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  XIII

  GladasAgneswaswhenherloverreturnedforlunch,shewasatthesametimeratherdismayed:sheknewthatMrs。Failingwouldnotlikeherplansaltered。Andherdismaywasjustified。Theirhostesswasalittlestiff,andaskedwhetherStephenhadbeenobnoxious。

  \"Indeedhehasn’t。Hespentthewholetimelookingafterme。\"

  \"FromwhichIconcludehewasmoreobnoxiousthanusual。\"

  Rickiepraisedhimdiligently。Buthiscandidnatureshowedeverythingthrough。Hisauntsoonsawthattheyhadnotgoton。

  Shehadexpectedthis——almostplannedit。Neverthelesssheresentedit,andherresentmentwastofallonhim。

  Thestormgatheredslowly,andmanyotherthingswenttoswellit。Weaklypeople,iftheyarenotcareful,hateoneanother,andwhentheweaknessishereditarythetemptationincreases。Elliotshadnevergotonamongthemselves。Theytalkedof\"TheFamily,\"

  buttheyalwaysturnedoutwardstothehealthandbeautythatliesopromiscuouslyabouttheworld。Rickie’sfatherhadturned,foratimeatallevents,tohismother。RickiehimselfwasturningtoAgnes。AndMrs。Failingnowwasirritable,andunfairtothenephewwhowaslamelikeherhorriblebrotherandlikeherself。

  Shethoughthiminvertebrateandconventional。Shewasenviousofhishappiness。Shedidnottroubletounderstandhisart。Shelongedtoshatterhim,butknowingasshedidthatthehumanthunderboltoftenreboundsandstrikesthewielder,sheheldherhand。

  Agneswatchedtheapproachingclouds。Rickiehadwarnedher;nowshebegantowarnhim。Asthevisitworeawaysheurgedhimtobepleasanttohisaunt,andsoconvertitintoasuccess。

  Hereplied,\"Whyneeditbeasuccess?\"——areplyinthemannerofAnsell。

  Shelaughed。\"Oh,that’ssolikeyoumen——alltheory!Whataboutyourgreattheoryofhatingnoone?Assoonasitcomesinusefulyoudropit。\"

  \"Idon’thateAuntEmily。Honestly。ButcertainlyIdon’twanttobenearherorthinkabouther。Don’tyouthinktherearetwogreatthingsinlifethatweoughttoaimat——truthandkindness?

  Let’shavebothifwecan,butlet’sbesureofhavingoneortheother。Myauntgivesupbothforthesakeofbeingfunny。\"

  \"AndStephenWonham,\"pursuedAgnes。\"There’sanotherpersonyouhate——ordon’tthinkabout,ifyoupreferitputlikethat。\"

  \"Thetruthis,I’mchanging。I’mbeginningtoseethattheworldhasmanypeopleinitwhodon’tmatter。Ihadtimeforthemonce。

  Notnow。\"Therewasonlyonegatetothekingdomofheavennow。

  Agnessurprisedhimbysaying,\"ButtheWonhamboyisevidentlyapartofyouraunt’slife。Shelaughsathim,butsheisfondofhim。\"

  \"What’sthattodowithit?\"

  \"Yououghttobepleasanttohimonaccountofit。\"

  \"Whyonearth?\"

  Sheflushedalittle。\"I’mold—fashioned。Oneoughttoconsiderone’shostess,andfallinwithherlife。Afterweleaveit’sanotherthing。ButwhilewetakeherhospitalityIthinkit’sourduty。\"

  Hergoodsensetriumphed。HenceforthhetriedtofallinwithAuntEmily’slife。AuntEmilywatchedhimtrying。Thestormbroke,asstormssometimesdo,onSunday。

  SundaychurchwasafunctionatCadover,thoughastrangeone。

  Thepompouslandaurolleduptothehouseataquartertoeleven。

  ThenMrs。Failingsaid,\"WhyamIbeinghurried?\"andafteranintervaldescendedthestepsinherordinaryclothes。Sheregardedthechurchasasortofsitting—room,andrefusedeventowearabonnetthere。Thevillagewasshocked,butatthesametimealittleproud;itwouldpointoutthecarriagetostrangersandgossipaboutthepalesmilingladywhosatinit,alwaysalone,alwayslate,herhairalwaysdrapedinanexpensiveshawl。

  ThisSunday,thoughlateasusual,shewasnotalone。MissPembroke,engrandetoilette,satbyherside。Rickie,lookingplainanddevout,perchedopposite。AndStephenactuallycametoo,murmuringthatitwouldbetheBenedicite,whichhehadneverminded。TherewasalsotheLitany,whichdrovehimintotheairagain,muchtoMrs。Failing’sdelight。Sheenjoyedthissortofthing。ItamusedherwhenherProtegeleftthepew,lookingbored,athletic,anddishevelled,andgropingmostobviouslyforhispipe。Shelikedtokeepathoroughbredpagantoshockpeople。

  \"He’sgonetoworshipNature,\"shewhispered。Rickiedidnotlookup。\"Don’tyouthinkhe’scharming?\"Hemadenoreply。

  \"Charming,\"whisperedAgnesoverhishead。

  Duringthesermonsheanalysedherguests。MissPembroke——

  undistinguished,unimaginative,tolerable。Rickie——intolerable。

  \"Andhowpedantic!\"shemused。\"HesmellsoftheUniversitylibrary。Ifhewasstupidintherightwayhewouldbeadon。\"

  Shelookedroundthetinychurch;atthewhitewashedpillars,thehumblepavement,thewindowfullofmagentasaints。Therewasthevicar’swife。AndMrs。Wilbraham’sbonnet。Ugh!Therestofthecongregationwerepoorwomen,withflat,hopelessfaces——shesawthemSundayafterSunday,butdidnotknowtheirnames——

  diversifiedwithafewreluctantplough—boys,andthevilelittleschoolchildrenrowuponrow。\"Ugh!whatahole,\"thoughtMrs。

  Failing,whoseChristianitywasthetypebestdescribedas\"cathedral。\"\"Whataholeforaculturedwoman!Idon’tthinkithasbluntedmysensations,though;Istillseeitssqualorasclearlyasever。Andmynephewpretendsheisworshipping。Pah!

  thehypocrite。\"Aboveherthevicarspokeofthedangerofhurryingfromonedissipationtoanother。Shetreasuredhiswords,andcontinued:\"Icannotstandsmugness。Itistheone,theunpardonablesin。Freshair!ThefreshairthathasmadeStephenWonhamfreshandcompanionableandstrong。Evenifitkills,Iwillletinthefreshair。\"

  ThusreasonedMrs。Failing,inthefacileveinofIbsenism。Sheimaginedherselftobeacold—eyedScandinavianheroine。ReallyshewasanEnglisholdlady,whodidnotmindgivingotherpeopleachillprovideditwasnotinfectious。

  Agnes,onthewayback,notedthatherhostesswasalittlesnappish。Butoneissohungryaftermorningservice,andeithersohotorsocold,thathewouldbeasaintindeedwhobecomesasaintatonce。Mrs。Failing,afterassertingvindictivelythatitwasimpossibletomakealivingoutofliterature,wascourteouslyleftalone。Roast—beefandmosellemightyetworkmiracles,andAgnesstillhopedfortheintroductions——theintroductionstocertaineditorsandpublishers——onwhichherwholediplomacywasbent。Rickiewouldnotpushhimself。Itwashisbesettingsin。Wellforhimthathewouldhaveawife,andalovingwife,whoknewthevalueofenterprise。

  Unfortunatelylunchwasaquarterofanhourlate,andduringthatquarterofanhourtheauntandthenephewquarrelled。Shehadbeeninveighingagainstthemorningservice,andhequietlyanddeliberatelyreplied,\"Iforganizedreligionisanything——anditissomethingtome——itwillnotbewreckedbyaharmoniumandadullsermon。\"

  Mrs。Failingfrowned。\"Ienvyyou。Itisagreatthingtohavenosenseofbeauty。\"

  \"IthinkIhaveasenseofbeauty,whichleadsmeastrayifIamnotcareful。\"

  \"Butthisisagreatrelieftome。Ithoughtthepresentdayyoungmanwasanagnostic!Isn’tagnosticismallthethingatCambridge?\"

  \"Nothingisthe’thing’atCambridge。Ifafewmenareagnosticthere,itisforsomegravereason,notbecausetheyareirritatedwiththewaytheparsonsayshisvowels。\"

  Agnesintervened。\"Well,IsidewithAuntEmily。Ibelieveinritual。\"

  \"Don’t,mydear,sidewithme。Hewillonlysayyouhavenosenseofreligioneither。\"

  \"Excuseme,\"saidRickie,perhapshetoowasalittlehungry,——\"I

  neversuggestedsuchathing。Ineverwouldsuggestsuchathing。

  Whycannotyouunderstandmyposition?Ialmostfeelitisthatyouwon’t。\"

  \"Itrytounderstandyourpositionnightanddaydear——whatyoumean,whatyoulike,whyyoucametoCadover,andwhyyoustopherewhenmypresenceissoobviouslyunpleasingtoyou。\"

  \"Luncheonisserved,\"saidLeighton,buthesaidittoolate。

  Theydiscussedthebeefandthemoselleinsilence。Theairwasheavyandominous。EventheWonhamboywasaffectedbyit,shiveredattimes,chokedonce,andhastenedanewintothesun。

  Hecouldnotunderstandcleverpeople。

  Agnes,inabriefanxiousinterview,advisedtheculprittotakeasolitarywalk。ShewouldstopnearAuntEmily,andpavethewayforanapology。

  \"Don’tworrytoomuch。Itdoesn’treallymatter。\"

  \"Isupposenot,dear。Butitseemsapity,consideringwearesoneartheendofourvisit。\"

  \"RudenessandGrossnessmatter,andI’veshownboth,andalreadyI’msorry,andIhopeshe’llletmeapologize。Butfromtheselfishpointofviewitdoesn’tmatterastraw。She’snomoretousthantheWonhamboyorthebootboy。\"

  \"Whichwaywillyouwalk?\"

  \"Ithinktothatentrenchment。Lookatit。\"Theyweresittingonthesteps。HestretchedouthishandtoCadsburyRings,andthenletitrestforamomentonhershoulder。\"You’rechangingme,\"

  hesaidgently。\"Godblessyouforit。\"

  Heenjoyedhiswalk。Cadfordwasacharmingvillageandforatimehehungoverthebridgebythemill。Soclearwasthestreamthatitseemednotwateratall,butsomeinvisiblequintessenceinwhichthehappyminnowsandtheweedswerevibrating。AndhepausedagainattheRomancrossing,andthoughtforamomentoftheunknownchild。Thelinecurvedsuddenly:certainlyitwasdangerous。Thenheliftedhiseyestothedown。Theentrenchmentshowedliketherimofasaucer,andoveritsnarrowlinepeepedthesummitofthecentraltree。Itlookedinteresting。Hehurriedforward,withthewindbehindhim。

  TheRingswerecuriousratherthanimpressive。Neitherembankmentwasovertwelvefeethigh,andthegrassonthemhadnottheexquisitegreenofOldSarum,butwasgreyandwiry。ButNature(ifshearrangesanything)hadarrangedthatfromthem,atallevents,thereshouldbeaview。ThewholesystemofthecountrylayspreadbeforeRickie,andhegainedanideaofitthathenevergotinhiselaborateride。HesawhowallthewaterconvergesatSalisbury;howSalisburyliesinashallowbasin,justatthechangeofthesoil。HesawtothenorththePlain,andthestreamoftheCadflowingdownfromit,withatributarythatbrokeoutsuddenly,asthechalkstreamsdo:onevillagehadclusteredroundthesourceandclotheditselfwithtrees。HesawOldSarum,andhintsoftheAvonvalley,andthelandaboveStoneHenge。Andbehindhimhesawthegreatwoodbeginningunobtrusively,asifthedowntooneededshaving;andintoittheroadtoLondonslipped,coveringthebusheswithwhitedust。

  Chalkmadethedustwhite,chalkmadethewaterclear,chalkmadethecleanrollingoutlinesoftheland,andfavouredthegrassandthedistantcoronalsoftrees。Hereistheheartofourisland:theChilterns,theNorthDowns,theSouthDownsradiatehence。ThefibresofEnglanduniteinWiltshire,anddidwecondescendtoworshipher,hereweshoulderectournationalshrine。

  Peopleatthattimeweretryingtothinkimperially,Rickiewonderedhowtheydidit,forhecouldnotimagineaplacelargerthanEngland。AndotherpeopletalkedofItaly,thespiritualfatherlandofusall。PerhapsItalywouldprovemarvellous。Butatpresentheconceiveditassomethingexotic,tobeadmiredandreverenced,butnottobelovedliketheseunostentatiousfields。

  Hedrewoutabook,itwasnaturalforhimtoreadwhenhewashappy,andtoreadoutloud,——andforalittletimehisvoicedisturbedthesilenceofthatgloriousafternoon。ThebookwasShelley,anditopenedatapassagethathehadcherishedgreatlytwoyearsbefore,andmarkedas\"verygood。\"

  \"IneverwasattachedtothatgreatsectWhosedoctrineisthateachoneshouldselectOutoftheworldamistressorafriend,Andalltherest,thoughfairandwise,commendTocoldoblivion,——thoughitisthecodeOfmodernmorals,andthebeatenroadWhichthosepoorslaveswithwearyfootstepstreadWhotraveltotheirhomeamongthedeadBythebroadhighwayoftheworld,——andsoWithonesadfriend,perhapsajealousfoe,Thedreariestandthelongestjourneygo。\"

  Itwas\"verygood\"——finepoetry,and,inasense,true。Yethewassurprisedthathehadeverselecteditsovehemently。Thisafternoonitseemedalittleinhuman。Halfamileofftwoloverswerekeepingcompanywhereallthevillagerscouldseethem。Theycaredfornooneelse;theyfeltonlythepressureofeachother,andsoprogressed,silentandoblivious,acrosstheland。HefeltthemtobenearerthetruththanShelley。Eveniftheysufferedorquarrelled,theywouldhavebeennearerthetruth。HewonderedwhethertheywereHenryAdamsandJessicaThompson,bothofthisparish,whosebannshadbeenaskedforthesecondtimeinthechurchthismorning。Whycouldhenotmarryonfifteenshillingsa—week?Andbelookedatthemwithrespect,andwishedthathewasnotacumbersomegentleman。

  Presentlyhesawsomethinglesspleasant——hisaunt’sponycarriage。Ithadcrossedtherailway,andwasadvancinguptheRomanroadalongbythestrawsacks。Hisimpulsewastoretreat,butsomeonewavedtohim。ItwasAgnes。Shewavedcontinually,asmuchastosay,\"Waitforus。\"Mrs。Failingherselfraisedthewhipinanonchalantway。StephenWonhamwasfollowingonfoot,somewaybehind。HeputtheShelleybackintohispocketandwaitedforthem。Whenthecarriagestoppedbysomehurdleshewentdownfromtheembankmentandhelpedthemtodismount。Hefeltrathernervous。

  Hisauntgavehimoneofherdisquietingsmiles,butsaidpleasantlyenough,\"Aren’ttheRingsalittleimmense?AgnesandIcameherebecausewewantedanantidotetothemorningservice。\"

  \"Pang!\"saidthechurchbellsuddenly;\"pang!pang!\"Itsoundedpettyandludicrous。Theyalllaughed。Rickieblushed,andAgnes,withaglancethatsaid\"apologize,\"dartedawaytotheentrenchment,asthoughunabletorestrainhercuriosity。

  \"Theponywon’tmove,\"saidMrs。Failing。\"LeavehimforStephentotieup。Willyouwalkmetothetreeinthemiddle?Booh!I’mtired。Givemeyourarm——unlessyou’retiredaswell。\"

  \"No。Icameoutpartlyinthehopeofhelpingyou。\"

  \"Howsweetofyou。\"ShecontrastedhisblatantunselfishnesswiththehardnessofStephen。Stephennevercameouttohelpyou。

  Butifyougotholdofhimhewassomegood。Hedidn’twobbleandbendatthecriticalmoment。HerfancycomparedRickietothecrackedchurchbellsendingforthitsmessageof\"Pang!pang!\"tothecountryside,andStephentotheyoungpaganswhoweresaidtolieunderthisfieldguardingtheirpagangold。

  \"Thisplaceisfullofghosties,\"sheremarked;\"haveyouseenanyyet?\"

  \"I’vekeptontheouterrimsofar。\"

  \"Let’sgotothetreeinthecentre。\"

  \"Here’sthepath。\"Thebankofgrasswherehehadsatwasbrokenbyagap,throughwhichchariotshadentered,andfarmcartsenterednow。Thetrack,followingtheancienttrack,ledstraightthroughturnipstoasimilargapinthesecondcircle,andthencecontinued,throughmoreturnips,tothecentraltree。

  \"Pang!\"saidthebell,astheypausedattheentrance。

  \"Youneedn’tunharness,\"shoutedMrs。Failing,forStephenwasapproachingthecarriage。

  \"Yes,Iwill,\"heretorted。

  \"Youwill,willyou?\"shemurmuredwithasmile。\"Iwishyourbrotherwasn’tquitesouppish。Let’sgeton。Doesn’tthatchurchdistractyou?\"

  \"It’ssofainthere,\"saidRickie。Anditsoundedfainterinside,thoughtheearthworkwasneitherthicknortall;andtheview,thoughnothidden,wasgreatlydiminished。HewasremindedforaminuteofthatchalkpitnearMadingley,whoserampartsexcludedthefamiliarworld。Agneswashere,asshehadoncebeenthere。

  Shestoodonthefartherbarrier,waitingtoreceivethemwhentheyhadtraversedtheheartofthecamp。

  \"Admiremymangel—wurzels,\"saidMrs。Failing。\"Theyaresaidtogrowsosplendidlyonaccountofthedeadsoldiers。Isn’titasweetthought?NeedIsayitisyourbrother’s?\"

  \"Wonham’s?\"hesuggested。Itwasthesecondtimethatshehadmadethelittleslip。Shenodded,andheaskedherwhatkindofghostieshauntedthiscuriousfield。

  \"TheD。,\"washerpromptreply。\"Heleansagainstthetreeinthemiddle,especiallyonSundayafternoonsandalltheworshippersrisethroughtheturnipsanddanceroundhim。\"

  \"Oh,theseweredecentpeople,\"hereplied,lookingdownwards——

  \"soldiersandshepherds。Theyhavenoghosts。TheyworshippedMarsorPan—Erdaperhaps;notthedevil。\"

  \"Pang!\"wentthechurch,andwassilent,fortheafternoonservicehadbegun。Theyenteredthesecondentrenchment,whichwasinheight,breadth,andcomposition,similartothefirst,andexcludedstillmoreoftheview。Hisauntcontinuedfriendly。

  Agnesstoodwatchingthem。

  \"Soldiersmayseemdecentinthepast,\"shecontinued,\"butwaittilltheyturnintoTommiesfromBulfordCamp,whorobthechickens。\"

  \"Idon’tmindBulfordCamp,\"saidRickie,looking,thoughinvain,forsignsofitssnowytents。\"Thementherearethesonsofthemenhere,andhavecomebacktotheoldcountry。War’shorrible,yetonelovesallcontinuity。Andnoonecouldmindashepherd。\"

  \"Indeed!Whataboutyourbrother——ashepherdifevertherewas?

  Lookhowheboresyou!Don’tbesosentimental。\"

  \"But——oh,youmean——\"

  \"YourbrotherStephen。\"

  Heglancedathernervously。Hehadneverknownhersoqueerbefore。Perhapsitwassomeliteraryallusionthathehadnotcaught;butherfacedidnotatthatmomentsuggestliterature。

  Inthedifferentialtonesthatoneusestoanoldandinfirmpersonhesaid\"StephenWonhamisn’tmybrother,AuntEmily。\"

  \"Mydear,you’rethatprecise。Onecan’tsay’half—brother’everytime。\"

  Theyapproachedthecentraltree。

  \"Howyoudopuzzleme,\"hesaid,droppingherarmandbeginningtolaugh。\"HowcouldIhaveahalf—brother?\"

  Shemadenoanswer。

  Thenahorrorleaptstraightathim,andhebeatitbackandsaid,\"Iwillnotbefrightened。\"Thetreeinthecentrerevolved,thetreedisappeared,andhesawaroom——theroomwherehisfatherhadlivedintown。\"Gently,\"hetoldhimself,\"gently。\"Stilllaughing,hesaid,\"I,withabrother—youngerit’snotpossible。\"Thehorrorleaptagain,andheexclaimed,\"It’safoullie!\"

  \"Mydear,mydear!\"

  \"It’safoullie!Hewasn’t——Iwon’tstand——\"

  \"Mydear,beforeyousayseveralnoblethings,rememberthatit’sworseforhimthanforyou——worseforyourbrother,foryourhalf—brother,foryouryoungerbrother。\"

  Butheheardhernolonger。Hewasgazingatthepast,whichhehadpraisedsorecently,whichgapedeverwider,likeanunhallowedgrave。Turnwherehewould,itencircledhim。Ittookvisibleform:itwasthisdoubleentrenchmentoftheRings。Hismouthwentcold,andheknewthathewasgoingtofaintamongthedead。Hestartedrunning,missedtheexit,stumbledontheinnerbarrier,fellintodarkness——

  \"Gethisheaddown,\"saidavoice。\"Getthebloodbackintohim。

  That’sallhewants。Leavehimtome。Elliot!\"——thebloodwasreturning——\"Elliot,wakeup!\"

  Hewokeup。Theearthhehaddreadedlayclosetohiseyes,andseemedbeautiful。Hesawthestructureoftheclods。Atinybeetleswungonthegrassblade。Onhisownneckahumanhandpressed,guidingthebloodbacktohisbrain。

  Therebrokefromhimacry,notofhorrorbutofacceptance。Foroneshortmomentheunderstood。\"Stephen——\"hebegan,andthenheheardhisownnamecalled:\"Rickie!Rickie!\"Agneshurriedfromherpostonthemargin,and,asifunderstandingalso,caughthimtoherbreast。

  Stephenofferedtohelpthemfurther,butfindingthathemadethingsworse,hesteppedasidetoletthempassandthensaunteredinwards。Thewholefield,withconcentriccircles,wasvisible,andthebroadleavesoftheturnipsrustledinthegatheringwind。MissPembrokeandElliotweremovingtowardstheCadoverentrance。Mrs。Failingstoodwatchinginherturnontheoppositebank。Hewasnotaninquisitiveboy;butasheleantagainstthetreehewonderedwhatitwasallabout,andwhetherhewouldeverknow。

  XIV

  Onthewayback——atthatverylevel—crossingwherehehadpausedonhisupwardroute——Rickiestoppedsuddenlyandtoldthegirlwhyhehadfainted。Hithertoshehadaskedhiminvain。Histonehadgonefromhim,andhetoldherharshlyandbrutally,sothatshestartedawaywithahorrifiedcry。Thenhismanneraltered,andheexclaimed:\"Willyoumind?Areyougoingtomind?\"

  \"OfcourseImind,\"shewhispered。Sheturnedfromhim,andsawuponthesky—linetwofiguresthatseemedtobeofenormoussize。

  \"They’rewatchingus。Theystandontheedgewatchingus。Thiscountry’ssoopen——you——youcan’ttheywatchuswhereverwego。

  Ofcourseyoumind。\"

  Theyheardtherumbleofthetrain,andshepulledherselftogether。\"Come,dearest,weshallberunovernext。We’resayingthingsthathavenosense。\"Butonthewaybackherepeated:

  \"Theycanstillseeus。Theycanseeeveryinchofthisroad。

  Theywatchusforever。\"Andwhentheyarrivedatthestepsthere,sureenough,werestillthetwofiguresgazingfromtheoutercircleoftheRings。

  Shemadehimgotohisroomatonce:hewasalmosthysterical。

  Leightonbroughtoutsometeaforher,andshesatdrinkingitonthelittleterrace。Ofcoursesheminded。

  Againshewasmenacedbytheabnormal。Allhadseemedsofairandsosimple,soinaccordancewithherideas;andthen,likeacorpse,thishorrorroseuptothesurface。Shesawthetwofiguresdescendandpausewhileoneofthemharnessedthepony;

  shesawthemdrivedownward,andknewthatbeforelongshemustfacethemandtheworld。Sheglancedatherengagementring。

  WhenthecarriagedroveupMrs。Failingdismounted,butdidnotspeak。ItwasStephenwhoinquiredafterRickie。She,scarcelyknowingthesoundofherownvoice,repliedthathewasalittletired。

  \"Goandputupthepony,\"saidMrs。Failingrathersharply。

  \"Agnes,givemesometea。\"

  \"Itisratherstrong,\"saidAgnesasthecarriagedroveoffandleftthemalone。ThenshenoticedthatMrs。Failingherselfwasagitated。Herlipsweretrembling,andshesawtheboydepartwithmanifestrelief。

  \"Doyouknow,\"shesaidhurriedly,asiftalkingagainsttime——

  \"DoyouknowwhatupsetRickie?\"

  \"Idoindeedknow。\"

  \"Hashetoldanyoneelse?\"

  \"Ibelievenot。\"

  \"Agnes——haveIbeenafool?\"

  \"Youhavebeenveryunkind,\"saidthegirl,andhereyesfilledwithtears。

  ForamomentMrs。Failingwasannoyed。\"Unkind?Idonotseethatatall。Ibelieveinlookingfactsintheface。Rickiemustknowhisghostssometime。Whynotthisafternoon?\"

  Sherosewithquietdignity,buthertearscamefaster。\"Thatisnotso。Youtoldhimtohurthim。Icannotthinkwhatyoudiditfor。Isupposebecausehewasrudetoyouafterchurch。Itisamean,cowardlyrevenge。

  \"What——whatifit’salie?\"

  \"Then,Mrs。Failing,itissickeningofyou。Thereisnootherword。Sickening。Iamsorry——anobodylikemyself——tospeaklikethis。HowCOULDyou,oh,howcouldyoudemeanyourself?Why,notevenapoorperson——Herindignationwasfineandgenuine。Buthertearsfellnolonger。Nothingmenacedheriftheywerenotreallybrothers。

  \"Itisnotalie,myclear;sitdown。Iwillswearsomuchsolemnly。Itisnotalie,but——\"

  Agneswaited。

  \"——wecancallitalieifwechoose。\"

  \"Iamnotsochildish。Youhavesaidit,andwemustallsuffer。

  Youhavehadyourfun:Iconcludeyoudiditforfun。Youcannotgoback。He——\"Shepointedtowardsthestables,andcouldnotfinishhersentence。

  \"Ihavenotbeenafooltwice。\"

  Agnesdidnotunderstand。

  \"Mydenselady,can’tyoufollow?IhavenottoldStephenonesingleword,neitherbeforenornow。\"

  Therewasalongsilence。

  Indeed,Mrs。Failingwasinanawkwardposition。

  Rickiehadirritatedher,and,inherdesiretoshockhim,shehadimperilledherownpeace。Shehadfeltsounconventionaluponthehillside,whensheloosedthehorroragainsthim;butnowitwasdartingatheraswell。Supposethescandalcameout。

  Stephen,whowasabsolutelywithoutdelicacy,wouldtellittothepeopleassoonastellthemthetime。Hispaganismwouldbetooassertive;itmightevenbeinbadtaste。Afterall,shehadaprominentpositionintheneighbourhood;shewastalkedabout,respected,lookedupto。Afterall,shewasgrowingold。Andtherefore,thoughshehadnotrueregardforRickie,norforAgnes,norforStephen,norforStephen’sparents,inwhosetragedyshehadassisted,yetshedidfeelthatifthescandalreviveditwoulddisturbtheharmonyofCadover,andthereforetriedtoretracehersteps。Itiseasytosayshockingthings:itissodifferenttobeconnectedwithanythingshocking。Lifeanddeathwerenotinvolved,butcomfortanddiscomfortwere。

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