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  Thoughhiseyestooknoteofmanyelementsofthecrowdthroughwhichhepassed,theydidsomorosely。Hefoundtrivialallthatwasmeanttocharmhim,anddidnotanswertheglanceswhichinvitedhimtobebold。Heknewthathewouldhavetospeakagreatdeal,toinventandtoamuse,andhisbrainandthroatweretoodryforsuchatask。TheproblemofhowhecouldpassthehourstillhemetCorleyagaintroubledhimalittle。Hecouldthinkofnowayofpassingthembuttokeeponwalking。HeturnedtotheleftwhenhecametothecornerofRutlandSquare,andfeltmoreateaseinthedarkquietstreet,thesombrelookofwhichsuitedhismood。Hepausedatlastbeforethewindowofapoor-lookingshopoverwhichthewordsRefreshmentBarwereprintedinwhiteletters。Ontheglassofthewindowweretwoflyinginscriptions:GingerBeerandGingerAle。ACuthamwasexposedonagreatbluedish,whilenearitonaplatelayasegmentofverylightplum-pudding。Heeyedthisfoodearnestlyforsometime,andthen,afterglancingwarilyupanddownthestreet,wentintotheshopquickly。

  Hewashungry,for,exceptsomebiscuitswhichhehadaskedtwogrudgingcuratestobringhim,hehadeatennothingsincebreakfast-time。Hesatdownatanuncoveredwoodentableoppositetwowork-girlsandamechanic。

  Aslatternlygirlwaitedonhim。

  `Howmuchisaplateofpeas?’heasked。

  `Threehalfpence,sir,’saidthegirl。

  `Bringmeaplateofpeas,’hesaid,`andabottleofgingerbeer。’

  Hespokeroughlyinordertobeliehisairofgentility,forhisentryhadbeenfollowedbyapauseoftalk。Hisfacewasheated。Toappearnaturalhepushedhiscapbackonhisheadandplantedhiselbowsonthetable。

  Themechanicandthetwowork-girlsexaminedhimpointbypointbeforeresumingtheirconversationinasubduedvoice。Thegirlbroughthimaplateofgrocer’shotpeas,seasonedwithpepperandvinegar,afork,andhisgingerbeer。Heatehisfoodgreedilyandfounditsogoodthathemadeanoteoftheshopmentally。WhenhehadeatenallthepeashesippedhisgingerbeerandsatforsometimethinkingofCorley’sadventure。Inhisimaginationhebeheldthepairofloverswalkingalongsomedarkroad;

  heheardCorley’svoiceindeepenergeticgallantries,andsawagaintheleeroftheyoungwoman’smouth。Thisvisionmadehimfeelkeenlyhisownpovertyofpurseandspirit。Hewastiredofknockingabout,ofpullingthedevilbythetail,ofshiftsandintrigues。Hewouldbethirty-oneinNovember。Wouldhenevergetagoodjob?Wouldheneverhaveahomeofhisown?Hethoughthowpleasantitwouldbetohaveawarmfiretositbyandagooddinnertositdownto。Hehadwalkedthestreetslongenoughwithfriendsandwithgirls。Heknewwhatthosefriendswereworth:

  heknewthegirlstoo。Experiencehadembitteredhisheartagainsttheworld。Butallhopehadnotlefthim。Hefeltbetterafterhavingeatenthanhehadfeltbefore,lesswearyofhislife,lessvanquishedinspirit。

  Hemightyetbeabletosettledowninsomesnugcornerandlivehappilyifhecouldonlycomeacrosssomegoodsimple-mindedgirlwithalittleoftheready。

  Hepaidtwopencehalfpennytotheslatternlygirl,andwentoutoftheshoptobeginhiswanderingagain。HewentintoCapelStreetandwalkedalongtowardstheCityHall。ThenheturnedintoDameStreet。AtthecornerofGeorge’sStreethemettwofriendsofhis,andstoppedtoconversewiththem。Hewasgladthathecouldrestfromallhiswalking。HisfriendsaskedhimhadheseenCorley,andwhatwasthelatest。HerepliedthathehadspentthedaywithCorley。Hisfriendstalkedverylittle。Theylookedvacantlyaftersomefiguresinthecrowd,andsometimesmadeacriticalremark。OnesaidthathehadseenMacanhourbeforeinWestmorelandStreet。

  AtthisLenehansaidthathehadbeenwithMacthenightbeforeinEgan’s。

  TheyoungmanwhohadseenMacinWestmorelandStreetaskedwasittruethatMachadwonabitoverabilliardsmatch。Lenehandidnotknow:hesaidthatHolohanhadstoodthemdrinksinEgan’s。

  HelefthisfriendsataquartertotenandwentupGeorge’sStreet。

  HeturnedtotheleftattheCityMarketsandwalkedonintoGraftonStreet。

  Thecrowdofgirlsandyoungmenhadthinned,andonhiswayupthestreetheheardmanygroupsandcouplesbiddingoneanothergoodnight。HewentasfarastheclockoftheCollegeofSurgeons:itwasonthestrokeoften。HesetoffbrisklyalongthenorthernsideoftheGreen,hurryingforfearCorleyshouldreturntoosoon。WhenhereachedthecornerofMerrionStreethetookhisstandintheshadowofalamp,andbroughtoutoneofthecigaretteswhichhehadreservedandlitit。Heleanedagainstthelamp-postandkepthisgazefixedonthepartfromwhichheexpectedtoseeCorleyandtheyoungwomanreturn。

  Hismindbecameactiveagain。HewonderedhadCorleymanageditsuccessfully。

  Hewonderedifhehadaskedheryetorifhewouldleaveittothelast。

  Hesufferedallthepangsandthrillsofhisfriend’ssituationaswellasthoseofhisown。ButthememoryofCorley’sslowlyrevolvingheadcalmedhimsomewhat:hewassureCorleywouldpullitoffallright。AllatoncetheideastruckhimthatperhapsCorleyhadseenherhomebyanotherway,andgivenhimtheslip。Hiseyessearchedthestreet:therewasnosignofthem。YetitwassurelyhalfanhoursincehehadseentheclockoftheCollegeofSurgeons。WouldCorleydoathinglikethat?HelithisFastcigaretteandbegantosmokeitnervously。Hestrainedhiseyesaseachtramstoppedatthefarcornerofthesquare。Theymusthavegonehomebyanotherway。Thepaperofhiscigarettebrokeandheflungitintotheroadwithacurse。

  Suddenlyhesawthemcomingtowardshim。Hestartedwithdelight,andkeepingclosetohislamp-posttriedtoreadtheresultintheirwalk。

  Theywerewalkingquickly,theyoungwomantakingquickshortsteps,whileCorleykeptbesideherwithhislongstride。Theydidnotseemtobespeaking。

  Anintimationoftheresultprickedhimlikethepointofasharpinstrument。

  HeknewCorleywouldfail;heknewitwasnogo。

  TheyturneddownBaggotStreet,andhefollowedthematonce,takingtheotherfootpath。Whentheystoppedhestoppedtoo。Theytalkedforafewmoments,andthentheyoungwomanwentdownthestepsintotheareaofahouse。Corleyremainedstandingattheedgeofthepath,alittledistancefromthefrontsteps。Someminutespassed。Thenthehall-doorwasopenedslowlyandcautiously。Awomancamerunningdownthefrontstepsandcoughed。Corleyturnedandwenttowardsher。Hisbroadfigurehidhersfromviewforafewsecondsandthenshereappeared,runningupthesteps。

  Thedoorclosedonher,andCorleybegantowalkswiftlytowardsStephen’sGreen。

  Lenehanhurriedoninthesamedirection。Somedropsoflightrainfell。

  Hetookthemasawarning,andglancingbacktowardsthehousewhichtheyoungwomanhadenteredtoseethathewasnotobserved,heraneagerlyacrosstheroad。Anxietyandhisswiftrunmadehimpant。Hecalledout:

  `Hallo,Corley!’

  Corleyturnedhisheadtoseewhohadcalledhim,andthencontinuedwalkingasbefore。Lenehanranafterhim,settlingthewaterproofonhisshoulderswithonehand。

  `Hallo,Corley!’hecriedagain。

  Hecamelevelwithhisfriendandlookedkeenlyinhisface。Hecouldseenothingthere。

  `Well?’hesaid。`Diditcomeoff?’

  TheyhadreachedthecornerofElyPlace。Stillwithoutanswering,Corleyswervedtotheleftandwentupthesidestreet。Hisfeatureswerecomposedinsterncalm。Lenehankeptupwithhisfriend,breathinguneasily。Hewasbaffled,andanoteofmenacepiercedthroughhisvoice。

  `Can’tyoutellus?’hesaid。`Didyoutryher?’

  Corleyhaltedatthefirstlampandstaredgrimlybeforehim。Thenwithagravegestureheextendedahandtowardsthelightand,smiling,openeditslowlytothegazeofhisdisciple。Asmallgoldcoinshoneinthepalm。

  TheBoardingHouse

  MrsMooneywasabutcher’sdaughter。Shewasawomanwhowasquiteabletokeepthingstoherself:adeterminedwoman。Shehadmarriedherfather’sforeman,andopenedabutcher’sshopnearSpringGardens。Butassoonashisfather-in-lawwasdeadMrMooneybegantogotothedevil。Hedrank,plunderedthetill,ranheadlongintodebt。Itwasnousemakinghimtakethepledge:hewassuretobreakoutagainafewdaysafter。Byfightinghiswifeinthepresenceofcustomersandbybuyingbadmeatheruinedhisbusiness。Onenighthewentforhiswifewiththecleaver,andshehadtosleepinaneighbour’shouse。

  Afterthattheylivedapart。Shewenttothepriestandgotaseparationfromhim,withcareofthechildren。Shewouldgivehimneithermoneynorfoodnorhouse-room;andsohewasobligedtoenlisthimselfasasheriff’sman。Hewasashabbystoopedlittledrunkardwithawhitefaceandawhitemoustacheandwhiteeyebrows,pencilledabovehislittleeyes,whichwerepink-veinedandraw;andalldaylonghesatinthebailiff’sroom,waitingtobeputonajob。MrsMooney,whohadtakenwhatremainedofhermoneyoutofthebutcherbusinessandsetupaboardinghouseinHardwickeStreet,wasabigimposingwoman。HerhousehadafloatingpopulationmadeupoftouristsfromLiverpoolandtheIsleofManand,occasionally,artistesfromthemusichalls。Itsresidentpopulationwasmadeupofclerksfromthecity。Shegovernedthehousecunninglyandfirmly,knewwhentogivecredit,whentobesternandwhentoletthingspass。AlltheresidentyoungmenspokeofherasTheMadam。

  MrsMooney’syoungmenpaidfifteenshillingsaweekforboardandlodgings(beerorstoutatdinnerexcluded)。Theysharedincommontastesandoccupationsandforthisreasontheywereverychummywithoneanother。Theydiscussedwithoneanotherthechancesoffavouritesandoutsiders。JackMooney,theMadam’sson,whowasclerktoacommissionagentinFleetStreet,hadthereputationofbeingahardcase。Hewasfondofusingsoldiers’obscenities:

  usuallyhecamehomeinthesmallhours。Whenhemethisfriendshehadalwaysagoodonetotellthem,andhewasalwayssuretobeontoagoodthing-thatistosay,alikelyhorseoralikelyartiste。Hewasalsohandywiththemitsandsangcomicsongs。OnSundaynightstherewouldoftenbeareunioninMrsMooney’sfrontdrawing-room。Themusic-hallartisteswouldoblige;andSheridanplayedwaltzesandpolkasandvampedaccompaniments。

  PollyMooney,theMadam’sdaughter,wouldalsosing。Shesang:I’ma……naughtygirlYouneedn’tsham:

  YouknowIam。Pollywasaslimgirlofnineteen;shehadlightsofthairandasmallfullmouth。Hereyes,whichweregreywithashadeofgreenthroughthem,hadahabitofglancingupwardswhenshespokewithanyone,whichmadeherlooklikealittleperversemadonna。MrsMooneyhadfirstsentherdaughtertobeatypistinacorn-factor’soffice,butasadisreputablesheriff’smanusedtocomeeveryotherdaytotheoffice,askingtobeallowedtosayawordtohisdaughter,shehadtakenherdaughterhomeagainandsethertodohousework。AsPollywasverylively,theintentionwastogivehertherunoftheyoungmen。Besides,youngmenliketofeelthatthereisayoungwomannotveryfaraway。Polly,ofcourse,flirtedwiththeyoungmen,butMrsMooney,whowasashrewdjudge,knewthattheyoungmenwereonlypassingthetimeaway:noneofthemmeantbusiness。

  Thingswentonsoforalongtime,andMrsMooneybegantothinkofsendingPollybacktotypewriting,whenshenoticedthatsomethingwasgoingonbetweenPollyandoneoftheyoungmen。Shewatchedthepairandkeptherowncounsel。

  Pollyknewthatshewasbeingwatched,butstillhermother’spersistentsilencecouldnotbemisunderstood。Therehadbeennoopencomplicitybetweenmotheranddaughter,noopenunderstanding,butthoughpeopleinthehousebegantotalkoftheaffair,stillMrsMooneydidnotintervene。Pollybegantogrowalittlestrangeinhermanner,andtheyoungmanwasevidentlyperturbed。Atlast,whenshejudgedittobetherightmoment,MrsMooneyintervened。Shedealtwithmoralproblemsasacleaverdealswithmeat:

  andinthiscaseshehadmadeuphermind。

  ItwasabrightSundaymorningofearlysummer,promisingheat,butwithafreshbreezeblowing。Allthewindowsoftheboardinghousewereopenandthelacecurtainsballoonedgentlytowardsthestreetbeneaththeraisedsashes。ThebelfryofGeorge’sChurchsentoutconstantpeals,andworshippers,singlyoringroups,traversedthelittlecircusbeforethechurch,revealingtheirpurposebytheirself-containeddemeanournolessthanbythelittlevolumesintheirglovedhands。Breakfastwasoverintheboardinghouse,andthetableofthebreakfast-roomwascoveredwithplatesonwhichlayyellowstreaksofeggswithmorselsofbacon-fatandbacon-rind。MrsMooneysatinthestrawarm-chairandwatchedtheservantMaryremovethebreakfastthings。ShemadeMarycollectthecrustsandpiecesofbrokenbreadtohelptomakeTuesday’sbread-pudding。Whenthetablewascleared,thebrokenbreadcollected,thesugarandbuttersafeunderlockandkey,shebegantoreconstructtheinterviewwhichshehadhadthenightbeforewithPolly。Thingswereasshehadsuspected:shehadbeenfrankinherquestionsandPollyhadbeenfrankinheranswers。

  Bothhadbeensomewhatewkward,ofcourse。Shehadbeenmadeawkwardbyhernotwishingtoreceivethenewsintoocavalierafashionortoseemtohaveconnived,andPollyhadbeenmadeawkwardnotmerelybecauseallusionsofthatkindalwaysmadeherawkward,butalsobecauseshedidnotwishittobethoughtthatinherwiseinnocenceshehaddivinedtheintentionbehindhermother’stolerance。

  MrsMooneyglancedinstinctivelyatthelittlegiltclockonthemantelpieceassoonasshehadbecomeawarethroughherreveriethatthebellsofGeorge’sChurchhadstoppedringing。Itwasseventeenminutespasteleven:shewouldhavelotsoftimetohavethematteroutwithMrDoranandthencatchshorttwelveatMarlboroughStreet。Shewassureshewouldwin。Tobeginwith,shehadalltheweightofsocialopiniononherside:shewasanoutragedmother。Shehadallowedhimtolivebeneathherroof,assumingthathewasamanofhonour,andhehadsimplyabusedherhospitality。Hewasthirty-fourorthirty-fiveyearsofage,sothatyouthcouldnotbepleadedashisexcuse;norcouldignorancebehisexcuse,sincehewasamanwhohadseensomethingoftheworld。HehadsimplytakenadvantageofPolly’syouthandinexperience:thatwasevident。Thequestionwas:Whatreparationwouldhemake?

  Theremustbereparationmadeinsuchacase。Itisallverywellfortheman:hecangohiswaysasifnothinghadhappened,havinghadhismomentofpleasure,butthegirlhastobearthebrunt。Somemotherswouldbecontenttopatchupsuchanaffairforasumofmoney:shehadknowncasesofit。Butshewouldnotdoso。Forheronlyonereparationcouldmakeupforthelossofherdaughter’shonour:marriage。

  ShecountedallhercardsagainbeforesendingMaryuptoMrDoran’sroomtosaythatshewishedtospeakwithhim。Shefeltsureshewouldwin。Hewasaseriousyoungman,notrakishorloud-voicedliketheothers。

  IfithadbeenMrSheridanorMrMeadeorBantamLyons,hertaskwouldhavebeenmuchharder。Shedidnotthinkhewouldfacepublicity。Allthelodgersinthehouseknewsomethingoftheaffair;detailshadbeeninventedbysome。Besides,hehadbeenemployedforthirteenyearsinagreatCatholicwine-merchant’soffice,andpublicitywouldmeanforhim,perhaps,thelossofhisjob。Whereasifheagreedallmightbewell。Sheknewhehadagoodscrewforonething,andshesuspectedhehadabitofstuffputby。

  Nearlythehalf-hour!Shestoodupandsurveyedherselfinthepier-glass。

  Thedecisiveexpressionofhergreatfloridfacesatisfiedher,andshethoughtofsomemotherssheknewwhocouldnotgettheirdaughtersofftheirhands。

  MrDoranwasveryanxiousindeedthisSundaymorning。Hehadmadetwoattemptstoshave,buthishandhadbeensounsteadythathehadbeenobligedtodesist。Threedays’reddishbeardfringedhisjaws,andeverytwoorthreeminutesamistgatheredonhisglassessothathehadtotakethemoffandpolishthemwithhispocket-handkerchief。Therecollectionofhisconfessionofthenightbeforewasacauseofacutepaintohim;thepriesthaddrawnouteveryridiculousdetailoftheaffair,andintheendhadsomagnifiedhissinthathewasalmostthankfulatbeingaffordedaloopholeofreparation。Theharmwasdone。Whatcouldhedonowbutmarryherorrunaway?Hecouldnotbrazenitout。Theaffairwouldbesuretobetalkedof,andhisemployerwouldbecertaintohearofit。Dublinissuchasmallcity:everyoneknowseveryoneelse’sbusiness。HefelthisheartleapwarmlyinhisthroatasheheardinhisexcitedimaginationoldMrLeonardcallingoutinhisraspingvoice:`SendMrDoranhere,please。’

  Allhislongyearsofservicegonefornothing!Allhisindustryanddiligencethrownaway!Asayoungmanhehadsownhiswildoats,ofcourse;

  hehadboastedofhisfree-thinkinganddeniedtheexistenceofGodtohiscompanionsinpublic-houses。Butthatwasallpassedanddonewith……

  nearly。HestillboughtacopyofReynoldsNewspapereveryweek,butheattendedtohisreligiousduties,andfornine-tenthsoftheyearlivedaregularlife。Hehadmoneyenoughtosettledownon;itwasnotthat。Butthefamilywouldlookdownonher。Firstofalltherewasherdisreputablefather,andthenhermother’sboardinghousewasbeginningtogetacertainfame。Hehadanotionthathewasbeinghad。Hecouldimaginehisfriendstalkingoftheaffairandlaughing。Shewasalittlevulgar;sometimesshesaid`Iseen’and`IfIhad’veknown。’Butwhatwouldgrammarmatterifhereallylovedher?Hecouldnotmakeuphismindwhethertolikeherordespiseherforwhatshehaddone。Ofcoursehehaddoneittoo。Hisinstincturgedhimtoremainfree,nottomarry。

  Onceyouaremarriedyouaredonefor,itsaid。

  Whilehewassittinghelplesslyonthesideofthebedinshirtandtrousers,shetappedlightlyathisdoorandentered。Shetoldhimall,thatshehadmadeacleanbreastofittohermotherandthathermotherwouldspeakwithhimthatmorning。Shecriedandthrewherarmsroundhisneck,saying:

  `OBob!Bob!WhatamItodo?WhatamItodoatall?’

  Shewouldputanendtoherself,shesaid。

  Hecomfortedherfeebly,tellinghernottocry,thatitwouldbeallright,neverfear。Hefeltagainsthisshirttheagitationofherbosom。

  Itwasnotaltogetherhisfaultthatithadhappened。Herememberedwell,withthecuriouspatientmemoryofthecelibate,thefirstcasualcaressesherdress,herbreath,herfingershadgivenhim。Thenlateonenightashewasundressingforbedshehadtappedathisdoor,timidly。

  Shewantedtorelighthercandleathis,forhershadbeenblownoutbyagust。Itwasherbathnight。Sheworealooseopencombing-jacketofprintedflannel。Herwhiteinstepshoneintheopeningofherfurryslippersandthebloodglowedwarmlybehindherperfumedskin。Fromherhandsandwriststooasshelitandsteadiedhercandleafaintperfumearose。

  Onnightswhenhecameinverylateitwasshewhowarmeduphisdinner。

  Hescarcelyknewwhathewaseating,feelingherbesidehimalone,atnight,inthesleepinghouse。Andherthoughtfulness!Ifthenightwasanywaycoldorwetorwindytherewassuretobealittletumblerofpunchreadyforhim。Perhapstheycouldbehappytogether……

  Theyusedtogoupstairstogetherontiptoe,eachwithacandle,andonthethirdlandingexchangereluctantgoodnights。Theyusedtokiss。

  Herememberedwellhereyes,thetouchofherhandandhisdelirium……

  Butdeliriumpasses。Heechoedherphrase,applyingittohimself:`WhatamItodo?’Theinstinctofthecelibatewarnedhimtoholdback。

  Butthesinwasthere;evenhissenseofhonourtoldhimthatreparationmustbemadeforsuchasin。

  WhilehewassittingwithheronthesideofthebedMarycametothedoorandsaidthatthemissuswantedtoseehimintheparlour。Hestooduptoputonhiscoatandwaistcoat,morehelplessthanever。Whenhewasdressedhewentovertohertocomforther。Itwouldbeallright,neverfear。Helefthercryingonthebedandmoaningsoftly:`0myGod!’

  Goingdownthestairshisglassesbecamesodimmedwithmoisturethathehadtotakethemoffandpolishthem。Helongedtoascendthroughtheroofandflyawaytoanothercountrywherehewouldneverhearagainofhistrouble,andyetaforcepushedhimdownstairsstepbystep。TheimplacablefacesofhisemployerandoftheMadamstareduponhisdiscomfiture。OnthelastflightofstairshepassedJackMooney,whowascomingupfromthepantrynursingtwobottlesofBass。Theysalutedcoldly;andthelover’seyesrestedforasecondortwoonathickbulldogfaceandapairofthickshortarms。WhenhereachedthefootofthestaircaseheglancedupandsawJackregardinghimfromthedoorofthereturn-room。

  Suddenlyherememberedthenightwhenoneofthemusic-hallartistes,alittleblondLondoner,hadmadearatherfreeallusiontoPolly。ThereunionhadbeenalmostbrokenuponaccountofJack’sviolence。Everyonetriedtoquiethim。Themusic-hallartiste,alittlepalerthanusual,keptsmilingandsayingthattherewasnoharmmeant;butJackkeptshoutingathimthatifanyfellowtriedthatsortofagameonwithhissisterhe’dbloodywellputhisteethdownhisthroat:sohewould。

  Pollysatforalittletimeonthesideofthebed,crying。Thenshedriedhereyesandwentovertothelooking-glass。Shedippedtheendofthetowelinthewater-jugandrefreshedhereyeswiththecoolwater。

  Shelookedatherselfinprofileandreadjustedahairpinaboveherear。

  Thenshewentbacktothebedagainandsatatthefoot。Sheregardedthepillowsforalongtime,andthesightofthemawakenedinhermindsecret,amiablememories。Sherestedthenapeofherneckagainstthecoolironbedrailandfellintoareverie。Therewasnolongeranyperturbationvisibleonherface。

  Shewaitedonpatiently,almostcheerfully,withoutalarm,hermemoriesgraduallygivingplacetohopesandvisionsofthefuture。Herhopesandvisionsweresointricatethatshenolongersawthewhitepillowsonwhichhergazewasfixed,orrememberedthatshewaswaitingforanything。

  Atlastsheheardhermothercalling。Shestartedtoherfeetandrantothebanisters。

  `Polly!Polly!’

  `Yes,mamma?’

  `Comedown,dear。MrDoranwantstospeaktoyou。’

  Thensherememberedwhatshehadbeenwaitingfor。

  ALittleCloud

  EightyearsbeforehehadseenhisfriendoffattheNorthWallandwishedhimGod-speed。Gallaherhadgoton。Youcouldtellthatatoncebyhistravelledair,hiswell-cuttweedsuit,andfearlessaccent。Fewfellowshadtalentslikehis,andfewerstillcouldremainunspoiledbysuchsuccess。

  Gallaher’sheartwasintherightplaceandhehaddeservedtowin。Itwassomethingtohaveafriendlikethat。

  LittleChandler’sthoughtseversincelunch-timehadbeenofhismeetingwithGallaher,ofGallaher’sinvitation,andofthegreatcityLondonwhereGallaherlived。HewascalledLittleChandlerbecause,thoughhewasbutslightlyundertheaveragestature,hegaveonetheideaofbeingalittleman。Hishandswerewhiteandsmall,hisframewasfragile,hisvoicewasquietandhismannerswererefined。Hetookthegreatestcareofhisfairsilkenhairandmoustache,andusedperfumediscreetlyonhishandkerchief。

  Thehalf-moonsofhisnailswereperfect,andwhenhesmiledyoucaughtaglimpseofarowofchildishwhiteteeth。

  AchesatathisdeskintheKing’sInnshethoughtwhatchangesthoseeightyearshadbrought。ThefriendwhomhehadknownunderashabbyandnecessitousguisehadbecomeabrilliantfigureontheLondonPress。Heturnedoftenfromhistiresomewritingtogazeoutoftheofficewindow。

  Theglowofalateautumnsunsetcoveredthegrassplotsandwalks。Itcastashowerofkindlygoldendustontheuntidynursesanddecrepitoldmenwhodrowsedonthebenches;itflickereduponallthemovingfigures-onthechildrenwhoranscreamingalongthegravelpathsandoneveryonewhopassedthroughthegardens。Hewatchedthesceneandthoughtoflife;

  and(asalwayshappenedwhenhethoughtoflife)hebecamesad。Agentlemelancholytookpossessionofhim。Hefelthowuselessitwastostruggleagainstfortune,thisbeingtheburdenofwisdomwhichtheageshadbequeathedtohim。

  Herememberedthebooksofpoetryuponhisshelvesathome。Hehadboughttheminhisbachelordaysandmanyanevening,ashesatinthelittleroomoffthehall,hehadbeentemptedtotakeonedownfromthebookshelfandreadoutsomethingtohiswife。Butshynesshadalwaysheldhimback;

  andsothebookshadremainedontheirshelves。Attimesherepeatedlinestohimselfandthisconsoledhim。

  Whenhishourhadstruckhestoodupandtookleaveofhisdeskandofhisfellow-clerkspunctiliously。HeemergedfromunderthefeudalarchoftheKing’sInns,aneatmodestfigure,andwalkedswiftlydownHenriettaStreet。Thegoldensunsetwaswaningandtheairhadgrownsharp。Ahordeofgrimychildrenpopulatedthestreet。Theystoodorranintheroadway,orcrawledupthestepsbeforethegapingdoors,orsquattedlikemiceuponthethresholds。LittleChandlergavethemnothought。Hepickedhiswaydeftlythroughallthatminutevermin-likelifeandundertheshadowofthegauntspectralmansionsinwhichtheoldnobilityofDublinhadroistered。Nomemoryofthepasttouchedhim,forhismindwasfullofapresentjoy。

  HehadneverbeeninCorless’s,butheknewthevalueofthename。Heknewthatpeoplewentthereafterthetheatretoeatoystersanddrinkliqueurs;andhehadheardthatthewaiterstherespokeFrenchandGerman。

  Walkingswiftlybyatnighthehadseencabsdrawnupbeforethedoorandrichly-dressedladies,escortedbycavaliers,alightandenterquickly。

  Theyworenoisydressesandmanywraps。Theirfaceswerepowderedandtheycaughtuptheirdresses,whentheytouchedearth,likealarmedAtalantas。

  Hehadalwayspassedwithoutturninghisheadtolook。Itwashishabittowalkswiftlyinthestreetevenbyday,andwheneverhefoundhimselfinthecitylateatnighthehurriedonhiswayapprehensivelyandexcitedly。

  Sometimes,however,hecourtedthecausesofhisfear。Hechosethedarkestandnarroweststreetsand,ashewalkedboldlyforward,thesilencethatwasspreadabouthisfootstepstroubledhim;thewandering,silentfigurestroubledhim;andattimesasoundoflowfugitivelaughtermadehimtremblelikealeaf。

  HeturnedtotherighttowardsCapelStreet。IgnatiusGallaherontheLondonPress!Whowouldhavethoughtitpossibleeightyearsbefore?Still,nowthathereviewedthepast,LittleChandlercouldremembermanysignsoffuturegreatnessinhisfriend。PeopleusedtosaythatIgnatiusGallaherwaswild。Ofcourse,hedidmixwitharakishsetoffellowsatthattime;

  drankfreelyandborrowedmoneyonallsides。Intheendhehadgotmixedupinsomeshadyaffair,somemoneytransaction:atleast,thatwasoneversionofhisflight。Butnobodydeniedhimtalent。Therewasalwaysacertain……somethinginIgnatiusGallaherthatimpressedyouinspiteofyourself。Evenwhenhewasoutatelbowsandathiswits’endformoneyhekeptupaboldface。LittleChandlerremembered(andtheremembrancebroughtaslightflushofpridetohischeek)oneofIgnatiusGallaher’ssayingswhenhewasinatightcorner:

  `Half-timenow,boys,’heusedtosaylight-heartedly。`Where’smyconsideringcap?’

  ThatwasIgnatiusGallaherallout;and,damnit,youcouldn’tbutadmirehimforit。

  LittleChandlerquickenedhispace。Forthefirsttimeinhislifehefelthimselfsuperiortothepeoplehepassed。ForthefirsttimehissoulrevoltedagainstthedullineleganceofCapelStreet。Therewasnodoubtaboutit:ifyouwantedtosucceedyouhadtogoaway。YoucoulddonothinginDublin。AshecrossedGrattanBridgehelookeddowntherivertowardsthelowerquaysandpitiedthepoorstuntedhouses。Theyseemedtohimabandoftramps,huddledtogetheralongtheriver-banks,theiroldcoatscoveredwithdustandsoot,stupefiedbythepanoramaofsunsetandwaitingforthefirstchillofnighttobidthemarise,shakethemselvesandbegone。

  Hewonderedwhetherhecouldwriteapoemtoexpresshisidea。PerhapsGallahermightbeabletogetitintosomeLondonpaperforhim。Couldhewritesomethingoriginal?Hewasnotsurewhatideahewishedtoexpress,butthethoughtthatapoeticmomenthadtouchedhimtooklifewithinhimlikeaninfanthope。Hesteppedonwardbravely。

  EverystepbroughthimnearertoLondon,fartherfromhisownsoberinartisticlife。Alightbegantotrembleonthehorizonofhismind。Hewasnotsoold-thirty-two。Histemperamentmightbesaidtobejustatthepointofmaturity。Thereweresomanydifferentmoodsandimpressionsthathewishedtoexpressinverse。Hefeltthemwithinhim。Hetriedtoweighhissoultoseeifitwasapoet’ssoul。Melancholywasthedominantnoteofhistemperament,hethought,butitwasamelancholytemperedbyrecurrencesoffaithandresignationandsimplejoy。Ifhecouldgiveexpressiontoitinabookofpoemsperhapsmenwouldlisten。Hewouldneverbepopular:

  hesawthat。Hecouldnotswaythecrowd,buthemightappealtoalittlecircleofkindredminds。TheEnglishcritics,perhaps,wouldrecognizehimasoneoftheCelticschoolbyreasonofthemelancholytoneofhispoems;besidesthat,hewouldputinallusions。Hebegantoinventsentencesandphrasesfromthenoticewhichhisbookwouldget。`MrChandlerhasthegiftofeasyandgracefulverse’……`Awistfulsadnesspervadesthesepoems’……`TheCelticnote’。ItwasapityhisnamewasnotmoreIrish-looking。

  Perhapsitwouldbebettertoinserthismother’snamebeforethesurname:

  ThomasMaloneChandler;orbetterstill:T。MaloneChandler。HewouldspeaktoGallaheraboutit。

  Hepursuedhisreveriesoardentlythathepassedhisstreetandhadtoturnback。AshecamenearCorless’shisformeragitationbegantoovermasterhimandhehaltedbeforethedoorinindecision。Finallyheopenedthedoorandentered。

  Thelightandnoiseofthebarheldhimatthedoorwayforafewmoments。

  Helookedabouthim,buthissightwasconfusedbytheshiningofmanyredandgreenwine-glasses。Thebarseemedtohimtobefullofpeopleandhefeltthatthepeoplewereobservinghimcuriously。Heglancedquicklytorightandleft(frowningslightlytomakehiserrandappearserious),butwhenhissightclearedalittlehesawthatnobodyhadturnedtolookathim:andthere,Sureenough,wasIgnatiusGallaherleaningwithhisbackagainstthecounterandhisfeetplantedfarapart。

  `Hallo,Tommy,oldhero,hereyouare!Whatisittobe?Whatwillyouhave?I’mtakingwhisky:betterstuffthanwegetacrossthewater。Soda?

  Lithia?Nomineral?I’mthesame。Spoilstheflavour……Here,garçon,bringustwohalvesofmaltwhisky,likeagoodfellow……Well,andhowhaveyoubeenpullingalongsinceIsawyoulast?DearGod,howoldwe’regetting!Doyouseeanysignsofageinginme-eh,what?Alittlegreyandthinonthetop-what?’

  IgnatiusGallahertookoffhishatanddisplayedalargeclosely-croppedhead。Hisfacewasheavy,pale,andclean-shaven。Hiseyes,whichwereofbluishslate-colour,relievedhisunhealthypallorandshoneoutplainlyabovethevividorangetiehewore。Betweentheserivalfeaturesthelipsappearedverylongandshapelessandcolourless。Hebenthisheadandfeltwithtwosympatheticfingersthethinhairatthecrown。LittleChandlershookhisheadasadenial。IgnatiusGallaherputonhishatagain。

  `Itpullsyoudown,’hesaid。`Presslife。Alwayshurryandscurry,lookingforcopyandsometimesnotfindingit:andthen,alwaystohavesomethingnewinyourstuff。Damnproofsandprinters,Isay,forafewdays。I’mdeucedglad,Icantellyou,togetbacktotheoldcountry。

  Doesafellowgood,abitofaholiday。IfeelatonbettersinceIlandedagainindear,dirtyDublin……Hereyouare,Tommy。Water?Saywhen。’

  LittleChandlerallowedhiswhiskytobeverymuchdiluted。

  `Youdon’tknowwhat’sgoodforyou,myboy,’saidIgnatiusGallaher。

  `Idrinkmineneat。’

  `Idrinkverylittleasarule,’saidLittleChandlermodestly。`Anoddhalf-oneorsowhenImeetanyoftheoldcrowd:that’sall。’

  `Ahwell,’saidIgnatiusGallahercheerfully,`here’stousandtooldtimesandoldacquaintance。’

  Theyclinkedglassesanddrankthetoast。

  `Imetsomeoftheoldgangtoday,’saidIgnatiusGallaher。`O’Haraseemstobeinabadway。What’shedoing?’

  `Nothing,’saidLittleChandler。`He’sgonetothedogs。’

  `ButHoganhasagoodsit,hasn’the?’

  `Yes,be’sintheLandCommission。’

  `ImethimonenightinLondonandheseemedtobeveryflush……PoorO’Hara!Booze,Isuppose?’

  `Otherthings,too,’saidLittleChandlershortly。

  IgnatiusGallaherlaughed。

  `Tommy,’hesaid,`Iseeyouhaven’tchangedanatom。You’retheverysameseriouspersonthatusedtolecturemeonSundaymorningswhenIhadasoreheadandafuronmytongue。You’dwanttoknockaboutabitintheworld。Haveyouneverbeenanywhereevenforatrip?’

  `I’vebeentotheIsleofMan,’saidLittleChandler。

  IgnatiusGallaherlaughed。

  `TheIsleofMan!’hesaid。`GotoLondonorParis:Paris,forchoice。

  That’ddoyougood。’

  `HaveyouseenParis?’

  `IshouldthinkIhave!I’veknockedabouttherealittle。’

  `Andisitreallysobeautifulastheysay?’askedLittleChandler。

  HesippedalittleofhisdrinkwhileIgnatiusGallaherfinishedhisboldly。

  `Beautiful?’saidIgnatiusGallaher,pausingonthewordandontheflavourofhisdrink。`It’snotsobeautiful,youknow。Ofcourseitisbeautiful……Butit’sthelifeofParis;that’sthething。Ah,there’snocitylikeParisforgaiety,movement,excitement……’

  LittleChandlerfinishedhiswhiskyand,aftersometrouble,succeededincatchingthebarman’seye。Heorderedthesameagain。

  `I’vebeentotheMoulinRouge,’IgnatiusGallahercontinuedwhenthebarmanhadremovedtheirglasses,`andI’vebeentoalltheBohemiancafés。

  Hotstuff!Notforapiouschaplikeyou,Tommy。’

  LittleChandlersaidnothinguntilthebarmanreturnedwithtwoglasses:

  thenhetouchedhisfriend’sglasslightlyandreciprocatedtheformertoast。Hewasbeginningtofeelsomewhatdisillusioned。Gallaher’saccentandwayofexpressinghimselfdidnotpleasehim。Therewassomethingvulgarinhisfriendwhichliehadnotobservedbefore。ButperhapsitwasonlytheresultoflivinginLondonamidthebustleandcompetitionofthePress。

  Theoldpersonalcharmwasstillthereunderthisnewgaudymanner。And,afterall,Gallaherhadlived,hehadseentheworld。LittleChandlerlookedathisfriendenviously。

  `EverythinginParisisgay,’saidIgnatiusGallaher。`Theybelieveinenjoyinglife-anddon’tyouthinkthey’reright?IfyouwanttoenjoyyourselfproperlyyoumustgotoParis。And,mindyou,they’veagreatfeelingfortheIrishthere。WhentheyheardIwasfromIrelandtheywerereadytoeatme,man。’

  LittleChandlertookfourorfivesipsfromhisglass。

  `Tellme,’hesaid,`isittruethatParisisso……immoralastheysay?’

  IgnatiusGallahermadeacatholicgesturewithhisrightarm。

  `Everyplaceisimmoral,’hesaid。`OfcourseyoudofindspicybitsinParis。Gotooneofthestudents’balls,forinstance。That’slively,ifyoulike,whenthecocottesbegintoletthemselvesloose。Youknowwhattheyare,Isuppose?’

  `I’veheardofthem,’saidLittleChandler。

  IgnatiusGallaherdrankoffhiswhiskyandshookhishead。

  `Ah,’hesaid,`youmaysaywhatyoulike。There’snowomanliketheParisienne-forstyle,forgo。’

  `Thenitisanimmoralcity,’saidLittleChandler,withtimidinsistence-`Imean,comparedwithLondonorDublin?’

  `London!’saidIgnatiusGallaher。`It’ssixofoneandhalfadozenoftheother。YouaskHogan,myboy。IshowedhimabitaboutLondonwhenhewasoverthere。He’dopenyoureye……Isay,Tommy,don’tmakepunchofthatwhisky:liquorup。’

  `No,really。’

  `O,comeon,anotheronewon’tdoyouanyharm。Whatisit?Thesameagain,Isuppose?’

  `Well……allright。’

  `François,thesameagain……Willyousmoke,Tommy?’

  IgnatiusGallaherproducedhiscigar-case。Thetwofriendslittheircigarsandpuffedattheminsilenceuntiltheirdrinkswereserved。

  `I’lltellyoumyopinion,’saidIgnatiusGallaher,emergingaftersometimefromthecloudsofsmokeinwhichhehadtakenrefuge,`it’sarumworld。Talkofimmorality!I’veheardofcases-whatamIsaying?-I’veknownthem:casesof……immorality……’

  IgnatiusGallaherpuffedthoughtfullyathiscigarandthen,inacalmhistorian’stone,heproceededtosketchforhisfriendsomepicturesofthecorruptionwhichwasrifeabroad。HesummarizedthevicesofmanycapitalsandseemedinclinedtoawardthepalmtoBerlin。Somethingshecouldnotvouchfor(hisfriendshadtoldhim),butofothershehadhadpersonalexperience。Hesparedneitherranknorcaste。HerevealedmanyofthesecretsofreligioushousesontheContinentanddescribedsomeofthepracticeswhichwerefashionableinhighsociety,andendedbytelling,withdetails,astoryaboutanEnglishduchess-astorywhichheknewtobetrue。Littlechandlerwasastonished。

  `Ah,well,’saidIgnatiusGallaher,`hereweareinoldjog-alongDublinwherenothingisknownofsuchthings。’

  `Howdullyoumustfindit,’saidLittleChandler,`afteralltheotherplacesyou’veseen!’

  `Well,’saidIgnatiusGallaher,`it’sarelaxationtocomeoverhere,youknow。And,afterall,it’stheoldcountry,astheysay,isn’tit?

  Youcan’thelphavingacertainfeelingforit。That’shumannature……

  Buttellmesomethingaboutyourself。Hogantoldmeyouhad……tastedthejoysofconnubialbliss。Twoyearsago,wasn’tit?’

  LittleChandlerblushedandsmiled。

  `Yes,’hesaid。`IwasmarriedlastMaytwelvemonths。’

  `Ihopeit’snottoolateinthedaytooffermybestwishes,’saidIgnatiusGallaher。`Ididn’tknowyouraddressorI’dhavedonesoatthetime。’

  Heextendedhishand,whichLittleChandlertook。

  `Well,Tommy,’hesaid,`Iwishyouandyourseveryjoyinlife,oldchap,andtonsofmoney,andmayyouneverdietillIshootyou。Andthat’sthewishofasincerefriend,anoldfriend。Youknowthat?’

  `Iknowthat,’saidLittleChandler。

  `Anyyoungsters?’saidIgnatiusGallaher。

  LittleChandlerblushedagain。

  `Wehaveonechild,’hesaid。

  `Sonordaughter?’

  `Alittleboy。’

  IgnatiusGallaherslappedhisfriendsonorouslyontheback。

  `Bravo,’hesaid,`Iwouldn’tdoubtyou,Tommy。’

  LittleChandlersmiled,lookedconfusedlyathisglassandbithislowerlipwiththreechildishlywhitefrontteeth。

  `Ihopeyou’llspendaneveningwithus,’hesaid,`beforeyougoback。

  Mywifewillbedelightedtomeetyou。Wecanhavealittlemusicand——’

  `Thanksawfully,oldchap,’saidIgnatiusGallaher,`I’msorrywedidn’tmeetearlier。ButImustleavetomorrownight。’

  `Tonight,perhaps……?`

  `I’mawfullysorry,oldman。YouseeI’moverherewithanotherfellow,cleveryoungchapheistoo,andwearrangedtogotoalittlecard-party。

  Onlyforthat……’

  `O,inthatcase……’

  `Butwhoknows?’saidIgnatiusGallaherconsiderately。`NextyearI

  maytakealittleskipoverherenowthatI’vebrokentheice。It’sonlyapleasuredeferred。’

  `Verywell,’saidLittleChandler,`thenexttimeyoucomewemusthaveaneveningtogether。That’sagreednow,isn’tit?’

  `Yes,that’sagreed,’saidIgnatiusGallaher。`NextyearifIcome,paroled’honneur。’

  `Andtoclinchthebargain,’saidLittleChandler,`we’lljusthaveonemorenow。’

  IgnatiusGallahertookoutalargegoldwatchandlookedatit。

  `Isittobethelast?’heSaid。`Because,youknow,Ihaveana。p。’

  `O,yes,positively,’saidLittleChandler。

  `Verywell,then,’saidIgnatiusGallaher,`letushaveanotheroneasadeocandoirus-that’sgoodvernacularforasmallwhisky,Ibelieve。’

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