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  “Swaggering,eh!What!You’llgetnothingfromme。Whatdoyou,meanbyyourinsinuations,anyhow?”

  “Wherewereyoulastnight?”sheanswered。Thewordswerehotas,theycame。”WhowereyoudrivingwithonWashingtonBoulevard?

  WhowereyouwithatthetheatrewhenGeorgesawyou?Doyou,thinkI’mafooltobedupedbyyou?DoyouthinkI’llsitat,homehereandtakeyour’toobusys’and’can’tcome,’whileyou,paradearoundandmakeoutthatI’munabletocome?Iwantyouto,knowthatlordlyairshavecometoanendsofarasIam,concerned。Youcan’tdictatetomenormychildren。I’mthrough,withyouentirely。”

  “It’salie,“hesaid,driventoacornerandknowingnoother,excuse。

  “Lie,eh!”shesaid,fiercely,butwithreturningreserve;“you,maycallitalieifyouwantto,butIknow。”

  “It’salie,Itellyou,“hesaid,inalow,sharpvoice。

  “You’vebeensearchingaroundforsomecheapaccusationfor,monthsandnowyouthinkyouhaveit。Youthinkyou’llspring,somethingandgettheupperhand。Well,Itellyou,youcan’t。

  AslongasI’minthishouseI’mmasterofit,andyouoranyone,elsewon’tdictatetome——doyouhear?”

  Hecrepttowardherwithalightinhiseyethatwasominous。

  Somethinginthewoman’scool,cynical,upper-handishmanner,as,ifshewerealreadymaster,causedhimtofeelforthemomentas,ifhecouldstrangleher。

  Shegazedathim——apythonessinhumour。

  “I’mnotdictatingtoyou,“shereturned;“I’mtellingyouwhatI

  want。”

  Theanswerwassocool,sorichinbravado,thatsomehowittook,thewindoutofhissails。Hecouldnotattackher,hecouldnot,askherforproofs。Somehowhefeltevidence,law,the,remembranceofallhispropertywhichsheheldinhername,tobe,shininginherglance。Hewaslikeavessel,powerfuland,dangerous,butrollingandflounderingwithoutsail。

  “AndI’mtellingyou,“hesaidintheend,slightlyrecovering,himself,“whatyou’llnotget。”

  “We’llseeaboutit,“shesaid。”I’llfindoutwhatmyrights,are。Perhapsyou’lltalktoalawyer,ifyouwon’ttome。”

  Itwasamagnificentplay,andhaditseffect。Hurstwoodfell,backbeaten。Heknewnowthathehadmorethanmerebluffto,contendwith。Hefeltthathewasfacetofacewithadull,proposition。Whattosayhehardlyknew。Allthemerrimenthad,goneoutoftheday。Hewasdisturbed,wretched,resentful。

  Whatshouldhedo?

  “Doasyouplease,“hesaid,atlast。”I’llhavenothingmoreto,dowithyou,“andouthestrode。

  ChapterXXIII

  ASPIRITINTRAVAIL——ONERUNGPUTBEHIND

  WhenCarriereachedherownroomshehadalreadyfallenapreyto,thosedoubtsandmisgivingswhichareevertheresultofalack,ofdecision。Shecouldnotpersuadeherselfastothe,advisabilityofherpromise,orthatnow,havinggivenherword,sheoughttokeepit。Shewentoverthewholegroundin,Hurstwood’sabsence,anddiscoveredlittleobjectionsthathad,notoccurredtoherinthewarmthofthemanager’sargument。She,sawwhereshehadputherselfinapeculiarlight,namely,that,ofagreeingtomarrywhenshewasalreadysupposedlymarried。

  SherememberedafewthingsDrouethaddone,andnowthatitcame,towalkingawayfromhimwithoutaword,shefeltasifshewere,doingwrong。Now,shewascomfortablysituated,andtoonewho,ismoreorlessafraidoftheworld,thisisanurgentmatter,andonewhichputsupstrange,uncannyarguments。”Youdonot,knowwhatwillcome。Therearemiserablethingsoutside。People,goa-begging。Womenarewretched。Younevercantellwhatwill,happen。Rememberthetimeyouwerehungry。Sticktowhatyou,have。”

  Curiously,forallherleaningtowardsHurstwood,hehadnot,takenafirmholdonherunderstanding。Shewaslistening,smiling,approving,andyetnotfinallyagreeing。Thiswasdue,toalackofpoweronhispart,alackofthatmajestyofpassion,thatsweepsthemindfromitsseat,fusesandmeltsallarguments,andtheoriesintoatangledmass,anddestroysforthetimebeing,thereasoningpower。Thismajestyofpassionispossessedby,nearlyeverymanonceinhislife,butitisusuallyanattribute,ofyouthandconducestothefirstsuccessfulmating。

  Hurstwood,beinganolderman,couldscarcelybesaidtoretain,thefireofyouth,thoughhedidpossessapassionwarmand,unreasoning。Itwasstrongenoughtoinducetheleaningtoward,himwhich,onCarrie’spart,wehaveseen。Shemighthavebeen,saidtobeimaginingherselfinlove,whenshewasnot。Women,frequentlydothis。Itflowsfromthefactthatineachexistsa,biastowardaffection,acravingforthepleasureofbeingloved。

  Thelongingtobeshielded,bettered,sympathisedwith,isoneof,theattributesofthesex。This,coupledwithsentimentanda,naturaltendencytoemotion,oftenmakesrefusingdifficult。It,persuadesthemthattheyareinlove。

  Onceathome,shechangedherclothesandstraightenedtherooms,forherself。Inthematterofthearrangementofthefurniture,shenevertookthehousemaid’sopinion。Thatyoungwoman,invariablyputoneoftherocking-chairsinthecorner,and,Carrieasregularlymoveditout。To-dayshehardlynoticedthat,itwasinthewrongplace,soabsorbedwassheinherown,thoughts。SheworkedabouttheroomuntilDrouetputin,appearanceatfiveo’clock。Thedrummerwasflushedandexcited,andfullofdeterminationtoknowallaboutherrelationswith,Hurstwood。Nevertheless,aftergoingoverthesubjectinhis,mindthelivelongday,hewasratherwearyofitandwishedit,overwith。Hedidnotforeseeseriousconsequencesofanysort,andyetheratherhesitatedtobegin。Carriewassittingbythe,windowwhenhecamein,rockingandlookingout。

  “Well,“shesaidinnocently,wearyofherownmentaldiscussion,andwonderingathishasteandill-concealedexcitement,“what,makesyouhurryso?”

  Drouethesitated,nowthathewasinherpresence,uncertainas,towhatcoursetopursue。Hewasnodiplomat。Hecouldneither,readnorsee。

  “Whendidyougethome?”heaskedfoolishly。

  “Oh,anhourorsoago。Whatmakesyouaskthat?”

  “Youweren’there,“hesaid,“whenIcamebackthismorning,and,Ithoughtyouhadgoneout。”

  “SoIdid,“saidCarriesimply。”Iwentforawalk。”

  Drouetlookedatherwonderingly。Forallhislackofdignityin,suchmattershedidnotknowhowtobegin。Hestaredatherin,themostflagrantmanneruntilatlastshesaid:

  “Whatmakesyoustareatmeso?What’sthematter?”

  “Nothing,“heanswered。”Iwasjustthinking。”

  “Justthinkingwhat?”shereturnedsmilingly,puzzledbyhis,attitude。

  “Oh,nothing——nothingmuch。”

  “Well,then,whatmakesyoulookso?”

  Drouetwasstandingbythedresser,gazingatherinacomic,manner。Hehadlaidoffhishatandglovesandwasnowfidgeting,withthelittletoiletpieceswhichwerenearesthim。He,hesitatedtobelievethattheprettywomanbeforehimwas,involvedinanythingsounsatisfactorytohimself。Hewasvery,muchinclinedtofeelthatitwasallright,afterall。Yetthe,knowledgeimpartedtohimbythechambermaidwasranklinginhis,mind。Hewantedtoplungeinwithastraightremarkofsome,sort,butheknewnotwhat。

  “Wheredidyougothismorning?”hefinallyaskedweakly。

  “Why,Iwentforawalk,“saidCarrie。

  “Sureyoudid?”heasked。

  “Yes,whatmakesyouask?”

  Shewasbeginningtoseenowthatheknewsomething。Instantly,shedrewherselfintoamorereservedposition。Hercheeks,blanchedslightly。

  “Ithoughtmaybeyoudidn’t,“hesaid,beatingaboutthebushin,themostuselessmanner。

  Carriegazedathim,andasshedidsoherebbingcouragehalted。

  Shesawthathehimselfwashesitating,andwithawoman’s,intuitionrealisedthattherewasnooccasionforgreatalarm。

  “Whatmakesyoutalklikethat?”sheasked,wrinklingherpretty,forehead。”Youactsofunnyto-night。”

  “Ifeelfunny,“heanswered。

  Theylookedatoneanotherforamoment,andthenDrouetplunged,desperatelyintohissubject。

  “What’sthisaboutyouandHurstwood?”heasked。

  “MeandHurstwood——whatdoyoumean?”

  “Didn’thecomehereadozentimeswhileIwasaway?”

  “Adozentimes,“repeatedCarrie,guiltily。”No,butwhatdoyou,mean?”

  “Somebodysaidthatyouwentoutridingwithhimandthathecame,hereeverynight。”

  “Nosuchthing,“answeredCarrie。”Itisn’ttrue。Whotoldyou,that?”

  Shewasflushingscarlettotherootsofherhair,butDrouetdid,notcatchthefullhueofherface,owingtothemodifiedlight,oftheroom。HewasregainingmuchconfidenceasCarriedefended,herselfwithdenials。

  “Well,someone,“hesaid。”You’resureyoudidn’t?”

  “Certainly,“saidCarrie。”Youknowhowoftenhecame。”

  Drouetpausedforamomentandthought。

  “Iknowwhatyoutoldme,“hesaidfinally。

  Hemovednervouslyabout,whileCarrielookedathimconfusedly。

  “Well,IknowthatIdidn’ttellyouanysuchthingasthat,“

  saidCarrie,recoveringherself。

  “IfIwereyou,“wentonDrouet,ignoringherlastremark,“I

  wouldn’thaveanythingtodowithhim。He’samarriedman,you,know。”

  “Who——whois?”saidCarrie,stumblingattheword。

  “Why,Hurstwood,“saidDrouet,notingtheeffectandfeelingthat,hewasdeliveringatellingblow。

  “Hurstwood!”exclaimedCarrie,rising。Herfacehadchanged,severalshadessincethisannouncementwasmade。Shelooked,withinandwithoutherselfinahalf-dazedway。

  “Whotoldyouthis?”sheasked,forgettingthatherinterestwas,outoforderandexceedinglyincriminating。

  “Why,Iknowit。I’vealwaysknownit,“saidDrouet。

  Carriewasfeelingaboutforarightthought。Shewasmakinga,mostmiserableshowing,andyetfeelingsweregeneratingwithin,herwhichwereanythingbutcrumblingcowardice。

  “IthoughtItoldyou,“headded。

  “No,youdidn’t,“shecontradicted,suddenlyrecoveringher,voice。”Youdidn’tdoanythingofthekind。”

  Drouetlistenedtoherinastonishment。Thiswassomethingnew。

  “IthoughtIdid,“hesaid。

  Carrielookedaroundherverysolemnly,andthenwentovertothe,window。

  “Yououghtn’ttohavehadanythingtodowithhim,“saidDrouet,inaninjuredtone,“afterallI’vedoneforyou。”

  “You,“saidCarrie,“you!Whathaveyoudoneforme?”

  Herlittlebrainhadbeensurgingwithcontradictoryfeelings——

  shameatexposure,shameatHurstwood’sperfidy,angerat,Drouet’sdeception,themockeryhehadmadeather。Nowone,clearideacameintoherhead。Hewasatfault。Therewasno,doubtaboutit。WhydidhebringHurstwoodout——Hurstwood,a,marriedman,andneversayawordtoher?Nevermindnowabout,Hurstwood’sperfidy——whyhadhedonethis?Whyhadn’thewarned,her?Therehestoodnow,guiltyofthismiserablebreachof,confidenceandtalkingaboutwhathehaddoneforher!

  “Well,Ilikethat,“exclaimedDrouet,littlerealisingthefire,hisremarkhadgenerated。”IthinkI’vedoneagooddeal。”

  “Youhave,eh?”sheanswered。”You’vedeceivedme——that’swhat,you’vedone。You’vebroughtyouroldfriendsouthereunder,falsepretences。You’vemademeouttobe——Oh,“andwiththis,hervoicebrokeandshepressedhertwolittlehandstogether,tragically。

  “Idon’tseewhatthat’sgottodowithit,“saidthedrummer,quaintly。

  “No,“sheanswered,recoveringherselfandshuttingherteeth。

  “No,ofcourseyoudon’tsee。Thereisn’tanythingyousee。You,couldn’thavetoldmeinthefirstplace,couldyou?Youhadto,makemeoutwronguntilitwastoolate。Nowyoucomesneaking,aroundwithyourinformationandyourtalkaboutwhatyouhave,done。”

  DrouethadneversuspectedthissideofCarrie’snature。Shewas,alivewithfeeling,hereyessnapping,herlipsquivering,her,wholebodysensibleoftheinjuryshefelt,andpartakingofher,wrath。

  “Who’ssneaking?”heasked,mildlyconsciousoferroronhis,part,butcertainthathewaswronged。

  “Youare,“stampedCarrie。”You’reahorrid,conceitedcoward,that’swhatyouare。Ifyouhadanysenseofmanhoodinyou,you,wouldn’thavethoughtofdoinganysuchthing。”

  Thedrummerstared。

  “I’mnotacoward,“hesaid。”Whatdoyoumeanbygoingwith,othermen,anyway?”

  “Othermen!”exclaimedCarrie。”Othermen——youknowbetterthan,that。IdidgowithMr。Hurstwood,butwhosefaultwasit?

  Didn’tyoubringhimhere?Youtoldhimyourselfthatheshould,comeouthereandtakemeout。Now,afterit’sallover,you,comeandtellmethatIoughtn’ttogowithhimandthathe’sa,marriedman。”

  Shepausedatthesoundofthelasttwowordsandwrungher,hands。TheknowledgeofHurstwood’sperfidywoundedherlikea,knife。

  “Oh,“shesobbed,repressingherselfwonderfullyandkeepingher,eyesdry。”Oh,oh!”

  “Well,Ididn’tthinkyou’dberunningaroundwithhimwhenIwas,away,“insistedDrouet。

  “Didn’tthink!”saidCarrie,nowangeredtothecorebytheman’s,peculiarattitude。”Ofcoursenot。Youthoughtonlyofwhat,wouldbetoyoursatisfaction。Youthoughtyou’dmakeatoyof,me——aplaything。Well,I’llshowyouthatyouwon’t。I’llhave,nothingmoretodowithyouatall。Youcantakeyouroldthings,andkeepthem,“andunfasteningalittlepinhehadgivenher,sheflungitvigorouslyuponthefloorandbegantomoveaboutas,iftogatherupthethingswhichbelongedtoher。

  BythisDrouetwasnotonlyirritatedbutfascinatedthemore。

  Helookedatherinamazement,andfinallysaid:

  “Idon’tseewhereyourwrathcomesin。I’vegottherightof,thisthing。Yououghtn’ttohavedoneanythingthatwasn’tright,afterallIdidforyou。”

  “Whathaveyoudoneforme?”askedCarrieblazing,herhead,thrownbackandherlipsparted。

  “IthinkI’vedoneagooddeal,“saidthedrummer,looking,around。”I’vegivenyoualltheclothesyouwanted,haven’tI?

  I’vetakenyoueverywhereyouwantedtogo。You’vehadasmuch,asI’vehad,andmoretoo。”

  Carriewasnotungrateful,whateverelsemightbesaidofher。

  Insofarashermindcouldconstrue,sheacknowledgedbenefits,received。Shehardlyknewhowtoanswerthis,andyetherwrath,wasnotplacated。Shefeltthatthedrummerhadinjuredher,irreparably。

  “DidIaskyouto?”shereturned。

  “Well,Ididit,“saidDrouet,“andyoutookit。”

  “YoutalkasthoughIhadpersuadedyou,“answeredCarrie。”You,standthereandthrowupwhatyou’vedone。Idon’twantyourold,things。I’llnothavethem。Youtakethemto-nightanddowhat,youpleasewiththem。I’llnotstayhereanotherminute。”

  “That’snice!”heanswered,becomingangerednowatthesenseof,hisownapproachingloss。”Useeverythingandabusemeandthen,walkoff。That’sjustlikeawoman。Itakeyouwhenyouhaven’t,gotanything,andthenwhensomeoneelsecomesalong,whyI’mno,good。Ialwaysthoughtit’dcomeoutthatway。”

  Hefeltreallyhurtashethoughtofhistreatment,andlookedas,ifhesawnowayofobtainingjustice。

  “It’snotso,“saidCarrie,“andI’mnotgoingwithanybodyelse。

  Youhavebeenasmiserableandinconsiderateasyoucanbe。I

  hateyou,Itellyou,andIwouldn’tlivewithyouanother,minute。You’reabig,insulting“——hereshehesitatedandusedno,wordatall——“oryouwouldn’ttalkthatway。”

  Shehadsecuredherhatandjacketandslippedthelatteronover,herlittleeveningdress。Somewispsofwavyhairhadloosened,fromthebandsatthesideofherheadandwerestragglingover,herhot,redcheeks。Shewasangry,mortified,grief-stricken。

  Herlargeeyeswerefulloftheanguishoftears,butherlids,werenotyetwet。Shewasdistractedanduncertain,decidingand,doingthingswithoutanaimorconclusion,andshehadnotthe,slightestconceptionofhowthewholedifficultywouldend。

  “Well,that’safinefinish,“saidDrouet。”Packupandpull,out,eh?Youtakethecake。Ibetyouwereknockingaroundwith,Hurstwoodoryouwouldn’tactlikethat。Idon’twanttheold,rooms。Youneedn’tpulloutforme。YoucanhavethemforallI

  care,butb’George,youhaven’tdonemeright。”

  “I’llnotlivewithyou,“saidCarrie。”Idon’twanttolive,withyou。You’vedonenothingbutbragaroundeversinceyou’ve,beenhere。”

  “Aw,Ihaven’tanythingofthekind,“heanswered。

  Carriewalkedovertothedoor。

  “Whereareyougoing?”hesaid,steppingoverandheadingher,off。

  “Letmeout,“shesaid。

  “Whereareyougoing?”herepeated。

  Hewas,aboveall,sympathetic,andthesightofCarriewandering,out,heknewnotwhere,affectedhim,despitehisgrievance。

  Carriemerelypulledatthedoor。

  Thestrainofthesituationwastoomuchforher,however。She,madeonemorevaineffortandthenburstintotears。

  “Now,bereasonable,Cad,“saidDrouetgently。”Whatdoyouwant,torushoutforthisway?Youhaven’tanyplacetogo。Whynot,stayherenowandbequiet?I’llnotbotheryou。Idon’twantto,stayhereanylonger。”

  Carriehadgonesobbingfromthedoortothewindow。Shewasso,overcomeshecouldnotspeak。

  “Bereasonablenow,“hesaid。”Idon’twanttoholdyou。You,cangoifyouwantto,butwhydon’tyouthinkitover?Lord,knows,Idon’twanttostopyou。”

  Hereceivednoanswer。Carriewasquieting,however,underthe,influenceofhisplea。

  “Youstayherenow,andI’llgo,“headdedatlast。

  Carrielistenedtothiswithmingledfeelings。Hermindwas,shakenloosefromthelittlemooringoflogicthatithad。She,wasstirredbythisthought,angeredbythat——herowninjustice,Hurstwood’s,Drouet’s,theirrespectivequalitiesofkindnessand,favour,thethreatoftheworldoutside,inwhichshehadfailed,oncebefore,theimpossibilityofthisstateinside,wherethe,chamberswerenolongerjustlyhers,theeffectoftheargument,uponhernerves,allcombinedtomakeheramassofjangling,fibres——ananchorless,storm-beatenlittlecraftwhichcoulddo,absolutelynothingbutdrift。

  “Say,“saidDrouet,comingovertoherafterafewmoments,with,anewidea,andputtinghishanduponher。

  “Don’t!”saidCarrie,drawingaway,butnotremovingher,handkerchieffromhereyes。

  “Nevermindaboutthisquarrelnow。Letitgo。Youstayhere,untilthemonth’sout,anyhow,andthenyoucantellbetterwhat,youwanttodo。Eh?”

  Carriemadenoanswer。

  “You’dbetterdothat,“hesaid。”There’snouseyourpackingup,now。Youcan’tgoanywhere。”

  Stillhegotnothingforhiswords。

  “Ifyou’lldothat,we’llcallitoffforthepresentandI’ll,getout。”

  Carrieloweredherhandkerchiefslightlyandlookedoutofthe,window。

  “Willyoudothat?”heasked。

  Stillnoanswer。

  “Willyou?”herepeated。

  Sheonlylookedvaguelyintothestreet。

  “Aw!comeon,“hesaid,“tellme。Willyou?”

  “Idon’tknow,“saidCarriesoftly,forcedtoanswer。

  “Promisemeyou’lldothat,“hesaid,“andwe’llquittalking,aboutit。It’llbethebestthingforyou。”

  Carrieheardhim,butshecouldnotbringherselftoanswer,reasonably。Shefeltthatthemanwasgentle,andthathis,interestinherhadnotabated,anditmadehersufferapangof,regret。Shewasinamosthelplessplight。

  AsforDrouet,hisattitudehadbeenthatofthejealouslover。

  Nowhisfeelingswereamixtureofangeratdeception,sorrowat,losingCarrie,miseryatbeingdefeated。Hewantedhisrightsin,somewayorother,andyethisrightsincludedtheretainingof,Carrie,themakingherfeelhererror。

  “Willyou?”heurged。

  “Well,I’llsee,“saidCarrie。

  Thisleftthematterasopenasbefore,butitwassomething。It,lookedasifthequarrelwouldblowover,iftheycouldonlyget,somewayoftalkingtooneanother。Carriewasashamed,and,Drouetaggrieved。Hepretendedtotakeupthetaskofpacking,somethingsinavalise。

  Now,asCarriewatchedhimoutofthecornerofhereye,certain,soundthoughtscameintoherhead。Hehaderred,true,butwhat,hadshedone?Hewaskindlyandgood-naturedforallhisegotism。

  Throughoutthisargumenthehadsaidnothingveryharsh。Onthe,otherhand,therewasHurstwood——agreaterdeceiverthanhe。He,hadpretendedallthisaffection,allthispassion,andhewas,lyingtoherallthewhile。Oh,theperfidyofmen!Andshehad,lovedhim。Therecouldbenothingmoreinthatquarter。She,wouldseeHurstwoodnomore。Shewouldwritehimandlethim,knowwhatshethought。Thereuponwhatwouldshedo?Herewere,theserooms。HerewasDrouet,pleadingforhertoremain。

  Evidentlythingscouldgoonheresomewhatasbefore,ifallwere,arranged。Itwouldbebetterthanthestreet,withoutaplaceto,layherhead。

  AllthisshethoughtofasDrouetrummagedthedrawersfor,collarsandlabouredlongandpainstakinglyatfindingashirt-

  stud。Hewasinnohurrytorushthismatter。Hefeltan,attractiontoCarriewhichwouldnotdown。Hecouldnotthink,thatthethingwouldendbyhiswalkingoutoftheroom。There,mustbesomewayround,somewaytomakeherownupthathewas,rightandshewaswrong——topatchupapeaceandshutout,Hurstwoodforever。Mercy,howheturnedattheman’sshameless,duplicity。

  “Doyouthink,“hesaid,afterafewmoments’silence,“that,you’lltryandgetonthestage?”

  Hewaswonderingwhatshewasintending。

  “Idon’tknowwhatI’lldoyet,“saidCarrie。

  “Ifyoudo,maybeIcanhelpyou。I’vegotalotoffriendsin,thatline。”

  Shemadenoanswertothis。

  “Don’tgoandtrytoknockaroundnowwithoutanymoney。Letme,helpyou,“hesaid。”It’snoeasythingtogoonyourownhook,here。”

  Carrieonlyrockedbackandforthinherchair。

  “Idon’twantyoutogoupagainstahardgamethatway。”

  HebestirredhimselfaboutsomeotherdetailsandCarrierocked,on。

  “Whydon’tyoutellmeallaboutthisthing,“hesaid,aftera,time,“andlet’scallitoff?Youdon’treallycarefor,Hurstwood,doyou?”

  “Whydoyouwanttostartonthatagain?”saidCarrie。”Youwere,toblame。”

  “No,Iwasn’t,“heanswered。

  “Yes,youwere,too,“saidCarrie。”Youshouldn’thaveevertold,mesuchastoryasthat。”

  “Butyoudidn’thavemuchtodowithhim,didyou?”wenton,Drouet,anxiousforhisownpeaceofmindtogetsomedirect,denialfromher。

  “Iwon’ttalkaboutit,“saidCarrie,painedatthequizzical,turnthepeacearrangementhadtaken。

  “What’stheuseofactinglikethatnow,Cad?”insistedthe,drummer,stoppinginhisworkandputtingupahandexpressively。

  “YoumightletmeknowwhereIstand,atleast。”

  “Iwon’t,“saidCarrie,feelingnorefugebutinanger。

  “Whateverhashappenedisyourownfault。”

  “Thenyoudocareforhim?”saidDrouet,stoppingcompletelyand,experiencingarushoffeeling。

  “Oh,stop!”saidCarrie。

  “Well,I’llnotbemadeafoolof,“exclaimedDrouet。”Youmay,triflearoundwithhimifyouwantto,butyoucan’tleadme。

  Youcantellmeornot,justasyouwantto,butIwon’tfoolany,longer!”

  Heshovedthelastfewremainingthingshehadlaidoutintohis,valiseandsnappeditwithavengeance。Thenhegrabbedhis,coat,whichhehadlaidofftowork,pickeduphisgloves,and,startedout。

  “YoucangotothedeuceasfarasIamconcerned,“hesaid,as,hereachedthedoor。”I’mnosucker,“andwiththatheopenedit,withajerkandcloseditequallyvigorously。

  Carrielistenedatherwindowview,moreastonishedthananything,elseatthissuddenriseofpassioninthedrummer。Shecould,hardlybelievehersenses——sogood-naturedandtractablehadhe,invariablybeen。Itwasnotforhertoseethewellspringof,humanpassion。Arealflameofloveisasubtlething。Itburns,asawill-o’-the-wisp,dancingonwardtofairylandsofdelight。

  Itroarsasafurnace。Toooftenjealousyisthequalityupon,whichitfeeds。

  ChapterXXIV

  ASHESOFTINDER——AFACEATTHEWINDOW

  ThatnightHurstwoodremaineddowntownentirely,goingtothe,PalmerHouseforabedafterhisworkwasthrough。Hewasina,feveredstateofmind,owingtotheblighthiswife’saction,threatenedtocastuponhisentirefuture。Whilehewasnotsure,howmuchsignificancemightbeattachedtothethreatshehad,made,hewassurethatherattitude,iflongcontinued,would,causehimnoendoftrouble。Shewasdetermined,andhadworsted,himinaveryimportantcontest。Howwoulditbefromnowon?He,walkedthefloorofhislittleoffice,andlaterthatofhis,room,puttingonethingandanothertogethertonoavail。

  Mrs。Hurstwood,onthecontrary,haddecidednottoloseher,advantagebyinaction。Nowthatshehadpracticallycowedhim,shewouldfollowupherworkwithdemands,theacknowledgmentof,whichwouldmakeherwordLAWinthefuture。Hewouldhaveto,payherthemoneywhichshewouldnowregularlydemandorthere,wouldbetrouble。Itdidnotmatterwhathedid。Shereallydid,notcarewhetherhecamehomeanymoreornot。Thehousehold,wouldmovealongmuchmorepleasantlywithouthim,andshecould,doasshewishedwithoutconsultinganyone。Nowsheproposedto,consultalawyerandhireadetective。Shewouldfindoutat,oncejustwhatadvantagesshecouldgain。

  Hurstwoodwalkedthefloor,mentallyarrangingthechiefpoints,ofhissituation。”Shehasthatpropertyinhername,“hekept,sayingtohimself。”Whatafooltrickthatwas。Curseit!What,afoolmovethatwas。”

  Healsothoughtofhismanagerialposition。”Ifsheraisesarow,nowI’lllosethisthing。Theywon’thavemearoundifmyname,getsinthepapers。Myfriends,too!”Hegrewmoreangryashe,thoughtofthetalkanyactiononherpartwouldcreate。How,wouldthepaperstalkaboutit?Everymanheknewwouldbe,wondering。Hewouldhavetoexplainanddenyandmakeageneral,markofhimself。ThenMoywouldcomeandconferwithhimand,therewouldbethedeviltopay。

  Manylittlewrinklesgatheredbetweenhiseyesashecontemplated,this,andhisbrowmoistened。Hesawnosolutionofanything——

  notaloopholeleft。

  ThroughallthisthoughtsofCarrieflasheduponhim,andthe,approachingaffairofSaturday。Tangledasallhismatterswere,hedidnotworryoverthat。Itwastheonepleasingthingin,thiswholeroutoftrouble。Hecouldarrangethat,satisfactorily,forCarriewouldbegladtowait,ifnecessary。

  Hewouldseehowthingsturnedoutto-morrow,andthenhewould,talktoher。Theyweregoingtomeetasusual。Hesawonlyher,prettyfaceandneatfigureandwonderedwhylifewasnot,arrangedsothatsuchjoyashefoundwithhercouldbesteadily,maintained。Howmuchmorepleasantitwouldbe。Thenhewould,takeuphiswife’sthreatagain,andthewrinklesandmoisture,wouldreturn。

  Inthemorninghecameoverfromthehotelandopenedhismail,buttherewasnothinginitoutsidetheordinaryrun。Forsome,reasonhefeltasifsomethingmightcomethatway,andwas,relievedwhenalltheenvelopeshadbeenscannedandnothing,suspiciousnoticed。Hebegantofeeltheappetitethathadbeen,wantingbeforehehadreachedtheoffice,anddecidedbefore,goingouttotheparktomeetCarrietodropinattheGrand,Pacificandhaveapotofcoffeeandsomerolls。Whilethe,dangerhadnotlessened,ithadnotasyetmaterialised,andwith,himnonewswasgoodnews。Ifhecouldonlygetplentyoftime,tothink,perhapssomethingwouldturnup。Surely,surely,this,thingwouldnotdriftalongtocatastropheandhenotfindaway,out。

  Hisspiritsfell,however,when,uponreachingthepark,he,waitedandwaitedandCarriedidnotcome。Heheldhisfavourite,postforanhourormore,thenaroseandbegantowalkabout,restlessly。Couldsomethinghavehappenedouttheretokeepher,away?Couldshehavebeenreachedbyhiswife?Surelynot。So,littledidheconsiderDrouetthatitneveronceoccurredtohim,toworryabouthisfindingout。Hegrewrestlessashe,ruminated,andthendecidedthatperhapsitwasnothing。Shehad,notbeenabletogetawaythismorning。Thatwaswhynoletter,notifyinghimhadcome。Hewouldgetoneto-day。Itwould,probablybeonhisdeskwhenhegotback。Hewouldlookforit,atonce。

  Afteratimehegaveupwaitinganddrearilyheadedforthe,Madisoncar。Toaddtohisdistress,thebrightblueskybecame,overcastwithlittlefleecycloudswhichshutoutthesun。The,windveeredtotheeast,andbythetimehereachedhisofficeit,wasthreateningtodrizzleallafternoon。

  Hewentinandexaminedhisletters,buttherewasnothingfrom,Carrie。Fortunately,therewasnothingfromhiswifeeither。He,thankedhisstarsthathedidnothavetoconfrontthat,propositionjustnowwhenheneededtothinksomuch。Hewalked,theflooragain,pretendingtobeinanordinarymood,but,secretlytroubledbeyondtheexpressionofwords。

  Atone-thirtyhewenttoRector’sforlunch,andwhenhereturned,amessengerwaswaitingforhim。Helookedatthelittlechap,withafeelingofdoubt。

  “I’mtobringananswer,“saidtheboy。

  Hurstwoodrecognisedhiswife’swriting。Hetoreitopenand,readwithoutashowoffeeling。Itbeganinthemostformal,mannerandwassharplyandcoldlywordedthroughout。

  “IwantyoutosendthemoneyIaskedforatonce。Ineeditto,carryoutmyplans。Youcanstayawayifyouwantto。It,doesn’tmatterintheleast。ButImusthavesomemoney。So,don’tdelay,butsenditbytheboy。”

  Whenhehadfinishedit,hestoodholdingitinhishands。The,audacityofthethingtookhisbreath。Itrousedhisirealso——

  thedeepestelementofrevoltinhim。Hisfirstimpulsewasto,writebutfourwordsinreply——“Gotothedevil!”——buthe,compromisedbytellingtheboythattherewouldbenoreply。

  Thenhesatdowninhischairandgazedwithoutseeing,contemplatingtheresultofhiswork。Whatwouldshedoabout,that?Theconfoundedwretch!Wasshegoingtotrytobulldozehim,intosubmission?Hewouldgoupthereandhaveitoutwithher,that’swhathewoulddo。Shewascarryingthingswithtoohigha,hand。Thesewerehisfirstthoughts。

  Later,however,hisolddiscretionasserteditself。Something,hadtobedone。Aclimaxwasnearandshewouldnotsitidle。

  Heknewherwellenoughtoknowthatwhenshehaddecidedupona,planshewouldfollowitup。Possiblymatterswouldgointoa,lawyer’shandsatonce。

  “Damnher!”hesaidsoftly,withhisteethfirmlyset,“I’llmake,ithotforherifshecausesmetrouble。I’llmakeherchange,hertoneifIhavetouseforcetodoit!”

  Hearosefromhischairandwentandlookedoutintothestreet。

  Thelongdrizzlehadbegun。Pedestrianshadturnedupcollars,andtrousersatthebottom。Handswerehiddeninthepocketsof,theumbrellaless;umbrellaswereup。Thestreetlookedlikea,seaofroundblackclothroofs,twisting,bobbing,moving。

  Trucksandvanswererattlinginanoisylineandeverywheremen,wereshieldingthemselvesasbesttheycould。Hescarcely,noticedthepicture。Hewasforeverconfrontinghiswife,demandingofhertochangeherattitudetowardhimbeforehe,workedherbodilyharm。

  Atfouro’clockanothernotecame,whichsimplysaidthatifthe,moneywasnotforthcomingthateveningthematterwouldbelaid,beforeFitzgeraldandMoyonthemorrow,andotherstepswouldbe,takentogetit。

  Hurstwoodalmostexclaimedoutloudattheinsistencyofthis,thing。Yes,hewouldsendherthemoney。He’dtakeittoher——

  hewouldgoupthereandhaveatalkwithher,andthatatonce。

  Heputonhishatandlookedaroundforhisumbrella。Hewould,havesomearrangementofthisthing。

  Hecalledacabandwasdriventhroughthedrearyraintothe,NorthSide。Onthewayhistempercooledashethoughtofthe,detailsofthecase。Whatdidsheknow?Whathadshedone?Maybe,she’dgotholdofCarrie,whoknows——or——orDrouet。Perhapsshe,reallyhadevidence,andwaspreparedtofellhimasamandoes,anotherfromsecretambush。Shewasshrewd。Whyshouldshe,taunthimthiswayunlessshehadgoodgrounds?

  Hebegantowishthathehadcompromisedinsomewayorother——

  thathehadsentthemoney。Perhapshecoulddoituphere。He,wouldgoinandsee,anyhow。Hewouldhavenorow。Bythetime,hereachedhisownstreethewaskeenlyalivetothedifficulties,ofhissituationandwishedoverandoverthatsomesolution,wouldofferitself,thathecouldseehiswayout。Healighted,andwentupthestepstothefrontdoor,butitwaswitha,nervouspalpitationoftheheart。Hepulledouthiskeyand,triedtoinsertit,butanotherkeywasontheinside。Heshook,attheknob,butthedoorwaslocked。Thenherangthebell。No,answer。Herangagain——thistimeharder。Stillnoanswer。He,jangleditfiercelyseveraltimesinsuccession,butwithout,avail。Thenhewentbelow。

  Therewasadoorwhichopenedunderthestepsintothekitchen,protectedbyanirongrating,intendedasasafeguardagainst,burglars。Whenhereachedthishenoticedthatitalsowas,boltedandthatthekitchenwindowsweredown。Whatcouldit,mean?Herangthebellandthenwaited。Finally,seeingthatno,onewascoming,heturnedandwentbacktohiscab。

  “Iguessthey’vegoneout,“hesaidapologeticallytothe,individualwhowashidinghisredfaceinaloosetarpaulin,raincoat。

  “Isawayounggirlupinthatwinder,“returnedthecabby。

  Hurstwoodlooked,buttherewasnofacetherenow。Heclimbed,moodilyintothecab,relievedanddistressed。

  Sothiswasthegame,wasit?Shuthimoutandmakehimpay。

  Well,bytheLord,thatdidbeatall!

  ChapterXXV

  ASHESOFTINDER——THELOOSINGOFSTAYS

  WhenHurstwoodgotbacktohisofficeagainhewasinagreater,quandarythanever。Lord,Lord,hethought,whathadhegot,into?Howcouldthingshavetakensuchaviolentturn,andso,quickly?Hecouldhardlyrealisehowithadallcomeabout。It,seemedamonstrous,unnatural,unwarrantedconditionwhichhad,suddenlydescendeduponhimwithouthisletorhindrance。

  MeanwhilehegaveathoughtnowandthentoCarrie。Whatcould,bethetroubleinthatquarter?Noletterhadcome,nowordof,anykind,andyethereitwaslateintheeveningandshehad,agreedtomeethimthatmorning。To-morrowtheyweretohavemet,andgoneoff——where?Hesawthatintheexcitementofrecent,eventshehadnotformulatedaplanuponthatscore。Hewas,desperatelyinlove,andwouldhavetakengreatchancestowin,herunderordinarycircumstances,butnow——nowwhat?Supposing,shehadfoundoutsomething?Supposingshe,too,wrotehimand,toldhimthatsheknewall——thatshewouldhavenothingmoreto,dowithhim?Itwouldbejustlikethistohappenasthingswere,goingnow。Meanwhilehehadnotsentthemoney。

  Hestrolledupanddownthepolishedflooroftheresort,his,handsinhispockets,hisbrowwrinkled,hismouthset。Hewas,gettingsomevaguecomfortoutofagoodcigar,butitwasno,panaceafortheillwhichaffectedhim。Everyonceinawhilehe,wouldclinchhisfingersandtaphisfoot——signsofthestirring,mentalprocesshewasundergoing。Hiswholenaturewas,vigorouslyandpowerfullyshakenup,andhewasfindingwhat,limitsthemindhastoendurance。Hedrankmorebrandyandsoda,thanhehadanyeveninginmonths。Hewasaltogetherafine,exampleofgreatmentalperturbation。

  Forallhisstudynothingcameoftheeveningexceptthis——he,sentthemoney。Itwaswithgreatopposition,aftertwoorthree,hoursofthemosturgentmentalaffirmationanddenial,thatat,lasthegotanenvelope,placedinittherequestedamount,and,slowlysealeditup。

  ThenhecalledHarry,theboyofallworkaroundtheplace。

  “Youtakethistothisaddress,“hesaid,handinghimthe,envelope,“andgiveittoMrs。Hurstwood。”

  “Yes,sir,“saidtheboy。

  “Ifsheisn’ttherebringitback。”

  “Yes,sir“

  “You’veseenmywife?”heaskedasaprecautionarymeasureasthe,boyturnedtogo。

  “Oh,yes,sir。Iknowher。”

  “Allright,now。Hurryrightback。”

  “Anyanswer?”

  “Iguessnot。”

  Theboyhastenedawayandthemanagerfelltohismusings。Now,hehaddoneit。Therewasnousespeculatingoverthat。Hewas,beatenforto-nightandhemightjustaswellmakethebestof,it。But,oh,thewretchednessofbeingforcedthisway!Hecould,seehermeetingtheboyatthedoorandsmilingsardonically。

  Shewouldtaketheenvelopeandknowthatshehadtriumphed。If,heonlyhadthatletterbackhewouldn’tsendit。Hebreathed,heavilyandwipedthemoisturefromhisface。

  Forrelief,hearoseandjoinedinconversationwithafew,friendswhoweredrinking。Hetriedtogettheinterestof,thingsabouthim,butitwasnottobe。Allthetimehis,thoughtswouldrunouttohishomeandseethescenebeing,thereinenacted。Allthetimehewaswonderingwhatshewould,saywhentheboyhandedhertheenvelope。

  Inaboutanhourandthree-quarterstheboyreturned。Hehad,evidentlydeliveredthepackage,for,ashecameup,hemadeno,signoftakinganythingoutofhispocket。

  “Well?”saidHurstwood。

  “Igaveittoher。”

  “Mywife?”

  “Yes,sir。”

  “Anyanswer?”

  “Shesaiditwashightime。”

  Hurstwoodscowledfiercely。

  Therewasnomoretobedoneuponthatscorethatnight。Hewent,onbroodingoverhissituationuntilmidnight,whenherepaired,againtothePalmerHouse。Hewonderedwhatthemorningwould,bringforth,andsleptanythingbutsoundlyuponit。

  Nextdayhewentagaintotheofficeandopenedhismail,suspiciousandhopefulofitscontents。NowordfromCarrie。

  Nothingfromhiswife,whichwaspleasant。

  Thefactthathehadsentthemoneyandthatshehadreceivedit,workedtotheeaseofhismind,for,asthethoughtthathehad,doneitreceded,hischagrinatitgrewlessandhishopeof,peacemore。Hefancied,ashesatathisdesk,thatnothing,wouldbedoneforaweekortwo。Meanwhile,hewouldhavetime,tothink。

  ThisprocessofTHINKINGbeganbyareversiontoCarrieandthe,arrangementbywhichhewastogetherawayfromDrouet。How,aboutthatnow?Hispainatherfailuretomeetorwritehim,rapidlyincreasedashedevotedhimselftothissubject。He,decidedtowritehercareoftheWestSidePost-officeandask,foranexplanation,aswellastohavehermeethim。Thethought,thatthisletterwouldprobablynotreachheruntilMondaychafed,himexceedingly。Hemustgetsomespeediermethod——buthow?

  Hethoughtuponitforahalf-hour,notcontemplatingamessenger,oracabdirecttothehouse,owingtotheexposureofit,but,findingthattimewasslippingawaytonopurpose,hewrotethe,letterandthenbegantothinkagain。

  Thehoursslippedby,andwiththemthepossibilityoftheunion,hehadcontemplated。HehadthoughttobejoyouslyaidingCarrie,bynowinthetaskofjoiningherintereststohis,andhereit,wasafternoonandnothingdone。Threeo’clockcame,four,five,six,andnoletter。Thehelplessmanagerpacedthefloorand,grimlyenduredthegloomofdefeat。HesawabusySaturday,usheredout,theSabbathin,andnothingdone。Allday,thebar,beingclosed,hebroodedalone,shutoutfromhome,fromthe,excitementofhisresort,fromCarrie,andwithouttheabilityto,alterhisconditiononeiota。ItwastheworstSundayhehad,spentinhislife。

  InMonday’ssecondmailheencounteredaverylegal-looking,letter,whichheldhisinterestforsometime。Itborethe,imprintofthelawofficesofMcGregor,JamesandHay,andwitha,veryformal“DearSir,“and“Webegtostate,“wentontoinform,himbrieflythattheyhadbeenretainedbyMrs。JuliaHurstwood,toadjustcertainmatterswhichrelatedtohersustenanceand,propertyrights,andwouldhekindlycallandseethemaboutthe,matteratonce。

  Hereaditthroughcarefullyseveraltimes,andthenmerelyshook,hishead。Itseemedasifhisfamilytroubleswerejust,beginning。

  “Well!”hesaidafteratime,quiteaudibly,“Idon’tknow。”

  Thenhefoldeditupandputitinhispocket。

  ToaddtohismiserytherewasnowordfromCarrie。Hewasquite,certainnowthatsheknewhewasmarriedandwasangeredathis,perfidy。Hislossseemedallthemorebitternowthatheneeded,hermost。Hethoughthewouldgooutandinsistonseeingherif,shedidnotsendhimwordofsomesortsoon。Hewasreally,affectedmostmiserablyofallbythisdesertion。Hehadloved,herearnestlyenough,butnowthatthepossibilityoflosingher,staredhiminthefacesheseemedmuchmoreattractive。He,reallypinedforaword,andlookedoutuponherwithhismind’s,eyeinthemostwistfulmanner。Hedidnotproposetoloseher,whatevershemightthink。Comewhatmight,hewouldadjustthis,matter,andsoon。Hewouldgotoherandtellherallhisfamily,complications。Hewouldexplaintoherjustwherehestoodand,howmuchheneededher。Surelyshecouldn’tgobackonhimnow?

  Itwasn’tpossible。Hewouldpleaduntilherangerwouldmelt——

  untilshewouldforgivehim。

  Suddenlyhethought:“Supposingsheisn’toutthere——supposeshe,hasgone?”

  Hewasforcedtotakehisfeet。Itwastoomuchtothinkofand,sitstill。

  Nevertheless,hisrousingavailedhimnothing。

  OnTuesdayitwasthesameway。Hedidmanagetobringhimself,intothemoodtogoouttoCarrie,butwhenhegotinOgdenPlace,hethoughthesawamanwatchinghimandwentaway。Hedidnot,gowithinablockofthehouse。

  Oneofthegallingincidentsofthisvisitwasthathecameback,onaRandolphStreetcar,andwithoutnoticingarrivedalmost,oppositethebuildingoftheconcernwithwhichhissonwas,connected。Thissentapangthroughhisheart。Hehadcalledon,hisboythereseveraltimes。Nowtheladhadnotsenthima,word。Hisabsencedidnotseemtobenoticedbyeitherofhis,children。Well,well,fortuneplaysamanqueertricks。Hegot,backtohisofficeandjoinedinaconversationwithfriends。It,wasasifidlechatterdeadenedthesenseofmisery。

  ThatnighthedinedatRector’sandreturnedatoncetohis,office。Inthebustleandshowofthelatterwashisonly,relief。Hetroubledovermanylittledetailsandtalked,perfunctorilytoeverybody。Hestayedathisdesklongafterall,othershadgone,andonlyquitteditwhenthenightwatchmanon,hisroundpulledatthefrontdoortoseeifitwassafely,locked。

  OnWednesdayhereceivedanotherpolitenotefromMcGregor,James,andHay。Itread:

  “DearSir:Webegtoinformyouthatweareinstructedtowait,untilto-morrowThursdayatoneo’clock,beforefilingsuit,againstyou,onbehalfofMrs。JuliaHurstwood,fordivorceand,alimony。Ifwedonothearfromyoubeforethattimeweshall,considerthatyoudonotwishtocompromisethematterinanyway,andactaccordingly。”Verytrulyyours,etc。”

  “Compromise!”exclaimedHurstwoodbitterly。”Compromise!”

  Againheshookhishead。

  Sohereitwasspreadoutclearbeforehim,andnowheknewwhat,toexpect。Ifhedidn’tgoandseethemtheywouldsuehim,promptly。Ifhedid,hewouldbeofferedtermsthatwouldmake,hisbloodboil。Hefoldedtheletterandputitwiththeother,one。Thenheputonhishatandwentforaturnabouttheblock。

  ChapterXXVI

  THEAMBASSADORFALLEN——ASEARCHFORTHEGATE

  Carrie,leftalonebyDrouet,listenedtohisretreatingsteps,scarcelyrealisingwhathadhappened。Sheknewthathehad,stormedout。Itwassomemomentsbeforeshequestionedwhether,hewouldreturn,notnowexactly,butever。Shelookedaround,herupontherooms,outofwhichtheeveninglightwasdying,and,wonderedwhyshedidnotfeelquitethesametowardsthem。She,wentovertothedresserandstruckamatch,lightingthegas。

  Thenshewentbacktotherockertothink。

  Itwassometimebeforeshecouldcollectherthoughts,butwhen,shedid,thistruthbegantotakeonimportance。Shewasquite,alone。SupposeDrouetdidnotcomeback?Supposesheshould,neverhearanythingmoreofhim?Thisfinearrangementof,chamberswouldnotlastlong。Shewouldhavetoquitthem。

  Tohercredit,beitsaid,sheneveroncecountedonHurstwood。

  Shecouldonlyapproachthatsubjectwithapangofsorrowand,regret。Foratruth,shewasrathershockedandfrightenedby,thisevidenceofhumandepravity。Hewouldhavetrickedher,withoutturninganeyelash。Shewouldhavebeenledintoanewer,andworsesituation。Andyetshecouldnotkeepoutthepictures,ofhislooksandmanners。Onlythisonedeedseemedstrangeand,miserable。Itcontrastedsharplywithallshefeltandknew,concerningtheman。

  Butshewasalone。Thatwasthegreaterthoughtjustatpresent。

  Howaboutthat?Wouldshegoouttoworkagain?Wouldshebegin,tolookaroundinthebusinessdistrict?Thestage!Oh,yes。

  Drouethadspokenaboutthat。Wasthereanyhopethere?She,movedtoandfro,indeepandvariedthoughts,whiletheminutes,slippedawayandnightfellcompletely。Shehadhadnothingto,eat,andyetthereshesat,thinkingitover。

  Sherememberedthatshewashungryandwenttothelittle,cupboardintherearroomwhereweretheremainsofoneoftheir,breakfasts。Shelookedatthesethingswithcertainmisgivings。

  Thecontemplationoffoodhadmoresignificancethanusual。

  Whileshewaseatingshebegantowonderhowmuchmoneyshehad。

  Itstruckherasexceedinglyimportant,andwithoutadoshewent,tolookforherpurse。Itwasonthedresser,andinitwere,sevendollarsinbillsandsomechange。Shequailedasshe,thoughtoftheinsignificanceoftheamountandrejoicedbecause,therentwaspaiduntiltheendofthemonth。Shebeganalsoto,thinkwhatshewouldhavedoneifshehadgoneoutintothe,streetwhenshefirststarted。Bythesideofthatsituation,as,shelookedatitnow,thepresentseemedagreeable。Shehada,littletimeatleast,andthen,perhaps,everythingwouldcome,outallright,afterall。

  Drouethadgone,butwhatofit?Hedidnotseemseriouslyangry。

  Heonlyactedasifhewerehuffy。Hewouldcomeback——ofcourse,hewould。Therewashiscaneinthecorner。Herewasoneofhis,collars。Hehadlefthislightovercoatinthewardrobe。She,lookedaboutandtriedtoassureherselfwiththesightofa,dozensuchdetails,but,alas,thesecondarythoughtarrived。

  Supposinghedidcomeback。Thenwhat?

  Herewasanotherpropositionnearly,ifnotquite,asdisturbing。

  Shewouldhavetotalkwithandexplaintohim。Hewouldwant,hertoadmitthathewasright。Itwouldbeimpossibleforher,tolivewithhim。

  OnFridayCarrierememberedherappointmentwithHurstwood,and,thepassingofthehourwhensheshould,byallrightofpromise,havebeeninhiscompanyservedtokeepthecalamitywhichhad,befallenherexceedinglyfreshandclear。Inhernervousnessand,stressofmindshefeltitnecessarytoact,andconsequentlyput,onabrownstreetdress,andateleveno’clockstartedtovisit,thebusinessportiononceagain。Shemustlookforwork。

  Therain,whichthreatenedattwelveandbeganatone,served,equallywelltocausehertoretraceherstepsandremainwithin,doorsasitdidtoreduceHurstwood’sspiritsandgivehima,wretchedday。

  ThemorrowwasSaturday,ahalf-holidayinmanybusiness,quarters,andbesidesitwasabalmy,radiantday,withthetrees,andgrassshiningexceedinglygreenaftertherainofthenight,before。Whenshewentoutthesparrowsweretwitteringmerrily,injoyouschoruses。Shecouldnothelpfeeling,asshelooked,acrossthelovelypark,thatlifewasajoyousthingforthose,whodidnotneedtoworry,andshewishedoverandoverthat,somethingmightinterferenowtopreserveforherthecomfortable,statewhichshehadoccupied。ShedidnotwantDrouetorhis,moneywhenshethoughtofit,noranythingmoretodowith,Hurstwood,butonlythecontentandeaseofmindshehad,experienced,for,afterall,shehadbeenhappy——happier,at,least,thanshewasnowwhenconfrontedbythenecessityof,makingherwayalone。

  Whenshearrivedinthebusinesspartitwasquiteeleven,o’clock,andthebusinesshadlittlelongertorun。Shedidnot,realisethisatfirst,beingaffectedbysomeoftheolddistress,whichwasaresultofherearlieradventureintothisstrenuous,andexactingquarter。Shewanderedabout,assuringherselfthat,shewasmakinguphermindtolookforsomething,andatthesame,timefeelingthatperhapsitwasnotnecessarytobeinsuch,hasteaboutit。Thethingwasdifficulttoencounter,andshe,hadafewdays。Besides,shewasnotsurethatshewasreally,facetofaceagainwiththebitterproblemofself-sustenance。

  Anyhow,therewasonechangeforthebetter。Sheknewthatshe,hadimprovedinappearance。Hermannerhadvastlychanged。Her,clotheswerebecoming,andmen——well-dressedmen,someofthe,kindwhobeforehadgazedatherindifferentlyfrombehindtheir,polishedrailingsandimposingofficepartitions——nowgazedinto,herfacewithasoftlightintheireyes。Inaway,shefeltthe,powerandsatisfactionofthething,butitdidnotwholly,reassureher。Shelookedfornothingsavewhatmightcome,legitimatelyandwithouttheappearanceofspecialfavour。She,wantedsomething,butnomanshouldbuyherbyfalse,protestationsorfavour。Sheproposedtoearnherliving,honestly。

  “ThisstoreclosesatoneonSaturdays,“wasapleasingand,satisfactorylegendtoseeupondoorswhichshefeltsheoughtto,enterandinquireforwork。Itgaveheranexcuse,andafter,encounteringquiteanumberofthem,andnotingthattheclock,registered12。15,shedecidedthatitwouldbenousetoseek,furtherto-day,soshegotonacarandwenttoLincolnPark。

  Therewasalwayssomethingtoseethere——theflowers,the,animals,thelake——andsheflatteredherselfthatonMondayshe,wouldbeupbetimesandsearching。Besides,manythingsmight,happenbetweennowandMonday。

  Sundaypassedwithequaldoubts,worries,assurances,andheaven,knowswhatvagariesofmindandspirit。Everyhalf-hourinthe,daythethoughtwouldcometohermostsharply,likethetailof,aswishingwhip,thataction——immediateaction——wasimperative。

  Atothertimesshewouldlookaboutherandassureherselfthat,thingswerenotsobad——thatcertainlyshewouldcomeoutsafe,andsound。AtsuchtimesshewouldthinkofDrouet’sadvice,aboutgoingonthestage,andsawsomechanceforherselfinthat,quarter。Shedecidedtotakeupthatopportunityonthemorrow。

  Accordingly,shearoseearlyMondaymorninganddressedherself,carefully。Shedidnotknowjusthowsuchapplicationswere,made,butshetookittobeamatterwhichrelatedmoredirectly,tothetheatrebuildings。Allyouhadtodowastoinquireof,someoneaboutthetheatreforthemanagerandaskfora,position。Iftherewasanything,youmightgetit,or,atleast,hecouldtellyouhow。

  Shehadhadnoexperiencewiththisclassofindividuals,whatsoever,anddidnotknowthesalacityandhumourofthe,theatricaltribe。SheonlyknewofthepositionwhichMr。Hale,occupied,but,ofallthings,shedidnotwishtoencounterthat,personage,onaccountofherintimacywithhiswife。

  Therewas,however,atthistime,onetheatre,theChicagoOpera,House,whichwasconsiderablyinthepubliceye,anditsmanager,DavidA。Henderson,hadafairlocalreputation。Carriehadseen,oneortwoelaborateperformancesthereandhadheardofseveral,others。SheknewnothingofHendersonnorofthemethodsof,applying,butsheinstinctivelyfeltthatthiswouldbealikely,place,andaccordinglystrolledaboutinthatneighbourhood。She,camebravelyenoughtotheshowyentranceway,withthepolished,andbegildedlobby,setwithframedpicturesoutofthecurrent,attraction,leadinguptothequietbox-office,butshecouldget,nofurther。Anotedcomicoperacomedianwasholdingforththat,week,andtheairofdistinctionandprosperityoverawedher。

  Shecouldnotimaginethattherewouldbeanythinginsucha,loftysphereforher。Shealmosttrembledattheaudacitywhich,mighthavecarriedherontoaterriblerebuff。Shecouldfind,heartonlytolookatthepictureswhichwereshowyandthenwalk,out。Itseemedtoherasifshehadmadeasplendidescapeand,thatitwouldbefoolhardytothinkofapplyinginthatquarter,again。

  Thislittleexperiencesettledherhuntingforoneday。She,lookedaroundelsewhere,butitwasfromtheoutside。Shegot,thelocationofseveralplayhousesfixedinhermind——notablythe,GrandOperaHouseandMcVickar’s,bothofwhichwereleadingin,attractions——andthencameaway。Herspiritswerematerially,reduced,owingtothenewlyrestoredsenseofmagnitudeofthe,greatinterestsandtheinsignificanceofherclaimsupon,society,suchassheunderstoodthemtobe。

  ThatnightshewasvisitedbyMrs。Hale,whosechatterand,protractedstaymadeitimpossibletodwelluponherpredicament,orthefortuneoftheday。Beforeretiring,however,shesat,downtothink,andgaveherselfuptothemostgloomy,forebodings。Drouethadnotputinanappearance。Shehadhad,nowordfromanyquarter,shehadspentadollarofherprecious,suminprocuringfoodandpayingcarfare。Itwasevidentthat,shewouldnotendurelong。Besides,shehaddiscoveredno,resource。

  InthissituationherthoughtswentouttohersisterinVan,BurenStreet,whomshehadnotseensincethenightofher,flight,andtoherhomeatColumbiaCity,whichseemednowapart,ofsomethingthatcouldnotbeagain。Shelookedfornorefuge,inthatdirection。Nothingbutsorrowwasbroughtherby,thoughtsofHurstwood,whichwouldreturn。Thathecouldhave,chosentodupeherinsoreadyamannerseemedacruelthing。

  Tuesdaycame,andwithitappropriateindecisionandspeculation。

  Shewasinnomood,afterherfailureofthedaybefore,to,hastenforthuponherwork-seekingerrand,andyetsherebuked,herselfforwhatsheconsideredherweaknessthedaybefore。

  AccordinglyshestartedouttorevisittheChicagoOperaHouse,butpossessedscarcelyenoughcouragetoapproach。

  Shedidmanagetoinquireatthebox-office,however。

  “Managerofthecompanyorthehouse?”askedthesmartlydressed,individualwhotookcareofthetickets。Hewasfavourably,impressedbyCarrie’slooks。

  “Idon’tknow,“saidCarrie,takenbackbythequestion。

  “Youcouldn’tseethemanagerofthehouseto-day,anyhow,“

  volunteeredtheyoungman。”He’soutoftown。”

  Henotedherpuzzledlook,andthenadded:“Whatisityouwish,toseeabout?”

  “Iwanttoseeaboutgettingaposition,“sheanswered。

  “You’dbetterseethemanagerofthecompany,“hereturned,“but,heisn’therenow。”

  “Whenwillhebein?”askedCarrie,somewhatrelievedbythis,information。

  “Well,youmightfindhiminbetweenelevenandtwelve。He’s,hereaftertwoo’clock。”

  Carriethankedhimandwalkedbrisklyout,whiletheyoungman,gazedafterherthroughoneofthesidewindowsofhisgilded,coop。

  “Good-looking,“hesaidtohimself,andproceededtovisionsof,condescensionsonherpartwhichwereexceedinglyflatteringto,himself。

  Oneoftheprincipalcomedycompaniesofthedaywasplayingan,engagementattheGrandOperaHouse。HereCarrieaskedtosee,themanagerofthecompany。Shelittleknewthetrivial,authorityofthisindividual,orthathadtherebeenavacancyan,actorwouldhavebeensentonfromNewYorktofillit。

  “Hisofficeisupstairs,“saidamaninthebox-office。

  Severalpersonswereinthemanager’soffice,twoloungingneara,window,anothertalkingtoanindividualsittingataroll-top,desk——themanager。Carrieglancednervouslyabout,andbeganto,fearthatsheshouldhavetomakeherappealbeforetheassembled,company,twoofwhom——theoccupantsofthewindow——werealready,observinghercarefully。

  “Ican’tdoit,“themanagerwassaying;“it’saruleofMr。

  Frohman’snevertoallowvisitorsbackofthestage。No,no!”

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