第4章
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  InthesetermsdidMrVerlocdeclarehisthirstforrevenge。Itwasaveryappropriaterevenge。ItwasinharmonywiththepromptingsofMrVerloc’sgenius。Ithadalsotheadvantageofbeingwithintherangeofhispowersandofadjustingitselfeasilytothepracticeofhislife,whichhadconsistedpreciselyinbetrayingthesecretandunlawfulproceedingsofhisfellowmen。Anarchistsordiplomatswereallonetohim。MrVerlocwastemperamentallynorespecterofpersons。Hisscornwasequallydistributedoverthewholefieldofhisoperations。Butasamemberofarevolutionaryproletariat—whichheundoubtedlywas—henourishedaratherinimicalsentimentagainstsocialdistinction。

  `Nothingonearthcanstopmenow,’headded,andpaused,lookingfixedlyathiswife,whowaslookingfixedlyatablankwall。

  Thesilenceinthekitchenwasprolonged,andMrVerlocfeltdisappointed。

  Hehadexpectedhiswifetosaysomething。ButMrsVerloc’slips,composedintheirusualform,preservedastatuesqueimmobilityliketherestofherface。AndMrVerlocwasdisappointed。Yettheoccasiondidnot,herecognized,demandspeechfromher。Shewasawomanofveryfewwords。

  Forreasonsinvolvedintheveryfoundationofhispsychology。,MrVerlocwasinclinedtoputhistrustinanywomanwhohadgivenherselftohim。

  Thereforehetrustedhiswife。Theiraccordwasperfect,butitwasnotprecise。Itwasatacitaccord,congenialtoMrsVerloc’sincuriosityandtoMrVerloc’shabitsofmind,whichwereindolentandsecret。Theyrefrainedfromgoingtothebottomoffactsandmotives。

  Thisreserve,expressing,inaway,theirprofoundconfidenceineachother,introducedatthesametimeacertainelementofvaguenessintotheirintimacy。Nosystemofconjugalrelationsisperfect。MrVerlocpresumedthathiswifehadunderstoodhimbuthewouldhavebeengladtohearhersaywhatshethoughtatthemoment。Itwouldhavebeenacomfort。

  Therewereseveralreasonswhythiscomfortwasdeniedhim。Therewasaphysicalobstacle:MrsVerlochadnotsufficientcommandoverhervoice。

  Shedidnotseeanyalternativebetweenscreamingandsilence,andinstinctivelyshechosethesilence。WinnieVerlocwastemperamentallyasilentperson。

  Andtherewastheparalysingatrocityofthethoughtwhichoccupiedher。

  Hercheekswereblanched,herlipsashy,herimmobilityamazing。AndshethoughtwithoutlookingatMrVerloc:`Thismantooktheboyawaytomurderhim。Hetooktheboyfromhishometomurderhim。Hetooktheboyawayfrommetomurderhim!’

  MrsVerloc’swholebeingwasrackedbythatinconclusiveandmaddeningthought。Itwasinherveins,inherbones,intherootsofherhair。Mentallysheassumedthebiblicalattitudeofmourning—thecoveredface,therentgarments;thesoundofwailingandlamentationfilledherhead。Butherteethwereviolentlyclenched,andhertearlesseyeswerehotwithrage,becauseshewasnotasubmissivecreature。Theprotectionshehadextendedoverherbrotherhadbeeninitsoriginofafierceandindignantcomplexion。

  Shehadtolovehimwithamilitantlove。Shehadbattledforhim—evenagainstherself。Hislosshadthebitternessofdefeat,withtheanguishofabaffledpassion。Itwasnotanordinarystrokeofdeath。Moreover,itwasnotdeaththattookSteviefromher。ItwasMrVerlocwhotookhimaway。Shehadseenhim。Shehadwatchedhim,withoutraisingahand,taketheboyaway。Andshehadlethimgo,like—likeafool—ablindfool。

  Thenafterhehadmurderedtheboyhecamehometoher。Justcamehomelikeanyothermanwouldcomehometohiswife……

  ThroughhersetteethMrsVerlocmutteredatthewall:`AndIthoughthehadcaughtacold。’MrVerlocheardthesewordsandappropriatedthem。

  `Itwasnothing,’hesaid,moodily。`Iwasupset。Iwasupsetonyouraccount。

  MrsVerloc,turningherheadslowly,transferredherstarefromthewalltoherhusband’sperson。MrVerloc,withthetipsofhisfingersbetweenhislips,waslookingontheground。

  `Can’tbehelped,’hemumbled,lettinghishandfall。`Youmustpullyourselftogether。You’llwantallyourwitsaboutyou。Itisyouwhobroughtthepoliceaboutourears。Nevermind,Iwon’tsayanythingmoreaboutit,’continuedMrVerloc,magnanimously。`Youcouldn’tknow。’

  `Icouldn’t,’breathedoutMrsVerloc。Itwasasifacorpsehadspoken。

  MrVerloctookupthethreadofhisdiscourse。

  `Idon’tblameyou。I’llmakethemsitup。Onceunderlockandkeyitwillbesafeenoughformetotalk—youunderstand。Youmustreckononmebeingtwoyearsawayfromyou,’hecontinued,inatoneofsincereconcern。

  `Itwillbeeasierforyouthanforme。You’llhavesomethingtodo,whileI—Lookhere,Winnie,whatyoumustdoistokeepthisbusinessgoingfortwoyears。Youknowenoughforthat。You’veagoodheadonyou。I’llsendyouwordwhenit’stimetogoabouttryingtosell。You’llhavetobeextracareful。Thecomradeswillbekeepinganeyeonyouallthetime。

  You’llhavetobeasartfulasyouknowhow,andascloseasthegrave。

  Noonemustknowwhatyouaregoingtodo。IhavenomindtogetaknockontheheadorastabinthebackdirectlyIamletout。’

  ThusspokeMrVerloc,applyinghismindwithingenuityandforethoughttotheproblemsofthefuture。Hisvoicewassombre,becausehehadacorrectsentimentofthesituation。Everythingwhichhedidnotwishtopasshadcometopass。Thefuturehadbecomeprecarious。Hisjudgement,perhaps,hadbeenmomentarilyobscuredbyhisdreadofMrVladimir’struculentfolly。

  Amansomewhatoverfortymaybeexcusablythrownintoconsiderabledisorderbytheprospectoflosinghisemployment,especiallyifthemanisasecretagentofpoliticalpolice,dwellingsecureintheconsciousnessofhishighvalueandintheesteemofhighpersonages。Hewasexcusable。

  Nowthethinghadendedinacrash。MrVerlocwascool;buthewasnotcheerful。Asecretagentwhothrowshissecrecytothewindsfromdesireofvengeance,andflauntshisachievementsbeforethepubliceye,becomesthemarkfordesperateandbloodthirstyindignations。Withoutundulyexaggeratingthedanger,MrVerloctriedtobringitclearlybeforehiswife’smind。

  Herepeatedthathehadnointentionoflettingtherevolutionistsdoawaywithhim。

  Helookedstraightintohiswife’seyes。Theenlargedpupilsofthewomanreceivedhisstareintotheirunfathomabledepths。

  `Iamtoofondofyouforthat,’hesaid,withalittlenervouslaugh。

  AfaintflushcolouredMrsVerloc’sghastlyandmotionlessface。Havingdonewiththevisionsofthepast,shehadnotonlyheard,buthadalsounderstoodthewordsutteredbyherhusband。Bytheirextremedisaccordwithhermentalconditionthesewordsproducedonheraslightlysuffocatingeffect。MrsVerloc’smentalconditionhadthemeritofsimplicity;butitwasnotsound。Itwasgovernedtoomuchbyafixedidea。Everynookandcrannyofherbrainwasfilledwiththethoughtthatthisman,withwhomshehadlivedwithoutdistasteforsevenyears,hadtakenthe`poorboy’awayfromherinordertokillhim—themantowhomshehadgrownaccustomedinbodyandmind;themanwhomshehadtrusted,tooktheboyawaytokillhim!Initsform,initssubstance,initseffect,whichwasuniversal,alteringeventheaspectofinanimatethings,itwasathoughttositstillandmarvelatforeverandever。MrsVerlocsatstill。Andacrossthatthought(notacrossthekitchen)theformofMrVerlocwenttoandfro,familiarlyinhatandovercoat,stampingwithhisbootsuponherbrain。Hewasprobablytalking,too;butMrsVerloc’sthoughtforthemostpartcoveredthevoice。

  Nowandthen,however,thevoicewouldmakeitselfheard。Severalconnectedwordsemergedattimes。Theirpurportwasgenerallyhopeful。OneachoftheseoccasionsMrsVerloc’sdilatedpupils,losingtheirfar—offfixity,followedherhusband’smovementswiththeeffectofblackcareandimpenetrableattention。Wellinformeduponallmattersrelatingtohissecretcalling,MrVerlocauguredwellforthesuccessofhisplansandcombinations。Hereallybelievedthatitwouldbeuponthewholeeasyforhimtoescapetheknifeofinfuriatedrevolutionists。Hehadexaggeratedthestrengthoftheirfuryandthelengthoftheirarm(forprofessionalpurposes)toooftentohavemanyillusionsonewayortheotter。Fortoexaggeratewithjudgementonemustbinbymeasuringwithnicety。Heknewalsohowmuchvirtueandhowmuchinfamyisforgottenintwoyears—twolongyears。

  Hisfirstreallyconfidentialdiscoursetohiswifewasoptimisticfromconviction。Healsothoughtitgoodpolicytodisplayalltheassurancehecouldmuster。Itwouldputheartintothepoorwoman。Onhisliberation,whichharmonizingwiththewholetenorofhislife,wouldbesecret,ofcourse,theywouldvanishtogetherwithoutlossoftime。Astocoveringupthetracks,hebeggedhiswifetotrusthimforthat。Heknewhowitwastobedonesothatthedevilhimself——

  Hewavedhishand。Heseemedtoboast。Hewishedonlytoputheartintoher。Itwasabenevolentintention,butMrVerlochadthemisfortunenottobeinaccordwithhisaudience。

  Theself—confidenttonegrewuponMrsVerloc’searwhichletmostofthewordsgoby;forwhatwerewordstohernow?Whatcouldwordsdotoherforgoodorevilinthefaceofherfixedidea?Herblackglancefollowedthatmanwhowasassertinghisimpunity—themanwhohadtakenpoorSteviefromhometokillhimsomewhere。MrsVerloccouldnotrememberexactlywhere,butherheartbegantobeatveryperceptibly。

  MrVerloc,inasoftandconjugaltone,wasnowexpressinghisfirmbeliefthattherewereyetagoodfewyearsofquietlifebeforethemboth。

  Hedidnotgointothequestionofmeans。Aquietlifeitmustbeand,asitwere,nestlingintheshade,concealedamongmenwhosefleshisgrass;

  modest,likethelifeofviolets。ThewordsusedbyMrVerlocwere:`Lielowforabit。’AndfarfromEngland,ofcourse。ItwasnotclearwhetherMrVerlochadinhismindSpainorSouthAmerica;butatanyratesomewhereabroad。

  Thislastword,fallingintoMrsVerloc’sear,producedadefiniteimpression。

  Thismanwastalkingofgoingabroad。Theimpressionwascompletelydisconnected;

  andsuchistheforceofmentalhabitthatMrsVerlocatonceandautomaticallyaskedherself:`AndwhatofStevie?’

  Itwasasortofforgetfulness;butinstantlyshebecameawarethattherewasnolongeranyoccasionforanxietyonthatscore。Therewouldneverbeanyoccasionanymore。Thepoorboyhadbeentakenoutandkilled。

  Thepoorboywasdead。

  ThisshakingpieceofforgetfulnessstimulatedMrsVerloc’sintelligence。

  ShebegantoperceivecertainconsequenceswhichwouldhavesurprisedMrVerloc。Therewasnoneedforhernowtostaythere,inthatkitchen,inthathouse,withthatman—sincetheboywasgoneforever。Noneedwhatever。

  AndonthatMrsVerlocroseasifraisedbyaspring。Butneithercouldsheseewhattherewastokeepherintheworldatall。Andthisinabilityarrested,her。MrVerlocwatchedherwithmaritalsolicitude。

  `You’relookingmorelikeyourself,’hesaid,uneasily。Somethingpeculiarintheblacknessofhiswife’seyesdisturbedhisoptimism。AtthatprecisemomentMrsVerlocbegantolookuponherselfasreleasedfromallearthlyties。Shehadherfreedom。Hercontractwithexistence,asrepresentedbythatmanstandingoverthere,wasatanend。Shewasafreewoman。HadthisviewbecomeinsomewayperceptibletoMrVerlochewouldhavebeenextremelyshocked。InhisaffairsoftheheartMrVerlochadbeenalwayscarelesslygenerous,yetalwayswignootherideathanthatofbeinglovedforhimself。Uponthismatter,hisethicalnotionsbeinginagreementwithhisvanity,hewascompletelyincorrigible。Thatthisshouldbesointhecaseofhisvirtuousandlegalconnectionhewasperfectlycertain。Hehadgrownolder,fatter,heavier,inthebeliefthathelackednofascinationforbeinglovedforhisownsake。WhenhesawMrsVerlocstartingtowalkoutofthekitchenwithoutawordhewasdisappointed。

  `Whereareyougoingto?’hecalledoutrathersharply。`Upstairs?’

  MrsVerlocinthedoorwayturnedatthevoice。Aninstinctofprudencebornoffear,theexcessivefearofbeingapproachedandtouchedbythatman,inducedhertonodathimslightly(fromtheheightoftwosteps],withastirofthelipswhichtheconjugaloptimismofMrVerloctookforawananduncertainsmile。

  `That’sright,’heencouragedhergruffly。`Restandquiet’swhatyouwant。Goon。Itwon’tbelongbeforeIamwithyou。’

  MrsVerloc,thefreewomanwhohadhadreallynoideawhereshewasgoingto,obeyedthesuggestionwithrigidsteadiness。

  MrVerlocwatchedher。Shedisappearedupthestairs。Hewasdisappointed。

  Therewasthatwithinhimwhichwouldhavebeenmoresatisfiedifshehadbeenmovedtothrowherselfuponhisbreast。Buthewasgenerousandindulgent。

  Winniewasalwaysundemonstrativeandsilent。NeitherwasMrVerlochimselfprodigalofendearmentsandwordsasarule。Butthiswasnotanordinaryevening。Itwasanoccasionwhenamanwantstobefortifiedandstrengthenedbyopenproofsofsympathyandaffection。MrVerlocsighed,andputoutthegasinthekitchen。MrVerloc’ssympathywithhiswifewasgenuineandintense。Italmostbroughttearsintohiseyesashestoodintheparlourreflectingonthelonelinesshangingoverherhead。InthismoodMrVerlocmissedStevieverymuchoutofadifficultworld。Hethoughtmournfullyofhisend。Ifonlythatladhadnotstupidlydestroyedhimself!

  Thesensationofunappeasablehunger,notunknownafterthestrainofahazardousenterprisetoadventurersoftougherfibrethanMrVerloc,overcamehimagain。Thepieceofroastbeef,laidoutinthelikenessoffunerealbakedmeatsforStevie’sobsequies,offereditselflargelytohisnotice。AndMrVerlocagainpartook。Hepartookravenously,withoutrestraintanddecency,cuttingthicksliceswiththesharpcarvingknife,andswallowingthemwithoutbread。InthecourseofthatrefectionitoccurredtoMrVerlocthathewasnothearinghiswifemoveaboutinthebedroomasheshouldhavedone。ThethoughtoffindingherperhapssittingonthebedinthedarknotonlycutMrVerloc’sappetite,butalsotookfromhimtheinclinationtofollowherupstairsjustyet。Layingdownthecarvingknife,MrVerloclistenedwithcarewornattention。

  Hewascomfortedbyhearinghermoveatlast。Shewalkedsuddenlyacrosstheroom,andthrewthewindowup。Afteraperiodofstillnessupthere,duringwhichhefiguredhertohimselfwithherheadout,heheardthesashbeingloweredslowly。Thenshemadeafewsteps,andsatdown。EveryresonanceofthishousewasfamiliartoMrVerloc,whowasthoroughlydomesticated。

  Whennextheheardhiswife’sfootstepsoverheadheknew,aswellasifhehadseenherdoingit,thatshehadbeenputtingonherwalkingshoes。

  MrVerlocwriggledhisshouldersslightlyatthisominoussymptom,andmovingawayfromthetable,stoodwithhisbacktothefireplace,hisheadononeside,andgnawingperplexedlyatthetipsofhisfingers。Hekepttrackofhermovementsbythesound。Shewalkedhereandthereviolently,withabruptstoppages,nowbeforethechestofdrawers,theninfrontofthewardrobe。Animmenseloadofweariness,theharvestofadayofshocksandsurprises,weighedMrVerloc’senergiestotheground。

  Hedidnotraisehiseyestillheheardhiswifedescendingthestairs。

  Itwasashehadguessed,shewasdressedforgoingout。

  MrsVerlocwasafreewoman。ShehadthrownopenthewindowofthebedroomeitherwiththeintentionofscreamingMurder!Help!orofthrowingherselfout。Forshedidnotexactlyknowwhatusetomakeofherfreedom。Herpersonalityseemedtohavebeentornintotwopieces,whosementaloperationsdidnotadjustthemselvesverywelltoeachother。Thestreet,silentanddesertedfromendtoend,repelledherbytakingsideswiththatmanwhowassocertainofhisimpunity。Shewasafraidtoshoutlestnooneshouldcome。Obviouslynoonewouldcome。Herinstinctofself—preservationrecoiledfromthedepthofthefallintothatsortofslimy,deeptrench。MrsVerlocclosedthewindow,anddressedherselftogooutintothestreetbyanotherway。Shewasafreewoman。Shehaddressedherselfthoroughly,downtothetyingofablackveiloverherface。Assheappearedbeforehiminthelightoftheparlour,MrVerlocobservedthatshehadevenherlittlehandbaghangingfromherleftwrist……Flyingofftohermother,ofcourse。

  Thethoughtthatwomenwerewearisomecreaturesafterallpresenteditselftohisfatiguedbrain。Buthewastoogeneroustoharbouritformorethananinstant。Thisman,hurtcruellyinhisvanity,remainedmagnanimousinhisconduct,allowinghimselfnosatisfactionofabittersmileorofacontemptuousgesture。Withtruegreatnessofsoul,heonlyglancedatthewoodenclockonthewall,andsaidinaperfectlycalmbutforciblemanner:

  `Fiveandtwentyminutespasteight,Winnie。There’snosenseingoingovertheresolate。Youwillnevermanagetogetbacktonight。’

  BeforehisextendedhandMrsVerlochadstoppedshort。Headded,heavily:

  `Yourmotherwillbegonetobedbeforeyougetthere。Thisisthesortofnewsthatcanwait。’

  NothingwasfurtherfromMrsVerloc’sthoughtsthangoingtohermother。

  Sherecoiledatthemereidea,andfeelingachairbehindher,sheobeyedthesuggestionofthetouch,andsatdown。Herintentionhadbeensimplytogetoutsidethedoorforever。Andifthisfeelingwascorrect,itsmentalformtookanunrefinedshapecorrespondingtoheroriginandstation。

  `Iwouldratherwalkthestreetsallthedaysofmylife,’shethought。

  Butthiscreature,whosemoralnaturehadbeensubjectedtoashockofwhich,inthephysicalorder,themostviolentearthquakeofhistorycouldonlybeafaintandlanguidrendering,wasatthemercyofmeretrifles,ofcasualcontacts。Shesatdown。Withherhatandveilshehadtheairofavisitor,ofhavinglookedinonMrVerlocforamoment。Herinstantdocilityencouragedhim,whilstheraspectofonlytemporaryandsilentacquiescenceprovokedhimalittle。

  `Letmetellyou,Winnie,’hesaidwithauthority,`thatyourplaceisherethisevening。Hangitall!youbroughtthedamnedpolicehighandlowaboutmyears。Idon’tblameyou—butit’syourdoingallthesame。

  You’dbettertakethisconfoundedhatoff。Ican’tletyougoout,oldgirl,’headdedinasoftenedvoice。

  MrsVerloc’smindgotholdofthatdeclarationwithmorbidtenacity。

  `ThemanwhohadtakenStevieoutfromunderherveryeyestomurderhiminalocalitywhosenamewasatthemomentnotpresenttohermemorywouldnotallowhertogoout。Ofcoursehewouldn’t。NowhehadmurderedSteviehewouldneverlethergo。Hewouldwanttokeepherfornothing。Andonthischaracteristicreasoning,havingalltheforceofinsanelogic,MrsVerloc’sdisconnectedwitswenttoworkpractically。Shecouldslipbyhim,openthedoor,runout。Buthewoulddashoutafterher,seizeherroundthebody,dragherbackintotheshop。Shecouldscratch,kick,andbite—andstab,too;butforstabbingshewantedaknife。MrsVerlocsatstillunderherblackveil,inherownhouse,likeamaskedandmysteriousvisitorofimpenetrableintentions。

  MrVerloc’smagnanimitywasnotmorethanhuman。Shehadexasperatedhimatlast。

  `Can’tyousaysomething?Youhaveyourowndodgesforvexingaman。

  Oh,yes!Iknowyourdeaf—and—dumbtrick。I’veseenyouatitbeforetoday。

  Butjustnowitwon’tdo。Andtobeginwith,takethisdamnedthingoff。

  Onecan’ttellwhetheroneistalkingtoadummyortoalivewoman。’

  Headvanced,andstretchingouthishand,draggedtheveiloff,unmaskingastillunreadableface,againstwhichhisnervousexasperationwasshatteredlikeaglassbubbleSungagainstarock。`That’sbetter,’hesaid,tocoverhismomentaryuneasiness,andretreatedbacktohisoldstationbythemantelpiece。Itneverenteredhisheadthathiswifecouldgivehimup。

  Hefeltalittleashamedofhimself,forhewasfondandgenerous。Whatcouldhedo?Everythinghadbeensaidalready。Heprotestedvehemently。

  `Byheavens!YouknowthatIhuntedhighandlow。Irantheriskofgivingmyselfawaytofindsomebodyforthataccursedjob。AndItellyouagainIcouldn’tfindanyonecrazyenoughorhungenough。Whatdoyoutakemefor—amurderer,orwhat?Theboyisgone。DoyouthinkIwantedhimtoblowhimselfup?He’sgone。Histroublesareover。Oursarejustgoingtobegin,Itellyou,preciselybecausehedidblowhimselfup。I

  don’tblameyou。Butjusttrytounderstandthatitwasapureaccident;

  asmuchanaccidentasifhehadbeenrunoverbyabuswhilecrossingthestreet。’

  Hisgenerositywasnotinfinite,becausehewasahumanbeing—andnotamonster,asMrsVerlocbelievedhimtobe。Hepaused,andasnarlliftinghismoustachesaboveagleamofwhiteteethgavehimtheexpressionofareflectivebeast,notverydangerous—aslowbeastwithasleekhead,gloomierthanaseal,andwithahuskyvoice。

  `Andwhenitcomestothat,it’sasmuchyourdoingasmine。That’sso……Youmayglareasmuchasyoulike。Iknowwhatyoucandointhatway。StrikemedeadifIeverwouldhavethoughtoftheladforthatpurpose。

  ItwasyouwhokeptonshovinghiminmywaywhenIwashalfdistractedwiththeworryofkeepingthelotofusoutoftrouble。Whatthedevilmadeyou?Onewouldthinkyouweredoingitonpurpose。AndIamdamnedifIknowthatyoudidn’t。There’snosayinghowmuchofwhat’sgoingonyouhavegotholdofontheslywithyourinfernaldon’t—care—a—damnwayoflookingnowhereinparticular,andsayingnothingatall……’

  Hishusky,domesticvoiceceasedforawhile。MrsVerlocmadenoreply。

  Beforethatsilencehefeltashamedofwhathehadsaid。Butasoftenhappenstopeacefulmenindomestictiffs,beingashamedhepushedanotherpoint。

  `Youhaveadevilishwayofholdingyourtonguesometimes,’hebeganagain,withoutraisinghisvoice。`Enoughtomakesomemengomad。It’sluckyforyouthatIamnotsoeasilyputoutassomeofthemwouldbebyyourdeaf—and—dumbsulks。Iamfondofyou。Butdon’tyougotoofar。

  Thisisn’tthetimeforit。Weoughttobethinkingofwhatwe’vegottodo。AndIcan’tletyougoouttonight,gallopingofftoyourmotherwithsomecrazytaleorotheraboutme。Iwon’thaveit。Don’tyoumakeanymistakeaboutit:ifyouwillhaveitthatIkilledtheboy,thenyou’vekilledhimasmuchasI。’

  Insincerityoffeelingandopennessofstatement,thesewordswentfarbeyondanythingthathadeverbeensaidinthishome,keptuponthewagesofasecretindustryekedoutbythesaleofmoreorlesssecretwares:thepoorexpedientsdevisedbyamediocremankindforpreservinganimperfectsocietyfromthedangersofmoralandphysicalcorruption,bothsecret,too,oftheirkind。TheywerespokenbecauseMrVerlochadfelthimselfreallyoutraged;butthereticentdecenciesofthishomelife,nestlinginashadystreetbehindashopwherethesunnevershone,remainedapparentlyundisturbed。MrsVerlocheardhimoutwithperfectpropriety,andthenrosefromherchairinherhatandjacketlikeavisitorattheendofacall。Sheadvancedtowardsherhusband,onearmextendedasifforasilentleave—taking。Hernetveildanglingdownbyoneendoftheleftsideofherfacegaveanairofdisorderlyformalitytoherrestrainedmovements。Butwhenshearrivedasfarasthehearthrug,MrVerlocwasnolongerstandingthere。Hehadmovedoffinthedirectionofthesofa,withoutraisinghiseyestowatchtheeffectofhistirade。Hewastired,resignedinatrulymaritalspirit。Buthefelthurtinthetenderspotofhissecretweakness。Ifshewouldgoonsulkinginthatdreadfuloverchargedsilence—whythenshemust。Shewasamasterinthatdomesticart。MrVerlocflunghimselfheavilyuponthesofa,disregardingasusualthefateofhishat,which,asifaccustomedtotakecareofitself,madeforasafeshelterunderthetable。

  Hewastired。Thelastparticleofhisnervousforcehadbeenexpendedinthewondersandagoniesofthisdayfullofsurprisingfailurescomingattheendofaharassingmonthofschemingandinsomnia。Hewastired。

  Amanisn’tmadeofstone。Hangeverything!MrVerlocreposedcharacteristically,cladinhisoutdoorgarments。Onesideofhisopenovercoatwaslyingpartlyontheground。MrVerlocwallowedonhisback。Buthelongedforamoreperfectrest—forsleep—forafewhoursofdeliciousforgetfulness。

  Thatwouldcomelater。Provisionallyherested。Andhethought:`Iwishshewouldgiveoverthisdamnednonsense。It’sexasperating。’

  TheremusthavebeensomethingimperfectinMrsVerloc’ssentimentofregainedfreedom。Insteadoftakingthewayofthedoorsheleanedback,withhershouldersagainstthetabletofthemantelpiece,asawayfarerrestsagainstafence。Atingeofwildnessinheraspectwasderivedfromtheblackveilhanginglikearagagainsthercheek,andfromthefixityofherblackgazewherethelightoftheroomwasabsorbedandlostwithoutthetraceofasinglegleam。Thiswoman,capableofabargainthemeresuspicionofwhichwouldhavebeeninfinitelyshockingtoMrVerloc’sideaoflove,remainedirresolute,asifscrupulouslyawareofsomethingwantingonherpartfortheformalclosingofthetransaction。

  OnthesofaMrVerlocwriggledhisshouldersintoperfectcomfort,andfromthefullnessofhisheartemittedawishwhichwascertainlyaspiousasanythinglikelytocomefromsuchasource。

  `Iwishtogoodness,’hegrowled,huskily,`IhadneverseenGreenwichParkoranythingbelongingtoit。’

  Theveiledsoundfilledthesmallroomwithitsmoderatevolume,welladaptedtothemodestnatureofthewish。Thewavesofairoftheproperlength,propagatedinaccordancewithcorrectmathematicalformulas,flowedaroundalltheinanimatethingsintheroom,lappedagainstMrsVerloc’sheadasifithadbeenaheadofstone。Andincredibleasitmayappear,theeyesofMrsVerlocseemedtogrowstilllarger。TheaudiblewishofMrVerloc’soverflowingheartflowedintoanenemyplaceinhiswife’smemory。GreenwichPark。Apark!That’swheretheboywaskilled。Apark—smashedbranches,tornleaves,gravel,bitsofbrotherlyfleshandbone,allspoutinguptogetherinthemannerofafirework。Sherememberednowwhatshehadheard,andsheremembereditpictorially。Theyhadtogatherhimupwiththeshovel。Tremblingalloverwithirrepressibleshudders,shesawbeforehertheveryimplementwithitsghastlyloadscrapedupfromtheground。MrsVerlocclosedhereyesdesperately,throwinguponthatvisionthenightofhereyelids,whereafterarain—likefallofmangledlimbsthedecapitatedheadofStevielingeredsuspendedalone,andfadingoutslowlylikethelaststarofapyrotechnicdisplay。MrsVerlocopenedhereyes。

  Herfacewasnolongerstony。Anybodycouldhavenotedthesubtlechangeonherfeatures,inthestareofhereyes,givingheranewandstartlingexpression;anexpressionseldomobservedbycompetentpersonsundertheconditionsofleisureandsecuritydemandedforthoroughanalysis,butwhosemeaningcouldnotbemistakenataglance。MrsVerloc’sdoubtsastotheendofthebargainnolongerexisted;herwitsnolongerdisconnected,wereworkingunderthecontrolofherwill。ButMrVerlocobservednothing。

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