Afterwaitingforaminuteortwo,andhearingnosignalfromthefloorabove,Iadvancedintothebroaderandbrighterpartofthehall,tolookbydaylightatthepictureswhichIhadonlyimperfectlydiscoveredinthedarknessofthenight。Apaintedinscriptioninmanycolors,justunderthecorniceoftheceiling,informedmethattheworksonthewallsweretheproductionoftheall—accomplishedDexterhimself。Notsatisfiedwithbeingpoetandcomposer,hewaspainteraswell。Ononewallthesubjectsweredescribedas\"IllustrationsofthePassions;\"
ontheother,as\"EpisodesintheLifeoftheWanderingJew。\"
Chancespeculatorslikemyselfweregravelywarned,bymeansoftheinscription,toviewthepicturesaseffortsofpureimagination。\"PersonswholookformereNatureinworksofArt\"
(theinscriptionannounced)\"arepersonstowhomMr。Dexterdoesnotaddresshimselfwiththebrush。Hereliesentirelyonhisimagination。Natureputshimout。\"
TakingduecaretodismissallideasofNaturefrommymind,tobeginwith,IlookedatthepictureswhichrepresentedthePassionsfirst。
LittleasIknewcriticallyofArt,IcouldseethatMiserrimusDexterknewstilllessoftherulesofdrawing,color,andcomposition。Hispictureswere,inthestrictestmeaningofthatexpressiveword,Daubs。ThediseasedandriotousdelightofthepainterinrepresentingHorrorswas(withcertainexceptionstobehereaftermentioned)theoneremarkablequalitythatIcoulddiscoverintheseriesofhisworks。
ThefirstofthePassionpicturesillustratedRevenge。Acorpse,infancycostume,layonthebankofafoamingriver,undertheshadeofagianttree。Aninfuriatedman,alsoinfancycostume,stoodastrideoverthedeadbody,withhisswordliftedtotheloweringsky,andwatched,withahorridexpressionofdelight,thebloodofthemanwhomhehadjustkilleddrippingslowlyinaprocessionofbigreddropsdownthebroadbladeofhisweapon。
ThenextpictureillustratedCruelty,inmanycompartments。InoneIsawadisemboweledhorsesavagelyspurredonbyhisrideratabull—fight。Inanother,anagedphilosopherwasdissectingalivingcat,andgloatingoverhiswork。Inathird,twopaganspolitelycongratulatedeachotheronthetortureoftwosaints:
onesaintwasroastingonagrid—iron;theother,hunguptoatreebyhisheels,hadbeenjustskinned,andwasnotquitedeadyet。Feelingnogreatdesire,afterthesespecimens,tolookatanymoreoftheillustratedPassions,IturnedtotheoppositewalltobeinstructedinthecareeroftheWanderingJew。HereasecondinscriptioninformedmethatthepainterconsideredtheFlyingDutchmantobenootherthantheWanderingJew,pursuinghisinterminableJourneybysea。ThemarineadventuresofthismysteriouspersonageweretheadventureschosenforrepresentationbyDexter’sbrush。Thefirstpictureshowedmeaharboronarockycoast。Avesselwasatanchor,withthehelmsmansingingonthedeck。Theseaintheoffingwasblackandrolling;thunder—cloudslaylowonthehorizon,splitbybroadflashesoflightning。Intheglareofthelightning,heavingandpitching,appearedthemistyformofthePhantomShipapproachingtheshore。Inthiswork,badlyasitwaspainted,therewerereallysignsofapowerfulimagination,andevenofapoeticalfeelingforthesupernatural。ThenextpictureshowedthePhantomShip,moored(tothehorrorandastonishmentofthehelmsman)
behindtheearthlyvesselintheharbor。TheJewhadsteppedonshore。Hisboatwasonthebeach。Hiscrew——littlemenwithstony,whitefaces,dressedinfuneralblack——satinsilentrowsontheseatsoftheboat,withtheiroarsintheirlean,longhands。TheJew,alsoablack,stoodwithhiseyesandhandsraisedimploringlytothethunderousheaven。Thewildcreaturesoflandandsea——thetiger,therhinoceros,thecrocodile,thesea—serpent,theshark,andthedevil—fish——surroundedtheaccursedWandererinamysticcircle,dauntedandfascinatedatthesightofhim。Thelightningwasgone。Theskyandseahaddarkenedtoagreatblackblank。Afaintandluridlightlightedthescene,fallingdownwardfromatorch,brandishedbyanavengingSpiritthathoveredovertheJewonoutspreadvulturewings。Wildasthepicturemightbeinitsconception,therewasasuggestivepowerinitwhichIconfessstronglyimpressedme。
Themysterioussilenceinthehouse,andmystrangepositionatthemoment,nodoubthadtheireffectonmymind。WhileIwasstilllookingattheghastlycompositionbeforeme,theshrilltrillingsoundofthewhistleupstairsburstonthestillness。
ForthemomentmynervesweresocompletelyupsetthatIstartedwithacryofalarm。Ifeltamomentaryimpulsetoopenthedoorandrunout。Theideaoftrustingmyselfalonewiththemanwhohadpaintedthosefrightfulpicturesactuallyterrifiedme;Iwasobligedtositdownononeofthehallchairs。Someminutespassedbeforemymindrecovereditsbalance,andIbegantofeellikemyownordinaryselfagain。Thewhistlesoundedimpatientlyforthesecondtime。Iroseandascendedthebroadflightofstairswhichledtothefirststory。TodrawbackatthepointwhichIhadnowreachedwouldhaveutterlydegradedmeinmyownestimation。Still,myheartdidcertainlybeatfasterthanusualasIapproachedthedoorofthecircularanteroom;andIhonestlyacknowledgethatIsawmyownimprudence,justthen,inasingularlyvividlight。
Therewasaglassoverthemantel—pieceintheanteroom。I
lingeredforamoment(nervousasIwas)toseehowIlookedintheglass。
Thehangingtapestryovertheinnerdoorhadbeenleftpartiallydrawnaside。SoftlyasImoved,thedog’searsofMiserrimusDextercaughtthesoundofmydressonthefloor。Thefinetenorvoice,whichIhadlastheardsinging,calledtomesoftly。
\"IsthatMrs。Valeria?Pleasedon’twaitthere。Comein!\"
Ienteredtheinnerroom。
Thewheeledchairadvancedtomeetme,soslowlyandsosoftlythatIhardlyknewitagain。MiserrimusDexterlanguidlyheldouthishand。Hisheadinclinedpensivelytooneside;hislargeblueeyeslookedatmepiteously。Notavestigeseemedtobeleftoftheraging,shoutingcreatureofmyfirstvisit,whowasNapoleonatonemoment,andShakespeareatanother。Mr。Dexterofthemorningwasamild,thoughtful,melancholyman,whoonlyrecalledMr。Dexterofthenightbytheinveterateoddityofhisdress。
Hisjacket,onthisoccasion,wasofpinkquiltedsilk。Thecoverletwhichhidhisdeformitymatchedthejacketinpalesea—greensatin;and,tocompletethesestrangevagariesofcostume,hiswristswereactuallyadornedwithmassivebraceletsofgold,formedontheseverelysimplemodelswhichhavedescendedtousfromancienttimes。
\"Howgoodofyoutocheerandcharmmebycominghere!\"hesaid,inhismostmournfulandmostmusicaltones。\"Ihavedressed,expresslytoreceiveyou,intheprettiestclothesIhave。Don’tbesurprised。Exceptinthisignobleandmaterialnineteenthcentury,menhavealwayswornpreciousstuffsandbeautifulcolorsaswellaswomen。Ahundredyearsagoagentlemaninpinksilkwasagentlemanproperlydressed。Fifteenhundredyearsagothepatriciansoftheclassictimesworebraceletsexactlylikemine。Idespisethebrutishcontemptforbeautyandthemeandreadofexpensewhichdegradeagentleman’scostumetoblackcloth,andlimitagentleman’sornamentstoafinger—ring,intheageIlivein。IliketobebrightandIbeautiful,especiallywhenbrightnessandbeautycometoseeme。Youdon’tknowhowpreciousyoursocietyistome。Thisisoneofmymelancholydays。Tearsriseunbiddentomyeyes。Isighandsorrowovermyself;Ilanguishforpity。JustthinkofwhatIam!Apoorsolitarycreature,cursedwithafrightfuldeformity。Howpitiable!howdreadful!Myaffectionateheart——wasted。Myextraordinarytalents——uselessormisapplied。Sad!sad!sad!
Pleasepityme。\"
Hiseyeswerepositivelyfilledwithtears——tearsofcompassionforhimself!Helookedatmeandspoketomewiththewailing,querulousentreatyofasickchildwantingtobenursed。Iwasutterlyatalosswhattodo。Itwasperfectlyridiculous——butI
wasnevermoreembarrassedinmylife。
\"Pleasepityme!\"herepeated。\"Don’tbecruel。Ionlyaskalittlething。PrettyMrs。Valeria,sayyoupityme!\"
IsaidIpitiedhim——andIfeltthatIblushedasIdidit。
\"Thankyou,\"saidMiserrimusDexter,humbly。\"Itdoesmegood。Goalittlefurther。Patmyhand。\"
Itriedtorestrainmyself;butthesenseoftheabsurdityofthislastpetition(quitegravelyaddressedtome,remember!)wastoostrongtobecontrolled。Iburstoutlaughing。
MiserrimusDexterlookedatmewithablankastonishmentwhichonlyincreasedmymerriment。HadIoffendedhim?Apparentlynot。
Recoveringfromhisastonishment,helaidhisheadluxuriouslyonthebackofhischair,withtheexpressionofamanwhowaslisteningcriticallytoaperformanceofsomesort。WhenIhadquiteexhaustedmyself,heraisedhisheadandclappedhisshapelywhitehands,andhonoredmewithan\"encore。\"
\"Doitagain,\"hesaid,stillinthesamechildishway。\"MerryMrs。Valeria,_you_haveamusicallaugh——_I_haveamusicalear。
Doitagain。\"
Iwasseriousenoughbythistime。\"Iamashamedofmyself,Mr。
Dexter,\"Isaid。\"Prayforgiveme。\"
Hemadenoanswertothis;Idoubtifheheardme。Hisvariabletemperappearedtobeincourseofundergoingsomenewchange。Hesatlookingatmydress(asIsupposed)withasteadyandanxiousattention,gravelyforminghisownconclusions,steadfastlypursuinghisowntrainofthought。
\"Mrs。Valeria,\"heburstoutsuddenly,\"youarenotcomfortableinthatchair。\"
\"Pardonme,\"Ireplied;\"Iamquitecomfortable。\"
\"Pardon_me,_\"herejoined。\"ThereisachairofIndianbasket—workatthatendoftheroomwhichismuchbettersuitedtoyou。WillyouacceptmyapologiesifIamrudeenoughtoallowyoutofetchitforyourself?Ihaveareason。\"
Hehadareason!Whatnewpieceofeccentricitywasheabouttoexhibit?Iroseandfetchedthechair。Itwaslightenoughtobequiteeasilycarried。AsIreturnedtohim,Inoticedthathiseyeswerestrangelyemployedinwhatseemedtobetheclosestscrutinyofmydress。And,strangerstill,theresultofthisappearedtobepartlytointerestandpartlytodistresshim。
Iplacedthechairnearhim,andwasabouttotakemyseatinit,whenhesentmebackagain,onanothererrand,totheendoftheroom。
\"Obligemeindescribably,\"hesaid。\"Thereisahand—screenhangingonthewall,whichmatchesthechair。Wearerathernearthefirehere。Youmayfindthescreenuseful。Oncemoreforgivemeforlettingyoufetchitforyourself。OncemoreletmeassureyouthatIhaveareason。\"
Herewashis\"reason,\"reiterated,emphaticallyreiterated,forthesecondtime!CuriositymademeascompletelytheobedientservantofhiscapricesasArielherself。Ifetchedthehand—screen。Returningwithit,Imethiseyesstillfixedwiththesameincomprehensibleattentiononmyperfectlyplainandunpretendingdress,andstillexpressingthesamecuriousmixtureofinterestandregret。
\"Thankyouathousandtimes,\"hesaid。\"Youhave(quiteinnocently)wrungmyheart。Butyouhavenotthelessdonemeaninestimablekindness。WillyoupromisenottobeoffendedwithmeifIconfessthetruth?\"
HewasapproachinghisexplanationInevergaveapromisemorereadilyinmylife。
\"Ihaverudelyallowedyoutofetchyourchairandyourscreenforyourself,\"hewenton。\"Mymotivewillseemaverystrangeone,Iamafraid。DidyouobservethatInoticedyouveryattentively——tooattentively,perhaps?\"
\"Yes,\"Isaid。\"Ithoughtyouwerenoticingmydress。\"
Heshookhishead,andsighedbitterly。
\"Notyourdress,\"hesaid;\"andnotyourface。Yourdressisdark。Yourfaceisstillstrangetome。DearMrs。Valeria,I
wantedtoseeyouwalk。\"
Toseemewalk!Whatdidhemean?Wherewasthaterraticmindofhiswanderingtonow?
\"YouhavearareaccomplishmentforanEnglishwoman,\"heresumed——\"youwalkwell。_She_walkedwell。Icouldn’tresistthetemptationofseeingheragain,inseeingyou。Itwas_her_
movement,_her_sweet,simple,unsoughtgrace(notyours),whenyouwalkedtotheendoftheroomandreturnedtome。Youraisedherfromthedeadwhenyoufetchedthechairandthescreen。
Pardonmeformakinguseofyou:theideawasinnocent,themotivewassacred。Youhavedistressed——anddelightedme。Myheartbleeds——andthanksyou。\"
Hepausedforamoment;helethisheaddrooponhisbreast,thensuddenlyraiseditagain。
\"Surelyweweretalkingaboutherlastnight?\"hesaid。\"WhatdidIsay?whatdidyousay?Mymemoryisconfused;Ihalfremember,halfforget。Pleaseremindme。You’renotoffendedwithme——areyou?\"
Imighthavebeenoffendedwithanotherman。Notwithhim。Iwasfartooanxioustofindmywayintohisconfidence——nowthathehadtouchedofhisownaccordonthesubjectofEustace’sfirstwife——tobeoffendedwithMiserrimusDexter。
\"Wewerespeaking,\"Ianswered,\"ofMrs。EustaceMacallan’sdeath,andweweresayingtooneanother——\"
Heinterruptedme,leaningforwardeagerlyinhischair。
\"Yes!yes!\"heexclaimed。\"AndIwaswonderingwhatinterest_you_couldhaveinpenetratingthemysteryofherdeath。Tellme!Confideinme!Iamdyingtoknow!\"
\"NotevenyouhaveastrongerinterestinthatsubjectthantheinterestthatIfeel,\"Isaid。\"Thehappinessofmywholelifetocomedependsonmyclearingupthemystery。\"
\"GoodGod——why?\"hecried。\"Stop!Iamexcitingmyself。Imustn’tdothat。Imusthaveallmywitsaboutme;Imustn’twander。Thethingistooserious。Waitaminute!\"
Anelegantlittlebasketwashookedontooneofthearmsofhischair。Heopenedit,anddrewoutastripofembroiderypartiallyfinished,withthenecessarymaterialsforworking,acomplete。
Welookedateachotheracrosstheembroidery。Henoticedmysurprise。
\"Women,\"hesaid,\"wiselycomposetheirminds,andhelpthemselvestothinkquietly,bydoingneedle—work。Whyaremensuchfoolsastodenythemselvesthesameadmirableresource——thesimpleandsoothingoccupationwhichkeepsthenervessteadyandleavesthemindcalmandfree?Asaman,Ifollowthewoman’swiseexample。Mrs。Valeria,permitmetocomposemyself。\"
Gravelyarranginghisembroidery,thisextraordinarybeingbegantoworkwiththepatientandnimbledexterityofanaccomplishedneedle—woman。
\"Now,\"saidMiserrimusDexter,\"ifyouareready,Iam。Youtalk——Iwork。Pleasebegin。\"
Iobeyedhim,andbegan。
CHAPTERXXVIII。
INTHEDARK。
WITHsuchamanasMiserrimusDexter,andwithsuchapurposeasIhadinview,nohalf—confidenceswerepossible。ImusteitherriskthemostunreservedacknowledgmentoftheintereststhatI
reallyhadatstake,orImustmakethebestexcusethatoccurredtomeforabandoningmycontemplatedexperimentatthelastmoment。Inmypresentcriticalsituation,nosuchrefugeasamiddlecourselaybeforeme——evenifIhadbeeninclinedtotakeit。Asthingswere,Iranrisks,andplungedheadlongintomyownaffairsatstarting。
\"Thusfar,youknowlittleornothingaboutme,Mr。Dexter,\"I
said。\"Youare,asIbelieve,quiteunawarethatmyhusbandandI
arenotlivingtogetheratthepresenttime。\"
\"Isitnecessarytomentionyourhusband?\"heasked,coldly,withoutlookingupfromhisembroidery,andwithoutpausinginhiswork。
\"Itisabsolutelynecessary,\"Ianswered。\"Icanexplainmyselftoyouinnootherway。\"
Hebenthishead,andsighedresignedly。
\"Youandyourhusbandarenotlivingtogetheratthepresenttime,\"heresumed。\"DoesthatmeanthatEustacehasleftyou?\"
\"Hehasleftme,andhasgoneabroad。\"
\"Withoutanynecessityforit?\"
\"Withouttheleastnecessity。\"
\"Hasheappointednotimeforhisreturntoyou?\"
\"Ifhepersevereinhispresentresolution,Mr。Dexter,Eustacewillneverreturntome。\"
Forthefirsttimeheraisedhisheadfromhisembroidery——withasuddenappearanceofinterest。
\"Isthequarrelsoseriousasthat?\"heasked。\"Areyoufreeofeachother,prettyMrs。Valeria,bycommonconsentofbothparties?\"
Thetoneinwhichheputthequestionwasnotatalltomyliking。ThelookhefixedonmewasalookwhichunpleasantlysuggestedthatIhadtrustedmyselfalonewithhim,andthathemightendintakingadvantageofit。Iremindedhimquietly,bymymannermorethanbymywords,oftherespectwhichheowedtome。
\"Youareentirelymistaken,\"Isaid。\"Thereisnoanger——thereisnotevenamisunderstandingbetweenus。Ourpartinghascostbittersorrow,Mr。Dexter,tohimandtome。\"
Hesubmittedtobesetrightwithironicalresignation。\"Iamallattention,\"hesaid,threadinghisneedle。\"Praygoon;Iwon’tinterruptyouagain。\"Actingonthisinvitation,Itoldhimthetruthaboutmyhusbandandmyselfquiteunreservedly,takingcare,however,atthesametime,toputEustace’smotivesinthebestlightthattheywouldbear。MiserrimusDexterdroppedhisembroideryonhislap,andlaughedsoftlytohimself,withanimpishenjoymentofmypoorlittlenarrative,whichseteverynerveinmeonedgeasIlookedathim。
\"Iseenothingtolaughat,\"Isaid,sharply。
Hisbeautifulblueeyesrestedonmewithalookofinnocentsurprise。
\"Nothingtolaughat,\"herepeated,\"insuchanexhibitionofhumanfollyasyouhavejustdescribed?\"Hisexpressionsuddenlychangedhisfacedarkenedandhardenedverystrangely。\"Stop!\"hecried,beforeIcouldanswerhim。\"Therecanbeonlyonereasonforyou’retakingitasseriouslyasyoudo。Mrs。Valeria!youarefondofyourhusband。\"
\"Fondofhimisn’tstrongenoughtoexpressit,\"Iretorted。\"I
lovehimwithmywholeheart。\"
MiserrimusDexterstrokedhismagnificentbeard,andcontemplativelyrepeatedmywords。\"Youlovehimwithyourwholeheart?Doyouknowwhy?\"
\"BecauseIcan’thelpit,\"Ianswered,doggedly。
Hesmiledsatirically,andwentonwithhisembroidery。
\"Curious!\"hesaidtohimself;\"Eustace’sfirstwifelovedhimtoo。Therearesomemenwhomthewomenalllike,andthereareothermenwhomthewomennevercarefor。Withouttheleastreasonforitineithercase。Theonemanisjustasgoodastheother;
justashandsome,asagreeable,ashonorable,andashighinrankastheother。AndyetforNumberOnetheywillgothroughfireandwater,andforNumberTwotheywon’tsomuchasturntheirheadstolookathim。Why?Theydon’tknowthemselves——asMrs。
Valeriahasjustsaid!Isthereaphysicalreasonforit?IstheresomepotentmagneticemanationfromNumberOnewhichNumberTwodoesn’tpossess?ImustinvestigatethiswhenIhavethetime,andwhenIfindmyselfinthehumor。\"Havingsofarsettledthequestiontohisownentiresatisfaction,helookedupatmeagain。\"Iamstillinthedarkaboutyouandyourmotives,\"hesaid。\"IamstillasfaraseverfromunderstandingwhatyourinterestisininvestigatingthathideoustragedyatGleninch。
CleverMrs。Valeria,pleasetakemebythehand,andleadmeintothelight。You’renotoffendedwithmeareyou?Makeitup;andI
willgiveyouthisprettypieceofembroiderywhenIhavedoneit。Iamonlyapoor,solitary,deformedwretch,withaquaintturnofmind;Imeannoharm。Forgiveme!indulgeme!enlightenme!\"
Heresumedhischildishways;herecover,hisinnocentsmile,withtheoddlittlepuckersandwrinklesaccompanyingitatthecornersofhiseyes。IbegantodoubtwhetherImightnothavebeenunreasonablyhardonhim。Ipenitentlyresolvedtobemoreconsideratetowardhisinfirmitiesofmindandbodyduringtheremainderofmyvisit。
\"Letmegobackforamoment,Mr。Dexter,topasttimesatGleninch,\"Isaid。\"YouagreewithmeinbelievingEustacetobeabsolutelyinnocentofthecrimeforwhichhewastried。YourevidenceattheTrialtellsmethat。\"
Hepausedoverhiswork,andlookedatmewithagraveandsternattentionwhichpresentedhisfaceinquiteanewlight。
\"Thatis_our_opinion,\"Iresumed。\"ButitwasnottheopinionoftheJury。Theirverdict,youremember,wasNotProven。InplainEnglish,theJurywhotriedmyhusbanddeclinedtoexpresstheiropinion,positivelyandpublicly,thathewasinnocent。AmIright?\"
Insteadofanswering,hesuddenlyputhisembroiderybackinthebasket,andmovedthemachineryofhischair,soastobringitclosebymine。
\"Whotoldyouthis?\"heasked。
\"Ifounditformyselfinabook。\"
Thusfarhisfacehadexpressedsteadyattention——andnomore。
Now,forthefirsttime,IthoughtIsawsomethingdarklypassingoverhimwhichbetrayeditselftomymindasrisingdistrust。
\"Ladiesarenotgenerallyinthehabitoftroublingtheirheadsaboutdryquestionsoflaw,\"hesaid。\"Mrs。EustaceMacallantheSecond,youmusthavesomeverypowerfulmotiveforturningyourstudiesthatway。\"
\"Ihaveaverypowerfulmotive,Mr。DexterMyhusbandisresignedtotheScotchVerdictHismotherisresignedtoit。Hisfriends(sofarasIknow)areresignedtoit——\"
\"Well?\"
\"Well!Idon’tagreewithmyhusband,orhismother,orhisfriends。IrefusetosubmittotheScotchVerdict。\"
TheinstantIsaidthosewords,themadnessinhimwhichIhadhithertodenied,seemedtobreakout。Hesuddenlystretchedhimselfoverhischair:hepouncedonme,withahandoneachofmyshoulders;hiswildeyesquestionedmefiercely,frantically,withinafewinchesofmyface。
\"Whatdoyoumean?\"heshouted,attheutmostpitchofhisringingandresonantvoice。
Adeadlyfearofhimshookme。Ididmybesttohidetheoutwardbetrayalofit。Bylookandword,Ishowedhim,asfirmlyasI
could,thatIresentedthelibertyhehadtakenwithme。
\"Removeyourhands,sir,\"Isaid,\"andretiretoyourproperplace。\"
Heobeyedmemechanically。Heapologizedtomemechanically。HiswholemindwasevidentlystillfilledwiththewordsthatIhadspokentohim,andstillbentondiscoveringwhatthosewordsmeant。
\"Ibegyourpardon,\"hesaid;\"Ihumblybegyourpardon。Thesubjectexcitesme,frightensme,maddensme。Youdon’tknowwhatadifficultyIhaveincontrollingmyself。Nevermind。Don’ttakemeseriously。Don’tbefrightenedatme。Iamsoashamedofmyself——Ifeelsosmallandsomiserableathavingoffendedyou。
Makemesufferforit。Takeastickandbeatme。Tiemedowninmychair。CallupAriel,whoisasstrongasahorse,andtellhertoholdme。DearMrs。Valeria!InjuredMrs。Valeria!I’llendureanythinginthewayofpunishment,ifyouwillonlytellmewhatyoumeanbynotsubmittingtotheScotchVerdict。\"Hebackedhischairpenitentlyashemadethatentreaty。\"AmIfarenoughawayyet?\"heasked,witharuefullook。\"DoIstillfrightenyou?I’lldropoutofsight,ifyoupreferit,inthebottomofthechair。\"
Heliftedthesea—greencoverlet。InanothermomenthewouldhavedisappearedlikeapuppetinashowifIhadnotstoppedhim。
\"Saynothingmore,anddonothingmore;Iacceptyourapologies,\"Isaid。\"WhenItellyouthatIrefusetosubmittotheopinionoftheScotchJury,Imeanexactlywhatmywordsexpress。Thatverdicthasleftastainonmyhusband’scharacter。Hefeelsthestainbitterly。HowbitterlynooneknowssowellasIdo。Hissenseofhisdegradationisthesensethathaspartedhimfromme。Itisnotenoughfor_him_
thatIampersuadedofhisinnocence。Nothingwillbringhimbacktome——nothingwillpersuadeEustacethatIthinkhimworthytobetheguideandcompanionofmylife——buttheproofofhisinnocence,setbeforetheJurywhichdoubtsit,andthepublicwhichdoubtsit,tothisday。Heandhisfriendsandhislawyersalldespairofeverfindingthatproofnow。ButIamhiswife;
andnoneofyoulovehimasIlovehim。Ialonerefusetodespair;Ialonerefusetolistentoreason。IfGodspareme,Mr。
Dexter,Idedicatemylifetothevindicationofmyhusband’sinnocence。Youarehisoldfriend——Iamheretoaskyoutohelpme。\"
Itappearedtobenowmyturntofrighten_him。_Thecolorlefthisface。Hepassedhishandrestlesslyoverhisforehead,asifheweretryingtobrushsomedelusionoutofhisbrain。
\"Isthisoneofmydreams?\"heasked,faintly。\"AreyouaVisionofthenight?\"
\"Iamonlyafriendlesswoman,\"Isaid,\"whohaslostallthatshelovedandprized,andwhoistryingtowinitbackagain。\"
Hebegantomovehischairnearertomeoncemore。Iliftedmyhand。Hestoppedthechairdirectly。Therewasamomentofsilence。Wesatwatchingoneanother。Isawhishandstrembleashelaidthemonthecoverlet;Isawhisfacegrowpalerandpaler,andhisunderlipdrop。WhatdeadandburiedremembranceshadIbroughttolifeinhim,inalltheiroldenhorror?
Hewasthefirsttospeakagain。
\"Sothisisyourinterest,\"hesaid,\"inclearingupthemysteryofMrs。EustaceMacallan’sdeath?\"
\"Yes。\"
\"AndyoubelievethatIcanhelpyou?\"
\"Ido。\"