\"Yes,hewillhavesomebeef—tea,\"shesaidquietly,lookingupatme。
\"Untilhishearinggoesweshallbeabletocommunicatewithhim。Andafterthat——\"
Shelookedatmequeerly。Isawherlipstremblingandthetearsswimmingupinhereyes。SheswayedtowardmeandIcaughtherinmyarms。
\"Oh,Humphrey,\"shesobbed,\"whenwillitallend?Iamsotired,sotired。\"
Sheburiedherheadonmyshoulder,herfrailformshakenwithastormofweeping。Shewaslikeafeatherinmyarms,soslender,soethereal。
\"Shehasbrokendownatlast,\"Ithought。\"WhatcanIdowithoutherhelp?\"
ButIsoothedandcomfortedher,tillshepulledherselfbravelytogetherandrecuperatedmentallyasquicklyasshewaswonttodophysically。
\"Ioughttobeashamedofmyself,\"shesaid。Thenadded,withthewhimsicalsmileIadored,\"butIamonlyonesmallwoman。\"
Thatphrase,the\"onesmallwoman,\"startledmelikeanelectricshock。
Itwasmyownphrase,mypet,secretphrase,mylovephraseforher。
\"Wheredidyougetthatphrase?\"Idemanded,withanabruptnessthatinturnstartledher。
\"Whatphrase?\"sheasked。
\"Onesmallwoman。\"
\"Isityours?\"sheasked。
\"Yes,\"Ianswered,\"mine。Imadeit。\"
\"Thenyoumusthavetalkedinyoursleep,\"shesmiled。
Thedancing,tremulouslightwasinhereyes。Mine,Iknew,werespeakingbeyondthewillofmyspeech。Ileanedtowardher。WithoutvolitionIleanedtowardher,asatreeisswayedbythewind。Ah,wewereveryclosetogetherinthatmoment。Butsheshookherhead,asonemightshakeoffsleeporadream,saying:
\"Ihaveknownitallmylife。Itwasmyfather’snameformymother。\"
\"Itismyphrase,too,\"Isaidstubbornly。
\"Foryourmother?\"
\"No,\"Ianswered,andshequestionednofurther,thoughIcouldhaveswornhereyesretainedforsometimeamocking,teasingexpression。
Withtheforemastin,theworknowwentonapace。AlmostbeforeIknewit,andwithoutoneserioushitch,Ihadthemainmaststepped。Aderrick—boom,riggedtotheforemast,hadaccomplishedthis;andseveraldaysmorefoundallstaysandshroudsinplace,andeverythingsetuptaut。Topsailswouldbeanuisanceandadangerforacrewoftwo,soIheavedthetopmastsondeckandlashedthemfast。
Severalmoredayswereconsumedinfinishingthesailsandputtingthemon。Therewereonlythree——thejib,foresail,andmainsail;and,patched,shortened,anddistorted,theywerearidiculouslyill—fittingsuitforsotrimacraftastheGhost。
\"Butthey’llwork!\"Maudcriedjubilantly。\"We’llmakethemwork,andtrustourlivestothem!\"
Certainly,amongmymanynewtrades,Ishoneleastasasail—maker。
Icouldsailthembetterthanmakethem,andIhadnodoubtofmypowertobringtheschoonertosomenorthernportofJapan。Infact,Ihadcrammednavigationfromtext—booksaboard;andbesides,therewasWolfLarsen’sstar—scale,sosimpleadevicethatachildcouldworkit。
Asforitsinventor,beyondanincreasingdeafnessandthemovementofthelipsgrowingfainterandfainter,therehadbeenlittlechangeinhisconditionforaweek。Butonthedaywefinishedbendingtheschooner’ssails,heheardhislast,andthelastmovementofhislipsdiedaway——
butnotbeforeIhadaskedhim,\"Areyouallthere?\"andthelipshadanswered,\"Yes。\"
Thelastlinewasdown。Somewherewithinthattombofthefleshstilldweltthesouloftheman。Walledbythelivingclay,thatfierceintelligencewehadknownburnedon;butitburnedoninsilenceanddarkness。Anditwasdisembodied。Tothatintelligencetherecouldbenoobjectiveknowledgeofabody。Itknewnobody。Theveryworldwasnot。Itknewonlyitselfandthevastnessandprofundityofthequietandthedark。TheSeaWolf:Chapter39CHAPTER39
Thedaycameforourdeparture。TherewasnolongeranythingtodetainusonEndeavorIsland。TheGhost’sstumpymastswereinplace,hercrazysailsbent。Allmyhandiworkwasstrong,noneofitbeautiful;butIknewthatitwouldwork,andIfeltmyselfamanofpowerasIlookedatit。
\"Ididit!Ididit!WithmyownhandsIdidit!\"Iwantedtocryaloud。
ButMaudandIhadawayofvoicingeachother’sthoughts,andshesaid,aswepreparedtohoistthemainsail:
\"Tothink,Humphrey,youdiditallwithyourownhands!\"
\"Butthereweretwootherhands,\"Ianswered。\"Twosmallhands,anddon’tsaythatwasaphrase,also,ofyourfather。\"
Shelaughedandshookherhead,andheldherhandsupforinspection。
\"Icannevergetthemcleanagain,\"shewailed,\"norsoftentheweather—beat。\"
\"Thendirtandweather—beatshallbeyourguerdonofhonor,\"said,holdingtheminmine;and,spiteofmyresolutions,Iwouldhavekissedthetwodearhandshadshenotswiftlywithdrawnthem。
Ourcomradeshipwasbecomingtremulous。Ihadmasteredmylovelongandwell,butnowitwasmasteringme。Wilfullyhaditdisobeyedandwonmyeyestospeech,andnowitwaswinningmytongue——ay,andmylips,fortheyweremadthismomenttokissthetwosmallhandswhichhadtoiledsofaithfullyandhard。AndI,too,wasmad。Therewasacryinmybeinglikebuglescallingmetoher。AndtherewasawindblowinguponmewhichIcouldnotresist,swayingtheverybodyofmetillIleanedtowardher,allunconsciousthatIleaned。Andsheknewit。Shecouldnotbutknowitassheswiftlydrewawayherhands,andyetcouldnotforbearonequick,searchinglookbeforesheturnedawayhereyes。
Bymeansofdeck—tacklesIhadarrangedtocarrythehalyardsforwardtothewindlass;andnowIhoistedthemainsail,peakandthroat,atthesametime。Itwasaclumsyway,butitdidnottakelong,andsoontheforesailaswellwasupandfluttering。
\"Wecannevergetthatanchorupinthisnarrowplace,onceithasleftthebottom,\"Isaid。\"Weshouldbeontherocksfirst。\"
\"Whatcanyoudo?\"sheasked。
\"Slipit,\"wasmyanswer。\"AndwhenIdo,youmustdoyourfirstworkonthewindlass。Ishallhavetorunatoncetothewheel,andatthesametimeyoumustbehoistingthejib。\"
Thisman渦vreofgettingunderwayIhadstudiedandworkedoutascoreoftimes;and,withthejib—halyardtothewindlass,IknewMaudwascapableofhoistingthatmostnecessarysail。Abriskwindwasblowingintothecove,andthoughthewaterwascalm,rapidworkwasrequiredtogetussafelyout。
WhenIknockedtheshackle—boltloose,thechainroaredoutthroughthehawse—holeandintothesea。Iracedaft,puttingthewheelup。TheGhostseemedtostartintolifeassheheeledtothefirstfillofhersails。Thejibwasrising。Asitfilled,theGhost’sbowswungoffandIhadtoputthewheeldownafewspokesandsteadyher。
Ihaddevisedanautomaticjib—sheetwhichpassedthejibacrossofitself,sotherewasnoneedforMaudtoattendtothat;butshewasstillhoistingthejibwhenIputthewheelharddown。Itwasamomentofanxiety,fortheGhostwasrushingdirectlyuponthebeach,astone’sthrowdistant。Butsheswungobedientlyonherheelintothewind。Therewasagreatflutteringandflappingofcanvasandreef—points,mostwelcometomyears,thenshefilledawayontheothertack。
Maudhadfinishedhertaskandcomeaft,whereshestoodbesideme,asmallcapperchedonherwind—blownhair,hercheeksflushedfromexertion,hereyeswideandbrightwiththeexcitement,hernostrilsquiveringtotherushandbiteofthefreshsaltair。Herbrowneyeswerelikeastartleddeer’s。Therewasawild,keenlookinthemIhadneverseenbefore,andherlipspartedandherbreathsuspendedastheGhost,charginguponthewallofrockattheentrancetotheinnercove,sweptintothewindandfilledawayintosafewater。
Myfirstmate’sberthonthesealinggroundsstoodmeingoodstead,andIclearedtheinnercoveandlaidalongtackalongtheshoreoftheoutercove。Onceagainabout,andtheGhostheadedouttoopensea。
Shehadnowcaughtthebosom—breathingoftheocean,andwasherselfa—breathwiththerhythmofitasshesmoothlymountedandslippeddowneachbroad—backedwave。Thedayhadbeendullandovercast,butthesunnowburstthroughtheclouds,awelcomeomen,andshoneuponthecurvingbeachwheretogetherwehaddaredthelordsoftheharemandslaintheholluschickie。AllEndeavorIslandbrightenedunderthesun。Eventhegrimsouthwesternpromontoryshowedlessgrim,andhereandthere,wherethesea—spraywetitssurface,highlightsflashedanddazzledinthesun。
\"Ishallalwaysthinkofitwithpride,\"IsaidtoMaud。
Shethrewherheadbackinaqueenlyway,butsaid,\"Dear,dearEndeavorIsland!Ishallalwaysloveit。\"
\"AndI,\"Isaidquickly。
Itseemedoureyesmustmeetinagreatunderstanding,andyet,loath,theystruggledawayanddidnotmeet。
TherewasasilenceImightalmostcallawkward,tillIbrokeit,saying:
\"Seethoseblackcloudstowindward。Youremember,Itoldyoulastnightthebarometerwasfalling。\"
\"Andthesunisgone,\"shesaid,hereyesstillfixeduponourisland,wherewehadprovedourmasteryovermatterandattainedtothetruestcomradeshipthatmayfalltomanandwoman。
\"Andit’sslackoffthesheetsforJapan!\"Icriedgayly。\"Afairwindandaflowingsheet,youknow,orhoweveritgoes。\"
Lashingthewheel,Iranforward,easedtheforeandmainsheets,tookinontheboom—tackles,andtrimmedeverythingforthequarteringbreezewhichwasours。Itwasafreshbreeze,veryfresh,butIresolvedtorunaslongasIdared。Unfortunately,whenrunningfree,itisimpossibletolashthewheel,soIfacedanall—nightwatch。Maudinsistedonrelievingme,butprovedthatshehadnotthestrengthtosteerinaheavysea,evenifshecouldhavegainedthewisdomonsuchshortnotice。Sheappearedquiteheart—brokenoverthediscovery,butrecoveredherspiritsbycoilingdowntacklesandhalyardsandallstrayropes。Thenthereweremealstobecookedinthegalley,bedstomake,WolfLarsentobeattendedupon,andshefinishedthedaywithagrandhouse—cleaningattackuponthecabinandsteerage。
AllnightIsteered,withoutrelief,thewindslowlyandsteadilyincreasingandthesearising。AtfiveinthemorningMaudbroughtmehotcoffeeandbiscuitsshehadbaked,andatsevenasubstantialandpipinghotbreakfastputnewlifeintome。
Throughouttheday,andasslowlyandsteadilyasever,thewindincreased。
Itimpressedonewithitssullendeterminationtoblow,andblowharder,andkeeponblowing。AndstilltheGhostfoamedalong,racingoffthemilestillIwascertainshewasmakingatleastelevenknots。Itwastoogoodtolose,butbynightfallIwasexhausted。Thoughinsplendidphysicaltrim,athirty—six—hourtrickatthewheelwasthelimitofmyendurance。Besides,Maudbeggedmetoheaveto,andIknew,ifthewindandseaincreasedatthesamerateduringthenight,thatitwouldsoonbeimpossibletoheaveto。So,astwilightdeepened,gladlyandatthesametimereluctantly,IbroughttheGhostuponthewind。
ButIhadnotreckoneduponthecolossaltaskthereefingofthreesailsmeantforoneman。WhilerunningawayfromthewindIhadnotappreciateditsforce,butwhenweceasedtorunIlearnedtomysorrow,andwell—nightomydespair,howfiercelyitwasreallyblowing。Thewindbalkedmyeveryeffort,rippingthecanvasoutofmyhandsandinaninstantundoingwhatIhadgainedbytenminutesofsevereststruggle。Ateighto’clockIhadsucceededonlyinputtingthesecondreefintotheforesail。Ateleveno’clockIwasnofartheralong。Blooddrippedfromeveryfingerend,whilethenailswerebrokentothequick。FrompainandsheerexhaustionIweptinthedarkness,secretly,sothatMaudshouldnotknow。
Then,indesperation,Iabandonedtheattempttoreefthemainsailandresolvedtotrytheexperimentofheavingtoundertheclose—reefedforesail。
Threehoursmorewererequiredtogasketthemainsailandjib,andattwointhemorning,nearlydead,thelifealmostbuffetedandworkedoutofme,Ihadbarelysufficientconsciousnesstoknowtheexperimentwasasuccess。Theclose—reefedforesailworked。TheGhostclungonclosetothewindandbetrayednoinclinationtofalloffbroadsidetothetrough。
Iwasfamished,butMaudtriedvainlytogetmetoeat。dozedwithmymouthfulloffood。Iwouldfallasleepintheactofcarryingfoodtomymouthandwakenintormenttofindtheactyetuncompleted。SosleepilyhelplesswasIthatshewascompelledtoholdmeinmychairtopreventmybeingflungtothefloorbytheviolentpitchingoftheschooner。
OfthepassagefromthegalleytothecabinIknewnothing。Itwasasleep—walkerMaudguidedandsupported。Infact,IwasawareofnothingtillIawoke,howlongafterIcouldnotimagine,inmybunkwithmybootsoff。Itwasdark。Iwasstiffandlame,andcriedoutwithpainwhenthebed—clothestouchedmypoorfinger—ends。
Morninghadevidentlynotcome,soIclosedmyeyesandwenttosleepagain。Ididnotknowit,butIhadslepttheclockaroundanditwasnightagain。
OncemoreIwoke,troubledbecauseIcouldsleepnobetter。struckamatchandlookedatmywatch。Itmarkedmidnight。AndIhadnotleftthedeckuntilthree!IshouldhavebeenpuzzledhadInotguessedthesolution。
NowonderIwassleepingbrokenly。Ihadslepttwenty—onehours。IlistenedforawhiletothebehavioroftheGhost,tothepoundingoftheseasandthemuffledroarofthewindondeck,andthenturnedoveronmysideandsleptpeacefullyuntilmorning。
WhenIaroseatsevenIsawnosignofMaudandconcludedshewasinthegalleypreparingbreakfast。OndeckIfoundtheGhostdoingsplendidlyunderherpatchofcanvas。Butinthegalley,thoughafirewasburningandwaterboiling,IfoundnoMaud。
Idiscoveredherinthesteerage,byWolfLarsen’sbunk。lookedathim,themanwhohadbeenhurleddownfromthetopmostpitchoflifetobeburiedaliveandbeworsethandead。Thereseemedarelaxationofhisexpressionlessfacewhichwasnew。MaudlookedatmeandIunderstood。
\"Hislifeflickeredoutinthestorm,\"Isaid。
\"Buthestilllives,\"sheanswered,infinitefaithinhervoice。
\"Hehadtoogreatstrength。\"
\"Yes,\"shesaid,\"butnowitnolongershackleshim。Heisafreespirit。\"
\"Heisafreespiritsurely,\"Ianswered;and,takingherhand,Iledherondeck。
Thestormbrokethatnight,whichistosaythatitdiminishedasslowlyasithadarisen。Afterbreakfastnextmorning,whenIhadhoistedWolfLarsen’sbodyondeckreadyforburial,itwasstillblowingheavilyandalargeseawasrunning。Thedeckwascontinuallyawashwiththeseawhichcameinboardovertherailandthroughthescuppers。Thewindsmotetheschoonerwithasuddengust,andsheheeledovertillherleerailwasburied,theroarinherriggingrisinginpitchtoashriek。WestoodinthewatertoourkneesasIbaredmyhead。
\"Irememberonlyonepartoftheservice,\"Isaid,\"andthatis,`Andthebodyshallbecastintothesea。’\"
Maudlookedatme,surprisedandshocked;butthespiritofsomethingIhadseenbeforewasstronguponme,impellingmetogiveservicetoWolfLarsenasWolfLarsenhadoncegivenservicetoanotherman。Iliftedtheendofthehatchcover,andthecanvas—shroudedbodyslippedfeetfirstintothesea。Theweightofirondraggeditdown。Itwasgone。
\"Good—by,Lucifer,proudspirit,\"Maudwhispered,solowthatitwasdrownedbytheshoutingofthewind;butIsawthemovementofherlipsandknew。
Asweclungtotheleerailandworkedourwayaft,Ihappenedtoglancetoleeward。TheGhost,atthemoment,wasuptossedonasea,andIcaughtaclearviewofasmallsteamshiptwoorthreemilesaway,rollingandpitching,headontothesea,asitsteamedtowardus。Itwaspaintedblack,andfromthetalkofthehuntersoftheirpoachingexploitsIrecognizeditasaUnitedStatesrevenuecutter。IpointeditouttoMaudandhurriedlyledherafttothesafetyofthepoop。
Istartedtorushbelowtotheflag—locker,thenrememberedthatinriggingtheGhostIhadforgottentomakeprovisionforaflag—halyard。
\"Weneednodistresssignal,\"Maudsaid。\"Theyhaveonlytoseeus。\"
\"Wearesaved,\"Isaid,soberlyandsolemnly。Andthen,inanexuberanceofjoy,\"Ihardlyknowwhethertobegladornot。\"
Ilookedather。Oureyeswerenotloathtomeet。Weleanedtowardeachother,andbeforeIknewitmyarmswereabouther。
\"NeedI?\"Iasked。
Andsheanswered,\"Thereisnoneed,thoughthetellingofitwouldbesweet,sosweet。\"
Herlipsmetthepressofmine,and,bywhatstrangetrickoftheimaginationIknownot,thesceneinthecabinoftheGhostflasheduponme,whenshehadpressedherfingerslightlyonmylipsandsaid,\"Hush,hush。\"
\"Mywoman,myonesmallwoman,\"Isaid,myfreehandpettinghershoulderinthewayallloversknowthoughneverlearninschool。
\"Myman,\"shesaid,lookingatmeforaninstantwithtremulouslidswhichfluttereddownandveiledhereyesasshesnuggledherheadagainstmybreastwithahappylittlesigh。
Ilookedtowardthecutter。Itwasveryclose。Aboatwasbeinglowered。
\"Onekiss,dearlove,\"Iwhispered。\"Onekissmorebeforetheycome。\"
\"Andrescueusfromourselves,\"shecompleted,withamostadorablesmile,whimsicalasIhadneverseenit,foritwaswhimsicalwithlove。