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  “Thenegrowhowaslynchedto-daymightneverhavecommittedthecrimehedidhadnotthewild,disturbingdreamofequalitybeenstirringinhisbrain。Everyspeech,everylook,everyactionwhichencouragesthatideaisacrime。Inthiscounty,wheretheblacksoutnumberus,wemusteitherruleasmastersorbesubmerged。

  “Thismanisstillbelievedbythenegroestopossesssomemiraculouspower。Heisthereforedoublydangerous。Asasharpwarningtothemhemustdie。Hisdeathwilldomoretowardendingthetroublehehaspreparedthanthedeathofadozennegroes。

  “AndasGodismywitness,Ispeakandactnotthroughpassion,butfromthedictatesofconscience。“

  Hemeantit,Grimesdid。Andwhenhesetdowntheywasahush。AndthenWill,thechairman,beguntocalltheroll。

  Ineverbeenmuchofapersontohavebaddreamsornightmaresorthingslikethat。Buteversincethatnightinthatschoolhouse,ifIdohaveanight-

  mare,ittakestheshapeofthatrollbeingcalled。

  Everywordwaslikeaspadegratingandgrittingindampgravelwhenagraveisdug。Itsoundedsotome。

  “SamuelPalmour,howdoyouvote?”thatchair-

  manwouldsay。

  SamuelPalmour,orwhoeveritwas,wouldhisthimselftohisfeet,andhewouldsaysomethinglikethis:

  “Death。“

  Hewouldn\'tsayitjoyous。Hewouldn\'tsayitmad。Hewouldbepalewhenhesaidit,mebby——

  andmebbytrembling。Buthewouldsayitlikeitwasadutyhehadtodo,thatcouldn\'tbegotoutof。Thattheretrialhadlastedsolongtheywasn\'thotbloodleftinnobodyjestthen——onlycoldblood,anddeterminationanddutyandprinciple。

  “BuckHightower,“saysthechairman,“howdoyouvote?”

  “Death,“saysBuck;“deathfortheman。Butsay,can\'twejestLICKthekidandturnhimloose?”

  Andsoitwent,uponesidetheroomanddowntheother。Grimeshadshowed\'emalltheirduty。

  NotbutwhattheyhadintendedtodoitbeforeGrimesspoke。ButhehadputitinsuchawaytheyseenitwassomethingwithevenMOREprincipletoitthantheyhadthoughtitwasbefore。

  “BillyHarden,“saysthechairman,“howdoyouvote?”Billywasthelastofthebunch。Andmosthadvotedfurdeath。Billy,heopenedhismouthandhesquaredhimselfawaytooratesome。Butjestashedoneso,thedooropenedandOldDaddyWitherssteppedin。HehadbeengonesolongI

  hadplumbforgothim。Rightbehindhimwasatall,sparefeller,withblackeyesandstraightiron-grayhair。

  “Ivote,“saysBillyHarden,beginningofhisspeech,“Ivotefordeath。ThereasonuponwhichIbase——“

  ButDoctorKirbyrizupandinterruptedhim。

  “Youaregoingtokillme,“hesaid。Hewaspalebuthewasquiet,andhespokeascalmandsteadyasheeverdoneinhislife。“Youaregoingtokillmelikethecrowdofsneakingcowardsthatyouare。

  AndyouAREsuchcowardsthatyou\'vetalkedtwohoursaboutit,insteadofdoingit。AndI\'lltellyouwhyyou\'vetalkedsomuch:becausenoONE

  ofyoualonewoulddaretodoit,andeverymanofyouintheendwantstogoawaythinkingthattheotherfellowhadthebiggestshareinit。AndnoONEofyouwillfirethegunorpulltherope——you\'lldoitALLTOGETHER,inacrowd,becauseeachonewillwanttotellhimselfheonlytouchedtherope,orthatHISGUNmissed。

  “Iknowyou,byGod!”heshouted,flushingupintoapassion——anditbroughtbloodintotheirfaces,too——“Iknowyourightdowntoyourroots,betterthanyouknowyourselves。“

  Hewaslosingholdofhimself,androaringlikeabullandflingingouttauntsthatmade\'emsquirm。

  Ifhewantedthethingoverquick,hewastakingjestthewaytowarm\'emuptoit。ButIdon\'tthinkhewasfiggeringonanythingthen,orhadanyplanuphissleeve。Hehadmadeuphismindhewasgoingtodie,andhewassomadbecausehecouldn\'tgetinonegoodlickfirstthathewasnighcrazy。Ilookedtoseehimloseallsenseinaminute,andrushamongstthemgunsandenditinawhirl。

  ButjestasIfiggeredhewasonhistiptoesfurthat,andwasgettingupmyownsand,hethrowedalookmyway。Andsomethingsoberedhim。Hestoodtheredigginghisfingernailsintothepalmsofhishandsfuraminute,togethimselfback。Andwhenhespokehewassortofhusky。

  “Thatboythere,“hesays。Andthenhestopsandkindofchokesup。Andinaminutehewasbeggingfurme。Hetells\'emIwasn\'tmixedupinnothing。Hewouldn\'tofdoneitfurhimself,buthebeggedfurme。Nobodyhadpaidmuchattentiontomefromthefirst,exceptBuckHigh-

  towerhadputinagoodwordfurme。Butsome-

  howthedoctorhadgotthecrowdlisteningtohimagin,andtheyalllookedatme。Itgotnexttome。

  Iseenbythewaytheywaslooking,andIfeltitintheair,thattheywasgoingtoletmeoff。

  ButDoctorKirby,hehadalwaysbeenmyfriend。

  ItmademesorefurtoseehimthinkingIwasn\'twithhim。SoIsays:

  “Youbettercanthatlineoftalk。Theydon\'tgetyouwithouttheygetme,too。YouorterknowIain\'taquitter。Yougivemeapain。“

  Andthedoctorandmestoodandlookedateachotherfuraminute。Hegrinnedatme,andallofasuddenwewasneitheroneofusmuchgivingawhoop,furithadcometousbothatoncetwhatawfulgoodfriendswewaswitheachother。

  Butjestthentheycomeaslow,easy-goingsortofavoicefromthebackpartoftheroom。

  ThatfellerthathadcomeinalongwithOldDaddyWitherscomesaunteringdownthemiddleaisle,fumblinginhiscoatpocket,andspeakingashecome。

  “I\'vebeenhearingagreatdealoftalkaboutkillingpeopleinthelastfewminutes,“hesays。

  Everybodyrubberedathim。

  CHAPTERXXI

  Therewassomethingsortofcarelessinhisvoice,likehehadjestdroppedintoseeashow,andithadcometohimsuddenthathewouldenjoyhimselffuraminuteortwotakingpartinit。Buthewasn\'tgoingtogetTOOworkedupaboutit,either,furtheshowmightendbymak-

  inghimtired,afterall。

  Ashecomedowntheaislefumblinginhiscoat,hestoppedandbeguntoslapallhispockets。Thenhisfacecleared,andhedivedintoavestpocket。

  Everybodylookedliketheythoughthewasgoingtopullsomethingimportantoutofit。Buthedidn\'t。Allhepulledoutwasjestoneoftheseherelittleordinaryredbooksofcigarettepapers。Thenhedivedfursomeloosetobacco,andbeguntorollone。Inoticedhisfingerswaslongandwhiteandslimandquick。Butnotexcitedfingers;onlythekindthatseemstosayasmuchastalkingsays。

  Helickedhiscigarette,andthenhesaunteredahead,lookingup。Ashelookedupthelightfellfullonhisfacefurthefirsttime。Hehadhighcheekbonesandiron-grayhairwhichheworeratherlong,andveryblackeyes。AsheliftedhisheadandlookedcloseatDoctorKirby,achangewentoverboththeirfaces。DoctorKirby\'smouthopenedlikehewasgoingtospeak。Sodidtheotherfeller\'s。Onesideofhismouthtwitchedintosomethingthatwastoosurprisedtobeagrin,andoneofhisblackeyebrowslifteditselfupatthesametime。ButneitherhimnorDoctorKirbyspoke。

  HestuckhiscigaretteintohismouthandturnedsidewaysfromDoctorKirby,likehehadn\'tnoticedhimpertic\'ler。Andheturnstothechairman。

  “Will,“hesays。Andeverybodylistens。Youcouldseetheyallknowedhim,andthattheyallrespectedhimtoo,bythewaytheywaswaitingtohearwhathewouldsaytoWill。Buttheywasallimpatientandeager,too,andtheywouldn\'twaitverylong,althoughnowtheywashushingeachotherandleaningforward。

  “Will,“hesays,verypoliteandquiet,“canI

  troubleyouforamatch?”

  Andeverybodyletgotheirbreath。Somewithasnort,liketheyknowedtheywasbeingtrifledwith,anditmade\'emsore。Hiseyebrowsgoesupagin,likeitwasawfulimpoliteinfolkstosnortthat-a-

  way,andheissurprisedtohearit。AndWill,hedigsfuramatchandfindsherandpassesherover。

  Helightshiscigarette,andhedrawsagoodinhale,andheblowsthesmokeoutlikeitdonehimaheapofgood。Heseessomethingsointerestinginthatlittlecloudofsmokethateverybodyelselooksatit,too。

  “DoIunderstand,“hesays,“thatsomeoneisgoingtolynchsomeone,orsomethingofthatsort?”

  “That\'saboutthesizeofit,colonel,“saysWill。

  “Um!”hesays,“Whatfor?”

  Theneverybodystartstotalkallatonce,halfofthemjumpingtotheirfeet,andmakingaperfecthullabalooofexplanationsyoucouldn\'tgetnosenseoutof。Inthemidstofwhichthecoloneltakesachairandsetsdownandcrossesonelegovertheother,swingingtheloosefootandsmilingverypatient。WhichWillremembersheischairmanofthatmeetingandpoundsfurorder。

  “Thankyou,Will,“saysthecolonel,likegettingorderwasapersonalfavourtohim。ThenBillyHardengetsthefloor,andsquaresawayfuralong-

  windedspeechtellingwhy。ButBuckHightowerjumpsupimpatientandsays:

  “We\'vebeenthroughallthat,Billy。Thatmantherehasbeentriedandfoundguilty,colonel,andthere\'sonlyonethingtodo——stringhimup。“

  “Buck,_I_wouldn\'t,“saysthecolonel,verymild。

  ButthattheremanGrimesgetsupverysoberandsteadyandsays:

  “Colonel,youdon\'tunderstand。“Andhetellshimthehullthingashebelievedittobe——whytheyhasvotedthedoctormustdie,theroomwarm-

  ingupaginashetalks,andthecolonellisteningveryinterested。Butyoucouldseebythelooksofhimthatcolonelwouldn\'tneverbeinterestedsomuchinanythingbuthimself,andhisownwayofdoingthings。Inawayhewaslikeafellerthatenjoyshavingonepartofhimselfstandasideandwatchtheplay-actorgameanotherpartofhimselfisactingout。

  “Grimes,“hesays,whenthepock-markedmanfinishes,“Iwouldn\'t。Ireallywouldn\'t。“

  “Colonel,“saysGrimes,showinghisknowledgethattheyareallstandingsolidbehindhim,“WE

  WILL!”

  “Ah,“saysthecolonel,hiseyebrowsgoingup,andhisfacelightinguplikeheisreallybeginningtoenjoyhimselfandisgladhecome,“indeed!”

  “Yes,“saysGrimes,“WEWILL!”

  “Butnot,“saysthecolonel,“beforewehavetalkedthethingoverabit,Ihope?”

  “There\'sbeentoomuchtalkherenow,“yellsBuckHightower,“talk,talk,till,byGod,I\'msickofit!Where\'sthatROPE?”

  “But,listentohim——listentothecolonel!”someoneelsesingsout。Andthentheywasanotherhullabaloo,someyelling“no!”Andthecolonel,verypatient,rollshimselfanothersmokeandlightsitfromthebuttofthefirstone。ButfinallytheyquietsdownenoughsoWillcanputittoavote。

  Whichvotegoesfurthecoloneltospeak。

  “Boys,“hebeginsveryquiet,“Iwouldn\'tlynchthisman。Inthefirstplaceitwilllookbadinthenewspapers,and——“

  “Thenewspapersbed——d!”sayssomeone。

  “Andinthesecondplace,“goesonthecolonel,“itwouldbeagainstthelaw,and——“

  “Thelawbed——d!”saysBuckHightower。

  “There\'sahigherlaw!”saysGrimes。

  “Againstthelaw,“saysthecolonel,risingupandthrowingawayhiscigarette,andgettinginter-

  ested。

  “Iknowhowyoufeelaboutallthisnegrobusi-

  ness。AndIfeelthesameway。Weallknowthatwemustbethenegros\'masters。GrimestherefoundthatoutwhenhecameSouth,andtheideapleasedhimsohehasn\'tbeenabletotalkaboutanythingelsesince。GrimeshasturnedintowhattheNorthernnewspapersthinkatypicalSoutherneris。

  “Boys,thisthingoflynchinggetstobeahabit。

  There\'sbeenanegrolynchedto-day。He\'sthethirdinthiscountyinfiveyears。Theyallneededkilling。IfthethingstoppedthereIwouldn\'tcaresomuch。Butthehabitofillegalkillinggrowswhenitgetsstarted。

  “It\'sgrownonyou。You\'refixingtolynchyourfirstwhitemannow。Ifyoudo,you\'lllynchan-

  othereasier。You\'lllynchoneformurderandthenextforstealinghogsandthenextbecausehe\'sunpopularandthenextbecausehehappenstodunyouforadebt。AndinfiveyearslifewillbeascheapinWatsonCountyasitisinaNewYorkslumwheretheyfeedimmigrantstothefactories。

  You\'llallbetotinggunsandgrudgesandtryingtolyncheachother。

  “Theplacetostopthethingiswhereitstarts。

  Youcan\'thaveitbothways——you\'vegottostandpatonthelaw,orelseseethelawspitonrightandleft,intheend,andNOBODYsafe。It\'seitherlawor——“

  “But,“saysGrimes,“there\'sahigherlawthanthatonthestatutebooks。There\'s——“

  “There\'salotofflub-dub,“saysthecolonel,“abouthigherlawsandunwrittenlaws。Butwe\'vegothighenoughlawwrittenifweliveuptoit。

  There\'s——“

  “ColonelTomBuckner,“saysBuckHightower,“whatkindoflawwasitwhenyoushotEdHowardfifteenyearsago?What——“

  “You\'reoutoforder,“saysthechairman,“ColonelBucknerhasthefloor。AndI\'llremindyou,BuckHightower,that,ontheoccasionyoudragin,ColonelBucknerdidn\'tdoanytalkingabouthigherlawsorunwrittenlaws。Hesentwordtothesherifftocomeandgethimifhedared。“

  “Boys,“saysthecolonel,“I\'mpreachingyouhigherdoctrinethanI\'velivedby,andI\'vemadenoclaimtobebetterormoremoralthananyofyou。I\'mnot。I\'minthesameboatwithallofyou,andItellyouit\'suptoALLofustostoplynch-

  ingsinthiscounty——tosetourfacesagainstit。

  Itellyou——“

  “Isthatallyou\'vegottosaytous,colonel?”

  Thequestioncomeoutofagroupthathaddrawednearertogetherwhilstthecolonelwastalking。

  Theywastiredoflisteningtotalkandarguments,andshowedit。

  Thecolonelstoppedspeakingshortwhentheyflungthatquestionathim。Hisfacechanged。

  Heturnedseriousallover。Andheletloosejestoneword:

  “NO!”

  Notveryloud,butwitharinginitthatsoundedlikedanger。Andhegot\'emwaitingagin,andhangingonhiswords。

  “No!”herepeats,louder,“notall。Ihavethistosaytoyou——“

  Andhepausedagin,pointingonelongwhitefingeratthecrowd——

  “IFYOULYNCHTHISMANYOUMUSTKILLMEFIRST!”

  Icouldn\'tgetawayfromthinking,ashestoodtheremakingthemtakethatin,thattheywassome-

  thinglikeaplay-actorabouthim。Buthewasinearnest,andhewouldplayittotheend,furhelikedthefeelingsitmadecirculatethroughhisframe。Andtheysawhewasinearnest。

  “You\'lllynchhim,willyou?”hesays,akindofpassiongettingintohisvoicefurthefirsttime,andhiseyesglittering。“Youthinkyouwill?

  Well,youWON\'T!

  “Youwon\'tbecause_I_sayNOT。Doyouhear?

  Icamehereto-nighttosavehim。

  “YoumightstringHIMupandnotbecalledtoaccountforit。ButhowaboutME?”

  Hetookastepforward,and,lookingfromfacetofacewithadareinhiseyes,hewenton:

  “IsthereamanamongyoufoolenoughtothinkyoucouldkillTomBucknerandnotpayforit?”

  Helet\'emallthinkofthatforjestanotherminutebeforehespokeagin。Hisfacewasaswhiteasapieceofpaper,andhisnostrilswasworking,buteverythingelseabouthimwasquiet。Helookedthemasterofthemallashestoodthere,ColonelTomBucknerdid——straightandsplendidandkeen。Andtheyfeltthedangerinhim,andtheyfeltjesthowfurhewouldgo,nowhewasstarted。

  “Youdidn\'twanttolistentomeabitago,“hesaid。“Nowyoumust。Listenandchoose。Youcan\'tkillthatmanunlessyoukillmetoo。

  “TRYIT,IFYOUTHINKYOUCAN!”

  Hereachedoverandtookfromtheteacher\'sdeskthesheetofpaperWillhadusedtocheckoffthenameofeachmanandhowhevoted。Hehelditupinfrontofhimandeverymanlookedatit。

  “Youknowme,“hesays。“YouknowIdonotbreakmyword。AndIpromiseyouthatunlessyoudokillmeheretonight——yes,asGodismywitness,ITHREATENyou——IwillspendeverydollarIownandeveryatomofinfluenceIpossesstobringeachoneofyoutojusticeforthatman\'smurder。“

  Theyknowed,thatcrowddid,thatkillingamanlikeColonelBuckner——aleaderandabigmaninthatpartofthestate——wasadifferentpropositionfromkillingastrangerlikeDoctorKirby。ThesenseofwhatitwouldmeantokillColonelBucknerwassinkinginto\'em,andshowingontheirfaces。

  Andnoonecouldlookathimstandingthere,withhisdeterminationblazingoutofhim,andnotunder-

  standthatunlesstheydidkillhimaswellasDoctorKirbyhe\'ddojestwhathesaid。

  “Itoldyou,“hesaid,notraisinghisvoice,butdroppingit,andmakingitsomehowcomecreepingnearertoeveryonebydoingthat,“Itoldyouthefirstwhitemanyoulynchedwouldleadtootherlynchings。Letmeshowyouwhatyou\'reupagainstto-night。

  “Killthemanandtheboyhere,andyoumustkillme。Killme,andyoumustkillOldManWithers,too。“

  Everyoneturnedtowardthedoorashemen-

  tionedOldManWithers。Hehadneverbeenveryfarintotheroom。

  “Oh,he\'sgone,“saidColonelTom,astheyturnedtowardthedoor,andthenlookedateachother。“Gonehome。Gonehomewiththenameofeverymanpresent。Don\'tyouseeyou\'dhavetokillOldManWitherstoo,ifyoukilledme?Andthen,HISWIFE!Andthen——howmanymore?

  “Doyouseeitwiden——thatpoolofblood?Doyouseeitspreadandspread?”

  Helookeddownatthefloor,likehereallyseenitthere。Hehad\'emgoingnow。Theyshowedit。

  “Ifyoushedonedrop,“hewenton,“youmustshedmore。Can\'tyouseeit——wideninganddeep-

  ening,wideninganddeepening,tillyou\'rewadingkneedeepinit——tillitclimbstoyourwaists——tillitclimbstoyourthroatsandchokesyou?”

  Itwasahorribleidea,thewayheplayedthattherepoolofbloodandheshudderedlikehefeltitclimbinguphimself。Andtheyfeltit。Afewmencan\'tkillahull,derncountyandgetawaywithit。

  Thewayheputitthat\'swhattheywasupagainst。

  “Now,“saysColonelTom,“whatmanamongyouwantstostartit?”

  Nobodymoved。Hewaitedaminute。Stillnobodymoved。Theyalllookedathim。Itwasawfulplainjestwheretheywouldhavetobegin。

  Itwasawfulplainjestwhatitwouldallendupin。

  AndIguesswhentheylookedathimstandingthere,sofineandstraightandsplendid,itjestseemedplumbunpossibletomakeamove。Therewasaspiritinhimthatcouldn\'tbekilled。DoctorKirbysaidafterwardthatwaswhatcomeofbeingreal“quality,“whichwaswhatColonelTomwas——

  itwasthatinhimthatlicked\'em。Itwasthebestpartoftheirownselves,andthebestpartoftheirowncountry,speakingoutofhimtothem,thatdoneit。Mebbyso。Anyhow,afteraminutemoreofthatstrain,afellerbythedoorpicksuphisgunoutofthecornerwithascrape,andhistsittohisshoulderandwalksout。AndthenColonelTomsaystoWill,withhiseyebrowgoingup,andthatone-sidedgrincomingontohisfaceagin:

  “Will,perhapsamotiontoadjournwouldbeinorder?”

  CHAPTERXXII

  SomanydifferentkindsoffeelinghadbeenchasingaroundinsideofmethatIhadnumbspotsinmyemotionalornamentsandintellectualorgans。TheroomclearedoutofeverybodybutDoctorKirbyandColonelTomandme。Butthesoundofthecrowdgoingintotheroad,andtheirfootstepsdyingaway,andthenafterthattheirvoicesquitting,allmadebutverylittlesensetome。Icouldscarcelyrealizethatthedan-

  gerwasover。

  Ihadn\'tbeenpayingmuchattentiontoDoctorKirbywhilethecolonelwasmakingthatgrand-

  standplayofhis\'n,andgettingawaywithit。Doc-

  torKirbywassettinginhischairwithhisheadsortofsunkonhischest。Iguesshewashavingahardtimehimselftorealizethatallthedangerwaspast。

  Butmebbyitwasn\'tthat——helookedlikehemightreallyofforgotwherehewasfuraminute,andmightbethinkingofsomethingthathadhappenedalongtimeago。

  Thecolonelwasleaningupagintheteacher\'sdesk,smokingandlookingatDoctorKirby。

  DoctorKirbyturnsaroundtowardthecolonel。

  “Youhavesavedmylife,“hesays,gettingupoutofhischair,likehehadanotiontostepoverandthankhimfurit,butwassomehownotquitesurehowthatwouldbetook。

  Thecolonellooksathimsilentfurasecond,andthenhesays,withoutsmiling:

  “DoyouflatteryourselfitwasbecauseIthinkitworthanything?”

  Thedoctordon\'tanswer,andthenthecolonelsays:

  “HasitoccurredtoyouthatImayhavesaveditbecauseIwantit?”

  “WANTit?”

  “DoyouknowofanyonewhohasabetterrighttoTAKEitthanIhave?PerhapsIsaveditbecauseitBELONGStome——doyousupposeIwantanyoneelsetokillwhatIhavethebestrighttokill?”

  “Tom,“saysDoctorKirby,reallypuzzled,tojudgefromhisactions,“Idon\'tunderstandwhatmakesyousayyouhavetherighttotakemylife。“

  “Dave,whereismysisterburied?”astsColonelTom。

  “Buried?”saysDoctorKirby。“MyGod,Tom,issheDEAD?”

  “Iaskyou,“saysColonelTom。

  “AndIaskyou,“saysDoctorKirby。

  Andtheylookedateachother,bothwonderized,andtryingtounderstand。Anditbustedonmeallatoncetwhothemtwomenreallywas。

  Iorterknoweditsooner。WhenthecolonelwasfirstcalledColonelTomBuckneritstruckmeI

  knowedthename,andknowedsomethingaboutit。

  Butthingswhichwasmyownconsarnswasattract-

  ingmyattentionsohardIcouldn\'trememberwhatitwasIorterknowaboutthatname。ThenIseenhimandDoctorKirbyknowedeachotherwhentheygotthatfirstsquarelook。Thatorterofputmeonthetrack,thatandalotofotherthingsthathadhappenedbefore。ButIdidn\'tpiecethingstogetherlikeIorterdone。

  Itwasn\'tuntilColonelTomBucknercalledhim“Dave“andasthimabouthissisterthatIseenwhoDoctorKirbymustreallybe。

  HEWASTHATTHEREDAVIDARMSTRONG!

  Andthebrotherofthegirlhehadrunoffwithhadjestsavedhislife。Bythewayhewastalking,hehadsaveditsimplybecausehethoughthehadthefirstcallonwhattodowithit。

  “Whereisshe?”astsColonelTom。

  “Iaskyou,“saysDoctorKirby——orDavidArmstrong——agin。

  Well,Ithinkstomyself,hereiswhereDanielputsoneacrosttheplate。AndIbreaksin:

  “Youbothgotanotherguesscoming,“Isays。

  “Sheain\'tburiedanywheres。Sheain\'tevendead。

  She\'slivinginalittletowninIndianycalledAthens——orshewasabouteighteenmonthsago。“

  TheybothlooksatmeliketheythinksIamcrazy。

  “Whatdoyouknowaboutit?”saysDoctorKirby。

  “AreyouDavidArmstrong?”saysI。

  “Yes,“sayshe。

  “Well,“Isays,“youspentfourorfivedayswithinastone\'sthrowofherayearagolastsummer,andsheknoweditwasyouandhidherselfawayfromyou。“

  ThenItellsthemabouthowIfirsthappenedtohearofDavidArmstrong,andallIhadhearnfromMartha。AndhowIhadstayedattheDavisesinTennesseeandgotsomemoreofthesamestoryfromGeorge,theoldniggerthere。

  “But,Danny,“saysthedoctor,“whydidn\'tyoutellmeallthis?”

  IwasjestgoingtosaythatnotknowinghewasthatthereDavidArmstrongIdidn\'tthinkitanyofhisbusiness,whenColonelTom,hesaystoDoctorKirby——ImeantoDavidArmstrong:

  “Whyshouldyoubeconcernedastoherwhere-

  abouts?Youruinedherlifeandthendesertedher。“

  DoctorKirby——ImeanDavidArmstrong——

  standstherewiththebloodgoinguphisfaceintohisforeheadslowandred。

  “Tom,“hesays,“youandIseemtobeworkingatcrosspurposes。MaybeitwouldhelpsomeifyouwouldtellmejusthowbadlyyouthinkI

  treatedLucy。“

  “Youruinedherlife,andthendesertedher,“

  saysColonelTomagin,lookingathimhard。

  “IDIDN\'Tdeserther,“saidDoctorKirby。“ShegotdisgustedandleftME。Leftmewithoutachancetoexplainmyself。Asfarasruiningherlifeisconcerned,IsupposethatwhenImarriedher——“

  “Marriedher!”criesoutthecolonel。AndDavidArmstrongstaresathimwithhismouthopen。

  “MyGod!Tom,“hesays,“didyouthink——?”

  Andtheybothcometoanotherstandstill。

  Andthentheytalkedsomemoreandonlygotmoremixedupthanever。Furthedoctorthinksshehaslefthim,andColonelTomthinkshehaslefther。

  “Tom,“saysthedoctor,“supposeyouletmetellmystory,andyou\'llseewhyLucyleftme。“

  HimandColonelTomhadbeenchumstogetherwhentheywentthroughPrinceton,itseems——I

  pickedthatupfromthetalkandsomeofhisstoryIlearnedafterward。HehadcomefromOhiointhebeginning,andhisdadhadhadconsiderablemoney。Whichhehadenjoyedspendingofit,andwhenhewasayoungfellerneverlikedtoworkatnothingelse。Itsuitedhim。ColonelTom,hewasconsiderablelikehiminthatway。Sotheywasgoodpalswhentheywastothatschooltogether。

  Theybothquitaboutthesametime。Acoupleofyearsafterthat,whentheywasbothabouttwenty-fiveorsixyearsold,theyrunacrosteachotheraccidentalinNewYorkoneautumn。

  Thedoctor,hewastherefiggeringongoingtoworkatsomethingorother,buttheywassomanythingstodohewasfindingithardtomakeachoice。

  Hisfatherwasdeadbythattime,andlookingfurajobinNewYork,thewayhehadbeendoingit,wasawfulexpensive,andhewasrunningshortofmoney。Hisfatherhadlethimspendsomuchwhilsthewasalivehewasverydisappointedtofindouthecouldn\'tkeeponforeverlookingfurworkthat-a-way。

  SoColonelTomsayswhynotcomedownhomeintoTennesseewithhimfurawhile,andtheywillbothtryandfiggeroutwhatheortergotoworkat。

  Itwasthefalloftheyear,andtheywaspurtygoodhuntingaroundtherewhereColonelTomlived,andDavehadn\'tneverbeenSouthany,andsohegoes。Hefiggershebettertakeagood,longvaca-

  tion,anyhow。Furifhegoestoworkthatwinterorthenextspring,andtiesupwithsomejobthatkeepshiminanoffice,theremaybemonthsandmonthspassbybeforehehasanotherchanceatavacation。Thatistheworstpartofajob——I

  foundthatoutmyself——younevercantellwhenyouaregoingtogetshutofit,onceyouarefoolenoughtostartin。

  InTennesseehehadmetMissLucy。WhichherweddingtoPrentMcMakinwasbilledfurtocomeoffaboutthefirstofNovember,jestamonthaway。

  “Idon\'tknowwhetherIevertoldyouornot,“

  saysthedoctor,“butIwasengagedtobemarriedmyself,Tom,whenIwentdowntoyourplace。

  Thatwaswhatstartedallthetrouble。

  “Youknowengagementsarelikevaccina-

  tion——sometimestheytake,andsometimestheydon\'t。Ofcourse,IhadthoughtatonetimeIwasinlovewiththisgirlIwasengagedto。WhenIfoundoutIwasn\'t,Ishouldhavetoldhersorightaway。ButIdidn\'t。I

  thoughtthatshewouldgettiredofmeafterawhileandturnmeloose。Igaveherplentyofchancestoturnmeloose。Iwantedhertobreaktheengagementinsteadofme。Butshewouldn\'ttakethehints。ShehungonlikeanOhioGrandArmyveterantoacountrypost-office。

  AbouthalfthetimeIdidn\'treadherletters,andaboutnineteentwentiethsofthetimeIdidn\'tanswerthem。Theysayhellhathnofurylikeawomanscorned。Butitisn\'tso——itmakesthemallthefonderofyou。Igotintothehabitofthink-

  ingthatwhileEmmamightbeengagedtome,I

  wasn\'tengagedtoEmma。NotbutwhatEmmawasanicegirl,youknow,but——

  “Well,ImetLucy。Wefellinlovewitheachother。Itjusthappened。Ikeptintendingtowritetotheothergirlandtellherplainlythateverythingwasoff。ButIkeptpostponingit。

  Itseemedlikeadeuceofahardjobtotackle。

  “But,finally,Ididwriteher。ThatwastheverydayLucypromisedtothrowPrentMcMakinoverandmarryme。YouknowhowdeterminedallyourpeoplewerethatLucyshouldmarryMcMakin,Tom。Theyhadbroughtherupwiththeideathatshewasgoingto,and,ofcourse,shewasboredwithhimforthatreason。

  “Wedecidedthebestplanwouldbetoslipawayquietlyandgetmarried。Weknewitwouldraisearow。ButtherewasboundtobearowanyhowwhentheyfoundsheintendedtomarrymeinsteadofMcMakin。Sowefiguredwemightjustaswellbeawayfromthere。

  “WeleftyourplaceearlyonthemorningofOctober31,1888——doyourememberthedate,Tom?WetookthetrainforClarksville,Tennessee,andgotthereabouttwoo\'clockthatafternoon。

  Isupposeyouhavebeeninthatinterestingcentreofthetobaccoindustry。IfyouhaveyoumayrememberthatthecourthouseofMontgomeryCountyisrightacrossthestreetfromthebesthotel。

  Igotalicenseandapreacherwithoutanytrouble,andweweremarriedinthehotelparlourthatafternoon。Oneofthehotelclerksandthecountyclerkhimselfwerethewitnesses。

  “WewenttoCincinnatiandfromtheretoChicago。TherewegotroomsoutontheSouthSide——HydePark,theycalledit。AndIgotmeajob。Ihadsomemoneyleft,butnotenoughtobuykohinoorsandrace-horseswith。Beside,Ireallywantedtogettowork——wanteditforthefirsttimeinmylife。YourememberyoungClaytoninourclass?Heandsomeotherenterprisingcitizenshadabuildingandloanassociation。Suchthingsarenodoubtimmoral,butIwenttoworkforhim。

  “WehadbeeninChicagoaweekwhenLucywrotehomewhatshehaddone,andbeggedfor-

  givenessforbeingsoabruptaboutit。Atleast,Isupposethatiswhatshewrote。Itwas——“

  “Irememberexactlywhatshewrote,“saysColonelTom。

  “Ineverknewexactly,“saysthedoctor。“Thesamemailthatbroughtwordfromyouthatyourgrandfatherhadhadsomesortofastroke,asaconsequenceofourelopement,broughtalsotwolettersfromEmma。TheyhadbeenforwardedfromNewYorktoTennessee,andyouhadfor-

  wardedthemtoChicago。

  “Thoselettersbeganthetrouble。Yousee,I

  hadn\'ttoldEmmawhenIwrotebreakingofftheengagementthatIwasgoingtogetmarriedthenextday。AndEmmahadn\'treceivedmyletter,orelsehadmadeuphermindtoignoreit。Anyhow,thoseletterswereregularlove-letters。

  “Ihadn\'treallyreadoneofEmma\'slettersformonths。ButsomehowIcouldn\'thelpreadingthese。Ihadforgottenwhatagiftfortheexpres-

  sionofsentimentEmmahad。Shefairlyrevelledinit,Tom。Thoselettersweresimplywrithingwithclingingfemaleadjectives。TheySQUIRMED

  withaffection。

  “YoumayrememberthatLucywasaratherjealoussortofaperson。Rightinthemidstofheralarmandgriefandself-reproachoverhergrand-

  father,andinthemidstofmyeffortstocomforther,shespiedthefemininehandwritingonthosetwoletters。Ihadglancedthroughthemhurriedly,andlaidthemonthetable。

  “Tom,Iwasinbad。Thedatesonthem,youknow,weresoRECENT。Ididn\'twantLucytoreadthem。ButIdidn\'tdaretoACTasifIdidn\'twantherto。SoIhandedthemover。

  “Isuppose——toabridewhohadonlybeenmarriedalittlemorethanaweek——andwhohadhurthergrandfathernearlytodeathinthemarry-

  ing,thoselettersmusthavesoundedratherodd。

  Itriedtoexplain。Butallmyexplanationsonlyseemedtomakethecaseworseforme。Lucywasfuriouslyjealous。Wereallyhadadevilofarowbeforewewerethroughwithit。ItriedtotellherthatIlovednoonebuther。ShepointedoutthatImusthavesaidmuchthesamesortofthingtoEmma。ShesaidshewasalmostassorryforEmmaasshewasforherself。WhenLucygotthroughwithme,Tom,Ilookedlikethirtycentsandfeltliketwenty-fiveofthatwasplugged。

  “Ididn\'thavesenseenoughtoknowthatitwasmostofitgriefoverhergrandfather,andnervesandhysteria,andthefactthatshewasonlyeighteenyearsoldandlonely,andthatbeingabridehadacertainamounttodowithit。ShehadtoldmethatIwasabeast,andmademefeellikeone;andI

  tookthewholethinghardandbelievedher。I

  madeafine,five-acttragedyoutofajealousfitImighthavesoftenedintocomedyifIhadhadthewit。

  “Iwasn\'tsoveryoldmyself,andIhadn\'teverbeenmarriedbefore。Ishouldhavekeptmymouthshutuntilitwasallover,andthenwhenshebegantocryIshouldhavecoaxedherupandmadeherfeellikeIwastheonlysolidthingtohangontointhewholeworld。

  “Butthebottomhaddroppedoutoftheuni-

  verseforme。Shehadsaidshehatedme。Iwasfoolenoughtobelieveher。Iwentdowntownandbegantodrink。Icomehomelatethatnight。

  Thepoorgirlhadbeenwaitingupforme——waitingforhours,andbecomingmoreandmorefrightenedwhenIdidn\'tshowup。Shewasoverherjealousfit,Isuppose。IfIhadcomehomeingoodshape,orinanythinglikeit,wewouldhavemadeupthenandthere。Butmyconditionstoppedallthat。

  Iwasn\'tsodrunkbutthatIsawherfacechangewhensheletmein。Shewasdisgusted。

  “InthemorningIwassickandfeverish。Iwasmorethandisgustedwithmyself。Iwasindespair。

  Ifshehadhatedmebefore——andshehadsaidshedid——whatmustshedonow?ItseemedtomethatIhadsunksofarbeneathherthatitwouldtakeyearstogetback。Itdidn\'tseemworthwhilemakinganypleaformyself。Yousee,Iwasyoungandhadseriousstreaksallthroughme。Sowhenshetoldmethatshehadwrittenhomeagain,andwasgoingback——wasgoingtoleaveme,Ididn\'tseethatitwasonlyabluff。Ididn\'tseethatshewasreallyonlywaitingtoforgiveme,ifIgaveherachance。Istarteddowntowntothebuildingandloanoffice,wonderingwhenshewouldleave,andiftherewasanythingIcoulddotomakeherchangehermind。ImustrepeatagainthatIwasafool——thatIneededonlytospeakoneword,hadIbutknownit。

  “IfIhadgonestraighttowork,everythingmighthavecomearoundallrighteventhen。ButI

  didn\'t。Ihadthatwhat\'s-the-usefeeling。AndI

  stoppedinatthePalmerHousebartogetsome-

  thingtosortofpullmetogether。

  “WhileIwasthere,whoshouldcomeuptothebarandorderadrinkbutPrentMcMakin。“

  “Yes!”saysColonelTom,asnearexcitedasheevergot。

  “Yes,“saysArmstrong,“nobodyelse。Wesaweachotherinthemirrorbehindthebar。Idon\'tknowwhetheryouevernoticeditornot,Tom,butMcMakin\'seyeshadawayoflookingalmostlikecross-eyeswhenhewasstartledorexcited。Theywereagooddealtooneartogetheratanytime。

  Hegavemesuchalookwhenoureyesmetinthemirrorthat,foraninstant,Ithoughtthathein-

  tendedtodomesomemischief——shootme,youknow,fortakinghisbride-to-beawayfromhim,orsomefoolthinglikethat。ButasweturnedtowardeachotherIsawhehadnointentionofthatsort。“

  “Hadn\'the?”saysColonelTom,mightyin-

  terested。

  “No,“saysthedoctor,lookingatColonelTomverypuzzled,“didyouthinkhehad?”

  “Yes,Idid,“saysthecolonel,rightthoughtful。

  “Onthecontrary,“saysArmstrong,“wehadadrinktogether。Andhecongratulatedme。Mademequitealittlespeech,infact;oneoftheflowerykind,youknow,Tom,andsaidthatheboremenorancour,andallthat。“

  “Thedeucehedid!”saysColonelTom,verylow,likehewastalkingtohimself。“Andthenwhat?”

  “Then,“saysthedoctor,“then——letmesee——

  it\'sallalongtimeago,youknow,andMcMakin\'spartinthewholethingisn\'treallyimportant。“

  “I\'mnotsosureitisn\'timportant,“saysthecolonel,“butgoon。“

  “Then,“saysArmstrong,“wehadanotherdrinktogether。Infact,alotofthem。Wegotawfullyfriendly。AndlikeafoolItoldhimofmyquarrelwithLucy。“

  “LIKEafool,“saysColonelTom,noddinghishead。“Goon。“

  “Thereisn\'tmuchmoretotell,“saysthedoctor,“exceptthatImadeaworseidiotofmyselfyet,andleftMcMakinabouttwoo\'clockintheafter-

  noon,asnearasIcanrecollect。Somewhereaboutteno\'clockthatnightIwenthome。Lucywasgone。Ihaven\'tseenhersince。“

  “Dave,“saysColonelTom,“didMcMakinhappentomentiontoyou,thatday,justwhyhewasinChicago?”

  “Isupposeso,“saysthedoctor。“Idon\'tknow。

  Maybenot。Thatwastwentyyearsago。Why?”

  “Because,“saysColonelTom,verygrimandquiet,“becauseyourfirstthoughtastohisintentionwhenhemetyouinthebarwasMYideaalso。I

  thoughthewenttoChicagotosettlewithyou。

  Yousee,IgottoChicagothatsameafternoon。“

  “Thesameday?”

  “Yes。Weweretohavecometogether。ButImissedthetrain,andhegotthereadayaheadofme。Hewaswaitingatthehotelformetojoinhim,andthenweweregoingtolookyouuptogether。HefoundyoufirstandIneverdidfindyou。“

  “ButIdon\'texactlyunderstand,“saysthedoctor。“Yousayhehadtheideaofshootingme。“

  “Idon\'tunderstandeverythingmyself,“saysColonelTom。“ButIdounderstandthatPrentMcMakinmusthaveplayedsomesortofatwo-

  facedgame。Heneversaidawordtomeabouthavingseenyou。

  “Listen,“hegoeson。“WhenyouandLucyranawayitnearlykilledourgrandfather。Infact,itfinallydidkillhim。WhenwegotLucy\'sletterthattoldyouwereinChicagoIwentuptobringherbackhome。Wedidn\'tknowwhatweweregoingtodo,McMakinandI,butwewerebothagreedthatyouneededkilling。AndhesworethathewouldmarryLucyanyhow,even——“

  “MARRYHER!”singsoutthedoctor,“butweWERE

  married。“

  “Dave,“ColonelTomsaysveryslowandsteady,“youkeepSAYINGyouweremarried。Butit\'sstrange——it\'srightSTRANGEaboutthatmarriage。“

  Andhelookedatthedoctorhardandclose,likehewoulddragthetruthoutofhim,andthedoctormethislookfreeandopen。YouwouldofthoughtColonelTomwassayingwithhislook:“YouMUST

  tellmethetruth。“Andthedoctorwithhiswasanswering:“IHAVEtoldyouthetruth。“

  “But,Tom,“saysthedoctor,“thatlettershewroteyoufromChicagomust——“

  “DoyouknowwhatLucywrote?”interruptsColonelTom。“Irememberexactly。Itwassim-

  ply:\'FORGIVEME。ILOVEDHIMSO。IAMHAPPY。

  IKNOWITISWRONG,BUTILOVEHIMSOYOUMUST

  FORGIVEME。\'“

  “Butcouldn\'tyoutellfromTHATweweremarried?”

  criesoutthedoctor。

  “Shedidn\'tmentionit,“saysColonelTom。

  “Shesupposedthatherownfamilyhadenoughfaithinhertotakeitforgranted,“saysthedoctor,veryscornful,hisfacegettingred。

  “Butwait,Dave,“saysColonelTom,quietandcool。“Don\'tblusterwithme。Therearestillalotofthingstobeexplained。Andthatmarriageisoneofthem。

  “Togobackabit。Yousayyougottothehousesomewherearoundteno\'clockthateveningandfoundLucygone。Doyourememberthedayofthemonth?”

  “ItwasNovember14,1888。“

  “Exactly,“saysColonelTom。“IgottoChicagoatsixo\'clockofthatveryday。AndIwentatoncetotheaddressinLucy\'sletter。Igottherebetweensevenandeighto\'clock。Shewasgone。

  Mythoughtwasthatyoumusthavegotwindofmycomingandpersuadedhertoleavewithyouinordertoavoidme——althoughIdidn\'tseehowyoucouldknowwhenIwouldgetthere,either,whenIthoughtitover。“

  “Andyouhaveneverseenhersince,“saysArm-

  strong,pondering。

  “IHAVEseenhersince,“saysColonelTom,“andthatisonethingthatmakesmesayyourstoryneedsfurtherexplanation。“

  “Butwhere——when——didyouseeher?”aststhedoctor,mightyexcited。

  “Iamcomingtothat。Iwentbackhomeagain。

  AndinJulyofthenextyearIheardfromher。“

  “Heardfromher?”

  “Byletter。ShewasinGalesburg,Illinois,ifyouknowwherethatis。Shewaslivingtherealone。Andshewasalmostdestitute。Iwrotehertocomehome。Shewouldnot。Butshehadtolive。IgotridofsomeofourpropertyinTen-

  nessee,andtookenoughcashuptherewithmetofixher,inadecentsortofway,fortherestofherlife,andputitinthebank。Iwaswithhertherefortendays;thenIwentbackhometogetAuntLucyDavistohelpmeinanotherefforttopersuadehertoreturn。ButwhenIgotbackNorthwithAuntLucyshehadgone。“

  “Gone?”

  “Yes,andwhenwereturnedwithouthertoTennesseetherewasalettertellingusnottotrytofindher。Wethought——Ithought——thatshemighthavetakenupwithyouonceagain。“

  “But,myGod!Tom,“thedoctorbustsout,“youwerewithhertendaysthereinGalesburg!

  Didn\'tshetellyouthen——couldn\'tyoutellfromthewaysheacted——thatshehadmarriedme?”

  “That\'stheoddthing,Dave,“saysthecolonel,veryslowandthoughtful。“That\'swhatissoverystrangeaboutitall。Imerelyassumedbymyatti-

  tudethatyouwerenotmarried,andsheletmeassumeitwithoutaprotest。“

  “Butdidyouaskher?”

  “Askher?No。Can\'tyouseethattherewasnoreasonwhyIshouldaskher?Iwassure。Andbeingsureofit,naturallyIdidn\'ttalkaboutittoher。YoucanunderstandthatIwouldn\'t,can\'tyou?Infact,Inevermentionedyoutoher。Shenevermentionedyoutome。“

  “Youmusthavemistakenher,Tom。“

  “Idon\'tthinkit\'spossible,Dave,“saidthecolonel。“Youcanmistakewordsandexplanationsagooddealeasierthanyoucanmistakeanatmos-

  phere。No,Dave,Itellyouthatthere\'ssomethingoddaboutit——marriedornot,Lucydidn\'tBELIEVE

  herselfmarriedthelasttimeIsawher。“

  “ButsheMUSThaveknown,“saysthedoctor,asmuchtohimselfastothecolonel。“SheMUST

  haveknown。“Anyonecouldoftoldbythewayhesaiditthathewasn\'tlying。IcouldseethatColonelTombelievedinhim,too。TheywasbothsickingtheirintellectsontothejoboffiggeringouthowitwasLucydidn\'tknow。Finallythedoctorsaysverythoughtful:

  “WhateverbecameofPrentissMcMakin,Tom?”

  “Dead,“saysColonelTom,“quiteawhileago。“

  “H-m,“saysthedoctor,stillthinkinghard。

  AndthenlooksatColonelTomliketheywasanideainhishead。Whichhedon\'tspeakherout。

  ButColonelTomseemstounderstand。

  “Yes,“hesays,noddinghishead。“Ithinkyouareontherighttracknow。Yes——Ishouldn\'twonder。“

  Well,theyputsthisandthattogether,andtheyagreesthatwhateverhappenedtomakethingshardtoexplainmustofhappenedonthatdaythatPrentissMcMakinmetthedoctorinthebar-room,anddidn\'tshoothim,ashehadmadehisbragshewould。MustofhappenedbetweenthetimethatafternoonwhenPrentissMcMakinleftthedoctorandthetimeColonelTomwentouttoseehissisterandfoundshehadwent。Mustofhappenedsome-

  howthroughPrentMcMakin。

  WegoeshomewithColonelTomthatnight。AndthenextdayallthreeofusisonourwaytoAthens,Indiany,whereIhadseenMissLucyat。

  CHAPTERXXIII

  Furmypart,asthetrainkeptgettingfurtherandfurthernorth,myfeelingskeptgettingmoreandmoremixed。ItcometomethatImightbesteeringstraightfurabunchoftrouble。Thefeelingthatsadnessandmelancholyandseriousnesswaslayingaheadofmekeptmefromreallyenjoyingthemdollar-apiecemealsonthetrain。ItwasMarthathatdoneit。AllthispastandgonelovestoryIhadbeenhearingaboutremindedmeofMartha。AndIwassteeringstraighttowardher,andnowayoutofit。HowdidIknowbutwhatthattheregirlmightbeexpect-

  ingfurtomarryme,orsomethinglikethat?NotbutwhatIwasawfulinlovewithherwhilstwewastogether。Butithadn\'treallysetinonmeverydeep。Ihadn\'tforgotaboutherrightaway。ButpurtysoonIhadgottoforgettingheroftenerthanIrememberedher。Andnowitwasn\'tnousetalk-

  ing——Ijestwasn\'tinlovewithMarthanomore,anddidn\'thavenoambitiontobe。Ihadwentaroundthecountryagoodbit,andgotintrustedinotherthings,andsawseveralothergirlsIlikedpurtywell。

  Keepingsteadyinlovewithjestonegirlismightyhardifyouaremovingaroundagoodbit。

  ButIwasconsiderableworriedaboutMartha。

  Shewasanawfulromancefulkindofgirl。Andeventhemostsensiblekindissaidtobefoolsaboutgettingtheirheartsbrokeandpiningawayanddyingoverafeller。IwouldhatetothinkMarthahadpinedherselfsick。

  Icouldn\'tshutmyeyestothefactwewasen-

  gagedtoeachotherlegal,allright。Andifshewantedtoactmeanaboutitandtakeittoacourtitwouldlikelybebindingonme。ThenI

  saystomyselfissheismeanenoughtodothatI\'llbedernedifIdon\'tgotojailbeforeImarryher,andstaythere。

  Andthenmyconsciencegottoworkinginsideofmeagin。Andapictureofhergettingthinandnoteatinghervittlesregularandwaitingandwaitingfurmetoshowup,andmeneverdoingit,cometome。AndIfeltsorryfurpoorMartha,andthoughtmebbyIwouldmarryherjesttokeepherfromdying。Furyouwouldfeelpurtytoughifagirlwastogetsostuckonyouitkilledher。NotthatIeverseenthatreallyhappen,either;butfirstandlasttherehasbeenconsiderabletalkaboutit。

  Itwasn\'tbutwhatIlikedMarthawellenough。

  Itwastheideaofgettingmarried,andstayingmarried,mademefeelsoanxious。Beingmarriedmayworkoutallrightfursomefolks。ButI

  knoweditneverwouldworkanywithme。Ornotfurlong。BecausewhyshouldIwanttobetieddowntooneplace,orhaveasteadyjob?Thatwouldbeameanwaytolive。

  Ofcourse,withapersonthatwasthedoctor\'sageitwouldbedifferent。Hehaddonehisrunningaroundandwouldbewillingtosettledownnow,I

  guessed。Thatis,ifhecouldgethisdifferenceswiththishereBucknerfamilypatchedupsatisfactory。

  Iwonderedwhetherhewouldbeabletoornot。

  HimandColonelTomweretalkingconstantonthetrainallthewayup。FromthelittlestretchesoftheirtalkIcouldn\'thelphearing,Iguessedeachonewastellingtheotherallthathadhappenedtohiminthetimethathadpassedby。ColonelTomwhatkindofalifehehadlived,andhowhehadmarriedandhiswifehaddiedandlefthimawid-

  owerwithoutanykids。Andthedoctor——itwasalwayshardfurmetogettocallinghimanythingbutDoctorKirby——howhehadhappenedtostartoutwithagoodchancetinlifeandturnintojestatravellingfakir。

  Well,Ithinkstomyselfnowthathehasgottobethat,mebbyherandhimwon\'tsuitsowellnow,eveniftheydoesgettheirdifferencespatchedup。

  Furalltheforgivingintheworldain\'tgoingtochangethings,ormakethemnodifferent。But,solongasthedoctorappearedtowanttofindhersodernedbad,IwasawfulgladIhadbeenthemeansofgettinghimandMissLucytogether。Hehaddonealotfurme,firstandlast,thedoctorhad,andIfeltlikeithelpedpayhimalittle。ThoughiftheywastosettledownlikemarriedfolksIwouldfeellikeagoodoldsportwasspoiledinthedoctor,too。

  WehadtochangecarsatIndianapolistogettothattherelittletown。Wewasduetoreachitabouttwoo\'clockintheafternoon。Andthenearerwegottotheplacethenervouserandnervouserallthreeofusbecome。Andnotowningwewas。Thelasthourbeforewehittheplace,Itookadrinkofwatereverythreeminutes,Iwassonervous。AndwhenwecomeintothetownIwasalreadystandingoutontotheplatform。Iwouldn\'tofbeensur-

  prisedtofindMarthaandMissLucydowntheretothestation。But,ofcourse,theywasn\'t。FursomereasonIfeltgladtheywasn\'t。

  “Now,“Isaystothemtwo,aswegotoffthetrain,“follermeandIwillshowyouthehouse。“

  Everybodyrubbersatstrangersinacountrytown,andwonderswhytheyhavecome,andwhattheyisselling,andiftheyaremebbygoingtostartanewgrainelevator,orbuyland,orwhat。Theusualonesaroundthedepotrubberedatus,andI

  hearnonegeezersaytoanother:

  “Seethatbigfellerthere?Hewasthroughhereayearortwoagosellingpatentmedicine。“

  “Youdon\'tsayso!”saystheotherone,likeitwassomethingimportant,likeapresidentoracircushadcome,andhiseyesa-buggingout。Andthedoctorhearnthem,too。FursomereasonorotherheflushedupandcutalookoutofthecornerofhiseyeatColonelTom。

  Wewentrightthroughthemainstreetandouttowardtheedgeoftown,bythecrick,whereMissLucy\'shousewas。And,ifanything,allofusfeel-

  ingnervouseryet。Andsayingnothingandnotlookingateachother。AndColonelTomrollingcigarettesandfumblingfurmatchesandlightingthemandslingingthemaway。Furhowdoesany-

  bodyknowhowwomenisgoingtotakeeventhemostordinarylittlethings?

  Iknowedthewaywellenough,andwherethehousewas,butaswewentaroundtheturnintheroadIrunacrostasurprisedfeeling。Icomeontotheplacewhereourcampfirehadbeenthemnightswewasthere。Looeyhaddruganoldfencepostontothefireonenight,andtheposthadonlyburnedhalfup。Thebuttendofit,allcharredandflaked,wasstilllayinginthegrassandweedsthere。Ithitmewithaqueerfeeling——likeitwasonlyyester-

  daythatfirehadbeenlitthere。AndyetIknowedithadbeenayearandahalfago。

  Well,ithasalwaysbeenmylucktorunintothingswithouttherightkindofaliefixedupaheadoftime。TheywasthreeorfourpurtygoodstoriesIhadbeentryingoverinmyheadtotellMarthawhenIseenher。Anyoneofthemstoriesmightofdoneallright;butIhadn\'tdecidedWHICHonetouse。And,ofcourse,IrunplumbintoMartha。

  Shewasstandingbythegate,whichwasabouttwentyyardsfromtheveranda。Andallfourliespoppedintomyheadatoncet,andgotsomixedupwithoneanotherthere,Iseenrightoffitwasuselesstotrytotellanythingthatsoundedstraight。Be-

  sides,whenyouareinthefixIwasin,whatcanyoutellagirlanyhow?

  SoIjestsaystoher:

  “Hullo!”

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