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  CONRAD:TheSecretAgent,Chapter11CHAPTER11

  AFTERChiefInspectorHeathadlefthimMrVerlocmovedabouttheparlour。

  Fromtimetotimeheeyedhiswifethroughtheopendoor。`Sheknowsallaboutitnow,’hethoughttohimselfwithcommiserationforhersorrowandwithsomesatisfactionasregardedhimself。MrVerloc’ssoul,iflackinggreatnessperhaps,wascapableoftendersentiments。Theprospectofhavingtobreakthenewstoherhadputhimintoafever。ChiefInspectorHeathadrelievedhimofthetask。Thatwasgoodasfarasitwent。Itremainedforhimnowtofacehergrief。

  MrVerlochadneverexpectedtohavetofaceitonaccountofdeath,whosecatastrophiccharactercannotbearguedawaybysophisticatedreasoningorpersuasiveeloquence。MrVerlocnevermeantStevietoperishwithsuchabruptviolence。Hedidnotmeanhimtoperishatall。Steviedeadwasamuchgreaternuisancethaneverhehadbeenwhenalive。MrVerlochadauguredafavourableissuetohisenterprise,basinghimselfnotonStevie’sintelligence,whichsometimesplaysqueertrickswithaman,butontheblinddocilityandontheblinddevotionoftheboy。Thoughnotmuchofapsychologist,MrVerlochadgaugedthedepthofStevie’sfanaticism。

  HedaredcherishthehopeofSteviewalkingawayfromthewallsoftheObservatoryashehadbeeninstructedtodo,takingthewayshowntohimseveraltimespreviously,andrejoininghisbrother—in—law,thewiseandgoodMrVerloc,outsidetheprecinctsofthepark。Fifteenminutesoughttohavebeenenoughfortheveriestfooltodeposittheengineandwalkaway。AndtheProfessorhadguaranteedmorethanfifteenminutes。ButSteviehadstumbledwithinfiveminutesofbeinglefttohimself。AndMrVerlocwasshakenmorallytopieces。Hehadforeseeneverythingbutthat。HehadforeseenSteviedistractedandlost—soughtfor—foundinsomepolicestationorprovincialworkhouseintheend。HehadforeseenSteviearrested,andwasnotafraid,becauseMrVerlochadagreatopinionofStevie’sloyalty,whichhadbeencarefullyindoctrinatedwiththenecessityofsilenceinthecourseofmanywalks。Likeaperipateticphilosopher,MrVerloc,strollingalongthestreetsofLondon,hadmodifiedStevie’sviewofthepolicebyconversationsfullofsubtlereasonings。Neverhadasageamoreattentiveandadmiringdisciple。ThesubmissionandworshipweresoapparentthatMrVerlochadcometofeelsomethinglikealikingfortheboy。Inanycase,hehadnotforeseentheswiftbringinghomeofhisconnection。Thathiswifeshouldhitupontheprecautionofsewingtheboy’saddressinsidehisovercoatwasthelastthingMrVerlocwouldhavethoughtof。Onecan’tthinkifeverything。ThatwaswhatshemeantwhenshesaidthatheneednotworryifhelostStevieduringtheirwalks。Shehadassuredhimthattheboywouldturnupallright。Well,hehadturnedupwithavengeance!

  `Well,well,’mutteredMrVerlocinhiswonder。Whatdidshemeanbyit?SparehimthetroubleofkeepingananxiouseyeonStevie?Mostlikelyshehadmeantwell。Onlysheoughttohavetoldhimoftheprecautionshehadtaken。

  MrVerlocwalkedbehindthecounteroftheshop。Hisintentionwasnottooverwhelmhiswifewithbitterreproaches。MrVerlocfeltnobitterness。

  Theunexpectedmarchofeventshadconvertedhimtothedoctrineoffatalism。

  Nothingcouldbehelpednow。Hesaid:

  `Ididn’tmeananyharmtocometotheboy。’

  MrsVerlocshudderedatthesoundofherhusband’svoice。Shedidnotuncoverherface。ThetrustedsecretagentofthelateBaronStott—Wartenheimlookedatherforatimewithaheavy,persistent,undiscerningglance。

  Thetorneveningpaperwaslyingatherfeet。Itcouldnothavetoldhermuch。MrVerlocfelttheneedoftalkingtohiswife。

  `It’sthatdamnedHeat—eh?’hesaid。`Heupsetyou。He’sabrute,blurtingitoutlikethistoawoman。Imademyselfillthinkingofhowtobreakittoyou。IsatforhoursinthelittleparlouroftheCheshireCheesethinkingoverthebestway。YouunderstandInevermeantanyharmtocometothatboy。’

  MrVerloc,thesecretagent,wasspeakingthetruth。Itwashismaritalaffectionthathadreceivedthegreatestshockfromtheprematureexplosion。

  Headded:

  `Ididn’tfeelparticularlygaysittingthereandthinkingofyou。’

  Heobservedanotherslightshudderofhiswife,whichaffectedhissensibility。

  Asshepersistedinhidingherfaceinherhands,hethoughthehadbetterleaveheraloneforawhile。OnthisdelicateimpulseMrVerlocwithdrewintotheparlouragain,wherethegas—jetpurredlikeacontentedcat。

  MrsVerloc’swifelyforethoughthadleftthecoldbeefonthetablewithcarvingknifeandforkandhalfaloafofbreadforMrVerloc’ssupper。

  Henoticedallthesethingsnowforthefirsttime,andcuttinghimselfapieceofbreadandmeat,begantoeat。

  Hisappetitedidnotproceedfromcallousness。MrVerlochadnoteatenanybreakfastthatday。Hehadlefthishomefasting。Notbeinganenergeticman,hefoundhisresolutioninnervousexcitement,whichseemedtoholdhimmainlybythethroat。Hecouldnothaveswallowedanythingsolid。Michaelis’scottagewasasdestituteofprovisionsasthecellofaprisoner。Theticket—of—leaveapostlelivedonalittlemilkandcrustsofstalebread。Moreover,whenMrVerlocarrivedhehadalreadygoneupstairsafterhisfrugalmeal。Absorbedinthetoilanddelightofliterarycomposition,hehadnotevenansweredMrVerloc’sshoutupthelittlestaircase。

  `Iamtakingthisyoungfellowhomeforadayortwo。

  And,intruth,MrVerlocdidnotwaitforananswer,buthadmarchedoutofthecottageatonce,followedbytheobedientStevie。

  Nowthatallactionwasoverandhisfatetakenoutofhishandswithunexpectedswiftness,MrVerlocfeltterriblyemptyphysically。Hecarvedthemeat,cutthebread,anddevouredhissupperstandingbythetable,andnowandthencastingaglancetowardshiswife。Herprolongedimmobilitydisturbedthecomfortofhisreflection。Hewalkedagainintotheshop,andcameupveryclosetoher。ThissorrowwithaveiledfacemadeMrVerlocuneasy。Heexpected,ofcourse,hiswifetobeverymuchupset,buthewantedhertopullherselftogether。Heneededallherassistanceandallherloyaltyinthesenewconjunctureshisfatalismhadalreadyaccepted。

  `Can’tbehelped,’hesaidinatoneofgloomysympathy。`Come,Winnie,we’vegottothinkoftomorrow。You’llwantallyourwitsaboutyouafterIamtakenaway。’

  Hepaused。MrsVerloc’sbreastheavedconvulsively。ThiswasnotreassuringtoMrVerloc,inwhoseviewthenewlycreatedsituationrequiredfromthetwopeoplemostconcernedinitcalmness,decision,andotherqualitiesincompatiblewiththementaldisorderofpassionatesorrow。MrVerlocwasahumaneman;hehadcomehomepreparedtoalloweverylatitudetohiswife’saffectionforherbrother。Onlyhedidnotunderstandeitherthenatureorthewholeextentofthatsentiment。Andinthishewasexcusable,sinceitwasimpossibleforhimtounderstanditwithoutceasingtobehimself。Hewasstartledanddisappointed,andhisspeechconveyeditbyacertainroughnessoftone。

  `Youmightlookatafellow,’heobservedafterwaitingawhile。

  AsifforcedthroughthehandscoveringMrsVerloc’sfacetheanswercame,deadened,almostpitiful。

  `Idon’twanttolookatyouaslongasIlive。’

  `Eh?What!’MrVerlocwasmerelystartledbythesuperficialandliteralmeaningofthisdeclaration。Itwasobviouslyunreasonable,themerecryofexaggeratedgrief。Hethrewoveritthemantleofhismaritalindulgence。

  ThemindofMrVerloclackedprofundity。Underthemistakenimpressionthatthevalueofindividualsconsistsinwhattheyareinthemselves,hecouldnotpossiblycomprehendthevalueofStevieintheeyesofMrsVerloc。Shewastakingitconfoundedlyhard,hethoughttohimself。ItwasallthefaultofthatdamnedHeat。Whatdidhewanttoupsetthewomanfor?Butshemustn’tbeallowed,forherowngood,tocarryonsotillshegotquitebesideherself。

  `Lookhere!Youcan’tsitlikethisintheshop,’hesaidwithaffectedseverity,inwhichtherewassomerealannoyance;forurgentpracticalmattersmustbetalkedoveriftheyhadtositupallnight。`Somebodymightcomeinatanyminute,’headded,andwaitedagain。Noeffectwasproduced,andtheideaofthefinalityofdeathoccurredtoMrVerlocduringthepause。Hechangedhistone。`Come。Thiswon’tbringhimback,’hesaid,gently,feelingreadytotakeherinhisarmsandpresshertohisbreast,whereimpatienceandcompassiondweltsidebyside。ButexceptforashortshudderMrsVerlocremainedapparentlyunaffectedbytheforceofthatterribletruism。ItwasMrVerlochimselfwhowasmoved。Hewasmovedinhissimplicitytourgemoderationbyassertingtheclaimsofhisownpersonality。

  `Dobereasonable,Winnie。Whatwouldithavebeenifyouhadlostme?’

  Hehadvaguelyexpectedtohearhercryout。Butshedidnotbudge。

  Sheleanedbackalittle,quieteddowntoacomplete,unreadablestillness。

  MrVerloc’sheartbegantobeatfasterwithexasperationandsomethingresemblingalarm。Helaidhishandonhershoulder,saying:

  `Don’tbeafool,Winnie。’

  Shegavenosign。Itwasimpossibletotalktoanypurposewithawomanwhosefaceonecannotsee。MrVerloccaughtholdofhiswife’swrists。

  Butherhandsseemedgluedfast。Sheswayedforwardbodilytohistug,andnearlywentoffthechair。Startledtofeelhersohelplesslylimp,hewastryingtoputherbackonthechairwhenshestiffenedsuddenlyallover,toreherselfoutofhishands,ranoutoftheshop,acrosstheparlourandintothekitchen。Thiswasveryswift。Hehadjustaglimpseofherfaceandthatmuchofhereyesthatheknewshehadnotlookedathim。

  Itallhadtheappearanceofastruggleforthepossessionofachair,becauseMrVerlocinstantlytookhiswife’splaceinit。MrVerlocdidnotcoverhisfacewithhishands,butasombrethoughtfulnessveiledhisfeatures。Atermofimprisonmentcouldnotbeavoided。Hedidnotwishnowtoavoidit。Aprisonwasaplaceassafefromcertainunlawfulvengeancesasthegrave,withthisadvantage,thatinprisonthereisroomforhope。

  Whathesawbeforehimwasatermofimprisonment,anearlyrelease,andthenlifeabroadsomewhere,suchashehadcontemplatedalready,incaseoffailure。Well,itwasafailure,ifnotexactlythesortoffailurehehadfeared。IthadbeensonearsuccessthathecouldhavepositivelyterrifiedMrVladimiroutofhisferociousscoffingwiththisproofofoccultefficiency。SoatleastitseemednowtoMrVerloc。HisprestigewiththeEmbassywouldhavebeenimmenseif—ifhiswifehadnothadtheunluckynotionofsewingontheaddressinsideStevie’sovercoat。MrVerloc,whowasnofool,hadsoonperceivedtheextraordinarycharacteroftheinfluencehehadoverSteviethoughhedidnotunderstandexactlyitsorigin—thedoctrineofhissupremewisdomandgoodnessinculcatedbytwoanxiouswomen。InalltheeventualitieshehadforeseenMrVerlochadcalculatedwithcorrectinsightonStevie’sinstinctiveloyaltyandblinddiscretion。

  Theeventualityhehadnotforeseenhadappalledhimasahumanemanandafondhusband。Fromeveryotherpointofviewitwasratheradvantageous。

  Nothingcanequaltheeverlastingdiscretionofdeath。MrVerloc,sittingperplexedandfrightenedinthesmallparlouroftheCheshireCheese,couldnothelpacknowledgingthattohimself,becausehissensibilitydidnotstandinthewayofhisjudgement。Stevie’sviolentdisintegration,howeverdisturbingtothinkabout,onlyassuredthesuccess;for,ofcourse,theknockingdownofawallwasnottheaimofMrVladimir’smenaces,buttheproductionofamoraleffect。WithmuchtroubleanddistressonMrVerloc’sparttheeffectmightbesaidtohavebeenproduced。When,however,mostunexpectedly,itcamehometoroostinBrettStreet,MrVerloc,whohadbeenstrugglinglikeamaninanightmareforthepreservationofhisposition,acceptedtheblowinthespiritofaconvincedfatalist。Thepositionwasgonethroughnoone’sfaultreally。Asmall,tinyfacthaddoneit。Itwaslikeslippingonabitoforangepeelinthedarkandbreakingyourleg。

  MrVerlocdrewawearybreath。Henourishednoresentmentagainsthiswife。Hethought:`Shewillhavetolookaftertheshopwhiletheykeepmelockedup。’AndthinkingalsohowcruellyshewouldmissStevieatfirst,hefeltgreatlyconcernedaboutherhealthandspirits。Howwouldshestandhersolitude—absolutelyaloneinthathouse?Itwouldnotdoforhertobreakdownwhilehewaslockedup。Whatwouldbecomeoftheshopthen?

  Theshopwasanasset。ThoughMrVerloc’sfatalismacceptedhisundoingasasecretagent,hehadnomindtobeutterlyruined,mostly,itmustbeowned,fromregardforhiswife。

  Silentandoutofhislineofsightinthekitchen,shefrightenedhim。

  Ifonlyshehadhermotherwithher。Butthatsillyoldwoman—AnangrydismaypossessedMrVerloc。Hemusttalkwithhiswife。Hecouldtellhercertainlythatamandoesgetdesperateundercertaincircumstances。Buthedidnotgoincontinentlytoimparttoherthatinformation。Firstofall,itwascleartohimchatthiseveningwasnotimeforbusiness。Hegotuptoclosethestreetdoorandputthegasoutintheshop。

  Havingthusassuredasolitudearoundhishearth—stoneMrVerlocwalkedintotheparlour,andglanceddownintothekitchen。MrsVerlocwassittingintheplacewherepoorStevieusuallyestablishedhimselfofaneveningwithpaperandpencilforthepastimeofdrawingthosecoruscationsofinnumerablecirclessuggestingchaosandeternity。Herarmswerefoldedonthetable,andherheadwaslyingonherarms。MrVerloccontemplatedherbackandthearrangementofherhairforatime,thenwalkedawayfromthekitchendoor。MrsVerloc’sphilosophical,almostdisdainfulincuriosity,thefoundationoftheiraccordindomesticlife,madeitextremelydifficulttogetintocontactwithher,nowthistragicnecessityhadarisen。MrVerlocfeltthisdifficultyacutely。Heturnedaroundthetableintheparlourwithhisusualairofalargeanimalinacage。

  Curiositybeingoneoftheformsofself—revelation,asystematicallyincuriouspersonremainsalwayspartlymysterious。EverytimehepassednearthedoorMrVerlocglancedathiswifeuneasily。Itwasnotthathewasafraidofher。MrVerlocimaginedhimselflovedbythatwoman。Butshehadnotaccustomedhimtomakeconfidences。Andtheconfidencehehadtomakewasofaprofoundpsychologicalorder。Howwithhiswantofpracticecouldhetellherwhathehimselffeltbutvaguely:thatthereareconspiraciesoffataldestiny,thatanotiongrowsinamindsometimestillitacquiresanoutwardexistence,anindependentpowerofitsown,andevenasuggestivevoice?Hecouldnotinformherthatamanmaybehauntedbyafat,witty,clean—shavedfacetillthewildestexpedienttogetridofitappearsachildofwisdom。

  OnthismentalreferencetoaFirstSecretaryofagreatEmbassy,MrVerlocstoppedinthedoorway,andlookingdownintothekitchenwithanangryfaceandclenchedfists,addressedhiswife。

  `Youdon’tknowwhatabruteIhadtodealwith。’

  Hestartedofftomakeanotherperambulationofthetable,thenwhenhehadcometothedooragainhestopped,glaringinfromtheheightoftwosteps。

  `Asilly,jeering,dangerousbrute,withnomoresensethan—Afteralltheseyears!Amanlikeme!AndIhavebeenplayingmyheadatthatgame。Youdidn’tknow。Quiteright,too。WhatwasthegoodoftellingyouthatIstoodtheriskofhavingaknifestuckintomeanytimethesesevenyearswe’vebeenmarried?Iamnotachaptoworryawomanthat’sfondofme。Youhadnobusinesstoknow。’

  MrVerloctookanotherturnroundtheparlour,fuming。

  `Avenomousbeast,’hebeganagainfromthedoorway。`Drivemeoutintoaditchtostarveforajoke。Icouldseehethoughtitwasadamnedgoodjoke。Amanlikeme!Lookhere!Someofthehighestintheworldgottothankmeforwalkingontheirtwolegstothisday。That’sthemanyou’vegotmarriedto,mygirl!’

  Heperceivedthathiswifehadsatup。MrsVerloc’sarmsremainedlyingstretchedonthetable。MrVerlocwatchedherbackasifhecouldreadtheretheeffectofhiswords。

  `Thereisn’tamurderingplotforthelastelevenyearsthatIhadn’tmyfingerinattheriskofmylife。There’sscoresoftheserevolutionistsI’vesentoffwiththeirbombsintheirblamedpockets,togetthemselvescaughtonthefrontier。TheoldBaronknewwhatIwasworthtohiscountry。

  Andheresuddenlyaswinecomesalong—anignorant,overbearingswine。’

  MrVerloc,steppingslowlydowntwosteps,enteredthekitchen,tookatumbleroffthedresser,andholdingitinhishand,approachedthesink,withoutlookingathiswife。

  `Itwasn’ttheoldBaronwhowouldhavehadthewickedfollyofgettingmetocallonhimateleveninthemorning。Therearetwoorthreeinthistownthat,iftheyhadseenmegoingin,wouldhavemadenobonesaboutknockingmeontheheadsoonerorlater。Itwasasilly,murderoustricktoexposefornothingaman—likeme。’

  MrVerloc,turningonthetapabovethesink,pouredthreeglassesofwater,oneafteranother,downhisthroattoquenchthefiresofhisindignation。

  MrVladimir’sconductwaslikeahotbrandwhichsethisinternaleconomyinablaze。Hecouldnotgetoverthedisloyaltyofit。Thisman,whowouldnotworkattheusualhardtaskswhichsocietysetstoitshumblermembers,hadexercisedhissecretindustrywithanindefatigabledevotion。TherewasinMrVerlocafundofloyalty。Hehadbeenloyaltohisemployers,tothecauseofsocialstability—andtohisaffections,too—asbecameapparentwhen,afterstandingthetumblerinthesink,heturnedabout,saying:

  `IfIhadn’tthoughtofyouIwouldhavetakenthebullyingbrutebythethroatandrammedhisheadintothefireplace。I’dhavebeenmorethanamatchforthatpink—faced,smooth—shaved—’

  MrVerlocneglectedtofinishthesentence,asiftherecouldbenodoubtoftheterminalword。Forthefirsttimeinhislifehewastakingthatincuriouswomanintohisconfidence。Thesingularityoftheevent,theforceandimportanceofthepersonalfeelingsarousedinthecourseofthisconfession,droveStevie’sfatecleanoutofMrVerloc’smind。

  Theboy’sstutteringexistenceoffearsandindignations,togetherwiththeviolenceofhisend,hadpassedoutofMrVerloc’smentalsightforatime。Forthatreason,whenhelookeduphewasstartledbytheinappropriatecharacterofhiswife’sstare。Itwasnotawildstare,anditwasnotinattentive,butitsattentionwaspeculiarandnotsatisfactory,inasmuchthatitseemedconcentrateduponsomepointbeyondMrVerloc’sperson。

  TheimpressionwassostrongthatMrVerlocglancedoverhisshoulder。

  Therewasnothingbehindhim:therewasjustthewhitewashedwall。TheexcellenthusbandofWinnieVerlocsawnowritingonthewall。Heturnedtohiswifeagain,repeating,withsomeemphasis:

  `Iwouldhavetakenhimbythethroat。AstrueasIstandhere,ifI

  hadn’tthoughtofyouthenIwouldhavehalfchokedthelifeoutofthebrutebeforeIlethimgetup。Anddon’tyouthinkhewouldhavebeenanxioustocallthepolice—either。Hewouldn’thavedared。Youunderstandwhy—don’tyou?’

  Heblinkedathiswifeknowingly。

  `No,’saidMrsVerlocinanunresonantvoice,andwithoutlookingathimatall。`Whatareyoutalkingabout?’

  Agreatdiscouragement,theresultoffatigue,cameuponMrVerloc。

  Hehadhadaveryfullday,andhisnerveshadbeentriedtotheutmost。

  Afteramonthofmaddeningworry,endinginanunexpectedcatastrophe,thestorm—tossedspiritofMrVerloclongedforrepose。Hiscareerasasecretagenthadcometoanendinawaynoonecouldhaveforeseen;only,now,perhapshecouldmanagetogetanight’ssleepatlast。Butlookingathiswife,hedoubtedit。Shewastakingitveryhard—notatalllikeherself,hethought。Hemadeanefforttospeak。

  `You’llhavetopullyourselftogether,mygirl,’hesaid,sympathetically。

  `What’sdonecan’tbeundone。’

  MrsVerlocgaveaslightstart,thoughnotamuscleofherwhitefacemovedintheleast。MrVerloc,whowasnotlookingather,continuedponderously:

  `Yougotobednow。Whatyouwantisagoodcry。’

  Thisopinionhadnothingtorecommenditbutthegeneralconsentofmankind。Itisuniversallyunderstoodthat,asifitwerenothingmoresubstantialthanvapourfloatinginthesky,everyemotionofawomanisboundtoendinashower。AnditisveryprobablethathadSteviediedinhisbedunderherdespairinggaze,inherprotectingarms,MrsVerloc’sgriefwouldhavefoundreliefinafloodofbitterandpuretears。MrsVerloc,incommonwithotherhumanbeings,wasprovidedwithafundofunconsciousresignationsufficienttomeetthenormalmanifestationofhumandestiny。Without`troublingherheadaboutit’,shewasawarethatit`didnotstandlookingintoverymuch’。ButthelamentablecircumstancesofStevie’send,whichtoMrVerloc’smindhadonlyanepisodiccharacter,aspartofagreaterdisaster,driedhertearsattheirverysource。Itwastheeffectofawhite—hotirondrawnacrosshereyes;atthesametimeherheart,hardenedandchilledintoalumpofice,keptherbodyinaninwardshudder,setherfeaturesintoafrozen,contemplativeimmobilityaddressedtoawhitewashedwallwithnowritingonit。TheexigenciesofMrsVerloc’stemperament,which,whenstrippedofitsphilosophicalreserve,wasmaternalandviolent,forcedhertorollaseriesofthoughtsinhermotionlesshead。Thesethoughtswereratherimaginedthanexpressed。MrsVerlocwasawomanofsingularlyfewwords,eitherforpublicorprivateuse。Withtherageanddismayofabetrayedwoman,shereviewedthetenorofherlifeinvisionsconcernedmostlywithStevie’sdifficultexistencefromitsearliestdays。Itwasalifeofsinglepurposeandofanobleunityofinspiration,likethoserarelivesthathavelefttheirmarkonthethoughtsandfeelingsofmankind。ButthevisionsofMrsVerloclackednobilityandmagnificence。Shesawherselfputtingtheboytobedbythelightofasinglecandleonthedesertedtopfloorofa`businesshouse’,darkundertheroofandscintillatingexceedinglywithlightsandcutglassatthelevelofthestreetlikeafairypalace。ThatmeretricioussplendourwastheonlyonetobemetinMrsVerloc’svisions。Sherememberedbrushingtheboy’shairandtyinghispinafores—herselfinapinaforestill;theconsolationsadministeredtoasmallandbadlyscaredcreaturebyanothercreaturenearlyassmallbutnotquitesobadlyscared;shehadthevisionoftheblowsintercepted(oftenwithherownhead),ofadoorhelddesperatelyshutagainstaman’srage(notforverylong);ofapokerflungonce(notveryfar),whichstilledthatparticularstormintothedumbandawfulsilencewhichfollowsathunder—clap。Andallthesescenesofviolencecameandwentaccompaniedbytheunrefinednoiseofdeepvociferationsproceedingfromamanwoundedinhispaternalpride,declaringhimselfobviouslyaccursedsinceoneofhiskidswasa`slobberingidjutandtheotherawickedshe—devil’。Itwasofherthatthishadbeensaidmanyyearsago。

  MrsVerlocheardthewordsagaininaghostlyfashion,andthenthedrearyshadowoftheBelgravianmansiondescendeduponhershoulders。Itwasacrushingmemory,anexhaustingvisionofcountlessbreakfasttrayscarriedupanddowninnumerablestairs,ofendlesshagglingoverpence,oftheendlessdrudgeryofsweeping,dusting,cleaning,frombasementtoattics;whiletheimpotentmother,staggeringonswollenlegs,cookedinagrimykitchen,andpoorStevie,theunconsciouspresidinggeniusofalltheirtoil,blackedthegentlemen’sbootsinthescullery。ButthisvisionhadabreathofahotLondonsummerinit,andforacentralfigureayoungmanwearinghisSundaybest,withastrawhatonhisdarkheadandawoodenpipeinhismouth。Affectionateandjolly,hewasafascinatingcompanionforavoyagedownthesparklingstreamoflife;onlyhisboatwasverysmall。Therewasroominitforagirl—partnerattheoar,butnoaccommodationforpassengers。HewasallowedtodriftawayfromthethresholdoftheBelgravianmansionwhileWinnieavertedhertearfuleyes。Hewasnotalodger。ThelodgerwasMrVerloc,indolentandkeepinglatehours,sleepilyjocularofamorningfromunderhisbed—clothes,butwithgleamsofinfatuationinhisheavy—liddedeyes,andalwayswithsomemoneyinhispockets。Therewasnosparkleofanykindonthelazystreamofhislife。Itflowedthroughsecretplaces。Buthisbarqueseemedaroomycraft,andhistaciturnmagnanimityacceptedasamatterofcoursethepresenceofpassengers。

  MrsVerlocpursuedthevisionsofsevenyears’securityforStevieloyallypaidforonherpart;ofsecuritygrowingintoconfidence,intoadomesticfeeling,stagnantanddeeplikeaplacidpool,whoseguardedsurfacehardlyshudderedontheoccasionalpassageofComradeOssipon,therobustanarchistwithshamelesslyinvitingeyes,whoseglancehadacorruptclearnesssufficienttoenlightenanywomannotabsolutelyimbecile。

  Afewsecondsonlyhadelapsedsincethelastwordhadbeenutteredaloudinthekitchen,andMrsVerlocwasstaringalreadyatthevisionofanepisodenotmorethanafortnightold。WitheyeswhosepupilswereextremelydilatedshestaredatthevisionofherhusbandandpoorSteviewalkingupBrettStreetsidebysideawayfromtheshop。ItwasthelastsceneofanexistencecreatedbyMrsVerloc’sgenius;anexistenceforeigntoallgraceandcharm,withoutbeautyandalmostwithoutdecency,butadmirableinthecontinuityoffeelingandtenacityofpurpose。Andthislastvisionhadsuchplasticrelief,suchnearnessofform,suchafidelityofsuggestivedetail,thatitwrungfromMrsVerlocananguishedandfaintmurmur,reproducingthesupremeillusionofherlife,anappalledmurmurthatdiedoutonherblanchedlips。

  `Mighthavebeenfatherandson。’

  MrVerlocstopped,andraisedacarewornface。`Eh?Whatdidyousay?’

  heasked。Receivingnoreply,heresumedhissinistertramping。Thenwithamenacingflourishofathick,fleshyfist,heburstout:

  `Yes。TheEmbassypeople。Aprettylot,ain’tthey!Beforeaweek’soutI’llmakesomeofthemwishthemselvestwentyfeetunderground。Eh?

  What?’

  Heglancedsideways,withhisheaddown。MrsVerlocgazedatthewhitewashedwall。Ablankwall—perfectlyblank。Ablanknesstorunatanddashyourheadagainst。MrsVerlocremainedimmovablyseated。Shekeptstillasthepopulationofhalftheglobewouldkeepstillinastonishmentanddespair,werethesunsuddenlyputoutinthesummerskybytheperfidyofatrustedprovidence。

  `TheEmbassy,’MrVerlocbeganagain,afterapreliminarygrimacewhichbaredhisteethwolfishly。`IwishIcouldgetlooseintherewithacudgelforhalfanhour。Iwouldkeeponhittingtilltherewasn’tasingleunbrokenboneleftamongstthewholelot。Butnevermind,I’llteachthemyetwhatitmeanstryingtothrowoutamanlikemetorotinthestreets。I’veatongueinmyhead。AlltheworldshallknowwhatI’vedoneforthem。

  Iamnotafraid。Idon’tcare。Everything’llcomeout。Everydamnedthing。

  Letthemlookout!’

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