliefwhenthemealwasover,andTantSannieandherepairedtothefrontroom。Onceseatedthere,hesethiskneesclosetogether,stoodhisblackhatuponthem,andwretchedlyturnedthebrimupanddown。ButsupperhadcheeredTantSannie,whofounditimpossiblelongertomaintainthatdecoroussilence,andwhoseheartyearnedovertheyouth。

  \"IwasrelatedtoyourauntSelenawhodied,\"saidTantSannie。\"Mymother’sstepbrother’schildwasmarriedtoherfather’sbrother’sstepnephew’sniece。\"

  \"Yes,aunt,\"saidtheyoungman,\"Iknowwewererelated。\"

  \"Itwashercousin,\"saidTantSannie,nowfairlyontheflow,\"whohadthecancercutoutofherbreastbytheotherdoctor,whowasnottherightdoctortheysentfor,butwhodiditquiteaswell。\"

  \"Yes,aunt,\"saidtheyoungman。

  \"I’veheardaboutitoften,\"saidTantSannie。\"AndhewasthesonoftheolddoctorthattheysaydiedonChristmas—day,butIdon’tknowifthat’strue。Peopledotellsuchawfullies。WhyshouldhedieonChristmas—daymorethananyotherday?\"

  \"Yes,aunt,why?\"saidtheyoungmanmeekly。

  \"Didyoueverhavethetoothache?\"askedTantSannie。

  \"No,aunt。\"

  \"Well,theysaythatdoctor——notthesonoftheolddoctorthatdiedonChristmas—day,theotherthatdidn’tcomewhenhewassentfor——hegavesuchgoodstuffforthetoothachethatifyouopenedthebottleintheroomwhereanyonewasbadtheygotbetterdirectly。Youcouldseeitwasgoodstuff,\"saidTantSannie;\"ittastedhorrid。Thatwasarealdoctor!Heusedtogiveabottlesohigh,\"saidtheBoer—woman,raisingherhandafootfromthetable,\"youcoulddrinkatitforamonthanditwouldn’tgetdone,andthesamemedicinewasgoodforallsortsofsicknesses——croup,measles,jaundice,dropsy。Nowyouhavetobuyanewkindforeachsickness。Thedoctorsaren’tsogoodastheyusedtobe。\"

  \"No,aunt,\"saidtheyoungman,whowastryingtogaincouragetostickouthislegsandclinkhisspurstogether。Hedidsoatlast。

  TantSanniehadnoticedthespursbefore;butshethoughtitshowedanicemanlyspirit,andherheartwarmedyetmoretotheyouth。

  \"Didyoueverhaveconvulsionswhenyouwereababy?\"askedTantSannie。

  \"Yes,\"saidtheyoungman。

  \"Strange,\"saidTantSannie;\"Ihadconvulsionstoo。Wonderfulthatweshouldbesomuchalike!\"

  \"Aunt,\"saidtheyoungmanexplosively,\"canwesituptonight?\"

  TantSanniehungherheadandhalfclosedhereyes;butfindingthatherlittlewileswerethrownaway,theyoungmanstaringfixedlyathishat,shesimpered,\"Yes,\"andwentawaytofetchcandles。

  InthediningroomEmworkedathermachine,andGregorysatclosebesideher,hisgreatblueeyesturnedtothewindowwhereLyndallleanedouttalkingtoWaldo。

  TantSannietooktwocandlesoutofthecupboardandheldthemuptriumphantly,winkingallroundtheroom。

  \"He’saskedforthem,\"shesaid。

  \"Doeshewantthemforhishorse’srubbedback?\"askedGregory,newtoup—

  countrylife。

  \"No,\"saidTantSannie,indignantly;\"we’regoingtositup!\"andshewalkedoffintriumphwiththecandles。

  Nevertheless,whenalltherestofthehousehadretired,whenthelongcandlewaslighted,whenthecoffee—kettlewasfilled,whenshesatintheelbow—chair,withherloveronachairclosebesideher,andwhenthevigilofthenightwasfairlybegun,shebegantofinditwearisome。Theyoungmanlookedchilly,andsaidnothing。

  \"Won’tyouputyourfeetonmystove?\"saidTantSannie。

  \"Nothankyou,aunt,\"saidtheyoungman,andbothlapsedintosilence。

  AtlastTantSannie,afraidofgoingtosleep,tappedastrongcupofcoffeeforherselfandhandedanothertoherlover。Thisvisiblyrevivedboth。

  \"Howlongwereyoumarried,cousin?\"

  \"Tenmonths,aunt。\"

  \"Howoldwasyourbaby?\"

  \"Threedayswhenitdied。\"

  \"It’sveryhardwhenwemustgiveourhusbandsandwivestotheLord,\"saidTantSannie。

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