Buttheveryintensityofhispurposebecamealmostasubstituteforactioninit。Whilehewasyetuninformedofthetraitor\'sretreat,itservedtodiverthismindfromhisowncalamity,andtoentertainitwithanotherprospect。Thebrotherandsisterofhisfalsefavouritehadnosuchrelief;everythingintheirhistory,pastandpresent,gavehisdelinquencyamoreafflictingmeaningtothem。
Thesistermayhavesometimessadlythoughtthatifshehadremainedwithhim,thecompanionandfriendshehadbeenonce,hemighthaveescapedthecrimeintowhichhehadfallen。Ifsheeverthoughtso,itwasstillwithoutregretforwhatshehaddone,withouttheleastdoubtofherduty,withoutanypricingandenhancingofherself-devotion。Butwhenthispossibilitypresenteditselftotheerringandrepentantbrother,asitsometimesdid,itsmoteuponhisheartwithsuchakeen,reproachfultouchashecouldhardlybear。Noideaofretortuponhiscruelbrothercameintohismind。
Newaccusationofhimself,freshinwardlamentingsoverhisownunworthiness,andtheruininwhichitwasatoncehisconsolationandhisself-reproachthathedidnotstandalone,werethesolekindofreflectionstowhichthediscoverygaveriseinhim。
Itwasontheverysamedaywhoseeveningsetuponthelastchapter,andwhenMr。Dombey\'sworldwasbusiestwiththeelopementofhiswife,thatthewindowoftheroominwhichthebrotherandsistersatattheirearlybreakfast,wasdarkenedbytheunexpectedshadowofamancomingtothelittleporch:whichmanwasPerchtheMessenger。
`I\'vesteppedoverfromBallsPondataearlyhour,\'saidMr。
Perch,confidentiallylookinginattheroomdoor,andstoppingonthemattowipehisshoesallround,whichhadnomuduponthem,`agreeabletomyinstructionslastnight。Theywas,tobesureandbringanotetoyou,Mr。Carker,beforeyouwentoutinthemorning。Ishouldhavebeenhereagoodhourandahalfago,\'saidMr。Perch,meekly,`butforthestateofhealthMrs。P。,whoIthoughtIshouldhavelostinthenight,Idoassureyou,fivedistincttimes。\'
`Isyourwifesoill?\'askedHarriet。
`Why,yousee,\'saidMr。Perch,firstturningroundtoshutthedoorcarefully,`shetakeswhathashappenedinourHousesomuchtoheart,Miss。Hernervesissoverydelicate,yousee,andsoonunstrung。Notbutwhatthestrongestnerveshadgoodneedtobeshook,I\'msure。Youfeelitverymuchyourself,nodoubts。\'
Harrietrepressedasigh,andglancedatherbrother。
`I\'msureIfeelitmyself,inmyhumbleway,\'Mr。Perchwentontosay,withashakeofhishead,`inamannerIcouldn\'thavebelievedifIhadn\'tbeencalledupontoundergo。Ithasalmosttheeffectofdrinkuponme。IliterallyfeelseverymorningasifIhadbeentakingmorethanwasgoodformeover-night。\'
Mr。Perch\'sappearancecorroboratedthisrecitalofhissymptoms。
Therewasanairoffeverishlassitudeaboutit,thatseemedreferabletodrams;and,which,infact,mightnodoubthavebeentracedtothosenumerousdiscoveriesofhimselfinthebarsofpublic-houses,beingtreatedandquestioned,whichhewasinthedailyhabitofmaking。
`ThereforeIcanjudge,\'saidMr。Perch,shakinghisheadagain,andspeakinginasilverymurmur,`ofthefeelingsofsuchasisatallpeculiarlysitiwatedinthismostpainfulrewelation。\'
HereMr。Perchwaitedtobeconfidedin;andreceivingnoconfidence,coughedbehindhishand。Thisleadingtonothing,hecoughedbehindhishat;andthatleadingtonothing,heputhishatonthegroundandsoughtinhisbreastpocketfortheletter。
`IfIrightlyrecollect,therewasnoanswer,\'saidMr。Perch,withanaffablesmile;`butperhapsyou\'llbesogoodascastyoureyeoverit,Sir。\'
JohnCarkerbroketheseal,whichwasMr。Dombey\'s,andpossessinghimselfofthecontents,whichwereverybrief,replied,`No。Noanswerisexpected。\'
`ThenIshallwishyougoodmorning,Miss,\'saidPerch,takingasteptowardthedoor,`andhoping,I\'msure,thatyou\'llnotpermityourselftobemorereducedinmindthanyoucanhelp,bythelatepainfulrewelation。
ThePapers,\'saidMr。Perch,takingtwostepsbackagain,andcomprehensivelyaddressingboththebrotherandsisterinawhisperofincreasedmystery,`ismoreeagerfornewsofitthanyou\'dsupposepossible。OneoftheSundayones,inabluecloakandawhitehat,thathadpreviouslyofferedfortobribeme——needIsaywithwhatsuccess?——wasdodgingaboutourcourtlastnightaslateastwentyminutesaftereighto\'clock。Iseehimmyself,withhiseyeatthecounting-housekeyhole,whichbeingpatentisimpervious。
Anotherone,\'saidMr。Perch,`withmilintaryfrogs,isintheparlouroftheKing\'sArmsalltheblessedday。Ihappened,lastweek,toletalittleobserwationfallthere,andnextmorning,whichwasSunday,Iseeitworkedupinprint,inamostsurprisingmanner。\'
Mr。Perchresortedtohisbreastpocket,asiftoproducetheparagraph,butreceivingnoencouragement,pulledouthisbeavergloves,pickeduphishat,andtookhisleave;andbeforeitwashighnoon,Mr。
PerchhadrelatedtoseveralselectaudiencesattheKing\'sArmsandelsewhere,howMissCarker,burstingintotears,hadcaughthimbybothhands,andsaid,`Oh!deardearPerch,thesightofyouisallthecomfortIhave\'left!\'andhowMr。JohnCarkerandsaid,inanawfulvoice,`Perch,I
disownhim。Neverletmehearhimmentionedasabrothermore!\'
`DearJohn,\'saidHarriet,whentheywereleftalone,andhadremainedsilentforsomefewmoments。`Therearebadtidingsinthatletter。\'
`Yes。Butnothingunexpected,\'hereplied。`Isawthewriteryesterday。\'
`Thewriter?\'
`Mr。Dombey。Hepassedtwicethroughthecounting-housewhileIwasthere。Ihadbeenabletoavoidhimbefore,butofcoursecouldnothopetodothatlong。Iknowhownaturalitwasthatheshouldregardmypresenceassomethingoffensive;Ifeltitmustbeso,myself。\'
`Hedidnotsayso?\'
`No;hesaidnothing:butIsawthathisglancerestedonmeforamoment,andIwaspreparedforwhatwouldhappen——forwhathashappened。Iamdismissed!\'
Shelookedaslittleshockedandashopefulasshecould,butitwasdistressingnews,formanyreasons。
`“Ineednottellyou,“\'saidJohnCarker,readingtheletter,`“whyyournamewouldhenceforthhaveanunnaturalsound,inhoweverremoteaconnexionwithmine,orwhythedailysightofanyonewhobearsit,wouldbeunendurabletome。Ihavetonotifythecessationofallengagementsbetweenus,fromthisdate,andtorequestthatnorenewalofanycommunicationwithme,ormyestablishment,beeverattemptedbyyou。“——Enclosedisanequivalentinmoneytoagenerouslylongnotice,andthisismydischarge。
Heavenknows,Harriet,itisalenientandconsiderateone,whenwerememberall!\'
`Ifitbelenientandconsideratetopunishyouatall,John,forthemisdeedofanother,\'sherepliedgently,`yes\'。
`Wehavebeenanill-omenedracetohim,\'saidJohnCarker。`Hehasreasontoshrinkfromthesoundofourname,andtothinkthatthereissomethingcursedandwickedinourblood。Ishouldalmostthinkittoo,Harriet,butforyou。\'
`Brother,don\'tspeaklikethis。Ifyouhaveanyspecialreason,asyousayyouhave,andthinkyouhave——thoughIsay,No!——toloveme,sparemethehearingofsuchwildmadwords!\'
Hecoveredhisfacewithbothhishands;butsoonpermittedher,comingnearhim,totakeoneinherown。
`Aftersomanyyears,thispartingisamelancholything,Iknow,\'
saidhissister,`andthecauseofitisdreadfultousboth。Wehavetolive,too,andmustlookaboutusforthemeans。Well,well!Wecandoso,undismayed。Itisourpride,notourtrouble,tostrive,John,andtostrivetogether!\'
Asmileplayedonherlips,asshekissedhischeek,andentreatedhimtobeofgoodcheer。
`Oh,dearestsister!Tied,ofyourownnoblewill,toaruinedman!whosereputationisblighted;whohasnofriendhimself,andhasdriveneveryfriendofyoursaway!\'
`John!\'shelaidherhandhastilyuponhislips,`formysake!Inremembranceofourlongcompanionship!\'Hewassilent。`Nowletmetellyou,dear,\'quietlysittingbyhisside,`Ihave,asyouhave,expectedthis;andwhenIhavebeenthinkingofit,andfearingthatitwouldhappen,andpreparingmyselfforit,aswellasIcould,Ihaveresolvedtotellyou,ifitshouldbeso,thatIhavekeptasecretfromyou,andthatwehaveafriend。\'
`What\'sourfriend\'sname,Harriet?\'heansweredwithasorrowfulsmile。
`Indeed,Idon\'tknow,butheoncemadeaveryearnestprotestationtomeofhisfriendshipandhiswishtoserveus:andtothisdayIbelievehim。\'
`Harriet!\'exclaimedherwonderingbrother,`wheredoesthisfriendlive?\'
`NeitherdoIknowthat,\'shereturned。`Butheknowsusboth,andourhistory——allourlittlehistory,John。Thatisthereasonwhy,athisownsuggestion,Ihavekeptthesecretofhiscominghere,fromyou,lesthisacquaintancewithitshoulddistressyou。\'
`Here!Hashebeenhere,Harriet?\'
`Here,inthisroom。Once。\'
`Whatkindofman?\'
`Notyoung。“Grey-headed,“ashesaid,“andfastgrowinggreyer。“
Butgenerous,andfrank,andgood,Iamsure。\'
`Andonlyseenonce,Harriet?\'
`Inthisroomonlyonce,\'saidhissister,withtheslightestandmosttransientglowuponhercheek;`butwhenhere,heentreatedmetosufferhimtoseemeonceaweekashepassedby,intokenofourbeingwell,andcontinuingtoneednothingathishands。ForItoldhim,whenheprofferedusanyservicehecouldrender——whichwastheobjectofhisvisit——thatweneedednothing。\'
`Andonceaweek\'
`Onceeveryweeksincethen,andalwaysonthesameday,andatthesamehour,hehasgonepast;alwaysonfoot;alwaysgoinginthesamedirection——towardsLondon;andneverpausinglongerthantobowtome,andwavehishandcheerfully,asakindguardianmight。Hemadethatpromisewhenheproposedthesecuriousinterviews,andhaskeptitsofaithfullyandpleasantly,thatifIeverfeltanytriflinguneasinessabouttheminthebeginningwhichIdon\'tthinkIdid,John;hismannerwassoplainandtrueitverysoonvanished,andleftmequitegladwhenthedaywascoming。LastMonday——thefirstsincethisterribleevent——hedidnotgoby;andIhavewonderedwhetherhisabsencecanhavebeeninanywayconnectedwithwhathashappened。\'
`How?\'inquiredherbrother。
`Idon\'tknowhow。Ihaveonlyspeculatedonthecoincidence;
Ihavenottriedtoaccountforit。Ifeelsurehewillreturn。Whenhedoes,dearJohn,letmetellhimthatIhaveatlastspokentoyou,andletmebringyoutogether。Hewillcertainlyhelpustoanewlivelihood。
Hisentreatywasthathemightdosomethingtosmoothmylifeandyours;
andIgavehimmypromisethatifweeverwantedafriend,Iwouldrememberhim。Thenhisnamewastobenosecret。\'
`Harriet,\'saidherbrother,whohadlistenedwithcloseattention,`describehisgentlemantome。Isurelyoughttoknowonewhoknowsmesowell。\'
Hissisterpainted,asvividlyasshecould,thefeatures,stature,anddressofhervisitor;butJohnCarker,eitherfromhavingnoknowledgeoftheoriginal,orfromsomefaultinherdescription,orfromsomeabstractionofhisthoughtsashewalkedtoandfro,pondering,couldnotrecognisetheportraitshepresentedtohim。
However,itwasagreedbetweenthemthatheshouldseetheoriginalwhenhenextappeared。Thisconcluded,thesisterappliedherself,withalessanxiousbreast,toherdomesticoccupations;andthegrey-hairedman,lateJuniorofDombey\'s,devotedthefirstdayofhisunwontedlibertytoworkinginthegarden。
Itwasquitelateatnight,andthebrotherwasreadingaloudwhilethesisterpliedherneedle,whentheywereinterruptedbyaknockingatthedoor。Intheatmosphereofvagueanxietyanddreadthatloweredabouttheminconnexionwiththeirfugitivebrother,thissound,unusualthere,becamealmostalarming。Thebrothergoingtothedoor,thesistersatandlistenedtimidly。Someonespoketohim,andherepliedandseemedsurprised;andafterafewwords,thetwoapproachedtogether。
`Harriet,\'saidherbrother,lightingintheirlatevisitor,andspeakinginalowvoice,`Mr。Morfin——thegentlemansolonginDombey\'sHousewithJames。\'
Hissisterstartedback,asifaghosthadentered。Inthedoorwaystoodtheunknownfriend,withthedarkhairsprinkledwithgrey,theruddyface,thebroadclearbrow,andhazeleyes,whosesecretshehadkeptsolong!
`John!\'shesaid,half-breathless。`ItisthegentlemanItoldyouof,to-day!\'
`Thegentleman,MissHarriet,\'saidthevisitor,comingin——forhehadstoppedamomentinthedoorway——`isgreatlyrelievedtohearyousaythat:hehasbeendevisingwaysandmeans,allthewayhere,ofexplaininghimself,andhasbeensatisfiedwithnone。Mr。John,Iamnotquiteastrangerhere。Youwerestrickenwithastonishmentwhenyousawmeatyourdoorjustnow。Iobserveyouaremoreastonishedatpresent。Well!That\'sreasonableenoughunderexistingcircumstances。Ifwewerenotsuchcreaturesofhabitasweare,weshouldn\'thavereasontobeastonishedhalfsooften。\'
Bythistime,hehadgreetedHarrietwiththatagreeableminglingofcordialityandrespectwhichsherecollectedsowell,andhadsatdownnearher,pulledoffhisgloves,andthrownthemintohishatuponthetable。
`There\'snothingastonishing,\'hesaid,`inmyhavingconceivedadesiretoseeyoursister,Mr。John,orinmyhavinggratifieditinmyownway。Astotheregularityofmyvisitssincewhichshemayhavementionedtoyou,thereisnothingextraordinaryinthat。Theysoongrewintoahabit;andwearecreaturesofhabit——creaturesofhabit!\'
Puttinghishandsintohispockets,andleaningbackinhischair,helookedatthebrotherandsisterasifitwereinterestingtohimtoseethemtogether;andwentontosay,withakingofirritablethoughtfulness:
`It\'sthissamehabitthatconfirmssomeofus,whoarecapableofbetterthings,inLucifer\'sownprideandstubbornness——thatconfirmsanddeepensothersofusinvillany——moreofusinindifference——thathardensusfromdaytoday,accordingtothetemperofourclay,likeimages,andleavesusassusceptibleasimagestonewimpressionsandconvictions。Youshalljudgeofitsinfluenceonme,John。FormoreyearsthanIneedname,I
hadmysmall,andexactlydefinedshare,inthemanagementofDombey\'sHouse,andsawyourbrotherwhohasprovedhimselfascoundrel!Yoursisterwillforgivemybeingobligedtomentionitextendingandextendinghisinfluence,untilthebusinessanditsownerwerehisfootball;andsawyoutoilingatyourobscuredeskeveryday;andwasquitecontenttobeaslittletroubledasImightbe,outofmyownstripofduty,andtoleteverythingaboutmegoon,daybyday,unquestioned,likeagreatmachine——thatwasitshabitandmine——andtotakeitallforgranted,andconsideritallright。MyWednesdaynightscameregularlyround,ourquartettepartiescameregularlyoff,myvioloncellowasingoodtune,andtherewasnothingwronginmyworld——orifanythingnotmuch——orlittleormuch,itwasnoaffairofmine。\'
`IcananswerforyourbeingmorerespectedandbelovedduringallthattimethananybodyintheHouse,Sir,\'saidJohnCarker。
`Pooh!Good-naturedandeasyenough,Idaresay,\'returnedtheother,`ahabitIhad。ItsuitedtheManager;itsuitedthemanhemanaged:
itsuitedmebestofall。Ididwhatwasallottedtometodo,madenocourttoeitherofthem,andwasgladtooccupyastationinwhichnonewasrequired。SoIshouldhavegoneontillnow,butthatmyroomhadathinwall。YoucantellyoursisterthatitwasdividedfromtheManager\'sroombyawainscotpartition。\'
`Theywereadjoiningrooms;hadbeenone,perhaps,originally;
andwereseparated,asMr。Morfinsays,\'saidherbrother,lookingbacktohimfortheresumptionofhisexplanation。
`Ihavewhistled,hummedtunes,goneaccuratelythroughthewholeofBeethoven\'sSonatainB,tolethimknowthatIwaswithinhearing,\'
saidMr。Morfin;`butheneverheededme。IthappenedseldomenoughthatIwaswithinhearingofanythingofaprivatenature,certainly。ButwhenIwas,andcouldn\'totherwiseavoidknowingsomethingofit,Iwalkedout。
Iwalkedoutonce,John,duringaconversationbetweentwobrothers,towhich,inthebeginning,youngWalterGaywasaparty。ButIoverheardsomeofitbeforeIlefttheroom。Yourememberitsufficiently,perhaps,totellyoursisterwhatitsnaturewas?\'
`Itreferred,Harriet,\'saidherbrotherinalowvoice,`tothepast,andtoourrelativepositionsintheHouse。\'
`Itsmatterwasnotnewtome,butwaspresentedinanewaspect。
Itshookmeinmyhabit——thehabitofnine-tenthsoftheworld——ofbelievingthatallwasrightaboutme,becauseIwasusedtoit,\'saidtheirvisitor;
`andinducedmetorecallthehistoryofthetwobrothers,andtoponderonit。IthinkitwasalmostthefirsttimeinmylifewhenIfellintothistrainofreflection——howwillmanythingsthatarefamiliar,andquitemattersofcoursetousnow,lookwhenwecometoseethemfromthatnewanddistantpointofviewwhichwemustalltakeup,onedayorother?
Iwassomethinglessgoodnatured,asthephrasegoes,afterthatmorning,lesseasyandcomplacentaltogether。\'
Hesatforaminuteorso,drummingwithonehandonthetable;
andresumedinahurry,asifhewereanxioustogetridofhisconfession。
`BeforeIknewwhattodo,orwhetherIcoulddoanything,therewasasecondconversationbetweenthesametwobrothers,inwhichtheirsisterwasmentioned。Ihadnoscruplesofconscienceinsufferingallthewaifsandstraysofthatconversationtofloattomeasfreelyastheywould。Iconsideredthemminebyright。Afterthat,Icameheretoseethesisterformyself。ThefirsttimeIstoppedatthegardengate,Imadeapretextofinquiringintothecharacterofapoorneighbour;butIwanderedoutofthattract,andIthinkMissHarrietmistrustedme。ThesecondtimeIaskedleavetocomein;camein;andsaidwhatIwishedtosay。YoursistershowedmereasonswhichIdarednotdispute,forreceivingnoassistancefrommethen;butIestablishedameansofcommunicationbetweenus,whichremainedunbrokenuntilwithinthesefewdays,whenIwasprevented,byimportantmattersthathavelatelydevolveduponme,frommaintainingthem。\'
`HowlittleIhavesuspectedthis,\'saidJohnCarker,`whenI
haveseenyoueveryday,Sir!IfHarrietcouldhaveguessedyourname——\'
`Why,totellyouthetruth,John,\'interposedthevisitor,`I
keptittomyselffortworeasons。Idon\'tknowthatthefirstmighthavebeenbindingalone;butonehasnobusinesstotakecreditforgoodintentions,andImadeupmymind,atallevents,nottodisclosemyselfuntilIshouldbeabletodoyousomerealserviceorother。Mysecondreasonwas,thatIalwayshopedtheremightbesomelingeringpossibilityofyourbrother\'srelentingtowardsyouboth;andinthatcase,Ifeltthatwheretherewasthechanceofamanofhissuspicious,watchfulcharacter,discoveringthatyouhadbeensecretlybefriendedbyme,therewasthechanceofanewandfatalcauseofdivision。Iresolved,tobesure,attheriskofturninghisdispleasureagainstmyself——whichwouldhavebeennomatter——towatchmyopportunityofservingyouwiththeheadoftheHouse;butthedistractionsofdeath,courtship,marriage,anddomesticunhappiness,haveleftusnoheadbutyourbrotherforthislong,longtime。Anditwouldhavebeenbetterforus,\'saidthevisitor,droppinghisvoice,`tohavebeenalifelesstrunk。\'
Heseemedconsciousthattheselatterwordshadescapedhimagainsthiswill,andstretchingoutahandtothebrother,andahandtothesister,continued:
`AllIcoulddesiretosay,andmore,Ihavenowsaid。AllImeangoesbeyondwords,asIhopeyouunderstandandbelieve。Thetimehascome,John——thoughmostunfortunatelyandunhappilycome——whenImayhelpyouwithoutinterferingwiththatredeemingstruggle,whichhaslastedthroughsomanyyears;sinceyouweredischargedfromitto-daybynoactofyourown。Itislate;Ineedsaynomoreto-night。Youwillguardthetreasureyouhavehere,withoutadviceorreminderfromme。\'
Withthesewordsherosetogo。
`Butgoyoufirst,John,\'hesaidgood-humouredly,`withalight,withoutsayingwhatyouwanttosay,whateverthatmaybe;\'JohnCarker\'sheartwasfull,andhewouldhaverelieveditinspeech,ifhecould;`andletmehaveawordwithyoursister。Wehavetalkedalonebefore,andinthisroomtoo;thoughitlooksmorenaturalwithyouhere。\'
Followinghimoutwithhiseyes,heturnedkindlytoHarriet,andsaidinalowervoice,andwithanalteredandgravermanner:
`Youwishtoaskmesomethingofthemanwhosesisteritisyourmisfortunetobe。\'
`Idreadtoask,\'saidHarriet。
`Youhavelookedsoearnestlyatmemorethanonce,\'rejoinedthevisitor,`thatIthinkIcandivineyourquestion。Hashetakenmoney?
Isitthat?\'
`Yes。\'
`Hehasnot。\'
`IthankHeaven!\'saidHarriet。`ForthesakeofJohn。\'
`Thathehasabusedhistrustinmanyways,\'saidMr。Morfin;
`thathehasoftenerdealtandspeculatedtoadvantageforhimself,thanfortheHouseherepresented;thathehasledtheHouseon,toprodigiousventures,oftenresultinginenormouslosses;thathehasalwayspamperedthevanityandambitionofhisemployer,whenitwashisdutytohaveheldthemincheck,andshown,asitwasinhispowertodo,towhattheytendedhereorother;willnot,perhaps,surpriseyounow。Undertakingshavebeenenteredon,toswellthereputationofthehouseforvastresources,andtoexhibititinmagnificentcontrasttoothermerchants\'houses,ofwhichitrequiresasteadyheadtocontemplatethepossibly——afewdisastrouschangesofaffairsmightrenderthemtheprobably——ruinousconsequences。
InthemidstofthemanytransactionsoftheHouse,inmostpartsoftheworld:agreatlabyrinthofwhichonlyhehasheldtheclue:hehashadtheopportunity,andheseemstohaveusedit,ofkeepingthevariousresultsafloat,whenascertained,andsubstitutingestimatesandgeneralitiesforfacts。Butlatterly——youfollowme,MissHarriet?\'
`Perfectly,perfectly,\'sheanswered,withherfrightenedfacefixedonhis。`Praytellmealltheworstatonce。\'
`Latterly,heappearstohavedevotedthegreatestpainstomakingtheseresultssoplainandclear,thatreferencetotheprivatebooksenablesonetograspthem,numerousandvaryingastheyare,withextraordinaryease。Asifhehadresolvedtoshowhisemployeratonebroadviewwhathasbeenbroughtuponhimbyministrationtohisrulingpassion!Thatithasbeenhisconstantpracticetoministertothatpassionbasely,andtoflatteritcorruptly,isindubitable。Inthat,hiscriminality,asitisconnectedwiththeaffairsoftheHouse,chieflyconsists。\'
`Oneotherwordbeforeyouleaveme,dearSir,\'saidHarriet。
`Thereisnodangerinallthis?\'
`Howdanger?\'hereturned,withalittlehesitation。
`TothecreditoftheHouse?\'
`Icannothelpansweringyouplainly,andtrustingyoucompletely,\'
saidMr。Morfin,afteramoment\'ssurveyofherface。
`Youmay。Indeedyoumay!\'
`IamsureImay。DangertotheHouse\'scredit?No;none。Theremaybedifficulty,greaterorlessdifficulty,butnodanger,unless——unless,indeed——theheadoftheHouse,unabletobringhismindtothereductionofitsenterprises,andpositivelyrefusingtobelievethatitis,orcanbe,inanypositionbutthepositioninwhichhehasalwaysrepresentedittohimself,shouldurgeitbeyonditsstrength。Thenitwouldtotter。\'
`Butthereisnoapprehensionofthat?\'saidHarriet。
`Thereshallbenohalf-confidence,\'hereplied,shakingherhand,`betweenus。Mr。Dombeyisunapproachablebyanyone,andhisstateofmindishaughty,rash,unreasonable,andungovernable,now。Butheisdisturbedandagitatednowbeyondallcommonbounds,anditmaypass。Younowknowall,bothworstandbest。Nomoreto-night,andgoodnight!\'
Withthathekissedherhand,and,passingouttothedoorwhereherbrotherstoodawaitinghiscoming,puthimcheerfullyasidewhenheessayedtospeak;toldhimthat,astheywouldseeeachothersoonandoften,hemightspeakatanothertime,ifhewould,buttherewasnoleisureforitthen;andwentawayataroundpace,inorderthatnowordofgratitudemightfollowhim。
Thebrotherandsistersatconversingbythefireside,untilitwasalmostday;madesleeplessbythisglimpseofthenewworldthatopenedbeforethem,andfeelingliketwopeopleshipwreckedlongago,uponasolitarycoast,towhomashiphadcomeatlast,whentheywereoldinresignation,andhadlostallthoughtofanyotherhome。Butanotheranddifferentkindofdisquietudekeptthemwakingtoo。Thedarknessoutofwhichthislighthadbrokenonthemgatheredaround;andtheshadowoftheirguiltybrotherwasinthehousewherehisfoothadnevertrod。
Norwasittobedrivenout,nordiditfadebeforethesun。Nextmorningitwasthere;atnoon;atnight。Darkestandmostdistinctatnight,asisnowtobetold。
JohnCarkerhadgoneout,inpursuanceofaletterofappointmentfromtheirfriend,andHarrietwasleftinthehousealone。Shehadbeenalonesomehouses。Adull,graveevening,andadeepeningtwilight,werenotfavourabletotheremovaloftheoppressiononherspirits。Theideaofthisbrother,longunseenandunknown,flittedaboutherinfrightfulshapes。Hewasdead,dying,callingtoher,staringather,frowningonher。Thepicturesinhermindweresoobtrusiveandexactthat,asthetwilightdeepened,shedreadedtoraiseherheadandlookatthedarkcornersoftheroom,lesthiswraith,theoffspringofherexcitedimagination,shouldbewaitingthere,tostartleher。Onceshehadsuchafancyofhisbeinginthenextroom,hiding——thoughsheknewquitewellwhatadistemperedfancyitwas,andhadnobeliefinit——thatsheforcedherselftogothere,forherownconviction。Butinvain。Theroomresumeditsshadowyterrors,themomentsheleftit;andshehadnomorepowertodivestherselfofthesevagueimpressionsofdread,thaniftheyhadbeenstonegiants,rootedinthesolidearth。
Itwasalmostdark,andshewassittingnearthewindow,withherheaduponherhand,lookingdown,when,sensibleofasuddenincreaseinthegloomoftheapartment,sheraisedhereyes,andutteredaninvoluntarycry。Closetotheglass,apalescaredfacegazedin;vacantly,foraninstant,assearchingforanobject;thentheeyesrestedonherself,andlightedup。
`Letmein!Letmein!Iwanttospeaktoyou!\'andthehandrattledontheglass。
Sherecognisedimmediatelythewomanwiththelongdarkhair,towhomshehadgivenwarmth,food,andshelter,onewetnight。Naturallyafraidofher,rememberingherviolentbehaviour,Harriet,retreatingalittlefromthewindow,stoodundecidedandalarmed。
`Letmein!Letmespeaktoyou!Iamthankful——quiet——humble——anythingyoulike。Butletmespeaktoyou。\'
Thevehementmanneroftheentreaty,theearnestexpressionoftheface,thetremblingofthetwohandsthatwereraisedimploringly,acertaindreadandterrorinthevoiceakintoherownconditionatthemoment,prevailedwithHarriet。Shehastenedtothedoorandopenedit。
`MayIcomein,orshallIspeakhere?\'saidthewoman,catchingatherhand。
`Whatisitthatyouwant?Whatisitthatyouhavetosay?\'
`Notmuch,butletmesayitout,orIshallneversayit。Iamtemptednowtogoaway。Thereseemtobehandsdraggingmefromthedoor。
Letmecomein,ifyoucantrustmeforthisonce!\'
Herenergyagainprevailed,andtheypassedintothefirelightofthelittlekitchen,whereshehadbeforesat,andate,anddriedherclothes。
`Sitthere,\'saidAlice,kneelingdownbesideher,`andlookatme。Yourememberme?\'
`Ido。\'
`YourememberwhatItoldyouIhadbeen,andwhereIcamefrom,raggedandlame,withthefiercewindandweatherbeatingonmyhead?\'
`Yes。\'
`YouknowhowIcamebackthatnight,andthrewyourmoneyinthedirt,andcursedyouandyourrace。Now,seemehere,uponmyknees。
AmIlessearnestnow,thanIwasthen?\'
`Ifwhatyouask,\'saidHarriet,gently,`isforgiveness——\'
`Butit\'snot!\'returnedtheother,withaproud,fiercelook。
`WhatIaskistobebelieved。NowyoushalljudgeifIamworthyofbelief,bothasIwas,andasIam。\'
Stilluponherknees,andwithhereyesuponthefire,andthefireshiningonherruinedbeautyandherwildblackhair,onelongtreesofwhichshepulledoverhershoulder,andwoundaboutherhand,andthoughtfullybitandtorewhilespeaking,shewenton:
`WhenIwasyoungandpretty,andthis,\'pluckingcontemptuouslyatthehairsheheld,`wasonlyhandleddelicately,andcouldn\'tbeadmiredenough,mymother,whohadnotbeenverymindfulofmeasachild,foundoutmymerits,andwasfondofme,andproudofme。Shewascovetousandpoor,andthoughttomakeasortofpropertyofme。Nogreatladyeverthoughtthatofadaughteryet,I\'msure,oractedasifshedid——it\'sneverdone,weallknow——andthatshowsthattheonlyinstancesofmothersbringinguptheirdaughterswrong,andevilcomingofit,areamongsuchmiserablefolksasus。\'
Lookingatthefire,asifshewereforgetful,forthemoment,ofhavinganyauditor,shecontinuedinadreamywayasshewoundthelongtressofhairtightroundandroundherhand。
`Whatcameofthat,Ineedn\'tsay。Wretchedmarriagesdon\'tcomeofsuchthings,inourdegree;onlywretchednessandruin。Wretchednessandruincameonme——cameonme。\'
Raisinghereyesswiftlyfromtheirmoodygazeuponthefire,toHarriet\'sface,shesaid:
`Iamwastingtime,andthereisnonetospare;yetifIhadn\'tthoughtofall,Ishouldn\'tbeherenow。Wretchednessandruincameonme,Isay。Iwasmadeashort-livedtoy,andflungasidemorecruellyandcarelesslythanevensuchthingsare。Bywhosehanddoyouthink?\'
`Whydoyouaskme?\'saidHarriet。
`Whydoyoutremble?\'rejoinedAlice,withaneagerlook。`HisusagemadeaDevilofme。Isunkinwretchednessandruin,lowerandloweryet。Iwasconcernedinarobbery——ineverypartofitbutthegains——andwasfoundout,andsenttobetried,withoutafriend,withoutapenny。
ThoughIwasbutagirl,IwouldhavegonetoDeath,soonerthanaskhimforaword,ifawordofhiscouldhavesavedme。Iwould!Toanydeaththatcouldhavebeeninvented。Butmymother,covetousalways,senttohiminmyname,toldthetruestoryofmycase,andhumblyprayedandpetitionedforasmalllastgift——fornotsomanypoundsasIhavefingersonthishand。Whowasit,doyouthink,whosnappedhisfingersatmeinmymisery,lying,ashebelieved,athisfeet,andleftmewithouteventhispoorsignofremembrance;wellsatisfiedthatIshouldbesentabroad,beyondthereachoffurthertroubletohim,andshoulddie,androtthere?Whowasthis,doyouthink?\'
`Whydoyouaskme?\'repeatedHarriet。
`Whydoyoutremble?\'saidAlice,layingherhanduponherarm,andlookinginherface,`butthattheanswerisonyourlips!ItwasyourbrotherJames。\'
Harriettrembledmoreandmore,butdidnotaverthereyesfromtheeagerlookthatrestedonthem。
`WhenIknewyouwerehissister——whichwasonthatnight——Icameback,wearyandlame,tospurnyourgift。IfeltthatnightasifIcouldhavetravelled,wearyandlame,overthewholeworld,tostabhim,ifI
couldhavefoundhiminalonelyplacewithnoonenear。DoyoubelievethatIwasearnestinallthat?\'
`Ido!GoodHeaven,whyareyoucomeagain?\'
`Sincethen,\'saidAlice,withthesamegraspofherarm,andthesamelookinherface,`Ihaveseenhim!Ihavefollowedhimwithmyeyes,inthebroadday。Ifanysparkofmyresentmentslumberedinmybosom,itsprungintoablazewhenmyeyesrestedonhim。Youknowhehaswrongedaproudman,andmadehimhisdeadlyenemy。WhatifIhadgiveninformationofhimtothatman?\'
`Information!\'repeatedHarriet。
`WhatifIhadfoundoutonewhoknewyourbrother\'ssecret;whoknewthemannerofhisflight;whoknewwhereheandthecompanionofhisflightweregone?WhatifIhadmadehimutterallhisknowledge,wordbyword,beforehisenemy,concealedtohearit?WhatifIhadsatbyatthetime,lookingintothisenemy\'sface,andseeingitchangetillitwasscarcelyhuman?WhatifIhadseenhimrushaway,mad,inpursuit?
WhatifIknew,now,thathewasonhisroad,morefiendthanman,andmust,insomanyhours,comeupwithhim?\'
`Removeyourhand!\'saidHarriet,recoiling。`Goaway!Yourtouchisdreadfultome!\'
`Ihavedonethis,\'pursuedtheother,withhereagerlook,regardlessoftheinterruption。`DoIspeakandlookasifIreallyhad?DoyoubelievewhatIamsaying?\'
`IfearImust。Letmyarmgo!\'
`Notyet。Amomentmore。Youcanthinkwhatmyrevengefulpurposemusthavebeen,tolastsolong,andurgemetodothis?\'
`Dreadful!\'saidHarriet。
`Thenwhenyouseemenow,\'saidAlicehoarsely,`hereagain,kneelingquietlyontheground,withmytouchuponyourarm,withmyeyesuponyourface,youmaybelievethatthereisnocommonearnestnessinwhatIsay,andthatnocommonstrugglehasbeenbattlinginmybreast。Iamashamedtospeakthewords,butIrelent。Idespisemyself;Ihavefoughtwithmyselfallday,andalllastnight;butIrelenttowardshimwithoutreason,andwishtorepairwhatIhavedone,ifitispossible。Iwouldn\'thavethemcometogetherwhilehispursuerissoblindandheadlong。Ifyouhadseenhimashewentoutlastnight,youwouldknowthedangerbetter。\'
`Howshallitbeprevented?\'WhatcanIdo?\'criedHarriet。
`Allnightlong,\'pursuedtheother,hurriedly,`Ihaddreamsofhim——andyetIdidn\'tsleep——inhisblood。Allday,Ihavehadhimnearme。\'
`WhatcanIdo?\'criedHarriet,shudderingatthesewords。
`Ifthereisanyonewho\'llwrite,orsend,orgotohim,letthemlosenotime。HeisatDijon。Doyouknowthename,andwhereitis?\'
`Yes。\'
`Warnhimthatthemanhehasmadehisenemyisinafrenzy,andthathedoesn\'tknowhimifhemakeslightofhisapproach。Tellhimthatheisontheroad——Iknowheis!——andhurryingon。Urgehimtogetawaywhilethereistime——ifthereistime——andnottomeethimyet。
Amonthorsowillmakeyearsofdifference。Letthemnotencounter,throughme。Anywherebutthere!Anytimebutnow!Lethisfoefollowhim,andfindhimforhimself,butnotthroughme!Thereisenoughuponmyheadwithout。\'
Thefireceasedtobereflectedinherjetblackhair,upliftedface,andeagereyes;herhandwasgonefromHarriet\'sarm;andtheplacewhereshehadbeenwasempty。
[NextChapter][TableofContents]DICKENS:DombeyandSon,Chapter54[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]CHAPTERLIVTheFugitivesTHEtime,anhourshortofmidnight;theplace,aFrenchapartment,comprisingsomehalf-dozenrooms;——adullcoldhallorcorridor,adining-roomadrawing-room,abed-chamber,andaninnerdrawing-room,orboudoir,smallerandmoreretiredthantherest。Alltheseshutinbyonelargepairofdoorsonthemainstaircase,buteachroomprovidedwithtwoorthreepairsofdoorsofitsown,establishingseveralmeansofcommunicationwiththeremainingportionoftheapartment,orwithcertainsmallpassageswithinthewall,leading,asisnotunusualinsuchhouses,tosomebackstairswithanobscureoutletbelow。ThewholesituatedonthefirstfloorofsolargeanHotel,thatitdidnotabsorboneentirerowofwindowsupononesideofthesquarecourt-yardinthecentre,uponwhichthewholefoursidesofthemansionlooked。
Anairofsplendour,sufficientlyfadedtobemelancholy,andsufficientlydazzlingtoclogandembarrassthedetailsoflifewithashowofstate,reignedintheserooms。Thewallsandceilingsweregildedandpainted;thefloorswerewaxedandpolished;crimsondraperyhunginfestoonsfromwindow,door,andmirror;candelabra,gnarledandintertwisted,likethebranchesoftrees,orhornsofanimals,stuckoutfromthepanelsofthewall。Butintheday-time,whenthelattice-blindsnowcloselyshutwereopened,andthelightletin,traceswerediscernibleamongthisfinery,ofwearandtearanddust,ofsunanddampandsmoke,andlengthenedintervalsofwantofuseandhabitation,whensuchshowsandtoysoflifeseemsensitivelikelife,andwasteasmenshutupinprisondo。Evennight,andclustersofburningcandles,couldnotwhollyeffacethem,thoughthegeneralglitterthrewthemintheshade。
Theglitterofbrighttapers,andtheirreflectioninlooking-glasses,scrapsofgildingandgaycolours,wereconfined,onthisnight,tooneroom——thatsmallerroomwithintherest,justnowenumerated。Seenfromthehall,wherealampwasfeeblyburning,throughthedarkperspectiveofopendoors,itlookedasshiningandpreciousasagem。Intheheartofitsradiancesatabeautifulwoman——Edith。
Shewasalone。Thesamedefiant,scornfulwomanstill。Thecheekalittleworn,theeyealittlelargerinappearance,andmorelustrous,butthehaughtybearingjustthesame。Noshameuponherbrow;nolaterepentancebendingherdisdainfulneck。Imperiousandstatelyyet,andyetregardlessofherselfandofallelse,shesatwithherdarkeyescastdown,waitingforsomeone。
Nobook,nowork,nooccupationofanykindbutherownthought,beguiledthetardytime。Somepurpose,strongenoughtofillupanypause,possessedher。Withherlipspressedtogether,andquiveringifforamomentshereleasedthemfromhercontrol;withhernostrilinflated;herhandsclaspedinoneanother;andherpurposeswellinginherbreast;shesat,andwaited。
Atthesoundofakeyintheouterdoor,andafootstepinthehall,shestartedup,andcried`Who\'sthat?\'TheanswerwasinFrench,andtwomencameinwithjinglingtrays,tomakepreparationforsupper。
`Whohadbadethemtodoso?\'sheasked。
`Monsieurhadcommandedit,whenitwashispleasuretotaketheapartment。Monsieurhadsaid,whenhestayedthereforanhour,enroute,andlefttheletterforMadame——Madamehadreceiveditsurely?\'
`Yes。\'
`Athousandpardons!Thesuddenapprehensionthatitmighthavebeenforgottenhadstruckhim;\'abaldman,withalargebeardfromaneighbouringrestaurant:`withdespair!Monsieurhadsaidthatsupperwastobereadyatthathour:alsothathehadforewarnedMadameofthecommandshehadgiven,inhisletter。MonsieurhaddonetheGoldenHeadthehonourtorequestthatthesuppershouldbechoiceanddelicate。MonsieurwouldfindthathisconfidenceintheGoldenHeadwasnotmisplaced。\'
Edithsaidnomore,butlookedonthoughtfullywhiletheypreparedthetablefortwopersons,andsetthewineuponit。Shearosebeforetheyhadfinished,andtakingalamp,passedintothebed-chamberandintothedrawing-room,whereshehurriedlybutnarrowlyexaminedallthedoors;
particularlyoneintheformerroomthatopenedonthepassageinthewall。
Fromthisshetookthekey,andputitontheouterside。Shethencameback。
Themen——thesecondofwhomwasadark,bilioussubject,inajacket,closeshaved,andwithablackheadofhairclosecropped——hadcompletedtheirpreparationofthetable,andwerestandinglookingatit。Hewhohadspokenbefore,inquiredwhetherMadamethoughtitwouldbelongbeforeMonsieurarrived?
`Shecouldn\'tsay。Itwasallone。\'
`Pardon!Therewasthesupper!Itshouldbeeatenontheinstant。
MonsieurwhospokeFrenchlikeanAngel——oraFrenchman——itwasallthesamehadspokenwithgreatemphasisofhispunctuality。ButtheEnglishnationhadsograndageniusforpunctuality。Ah!whatnoise!GreatHeaven,herewasMonsieur。Beholdhim!\'
Ineffect,Monsieur,admittedbytheotherofthetwo,came,withhisgleamingteeth,throughthedarkrooms,likeamouth;andarrivinginthatsanctuaryoflightandcolour,afigureatfulllength,embracedMadame,andaddressedherintheFrenchtongueashischarmingwife。
`MyGod!Madameisgoingtofaint。Madameisovercomewithjoy!\'
Thebaldmanwiththebeardobservedit,andcriedout。
Madamehadonlyshrunkandshivered。Beforethewordswerespoken,shewasstandingwithherhanduponthevelvetbackofagreatchair;herfiguredrawnuptoitsfullheight,andherfaceimmoveable。
`FrancoishasflownovertotheGoldenHeadforsupper。Hefliesontheseoccasionslikeanangelorabird。ThebaggageofMonsieurisinhisroom。Allisarranged。Thesupperwillbeherethismoment。\'
Thesefactsthebaldmannotifiedwithbowsandsmiles,andpresentlythesuppercame。
Thehotdisheswereonachafing-dish;thecoldalreadysetforth,withthechangeofserviceonasideboard。Monsieurwassatisfiedwiththisarrangement。Thesuppertablebeingsmall,itpleasedhimverywell。
Letthemsetthechafing-dishuponthefloor,andgo。Hewouldremovethedisheswithhisownhands。
`Pardon!\'saidthebaldman,politely。`Itwasimpossible!\'
Monsieurwasofanotheropinion。Herequirednofurtherattendancethatnight。
`ButMadame\'thebaldmanhinted。
`Madame,\'repliedMonsieur,`hadherownmaid。Itwasenough。\'
`Amillionpardons!No!Madamehadnomaid!\'
`Icameherealone,\'saidEdith。`Itwasmychoicetodoso。I
amwellusedtotravelling;Iwantnoattendance。Theyneedsendnobodytome。\'
Monsieuraccordingly,perseveringinhisfirstproposedimpossibility,proceededtofollowthetwoattendantstotheouterdoor,andsecureitafterthemforthenight。Thebaldmanturningroundtobow,ashewentout,observedthatMadamestillstoodwithherhanduponthevelvetbackofthegreatchair,andthatherfacewasquiteregardlessofhim,thoughshewaslookingstraightbeforeher。
AsthesoundofCarker\'sfasteningthedoorresoundedthroughtheintermediaterooms,andseemedtocomehushedandstifledintothatlastdistantone,thesoundoftheCathedralclockstrikingtwelvemingledwithit,inEdith\'sears。Sheheardhimpause,asifheheardittooandlistened;andthencamebacktowardsher,layingalongtrainoffootstepsthroughthesilence,andshuttingallthedoorsbehindhimashecamealong。
Herhand,foramoment,leftthevelvetchairtobringaknifewithinherreachuponthetable;thenshestoodasshehadstoodbefore。
`Howstrangetocomeherebyyourself,mylove!\'hesaidasheentered。
`What?\'shereturned。
Hertonewassoharsh;thequickturnofherheadsofierce;herattitudesorepellent;andherfrownsoblack;thathestood,withthelampinhishand,lookingather,asifshehadstruckhimmotionless。
`Isay,\'heatlengthrepeated,puttingdownthelamp,andsmilinghismostcourtlysmile,`howstrangetocomeherealone!Itwasunnecessarycautionsurely,andmighthavedefeateditself。YouweretohaveengagedanattendantatHavreorRouen,andhavehadabundanceoftimeforthepurpose,thoughyouhadbeenthemostcapriciousanddifficultasyouarethemostbeautiful,myloveofwomen。\'
Hereyesgleamedstrangelyonhim,butshestoodwithherhandrestingonthechair,andsaidnotaword。
`Ihavenever,\'resumedCarker,`seenyoulooksohandsome,asyoudoto-night。EventhepictureIhavecarriedinmymindduringthiscruelprobation,andwhichIhavecontemplatednightandday,isexceededbythereality。\'
Notaword。Notalook。Hereyescompletelyhiddenbytheirdroopinglashes,butherheadheldup。
`Hard,unrelentingtermstheywere!\'saidCarker,withasmile,`buttheyareallfulfilledandpassed,andmakethepresentmoredeliciousandmoresafe。Sicilyshallbetheplaceofourretreat。Intheidlestandeasiestpartoftheworld,mysoul,we\'llbothseekcompensationforoldslavery。\'
Hewascominggailytowardsher,when,inaninstant,shecaughttheknifeupfromthetable,andstartedonepaceback。
`Standstill\'shesaid,`orIshallmurderyou!\'
Thesuddenchangeinher,thetoweringfuryandintenseabhorrencesparklinginhereyesandlightingupherbrow,madehimstopasifafirehadstoppedhim。
`Standstill!\'shesaid,`comenonearerme,uponyourlife!\'
Theybothstoodlookingateachother。Rageandastonishmentwereinhisface,buthecontrolledthemandsaidlightly,`Come,come!Tush,wearealone,andoutofeverybody\'ssightandhearing。Doyouthinktofrightenmewiththesetricksofvirtue?\'
`Doyouthinktofrightenme,\'sheansweredfiercely,`fromanypurposethatIhave,andanycourseIamresolvedupon,byremindingmeofthesolitudeofthisplace,andtherebeingnohelpnear?Me,whoamherealone,designedly?IfIfearedyou,shouldInothaveavoidedyou?
IfIfearedyou,shouldIbehere,inthedeadofnight,tellingyoutoyourfacewhatIamgoingtotell?\'
`Andwhatisthat,\'hesaid,`youhandsomeshrew?Handsomerso,thananyotherwomaninherbesthumour?\'
`Itellyounothing,\'shereturned,`untilyougobacktothatchair——exceptthis,onceagain——Don\'tcomenearme!Notastepnearer。
Itellyou,ifyoudo,asheavenseesus,Ishallmurderyou!\'
`Doyoumistakemeforyourhusband?\'heretorted,withagrin。
Disdainingtoreply,shestretchedherarmout,pointingtothechair。Hebithislip,frowned,laughed,andsatdowninit,withabaffled,irresolute,impatientair,hewasunabletoconceal;andbitinghisnailnervously,andlookingathersideways,withbitterdiscomfiture,evenwhilehefeignedtobeamusedbyhercaprice。
Sheputtheknifedownuponthetable,andtouchingherbosomwithherhand,said:
`Ihavesomethinglyingherethatisnolovetrinket;andsoonerthanendureyourtouchoncemore,Iwoulduseitonyou——andyouknowit,whileIspeak——withlessreluctancethanIwouldonanyothercreepingthingthatlives。\'
Heaffectedtolaughjestingly,andentreatedhertoactherplayoutquickly,forthesupperwasgrowingcold。Butthesecretlookwithwhichheregardedher,wasmoresullenandlowering,andhestruckhisfootonceuponthefloorwithamutteredoath。
`Howmanytimes,\'saidEdith,bendingherdarkestglanceuponhim,`hasyourboldknaveryassailedmewithoutrageandinsult?Howmanytimesinyoursmoothmanner,andmockingwordsandlooks,haveIbeentwittedwithmycourtshipandmymarriage?Howmanytimeshaveyoulaidbaremywoundofloveforthatsweet,injuredgirl,andlaceratedit?Howoftenhaveyoufannedthefireonwhich,fortwoyears,Ihavewrithed;andtemptedmetotakeadesperaterevenge,whenithasmosttorturedme?
`Ihavenodoubt,Ma\'am,\'hereplied,`thatyouhavekeptagoodaccount,andthatit\'sprettyaccurate。Come,Edith。Toyourhusband,poorwretch,thiswaswellenough——\'
`Why,if,\'shesaid,surveyinghimwithahaughtycontemptanddisgust,thatheshrunkunder,lethimbraveitashewould,`ifallmyotherreasonsfordespisinghimcouldhavebeenblownawaylikefeathers,hishavingyouforhiscounsellorandfavourite,wouldhavealmostbeenenoughtoholdtheirplace。\'
`Isthatareasonwhyyouhaverunawaywithme?\'heaskedher,tauntingly。
`Yes,andwhywearefacetofaceforthelasttime。Wretch!Wemeetto-night,andpartto-night。FornotonemomentafterIhaveceasedtospeak,willIstayhere!\'
Heturneduponherwithhisugliestlook,andgripedthetablewithhishand;butneitherrose,norotherwiseansweredorthreatenedher。
`Iamawoman,\'shesaid,confrontinghimsteadfastly,`whofromherverychildhoodhasbeenshamedandsteeled。Ihavebeenofferedandrejected,putupandappraised,untilmyverysoulhassickened。Ihavenothadanaccomplishmentorgracethatmighthavebeenaresourcetome,butithasbeenparadedandvendedtoenhancemyvalue,asifthecommoncrierhadcalleditthroughthestreets。Mypoor,proudfriends,havelookedonandapproved;andeverytiebetweenushasbeendeadenedinmybreast。
ThereisnotoneofthemforwhomIcare,asIcouldcareforapetdog。
Istandaloneintheworld,rememberingwellwhatahollowworldithasbeentome,andwhatahollowpartofitIhavebeenmyself。Youknowthis,andyouknowthatmyfamewithitisworthlesstome。\'
`Yes;Iimaginedthat,\'hesaid。
`Andcalculatedonit,\'sherejoined,`andsopursuedme。Growntooindifferentforanyoppositionbutindifference,tothedailyworkingofthehandsthathadmouldedmetothis;andknowingthatmymarriagewouldatleastpreventtheirhawkingofmeupanddown;Isufferedmyselftobesoldasinfamouslyasanywomanwithahalterroundherneckissoldinanymarket-place。Youknowthat。\'
`Yes,\'hesaid,showingallhisteeth。`Iknowthat。\'
`Andcalculatedonit,\'sherejoinedoncemore,`andsopursuedme。Frommymarriageday,Ifoundmyselfexposedtosuchnewshame——tosuchsolicitationandpursuitexpressedasclearlyasifithadbeenwritteninthecoarsestwords,andthrustintomyhandateveryturnfromonemeanvillain,thatIfeltasifIhadneverknownhumiliationtillthattime。Thisshamemyhusbandfixeduponme;hemmedmeroundwith,himself;
steepedmein,withhisownhands,andofhisownact,repeatedhundredsoftimes。Andthus——forcedbythetwofromeverypointofrestIhad——forcedbythetwotoyieldupthelastretreatofloveandgentlenesswithinme,ortobeanewmisfortuneonitsinnocentobject——drivenfromeachtoeach,andbesetbyonewhenIescapedtheother——myangerrosealmosttodistractionagainstboth。Idonotknowagainstwhichitrosehigher——themasterortheman!\'
Hewatchedherclosely,asshestoodbeforehimintheverytriumphofherindignantbeauty。Shewasresolute,hesaw;undauntable;withnomorefearofhimthanofaworm。
`WhatshouldIsayofhonourorofchastitytoyou!\'shewenton。`Whatmeaningwouldithavetoyou;whatmeaningwouldithavefromme!ButifItellyouthatthelightesttouchofyourhandmakesmybloodcoldwithantipathy;thatfromthehourwhenIfirstsawandhatedyou,tonow,whenmyinstinctiverepugnanceisenhancedbyeveryminute\'sknowledgeofyouIhavesincehad,youhavebeenaloathsomecreaturetomewhichhasnotitslikeonearth;howthen?\'
Heansweredwithafaintlaugh,`Aye!Howthen,myqueen?\'
`Onthatnight,when,emboldenedbythesceneyouhadassistedat,youdaredcometomyroomandspeaktome,\'shesaid,`whatpassed?\'
Heshruggedhisshoulders,andlaughedagain。
`Whatpassed?\'shesaid。
`Yourmemoryissodistinct,\'hereturned,`thatIhavenodoubtyoucanrecallit。\'
`Ican,\'shesaid。`Hearit!Proposingthen,thisflight——notthisflight,buttheflightyouthoughtit——youtoldmethatinthehavinggivenyouthatmeeting,andleavingyoutobediscoveredthere,ifyousothoughtfit;andinthehavingsufferedyoutobealonewithmemanytimesbefore,——andhavingmadetheopportunities,yousaid,——andinthehavingopenlyavowedtoyouthatIhadnofeelingformyhusbandbutaversion,andnocareformyself——Iwaslost;Ihadgivenyouthepowertotraducemyname;andIlived,invirtuousreputation,atthepleasureofyourbreath。\'
`Allstratagemsinlove——\'heinterrupted,smiling。`Theoldadage——\'
`Onthatnight,\'saidEdith,`andthenthestrugglethatIlonghadhadwithsomethingthatwasnotrespectformygoodfame——thatwasIknownotwhat——perhapstheclingingtothatlastretreat——wasended。
Onthenight,andthen,Iturnedfromeverythingbutpassionandresentment。
Istruckablowthatlaidyourloftymasterinthedust,andsetyouthere,beforeme,lookingatmenow,andknowingwhatImean。\'
Hesprungupfromhischairwithagreatoath。Sheputherhandintoherbosom,andnotafingertrembled,notahairuponherheadwasstirred。Hestoodstill:shetoo:thetableandchairbetweenthem。
`WhenIforgetthatthismanputhislipstominethatnight,andheldmeinhisarmsashehasdoneagainto-night,\'saidEdith,pointingathim;`whenIforgetthetaintofhiskissuponmycheek——thecheekthatFlorencewouldhavelaidherguiltlessfaceagainst——whenIforgetmymeetingwithher,whilethattaintwashotuponme,andinwhatafloodtheknowledgerusheduponmewhenIsawher,thatinreleasingherfromthepersecutionIhadcausedbymylove,Ibroughtashameanddegradationonhernamethroughmine,andinalltimetocomeshouldbethesolitaryfigurerepresentinginhermindherfirstavoidanceofaguiltycreature——then,Husband,fromwhomIstanddivorcedhenceforth,Iwillforgettheselasttwoyears,andundowhatIhavedone,andundeceiveyou!\'
Herflashingeyes,upliftedforamoment,lightedagainonCarker,andsheheldsomelettersoutinherlefthand。
`Seethese!\'shesaid,contemptuously。`Youhaveaddressedthesetomeinthefalsenameyougoby;onehere,someelsewhereonmyroad。
Thesealsareunbroken。Takethemback!\'
Shecrunchedtheminherhand,andtossedthemtohisfeet。Andasshelookeduponhimnow,asmilewasonherface。
`Wemeetandpartto-night,\'shesaid。`YouhavefallenonSiciliandaysandsensualrest,toosoon。Youmighthavecajoled,andfawned,andplayedyourtraitor\'spart,alittlelonger,andgrownricher。Youpurchaseyourvoluptuousretirementdear!\'
`Edith!\'heretorted,menacingherwithhishand。`Sitdown!Havedonewiththis!Whatdevilpossessesyou?\'
`TheirnameisLegion,\'shereplied,uprearingherproudformasifshewouldhavecrushedhim;`youandyourmasterhaveraisedtheminafruitfulhouse,andtheyshalltearyouboth。Falsetohim,falsetohisinnocentchild,falseeverywayandeverywhere,goforthandboastofme,andgnashyourteethforoncetoknowthatyouarelying!\'
Hestoodbeforehermutteringandmenacing,andscowlingroundasifforsomethingthatwouldhelphimtoconquerher;butwiththesameindomitablespiritsheopposedhim,withoutfaltering。
`Ineveryvauntyoumake,\'shesaid,`Ihavemytriumph。IsingleoutinyouthemeanestmanIknow,theparasiteandtooloftheproudtyrant,thathiswoundmaygothedeeperandmayranklemore。Boast,andrevengemeonhim!Youknowhowyoucamehereto-night;youknowhowyoustandcoweringthere;youseeyourselfincoloursquiteasdespicable,ifnotasodious,asthoseinwhichIseeyou。Boastthen,andrevengemeonyourself。\'
Thefoamwasonhislips;thewetstoodonhisforehead。Ifshewouldhavefalteredonceforonlyonehalf-moment,hewouldhavepinionedher;butshewasasfirmasrock,andhersearchingeyesneverlefthim。
`Wedon\'tpartso,\'hesaid。`DoyouthinkIamdrivelling,toletyougoinyoumadtemper?\'
`Doyouthink,\'sheanswered,`thatIamtobestayed?\'
`I\'lltry,mydear,\'hesaidwithaferociousgestureofhishead。
`God\'smercyonyou,ifyoutrybycomingnearme!shereplied。
`Andwhat,\'hesaid,`iftherearenoneofthesesameboastsandvauntsonmypart?WhatifIweretoturntoo?Come!\'andhisteethfairlyshoneagain。`Wemustmakeatreatyofthis,orImaytakesomeunexpectedcourse。Sitdown,sitdown!\'
`Toolate!\'shecried,witheyesthatseemedtosparklefire。
`Ihavethrownmyfameandgoodnametothewinds!Ihaveresolvedtobeartheshamethatwillattachtome——resolvedtoknowthatitattachesfalsely——thatyouknowittoo——andthathedoesnot,nevercan,andnevershall。I\'lldie,andmakenosign。ForthisIamherealonewithyou,atthedeadofnight。ForthisIhavemetyouhere,inafalsename,asyourwife。Forthis,Ihavebeenseenherebythosemen,andlefthere。Nothingcansaveyounow。\'
Hewouldhavesoldhissoultoroother,inherbeauty,tothefloor,andmakeherarmsdropathersides,andhaveherathismercy。
Buthecouldnotlookather,andnotbeafraidofher。Hesawastrengthwithinherthatwasresistless。Hesawthatshewasdesperate,andthatherunquenchablehatredofhimwouldstopatnothing。Hiseyesfollowedthehandthatwasputwithsuchruggeduncongenialpurposeintoherwhitebosom,andhethoughtthatifitstruckathim,andfailed,itwouldstrikethere,justassoon。
Hedidnotventure,therefore,toadvancetowardsher:butthedoorbywhichhehadenteredwasbehindhim,andhesteppedbacktolockit。
`Lastly,takemywarning!Looktoyourself!\'shesaid,andsmiledagain。`Youhavebeenbetrayed,asallbetrayersare。Ithasbeenmadeknownthatyouareinthisplace,orweretobe,orhavebeen。IfIlive,Isawmyhusbandinacarriageinthestreetto-night!\'
`Strumpet,it\'sfalse!\'criedCarker。
Atthemoment,thebellrangloudlyinthehall。Heturnedwhite,assheheldherhanduplikeanenchantress,atwhoseinvocationthesoundhadcome。
`Hark!doyouhearit?\'
Hesethisbackagainstthedoor;forhesawachangeinher,andfanciedshewascomingontopasshim。But,inamoment,shewasgonethroughtheoppositedoorscommunicatingwiththebed-chamber,andtheyshutuponher。
Onceturned,oncechangedinherinflexibleunyieldinglook,hefeltthathecouldcopewithher。Hethoughtasuddenterror,occasionedbythisnight-alarm,hadsubduedher;notthelessreadily,forheroverwroughtcondition。Throwingopenthedoors,hefollowed,almostinstantly。
Buttheroomwasdark;andasshemadenoanswertohiscall,hewasfaintogobackforthelamp。Hehelditup,andlookedroundeverywhere,expectingtoseehercrouchinginsomecorner;buttheroomwasempty。
So,intothedrawing-roomanddining-roomhewent,insuccession,withtheuncertainstepsofamaninastrangeplace;lookingfearfullyabout,andpryingbehindscreensandcouches;butshewasnotthere。No,norinthehall,whichwassobarethathecouldseethat,ataglance。
Allthistime,theringingatthebellwasconstantlyrenewed;
andthosewithoutwerebeatingatthedoor。Heputhislampdownatadistance,andgoingnearit,listened。Therewereseveralvoicestalkingtogether:
atleasttwooftheminEnglish;andthoughthedoorwasthick,andtherewasgreatconfusion,heknewoneofthesetoowelltodoubtwhosevoiceitwas。
Hetookuphislampagain,andcamebackquicklythroughalltherooms,stoppingashequittedeach,andlookingroundforher,withthelightraisedabovehishead。Hewasstandingthusinthebed-chamber,whenthedoor,leadingtothelittlepassageinthewall,caughthiseye。Hewenttoit,andfounditfastenedontheotherside;butshehaddroppedaveilingoingthrough,andshutitinthedoor。
Allthistimethepeopleonthestairswereringingatthebell,andknockingwiththeirhandsandfeet。
Hewasnotacoward:butthesesounds;whathadgonebefore;thestrangenessoftheplace,whichhadconfusedhim,eveninhisreturnfromthehall;thefrustrationofhisschemesfor,strangetosay,hewouldhavebeenmuchbolder,iftheyhadsucceeded;theunseasonabletime;therecollectionofhavingnooneneartowhomhecouldappealforanyfriendlyoffice;aboveall,thesuddensense,whichmadeevenhisheartbeatlikelead,thatthemanwhoseconfidencehehadoutraged,andwhomhehadsotreacherouslydeceived,wastheretorecogniseandchallengehimwithhismaskpluckedoffhisface;struckapanicthroughhim。Hetriedthedoorinwhichtheveilwasshut,butcouldn\'tforceit。Heopenedoneofthewindows,andlookeddownthroughthelatticeoftheblind,intothecourt-yard;
butitwasahighleap,andthestoneswerepitiless。