“FairweatherValeprovedtobeanewneighborhood,situatedbelowthehighgroundofHampstead,onthesouthernside。Thedaywasovercast,andtheplacelookedverydreary。Weapproacheditbyanewroadrunningbetweentrees,whichmightoncehavebeentheparkavenueofacountryhouse。Attheendwecameuponawildernessofopenground,withhalf-finishedvillasdottedabout,andahideouslitterofboards,wheelbarrows,andbuildingmaterialsofallsortsscatteredineverydirection。Atonecornerofthissceneofdesolation,stoodagreatovergrowndismalhouse,plasteredwithdrab-coloredstucco,andsurroundedbyanaked,unfinishedgarden,withoutashruboraflowerinit,frightfultobehold。Ontheopenirongatethatledintothisinclosurewasanewbrassplate,with’Sanitarium’inscribedonitingreatblackletters。Thebell,whenthecabmanrangit,pealedthroughtheemptyhouselikeaknell;andthepallid,witheredoldman-servantinblackwhoansweredthedoorlookedasifhehadsteppedupoutofhisgravetoperformthatservice。Heletoutonmeasmellofdampplasterandnewvarnish;andheletinwithmeachillingdraftofthedampNovemberair。Ididn’tnoticeitatthetime,but,writingofitnow,IrememberthatI
shiveredasIcrossedthethreshold。
“Igavemynametotheservantas’Mrs。Armadale,’andwasshownintothewaiting-room。Theveryfireitselfwasdyingofdampinthegrate。Theonlybooksonthetablewerethedoctor’sWorks,insoberdrabcovers;andtheonlyobjectthatornamentedthewallswastheforeignDiplomahandsomelyframedandglazed,ofwhichthedoctorhadpossessedhimselfbypurchase,alongwiththeforeignname。
“Afteramomentortwo,theproprietoroftheSanitariumcamein,andhelduphishandsincheerfulastonishmentatthesightofme。
“’Ihadn’tanideawho“Mrs。Armadale“was!’hesaid。’Mydearlady,have_you_changedyournametoo?Howslyofyounottotellmewhenwemetthismorning!Comeintomyprivatesnuggery——Ican’tthinkofkeepinganoldanddearfriendlikeyouinthepatients’waiting-room。’
“Thedoctor’sprivatesnuggerywasatthebackofthehouse,lookingoutonfieldsandtrees,doomedbutnotyetdestroyedbythebuilder。Horribleobjectsinbrassandleatherandglass,twistedandturnedasiftheyweresentientthingswrithinginagoniesofpain,filleduponeendoftheroom。Agreatbook-casewithglassdoorsextendedoverthewholeoftheoppositewall,andexhibitedonitsshelveslongrowsofglassjars,inwhichshapelessdeadcreaturesofadullwhitecolorfloatedinyellowliquid。Abovethefireplacehungacollectionofphotographicportraitsofmenandwomen,inclosedintwolargeframeshangingsidebysidewithaspacebetweenthem。Theleft-handframeillustratedtheeffectsofnervoussufferingasseenintheface;
theright-handframeexhibitedtheravagesofinsanityfromthesamepointofview;whilethespacebetweenwasoccupiedbyanelegantlyilluminatedscroll,bearinginscribedonitthetime-honoredmotto,’PreventionisbetterthanCure。’
“’HereIam,withmygalvanicapparatus,andmypreservedspecimens,andalltherestofit,’saidthedoctor,placingmeinachairbythefireside。’AndthereismySystemmutelyaddressingyoujustaboveyourhead,underaformofexpositionwhichIventuretodescribeasfranknessitself。Thisisnomad-house,mydearlady。Letothermentreatinsanity,iftheylike——_I_stopit!Nopatientsinthehouseasyet。Butweliveinanagewhennervousderangementparentofinsanityissteadilyontheincrease;andinduetimethesuffererswillcome。IcanwaitasHarveywaited,asJennerwaited。Andnowdoputyourfeetuponthefender,andtellmeaboutyourself。Youaremarried,ofcourse?Andwhataprettyname!Acceptmybestandmostheart-feltcongratulations。Youhavethetwogreatestblessingsthatcanfalltoawoman’slot;thetwocapitalH’s,asIcallthem——HusbandandHome。’
“Iinterruptedthegenialflowofthedoctor’scongratulationsatthefirstopportunity。
“’Iammarried;butthecircumstancesarebynomeansoftheordinarykind,’Isaid,seriously。Mypresentpositionincludesnoneoftheblessingsthatareusuallysupposedtofalltoawoman’slot。Iamalreadyinasituationofveryseriousdifficulty;andbeforelongImaybeinasituationofveryseriousdangeraswell。’
“Thedoctordrewhischairalittlenearertome,andfellatonceintohisoldprofessionalmannerandhisoldconfidentialtone。
“’Ifyouwishtoconsultme,’hesaid,softly,’youknowthatI
havekeptsomedangeroussecretsinmytime,andyoualsoknowthatIpossesstwovaluablequalitiesasanadviser。Iamnoteasilyshocked;andIcanbeimplicitlytrusted。’
“Ihesitatedevennow,attheeleventhhour,sittingalonewithhiminhisownroom。Itwassostrangetometobetrustingtoanybodybutmyself!Andyet,howcouldIhelptrustinganotherpersoninadifficultywhichturnedonamatteroflaw?
“’Justasyouplease,youknow,’addedthedoctor。’Ineverinviteconfidences。Imerelyreceivethem。’
“Therewasnohelpforit;Ihadcometherenottohesitate,buttospeak。Iriskedit,andspoke。
“’ThematteronwhichIwishtoconsultyou,’Isaid,’isnotasyouseemtothinkwithinyourexperienceasaprofessionalman。ButIbelieveyoumaybeofassistancetome,ifItrustmyselftoyourlargerexperienceasamanoftheworld。IwarnyoubeforehandthatIshallcertainlysurprise,andpossiblyalarm,youbeforeIhavedone。’
“WiththatprefaceIenteredonmystory,tellinghimwhatIhadsettledtotellhim,andnomore。
“Imadenosecret,attheoutset,ofmyintentiontopersonateArmadale’swidow;andImentionedwithoutreserveknowingthatthedoctorcouldgototheofficeandexaminethewillforhimselfthehandsomeincomethatwouldbesettledonmeintheeventofmysuccess。SomeofthecircumstancesthatfollowednextinsuccessionIthoughtitdesirabletoalterorconceal。I
showedhimthenewspaperaccountofthelossoftheyacht,butI
saidnothingabouteventsatNaples。Iinformedhimoftheexactsimilarityofthetwonames;leavinghimtoimaginethatitwasaccidental。Itoldhim,asanimportantelementinthematter,thatmyhusbandhadkepthisrealnameaprofoundsecretfromeverybodybutmyself;buttopreventanycommunicationbetweenthemIcarefullyconcealedfromthedoctorwhattheassumednameunderwhichMidwinterhadlivedallhislifereallywas。I
acknowledgedthatIhadleftmyhusbandbehindmeontheContinent;butwhenthedoctorputthequestion,Iallowedhimtoconclude——Icouldn’t,withallmyresolution,tellhimpositively!——thatMidwinterknewofthecontemplatedFraud,andthathewasstayingawaypurposely,soasnottocompromisemebyhispresence。Thisdifficultysmoothedover——or,asIfeelitnow,thisbasenesscommitted——Irevertedtomyself,andcamebackagaintothetruth。OneafteranotherImentionedallthecircumstancesconnectedwithmyprivatemarriage,andwiththemovementsofArmadaleandMidwinter,whichrenderedanydiscoveryofthefalsepersonationthroughtheevidenceofotherpeopleadownrightimpossibility。’Somuch,’Isaid,inconclusion,’fortheobjectinview。Thenextthingistotellyouplainlyofaveryseriousobstaclethatstandsinmyway。’
“Thedoctor,whohadlistenedthusfarwithoutinterruptingme,beggedpermissionheretosayafewwordsonhissidebeforeI
wenton。
“The’fewwords’provedtobeallquestions——clever,searching,suspiciousquestions——whichIwas,however,abletoanswerwithlittleornoreserve,fortheyrelated,inalmosteveryinstance,tothecircumstancesunderwhichIhadbeenmarried,andtothechancesforandagainstmylawfulhusbandifhechosetoasserthisclaimtomeatanyfuturetime。
“Myrepliesinformedthedoctor,inthefirstplace,thatIhadsomanagedmattersatThorpeAmbroseastoproduceageneralimpressionthatArmadaleintendedtomarryme;inthesecondplace,thatmyhusband’searlylifehadnotbeenofakindtoexhibithimfavorablyintheeyesoftheworld;inthethirdplace,thatwehadbeenmarried,withoutanywitnessespresentwhoknewus,atalargeparishchurchinwhichtwoothercoupleshadbeenmarriedthesamemorning,tosaynothingofthedozensondozensofothercouplesconfusingallremembranceofusinthemindsoftheofficiatingpeoplewhohadbeenmarriedsince。
WhenIhadputthedoctorinpossessionofthesefacts——andwhenhehadfurtherascertainedthatMidwinterandIhadgoneabroadamongstrangersimmediatelyafterleavingthechurch;andthatthemenemployedonboardtheyachtinwhichArmadalehadsailedfromSomersetshirebeforemymarriagewerenowawayinshipsvoyagingtotheotherendoftheworld——hisconfidenceinmyprospectsshoweditselfplainlyinhisface。’SofarasIcansee,’hesaid,’yourhusband’sclaimtoyouafteryouhavesteppedintotheplaceofthedeadMr。Armadale’swidowwouldrestonnothingbuthisownbareassertion。And_that_Ithinkyoumaysafelysetatdefiance。Excusemyapparentdistrustofthegentleman。Buttheremightbeamisunderstandingbetweenyouinthefuture,anditishighlydesirabletoascertainbeforehandexactlywhathecouldorcouldnotdounderthosecircumstances。
Andnowthatwehavedonewiththemainobstaclethat_I_seeinthewayofyoursuccess,letusbyallmeanscometotheobstaclethat_you_seenext!’
“Iwaswillingenoughtocometoit。ThetoneinwhichhespokeofMidwinter,thoughImyselfwasresponsibleforit,jarredonmehorribly,androusedforthemomentsomeoftheoldfollyoffeelingwhichIfanciedIhadlaidasleepforever。Irushedatthechanceofchangingthesubject,andmentionedthediscrepancyintheregisterbetweenthehandinwhichMidwinterhadsignedthenameofAllanArmadale,andthehandinwhichArmadaleofThorpeAmbrosehadbeenaccustomedtowritehisname,withaneagernesswhichitquitedivertedthedoctortosee。
“’Is_that_all?’heasked,tomyinfinitesurpriseandrelief,whenIhaddone。’Mydearlady,praysetyourmindatease!IfthelateMr。Armadale’slawyerswantaproofofyourmarriage,theywon’tgotothechurch-registerforit,Icanpromiseyou!’
“’What!’Iexclaimed,inastonishment。’Doyoumeantosaythattheentryintheregisterisnotaproofofmymarriage?’
“’Itisaproof,’saidthedoctor,’thatyouhavebeenmarriedtosomebody。ButitisnoproofthatyouhavebeenmarriedtoMr。
ArmadaleofThorpeAmbrose。JackNokesorTomStylesexcusethehomelinessoftheillustration!mighthavegotthelicense,andgonetothechurchtobemarriedtoyouunderMr。Armadale’sname;andtheregisterhowcoulditdootherwise?mustinthatcasehaveinnocentlyassistedthedeception。IseeIsurpriseyou。Mydearmadam,whenyouopenedthisinterestingbusinessyousurprised_me_——Imayownitnow——bylayingsomuchstressonthecurioussimilaritybetweenthetwonames。Youmighthaveenteredontheverydaringandromanticenterpriseinwhichyouarenowengaged,withoutnecessarilymarryingyourpresenthusband。Anyothermanwouldhavedonejustaswell,providedhewaswillingtotakeMr。Armadale’snameforthepurpose。’
“Ifeltmytempergoingatthis。’Anyothermanwould_not_havedonejustaswell,’Irejoined,instantly。’Butforthesimilarityofthenames,Ishouldneverhavethoughtoftheenterpriseatall。’
“Thedoctoradmittedthathehadspokentoohastily。’Thatpersonalviewofthesubjecthad,Iconfess,escapedme,’hesaid。’However,letusgetbacktothematterinhand。InthecourseofwhatImaytermanadventurousmedicallife,Ihavebeenbroughtmorethanonceintocontactwiththegentlemenofthelaw,andhavehadopportunitiesofobservingtheirproceedingsincasesof,letussay,DomesticJurisprudence。IamquitesureIamcorrectininformingyouthattheproofwhichwillberequiredbyMr。Armadale’srepresentativeswillbetheevidenceofawitnesspresentatthemarriagewhocanspeaktotheidentityofthebrideandbridegroomfromhisownpersonalknowledge。’
“’ButIhavealreadytoldyou,’Isaid,’thattherewasnosuchpersonpresent。’
“’Precisely,’rejoinedthedoctor。’Inthatcase,whatyounowwant,beforeyoucansafelystirastepinthematter,is——ifyouwillpardonmetheexpression——aready-madewitness,possessedofraremoralandpersonalresources,whocanbetrustedtoassumethenecessarycharacter,andtomakethenecessaryDeclarationbeforeamagistrate。Doyouknowofanysuchperson?’askedthedoctor,throwinghimselfbackinhischair,andlookingatmewiththeutmostinnocence。
“’IonlyknowYou,’Isaid。
“Thedoctorlaughedsoftly。’Solikeawoman!’heremarked,withthemostexasperatinggoodhumor。’Themomentsheseesherobject,shedashesatitheadlongthenearestway。Oh,thesex!
thesex!’
“’Nevermindthesex!’Ibrokeout,impatiently。’Iwantaseriousanswer——YesorNo?’
“Thedoctorrose,andwavedhishandwithgreatgravityanddignityallroundtheroom。’Youseethisvastestablishment,’hebegan;’youcanpossiblyestimatetosomeextenttheimmensestakeIhaveinitsprosperityandsuccess。YourexcellentnaturalsensewilltellyouthatthePrincipalofthisSanitariummustbeamanofthemostunblemishedcharacter——’
“’Whywastesomanywords,’Isaid,’whenonewordwilldo?YoumeanNo!’
“ThePrincipaloftheSanitariumsuddenlyrelapsedintothecharacterofmyconfidentialfriend。
“’Mydearlady,’hesaid,’itisn’tYes,anditisn’tNo,atamoment’snotice。Givemetillto-morrowafternoon。BythattimeI
engagetobereadytodooneoftwothings——eithertowithdrawmyselffromthisbusinessatonce,ortogointoitwithyouheartandsoul。Doyouagreetothat?Verygood;wemaydropthesubject,then,tillto-morrow。WherecanIcallonyouwhenI
havedecidedwhattodo?’
“Therewasnoobjectiontomytrustinghimwithmyaddressatthehotel。Ihadtakencaretopresentmyselfthereas’Mrs。
Armadale’;andIhadgivenMidwinteranaddressattheneighboringpost-officetowritetowhenheansweredmyletters。
Wesettledthehouratwhichthedoctorwastocallonme;and,thatmatterarranged,Irosetogo,resistingalloffersofrefreshment,andallproposalstoshowmeoverthehouse。Hissmoothpersistenceinkeepingupappearancesafterwehadthoroughlyunderstoodeachotherdisgustedme。IgotawayfromhimassoonasIcould,andcamebacktomydiaryandmyownroom。
“Weshallseehowitendsto-morrow。MyownideaisthatmyconfidentialfriendwillsayYes。
“November24th——ThedoctorhassaidYes,asIsupposed;butontermswhichIneveranticipated。TheconditiononwhichIhavesecuredhisservicesamountstonothinglessthanthepaymenttohim,onmysteppingintotheplaceofArmadale’swidow,ofhalfmyfirstyear’sincome——inotherwords,sixhundredpounds!
“IprotestedagainstthisextortionatedemandineverywayI
couldthinkof。Alltonopurpose。Thedoctormetmewiththemostengagingfrankness。Nothing,hesaid,buttheaccidentalembarrassmentofhispositionatthepresenttimewouldhaveinducedhimtomixhimselfupinthematteratall。Hewouldhonestlyconfessthathehadexhaustedhisownresources,andtheresourcesofotherpersonswhomhedescribedashis’backers,’inthepurchaseandcompletionoftheSanitarium。Underthosecircumstances,sixhundredpoundsinprospectwasanobjecttohim。Forthatsumhewouldruntheseriousriskofadvisingandassistingme。Notafarthinglesswouldtempthim;andthereheleftit,withhisbestandfriendliestwishes,inmyhands!
“Itendedintheonlywayinwhichitcouldend。Ihadnochoicebuttoaccepttheterms,andtoletthedoctorsettlethingsonthespotashepleased。Thearrangementoncemadebetweenus,I
mustdohimthejusticetosaythatheshowednodispositiontoletthegrassgrowunderhisfeet。Hecalledbrisklyforpen,inkandpaper,andsuggestedopeningthecampaignatThorpeAmbrosebyto-night’spost。
“WeagreedonaformofletterwhichIwrote,andwhichhecopiedonthespot。Ienteredintonoparticularsatstarting。IsimplyassertedthatIwasthewidowofthedeceasedMr。Armadale;thatIhadbeenprivatelymarriedtohim;thatIhadreturnedtoEnglandonhissailingintheyachtfromNaples;andthatI
beggedtoincloseacopyofmymarriagecertificate,asamatterofformwithwhichIpresumeditwascustomarytocomply。Theletterwasaddressedto’TheRepresentativesofthelateAllanArmadale,Esq。,ThorpeAmbrose,Norfolk。’Andthedoctorhimselfcarrieditaway,andputitinthepost。
“IamnotsoexcitedandsoimpatientforresultsasIexpectedtobe,nowthatthefirststepistaken。ThethoughtofMidwinterhauntsmelikeaghost。Ihavebeenwritingtohimagain——asbefore,tokeepupappearances。Itwillbemylastletter,I
think。Mycouragefeelsshaken,myspiritsgetdepressed,whenmythoughtsgobacktoTurin。IamnomorecapableoffacingtheconsiderationofMidwinteratthismomentthanIwasintheby-gonetime,Thedayofreckoningwithhim,oncedistantanddoubtful,isadaythatmaycometomenow,Iknownothowsoon。
AndhereIam,trustingmyselfblindlytothechapterofAccidentsstill!
“November25th——Attwoo’clockto-daythedoctorcalledagainbyappointment。Hehasbeentohislawyersofcoursewithouttakingthemintoourconfidencetoputthecasesimplyofprovingmymarriage。Theresultconfirmswhathehasalreadytoldme。Thepivotonwhichthewholematterwillturn,ifmyclaimisdisputed,willbethequestionofidentity;anditmaybenecessaryforthewitnesstomakehisDeclarationinthemagistrate’spresencebeforetheweekisout。
“Inthispositionofaffairs,thedoctorthinksitimportantthatweshouldbewithineasyreachofeachother,andproposestofindaquietlodgingformeinhisneighborhood。Iamquitewillingtogoanywhere;for,amongtheotherstrangefanciesthathavegotpossessionofme,IhaveanideathatIshallfeelmorecompletelylosttoMidwinterifImoveoutoftheneighborhoodinwhichhislettersareaddressedtome。IwasawakeandthinkingofhimagainlastnightThismorningIhavefinallydecidedtowritetohimnomore。
“Afterstayinghalfanhour,thedoctorleftme,havingfirstinquiredwhetherIwouldliketoaccompanyhimtoHampsteadtolookforlodgings。IinformedhimthatIhadsomebusinessofmyownwhichwouldkeepmeinLondon。Heinquiredwhatthebusinesswas。’Youwillsee,’Isaid,’to-morrowornextday。’
“Ihadamoment’snervoustremblingwhenIwasbymyselfagain。
MybusinessinLondon,besidesbeingaseriousbusinessinawoman’seyes,tookmymindbacktoMidwinterinspiteofme。Theprospectofremovingtomynewlodginghadremindedmeofthenecessityofdressinginmynewcharacter。Thetimehadcomenowforgetting_mywidow’sweeds。_
“Myfirstproceeding,afterputtingmybonneton,wastoprovidemyselfwithmoney。IgotwhatIwantedtofitmeoutforthecharacterofArmadale’swidowbynothinglessthanthesaleofArmadale’sownpresenttomeonmymarriage——therubyring!ItprovedtobeamorevaluablejewelthanIhadsupposed。Iamlikelytobesparedallmoneyanxietiesforsometimetocome。
“Onleavingthejeweler’s,IwenttothegreatmourningshopinRegentStreet。Infour-and-twentyhoursifIcangivethemnomoretheyhaveengagedtodressmeinmywidow’scostumefromheadtofoot。IhadanotherfeverishmomentwhenIlefttheshop;
and,bywayoffurtherexcitementonthisagitatingday,Ifoundasurpriseinstoreformeonmyreturntothehotel。Anelderlygentlemanwasannouncedtobewaitingtoseeme。Iopenedmysitting-roomdoor,andtherewasoldBashwood!
“Hehadgotmyletterthatmorning,andhadstartedforLondonbythenexttraintoansweritinperson。Ihadexpectedagreatdealfromhim,butIhadcertainlynotexpected_that。_Itflatteredme。Forthemoment,Ideclareitflatteredme!
“Ipassoverthewretchedoldcreature’srapturesandreproaches,andgroansandtears,andwearylongprosingsaboutthelonelymonthshehadpassedatThorpeAmbrose,broodingovermydesertionofhim。Hewasquiteeloquentattimes;butIdon’twanthiseloquencehere。ItisneedlesstosaythatIputmyselfrightwithhim,andconsultedhisfeelingsbeforeIaskedhimforhisnews。Whatablessingawoman’svanityissometimes!Ialmostforgotmyrisksandresponsibilitiesinmyanxietiestobecharming。ForaminuteortwoIfeltawarmlittleflutteroftriumph。Anditwasatriumph——evenwithanoldman!InaquarterofanhourIhadhimsmirkingandsmiling,hangingonmylightestwordsinanecstasy,andansweringallthequestionsIputtohimlikeagoodlittlechild。
“HereishisaccountofaffairsatThorpeAmbrose,asIgentlyextracteditfromhimbitbybit:
“Inthefirstplace,thenewsofArmadale’sdeathhasreachedMissMilroy。Ithassocompletelyoverwhelmedherthatherfatherhasbeencompelledtoremoveherfromtheschool。Sheisbackatthecottage,andthedoctorisindailyattendance。DoIpityher?Yes!Ipityherexactlyasmuchassheoncepitiedme!
“Inthenextplace,thestateofaffairsatthegreathouse,whichIexpectedtofindsomedifficultyincomprehending,turnsouttobequiteintelligible,andcertainlynotdiscouragingsofar。Onlyyesterday,thelawyersonbothsidescametoanunderstanding。Mr。DarchthefamilysolicitoroftheBlanchards,andArmadale’sbitterenemyinpasttimesrepresentstheinterestsofMissBlanchard,whointheabsenceofanymaleheirisnextheirtotheestate,andwhohas,itappears,beeninLondonforsometimepast。Mr。Smart,ofNorwichoriginallyemployedtooverlookBashwood,representsthedeceasedArmadale。
Andthisiswhatthetwolawyershavesettledbetweenthem。
“Mr。Darch,actingforMissBlanchard,hasclaimedthepossessionoftheestate,andtherightofreceivingtherentsattheChristmasaudit,inhername。Mr。Smart,onhisside,hasadmittedthatthereisgreatweightinthefamilysolicitor’sapplication。Hecannotseehisway,asthingsarenow,tocontestingthequestionofArmadale’sdeath,andhewillconsenttooffernoresistancetotheapplication,ifMr。Darchwillconsent,onhisside,toassumetheresponsibilityoftakingpossessioninMissBlanchard’sname。ThisMr。Darchhasalreadydone;andtheestateisnowvirtuallyinMissBlanchard’spossession。
“OneresultofthiscourseofproceedingwillbeasBashwoodthinkstoputMr。Darchinthepositionofthepersonwhoreallydecidesonmyclaimtothewidow’splaceandthewidow’smoney。
Theincomebeingchargedontheestate,itmustcomeoutofMissBlanchard’spocket;andthequestionofpayingitwouldappear,therefore,tobeaquestionforMissBlanchard’slawyer。
To-morrowwillprobablydecidewhetherthisviewistherightone,formylettertoArmadale’srepresentativeswillhavebeendeliveredatthegreathousethismorning。
“SomuchforwhatoldBashwoodhadtotellme。Havingrecoveredmyinfluenceoverhim,andpossessedmyselfofallhisinformationsofar,thenextthingtoconsiderwastherightusetoturnhimtointhefuture。Hewasentirelyatmydisposal,forhisplaceatthesteward’sofficehasbeenalreadytakenbyMissBlanchard’smanofbusiness,andhepleadedhardtobeallowedtostayandservemyinterestsinLondon。Therewouldnothavebeentheleastdangerinlettinghimstay,forIhad,asamatterofcourse,lefthimundisturbedinhisconvictionthatIreallyamthewidowofArmadaleofThorpeAmbrose。Butwiththedoctor’sresourcesatmycommand,IwantednoassistanceofanysortinLondon;anditoccurredtomethatImightmakeBashwoodmoreusefulbysendinghimbacktoNorfolktowatcheventsthereinmyinterests。
“Helookedsorelydisappointedhavinghadaneyeevidentlytopayinghiscourttomeinmywidowedcondition!whenItoldhimoftheconclusionatwhichIhadarrived。Butafewwordsofpersuasion,andamodesthintthathemightcherishhopesinthefutureifheservedmeobedientlyinthepresent,didwondersinreconcilinghimtothenecessityofmeetingmywishes。Heaskedhelplesslyfor’instructions’whenitwastimeforhimtoleavemeandtravelbackbytheeveningtrain。Icouldgivehimnone,forIhadnoideaasyetofwhatthelegalpeoplemightormightnotdo。’Butsupposesomethinghappens,’hepersisted,’thatI
don’tunderstand,whatamItodo,sofarawayfromyou?’Icouldonlygivehimoneanswer。’Donothing,’Isaid。’Whateveritis,holdyourtongueaboutit,andwrite,orcomeuptoLondonimmediatelytoconsultme。’Withthosepartingdirections,andwithanunderstandingthatweweretocorrespondregularly,Ilethimkissmyhand,andsenthimofftothetrain。
“NowthatIamaloneagain,andabletothinkcalmlyoftheinterviewbetweenmeandmyelderlyadmirer,IfindmyselfrecallingacertainchangeinoldBashwood’smannerwhichpuzzledmeatthetime,andwhichpuzzlesmestill。
“Eveninhisfirstmomentsofagitationatseeingme,IthoughtthathiseyesrestedonmyfacewithanewkindofinterestwhileIwasspeakingtohim。Besidesthis,hedroppedawordortwoafterward,intellingmeofhislonelylifeatThorpeAmbrose,whichseemedtoimplythathehadbeensustainedinhissolitudebyafeelingofconfidenceabouthisfuturerelationswithmewhenwenextmetIfhehadbeenayoungerandaboldermanandifanysuchdiscoveryhadbeenpossible,Ishouldalmosthavesuspectedhimofhavingfoundoutsomethingaboutmypastlifewhichhadmadehimprivatelyconfidentofcontrollingme,ifI
showedanydispositiontodeceiveanddeserthimagain。ButsuchanideaasthisinconnectionwitholdBashwoodissimplyabsurd。
PerhapsIamoverexcitedbythesuspenseandanxietyofmypresentposition?Perhapsthemerestfanciesandsuspicionsareleadingmeastray?Letthisbeasitmay,Ihave,atanyrate,moreserioussubjectsthanthesubjectofoldBashwoodtooccupymenow。Tomorrow’spostmaytellmewhatArmadale’srepresentativesthinkoftheclaimofArmadale’swidow。
“November26th——Theanswerhasarrivedthismorning,intheformasBashwoodsupposedofaletterfromMr。Darch。Thecrabbedoldlawyeracknowledgesmyletterinthreelines。Beforehetakesanysteps,orexpressesanyopiniononthesubject,hewantsevidenceofidentityaswellastheevidenceofthecertificate;
andheventurestosuggestthatitmaybedesirable,beforewegoanyfurther,toreferhimtomylegaladvisers。
“Twoo’clock——Thedoctorcalledshortlyaftertwelvetosaythathehadfoundalodgingformewithintwentyminutes’walkoftheSanitarium。Inreturnforhisnews,IshowedhimMr。Darch’sletter。Hetookitawayatoncetohislawyers,andcamebackwiththenecessaryinformationformyguidance。IhaveansweredMr。Darchbysendinghimtheaddressofmylegaladvisers——otherwise,thedoctor’slawyers——withoutmakinganycommentonthedesirethathehasexpressedforadditionalevidenceofthemarriage。Thisisallthatcanbedoneto-day。
To-morrowwillbringwithiteventsofgreaterinterest,forto-morrowthedoctoristomakehisDeclarationbeforethemagistrate,andto-morrowIamtomovetomynewlodginginmywidow’sweeds。
“November27th——FairweatherValeVillas——TheDeclarationhasbeenmade,withallthenecessaryformalities。AndIhavetakenpossession,inmywidow’scostume,ofmynewrooms。
“Ioughttobeexcitedbytheopeningofthisnewactinthedrama,andbytheventuresomepartthatIamplayinginitmyself。Strangetosay,Iamquietanddepressed。ThethoughtofMidwinterhasfollowedmetomynewabode,andispressingonmeheavilyatthismoment。Ihavenofearofanyaccidenthappening,intheintervalthatmuststillpassbeforeIsteppubliclyintotheplaceofArmadale’swidow。Butwhenthattimecomes,andwhenMidwinterfindsmeassoonerorlaterfindmehemust!figuringinmyfalsecharacter,andsettledinthepositionthatIhaveusurped——_then,_Iaskmyself,Whatwillhappen?Theanswerstillcomesasitfirstcametomethismorning,whenIputonmywidow’sdress。Now,asthen,thepresentimentisfixedinmymindthathewillkillme。Ifitwasnottoolatetodrawback——
Absurd!Ishallshutupmyjournal。
“November28th——ThelawyershaveheardfromMr。Darch,andhavesenthimtheDeclarationbyreturnofpost。
“Whenthedoctorbroughtmethisnews,Iaskedhimwhetherhislawyerswereawareofmypresentaddress;and,findingthathehadnotyetmentionedittothem,Ibeggedthathewouldcontinuetokeepitasecretforthefuture。Thedoctorlaughed。’AreyouafraidofMr。Darch’sstealingamarchonus,andcomingtoattackyoupersonally?’heasked。Iacceptedtheimputation,astheeasiestwayofmakinghimcomplywithmyrequest。’Yes,’I
said,’IamafraidofMr。Darch。’
“Myspiritshaverisensincethedoctorleftme。Thereisapleasantsensationofsecurityinfeelingthatnostrangersareinpossessionofmyaddress。Iameasyenoughinmymindto-daytonoticehowwonderfullywellIlookinmywidow’sweeds,andtomakemyselfagreeabletothepeopleofthehouse。
“Midwinterdisturbedmealittleagainlastnight;butIhavegotovertheghastlydelusionwhichpossessedmeyesterday。
IknowbetternowthantodreadviolencefromhimwhenhediscoverswhatIhavedone。Andthereisstilllessfearofhisstoopingtoasserthisclaimtoawomanwhohaspracticedonhimsuchadeceptionasmine。TheoneserioustrialthatIshallbeputtowhenthedayofreckoningcomeswillbethetrialofpreservingmyfalsecharacterinhispresence。Ishallbesafeinhisloathingandcontemptforme,afterthat。OnthedaywhenI
havedeniedhimtohisface,Ishallhaveseenthelastofhimforever。
“ShallIbeabletodenyhimtohisface?ShallIbeabletolookathimandspeaktohimasifhehadneverbeenmoretomethanafriend?HowdoIknowtillthetimecomes?WasthereeversuchaninfatuatedfoolasIam,tobewritingofhimatall,whenwritingonlyencouragesmetothinkofhim?Iwillmakeanewresolution。Fromthistimeforth,hisnameshallappearnomoreinthesepages。
“Monday,December1st——Thelastmonthoftheworn-outoldyear1851!IfIallowedmyselftolookback,whatamiserableyearI
shouldseeaddedtoalltheothermiserableyearsthataregone!
ButIhavemademyresolutiontolookforwardonly,andImeantokeepit。
“Ihavenothingtorecordofthelasttwodays,exceptthatonthetwenty-ninthIrememberedBashwood,andwrotetotellhimofmynewaddress。ThismorningthelawyersheardagainfromMr。
Darch。HeacknowledgesthereceiptoftheDeclaration,butpostponesstatingthedecisionatwhichhehasarriveduntilhehascommunicatedwiththetrusteesunderthelateMr。Blanchard’swill,andhasreceivedhisfinalinstructionsfromhisclient,MissBlanchard。Thedoctor’slawyersdeclarethatthislastletterisameredeviceforgainingtime——withwhatobjecttheyare,ofcourse,notinapositiontoguess。Thedoctorhimselfsays,facetiously,itistheusuallawyer’sobjectofmakingalongbill。MyownideaisthatMr。Darchhashissuspicionsofsomethingwrong,andthathispurposeintryingtogaintime——
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“Ten,atnight——IhadwrittenasfarasthatlastunfinishedsentencetowardfourintheafternoonwhenIwasstartledbyhearingacabdriveuptothedoor。Iwenttothewindow,andgottherejustintimetoseeoldBashwoodgettingoutwithanactivityofwhichIshouldneverhavesupposedhimcapable。SolittledidIanticipatethetremendousdiscoverythatwasgoingtoburstonmeinanotherminute,thatIturnedtotheglass,andwonderedwhatthesusceptibleoldgentlemanwouldsaytomeinmywidow’scap。
“Theinstantheenteredtheroom,Isawthatsomeseriousdisasterhadhappened。Hiseyeswerewild,hiswigwasawry。Heapproachedmewithastrangemixtureofeagernessanddismay。
’I’vedoneasyoutoldme,’hewhispered,breathlessly。’I’veheldmytongueaboutit,andcomestraightto_you!_’HecaughtmebythehandbeforeIcouldspeak,withaboldnessquitenewinmyexperienceofhim。’OhhowcanIbreakittoyou!’heburstout。’I’mbesidemyselfwhenIthinkofit!’
“’Whenyou_can_speak,’Isaid,puttinghimintoachair,’speakout。IseeinyourfacethatyoubringmenewsIdon’tlookforfromThorpeAmbrose。’
“Heputhishandintothebreast-pocketofhiscoat,anddrewoutaletter。Helookedattheletter,andlookedatme。
’New——new——newsyoudon’tlookfor,’hestammered;’butnotfromThorpeAmbrose!’
“’NotfromThorpeAmbrose!’
“’No。Fromthesea!’
“Thefirstdawningofthetruthbrokeonmeatthosewords。I
couldn’tspeak——Icouldonlyholdoutmyhandtohimfortheletter。
“Hestillshrankfromgivingittome。’Idaren’t!Idaren’t!’hesaidtohimself,vacantly。’Theshockofitmightbethedeathofher。’
“Isnatchedtheletterfromhim。Oneglanceatthewritingontheaddresswasenough。Myhandsfellonmylap,withtheletterfastheldinthem。Isatpetrified,withoutmoving,withoutspeaking,withouthearingawordofwhatBashwoodwassayingtome,andslowlyrealizedtheterribletruth。ThemanwhosewidowIhadclaimedtobewasalivingmantoconfrontme!InvainIhadmixedthedrinkatNaples——invainIhadbetrayedhimintoManuel’shands。TwiceIhadsetthedeadlysnareforhim,andtwiceArmadalehadescapedme!“Icametomysenseofoutwardthingsagain,andfoundBashwoodonhiskneesatmyfeet,crying。
“’Youlookangry,’hemurmured,helplessly。’Areyouangrywith_me?_Oh,ifyouonlyknewwhathopesIhadwhenwelastsaweachother,andhowcruellythatletterhasdashedthemalltotheground!’
“Iputthemiserableoldcreaturebackfromme,butverygently。
’Hush!’Isaid。’Don’tdistressmenow。Iwantcomposure;Iwanttoreadtheletter。’
“Hewentawaysubmissivelytotheotherendoftheroom。Assoonasmyeyewasoffhim,Iheardhimsaytohimself,withimpotentmalignity,’Iftheseahadbeenofmymind,theseawouldhavedrownedhim!’
“OnebyoneIslowlyopenedthefoldsoftheletter;feeling,whileIdidso,thestrangestincapabilityoffixingmyattentionontheverylinesthatIwasburningtoread。ButwhydwellanylongeronsensationswhichIcan’tdescribe?ItwillbemoretothepurposeifIplacetheletteritself,forfuturereference,onthispageofmyjournal。
’Fiume,Illyria,November21,1851。
“MR。BASHWOOD——TheaddressIdatefromwillsurpriseyou;andyouwillbemoresurprisedstillwhenyouhearhowitisthatIcometowritetoyoufromaportontheAdriaticSea。
“Ihavebeenthevictimofarascallyattemptatrobberyandmurder。Therobberyhassucceeded;anditisonlythroughthemercyofGodthatthemurderdidnotsucceedtoo。
“IhiredayachtrathermorethanamonthagoatNaples;andsailedIamgladtothinknowwithoutanyfriendwithme,forMessina。FromMessinaIwentforacruiseintheAdriatic。Twodaysoutwewerecaughtinastorm。Stormsgetupinahurry,andgodowninahurry,inthoseparts。Thevesselbehavednobly:I
declareIfeelthetearsinmyeyesnow,whenIthinkofheratthebottomofthesea!Towardsunsetitbegantomoderate;andbymidnight,exceptforalong,smoothswell,theseawasasquietasneedbe。Iwentbelow,alittletiredhavinghelpedinworkingtheyachtwhilethegalelasted,andfellasleepinfiveminutes。Abouttwohoursafter,Iwaswokebysomethingfallingintomycabinthroughachinkoftheventilatorintheupperpartofthedoor。Ijumpedup,andfoundabitofpaperwithakeywrappedinit,andwithwritingontheinnerside,inahandwhichitwasnotveryeasytoread。
“UptothistimeIhadnothadtheghostofasuspicionthatI
wasaloneatseawithagangofmurderousvagabondsexceptingoneonlywhowouldstickatnothing。Ihadgotonverywellwithmysailing-mastertheworstscoundrelofthelot,andbetterstillwithhisEnglishmate。Thesailors,beingallforeigners,I
hadverylittletosayto。Theydidtheirwork,andnoquarrelsandnothingunpleasanthappened。Ifanybodyhadtoldme,beforeI
wenttobedonthenightafterthestorm,thatthesailing-masterandthecrewandthematewhohadbeennobetterthantherestofthematstartingwereallinaconspiracytorobmeofthemoneyIhadonboard,andthentodrownmeinmyownvesselafterward,Ishouldhavelaughedinhisface。Justrememberthat;
andthenfancyforyourselfforI’msureIcan’ttellyouwhatImusthavethoughtwhenIopenedthepaperroundthekey,andreadwhatInowcopyfromthemate’swriting,asfollows:
“’SIR——Stayinyourbedtillyouhearaboatshoveofffromthestarboardside,oryouareadeadman。Yourmoneyisstolen;andinfiveminutes’timetheyachtwillbescuttled,andthecabinhatchwillbenaileddownonyou。Deadmentellnotales;andthesailing-master’snotionistoleaveproofsafloatthatthevesselhasfounderedwithallonboard。Itwashisdoing,tobeginwith,andwewereallinit。Ican’tfinditinmyheartnottogiveyouachanceforyourlife。It’sabadchance,butIcandonomore。IshouldbemurderedmyselfifIdidn’tseemtogowiththerest。Thekeyofyourcabindooristhrownbacktoyou,insidethis。Don’tbealarmedwhenyouhearthehammerabove。Ishalldoit,andIshallhaveshortnailsinmyhandaswellaslong,andusetheshortonesonly。Waittillyouheartheboatwithallofusshoveoff,andthenpryupthecabinhatchwithyourback。Thevesselwillfloataquarterofanhouraftertheholesareboredinher。Slipintotheseaontheportside,andkeepthevesselbetweenyouandtheboat。Youwillfindplentyoflooselumber,wrenchedawayonpurpose,driftingabouttoholdonby。It’safinenightandasmoothsea,andthere’sachancethatashipmaypickyouupwhilethere’slifeleftinyou。Icandonomore——Yourstruly,J。M。’
“AsIcametothoselastwords,Iheardthehammeringdownofthehatchovermyhead。Idon’tsupposeI’mmoreofacowardthanmostpeople,buttherewasamomentwhenthesweatpoureddownmelikerain。Igottobemyownmanagainbeforethehammeringwasdone,andfoundmyselfthinkingofsomebodyverydeartomeinEngland。Isaidtomyself:’I’llhaveatryformylife,forhersake,thoughthechancesaredeadagainstme。’
“IputaletterfromthatpersonIhavementionedintooneofthestopperedbottlesofmydressing-case,alongwiththemate’swarning,incaseIlivedtoseehimagain。Ihungthis,andaflaskofwhisky,inaslingroundmyneck;and,afterfirstdressingmyselfinmyconfusion,thoughtbetterofit,andstripped,again,forswimming,tomyshirtanddrawers。BythetimeIhaddonethatthehammeringwasoverandtherewassuchasilencethatIcouldhearthewaterbubblingintothescuttledvesselamidships。Thenextnoisewasthenoiseoftheboatandthevillainsinheralwaysexceptingmyfriend,themate
shovingofffromthestarboardside。Iwaitedforthesplashoftheoarsinthewater,andthengotmybackunderthehatch。Thematehadkepthispromise。Iliftediteasily——creptacrossthedeck,undercoverofthebulwarks,onallfours——andslippedintotheseaontheportside。Lotsofthingswerefloatingabout。I
tookthefirstthingIcameto——ahen-coop——andswamawaywithitaboutacoupleofhundredyards,keepingtheyachtbetweenmeandtheboat。Havinggotthatdistance,Iwasseizedwithashiveringfit,andIstoppedfearingthecrampnexttotakeapullatmyflask。WhenIhadclosedtheflaskagain,Iturnedforamomenttolookback,andsawtheyachtintheactofsinking。Inaminutemoretherewasnothingbetweenmeandtheboatbutthepiecesofwreckthathadbeenpurposelythrownouttofloat。Themoonwasshining;and,iftheyhadhadaglassintheboat,I
believetheymighthaveseenmyhead,thoughIcarefullykeptthehen-coopbetweenmeandthem。
“Asitwas,theylaidontheiroars;andIheardloudvoicesamongthemdisputing。Afterwhatseemedanagetome,I
discoveredwhatthedisputewasabout。Theboat’sheadwassuddenlyturnedmyway。Someclevererscoundrelthantherestthesailing-master,Idaresayhadevidentlypersuadedthemtorowbackovertheplacewheretheyachthadgonedown,andmakequitesurethatIhadgonedownwithher。
“Theyweremorethanhalf-wayacrossthedistancethatseparatedus,andIhadgivenmyselfupforlost,whenIheardacryfromoneofthem,andsawtheboat’sprogresssuddenlychecked。Inaminuteortwomoretheboat’sheadwasturnedagain;andtheyrowedstraightawayfrommelikemenrowingfortheirlives。
“Ilookedononesidetowardtheland,andsawnothing。Ilookedontheothertowardthesea,anddiscoveredwhattheboat’screwhaddiscoveredbeforeme——asailinthedistance,growingsteadilybrighterandbiggerinthemoonlightthelongerIlookedatit。Inaquarterofanhourmorethevesselwaswithinhailofme,andthecrewhadgotmeonboard。
“Theywereallforeigners,andtheyquitedeafenedmebytheirjabber。Itriedsigns,butbeforeIcouldmakethemunderstandmeIwasseizedwithanothershiveringfit,andwascarriedbelow。
Thevesselheldonhercourse,Ihavenodoubt,butIwasinnoconditiontoknowanythingaboutit。BeforemorningIwasinafever;andfromthattimeIcanremembernothingclearlytillI
cametomysensesatthisplace,andfoundmyselfunderthecareofaHungarianmerchant,theconsigneeastheycallitofthecoastingvesselthathadpickedmeup。HespeaksEnglishaswellorbetterthanIdo;andhehastreatedmewithakindnesswhichIcanfindnowordstopraise。WhenhewasayoungmanhewasinEnglandhimself,learningbusiness,andhesayshehasremembrancesofourcountrywhichmakehisheartwarmtowardanEnglishman。Hehasfittedmeoutwithclothes,andhaslentmethemoneytotravelwith,assoonasthedoctorallowsmetostartforhome。SupposingIdon’tgetarelapse,Ishallbefittotravelinaweek’stimefromthis。IfIcancatchthemailatTrieste,andstandthefatigue,IshallbebackagainatThorpeAmbroseinaweekortendaysatmostafteryougetmyletter。
Youwillagreewithmethatitisaterriblylongletter。ButI
can’thelpthat。Iseemtohavelostmyoldknackatputtingthingsshort,andfinishingonthefirstpage。However,Iamneartheendnow;forIhavenothinglefttomentionbutthereasonwhyIwriteaboutwhathashappenedtome,insteadofwaitingtillIgethome,andtellingitallbywordofmouth。
“Ifancymyheadisstillmuddledbymyillness。Atanyrate,itonlystruckmethismorningthatthereisbarelyachanceofsomevesselhavingpassedtheplacewheretheyachtfoundered,andhavingpickedupthefurniture,andotherthingswrenchedoutofherandlefttofloat。Somefalsereportofmybeingdrownedmay,inthatcase,havereachedEngland。IfthishashappenedwhichI
hopetoGodmaybeanunfoundedfearonmypart,godirectlytoMajorMilroyatthecottage。Showhimthisletter——Ihavewrittenitquiteasmuchforhiseyeasforyours——andthengivehimtheinclosednote,andaskhimifhedoesn’tthinkthecircumstancesjustifymeinhopinghewillsendittoMissMilroy。Ican’texplainwhyIdon’twritedirectlytothemajor,ortoMissMilroy,insteadoftoyou。IcanonlysaythereareconsiderationsIamboundinhonortorespect,whichobligemetoactinthisroundaboutway。
“Idon’taskyoutoanswerthis,forIshallbeonmywayhome,I
hope,longbeforeyourlettercouldreachmeinthisout-of-the-wayplace。Whateveryoudo,don’tloseamomentingoingtoMajorMilroy。Go,onsecondthoughts,whetherthelossoftheyachtisknowninEnglandornot。
“Yourstruly,ALLANARMADALE。”
“IlookedupwhenIhadcometotheendoftheletter,andsaw,forthefirsttime,thatBashwoodhadlefthischairandhadplacedhimselfoppositetome。Hewasintentlystudyingmyface,withtheinquiringexpressionofamanwhowastryingtoreadmythoughts。Hiseyesfellguiltilywhentheymetmine,andheshrankawaytohischair。Believing,ashedid,thatIwasreallymarriedtoArmadale,washetryingtodiscoverwhetherthenewsofArmadale’srescuefromtheseawasgoodnewsorbadnewsinmyestimation?Itwasnotimethenforenteringintoexplanationswithhim。Thefirstthingtobedonewastocommunicateinstantlywiththedoctor。IcalledBashwoodbacktomeandgavehimmyhand。
“’Youhavedonemeaservice,’Isaid,’whichmakesuscloserfriendsthanever。Ishallsaymoreaboutthis,andaboutothermattersofsomeinteresttobothofus,laterintheday。IwantyounowtolendmeMr。Armadale’sletterwhichIpromisetobringbackandtowaitheretillIreturn。Willyoudothatforme,Mr。Bashwood?’
“HewoulddoanythingIaskedhim,hesaid。Iwentintothebedroomandputonmybonnetandshawl。
“’LetmebequitesureofthefactsbeforeIleaveyou,’I
resumed,whenIwasreadytogoout。’Youhavenotshownthislettertoanybodybutme?’
“’Notalivingsoulhasseenitbutourtwoselves。’
“’WhathaveyoudonewiththenoteinclosedtoMissMilroy?’
“Heproduceditfromhispocket。Iranitoverrapidly——sawthattherewasnothinginitoftheslightestimportance——andputitinthefireonthespot。Thatdone,IleftBashwoodinthesitting-room,andwenttotheSanitarium,withArmadale’sletterinmyhand。
“Thedoctorhadgoneout,andtheservantwasunabletosaypositivelyatwhattimehewouldbeback。Iwentintohisstudy,andwrotealinepreparinghimforthenewsIhadbroughtwithme,whichIsealedup,withArmadale’sletter,inanenvelope,toawaithisreturn。HavingtoldtheservantIwouldcallagaininanhour,Ilefttheplace。
“ItwasuselesstogobacktomylodgingsandspeaktoBashwood,untilIknewfirstwhatthedoctormeanttodo。Iwalkedabouttheneighborhood,upanddownnewstreetsandcrescentsandsquares,withakindofdull,numbedfeelinginme,whichprevented,notonlyallvoluntaryexerciseofthought,butallsensationofbodilyfatigue。Irememberedthesamefeelingoverpoweringme,yearsago,onthemorningwhenthepeopleoftheprisoncametotakemeintocourttobetriedformylife。Allthatfrightfulscenecamebackagaintomymindinthestrangestmanner,asifithadbeenasceneinwhichsomeotherpersonhadfigured。OnceortwiceIwondered,inaheavy,senselessway,whytheyhadnothangedme!
“WhenIwentbacktotheSanitarium,Iwasinformedthatthedoctorhadreturnedhalfanhoursince,andthathewasinhisownroomanxiouslywaitingtoseeme。
“Iwentintothestudy,andfoundhimsittingclosebythefirewithhisheaddownandhishandsonhisknees。Onthetablenearhim,besideArmadale’sletterandmynote,Isaw,inthelittlecircleoflightthrownbythereading-lamp,anopenrailwayguide。Washemeditatingflight?Itwasimpossibletotellfromhisface,whenhelookedupatme,whathewasmeditating,orhowtheshockhadstruckhimwhenhefirstdiscoveredthatArmadalewasalivingman。
“’Takeaseatnearthefire,’hesaid。’It’sveryrawandcoldto-day。’
“Itookachairinsilence。Insilence,onhisside,thedoctorsatrubbinghiskneesbeforethefire。
“’Haveyounothingtosaytome?’Iasked。
“Herose,andsuddenlyremovedtheshadefromthereading-lamp,sothatthelightfellonmyface。
“’Youarenotlookingwell,’hesaid。’What’sthematter?’
“’Myheadfeelsdull,andmyeyesareheavyandhot,’Ireplied。
’Theweather,Isuppose。’
“Itwasstrangehowwebothgotfurtherandfurtherfromtheonevitallyimportantsubjectwhichwehadbothcometogethertodiscuss!
“’Ithinkacupofteawoulddoyougood,’remarkedthedoctor。
“Iacceptedhissuggestion;andheorderedthetea。Whileitwascoming,hewalkedupanddowntheroom,andIsatbythefire,andnotawordpassedbetweenusoneitherside。
“Thetearevivedme;andthedoctornoticedachangeforthebetterinmyface。Hesatdownoppositetomeatthetable,andspokeoutatlast。
“’IfIhadtenthousandpoundsatthismoment,’hebegan,’I
wouldgivethewholeofitnevertohavecompromisedmyselfinyourdesperatespeculationonMr。Armadale’sdeath!’
“Hesaidthosewordswithanabruptness,almostwithaviolence,whichwasstrangelyuncharacteristicofhisordinarymanner。Washefrightenedhimself,orwashetryingtofrightenme?I
determinedtomakehimexplainhimselfattheoutset,sofarasI
wasconcerned。’Waitamoment,doctor,’Isaid。’Doyouholdmeresponsibleforwhathashappened?’
“’Certainlynot,’hereplied,stiffly。’Neitheryounoranybodycouldhaveforeseenwhathashappened。WhenIsayIwouldgivetenthousandpoundstobeoutofthisbusiness,Iamblamingnobodybutmyself。AndwhenItellyounextthatI,forone,won’tallowMr。Armadale’sresurrectionfromtheseatobetheruinofmewithoutafightforit,Itellyou,mydearmadam,oneoftheplainesttruthsIevertoldtomanorwomaninthewholecourseofmylife。Don’tsupposeIaminvidiouslyseparatingmyinterestsfromyoursinthecommondangerthatnowthreatensusboth。Isimplyindicatethedifferenceintheriskthatwehaverespectivelyrun。_You_havenotsunkthewholeofyourresourcesinestablishingaSanitarium;and_you_havenotmadeafalsedeclarationbeforeamagistrate,whichispunishableasperjurybythelaw。’
“Iinterruptedhimagain。Hisselfishnessdidmemoregoodthanhistea:itrousedmytempereffectually。’Supposeweletyourriskandmyriskalone,andcometothepoint,’Isaid。’Whatdoyoumeanbymakingafightforit?Iseearailwayguideonyourtable。Doesmakingafightforitmean——runningaway?’
“’Runningaway?’repeatedthedoctor。’YouappeartoforgetthateveryfarthingIhaveintheworldisembarkedinthisestablishment。’
“’Youstophere,then?’Isaid。
“’Unquestionably!’
“’AndwhatdoyoumeantodowhenMr。ArmadalecomestoEngland?’
“Asolitaryfly,thelastofhisracewhomthewinterhadspared,wasbuzzingfeeblyaboutthedoctor’sface。Hecaughtitbeforeheansweredme,andhelditoutacrossthetableinhisclosedhand。
“’Ifthisfly’snamewasArmadale,’hesaid,’andifyouhadgothimasIhavegothimnow,whatwould_you_do?’
“Hiseyes,fixedonmyfaceuptothistime,turnedsignificantly,asheendedthisquestion,tomywidow’sdress。I,too,lookedatitwhenhelooked。Athrilloftheolddeadlyhatredandtheolddeadlydeterminationranthroughmeagain。
“’Ishouldkillhim,’Isaid。
“Thedoctorstartedtohisfeetwiththeflystillinhishand,andlookedatme——alittletootheatrically——withanexpressionoftheutmosthorror。
“’Killhim!’repeatedthedoctor,inaparoxysmofvirtuousalarm。’Violence——murderousviolence——inMySanitarium!Youtakemybreathaway!’
“Icaughthiseyewhilehewasexpressinghimselfinthiselaboratelyindignantmanner,scrutinizingmewithasearchingcuriositywhichwas,tosaytheleastofit,alittleatvariancewiththevehemenceofhislanguageandthewarmthofhistone。Helaugheduneasilywhenoureyesmet,andrecoveredhissmoothlyconfidentialmannerintheinstantthatelapsedbeforehespokeagain。
“’Ibegathousandpardons,’hesaid。’Ioughttohaveknownbetterthantotakealadytooliterallyatherword。Permitmetoremindyou,however,thatthecircumstancesaretooseriousforanythinginthenatureof——letussay,anexaggerationorajoke。YoushallhearwhatIpropose,withoutfurtherpreface。’Hepaused,andresumedhisfigurativeuseoftheflyimprisonedinhishand。’HereisMr。Armadale。Icanlethimout,orkeephimin,justasIplease——andheknowsit。Isaytohim,’continuedthedoctor,facetiouslyaddressingthefly,’Givemepropersecurity,Mr。Armadale,thatnoproceedingsofanysortshallbetakenagainsteitherthisladyormyself,andIwillletyououtofthehollowofmyhand。Refuse——and,betheriskwhatitmay,I
willkeepyouin。”Canyoudoubt,mydearmadam,whatMr。
Armadale’sansweris,soonerorlater,certaintobe?Canyoudoubt,’saidthedoctor,suitingtheactiontotheword,andlettingtheflygo,’thatitwillendtotheentiresatisfactionofallparties,inthisway?’
“’Iwon’tsayatpresent,’Ianswered,’whetherIdoubtornot。
LetmemakesurethatIunderstandyoufirst。Youpropose,ifI
amnotmistaken,toshutthedoorsofthisplaceonMr。Armadale,andnottolethimoutagainuntilhehasagreedtothetermswhichitisourinteresttoimposeonhim?MayIask,inthatcase,howyoumeantomakehimwalkintothetrapthatyouhavesetforhimhere?’
“’Ipropose,’saidthedoctor,withhishandontherailwayguide,’ascertainingfirstatwhattimeduringeveryeveningofthismonththetidaltrainsfromDoverandFolkestonereachtheLondonBridgeterminus。AndIpropose,next,postingapersonwhomMr。Armadaleknows,andwhomyouandIcantrust,towaitthearrivalofthetrains,andtomeetourmanatthemomentwhenhestepsoutoftherailwaycarriage。’
“’Haveyouthought,’Iinquired,’ofwhothepersonistobe?’
“’Ihavethought,’saidthedoctor,takingupArmadale’sletter’ofthepersontowhomthisletterisaddressed。’
“Theanswerstartledme。WasitpossiblethatheandBashwoodknewoneanother?Iputthequestionimmediately。
“’Untilto-dayIneversomuchasheardofthegentleman’sname,’saidthedoctor。’Ihavesimplypursuedtheinductiveprocessofreasoning,forwhichweareindebtedtotheimmortalBacon。Howdoesthisveryimportantlettercomeintoyourpossession?Ican’tinsultyoubysupposingittohavebeenstolen。Consequently,ithascometoyouwiththeleaveandlicenseofthepersontowhomitisaddressed。Consequently,thatpersonisinyourconfidence。Consequently,heisthefirstpersonIthinkof。Youseetheprocess?Verygood。Permitmeaquestionortwo,onthesubjectofMr。Bashwood,beforewegoonanyfurther。’
“Thedoctor’squestionswentasstraighttothepointasusual。
MyanswersinformedhimthatMr。BashwoodstoodtowardArmadaleintherelationofsteward;thathehadreceivedtheletteratThorpeAmbrosethatmorning,andhadbroughtitstraighttomebythefirsttrain;thathehadnotshownit,orspokenofitbeforeleaving,toMajorMilroyortoanyoneelse;thatIhadnotobtainedthisserviceathishandsbytrustinghimwithmysecret;thatIhadcommunicatedwithhiminthecharacterofArmadale’swidow;thathehadsuppressedtheletter,underthosecircumstances,solelyinobediencetoageneralcautionIhadgivenhimtokeephisowncounsel,ifanythingstrangehappenedatThorpeAmbrose,untilhehadfirstconsultedme;and,lastly,thatthereasonwhyhehaddoneasItoldhiminthismatter,wasthatinthismatter,andinallothers,Mr。Bashwoodwasblindlydevotedtomyinterests。
“Atthatpointintheinterrogatory,thedoctor’seyesbegantolookatmedistrustfullybehindthedoctor’sspectacles。
“’WhatisthesecretofthisblinddevotionofMr。Bashwood’stoyourinterests?’heasked。
“Ihesitatedforamoment——inpitytoBashwood,notinpitytomyself。’Ifyoumustknow,’Ianswered,’Mr。Bashwoodisinlovewithme。’
“’Ay!ay!’exclaimedthedoctor,withanairofrelief。’Ibegintounderstandnow。Isheayoungman?’
“’Heisanoldman。’
“Thedoctorlaidhimselfbackinhischair,andchuckledsoftly。
’Betterandbetter!’hesaid。’Hereistheverymanwewant。WhosofitasMr。Armadale’sstewardtomeetMr。ArmadaleonhisreturntoLondon?AndwhosocapableofinfluencingMr。BashwoodintheproperwayasthecharmingobjectofMr。Bashwood’sadmiration?’
“TherecouldbenodoubtthatBashwoodwasthemantoservethedoctor’spurpose,andthatmyinfluencewastobetrustedtomakehimserveit。Thedifficultywasnothere:thedifficultywasintheunansweredquestionthatIhadputtothedoctoraminutesince。Iputittohimagain。
“’SupposeMr。Armadale’sstewardmeetshisemployerattheterminus,’Isaid。’MayIaskoncemorehowMr。Armadaleistobepersuadedtocomehere?’
“’Don’tthinkmeungallant,’rejoinedthedoctorinhisgentlestmanner,’ifIask,onmyside,howaremenpersuadedtodonine-tenthsofthefoolishactsoftheirlives?Theyarepersuadedbyyourcharmingsex。Theweaksideofeverymanisthewoman’ssideofhim。Wehaveonlytodiscoverthewoman’ssideofMr。Armadale——toticklehimonitgently——andtoleadhimourwaywithasilkenstring。Iobservehere,’pursuedthedoctor,openingArmadale’sletter,’areferencetoacertainyounglady,whichlookspromising。WhereisthenotethatMr。ArmadalespeaksofasaddressedtoMissMilroy?’
“Insteadofansweringhim,Istarted,inasuddenburstofexcitement,tomyfeet。TheinstanthementionedMissMilroy’snameallthatIhadheardfromBashwoodofherillness,andofthecauseofit,rushedbackintomymemory。IsawthemeansofdecoyingArmadaleintotheSanitariumasplainlyasIsawthedoctorontheothersideofthetable,wonderingattheextraordinarychangeinme。WhataluxuryitwastomakeMissMilroyservemyinterestsatlast!
“’Nevermindthenote,’Isaid。’It’sburned,forfearofaccidents。Icantellyouallandmorethanthenotecouldhavetoldyou。MissMilroycutstheknot!MissMilroyendsthedifficulty!Sheisprivatelyengagedtohim。Shehasheardthefalsereportofhisdeath;andshehasbeenseriouslyillatThorpeAmbroseeversince。WhenBashwoodmeetshimatthestation,theveryfirstquestionheiscertaintoask——’
“’Isee!’exclaimedthedoctor,anticipatingme。’Mr。Bashwoodhasnothingtodobuttohelpthetruthwithatouchoffiction。
WhenhetellshismasterthatthefalsereporthasreachedMissMilroy,hehasonlytoaddthattheshockhasaffectedherhead,andthatsheishereundermedicalcare。Perfect!perfect!WeshallhavehimattheSanitariumasfastasthefastestcab-horseinLondoncanbringhimtous。Andmind!norisk——nonecessityfortrustingotherpeople。Thisisnotamad-house;thisisnotalicensedestablishment;nodoctors’certificatesarenecessaryhere!Mydearlady,Icongratulateyou;Icongratulatemyself。
Permitmetohandyoutherailwayguide,withmybestcomplimentstoMr。Bashwood,andwiththepageturneddownforhim,asanadditionalattention,attherightplace。’
“RememberinghowlongIhadkeptBashwoodwaitingforme,Itookthebookatonce,andwishedthedoctorgood-eveningwithoutfurtherceremony。Ashepolitelyopenedthedoorforme,hereverted,withouttheslightestnecessityfordoingso,andwithoutawordfrommetoleadtoit,totheoutburstofvirtuousalarmwhichhadescapedhimattheearlierpartofourinterview。
“’Idohope,’hesaid,’thatyouwillkindlyforgetandforgivemyextraordinarywantoftactandperceptionwhen——inshort,whenIcaughtthefly。Ipositivelyblushatmyownstupidityinputtingaliteralinterpretationonalady’slittlejoke!
ViolenceinMySanitarium!’exclaimedthedoctor,withhiseyesoncemorefixedattentivelyonmyface——’violenceinthisenlightenednineteenthcentury!Wasthereeveranythingsoridiculous?Dofastenyourcloakbeforeyougoout,itissocoldandraw!ShallIescortyou?ShallIsendmyservant?Ah,youwerealwaysindependent!always,ifImaysayso,ahostinyourself!MayIcallto-morrowmorning,andhearwhatyouhavesettledwithMr。Bashwood?’
“Isaidyes,andgotawayfromhimatlast。InaquarterofanhourmoreIwasbackatmylodgings,andwasinformedbytheservantthat’theelderlygentleman’wasstillwaitingforme。
“Ihavenotgottheheartorthepatience——Ihardlyknowwhich——towastemanywordsonwhatpassedbetweenmeandBashwood。Itwassoeasy,sodegradinglyeasy,topullthestringsofthepooroldpuppetinanywayIpleased!ImetnoneofthedifficultieswhichIshouldhavebeenobligedtomeetinthecaseofayoungerman,orofamanlessinfatuatedwithadmirationforme。IlefttheallusionstoMissMilroyinArmadale’sletter,whichhadnaturallypuzzledhim,tobeexplainedatafuturetime。InevereventroubledmyselftoinventaplausiblereasonforwishinghimtomeetArmadaleattheterminus,andtoentraphimbyastratagemintothedoctor’sSanitarium。AllthatIfounditnecessarytodowastorefertowhatIhadwrittentoMr。Bashwood,onmyarrivalinLondon,andtowhatIhadafterwardsaidtohim,whenhecametoanswermyletterpersonallyatthehotel。
“’Youknowalready,’Isaid,’thatmymarriagehasnotbeenahappyone。Drawyourownconclusionsfromthat;anddon’tpressmetotellyouwhetherthenewsofMr。Armadale’srescuefromtheseais,orisnot,thewelcomenewsthatitoughttobetohiswife!’Thatwasenoughtoputhiswitheredoldfaceinaglow,andtosethiswitheredoldhopesgrowingagain。Ihadonlytoadd,’IfyouwilldowhatIaskyoutodo,nomatterhowincomprehensibleandhowmysteriousmyrequestmayseemtobe;
andifyouwillacceptmyassurancesthatyoushallrunnoriskyourself,andthatyoushallreceivetheproperexplanationsatthepropertime,youwillhavesuchaclaimonmygratitudeandmyregardasnomanlivinghaseverhadyet!’Ihadonlytosaythosewords,andtopointthembyalookandastolenpressureofhishand,andIhadhimatmyfeet,blindlyeagertoobeyme。IfhecouldhaveseenwhatIthoughtofmyself;butthatdoesn’tmatter:hesawnothing。
“HourshavepassedsinceIsenthimawaypledgedtosecrecy,possessedofhisinstructions,andprovidedwithhistime-table
tothehotelneartheterminus,atwhichheistostaytillArmadaleappearsontherailwayplatform。Theexcitementoftheearlierpartoftheeveninghasallwornoff;andthedull,numbedsensationhasgotmeagain。Aremyenergieswearingout,I
wonder,justatthetimewhenImostwantthem?OrissomeforeshadowingofdisastercreepingovermewhichIdon’tyetunderstand?
“Imightbeinahumortosithereforsometimelonger,thinkingthoughtslikethese,andlettingthemfindtheirwayintowordsattheirownwillandpleasure,ifmyDiarywouldonlyletme。
Butmyidlepenhasbeenbusyenoughtomakeitswaytotheendofthevolume。Ihavereachedthelastmorselofspaceleftonthelastpage;andwhetherIlikeitornot,Imustclosethebookthistimeforgoodandall,whenIcloseitto-night。
“Good-by,myoldfriendandcompanionofmanyamiserableday!
Havingnothingelsetobefondof,Ihalfsuspectmyselfofhavingbeenunreasonablyfondof_you。_
“WhatafoolIam!“
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