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  \"Yes……?\"sheaccentuatedinterrogatively。

  \"Youhavetheawfulnessofthepredestined。You,too,arethepreyofdreams。\"

  \"NotoftheMoors,then,\"sheuttered,calmly,beginningtheotherplait。D’Alcacerfollowedtheoperationtotheend。Closeagainsther,herdiaphanousshadowonthemuslinreproducedherslightestmovements。D’Alcacerturnedhiseyesaway。

  \"No!Nobarbarianshalltouchyou。BecauseifitcomestothatI

  believeHEwouldbecapableofkillingyouhimself。\"

  Aminuteelapsedbeforehestoleaglanceinherdirection。Shewasleaningbackagain,herhandshadfallenonherlapandherheadwithaplaitofhaironeachsideofherface,herheadincrediblychangedincharacterandsuggestingsomethingmedieval,ascetic,droopeddreamilyonherbreast。

  D’Alcacerwaited,holdinghisbreath。Shedidn’tmove。Inthedimgleamofjewelledclasps,thefaintsheenofgoldembroideriesandtheshimmerofsilks,shewaslikeafigureinafadedpainting。Onlyherneckappeareddazzlinglywhiteinthesmokyrednessofthelight。D’Alcacer’swonderapproachedafeelingofawe。HewasonthepointofmovingawayquietlywhenMrs。

  Travers,withoutstirringintheleast,lethimhearthewords:

  \"Ihavetoldhimthateverydayseemedmoredifficulttolive。

  Don’tyouseehowimpossiblethisis?\"

  D’AlcacerglancedrapidlyacrosstheCagewhereMr。Traversseemedtobeasleepallinaheapandpresentingaruffledappearancelikeasickbird。Nothingwasdistinctofhimbutthebaldpatchonthetopofhishead。

  \"Yes,\"hemurmured,\"itismostunfortunate……Iunderstandyouranxiety,Mrs。Travers,but……\"

  \"Iamfrightened,\"shesaid。

  Hereflectedamoment。\"Whatanswerdidyouget?\"heasked,softly。

  \"Theanswerwas:’Patience。’\"

  D’Alcacerlaughedalittle。——\"Youmaywelllaugh,\"murmuredMrs。

  Traversinatoneofanguish。——\"That’swhyIdid,\"hewhispered。

  \"Patience!Didn’theseethehorrorofit?\"——\"Idon’tknow。Hewalkedaway,\"saidMrs。Travers。Shelookedimmovablyatherhandsclaspedinherlap,andthenwithaburstofdistress,\"Mr。

  d’Alcacer,whatisgoingtohappen?\"——\"Ah,youareaskingyourselfthequestionatlast。THATwillhappenwhichcannotbeavoided;andperhapsyouknowbestwhatitis。\"——\"No。Iamstillaskingmyselfwhathewilldo。\"——\"Ah,thatisnotformetoknow,\"declaredd’Alcacer。\"Ican’ttellyouwhathewilldo,butIknowwhatwillhappentohim。\"——\"Tohim,yousay!Tohim!\"shecried。——\"Hewillbreakhisheart,\"saidd’Alcacer,distinctly,bendingalittleoverthechairwithaslightgaspathisownaudacity——andwaited。

  \"Croyez—vous?\"cameatlastfromMrs。Traversinanaccentsocoldlylanguidthatd’Alcacerfeltashudderrundownhisspine。

  Wasitpossiblethatshewasthatkindofwoman,heaskedhimself。Didsheseenothingintheworldoutsideherself?Wassheabovethecommonestkindofcompassion?Hecouldn’tsuspectMrs。Traversofstupidity;butshemighthavebeenheartlessand,likesomewomenofherclass,quiteunabletorecognizeanyemotionintheworldexceptherown。D’Alcacerwasshockedandatthesametimehewasrelievedbecauseheconfessedtohimselfthathehadventuredveryfar。However,inherhumanityshewasnotvulgarenoughtobeoffended。Shewasnottheslaveofsmallmeannesses。Thisthoughtpleasedd’Alcacerwhohadschooledhimselfnottoexpecttoomuchfrompeople。Buthedidn’tknowwhattodonext。Afterwhathehadventuredtosayandafterthemannerinwhichshehadmethisaudacitytheonlythingtodowastochangetheconversation。Mrs。Traversremainedperfectlystill。\"IwillpretendthatIthinksheisasleep,\"hethoughttohimself,meditatingaretreatontip—toe。

  Hedidn’tknowthatMrs。Traverswassimplytryingtorecoverthefullcommandofherfaculties。Hiswordshadgivenheraterribleshock。Aftermanagingtoutterthisdefensive\"croyez—vous\"whichcameoutofherlipscoldandfaintasifinalasteffortofdyingstrength,shefeltherselfturnrigidandspeechless。Shewasthinking,stiffalloverwithemotion:\"D’Alcacerhasseenit!Howmuchmorehashebeenabletosee?\"Shedidn’taskherselfthatquestioninfearorshamebutwitharecklessresignation。Outofthatshockcameasensationofpeace。A

  glowingwarmthpassedthroughallherlimbs。Ifd’Alcacerhadpeeredbythatsmokylightintoherfacehemighthaveseenonherlipsafatalisticsmilecomeandgo。Butd’Alcacerwouldnothavedreamedofdoingsuchathing,and,besides,hisattentionjustthenwasdrawninanotherdirection。Hehadheardsubduedexclamations,hadnoticedastironthedecksoftheEmma,andevensomesortofnoiseoutsidetheship。

  \"Thesearestrangesounds,\"hesaid。

  \"Yes,Ihear,\"Mrs。Traversmurmured,uneasily。

  VagueshapesglidedoutsidetheCage,barefooted,almostnoiseless,whisperingMalaywordssecretly。

  \"Itseemsasthoughaboathadcomealongside,\"observedd’Alcacer,lendinganattentiveear。\"Iwonderwhatitmeans。Inourposition……\"

  \"Itmaymeananything,\"interruptedMrs。Travers。

  \"Jaffirishere,\"saidavoiceinthedarknessoftheafterendoftheship。Thenthereweresomemorewordsinwhichd’Alcacer’sattentiveearcaughttheword\"surat。\"

  \"Amessageofsomesorthascome,\"hesaid。\"TheywillbecallingCaptainLingard。Iwonderwhatthoughtsorwhatdreamsthiscallwillinterrupt。\"Hespokelightly,lookingnowatMrs。Traverswhohadalteredherpositioninthechair;andbytheirtonesandattitudesthesetwomighthavebeenonboardtheyachtsailingtheseainperfectsafety。\"You,ofcourse,aretheonewhowillbetold。Don’tyoufeelasortofexcitement,Mrs。Travers?\"

  \"Ihavebeenlatelyexhortedtopatience,\"shesaidinthesameeasytone。\"IcanwaitandIimagineIshallhavetowaittillthemorning。\"

  \"Itcan’tbeverylateyet,\"hesaid。\"Timewithushasbeenstandingstillforeversolong。Andyetthismaybethehouroffate。\"

  \"Isthisthefeelingyouhaveatthisparticularmoment?\"

  \"Ihavehadthatfeelingforaconsiderablenumberofmomentsalready。Atfirstitwasexciting。NowIamonlymoderatelyanxious。Ihaveemployedmytimeingoingoverallmypastlife。\"

  \"Canonereallydothat?\"

  \"Yes。Ican’tsayIhavebeenboredtoextinction。Iamstillalive,asyousee;butIhavedonewiththatandIfeelextremelyidle。ThereisonlyonethingIwouldliketodo。Iwanttofindafewwordsthatcouldconveytoyoumygratitudeforallyourfriendlinessinthepast,atthetimewhenyouletmeseesomuchofyouinLondon。IfeltalwaysthatyoutookmeonmyowntermsandthatsokindlythatoftenIfeltinclinedtothinkbetterofmyself。ButIamafraidIamwearyingyou,Mrs。Travers。\"

  \"Iassureyouyouhaveneverdonethat——inthepast。AndastothepresentmomentIbegyounottogoaway。Staybymeplease。

  Wearenotgoingtopretendthatwearesleepyatthisearlyhour。\"

  D’Alcacerbroughtastoolclosetothelongchairandsatdownonit。\"Oh,yes,thepossiblehouroffate,\"hesaid。\"Ihavearequesttomake,Mrs。Travers。Idon’taskyoutobetrayanything。Whatwouldbethegood?Theissuewhenitcomeswillbeplainenough。ButIshouldliketogetawarning,justsomethingthatwouldgivemetimetopullmyselftogether,tocomposemyselfasitwere。Iwantyoutopromisemethatifthebalancetipsagainstusyouwillgivemeasign。Youcould,forinstance,seizetheopportunitywhenIamlookingatyoutoputyourlefthandtoyourforeheadlikethis。ItisagesturethatIhaveneverseenyoumake,andso……\"

  \"Jorgenson!\"Lingard’svoicewasheardforwardwherethelightofalanternappearedsuddenly。Then,afterapause,Lingardwasheardagain:\"Here!\"

  Thenthesilentminutesbegantogoby。Mrs。Traversreclininginherchairandd’Alcacersittingonthestoolwaitedmotionlesswithoutaword。PresentlythroughthesubduedmurmursandagitationpervadingthedarkdeckoftheEmmaMrs。Traversheardafirmfootstep,and,lanterninhand,Lingardappearedoutsidethemuslincage。

  \"Willyoucomeoutandspeaktome?\"hesaid,loudly。\"Notyou。

  Thelady,\"headdedinanauthoritativetoneasd’Alcacerrosehastilyfromthestool。\"IwantMrs。Travers。\"

  \"Ofcourse,\"mutteredd’AlcacertohimselfandasheopenedthedooroftheCagetoletMrs。Traversslipthroughhewhisperedtoher,\"Thisisthehouroffate。\"

  Shebrushedpasthimswiftlywithouttheslightestsignthatshehadheardthewords。OntheafterdeckbetweentheCageandthedeckhouseLingardwaited,lanterninhand。Nobodyelsewasvisibleabout;butd’Alcacerfeltintheairthepresenceofsilentandexcitedbeingshoveringoutsidethecircleoflight。

  LingardraisedthelanternasMrs。Traversapproachedandd’Alcacerheardhimsay:

  \"Ihavehadnewswhichyououghttoknow。Letusgointothedeckhouse。\"

  D’Alcacersawtheirheadslightedupbytheraisedlanternsurroundedbythedepthsofshadowwithaneffectofamarvellousandsymbolicvision。HeheardMrs。Traverssay\"Iwouldrathernothearyournews,\"inatonethatmadethatsensitiveobserverpurseuphislipsinwonder。Hethoughtthatshewasover—wrought,thatthesituationhadgrowntoomuchforhernerves。Butthiswasnotthetoneofafrightenedperson。Itflashedthroughhismindthatshehadbecomeself—conscious,andtherehestoppedinhisspeculation。Thatfriendofwomenremaineddiscreeteveninhisthoughts。HesteppedbackwardfurtherintotheCageandwithoutsurprisesawMrs。TraversfollowLingardintothedeckhouse。

  IV

  Lingardstoodthelanternonthetable。Itslightwasverypoor。

  Hedroppedontothesea—chestheavily。He,too,wasover—wrought。Hisflannelshirtwasopenattheneck。Hehadabroadbeltroundhiswaistandwaswithouthisjacket。Beforehim,Mrs。Travers,straightandtallinthegaysilks,cottons,andmuslinsofheroutlandishdress,withtheendsofthescarfthrownoverherhead,hangingdowninfrontofher,lookeddimlysplendidandwithablackglanceoutofherwhiteface。Hesaid:

  \"Doyou,too,wanttothrowmeover?Itellyouyoucan’tdothatnow。\"

  \"Iwasn’tthinkingofthrowingyouover,butIdon’tevenknowwhatyoumean。ThereseemtobenoendofthingsIcan’tdo。

  Hadn’tyoubettertellmeofsomethingthatIcoulddo?Haveyouanyideayourselfwhatyouwantfromme?\"

  \"Youcanletmelookatyou。Youcanlistentome。Youcanspeaktome。\"

  \"Frankly,Ihavenevershirkeddoingallthosethings,wheneveryouwantedmeto。Youhaveledme……\"

  \"Iledyou!\"criedLingard。

  \"Oh!Itwasmyfault,\"shesaid,withoutanger。\"Imusthavedreamedthenthatitwasyouwhocametomeinthedarkwiththetaleofyourimpossiblelife。CouldIhavesentyouaway?\"

  \"Iwishyouhad。Whydidn’tyou?\"

  \"Doyouwantmetotellyouthatyouwereirresistible?HowcouldIhavesentyouaway?Butyou!Whatmadeyoucomebacktomewithyourveryheartonyourlips?\"

  WhenLingardspokeafteratimeitwasinjerkysentences。

  \"Ididn’tstoptothink。Ihadbeenhurt。Ididn’tthinkofyoupeopleasladiesandgentlemen。IthoughtofyouaspeoplewhoselivesIheldinmyhand。Howwasitpossibletoforgetyouinmytrouble?ItisyourfacethatIbroughtbackwithmeonboardmybrig。Idon’tknowwhy。Ididn’tlookatyoumorethanatanybodyelse。Ittookmeallmytimetokeepmytemperdownlestitshouldburnyouallup。Ididn’twanttoberudetoyoupeople,butIfounditwasn’tveryeasybecausethreatsweretheonlyargumentIhad。WasIveryoffensive,Mrs。Travers?\"

  Shehadlistenedtenseandveryattentive,almoststern。Anditwaswithouttheslightestchangeofexpressionthatshesaid:

  \"IthinkthatyouboreyourselfappropriatelytothestateoflifetowhichithaspleasedGodtocallyou。\"

  \"Whatstate?\"mutteredLingardtohimself。\"IamwhatIam。TheycallmeRajahLaut,KingTom,andsuchlike。Ithinkitamusedyoutohearit,butIcantellyouitisnojoketohavesuchnamesfastenedonone,eveninfun。Andthoseverynameshaveinthemsomethingwhichmakesallthisaffairherenosmallmattertoanybody。\"

  Shestoodbeforehimwithaset,severeface。——\"Didyoucallmeoutinthisalarmingmanneronlytoquarrelwithme?\"——\"No,butwhydoyouchoosethistimetotellmethatmycomingforhelptoyouwasnothingbutimpudenceinyoursight?Well,Ibegyourpardonforintrudingonyourdignity。\"——\"Youmisunderstoodme,\"

  saidMrs。Travers,withoutrelaxingforamomenthercontemplativeseverity。\"Suchaflatteringthinghadneverhappenedtomebeforeanditwillneverhappentomeagain。Butbelieveme,KingTom,youdidmetoomuchhonour。Jorgensonisperfectlyrightinbeingangrywithyouforhavingtakenawomanintow。\"——\"Hedidn’tmeantoberude,\"protestedLingard,earnestly。Mrs。Traversdidn’tevensmileatthisintrusionofapointofmannersintotheatmosphereofanguishandsuspensethatseemedalwaystoarisebetweenherandthismanwho,sittingonthesea—chest,hadraisedhiseyestoherwithanairofextremecandourandseemedunabletotakethemoffagain。Shecontinuedtolookathimsternlybyatremendouseffortofwill。

  \"Howchangedyouare,\"hemurmured。

  Hewaslostinthedepthsofthesimplestwonder。Sheappearedtohimvengefulandasifturnedforeverintostonebeforehisbewilderedremorse。Forever。SuddenlyMrs。Traverslookedroundandsatdowninthechair。Herstrengthfailedherbutsheremainedausterewithherhandsrestingonthearmsofherseat。

  Lingardsigheddeeplyanddroppedhiseyes。Shedidnotdarerelaxhermusclesforfearofbreakingdownaltogetherandbetrayingarecklessimpulsewhichlurkedatthebottomofherdismay,toseizetheheadofd’Alcacer’sManofFate,pressittoherbreastonce,flingitfaraway,andvanishherself,vanishoutoflifelikeawraith。TheManofFatesatsilentandbowed,yetwithasuggestionofstrengthinhisdejection。\"IfIdon’tspeak,\"Mrs。Traverssaidtoherself,withgreatinwardcalmness,\"Ishallburstintotears。\"Shesaidaloud,\"Whatcouldhavehappened?Whathaveyoudraggedmeinherefor?Whydon’tyoutellmeyournews?\"

  \"Ithoughtyoudidn’twanttohear。Ibelieveyoureallydon’twantto。Whatisallthistoyou?Ibelievethatyoudon’tcareanythingaboutwhatIfeel,aboutwhatIdoandhowIend。I

  verilybelievethatyoudon’tcarehowyouendyourself。I

  believeyounevercaredforyourownoranybody’sfeelings。I

  don’tthinkitisbecauseyouarehard,Ithinkitisbecauseyoudon’tknow,anddon’twanttoknow,andareangrywithlife。\"

  Heflourishedanarmrecklessly,andMrs。Traversnoticedforthefirsttimethatheheldasheetofpaperinhishand。

  \"Isthatyournewsthere?\"sheasked,significantly。\"It’sdifficulttoimaginethatinthiswildernesswritingcanhaveanysignificance。Andwhoonearthherecouldsendyounewsonpaper?

  Willyouletmeseeit?CouldIunderstandit?IsitinEnglish?

  Come,KingTom,don’tlookatmeinthisawfulway。\"

  Shegotupsuddenly,notinindignation,butasifattheendofherendurance。Thejewelledclasps,thegoldembroideries,gleamedelusivelyamongstthefoldsofherdraperieswhichemittedamysteriousrustle。

  \"Ican’tstandthis,\"shecried。\"Ican’tstandbeinglookedatlikethis。Nowomancouldstandit。Nowomanhaseverbeenlookedatlikethis。Whatcanyousee?HatredIcouldunderstand。Whatisityouthinkmecapableof?\"

  \"Youareveryextraordinary,\"murmuredLingard,whohadregainedhisself—possessionbeforethatoutburst。

  \"Verywell,andyouareextraordinary,too。That’sunderstood——herewearebothunderthatcurseandhavingtofacetogetherwhatevermayturnup。Butwhoonearthcouldhavesentyouthiswriting?\"

  \"Who?\"repeatedLingard。\"Why,thatyoungfellowthatblunderedonmybriginthedark,bringingaboatloadoftroublealongsideonthatquietnightinCarimataStraits。ThedarkestnightIhaveeverknown。Anaccursednight。\"

  Mrs。Traversbitherlip,waitedalittle,thenaskedquietly:

  \"Whatdifficultyhashegotintonow?\"

  \"Difficulty!\"criedLingard。\"Heisimmenselypleasedwithhimself,theyoungfool。Youknow,whenyousenthimtotalktomethateveningyoulefttheyacht,hecamewithaloadedpistolinhispocket。Andnowhehasgoneanddoneit。\"

  \"Doneit?\"repeatedMrs。Traversblankly。\"Donewhat?\"

  ShesnatchedfromLingard’sunresistingpalmthesheetofpaper。

  WhileshewassmoothingitLingardmovedroundandstoodcloseatherelbow。Sheranquicklyoverthefirstlines,thenhereyessteadied。AttheendshedrewaquickbreathandlookedupatLingard。TheirfaceshadneverbeensoclosetogetherbeforeandMrs。Travershadasurprisingsecondofaperfectlynewsensation。Shelookedaway。——\"Doyouunderstandwhatthisnewsmeans?\"hemurmured。Mrs。Traversletherhandfallbyherside。

  \"Yes,\"shesaidinalowtone。\"Thecompactisbroken。\"

  Carterhadbegunhisletterwithoutanypreliminaries:

  Youclearedoutinthemiddleofthenightandtooktheladyawaywithyou。Youleftmenoproperorders。ButasasailormanI

  lookeduponmyselfasleftinchargeoftwoshipswhilewithinhalfamileonthatsandbankthereweremorethanahundredpiraticalcut—throatswatchingmeascloselyassomanytigersabouttoleap。Dayswentbywithoutawordofyouorthelady。Toleavetheshipsoutsideandgoinlandtolookforyouwasnottobethoughtofwithallthosepirateswithinspringingdistance。

  Putyourselfinmyplace。Can’tyouimaginemyanxiety,mysleeplessnights?Eachnightworsethanthenightbefore。Andstillnowordfromyou。Icouldn’tsitstillandworrymyheadoffaboutthingsIcouldn’tunderstand。Iamasailorman。Myfirstdutywastotheships。IhadtoputanendtothisimpossiblesituationandIhopeyouwillagreethatIhavedoneitinaseamanlikeway。OnemistymorningImovedthebrignearerthesandbankanddirectlythemistclearedIopenedfireontheprausofthosesavageswhichwereanchoredinthechannel。Weaimedwideatfirsttogivethosevagabondsthatwereonboardachancetoclearoutandjointheirfriendscampedonthesands。I

  didn’twanttokillpeople。Thenwegotthelongguntobearandinaboutanhourwehadthebottomknockedoutofthetwopraus。

  Thesavagesonthebankhowledandscreamedateveryshot。TheyaremightyangrybutIdon’tcarefortheirangernow,forbysinkingtheirprausIhavemadethemasharmlessasaflockoflambs。Theyneedn’tstarveontheirsandbankbecausetheyhavetwoorthreedugoutshauleduponthesandandtheymayferrythemselvesandtheirwomentothemainlandwhenevertheylike。

  IfancyIhaveactedasaseamanandasaseamanIintendtogoonacting。NowIhavemadetheshipssafeIshallsetaboutwithoutlossoftimetryingtogettheyachtoffthemud。Whenthat’sdoneIshallarmtheboatsandproceedinshoretolookforyouandtheyacht’sgentry,andshan’tresttillIknowwhetheranyorallofyouareabovetheearthyet。

  Ihopethesewordswillreachyou。JustaswehaddonethebusinessofthoseprausthemanyousentoffthatnightinCarimatatostopourchiefofficercamesailinginfromthewestwithourfirstgigintowandtheboat’screwallwell。YourserangtellsmeheisamosttrustworthymessengerandthathisnameisJaffir。Heseemsonlytooanxioustotrytogettoyouassoonaspossible。Irepeat,shipsandmenhavebeenmadesafeandIdon’tmeantogiveyouupdeadoralive。

  \"Youarequickintakingthepoint,\"saidLingardinadullvoice,whileMrs。Travers,withthesheetofpapergrippedinherhand,lookedintohisfacewithanxiouseyes。\"Hehasbeensmartandnomistake。\"

  \"Hedidn’tknow,\"murmuredMrs。Travers。

  \"No,hedidn’tknow。ButcouldItakeeverybodyintomyconfidence?\"protestedLingardinthesamelowtone。\"AndyetwhoelsecouldItrust?Itseemedtomethathemusthaveunderstoodwithoutbeingtold。Butheistooyoung。Hemaywellbeproudaccordingtohislights。Hehasdonethatjoboutsideverysmartly——damnhissmartness!Andherewearewithallourlivesdependingonmyword——whichisbrokennow,Mrs。Travers。Itisbroken。\"

  Mrs。Traversnoddedathimslightly。

  \"Theywouldsoonerhaveexpectedtoseethesunandthemoonfalloutofthesky,\"Lingardcontinuedwithrepressedfire。NextmomentitseemedtohavegoneoutofhimandMrs。Traversheardhimmutteradisconnectedphrase……\"Theworlddownaboutmyears。\"

  \"Whatwillyoudo?\"shewhispered。

  \"WhatwillIdo?\"repeatedLingard,gently。\"Oh,yes——do。Mrs。

  Travers,doyouseethatIamnothingnow?Justnothing。\"

  Hehadlosthimselfinthecontemplationofherfaceturnedtohimwithanexpressionofawedcuriosity。TheshockoftheworldcomingdownabouthisearsinconsequenceofCarter’ssmartnesswassoterrificthatithaddulledhissensibilitiesinthemannerofagreatpainorofagreatcatastrophe。Whatwastheretolookatbutthatwoman’sface,inaworldwhichhadlostitsconsistency,itsshape,anditspromisesinamoment?

  Mrs。Traverslookedaway。SheunderstoodthatshehadputtoLingardanimpossiblequestion。Whatwaspresentingitselftoherasaproblemwastothatmanacrisisoffeeling。ObviouslyCarter’sactionhadbrokenthecompactenteredintowithDaman,andshewasintelligentenoughtounderstandthatitwasthesortofthingthatcouldnotbeexplainedaway。Itwasn’thorrorthatshefelt,butasortofconsternation,somethinglikethediscomfitureofpeoplewhohavejustmissedtheirtrain。Itwasonlymoreintense。Therealdismayhadyettomakeitswayintohercomprehension。ToLingarditwasablowstruckstraightathisheart。

  HewasnotangrywithCarter。Thefellowhadactedlikeaseaman。

  Carter’sconcernwasfortheships。InthisfatalityCarterwasamereincident。Therealcauseofthedisasterwassomewhereelse,wasother,andmoreremote。AndatthesametimeLingardcouldnotdefendhimselffromafeelingthatitwasinhimself,too,somewhereintheunexploreddepthsofhisnature,somethingfatalandunavoidable。Hemutteredtohimself:

  \"No。Iamnotaluckyman。\"

  Thiswasbutafeebleexpressionofthediscoveryofthetruththatsuddenlyhadcomehometohimasifdrivenintohisbreastbyarevealingpowerwhichhaddecidedthatthiswastobetheendofhisfling。Buthewasnotthemantogivehimselfuptotheexaminationofhisownsensations。Hisnaturalimpulsewastograpplewiththecircumstancesandthatwaswhathewastryingtodo;buthemissednowthatsenseofmasterywhichishalfthebattle。Conflictofsomesortwastheveryessenceofhislife。

  Butthiswassomethinghehadneverknownbefore。Thiswasaconflictwithinhimself。Hehadtofaceunsuspectedpowers,foesthathecouldnotgoouttomeetatthegate。Theywerewithin,asthoughhehadbeenbetrayedbysomebody,bysomesecretenemy。

  Hewasreadytolookroundforthatsubtletraitor。Asortofblanknessfellonhismindandhesuddenlythought:\"Why!It’smyself。\"

  Immediatelyafterwardhehadaclear,mercilessrecollectionofHassimandImmada。Hesawthemfaroffbeyondtheforests。Oh,yes,theyexisted——withinhisbreast!

  \"Thatwasanight!\"hemuttered,lookingstraightatMrs。

  Travers。Hehadbeenlookingatherallthetime。Hisglancehadheldherunderaspell,butforawholeinterminableminutehehadnotbeenawareofheratall。Atthemurmurofhiswordsshemadeaslightmovementandhesawheragain。——\"Whatnight?\"shewhispered,timidly,likeanintruder。Shewasastonishedtoseehimsmile。——\"Notlikethisone,\"hesaid。\"Youmademenoticehowquietandstillitwas。Yes。Listenhowstillitis。\"

  Bothmovedtheirheadsslightlyandseemedtolendanear。Therewasnotamurmur,sigh,rustle,splash,orfootfall。Nowhispers,notremors,notasoundofanykind。TheymighthavebeenaloneonboardtheEmma,abandonedevenbytheghostofCaptainJorgensondepartedtorejointheBarqueWildRoseontheshoreoftheCimmeriansea。——\"It’slikethestillnessoftheend,\"saidMrs。Traversinalow,equablevoice。——\"Yes,butthat,too,isfalse,\"saidLingardinthesametone。——\"Idon’tunderstand,\"

  Mrs。Traversbegan,hurriedly,afterashortsilence。\"Butdon’tusethatword。Don’tuseit,KingTom!Itfrightensmebyitsmeresound。\"

  Lingardmadenosign。HisthoughtswerebackwithHassimandImmada。TheyoungchiefandhissisterhadgoneupcountryonavoluntarymissiontopersuadeBelarabtoreturntohisstockadeandtotakeupagainthedirectionofaffairs。TheycarriedurgentmessagesfromLingard,whoforBelarabwastheveryembodimentoftruthandforce,thatunquestionedforcewhichhadpermittedBelarabtoindulgeinallhismelancholyhesitations。

  Butthosetwoyoungpeoplehadalsosomepersonalprestige。TheywereLingard’sheart’sfriends。Theywerelikehischildren。Butbesidethat,theirhighbirth,theirwarlikestory,theirwanderings,adventures,andprospectshadgiventhemaglamouroftheirown。

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