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  \"Dutchpeople?\"

  \"Yes。\"

  \"Andyoulikethelife?\"

  Theboyhesitated。

  \"Ondayslikethese。\"

  \"Andwhyonthese?\"

  Theboywaited。

  \"Theyareverybeautiful。\"

  Thestrangerlookedathim。Itseemedthatasthefellow’sdarkeyeslookedacrossthebrownearththeykindledwithanintensesatisfaction;

  thentheylookedbackatthecarving。

  Whathadthatcreature,socoarse—cladandclownish,todowiththesubtlejoysoftheweather?Himself,white—handedanddelicate,hemighthearthemusicwithshimmeringsunshineandsolitudeplayonthefinely—strungchordsofnature;butthatfellow!Wasnottheearinthatgreatbodytoogrossforsuchdelicatemutterings?

  Presentlyhesaid:

  \"MayIseewhatyouworkat?\"

  Thefellowhandedhiswoodenpost。Itwasbynomeanslovely。Themenandbirdswerealmostgrotesqueintheirlabouredresemblancetonature,andboresignsofpatientthought。Thestrangerturnedthethingoveronhisknee。

  \"Wheredidyoulearnthiswork?\"

  \"Itaughtmyself。\"

  \"Andthesezigzaglinesrepresent——\"

  \"Amountain。\"

  Thestrangerlooked。

  \"Ithassomemeaning,hasitnot?\"

  Theboymutteredconfusedly。

  \"Onlythings。\"

  Thequestionerlookeddownathim——thehuge,unwieldyfigure,insizeaman’s,inrightofhischildlikefeaturesandcurlinghairachild’s;andithurthim——itattractedhimandithurthim。Itwassomethingbetweenpityandsympathy。

  \"Howlonghaveyouworkedatthis?\"

  \"Ninemonths。\"

  Fromhispocketthestrangerdrewhispocket—book,andtooksomethingfromit。Hecouldfastentheposttohishorseinsomeway,andthrowitawayinthesandwhenatasafedistance。

  \"Willyoutakethisforyourcarving?\"

  Theboyglancedatthefive—poundnoteandshookhishead。

  \"No;Icannot。\"

  \"Youthinkitisworthmore?\"askedthestrangerwithalittlesneer。

  Hepointedwithhisthumbtoagrave。

  \"No;itisforhim。\"

  \"Andwhoisthere?\"askedthestranger。

  \"Myfather。\"

  Themansilentlyreturnedthenotetohispocket—book,andgavethecarvingtotheboy;and,drawinghishatoverhiseyes,composedhimselftosleep。

  Notbeingabletodoso,afterawhileheglancedoverthefellow’sshouldertowatchhimwork。Theboycarvedlettersintotheback。

  \"If,\"saidthestranger,withhismelodiousvoice,richwithasweetnessthatnevershoweditselfinthecloudedeyes——forsweetnesswilllingeroninthevoicelongafterithasdiedoutintheeyes——\"ifforsuchapurpose,whywritethatuponit?\"

  Theboyglancedroundathim,butmadenoanswer。Hehadalmostforgottenhispresence。

  \"Yousurelybelieve,\"saidthestranger,\"thatsomeday,soonerorlater,thesegraveswillopen,andthoseBoer—uncleswiththeirwiveswalkabouthereintheredsand,withtheveryfleshlylegswithwhichtheywenttosleep?Thenwhysay,’Hesleepsforever?’Youbelievehewillstandupagain?\"

  \"Doyou?\"askedtheboy,liftingforaninstanthisheavyeyestothestranger’sface。

  Halftakenabackthestrangerlaughed。Itwasasthoughacuriouslittletadpolewhichheheldunderhisglassshouldsuddenlyliftitstailandbegintoquestionhim。

  \"I?——no。\"Helaughedhisshortthicklaugh。\"Iamamanwhobelievesnothing,hopesnothing,fearsnothing,feelsnothing。Iambeyondthepaleofhumanity;nocriterionofwhatyoushouldbewholivehereamongyourostrichesandbushes。\"

  Thenextmomentthestrangerwassurprisedbyasuddenmovementonthepartofthefellow,whichbroughthimclosetothestranger’sfeet。Soonafterheraisedhiscarvingandlaiditacrosstheman’sknee。

  \"Yes,Iwilltellyou,\"hemuttered;\"Iwilltellyouallaboutit。\"

  Heputhisfingeronthegrotesquelittlemannikinatthebottom(ah!thatmanwhobelievednothing,hopednothing,feltnothing;howhelovedhim!),andwitheagerfingerthefellowmovedupward,explainingoverfantasticfiguresandmountains,tothecrowningbirdfromwhosewingdroppedafeather。Attheendhespokewithbrokenbreath——shortwords,likeonewhouttersthingsofmightyimport。

  Thestrangerwatchedmorethefacethanthecarving;andtherewasnowandthenashowofwhiteteethbeneaththemoustachesashelistened。

  \"Ithink,\"hesaidblandly,whentheboyhaddone,\"thatIpartlyunderstandyou。Itissomethingafterthisfashion,isitnot?\"(Hesmiled。)\"Incertainvalleystherewasahunter。\"(Hetouchedthegrotesquelittlefigureatthebottom。)\"Daybydayhewenttohuntforwild—fowlinthewoods;anditchancedthatoncehestoodontheshoresofalargelake。Whilehestoodwaitingintherushesforthecomingofthebirds,agreatshadowfellonhim,andinthewaterhesawareflection。

  Helookeduptothesky;butthethingwasgone。Thenaburningdesirecameoverhimtoseeonceagainthatreflectioninthewater,andalldayhewatchedandwaited;butnightcameandithadnotreturned。Thenhewenthomewithhisemptybag,moodyandsilent。Hiscomradescamequestioningabouthimtoknowthereason,butheansweredthemnothing;hesataloneandbrooded。Thenhisfriendcametohim,andtohimhespoke。

  \"’Ihaveseentoday,’hesaid,’thatwhichIneversawbefore——avastwhitebird,withsilverwingsoutstretched,sailingintheeverlastingblue。Andnowitisasthoughagreatfireburntwithinmybreast。Itwasbutasheen,ashimmer,areflectioninthewater;butnowIdesirenothingmoreonearththantoholdher。’

  \"Hisfriendlaughed。

  \"’Itwasbutabeamplayingonthewater,ortheshadowofyourownhead。

  Tomorrowyouwillforgether,’hesaid。

  \"Buttomorrow,andtomorrow,andtomorrowthehunterwalkedalone。Hesoughtintheforestandinthewoods,bythelakesandamongtherushes,buthecouldnotfindher。Heshotnomorewildfowl;whatweretheytohim?

  \"’Whatailshim?’saidhiscomrades。

  \"’Heismad,’saidone。

  \"’No;butheisworse,’saidanother;’hewouldseethatwhichnoneofushaveseen,andmakehimselfawonder。’

  \"’Come,letusforswearhiscompany,’saidall。

  \"Sothehunterwalkedalone。

  \"Onenight,ashewanderedintheshade,veryheartsoreandweeping,anoldmanstoodbeforehim,granderandtallerthanthesonsofmen。

  \"’Whoareyou?’askedthehunter。

  \"’IamWisdom,’answeredtheoldman;’butsomemencallmeKnowledge。AllmylifeIhavegrowninthesevalleys;butnomanseesmetillhehassorrowedmuch。Theeyesmustbewashedwithtearsthataretobeholdme;

  and,accordingasamanhassuffered,Ispeak。’

  \"Andthehuntercried:

  \"’Oh,youwhohavelivedheresolong,tellme,whatisthatgreatwildbirdIhaveseensailingintheblue?Theywouldhavemebelievesheisadream;theshadowofmyownhead。’

  \"Theoldmansmiled。

  \"’HernameisTruth。Hewhohasonceseenherneverrestsagain。Tilldeathhedesiresher。’

  \"Andthehuntercried:

  \"’Oh,tellmewhereImayfindher。’

  \"Buttheoldmansaid:

  \"’Youhavenotsufferedenough,’andwent。

  \"ThenthehuntertookfromhisbreasttheshuttleofImagination,andwoundonitthethreadofhisWishes;andallnighthesatandwoveanet。

  \"Inthemorninghespreadthegoldennetupontheground,andintoithethrewafewgrainsofcredulity,whichhisfatherhadlefthim,andwhichhekeptinhisbreast—pocket。Theywerelikewhitepuff—balls,andwhenyoutrodonthemabrowndustflewout。Thenhesatbytoseewhatwouldhappen。Thefirstthatcameintothenetwasasnow—whitebird,withdove’seyes,andhesangabeautifulsong——’Ahuman—God!ahuman—God!ahuman—God!’itsang。Thesecondthatcamewasblackandmystical,withdark,lovelyeyes,thatlookedintothedepthsofyoursoul,andhesangonlythis——’Immortality!’

  \"Andthehuntertookthembothinhisarmsforhesaid——

  \"’TheyaresurelyofthebeautifulfamilyofTruth。’

  \"Thencameanother,greenandgold,whosanginashrillvoice,likeonecryinginthemarketplace,——’RewardafterDeath!RewardafterDeath!’

  \"Andhesaid——

  \"’Youarenotsofair;butyouarefairtoo,’andhetookit。

  \"Andotherscame,brightlycoloured,singingpleasantsongs,tillallthegrainswerefinished。Andthehuntergatheredallhisbirdstogether,andbuiltastrongironcagecalledanewcreed,andputallhisbirdsinit。

  \"Thenthepeoplecameaboutdancingandsinging。

  \"’Oh,happyhunter!’theycried。’Oh,wonderfulman!Oh,delightfulbirds!Oh,lovelysongs!’

  \"Nooneaskedwherethebirdshadcomefrom,norhowtheyhadbeencaught;

  buttheydancedandsangbeforethem。Andthehuntertoowasglad,forhesaid:

  \"’SurelyTruthisamongthem。Intimeshewillmoultherfeathers,andI

  shallseehersnow—whiteform。’

  \"Butthetimepassed,andthepeoplesanganddanced;butthehunter’sheartgrewheavy。Hecreptalone,asofold,toweep;theterribledesirehadawakenedagaininhisbreast。Oneday,ashesataloneweeping,itchancedthatWisdommethim。Hetoldtheoldmanwhathehaddone。

  \"AndWisdomsmiledsadly。

  \"’Manymen,’hesaid,’havespreadthatnetforTruth;buttheyhaveneverfoundher。Onthegrainsofcredulityshewillnotfeed;inthenetofwishesherfeetcannotbeheld;intheairofthesevalleysshewillnotbreathe。ThebirdsyouhavecaughtareofthebroodofLies。Lovelyandbeautiful,butstilllies;Truthknowsthemnot。’

  \"Andthehuntercriedoutinbitterness——

  \"’AndmustIthensitstill,tobedevouredofthisgreatburning?’

  \"Andtheoldmansaid,\"’Listen,andinthatyouhavesufferedmuchandweptmuch,IwilltellyouwhatIknow。HewhosetsouttosearchforTruthmustleavethesevalleysofsuperstitionforever,takingwithhimnotoneshredthathasbelongedtothem。AlonehemustwanderdownintotheLandofAbsoluteNegationandDenial;hemustabidethere;hemustresisttemptation;whenthelightbreakshemustariseandfollowitintothecountryofdrysunshine。Themountainsofsternrealitywillrisebeforehim;hemustclimbthem;beyondthemliesTruth。’

  \"’Andhewillholdherfast!hewillholdherinhishands!’thehuntercried。

  \"Wisdomshookhishead。

  \"’Hewillneverseeher,neverholdher。Thetimeisnotyet。’

  \"’Thenthereisnohope?’criedthehunter。

  \"’Thereisthis,’saidWisdom:’Somemenhaveclimbedonthosemountains;

  circleabovecircleofbarerocktheyhavescaled;and,wanderingthere,inthosehighregions,somehavechancedtopickuponthegroundonewhitesilverfeather,droppedfromthewingofTruth。Anditshallcometopass,’saidtheoldman,raisinghimselfpropheticallyandpointingwithhisfingertothesky,’itshallcometopass,thatwhenenoughofthosesilverfeathersshallhavebeengatheredbythehandsofmen,andshallhavebeenwovenintoacord,andthecordintoanet,thatinthatnetTruthmaybecaptured。NothingbutTruthcanholdTruth。’

  \"Thehunterarose。’Iwillgo,’hesaid。

  \"Butwisdomdetainedhim。

  \"’Markyouwell——wholeavesthesevalleysneverreturnstothem。Thoughheshouldweeptearsofbloodsevendaysandnightsupontheconfines,hecanneverputhisfootacrossthem。Left——theyareleftforever。Upontheroadwhichyouwouldtravelthereisnorewardoffered。Whogoes,goesfreely——forthegreatlovethatisinhim。Theworkishisreward。’

  \"’Igo’saidthehunter;’butuponthemountains,tellme,whichpathshallItake?’

  \"’IamthechildofThe—Accumulated—Knowledge—of—Ages,’saidtheman;’I

  canwalkonlywheremanymenhavetrodden。Onthesemountainsfewfeethavepassed;eachmanstrikesoutapathforhimself。Hegoesathisownperil:myvoicehehearsnomore。Imayfollowafterhim,butcannotgobeforehim。’

  \"ThenKnowledgevanished。

  \"Andthehunterturned。Hewenttohiscage,andwithhishandsbrokedownthebars,andthejaggedirontorehisflesh。Itissometimeseasiertobuildthantobreak。

  \"Onebyonehetookhisplumedbirdsandletthemfly。Butwhenhecametohisdark—plumedbirdheheldit,andlookedintoitsbeautifuleyes,andthebirduttereditslow,deepcry——’Immortality!’

  \"Andhesaidquickly:’Icannotpartwithit。Itisnotheavy;iteatsnofood。Iwillhideitinmybreast;Iwilltakeitwithme。’Andheburieditthereandcovereditoverwithhiscloak。

  \"Butthethinghehadhiddengrewheavier,heavier,heavier——tillitlayonhisbreastlikelead。Hecouldnotmovewithit。Hecouldnotleavethosevalleyswithit。Thenagainhetookitoutandlookedatit。

  \"’Oh,mybeautiful!myheart’sown!’hecried,’mayInotkeepyou?’

  \"Heopenedhishandssadly。

  \"’Go!’hesaid。’ItmayhappenthatinTruth’ssongonenoteislikeyours;butIshallneverhearit。’

  \"Sadlyheopenedhishand,andthebirdflewfromhimforever。

  \"Thenfromtheshuttleofimaginationhetookthethreadofhiswishes,andthrewitontheground;andtheemptyshuttleheputintohisbreast,forthethreadwasmadeinthosevalleys,buttheshuttlecamefromanunknowncountry。Heturnedtogo,butnowthepeoplecameabouthim,howling。

  \"’Fool,hound,dementedlunatic!’theycried。’Howdaredyoubreakyourcageandletthebirdsfly?’

  \"Thehunterspoke;buttheywouldnothearhim。

  \"’Truth!whoisshe?Canyoueather?canyoudrinkher?Whohaseverseenher?Yourbirdswerereal:allcouldhearthemsing!Oh,fool!vilereptile!atheist!’theycried,’youpollutetheair。’

  \"’Come,letustakeupstonesandstonehim,’criedsome。

  \"’Whataffairisitofours?’saidothers。’Lettheidiotgo,’andwentaway。Buttherestgatheredupstonesandmudandthrewathim。Atlast,whenhewasbruisedandcut,thehuntercreptawayintothewoods。Anditwaseveningabouthim。\"

  Ateverywordthestrangerspokethefellow’seyesflashedbackonhim——

  yes,andyes,andyes!Thestrangersmiled。Itwasalmostworththetroubleofexertingoneself,evenonalazyafternoon,towinthosepassionateflashes,morethirstyanddesiringthanthelove—glancesofawoman。

  \"Hewanderedonandon,\"saidthestranger,\"andtheshadegrewdeeper。Hewasonthebordersnowofthelandwhereitisalwaysnight。Thenhesteppedintoit,andtherewasnolightthere。Withhishandshegroped;

  buteachbranchashetoucheditbrokeoff,andtheearthwascoveredwithcinders。Ateverystephisfootsankin,andafinecloudofimpalpableashesflewupintohisface;anditwasdark。Sohesatdownuponastoneandburiedhisfaceinhishands,towaitintheLandofNegationandDenialtillthelightcame。

  \"Anditwasnightinhisheartalso。

  \"Thenfromthemarshestohisrightandleftcoldmistsaroseandclosedabouthim。Afine,imperceptiblerainfellinthedark,andgreatdropsgatheredonhishairandclothes。Hisheartbeatslowly,andanumbnesscreptthroughallhislimbs。Then,lookingup,twomerrywisplightscamedancing。Heliftedhisheadtolookatthem。Nearer,nearertheycame。

  Sowarm,sobright,theydancedlikestarsoffire。Theystoodbeforehimatlast。Fromthecentreoftheradiatingflameinonelookedoutawoman’sface,laughing,dimpled,withstreamingyellowhair。Inthecentreoftheotherweremerrylaughingripples,likethebubblesonaglassofwine。Theydancedbeforehim。

  \"’Whoareyou,’askedthehunter,’whoalonecometomeinmysolitudeanddarkness?’

  \"’WearethetwinsSensuality,’theycried。’Ourfather’snameisHuman—

  Nature,andourmother’snameisExcess。Weareasoldasthehillsandrivers,asoldasthefirstman;butweneverdie,’theylaughed。

  \"’Oh,letmewrapmyarmsaboutyou!;criedthefirst;’theyaresoftandwarm。Yourheartisfrozennow,butIwillmakeitbeat。Oh,cometome!’

  \"’Iwillpourmyhotlifeintoyou,’saidthesecond;’yourbrainisnumb,andyourlimbsaredeadnow;buttheyshalllivewithafiercefreelife。

  Oh,letmepouritin!’

  \"’Oh,followus,’theycried,’andlivewithus。Noblerheartsthanyourshavesathereinthisdarknesstowait,andtheyhavecometousandwetothem;andtheyhaveneverleftus,never。Allelseisadelusion,butwearereal,wearereal,wearereal。Truthisashadow;thevalleysofsuperstitionareafarce:theearthisofashes,thetreesallrotten;butwe——feelus——welive!Youcannotdoubtus。Feelushowwarmweare!Oh,cometous!Comewithus!’

  \"Nearerandnearerroundhisheadtheyhovered,andthecolddropsmeltedonhisforehead。Thebrightlightshotintohiseyes,dazzlinghim,andthefrozenbloodbegantorun。Andhesaid:

  \"’Yes,whyshouldIdiehereinthisawfuldarkness?Theyarewarm,theymeltmyfrozenblood!’andhestretchedouthishandstotakethem。

  \"Theninamomenttherearosebeforehimtheimageofthethinghehadloved,andhishanddroppedtohisside。

  \"’Oh,cometous!’theycried。

  \"Butheburiedhisface。

  \"’Youdazzlemyeyes,’hecried,’youmakemyheartwarm;butyoucannotgivemewhatIdesire。Iwillwaithere——waittillIdie。Go!’

  \"Hecoveredhisfacewithhishandsandwouldnotlisten;andwhenhelookedupagaintheyweretwotwinklingstars,thatvanishedinthedistance。

  \"Andthelong,longnightrolledon。

  \"Allwholeavethevalleyofsuperstitionpassthroughthatdarkland;butsomegothroughitinafewdays,somelingerthereformonths,someforyears,andsomediethere。\"

  Theboyhadcreptcloser;hishotbreathalmosttouchedthestranger’shand;amysticwonderfilledhiseyes。

  \"Atlastforthehunterafaintlightplayedalongthehorizon,andherosetofollowit;andhereachedthatlightatlast,andsteppedintothebroadsunshine。ThenbeforehimrosethealmightymountainsofDry—factsandRealities。Theclearsunshineplayedonthem,andthetopswerelostintheclouds。Atthefootmanypathsranup。Anexultantcryburstfromthehunter。Hechosethestraightestandbegantoclimb;andtherocksandridgesresoundedwithhissong。Theyhadexaggerated;afterall,itwasnotsohigh,norwastheroadsosteep!Afewdays,afewweeks,afewmonthsatmost,andthenthetop!Notonefeatheronlywouldhepickup;

  hewouldgatherallthatothermenhadfound——weavethenet——captureTruth—

  —holdherfast——touchherwithhishands——claspher!

  \"Helaughedinthemerrysunshine,andsangloud。Victorywasverynear。

  Nevertheless,afterawhilethepathgrewsteeper。Heneededallhisbreathforclimbing,andthesingingdiedaway。Ontherightandleftrosehugerocks,devoidoflichenormoss,andinthelava—likeearthchasmsyawned。Hereandtherehesawasheenofwhitebones。Nowtoothepathbegantogrowlessandlessmarked;thenitbecameameretrace,withafootmarkhereandthere;thenitceasedaltogether。Hesangnomore,butstruckforthapathforhimself,untilitreachedamightywallofrock,smoothandwithoutbreak,stretchingasfarastheeyecouldsee。’Iwillrearastairagainstit;and,oncethiswallclimbed,Ishallbealmostthere,’hesaidbravely;andworked。Withhisshuttleofimaginationhedugoutstones;buthalfofthemwouldnotfit,andhalfamonth’sworkwouldrolldownbecausethosebelowwereillchosen。Butthehunterworkedon,sayingalwaystohimself,’Oncethiswallclimbed,Ishallbealmostthere。Thisgreatworkended!’

  \"Atlasthecameoutuponthetop,andhelookedabouthim。Farbelowrolledthewhitemistoverthevalleysofsuperstition,andabovehimtoweredthemountains。Theyhadseemedlowbefore;theywereofanimmeasurableheightnow,fromcrowntofoundationsurroundedbywallsofrock,thatrosetierabovetierinmightycircles。Uponthemplayedtheeternalsunshine。Heutteredawildcry。Hebowedhimselfontotheearth,andwhenherosehisfacewaswhite。Inabsolutesilencehewalkedon。Hewasverysilentnow。Inthosehighregionstherarefiedairishardtobreathebythoseborninthevalleys;everybreathhedrewhurthim,andthebloodoozedoutfromthetipsofhisfingers。Beforethenextwallofrockhebegantowork。Theheightofthisseemedinfinite,andhesaidnothing。Thesoundofhistoolrangnightanddayupontheironrocksintowhichhecutsteps。Yearspassedoverhim,yetheworkedon;butthewalltoweredupalwaysabovehimtoheaven。Sometimesheprayedthatalittlemossorlichenmightspringuponthosebarewallstobeacompaniontohim;butitnevercame。\"Thestrangerwatchedtheboy’sface。

  \"Andtheyearsrolledon;hecountedthembythestepshehadcut——afewforayear——onlyafew。Hesangnomore;hesaidnomore,’Iwilldothisorthat’——heonlyworked。Andatnight,whenthetwilightsettleddown,therelookedoutathimfromtheholesandcrevicesintherocksstrangewildfaces。

  \"’Stopyourwork,youlonelyman,andspeaktous,’theycried。

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