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  Thiswasagentlemannolongeryoung,ofastiffandportlyappearance,andacautiousandsourcountenance。Hebeganbystoppingshortinthedoorway,staringabouthimwithoffensiveandundisguisedastonishment,asthoughaskinghimselfwhatsortofplacehehadcometo。Mistrustfullyandwithanaffectationofbeingalarmedandalmostaffronted,hescannedRaskolnikov’slowandnarrow“cabin。”WiththesameamazementhestaredatRaskolnikov,wholayundressed,dishevelled,unwashed,onhismiserabledirtysofa,lookingfixedlyathim。Thenwiththesamedeliberationhescrutinisedtheuncouth,unkemptfigureandunshavenfaceofRazumihin,wholookedhimboldlyandinquiringlyinthefacewithoutrisingfromhisseat。Aconstrainedsilencelastedforacoupleofminutes,andthen,asmightbeexpected,somescene-shiftingtookplace。Reflecting,probablyfromcertainfairlyunmistakablesigns,thathewouldgetnothinginthis“cabin”byattemptingtooverawethem,thegentlemansoftenedsomewhat,andcivilly,thoughwithsomeseverity,emphasisingeverysyllableofhisquestion,addressedZossimov:

  “RodionRomanovitchRaskolnikov,astudent,orformerlyastudent?”

  Zossimovmadeaslightmovement,andwouldhaveanswered,hadnotRazumihinanticipatedhim。

  “Hereheislyingonthesofa!Whatdoyouwant?”

  Thisfamiliar“whatdoyouwant”seemedtocutthegroundfromthefeetofthepompousgentleman。HewasturningtoRazumihin,butcheckedhimselfintimeandturnedtoZossimovagain。

  “ThisisRaskolnikov,”mumbledZossimov,noddingtowardshim。Thenhegaveaprolongedyawn,openinghismouthaswideaspossible。Thenhelazilyputhishandintohiswaistcoat-pocket,pulledoutahugegoldwatchinaroundhunter’scase,openedit,lookedatitandasslowlyandlazilyproceededtoputitback。

  Raskolnikovhimselflaywithoutspeaking,onhisback,gazingpersistently,thoughwithoutunderstanding,atthestranger。Nowthathisfacewasturnedawayfromthestrangefloweronthepaper,itwasextremelypaleandworealookofanguish,asthoughhehadjustundergoneanagonisingoperationorjustbeentakenfromtherack。Butthenew-comergraduallybegantoarousehisattention,thenhiswonder,thensuspicionandevenalarm。WhenZossimovsaid“ThisisRaskolnikov”hejumpedupquickly,satonthesofaandwithanalmostdefiant,butweakandbreaking,voicearticulated:

  “Yes,IamRaskolnikov!Whatdoyouwant?”

  Thevisitorscrutinisedhimandpronouncedimpressively:

  “PyotrPetrovitchLuzhin。IbelieveIhavereasontohopethatmynameisnotwhollyunknowntoyou?”

  ButRaskolnikov,whohadexpectedsomethingquitedifferent,gazedblanklyanddreamilyathim,makingnoreply,asthoughheheardthenameofPyotrPetrovitchforthefirsttime。

  “Isitpossiblethatyoucanuptothepresenthavereceivednoinformation?”askedPyotrPetrovitch,somewhatdisconcerted。

  InreplyRaskolnikovsanklanguidlybackonthepillow,puthishandsbehindhisheadandgazedattheceiling。AlookofdismaycameintoLuzhin’sface。ZossimovandRazumihinstaredathimmoreinquisitivelythanever,andatlastheshowedunmistakablesignsofembarrassment。

  “Ihadpresumedandcalculated,”hefaltered,“thataletterpostedmorethantendays,ifnotafortnightago…”

  “Isay,whyareyoustandinginthedoorway?”Razumihininterruptedsuddenly。“Ifyou’vesomethingtosay,sitdown。Nastasyaandyouaresocrowded。Nastasya,makeroom。Here’sachair,threadyourwayin!”

  Hemovedhischairbackfromthetable,madealittlespacebetweenthetableandhisknees,andwaitedinarathercrampedpositionforthevisitorto“threadhiswayin。”Theminutewassochosenthatitwasimpossibletorefuse,andthevisitorsqueezedhiswaythrough,hurryingandstumbling。Reachingthechair,hesatdown,lookingsuspiciouslyatRazumihin。

  “Noneedtobenervous,”thelatterblurtedout。“Rodyahasbeenillforthelastfivedaysanddeliriousforthree,butnowheisrecoveringandhasgotanappetite。Thisishisdoctor,whohasjusthadalookathim。IamacomradeofRodya’s,likehim,formerlyastudent,andnowIamnursinghim;sodon’tyoutakeanynoticeofus,butgoonwithyourbusiness。”

  “Thankyou。ButshallInotdisturbtheinvalidbymypresenceandconversation?”PyotrPetrovitchaskedofZossimov。

  “N-no,”mumbledZossimov;“youmayamusehim。”Heyawnedagain。

  “Hehasbeenconsciousalongtime,sincethemorning,”wentonRazumihin,whosefamiliarityseemedsomuchlikeunaffectedgood-naturethatPyotrPetrovitchbegantobemorecheerful,partly,perhaps,becausethisshabbyandimpudentpersonhadintroducedhimselfasastudent。

  “Yourmamma,”beganLuzhin。

  “Hm!”Razumihinclearedhisthroatloudly。Luzhinlookedathiminquiringly。

  “That’sallright,goon。”

  Luzhinshruggedhisshoulders。

  “YourmammahadcommencedalettertoyouwhileIwassojourninginherneighbourhood。OnmyarrivalhereIpurposelyallowedafewdaystoelapsebeforecomingtoseeyou,inorderthatImightbefullyassuredthatyouwereinfullpossessionofthetidings;butnow,tomyastonishment…”

  “Iknow,Iknow!”Raskolnikovcriedsuddenlywithimpatientvexation。“Soyouarethefiance?Iknow,andthat’senough!”

  TherewasnodoubtaboutPyotrPetrovitch’sbeingoffendedthistime,buthesaidnothing。Hemadeaviolentefforttounderstandwhatitallmeant。Therewasamoment’ssilence。

  MeanwhileRaskolnikov,whohadturnedalittletowardshimwhenheanswered,begansuddenlystaringathimagainwithmarkedcuriosity,asthoughhehadnothadagoodlookathimyet,orasthoughsomethingnewhadstruckhim;herosefromhispillowonpurposetostareathim。TherecertainlywassomethingpeculiarinPyotrPetrovitch’swholeappearance,somethingwhichseemedtojustifythetitleof“fiance”sounceremoniouslyappliedtohim。Inthefirstplace,itwasevident,fartoomuchsoindeed,thatPyotrPetrovitchhadmadeeageruseofhisfewdaysinthecapitaltogethimselfupandrighimselfoutinexpectationofhisbetrothed—aperfectlyinnocentandpermissibleproceeding,indeed。Evenhisown,perhapstoocomplacent,consciousnessoftheagreeableimprovementinhisappearancemighthavebeenforgiveninsuchcircumstances,seeingthatPyotrPetrovitchhadtakenuptheroleoffiance。Allhisclotheswerefreshfromthetailor’sandwereallright,exceptforbeingtoonewandtoodistinctlyappropriate。Eventhestylishnewroundhathadthesamesignificance。PyotrPetrovitchtreatedittoorespectfullyandheldittoocarefullyinhishands。Theexquisitepairoflavendergloves,realLouvain,toldthesametale,ifonlyfromthefactofhisnotwearingthem,butcarryingtheminhishandforshow。LightandyouthfulcolourspredominatedinPyotrPetrovitch’sattire。Heworeacharmingsummerjacketofafawnshade,lightthintrousers,awaistcoatofthesame,newandfinelinen,acravatofthelightestcambricwithpinkstripesonit,andthebestofitwas,thisallsuitedPyotrPetrovitch。Hisveryfreshandevenhandsomefacelookedyoungerthanhisforty-fiveyearsatalltimes。Hisdark,mutton-chopwhiskersmadeanagreeablesettingonbothsides,growingthicklyuponhisshining,clean-shavenchin。Evenhishair,touchedhereandtherewithgrey,thoughithadbeencombedandcurledatahairdresser’s,didnotgivehimastupidappearance,ascurledhairusuallydoes,byinevitablysuggestingaGermanonhiswedding-day。Iftherereallywassomethingunpleasingandrepulsiveinhisrathergood-lookingandimposingcountenance,itwasduetoquiteothercauses。AfterscanningMr。Luzhinunceremoniously,Raskolnikovsmiledmalignantly,sankbackonthepillowandstaredattheceilingasbefore。

  ButMr。Luzhinhardenedhisheartandseemedtodeterminetotakenonoticeoftheiroddities。

  “Ifeelthegreatestregretatfindingyouinthissituation,”hebegan,againbreakingthesilencewithaneffort。“IfIhadbeenawareofyourillnessIshouldhavecomeearlier。Butyouknowwhatbusinessis。Ihave,too,averyimportantlegalaffairintheSenate,nottomentionotherpreoccupationswhichyoumaywellconjecture。Iamexpectingyourmammaandsisteranyminute。”

  Raskolnikovmadeamovementandseemedabouttospeak;hisfaceshowedsomeexcitement。PyotrPetrovitchpaused,waited,butasnothingfollowed,hewenton:

  “…Anyminute。Ihavefoundalodgingforthemontheirarrival。”

  “Where?”askedRaskolnikovweakly。

  “Verynearhere,inBakaleyev’shouse。”

  “That’sinVoskresensky,”putinRazumihin。“Therearetwostoreysofrooms,letbyamerchantcalledYushin;I’vebeenthere。”

  “Yes,rooms…”

  “Adisgustingplace—filthy,stinkingand,what’smore,ofdoubtfulcharacter。Thingshavehappenedthere,andthereareallsortsofqueerpeoplelivingthere。AndIwentthereaboutascandalousbusiness。It’scheap,though…”

  “Icouldnot,ofcourse,findoutsomuchaboutit,forIamastrangerinPetersburgmyself,”PyotrPetrovitchrepliedhuffily。“However,thetworoomsareexceedinglyclean,andasitisforsoshortatime…Ihavealreadytakenapermanent,thatis,ourfutureflat,”hesaid,addressingRaskolnikov,“andIamhavingitdoneup。AndmeanwhileIammyselfcrampedforroominalodgingwithmyfriendAndreySemyonovitchLebeziatnikov,intheflatofMadameLippevechsel;itwashewhotoldmeofBakaleyev’shouse,too…”

  “Lebeziatnikov?”saidRaskolnikovslowly,asifrecallingsomething。

  “Yes,AndreySemyonovitchLebeziatnikov,aclerkintheMinistry。Doyouknowhim?”

  “Yes…no,”Raskolnikovanswered。

  “Excuseme,Ifanciedsofromyourinquiry。Iwasoncehisguardian。…Averyniceyoungmanandadvanced。Iliketomeetyoungpeople:onelearnsnewthingsfromthem。”Luzhinlookedroundhopefullyatthemall。

  “Howdoyoumean?”askedRazumihin。

  “Inthemostseriousandessentialmatters,”PyotrPetrovitchreplied,asthoughdelightedatthequestion。“Yousee,it’stenyearssinceIvisitedPetersburg。Allthenovelties,reforms,ideashavereachedusintheprovinces,buttoseeitallmoreclearlyonemustbeinPetersburg。Andit’smynotionthatyouobserveandlearnmostbywatchingtheyoungergeneration。AndIconfessIamdelighted…”

  “Atwhat?”

  “Yourquestionisawideone。Imaybemistaken,butIfancyIfindclearerviews,more,sotosay,criticism,morepracticality…”

  “That’strue,”Zossimovletdrop。

  “Nonsense!There’snopracticality。”Razumihinflewathim。“Practicalityisadifficultthingtofind;itdoesnotdropdownfromheaven。Andforthelasttwohundredyearswehavebeendivorcedfromallpracticallife。Ideas,ifyoulike,arefermenting,”hesaidtoPyotrPetrovitch,“anddesireforgoodexists,thoughit’sinachildishform,andhonestyyoumayfind,althoughtherearecrowdsofbrigands。Anyway,there’snopracticality。Practicalitygoeswellshod。”

  “Idon’tagreewithyou,”PyotrPetrovitchreplied,withevidentenjoyment。“Ofcourse,peopledogetcarriedawayandmakemistakes,butonemusthaveindulgence;thosemistakesaremerelyevidenceofenthusiasmforthecauseandofabnormalexternalenvironment。Iflittlehasbeendone,thetimehasbeenbutshort;ofmeansIwillnotspeak。It’smypersonalview,ifyoucaretoknow,thatsomethinghasbeenaccomplishedalready。Newvaluableideas,newvaluableworksarecirculatingintheplaceofourolddreamyandromanticauthors。Literatureistakingamaturerform,manyinjuriousprejudicehavebeenrootedupandturnedintoridicule。…Inaword,wehavecutourselvesoffirrevocablyfromthepast,andthat,tomythinking,isagreatthing…”

  “He’slearntitbyhearttoshowoff!”Raskolnikovpronouncedsuddenly。

  “What?”askedPyotrPetrovitch,notcatchinghiswords;buthereceivednoreply。

  “That’salltrue,”Zossimovhastenedtointerpose。

  “Isn’titso?”PyotrPetrovitchwenton,glancingaffablyatZossimov。“Youmustadmit,”hewenton,addressingRazumihinwithashadeoftriumphandsuperciliousness—healmostadded“youngman”—“thatthereisanadvance,or,astheysaynow,progressinthenameofscienceandeconomictruth…”

  “Acommonplace。”

  “No,notacommonplace!Hitherto,forinstance,ifIweretold,‘lovethyneighbour,’whatcameofit?”PyotrPetrovitchwenton,perhapswithexcessivehaste。“Itcametomytearingmycoatinhalftosharewithmyneighbourandwebothwerelefthalfnaked。AsaRussianproverbhasit,‘Catchseveralharesandyouwon’tcatchone。’Sciencenowtellsus,loveyourselfbeforeallmen,foreverythingintheworldrestsonself-interest。Youloveyourselfandmanageyourownaffairsproperlyandyourcoatremainswhole。Economictruthaddsthatthebetterprivateaffairsareorganisedinsociety—themorewholecoats,sotosay—thefirmerareitsfoundationsandthebetteristhecommonwelfareorganisedtoo。Therefore,inacquiringwealthsolelyandexclusivelyformyself,Iamacquiring,sotospeak,forall,andhelpingtobringtopassmyneighbour’sgettingalittlemorethanatorncoat;andthatnotfromprivate,personalliberality,butasaconsequenceofthegeneraladvance。Theideaissimple,butunhappilyithasbeenalongtimereachingus,beinghinderedbyidealismandsentimentality。Andyetitwouldseemtowantverylittlewittoperceiveit…”

  “Excuseme,I’veverylittlewitmyself,”Razumihincutinsharply,“andsoletusdropit。Ibeganthisdiscussionwithanobject,butI’vegrownsosickduringthelastthreeyearsofthischatteringtoamuseoneself,ofthisincessantflowofcommonplaces,alwaysthesame,that,byJove,Iblushevenwhenotherpeopletalklikethat。Youareinahurry,nodoubt,toexhibityouracquirements;andIdon’tblameyou,that’squitepardonable。Ionlywantedtofindoutwhatsortofmanyouare,forsomanyunscrupulouspeoplehavegotholdoftheprogressivecauseoflateandhavesodistortedintheirowninterestseverythingtheytouched,thatthewholecausehasbeendraggedinthemire。That’senough!”

  “Excuseme,sir,”saidLuzhin,affronted,andspeakingwithexcessivedignity。“DoyoumeantosuggestsounceremoniouslythatItoo…”

  “Oh,mydearsir…howcouldI?…Come,that’senough,”Razumihinconcluded,andheturnedabruptlytoZossimovtocontinuetheirpreviousconversation。

  PyotrPetrovitchhadthegoodsensetoacceptthedisavowal。Hemadeuphismindtotakeleaveinanotherminuteortwo。

  “Itrustouracquaintance,”hesaid,addressingRaskolnikov,“may,uponyourrecoveryandinviewofthecircumstancesofwhichyouareaware,becomecloser…Aboveall,Ihopeforyourreturntohealth…”

  Raskolnikovdidnoteventurnhishead。PyotrPetrovitchbegangettingupfromhischair。

  “Oneofhercustomersmusthavekilledher,”Zossimovdeclaredpositively。

  “Notadoubtofit,”repliedRazumihin。“Porfirydoesn’tgivehisopinion,butisexaminingallwhohaveleftpledgeswithherthere。”

  “Examiningthem?”Raskolnikovaskedaloud。

  “Yes。Whatthen?”

  “Nothing。”

  “Howdoeshegetholdofthem?”askedZossimov。

  “Kochhasgiventhenamesofsomeofthem,othernamesareonthewrappersofthepledgesandsomehavecomeforwardofthemselves。”

  “Itmusthavebeenacunningandpractisedruffian!Theboldnessofit!Thecoolness!”

  “That’sjustwhatitwasn’t!”interposedRazumihin。“That’swhatthrowsyoualloffthescent。ButImaintainthatheisnotcunning,notpractised,andprobablythiswashisfirstcrime!Thesuppositionthatitwasacalculatedcrimeandacunningcriminaldoesn’twork。Supposehimtohavebeeninexperienced,andit’sclearthatitwasonlyachancethatsavedhim—andchancemaydoanything。Why,hedidnotforeseeobstacles,perhaps!Andhowdidhesettowork?Hetookjewelsworthtenortwentyroubles,stuffinghispocketswiththem,ransackedtheoldwoman’strunks,herrags—andtheyfoundfifteenhundredroubles,besidesnotes,inaboxinthetopdrawerofthechest!Hedidnotknowhowtorob;hecouldonlymurder。Itwashisfirstcrime,Iassureyou,hisfirstcrime;helosthishead。Andhegotoffmorebyluckthangoodcounsel!”

  “Youaretalkingofthemurderoftheoldpawnbroker,Ibelieve?”PyotrPetrovitchputin,addressingZossimov。Hewasstanding,hatandglovesinhand,butbeforedepartinghefeltdisposedtothrowoffafewmoreintellectualphrases。Hewasevidentlyanxioustomakeafavourableimpressionandhisvanityovercamehisprudence。

  “Yes。You’veheardofit?”

  “Oh,yes,beingintheneighbourhood。”

  “Doyouknowthedetails?”

  “Ican’tsaythat;butanothercircumstanceinterestsmeinthecase—thewholequestion,sotosay。Nottospeakofthefactthatcrimehasbeengreatlyontheincreaseamongthelowerclassesduringthelastfiveyears,nottospeakofthecasesofrobberyandarsoneverywhere,whatstrikesmeasthestrangestthingisthatinthehigherclasses,too,crimeisincreasingproportionately。Inoneplaceonehearsofastudent’srobbingthemailonthehighroad;inanotherplacepeopleofgoodsocialpositionforgefalsebanknotes;inMoscowoflateawholeganghasbeencapturedwhousedtoforgelotterytickets,andoneoftheringleaderswasalecturerinuniversalhistory;thenoursecretaryabroadwasmurderedfromsomeobscuremotiveofgain。…Andifthisoldwoman,thepawnbroker,hasbeenmurderedbysomeoneofahigherclassinsociety—forpeasantsdon’tpawngoldtrinkets—howarewetoexplainthisdemoralisationofthecivilisedpartofoursociety?”

  “Therearemanyeconomicchanges,”putinZossimov。

  “Howarewetoexplainit?”Razumihincaughthimup。“Itmightbeexplainedbyourinveterateimpracticality。”

  “Howdoyoumean?”

  “WhatanswerhadyourlecturerinMoscowtomaketothequestionwhyhewasforgingnotes?‘Everybodyisgettingrichonewayoranother,soIwanttomakehastetogetrichtoo。’Idon’tremembertheexactwords,buttheupshotwasthathewantsmoneyfornothing,withoutwaitingorworking!We’vegrownusedtohavingeverythingready-made,towalkingoncrutches,tohavingourfoodchewedforus。Thenthegreathourstruck,1andeverymanshowedhimselfinhistruecolours。”

  “Butmorality?Andsotospeak,principles…”

  “Butwhydoyouworryaboutit?”Raskolnikovinterposedsuddenly。“It’sinaccordancewithyourtheory!”

  “Inaccordancewithmytheory?”

  “Why,carryoutlogicallythetheoryyouwereadvocatingjustnow,anditfollowsthatpeoplemaybekilled…”

  “Uponmyword!”criedLuzhin。

  “No,that’snotso,”putinZossimov。

  Raskolnikovlaywithawhitefaceandtwitchingupperlip,breathingpainfully。

  “There’sameasureinallthings,”Luzhinwentonsuperciliously。“Economicideasarenotanincitementtomurder,andonehasbuttosuppose…”

  “Andisittrue,”Raskolnikovinterposedoncemoresuddenly,againinavoicequiveringwithfuryanddelightininsultinghim,“isittruethatyoutoldyourfiancee…withinanhourofheracceptance,thatwhatpleasedyoumost…wasthatshewasabeggar…becauseitwasbettertoraiseawifefrompoverty,sothatyoumayhavecompletecontroloverher,andreproachherwithyourbeingherbenefactor?”

  “Uponmyword,”Luzhincriedwrathfullyandirritably,crimsonwithconfusion,“todistortmywordsinthisway!Excuseme,allowmetoassureyouthatthereportwhichhasreachedyou,orrather,letmesay,hasbeenconveyedtoyou,hasnofoundationintruth,andI…suspectwho…inaword…thisarrow…inaword,yourmamma…Sheseemedtomeinotherthings,withallherexcellentqualities,ofasomewhathigh-flownandromanticwayofthinking。…ButIwasathousandmilesfromsupposingthatshewouldmisunderstandandmisrepresentthingsinsofancifulaway。…Andindeed…indeed…”

  “Itellyouwhat,”criedRaskolnikov,raisinghimselfonhispillowandfixinghispiercing,glitteringeyesuponhim,“Itellyouwhat。”

  “What?”Luzhinstoodstill,waitingwithadefiantandoffendedface。Silencelastedforsomeseconds。

  “Why,ifeveragain…youdaretomentionasingleword…aboutmymother…Ishallsendyouflyingdownstairs!”

  “What’sthematterwithyou?”criedRazumihin。

  “Sothat’showitis?”Luzhinturnedpaleandbithislip。“Letmetellyou,sir,”hebegandeliberately,doinghisutmosttorestrainhimselfbutbreathinghard,“atthefirstmomentIsawyouyouwereill-disposedtome,butIremainedhereonpurposetofindoutmore。Icouldforgiveagreatdealinasickmanandaconnection,butyou…neverafterthis…”

  “Iamnotill,”criedRaskolnikov。

  “Somuchtheworse…”

  “Gotohell!”

  ButLuzhinwasalreadyleavingwithoutfinishinghisspeech,squeezingbetweenthetableandthechair;Razumihingotupthistimetolethimpass。Withoutglancingatanyone,andnotevennoddingtoZossimov,whohadforsometimebeenmakingsignstohimtoletthesickmanalone,hewentout,liftinghishattothelevelofhisshoulderstoavoidcrushingitashestoopedtogooutofthedoor。Andeventhecurveofhisspinewasexpressiveofthehorribleinsulthehadreceived。

  “Howcouldyou—howcouldyou!”Razumihinsaid,shakinghisheadinperplexity。

  “Letmealone—letmealoneallofyou!”Raskolnikovcriedinafrenzy。“Willyoueverleaveofftormentingme?Iamnotafraidofyou!Iamnotafraidofanyone,anyonenow!Getawayfromme!Iwanttobealone,alone,alone!”

  “Comealong,”saidZossimov,noddingtoRazumihin。

  “Butwecan’tleavehimlikethis!”

  “Comealong,”Zossimovrepeatedinsistently,andhewentout。Razumihinthoughtaminuteandrantoovertakehim。

  “Itmightbeworsenottoobeyhim,”saidZossimovonthestairs。“Hemustn’tbeirritated。”

  “What’sthematterwithhim?”

  “Ifonlyhecouldgetsomefavourableshock,that’swhatwoulddoit!Atfirsthewasbetter。…Youknowhehasgotsomethingonhismind!Somefixedideaweighingonhim。…Iamverymuchafraidso;hemusthave!”

  “Perhapsit’sthatgentleman,PyotrPetrovitch。FromhisconversationIgatherheisgoingtomarryhissister,andthathehadreceivedaletteraboutitjustbeforehisillness。…”

  “Yes,confoundtheman!hemayhaveupsetthecasealtogether。Buthaveyounoticed,hetakesnointerestinanything,hedoesnotrespondtoanythingexceptonepointonwhichheseemsexcited—that’sthemurder?”

  “Yes,yes,”Razumihinagreed,“Inoticedthat,too。Heisinterested,frightened。Itgavehimashockonthedayhewasillinthepoliceoffice;hefainted。”

  “TellmemoreaboutthatthiseveningandI’lltellyousomethingafterwards。Heinterestsmeverymuch!InhalfanhourI’llgoandseehimagain。…There’llbenoinflammationthough。”

  “Thanks!AndI’llwaitwithPashenkameantimeandwillkeepwatchonhimthroughNastasya。…”

  Raskolnikov,leftalone,lookedwithimpatienceandmiseryatNastasya,butshestilllingered。

  “Won’tyouhavesometeanow?”sheasked。

  “Later!Iamsleepy!Leaveme。”

  Heturnedabruptlytothewall;Nastasyawentout。

  Butassoonasshewentout,hegotup,latchedthedoor,undidtheparcelwhichRazumihinhadbroughtinthateveningandhadtiedupagainandbegandressing。Strangetosay,heseemedimmediatelytohavebecomeperfectlycalm;notatraceofhisrecentdeliriumnorofthepanicfearthathadhauntedhimoflate。Itwasthefirstmomentofastrangesuddencalm。Hismovementswerepreciseanddefinite;afirmpurposewasevidentinthem。“To-day,to-day,”hemutteredtohimself。Heunderstoodthathewasstillweak,buthisintensespiritualconcentrationgavehimstrengthandself-confidence。Hehoped,moreover,thathewouldnotfalldowninthestreet。Whenhehaddressedinentirelynewclothes,helookedatthemoneylyingonthetable,andafteramoment’sthoughtputitinhispocket。Itwastwenty-fiveroubles。HetookalsoallthecopperchangefromthetenroublesspentbyRazumihinontheclothes。Thenhesoftlyunlatchedthedoor,wentout,slippeddownstairsandglancedinattheopenkitchendoor。Nastasyawasstandingwithherbacktohim,blowingupthelandlady’ssamovar。Sheheardnothing。Whowouldhavedreamedofhisgoingout,indeed?Aminutelaterhewasinthestreet。

  Itwasnearlyeighto’clock,thesunwassetting。Itwasasstiflingasbefore,butheeagerlydrankinthestinking,dustytownair。Hisheadfeltratherdizzy;asortofsavageenergygleamedsuddenlyinhisfeverisheyesandhiswasted,paleandyellowface。Hedidnotknowanddidnotthinkwherehewasgoing,hehadonethoughtonly:“thatallthismustbeendedto-day,onceforall,immediately;thathewouldnotreturnhomewithoutit,becausehewouldnotgoonlivinglikethat。”How,withwhattomakeanend?Hehadnotanideaaboutit,hedidnotevenwanttothinkofit。Hedroveawaythought;thoughttorturedhim。Allheknew,allhefeltwasthateverythingmustbechanged“onewayoranother,”herepeatedwithdesperateandimmovableself-confidenceanddetermination。

  FromoldhabithetookhisusualwalkinthedirectionoftheHayMarket。Adark-hairedyoungmanwithabarrelorganwasstandingintheroadinfrontofalittlegeneralshopandwasgrindingoutaverysentimentalsong。Hewasaccompanyingagirloffifteen,whostoodonthepavementinfrontofhim。Shewasdressedupinacrinoline,amantleandastrawhatwithaflame-colouredfeatherinit,allveryoldandshabby。Inastrongandratheragreeablevoice,crackedandcoarsenedbystreetsinging,shesanginhopeofgettingacopperfromtheshop。Raskolnikovjoinedtwoorthreelisteners,tookoutafivecopeckpieceandputitinthegirl’shand。Shebrokeoffabruptlyonasentimentalhighnote,shoutedsharplytotheorgangrinder“Comeon,”andbothmovedontothenextshop。

  “Doyoulikestreetmusic?”saidRaskolnikov,addressingamiddle-agedmanstandingidlybyhim。Themanlookedathim,startledandwondering。

  “Ilovetohearsingingtoastreetorgan,”saidRaskolnikov,andhismannerseemedstrangelyoutofkeepingwiththesubject—“Ilikeitoncold,dark,dampautumnevenings—theymustbedamp—whenallthepassers-byhavepalegreen,sicklyfaces,orbetterstillwhenwetsnowisfallingstraightdown,whenthere’snowind—youknowwhatImean?—andthestreetlampsshinethroughit…”

  “Idon’tknow。…Excuseme…”mutteredthestranger,frightenedbythequestionandRaskolnikov’sstrangemanner,andhecrossedovertotheothersideofthestreet。

  RaskolnikovwalkedstraightonandcameoutatthecorneroftheHayMarket,wherethehucksterandhiswifehadtalkedwithLizaveta;buttheywerenottherenow。Recognisingtheplace,hestopped,lookedroundandaddressedayoungfellowinaredshirtwhostoodgapingbeforeacornchandler’sshop。

  “Isn’tthereamanwhokeepsaboothwithhiswifeatthiscorner?”

  “Allsortsofpeoplekeepboothshere,”answeredtheyoungman,glancingsuperciliouslyatRaskolnikov。

  “What’shisname?”

  “Whathewaschristened。”

  “Aren’tyouaZaraiskyman,too?Whichprovince?”

  TheyoungmanlookedatRaskolnikovagain。

  “It’snotaprovince,yourexcellency,butadistrict。Graciouslyforgiveme,yourexcellency!”

  “Isthatatavernatthetopthere?”

  “Yes,it’saneating-houseandthere’sabilliard-roomandyou’llfindprincessestheretoo。…La-la!”

  Raskolnikovcrossedthesquare。Inthatcornertherewasadensecrowdofpeasants。Hepushedhiswayintothethickestpartofit,lookingatthefaces。Hefeltanunaccountableinclinationtoenterintoconversationwithpeople。Butthepeasantstooknonoticeofhim;theywereallshoutingingroupstogether。HestoodandthoughtalittleandtookaturningtotherightinthedirectionofV。

  Hehadoftencrossedthatlittlestreetwhichturnsatanangle,leadingfromthemarket-placetoSadovyStreet。Oflatehehadoftenfeltdrawntowanderaboutthisdistrict,whenhefeltdepressed,thathemightfeelmoreso。

  Nowhewalkedalong,thinkingofnothing。Atthatpointthereisagreatblockofbuildings,entirelyletoutindramshopsandeating-houses;womenwerecontinuallyrunninginandout,bare-headedandintheirindoorclothes。Hereandtheretheygatheredingroups,onthepavement,especiallyabouttheentrancestovariousfestiveestablishmentsinthelowerstoreys。Fromoneofthesealouddin,soundsofsinging,thetinklingofaguitarandshoutsofmerriment,floatedintothestreet。Acrowdofwomenwerethrongingroundthedoor;someweresittingonthesteps,othersonthepavement,otherswerestandingtalking。Adrunkensoldier,smokingacigarette,waswalkingnearthemintheroad,swearing;heseemedtobetryingtofindhiswaysomewhere,buthadforgottenwhere。Onebeggarwasquarrellingwithanother,andamandeaddrunkwaslyingrightacrosstheroad。Raskolnikovjoinedthethrongofwomen,whoweretalkinginhuskyvoices。Theywerebare-headedandworecottondressesandgoatskinshoes。Therewerewomenoffortyandsomenotmorethanseventeen;almostallhadblackenedeyes。

  Hefeltstrangelyattractedbythesingingandallthenoiseanduproarinthesaloonbelow。…someonecouldbeheardwithindancingfrantically,markingtimewithhisheelstothesoundsoftheguitarandofathinfalsettovoicesingingajauntyair。Helistenedintently,gloomilyanddreamily,bendingdownattheentranceandpeepinginquisitivelyinfromthepavement。

  “Oh,myhandsomesoldier

  Don’tbeatmefornothing,”

  trilledthethinvoiceofthesinger。Raskolnikovfeltagreatdesiretomakeoutwhathewassinging,asthougheverythingdependedonthat。

  “ShallIgoin?”hethought。“Theyarelaughing。Fromdrink。ShallIgetdrunk?”

  “Won’tyoucomein?”oneofthewomenaskedhim。Hervoicewasstillmusicalandlessthickthantheothers,shewasyoungandnotrepulsive—theonlyoneofthegroup。

  “Why,she’spretty,”hesaid,drawinghimselfupandlookingather。

  Shesmiled,muchpleasedatthecompliment。

  “You’reverynicelookingyourself,”shesaid。

  “Isn’thethinthough!”observedanotherwomaninadeepbass。“Haveyoujustcomeoutofahospital?”

  “They’reallgenerals’daughters,itseems,buttheyhaveallsnubnoses,”interposedatipsypeasantwithaslysmileonhisface,wearingaloosecoat。“Seehowjollytheyare。”

  “Goalongwithyou!”

  “I’llgo,sweetie!”

  Andhedarteddownintothesaloonbelow。Raskolnikovmovedon。

  “Isay,sir,”thegirlshoutedafterhim。

  “Whatisit?”

  Shehesitated。

  “I’llalwaysbepleasedtospendanhourwithyou,kindgentleman,butnowIfeelshy。Givemesixcopecksforadrink,there’saniceyoungman!”

  Raskolnikovgaveherwhatcamefirst—fifteencopecks。

  “Ah,whatagood-naturedgentleman!”

  “What’syourname?”

  “AskforDuclida。”

  “Well,that’stoomuch,”oneofthewomenobserved,shakingherheadatDuclida。“Idon’tknowhowyoucanasklikethat。IbelieveIshoulddropwithshame。…”

  Raskolnikovlookedcuriouslyatthespeaker。Shewasapock-markedwenchofthirty,coveredwithbruises,withherupperlipswollen。Shemadehercriticismquietlyandearnestly。“Whereisit,”thoughtRaskolnikov。“WhereisitI’vereadthatsomeonecondemnedtodeathsaysorthinks,anhourbeforehisdeath,thatifhehadtoliveonsomehighrock,onsuchanarrowledgethathe’donlyroomtostand,andtheocean,everlastingdarkness,everlastingsolitude,everlastingtempestaroundhim,ifhehadtoremainstandingonasquareyardofspaceallhislife,athousandyears,eternity,itwerebettertolivesothantodieatonce!Onlytolive,toliveandlive!Life,whateveritmaybe!…Howtrueitis!GoodGod,howtrue!Manisavilecreature!…Andvileishewhocallshimvileforthat,”headdedamomentlater。

  Hewentintoanotherstreet。“Bah,thePalaisdeCristal!RazumihinwasjusttalkingofthePalaisdeCristal。ButwhatonearthwasitIwanted?Yes,thenewspapers。…Zossimovsaidhe’dreaditinthepapers。Haveyouthepapers?”heasked,goingintoaveryspaciousandpositivelycleanrestaurant,consistingofseveralrooms,whichwere,however,ratherempty。Twoorthreepeopleweredrinkingtea,andinaroomfurtherawayweresittingfourmendrinkingchampagne。RaskolnikovfanciedthatZametovwasoneofthem,buthecouldnotbesureatthatdistance。“Whatifitis?”hethought。

  “Willyouhavevodka?”askedthewaiter。

  “Givemesometeaandbringmethepapers,theoldonesforthelastfivedays,andI’llgiveyousomething。”

  “Yes,sir,here’sto-day’s。Novodka?”

  Theoldnewspapersandtheteawerebrought。Raskolnikovsatdownandbegantolookthroughthem。

  “Oh,damn…thesearetheitemsofintelligence。Anaccidentonastaircase,spontaneouscombustionofashopkeeperfromalcohol,afireinPeski…afireinthePetersburgquarter…anotherfireinthePetersburgquarter…andanotherfireinthePetersburgquarter。…Ah,hereitis!”Hefoundatlastwhathewasseekingandbegantoreadit。Thelinesdancedbeforehiseyes,buthereaditallandbeganeagerlyseekinglateradditionsinthefollowingnumbers。Hishandsshookwithnervousimpatienceasheturnedthesheets。Suddenlysomeonesatdownbesidehimathistable。Helookedup,itwastheheadclerkZametov,lookingjustthesame,withtheringsonhisfingersandthewatch-chain,withthecurly,blackhair,partedandpomaded,withthesmartwaistcoat,rathershabbycoatanddoubtfullinen。Hewasinagoodhumour,atleasthewassmilingverygailyandgood-humouredly。Hisdarkfacewasratherflushedfromthechampagnehehaddrunk。

  “What,youhere?”hebeganinsurprise,speakingasthoughhe’dknownhimallhislife。“Why,Razumihintoldmeonlyyesterdayyouwereunconscious。Howstrange!AnddoyouknowI’vebeentoseeyou?”

  Raskolnikovknewhewouldcomeuptohim。HelaidasidethepapersandturnedtoZametov。Therewasasmileonhislips,andanewshadeofirritableimpatiencewasapparentinthatsmile。

  “Iknowyouhave,”heanswered。“I’veheardit。Youlookedformysock。…AndyouknowRazumihinhaslosthishearttoyou?Hesaysyou’vebeenwithhimtoLuiseIvanovna’s—youknow,thewomanyoutriedtobefriend,forwhomyouwinkedtotheExplosiveLieutenantandhewouldnotunderstand。Doyouremember?Howcouldhefailtounderstand—itwasquiteclear,wasn’tit?”

  “Whatahotheadheis!”

  “Theexplosiveone?”

  “No,yourfriendRazumihin。”

  “Youmusthaveajollylife,Mr。Zametov;entrancefreetothemostagreeableplaces。Who’sbeenpouringchampagneintoyoujustnow?”

  “We’vejustbeen…havingadrinktogether。…Youtalkaboutpouringitintome!”

  “Bywayofafee!Youprofitbyeverything!”Raskolnikovlaughed,“it’sallright,mydearboy,”headded,slappingZametovontheshoulder。“Iamnotspeakingfromtemper,butinafriendlyway,forsport,asthatworkmanofyourssaidwhenhewasscufflingwithDmitri,inthecaseoftheoldwoman。…”

  “Howdoyouknowaboutit?”

  “PerhapsIknowmoreaboutitthanyoudo。”

  “Howstrangeyouare。…Iamsureyouarestillveryunwell。Yououghtn’ttohavecomeout。”

  “Oh,doIseemstrangetoyou?”

  “Yes。Whatareyoudoing,readingthepapers?”

  “Yes。”

  “There’salotaboutthefires。”

  “No,Iamnotreadingaboutthefires。”HerehelookedmysteriouslyatZametov;hislipsweretwistedagaininamockingsmile。“No,Iamnotreadingaboutthefires,”hewenton,winkingatZametov。“Butconfessnow,mydearfellow,you’reawfullyanxioustoknowwhatIamreadingabout?”

  “Iamnotintheleast。Mayn’tIaskaquestion?Whydoyoukeepon…?”

  “Listen,youareamanofcultureandeducation?”

  “Iwasinthesixthclassatthegymnasium,”saidZametovwithsomedignity。

  “Sixthclass!Ah,mycock-sparrow!Withyourpartingandyourrings—youareagentlemanoffortune。Foo!whatacharmingboy!”HereRaskolnikovbrokeintoanervouslaughrightinZametov’sface。Thelatterdrewback,moreamazedthanoffended。

  “Foo!howstrangeyouare!”Zametovrepeatedveryseriously。“Ican’thelpthinkingyouarestilldelirious。”

  “Iamdelirious?Youarefibbing,mycock-sparrow!SoIamstrange?Youfindmecurious,doyou?”

  “Yes,curious。”

  “ShallItellyouwhatIwasreadingabout,whatIwaslookingfor?SeewhatalotofpapersI’vemadethembringme。Suspicious,eh?”

  “Well,whatisit?”

  “Youprickupyourears?”

  “Howdoyoumean—‘prickupmyears’?”

  “I’llexplainthatafterwards,butnow,myboy,Ideclaretoyou…no,better‘Iconfess’…No,that’snotrighteither;‘Imakeadepositionandyoutakeit。’IdeposethatIwasreading,thatIwaslookingandsearching。…”hescreweduphiseyesandpaused。“Iwassearching—andcamehereonpurposetodoit—fornewsofthemurderoftheoldpawnbrokerwoman,”hearticulatedatlast,almostinawhisper,bringinghisfaceexceedinglyclosetothefaceofZametov。Zametovlookedathimsteadily,withoutmovingordrawinghisfaceaway。WhatstruckZametovafterwardsasthestrangestpartofitallwasthatsilencefollowedforexactlyaminute,andthattheygazedatoneanotherallthewhile。

  “Whatifyouhavebeenreadingaboutit?”hecriedatlast,perplexedandimpatient。“That’snobusinessofmine!Whatofit?”

  “Thesameoldwoman,”Raskolnikovwentoninthesamewhisper,notheedingZametov’sexplanation,“aboutwhomyouweretalkinginthepolice-office,youremember,whenIfainted。Well,doyouunderstandnow?”

  “Whatdoyoumean?Understand…what?”Zametovbroughtout,almostalarmed。

  Raskolnikov’ssetandearnestfacewassuddenlytransformed,andhesuddenlywentoffintothesamenervouslaughasbefore,asthoughutterlyunabletorestrainhimself。Andinoneflashherecalledwithextraordinaryvividnessofsensationamomentintherecentpast,thatmomentwhenhestoodwiththeaxebehindthedoor,whilethelatchtrembledandthemenoutsidesworeandshookit,andhehadasuddendesiretoshoutatthem,toswearatthem,toputouthistongueatthem,tomockthem,tolaugh,andlaugh,andlaugh!

  “Youareeithermad,or…”beganZametov,andhebrokeoff,asthoughstunnedbytheideathathadsuddenlyflashedintohismind。

  “Or?Orwhat?What?Come,tellme!”

  “Nothing,”saidZametov,gettingangry,“it’sallnonsense!”

  Bothweresilent。AfterhissuddenfitoflaughterRaskolnikovbecamesuddenlythoughtfulandmelancholy。Heputhiselbowonthetableandleanedhisheadonhishand。HeseemedtohavecompletelyforgottenZametov。Thesilencelastedforsometime。

  “Whydon’tyoudrinkyourtea?It’sgettingcold,”saidZametov。

  “What!Tea?Oh,yes。…”Raskolnikovsippedtheglass,putamorselofbreadinhismouthand,suddenlylookingatZametov,seemedtoremembereverythingandpulledhimselftogether。Atthesamemomenthisfaceresumeditsoriginalmockingexpression。Hewentondrinkingtea。

  “Therehavebeenagreatmanyofthesecrimeslately,”saidZametov。“OnlytheotherdayIreadintheMoscowNewsthatawholegangoffalsecoinershadbeencaughtinMoscow。Itwasaregularsociety。Theyusedtoforgetickets!”

  “Oh,butitwasalongtimeago!Ireadaboutitamonthago,”Raskolnikovansweredcalmly。“Soyouconsiderthemcriminals?”headded,smiling。

  “Ofcoursetheyarecriminals。”

  “They?Theyarechildren,simpletons,notcriminals!Why,halfahundredpeoplemeetingforsuchanobject—whatanidea!Threewouldbetoomany,andthentheywanttohavemorefaithinoneanotherthaninthemselves!Onehasonlytoblabinhiscupsanditallcollapses。Simpletons!Theyengageduntrustworthypeopletochangethenotes—whatathingtotrusttoacasualstranger!Well,letussupposethatthesesimpletonssucceedandeachmakesamillion,andwhatfollowsfortherestoftheirlives?Eachisdependentontheothersfortherestofhislife!Betterhangoneselfatonce!Andtheydidnotknowhowtochangethenoteseither;themanwhochangedthenotestookfivethousandroubles,andhishandstrembled。Hecountedthefirstfourthousand,butdidnotcountthefifththousand—hewasinsuchahurrytogetthemoneyintohispocketandrunaway。Ofcourseherousedsuspicion。Andthewholethingcametoacrashthroughonefool!Isitpossible?”

  “Thathishandstrembled?”observedZametov,“yes,that’squitepossible。That,Ifeelquitesure,ispossible。Sometimesonecan’tstandthings。”

  “Can’tstandthat?”

  “Why,couldyoustanditthen?No,Icouldn’t。Forthesakeofahundredroublestofacesuchaterribleexperience?Togowithfalsenotesintoabankwhereit’stheirbusinesstospotthatsortofthing!No,Ishouldnothavethefacetodoit。Wouldyou?”

  Raskolnikovhadanintensedesireagain“toputhistongueout。”Shiverskeptrunningdownhisspine。

  “Ishoulddoitquitedifferently,”Raskolnikovbegan。“ThisishowIwouldchangethenotes:I’dcountthefirstthousandthreeorfourtimesbackwardsandforwards,lookingateverynoteandthenI’dsettothesecondthousand;I’dcountthathalf-waythroughandthenholdsomefifty-roublenotetothelight,thenturnit,thenholdittothelightagain—toseewhetheritwasagoodone。‘Iamafraid,’Iwouldsay,‘arelationofminelosttwenty-fiveroublestheotherdaythroughafalsenote,’andthenI’dtellthemthewholestory。AndafterIbegancountingthethird,‘No,excuseme,’Iwouldsay,‘IfancyImadeamistakeintheseventhhundredinthatsecondthousand,Iamnotsure。’AndsoIwouldgiveupthethirdthousandandgobacktothesecondandsoontotheend。AndwhenIhadfinished,I’dpickoutonefromthefifthandonefromthesecondthousandandtakethemagaintothelightandaskagain,‘Changethem,please,’andputtheclerkintosuchastewthathewouldnotknowhowtogetridofme。WhenI’dfinishedandhadgoneout,I’dcomeback,‘No,excuseme,’andaskforsomeexplanation。That’showI’ddoit。”

  “Foo!whatterriblethingsyousay!”saidZametov,laughing。“Butallthatisonlytalk。Idaresaywhenitcametodeedsyou’dmakeaslip。Ibelievethatevenapractised,desperatemancannotalwaysreckononhimself,muchlessyouandI。Totakeanexamplenearhome—thatoldwomanmurderedinourdistrict。Themurdererseemstohavebeenadesperatefellow,heriskedeverythinginopendaylight,wassavedbyamiracle—buthishandsshook,too。Hedidnotsucceedinrobbingtheplace,hecouldn’tstandit。Thatwasclearfromthe…”

  Raskolnikovseemedoffended。

  “Clear?Whydon’tyoucatchhimthen?”hecried,maliciouslygibingatZametov。

  “Well,theywillcatchhim。”

  “Who?You?Doyousupposeyoucouldcatchhim?You’veatoughjob!Agreatpointforyouiswhetheramanisspendingmoneyornot。Ifhehadnomoneyandsuddenlybeginsspending,hemustbetheman。Sothatanychildcanmisleadyou。”

  “Thefactistheyalwaysdothat,though,”answeredZametov。“Amanwillcommitaclevermurderattheriskofhislifeandthenatoncehegoesdrinkinginatavern。Theyarecaughtspendingmoney,theyarenotallascunningasyouare。Youwouldn’tgotoatavern,ofcourse?”

  RaskolnikovfrownedandlookedsteadilyatZametov。

  “YouseemtoenjoythesubjectandwouldliketoknowhowIshouldbehaveinthatcase,too?”heaskedwithdispleasure。

  “Ishouldliketo,”Zametovansweredfirmlyandseriously。Somewhattoomuchearnestnessbegantoappearinhiswordsandlooks。

  “Verymuch?”

  “Verymuch!”

  “Allrightthen。ThisishowIshouldbehave,”Raskolnikovbegan,againbringinghisfaceclosetoZametov’s,againstaringathimandspeakinginawhisper,sothatthelatterpositivelyshuddered。“ThisiswhatIshouldhavedone。Ishouldhavetakenthemoneyandjewels,Ishouldhavewalkedoutofthereandhavegonestraighttosomedesertedplacewithfencesrounditandscarcelyanyonetobeseen,somekitchengardenorplaceofthatsort。Ishouldhavelookedoutbeforehandsomestoneweighingahundredweightormorewhichhadbeenlyinginthecornerfromthetimethehousewasbuilt。Iwouldliftthatstone—therewouldsuretobeahollowunderit,andIwouldputthejewelsandmoneyinthathole。ThenI’drollthestonebacksothatitwouldlookasbefore,wouldpressitdownwithmyfootandwalkaway。Andforayearortwo,threemaybe,Iwouldnottouchit。And,well,theycouldsearch!There’dbenotrace。”

  “Youareamadman,”saidZametov,andforsomereasonhetoospokeinawhisper,andmovedawayfromRaskolnikov,whoseeyeswereglittering。Hehadturnedfearfullypaleandhisupperlipwastwitchingandquivering。HebentdownascloseaspossibletoZametov,andhislipsbegantomovewithoututteringaword。Thislastedforhalfaminute;heknewwhathewasdoing,butcouldnotrestrainhimself。Theterriblewordtrembledonhislips,likethelatchonthatdoor;inanothermomentitwillbreakout,inanothermomenthewillletitgo,hewillspeakout。

  “AndwhatifitwasIwhomurderedtheoldwomanandLizaveta?”hesaidsuddenlyand—realisedwhathehaddone。

  Zametovlookedwildlyathimandturnedwhiteasthetablecloth。Hisfaceworeacontortedsmile。

  “Butisitpossible?”hebroughtoutfaintly。Raskolnikovlookedwrathfullyathim。

  “Ownupthatyoubelievedit,yes,youdid?”

  “Notabitofit,Ibelieveitlessthanevernow,”Zametovcriedhastily。

  “I’vecaughtmycock-sparrow!Soyoudidbelieveitbefore,ifnowyoubelievelessthanever?”

  “Notatall,”criedZametov,obviouslyembarrassed。“Haveyoubeenfrighteningmesoastoleaduptothis?”

  “Youdon’tbelieveitthen?WhatwereyoutalkingaboutbehindmybackwhenIwentoutofthepolice-office?AndwhydidtheexplosivelieutenantquestionmeafterIfainted?Hey,there,”heshoutedtothewaiter,gettingupandtakinghiscap,“howmuch?”

  “Thirtycopecks,”thelatterreplied,runningup。

  “Andthereistwentycopecksforvodka。Seewhatalotofmoney!”heheldouthisshakinghandtoZametovwithnotesinit。“Rednotesandblue,twenty-fiveroubles。WheredidIgetthem?Andwheredidmynewclothescomefrom?YouknowIhadnotacopeck。You’vecross-examinedmylandlady,I’llbebound。…Well,that’senough!Assezcause!Tillwemeetagain!”

  Hewentout,tremblingalloverfromasortofwildhystericalsensation,inwhichtherewasanelementofinsufferablerapture。Yethewasgloomyandterriblytired。Hisfacewastwistedasafterafit。Hisfatigueincreasedrapidly。Anyshock,anyirritatingsensationstimulatedandrevivedhisenergiesatonce,buthisstrengthfailedasquicklywhenthestimuluswasremoved。

  Zametov,leftalone,satforalongtimeinthesameplace,plungedinthought。Raskolnikovhadunwittinglyworkedarevolutioninhisbrainonacertainpointandhadmadeuphismindforhimconclusively。

  “IlyaPetrovitchisablockhead,”hedecided。

  RaskolnikovhadhardlyopenedthedooroftherestaurantwhenhestumbledagainstRazumihinonthesteps。Theydidnotseeeachothertilltheyalmostknockedagainsteachother。Foramomenttheystoodlookingeachotherupanddown。Razumihinwasgreatlyastounded,thenanger,realangergleamedfiercelyinhiseyes。

  “Sohereyouare!”heshoutedatthetopofhisvoice—“youranawayfromyourbed!AndhereI’vebeenlookingforyouunderthesofa!Wewentuptothegarret。IalmostbeatNastasyaonyouraccount。Andhereheisafterall。Rodya!Whatisthemeaningofit?Tellmethewholetruth!Confess!Doyouhear?”

  “ItmeansthatI’msicktodeathofyouallandIwanttobealone,”Raskolnikovansweredcalmly。

  “Alone?Whenyouarenotabletowalk,whenyourfaceisaswhiteasasheetandyouaregaspingforbreath!Idiot!…WhathaveyoubeendoinginthePalaisdeCristal?Ownupatonce!”

  “Letmego!”saidRaskolnikovandtriedtopasshim。ThiswastoomuchforRazumihin;hegrippedhimfirmlybytheshoulder。

  “Letyougo?Youdaretellmetoletyougo?DoyouknowwhatI’lldowithyoudirectly?I’llpickyouup,tieyouupinabundle,carryyouhomeundermyarmandlockyouup!”

  “Listen,Razumihin,”Raskolnikovbeganquietly,apparentlycalm—“can’tyouseethatIdon’twantyourbenevolence?Astrangedesireyouhavetoshowerbenefitsonamanwho…cursesthem,whofeelsthemaburdeninfact!Whydidyouseekmeoutatthebeginningofmyillness?MaybeIwasverygladtodie。Didn’tItellyouplainlyenoughto-daythatyouweretorturingme,thatIwas…sickofyou!Youseemtowanttotorturepeople!Iassureyouthatallthatisseriouslyhinderingmyrecovery,becauseit’scontinuallyirritatingme。YousawZossimovwentawayjustnowtoavoidirritatingme。Youleavemealonetoo,forgoodness’sake!Whatrighthaveyou,indeed,tokeepmebyforce?Don’tyouseethatIaminpossessionofallmyfacultiesnow?How,howcanIpersuadeyounottopersecutemewithyourkindness?Imaybeungrateful,Imaybemean,onlyletmebe,forGod’ssake,letmebe!Letmebe,letmebe!”

  Hebegancalmly,gloatingbeforehandoverthevenomousphraseshewasabouttoutter,butfinished,pantingforbreath,inafrenzy,ashehadbeenwithLuzhin。

  Razumihinstoodamoment,thoughtandlethishanddrop。

  “Well,gotohellthen,”hesaidgentlyandthoughtfully。“Stay,”heroared,asRaskolnikovwasabouttomove。“Listentome。Letmetellyou,thatyouareallasetofbabbling,posingidiots!Ifyou’veanylittletroubleyoubroodoveritlikeahenoveranegg。Andyouareplagiaristseveninthat!Thereisn’tasignofindependentlifeinyou!Youaremadeofspermacetiointmentandyou’velymphinyourveinsinsteadofblood。Idon’tbelieveinanyoneofyou!Inanycircumstancesthefirstthingforallofyouistobeunlikeahumanbeing!Stop!”hecriedwithredoubledfury,noticingthatRaskolnikovwasagainmakingamovement—“hearmeout!YouknowI’mhavingahouse-warmingthisevening,Idaresaythey’vearrivedbynow,butIleftmyunclethere—Ijustranin—toreceivetheguests。Andifyouweren’tafool,acommonfool,aperfectfool,ifyouwereanoriginalinsteadofatranslation…yousee,Rodya,Irecogniseyou’reacleverfellow,butyou’reafool!—andifyouweren’tafoolyou’dcomeroundtomethiseveninginsteadofwearingoutyourbootsinthestreet!Sinceyouhavegoneout,there’snohelpforit!I’dgiveyouasnugeasychair,mylandladyhasone…acupoftea,company。…Oryoucouldlieonthesofa—anywayyouwouldbewithus。…Zossimovwillbetheretoo。Willyoucome?”

  “No。”

  “R-rubbish!”Razumihinshouted,outofpatience。“Howdoyouknow?Youcan’tanswerforyourself!Youdon’tknowanythingaboutit。…ThousandsoftimesI’vefoughttoothandnailwithpeopleandrunbacktothemafterwards。…Onefeelsashamedandgoesbacktoaman!Soremember,Potchinkov’shouseonthethirdstorey。…”

  “Why,Mr。Razumihin,Idobelieveyou’dletanybodybeatyoufromsheerbenevolence。”

  “Beat?Whom?Me?I’dtwisthisnoseoffatthemereidea!Potchinkov’shouse,47,Babushkin’sflat。…”

  “Ishallnotcome,Razumihin。”Raskolnikovturnedandwalkedaway。

  “Ibetyouwill,”Razumihinshoutedafterhim。“Irefusetoknowyouifyoudon’t!Stay,hey,isZametovinthere?”

  “Yes。”

  “Didyouseehim?”

  “Yes。”

  “Talkedtohim?”

  “Yes。”

  “Whatabout?Confoundyou,don’ttellmethen。Potchinkov’shouse,47,Babushkin’sflat,remember!”

  RaskolnikovwalkedonandturnedthecornerintoSadovyStreet。Razumihinlookedafterhimthoughtfully。Thenwithawaveofhishandhewentintothehousebutstoppedshortofthestairs。

  “Confoundit,”hewentonalmostaloud。“Hetalkedsensiblybutyet…Iamafool!Asifmadmendidn’ttalksensibly!AndthiswasjustwhatZossimovseemedafraidof。”Hestruckhisfingeronhisforehead。“Whatif…howcouldIlethimgooffalone?Hemaydrownhimself。…Ach,whatablunder!Ican’t。”AndheranbacktoovertakeRaskolnikov,buttherewasnotraceofhim。WithacursehereturnedwithrapidstepstothePalaisdeCristaltoquestionZametov。

  RaskolnikovwalkedstraighttoX——Bridge,stoodinthemiddle,andleaningbothelbowsontherailstaredintothedistance。OnpartingwithRazumihin,hefeltsomuchweakerthathecouldscarcelyreachthisplace。Helongedtositorliedownsomewhereinthestreet。Bendingoverthewater,hegazedmechanicallyatthelastpinkflushofthesunset,attherowofhousesgrowingdarkinthegatheringtwilight,atonedistantatticwindowontheleftbank,flashingasthoughonfireinthelastraysofthesettingsun,atthedarkeningwaterofthecanal,andthewaterseemedtocatchhisattention。Atlastredcirclesflashedbeforehiseyes,thehousesseemedmoving,thepassers-by,thecanalbanks,thecarriages,alldancedbeforehiseyes。Suddenlyhestarted,savedagainperhapsfromswooningbyanuncannyandhideoussight。Hebecameawareofsomeonestandingontherightsideofhim;helookedandsawatallwomanwithakerchiefonherhead,withalong,yellow,wastedfaceandredsunkeneyes。Shewaslookingstraightathim,butobviouslyshesawnothingandrecognisednoone。Suddenlysheleanedherrighthandontheparapet,liftedherrightlegovertherailing,thenherleftandthrewherselfintothecanal。Thefilthywaterpartedandswallowedupitsvictimforamoment,butaninstantlaterthedrowningwomanfloatedtothesurface,movingslowlywiththecurrent,herheadandlegsinthewater,herskirtinflatedlikeaballoonoverherback。

  “Awomandrowning!Awomandrowning!”shouteddozensofvoices;peopleranup,bothbankswerethrongedwithspectators,onthebridgepeoplecrowdedaboutRaskolnikov,pressingupbehindhim。

  “Mercyonit!it’sourAfrosinya!”awomancriedtearfullycloseby。“Mercy!saveher!kindpeople,pullherout!”

  “Aboat,aboat”wasshoutedinthecrowd。Buttherewasnoneedofaboat;apolicemanrandownthestepstothecanal,threwoffhisgreatcoatandhisbootsandrushedintothewater。Itwaseasytoreachher:shefloatedwithinacoupleofyardsfromthesteps,hecaughtholdofherclotheswithhisrighthandandwithhisleftseizedapolewhichacomradeheldouttohim;thedrowningwomanwaspulledoutatonce。Theylaidheronthegranitepavementoftheembankment。Shesoonrecoveredconsciousness,raisedherhead,satupandbegansneezingandcoughing,stupidlywipingherwetdresswithherhands。Shesaidnothing。

  “She’sdrunkherselfoutofhersenses,”thesamewoman’svoicewailedatherside。“Outofhersenses。Theotherdayshetriedtohangherself,wecutherdown。Iranouttotheshopjustnow,leftmylittlegirltolookafterher—andhereshe’sintroubleagain!Aneighbour,gentleman,aneighbour,welivecloseby,thesecondhousefromtheend,seeyonder。…”

  Thecrowdbrokeup。Thepolicestillremainedroundthewoman,someonementionedthepolicestation。…Raskolnikovlookedonwithastrangesensationofindifferenceandapathy。Hefeltdisgusted。“No,that’sloathsome…water…it’snotgoodenough,”hemutteredtohimself。“Nothingwillcomeofit,”headded,“nousetowait。Whataboutthepoliceoffice…?Andwhyisn’tZametovatthepoliceoffice?Thepoliceofficeisopentillteno’clock。…”Heturnedhisbacktotherailingandlookedabouthim。

  “Verywellthen!”hesaidresolutely;hemovedfromthebridgeandwalkedinthedirectionofthepoliceoffice。Hisheartfelthollowandempty。Hedidnotwanttothink。Evenhisdepressionhadpassed,therewasnotatracenowoftheenergywithwhichhehadsetout“tomakeanendofitall。”Completeapathyhadsucceededtoit。

  “Well,it’sawayoutofit,”hethought,walkingslowlyandlistlesslyalongthecanalbank。“AnywayI’llmakeanend,forIwantto。…Butisitawayout?Whatdoesitmatter!There’llbethesquareyardofspace—ha!Butwhatanend!Isitreallytheend?ShallItellthemornot?Ah…damn!HowtiredIam!IfIcouldfindsomewheretositorliedownsoon!WhatIammostashamedofisitsbeingsostupid。ButIdon’tcareaboutthateither!Whatidioticideascomeintoone’shead。”

  Toreachthepoliceofficehehadtogostraightforwardandtakethesecondturningtotheleft。Itwasonlyafewpacesaway。Butatthefirstturninghestoppedand,afteraminute’sthought,turnedintoasidestreetandwenttwostreetsoutofhisway,possiblywithoutanyobject,orpossiblytodelayaminuteandgaintime。Hewalked,lookingattheground;suddenlysomeoneseemedtowhisperinhisear;heliftedhisheadandsawthathewasstandingattheverygateofthehouse。Hehadnotpassedit,hehadnotbeennearitsincethatevening。Anoverwhelming,unaccountablepromptingdrewhimon。Hewentintothehouse,passedthroughthegateway,thenintothefirstentranceontheright,andbeganmountingthefamiliarstaircasetothefourthstorey。Thenarrow,steepstaircasewasverydark。Hestoppedateachlandingandlookedroundhimwithcuriosity;onthefirstlandingtheframeworkofthewindowhadbeentakenout。“Thatwasn’tsothen,”hethought。HerewastheflatonthesecondstoreywhereNikolayandDmitrihadbeenworking。“It’sshutupandthedoornewlypainted。Soit’stolet。”Thenthethirdstoreyandthefourth。“Here!”Hewasperplexedtofindthedooroftheflatwideopen。Therewerementhere,hecouldhearvoices;hehadnotexpectedthat。Afterbriefhesitationhemountedthelaststairsandwentintotheflat。It,too,wasbeingdoneup;therewereworkmeninit。Thisseemedtoamazehim;hesomehowfanciedthathewouldfindeverythingasheleftit,evenperhapsthecorpsesinthesameplacesonthefloor。Andnow,barewalls,nofurniture;itseemedstrange。Hewalkedtothewindowandsatdownonthewindow-sill。Thereweretwoworkmen,bothyoungfellows,butonemuchyoungerthantheother。Theywerepaperingthewallswithanewwhitepapercoveredwithlilacflowers,insteadoftheold,dirty,yellowone。Raskolnikovforsomereasonfelthorriblyannoyedbythis。Helookedatthenewpaperwithdislike,asthoughhefeltsorrytohaveitallsochanged。Theworkmenhadobviouslystayedbeyondtheirtimeandnowtheywerehurriedlyrollinguptheirpaperandgettingreadytogohome。TheytooknonoticeofRaskolnikov’scomingin;theyweretalking。Raskolnikovfoldedhisarmsandlistened。

  “Shecomestomeinthemorning,”saidtheeldertotheyounger,“veryearly,alldressedup。‘Whyareyoupreeningandprinking?’saysI。‘Iamreadytodoanythingtopleaseyou,TitVassilitch!’That’sawayofgoingon!Andshedresseduplikearegularfashionbook!”

  “Andwhatisafashionbook?”theyoungeroneasked。Heobviouslyregardedtheotherasanauthority。

  “Afashionbookisalotofpictures,coloured,andtheycometothetailorshereeverySaturday,bypostfromabroad,toshowfolkshowtodress,themalesexaswellasthefemale。They’repictures。Thegentlemenaregenerallywearingfurcoatsandfortheladies’fluffles,they’rebeyondanythingyoucanfancy。”

  “There’snothingyoucan’tfindinPetersburg,”theyoungercriedenthusiastically,“exceptfatherandmother,there’severything!”

  “Exceptthem,there’severythingtobefound,myboy,”theelderdeclaredsententiously。

  Raskolnikovgotupandwalkedintotheotherroomwherethestrongbox,thebed,andthechestofdrawershadbeen;theroomseemedtohimverytinywithoutfurnitureinit。Thepaperwasthesame;thepaperinthecornershowedwherethecaseofikonshadstood。Helookedatitandwenttothewindow。Theelderworkmanlookedathimaskance。

  “Whatdoyouwant?”heaskedsuddenly。

  InsteadofansweringRaskolnikovwentintothepassageandpulledthebell。Thesamebell,thesamecrackednote。Herangitasecondandathirdtime;helistenedandremembered。Thehideousandagonisinglyfearfulsensationhehadfeltthenbegantocomebackmoreandmorevividly。Heshudderedateveryringanditgavehimmoreandmoresatisfaction。

  “Well,whatdoyouwant?Whoareyou?”theworkmanshouted,goingouttohim。Raskolnikovwentinsideagain。

  “Iwanttotakeaflat,”hesaid。“Iamlookinground。”

  “It’snotthetimetolookatroomsatnight!andyououghttocomeupwiththeporter。”

  “Thefloorshavebeenwashed,willtheybepainted?”Raskolnikovwenton。“Istherenoblood?”

  “Whatblood?”

  “Why,theoldwomanandhersisterweremurderedhere。Therewasaperfectpoolthere。”

  “Butwhoareyou?”theworkmancried,uneasy。

  “WhoamI?”

  “Yes。”

  “Youwanttoknow?Cometothepolicestation,I’lltellyou。”

  Theworkmenlookedathiminamazement。

  “It’stimeforustogo,wearelate。Comealong,Alyoshka。Wemustlockup,”saidtheelderworkman。

  “Verywell,comealong,”saidRaskolnikovindifferently,andgoingoutfirst,hewentslowlydownstairs。“Hey,porter,”hecriedinthegateway。

  Attheentranceseveralpeoplewerestanding,staringatthepassers-by;thetwoporters,apeasantwoman,amaninalongcoatandafewothers。Raskolnikovwentstraightuptothem。

  “Whatdoyouwant?”askedoneoftheporters。

  “Haveyoubeentothepoliceoffice?”

  “I’vejustbeenthere。Whatdoyouwant?”

  “Isitopen?”

  “Ofcourse。”

  “Istheassistantthere?”

  “Hewasthereforatime。Whatdoyouwant?”

  Raskolnikovmadenoreply,butstoodbesidethemlostinthought。

  “He’sbeentolookattheflat,”saidtheelderworkman,comingforward。

  “Whichflat?”

  “Whereweareatwork。‘Whyhaveyouwashedawaytheblood?’sayshe。‘Therehasbeenamurderhere,’sayshe,‘andI’vecometotakeit。’Andhebeganringingatthebell,allbutbrokeit。‘Cometothepolicestation,’sayshe。‘I’lltellyoueverythingthere。’Hewouldn’tleaveus。”

  TheporterlookedatRaskolnikov,frowningandperplexed。

  “Whoareyou?”heshoutedasimpressivelyashecould。

  “IamRodionRomanovitchRaskolnikov,formerlyastudent,IliveinShil’shouse,notfarfromhere,flatNumber14,asktheporter,heknowsme。”Raskolnikovsaidallthisinalazy,dreamyvoice,notturninground,butlookingintentlyintothedarkeningstreet。

  “Whyhaveyoubeentotheflat?”

  “Tolookatit。”

  “Whatistheretolookat?”

  “Takehimstraighttothepolicestation,”themaninthelongcoatjerkedinabruptly。

  Raskolnikovlookedintentlyathimoverhisshoulderandsaidinthesameslow,lazytones:

  “Comealong。”

  “Yes,takehim,”themanwentonmoreconfidently。“Whywashegoingintothat,what’sinhismind,eh?”

  “He’snotdrunk,butGodknowswhat’sthematterwithhim,”mutteredtheworkman。

  “Butwhatdoyouwant?”theportershoutedagain,beginningtogetangryinearnest—“Whyareyouhangingabout?”

  “Youfunkthepolicestationthen?”saidRaskolnikovjeeringly。

  “Howfunkit?Whyareyouhangingabout?”

  “He’sarogue!”shoutedthepeasantwoman。

  “Whywastetimetalkingtohim?”criedtheotherporter,ahugepeasantinafullopencoatandwithkeysonhisbelt。“Getalong!Heisarogueandnomistake。Getalong!”

  AndseizingRaskolnikovbytheshoulderheflunghimintothestreet。Helurchedforward,butrecoveredhisfooting,lookedatthespectatorsinsilenceandwalkedaway。

  “Strangeman!”observedtheworkman。

  “Therearestrangefolksaboutnowadays,”saidthewoman。

  “Youshouldhavetakenhimtothepolicestationallthesame,”saidthemaninthelongcoat。

  “Betterhavenothingtodowithhim,”decidedthebigporter。“Aregularrogue!Justwhathewants,youmaybesure,butoncetakehimup,youwon’tgetridofhim。…Weknowthesort!”

  “ShallIgothereornot?”thoughtRaskolnikov,standinginthemiddleofthethoroughfareatthecross-roads,andhelookedabouthim,asthoughexpectingfromsomeoneadecisiveword。Butnosoundcame,allwasdeadandsilentlikethestonesonwhichhewalked,deadtohim,tohimalone。…Allatonceattheendofthestreet,twohundredyardsaway,inthegatheringduskhesawacrowdandheardtalkandshouts。Inthemiddleofthecrowdstoodacarriage。…Alightgleamedinthemiddleofthestreet。“Whatisit?”Raskolnikovturnedtotherightandwentuptothecrowd。Heseemedtoclutchateverythingandsmiledcoldlywhenherecognisedit,forhehadfullymadeuphismindtogotothepolicestationandknewthatitwouldallsoonbeover。

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