TheprideCaptainCuttlehad,ingivinghisarmtoFlorence,andescortinghersometwoorthreehundredyards,keepingabrightlook-outallthetime,andattractingtheattentionofeveryonewhopassedthem,byhisgreatvigilanceandnumerousprecautions,wasextreme。Arrivedattheshop,theCaptainfeltitapointofdelicacytoretireduringthemakingofthepurchases,astheyweretoconsistofwearingapparel;buthepreviouslydepositedhistincanisteronthecounter,andinformingtheyoungladyoftheestablishmentthatitcontainedfourteenpoundtwo,requestedher,incasethatamountofpropertyshouldnotbesufficienttodefraytheexpensesofhisniece\'slittleoutfit——attheword`niece,\'
hebestowedamostsignificantlookonFlorence,accompaniedwithpantomime,expressiveofsagacityandmystery——tohavethegoodnessto`singout,\'
andhewouldmakeupthedifferencefromhispocket。Casuallyconsultinghisbigwatch,asadeepmeansofdazzlingtheestablishment,andimpressingitwithasenseofproperty,theCaptainthenkissedhishooktohisniece,andretiredoutsidethewindow,whereitwasachoicesighttoseehisgreatfacelookinginfromtimetotime,amongthesilksandribbons,withanobviousmisgivingthatFlorencehadbeenspiritedawaybyabackdoor。
`DearCaptainCuttle,\'saidFlorence,whenshecameoutwithaparcel,thesizeofwhichgreatlydisappointedtheCaptain,whohadexpectedtoseeaporterfollowingwithabaleofgoods,`Idon\'twantthismoney,indeed。Ihavenotspentanyofit。Ihavemoneyofmyown。\'
`Myladylass,\'returnedthebaffledCaptain,lookingstraightdownthestreetbeforethem,`takecareonitforme,willyoubesogood,tillsuchtimeasIaskyeforit?\'
`MayIputitbackinitsusualplace,\'saidFlorence,`andkeepitthere?\'
TheCaptainwasnotatallgratifiedbythisproposal,butheanswered,`Aye,aye,putitanywheres,myladylass,solongasyouknowwheretofinditagain。Itan\'to\'nousetome,\'saidtheCaptain。
`IwonderIhaven\'tchuckeditawayaforenow。\'
TheCaptainwasquitedisheartenedforthemoment,butherevivedatthefirsttouchofFlorence\'sarm,andtheyreturnedwiththesameprecautionsastheyhadcome;theCaptainopeningthedoorofthelittleMidshipman\'sberth,anddivingin,withasuddennesswhichhisgreatpracticeonlycouldhavetaughthim。DuringFlorence\'sslumberinthemorning,hehadengagedthedaughterofanelderlylady,whousuallysatunderablueumbrellainLeadenhallMarket,sellingpoultry,tocomeandputherroominorder,andrenderheranylittleservicessherequired;andthisdamselnowappearing,Florencefoundeverythingaboutherasconvenientandorderly,ifnotashandsome,asintheterribledreamshehadoncecalledHome。
Whentheywerealoneagain,theCaptaininsistedonhereatingasliceofdrytoast,anddrinkingaglassofspicedneguswhichhemadetoperfection;and,encouragingherwitheverykindwordandinconsequentialquotationhecouldpossiblythinkof,ledherupstairstoherbedroom。
Buthetoohadsomethingonhismind,andwasnoteasyinhismanner。
`Goodnight,dearheart,\'saidCaptainCuttletoheratherchamber-door。
Florenceraisedhislipstohisface,andkissedhim。
AtanyothertimetheCaptainwouldhavebeenoverbalancedbysuchatokenofheraffectionandgratitude;butnow,althoughhewasverysensibleofit,helookedinherfacewithevenmoreuneasinessthanhehadtestifiedbefore,andseemedunwillingtoleaveher。
`PoorWal\'r!\'saidtheCaptain。
`Poor,poorWalter!\'sighedFlorence。
`Drownded,an\'the?\'saidtheCaptain。
Florenceshookherhead,andsighed。
`Goodnight,myladylass!\'saidCaptainCuttle,puttingouthishand。
`Godblessyou,dear,kindfriend!\'
ButtheCaptainlingeredstill。
`Isanythingthematter,dearCaptainCuttle?\'saidFlorence,easilyalarmedinherthenstateofmind。`Haveyouanythingtotellme?\'
`Totellyou,ladylass!\'repliedtheCaptain,meetinghereyesinconfusion。`No,no;whatshouldIhavetotellyou,pretty!Youdon\'texpectasI\'vegotanythinggoodtotellyou,sure?\'
`No!\'saidFlorence,shakingherhead。
TheCaptainlookedatherwistfully,andrepeated`No,\'——stilllingering,andstillshowingembarrassment。
`PoorWal\'r!\'saidtheCaptain。`MyWal\'r,asIusedtocallyou!
OldSolGills\'snevy!Welcometoallasknowedyou,astheflowersinMay!
Whereareyougotto,braveboy?Drownded,an\'the?\'
ConcludinghisapostrophewiththisabruptappealtoFlorence,theCaptainbadehergoodnight,anddescendedthestairs,whileFlorenceremainedatthetop,holdingthecandleouttolighthimdown。Hewaslostintheobscurity,and,judgingfromthesoundofhisrecedingfootsteps,wasintheactofturningintothelittleparlour,whenhisheadandshouldersunexpectedlyemergedagain,asfromthedeep,apparentlyfornootherpurposethantorepeat,`Drownded,an\'the,pretty?\'Forwhenhehadsaidthatinatoneoftendercondolence,hedisappeared。
Florencewasverysorrythatsheshouldunwittingly,thoughnaturally,haveawakenedtheseassociationsinthemindofherprotector,bytakingrefugethere;andsittingdownbeforethelittletablewheretheCaptainhadarrangedthetelescopeandsong-book,andthoseotherrarities,thoughtofWalter,andofallthatwasconnectedwithhiminthepast,untilshecouldhavealmostwishedtoliedownonherbedandfadeaway。Butinherlonelyyearningtothedeadwhomshehadloved,nothoughtofhome——nopossibilityofgoingback——nopresentationofitasyetexisting,orasshelteringherfather——onceenteredherthoughts。Shehadseenthemurderdone。Inthelastlingeringnaturalaspectinwhichshehadcherishedhimthroughsomuch,hehadbeentornoutofherheart,defaced,andslain。
Thethoughtofitwassoappallingtoher,thatshecoveredhereyes,andshrunktremblingfromtheleastremembranceofthedeed,orofthecruelhandthatdidit。Ifherfondheartcouldhaveheldhisimageafterthat,itmusthavebroken;butitcouldnot;andthevoidwasfilledwithawilddreadthatfledfromallconfrontingwithitsshatteredfragments——withsuchadreadascouldhaverisenoutofnothingbutthedepthsofsuchalove,sowronged。
Shedarednotlookintotheglass;forthesightofthedarkeningmarkuponherbosommadeherafraidofherself,asifsheboreabouthersomethingwicked。Shecovereditup,withahasty,falteringhand,andinthedark;andlaidherwearyheaddown,weeping。
TheCaptaindidnotgotobedforalongtime。Hewalkedtoandfrointheshopandinthelittleparlour,forafullhour,and,appearingtohavecomposedhimselfbythatexercise,satdownwithagraveandthoughtfulface,andreadoutofaPrayer-booktheformsofprayerappointedtobeusedatsea。Thesewerenoteasilydisposedof;thegoodCaptainbeingamightyslow,gruffreader,andfrequentlystoppingatahardwordtogivehimselfsuchencouragementas`Now,mylad!Withawill!\'or,`Steady,Ed\'ardCuttle,steady!\'whichhadagreateffectinhelpinghimoutofanydifficulty。Moreover,hisspectaclesgreatlyinterferedwithhispowersofvision。Butnotwithstandingthesedrawbacks,theCaptain,beingheartilyinearnest,readtheservicetotheverylastline,andwithgenuinefeelingtoo;andapprovingofitverymuchwhenhehaddone,turnedinunderthecounterbutnotbeforehehadbeenupstairs,andlistenedatFlorence\'sdoor,withaserenebreast,andamostbenevolentvisage。
TheCaptainturnedoutseveraltimesinthecourseofthenight,toassurehimselfthathischargewasrestingquietly;andonce,atdaybreak,foundthatshewasawake:forshecalledtoknowifitwerehe,onhearingfootstepsnearherdoor。
`Yes,myladylass,\'repliedtheCaptain,inagrowlingwhisper。
`Areyouallright,di\'mond?\'
Florencethankedhim,andsaid`Yes。\'
TheCaptaincouldnotlosesofavourableanopportunityofapplyinghismouthtothekeyhole,andcallingthroughit,likeahoarsebreeze,`PoorWal\'r!Drownded,an\'the?\'Afterwhichhewithdrew,andturninginagain,slepttillseveno\'clock。
Norwashefreefromhisuneasyandembarrassedmannerallthatday;thoughFlorence,beingbusywithherneedleinthelittleparlour,wasmorecalmandtranquilthanshehadbeenonthedaypreceding。Almostalwayswhensheraisedhereyesfromherwork,sheobservedtheCaptainlookingather,andthoughtfullystrokinghischin;andhesooftenhitchedhisarm-chairclosetoher,asifheweregoingtosaysomethingveryconfidential,andhitcheditawayagain,asnotbeingabletomakeuphismindhowtobegin,thatinthecourseofthedayhecruisedcompletelyroundtheparlourinthatfrailbark,andmorethanoncewentashoreagainstthewainscotortheclosetdoor,inaverydistressedcondition。
ItwasnotuntilthetwilightthatCaptainCuttle,fairlydroppinganchor,atlast,bythesideofFlorence,begantotalkatallconnectedly。
Butwhenthelightofthefirewasshiningonthewallsandceilingofthelittleroom,andontheteaboardandthecupsandsaucersthatwererangeduponthetable,andonhercalmfaceturnedtowardstheflame,andreflectingitinthetearsthatfilledhereyes,theCaptainbrokealongsilencethus:
`Youneverwasatsea,myown?\'
`No,\'repliedFlorence。
`Aye,\'saidtheCaptain,reverentially;`it\'saalmightyelement。
There\'swondersinthedeep,mypretty。Thinkonitwhenthewindsisroaringandthewavesisrowling。Thinkonitwhenthestormynightsissopitchdark,\'saidtheCaptain,solemnlyholdinguphishook,`asyoucan\'tseeyourhandaforeyou,exceptingwhenthewiwidlightningrewealsthesame;
andwhenyoudrive,drive,drivethroughthestormanddark,asifyouwasadriving,headon,totheworldwithoutend,evermore,amen,andwhenfoundmakinganoteof。Them\'sthetimes,mybeauty,whenamanmaysaytohismessmatepreviouslyaoverhaulingofthewollume,“Astiffnor\'wester\'sblowing,Bill;harkdon\'tyouhearitroarnow!Lordhelp\'em,howIpitysallunhappyfolksashorenow!”\'Whichquotation,asparticularlyapplicabletotheterrorsoftheocean,theCaptaindeliveredinamostimpressivemanner,concludingwithasonorous`Standby!\'
`Wereyoueverinadreadfulstorm?\'askedFlorence。
`Whyaye,myladylass,I\'veseenmyshareofbadweather,\'saidtheCaptain,tremulouslywipinghishead,`andI\'vehadmyshareofknockingabout;but——butitan\'tmyselfasIwasameaningtospeak。Ourdearboy,\'
drawingclosertoher,`Wal\'r,darling,aswasdrownded。\'
TheCaptainspokeinsuchatremblingvoice,andlookedatFlorencewithafacesopaleandagitated,thatsheclungtohishandinaffright。
`Yourfaceischanged,\'criedFlorence。`Youarealteredinamoment。Whatisit?DearCaptainCuttle,itturnsmecoldtoseeyou!\'
`What!Ladylass,\'returnedtheCaptain,supportingherwithhishand,`don\'tbetookaback。No,no!All\'swell,all\'swell,mydear。AsIwasasaying——Wal\'r——he\'s——he\'sdrownded。An\'the?\'
Florencelookedathimintently;hercolourcameandwent;andshelaidherhanduponherbreast。
`There\'sperilsanddangersonthedeep,mybeauty,\'saidtheCaptain;`andovermanyabraveship,andmanyandmanyabouldheart,thesecretwatershasclosedup,andnevertoldnotales。Butthere\'sescapesuponthedeep,too,andsometimesonemanoutofascore,——ah!maybeoutofahundred,pretty,——hasbeensavedbythemercyofGod,andcomehomeafterbeinggivenoverfordead,andtoldofallhandslost。I——Iknowastory,Heart\'sDelight,\'stammeredtheCaptain,`o\'thisnatur,aswastoldtomeonce;andbeingonthisheretack,andyouandmesittingalonebythefire,maybeyou\'dliketohearmetellit。Wouldyou,deary?\'
Florence,tremblingwithanagitationwhichshecouldnotcontrolorunderstand,involuntarilyfollowedhisglance,whichwentbehindherintotheshop,wherealampwasburning。Theinstantthatsheturnedherhead,theCaptainsprungoutofhischair,andinterposedhishand。
`There\'snothingthere,mybeauty,\'saidtheCaptain。`Don\'tlookthere。\'
`Whynot?\'askedFlorence。
TheCaptainmurmuredsomethingaboutitsbeingdullthatway,andaboutthefirebeingcheerful。Hedrewthedoorajar,whichhadbeenstandingopenuntilnow,andresumedhisseat。Florencefollowedhimwithhereyes,andlookedintentlyinhisface。
`Thestorywasaboutaship,myladylass,\'begantheCaptain,`assailedoutofthePortofLondon,withafairwindandinfairweather,boundfor——don\'tbetookaback,myladylass,shewasonlyout\'ardbound,pretty,onlyout\'ardbound!\'
TheexpressiononFlorence\'sfacealarmedtheCaptain,whowashimselfveryhotandflurried,andshowedscarcelylessagitationthanshedid。
`ShallIgoon,Beauty?\'saidtheCaptain。
`Yes,yes,pray!\'criedFlorence。
TheCaptainmadeagulpasiftogetdownsomethingthatwasstickinginhisthroat,andnervouslyproceeded:
`Thatthereunfort\'nateshipmetwithsuchfoulweather,outatsea,asdon\'tblowonceintwentyyear,mydarling。Therewashurricanesashoreastoreupforestsandbloweddowntowns,andtherewasgalesatseainthemlatitudes,asnotthestoutestwesseleverlaunchedcouldlivein。Dayarterdaythatthereunfort\'nateshipbehavednoble,I\'mtold,anddidherdutybrave,mypretty,butatoneblowa\'mostherbulwarkswasstovein,hermastsandruddercarriedaway,herbestmensweptoverboard,andshelefttothemercyofthestormashadnomercybutblowedharderandharderyet,whilethewavesdashedoverher,andbeatherin,andeverytimetheycomeathunderingather,brokeherlikeashell。Everyblackspotineverymountainofwaterthatrolledawaywasabito\'theship\'slifeoralivingman,andsoshewenttopieces,Beauty,andnograsswillnevergrowuponthegravesofthemasmannedthatship。\'
`Theywerenotalllost!\'criedFlorence。`Someweresaved!——Wasone?\'
`Aboardo\'thatthereunfort\'natewessel,\'saidtheCaptain,risingfromhischair,andclenchinghishandwithprodigiousenergyandexultation,`wasalad,agallantlad——asI\'veheerdtell——thathadloved,whenhewasaboy,toreadandtalkaboutbraveactionsinshipwrecks——I\'veheerdhim!I\'veheerdhim!——andherememberedof\'eminhishourofneed;forwhenthestoutestheartsandoldesthandswashovedown,hewasfirmandcheery。Itwarn\'tthewantofobjectstolikeandloveashorethatgavehimcourage,itwashisnat\'ralmind。I\'veseenitinhisface,whenhewasnomorethanachild——aye,manyatime!——andwhenIthoughtitnothingbuthisgoodlooks,blesshim!\'
`Andwashesaved!\'criedFlorence。`Washesaved!\'
`Thatbravelad,\'saidtheCaptain,——`lookatme,pretty!Don\'tlookround——\'
Florencehadhardlypowertorepeat,`Whynot?\'
`Becausethere\'snothingthere,mydeary,\'saidtheCaptain。`Don\'tbetookaback,prettycreetur!Don\'t,forthesakeofWal\'r,aswasdeartoallonus!Thattherelad,\'saidtheCaptain,`arterworkingwiththebest,andstandingbythefaint-hearted,andnevermakingnocomplaintnorsignoffear,andkeepingupaspiritinallhandsthatmade\'emhonourhimasifhe\'dbeenaadmiral——thatlad,alongwiththesecondmateandoneseaman,wasleft,ofallthebeatin\'heartsthatwentaboardthatship,theonlylivingcreeturs——lashedtoafragmentofthewreck,anddriftin\'
onthestormysea。\'
`Weretheysaved?\'criedFlorence。
`Daysandnightstheydriftedonthemendlesswaters,\'saidtheCaptain,`untilatlast——No!Don\'tlookthatway,pretty!——asailboredownupon\'em,andtheywas,bytheLord\'smercy,tookaboard:twolivingandonedead。\'
`Whichofthemwasdead?\'criedFlorence。
`NottheladIspeakon,\'saidtheCaptain。
`ThankGod!ohthankGod!\'
`Amen!\'returnedtheCaptainhurriedly。`Don\'tbetookaback!
Aminutemore,myladylass!withagoodheart!——aboardthatship,theywentalongvoyage,rightawayacrossthechartfortherewarn\'tnotouchingnowhere,andonthatvoyagetheseamanaswaspickedupwithdimdied。
Buthewasspared,and\'
TheCaptain,withoutknowingwhathedid,hadcutasliceofbreadfromtheloaf,andputitonhishookwhichwashisusualtoasting-fork,onwhichhenowheldittothefire;lookingbehindFlorencewithgreatemotioninhisface,andsufferingthebreadtoblazeandburnlikefuel。
`Wasspared,\'repeatedFlorence,`and?\'
`Andcomehomeinthatship,\'saidtheCaptain,stilllookinginthesamedirection,`and——don\'tbefrightened,pretty——andlanded;andonemorningcomecautiouslytohisowndoortotakeaobserwation,knowingthathisfriendswouldthinkhimdrownded,whenhesheeredoffattheunexpected\'
`Attheunexpectedbarkingofadog?\'criedFlorencequickly。
`Yes,\'roaredtheCaptain。`Steady,darling!courage!Don\'tlookroundyet。Seethere!uponthewall!\'
Therewastheshadowofamanuponthewallclosetoher。Shestartedup,lookedround,andwithapiercingcry,sawWalterGaybehindher!
Shehadnothoughtofhimbutasabrother,abrotherrescuedfromthegrave;ashipwreckedbrothersavedandatherside;andrushedintohisarms。Inalltheworld,heseemedtobeherhope,hercomfort,refuge,naturalprotector。`TakecareofWalter,IwasfondofWalter!\'
Thedearremembranceoftheplaintivevoicethatsaidso,rusheduponhersoul,likemusicinthenight。`Ohwelcomehome,dearWalter!Welcometothisstrickenbreast!\'Shefeltthewords,althoughshecouldnotutterthem,andheldhiminherpureembrace。
CaptainCuttle,inafitofdelirium,attemptedtowipehisheadwiththeblackenedtoastuponhishook:andfindingitanuncongenialsubstanceforthepurpose,putitintothecrownofhisglazedhat,puttheglazedhatonwithsomedifficulty,essayedtosingaverseofLovelyPeg,brokedownatthefirstword,andretiredintotheshop,whencehepresentlycameback,express,withafaceallflushedandbesmeared,andthestarchcompletelytakenoutofhisshirt-collar,tosaythesewords:
`Wal\'r,mylad,hereisalittlebitofpropertyasIshouldwishtomakeover,jintly!\'
TheCaptainhastilyproducedthebigwatch,theteaspoons,thesugar-tongs,andthecanister,andlayingthemonthetable,sweptthemwithhisgreathandintoWalter\'shat;butinhandingthatsingularstrongboxtoWalter,hewassoovercomeagain,thathewasfaintomakeanotherretreatintotheshop,andabsenthimselfforalongerspaceoftimethanonhisfirstretirement。
ButWaltersoughthimout,andbroughthimback;andthentheCaptain\'sgreatapprehensionwas,thatFlorencewouldsufferfromthisnewshock。Hefeltitsoearnestly,thatheturnedquiterational,andpositivelyinterdictedanyfurtherallusiontoWalter\'sadventuresforsomedaystocome。CaptainCuttlethenbecamesufficientlycomposedtorelievehimselfofthetoastinhishat,andtotakehisplaceattheteaboard;
butfindingWalter\'sgraspuponhisshoulder,ononeside,andFlorencewhisperinghertearfulcongratulationsontheother,theCaptainsuddenlyboltedagain,andwasmissingforagoodtenminutes。
ButneverinallhislifehadtheCaptain\'sfacesoshoneandglistened,aswhen,atlast,hesatstationaryatthetea-board,lookingfromFlorencetoWalter,andfromWaltertoFlorence。Norwasthiseffectproducedoratallheightenedbytheimmensequantityofpolishinghehadadministeredtohisfacewithhiscoat-sleeveduringthelasthalf-hour。
Itwassolelytheeffectofhisinternalemotions。TherewasagloryanddelightwithintheCaptainthatspreaditselfoverhiswholevisage,andmadeaperfectilluminationthere。
ThePridewithwhichtheCaptainlookeduponthebronzedcheekandthecourageouseyesofhisrecoveredboy;withwhichhesawthegenerousfervourofhisyouth,andallitsfrankandhopefulqualities,shiningoncemore,inthefresh,wholesomemanner,andtheardentface,wouldhavekindledsomethingofthislightinhiscountenance。TheadmirationandsympathywithwhichheturnedhiseyesonFlorence,whosebeauty,grace,andinnocencecouldhavewonnotruerormorezealouschampionthanhimself,wouldhavehadanequalinfluenceuponhim。Butthefulnessoftheglowheshedaroundhimcouldonlyhavebeenengenderedinhiscontemplationofthetwotogether,andinallthefanciesspringingoutofthatassociation,thatcamesparklingandbeamingintohishead,anddancedaboutit。
HowtheytalkedofpooroldUncleSol,anddweltoneverylittlecircumstancerelatingtohisdisappearance;howtheirjoywasmoderatedbytheoldman\'sabsenceandbythemisfortunesofFlorence;howtheyreleasedDiogenes,whomtheCaptainhaddecoyedupstairssometimebefore,lestheshouldbarkagain;theCaptain,thoughhewasinonecontinualflutter,andmademanymoreshortplungesintotheshop,fullycomprehended。ButhenomoredreamedthatWalterlookedonFlorence,asitwere,fromanewandfar-offplace;thatwhilehiseyesoftensoughtthelovelyface,theyseldommetitsopenglanceofsisterlyaffection,butwithdrewthemselveswhenherswereraisedtowardshim;thanbebelievedthatitwasWalter\'sghostwhosatbesidehim。Hesawthemtheretogetherintheiryouthandbeauty,andheknewthestoryoftheiryoungerdays,andhehadnoinchofroombeneathhisgreatbluewaistcoatforanythingsaveadmirationofsuchapair,andgratitudefortheirbeingreunited。
Theysatthus,untilitgrewlate。TheCaptainwouldhavebeencontenttositsoforaweek。ButWalterrose,totakeleaveforthenight。
`Going,Walter!\'saidFlorence。`Where?\'
`Heslingshishammockforthepresent,ladylass,\'saidCaptainCuttle,`roundatBrogley\'s。Withinhail,Heart\'sDelight。\'
`Iamthecauseofyourgoingaway,Walter,\'saidFlorence。`Thereisahouselesssisterinyourplace。\'
`DearMissDombey,\'repliedWalter,hesitating——`ifitisnottooboldtocallyouso!——\'
`——Walter!\'sheexclaimed,surprised。
`Ifanythingcouldmakemehappierinbeingallowedtoseeandspeaktoyou,woulditnotbethediscoverythatIhadanymeansonearthofdoingyouamoment\'sservice!WherewouldInotgo,whatwouldInotdoforyoursake?\'
Shesmiled,andcalledhimbrother。
`Youaresochanged,\'saidWalter——
`Ichanged!\'sheinterrupted。
`Tome,\'saidWalter,softly,asifhewerethinkingaloud,`changedtome。Ileftyousuchachild,andfindyou——oh!somethingsodifferent——\'
`Butyoursister,Walter。Youhavenotforgottenwhatwepromisedtoeachother,whenweparted?\'
`Forgotten!\'Buthesaidnomore。
`Andifyouhad——ifsufferinganddangerhaddrivenitfromyourthoughts——whichithasnot——youwouldrememberitnow,Walter,whenyoufindmepoorandabandoned,withnohomebutthis,andnofriendsbutthetwowhohearmespeak!\'
`Iwould!HeavenknowsIwould!\'saidWalter。
`Oh,Walter,\'exclaimedFlorence,throughhersobsandtears。
`Dearbrother!Showmesomewaythroughtheworld——somehumblepaththatImaytakealone,andlabourin,andsometimesthinkofyouasonewhowillprotectandcareformeasforasister!Oh,helpme,Walter,forIneedhelpsomuch!\'
`MissDombey!Florence!Iwoulddietohelpyou。Butyourfriendsareproudandrich。Yourfather\'
`No,no!Walter!\'Sheshrieked,andputherhandsuptoherhead,inanattitudeofterrorthattransfixedhimwherehestood。`Don\'tsaythatword!\'
Henever,fromthathour,forgotthevoiceandlookwithwhichshestoppedhimatthename。Hefeltthatifheweretoliveahundredyears,henevercouldforgetit。
Somewhere——anywhere——butneverhome!Allpast,allgone,alllost,andbrokenup!Thewholehistoryofheruntoldslightandsufferingwasinthecryandlook;andhefelthenevercouldforgetit,andheneverdid。
ShelaidhergentlefaceupontheCaptain\'sshoulder,andrelatedhowandwhyshehadfled。Ifeverysorrowingtearsheshedindoingso,hadbeenacurseupontheheadofhimshenevernamedorblamed,itwouldhavebeenbetterforhim,Walterthought,withawe,thantoberenouncedoutofsuchastrengthandmightoflove。
`There,precious!\'saidtheCaptain,whensheceased;anddeepattentiontheCaptainhadpaidtoherwhileshespoke;listening,withhisglazedhatallawryandhismouthwideopen。`Awast,awast,myeyes!
Wal\'r,dearlad,sheeroffforto-night,andleavetheprettyonetome!\'
Waltertookherhandinbothofhis,andputittohislips,andkissedit。Heknewnowthatshewas,indeed,ahomelesswanderingfugitive;
but,richertohimso,thaninallthewealthandprideofherrightstation,sheseemedfartheroffthanevenontheheightthathadmadehimgiddyinhisboyishdreams。
CaptainCuttle,perplexedbynosuchmeditations,guardedFlorencetoherroom,andwatchedatintervalsuponthecharmedgroundoutsideherdoor——forsuchittrulywastohim——untilhefeltsufficientlyeasyinhismindabouther,toturninunderthecounter。Onabandoninghiswatchforthatpurpose,hecouldnothelpcallingonce,rapturously,throughthekeyhole,`Drownded。An\'the,pretty?\'——or,whenhegotdownstairs,makinganothertrialatthatverseofLovelyPeg。Butitstuckinhisthroatsomehow,andhecouldmakenothingofit;sohewenttobed,anddreamedthatoldSolGillswasmarriedtoMrs。MacStinger,andkeptprisonerbythatladyinasecretchamberonashortallowanceofvictuals。
[NextChapter][TableofContents]DICKENS:DombeyandSon,Chapter50[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]CHAPTERLMr。Toots\'sComplaintTHEREwasanemptyroomabove-stairsattheWoodenMidshipman\'s,which,indaysofyore,hadbeenWalter\'sbedroom。Walter,rousinguptheCaptainbetimesinthemorning,proposedthattheyshouldcarrythithersuchfurnitureoutofthelittleparlouraswouldgraceitbest,sothatFlorencemighttakepossessionofitwhensherose。AsnothingcouldbemoreagreeabletoCaptainCuttlethanmakinghimselfveryredandshortofbreathinsuchacause,heturnedtoashehimselfsaidwithawill;and,inacoupleofhours,thisgarretwastransformedintoaspeciesofland-cabin,adornedwithallthechoicestmoveablesoutoftheparlour,inclusiveevenoftheTartarfrigate,whichtheCaptainhungupoverthechimneypiecewithsuchextremedelight,thathecoulddonothingforhalf-an-hourafterwardsbutwalkbackwardfromit,lostinadmiration。
TheCaptaincouldbeinducedbynopersuasionofWalter\'stowindupthebigwatch,ortotakebackthecanister,ortotouchthesugar-tongsandteaspoons。`No,no,mylad,\'wastheCaptain\'sinvariablereplytoanysolicitationofthekind,`I\'vemadethattherelittlepropertyover,jintly。\'Thesewordsherepeatedwithgreatunctionandgravity,evidentlybelievingthattheyhadthevirtueofanActofParliament,andthatunlesshecommittedhimselfbysomenewadmissionofownership,noflawcouldbefoundinsuchaformofconveyance。
Itwasanadvantageofthenewarrangement,thatbesidesthegreaterseclusionitaffordedFlorence,itadmittedoftheMidshipmanbeingrestoredtohisusualpostofobservation,andalsooftheshopshuttersbeingtakendown。Thelatterceremony,howeverlittleimportancetheunconsciousCaptainattachedtoit,wasnotwhollysuperfluous;for,onthepreviousday,somuchexcitementhadbeenoccasionedintheneighbourhood,bytheshuttersremainingunopened,thattheInstrument-maker\'shousehadbeenhonouredwithanunusualshareofpublicobservation,andhadbeenintentlystaredatfromtheoppositesideoftheway,bygroupsofhungrygazers,atanytimebetweensunriseandsunset。TheidlersandvagabondshadbeenparticularlyinterestedintheCaptain\'sfate;constantlygrovellinginthemudtoapplytheireyestothecellar-grating,undertheshop-window,anddelightingtheirimaginationswiththefancythattheycouldseeapieceofhiscoatashehunginacorner;thoughthissettlementofhimwasstoutlydisputedbyanoppositefaction,whowereofopinionthathelaymurderedwithahammer,onthestairs。Itwasnotwithoutexcitingsomediscontent,therefore,thatthesubjectoftheserumourswasseenearlyinthemorningstandingathisshop-doorashaleandheartyasifnothinghadhappened;andthebeadleofthatquarter,amanofanambitiouscharacter,whohadexpectedtohavethedistinctionofbeingpresentatthebreakingopenofthedoor,andofgivingevidenceinfulluniformbeforethecorner,wentsofarastosaytoanoppositeneighbour,thatthechapintheglazedhathadbetternottryitonthere——withoutmoreparticularlymentioningwhat——andfurther,thathe,theBeadle,wouldkeephiseyeuponhim。
`CaptainCuttle,\'saidWalter,musing,whentheystoodrestingfromtheirlaboursattheshop-door,lookingdowntheoldfamiliarstreet;
itbeingstillearlyinthemorning;`nothingatallofUncleSol,inallthattime!\'
`Nothingatall,mylad,\'repliedtheCaptain,shakinghishead。
`Goneinsearchofme,dear,kindoldman,\'saidWalter:`yetneverwritetoyou!Butwhynot?Hesays,ineffect,inthispacketthatyougaveme,\'takingthepaperfromhispocket,whichhadbeenopenedinthepresenceoftheenlightenedBunsby,`thatifyouneverhearfromhimbeforeopeningit,youmaybelievehimdead。Heavenforbid!Butyouwouldhaveheardofhim,evenifheweredead!Someonewouldhavewritten,surely,byhisdesire,ifhecouldnot;andhavesaid,“onsuchaday,therediedinmyhouse,“or“undermycare,“orsoforth,“Mr。SolomonGillsofLondon,wholeftthislastremembranceandthislastrequesttoyou。“\'
TheCaptain,whohadneverclimbedtosuchaclearheightofprobabilitybefore,wasgreatlyimpressedbythewideprospectitopened,andanswered,withathoughtfulshakeofhishead,`Wellsaid,mylad;werywellsaid。\'
`Ihavebeenthinkingofthis,or,atleast,\'saidWalter,colouring,`Ihavebeenthinkingofonethingandanother,allthroughasleeplessnight,andIcannotbelieve,CaptainCuttle,butthatmyUncleSolLordblesshim!isalive,andwillreturn。Idon\'tsomuchwonderathisgoingaway,because,leavingoutofconsiderationthatspiceofthemarvellouswhichwasalwaysinhischaracter,andhisgreataffectionforme,beforewhicheveryotherconsiderationofhislifebecamenothing,asnooneoughttoknowsowellasIwhohadthebestoffathersinhim,\'——Walter\'svoicewasindistinctandhuskyhere,andhelookedaway,alongthestreet,——`leavingthatoutofconsideration,Isay,Ihaveoftenreadandheardofpeoplewho,havingsomenearanddearrelative,whowassupposedtobeshipwreckedatsea,havegonedowntoliveonthatpartofthesea-shorewhereanytidingsofthemissingshipmightbeexpectedtoarrive,thoughonlyanhourortwosoonerthanelsewhere,orhaveevengoneuponhertracktotheplacewhithershewasbound,asiftheirgoingwouldcreateintelligence。
IthinkIshoulddosuchathingmyself,assoonasanother,orsoonerthanmany,perhaps。Butwhymyuncleshouldn\'twritetoyou,whenhesoclearlyintendedtodoso,orhowheshoulddieabroad,andyounotknowitthroughsomeotherhand,Icannotmakeout。\'
CaptainCuttleobserved,withashakeofhishead,thatJackBunsbyhimselfhadn\'tmadeitout,andthathewasamanascouldgiveaprettytautopiniontoo。
`Ifmyunclehadbeenaheedlessyoungman,likelytobeentrappedbyjovialcompanytosomedrinking-place,wherehewastobegotridofforthesakeofwhatmoneyhemighthaveabouthim,\'saidWalter;`orifhehadbeenarecklesssailor,goingashorewithtwoorthreemonths\'payinhispocket,Icouldunderstandhisdisappearing,andleavingnotracebehind。But,beingwhathewas——andis,Ihope——Ican\'tbelieveit。\'
`Wal\'r,mylad,\'inquiredtheCaptainwistfullyeyeinghimasheponderedandpondered,`Whatdoyoumakeofit,then?\'
`CaptainCuttle,\'returnedWalter,`Idon\'tknowwhattomakeofit。Isupposeheneverhaswritten!Thereisnodoubtaboutthat?\'
`IfsobeasSolGillswrote,mylad,\'repliedtheCaptain,argumentatively,`where\'shisdispatch?\'
`Saythatheintrustedittosomeprivatehand,\'suggestedWalter,`andthatithasbeenforgotten,orcarelesslythrownaside,orlost。Eventhatismoreprobabletome,thantheotherevent。Inshort,Inotonlycannotbeartocontemplatethatotherevent,CaptainCuttle,butIcan\'t,andwon\'t。\'
`Hope,yousee,Wal\'r,\'saidtheCaptain,sagely,`Hope。It\'sthatasanimatesyou。Hopeisabuoy,forwhichyouoverhaulyourLittleWarbler,sentimentaldiwision,butLord,mylad,likeanyotherbuoy,itonlyfloats;itcan\'tbesteerednowhere。Alongwiththefigure-headofHope,\'saidtheCaptain,`there\'saanchor;butwhat\'sthegoodofmyhavingaanchor,ifIcan\'tfindnobottomtoletitgoin?\'
CaptainCuttlesaidthisratherinhischaracterofasagaciouscitizenandhouseholder,boundtoimpartamorselfromhisstoresofwisdom,toaninexperiencedyouth,thaninhisownproperperson。Indeed,hisfacewasquiteluminousashespoke,withnewhope,caughtfromWalter;andheappropriatelyconcludedbyslappinghimontheback;andsaying,withenthusiasm,`Hooroar,mylad!Indiwidually,I\'mo\'youropinion。\'
Walter,withhischeerfullaugh,returnedthesalutation,andsaid:
`Onlyonewordmoreaboutmyuncleatpresent,CaptainCuttle。
Isupposeitisimpossiblethathecanhavewrittenintheordinarycourse——bymailpacket,orshipletter,youunderstand——\'
`Aye,aye,mylad,\'saidtheCaptainapprovingly。
`——Andthatyouhavemissedtheletteranyhow?\'
`Why,Wal\'r,\'saidtheCaptain,turninghiseyesuponhimwithafaintapproachtoasevereexpression,`an\'tIbeenonthelookoutforanytidingsofthatmano\'science,oldSolGills,youruncle,dayandnight,eversinceIlosthim?\'An\'tmyheartbeenheavyandwatchfulalways,alongofhimandyou?Sleepingandwaking,an\'tIbeenuponmypost,andwouldn\'tIscorntoquititwhilethishereMidshipmanheldtogether!\'
`Yes,CaptainCuttle,\'repliedWalter,graspinghishand,`Iknowyouwould,andIknowhowfaithfulandearnestallyousayandfeelis。
Iamsureofit。Youdon\'tdoubtthatIamassureofitasIamthatmyfootisagainuponthisdoor-steporthatIagainhaveholdofthistruehand。Doyou?\'
`No,no,Wal\'r,\'returnedtheCaptain,withhisbeamingface。
`I\'llhazardnomoreconjectures,\'saidWalter,ferventlyshakingthehardhandoftheCaptain,whoshookhiswithnolessgood-will。`AllIwilladdis,HeavenforbidthatIshouldtouchmyuncle\'spossessions,CaptainCuttle!Everythingthathelefthere,shallremaininthecareofthetruestofstewardsandkindestofmen——andifhisnameisnotCuttle,hehasnoname!Now,bestoffriends,about——MissDombey。\'
TherewasachangeinWalter\'smanner,ashecametothesetwowords;andwhenheutteredthem,allhisconfidenceandcheerfulnessappearedtohavedesertedhim。
`Ithought,beforeMissDombeystoppedmewhenIspokeofherfatherlastnight,\'saidWalter,`——yourememberhow?\'
TheCaptainwellremembered,andshookhishead。
`Ithought,\'saidWalter,`beforethat,thatwehadbutoneharddutytoperform,andthatitwas,toprevailuponhertocommunicatewithherfriends,andtoreturnhome。\'
TheCaptainmutteredafeeble`Awast!\'ora`Standby!\'orsomethingorother,equallypertinenttotheoccasion;butitwasrenderedsoextremelyfeeblebythetotaldiscomfiturewithwhichhereceivedthisannouncement,thatwhatitwas,ismerematterofconjecture。
`But,\'saidWalter,`thatisover。Ithinksonolonger。Iwouldsoonerbeputbackagainuponthatpieceofwreck,onwhichIhavesooftenfloated,sincemypreservation,inmydreams,andtherelefttodrift,anddrive,anddie!\'
`Hooroar,mylad!\'exclaimedtheCaptain,inaburstofuncontrollablesatisfaction。`Hooroar!hooroar!hooroar!\'
`Tothinkthatshe,soyoung,sogood,andbeautiful,\'saidWalter,`sodelicatelybroughtup,andborntosuchadifferentfortune,shouldstrivewiththeroughworld!Butwehaveseenthegulfthatcutsoffallbehindher,thoughnoonebutherselfcanknowhowdeepitis;andthereisnoreturn。\'
CaptainCuttle,withoutquiteunderstandingthis,greatlyapprovedofit,andobservedinatoneofstrongcorroboration,thatthewindwasquiteabaft。
`Sheoughtnottobealonehere;oughtshe,CaptainCuttle?\'saidWalter,anxiously。
`Well,mylad,\'repliedtheCaptain,afteralittlesagaciousconsideration。`Idon\'tknow。Youbeingheretokeephercompany,yousee,andyoutwobeingjintly\'
`DearCaptainCuttle!\'remonstratedWalter。`Ibeinghere!MissDombey,inherguilelessinnocentheart,regardsmeasheradoptedbrother;
butwhatwouldtheguileandguiltofmyheartbe,ifIpretendedtobelievethatIhadanyrighttoapproachher,familiarly,inthatcharacter——ifIpretendedtoforgetthatIambound,inhonour,nottodoit?\'
`Wal\'r,mylad,\'hintedtheCaptain,withsomerevivalofhisdiscomfiture,`an\'ttherenoothercharacteras\'
`Oh!\'returnedWalter,`wouldyouhavemedieinheresteem——insuchesteemashers——andputaveilbetweenmyselfandherangel\'sfaceforever,bytakingadvantageofherbeinghereforrefuge,sotrustingandsounprotected,toendeavourtoexaltmyselfintoherlover?WhatdoIsay?ThereisnooneintheworldwhowouldbemoreopposedtomeifIcoulddoso,thanyou。\'
`Wal\'r,mylad,\'saidtheCaptain,droopingmoreandmore,`prowidingasthereisanyjustcauseorimpedimentwhytwopersonsshouldnotbejinedtogetherinthehouseofbondage,forwhichyou\'lloverhaultheplaceandmakeanote,IhopeIshoulddeclareitaspromisedandwowedinthebanns。Sotherean\'tnoothercharacter;an\'tthere,mylad?\'
Walterbrisklywavedhishandinthenegative。
`Well,mylad,\'growledtheCaptainslowly,`Iwon\'tdenybutwhatIfindmyselfwerymuchdownbythehead,alongo\'thishere,orbutwhatI\'vegonecleanabout。ButastoLady-lass,Wal\'r,mindyou,wot\'srespectanddutytoherisrespectanddutyinmyarticles,howsumiverdisapinting;andthereforeIfollowsinyourwake,mylad,andfeelasyouare,nodoubt,actinguptoyourself。Andtherean\'tnoothercharacter,an\'tthere?\'saidtheCaptain,musingovertheruinsofhisfallencastlewithaverydespondentface。
`Now,CaptainCuttle,\'saidWalter,startingafreshpointwithagayerair,tocheertheCaptainup——butnothingcoulddothat;hewastoomuchconcerned——`IthinkweshouldexertourselvestofindsomeonewhowouldbeaproperattendantforMissDombeywhilesheremainshere,andwhomaybetrusted。Noneofherrelationsmay。It\'sclearMissDombeyfeelsthattheyareallsubservienttoherfather。WhathasbecomeofSusan?\'
`Theyoungwoman?\'returnedtheCaptain。`It\'smybeliefasshewassentawayagainthewillofHeart\'sDelight。ImadeasignalforherwhenLady-lassfirstcome,andsheratedofherweryhigh,andsaidshehadbeengonealongtime。\'
`Then,\'saidWalter,`doyouaskMissDombeywhereshe\'sgone,andwe\'lltrytofindher。Themorning\'sgettingon,andMissDombeywillsoonberising。Youareherbestfriend。Waitforherupstairs,andleavemetotakecareofalldownhere。\'
TheCaptain,verycrest-fallenindeed,echoedthesighwithwhichWaltersaidthis,andcomplied。Florencewasdelightedwithhernewroom,anxioustoseeWalter,andoverjoyedattheprospectofgreetingheroldfriendSusan。ButFlorencecouldnotsaywhereSusanwasgone,exceptthatitwasinEssex,andnoonecouldsay,sheremembered,unlessitwereMr。
Toots。
WiththisinformationthemelancholyCaptainreturnedtoWalter,andgavehimtounderstandthatMr。Tootswastheyounggentlemanwhomhehadencounteredonthedoor-step,andthathewasafriendofhis,andthathewasayounggentlemanofproperty,andthathehopelesslyadoredMissDombey。TheCaptainalsorelatedhowtheintelligenceofWalter\'ssupposedfatehadfirstmadehimacquaintedwithMr。Toots,andhowtherewassolemntreatyandcompactbetweenthem,thatMr。Tootsshouldbemuteuponthesubjectofhislove。
Thequestionthenwas,whetherFlorencecouldtrustMr。Toots;
andFlorencesaying,withasmile,`Oh,yes,withherwholeheart!\'itbecameimportanttofindoutwhereMr。Tootslived。ThisFlorencedidn\'tknow,andtheCaptainhadforgotten;andtheCaptainwastellingWalter,inthelittleparlour,thatMr。Tootswassuretobetheresoon,whenincameMr。Tootshimself。
`CaptainGills,\'saidMr。Toots,rushingintotheparlourwithoutanyceremony,`I\'minastateofmindborderingondistraction!\'
Mr。Tootshaddischargedthosewords,asfromamortar,beforeheobservedWalter,whomherecognisedwithwhatmaybedescribedasachuckleofmisery。
`You\'llexcuseme,Sir,\'saidMr。Toots,holdinghisforehead,`butI\'matpresentinthatstatethatmybrainisgoing,ifnotgone,andanythingapproachingtopolitenessinanindividualsosituatedwouldbeahollowmockery。CaptainGills,Ibegtorequestthefavourofaprivateinterview。\'
`Why,Brother,\'returnedtheCaptain,takinghimbythehand,`youarethemanaswewasonthelook-outfor。\'
`Oh,CaptainGills,\'saidMr。Toots,`whatalook-outthatmustbe,ofwhichIamtheobject!Ihaven\'tdaredtoshave,I\'minthatrashstate。Ihaven\'thadmyclothesbrushed。Myhairismatteredtogether。
ItoldtheChickenthatifheofferedtocleanmyboots,I\'dstretchhimacorpsebeforeme!\'
AlltheseindicationsofadisorderedmindwereverifiedinMr。
Toots\'sappearance,whichwaswildandsavage。
`Seehere,Brother,\'saidtheCaptain。`Thishere\'soldSolGills\'snevyWal\'r。Himaswassupposedtohaveperishedatsea。\'
Mr。Tootstookhishandfromhisforehead,andstaredatWalter。
`Goodgraciousme!\'stammeredMr。Toots。`Whatacomplicationofmisery!How-de-do?I——I——I\'mafraidyoumusthavegotverywet。CaptainGills,willyouallowmeawordintheshop?\'
HetooktheCaptainbythecoat,andgoingoutwithhimwhispered:
`Thatthen,CaptainGills,isthepartyyouspokeof,whenyousaidthatheandMissDombeyweremadeforoneanother?\'
`Why,aye,mylad,\'repliedthedisconsolateCaptain;`Iwasofthatmindonce。\'
`Andatthistime!\'exclaimedMr。Toots,withhishandtohisforeheadagain。`Ofallothers!——ahatedrival!Atleast,hean\'tahatedrival,\'saidMr。Toots,stoppingshort,onsecondthoughts,andtakingawayhishand;`whatshouldIhatehimfor?No。Ifmyaffectionhasbeentrulydisinterested,CaptainGills,letmeproveitnow!\'
Mr。Tootsshotbackabruptlyintotheparlour,andsaid,wringingWalterbythehand:
`How-de-do?Ihopeyoudidn\'ttakeanycold。I——Ishallbeverygladifyou\'llgivemethepleasureofyouracquaintance。Iwishyoumanyhappyreturnsoftheday。Uponmywordandhonour,\'saidMr。Toots,warmingashebecamebetteracquaintedwithWalter\'sfaceandfigure,`I\'mverygladtoseeyou!\'
`Thankyou,heartily,\'saidWalter。`Icouldn\'tdesireamoregenuineandgenialwelcome。\'
`Couldn\'tyou,though?\'saidMr。Toots,stillshakinghishand。
`It\'sverykindofyou。I\'mmuchobligedtoyou。How-de-do?Ihopeyoulefteverybodyquitewelloverthe——thatis,uponthe——Imeanwhereveryoucamefromlast,youknow。\'
Allthesegoodwishes,andbetterintentions,Walterrespondedtomanfully。
`CaptainGills,\'saidMr。Toots,`Ishouldwishtobestrictlyhonourable;butItrustImaybeallowednow,toalludetoacertainsubjectthat\'
`Aye,aye,mylad,\'returnedtheCaptain。`Freely,freely。\'
`Then,CaptainGills,\'saidMr。Toots,`andLieutenantWalters,areyouawarethatthemostdreadfulcircumstanceshavebeenhappeningatMr。Dombey\'shouse,andthatMissDombeyherselfhasleftherfather,who,inmyopinion,\'saidMr。Toots,withgreatexcitement,`itaBrute,thatitwouldbeaflatterytocalla——amarblemonument,orabirdofprey,——andthatsheisnottobefound,andhasgonenooneknowswhere?\'
`MayIaskhowyouheardthis?\'inquiredWalter。
`LieutenantWalters,\'saidMr。Toots,whohadarrivedatthatappellationbyaprocesspeculiartohimself;probablybyjumblinguphisChristiannamewiththeseafaringprofession,andsupposingsomerelationshipbetweenhimandtheCaptain,whichwouldextend,asamatterofcourse,totheirtitles;`LieutenantWalters,Icanhaveonobjectiontomakeastraightforwardreply。Thefactis,thatfeelingextremelyinterestedineverythingthatrelatestoMissDombey——notforanyselfishreason,LieutenantWalters,forIamwellawarethatthemostagreeablethingIcoulddoforallpartieswouldbetoputanendtomyexistence,whichcanonlyberegardedasaninconvenience——Ihavebeeninthehabitofbestowingatriflenowandthenuponafootman;amostrespectableyoungman,ofthenameofTowlinson,whohaslivedinthefamilysometime;andTowlinsoninformedme,yesterdayevening,thatthiswasthestateofthings。Sincewhich,CaptainGills——andLieutenantWalters——Ihavebeenperfectlyfrantic,andhavebeenlyingdownonthesofaallnight,theRuinyoubehold。\'
`Mr。Toots,\'saidWalter,`Iamhappytobeabletorelieveyourmind。Praycalmyourself。MissDombeyissafeandwell。\'
`Sir!\'criedMr。Toots,startingfromhischairandshakinghandswithhimanew,`thereliefissoexcessive,andunspeakable,thatifyouweretotellmenowthatMissDombeywasmarriedeven,Icouldsmile。Yes,CaptainGills,\'saidMr。Toots,appealingtohim,`uponmysoulandbody,Ireallythink,whateverImightdotomyselfimmediatelyafterwards,thatIcouldsmile,Iamsorelieved。\'
`Itwillbeagreaterreliefanddelightstill,tosuchagenerousmindasyours,\'saidWalter,notatallslowinreturninghisgreeting,`tofindthatyoucanrenderservicetoMissDombey。CaptainCuttle,willyouhavethekindnesstotakeMr。Tootsupstairs?\'
TheCaptainbeckonedtoMr。Toots,whofollowedhimwithabewilderedcountenance,and,ascendingtothetopofthehouse,wasintroduced,withoutawordofpreparationfromhisconductor,intoFlorence\'snewretreat。
PoorMr。Toots\'samazementandpleasureatsightofherweresuch,thattheycouldfindaventinnothingbutextravagance。Heranuptoher,seizedherhand,kissedit,droppedit,seizeditagain,fellupononeknee,shedtears,chuckled,andwasquiteregardlessofhisdangerofbeingpinnedbyDiogenes,who,inspiredbythebeliefthattherewassomethinghostiletohismistressinthesedemonstrations,workedroundandroundhim,asifonlyundecidedatwhatparticularpointtogoinfortheassault,butquiteresolvedtodohimafearfulmischief。
`OhDi,youbad,forgetfuldog!DearMr。Toots,Iamsorejoicedtoseeyou!\'
`Thankee,\'saidMr。Toots,`Iamprettywell,I\'mmuchobligedtoyou,MissDombey。Ihopeallthefamilyarethesame。\'
Mr。Tootssaidthiswithouttheleastnotionofwhathewastalkingabout,andsatdownonachair,staringatFlorencewiththeliveliestcontentionofdelightanddespairgoingoninhisfacethatanyfacecouldexhibit。
`CaptainGillsandLieutenantWaltershavementioned,MissDombey,\'
gaspedMr。Toots,`thatIcandoyousomeservice。IfIcouldbyanymeanswashouttheremembranceofthatdayatBrighton,whenIconductedmyself——muchmorelikeaParricidethanapersonofindependentproperty,\'saidMr。
Toots,withsevereself-accusation,`Ishouldsinkintothesilenttombwithagleamofjoy。\'
`Pray,Mr。Toots,\'saidFlorence,`donotwishmetoforgetanythinginouracquaintance。Inevercan,believeme。Youhavebeenfartookindandgoodtomealways。\'
`MissDombey,\'returnedMr。Toots,`yourconsiderationformyfeelingsisapartofyourangeliccharacter。Thankyouathousandtimes。
It\'sofnoconsequenceatall。\'
`Whatwethoughtofaskingyou,\'saidFlorence,`is,whetheryourememberwhereSusan,whomyouweresokindastoaccompanytothecoach-officewhensheleftme,istobefound。\'
`WhyIdonotcertainly,MissDombey,\'saidMr。Toots,afteralittleconsideration,`remembertheexactnameoftheplacethatwasonthecoach;andIdorecollectthatshesaidshewasnotgoingtostopthere,butwasgoingfartheron。But,MissDombey,ifyourobjectistofindher,andtohaveherhere,myselfandtheChickenwillproduceherwitheverydispatchthatdevotiononmypart,andgreatintelligenceontheChicken\'s,caninsure。\'
Mr。Tootswassomanifestlydelightedandrevivedbytheprospectofbeinguseful,andthedisinterestedsincerityofhisdevotionwassounquestionable,thatitwouldhavebeencrueltorefusehim。Florence,withaninstinctivedelicacy,forboretourgetheleastobstacle,thoughshedidnotforbeartoover-powerhimwiththanks;andMr。Tootsproudlytookthecommissionuponhimselfforimmediateexecution。
`MissDombey,\'saidMr。Toots,touchingherprofferedhand,withapangofhopelesslovevisiblyshootingthroughhim,andflashingoutinhisface,`Good-bye!Allowmetotakethelibertyofsaying,thatyourmisfortunesmakemeperfectlywretched,andthatyoumaytrustme,nexttoCaptainGillshimself。Iamquiteaware,MissDombey,ofmyowndeficiencies——they\'renotoftheleastconsequence,thankyou——butIamentirelytobereliedupon,Idoassureyou,MissDombey。\'
WiththatMr。Tootscameoutoftheroom,againaccompaniedbytheCaptain,who,standingatalittledistance,holdinghishatunderhisarmandarranginghisscatteredlockswithhishook,hadbeenanotuninterestedwitnessofwhatpassed。Andwhenthedoorclosedbehindthem,thelightofMr。Toots\'slifewasdarklycloudedagain。
`CaptainGills,\'saidthatgentleman,stoppingnearthebottomofthestairs,andturninground,`totellyouthetruth,Iamnotinaframeofmindatthepresentmoment,inwhichIcouldseeLieutenantWalterswiththatentirelyfriendlyfeelingtowardshimthatIshouldwishtoharbourinmybreast。Wecannotalwayscommandourfeelings,CaptainGills,andIshouldtakeitasaparticularfavourifyou\'dletmeoutattheprivatedoor。\'
`Brother,\'returnedtheCaptain,`youshallshapeyourowncourse。
Wotevercourseyoutake,isplainandseamanlike,I\'mwerysure。\'
`CaptainGills,\'saidMr。Toots,`you\'reextremelykind。Yourgoodopinionisaconsolationtome。Thereisonething,\'saidMr。Toots,standinginthepassage,behindthehalf-openeddoor,`thatIhopeyou\'llbearinmind,CaptainGills,andthatIshouldwishLieutenantWalterstobemadeacquaintedwith。Ihavequitecomeintomypropertynow,youknow,and——andIdon\'tknowwhattodowithit。IfIcouldbeatallusefulinapecuniarypointofview,Ishouldglideintothesilenttombwitheaseandsmoothness。\'
Mr。Tootssaidnomore,butslippedoutquietlyandshutthedooruponhimself,tocuttheCaptainofffromanyreply。
Florencethoughtofthisgoodcreature,longafterhehadlefther,withmingledemotionsofpainandpleasure。Hewassohonestandwarm-hearted,thattoseehimagainandbeassuredofhistruthtoherinherdistress,wasajoyandcomfortbeyondallprice;butforthatveryreason,itwassoaffectingtothinkthatshecausedhimamoment\'sunhappiness,orruffled,byabreath,theharmlesscurrentofhislife,thathereyesfilledwithtears,andherbosomoverflowedwithpity。CaptainCuttle,inhisdifferentway,thoughtmuchofMr。Tootstoo;andsodidWalter;andwhentheeveningcame,andtheywereallsittingtogetherinFlorence\'snewroom,Walterpraisedhiminamostimpassionedmanner,andtoldFlorencewhathehadsaidonleavingthehouse,witheverygracefulsetting-offinthewayofcommentandappreciationthathisownhonestyandsympathycouldsurrounditwith。
Mr。Tootsdidnotreturnuponthenextday,orthenext,orforseveraldays;andinthemeanwhileFlorence,withoutanynewalarm,livelikeaquietbirdinacage,atthetopoftheoldInstrument-maker\'shouse。
ButFlorencedroopedandhungherheadmoreandmoreplainly,asthedayswenton;andtheexpressionthathadbeenseeninthefaceofthedeadchild,wasoftenturnedtotheskyfromherhighwindow,asifitsoughthisangelout,onthebrightshoreofwhichhehadspoken:lyingonhislittlebed。
Florencehadbeenweakanddelicateoflate,andtheagitationshehadundergonewasnotwithoutitsinfluencesonherhealth。Butitwasnobodilyillnessthataffectedhernow。Shewasdistressedinmind;
andthecauseofherdistresswasWalter。
Interestedinher,anxiousforher,proudandgladtoserveher,andshowingallthiswiththeenthusiasmandardourofhischaracter,Florencesawthatheavoidedher。Allthelongdaythrough,heseldomapproachedherroom。Ifsheaskedforhim,hecame,againforthemomentasearnestandasbrightassherememberedhimwhenshewasalostchildinthestaringstreets;buthesoonbecameconstrained——herquickaffectionwastoowatchfulnottoknowit——anduneasy,andsoonlefther。Unsought,henevercame,allday,betweenthemorningandthenight。Whentheeveningclosedin,hewasalwaysthere,andthatwasherhappiesttime,forthenshehalfbelievedthattheoldWalterofherchildhoodwasnotchanged。But,eventhen,sometrivialword,look,orcircumstancewouldshowherthattherewasanindefinabledivisionbetweenthemwhichcouldnotbepassed。
AndshecouldnotbutseethattheserevealingsofagreatalterationinWaltermanifestedthemselvesindespiteofhisutmosteffortstohidethem。Inhisconsiderationforher,shethought,andintheearnestnessofhisdesiretospareheranywoundfromhiskindhand,heresortedtoinnumerablelittleartificesanddisguises。SomuchthemoredidFlorencefeelthegreatnessofthealterationinhim;somuchtheoftenerdidsheweepatthisestrangementofherbrother。
ThegoodCaptain——heruntiring,tender,everzealousfriend——sawit,too,Florencethought,anditpainedhim。Hewaslesscheerfulandhopefulthanhehadbeenatfirst,andwouldsteallooksatherandWalter,byturns,whentheywereallthreetogetherofanevening,withquiteasadface。
Florenceresolved,atlast,tospeaktoWalter。Shebelievedsheknewnowwhatthecauseofhisestrangementwas,andshethoughtitwouldbearelieftoherfullheart,andwouldsethimmoreatease,ifshetoldhimshehadfounditout,andquitesubmittedtoit,anddidnotreproachhim。
ItwasonacertainSundayafternoon,thatFlorencetookthisresolution。ThefaithfulCaptain,inanamazingshirt-collar,wassittingbyher,readingwithhisspectacleson,andsheaskedhimwhereWalterwas。
`Ithinkhe\'sdownbelow,myladylass,\'returnedtheCaptain。
`Ishouldliketospeaktohim,\'saidFlorence,risinghurriedlyasiftogodownstairs。
`I\'llrousehimuphere,Beauty,\'saidtheCaptain,`inatrice。\'
ThereupontheCaptain,withmuchalacrity,shoulderedhisbook——forhemadeitapointofdutytoreadnonebutverylargebooksonaSunday,ashavingamorestaidappearance:andhadbargained,yearsago,foraprodigiousvolumeatabook-stall,fivelinesofwhichutterlyconfoundedhimatanytime,insomuchthathehadnotyetascertainedofwhatsubjectittreated——andwithdrew。Waltersoonappeared。
`CaptainCuttletellsme,MissDombey,\'heeagerlybeganoncomingin——butstoppedwhenhesawherface。
`Youarenotsowellto-day。Youlookdistressed。Youhavebeenweeping。\'
Hespokesokindly,andwithsuchaferventtremorinhisvoice,thatthetearsgushedintohereyesatthesoundofhiswords。
`Walter,\'saidFlorence,gently,`Iamnotquitewell,andIhavebeenweeping。Iwanttospeaktoyou。\'
Hesatdownoppositetoher,lookingatherbeautifulandinnocentface:andhisownturnedpale,andhislipstrembled。
`Yousaid,uponthenightwhenIknewthatyouweresaved——andoh!dearWalter,whatIfeltthatnight,andwhatIhoped!\'——
Heputhistremblinghanduponthetablebetweenthem,andsatlookingather——
`thatIwaschanged。Iwassurprisedtohearyousayso,butIunderstand,now,thatIam。Don\'tbeangrywithme,Walter。Iwastoomuchoverjoyedtothinkofit,then。\'
Sheseemedachildtohimagain。Itwastheingenuous,confiding,lovingchildhesawandheard。Notthedearwoman,atwhosefeethewouldhavelaidtherichesoftheearth。
`YourememberthelasttimeIsawyou,Walter,beforeyouwentaway?\'
Heputhishandintohisbreast,andtookoutalittlepurse。
`Ihavealwayswornitroundmyneck!IfIhadgonedowninthedeep,itwouldhavebeenwithmeatthebottomofthesea。\'
`Andyouwillwearitstill,Walter,formyoldsake?\'
`UntilIdie!\'
Shelaidherhandonhis,asfearlesslyandsimply,asifnotadayhadintervenedsinceshegavehimthelittletokenofremembrance。
`Iamgladofthat。Ishallbealwaysgladtothinkso,Walter。
Doyourecollectthatathoughtofthischangeseemedtocomeintoourmindsatthesametimethatevening,whenweweretalkingtogether?\'
`No!\'heanswered,inawonderingtone。
`Yes,Walter。Ihadbeenthemeansofinjuringyourhopesandprospectseventhen。Ifearedtothinkso,then,butIknowitnow。Ifyouwereable,then,inyourgenerosity,tohidefrommethatyouknewittoo,youcannotdosonow,althoughyoutryasgenerouslyasbefore。
Youdo。Ithankyouforit,Walter,deeply,truly;butyoucannotsucceed。Youhavesufferedtoomuchinyourownhardships,andinthoseofyourdearestrelation,quitetooverlooktheinnocentcauseofalltheperilandafflictionthathasbefallenyou。Youcannotquiteforgetmeinthatcharacter,andwecanbebrotherandsisternolonger。But,dearWalter,donotthinkthatIcomplainofyouinthis。Imighthaveknownit——oughttohaveknownit——butforgotitinmyjoy。AllIhopeisthatyoumaythinkofmelessirksomelywhenthisfeelingisnomoreasecretone;andallIaskis,Walter,inthenameofthepoorchildwhowasyoursisteronce,thatyouwillnotstrugglewithyourself,andpainyourself,formysake,nowthatIknowall!\'
Walterhadlookeduponherwhileshesaidthis,withafacesofullofwonderandamazement,thatithadroomfornothingelse。Nowhecaughtupthehandthattouchedhis,soentreatingly,andhelditbetweenhisown。
`Oh,MissDombey,\'hesaid,`isitpossiblethatwhileIhavebeensufferingsomuch,instrivingwithmysenseofwhatisduetoyou,andmustberenderedtoyou,Ihavemadeyousufferwhatyourwordsdisclosetome?Never,never,beforeHeaven,haveIthoughtofyoubutasthesingle,bright,pure,blessedrecollectionofmyboyhoodandmyyouth。NeverhaveIfromthefirst,andnevershallItothelast,regardyourpartinmylife,butassomethingsacred,nevertobelightlythoughtof,nevertobeesteemedenough,never,untildeath,tobeforgotten。Againtoseeyoulook,andhearyouspeak,asyoudidonthatnightwhenweparted,ishappinesstomethattherearenowordstoutter;andtobelovedandtrustedasyourbrother,isthenextgreatgiftIcouldreceiveandprize!\'
`Walter,\'saidFlorence,lookingathimearnestly,butwithachangingface,`whatisthatwhichisduetome,andmustberenderedtome,atthesacrificeofallthis?\'
`Respect,\'saidWalter,inalowtone。`Reverence。\'