Shedrewthehandupasshespike,andlaidherfaceagainstit。
`Iliehere,sometimes,thinkingIshouldliketoliveuntilI
hadhadalittletimetoshowyouhowgratefulIcouldbe!Itisaweakness,andsoonpasses。Betterforyouasitis。Betterforme!\'
Howdifferentherholduponthehand,fromwhatithadbeenwhenshetookitbythefiresideonthebleakwinterevening!Scorn,rage,defiance,recklessness,lookhere!Thisistheend。
Mrs。Wickamhavingclinkedsufficientlyamongthebottles,nowproducedthemixture。Mrs。Wickamlookedhardatherpatientintheactofdrinking,screwedhermouthuptight,hereyebrowsalso,andshookherhead,expressingthattorturesshouldn\'tmakehersayitwasahopelesscase。Mrs。Wickamthensprinkledalittlecooling-stuffabouttheroom,withtheairofafemalegrave-digger,whowasstrewingashesonashes,dustondust——forshewasaseriouscharacter——andwithdrewtopartakeofcertainfuneralbakedmeatsdownstairs。
`Howlongisit,\'askedAlice,`SinceIwenttoyouandtoldyouwhatIhaddone,andwhenyouwereadviseditwastoolateforanyonetofollow?\'
`Itisayearandmore,\'saidHarriet。
`Ayearandmore,\'saidAlice,thoughtfullyintentuponherface。
`Monthsuponmonthssinceyoubroughtmehere!\'
Harrietanswered`Yes。\'
`Broughtmehere,byforceofgentlenessandkindness。Me!\'saidAlice,shrinkingwithherfacebehindthehand,`andmademehumanbywoman\'slooksandwords,andangel\'sdeeds!\'
Harrietbendingoverher,composedandsoothedher。Byandbye,Alicelyingasbefore,withthehandagainstherface,askedtohavehermothercalled。
Harrietcalledtohermorethanonce,buttheoldwomanwassoabsorbedlookingoutattheopenwindowonthedarkness,thatshedidnothear。ItwasnotuntilHarrietwenttoherandtouchedher,thatsheroseup,andcame。
`Mother,\'saidAlice,takingthehandagain,andfixingherlustrouseyeslovinglyuponhervisitor,whileshemerelyaddressedamotionofherfingertotheoldwoman,`tellherwhatyouknow。\'
`To-night,mydeary?\'
`Aye,mother,\'answeredAlice,faintlyandsolemnly,`to-night!\'
Theoldwoman,whosewitsappeareddisorderedbyalarm,remorse,orgrief,camecreepingalongthesideofthebed,oppositetothatonwhichHarrietsat;andkneelingdown,soastobringherwitheredfaceuponalevelwiththecoverlet,andstretchingoutherhand,soastotouchherdaughter\'sarm,began:
`Myhandsomegal——\'
Heaven,whatacrywasthat,withwhichshestoppedthere,gazingatthepoorformlyingonthebed!\'
`Changed,longago,mother!Withered,longago,\'saidAlice,withoutlookingather。`Don\'tgrieveforthatnow。\'
`——Mydaughter,\'falteredtheoldwoman,`mygalwho\'llsoongetbetter,andshame\'emallwithhergoodlooks。\'
AlicesmiledmournfullyatHarriet,andfondledherhandalittlecloser,butsaidnothing。
`Who\'llsoongetbetter,Isay,\'repeatedtheoldwoman,menacingthevacantairwithhershrivelledfist,`andwho\'llshame\'emallwithhergoodlooks——shewill。Isayshewill!sheshall!\'——asifshewereinpassionatecontentionwithsomeunseenopponentatthebedside,whocontradictedher——`mydaughterhasbeenturnedawayfrom,andcastout,butshecouldboastrelationshiptoproudfolkstoo,ifshechose。Ah!Toproudfolks!
There\'srelationshipwithoutyourclergyandyourweddingrings——theymaymakeit,buttheycan\'tbreakit——andmydaughter\'swellrelated。ShowmeMrs。Dombey,andI\'llshowyoumyAlice\'sfirstcousin。\'
Harrietglancedfromtheoldwomantothelustrouseyesintentuponherface,andderivedcorroborationfromthem。
`What!\'criedtheoldwoman,hernoddingheadbridlingwithaghastlyvanity。`ThoughIamoldanuglynow,——mucholderbylifeandhabitthanyearsthough,——Iwasonceasyoungasany。Ah!asprettytoo,asmany!
Iwasafreshcountrywenchinmytime,darling,\'stretchingoutherarmtoHarriet,acrossthebed,`andlookedit,too。Downinmycountry,Mrs。
Dombey\'sfatherandhisbrotherwerethegayestgentlemenandthebest-likedthatcameavisitingfromLondon——theyhavelongbeendead,though!Lord,Lord,thislongwhile!Thebrother,whowasmyAlly\'sfather,longestofthetwo。\'
Sheraisedherheadalittle,andpeeredatherdaughter\'sface;
asiffromtheremembranceofherownyouth,shehadflowntotheremembranceofherchild\'s。Then,suddenly,shelaidherfacedownonthebed,andshutherheadupinherhandsandarms。
`Theywereaslike,\'saidtheoldwoman,withoutlookingup,`asyoucouldseetwobrothers,sonearanage——therewasn\'tmuchmorethanayearbetweenthem,asIrecollect——andifyoucouldhaveseenmygal,asIhaveseenheronce,sidebysidewiththeother\'sdaughter,you\'dhaveseen,forallthedifferenceofdressandlife,thattheywerelikeeachother。Oh!isthelikenessgone,andisitmygal——onlymygal——that\'stochangeso!\'
`Weshallallchange,mother,inourturn,\'saidAlice。
`Turn!\'criedtheoldwoman,`butwhynothersassoonasmygal\'s!
Themothermusthavechanged——shelookedasoldasme,andfullaswrinkledthroughherpaint——butshewashandsome。WhathaveIdone,I,whathaveIdoneworsethanher,thatonlymygalistolietherefading!\'
Withanotherofthosewildcries,shewentrunningoutintotheroomfromwhichshehadcome;butimmediately,inheruncertainmood,returned,andcreepinguptoHarriet,said:
`That\'swhatAlicebademetellyou,deary。That\'sall。IfounditoutwhenIbegantoaskwhoshewas,andallabouther,awayinWarwickshirethere,onesummer-time。Suchrelationswasnogoodtome,then。Theywouldn\'thaveownedme,andhadnothingtogiveme。Ishouldhaveasked\'em,maybe,foralittlemoney,afterwards,ifithadn\'tbeenformyAlice;she\'da\'mosthavekilledme,ifIhad,Ithink。Shewasasproudast\'otherinherway,\'
saidtheoldwoman,touchingthefaceofherdaughterfearfully,andwithdrawingherhand,`forallshe\'ssoquietnow;butshe\'llshame\'emwithhergoodlooksyet。Ha,ha!she\'llshame\'em,willmyhandsomedaughter!\'
Herlaugh,assheretreated,wasworsethanhercry;worsethantheburstofimbecilelamentationinwhichitended;worsethanthedotingairwithwhichshesatdowninheroldseat,andstaredoutatthedarkness。
TheeyesofAlicehadallthistimebeenfixedonHarriet,whosehandshehadneverreleased。Shesaidnow:
`Ihavefelt,lyinghere,thatIshouldlikeyoutoknowthis。
Itmightexplain,Ihavethought,somethingthatusedtohelptohardenme。Ihadheardsomuch,inmywrongdoing,ofmyneglectedduty,thatI
tookupwiththebeliefthatdutyhadnotbeendonetome,andthatastheseedwassown,theharvestgrew。Isomehowmadeitoutthatwhenladieshadbadhomesandmothers,theywentwrongintheirway,too;butthattheirwaywasnotsofoulaoneasmine,andtheyhadneedtoblessGodforit。Thatisallpast。Itislikeadream,now,whichIcannotquiterememberorunderstand。Ithasbeenmoreandmorelikeadream,everyday,sinceyoubegantosithere,andtoreadtome。Ionlytellityou,asIcanrecollectit。Willyoureadtomealittlemore?\'
Harrietwaswithdrawingherhandtoopenthebook,whenAlicedetaineditforamoment。
`Youwillnotforgetmymother?Iforgiveher,ifIhaveanycause。
Iknowthatsheforgivesme,andissorryinherheart。Youwillnotforgether?\'
`Never,Alice!\'
`Amomentyet。Laymyheadso,dear,thatasyoureadImayseethewordsinyourkindface。\'
Harrietcompliedandread——readtheeternalbookforallthewearyandtheheavy-laden;forallthewretched,fallen,andneglectedofthisearth——readtheblessedhistory,inwhichtheblindlamepalsiedbeggar,thecriminal,thewomanstainedwithshame,theshunnedofallourdaintyclay,haseachaportion,thatnohumanpride,indifference,orsophistry,throughalltheagesthatthisworldshalllast,cantakeaway,orbythethousandthatomofagrainreduce——readtheministryofHimwho,throughtheroundofhumanlife,andallitshopesandgriefs,frombirthtodeath,frominfancytoage,hadsweetcompassionfor,andinterestin,itseverysceneandstage,itseverysufferingandsorrow。
`Ishallcome,\'saidHarriet,whensheshutthebook,`veryearlyinthemorning。\'
Thelustrouseyes,yetfixeduponherface,closedforamoment,thenopened;andAlicekissedandblesther。
Thesameeyesfollowedhertothedoor;andintheirlight,andonthetranquilface,therewasasmilewhenitwasclosed。
Theyneverturnedaway。Shelaidherhanduponherbreast,murmuringthesacrednamethathadbeenreadtoher;andlifepassedfromherface,likelightremoved。
Nothinglaythere,anylonger,buttheruinofthemortalhouseonwhichtherainhadbeaten,andtheblackhairthathadflutteredinthewintrywind。
[NextChapter][TableofContents]DICKENS:DombeyandSon,Chapter59[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]CHAPTERLIXRetributionCHANGEShavecomeagainuponthegreathouseinthelongdullstreet,oncethesceneofFlorence\'schildhoodandloneliness。Itisagreathousestill,proofagainstwindandweather,withoutbreachesintheroof,orshatteredwindows,ordilapidatedwalls;butitisaruinnonetheless,andtheratsflyfromit。
Mr。Towlinsonandcompanyare,atfirst,incredulousinrespectoftheshapelessrumoursthattheyhear。Cooksaysourpeople\'screditain\'tsoeasyshookasthatcomesto,thankGod;andMr。TowlinsonexpectstohearitreportedthattheBankofEngland\'sa-goingtobreak,orthejewelsintheTowertobesoldup。But,nextcometheGazette,andMr。
Perch:andMr。PerchbringsMrs。Perchtotalkitoverinthekitchen,andtospendapleasantevening。
Assoonasthereisnodoubtaboutit,Mr。Towlinson\'smainanxietyisthatthefailureshouldbeagoodroundone——notlessthanahundredthousandpound。Mr。Perchdon\'tthinkhimselfthatahundredthousandpoundwillnearlycoverit。Thewomen,ledbyMrs。PerchandCook,oftenrepeat`ahun-dredthous-sandpound!\'withawfulsatisfaction——asifhandlingthewordwerelikehandlingthemoney;andthehousemaid,whohashereyeonMr。Towlinson,wishesshehadonlyahundredthpartofthesumtobestowonthemanofherchoice。Mr。Towlinson,stillmindfulofhisoldwrong,opinesthataforeignerwouldhardlyknowwhattodowithsomuchmoney,unlesshespentitonhiswhiskers;whichbittersarcasmcausesthehousemaidtowithdrawintears。
Butnottoremainlongabsent;forCook,whohasthereputationofbeingextremelygood-hearted,says,whatevertheydo,let\'emstandbyoneanothernow,Towlinson,forthere\'snotellinghowsoontheymaybedivided。TheyhavebeeninthathousesaysCookthroughafuneral,awedding,andarunning-away;andletitnotbesaidthattheycouldn\'tagreeamongthemselvesatsuchatimeasthepresent。Mrs。Perchisimmenselyaffectedbythismovingaddress,andopenlyremarksthatCookisanangel。
Mr。TowlinsonrepliestoCook,farbeitfromhimtostandinthewayofthatgoodfeelingwhichhecouldwishtosee;andadjourninginquestofthehousemaid,andpresentlyreturningwiththatyoungladyonhisarm,informsthekitchenthatforeignersisonlyhisfun,andthathimandAnnehavenowresolvedtotakeoneanotherforbetterforworse,andtosettleinOxfordMarketinthegeneralgreengroceryandherbandleechline,whereyourkindfavoursisparticularrequested。Thisannouncementisreceivedwithacclamation;andMrs。Perch,projectinghersoulintofuturity,says,`girls,\'inCook\'sear,inasolemnwhisper。
Misfortuneinthefamilywithoutfeasting,intheselowerregions,Couldn\'tbe。ThereforeCooktossesupahotdishortwoforsupper,andMr。Towlinsoncompoundsalobstersaladtobedevotedtothesamehospitablepurpose。EvenMrs。Pipchin,agitatedbytheoccasion,ringsherbell,andsendsdownwordthatsherequeststohavethatlittlebitofsweet-breadthatwasleft,warmedupforhersupper,andsenttoheronatraywithaboutaquarterofatumbler-fullofmulledsherry;forshefeelspoorly。
ThereisalittletalkaboutMr。Dombey,butverylittle。Itischieflyspeculationastohowlonghehasknownthatthiswasgoingtohappen。Cooksaysshrewdly,`Ohalongtime,blessyou!Takeyouroathofthat。\'AndreferencebeingmadetoMr。Perch,heconfirmsherviewofthecase。Somebodywonderswhathe\'lldo,andwhetherhe\'llgooutinanysituation。Mr。Towlinsonthinksnot,andhintsatarefugeinoneofthemgen-teelalmshousesofthebetterkind。`Ah,wherehe\'llhavehislittlegarden,youknow,\'saysCookplaintively,`andbringupsweetpeasinthespring。\'`Exactlyso,\'saysMr。Towlinson,`andbeoneoftheBrethrenofsomethingoranother。\'`Weareallbrethren,saysMrs。Perch,inapauseofherdrink。`Exceptthesisters,\'saysMr。Perch。`Howarethemightyfallen!\'remarksCook。`Prideshallhaveafall,anditalwayswasandwillbeso!\'observesthehousemaid。
Itiswonderfulhowgoodtheyfeel,inmakingthesereflections;
andwhataChristianunanimitytheyaresensibleof,inbearingthecommonshockwithresignation。Thereisonlyoneinterruptiontothisexcellentstateofmind,whichisoccasionedbyayoungkitchen-maidofinferiorrank——inblackstockings——who,havingsatwithhermouthopenforalongtime,unexpectedlydischargesfromitwordstothiseffect,`Supposethewagesshouldn\'tbepaid!\'Thecompanysitforamomentspeechless;butCookrecoveringfirst,turnsupontheyoungwoman,andrequeststoknowhowshedaresinsultthefamily,whosebreadsheeats,bysuchadishonestsupposition,andwhethershethinksthatanybody,withascrapofhonourleft,coulddeprivepoorservantsoftheirpittance?`Becauseifthatisyourreligiousfeelings,MaryDaws,\'saysCookwarmly,`Idon\'tknowwhereyoumeantogoto。\'
Mr。Towlinsondon\'tknoweither;noranybody;andtheyoungkitchen-maid,appearingnottoknowexactly,herself,andscoutedbythegeneralvoice,iscoveredwithconfusion,aswithagarment。
Afterafewdays,strangepeoplebegintocallatthehouse,andtomakeappointmentswithoneanotherinthedining-room,asiftheylivedthere。Especially,thereisagentleman,ofaMosaicAbrabiancastofcountenance,withaverymassivewatch-guard,whowhistlesinthedrawing-room,and,whileheiswaitingfortheothergentleman,whoalwayshaspenandinkinhispocket,asksMr。Towlinsonbytheeasynameof`OldCock,\'ifhehappenstoknowwhatthefigureofthemcrimsonandgoldhangingsmighthavebeen,whennewbought。Thecallersandappointmentsinthedining-roombecomemorenumerouseveryday,andeverygentlemenseemstohavepenandinkinhispocket,andtohavesomeoccasiontouseit。AtlastitissaidthatthereisgoingtobeaSale;andthenmorepeoplearrive,withpenandinkintheirpockets,commandingadetachmentofmenwithcarpetcaps,whoimmediatelybegintopullupthecarpets,andknockthefurnitureabout,andtoprintoffthousandsofimpressionsoftheirshoesuponthehallandstaircase。
Thecouncildownstairsareinfullconclaveallthistime,and,havingnothingtodo,performperfectfeatsofeating。Atlength,theyareonedaysummonedinabodytoMrs。Pipchin\'sroom,andthusaddressedbythefairPeruvian:
`Yourmaster\'sindifficulties,\'saysMrs。Pipchin,tartly。`Youknowthat,Isuppose?\'
Mr。Towlinson,asspokesman,admitsageneralknowledgeofthefact。
`Andyou\'reallonthelook-outforyourselves,Iwarrantyou,\'
saysMrs。Pipchin,shakingherheadatthem。
Ashrillvoicefromtherearexclaims,`Nomorethanyourself!\'
`That\'syouropinion,Mrs。Impudence,isit?\'saystheirefulPipchin,lookingwithafieryeyeovertheintermediateheads。
`Yes,Mrs。Pipchin,itis,\'repliesCook,advancing。`Andwhatthen,pray?\'
`Why,thenyoumaygoassoonasyoulike,\'saysMrs。Pipchin,`Thesoonerthebetter;andIhopeIshallneverseeyourfaceagain。\'
WiththisthedoughtyPipchinproducesacanvasbag;andtellsherwagesouttothatday,andamonthbeyondit:andclutchesthemoneytightuntilareceiptforthesameisdulysigned,tothelastup-stroke;
whenshegrudginglyletsitgo。ThisformofproceedingMrs。Pipchinrepeatswitheverymemberofthehousehold,untilarepaid。
`Nowthosethatchoosecangoabouttheirbusiness,\'saysMrs。
Pipchin,`andthosethatchoosecanstayhereonboardwagesforaweekorso,andmakethemselvesuseful。Except,\'saystheinflammablePipchin,`thatslutofacook,who\'llgoimmediately。\'
`That,\'saysCook,`shecertainlywill!Iwishyougoodday,Mrs。
Pipchin,andsincerelywishIcouldcomplimentyouonthesweetnessofyourappearance!\'
`Getalongwithyou,\'saysMrs。Pipchin,stampingherfoot。
Cooksailsoffwithanairofbeneficentdignity,highlyexasperatingtoMrs。Pipchin,andisshortlyjoinedbelowstairsbytherestoftheconfederation。
Mr。Towlinsonthensaysthat,inthefirstplace,hewouldbegtoproposealittlesnackofsomethingtoeat;andoverthatsnackwoulddesiretoofferasuggestionwhichhethinkswillmeetthepositioninwhichtheyfindthemselves。Therefreshmentbeingproduced,andveryheartilypartakenof,Mr。Towlinson\'ssuggestionis,ineffect,thatCookisgoing,andthatifwearenottruetoourselves,nobodywillbetruetous。Thattheyhavelivedinthathousealongtime,andexertedthemselvesverymuchtobesociabletogether。Atthis,Cooksays,withemotion,`Hear,hear!\'andMrs。Perch,whoisthereagain,andfulltothethroat,shedstears。Andthathethinks,atthepresenttime,thefeelingoughttobe`Goone,goall!\'Thehousemaidismuchaffectedbythisgeneroussentiment,andwarmlysecondsit。Cooksaysshefeelsit\'sright,andonlyhopesit\'snotdoneasacomplimenttoher,butfromasenseofduty。Mr。Towlinsonreplies,fromasenseofduty;andthatnowheisdriventoexpresshisopinions,hewillopenlysay,thathedoesnotthinkitover-respectabletoremaininahousewhereSalesandsuch-likearecarryingforwards。Thehousemaidissureofit;andrelates,inconfirmation,thatastrangeman,inacarpetcap,offeredthisverymorningtokissheronthestairs。Hereupon,Mr。Towlinsonisstartingfromhischair,toseekand`smash\'theoffender;
whenheislaidholdonbytheladies,whobeseechhimtocalmhimself,andtoreflectthatitiseasierandwisertoleavethesceneofsuchindecenciesatonce。Mrs。Perch,presentingthecaseinanewlight,evenshowsthatdelicacytowardsMr。Dombey,shutupinhisownrooms,imperativelydemandsprecipitateretreat。`Forwhat,\'saysthegoodwoman,`musthisfeelingsbe,ifhewastocomeuponanyofthepoorservantsthatheoncedeceivedintothinkinghimimmenselyrich!\'CookissostruckbythismoralconsiderationthatMrs。Perchimprovesitwithseveralpiousaxioms,originalandselected。
Itbecomesaclearcasethattheymustallgo。Boxesarepacked,cabsfetched,andatduskthateveningthereisnotonememberofthepartyleft。
Thehousestands,largeandweather-proof,inthelongdullstreet;
butitisaruin,andtheratsflyfromit。
Themeninthecarpetcapsgoontumblingthefurnitureabout;
andthegentlemenwiththepensandinkmakeoutinventoriesofit,andsituponpiecesoffurniturenevermadetobesatupon,andeatbreadandcheesefromthepublic-houseonotherpiecesoffurniturenevermadetobeeatenon,andseemtohaveadelightinappropriatingpreciousarticlestostrangeuses。Chaoticcombinationsoffurniturealsotakeplace。Mattressesandbeddingappearinthedining-room;theglassandchinagetintotheconservatory;thegreatdinnerserviceissetoutinheapsonthelongdivaninthelargedrawing-room;andthestair-wires,madeintofasces,decoratethemarblechimneypieces。Finally,arug,withaprintedbilluponit,ishungoutfromthebalcony;andasimilarappendagegraceseithersideofthehalldoor。
Then,alldaylong,thereisaretinueofmouldygigsandchaise-cartsinthestreet;andherdsofshabbyvampires,JewandChristian,over-runthehouse,soundingtheplate-glassmirrorswiththeirknuckles,strikingdiscordantoctavesontheGrandPiano,drawingwetforefingersoverthepictures,breathingonthebladesofthebestdinner-knives,punchingthesquabsofchairsandsofaswiththeirdirtyfists,touzlingthefeatherbeds,openingandshuttingallthedrawers,balancingthesilverspoonsandforks,lookingintotheverythreadsofthedraperyandlinen,anddisparagingeverything。Thereisnotasecretplaceinthewholehouse。
Fluffyandsnuffystrangersstareintothekitchen-rangeascuriouslyasintotheatticclothes-press。Stoutmenwithnaplesshatson,lookoutofthebedroomwindows,andcutjokeswithfriendsinthestreet。Quiet,calculatingspiritswithdrawintothedressing-roomswithcatalogues,andmakemarginalnotesthereon,withstumpsofpencils。Twobrokersinvadetheveryfire-escape,andtakeapanoramicsurveyoftheneighbourhoodfromthetopofthehouse。Theswarmandbuzz,andgoingupanddown,endurefordays。TheCapitalModernHouseholdFurniture,&;c。,isonview。
Thenthereisapalisadeoftablesmadeinthebestdrawing-room;
andonthecapital,french-polished,extending,telescopicrangeofSpanishmahoganydining-tableswithturnedlegs,thepulpitoftheAuctioneeriserected;andtheherdsofshabbyvampires,JewandChristian,thestrangersfluffyandsnuffy,andthestoutmenwiththenaplesshats,congregateaboutitandsituponeverythingwithinreach,mantel-piecesincluded,andbegintobid。Hot,humming,anddustyaretheroomsallday;and——highabovetheheat,hum,anddust——theheadandshoulders,voiceandhammer,oftheAuctioneer,areeveratwork。ThemeninthecarpetcapsgetflusteredandviciouswithtumblingtheLotsabout,andstilltheLotsaregoing,going,gone;stillcomingon。Sometimesthereisjokingandageneralroar。
Thislastsalldayandthreedaysfollowing。TheCapitalModernHouseholdFurniture,&;c。,isonsale。
Thenthemouldygigsandchaise-cartsreappear;andwiththemcomespring-vansandwaggons,andanarmyofporterswithknots。Alldaylong,themenwithcarpetcapsarescrewingatscrew-driversandbed-winches,orstaggeringbythedozentogetheronthestaircaseunderheavyburdens,orupheavingperfectrocksofSpanishmahogany,bestrose-wood,orplate-glass,intothegigsandchaise-carts,vansandwaggons。Allsortsofvehiclesofburdenareinattendance,fromatiltedwaggontoawheelbarrow。PoorPaul\'slittlebedsteadiscarriedoffinadonkey-tandem。Fornearlyawholeweek,theCapitalModernHouseholdFurniture,&;c。,isincourseofremoval。
Atlastitisallgone。Nothingisleftaboutthehousebutscatteredleavesofcatalogues,litteredscrapsofstrawandhay,andabatteryofpewterpotsbehindthehall-door。Themenwiththecarpetcapsgatheruptheirscrew-driversandbed-winchesintobags,shoulderthem,andwalkoff。Oneofthepen-and-inkgentlemengoesoverthehouseasalastattention;
stickingupbillsinthewindowsrespectingtheleaseofthisdesirablefamilymansion,andshuttingtheshutters。Atlengthhefollowsthemenwiththecarpetcaps。Noneoftheinvadersremain。Thehouseisaruin,andtheratsflyfromit。
Mrs。Pipchin\'sapartments,togetherwiththoselockedroomsontheground-floorwherethewindow-blindsaredrawndownclose,havebeensparedthegeneraldevastation。Mrs。Pipchinhasremainedaustereandstonyduringtheproceedingsinherownroom;orhasoccasionallylookedinatthesaletoseewhatthegoodsarefetching,andtobidforoneparticulareasychair。Mrs。Pipchinhasbeenthehighestbidderfortheeasychair,andsitsuponherpropertywhenMrs。Chickcomestoseeher。
`Howismybrother,Mrs。Pipchin?\'saysMrs。Chick。
`Idon\'tknowanymorethanthedeuce,\'saysMrs。Pipchin。`Heneverdoesmethehonourtospeaktome。Hehashismeatanddrinkputinthenextroomtohisown;andwhathetakes,hecomesoutandtakeswhenthere\'snobodythere。It\'snouseaskingme。Iknownomoreabouthimthanthemaninthesouthwhoburnthismouthbyeatingcoldplumporridge。\'
ThistheacrimoniousPipchinsayswithaflounce。
`Butgoodgraciousme!\'criesMrs。Chickblandly。`Howlongisthistolast!Ifmybrotherwillnotmakeaneffort,Mrs。Pipchin,whatistobecomeofhim?IamsureIshouldhavethoughthehadseenenoughoftheconsequencesofnotmakinganeffort,bythistime,tobewarnedagainstthatfatalerror。\'
`Hoitytoity!\'saysMrs。Pipchin,rubbinghernose。`There\'sagreatfuss,Ithink,aboutit。Itan\'tsowonderfulacase。Peoplehavehadmisfortunesbeforenow,andbeenobligedtopartwiththeirfurniture。
I\'msureIhave!\'
`Mybrother,\'pursuesMrs。Chickprofoundly,`issopeculiar——sostrangeaman。HeisthemostpeculiarmanIeversaw。Wouldanyonebelievethatwhenhereceivednewsofthemarriageandemigrationofthatunnaturalchild——it\'sacomforttome,now,torememberthatIalwayssaidtherewassomethingextraordinaryaboutthatchild:butnobodymindsme——wouldanybodybelieve,Isay,thatheshouldthenturnrounduponmeandsayhehadsupposed,frommymanner,thatshehadcometomyhouse?
Why,mygracious!AndwouldanybodybelievethatwhenImerelysaytohim,“Paul,Imaybeveryfoolish,andIhavenodoubtIam,butIcannotunderstandhowyouraffairscanhavegotintothisstate,“heshouldactuallyflyatme,andrequestthatIwillcometoseehimnomoreuntilheasksme!
Why,mygoodness!\'
`Ah!\'saysMrs。Pipchin,`It\'sapityhehadn\'talittlemoretodowithmines。They\'dhavetriedhistemperforhim。\'
`Andwhat,\'resumesMrs。Chick,quiteregardlessofMrs。Pipchin\'sobservations,`isittoendin?That\'swhatIwanttoknow。Whatdoesmybrothermeantodo?Hemustdosomething。It\'sofnouseremainingshutupinhisownrooms。Businesswon\'tcometohim。No。Hemustgotoit。
Thenwhydon\'thego!Heknowswheretogo,Isuppose,havingbeenamanofbusinessallhislife。Verygood。Thenwhynotgothere?\'
Mrs。Chick,afterforgingthispowerfulchainofreasoning,remainssilentforaminutetoadmireit。
`Besides,\'saysthediscreetlady,withanargumentativeair,`whoeverheardofsuchobstinacyashisstayingshutupherethroughallthesedreadfuldisagreeables?It\'snotasiftherewasnoplaceforhimtogoto。Ofcoursehecouldhavecometoourhouse。Heknowsheisathomethere,Isuppose?Mr。Chickhasperfectlyboredaboutit,andIsaidwithmyownlips,“Whysurely,Paul,youdon\'timaginethatbecauseyouraffairshavegotintothisstate,youarethelessathometosuchnearrelativesasourselves?Youdon\'timaginethatweareliketherestoftheworld?”Butno;herehestaysallthrough,andhereheis。Why,goodgraciousme,supposethehousewastobelet!Whatwouldhedothen?Hecouldn\'tremainherethen。Ifheattemptedtodoso,therewouldbeanejectment,anactionforDoe,andallsortsofthings;andthenhemustgo。Thenwhynotgoatfirstinsteadofatlast?AndthatbringsmebacktowhatIsaidjustnow,andInaturallyaskwhatistobetheendofit?\'
`Iknowwhat\'stobetheendofit,asfarasIamconcerned,\'
repliesMrs。Pipchin,`andthat\'senoughforme。I\'mgoingtotakemyselfoffinajiffy。\'
`Inawhich,Mrs。Pipchin,\'saysMrs。Chick。
`Inajiffy,\'retortsMrs。Pipchinsharply。
`Ah,well!reallyIcan\'tblameyou,Mrs。Pipchin,\'saysMrs。
Chick,withfrankness。
`Itwouldbeprettymuchthesametome,ifyoucould,\'repliesthesardonicPipchin。`AtanyrateI\'mgoing。Ican\'tstophere。Ishouldbedeadinaweek。Ihadtocookmyownporkchopyesterday,andI\'mnotusedtoit。Myconstitutionwillbegivingwaynext。Besides,IhadaveryfairconnexionatBrightonwhenIcamehere——littlePankey\'sfolksalonewereworthagoodeightypoundsa-yeartome——andIcan\'taffordtothrowitaway。I\'vewrittentomyniece,andsheexpectsmebythistime。\'
`Haveyouspokentomybrother?\'inquiresMrs。Chick。
`Oh,yes,it\'sveryeasytosayspeaktohim,\'retortsMrs。Pipchin。
`Howisitdone?Icalledouttohimyesterday,thatIwasnousehere,andthathehadbetterletmesendforMrs。Richards。Hegruntedsomethingorotherthatmeantyes,andIsent!Gruntindeed!IfhehadbeenMr。Pipchin,he\'dhavehadsomereasontogrunt。Yah!I\'venopatiencewithit!\'
Herethisexemplaryfemale,whohaspumpedupsomuchfortitudeandvirtuefromthedepthsofthePeruvianmines,risesfromhercushionedpropertytoseeMrs。Chicktothedoor。Mrs。Chick,deploringtothelastthepeculiarcharacterofherbrother,noiselesslyretires,muchoccupiedwithherownsagacityandclearnessofhead。
IntheduskoftheeveningMr。Toodle,beingoffduty,arriveswithPollyandabox,andleavesthem,withasoundingkiss,inthehalloftheemptyhouse,theretiredcharacterofwhichaffectsMr。Toodle\'sspiritsstrongly。
`Itellyouwhat,Polly,mydear。\'saysMr。Toodle,`beingnowaningein-driver,andwelltodointheworld,Ishouldn\'tallowofyourcominghere,tobemadedull-like,ifitwarn\'tforfavourspast。Butfavourspast,Polly,isnevertobeforgot。Tothemwhichisinadversity,besides,yourfaceisacord\'l。Solet\'shaveanotherkissonit,mydear。Youwishnobetterthantodoarightact,Iknow;andmyviewsis,thatit\'srightanddutifultodothis。Goodnight,Polly!\'
Mrs。Pipchinbythistimeloomsdarkinherblackbombazeenskirts,blackbonnet,andshawl;andhasherpersonalpropertypackedup;andhasherchairlateafavouritechairofMr。Dombey\'sandthedeadbargainofthesalereadynearthestreetdoor;andisonlywaitingforafly-van,goingto-nighttoBrightononprivateservice,whichistocallforher,byprivatecontract,andconveyherhome。
Presentlyitcomes。Mrs。Pipchin\'swardrobebeinghandedinandstowedaway,Mrs。Pipchin\'schairisnexthandedin,andplacedinaconvenientcorneramongcertaintrussesofhay;itbeingtheintentionoftheamiablewomantooccupythechairduringherjourney。Mrs。Pipchinherselfisnexthandedin,andgrimlytakesherseat。Thereisasnakygleaminherhardgreyeye,asofanticipatedroundsofbutteredtoast,relaysofhotchops,worryingsandquellingsofyoungchildren,sharpsnappingsatpoorBerry,andalltheotherdelightsofherOgress\'scastle。Mrs。Pipchinalmostlaughsasthefly-vandrivesoff,andshecomposesherblackbombazeenskirts,andsettlesherselfamongthecushionsofhereasychair。
Thehouseissucharuinthattheratshavefled,andthereisnotoneleft。
ButPolly,thoughaloneinthedesertedmansion——forthereisnocompanionshipintheshut-uproomsinwhichitslatemasterhideshishead——isnotalonelong。Itisnight;andsheissittingatworkinthehousekeeper\'sroom,tryingtoforgetwhatalonelyhouseitis,andwhatahistorybelongstoit;whenthereisaknockatthehalldoor,asloudsoundingasanyknockcanbe,strikingintosuchanemptyplace。Openingit,shereturnsacrosstheechoinghall,accompaniedbyafemalefigureinacloseblackbonnet。ItisMissTox,andMissTox\'seyesarered。
`Oh,Polly,\'saysMissTox,`whenIlookedintohavealittlelessonwiththechildrenjustnow,Igotthemessagethatyouleftforme;andassoonasIcouldrecovermyspiritsatall,Icameonafteryou。
Istherenooneherebutyou?\'
`Ah!notasoul。\'saysPolly。
`Haveyouseenhim?\'whispersMissTox。
`Blessyou,\'returnsPolly,`no;hehasnotbeenseenthismanyaday。Theytellmeheneverleaveshisroom。\'
`Ishesaidtobeill?\'inquiresMissTox。
`No,ma\'am,notthatIknowof,\'returnsPolly,`exceptinhismind。Hemustbeverybadtherepoorgentleman!\'
MissTox\'ssympathyissuchthatshecanscarcelyspeak。Sheisnochicken,butshehasnotgrowntoughwithageandcelibacy。Herheartisverytender,hercompassionverygenuine,herhomageveryreal。Beneaththelocketwiththefishyeyeinit,MissToxbearsbetterqualitiesthanmanyalesswhimsicaloutside;suchqualitiesaswilloutlive,bymanycoursesofthesun,thebestoutsidesandbrightesthusksthatfallintheharvestofthegreatreaper。
ItislongbeforeMissToxgoesaway,andbeforePolly,withacandleflaringontheblankstairs,looksafterher,forcompany,downthestreet,andfeelsunwillingtogobackintothedrearyhouse,andjaritsemptinesswiththeheavyfasteningsofthedoor,andglideawaytobed。ButallthisPollydoes;andinthemorningsetsinoneofthosedarkenedroomssuchmattersasshehasbeenadvisedtoprepare,andthenretiresandentersthemnomoreuntilnextmorningatthesamehour。Therearebellsthere,buttheyneverring;andthoughshecansometimeshearafootfallgoingtoandfro,itnevercomesout。
MissToxreturnsearlyintheday。ItthenbeginstobeMissTox\'soccupationtopreparelittledainties——orwhataresuchtoher——tobecarriedintotheseroomsnextmorning。Shederivessomuchsatisfactionfromthepursuit,thatsheentersonitregularlyfromthattime;andbringsdailyinherlittlebasket,variouschoicecondimentsselectedfromthescantystoresofthedeceasedownerofthepoweredheadandpigtail。Shelikewisebrings,insheetsofcurl-paper,morselsofcoldmeats,tonguesofsheep,halvesoffowls,forherowndinner;andsharingthesecollationswithPolly,passesthegreaterpartofhertimeintheruinedhousethattheratshavefledfrom:hiding,inafrightateverysound,stealinginandoutlikeacriminal;onlydesiringtobetruetothefallenobjectofheradmiration,unknowntohim,unknowntoalltheworldbutonepoorsimplewoman。
TheMajorknowsit;butnooneisthewiserforthat,thoughtheMajorismuchthemerrier。TheMajor,inafitofcuriosity,haschargedtheNativetowatchthehousesometimes,andfindoutwhatbecomesofDombey。
TheNativehasreportedMissTox\'sfidelity,andtheMajorhasnearlychokedhimselfdeadwithlaughter。Heispermanentlybluerfromthathour,andconstantlywheezestohimself,hislobstereyesstartingoutofhishead,`Damme,Sir,thewoman\'sabornidiot!\'
Andtheruinedman。Howdoeshepassthehours,alone?
`Lethimrememberitinthatroom,yearstocome!\'Hedidrememberit。Itwasheavyonhismindnow;heavierthanalltherest。
`Lethimrememberitinthatroom,yearstocome!Therainthatfallsupontheroof,thewindthatmournsoutsidethedoor,mayhaveforeknowledgeintheirmelancholysound。Lethimrememberitinthatroom,yearstocome!\'
Hedidrememberit。Inthemiserablenighthethoughtofit;inthedrearyday,thewretcheddawn,theghostly,memory-hauntedtwilight。
Hedidrememberit。Inagony,insorrow,inremorse,indespair!`Papa!
papa!Speaktome,dearpapa!\'Heheardthewordsagain,andsawtheface。
Hesawitfalluponthetremblinghands,andheardtheoneprolongedlowcrygoupward。
Hewasfallen,nevertoberaisedupanymore。Forthenightofhisworldlyruintherewasnoto-morrow\'ssun;forthestainofhisdomesticshametherewasnopurification;nothing,thankHeaven,couldbringhisdeadchildbacktolife。ButthatwhichhemighthavemadesodifferentinallthePast——whichmighthavemadethePastitselfsodifferent,thoughthishehardlythoughtofnow——thatwhichwashisownwork,thatwhichhecouldsoeasilyhavewroughtintoablessing,andhadsethimselfsosteadilyforyearstoformintoacurse:thatwasthesharpgriefofhissoul。
Oh!Hedidrememberit!Therainthatfellupontheroof,thewindthatmournedoutsidethedoorthatnight,hadhadforeknowledgeintheirmelancholysound。Heknew,now,whathehaddone。Heknew,now,thathehadcalleddownthatuponhishead,whichboweditlowerthattheheavieststrokeoffortune。Heknew,now,whatitwastoberejectedanddeserted;
now,wheneverylovingblossomhehadwitheredinhisinnocentdaughter\'sheartwassnowingdowninashesonhim。
Hethoughtofher,asshehadbeenthatnightwhenheandhisbridecamehome。Hethoughtofherasshehadbeen,inallthehome-events,oftheabandonedHouse。Hethought,now,thatofallaroundhim,shealonehadneverchanged。Hisboyhadfadedintodust,hisproudwifehadsunkintoapollutedcreature,hisflattererandfriendhadbeentransformedintotheworstofvillains,hisricheshadmeltedaway,theverywallsthatshelteredhimlookedonhimasastranger;shealonehadturnedthesamemildgentlelookuponhimalways。Yes,tothelatestandthelast。
Shehadneverchangedtohim——norhadheeverchangedtoher——andshewaslost。
As,onebyone,theyfellawaybeforehismind——hisbaby-hope,hiswife,hisfriend,hisfortune——ohhowthemist,throughwhichhehadseenher,cleared,andshowedhimhertrueself!Oh,howmuchbetterthanthisthathehadlovedherashadhidboy,andlostherashehadhisboy,andlaidthemintheirearlygravetogether!
Inhispride——forhewasproudyet——helettheworldgofromhimfreely。Asitfellaway,heshookitoff。Whetherheimagineditsfaceasexpressingpityforhim,orindifferencetohim,heshunneditalike。
Itwasinthesamedegreetobeavoided,ineitheraspect。Hehadnoideaofanyonecompanioninhismisery,buttheonehehaddrivenaway。Whathewouldhavesaidtoher,orwhatconsolationsubmittedtoreceivefromher,heneverpicturedtohimself。Buthealwaysknewshewouldhavebeentruetohim,ifhehadsufferedher。Healwaysknewshewouldhavelovedhimbetternow,thanatanyothertime:hewasascertainthatitwasinhernature,ashewasthattherewasaskyabovehim;andhesatthinkingso,inhisloneliness,fromhourtohour。Dayafterdayutteredthisspeech;
nightafternightshowedhimthisknowledge。
Itbegan,beyondalldoubthoweverslowitadvancedforsometime,inthereceiptofheryounghusband\'sletter,andthecertaintythatshewasgone。Andyet——soproudhewasinhisruin,orsoreminiscentofher,onlyassomethingthatmighthavebeenhis,butwaslostbeyondredemption——thatifhecouldhaveheardhervoiceinanadjoiningroom,hewouldnothavegonetoher。Ifhecouldhaveseenherinthestreet,andshehaddonenomorethanlookathimasshehadbeenusedtolook,hewouldhavepassedonwithhisoldcoldunforgivingface,andnotaddressedher,orrelaxedit,thoughhisheartshouldhavebrokensoonafterwards。
Howeverturbulenthisthoughts,orharshisangerhadbeen,atfirst,concerninghermarriage,orherhusband,thatwasallpastnow。Hechieflythoughtofwhatmighthavebeen,andwhatwasnot。Whatwas,wasallsummedupinthis:thatshewaslost,andheboweddownwithsorrowandremorse。
Andnowhefeltthathehadhadtwochildrenborntohiminthathouse,andthatbetweenhimandthebarewideemptywallstherewasatie,mournful,buthardtorendasunder,connectedwithadoublechildhood,andadoubleloss。Hehadthoughttoleavethehouse——knowinghemustgo,notknowingwhither——upontheeveningofthedayonwhichthisfeelingfirststruckrootinhisbreast;butheresolvedtostayanothernight,andinthenighttoramblethroughtheroomsoncemore。
Hecameoutofhissolitudewhenitwasthedeadofnight,andwithacandleinhishandwentsoftlyupthestairs。Ofallthefootmarksthere,makingthemascommonasthecommonstreet,therewasnotone,hethought,buthadseemedatthetimetosetitselfuponhisbrainwhilehehadkeptclose,listening。Helookedattheirnumber,andtheirhurry,andcontention——foottreadingfootout,andupwardtrackanddownwardjostlingoneanother——andthought,withabsolutedreadandwonder,howmuchhemusthavesufferedduringthattrial,andwhatachangedmanhehadcausetobe。Hethought,besides,ohwasthere,somewhereintheworld,alightfootstepthatmighthavewornoutinamomenthalfthosemarks!——andbenthishead,andweptashewentup。
Healmostsawit,goingonbefore。Hestopped,lookinguptowardstheskylight;andafigure,childishitself,butcarryingachild,andsingingasitwent,seemedtobethereagain。Anon,itwasthesamefigure,alone,stoppingforaninstant,withsuspendedbreath;thebrighthairclusteringlooselyrounditstearfulface;andlookingbackathim。
Hewanderedthroughtherooms:latelysoluxurious;nowsobareanddismalandsochanged,apparently,evenintheirshapeandsize。Thepressoffootstepswasasthickhere;andthesameconsiderationofthesufferinghehadhad,perplexedandterrifiedhim。Hebegantofearthatallthisintricacyinhisbrainwoulddrivehimmad;andthathisthoughtsalreadylostcoherenceasthefootprintsdid,andwerepiecedontooneanother,withthesametracklessinvolutions,andvarietiesofindistinctshapes。
Hedidnotsomuchasknowinwhichoftheseroomsshehadlived,whenshewasalone。Hewasgladtoleavethem,andgowanderinghigherup。Abundanceofassociationswerehere,connectedwithhisfalsewife,hisfalsefriendandservant,hisfalsegroundsofpride;butheputthemallbynow,andonlyrecalledmiserably,weakly,fondly,histwochildren。
Everywhere,thefootsteps!Theyhadhadnorespectfortheoldroomhighup,wherethelittlebedhadbeen;hecouldhardlyfindaclearspacethere,tothrowhimselfdown,onthefloor,againstthewall,poorbrokenman,andlethistearsflowastheywould。Hehadshedsomanytearshere,longago,thathewaslessashamedofhisweaknessinthisplacethaninanyother——perhaps,withthatconsciousness,hadmadeexcusestohimselfforcominghere。Here,withstoopingshoulders,andhischindroppedonhisbreast,hehadcome。Here,thrownuponthebareboards,inthedeadofnight,hewept,alone——aproudman,eventhen;who,ifakindhandcouldhavebeenstretchedout,orakindfacecouldhavelookedinwouldhaverisenup,andturnedaway,andgonedowntohiscell。
Whenthedaybrokehewasshutupinhisroomsagain。Hehadmeanttogoawayto-day,butclungtothistieinthehouseasthelastandonlythinglefttohim。Hewouldgoto-morrow。To-morrowcame。Hewouldgoto-morrow。
Everynight,withintheknowledgeofnohumancreature,hecameforth,andwanderedthroughthedespoiledhouselikeaghost。Manyamorningwhenthedaybroke,hisalteredface,droopingbehindtheclosedblindinhiswindow,imperfectlytransparenttothelightasyet,ponderedonthelossofhistwochildren。Itwasonechildnomore。Hereunitedtheminhisthoughts,andtheywereneverasunder。Oh,thathecouldhaveunitedtheminhispastlove,andindeath,andthatonehadnotbeensomuchworsethandead!
Strongmentalagitationanddisturbancewasnonoveltytohim,evenbeforehislatesuffering。Itneveris,toobstinateandsullennatures;
fortheystrugglehardtobesuch。Ground,longundermined,willoftenfalldowninamoment;whatwasunderminedhereinsomanyways,weakened,andcrumbled,littlebylittle,moreandmore,asthehandmovedonthedial。
Atlasthebegantothinkheneednotgoatall。Hemightyetgiveupwhathiscreditorshadsparedhimthattheyhadnotsparedhimmore,washisownact,andonlyseverthetiebetweenhimandtheruinedhouse,byseveringthatotherlinkItwasthenthathisfootfallwasaudibleinthelatehouse-keeper\'sroom,ashewalkedtoandfro;butnotaudibleinitstruemeaning,oritwouldhavehadanappallingsound。
Theworldwasverybusyandrestlessabouthim。Hebecameawareofthatagain。Itwaswhisperingandbabbling。Itwasneverquiet。This,andtheintricacyandcomplicationofthefootsteps,harassedhimtodeath。
Objectsbegantotakeablearedandrussetcolourinhiseyes。DombeyandSonwasnomore——hischildrennomore。Thismustbethoughtof,well,to-morrow。
Hethoughtofitto-morrow;andsittingthinkinginhischair,sawintheglass,fromtimetotime,thispicture:
Aspectral,haggard,wastedlikenessofhimself,broodedandbroodedovertheemptyfireplace。Nowitliftedupitshead,examiningthelinesandhollowsinitsface;nowhungitdownagain,andbroodedafresh。Nowitroseandwalkedabout;nowpassedintothenextroom,andcamebackwithsomethingfromthedressing-tableinitsbreast。Now,itwaslookingatthebottomofthedoor,andthinking——
Hush!what?
Itwasthinkingthatifbloodweretotricklethatway,andtoleakoutintothehall,itmustbealongtimegoingsofar。Itwouldmovesostealthilyandslowly,creepingon,withheralazylittlepool,andthereastart,andthenanotherlittlepool,thatadesperatelywoundedmancouldonlybediscoveredthroughitsmeans,eitherdeadordying。Whenithadthoughtofthisalongwhile,itgotupagain,andwalkedtoandfrowithitshandinitsbreast。Heglancedatitoccasionally,verycurioustowatchitsmotions,andhemarkedhowwickedandmurderousthathandlooked。
Nowitwasthinkingagain!Whatwasitthinking?
Whethertheywouldtreadinthebloodwhenitcreptsofar,andcarryitaboutthehouseamongthosemanyprintsoffeet,orevenoutintothestreet。
Itsatdown,withitseyesupontheemptyfireplace,andasitlostitselfinthoughtthereshoneintotheroomagleamoflight;arayofsun。Itwasquiteunmindful,andsatthinking。Suddenlyitrose,withaterribleface,andthatguiltyhandgraspingwhatwasinitsbreast。
Thenitwasarrestedbyacry——awild,loud,piercing,lovingrapturouscry——andheonlysawhisownreflectionintheglass,andathisknees,hisdaughter!
Yes。Hisdaughter!Lookather!Lookhere!Downupontheground,clingingtohim,callingtohim,foldingherhands,prayingtohim。
`Papa!Dearestpapa!Pardonme,forgiveme!Ihavecomebacktoaskforgivenessonmyknees。Inevercanbehappymore,withoutit!\'
Unchangedstill。Ofalltheworld,unchanged。Raisingthesamefacetohis,asonthatmiserablenight。Askinghisforgiveness!
`Dearpapa,ohdon\'tlookstrangelyonme!Inevermeanttoleaveyou。Ineverthoughtofit,beforeorafterwards。IwasfrightenedwhenIwentaway,andcouldnotthink。Papa,dear,Iamchanged。Iampenitent。
Iknowmyfault。Iknowmydutybetternow。Papa,don\'tcastmeoff,orIshalldie!\'
Hetotteredtohischair。Hefeltherdrawhisarmsaboutherneck;hefeltherputherownroundhis;hefeltherkissesonhisface;
hefeltherwetcheeklaidagainsthisown;hefelt——oh,howdeeply!——allthathehaddone。
Uponthebreastthathehadbruised,againsttheheartthathehadalmostbroken,shelaidhisface,nowcoveredwithhishands,andsaid,sobbing:
`Papa,love,Iamamother。IhaveachildwhowillsooncallWalterbythenamebywhichIcallyou。Whenitwasborn,andwhenIknewhowmuchIlovedit,IknewwhatIhaddoneinleavingyou。Forgiveme,dearPapa!ohsayGodblessme,andmylittlechild!\'
Hewouldhavesaidit,ifhecould。Hewouldhaveraisedhishandsandbesoughtherforpardon,butshecaughttheminherown,andputthemdown,hurriedly。
`Mylittlechildwasbornatsea,Papa。IprayedtoGodandsodidWalterformetospareme,thatImightcomehome。ThemomentIcouldland,Icamebacktoyou。Neverletusbepartedanymore,Papa!\'
Hishead,nowgrey,wasencircledbyherarm;andhegroanedtothinkthatnever,never,haditrestedsobefore。
`Youwillcomehomewithme,Papa,andseemybaby。Aboy,Papa。
HisnameisPaul。Ithink——Ihope——he\'slike——\'
Hertearsstoppedher。
`DearPapa,forthesakeofmychild,forthesakeofthenamewehavegivenhim,formysake,pardonWalter。Heissokindandtendertome。Iamsohappywithhim。Itwasnothisfaultthatweweremarried。
Itwasmine。Ilovedhimsomuch。\'