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  InthePrisonNEARsunsetthateveninganelderlygentlemanwasstandingwithhisbackagainstthesmallerentrance-doorofStonitonjail,sayingafewlastwordstothedepartingchaplain。Thechaplainwalkedaway,buttheelderlygentlemanstoodstill,lookingdownonthepavementandstrokinghischinwitharuminatingair,whenhewasrousedbyasweetclearwoman’svoice,saying,\"CanIgetintotheprison,ifyouplease?\"

  Heturnedhisheadandlookedfixedlyatthespeakerforafewmomentswithoutanswering。

  \"Ihaveseenyoubefore,\"hesaidatlast。\"DoyourememberpreachingonthevillagegreenatHayslopeinLoamshire?\"

  \"Yes,sir,surely。Areyouthegentlemanthatstayedtolistenonhorseback?\"

  \"Yes。Whydoyouwanttogointotheprison?\"

  \"IwanttogotoHettySorrel,theyoungwomanwhohasbeencondemnedtodeath——andtostaywithher,ifImaybepermitted。

  Haveyoupowerintheprison,sir?\"

  \"Yes;Iamamagistrate,andcangetadmittanceforyou。Butdidyouknowthiscriminal,HettySorrel?\"

  \"Yes,wearekin。Myownauntmarriedheruncle,MartinPoyser。

  ButIwasawayatLeeds,anddidn’tknowofthisgreattroubleintimetogetherebeforeto-day。Ientreatyou,sir,fortheloveofourheavenlyFather,toletmegotoherandstaywithher。\"

  \"Howdidyouknowshewascondemnedtodeath,ifyouareonlyjustcomefromLeeds?\"

  \"Ihaveseenmyunclesincethetrial,sir。Heisgonebacktohishomenow,andthepoorsinnerisforsakenofall。Ibeseechyoutogetleaveformetobewithher。\"

  \"What!Haveyoucouragetostayallnightintheprison?Sheisverysullen,andwillscarcelymakeanswerwhensheisspokento。\"

  \"Oh,sir,itmaypleaseGodtoopenherheartstill。Don’tletusdelay。\"

  \"Come,then,\"saidtheelderlygentleman,ringingandgainingadmission,\"Iknowyouhaveakeytounlockhearts。\"

  Dinahmechanicallytookoffherbonnetandshawlassoonastheywerewithintheprisoncourt,fromthehabitshehadofthrowingthemoffwhenshepreachedorprayed,orvisitedthesick;andwhentheyenteredthejailer’sroom,shelaidthemdownonachairunthinkingly。Therewasnoagitationvisibleinher,butadeepconcentratedcalmness,asif,evenwhenshewasspeaking,hersoulwasinprayerreposingonanunseensupport。

  Afterspeakingtothejailer,themagistrateturnedtoherandsaid,\"Theturnkeywilltakeyoutotheprisoner’scellandleaveyouthereforthenight,ifyoudesireit,butyoucan’thavealightduringthenight——itiscontrarytorules。MynameisColonelTownley:ifIcanhelpyouinanything,askthejailerformyaddressandcometome。ItakesomeinterestinthisHettySorrel,forthesakeofthatfinefellow,AdamBede。IhappenedtoseehimatHayslopethesameeveningIheardyoupreach,andrecognizedhimincourtto-day,illashelooked。\"

  \"Ah,sir,canyoutellmeanythingabouthim?Canyoutellmewherehelodges?Formypoorunclewastoomuchweigheddownwithtroubletoremember。\"

  \"Closebyhere。IinquiredallabouthimofMr。Irwine。Helodgesoveratinman’sshop,inthestreetontherighthandasyouenteredtheprison。Thereisanoldschool-masterwithhim。

  Now,good-bye:Iwishyousuccess。\"

  \"Farewell,sir。Iamgratefultoyou。\"

  AsDinahcrossedtheprisoncourtwiththeturnkey,thesolemneveninglightseemedtomakethewallshigherthantheywerebyday,andthesweetpalefaceinthecapwasmorethaneverlikeawhitefloweronthisbackgroundofgloom。Theturnkeylookedaskanceatherallthewhile,butneverspoke。Hesomehowfeltthatthesoundofhisownrudevoicewouldbegratingjustthen。

  Hestruckalightastheyenteredthedarkcorridorleadingtothecondemnedcell,andthensaidinhismostciviltone,\"It’llbeprettynighdarkinthecella’ready,butIcanstopwithmylightabit,ifyoulike。\"

  \"Nay,friend,thankyou,\"saidDinah。\"Iwishtogoinalone。\"

  \"Asyoulike,\"saidthejailer,turningtheharshkeyinthelockandopeningthedoorwideenoughtoadmitDinah。Ajetoflightfromhislanternfellontheoppositecornerofthecell,whereHettywassittingonherstrawpalletwithherfaceburiedinherknees。Itseemedasifshewereasleep,andyetthegratingofthelockwouldhavebeenlikelytowakenher。

  Thedoorclosedagain,andtheonlylightinthecellwasthatoftheeveningsky,throughthesmallhighgrating——enoughtodiscernhumanfacesby。Dinahstoodstillforaminute,hesitatingtospeakbecauseHettymightbeasleep,andlookingatthemotionlessheapwithayearningheart。Thenshesaid,softly,\"Hetty!\"

  TherewasaslightmovementperceptibleinHetty’sframe——astartsuchasmighthavebeenproducedbyafeebleelectricalshock——butshedidnotlookup。Dinahspokeagain,inatonemadestrongerbyirrepressibleemotion,\"Hetty……it’sDinah。\"

  AgaintherewasaslightstartledmovementthroughHetty’sframe,andwithoutuncoveringherface,sheraisedherheadalittle,asiflistening。

  \"Hetty……Dinahiscometoyou。\"

  Afteramoment’spause,Hettyliftedherheadslowlyandtimidlyfromherkneesandraisedhereyes。Thetwopalefaceswerelookingateachother:onewithawildharddespairinit,theotherfullofsadyearninglove。Dinahunconsciouslyopenedherarmsandstretchedthemout。

  \"Don’tyouknowme,Hetty?Don’tyourememberDinah?DidyouthinkIwouldn’tcometoyouintrouble?\"

  HettykepthereyesfixedonDinah’sface——atfirstlikeananimalthatgazes,andgazes,andkeepsaloof。

  \"I’mcometobewithyou,Hetty——nottoleaveyou——tostaywithyou——tobeyoursistertothelast。\"

  Slowly,whileDinahwasspeaking,Hettyrose,tookastepforward,andwasclaspedinDinah’sarms。

  Theystoodsoalongwhile,forneitherofthemfelttheimpulsetomoveapartagain。Hetty,withoutanydistinctthoughtofit,hungonthissomethingthatwascometoclasphernow,whileshewassinkinghelplessinadarkgulf;andDinahfeltadeepjoyinthefirstsignthatherlovewaswelcomedbythewretchedlostone。Thelightgotfainterastheystood,andwhenatlasttheysatdownonthestrawpallettogether,theirfaceshadbecomeindistinct。

  Notawordwasspoken。Dinahwaited,hopingforaspontaneouswordfromHetty,butshesatinthesamedulldespair,onlyclutchingthehandthatheldhersandleaninghercheekagainstDinah’s。Itwasthehumancontactsheclungto,butshewasnotthelesssinkingintothedarkgulf。

  DinahbegantodoubtwhetherHettywasconsciouswhoitwasthatsatbesideher。Shethoughtsufferingandfearmighthavedriventhepoorsinneroutofhermind。Butitwasborneinuponher,assheafterwardssaid,thatshemustnothurryGod’swork:weareoverhastytospeak——asifGoddidnotmanifesthimselfbyoursilentfeeling,andmakehislovefeltthroughours。Shedidnotknowhowlongtheysatinthatway,butitgotdarkeranddarker,tilltherewasonlyapalepatchoflightontheoppositewall:

  alltherestwasdarkness。ButshefelttheDivinepresencemoreandmore——nay,asifsheherselfwereapartofit,anditwastheDivinepitythatwasbeatinginherheartandwaswillingtherescueofthishelplessone。AtlastshewaspromptedtospeakandfindouthowfarHettywasconsciousofthepresent。

  \"Hetty,\"shesaidgently,\"doyouknowwhoitisthatsitsbyyourside?\"

  \"Yes,\"Hettyansweredslowly,\"it’sDinah。\"

  \"AnddoyourememberthetimewhenwewereattheHallFarmtogether,andthatnightwhenItoldyoutobesureandthinkofmeasafriendintrouble?\"

  \"Yes,\"saidHetty。Then,afterapause,sheadded,\"Butyoucandonothingforme。Youcan’tmake’emdoanything。They’llhangmeo’Monday——it’sFridaynow。\"

  AsHettysaidthelastwords,sheclungclosertoDinah,shuddering。

  \"No,Hetty,Ican’tsaveyoufromthatdeath。Butisn’tthesufferinglesshardwhenyouhavesomebodywithyou,thatfeelsforyou——thatyoucanspeakto,andsaywhat’sinyourheart?……Yes,Hetty:youleanonme:youaregladtohavemewithyou。\"

  \"Youwon’tleaveme,Dinah?You’llkeepclosetome?\"

  \"No,Hetty,Iwon’tleaveyou。I’llstaywithyoutothelast……But,Hetty,thereissomeoneelseinthiscellbesidesme,someoneclosetoyou。\"

  Hettysaid,inafrightenedwhisper,\"Who?\"

  \"Someonewhohasbeenwithyouthroughallyourhoursofsinandtrouble——whohasknowneverythoughtyouhavehad——hasseenwhereyouwent,whereyoulaydownandroseupagain,andallthedeedsyouhavetriedtohideindarkness。AndonMonday,whenIcan’tfollowyou——whenmyarmscan’treachyou——whendeathhaspartedus——Hewhoiswithusnow,andknowsall,willbewithyouthen。

  Itmakesnodifference——whetherweliveordie,weareinthepresenceofGod。\"

  \"Oh,Dinah,won’tnobodydoanythingforme?Willtheyhangmeforcertain?……Iwouldn’tmindifthey’dletmelive。\"

  \"MypoorHetty,deathisverydreadfultoyou。Iknowit’sdreadful。Butifyouhadafriendtotakecareofyouafterdeath——inthatotherworld——someonewhoseloveisgreaterthanmine——whocandoeverything?……IfGodourFatherwasyourfriend,andwaswillingtosaveyoufromsinandsuffering,soasyoushouldneitherknowwickedfeelingsnorpainagain?Ifyoucouldbelievehelovedyouandwouldhelpyou,asyoubelieveIloveyouandwillhelpyou,itwouldn’tbesohardtodieonMonday,wouldit?\"

  \"ButIcan’tknowanythingaboutit,\"Hettysaid,withsullensadness。

  \"Because,Hetty,youareshuttingupyoursoulagainsthim,bytryingtohidethetruth。God’sloveandmercycanovercomeallthings——ourignorance,andweakness,andalltheburdenofourpastwickedness——allthingsbutourwilfulsin,sinthatweclingto,andwillnotgiveup。Youbelieveinmyloveandpityforyou,Hetty,butifyouhadnotletmecomenearyou,ifyouwouldn’thavelookedatmeorspokentome,you’dhaveshutmeoutfromhelpingyou。Icouldn’thavemadeyoufeelmylove;I

  couldn’thavetoldyouwhatIfeltforyou。Don’tshutGod’sloveoutinthatway,byclingingtosin……Hecan’tblessyouwhileyouhaveonefalsehoodinyoursoul;hispardoningmercycan’treachyouuntilyouopenyourhearttohim,andsay,’Ihavedonethisgreatwickedness;OGod,saveme,makemepurefromsin。’

  Whileyouclingtoonesinandwillnotpartwithit,itmustdragyoudowntomiseryafterdeath,asithasdraggedyoutomiseryhereinthisworld,mypoor,poorHetty。Itissinthatbringsdread,anddarkness,anddespair:thereislightandblessednessforusassoonaswecastitoff。Godentersoursoulsthen,andteachesus,andbringsusstrengthandpeace。Castitoffnow,Hetty——now:confessthewickednessyouhavedone——thesinyouhavebeenguiltyofagainstyourHeavenlyFather。Letuskneeldowntogether,forweareinthepresenceofGod。\"

  HettyobeyedDinah’smovement,andsankonherknees。Theystillheldeachother’shands,andtherewaslongsilence。ThenDinahsaid,\"Hetty,wearebeforeGod。Heiswaitingforyoutotellthetruth。\"

  Stilltherewassilence。AtlastHettyspoke,inatoneofbeseeching——

  \"Dinah……helpme……Ican’tfeelanythinglikeyou……myheartishard。\"

  Dinahheldtheclinginghand,andallhersoulwentforthinhervoice:

  \"Jesus,thoupresentSaviour!Thouhastknownthedepthsofallsorrow:thouhastenteredthatblackdarknesswhereGodisnot,andhastutteredthecryoftheforsaken。ComeLord,andgatherofthefruitsofthytravailandthypleading。Stretchforththyhand,thouwhoartmightytosavetotheuttermost,andrescuethislostone。Sheisclothedroundwiththickdarkness。Thefettersofhersinareuponher,andshecannotstirtocometothee。Shecanonlyfeelherheartishard,andsheishelpless。

  Shecriestome,thyweakcreature……Saviour!Itisablindcrytothee。Hearit!Piercethedarkness!Lookuponherwiththyfaceofloveandsorrowthatthoudidstturnonhimwhodeniedthee,andmeltherhardheart。

  \"See,Lord,Ibringher,astheyofoldbroughtthesickandhelpless,andthoudidsthealthem。Ibearheronmyarmsandcarryherbeforethee。Fearandtremblinghavetakenholdonher,butshetremblesonlyatthepainanddeathofthebody。Breatheuponherthylife-givingSpirit,andputanewfearwithinher——

  thefearofhersin。Makeherdreadtokeeptheaccursedthingwithinhersoul。MakeherfeelthepresenceofthelivingGod,whobeholdsallthepast,towhomthedarknessisasnoonday;whoiswaitingnow,attheeleventhhour,forhertoturntohim,andconfesshersin,andcryformercy——now,beforethenightofdeathcomes,andthemomentofpardonisforeverfled,likeyesterdaythatreturnethnot。

  \"Saviour!Itisyettime——timetosnatchthispoorsoulfromeverlastingdarkness。Ibelieve——Ibelieveinthyinfinitelove。

  Whatismyloveormypleading?Itisquenchedinthine。Icanonlyclaspherinmyweakarmsandurgeherwithmyweakpity。

  Thou——thouwiltbreatheonthedeadsoul,anditshallarisefromtheunansweringsleepofdeath。

  \"Yea,Lord,Iseethee,comingthroughthedarknesscoming,likethemorning,withhealingonthywings。Themarksofthyagonyareuponthee——Isee,Iseethouartableandwillingtosave——

  thouwiltnotletherperishforever。\"Come,mightySaviour!

  Letthedeadhearthyvoice。Lettheeyesoftheblindbeopened。

  LetherseethatGodencompassesher。Lethertrembleatnothingbutatthesinthatcutsherofffromhim。Meltthehardheart。

  Unsealtheclosedlips:makehercrywithherwholesoul,’Father,Ihavesinned。’……\"

  \"Dinah,\"Hettysobbedout,throwingherarmsroundDinah’sneck,\"Iwillspeak……Iwilltell……Iwon’thideitanymore。\"

  Butthetearsandsobsweretooviolent。Dinahraisedhergentlyfromherkneesandseatedheronthepalletagain,sittingdownbyherside。Itwasalongtimebeforetheconvulsedthroatwasquiet,andeventhentheysatsometimeinstillnessanddarkness,holdingeachother’shands。AtlastHettywhispered,\"Ididdoit,Dinah……Iburieditinthewood……thelittlebaby……anditcried……Ihearditcry……eversuchawayoff……allnight……andI

  wentbackbecauseitcried。\"

  Shepaused,andthenspokehurriedlyinalouder,pleadingtone。

  \"ButIthoughtperhapsitwouldn’tdie——theremightsomebodyfindit。Ididn’tkillit——Ididn’tkillitmyself。Iputitdownthereandcovereditup,andwhenIcamebackitwasgone……ItwasbecauseIwassoverymiserable,Dinah……Ididn’tknowwheretogo……andItriedtokillmyselfbefore,andIcouldn’t。Oh,I

  triedsotodrownmyselfinthepool,andIcouldn’t。IwenttoWindsor——Iranaway——didyouknow?Iwenttofindhim,ashemighttakecareofme;andhewasgone;andthenIdidn’tknowwhattodo。Idaredn’tgobackhomeagain——Icouldn’tbearit。I

  couldn’thaveboretolookatanybody,forthey’dhavescornedme。

  Ithoughto’yousometimes,andthoughtI’dcometoyou,forI

  didn’tthinkyou’dbecrosswithme,andcryshameonme。I

  thoughtIcouldtellyou。Butthentheotherfolks’udcometoknowitatlast,andIcouldn’tbearthat。Itwaspartlythinkingo’youmademecometowardStoniton;and,besides,IwassofrightenedatgoingwanderingabouttillIwasabeggar-woman,andhadnothing;andsometimesitseemedasifImustgobacktothefarmsoonerthanthat。Oh,itwassodreadful,Dinah……Iwassomiserable……IwishedI’dneverbeenbornintothisworld。I

  shouldneverliketogointothegreenfieldsagain——Ihated’emsoinmymisery。\"

  Hettypausedagain,asifthesenseofthepastweretoostronguponherforwords。

  \"AndthenIgottoStoniton,andIbegantofeelfrightenedthatnight,becauseIwassonearhome。Andthenthelittlebabywasborn,whenIdidn’texpectit;andthethoughtcameintomymindthatImightgetridofitandgohomeagain。Thethoughtcameallofasudden,asIwaslyinginthebed,anditgotstrongerandstronger……Ilongedsotogobackagain……Icouldn’tbearbeingsolonelyandcomingtobegforwant。Anditgavemestrengthandresolutiontogetupanddressmyself。IfeltImustdoit……Ididn’tknowhow……IthoughtI’dfindapool,ifIcould,likethatother,inthecornerofthefield,inthedark。Andwhenthewomanwentout,IfeltasifIwasstrongenoughtodoanything……IthoughtIshouldgetridofallmymisery,andgobackhome,andneverlet’emknowwhyIranawayIputonmybonnetandshawl,andwentoutintothedarkstreet,withthebabyundermycloak;andIwalkedfasttillIgotintoastreetagoodwayoff,andtherewasapublic,andIgotsomewarmstufftodrinkandsomebread。AndIwalkedonandon,andIhardlyfeltthegroundItrodon;anditgotlighter,fortherecamethemoon——

  oh,Dinah,itfrightenedmewhenitfirstlookedatmeouto’theclouds——itneverlookedsobefore;andIturnedoutoftheroadintothefields,forIwasafraido’meetinganybodywiththemoonshiningonme。AndIcametoahaystack,whereIthoughtIcouldliedownandkeepmyselfwarmallnight。Therewasaplacecutintoit,whereIcouldmakemeabed,andIlaycomfortable,andthebabywaswarmagainstme;andImusthavegonetosleepforagoodwhile,forwhenIwokeitwasmorning,butnotverylight,andthebabywascrying。AndIsawawoodalittlewayoff……I

  thoughtthere’dperhapsbeaditchorapondthere……anditwassoearlyIthoughtIcouldhidethechildthere,andgetalongwayoffbeforefolkswasup。AndthenIthoughtI’dgohome——I’dgetridesincartsandgohomeandtell’emI’dbeentotryandseeforaplace,andcouldn’tgetone。Ilongedsoforit,Dinah,I

  longedsotobesafeathome。Idon’tknowhowIfeltaboutthebaby。Iseemedtohateit——itwaslikeaheavyweighthangingroundmyneck;andyetitscryingwentthroughme,andIdaredn’tlookatitslittlehandsandface。ButIwentontothewood,andIwalkedabout,buttherewasnowater……\"

  Hettyshuddered。Shewassilentforsomemoments,andwhenshebeganagain,itwasinawhisper。

  \"Icametoaplacewheretherewaslotsofchipsandturf,andI

  satdownonthetrunkofatreetothinkwhatIshoulddo。AndallofasuddenIsawaholeunderthenut-tree,likealittlegrave。Anditdartedintomelikelightning——I’dlaythebabythereandcoveritwiththegrassandthechips。Icouldn’tkillitanyotherway。AndI’ddoneitinaminute;and,oh,itcriedso,Dinah——Icouldn’tcoveritquiteup——Ithoughtperhapssomebody’udcomeandtakecareofit,andthenitwouldn’tdie。

  AndImadehasteoutofthewood,butIcouldhearitcryingallthewhile;andwhenIgotoutintothefields,itwasasifIwasheldfast——Icouldn’tgoaway,forallIwantedsotogo。AndI

  satagainstthehaystacktowatchifanybody’udcome。Iwasveryhungry,andI’donlyabitofbreadleft,butIcouldn’tgoaway。

  Andaftereversuchawhile——hoursandhours——themancame——himinasmock-frock,andhelookedatmeso,Iwasfrightened,andI

  madehasteandwenton。Ithoughthewasgoingtothewoodandwouldperhapsfindthebaby。AndIwentrighton,tillIcametoavillage,alongwayofffromthewood,andIwasverysick,andfaint,andhungry。Igotsomethingtoeatthere,andboughtaloaf。ButIwasfrightenedtostay。Iheardthebabycrying,andthoughttheotherfolksheardittoo——andIwenton。ButIwassotired,anditwasgettingtowardsdark。Andatlast,bytheroadsidetherewasabarn——eversuchawayoffanyhouse——likethebarninAbbot’sClose,andIthoughtIcouldgointhereandhidemyselfamongthehayandstraw,andnobody’udbelikelytocome。

  Iwentin,anditwashalffullo’trussesofstraw,andtherewassomehaytoo。AndImademyselfabed,eversofarbehind,wherenobodycouldfindme;andIwassotiredandweak,Iwenttosleep……Butoh,thebaby’scryingkeptwakingme,andIthoughtthatmanaslookedatmesowascomeandlayingholdofme。ButI

  musthavesleptalongwhileatlast,thoughIdidn’tknow,forwhenIgotupandwentoutofthebarn,Ididn’tknowwhetheritwasnightormorning。Butitwasmorning,foritkeptgettinglighter,andIturnedbackthewayI’dcome。Icouldn’thelpit,Dinah;itwasthebaby’scryingmademego——andyetIwasfrightenedtodeath。Ithoughtthatmaninthesmock-frock’udseemeandknowIputthebabythere。ButIwenton,forallthat。I’dleftoffthinkingaboutgoinghome——ithadgoneouto’

  mymind。IsawnothingbutthatplaceinthewoodwhereI’dburiedthebaby……Iseeitnow。OhDinah!shallIallaysseeit?\"

  HettyclungroundDinahandshudderedagain。Thesilenceseemedlongbeforeshewenton。

  \"Imetnobody,foritwasveryearly,andIgotintothewood……I

  knewthewaytotheplace……theplaceagainstthenut-tree;andI

  couldhearitcryingateverystep……Ithoughtitwasalive……I

  don’tknowwhetherIwasfrightenedorglad……Idon’tknowwhatI

  felt。IonlyknowIwasinthewoodandheardthecry。Idon’tknowwhatIfelttillIsawthebabywasgone。AndwhenI’dputitthere,IthoughtIshouldlikesomebodytofinditandsaveitfromdying;butwhenIsawitwasgone,Iwasstrucklikeastone,withfear。Ineverthoughto’stirring,Ifeltsoweak。IknewI

  couldn’trunaway,andeverybodyassawme’udknowaboutthebaby。Myheartwentlikeastone。Icouldn’twishortryforanything;itseemedlikeasifIshouldstaythereforever,andnothing’udeverchange。Buttheycameandtookmeaway。\"

  Hettywassilent,butsheshudderedagain,asiftherewasstillsomethingbehind;andDinahwaited,forherheartwassofullthattearsmustcomebeforewords。AtlastHettyburstout,withasob,\"Dinah,doyouthinkGodwilltakeawaythatcryingandtheplaceinthewood,nowI’vetoldeverything?\"

  \"Letuspray,poorsinner。Letusfallonourkneesagain,andpraytotheGodofallmercy。\"

  TheHoursofSuspenseONSundaymorning,whenthechurchbellsinStonitonwereringingformorningservice,BartleMasseyre-enteredAdam’sroom,afterashortabsence,andsaid,\"Adam,here’savisitorwantstoseeyou。\"

  Adamwasseatedwithisbacktowardsthedoor,buthestartedupandturnedroundinstantly,withaflushedfaceandaneagerlook。

  Hisfacewaseventhinnerandmorewornthanwehaveseenitbefore,buthewaswashedandshaventhisSundaymorning。

  \"Isitanynews?\"hesaid。

  \"Keepyourselfquiet,mylad,\"saidBartle;\"keepquiet。It’snotwhatyou’rethinkingof。It’stheyoungMethodistwomancomefromtheprison。She’satthebottomo’thestairs,andwantstoknowifyouthinkwelltoseeher,forshehassomethingtosaytoyouaboutthatpoorcastaway;butshewouldn’tcomeinwithoutyourleave,shesaid。Shethoughtyou’dperhapsliketogooutandspeaktoher。Thesepreachingwomenarenotsoback’ardcommonly,\"Bartlemutteredtohimself。

  \"Askhertocomein,\"saidAdam。

  Hewasstandingwithhisfacetowardsthedoor,andasDinahentered,liftinguphermildgreyeyestowardshim,shesawatoncethegreatchangethathadcomesincethedaywhenshehadlookedupatthetallmaninthecottage。Therewasatremblinginherclearvoiceassheputherhandintohisandsaid,\"Becomforted,AdamBede,theLordhasnotforsakenher。\"

  \"Blessyouforcomingtoher,\"Adamsaid。\"Mr。Masseybroughtmewordyesterdayasyouwascome。\"

  Theycouldneitherofthemsayanymorejustyet,butstoodbeforeeachotherinsilence;andBartleMassey,too,whohadputonhisspectacles,seemedtransfixed,examiningDinah’sface。Butherecoveredhimselffirst,andsaid,\"Sitdown,youngwoman,sitdown,\"placingthechairforherandretiringtohisoldseatonthebed。

  \"Thankyou,friend;Iwon’tsitdown,\"saidDinah,\"forImusthastenback。Sheentreatedmenottostaylongaway。WhatIcamefor,AdamBede,wastoprayyoutogoandseethepoorsinnerandbidherfarewell。Shedesirestoaskyourforgiveness,anditismeetyoushouldseeherto-day,ratherthanintheearlymorning,whenthetimewillbeshort。\"

  Adamstoodtrembling,andatlastsankdownonhischairagain。

  \"Itwon’tbe,\"hesaid,\"it’llbeputoff——there’llperhapscomeapardon。Mr。Irwinesaidtherewashope。Hesaid,Ineedn’tquitegiveitup。\"

  \"That’sablessedthoughttome,\"saidDinah,hereyesfillingwithtears。\"It’safearfulthinghurryinghersoulawaysofast。\"

  \"Butletwhatwillbe,\"sheaddedpresently。\"Youwillsurelycome,andletherspeakthewordsthatareinherheart。Althoughherpoorsoulisverydarkanddiscernslittlebeyondthethingsoftheflesh,sheisnolongerhard。Sheiscontrite,shehasconfessedalltome。Theprideofherhearthasgivenway,andsheleansonmeforhelpanddesirestobetaught。Thisfillsmewithtrust,forIcannotbutthinkthatthebrethrensometimeserrinmeasuringtheDivinelovebythesinner’sknowledge。SheisgoingtowritealettertothefriendsattheHallFarmformetogivethemwhensheisgone,andwhenItoldheryouwerehere,shesaid,’Ishouldliketosaygood-byetoAdamandaskhimtoforgiveme。’Youwillcome,Adam?Perhapsyouwillevennowcomebackwithme。\"

  \"Ican’t,\"Adamsaid。\"Ican’tsaygood-byewhilethere’sanyhope。I’mlistening,andlistening——Ican’tthinko’nothingbutthat。Itcan’tbeasshe’lldiethatshamefuldeath——Ican’tbringmymindtoit。\"

  Hegotupfromhischairagainandlookedawayoutofthewindow,whileDinahstoodwithcompassionatepatience。Inaminuteortwoheturnedroundandsaid,\"Iwillcome,Dinah……to-morrowmorning……ifitmustbe。Imayhavemorestrengthtobearit,ifIknowitmustbe。Tellher,Iforgiveher;tellherIwillcome——

  attheverylast。\"

  \"Iwillnoturgeyouagainstthevoiceofyourownheart,\"saidDinah。\"Imusthastenbacktoher,foritiswonderfulhowsheclingsnow,andwasnotwillingtoletmeoutofhersight。Sheusednevertomakeanyreturntomyaffectionbefore,butnowtribulationhasopenedherheart。Farewell,Adam。OurheavenlyFathercomfortyouandstrengthenyoutobearallthings。\"Dinahputoutherhand,andAdampresseditinsilence。

  BartleMasseywasgettinguptoliftthestifflatchofthedoorforher,butbeforehecouldreachit,shehadsaidgently,\"Farewell,friend,\"andwasgone,withherlightstepdownthestairs。

  \"Well,\"saidBartle,takingoffhisspectaclesandputtingthemintohispocket,\"iftheremustbewomentomaketroubleintheworld,it’sbutfairthereshouldbewomentobecomfortersunderit;andshe’sone——she’sone。It’sapityshe’saMethodist;butthere’snogettingawomanwithoutsomefoolishnessorother。\"

  Adamneverwenttobedthatnight。Theexcitementofsuspense,heighteningwitheveryhourthatbroughthimnearerthefatalmoment,wastoogreat,andinspiteofhisentreaties,inspiteofhispromisesthathewouldbeperfectlyquiet,theschoolmasterwatchedtoo。

  \"Whatdoesitmattertome,lad?\"Bartlesaid:\"anight’ssleepmoreorless?Ishallsleeplongenough,byandby,underground。

  LetmekeeptheecompanyintroublewhileIcan。\"

  Itwasalonganddrearynightinthatsmallchamber。Adamwouldsometimesgetupandtreadbackwardsandforwardsalongtheshortspacefromwalltowall;thenhewouldsitdownandhidehisface,andnosoundwouldbeheardbutthetickingofthewatchonthetable,orthefallingofacinderfromthefirewhichtheschoolmastercarefullytended。Sometimeshewouldburstoutintovehementspeech,\"IfIcouldha’doneanythingtosaveher——ifmybearinganythingwouldha’doneanygood……butt’havetositstill,andknowit,anddonothing……it’shardforamantobear……andtothinko’whatmightha’beennow,ifithadn’tbeenforHIM……OGod,it’stheverydayweshouldha’beenmarried。\"

  \"Aye,mylad,\"saidBartletenderly,\"it’sheavy——it’sheavy。Butyoumustrememberthis:whenyouthoughtofmarryingher,you’danotionshe’dgotanothersortofanatureinsideher。Youdidn’tthinkshecouldhavegothardenedinthatlittlewhiletodowhatshe’sdone。\"

  \"Iknow——Iknowthat,\"saidAdam。\"Ithoughtshewaslovingandtender-hearted,andwouldn’ttellalie,oractdeceitful。HowcouldIthinkanyotherway?Andifhe’dnevercomenearher,andI’dmarriedher,andbeenlovingtoher,andtookcareofher,shemightneverha’doneanythingbad。Whatwoulditha’signified——

  myhavingabito’troublewithher?It’udha’beennothingtothis。\"

  \"There’snoknowing,mylad——there’snoknowingwhatmighthavecome。Thesmart’sbadforyoutobearnow:youmusthavetime——

  youmusthavetime。ButI’vethatopinionofyou,thatyou’llriseaboveitallandbeamanagain,andtheremaygoodcomeoutofthisthatwedon’tsee。\"

  \"Goodcomeoutofit!\"saidAdampassionately。\"Thatdoesn’talterth’evil:HERruincan’tbeundone。Ihatethattalko’

  people,asiftherewasawayo’makingamendsforeverything。

  They’dmoreneedbebroughttoseeasthewrongtheydocanneverbealtered。Whenaman’sspoiledhisfellow-creatur’slife,he’snorighttocomforthimselfwiththinkinggoodmaycomeoutofit。

  Somebodyelse’sgooddoesn’talterhershameandmisery。\"

  \"Well,lad,well,\"saidBartle,inagentletone,strangelyincontrastwithhisusualperemptorinessandimpatienceofcontradiction,\"it’slikelyenoughItalkfoolishness。I’manoldfellow,andit’sagoodmanyyearssinceIwasintroublemyself。

  It’seasyfindingreasonswhyotherfolksshouldbepatient。\"

  \"Mr。Massey,\"saidAdampenitently,\"I’mveryhotandhasty。I

  oweyousomethingdifferent;butyoumustn’ttakeitillofme。\"

  \"NotI,lad——notI。\"

  Sothenightworeoninagitationtillthechilldawnandthegrowinglightbroughtthetremulousquietthatcomesonthebrinkofdespair。Therewouldsoonbenomoresuspense。

  \"Letusgototheprisonnow,Mr。Massey,\"saidAdam,whenhesawthehandofhiswatchatsix。\"Ifthere’sanynewscome,weshallhearaboutit。\"

  Thepeoplewereastiralready,movingrapidly,inonedirection,throughthestreets。Adamtriednottothinkwheretheyweregoing,astheyhurriedpasthiminthatshortspacebetweenhislodgingandtheprisongates。Hewasthankfulwhenthegatesshuthiminfromseeingthoseeagerpeople。

  No;therewasnonewscome——nopardon——noreprieve。

  AdamlingeredinthecourthalfanhourbeforehecouldbringhimselftosendwordtoDinahthathewascome。Butavoicecaughthisear:hecouldnotshutoutthewords。

  \"Thecartistosetoffathalf-pastseven。\"

  Itmustbesaid——thelastgood-bye:therewasnohelp。

  Intenminutesfromthattime,Adamwasatthedoorofthecell。

  Dinahhadsenthimwordthatshecouldnotcometohim;shecouldnotleaveHettyonemoment;butHettywaspreparedforthemeeting。

  Hecouldnotseeherwhenheentered,foragitationdeadenedhissenses,andthedimcellwasalmostdarktohim。Hestoodamomentafterthedoorclosedbehindhim,tremblingandstupefied。

  Buthebegantoseethroughthedimness——toseethedarkeyeslifteduptohimoncemore,butwithnosmileinthem。OGod,howsadtheylooked!Thelasttimetheyhadmethiswaswhenhepartedfromherwithhisheartfullofjoyoushopefullove,andtheylookedoutwithatearfulsmilefromapink,dimpled,childishface。Thefacewasmarblenow;thesweetlipswerepallidandhalf-openandquivering;thedimpleswereallgone——allbutone,thatneverwent;andtheeyes——O,theworstofallwasthelikenesstheyhadtoHetty’s。TheywereHetty’seyeslookingathimwiththatmournfulgaze,asifshehadcomebacktohimfromthedeadtotellhimofhermisery。

  ShewasclingingclosetoDinah;hercheekwasagainstDinah’s。

  Itseemedasifherlastfaintstrengthandhopelayinthatcontact,andthepityinglovethatshoneoutfromDinah’sfacelookedlikeavisiblepledgeoftheInvisibleMercy。

  Whenthesadeyesmet——whenHettyandAdamlookedateachother——

  shefeltthechangeinhimtoo,anditseemedtostrikeherwithfreshfear。Itwasthefirsttimeshehadseenanybeingwhosefaceseemedtoreflectthechangeinherself:Adamwasanewimageofthedreadfulpastandthedreadfulpresent。Shetrembledmoreasshelookedathim。

  \"Speaktohim,Hetty,\"Dinahsaid;\"tellhimwhatisinyourheart。\"

  Hettyobeyedher,likealittlechild。

  \"Adam……I’mverysorry……Ibehavedverywrongtoyou……willyouforgiveme……beforeIdie?\"

  Adamansweredwithahalf-sob,\"Yes,IforgivetheeHetty。I

  forgavetheelongago。\"

  IthadseemedtoAdamasifhisbrainwouldburstwiththeanguishofmeetingHetty’seyesinthefirstmoments,butthesoundofhervoiceutteringthesepenitentwordstouchedachordwhichhadbeenlessstrained。Therewasasenseofrelieffromwhatwasbecomingunbearable,andtheraretearscame——theyhadnevercomebefore,sincehehadhungonSeth’sneckinthebeginningofhissorrow。

  Hettymadeaninvoluntarymovementtowardshim,someofthelovethatshehadoncelivedinthemidstofwascomenearheragain。

  ShekeptholdofDinah’shand,butshewentuptoAdamandsaidtimidly,\"Willyoukissmeagain,Adam,forallI’vebeensowicked?\"

  Adamtooktheblanchedwastedhandsheputouttohim,andtheygaveeachotherthesolemnunspeakablekissofalifelongparting。

  \"Andtellhim,\"Hettysaid,inratherastrongervoice,\"tellhim……forthere’snobodyelsetotellhim……asIwentafterhimandcouldn’tfindhim……andIhatedhimandcursedhimonce……butDinahsaysIshouldforgivehim……andItry……forelseGodwon’tforgiveme。\"

  Therewasanoiseatthedoorofthecellnow——thekeywasbeingturnedinthelock,andwhenthedooropened,Adamsawindistinctlythattherewereseveralfacesthere。Hewastooagitatedtoseemore——eventoseethatMr。Irwine’sfacewasoneofthem。Hefeltthatthelastpreparationswerebeginning,andhecouldstaynolonger。Roomwassilentlymadeforhimtodepart,andhewenttohischamberinloneliness,leavingBartleMasseytowatchandseetheend。

  ChapterXLVII

  TheLastMomentITwasasightthatsomepeoplerememberedbettereventhantheirownsorrows——thesightinthatgreyclearmorning,whenthefatalcartwiththetwoyoungwomeninitwasdescriedbythewaitingwatchingmultitude,cleavingitswaytowardsthehideoussymbolofadeliberatelyinflictedsuddendeath。

  AllStonitonhadheardofDinahMorris,theyoungMethodistwomanwhohadbroughttheobstinatecriminaltoconfess,andtherewasasmucheagernesstoseeherastoseethewretchedHetty。

  ButDinahwashardlyconsciousofthemultitude。WhenHettyhadcaughtsightofthevastcrowdinthedistance,shehadclutchedDinahconvulsively。

  \"Closeyoureyes,Hetty,\"Dinahsaid,\"andletuspraywithoutceasingtoGod。\"

  Andinalowvoice,asthecartwentslowlyalongthroughthemidstofthegazingcrowd,shepouredforthhersoulwiththewrestlingintensityofalastpleading,forthetremblingcreaturethatclungtoherandclutchedherastheonlyvisiblesignofloveandpity。

  Dinahdidnotknowthatthecrowdwassilent,gazingatherwithasortofawe——shedidnotevenknowhowneartheyweretothefatalspot,whenthecartstopped,andsheshrankappalledataloudshouthideoustoherear,likeavastyellofdemons。Hetty’sshriekmingledwiththesound,andtheyclaspedeachotherinmutualhorror。

  Butitwasnotashoutofexecration——notayellofexultantcruelty。

  Itwasashoutofsuddenexcitementattheappearanceofahorsemancleavingthecrowdatfullgallop。Thehorseishotanddistressed,butanswerstothedesperatespurring;theriderlooksasifhiseyeswereglazedbymadness,andhesawnothingbutwhatwasunseenbyothers。See,hehassomethinginhishand——heisholdingitupasifitwereasignal。

  TheSheriffknowshim:itisArthurDonnithorne,carryinginhishandahard-wonreleasefromdeath。

  ChapterXLVIII

  AnotherMeetingintheWoodTHEnextday,atevening,twomenwerewalkingfromoppositepointstowardsthesamescene,drawnthitherbyacommonmemory。

  ThescenewastheGrovebyDonnithorneChase:youknowwhothemenwere。

  Theoldsquire’sfuneralhadtakenplacethatmorning,thewillhadbeenread,andnowinthefirstbreathing-space,ArthurDonnithornehadcomeoutforalonelywalk,thathemightlookfixedlyatthenewfuturebeforehimandconfirmhimselfinasadresolution。HethoughthecoulddothatbestintheGrove。

  AdamtoohadcomefromStontiononMondayevening,andto-dayhehadnotlefthome,excepttogotothefamilyattheHallFarmandtellthemeverythingthatMr。Irwinehadleftuntold。HehadagreedwiththePoysersthathewouldfollowthemtotheirnewneighbourhood,whereverthatmightbe,forhemeanttogiveupthemanagementofthewoods,and,assoonasitwaspracticable,hewouldwinduphisbusinesswithJonathanBurgeandsettlewithhismotherandSethinahomewithinreachofthefriendstowhomhefeltboundbyamutualsorrow。

  \"Sethandmearesuretofindwork,\"hesaid。\"Amanthat’sgotourtradeathisfinger-endsisathomeeverywhere;andwemustmakeanewstart。Mymotherwon’tstandintheway,forshe’stoldme,sinceIcamehome,she’dmadeuphermindtobeingburiedinanotherparish,ifIwishedit,andifI’dbemorecomfortableelsewhere。It’swonderfulhowquietshe’sbeeneversinceIcameback。Itseemsasiftheverygreatnesso’thetroublehadquietedandcalmedher。Weshallallbebetterinanewcountry,thoughthere’ssomeIshallbeloathtoleavebehind。ButIwon’tpartfromyouandyours,ifIcanhelpit,Mr。Poyser。Trouble’smadeuskin。\"

  \"Aye,lad,\"saidMartin。\"We’llgoouto’hearingo’thatman’sname。ButIdoubtweshallne’ergofarenoughforfolksnottofindoutaswe’vegotthembelongingtousasaretransportedo’ertheseas,andwereliketobehanged。Weshallhavethatflyin’

  upinourfaces,andourchildren’safterus。\"

  ThatwasalongvisittotheHallFarm,anddrewtoostronglyonAdam’senergiesforhimtothinkofseeingothers,orre-enteringonhisoldoccupationstillthemorrow。\"Butto-morrow,\"hesaidtohimself,\"I’llgotoworkagain。Ishalllearntolikeitagainsometime,maybe;andit’srightwhetherIlikeitornot。\"

  Thiseveningwasthelasthewouldallowtobeabsorbedbysorrow:

  suspensewasgonenow,andhemustbeartheunalterable。HewasresolvednottoseeArthurDonnithorneagain,ifitwerepossibletoavoidhim。HehadnomessagetodeliverfromHettynow,forHettyhadseenArthur。AndAdamdistrustedhimself——hehadlearnedtodreadtheviolenceofhisownfeeling。ThatwordofMr。Irwine’s——thathemustrememberwhathehadfeltaftergivingthelastblowtoArthurintheGrove——hadremainedwithhim。

  ThesethoughtsaboutArthur,likeallthoughtsthatarechargedwithstrongfeeling,werecontinuallyrecurring,andtheyalwayscalleduptheimageoftheGrove——ofthatspotundertheoverarchingboughswherehehadcaughtsightofthetwobendingfigures,andhadbeenpossessedbysuddenrage。

  \"I’llgoandseeitagainto-nightforthelasttime,\"hesaid;

  \"it’lldomegood;it’llmakemefeeloveragainwhatIfeltwhenI’dknockedhimdown。Ifeltwhatpooremptyworkitwas,assoonasI’ddoneit,beforeIbegantothinkhemightbedead。\"

  InthiswayithappenedthatArthurandAdamwerewalkingtowardsthesamespotatthesametime。

  Adamhadonhisworking-dressagain,now,forhehadthrownofftheotherwithasenseofreliefassoonashecamehome;andifhehadhadthebasketoftoolsoverhisshoulder,hemighthavebeentaken,withhispalewastedface,forthespectreoftheAdamBedewhoenteredtheGroveonthatAugusteveningeightmonthsago。Buthehadnobasketoftools,andhewasnotwalkingwiththeolderectness,lookingkeenlyroundhim;hishandswerethrustinhissidepockets,andhiseyesrestedchieflyontheground。

  HehadnotlongenteredtheGrove,andnowhepausedbeforeabeech。Heknewthattreewell;itwastheboundarymarkofhisyouth——thesign,tohim,ofthetimewhensomeofhisearliest,strongestfeelingshadlefthim。Hefeltsuretheywouldneverreturn。Andyet,atthismoment,therewasastirringofaffectionattheremembranceofthatArthurDonnithornewhomhehadbelievedinbeforehehadcomeuptothisbeecheightmonthsago。Itwasaffectionforthedead:THATArthurexistednolonger。

  Hewasdisturbedbythesoundofapproachingfootsteps,butthebeechstoodataturningintheroad,andhecouldnotseewhowascominguntilthetallslimfigureindeepmourningsuddenlystoodbeforehimatonlytwoyards’distance。Theybothstarted,andlookedateachotherinsilence。Often,inthelastfortnight,AdamhadimaginedhimselfasclosetoArthurasthis,assailinghimwithwordsthatshouldbeasharrowingasthevoiceofremorse,forcinguponhimajustshareinthemiseryhehadcaused;andoften,too,hehadtoldhimselfthatsuchameetinghadbetternotbe。ButinimaginingthemeetinghehadalwaysseenArthur,ashehadmethimonthateveningintheGrove,florid,careless,lightofspeech;andthefigurebeforehimtouchedhimwiththesignsofsuffering。Adamknewwhatsufferingwas——hecouldnotlayacruelfingeronabruisedman。Hefeltnoimpulsethatheneededtoresist。Silencewasmorejustthanreproach。Arthurwasthefirsttospeak。

  \"Adam,\"hesaid,quietly,\"itmaybeagoodthingthatwehavemethere,forIwishedtoseeyou。Ishouldhaveaskedtoseeyouto-

  morrow。\"

  Hepaused,butAdamsaidnothing。

  \"Iknowitispainfultoyoutomeetme,\"Arthurwenton,\"butitisnotlikelytohappenagainforyearstocome。\"

  \"No,sir,\"saidAdam,coldly,\"thatwaswhatImeanttowritetoyouto-morrow,asitwouldbebetteralldealingsshouldbeatanendbetweenus,andsomebodyelseputinmyplace。\"

  Arthurfelttheanswerkeenly,anditwasnotwithoutaneffortthathespokeagain。

  \"ItwaspartlyonthatsubjectIwishedtospeaktoyou。Idon’twanttolessenyourindignationagainstme,oraskyoutodoanythingformysake。Ionlywishtoaskyouifyouwillhelpmetolessentheevilconsequencesofthepast,whichisunchangeable。Idon’tmeanconsequencestomyself,buttoothers。

  ItisbutlittleIcando,Iknow。Iknowtheworstconsequenceswillremain;butsomethingmaybedone,andyoucanhelpme。Willyoulistentomepatiently?\"

  \"Yes,sir,\"saidAdam,aftersomehesitation;\"I’llhearwhatitis。IfIcanhelptomendanything,Iwill。Anger’ullmendnothing,Iknow。We’vehadenougho’that。\"

  \"IwasgoingtotheHermitage,\"saidArthur。\"Willyougotherewithmeandsitdown?Wecantalkbetterthere。\"

  TheHermitagehadneverbeenenteredsincetheyleftittogether,forArthurhadlockedupthekeyinhisdesk。Andnow,whenheopenedthedoor,therewasthecandleburntoutinthesocket;

  therewasthechairinthesameplacewhereAdamrememberedsitting;therewasthewaste-paperbasketfullofscraps,anddeepdowninit,Arthurfeltinaninstant,therewasthelittlepinksilkhandkerchief。Itwouldhavebeenpainfultoenterthisplaceiftheirpreviousthoughtshadbeenlesspainful。

  Theysatdownoppositeeachotherintheoldplaces,andArthursaid,\"I’mgoingaway,Adam;I’mgoingintothearmy。\"

  PoorArthurfeltthatAdamoughttobeaffectedbythisannouncement——oughttohaveamovementofsympathytowardshim。

  ButAdam’slipsremainedfirmlyclosed,andtheexpressionofhisfaceunchanged。

  \"WhatIwanttosaytoyou,\"Arthurcontinued,\"isthis:oneofmyreasonsforgoingawayisthatnooneelsemayleaveHayslope——mayleavetheirhomeonmyaccount。Iwoulddoanything,thereisnosacrificeIwouldnotmake,topreventanyfurtherinjurytoothersthroughmy——throughwhathashappened。\"

  Arthur’swordshadpreciselytheoppositeeffecttothathehadanticipated。Adamthoughtheperceivedinthemthatnotionofcompensationforirretrievablewrong,thatself-soothingattempttomakeevilbearthesamefruitsasgood,whichmostofallrousedhisindignation。HewasasstronglyimpelledtolookpainfulfactsrightinthefaceasArthurwastoturnawayhiseyesfromthem。Moreover,hehadthewakefulsuspiciousprideofapoormaninthepresenceofarichman。Hefelthisoldseverityreturningashesaid,\"Thetime’spastforthat,sir。A

  manshouldmakesacrificestokeepclearofdoingawrong;

  sacrificeswon’tundoitwhenit’sdone。Whenpeople’sfeelingshavegotadeadlywound,theycan’tbecuredwithfavours。\"

  \"Favours!\"saidArthur,passionately;\"no;howcanyousupposeI

  meantthat?ButthePoysers——Mr。IrwinetellsmethePoysersmeantoleavetheplacewheretheyhavelivedsomanyyears——forgenerations。Don’tyousee,asMr。Irwinedoes,thatiftheycouldbepersuadedtoovercomethefeelingthatdrivesthemaway,itwouldbemuchbetterforthemintheendtoremainontheoldspot,amongthefriendsandneighbourswhoknowthem?\"

  \"That’strue,\"saidAdamcoldly。\"Butthen,sir,folks’sfeelingsarenotsoeasilyovercome。It’llbehardforMartinPoysertogotoastrangeplace,amongstrangefaces,whenhe’sbeenbredupontheHallFarm,andhisfatherbeforehim;butthenit’udbeharderforamanwithhisfeelingstostay。Idon’tseehowthething’stobemadeanyotherthanhard。There’sasorto’damage,sir,thatcan’tbemadeupfor。\"

  Arthurwassilentsomemoments。Inspiteofotherfeelingsdominantinhimthisevening,hispridewincedunderAdam’smodeoftreatinghim。Wasn’thehimselfsuffering?Wasnothetooobligedtorenouncehismostcherishedhopes?Itwasnowasithadbeeneightmonthsago——AdamwasforcingArthurtofeelmoreintenselytheirrevocablenessofhisownwrong-doing。HewaspresentingthesortofresistancethatwasthemostirritatingtoArthur’seagerardentnature。ButhisangerwassubduedbythesameinfluencethathadsubduedAdam’swhentheyfirstconfrontedeachother——bythemarksofsufferinginalongfamiliarface。

  ThemomentarystruggleendedinthefeelingthathecouldbearagreatdealfromAdam,towhomhehadbeentheoccasionofbearingsomuch;buttherewasatouchofpleading,boyishvexationinhistoneashesaid,\"Butpeoplemaymakeinjuriesworsebyunreasonableconduct——bygivingwaytoangerandsatisfyingthatforthemoment,insteadofthinkingwhatwillbetheeffectinthefuture。

  \"IfIweregoingtostayhereandactaslandlord,\"headdedpresently,withstillmoreeagerness——\"ifIwerecarelessaboutwhatI’vedone——whatI’vebeenthecauseof,youwouldhavesomeexcuse,Adam,forgoingawayandencouragingotherstogo。Youwouldhavesomeexcusethenfortryingtomaketheevilworse。

  ButwhenItellyouI’mgoingawayforyears——whenyouknowwhatthatmeansforme,howitcutsoffeveryplanofhappinessI’veeverformed——itisimpossibleforasensiblemanlikeyoutobelievethatthereisanyrealgroundforthePoysersrefusingtoremain。Iknowtheirfeelingaboutdisgrace——Mr。Irwinehastoldmeall;butheisofopinionthattheymightbepersuadedoutofthisideathattheyaredisgracedintheeyesoftheirneighbours,andthattheycan’tremainonmyestate,ifyouwouldjoinhiminhisefforts——ifyouwouldstayyourselfandgoonmanagingtheoldwoods。\"

  Arthurpausedamomentandthenadded,pleadingly,\"Youknowthat’sagoodworktodoforthesakeofotherpeople,besidestheowner。Andyoudon’tknowbutthattheymayhaveabetterownersoon,whomyouwillliketoworkfor。IfIdie,mycousinTradgettwillhavetheestateandtakemyname。Heisagoodfellow。\"

  Adamcouldnothelpbeingmoved:itwasimpossibleforhimnottofeelthatthiswasthevoiceofthehonestwarm-heartedArthurwhomhehadlovedandbeenproudofinolddays;butnearermemorieswouldnotbethrustaway。Hewassilent;yetArthursawananswerinhisfacethatinducedhimtogoon,withgrowingearnestness。

  \"Andthen,ifyouwouldtalktothePoysers——ifyouwouldtalkthematteroverwithMr。Irwine——hemeanstoseeyouto-morrow——andthenifyouwouldjoinyourargumentstohistoprevailonthemnottogo……Iknow,ofcourse,thattheywouldnotacceptanyfavourfromme——Imeannothingofthatkind——butI’msuretheywouldsufferlessintheend。Irwinethinkssotoo。AndMr。

  Irwineistohavethechiefauthorityontheestate——hehasconsentedtoundertakethat。Theywillreallybeundernomanbutonewhomtheyrespectandlike。Itwouldbethesamewithyou,Adam,anditcouldbenothingbutadesiretogivemeworsepainthatcouldinclineyoutogo。\"

  Arthurwassilentagainforalittlewhile,andthensaid,withsomeagitationinhisvoice,\"Iwouldn’tactsotowardsyou,I

  know。IfyouwereinmyplaceandIinyours,Ishouldtrytohelpyoutodothebest。\"

  Adammadeahastymovementonhischairandlookedontheground。

  Arthurwenton,\"Perhapsyou’veneverdoneanythingyou’vehadbitterlytorepentofinyourlife,Adam;ifyouhad,youwouldbemoregenerous。Youwouldknowthenthatit’sworseformethanforyou。\"

  Arthurrosefromhisseatwiththelastwords,andwenttooneofthewindows,lookingoutandturninghisbackonAdam,ashecontinued,passionately,\"Haven’tIlovedhertoo?Didn’tIseeheryesterday?Shan’tIcarrythethoughtofheraboutwithmeasmuchasyouwill?Anddon’tyouthinkyouwouldsuffermoreifyou’dbeeninfault?\"

  Therewassilenceforseveralminutes,forthestruggleinAdam’smindwasnoteasilydecided。Facilenatures,whoseemotionshavelittlepermanence,canhardlyunderstandhowmuchinwardresistanceheovercamebeforeherosefromhisseatandturnedtowardsArthur。Arthurheardthemovement,andturninground,metthesadbutsoftenedlookwithwhichAdamsaid,\"It’struewhatyousay,sir。I’mhard——it’sinmynature。Iwastoohardwithmyfather,fordoingwrong。I’vebeenabithardt’everybodybuther。Ifeltasifnobodypitiedherenough——hersufferingcutintomeso;andwhenIthoughtthefolksatthefarmweretoohardwithher,IsaidI’dneverbehardtoanybodymyselfagain。Butfeelingovermuchaboutherhasperhapsmademeunfairtoyou。

  I’veknownwhatitisinmylifetorepentandfeelit’stoolate。

  IfeltI’dbeentooharshtomyfatherwhenhewasgonefromme——I

  feelitnow,whenIthinkofhim。I’venorighttobehardtowardsthemashavedonewrongandrepent。\"

  Adamspokethesewordswiththefirmdistinctnessofamanwhoisresolvedtoleavenothingunsaidthatheisboundtosay;buthewentonwithmorehesitation。

  \"Iwouldn’tshakehandswithyouonce,sir,whenyouaskedme——butifyou’rewillingtodoitnow,forallIrefusedthen……\"

  Arthur’swhitehandwasinAdam’slargegraspinaninstant,andwiththatactiontherewasastrongrush,onbothsides,oftheold,boyishaffection。

  \"Adam,\"Arthursaid,impelledtofullconfessionnow,\"itwouldneverhavehappenedifI’dknownyoulovedher。Thatwouldhavehelpedtosavemefromit。AndIdidstruggle。Inevermeanttoinjureher。Ideceivedyouafterwards——andthatledontoworse;

  butIthoughtitwasforceduponme,IthoughtitwasthebestthingIcoulddo。AndinthatletterItoldhertoletmeknowifshewereinanytrouble:don’tthinkIwouldnothavedoneeverythingIcould。ButIwasallwrongfromtheveryfirst,andhorriblewronghascomeofit。Godknows,I’dgivemylifeifI

  couldundoit。\"

  Theysatdownagainoppositeeachother,andAdamsaid,tremulously,\"Howdidsheseemwhenyoulefther,sir?\"

  \"Don’taskme,Adam,\"Arthursaid;\"IfeelsometimesasifI

  shouldgomadwiththinkingofherlooksandwhatshesaidtome,andthen,thatIcouldn’tgetafullpardon——thatIcouldn’tsaveherfromthatwretchedfateofbeingtransported——thatIcandonothingforherallthoseyears;andshemaydieunderit,andneverknowcomfortanymore。\"

  \"Ah,sir,\"saidAdam,forthefirsttimefeelinghisownpainmergedinsympathyforArthur,\"youandme’lloftenbethinkingo’

  thesamething,whenwe’realongwayoffoneanother。I’llprayGodtohelpyou,asIprayhimtohelpme。\"

  \"Butthere’sthatsweetwoman——thatDinahMorris,\"Arthursaid,pursuinghisownthoughtsandnotknowingwhathadbeenthesenseofAdam’swords,\"shesayssheshallstaywithhertotheverylastmoment——tillshegoes;andthepoorthingclingstoherasifshefoundsomecomfortinher。Icouldworshipthatwoman;I

  don’tknowwhatIshoulddoifshewerenotthere。Adam,youwillseeherwhenshecomesback。Icouldsaynothingtoheryesterday——nothingofwhatIfelttowardsher。Tellher,\"Arthurwentonhurriedly,asifhewantedtohidetheemotionwithwhichhespoke,whilehetookoffhischainandwatch,\"tellherIaskedyoutogiveherthisinremembranceofme——ofthemantowhomsheistheonesourceofcomfort,whenhethinksof……Iknowshedoesn’tcareaboutsuchthings——oranythingelseIcangiveherforitsownsake。Butshewillusethewatch——Ishallliketothinkofherusingit。\"

  \"I’llgiveittoher,sir,\"Adamsaid,\"andtellheryourwords。

  ShetoldmesheshouldcomebacktothepeopleattheHallFarm。\"

  \"AndyouwillpersuadethePoyserstostay,Adam?\"saidArthur,remindedofthesubjectwhichbothofthemhadforgotteninthefirstinterchangeofrevivedfriendship。\"Youwillstayyourself,andhelpMr。Irwinetocarryouttherepairsandimprovementsontheestate?\"

  \"There’sonething,sir,thatperhapsyoudon’ttakeaccountof,\"

  saidAdam,withhesitatinggentleness,\"andthatwaswhatmademehangbacklonger。Yousee,it’sthesamewithbothmeandthePoysers:ifwestay,it’sforourownworldlyinterest,anditlooksasifwe’dputupwithanythingforthesakeo’that。I

  knowthat’swhatthey’llfeel,andIcan’thelpfeelingalittleofitmyself。Whenfolkshavegotanhonourableindependentspirit,theydon’tliketodoanythingthatmightmake’emseembase-minded。\"

  \"Butnoonewhoknowsyouwillthinkthat,Adam。Thatisnotareasonstrongenoughagainstacoursethatisreallymoregenerous,moreunselfishthantheother。Anditwillbeknown——itshallbemadeknown,thatbothyouandthePoysersstayedatmyentreaty。Adam,don’ttrytomakethingsworseforme;I’mpunishedenoughwithoutthat。\"

  \"No,sir,no,\"Adamsaid,lookingatArthurwithmournfulaffection。\"GodforbidIshouldmakethingsworseforyou。I

  usedtowishIcoulddoit,inmypassion——butthatwaswhenI

  thoughtyoudidn’tfeelenough。I’llstay,sir,I’lldothebestIcan。It’sallI’vegottothinkofnow——todomyworkwellandmaketheworldabitbetterplaceforthemascanenjoyit。\"

  \"Thenwe’llpartnow,Adam。YouwillseeMr。Irwineto-morrow,andconsultwithhimabouteverything。\"

  \"Areyougoingsoon,sir?\"saidAdam。

  \"Assoonaspossible——afterI’vemadethenecessaryarrangements。

  Good-bye,Adam。Ishallthinkofyougoingabouttheoldplace。\"

  \"Good-bye,sir。Godblessyou。\"

  Thehandswereclaspedoncemore,andAdamlefttheHermitage,feelingthatsorrowwasmorebearablenowhatredwasgone。

  Assoonasthedoorwasclosedbehindhim,Arthurwenttothewaste-paperbasketandtookoutthelittlepinksilkhandkerchief。

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