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  TheSisters

  Therewasnohopeforhimthistime:itwasthethirdstroke。NightafternightIhadpassedthehouse(itwasvacationtime)andstudiedthelightedsquareofwindow:andnightafternightIhadfounditlightedinthesameway,faintlyandevenly。Ifhewasdead,Ithought,Iwouldseethereflectionofcandlesonthedarkenedblind,forIknewthattwocandlesmustbesetattheheadofacorpse。Hehadoftensaidtome:`Iamnotlongforthisworld,’andIhadthoughthiswordsidle。NowIknewtheyweretrue。EverynightasIgazedupatthewindowIsaidsoftlytomyselfthewordparalysis。

  Ithadalwayssoundedstrangelyinmyears,likethewordgnomonintheEuclidandthewordsimonyintheCatechism。Butnowitsoundedtomelikethenameofsomemaleficentandsinfulbeing。Itfilledmewithfear,andyetIlongedtobenearertoitandtolookuponitsdeadlywork。

  OldCotterwassittingatthefire,smoking,whenIcamedownstairstosupper。Whilemyauntwasladlingoutmystirabouthesaid,asifreturningtosomeformerremarkofhis:

  `No,Iwouldn’tsayhewasexactly……buttherewassomethingqueer……

  therewassomethinguncannyabouthim。I’lltellyoumyopinion……’

  Hebegantopuffathispipe,nodoubtarranginghisopinioninhismind。Tiresomeoldfool!Whenweknewhimfirstheusedtoberatherinteresting,talkingoffaintsandworms;butIsoongrewtiredofhimandhisendlessstoriesaboutthedistillery。

  `Ihavemyowntheoryaboutit,’hesaid。`Ithinkitwasoneofthose……

  peculiarcases……Butit’shardtosay……’

  Hebegantopuffagainathispipewithoutgivingushistheory。Myunclesawmestaringandsaidtome:

  `Well,soyouroldfriendisgone,you’llbesorrytohear。’

  `Who?’saidI。

  `FatherFlynn。’

  `Ishedead?’

  `MrCotterherehasjusttoldus。Hewaspassingbythehouse。’

  IknewthatIwasunderobservation,soIcontinuedeatingasifthenewshadnotinterestedme。MyuncleexplainedtooldCotter。

  `Theyoungsterandheweregreatfriends。Theoldchaptaughthimagreatdeal,mindyou;andtheysayhehadagreatwishforhim。’

  `Godhavemercyonhissoul,’saidmyauntpiously。

  OldCotterlookedatmeforawhile。Ifeltthathislittlebeadyblackeyeswereexaminingme,butIwouldnotsatisfyhimbylookingupfrommyplate。Hereturnedtohispipeandfinallyspatrudelyintothegrate。

  `Iwouldn’tlikechildrenofmine,’hesaid,`tohavetoomuchtosaytoamanlikethat。’

  `Howdoyoumean,MrCotter?’askedmyaunt。

  `WhatImeanis,’saidoldCotter,`it’sbadforchildren。Myideais:

  letayoungladrunaboutandplaywithyoungladsofhisownageandnotbe……AmIright,Jack?’

  `That’smyprinciple,too,’saidmyuncle。`Lethimlearntoboxhiscorner。That’swhatI’malwayssayingtothatRosicrucianthere:takeexercise。

  Why,whenIwasanipper,everymorningofmylifeIhadacoldbath,winterandsummer。Andthat’swhatstandstomenow。Educationisallveryfineandlarge……MrCottermighttakeapickofthatlegofmutton,’headdedtomyaunt。

  `No,no,notforme,’saidoldCotter。

  Myauntbroughtthedishfromthesafeandputitonthetable。

  `Butwhydoyouthinkit’snotgoodforchildren,MrCotter?’sheasked。

  `It’sbadforchildren,’saidoldCotter,`becausetheirmindsaresoimpressionable。Whenchildrenseethingslikethat,youknow,ithasaneffect……’

  IcrammedmymouthwithstiraboutforfearImightgiveutterancetomyanger。Tiresomeoldred-nosedimbecile!

  ItwaslatewhenIfellasleep。ThoughIwasangrywitholdCotterforalludingtomeasachild,Ipuzzledmyheadtoextractmeaningfromhisunfinishedsentences。InthedarkofmyroomIimaginedthatIsawagaintheheavygreyfaceoftheparalytic。IdrewtheblanketsovermyheadandtriedtothinkofChristmas。Butthegreyfacestillfollowedme。Itmurmured;andIunderstoodthatitdesiredtoconfesssomething。Ifeltmysoulrecedingintosomepleasantandviciousregion;andthereagainIfounditwaitingforme。ItbegantoconfesstomeinamurmuringvoiceandIwonderedwhyitsmiledcontinuallyandwhythelipsweresomoistwithspittle。ButthenIrememberedthatithaddiedofparalysisandI

  feltthatItoowassmilingfeebly,asiftoabsolvethesimoniacofhissin。

  ThenextmorningafterbreakfastIwentdowntolookatthelittlehouseinGreatBritainStreet。Itwasanunassumingshop,registeredunderthevaguenameofDrapery。Thedraperyconsistedmainlyofchildren’sbooteesandumbrellas;andonordinarydaysanoticeusedtohanginthewindow,saying:UmbrellasRe-covered。Nonoticewasvisiblenow,fortheshutterswereup。Acrapebouquetwastiedtothedoor-knockerwithribbon。Twopoorwomenandatelegramboywerereadingthecardpinnedonthecrape。Ialsoapproachedandread:1stJuly,1895

  TheRev。JamesFlynn(formerlyofStCatherine’sChurch,MeathStreet),agedsixty-fiveyears。

  R。I。P。ThereadingofthecardpersuadedmethathewasdeadandIwasdisturbedtofindmyselfatcheck。HadhenotbeendeadIwouldhavegoneintothelittledarkroombehindtheshoptofindhimsittinginhisarm-chairbythefire,nearlysmotheredinhisgreat-coat。PerhapsmyauntwouldhavegivenmeapacketofHighToastforhim,andthispresentwouldhaverousedhimfromhisstupefieddoze。ItwasalwaysIwhoemptiedthepacketintohisblacksnuff-box,forhishandstrembledtoomuchtoallowhimtodothiswithoutspillinghalfthesnuffaboutthefloor。Evenasheraisedhislargetremblinghandtohisnoselittlecloudsofsnuffdribbledthroughhisfingersoverthefrontofhiscoat。Itmayhavebeentheseconstantshowersofsnuffwhichgavehisancientpriestlygarmentstheirgreenfadedlook,fortheredhandkerchief,blackened,asitalwayswas,withthesnuff-stainsofaweek,withwhichhetriedtobrushawaythefallengrains,wasquiteinefficacious。

  Iwishedtogoinandlookathim,butIhadnotthecouragetoknock。

  Iwalkedawayslowlyalongthesunnysideofthestreet,readingallthetheatricaladvertisementsintheshop-windowsasIwent。IfounditstrangethatneitherInorthedayseemedinamourningmoodandIfeltevenannoyedatdiscoveringinmyselfasensationoffreedomasifIhadbeenfreedfromsomethingbyhisdeath。Iwonderedatthisfor,asmyunclehadsaidthenightbefore,hehadtaughtmeagreatdeal。HehadstudiedintheIrishcollegeinRomeandhehadtaughtmetopronounceLatinproperly。

  HehadtoldmestoriesaboutthecatacombsandaboutNapoleonBonaparte,andhehadexplainedtomethemeaningofthedifferentceremoniesoftheMassandofthedifferentvestmentswornbythepriest。Sometimeshehadamusedhimselfbyputtingdifficultquestionstome,askingmewhatoneshoulddoincertaincircumstancesorwhethersuchandsuchsinsweremortalorvenialoronlyimperfections。HisquestionsshowedmehowcomplexandmysteriouswerecertaininstitutionsoftheChurchwhichIhadalwaysregardedasthesimplestacts。ThedutiesofthepriesttowardstheEucharistandtowardsthesecrecyoftheconfessionalseemedsogravetomethatIwonderedhowanybodyhadeverfoundinhimselfthecouragetoundertakethem;andIwasnotsurprisedwhenhetoldmethatthefathersoftheChurchhadwrittenbooksasthickasthePostOfficeDirectoryandascloselyprintedasthelawnoticesinthenewspaper,elucidatingalltheseintricatequestions。OftenwhenIthoughtofthisIcouldmakenoansweroronlyaveryfoolishandhaltingone,uponwhichheusedtosmileandnodhisheadtwiceorthrice。SometimesheusedtoputmethroughtheresponsesoftheMass,whichhehadmademelearnbyheart;and,asIpattered,heusedtosmilepensivelyandnodhishead,nowandthenpushinghugepinchesofsnuffupeachnostrilalternately。Whenhesmiledheusedtouncoverhisbigdiscolouredteethandlethistonguelieuponhislowerlip-ahabitwhichhadmademefeeluneasyinthebeginningofouracquaintancebeforeIknewhimwell。

  AsIwalkedalonginthesunIrememberedoldCotter’swordsandtriedtorememberwhathadhappenedafterwardsinthedream。IrememberedthatIhadnoticedlongvelvetcurtainsandaswinginglampofantiquefashion。

  IfeltthatIhadbeenveryfaraway,insomelandwherethecustomswerestrange-inPersia,Ithought……ButIcouldnotremembertheendofthedream。

  Intheeveningmyaunttookmewithhertovisitthehouseofmourning。

  Itwasaftersunset;butthewindow-panesofthehousesthatlookedtothewestreflectedthetawnygoldofagreatbankofclouds。Nanniereceivedusinthehall;and,asitwouldhavebeenunseemlytohaveshoutedather,myauntshookhandswithherforall。Theoldwomanpointedupwardsinterrogativelyand,onmyaunt’snodding,proceededtotoilupthenarrowstaircasebeforeus,herbowedheadbeingscarcelyabovethelevelofthebanister-rail。Atthefirstlandingshestoppedandbeckonedusforwardencouraginglytowardstheopendoorofthedead-room。Myauntwentinandtheoldwoman,seeingthatIhesitatedtoenter,begantobeckontomeagainrepeatedlywithherhand。

  Iwentinontiptoe。Theroomthroughthelaceendoftheblindwassuffusedwithduskygoldenlightamidwhichthecandleslookedlikepalethinflames。Hehadbeencoffined。Nanniegavetheleadandwethreekneltdownatthefootofthebed。IpretendedtopraybutIcouldnotgathermythoughtsbecausetheoldwoman’smutteringsdistractedme。Inoticedhowclumsilyherskirtwashookedatthebackandhowtheheelsofherclothbootsweretroddendownalltooneside。Thefancycametomethattheoldpriestwassmilingashelaythereinhiscoffin。

  Butno。WhenweroseandwentuptotheheadofthebedIsawthathewasnotsmiling。Therehelay,solemnandcopious,vestedasforthealtar,hislargehandslooselyretainingachalice。Hisfacewasverytruculent,greyandmassive,withblackcavernousnostrilsandcircledbyascantywhitefur。Therewasaheavyodourintheroom-theflowers。

  Wecrossedourselvesandcameaway。InthelittleroomdownstairswefoundElizaseatedinhisarm-chairinstate。IgropedmywaytowardsmyusualchairinthecornerwhileNanniewenttothesideboardandbroughtoutadecanterofsherryandsomewine-glasses。Shesettheseonthetableandinvitedustotakealittleglassofwine。Then,athersister’sbidding,shefilledoutthesherryintotheglassesandpassedthemtous。Shepressedmetotakesomecreamcrackersalso,butIdeclinedbecauseIthoughtI

  wouldmaketoomuchnoiseeatingthem。Sheseemedtobesomewhatdisappointedatmyrefusalandwentoverquietlytothesofa,whereshesatdownbehindhersister。Noonespoke:weallgazedattheemptyfireplace。

  MyauntwaiteduntilElizasighedandthensaid:

  `Ah,well,he’sgonetoabetterworld。’

  Elizasighedagainandbowedherheadinassent。Myauntfingeredthestemofherwine-glassbeforesippingalittle。

  `Didhe……peacefully?’sheasked。

  `Oh,quitepeacefully,ma’am,’saidEliza。`Youcouldn’ttellwhenthebreathwentoutofhim。Hehadabeautifuldeath,Godbepraised。’

  `Andeverything……?’

  `FatherO’RourkewasinwithhimaTuesdayandanointedhimandpreparedhimandall。’

  `Heknewthen?’

  `Hewasquiteresigned。’

  `Helooksquiteresigned,’saidmyaunt。

  `That’swhatthewomanwehadintowashhimsaid。Shesaidhejustlookedasifhewasasleep,helookedthatpeacefulandresigned。Noonewouldthinkhe’dmakesuchabeautifulcorpse。’

  `Yes,indeed,’saidmyaunt。

  Shesippedalittlemorefromherglassandsaid:

  `Well,MissFlynn,atanyrateitmustbeagreatcomfortforyoutoknowthatyoudidallyoucouldforhim。Youwerebothverykindtohim,Imustsay。’

  Elizasmoothedherdressoverherknees。

  `Ah,poorJames!’shesaid。`Godknowswedoneallwecould,aspoorasweare-wewouldn’tseehimwantanythingwhilehewasinit。’

  Nanniehadleanedherheadagainstthesofa-pillowandseemedabouttofallasleep。

  `There’spoorNannie,’saidEliza,lookingather,`she’sworeout。

  Alltheworkwehad,sheandme,gettinginthewomantowashhimandthenlayinghimoutandthenthecoffinandthenarrangingabouttheMassinthechapel。OnlyforFatherO’RourkeIdon’tknowwhatwe’ddoneatall。

  Itwashimbroughtusallthemflowersandthemtwocandlesticksoutofthechapel,andwroteoutthenoticefortheFreeman’sGeneralandtookchargeofallthepapersforthecemeteryandpoorJames’sinsurance。’

  `Wasn’tthatgoodofhim?’saidmyaunt。

  Elizaclosedhereyesandshookherheadslowly。

  `Ah,there’snofriendsliketheoldfriends,’shesaid,`whenallissaidanddone,nofriendsthatabodycantrust。’

  `Indeed,that’strue,’saidmyaunt。`AndI’msurenowthathe’sgonetohiseternalrewardhewon’tforgetyouandallyourkindnesstohim。’

  `Ah,poorJames!’saidEliza。`Hewasnogreattroubletous。Youwouldn’thearhiminthehouseanymorethannow。Still,Iknowhe’sgoneandalltothat。’

  `It’swhenit’salloverthatyou’llmisshim,’saidmyaunt。

  `Iknowthat,’saidEliza。`Iwon’tbebringinghiminhiscupofbeefteaanymore,noryou,ma’am,sendhimhissnuff。Ah,poorJames!’

  Shestopped,asifshewerecommuningwiththepast,andthensaidshrewdly:

  `Mindyou,Inoticedtherewassomethingqueercomingoverhimlatterly。

  WheneverI’dbringinhissouptohimthere,I’dfindhimwithhisbreviaryfallentothefloor,lyingbackinthechairandhismouthopen。’

  Shelaidafingeragainsthernoseandfrowned;thenshecontinued:

  `Butstillandallhekeptonsayingthatbeforethesummerwasoverhe’dgooutforadriveonefinedayjusttoseetheoldhouseagainwherewewereallborndowninIrishtown,andtakemeandNanniewithhim。Ifwecouldonlygetoneofthemnew-fangledcarriagesthatmakesnonoisethatFatherO’Rourketoldhimabout,themwiththerheumaticwheels,forthedaycheap-hesaid,atJohnnyRush’soverthewaythereanddriveoutthethreeofustogetherofaSundayevening。Hehadhismindsetonthat……PoorJames!’

  `TheLordhavemercyonhissoul!’saidmyaunt。

  Elizatookoutherhandkerchiefandwipedhereyeswithit。Thensheputitbackagaininherpocketandgazedintotheemptygrateforsometimewithoutspeaking。

  `Hewastooscrupulousalways,’shesaid。`Thedutiesofthepriesthoodwastoomuchforhim。Andthenhislifewas,youmightsay,crossed。’

  `Yes,’saidmyaunt。`Hewasadisappointedman。Youcouldseethat。’

  Asilencetookpossessionofthelittleroomand,undercoverofit,Iapproachedthetableandtastedmysherryandthenreturnedquietlytomychairinthecorner。Elizaseemedtohavefallenintoadeepreverie。

  Wewaitedrespectfullyforhertobreakthesilence:andafteralongpauseshesaidslowly:

  `Itwasthatchalicehebroke……Thatwasthebeginningofit。Ofcourse,theysayitwasallright,thatitcontainednothing,Imean。Butstill……

  Theysayitwastheboy’sfault。ButpoorJameswassonervous,Godbemercifultohim!’

  `Andwasthatit?’saidmyaunt。`Iheardsomething……’。

  Elizanodded。

  `Thataffectedhismind,’shesaid。`Afterthathebegantomopebyhimself,talkingtonooneandwanderingaboutbyhimself。Soonenighthewaswantedfortogoonacallandtheycouldn’tfindhimanywhere。

  Theylookedhighupandlowdown;andstilltheycouldn’tseeasightofhimanywhere。Sothentheclerksuggestedtotrythechapel。Sothentheygotthekeysandopenedthechapel,andtheclerkandFatherO’Rourkeandanotherpriestthatwastherebroughtinalightfortolookforhim……

  Andwhatdoyouthinkbuttherehewas,sittingupbyhimselfinthedarkinhisconfession-box,wide-awakeandlaughing-likesoftlytohimself?’

  Shestoppedsuddenlyasiftolisten。Itoolistened;buttherewasnosoundinthehouse:andIknewthattheoldpriestwaslyingstillinhiscoffinaswehadseenhim,solemnandtruculentindeath,anidlechaliceonhisbreast。

  Elizaresumed:

  `Wide-awakeandlaughing-liketohimself……Sothen,ofcourse,whentheysawthat,thatmadethemthinkthattherewassomethinggonewrongwithhim……’

  AnEncounter

  ItwasJoeDillonwhointroducedtheWildWesttous。HehadalittlelibrarymadeupofoldnumbersofTheUnionJack,Pluck,andTheHalfpennyMarvel。EveryeveningafterschoolwemetinhisbackgardenandarrangedIndianbattles。HeandhisfatyoungbrotherLeo,theidler,heldtheloftofthestablewhilewetriedtocarryitbystorm;orwefoughtapitchedbattleonthegrass。But,howeverwellwefought,weneverwonsiegeorbattleandallourboutsendedwithJoeDillon’swardanceofvictory。Hisparentswenttoeighto’clockmasseverymorninginGardinerStreetandthepeacefulodourofMrsDillonwasprevalentinthehallofthehouse。Butheplayedtoofiercelyforuswhowereyoungerandmoretimid。HelookedlikesomekindofanIndianwhenhecaperedroundthegarden,anoldtea-cosyonhishead,beatingatinwithhisfistandyelling:

  `Ya!yaka,yaka,yaka!’

  Everyonewasincredulouswhenitwasreportedthathehadavocationforthepriesthood。Neverthelessitwastrue。

  Aspiritofunrulinessdiffuseditselfamongusand,underitsinfluence,differencesofcultureandconstitutionwerewaived。Webandedourselvestogether,someboldly,someinjestandsomealmostinfear:andofthenumberoftheselatter,thereluctantIndianswhowereafraidtoseemstudiousorlackinginrobustness,Iwasone。TheadventuresrelatedintheliteratureoftheWildWestwereremotefrommynaturebut,atleast,theyopeneddoorsofescape。IlikedbettersomeAmericandetectivestorieswhichweretraversedfromtimetotimebyunkemptfierceandbeautifulgirls。Thoughtherewasnothingwronginthesestoriesandthoughtheirintentionwassometimesliterary,theywerecirculatedsecretlyatschool。OnedaywhenFatherButlerwashearingthefourpagesofRomanHistory,clumsyLeoDillonwasdiscoveredwithacopyofTheHalfpennyMarvel。

  `Thispageorthispage?Thispage?Now,Dillon,up。\"Hardlyhadtheday\"……Goon!Whatday?\"Hardlyhadthedaydawned\"……

  Haveyoustudiedit?Whathaveyouthereinyourpocket?’

  Everyone’sheartpalpitatedasLeoDillonhandedupthepaperandeveryoneassumedaninnocentface。FatherButlerturnedoverthepages,frowning。

  `Whatisthisrubbish?’hesaid。`TheApacheChief!IsthiswhatyoureadinsteadofstudyingyourRomanHistory?Letmenotfindanymoreofthiswretchedstuffinthiscollege。Themanwhowroteit,Isuppose,wassomewretchedfellowwhowritesthesethingsforadrink。I’msurprisedatboyslikeyou,educated,readingsuchstuff!Icouldunderstanditifyouwere……NationalSchoolboys。Now,Dillon,Iadviseyoustrongly,getatyourworkor……’

  ThisrebukeduringthesoberhoursofschoolpaledmuchofthegloryoftheWildWestforme,andtheconfusedpuffyfaceofLeoDillonawakenedoneofmyconsciences。ButwhentherestraininginfluenceoftheschoolwasatadistanceIbegantohungeragainforwildsensations,fortheescapewhichthesechroniclesofdisorderaloneseemedtoofferme。ThemimicwarfareoftheeveningbecameatlastaswearisometomeastheroutineofschoolinthemorningbecauseIwantedrealadventurestohappentomyself。Butrealadventures,Ireflected,donothappentopeoplewhoremainathome:theymustbesoughtabroad。

  ThesummerholidayswerenearathandwhenImadeupmymindtobreakoutofthewearinessofschoollifeforonedayatleast。WithLeoDillonandaboynamedMahonyIplannedaday’smiching。Eachofussavedupsixpence。

  WeweretomeetatteninthemorningontheCanalBridge。Mahony’sbigsisterwastowriteanexcuseforhimandLeoDillonwastotellhisbrothertosayhewassick。WearrangedtogoalongtheWharfRoaduntilwecametotheships,thentocrossintheferryboatandwalkouttoseethePigeonHouse。LeoDillonwasafraidwemightmeetFatherButlerorsomeoneoutofthecollege;butMahonyasked,verysensibly,whatwouldFatherButlerbedoingoutatthePigeonHouse。Wewerereassured,andIbroughtthefirststageoftheplottoanendbycollectingsixpencefromtheothertwo,atthesametimeshowingthemmyownsixpence。Whenweweremakingthelastarrangementsontheevewewereallvaguelyexcited。Weshookhands,laughing,andMahonysaid:

  `Tilltomorrow,mates。’

  ThatnightIsleptbadly。InthemorningIwasfirstcomertothebridge,asIlivednearest。Ihidmybooksinthelonggrassneartheashpitattheendofthegardenwherenobodyevercame,andhurriedalongthecanalbank。ItwasamildsunnymorninginthefirstweekofJune。Isatuponthecopingofthebridge,admiringmyfrailcanvasshoeswhichIhaddiligentlypipeclayedovernightandwatchingthedocilehorsespullingatramloadofbusinesspeopleupthehill。Allthebranchesofthetalltreeswhichlinedthemallweregaywithlittlelightgreenleaves,andthesunlightslantedthroughthemontothewater。Thegranitestoneofthebridgewasbeginningtobewarm,andIbegantopatitwithmyhandsintimetoanairinmyhead。Iwasveryhappy。

  WhenIhadbeensittingthereforfiveortenminutesIsawMahony’sgreysuitapproaching。Hecameupthehill,smiling,andclamberedupbesidemeonthebridge。Whilewewerewaitinghebroughtoutthecatapultwhichbulgedfromhisinnerpocketandexplainedsomeimprovementswhichhehadmadeinit。Iaskedhimwhyhehadbroughtit,andhetoldmehehadbroughtittohavesomegaswiththebirds。Mahonyusedslangfreely,andspokeofFatherButlerasOldBunser。Wewaitedonforaquarterofanhourmore,butstilltherewasnosignofLeoDillon。Mahony,atlast,jumpeddownandsaid:

  `Comealong。IknewFatty’dfunkit。’

  `Andhissixpence……’Isaid。

  `That’sforfeit,’saidMahony。`Andsomuchthebetterforus-abobandatannerinsteadofabob。’

  WewalkedalongtheNorthStrandRoadtillwecametotheVitriolWorksandthenturnedtotherightalongtheWharfRoad。MahonybegantoplaytheIndianassoonaswewereoutofpublicsight。Hechasedacrowdofraggedgirls,brandishinghisunloadedcatapultand,whentworaggedboysbegan,outofchivalry,toflingstonesatus,heproposedthatweshouldchargethem。Iobjectedthattheboysweretoosmall,andsowewalkedon,theraggedtroopscreamingafterus`Swaddlers!Swaddlers!’

  thinkingthatwewereProtestantsbecauseMahony,whowasdark-complexioned,worethesilverbadgeofacricketclubinhiscap。WhenwecametotheSmoothingIronwearrangedasiege;butitwasafailurebecauseyoumusthaveatleastthree。WerevengedourselvesonLeoDillonbysayingwhatafunkhewasandguessinghowmanyhewouldgetatthreeo’clockfromMrRyan。

  Wecamethenneartheriver。Wespentalongtimewalkingaboutthenoisystreetsflankedbyhighstonewalls,watchingtheworkingofcranesandenginesandoftenbeingshoutedatforourimmobilitybythedriversofgroaningcarts。Itwasnoonwhenwereachedthequaysand,asallthelabourersseemedtobeeatingtheirlunches,weboughttwobigcurrantbunsandsatdowntoeatthemonsomemetalpipingbesidetheriver。WepleasedourselveswiththespectacleofDublin’scommerce-thebargessignalledfromfarawaybytheircurlsofwoollysmoke,thebrownfishingfleetbeyondRingsend,thebigwhitesailingvesselwhichwasbeingdischargedontheoppositequay。Mahonysaiditwouldberightskittorunawaytoseaononeofthosebigships,andevenI,lookingatthehighmasts,saw,orimagined,thegeographywhichhadbeenscantilydosedtomeatschoolgraduallytakingsubstanceundermyeyes。Schoolandhomeseemedtorecedefromusandtheirinfluencesuponusseemedtowane。

  WecrossedtheLiffeyintheferryboat,payingourtolltobetransportedinthecompanyoftwolabourersandalittleJewwithabag。Wewereserioustothepointofsolemnity,butonceduringtheshortvoyageoureyesmetandwelaughed。Whenwelandedwewatchedthedischargingofthegracefulthree-masterwhichwehadobservedfromtheotherquay。SomebystandersaidthatshewasaNorwegianvessel。Iwenttothesternandtriedtodecipherthelegenduponitbut,failingtodoso,Icamebackandexaminedtheforeignsailorstoseehadanyofthemgreeneyes,forIhadsomeconfusednotion……Thesailors’eyeswereblue,andgrey,andevenblack。Theonlysailorwhoseeyescouldhavebeencalledgreenwasatallmanwhoamusedthecrowdonthequaybycallingoutcheerfullyeverytimetheplanksfell:

  `Allright!Allright!’

  WhenweweretiredofthissightwewanderedslowlyintoRingsend。Thedayhadgrownsultry,andinthewindowsofthegrocers’shopsmustybiscuitslaybleaching。Weboughtsomebiscuitsandchocolate,whichweatesedulouslyaswewanderedthroughthesqualidstreetswherethefamiliesofthefishermenlive。Wecouldfindnodairyandsowewentintoahuckster’sshopandboughtabottleofraspberrylemonadeeach。Refreshedbythis,Mahonychasedacatdownalane,butthecatescapedintoawidefield。Webothfeltrathertired,andwhenwereachedthefieldwemadeatonceforaslopingbank,overtheridgeofwhichwecouldseetheDodder。

  ItwastoolateandweweretootiredtocarryoutourprojectofvisitingthePigeonHouse。Wehadtobehomebeforefouroclock,lestouradventureshouldbediscovered。Mahonylookedregretfullyathiscatapult,andI

  hadtosuggestgoinghomebytrainbeforeheregainedanycheerfulness。

  Thesunwentinbehindsomecloudsandleftustoourjadedthoughtsandthecrumbsofourprovisions。

  Therewasnobodybutourselvesinthefield。WhenwehadlainonthebankforsometimewithoutspeakingIsawamanapproachingfromthefarendofthefield。IwatchedhimlazilyasIchewedoneofthosegreenstemsonwhichgirlstellfortunes。Hecamealongbythebankslowly。Hewalkedwithonehanduponhishipandintheotherhandheheldastickwithwhichhetappedtheturflightly。Hewasshabbilydressedinasuitofgreenish-blackandworewhatweusedtocallajerryhatwithahighcrown。Heseemedtobefairlyold,forhismoustachewasashen-grey。Whenhepassedatourfeetheglancedupatusquicklyandthencontinuedhisway。Wefollowedhimwithoureyesandsawthatwhenhehadgoneonforperhapsfiftypacesheturnedaboutandbegantoretracehissteps。Hewalkedtowardsusveryslowly,alwaystappingthegroundwithhisstick,soslowlythatIthoughthewaslookingforsomethinginthegrass。

  Hestoppedwhenhecamelevelwithus,andbadeusgood-day。Weansweredhim,andhesatdownbesideusontheslopeslowlyandwithgreatcare。

  Hebegantotalkoftheweather,sayingthatitwouldbeaveryhotsummerandaddingthattheseasonshadchangedgreatlysincehewasaboy-alongtimeago。Hesaidthatthehappiesttimeofone’slifewasundoubtedlyone’sschoolboydays,andthathewouldgiveanythingtobeyoungagain。

  Whileheexpressedthesesentiments,whichboredusalittle,wekeptsilent。

  Thenhebegantotalkofschoolandofbooks。HeaskeduswhetherwehadreadthepoetryofThomasMooreortheworksofSirWalterScottandLordLytton。IpretendedthatIhadreadeverybookhementioned,sothatintheendhesaid:

  `Ah,Icanseeyouareabookwormlikemyself。Now,’headded,pointingtoMahony,whowasregardinguswithopeneyes,`heisdifferent;hegoesinforgames。’

  HesaidhehadallSirWalterScott’sworksandallLordLytton’sworksathomeandnevertiredofreadingthem。`Ofcourse,’hesaid,`thereweresomeofLordLytton’sworkswhichboyscouldn’tread。’Mahonyaskedwhycouldn’tboysreadthem-aquestionwhichagitatedandpainedmebecauseIwasafraidthemanwouldthinkIwasasstupidasMahony。Theman,however,onlysmiled。Isawthathehadgreatgapsinhismouthbetweenhisyellowteeth。Thenheaskeduswhichofushadthemostsweethearts。Mahonymentionedlightlythathehadthreetotties。ThemanaskedmehowmanyIhad。IansweredthatIhadnone。HedidnotbelievemeandsaidhewassureImusthaveone。Iwassilent。

  `Tellus,’saidMahonypertlytotheman,`howmanyhaveyouyourself?’

  Themansmiledasbeforeandsaidthatwhenhewasouragehehadlotsofsweethearts。

  `Everyboy,’hesaid,`hasalittlesweetheart。’

  Hisattitudeonthispointstruckmeasstrangelyliberalinamanofhisage。InmyheartIthoughtthatwhathesaidaboutboysandsweetheartswasreasonable。ButIdislikedthewordsinhismouth,andIwonderedwhyheshiveredonceortwiceasifhefearedsomethingorfeltasuddenchill。

  AsheproceededInoticedthathisaccentwasgood。Hebegantospeaktousaboutgirls,sayingwhatnicesofthairtheyhadandhowsofttheirhandswereandhowallgirlswerenotsogoodastheyseemedtobeifoneonlyknew。Therewasnothingheliked,hesaid,somuchaslookingataniceyounggirl,athernicewhitehandsandherbeautifulsofthair。Hegavemetheimpressionthathewasrepeatingsomethingwhichhehadlearnedbyheartorthat,magnetizedbysomewordsofhisownspeech,hismindwasslowlycirclingroundandroundinthesameorbit。Attimeshespokeasifheweresimplyalludingtosomefactthateverybodyknew,andattimesheloweredhisvoiceandspokemysteriously,asifheweretellingussomethingsecretwhichhedidnotwishotherstooverhear。Herepeatedhisphrasesoverandoveragain,varyingthemandsurroundingthemwithhismonotonousvoice。Icontinuedtogazetowardsthefootoftheslope,listeningtohim。

  Afteralongwhilehismonologuepaused。Hestoodupslowly,sayingthathehadtoleaveusforaminuteorso,afewminutes,and,withoutchangingthedirectionofmygaze,Isawhimwalkingslowlyawayfromustowardsthenearendofthefield。Weremainedsilentwhenhehadgone。

  AfterasilenceofafewminutesIheardMahonyexclaim:

  `Isay!Lookwhathe’sdoing!’

  AsIneitheranswerednorraisedmyeyes,Mahonyexclaimedagain:

  `Isay……He’saqueeroldjosser!’

  `Incaseheasksusforournames,’Isaid,`letyoubeMurphyandI’llbeSmith。’

  Wesaidnothingfurthertoeachother。IwasstillconsideringwhetherIwouldgoawayornotwhenthemancamebackandsatdownbesideusagain。

  HardlyhadhesatdownwhenMahony,catchingsightofthecatwhichhadescapedhim,sprangupandpursuedheracrossthefield。ThemanandI

  watchedthechase。ThecatescapedoncemoreandMahonybegantothrowstonesatthewallshehadescaladed。Desistingfromthis,hebegantowanderaboutthefarendofthefield,aimlessly。

  Afteranintervalthemanspoketome。Hesaidthatmyfriendwasaveryroughboy,andaskeddidhegetwhippedoftenatschool。IwasgoingtoreplyindignantlythatwewerenotNationalSchoolboystobewhipped,ashecalledit;butIremainedsilent。Hebegantospeakonthesubjectofchastisingboys。Hismind,asifmagnetizedagainbyhisspeech,seemedtocircleslowlyroundandrounditsnewcentre。Hesaidthatwhenboyswerethatkindtheyoughttobewhippedandwellwhipped。Whenaboywasroughandunrulytherewasnothingwoulddohimanygoodbutagoodsoundwhipping。Aslaponthehandoraboxontheearwasnogood:whathewantedwastogetanicewarmwhipping。Iwassurprisedatthissentimentandinvoluntarilyglancedathisface。AsIdidsoImetthegazeofapairofbottle-greeneyespeeringatmefromunderatwitchingforehead。Iturnedmyeyesawayagain。

  Themancontinuedhismonologue。Heseemedtohaveforgottenhisrecentliberalism。Hesaidthatifeverhefoundaboytalkingtogirlsorhavingagirlforasweethearthewouldwhiphimandwhiphim;andthatwouldteachhimnottobetalkingtogirls。Andifaboyhadagirlforasweetheartandtoldliesaboutit,thenhewouldgivehimsuchawhippingasnoboyevergotinthisworld。Hesaidthattherewasnothinginthisworldhewouldlikesowellasthat。Hedescribedtomehowhewouldwhipsuchaboy,asifhewereunfoldingsomeelaboratemystery。Hewouldlovethat,hesaid,betterthananythinginthisworld;andhisvoice,asheledmemonotonouslythroughthemystery,grewalmostaffectionateandseemedtopleadwithmethatIshouldunderstandhim。

  IwaitedtillhismonologuepausedagainThenIstoodupabruptly。LestIshouldbetraymyagitationIdelayedafewmoments,pretendingtofixmyshoeproperly,andthen,sayingthatIwasobligedtogo,Ibadehimgood-day。Iwentuptheslopecalmlybutmyheartwasbeatingquicklywithfearthathewouldseizemebytheankles。WhenIreachedthetopoftheslopeIturnedroundand,withoutlookingathim,calledloudlyacrossthefield:

  `Murphy!’

  Myvoicehadanaccentofforcedbraveryinit,andIwasashamedofmypaltrystratagem。IhadtocallthenameagainbeforeMahonysawmeandhallooedinanswer。Howmyheartbeatashecamerunningacrossthefieldtome!Heranasiftobringmeaid。AndIwaspenitent;forinmyheartIhadalwaysdespisedhimalittle。

  Araby

  NorthRichmondStreet,beingblind,wasaquietstreetexceptatthehourwhentheChristianBrothers’Schoolsettheboysfree。Anuninhabitedhouseoftwostoreysstoodattheblindend,detachedfromitsneighboursinasquareground。Theotherhousesofthestreet,consciousofdecentliveswithinthem,gazedatoneanotherwithbrownimperturbablefaces。

  Theformertenantofourhouse,apriest,haddiedinthebackdrawing-room。

  Air,mustyfromhavingbeenlongenclosed,hunginalltherooms,andthewasteroombehindthekitchenwaslitteredwitholduselesspapers。AmongtheseIfoundafewpaper-coveredbooks,thepagesofwhichwerecurledanddamp:TheAbbot,byWalterScott,TheDevoutCommunicant,andTheMemoirsofVidocq。Ilikedthelastbestbecauseitsleaveswereyellow。Thewildgardenbehindthehousecontainedacentralapple-treeandafewstragglingbushes,underoneofwhichIfoundthelatetenant’srustybicycle-pump。Hehadbeenaverycharitablepriest;inhiswillhehadleftallhismoneytoinstitutionsandthefurnitureofhishousetohissister。

  Whentheshortdaysofwintercame,duskfellbeforewehadwelleatenourdinners。Whenwemetinthestreetthehouseshadgrownsombre。Thespaceofskyaboveuswasthecolourofever-changingvioletandtowardsitthelampsofthestreetliftedtheirfeeblelanterns。Thecoldairstungusandweplayedtillourbodiesglowed。Ourshoutsechoedinthesilentstreet。Thecareerofourplaybroughtusthroughthedarkmuddylanesbehindthehouses,whereweranthegauntletoftheroughtribesfromthecottages,tothebackdoorsofthedarkdrippinggardenswhereodoursarosefromtheashpits,tothedarkodorousstableswhereacoachmansmoothedandcombedthehorseorshookmusicfromthebuckledharness。Whenwereturnedtothestreet,lightfromthekitchenwindowshadfilledtheareas。Ifmyunclewasseenturningthecorner,wehidintheshadowuntilwehadseenhimsafelyhoused。OrifMangan’ssistercameoutonthedoorsteptocallherbrotherintohistea,wewatchedherfromourshadowpeerupanddownthestreet。Wewaitedtoseewhethershewouldremainorgoinand,ifsheremained,weleftourshadowandwalkeduptoMangan’sstepsresignedly。Shewaswaitingforus,herfiguredefinedbythelightfromthehalf-openeddoor。Herbrotheralwaysteasedherbeforeheobeyed,andIstoodbytherailingslookingather。Herdressswungasshemovedherbody,andthesoftropeofherhairtossedfromsidetoside。

  EverymorningIlayonthefloorinthefrontparlourwatchingherdoor。

  TheblindwaspulleddowntowithinaninchofthesashsothatIcouldnotbeseen。Whenshecameoutonthedoorstepmyheartleaped。Irantothehall,seizedmybooksandfollowedher。Ikeptherbrownfigurealwaysinmyeyeand,whenwecamenearthepointatwhichourwaysdiverged,Iquickenedmypaceandpassedher。Thishappenedmorningaftermorning。

  Ihadneverspokentoher,exceptforafewcasualwords,andyethernamewaslikeasummonstoallmyfoolishblood。

  Herimageaccompaniedmeeveninplacesthemosthostiletoromance。

  OnSaturdayeveningswhenmyauntwentmarketingIhadtogotocarrysomeoftheparcels。Wewalkedthroughtheflaringstreets,jostledbydrunkenmenandbargainingwomen,amidthecursesoflabourers,theshrilllitaniesofshop-boyswhostoodonguardbythebarrelsofpigs’cheeks,thenasalchantingofstreet-singers,whosangacome-all-youaboutO’DonovanRossa,oraballadaboutthetroublesinournativeland。Thesenoisesconvergedinasinglesensationoflifeforme:IimaginedthatIboremychalicesafelythroughathrongoffoes。HernamesprangtomylipsatmomentsinstrangeprayersandpraiseswhichImyselfdidnotunderstand。

  Myeyeswereoftenfulloftears(Icouldnottellwhy)andattimesafloodfrommyheartseemedtopouritselfoutintomybosom。Ithoughtlittleofthefuture。IdidnotknowwhetherIwouldeverspeaktoherornotor,ifIspoketoher,howIcouldtellherofmyconfusedadoration。

  Butmybodywaslikeaharpandherwordsandgestureswerelikefingersrunninguponthewires。

  OneeveningIwentintothebackdrawing-roominwhichthepriesthaddied。Itwasadarkrainyeveningandtherewasnosoundinthehouse。

  ThroughoneofthebrokenpanesIheardtherainimpingeupontheearth,thefineincessantneedlesofwaterplayinginthesoddenbeds。Somedistantlamporlightedwindowgleamedbelowme。IwasthankfulthatIcouldseesolittle。Allmysensesseemedtodesiretoveilthemselvesand,feelingthatIwasabouttoslipfromthem,Ipressedthepalmsofmyhandstogetheruntiltheytrembled,murmuring:`Olove!Olove!’manytimes。

  Atlastshespoketome。WhensheaddressedthefirstwordstomeI

  wassoconfusedthatIdidnotknowwhattoanswer。SheaskedmewasI

  goingtoAraby。IforgotwhetherIansweredyesorno。Itwouldbeasplendidbazaar;shesaidshewouldlovetogo。

  `Andwhycan’tyou?’Iasked。

  Whileshespokesheturnedasilverbraceletroundandroundherwrist。

  Shecouldnotgo,shesaid,becausetherewouldbearetreatthatweekinherconvent。Herbrotherandtwootherboyswerefightingfortheircaps,andIwasaloneattherailings。Sheheldoneofthespikes,bowingherheadtowardsme。Thelightfromthelampoppositeourdoorcaughtthewhitecurveofherneck,litupherhairthatrestedthereand,falling,litupthehandupontherailing。Atfelloveronesideofherdressandcaughtthewhiteborderofapetticoat,justvisibleasshestoodatease。

  `It’swellforyou,’shesaid。

  `IfIgo,’Isaid,`Iwillbringyousomething。’

  Whatinnumerablefollieslaidwastemywakingandsleepingthoughtsafterthatevening!Iwishedtoannihilatethetediousinterveningdays。

  Ichafedagainsttheworkofschool。AtnightinmybedroomandbydayintheclassroomherimagecamebetweenmeandthepageIstrovetoread。

  ThesyllablesofthewordArabywerecalledtomethroughthesilenceinwhichmysoulluxuriatedandcastanEasternenchantmentoverme。I

  askedforleavetogotothebazaaronSaturdaynight。Myauntwassurprised,andhopeditwasnotsomeFreemasonaffair。Iansweredfewquestionsinclass。Iwatchedmymaster’sfacepassfromamiabilitytosternness;hehopedIwasnotbeginningtoidle。Icouldnotcallmywanderingthoughtstogether。Ihadhardlyanypatiencewiththeseriousworkoflifewhich,nowthatitstoodbetweenmeandmydesire,seemedtomechild’splay,uglymonotonouschild’splay。

  OnSaturdaymorningIremindedmyunclethatIwishedtogotothebazaarintheevening。Hewasfussingatthehallstand,lookingforthehat-brush,andansweredmecurtly:

  `Yes,boy,Iknow。’

  AshewasinthehallIcouldnotgointothefrontparlourandlieatthewindow。Ifeltthehouseinbadhumourandwalkedslowlytowardstheschool。Theairwaspitilesslyrawandalreadymyheartmisgaveme。

  WhenIcamehometodinnermyunclehadnotyetbeenhome。Stillitwasearly。Isatstaringattheclockforsometimeand,whenitstickingbegantoirritateme,Ilefttheroom。Imountedthestaircaseandgainedtheupperpartofthehouse。Thehigh,cold,empty,gloomyroomsliberatedmeandIwentfromroomtoroomsinging。FromthefrontwindowIsawmycompanionsplayingbelowinthestreet。Theircriesreachedmeweakenedandindistinctand,leaningmyforeheadagainstthecoolglass,Ilookedoveratthedarkhousewhereshelived。Imayhavestoodthereforanhour,seeingnothingbutthebrown-cladfigurecastbymyimagination,toucheddiscreetlybythelamplightatthecurvedneck,atthehandupontherailingsandattheborderbelowthedress。

  WhenIcamedownstairsagainIfoundMrsMercersittingatthefire。

  Shewasanold,garrulouswoman,apawnbroker’swidow,whocollectedusedstampsforsomepiouspurpose。Ihadtoendurethegossipofthetea-table。

  Themealwasprolongedbeyondanhourandstillmyuncledidnotcome。

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