`WouldyougivemetheTime?\'saidthesergeant,addressinghimselftoMrPumblechook,astoamanwhoseappreciativepowersjustifiedtheinferencethathewasequaltothetime。
`It\'sjustgonehalf-pasttwo。\'
`That\'snotsobad,\'saidthesergeant,reflecting;`evenifIwasforcedtohaltherenightwohours,that\'lldo。Howfarmightyoucallyourselvesfromthemarshes,hereabouts?Notaboveamile,Ireckon?\'
`Justamile,\'saidMrsJoe。
`That\'lldo。Webegintocloseinupon\'emaboutdusk。Alittlebeforedusk,myordersare。That\'lldo。\'
`Convicts,sergeant?\'askedMrWopsle,inamatter-of-courseway。
`Ay!\'returnedthesergeant,`two。They\'reprettywellknowntobeoutonthemarshesstill,andtheywon\'ttrytogetclearof\'embeforedusk。
Anybodyhereseenanythingofanysuchgame?\'
Everybody,myselfexcepted,saidno,withconfidence。Nobodythoughtofme。
`Well!\'saidthesergeant,`they\'llfindthemselvestrappedinacircle,Iexpect,soonerthantheycounton。Now,blacksmith!Ifyou\'reready,hisMajestytheKingis。\'
Joehadgothiscoatandwaistcoatandcravatoff,andhisleatherapronon,andpassedintotheforge。Oneofthesoldiersopeneditswoodenwindows,anotherlightenedthefire,anotherturnedtoatthebellows,thereststoodroundtheblaze,whichwassoonroaring。ThenJoebegantohammerandclink,hammerandclink,andwealllookedon。
Theinterestoftheimpendingpursuitnotonlyabsorbedthegeneralattention,butevenmademysisterliberal。Shedrewapitcherofbeerfromthecask,forthesoldiers,andinvitedthesergeanttotakeaglassofbrandy。ButMrPumblechooksaid,sharply,`Givehimwine,Mum。I\'llengagethere\'snoTarinthat:\'so,thesergeantthankedhimandsaidthatashepreferredhisdrinkwithouttar,hewouldtakewine,ifitwasequallyconvenient。Whenitwasgivenhim,hedrankhisMajesty\'shealthandComplimentsoftheSeason,andtookitallatamouthfulandsmackedhislips。
`Goodstuff,eh,sergeant?\'saidMrPumblechook。
`I\'lltellyousomething,\'returnedthesergeant;`Isuspectthatstuff\'sofyourproviding。\'
Mr。Pumblechook,withafatsortoflaugh,said,`Ay,ay?Why?\'
`Because,\'returnedthesergeant,clappinghimontheshoulder,`you\'reamanthatknowswhat\'swhat。\'
`D\'yethinkso?\'saidMrPumblechook,withhisformerlaugh。`Haveanotherglass!\'
`Withyou。Hobandnob,\'returnedthesergeant。`Thetopofminetothefootofyours-thefootofyourstothetopofmine-Ringonce,ringtwice-thebesttuneontheMusicalGlasses!Yourhealth。Mayyouliveathousandyears,andneverbeaworsejudgeoftherightsortthanyouareatthepresentmomentofyourlife!\'
Thesergeanttossedoffhisglassagainandseemedquitereadyforanotherglass。InoticedthatMrPumblechookinhishospitalityappearedtoforgetthathehadmadeapresentofthewine,buttookthebottlefromMrsJoeandhadallthecreditofhandingitaboutinagushofjoviality。EvenIgotsome。Andhewassoveryfreeofthewinethatheevencalledfortheotherbottle,andhandedthataboutwiththesameliberality,whenthefirstwasgone。
AsIwatchedthemwhiletheyallstoodclusteringabouttheforge,enjoyingthemselvessomuch,Ithoughtwhatterriblegoodsauceforadinnermyfugitivefriendonthemarsheswas。Theyhadnotenjoyedthemselvesaquartersomuch,beforetheentertainmentwasbrightenedwiththeexcitementhefurnished。Andnow,whentheywereallinlivelyanticipationof`thetwovillains\'beingtaken,andwhenthebellowsseemedtoroarforthefugitives,thefiretoflareforthem,thesmoketohurryawayinpursuitofthem,Joetohammerandclinkforthem,andallthemurkyshadowsonthewalltoshakeattheminmenaceastheblazeroseandsankandthered-hotsparksdroppedanddied,thepaleafter-noonoutside,almostseemedinmypityingyoungfancytohaveturnedpaleontheiraccount,poorwretches。
Atlast,Joe\'sjobwasdone,andtheringingandroaringstopped。AsJoegotonhiscoat,hemusteredcouragetoproposethatsomeofusshouldgodownwiththesoldiersandseewhatcameofthehunt。MrPumblechookandMrHubbledeclined,onthepleaofapipeandladies\'society;butMrWopslesaidhewouldgo,ifJoewould。Joesaidhewasagreeable,andwouldtakeme,ifMrsJoeapproved。Wenevershouldhavegotleavetogo,Iamsure,butforMrsJoe\'scuriositytoknowallaboutitandhowitended。Asitwas,shemerelystipulated,`Ifyoubringtheboybackwithhisheadblowntobitsbyamusket,don\'tlooktometoputittogetheragain。\'
Thesergeanttookapoliteleaveoftheladies,andpartedfromMrPumblechookasfromacomrade;thoughIdoubtifhewerequiteasfullysensibleofthatgentleman\'smeritsunderaridconditions,aswhensomethingmoistwasgoing。Hismenresumedtheirmusketsandfellin。MrWopsle,Joe,andI,receivedstrictchargetokeepintherear,andtospeaknowordafterwereachedthemarshes。Whenwewerealloutintherawairandweresteadilymovingtowardsourbusiness,ItreasonablywhisperedtoJoe,`Ihope,Joe,weshan\'tfindthem。\'andJoewhisperedtome,`I\'dgiveashillingiftheyhadcutandrun,Pip。\'
Wewerejoinedbynostragglersfromthevillage,fortheweatherwascoldandthreatening,thewaydreary,thefootinghad,darknesscomingon,andthepeoplehadgoodfiresin-doorsandwerekeepingtheday。A
fewfaceshurriedtoglowingwindowsandlookedafterus,butnonecameout。Wepassedthefinger-post,andheldstraightontothechurchyard。
There,wewerestoppedafewminutesbyasignalfromthesergeant\'shand,whiletwoorthreeofhismendispersedthemselvesamongthegraves,andalsoexaminedtheporch。Theycameinagainwithoutfindinganything,andthenwestruckoutontheopenmarshes,throughthegateatthesideofthechurchyard。Abittersleetcamerattlingagainstushereontheeastwind,andJoetookmeonhisback。
NowthatweareoutuponthedismalwildernesswheretheylittlethoughtIhadbeenwithineightorninehoursandhadseenbothmenhiding,Iconsideredforthefirsttime,withgreatdread,ifweshouldcomeuponthem,wouldmyparticularconvictsupposethatitwasIwhohadbroughtthesoldiersthere?HehadaskedmeifIwasadeceivingimp,andhehadsaidIshouldbeafierceyounghoundifIjoinedthehuntagainsthim。WouldhebelievethatIwasbothimpandhoundintreacherousearnest,andhadbetrayedhim?
Itwasofnouseaskingmyselfthisquestionnow。ThereIwas,onJoe\'sback,andtherewasJoebeneathme,chargingattheditcheslikeahunter,andstimulatingMrWopslenottotumbleonhisRomannose,andtokeepupwithus。Thesoldierswereinfrontofus,extendingintoaprettywidelinewithanintervalbetweenmanandman。WeweretakingthecourseI
hadbegunwith,andfromwhichIhaddivergedinthemist。Eitherthemistwasnotoutagainyet,orthewindhaddispelledit。Underthelowredglareofsunset,thebeacon,andthegibbet,andthemoundoftheBattery,andtheoppositeshoreoftheriver,wereplain,thoughallofawateryleadcolour。
WithmyheartthumpinglikeablacksmithatJoe\'sbroadshoulder,I
lookedallaboutforanysignoftheconvicts。Icouldseenone,Icouldhearnone。MrWopslehadgreatlyalarmedmemorethanonce,byhisblowingandhardbreathing;butIknewthesoundsbythistime,andcoulddissociatethemfromtheobjectofpursuit。Igotadreadfulstart,whenIthoughtIheardthefilestillgoing;butitwasonlyasheepbell。Thesheepstoppedintheireatingandlookedtimidlyatus;andthecattle,theirheadsturnedfromthewindandsleet,staredangrilyasiftheyheldusresponsibleforbothannoyances;but,exceptthesethings,andtheshudderofthedyingdayineverybladeofgrass,therewasnobreakinthebleakstillnessofthemarshes。
ThesoldiersweremovingoninthedirectionoftheoldBattery,andweweremovingonalittlewaybehindthem,when,allofasudden,weallstopped。For,therehadreachedusonthewingsofthewindandrain,alongshout。Itwasrepeated。Itwasatadistancetowardstheeast,butitwaslongandloud。Nay,thereseemedtobetwoormoreshoutsraisedtogether-ifonemightjudgefromaconfusioninthesound。
Tothiseffectthesergeantandthenearestmenwerespeakingundertheirbreath,whenJoeandIcameup。Afteranothermoment\'slistening,Joewhowasagoodjudgeagreed,andMrWopslewhowasabadjudge
agreed。Thesergeant,adecisiveman,orderedthatthesoundshouldnotbeanswered,butthatthecourseshouldbechanged,andthathismenshouldmaketowardsit`atthedouble。\'SoweslantedtotherightwheretheEastwas,andJoepoundedawaysowonderfully,thatIhadtoholdontighttokeepmyseat。
Itwasarunindeednow,andwhatJoecalled,intheonlytwowordshespokeallthetime,`aWinder。\'Downbanksandupbanks,andovergates,andsplashingintodykes,andbreakingamongcoarserushes:nomancaredwherehewent。Aswecamenearertotheshouting,itbecamemoreandmoreapparentthatitwasmadebymorethanonevoice。Sometimes,itseemedtostopaltogether,andthenthesoldiersstopped。Whenitbrokeoutagain,thesoldiersmadeforitatagreaterratethanever,andweafterthem。
Afterawhile,wehadsorunitdown,thatwecouldhearonevoicecalling`Murder!\'andanothervoice,`Convicts!Runaways!Guard!Thiswayfortherunawayconvicts!\'Thenbothvoiceswouldseemtobestifledinastruggle,andthenwouldbreakoutagain。Andwhenithadcometothis,thesoldiersranlikedeer,andJoetoo。
Thesergeantraninfirst,whenwehadrunthenoisequitedown,andtwoofhismenranincloseuponhim。Theirpieceswerecockedandlevelledwhenweallranin。
`Herearebothmen!\'pantedthesergeant,strugglingatthebottomofaditch。`Surrender,youtwo!andconfoundyoufortwowildbeasts!Comeasunder!\'
Waterwassplashing,andmudwasflying,andoathswerebeingsworn,andblowswerebeingstruck,whensomemoremenwentdownintotheditchtohelpthesergeant,anddraggedout,separately,myconvictandtheotherone。Bothwerebleedingandpantingandexecratingandstruggling;butofcourseIknewthembothdirectly。
`Mind!\'saidmyconvict,wipingbloodfromhisfacewithhisraggedsleeves,andshakingtornhairfromhisfingers:`Itookhim!Igivehimuptoyou!Mindthat!\'
`It\'snotmuchtobeparticularabout,\'aidthesergeant;`it\'lldoyousmallgood,myman,beinginthesameplightyourself。Handcuffsthere!\'
`Idon\'texpectittodomeanygood。Idon\'twantittodomemoregoodthanitdoesnow,\'saidmyconvict,withagreedylaugh。`Itookhim。
Heknowsit。That\'senoughforme。\'
Theotherconvictwaslividtolookat,and,inadditiontotheoldbruisedleftsideofhisface,seemedtobebruisedandtornallover。
Hecouldnotsomuchasgethisbreathtospeak,untiltheywerebothseparatelyhandcuffed,butleaneduponasoldiertokeephimselffromfalling。
`Takenotice,guard-hetriedtomurderme,\'werehisfirstwords。
`Triedtomurderhim?\'saidmyconvict,disdainfully。`Try,andnotdoit?Itookhim,andgiv\'himup;that\'swhatIdone。Inotonlypreventedhimgettingoffthemarshes,butIdraggedhimhere-draggedhimthisfaronhiswayback。He\'sagentleman,ifyouplease,thisvillain。Now,theHulkshasgotitsgentlemanagain,throughme。Murderhim?Worthmywhile,too,tomurderhim,whenIcoulddoworseanddraghimback!\'
Theotheronestillgasped,`Hetried-hetried-to-murderme。Bear-bearwitness。\'
`Lookeehere!\'saidmyconvicttothesergeant。`Single-handedIgotclearoftheprison-ship;ImadeadashandIdoneit。Icouldha\'gotclearofthesedeath-coldflatslikewise-lookatmyleg:youwon\'tfindmuchirononit-ifIhadn\'tmadediscoverythathewashere。Lethimgofree?LethimprofitbythemeansasIfoundout?
Lethimmakeatoolofmeafreshandagain?Oncemore?No,no,no。
IfIhaddiedatthebottomthere;\'andhemadeanemphaticswingattheditchwithhismanacledhands;`I\'dhaveheldtohimwiththatgrip,thatyoushouldhavebeensafetofindhiminmyhold。\'
Theotherfugitive,whowasevidentlyinextremehorrorofhiscompanion,repeated,`Hetriedtomurderme。Ishouldhavebeenadeadmanifyouhadnotcomeup。\'
`Helies!\'saidmyconvict,withfierceenergy。`He\'saliarborn,andhe\'lldiealiar。Lookathisface;ain\'titwrittenthere?Lethimturnthoseeyesofhisonme。Idefyhimtodoit。\'
Theother,withaneffortatascornfulsmile-whichcouldnot,however,collectthenervousworkingofhismouthintoanysetexpression-lookedatthesoldiers,andlookedaboutatthemarshesandatthesky,butcertainlydidnotlookatthespeaker。
`Doyouseehim?\'pursuedmyconvict。`Doyouseewhatavillainheis?Doyouseethosegrovellingandwanderingeyes?That\'showhelookedwhenweweretriedtogether。Heneverlookedatme。\'
Theother,alwaysworkingandworkinghisdrylipsandturninghiseyesrestlesslyabouthimfarandnear,didatlastturnthemforamomentonthespeaker,withthewords,`Youarenotmuchtolookat,\'andwithahalf-tauntingglanceattheboundhands。Atthatpoint,myconvictbecamesofranticallyexasperated,thathewouldhaverusheduponhimbutfortheinterpositionofthesoldiers。`Didn\'tItellyou,\'saidtheotherconvictthen,`thathewouldmurderme,ifhecould?\'Andanyonecouldseethatheshookwithfear,andthattherebrokeoutuponhislips,curiouswhiteflakes,likethinsnow。
`Enoughofthisparley,\'saidthesergeant。`Lightthosetorches。\'
Asoneofthesoldiers,whocarriedabasketinlieuofagun,wentdownonhiskneetoopenit,myconvictlookedroundhimforthefirsttime,andsawme。IhadalightedfromJoe\'sbackonthebrinkoftheditchwhenwecameup,andhadnotmovedsince。Ilookedathimeagerlywhenhelookedatme,andslightlymovedmyhandsandshookmyhead。Ihadbeenwaitingforhimtoseeme,thatImighttrytoassurehimofmyinnocence。
Itwasnotatallexpressedtomethatheevencomprehendedmyintention,forhegavemealookthatIdidnotunderstand,anditallpassedinamoment。Butifhehadlookedatmeforanhourorforaday,Icouldnothaverememberedhisfaceeverafterwards,ashavingbeenmoreattentive。
Thesoldierwiththebasketsoongotalight,andlightedthreeorfourtorches,andtookonehimselfanddistributedtheothers。Ithadbeenalmostdarkbefore,butnowitseemedquitedark,andsoonafterwardsverydark。
Beforewedepartedfromthatspot,foursoldiersstandinginaring,firedtwiceintotheair。Presentlywesawothertorcheskindledatsomedistancebehindus,andothersonthemarshesontheoppositebankoftheriver。
`Allright,\'saidthesergeant。`March。\'
Wehadnotgonefarwhenthreecannonwerefiredaheadofuswithasoundthatseemedtoburstsomethinginsidemyear。`Youareexpectedonboard,\'saidthesergeanttomyconvict;`theyknowyouarecoming。Don\'tstraggle,myman。Closeuphere。\'
Thetwowerekeptapart,andeachwalkedsurroundedbyaseparateguard。
IhadholdofJoe\'shandnow,andJoecarriedoneofthetorches。MrWopslehadbeenforgoingback,butJoewasresolvedtoseeitout,sowewentonwiththeparty。Therewasareasonablygoodpathnow,mostlyontheedgeoftheriver,withadivergencehereandtherewhereadykecame,withaminiaturewindmillonitandamuddysluice-gate。WhenIlookedround,Icouldseetheotherlightscominginafterus。Thetorcheswecarried,droppedgreatblotchesoftheuponthetrack,andIcouldseethose,too,lyingsmokingandflaring。Icouldseenothingelsebutblackdarkness。Ourlightswarmedtheairaboutuswiththeirpitchyblaze,andthetwoprisonersseemedrathertolikethat,astheylimpedalonginthemidstofthemuskets。Wecouldnotgofast,becauseoftheirlameness;
andtheyweresospent,thattwoorthreetimeswehadtohaltwhiletheyrested。
Afteranhourorsoofthistravelling,wecametoaroughwoodenhutandalanding-place。Therewasaguardinthehut,andtheychallenged,andthesergeantanswered。Then,wewentintothehutwheretherewasasmelloftobaccoandwhitewash,andabrightfire,andalamp,andastandofmuskets,andadrum,andalowwoodenbedstead,likeanovergrownmanglewithoutthemachinery,capableofholdingaboutadozensoldiersallatonce。Threeorfoursoldierswholayuponitintheirgreat-coats,werenotmuchinterestedinus,butjustliftedtheirheadsandtookasleepystare,andthenlaydownagain。Thesergeantmadesomekindofreport,andsomeentryinabook,andthentheconvictwhomIcalltheotherconvictwasdraftedoffwithhisguard,togoonboardfirst。
Myconvictneverlookedatme,exceptthatonce。Whilewestoodinthehut,hestoodbeforethefirelookingthoughtfullyatit,orputtinguphisfeetbyturnsuponthehob,andlookingthoughtfullyatthemasifhepitiedthemfortheirrecentadventures。Suddenly,heturnedtothesergeant,andremarked:
`Iwishtosaysomethingrespectingthisescape。Itmaypreventsomepersonslayingundersuspicionalongerme。\'
`Youcansaywhatyoulike,\'returnedthesergeant,standingcoollylookingathimwithhisarmsfolded,`butyouhavenocalltosayithere。
You\'llhaveopportunityenoughtosayaboutit,andhearaboutit,beforeit\'sdonewith,youknow。\'
`Iknow,butthisisanotherpint,aseparatematter。Amancan\'tstarve;
atleastIcan\'t。Itooksomewittles,upatthewillageoveryonder-wherethechurchstandsa\'mostoutonthemarshes。\'
`Youmeanstole,\'saidthesergeant。
`AndI\'lltellyouwherefrom。Fromtheblacksmith\'s。\'
`Halloa!\'saidthesergeant,staringatJoe。
`Halloa,Pip!\'saidJoe,staringatme。
`Itwassomebrokenwittles-that\'swhatitwas-andadramofliquor,andapie。\'
`Haveyouhappenedtomisssuchanarticlesasapie,blacksmith?\'askedthesergeant,confidentially。
`Mywifedid,attheverymomentwhenyoucamein。Don\'tyouknow,Pip?\'
`So,\'saidmyconvict,turninghiseyesonJoeinamoodymanner,andwithouttheleastglanceatme;`soyou\'retheblacksmith,areyou?ThanI\'msorrytosay,I\'veeatyourpie。\'
`Godknowsyou\'rewelcometoit-sofarasitwasevermine,\'returnedJoe,withasavingremembranceofMrsJoe。`Wedon\'tknowwhatyouhavedone,butwewouldn\'thaveyoustarvedtodeathforit,poormiserablefellow-creatur-Wouldus,Pip?\'
ThesomethingthatIhadnoticedbefore,clickedintheman\'sthroatagain,andheturnedhisback。Theboathadreturned,andhisguardwereready,sowefollowedhimtothelanding-placemadeofroughstakesandstones,andsawhimputintotheboat,whichwasrowedbyacrewofconvictslikehimself。Nooneseemedsurprisedtoseehim,orinterestedinseeinghim,orgladtoseehim,orsorrytoseehim,orspokeaword,exceptthatsomebodyintheboatgrowledasiftodogs,`Giveway,you!\'whichwasthesignalforthedipoftheoars。Bythelightoftorches,wewastheblackHulklyingoutalittlewayfromthemudoftheshore,likeawickedNoah\'sark。Cribbedandbarredandmooredbymassiverustychains,theprison-shipseemedinmyyoungeyestobeironedliketheprisoners。Wesawtheboatgoalongside,andwesawhimtakenupthesideanddisappear。
Then,theendsofthetorcheswereflunghissingintothewater,andwentout,asifitwerealloverwithhim。
Chapter6
MYstateofmindregardingthepilferingfromwhichIhadbeensounexpectedlyexonerated,didnotimpelmetofrankdisclosure;butIhopeithadsomedregsofgoodatthebottomofit。
IdonotrecallthatIfeltanytendernessofconscienceinreferencetoMrsJoe,whenthefearofbeingfoundoutwasliftedoffme。ButIlovedJoe-perhapsfornobetterreasoninthoseearlydaysthanbecausethedearfellowletmelovehim-and,astohim,myinnerselfwasnotsoeasilycomposed。ItwasmuchuponmymindparticularlywhenIfirstsawhimlookingaboutforhisfilethatIoughttotellJoethewholetruth。
YetIdidnot,andforthereasonthatImistrustedthatifIdid,hewouldthinkmeworsethanIwas。ThefearoflosingJoe\'sconfidence,andofthenceforthsittinginthechimney-corneratnightstaringdrearilyatmyforeverlostcompanionandfriend,tiedupmytongue。ImorbidlyrepresentedtomyselfthatifJoeknewit,Ineverafterwardscouldseehimatthefiresidefeelinghisfairwhisker,withoutthinkingthathewasmeditatingonit。That,ifJoeknewit,Ineverafterwardscouldseehimglance,howevercasually,atyesterday\'smeatorpuddingwhenitcameonto-day\'stable,withoutthinkingthathewasdebatingwhetherIhadbeeninthepantry。
That,ifJoeknewit,andatanysubsequentperiodofourjointdomesticliferemarkedthathisbeerwasflatorthick,theconvictionthathesuspectedTarinit,wouldbringarushofbloodtomyface。Inaword,IwastoocowardlytodowhatIknewtoberight,asIhadbeentoocowardlytoavoiddoingwhatIknewtobewrong。Ihadhadnointercoursewiththeworldatthattime,andIimitatednoneofitsmanyinhabitantswhoactinthismanner。Quiteanuntaughtgenius,Imadethediscoveryofthelineofactionformyself。
AsIwassleepybeforewewerefarawayfromtheprison-ship,Joetookmeonhisbackagainandcarriedmehome。Hemusthavehadatiresomejourneyofit,forMrWopsle,beingknockedup,wasinsuchaverybadtemperthatiftheChurchhadbeenthrownopen,hewouldprobablyhaveexcommunicatedthewholeexpedition,beginningwithJoeandmyself。Inhislaycapacity,hepersistedinsittingdowninthedamptosuchaninsaneextent,thatwhenhiscoatwastakenofftobedriedatthekitchenfire,thecircumstantialevidenceonhistrouserswouldhavehangedhimifithadbeenacapitaloffence。
Bythattime,Iwasstaggeringonthekitchenfloorlikealittledrunkard,throughhavingbeennewlysetuponmyfeet,andthroughhavingbeenfastasleep,andthroughwakingintheheatandlightsandnoiseoftongues。
AsIcametomyselfwiththeaidofaheavythumpbetweentheshoulders,andtherestorativeexclamation`Yah!Wasthereeversuchaboyasthis!\'
frommysister,IfoundJoetellingthenabouttheconvict\'sconfession,andallthevisitorssuggestingdifferentwaysbywhichhehadgotintothepantry。MrPumblechookmadeout,aftercarefullysurveyingthepremises,thathehadfirstgotupontheroofoftheforge,andhadthengotupontheroofofthehouse,andhadthenlethimselfdownthekitchenchimneybyaropemadeofhisbeddingcutintostrips;andasMrPumblechookwasverypositiveanddrovehisownchaise-cart-overeverybody-itwasagreedthatitmustbeso。MrWopsle,indeed,wildlycriedout`No!\'withthefeeblemaliceofatriedman;but,ashehadnotheory,andnocoaton,hewasunanimouslysetatnought-nottomentionhissmokinghardbehind,ashestoodwithhisbacktothekitchenfiretodrawthedampout:whichwasnotcalculatedtoinspireconfidence。
ThiswasallIheardthatnightbeforemysisterclutchedme,asaslumberousoffencetothecompany\'seyesight,andassistedmeuptobedwithsuchastronghandthatIseemedtohavefiftybootson,andtobedanglingthemallagainsttheedgesofthestairs。Mystateofmind,asIhavedescribedit,beganbeforeIwasupinthemorning,andlastedlongafterthesubjecthaddiedout,andhadceasedtobementionedsavingonexceptionaloccasions。
Chapter7
ATthetimewhenIstoodinthechurchyard,readingthefamilytombstones,Ihadjustenoughlearningtobeabletospellthemout。Myconstructionevenoftheirsimplemeaningwasnotverycorrect,forIread`wifeoftheAbove\'asacomplimentaryreferencetomyfather\'sexaltationtoabetterworld;andifanyoneofmydeceasedrelationshadbeenreferredtoas`Below,\'IhavenodoubtIshouldhaveformedtheworstopinionsofthatmemberofthefamily。Neither,weremynotionsofthetheologicalpositionstowhichmyCatechismboundme,atallaccurate;for,IhavealivelyremembrancethatIsupposedmydeclarationthatIwasto`walkinthesameallthedaysofmylife,\'laidmeunderanobligationalwaystogothroughthevillagefromourhouseinoneparticulardirection,andnevertovaryitbyturningdownbythewheelwright\'sorupbythemill。
WhenIwasoldenough,IwastobeapprenticedtoJoe,anduntilIcouldassumethatdignityIwasnottobewhatMrsJoecalled`Pompeyed,\'orasIrenderitpampered。Therefore,Iwasnotonlyodd-boyabouttheforge,butifanyneighbourhappenedtowantanextraboytofrightenbirds,orpickupstones,ordoanysuchjob,Iwasfavouredwiththeemployment。
Inorder,however,thatoursuperiorpositionmightnotbecompromisedthereby,amoney-boxwaskeptonthekitchenmantel-shelf,intowhichitwaspubliclymadeknownthatallmyearningsweredropped。IhaveanimpressionthattheyweretobecontributedeventuallytowardstheliquidationoftheNationalDebt,butIknowIhadnohopeofanypersonalparticipationinthetreasure。
MrWopsle\'sgreat-auntkeptaneveningschoolinthevillage;thatistosay,shewasaridiculousoldwomanoflimitedmeansandunlimitedinfirmity,whousedtogotosleepfromsixtoseveneveryevening,inthesocietyofyouthwhopaidtwopenceperweekeach,fortheimprovingopportunityofseeingherdoit。Sherentedasmallcottage,andMrWopslehadtheroomup-stairs,wherewestudentsusedtooverhearhimreadingaloudinamostdignifiedandterrificmanner,andoccasionallybumpingontheceiling。
TherewasafictionthatMrWopsle`examined\'thescholars,onceaquarter。
Whathedidonthoseoccasionswastoturnuphiscuffs,stickuphishair,andgiveusMarkAntony\'sorationoverthebodyofCaesar。ThiswasalwaysfollowedbyCollins\'sOdeonthePassions,whereinIparticularlyveneratedMrWopsleasRevenge,throwinghisblood-stainedswordinthunderdown,andtakingtheWar-denouncingtrumpetwithawitheringlook。Itwasnotwithmethen,asitwasinlaterlife,whenIfellintothesocietyofthePassions,andcomparedthemwithCollinsandWopsle,rathertothedisadvantageofbothgentlemen。
Mr。Wopsle\'sgreat-aunt,besideskeepingthisEducationalInstitution,kept-inthesameroom-alittlegeneralshop。Shehadnoideawhatstockshehad,orwhatthepriceofanythinginitwas;buttherewasalittlegreasymemorandum-bookkeptinadrawer,whichservedasaCatalogueofPrices,andbythisoracleBiddyarrangedalltheshoptransaction。BiddywasMrWopsle\'sgreat-aunt\'sgranddaughter;Iconfessmyselfquietunequaltotheworkingoutoftheproblem,whatrelationshewastoMrWopsle。
Shewasanorphanlikemyself;likeme,too,hadbeenbroughtupbyhand。
Shewasmostnoticeable,Ithought,inrespectofherextremities;for,herhairalwayswantedbrushing,herhandsalwayswantedwashing,andhershoesalwayswantedmendingandpullingupatheel。Thisdescriptionmustbereceivedwithaweek-daylimitation。OnSundays,shewenttochurchelaborated。
Muchofmyunassistedself,andmorebythehelpofBiddythanofMrWopsle\'sgreat-aunt,Istruggledthroughthealphabetasifithadbeenabramble-bush;gettingconsiderablyworriedandscratchedbyeveryletter。
Afterthat,Ifellamongthosethieves,theninefigures,whoseemedeveryeveningtodosomethingnewtodisguisethemselvesandbafflerecognition。
But,atlastIbegan,inapurblindgropingway,toread,write,andcipher,ontheverysmallestscale。
Onenight,Iwassittinginthechimney-cornerwithmyslate,expendinggreateffortsontheproductionofalettertoJoe。Ithinkitmusthavebeenafullyyearafterourhuntuponthemarshes,foritwasalongtimeafter,anditwaswinterandahardfrost。Withanalphabetonthehearthatmyfeetforreference,Icontrivedinanhourortwotoprintandsmearthisepistle:`MIDEERJOiOPEURKRWITEWELLiOPEiSHALSONBHABELL
42TEEDGEUJOANTHENWESHORLBSOGLODDANWENiMPRENGTD2UJOWOT
LARXANBLEVEMEINFXNPIP。\'TherewasnoindispensablenecessityformycommunicatingwithJoebyletter,inasmuchashesatbesidemeandwewerealone。But,Ideliveredthiswrittencommunicationslateandallwithmyownhand,andJoereceiveditasamiracleoferudition。
`Isay,Pip,oldchap!\'criedJoe,openinghisblueeyeswide,`whatascholaryouare!An\'tyou?\'
`Ishouldliketobe,\'saidI,glancingattheslateasheheldit:
withamisgivingthatthewritingwasratherhilly。
`Why,here\'saJ,\'saidJoe,`andaOequaltoanythink!Here\'saJ
andaO,Pip,andaJ-O,Joe。\'
IhadneverheardJoereadaloudtoanygreaterextentthanthismonosyllable,andIhadobservedatchurchlastSundaywhenIaccidentallyheldourPrayer-Bookupsidedown,thatitseemedtosuithisconveniencequiteaswellasifithadbeenright。WishingtoembracethepresentoccasionoffindingoutwhetherinteachingJoe,Ishouldhavetobeginquiteatthebeginning,Isaid,`Ah!Butreadtherest,Jo。\'
`Therest,eh,Pip?\'saidJoe,lookingatitwithaslowlysearchingeye,`One,two,three。Why,here\'sthreeJs,andthreeOs,andthreeJ-O,Joesinit,Pip!\'
IleanedoverJoe,and,withtheaidofmyforefinger,readhimthewholeletter。
`Astonishing!\'saidJoe,whenIhadfinished。`YouAREascholar。\'
`HowdoyouspellGargery,Joe?\'Iaskedhim,withamodestpatronage。
`Idon\'tspellitatall,\'saidJoe。
`Butsupposingyoudid?\'
`Itcan\'tbesupposed,\'saidJoe。`Tho\'I\'moncommonfondofreading,too。\'
`Areyou,Joe?\'
`On-common。Giveme,\'saidJoe,`agoodbook,oragoodnewspaper,andsitmedownaforeagoodfire,andIasknobetter。Lord!\'hecontinued,afterrubbinghiskneesalittle,`whenyoudocometoaJandaO,andsaysyou,\"Here,atlast,isaJ-O,Joe,\"howinterestingreadingis!\'
Iderivedfromthislast,thatJoe\'seducation,likeSteam,wasyetinitsinfancy,Pursuingthesubject,Iinquired:
`Didn\'tyouevergotoschool,Joe,whenyouwereaslittleasme?\'
`No,Pip。\'
`Whydidn\'tyouevergotoschool,Joe,whenyouwereaslittleasme?\'
`Well,Pip,\'saidJoe,takingupthepoker,andsettlinghimselftohisusualoccupationwhenhewasthoughtful,ofslowlyrakingthefirebetweenthelowerbars:`I\'lltellyou。Myfather,Pip,heweregiventodrink,andwhenhewereovertookwithdrink,hehammeredawayatmymother,mostonmerciful。Itwerea\'mosttheonlyhammeringhedid,indeed,\'xceptingatmyself。Andhehammeredatmewithawigouronlytobeequalledbythewigourwithwhichhedidn\'thammerathisanwil-You\'relisteningandunderstanding,Pip?\'
`Yes,Joe。\'
`\'Consequence,mymotherandmeweranawayfrommyfather,severaltimes;andthenmymothershe\'dgoouttowork,andshe\'dsay,\"Joe,\"she\'dsay,\"now,pleaseGod,youshallhavesomeschooling,child,\"andshe\'dputmetoschool。Butmyfatherwerethatgoodinhishartthathecouldn\'tabeartobewithoutus。So,he\'dcomewithamosttremenjouscrowdandmakesucharowatthedoorsofthehouseswherewewas,thattheyusedtobeobligatedtohavenomoretodowithusandtogiveusuptohim。
Andthenhetookushomeandhammeredus。Which,yousee,Pip,\'saidJoe,pausinginhismeditativerakingofthefire,andlookingatme,`wereadrawbackonmylearning。\'
`Certainly,poorJoe!\'
`Thoughmindyou,Pip,\'saidJoe,withajudicialtouchortwoofthepokeronthetopbar,`renderinguntoalltheirdoo,andmaintainingequaljusticebetwixtmanandman,myfatherwerethatgoodinhishart,don\'tyousee?\'
Ididn\'tsee;butIdidn\'tsayso。
`Well!\'Joepursued,`somebodymustkeepthepotabiling,Pip,orthepotwon\'tbile,don\'tyouknow?\'
Isawthat,andsaidso。
`\'Consequence,myfatherdidn\'tmakeobjectionstomygoingtowork;
soIwenttoworktoworkatmypresentcalling,whichwerehistoo,ifhewouldhavefollowedit,andIworkedtolerablehard,Iassureyou,Pip。IntimeIwereabletokeephim,andIkepthimtillhewentoffinapurplelepticfit。AnditweremyintentionstohavehadputuponhistombstonethatWhatsume\'erthefailingsonhispart,Rememberreaderhewerethatgoodinhishart。\'
Joerecitedthiscoupletwithsuchmanifestprideandcarefulperspicuity,thatIaskedhimifhehadmadeithimself。
`Imadeit,\'saidJoe,`myownself。Imadeitinamoment。Itwaslikestrikingoutahorseshoecomplete,inasingleblow。Ineverwassomuchsurprisedinallmylife-couldn\'tcreditmyowned-totellyouthetruth,hardlybelieveditweremyowned。AsIwassaying,Pip,itweremyintentionstohavehaditcutoverhim;butpoetrycostsmoney,cutithowyouwill,smallorlarge,anditwerenotdone。Nottomentionbearers,allthemoneythatcouldbesparedwerewantedformymother。
Shewereinpoorelth,andquitebroke。Sheweren\'tlongoffollowing,poorsoul,andhershareofpeacecomeroundatlast。\'
Joe\'sblueeyesturnedalittlewatery;herubbed,firstoneofthem,andthentheother,inamostuncongenialanduncomfortablemanner,withtheroundknobonthetopofthepoker。
`Itwerebutlonesomethen,\'saidJoe,`livingherealone,andIgotacquaintedwithyoursister。Now,Pip;\'Joelookedfirmlyatme,asifheknewIwasnotgoingtoagreewithhim;`yoursisterisafinefigureofawoman。\'
Icouldnothelplookingatthefire,inanobviousstateofdoubt。
`Whateverfamilyopinions,orwhatevertheworld\'sopinions,onthatsubjectmaybe,Pip,yoursisteris,\'Joetappedthetopbarwiththepokeraftereverywordfollowing,`a-fine-figure-of-a-woman!\'
Icouldthinkofnothingbettertosaythan`Iamgladyouthinkso,Joe。\'
`SoamI,\'returnedJoe,catchingmeup。`IamgladIthinkso,Pip。AlittlerednessoralittlematterofBone,hereorthere,whatdoesitsignifytoMe?\'
Isagaciouslyobserved,ifitdidn\'tsignifytohim,towhomdiditsignify?
`Certainly!\'assentedJoe。`That\'sit。You\'reright,oldchap!WhenI
gotacquaintedwithyoursister,itwerethetalkhowshewasbringingyouupbyhand。Verykindofhertoo,allthefolkssaid,andIsaid,alongwithallthefolks。Astoyou,\'Joepursuedwithacountenanceexpressiveofseeingsomethingverynastyindeed:`ifyoucouldhavebeenawarehowsmallandflabbyandmeanyouwas,dearme,you\'dhaveformedthemostcontemptibleopinionsofyourself!\'
Notexactlyrelishingthis,Isaid,`Nevermindme,Joe。\'
`ButIdidmindyou,Pip,\'hereturnedwithtendersimplicity。`WhenIofferedtoyoursistertokeepcompany,andtobeaskedinchurchatsuchtimesasshewaswillingandreadytocometotheforge,Isaidtoher,\"Andbringthepoorlittlechild。Godblessthepoorlittlechild,\"
Isaidtoyoursister,\"there\'sroomforhimattheforge!\"\'
Ibrokeoutcryingandbeggingpardon,andhuggedJoeroundtheneck:
whodroppedthepokertohugme,andtosay,`Everthebestoffriends;
an\'tus,Pip?Don\'tcry,oldchap!\'
Whenthislittleinterruptionwasover,Joeresumed:
`Well,yousee,Pip,andhereweare!That\'saboutwhereitlights;
hereweare!Now,whenyoutakemeinhandinmylearning,PipandItellyoubeforehandIamawfuldull,mostawfuldull,MrsJoemustn\'tseetoomuchofwhatwe\'reupto。Itmustbedone,asImaysay,onthesly。Andwhyonthesly?I\'lltellyouwhy,Pip。\'
Hehadtakenupthepokeragain;withoutwhich,Idoubtifhecouldhaveproceededinhisdemonstration。
`Yoursisterisgiventogovernment。\'
`Giventogovernment,Joe?\'Iwasstartled,forIhadsomeshadowyideaandIamafraidImustadd,hopethatJoehaddivorcedherinafavouroftheLordsoftheAdmiralty,orTreasury。
`Giventogovernment,\'saidJoe。`WhichImeantersaythegovernmentofyouandmyself。\'
`Oh!\'
`Andshean\'toverpartialtohavingscholarsonthepremises,\'Joecontinued,`andinparticklerwouldnotbeoverpartialtomybeingascholar,forfearasImightrise。Likeasortorrebel,don\'tyousee?\'
Iwasgoingtoretortwithaninquiry,andhadgotasfaras`Why——\'
whenJoestoppedme。
`Stayabit。Iknowwhatyou\'rea-goingtosay,Pip;stayabit!Idon\'tdenythatyoursistercomestheMo-guloverus,nowandagain。Idon\'tdenythatshedothrowusback-falls,andthatshedodropdownuponusheavy。AtsuchtimesaswhenyoursisterisontheRam-page,Pip,\'Joesankhisvoicetoawhisperandglancedatthedoor,`candourcompelsfurtoadmitthatsheisaBuster。\'
Joepronouncedthisword,asifitbeganwithatleasttwelvecapitalBs。
`Whydon\'tIrise?ThatwereyourobservationwhenIbrokeitoff,Pip?\'
`Yes,Joe。\'
`Well,\'saidJoe,passingthepokerintohislefthand,thathemightfeelhiswhisker;andIhadnohopeofhimwheneverhetooktothatplacidoccupation;`yoursister\'samaster-mind。Amaster-mind。\'
`What\'sthat?\'Iasked,insomehopeofbringinghimtoastand。But,JoewasreadierwithhisdefinitionthanIhadexcepted,andcompletelystoppedmebyarguingcircularly,andansweringwithafixedlook,`Her。\'
`AndIan\'tamaster-mind,\'Joeresumed,whenhehadunfixedhislook,andgotbacktohiswhisker。`Andlastofall,Pip-andthisIwanttosayveryseroustoyou,oldchap-Iseesomuchinmypoormother,ofawomandrudgingandslavingandbreakingherhonesthartandnevergettingnopeaceinhermortaldays,thatI\'mdeadafeerdofgoingwronginthewayofnotdoingwhat\'srightbyawoman,andI\'dfurratherofthetwogowrongthet\'otherway,andbealittleill-conweniencedmyself。Iwishitwasonlymethatgotputout,Pip;Iwishtherewarn\'tnoTicklerforyou,oldchap;IwishIcouldtakeitallonmyself;butthisistheup-and-down-and-straightonit,Pip,andIhopeyou\'lloverlookshortcomings。\'
YoungasIwas,IbelievethatIdatedanewadmirationofJoefromthatnight。Wewereequalsafterwards,aswehadbeenbefore;but,afterwardsatquiettimeswhenIsatlookingatJoeandthinkingabouthim,IhadanewsensationoffeelingconsciousthatIwaslookinguptoJoeinmyheart。
`However,\'saidJoe,risingtoreplenishthefire;`here\'stheDutch-clockaworkinghimselfuptobeingequaltostrikeEightof\'em,andshe\'snotcomehomeyet!IhopeUnclePumblechook\'smaremayn\'thavesetafore-footonapieceo\'ice,andgonedown。\'
MrsJoemadeoccasionaltripswithUnclePumblechookonmarket-days,toassisthiminbuyingsuchhouseholdstuffsandgoodsasrequiredawoman\'sjudgment;UnclePumblechookbeingabachelorandreposingnoconfidencesinhisdomesticservant。Thiswasmarket-day,andMrsJoewasoutononeoftheseexpeditions。
Joemadethefireandsweptthehearth,andthenwewenttothedoortolistenforthechaise-cart。Itwasadrycoldnight,andthewindblewkeenly,andthefrostwaswhiteandhard。Amanwoulddieto-nightoflyingoutonthemarshes,Ithought。AndthenIlookedatthestars,andconsideredhowawfulifwouldbeforamantoturnhisfaceuptothemashefrozetodeath,andseenohelporpityinalltheglitteringmultitude。
`Herecomesthemare,\'saidJoe,`ringinglikeapealofbells!\'
Thesoundofherironshoesuponthehardroadwasquitemusical,asshecamealongatamuchbriskertrotthanusual。Wegotachairout,readyforMrsJoe\'salighting,andstirredupthefirethattheymightseeabrightwindow,andtookafinalsurveyofthekitchenthatnothingmightbeoutofitsplace。Whenwehadcompletedthesepreparations,theydroveup,wrappedtotheeyes。MrsJoewassoonlanded,andUnclePumblechookwassoondowntoo,coveringthemarewithacloth,andweweresoonallinthekitchen,carryingsomuchcoldairinwithusthatitseemedtodrivealltheheatoutofthefire。
`Now,\'saidMrsJoe,unwrappingherselfwithhasteandexcitement,andthrowingherbonnetbackonhershoulderswhereithungbythestrings:
`ifthisboyan\'tgratefulthisnight,heneverwillbe!\'
Ilookedasgratefulasanyboypossiblycould,whowaswhollyuninformedwhyheoughttoassumethatexpression。
`It\'sonlytobehoped,\'saidmysister,`thathewon\'tbePomp-eyed。
ButIhavemyfears。\'
`Shean\'tinthatline,Mum,\'saidMrPumblechook。`Sheknowsbetter。\'
She?IlookedatJoe,makingthemotionwithmylipsandeyebrows,`She?\'
Joelookedatme,makingthemotionwithhislipsandeyebrows,`She?\'Mysistercatchinghimintheact,hedrewthebackofhishandacrosshisnosewithhisusualconciliatoryaironsuchoccasions,andlookedather。
`Well?\'saidmysister,inhersnappishway。`Whatareyoustaringat?
Isthehousea-fire?\'
`-Whichsomeindividual,\'Joepolitelyhinted,`mentioned-she。\'
`Andsheisashe,Isuppose?\'saidmysister。`UnlessyoucallMissHavishamahe。AndIdoubtifevenyou\'llgosofarasthat。\'
`MissHavisham,uptown?\'saidJoe。
`IsthereanyMissHavishamdowntown?\'returnedmysister。
`Shewantsthisboytogoandplaythere。Andofcoursehe\'sgoing。
Andhehadbetterplaythere,\'saidmysister,shakingherheadatmeasanencouragementtobeextremelylightandsportive,`orI\'llworkhim。\'
IhadheardofMissHavishamuptown-everybodyformilesround,hadheardofMissHavishamuptown-asanimmenselyrichandgrimladywholivedinalargeanddismalhousebarricadedagainstrobbers,andwholedalifeofseclusion。
`Welltobesure!\'saidJoe,astounded。`IwonderhowshecometoknowPip!\'
`Noodle!\'criedmysister。`Whosaidsheknewhim?\'
`-Whichsomeindividual,\'Joeagainpolitelyhinted,`mentionedthatshewantedhimtogoandplaythere。\'
`Andcouldn\'tsheaskUnclePumblechookifheknewofaboytogoandplaythere?Isn\'titjustbarelypossiblethatUnclePumblechookmaybeatenantofhers,andthathemaysometimes-wewon\'tsayquarterlyorhalf-yearly,forthatwouldberequiringtoomuchofyou-butsometimes-gotheretopayhisrent?Andcouldn\'tshethenaskUnclePumblechookifheknewofaboytogoandplaythere?Andcouldn\'tUnclePumblechook,beingalwaysconsiderateandthoughtfulforus-thoughyoumaynotthinkit,Joseph,\'inatoneofthedeepestreproach,asifhewerethemostcallousofnephews,`thenmentionthisboy,standingPrancinghere\'-whichIsolemnlydeclareIwasnotdoing-`thatIhaveforeverbeenawillingslaveto?\'
`Goodagain!\'criedUnclePumblechook。`Wellput!Prettilypointed!
Goodindeed!NowJoseph,youknowthecase。\'
`No,Joseph,\'saidmysister,stillinareproachfulmanner,whileJoeapologeticallydrewthebackofhishandacrossandacrosshisnose,`youdonotyet-thoughyoumaynotthinkit-knowthecase。Youmayconsiderthatyoudo,butyoudonot,Joseph。ForyoudonotknowthatUnclePumblechook,beingsensiblethatforanythingwecantell,thisboy\'sfortunemaybemadebyhisgoingtoMissHavisham\'s,hasofferedtotakehimintotownto-nightinhisownchaise-cart,andtokeephimto-night,andtotakehimwithhisownhandstoMissHavisham\'sto-morrowmorning。AndLor-a-mussyme!\'criedmysister,castingoffherbonnetinsuddendesperation,`hereIstandtalkingtomereMooncalfs,withUnclePumblechookwaiting,andthemarecatchingcoldatthedoor,andtheboygrimedwithcrockanddirtfromthehairofhisheadtothesoleofhisfoot!\'
Withthat,shepounceduponme,likeaneagleonalamb,andmyfacewassqueezedintowoodenbowlsinsinks,andmyheadwasputundertapsofwater-butts,andIwassoaped,andkneaded,andtowelled,andthumped,andharrowed,andrasped,untilIreallywasquitebesidemyself。ImayhereremarkthatIsupposemyselftobebetteracquaintedthananylivingauthority,withtheridgyeffectofawedding-ring,passingunsympatheticallyoverthehumancountenance。
Whenmyablutionswerecompleted,Iwasputintocleanlinenofthestiffestcharacter,likeayoungpenitentintosackcloth,andwastrussedupinmytightestandfearfullestsuit。IwasthendeliveredovertoMrPumblechook,whoformallyreceivedmeasifheweretheSheriff,andwholetoffuponmethespeechthatIknewhehadbeendyingtomakeallalong:
`Boy,beforevergratefultoallfriends,butespeciallyuntothemwhichbroughtyouupbyhand!\'
`Good-bye,Joe!\'
`Godblessyou,Pip,oldchap!\'
Ihadneverpartedfromhisbefore,andwhatwithmyfeelingsandwhatwithsoap-suds,Icouldatfirstseenostarsfromthechaise-cart。Buttheytwinkledoutonebyone,withoutthrowinganylightonthequestionswhyonearthIwasgoingtoplayatMissHavisham\'s,andwhatonearthIwasexpectedtoplayat。
Chapter8
MRPUMBLECHOOK\'SpremisesintheHigh-streetofthemarkettown,wereofapeppercornyandfarinaceouscharacter,asthepremisesofacorn-chandlerandseedsmanshouldbe。Itappearedtomethathemustbeaveryhappymanindeed,tohavesomanylittledrawersinhisshop;andIwonderedwhenIpeepedintooneortwoonthelowertiers,andsawthetied-upbrownpaperpacketsinside,whethertheflower-seedsandbulbseverwantedofafinedaytobreakoutofthosejails,andbloom。
ItwasintheearlymorningaftermyarrivalthatIentertainedthisspeculation。Onthepreviousnight,Ihadbeensentstraighttobedinanatticwithaslopingroof,whichwassolowinthecornerwherethebedsteadwas,thatIcalculatedthetilesasbeingwithinafootofmyeyebrows。Inthesameearlymorning,Idiscoveredasingularaffinitybetweenseedsandcorduroys。MrPumblechookworecorduroys,andsodidhisshopman;
andsomehow,therewasageneralairandflavouraboutthecorduroys,somuchinthenatureofseeds,andageneralairandflavourabouttheseeds,somuchinthenatureofcorduroys,thatIhardlyknewwhichwaswhich。
ThesameopportunityservedmefornoticingthatMrPumblechookappearedtoconducthisbusinessbylookingacrossthestreetatthesaddler,whoappearedtotransacthisbusinessbykeepinghiseyeonthecoach-maker,whoappearedtogetoninlifebyputtinghishandsinhispocketsandcontemplatingthebaker,whoinhisturnfoldedhisarmsandstaredatthegrocer,whostoodathisdoorandyawnedatthechemist。Thewatch-maker,alwaysporingoveralittledeskwithamagnifyingglassathiseye,andalwaysinspectedbyagroupofsmock-frocksporingoverhimthroughtheglassofhisshop-window,seemedtobeabouttheonlypersonintheHigh-streetwhosetradeengagedhisattention。
MrPumblechookandIbreakfastedateighto\'clockintheparlourbehindtheshop,whiletheshopmantookhismugofteaandhunchofbread-and-butteronasackofpeasinthefrontpremises。IconsideredMrPumblechookwretchedcompany。Besidesbeingpossessedbymysister\'sideathatamortifyingandpenitentialcharacteroughttobeimpartedtomydiet-besidesgivingmeasmuchcrumbaspossibleincombinationwithaslittlebutter,andputtingsuchaquantityofwarmwaterintomymilkthatitwouldhavebeenmorecandidtohaveleftthemilkoutaltogether-hisconversationconsistedofnothingbutarithmetic。OnmypolitelybiddinghimGoodmorning,hesaid,pompously,`Seventimesnine,boy?\'AndhowshouldIbeabletoanswer,dodgedinthatway,inastrangeplace,onanemptystomach!
Iwashungry,butbeforeIhadswallowedamorsel,hebeganarunningsumthatlastedallthroughthebreakfast。`Seven?\'`Andfour?\'`Andeight?\'
`Andsix?\'`Andtwo?\'`Andten?\'Andsoon。Andaftereachfigurewasdisposedof,itwasasmuchasIcoulddotogetabiteorasup,beforethenextcame;whilehesatathiseaseguessingnothing,andeatingbaconandhotroll,inifImaybeallowedtheexpressionagorgingandgormandisingmanner。
ForsuchreasonsIwasverygladwhenteno\'clockcameandwestartedforMissHavisham\'s;thoughIwasnotatallatmyeaseregardingthemannerinwhichIshouldacquitmyselfunderthatlady\'sroof。WithinaquarterofanhourwecametoMissHavisham\'shouse,whichwasofoldbrick,anddismal,andhadagreatmanyironbarstoit。Someofthewindowshadbeenwalledup;ofthosethatremained,allthelowerwererustilybarred。Therewasacourt-yardinfront,andthatwasbarred;so,wehadtowait,afterringingthebell,untilsomeoneshouldcometoopenit。Whilewewaitedatthegate,IpeepedineventhenMrPumblechooksaid,`Andfourteen?\'
butIpretendednottohearhim,andsawthatatthesideofhousetherewasalargebrewery。Nobrewingwasgoingoninit,andnoneseemedtohavegoneonforalonglongtime。
Awindowwasraised,andaclearvoicedemanded`Whatname?\'Towhichmyconductorreplied,`Pumblechook。\'Thevoicereturned,`Quiteright,\'
andthewindowwasshutagain,andayoungladycameacrossthecourt-yard,withkeysinherhand。
`This,\'saidMrPumblechook,`isPip。\'
`ThisisPip,isit?\'returnedtheyounglady,whowasveryprettyandseemedveryproud;`comein,Pip。\'
MrPumblechookwascominginalso,whenshestoppedhimwiththegate。
`Oh!\'shesaid。`DidyouwishtoseeMissHavisham?\'
`IfMissHavishamwishedtoseeme,\'returnedMrPumblechook,discomfited。
`Ah!\'saidthegirl;`butyouseeshedon\'t。\'
Shesaiditsofinally,andinsuchanundiscussibleway,thatMrPumblechook,thoughinaconditionofruffleddignity,couldnotprotest。Butheeyedmeseverely-asifIhaddoneanythingtohim!-anddepartedwiththewordsreproachfullydelivered:`Boy!Letyourbehaviourherebeacredituntothemwhichbroughtyouupbyhand!\'Iwasnotfreefromapprehensionthathewouldcomebacktopropoundthroughthegate,`Andsixteen?\'Buthedidn\'t。
Myyoungconductresslockedthegate,andwewentacrossthecourt-yard。
Itwaspavedandclean,butgrasswasgrowingineverycrevice。Thebrewerybuildingshadalittlelaneofcommunicationwithit,andthewoodengatesofthatlanestoodopen,andallthebrewerybeyond,stoodopen,awaytothehighenclosingwall;andallwasemptyanddisused。Thecoldwindseemedtoblowcolderthere,thanoutsidethegate;anditmadeashrillnoiseinhowlinginandoutattheopensidesofthebrewery,likethenoiseofwindintheriggingofashipatsea。
Shesawmelookingatit,andshesaid,`Youcoulddrinkwithouthurtallthestrongbeerthat\'sbrewedtherenow,boy。\'
`IshouldthinkIcould,miss\'saidI,inashyway。
`Betternottrytobrewbeertherenow,oritwouldturnoutsour,boy;
don\'tyouthinkso?\'
`Itlookslikeit,miss。\'
`Notthatanybodymeanstotry,\'sheadded,`forthat\'salldonewith,andtheplacewillstandasidleasitis,tillitfalls。Astostrongbeer,there\'senoughofitinthecellarsalready,todrowntheManorHouse。\'
`Isthatthenameofthishouse,miss?\'
`Oneofitsnames,boy。\'
`Ithasmorethanone,then,miss?\'
`Onemore。ItsothernamewasSatis;whichisGreek,orLatin,orHebrew,orallthree-orallonetome-forenough。\'
`EnoughHouse,\'saidI;`that\'sacuriousname,miss。\'
`Yes,\'shereplied;`butitmeantmorethanitsaid。Itmeant,whenitwasgiven,thatwhoeverhadthishouse,couldwantnothingelse。Theymusthavebeeneasilysatisfiedinthosedays,Ishouldthink。Butdon\'tloiter,boy。\'
Thoughshecalledme`boy\'sooften,andwithacarelessnessthatwasfarfromcomplimentary,shewasofaboutmyownage。SheseemedmucholderthanI,ofcourse,beingagirl,andbeautifulandself-possessed;andshewasanscornfulofmeasifshehadbeenone-and-twenty,andaqueen。
Wewentintothehousebyasidedoor-thegreatfrontentrancehadtwochainsacrossitoutside-andthefirstthingInoticedwas,thatthepassageswerealldark,andthatshehadleftacandleburningthere。
Shetookitup,andwewentthroughmorepassagesandupastaircase,andstillitwasalldark,andonlythecandlelightedus。
Atlastwecametothedoorofaroom,andshesaid,`Goin。\'
Ianswered,moreinshynessthanpoliteness,`Afteryou,miss。\'
Tothis,shereturned:`Don\'tberidiculous,boy;Iamnotgoingin。\'
Andscornfullywalkedaway,and-whatwasworse-tookthecandlewithher。
Thiswasveryuncomfortable,andIwashalfafraid。However,theonlythingtobedonebeingtoknockatthedoor,Iknocked,andwastoldfromwithintoenter。Ientered,therefore,andfoundmyselfinaprettylargeroom,welllightedwithwaxcandles。Noglimpseofdaylightwastobeseeninit。Itwasadressing-room,asIsupposedfromthefurniture,thoughmuchofitwasofformsandusesthenquiteunknowntome。Butprominentinitwasadrapedtablewithagildedlooking-glass,andthatImadeoutatfirstsighttobeafinelady\'sdressing-table。
WhetherIshouldhavemadeoutthisobjectsosoon,iftherehadbeennofineladysittingatit,Icannotsay。Inanarm-chair,withanelbowrestingonthetableandherheadleaningonthathand,satthestrangestladyIhaveeverseen,orshalleversee。
Shewasdressedinrichmaterials-satins,andlace,andsilks-allofwhite。Hershoeswerewhite。Andshehadalongwhileveildependentfromherhair,andshehadbridalflowersinherhair,butherhairwaswhite。Somebrightjewelssparkledonherneckandonherhands,andsomeotherjewelslaysparklingonthetable。Dresses,lesssplendidthanthedressshewore,andhalf-packedtrunks,werescatteredabout。Shehadnotquitefinisheddressing,forshehadbutoneshoeon-theotherwasonthetablenearherhand-herveilwasbuthalfarranged,herwatchandchainwerenotputon,andsomelaceforherbosomlaywiththosetrinkets,andwithherhandkerchief,andgloves,andsomeflowers,andaprayer-book,allconfusedlyheapedaboutthelooking-glass。
ItwasnotinthefirstfewmomentstheIsawallthesethings,thoughIsawmoreoftheminthefirstmomentsthanmightbesupposed。But,I
sawthateverythingwithinmyviewwhichoughttobewhite,hadbeenwhitelongago,andhadlostitslustre,andwasfadedandyellow。Isawthatthebridewithinthebridaldresshadwitheredlikethedress,andliketheflowers,andhadnobrightnessleftbutthebrightnessofhersunkeneyes。Isawthatthedresshadbeenputupontheroundedfigureofayoungwoman,andthatthefigureuponwhichitnowhungloose,hadshrunktoskinandbone。Once,IhadbeentakentoseesomeghastlywaxworkattheFair,representingIknownotwhatimpossiblepersonagelyinginstate。
Once,Ihadbeentakentooneofouroldmarshchurchestoseeaskeletonintheashesofarichdress,thathadbeendugoutofavaultunderthechurchpavement。Now,waxworkandskeletonseemedtohavedarkeyesthatmovedandlookedatme。Ishouldhavecriedout,ifIcould。
`Whoisit?\'saidtheladyatthetable。
`Pip,ma\'am。\'
`Pip?\'
`MrPumblechook\'sboy,ma\'am。Come-toplay。\'
`Comenearer;letmelookatyou。Comeclose。\'
ItwaswhenIstoodbeforeher,avoidinghereyes,thatItooknoteofthesurroundingobjectsindetail,andsawthatherwatchhadstoppedattwentyminutestonine,andthataclockintheroomhadstoppedattwentyminutestonine。
`Lookatme,\'saidMissHavisham。`Youarenotafraidofawomanwhohasneverseenthesunsinceyouwereborn?\'
IregardtostatethatIwasnotafraidoftellingtheenormousliecomprehendedintheanswer`No。\'
`DoyouknowwhatItouchhere?\'shesaid,layingherhands,oneupontheother,onherleftside。
`Yes,ma\'am。\'Itmademethinkoftheyoungman。
`WhatdoItouch?\'
`Yourheart。\'
`Broken!\'
Sheutteredthewordwithaneagerlook,andwithstrongemphasis,andwithaweirdsmilethathadakindofboastinit。Afterwards,shekeptherhandsthereforalittlewhile,andslowlytookthemawayasiftheywereheavy。
`Iamtired,\'saidMissHavisham。`Iwantdiversion,andIhavedonewithmenandwomen。Play。\'
Ithinkitwillbeconcededbymymostdisputatiousreader,thatshecouldhardlyhavedirectedanunfortunateboytodoanythinginthewideworldmoredifficulttobedoneunderthecircumstances。
`Isometimeshavesickfancies,\'shewenton,`andIhaveasickfancythatIwanttoseesomeplay。Therethere!\'withanimpatientmovementofthefingersofherrighthand;`play,play,play!\'
Foramoment,withthefearofmysister\'sworkingmebeforemyeyes,IhadadesperateideaofstartingroundtheroomintheassumedcharacterofMrPumblechook\'schaise-cart。But,IfeltmyselfsounequaltotheperformancethatIgaveitup,andstoodlookingatMissHavishaminwhatIsupposeshetookforadoggedmanner,inasmuchasshesaid,whenwehadtakenagoodlookateachother:
`Areyousullenandobstinate?\'
`No,ma\'am,Iamverysorryforyou,andverysorryIcan\'tplayjustnow。IfyoucomplainofmeIshallgetintotroublewithmysister,soIwoulddoitifIcould;butit\'ssonewhere,andsostrange,andsofine-andmelancholy——\'Istopped,fearingImightsaytoomuch,orhadalreadysaidit,andwetookanotherlookateachother。
Beforeshespokeagain,sheturnedhereyesfromme,andlookedatthedressshewore,andatthedressing-table,andfinallyatherselfinthelooking-glass。
`Sonewtohim,\'shemuttered,`sooldtome;sostrangetohim,sofamiliartome;somelancholytobothofus!CallEstella。\'
Asshewasstilllookingatthereflectionofherself,Ithoughtshewasstilltalkingtoherself,andkeptquiet。
`CallEstella,\'sherepeated,flashingalookatme。`Youcandothat。
CallEstella。Atthedoor。\'
Tostandinthedarkinamysteriouspassageofanunknownhouse,bawlingEstellatoascornfulyoungladyneithervisiblenorresponsive,andfeelingitadreadfullibertysotoroarouthername,wasalmostasbadasplayingtoorder。But,sheansweredatlast,andherlightcamealongthedarkpassagelikeastar。
MissHavishambeckonedhertocomeclose,andtookupajewelfromthetable,andtrieditseffectuponherfairyoungbosomandagainstherprettybrownhair。`Yourown,oneday,mydear,andyouwilluseitwell。Letmeseeyouplaycardswiththisboy。\'
`Withthisboy?Why,heisacommonlabouring-boy!\'
IthoughtIoverheardMissHavishamanswer-onlyitseemedsounlikely-`Well?Youcanbreakhisheart。\'
`Whatdoyouplay,boy?\'askedEstellaofmyself,withthegreatestdisdain。
`Nothingbutbeggarmyneighbour,miss。\'
`Beggarhim,\'saidMissHavishamtoEstella。Sowesatdowntocards。
ItwasthenIbegantounderstandthateverythingintheroomhadstopped,likethewatchandtheclock,alongtimeago。InoticedthatMissHavishamputdownthejewelexactlyonthespotformwhichshehadtakenitup。
AsEstelladealtthecards,Iglancedatthedressing-tableagain,andsawthattheshoeuponit,oncewhite,nowyellow,hadneverbeenworn。
Iglanceddownatthefootfromwhichtheshoewasabsent,andsawthatthesilkstockingonit,oncewhite,nowyellow,hadbeentroddenragged。
Withoutthisarrestofeverything,thisstandingstillofallthepaledecayedobjects,noteventhewitheredbridaldressonthecollapsedfromcouldhavelookedsolikegrave-clothes,orthelongveilsolikeashroud。
Soshesat,corpse-like,asweplayedatcards;thefrillingsandtrimmingsonherbridaldress,lookinglikeearthypaper。Iknewnothingthen,ofthediscoveriesthatareoccasionallymadeofbodiesburiedinancienttimes,whichfalltopowderinthemomentofbeingdistinctlyseen;but,Ihaveoftenthoughtsince,thatshemusthavelookedasiftheadmissionofthenaturallightofdaywouldhavestruckhertodust。
`Hecallstheknaves,Jacks,thisboy!\'saidEstellawithdisdain,beforeourfirstgamewasout。`Andwhatcoarsehandshehas!Andwhatthickboots!\'
Ihadneverthoughtofbeingashamedofmyhandsbefore;butIbegantoconsiderthemaveryindifferentpair。Hercontemptformewassostrong,thatitbecameinfectious,andIcaughtit。