Havingestablishedmyselfinmyowncountry,Ididnotforgettoletoldfriendsknowwheretheymightfindme。AmongthosetowhomIwrotewasanothercolleagueofpastyears,whostillheldhismedicalappointmentintheprison。WhenIreceivedthedoctor’sreply,itinclosedaletterdirectedtomeatmyoldquartersintheGovernor’srooms。WhocouldpossiblyhavesentalettertoanaddresswhichIhadleftfiveyearssince?MycorrespondentprovedtobenolessapersonthantheCongregationalMinister——thefriendwhomIhadestrangedfrommebythetoneinwhichIhadwrittentohim,onthelong—pastoccasionofhiswife’sdeath。
Itwasadistressinglettertoread。Ibegpermissiontogiveonlythesubstanceofitinthisplace。
Entreatingme,withtouchingexpressionsofhumilityandsorrow,toforgivehislongsilence,thewriterappealedtomyfriendlyremembranceofhim。Hewasinsoreneedofcounsel,underseriousdifficulties;andIwastheonlypersontowhomhecouldapplyforhelp。Inthedisorderedstateofhishealthatthattime,heventuredtohopethatIwouldvisithimathispresentplaceofabode,andwouldlethimhavethehappinessofseeingmeasspeedilyaspossible。Heconcludedwiththisextraordinarypostscript:
\"Whenyouseemydaughters,saynothingtoeitherofthemwhichrelates,inanyway,tothesubjectoftheirages。Youshallhearwhywhenwemeet。\"
Thereadingofthisletternaturallyremindedmeoftheclaimswhichmyfriend’snobleconducthadestablishedonmyadmirationandrespect,atthepasttimewhenwemetintheprison。Icouldnothesitatetogranthisrequest——strangelyasitwasexpressed,anddoubtfulastheprospectappearedtobeofmyansweringtheexpectationswhichhehadfoundedontherenewalofourintercourse。Answeringhisletterbytelegraph,Ipromisedtobewithhimonthenextday。
Onarrivingatthestation,IfoundthatIwastheonlytraveler,byafirst—classcarriage,wholeftthetrain。Ayounglady,remarkablebyhergoodlooksandgooddressing,seemedtohavenoticedthistriflingcircumstance。Sheapproachedmewithareadysmile。\"IbelieveIamspeakingtomyfather’sfriend,\"shesaid;\"mynameisHelenaGracedieu。\"
HerewasoneoftheMinister’stwo\"daughters\";andthatoneofthetwo——asIdiscoveredthemomentIshookhandswithher——whowasmyfriend’sownchild。MissHelenarecalledtomehermother’sface,infinitelyimprovedbyyouthandhealth,andbyanaturalbeautywhichthatcruelanddeceitfulwomancouldneverhavepossessed。Theslantingforeheadandtheshifting,flashingeyes,thatIrecollectedintheparent,werereproduced(slightlyreproduced,Ioughttosay)inthechild。Asfortheotherfeatures,Ihadneverseenamorebeautifulnoseandmouth,oramoredelicately—shapedoutline,thanwaspresentedbythelowerpartoftheface。ButMissHelenasomehowfailedtocharmme。I
doubtifIshouldhavefalleninlovewithher,eveninthedayswhenIwasafoolishyoungman。
ThefirstquestionthatIput,aswedrovefromthestationtothehouse,relatednaturallytoherfather。
\"Heisveryill,\"shebegan;\"Iamafraidyoumustprepareyourselftoseeasadchange。Nerves。Themischieffirstshoweditself,thedoctortellsus,inderangementofhisnervoussystem。Hehasbeen,Iregrettotellyou,obstinateinrefusingtogiveuphispreachingandpastoralwork。Heoughttohavetriedrestattheseaside。Thingshavegoneonfrombadtoworse。
LastSunday,atthebeginningofhissermon,hebrokedown。Very,verysad,isitnot?Thedoctorsaysthatprecioustimehasbeenlost,andhemustmakeuphismindtoresignhischarge。Hewon’thearofit。Youarehisoldfriend。Pleasetrytopersuadehim。\"
Fluentlyspoken;thewordswellchosen;themelodiousvoiceremindingmeofthelateMrs。Gracedieu’sadvantagesinthatrespect;littlesighsjudiciouslythrowninhereandthere,justattherightplaces;everything,letmeown,thatcouldpresentadutifuldaughterasapatternofpropriety——andnothing,letmeadd,thatcouldproduceanimpressiononmyinsensibletemperament。IfIhadnotbeentoodiscreettorushatahastyconclusion,Imighthavebeeninclinedtosay:hermother’schild,everyinchofher!
TheinterestwhichIwasstillabletofeelinmyfriend’sdomesticaffairscenteredinthedaughterwhomhehadadopted。
InherinfancyIhadseenthechild,andlikedher;Iwastheonepersonliving(sincethedeathofMrs。Gracedieu)whoknewhowtheMinisterhadconcealedthesadsecretofherparentage;andI
wantedtodiscoverifthehereditarytainthadbeguntoshowitselfintheinnocentoffspringofthemurderess。JustasIwasconsideringhowImightharmlesslyspeakofMissHelena’s\"sister,\"MissHelenaherselfintroducedthesubject。
\"MayIask,\"sheresumed,\"ifyouweredisappointedwhenyoufoundnobodybutmetomeetyouatourstation?\"
Herewasanopportunityofpayingheracompliment,ifIhadbeenayoungerman,orifshehadproducedafavorableimpressiononme。Asitwas,Ihit——ifImaypraisemyself——onaningeniouscompromise。
\"WhatexcusecouldIhave,\"Iasked,\"forfeelingdisappointed?\"
\"Well,Ihearyouareanofficialpersonage——Ioughttosay,perhaps,aretiredofficialpersonage。Wemighthavereceivedyoumorerespectfully,if_both_myfather’sdaughtershadbeenpresentatthestation。It’snotmyfaultthatmysisterwasnotwithme。\"
Thetoneinwhichshesaidthisstrengthenedmyprejudiceagainsther。Ittoldmethatthetwogirlswerelivingtogetheronnoveryfriendlyterms;anditsuggested——justlyorunjustlyIcouldnotthendecide——thatMissHelenawastoblame。
\"Mysisterisawayfromhome。\"
\"Surely,MissHelena,thatisagoodreasonforhernotcomingtomeetme?\"
\"Ibegyourpardon——itisabadreason。Shehasbeensentawayfortherecoveryofherhealth——andthelossofherhealthisentirelyherownfault。\"
Whatdidthismattertome?Idecidedondroppingthesubject。Mymemoryreverted,however,topastoccasionsonwhichthelossof_my_healthhadbeenentirelymyownfault。Therewassomethinginthesepersonalrecollections,whichencouragedmyperversetendencytosympathizewithayoungladytowhomIhadnotyetbeenintroduced。Theyounglady’ssisterappearedtobediscouragedbymysilence。Shesaid:\"Ihopeyoudon’tthinktheworseofmeforwhatIhavejustmentioned?\"
\"Certainlynot。\"
\"Perhapsyouwillfailtoseeanyneedofmyspeakingofmysisteratall?Willyoukindlylisten,ifItrytoexplainmyself?\"
\"Withpleasure。\"
Sheslylysetthebestconstructiononmyperfectlycommonplacereply。
\"Thankyou,\"shesaid。\"Thefactis,myfather(Ican’timaginewhy)wishesyoutoseemysisteraswellasme。Hehaswrittentothefarmhouseatwhichsheisnowstaying,totellhertocomehometo—morrow。Itispossible——ifyourkindnessoffersmeanopportunity——thatImayasktobeguidedbyyourexperience,inalittlematterwhichinterestsme。Mysisterisrash,andreckless,andhasaterribletemper。Ishouldbeverysorryindeedifyouwereinducedtoformanunfavorableopinionofme,fromanythingyoumightnoticeifyouseeustogether。Youunderstandme,Ihope?\"
\"Iquiteunderstandyou。\"
Tosetmeagainsthersister,inherownprivateinterests——there,asIfeltsure,wasthemotiveunderwhichshewasacting。Ashardashermother,asselfishashermother,and,judgingfromthosetwobadqualities,probablyascruelashermother。ThatwashowIunderstoodMissHelenaGracedieu,whenourcarriagedrewupatherfather’shouse。
Amiddle—agedladywasonthedoorstep,whenwearrived,justringingthebell。Shelookedroundatusboth;beingevidentlyascompleteastrangertomyfaircompanionasshewastome。Whentheservantopenedthedoor,shesaid:
\"IsMissJillgallathome?\"
Atthesoundofthatoddname,MissHelenatossedherheaddisdainfully。Shetooknosortofnoticeofthestranger—ladywhowasatthedoorofherfather’shouse。Thisyoungperson’scontemptforMissJillgallappearedtoextendtoMissJillgall’sfriends。
Inthemeantime,theservant’sanswerwas:\"Notathome。\"
Themiddleagedladysaid:\"Doyouexpectherbacksoon?\"
\"Yes,ma’am。\"
\"Iwillcallagain,laterintheday。\"
\"Whatname,ifyouplease?\"
Theladystoleanotherlookatme,beforeshereplied。
\"Nevermindthename,\"shesaid——andwalkedaway。
CHAPTERXXXIII。
THEMINISTER’SMISFORTUNE。
\"Doyouknowthatlady?\"MissHelenaasked,asweenteredthehouse。
\"Sheisaperfectstrangertome,\"Ianswered。
\"Areyousureyouhavenotforgottenher?\"
\"WhydoyouthinkIhaveforgottenher?\"
\"Becausesheevidentlyrememberedyou。\"
Theladyhadnodoubtlookedatmetwice。Ifthismeantthatmyfacewasfamiliartoher,IcouldonlyrepeatwhatIhavealreadysaid。Never,tomyknowledge,hadIseenherbefore。
Leadingthewayupstairs,MissHelenaapologizedfortakingmeintoherfather’sbedroom。\"Heisabletositupinanarmchair,\"
shesaid;\"andhemightdomore,asIthink,ifhewouldexerthimself。Hewon’texerthimself。Verysad。Wouldyouliketolookatyourroom,beforeyouseemyfather?Itisquitereadyforyou。Wehope\"——shefavoredmewithafascinatingsmile,devotedtowinningmyheartwhenherinterestsrequiredit——\"wehopeyouwillpayusalongvisit;welookonyouasoneofourselves。\"
Ithankedher,andsaidIwouldshakehandswithmyoldfriendbeforeIwenttomyroom。Wepartedatthebedroomdoor。
ItisoutofmypowertodescribetheshockthatoverpoweredmewhenIfirstsawtheMinisteragain,afterthelongintervaloftimethathadseparatedus。Nothingthathisdaughtersaid,nothingthatImyselfanticipated,hadpreparedmeforthatlamentablechange。Forthemoment,Iwasnotsufficientlymasterofmyselftobeabletospeaktohim。Headdedtomyembarrassmentbythehumilityofhismanner,andtheformalelaborationofhisapologies。
\"IfeelpainfullythatIhavetakenalibertywithyou,\"hesaid,\"afterthelongestrangementbetweenus——forwhichmywantofChristianforbearanceistoblame。Forgiveit,sir,andforgetit。Ihopetoshowthatnecessityjustifiesmypresumption,insubjectingyoutoawearisomejourneyformysake。\"
Beginningtorecovermyself,Ibeggedthathewouldmakenomoreexcuses。Myinterruptionseemedtoconfusehim。
\"Iwishedtosay,\"hewenton,\"thatyouaretheonemanwhocanunderstandme。Thereismyonlyreasonforaskingtoseeyou,andlookingforwardasIdotoyouradvice。Yourememberthenight——orwasittheday?——beforethatmiserablewomanwashanged?YouweretheonlypersonpresentwhenIagreedtoadoptthepoorlittlecreature,stainedalready(onemaysay)byitsmother’sinfamy。IthinkyourwisdomforesawwhataterribleresponsibilityIwasundertaking;youtriedtopreventit。Well!
well!youhavebeeninmyconfidence——youonly。Mind!nobodyinthishouseknowsthatoneofthetwogirlsisnotreallymydaughter。Praystopme,ifyoufindmewanderingfromthepoint。
MywishistoshowthatyouaretheonlymanIcanopenmyheartto。She——\"Hepaused,asifinsearchofalostidea,andleftthesentenceuncompleted。\"Yes,\"hewenton,\"Iwasthinkingofmyadoptedchild。DidIevertellyouthatIbaptizedhermyself?
andbyagoodScripturenametoo——Eunice。Ah,sir,thatlittlehelplessbabyisagrown—upgirlnow;ofanagetoinspirelove,andtofeellove。Iblushtoacknowledgeit;Ihavebehavedwithawantofself—control,withacowardlyweakness。——No!Iam,indeed,wanderingthistime。IoughttohavetoldyoufirstthatIhavebeenbroughtfacetofacewiththepossibilityofEunice’smarriage。And,tomakeitworsestill,Ican’thelplikingtheyoungman。Hecomesofagoodfamily——excellentmanners,highlyeducated,plentyofmoney,agentlemanineverysenseoftheword。AndpoorlittleEuniceissofondofhim!Isn’titdreadfultobeobligedtocheckherdearly—lovedPhilip?Theyounggentleman’snameisPhilip。Doyoulikethename?IsayIamobligedtocheekhersweetheartintherudestmanner,whenallhewantstodoistoaskmemodestlyformysweetEunice’shand。Oh,whathaveInotsuffered,withoutawordofsympathytocomfortme,beforeIhadcourageenoughtowritetoyou!ShallImakeadreadfulconfession?Ifmyreligiousconvictionshadnotstoodinmyway,IbelieveIshouldhavecommittedsuicide。Putyourselfinmyplace。Trytoseeyourselfshrinkingfromanecessaryexplanation,whenthehappinessofaharmlessgirl——sodutiful,soaffectionate——dependedonawordofkindnessfromyourlips。
Andthatwordyouareafraidtospeak!Don’ttakeoffense,sir;I
meanmyself,notyou。Whydon’tyousaysomething?\"heburstoutfiercely,incapableofperceivingthathehadallowedmenoopportunityofspeakingtohim。\"GoodGod!don’tyouunderstandme,afterall?\"
Thesignsofmentalconfusioninhistalkhadsodistressedme,thatIhadnotbeencomposedenoughtofeelsureofwhathereallymeant,untilhedescribedhimselfas\"shrinkingfromanecessaryexplanation。\"Hearingthosewords,myknowledgeofthecircumstanceshelpedme;Irealizedwhathissituationreallywas。
\"Composeyourself,\"Isaid,\"Iunderstandyouatlast。\"
Hehadsuddenlybecomedistrustful。
\"Proveit,\"hemuttered,withafurtivelookatme。\"Iwanttobesatisfiedthatyouunderstandmyposition。\"
\"Thisisyourposition,\"Itoldhim。\"Youareplacedbetweentwodeplorablealternatives。IfyoutellthisyounggentlemanthatMissEunice’smotherwasacriminalhangedformurder,hisfamily——evenifhehimselfdoesn’trecoilfromit——willunquestionablyforbidthemarriage;andyouradopteddaughter’shappinesswillbethesacrifice。\"
\"True!\"hesaid。\"Frightfullytrue!Goon。\"
\"If,ontheotherhand,yousanctionthemarriage,andconcealthetruth,youcommitadeliberateactofdeceit;andyouleavethelivesoftheyoungcoupleatthemercyofapossiblediscovery,whichmightparthusbandandwife——castaslurontheirchildren——andbreakupthehousehold。\"
Heshudderedwhilehelistenedtome。\"Cometotheendofit,\"hecried。
Ihadnomoretosay,andIwasobligedtoanswerhimtothateffect。
\"Nomoretosay?\"hereplied。\"YouhavenottoldmeyetwhatI
mostwanttoknow。\"
Ididarashthing;Iaskedwhatitwasthathemostwantedtoknow。
\"Can’tyouseeitforyourself?\"hedemandedindignantly。
\"Supposeyouwereputbetweenthosetwoalternativeswhichyoumentionedjustnow。\"
\"Well?\"
\"Whatwouldyoudo,sir,inmyplace?Wouldyouownthedisgracefultruth——beforethemarriage——orruntherisk,andkeepthehorridstorytoyourself?\"
Eitherway,myreplymightleadtoseriousconsequences。I
hesitated。
Hethreatenedmewithhispoorfeeblehand。Itwasonlytheangerofamoment;hishumorchangedtosupplication。Heremindedmepiteouslyofbygonedays:\"Youusedtobeakind—heartedman。Hasagehardenedyou?Haveyounopityleftforyouroldfriend?Mypoorheartissadlyinwantofawordofwisdom,spokenkindly。\"
Whocouldhaveresistedthis?Itookhishand:\"Beatease,dearMinister。InyourplaceIshouldruntherisk,andkeepthathorridstorytomyself。\"
Hesankbackgentlyinhischair。\"Oh,thereliefofit!\"hesaid。\"HowcanIthankyouasIoughtforquietingmymind?\"
Iseizedtheopportunityofquietinghismindtogoodpurposebysuggestingachangeofsubject。\"Letushavedonewithserioustalkforthepresent,\"Iproposed。\"Ihavebeenanidlemanforthelastfiveyears,andIwanttotellyouaboutmytravels。\"
Hisattentionbegantowander,heevidentlyfeltnointerestinmytravels。\"Areyousure,\"heaskedanxiously,\"thatwehavesaidallweoughttosay?No!\"hecried,answeringhisownquestion。\"IbelieveIhaveforgottensomething——IamcertainI
haveforgottensomething。PerhapsImentioneditintheletterI
wrotetoyou。Haveyougotmyletter?\"
Ishowedittohim。Hereadtheletter,andgaveitbacktomewithaheavysigh。\"Notthere!\"hesaiddespairingly。\"Notthere!\"
\"Isthelostremembranceconnectedwithanybodyinthehouse?\"I
asked,tryingtohelphim。\"Doesitrelate,byanychance,tooneoftheyoungladies?\"
\"Youwonderfulman!Nothingescapesyou。Yes;thethingIhaveforgottenconcernsoneofthegirls。Stop!Letmegetatitbymyself。SurelyitrelatestoHelena?\"Hehesitated;hisfacecloudedoverwithanexpressionofanxiousthought。\"Yes;itrelatestoHelena,\"herepeated\"buthow?\"Hiseyesfilledwithtears。\"Iamashamedofmyweakness,\"hesaidfaintly。\"Youdon’tknowhowdreadfulitistoforgetthingsinthisway。\"
Theinjurythathismindhadsustainednowassumedanaspectthatwasseriousindeed。Thesubtlemachinery,whichstimulatesthememory,bymeansoftheassociationofideas,appearedtohavelostitsworkingpowerintheintellectofthisunhappyman。I
madethefirstsuggestionthatoccurredtome,ratherthanaddtohisdistressbyremainingsilent。
\"Ifwetalkofyourdaughter,\"Isaid,\"themerestaccident——awordspokenatrandomby。youorme——maybeallyourmemorywantstorouseit。\"
Heagreedeagerlytothis:\"Yes!Yes!Letmebegin。Helenametyou,Ithink,atthestation。Ofcourse,Irememberthat;itonlyhappenedafewhourssince。Well?\"hewenton,withachangeinhismannertoparentalpride,whichitwaspleasanttosee,\"didyouthinkmydaughterafinegirl?IhopeHelenadidn’tdisappointyou?\"
\"Quitethecontrary。\"Havingmadethatnecessaryreply,Isawmywaytokeepinghismindoccupiedbyaharmlesssubject。\"Itmust,however,beowned,\"Iwenton,\"thatyourdaughtersurprisedme。\"
\"Inwhatway?\"
\"Whenshementionedhername。Whocouldhavesupposedthatyou——aninveterateenemytotheRomanCatholicChurch——wouldhavechristenedyourdaughterbythenameofaRomanCatholicSaint?\"
Helistenedtothiswithasmile。HadIhappilyblunderedonsomeassociationwhichhismindwasstillabletopursue?
\"Youhappentobewrongthistime,\"hesaidpleasantly。\"InevergavemygirlthenameofHelena;and,whatismore,Ineverbaptizedher。Yououghttoknowthat。Yearsandyearsago,I
wrotetotellyouthatmypoorwifehadmademeaproudandhappyfather。AndsurelyIsaidthatthechildwasbornwhileshewasonavisittoherbrother’srectory。Doyourememberthenameoftheplace?Itoldyouitwasaremotelittlevillage,called——
Supposeweput_your_memorytoatest?Canyourememberthename?\"heasked,withamomentaryappearanceoftriumphshowingitself,poorfellow,inhisface。
Afterthetimethathadelapsed,thenamehadslippedmymemory。
WhenIconfessedthis,heexultedoverme,withanunalloyedpleasurewhichitwascheeringtosee。
\"_Your_memoryisfailingyounow,\"hesaid。\"ThenameisLongLanes。Andwhatdoyouthinkmywifedid——thisissocharacteristicofher!——whenIpresentedmyselfatherbedside。
Insteadofspeakingofourownbaby,sheremindedmeofthenamethatIhadgiventoouradopteddaughterwhenIbaptizedthechild。’Youchosetheugliestnamethatagirlcanhave,’shesaid。Ibeggedhertorememberthat’Eunice’wasanameinScripture。Shepersistedinspiteofme。(Whatfirmnessofcharacter!)’IdetestthenameofEunice!’shesaid;’andnowthatIhaveagirlofmyown,it’smyturntochoosethename;I
claimitasmyright。’Shewasbeginningtogetexcited;I
allowedhertohaveherownway,ofcourse。’Onlyletmeknow,’I
said,’whatthenameistobewhenyouhavethoughtofit。’Mydearsir,shehadthenameready,withoutthinkingaboutit:’Mybabyshallbecalledbythenamethatissweetestinmyears,thenameofmydearlostmother。’Wehad——whatshallIcallit?——aslightdifferenceofopinionwhenIheardthatthenamewastobeHelena。Ireallycould_not_reconcileittomyconsciencetobaptizeachildofminebythenameofaPopishsaint。Mywife’sbrothersetthingsrightbetweenus。Aworthygoodman;hediednotverylongago——Iforgetthedate。Nottodetainyouanylonger,therectorofLongLanesbaptizedourdaughter。Thatishowshecomesbyherun—Englishname;andsoithappensthatherbirthisregisteredinavillagewhichherfatherhasneverinhabited。Ihope,sir,youthinkalittlebetterofmymemorynow?\"
IwasafraidtotellhimwhatIreallydidthink。
Hewasnotfiftyyearsoldyet;andhehadjustexhibitedoneofthesadsymptomswhichmarkthebrokenmemoryofoldage。Leadhimbacktotheeventsofmanyyearsago,and(ashehadjustprovedtome)hecouldrememberwellandrelatecoherently。Butlethimattempttorecallcircumstanceswhichhadonlytakenplaceashorttimesince,andforgetfulnessandconfusionpresentedthelamentableresult,justasIhaverelatedit。
Theeffortthathehadmade,theagitationthathehadundergoneintalkingtome,hadconfirmedmyfearsthathewouldovertaskhiswastedstrength。Helaybackinhischair。\"Letusgoonwithourconversation,\"hemurmured。\"Wehaven’trecoveredwhatIhadforgotten,yet。\"Hiseyesclosed,andopenedagainlanguidly。
\"TherewassomethingIwantedtorecall——\"heresumed,\"andyouwerehelpingme。\"Hisweakvoicediedaway;hiswearyeyesclosedagain。Afterwaitinguntiltherecouldbenodoubtthathewasrestingpeacefullyinsleep,Ilefttheroom。
CHAPTERXXXIV。
THELIVELYOLDMAID。
APERFECTstrangertotheinteriorofthehouse(seeingthatmyexperiencebeganandendedwiththeMinister’sbedchamber),I
descendedthestairs,inthecharacterofaguestinsearchofdomesticinformation。
Onmywaydown,Iheardthedoorofaroomonthegroundflooropened,andawoman’svoicebelow,speakinginahurry:\"Mydear,Ihavenotamomenttospare;mypatientsarewaitingforme。\"Thiswasfollowedbyaconfidentialcommunication,judgingbythetone。\"Mind!notawordaboutmetothatoldgentleman!\"
Herpatientswerewaitingforher——hadIdiscoveredafemaledoctor?Andtherewassomeoldgentlemanwhomshewasnotwillingtotrust——surelyIwasnotthatmuch—injuredman?
Reachingthehalljustastheladysaidherlastwords,Icaughtaglimpseofherface,anddiscoveredthemiddle—agedstrangerwhohadcalledon\"MissJillgall,\"andhadpromisedtorepeathervisit。Asecondladywasatthedoor,withherbacktome,takingleaveofherfriend。Havingsaidgood—by,sheturnedround——andweconfrontedeachother。
Ifoundhertobealittleperson,wiryandactive;pasttheprimeoflife,anduglyenoughtoencourageprejudice,inpersonswhotakeasuperficialviewoftheirfellow—creatures。Lookingimpartiallyatthelittlesunkeneyeswhichrestedonmewithacomicalexpressionofembarrassment,Isawsignsthatsaid:Thereissomegoodhere,underadisagreeablesurface,ifyoucanonlyfindit。
Shesalutedmewithacarefully—performedcurtsey,andthrewopenthedoorofaroomonthegroundfloor。
\"Praywalkin,sir,andpermitmetointroducemyself。IamMr。
Gracedieu’scousin——MissJillgall。Proudindeedtomaketheacquaintanceofagentlemandistinguishedintheserviceofhiscountry——orperhapsIoughttosay,intheserviceoftheLaw。
TheGovernoroffershospitalitytoprisoners。AndwhointroducesprisonerstoboardandlodgingwiththeGovernor?——theLaw。
Beautifulweatherforthetimeofyear,isitnot?MayI
ask——haveyouseenyourroom?\"
TheembarrassmentwhichIhadalreadynoticedhadextendedbythistimetohervoiceandhermanner。Shewasevidentlytryingtotalkherselfintoastateofconfidence。ItseemedbuttooprobablethatIwasindeedthepersonmentionedbyherprudentfriendatthedoor。
HavingacknowledgedthatIhadnotseenmyroomyet,mypolitenessattemptedtoaddthattherewasnohurry。Thewirylittleladywasofthecontraryopinion;shejumpedoutofherchairasifshehadbeenshotoutofit。\"Prayletmemakemyselfuseful。Thedreamofmylifeistomakemyselfusefultoothers;
andtosuchamanasyou——Iconsidermyselfhonored。Besides,I
doenjoyrunningupanddownstairs。Thisway,dearsir;thiswaytoyourroom。\"
Sheskippedupthestairs,andstoppedonthefirstlanding。\"Doyouknow,Iamatimidperson,thoughImaynotlooklikeit。
Sometimes,curiositygetsthebetterofme——andthenIgrowbold。
Didyounoticealadywhowastakingleaveofmejustnowatthehousedoor?\"
IrepliedthatIhadseentheladyforamoment,butnotforthefirsttime。\"JustasIarrivedherefromthestation,\"Isaid,\"I
foundherpayingavisitwhenyouwerenotathome。\"
\"Yes——anddotellmeonethingmore。\"MyreadinessinansweringseemedtohaveinspiredMissJillgallwithconfidence。Iheardnomoreconfessionsofoverpoweringcuriosity。\"AmIright,\"sheproceeded,\"insupposingthatMissHelenaaccompaniedyou,onyourwayherefromthestation?\"
\"Quiteright。\"
\"Didshesayanythingparticular,whenshesawtheladyaskingformeatthedoor?\"