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  theyhavemanydefects。Somearefrivolous,heedless,foppish,ambitious,dissipated;and,believeme,nomatterhowimposinginnocencemaybe,howchivalrousapoetis,youwillmeetwithmanyadegeneratetroubadourinParisreadytocultivateyouraffectiononlytobetrayit。Bysuchamanyourletterwouldbeinterpretedotherwisethanitisbyme。Hewouldseeathoughtthatisnotinit,whichyou,inyourinnocence,havenotsuspected。Thereareasmanynaturesastherearewriters。Iamdeeplyflatteredthatyouhavejudgedmecapableofunderstandingyou;buthadyou,perchance,fallenuponahypocrite,ascoffer,onewhosebooksmaybemelancholybutwhoselifeisaperpetualcarnival,youwouldhavefoundastheresultofyourgenerousimprudenceanevil—mindedman,thefrequenterofgreen—rooms,perhapsaheroofsomegayresort。Inthebowerofclematiswhereyoudreamofpoets,canyousmelltheodorofthecigarwhichdrivesallpoetryfromthemanuscript?

  Butletuslookstillfurther。Howcouldthedreamy,solitarylifeyoulead,doubtlessbythesea—shore,interestapoet,whosemissionitistoimagineall,andtopaintall?Whatrealitycanequalimagination?TheyounggirlsofthepoetsaresoidealthatnolivingdaughterofEvecancompetewiththem。Andnowtellme,whatwillyougain,——you,ayounggirl,broughtuptobethevirtuousmotherofafamily,——ifyoulearntocomprehendtheterribleagitationsofapoet’slifeinthisdreadfulcapital,whichmaybedefinedbyonesentence,——thehellinwhichmenlove。

  Ifthedesiretobrightenthemonotonousexistenceofayounggirlthirstingforknowledgehasledyoutotakeyourpeninhandandwritetome,hasnotthestepitselftheappearanceofdegradation?WhatmeaningamItogivetoyourletter?Areyouoneofarejectedcaste,anddoyouseekafriendfarawayfromyou?

  Or,areyouafflictedwithpersonalugliness,yetfeelingwithinyouanoblesoulwhichcangiveandreceiveaconfidence?Alas,alas,theconclusiontobedrawnisgrievous。Youhavesaidtoomuch,ortoolittle;youhavegonetoofar,ornotfarenough。

  Eitherletusdropthiscorrespondence,or,ifyoucontinueit,tellmemorethanintheletteryouhavenowwrittenme。

  But,mademoiselle,ifyouareyoung,ifyouarebeautiful,ifyouhaveahome,afamily,ifinyourheartyouhavethepreciousointment,thespikenard,topourout,asdidMagdaleneonthefeetofJesus,letyourselfbewonbyamanworthyofyou;becomewhateverypureyounggirlshouldbe,——agoodwoman,thevirtuousmotherofafamily。Apoetisthesaddestconquestthatagirlcanmake;heisfullofvanity,fullofanglesthatwillsharplywoundawoman’sproperpride,andkillatendernesswhichhasnoexperienceoflife。Thewifeofapoetshouldlovehimlongbeforeshemarrieshim;shemusttrainherselftothecharityofangels,totheirforbearance,toallthevirtuesofmotherhood。Suchqualities,mademoiselle,arebutgermsinayounggirl。

  Hearthewholetruth,——doInotoweittoyouinreturnforyourintoxicatingflattery?Ifitisagloriousthingtomarryagreatrenown,rememberalsothatyoumustsoondiscoverasuperiormantobe,inallthatmakesaman,likeothermen。Hethereforepoorlyrealizesthehopesthatattachtohimasaphoenix。Hebecomeslikeawomanwhosebeautyisover—praised,andofwhomwesay:\"Ithoughtherfarmorelovely。\"ShehasnotwarrantedtheportraitpaintedbythefairytowhomIoweyourletter,——thefairywhosenameisImagination。

  Believeme,thequalitiesofthemindliveandthriveonlyinasphereinvisible,notindailylife;thewifeofapoetbearstheburden;sheseesthejewelsmanufactured,butsheneverwearsthem。Ifthegloryofthepositionfascinatesyou,hearmenowwhenItellyouthatitspleasuresaresoonatanend。Youwillsufferwhenyoufindsomanyasperitiesinanaturewhich,fromadistance,youthoughtequable,andsuchcoldnessattheshiningsummit。Moreover,aswomenneversettheirfeetwithintheworldofrealdifficulties,theyceasetoappreciatewhattheyonceadmiredassoonastheythinktheyseetheinnermechanismofit。

  Iclosewithalastthought,inwhichthereisnodisguisedentreaty;itisthecounselofafriend。Theexchangeofsoulscantakeplaceonlybetweenpersonswhoareresolvedtohidenothingfromeachother。Wouldyoushowyourselfforsuchasyouaretoanunknownman?Idarenotfollowouttheconsequencesofthatidea。

  Deigntoaccept,mademoiselle,thehomagewhichweowetoallwomen,eventhosewhoaredisguisedandmasked。

  Sothiswasthelettershehadwornbetweenherfleshandhercorsetaboveherpalpitatingheartthroughoutonewholeday!Forthisshehadpostponedthereadinguntilthemidnighthourwhenthehouseholdslept,waitingforthesolemnsilencewiththeeageranxietyofanimaginationonfire!Forthisshehadblessedthepoetbyanticipation,readingathousandletterseresheopenedone,——fancyingallthings,exceptthisdropofcoldwaterfallinguponthevaporousformsofherillusion,anddissolvingthemasprussicaciddissolveslife。Whatcouldshedobuthideherselfinherbed,blowouthercandle,buryherfaceinthesheetsandweep?

  AllthishappenedduringthefirstdaysofJuly。ButModestepresentlygotup,walkedacrosstheroomandopenedthewindow。Shewantedair。

  Thefragranceoftheflowerscametoherwiththepeculiarfreshnessoftheodorsofthenight。Thesea,lightedbythemoon,sparkledlikeamirror。Anightingalewassinginginatree。\"Ah,thereisthepoet!\"thoughtModeste,whoseangersubsidedatonce。Bitterreflectionschasedeachotherthroughhermind。Shewascuttothequick;shewishedtore—readtheletter,andlitacandle;shestudiedthesentencessocarefullystudiedwhenwritten;andendedbyhearingthewheezingvoiceoftheouterworld。

  \"Heisright,andIamwrong,\"shesaidtoherself。\"ButwhocouldeverbelievethatunderthestarrymantleofapoetIshouldfindnothingbutoneofMoliere’soldmen?\"

  Whenawomanoryounggirlistakenintheact,\"flagrantedelicto,\"

  sheconceivesadeadlyhatredtothewitness,theauthor,ortheobjectofherfault。Andsothetrue,thesingle—minded,theuntamedanduntamableModesteconceivedwithinhersoulanunquenchabledesiretogetthebetterofthatrighteousspirit,todrivehimintosomefatalinconsistency,andsoreturnhimblowforblow。Thisgirl,thischild,aswemaycallher,sopure,whoseheadalonehadbeenmisguided,——partlybyherreading,partlybyhersister’ssorrows,andmoreperhapsbythedangerousmeditationsofhersolitarylife,——wassuddenlycaughtbyarayofsunshineflickeringacrossherface。ShehadbeenstandingforthreehoursontheshoresofthevastseaofDoubt。Nightsliketheseareneverforgotten。ModestewalkedstraighttoherlittleChinesetable,agiftfromherfather,andwrotealetterdictatedbytheinfernalspiritofvengeancewhichpalpitatesintheheartsofyounggirls。

  CHAPTERVIII

  BLADETOBLADE

  ToMonsieurdeCanalis:

  Monsieur,——Youarecertainlyagreatpoet,andyouaresomethingmore,——anhonestman。Aftershowingsuchloyalfranknesstoayounggirlwhowassteppingtothevergeofanabyss,haveyouenoughlefttoanswerwithouthypocrisyorevasionthefollowingquestion?

  WouldyouhavewrittentheletterInowholdinanswertomine,——

  wouldyourideas,yourlanguagehavebeenthesame,——hadsomeonewhisperedinyourear(whatmayprovetrue),MademoiselleO。

  d’EsteM。hassixmillionsanddoesintendtohaveadunceforamaster?

  Admitthesuppositionforamoment。Bewithmewhatyouarewithyourself;fearnothing。Iamwiserthanmytwentyyears;nothingthatisfrankcanhurtyouinmymind。WhenIhavereadyourconfidence,ifyoudeigntomakeit,youshallreceivefrommeananswertoyourfirstletter。

  Havingadmiredyourtalent,oftensosublime,permitmetodohomagetoyourdelicacyandyourintegrity,whichforcemetoremainalways,Yourhumbleservant,O。d’EsteM。

  WhenErnestdeLaBrierehadheldthisletterinhishandsforsomelittletimehewenttowalkalongtheboulevards,tossedinmindlikeatinyvesselbyatempestwhenthewindisblowingfromallpointsofthecompass。Mostyoungmen,speciallytrueParisians,wouldhavesettledthematterinasinglephrase,\"Thegirlisalittlehussy。\"

  Butforayouthwhosesoulwasnobleandtrue,thisattempttoputhim,asitwere,uponhisoath,thisappealtotruth,hadthepowertoawakenthethreejudgeshiddenintheconscienceofeveryman。Honor,Truth,andJustice,gettingontheirfeet,criedoutintheirseveralwaysenergetically。

  \"Ah,mydearErnest,\"saidTruth,\"youneverwouldhavereadthatlessontoarichheiress。No,myboy;youwouldhavegoneinhothastetoHavretofindoutifthegirlwerehandsome,andyouwouldhavebeenveryunhappyindeedatherpreferenceforgenius;andifyoucouldhavetrippedupyourfriendandsupplantedhiminheraffections,Mademoiselled’Estewouldhavebeenadivinity。\"

  \"What?\"criedJustice,\"areyounotalwaysbemoaningyourselves,youpennilessmenofwitandcapacity,thatrichgirlsmarrybeingswhomyouwouldn’ttakeasyourservants?Yourailagainstthematerialismofthecenturywhichhastenstojoinwealthtowealth,andnevermarriessomefineyoungmanwithbrainsandnomoneytoarichgirl。

  Whatanoutcryyoumakeaboutit;andyethereisayoungwomanwhorevoltsagainstthatveryspiritoftheage,andbehold!thepoetreplieswithablowatherheart!\"

  \"Richorpoor,youngorold,uglyorhandsome,thegirlisright;shehassenseandjudgment,shehastrippedyouoverintothesloughofself—interestandletsyouknowit,\"criedHonor。\"Shedeservesananswer,asincereandloyalandfrankanswer,and,aboveall,thehonestexpressionofyourthought。Examineyourself!soundyourheartandpurgeitofitsmeannesses。WhatwouldMoliere’sAlcestesay?\"

  AndLaBriere,havingstartedfromtheboulevardPoissoniere,walkedsoslowly,absorbedinthesereflections,thathewasmorethananhourinreachingtheboulevarddesCapucines。Thenhefollowedthequays,whichledhimtotheCourdesComptes,situatedinthattimeclosetotheSaint—Chapelle。Insteadofbeginningontheaccountsasheshouldhavedone,heremainedatthemercyofhisperplexities。

  \"Onethingisevident,\"hesaidtohimself;\"shehasn’tsixmillions;

  butthat’snotthepoint——\"

  Sixdayslater,Modestereceivedthefollowingletter:

  Mademoiselle,——YouarenotaD’Este。Thenameisafeignedonetoconcealyourown。DoIowetherevelationswhichyousolicittoapersonwhoisuntruthfulaboutherself?Questionforquestion:Areyouofanillustriousfamily?oranoblefamily?oramiddle—classfamily?Undoubtedlyethicsandmoralitycannotchange;theyareone:butobligationsvaryinthedifferentstatesoflife。Justasthesunlightsupascenediverselyandproducesdifferenceswhichweadmire,somoralityconformssocialdutytorank,toposition。

  Thepeccadilloofasoldierisacrimeinageneral,andvice—

  versa。Observancesarenotalikeinallcases。Theyarenotthesameforthegleanerinthefield,forthegirlwhosewsatfifteensousaday,forthedaughterofapettyshopkeeper,fortheyoungbourgoise,forthechildofarichmerchant,fortheheiressofanoblefamily,foradaughterofthehouseofEste。A

  kingmustnotstooptopickupapieceofgold,butalaboreroughttoretracehisstepstofindtensous;thoughbothareequallyboundtoobeythelawsofeconomy。AdaughterofEste,whoisworthsixmillions,hastherighttowearabroad—brimmedhatandplume,toflourishherwhip,presstheflanksofherbarb,andridelikeanamazondeckedingoldlace,withalackeybehindher,intothepresenceofapoetandsay:\"Ilovepoetry;andIwouldfainexpiateLeonora’scrueltytoTasso!\"butadaughterofthepeoplewouldcoverherselfwithridiculebyimitatingher。Towhatclassdoyoubelong?Answersincerely,andIwillanswerthequestionyouhaveputtome。

  AsIhavenotthehonorofknowingyoupersonally,andyetamboundtoyou,inameasure,bythetiesofpoeticcommunion,Iamunwillingtoofferanycommonplacecompliments。Perhapsyouhavealreadywonamaliciousvictorybythusembarrassingamakerofbooks。

  Theyoungmanwascertainlynotwantinginthesortofshrewdnesswhichispermissibletoamanofhonor。Byreturncourierhereceivedananswer:——

  ToMonsieurdeCanalis,——Yougrowmoreandmoresensible,mydearpoet。Myfatherisacount。Thechiefgloryofourhousewasacardinal,inthedayswhencardinalswalkedtheearthbythesideofkings。Iamthelastofourfamily,whichendsinme;butI

  havethenecessaryquarteringstomakemyentryintoanycourtorchapter—houseinEurope。WearequitetheequalsoftheCanalis。

  Youwillbesokindastoexcusemefromsendingyouourarms。

  EndeavortoanswermeastruthfullyasIhavenowansweredyou。I

  awaityourresponsetoknowifIcanthensignmyselfasIdonow,Yourservant,O。d’EsteM。

  \"Thelittlemischief!howsheabusesherprivileges,\"criedLaBriere;

  \"butisn’tshefrank!\"

  Noyoungmancanbefouryearsprivatesecretarytoacabinetminister,andliveinParisandobservethecarryingonofmanyintrigues,withperfectimpunity;infact,thepurestsoulismoreorlessintoxicatedbytheheadyatmosphereoftheimperialcity。HappyinthethoughtthathewasnotCanalis,ouryoungsecretaryengagedaplaceinthemail—coachforHavre,afterwritingaletterinwhichheannouncedthatthepromisedanswerwouldbesentafewdayslater,——

  excusingthedelayonthegroundoftheimportanceoftheconfessionandthepressureofhisdutiesattheministry。

  Hetookcaretogetfromthedirector—generalofthepost—officeanotetothepostmasteratHavre,requestingsecrecyandattentiontohiswishes。ErnestwasthusenabledtoseeFrancoiseCochetwhenshecamefortheletters,andtofollowherwithoutexcitingobservation。

  Guidedbyher,hereachedIngouvilleandsawModesteMignonatthewindowoftheChalet。

  \"Well,Francoise?\"heheardtheyounggirlsay,towhichthemaidresponded,——

  \"Yes,mademoiselle,Ihaveone。\"

  Struckbythegirl’sgreatbeauty,Ernestretracedhisstepsandaskedamanonthestreetthenameoftheownerofthatmagnificentestate。

  \"That?\"saidtheman,noddingtothevilla。

  \"Yes,myfriend。\"

  \"Oh,thatbelongstoMonsieurVilquin,therichestshippingmerchantinHavre,sorichhedoesn’tknowwhatheisworth。\"

  \"ThereisnoCardinalVilquinthatIknowofinhistory,\"thoughtErnest,ashewalkedbacktoHavreforthenightmailtoParis。

  NaturallyhequestionedthepostmasterabouttheVilquinfamily,andlearnedthatitpossessedanenormousfortune。MonsieurVilquinhadasonandtwodaughters,oneofwhomwasmarriedtoMonsieurAlthor,junior。PrudencekeptLaBrierefromseeminganxiousabouttheVilquins;thepostmasterwasalreadylookingathimslyly。

  \"Istherethereanyonestayingwiththematthepresentmoment,\"heasked,\"besidesthefamily?\"

  \"Thed’Herouvillefamilyistherejustnow。TheydotalkofamarriagebetweentheyoungdukeandtheremainingMademoiselleVilquin。\"

  \"Ha!\"thoughtErnest;\"therewasacelebratedCardinald’HerouvilleundertheValois,andaterriblemarshalwhomtheymadeadukeinthetimeofHenriIV。\"

  ErnestreturnedtoParishavingseenenoughofModestetodreamofher,andtothinkthat,whethershewererichorwhethershewerepoor,ifshehadanoblesoulhewouldliketomakeherMadamedeLaBriere;andsothinking,heresolvedtocontinuethecorrespondence。

  Ah!youpoorwomenofFrance,trytoremainhiddenifyoucan;trytoweavetheleastlittleromanceaboutyourlivesinthemidstofacivilizationwhichpostsinthepublicstreetsthehourswhenthecoachesarriveanddepart;whichcountsalllettersandstampsthemtwiceover,firstwiththehourwhentheyarethrownintotheboxes,andnextwiththatoftheirdelivery;whichnumbersthehouses,printsthetaxofeverytenantonametalregisteratthedoors(afterverifyingitsparticulars),andwillsoonpossessonevastregisterofeveryinchofitsterritorydowntothesmallestparcelofland,andthemostinsignificantfeaturesofit,——agiantworkordainedbyagiant。Try,imprudentyoungladies,toescapenotonlytheeyeofthepolice,buttheincessantchatterwhichtakesplaceinacountrytownabouttheveriesttrifles,——howmanydishestheprefecthasathisdessert,howmanyslicesofmelonareleftatthedoorofsomesmallhouseholder,——whichstrainsitseartocatchthechinkofthegoldathriftymanlaysby,andspendsitseveningsincalculatingtheincomesofthevillageandthetownandthedepartment。ItwasmerechancethatenabledModestetoescapediscoverythroughErnest’sreconnoitringexpedition,——astepwhichhealreadyregretted;butwhatParisiancanallowhimselftobethedupeofalittlecountrygirl?

  Incapableofbeingduped!thathorridmaximisthedissolventofallnoblesentimentsinman。

  Wecanreadilyguessthestruggleoffeelingtowhichthishonestyoungfellowfellapreywhenwereadtheletterthathenowindited,inwhicheverystrokeoftheflailwhichscourgedhisconsciencewillbefoundtohaveleftitstrace。

  ThisiswhatModestereadafewdayslater,asshesatbyherwindowonafinesummer’sday:——

  Mademoiselle,——Withouthypocrisyorevasion,YES,ifIhadbeencertainthatyoupossessedanimmensefortuneIshouldhaveacteddifferently。Why?Ihavesearchedforthereason;hereitis。Wehavewithinusaninbornfeeling,inordinatelydevelopedbysociallife,whichdrivesustothepursuitandtothepossessionofhappiness。Mostmenconfoundhappinesswiththemeansthatleadtoit;moneyintheireyesisthechiefelementofhappiness。I

  should,therefore,haveendeavoredtowinyou,promptedbythatsocialsentimentwhichhasinallagesmadewealthareligion。Atleast,IthinkIshould。Itisnottobeexpectedofamanstillyoungthathecanhavethewisdomtosubstitutesoundsenseforthepleasureofthesenses;withinsightofapreythebrutalinstinctshiddenintheheartofmandrivehimon。Insteadofthatlesson,Ishouldhavesentyoucomplimentsandflatteries。ShouldIhavekeptmyownesteeminsodoing?Idoubtit。Mademoiselle,insuchacasesuccessbringsabsolution;buthappiness?Thatisanotherthing。ShouldIhavedistrustedmywifehadIwonherinthatway?MostassuredlyIshould。Youradvanceonmewouldsoonerorlaterhavecomebetweenus。Yourhusband,howevergrandyourfancymaymakehim,wouldhaveendedbyreproachingyouforhavingabasedhim。You,yourself,mighthavecome,soonerorlater,todespisehim。Thestrongmanforgives,butthepoetwhines。Such,mademoiselle,istheanswerwhichmyhonestycompelsmetomaketoyou。

  Andnow,listentome。Youhavethetriumphofforcingmetoreflectdeeply,——firstonyou,whomIdonotsufficientlyknow;

  next,onmyself,ofwhomIknewtoolittle。Youhavehadthepowertostirupmanyoftheevilthoughtswhichcrouchedinmyheart,asinallhearts;butfromthemsomethinggoodandgeneroushascomeforth,andIsaluteyouwithmymostferventbenedictions,justasatseawesalutethelighthousewhichshowstherocksonwhichwewereabouttoperish。Hereismyconfession,forIwouldnotloseyouresteemnormyownforallthetreasuresofearth。

  Iwishedtoknowwhoyouare。IhavejustreturnedfromHavre,whereIsawFrancoiseCochet,andfollowedhertoIngouville。Youareasbeautifulasthewomanofapoet’sdream;butIdonotknowifyouareMademoiselleVilquinconcealedunderMademoiselled’Herouville,orMademoiselled’HerouvillehiddenunderMademoiselleVilquin。Thoughallisfairinwar,Iblushedatsuchspyingandstoppedshortinmyinquiries。Youhaverousedmycuriosity;forgivemeforbeingsomewhatofawoman;itis,I

  believe,theprivilegeofapoet。

  NowthatIhavelaidbaremyheartandallowedyoutoreadit,youwillbelieveinthesincerityofwhatIamabouttoadd。ThoughtheglimpseIhadofyouwasalltoorapid,ithassufficedtomodifymyopinionofyourconduct。Youareapoetandapoem,evenmorethanyouareawoman。Yes,thereisinyousomethingmorepreciousthanbeauty;youarethebeautifulIdealofart,offancy。Thestepyoutook,blamableasitwouldbeinanordinaryyounggirl,allottedtoanevery—daydestiny,hasanotheraspectifendowedwiththenaturewhichInowattributetoyou。Amongthecrowdofbeingsflungbyfateintothesociallifeofthisplanettomakeupagenerationthereareexceptionalsouls。Ifyourletteristheoutcomeoflongpoeticreveriesonthefatewhichconventionsbringtowomen,if,constrainedbytheimpulseofaloftyandintelligentmind,youhavewishedtounderstandthelifeofamantowhomyouattributethegiftofgenius,totheendthatyoumaycreateafriendshipwithdrawnfromtheordinaryrelationsoflife,withasoulincommunionwithyourown,disregardingthustheordinarytrammelsofyoursex,——then,assuredly,youareanexception。Thelawwhichrightlylimitstheactionsofthecrowdistoolimitedforyou。Butinthatcase,theremarkinmyfirstletterreturnsingreaterforce,——youhavedonetoomuchornotenough。

  Acceptoncemoremythanksfortheserviceyouhaverenderedme,thatofcompellingmetosoundmyheart。Youhavecorrectedinmethefalseidea,onlytoocommoninFrance,thatmarriageshouldbeameansoffortune。WhileIstruggledwithmyconscienceasacredvoicespoketome。Isworesolemnlytomakemyfortunemyself,andnotbeledbymotivesofcupidityinchoosingthecompanionofmylife。Ihavealsoreproachedmyselffortheblamablecuriosityyouhaveexcitedinme。Youhavenotsixmillions。ThereisnoconcealmentpossibleinHavreforayoungladywhopossessessuchafortune;youwouldbediscoveredatoncebythepackofhoundsofgreatfamilieswhomIseeinParisonthehuntafterheiresses,andwhohavealreadysentone,thegrandequerry,theyoungduke,amongtheVilquins。Therefore,believeme,thesentimentsIhavenowexpressedarefixedinmymindasaruleoflife,fromwhichI

  haveabstractedallinfluencesofromanceorofactualfact。Provetome,therefore,thatyouhaveoneofthosesoulswhichmaybeforgivenforitsdisobediencetothecommonlaw,byperceivingandcomprehendingthespiritofthisletterasyoudidthatofmyfirstletter。Ifyouaredestinedtoamiddle—classlife,obeytheironlawwhichholdssocietytogether。Liftedinmindaboveotherwomen,Iadmireyou;butifyouseektoobeyanimpulsewhichyououghttorepress,Ipityyou。Theall—wisemoralofthatgreatdomesticepic\"ClarissaHarlowe\"isthatlegitimateandhonorableloveledthepoorvictimtoherruinbecauseitwasconceived,developed,andpursuedbeyondtheboundariesoffamilyrestraint。

  Thefamily,howevercruelandevenfoolishitmaybe,isintherightagainsttheLovelaces。ThefamilyisSociety。Believeme,thegloryofayounggirl,ofawoman,mustalwaysbethatofrepressinghermostardentimpulseswithinthenarrowsphereofconventions。IfIhadadaughterabletobecomeaMadamedeStaelIshouldwishherdeadatfifteen。Canyouimagineadaughterofyoursflauntingonthestageoffame,exhibitingherselftowintheplauditsofacrowd,andnotsufferanguishatthethought?Nomattertowhatheightsawomancanrisebytheinwardpoetryofhersoul,shemustsacrificetheoutersignsofsuperiorityonthealtarofherhome。Herimpulse,hergenius,heraspirationstowardGood,thewholepoemofayounggirl’sbeing,shouldbelongtothemansheacceptsandthechildrenwhomshebringsintotheworld。I

  thinkIperceiveinyouasecretdesiretowidenthenarrowcircleofthelifetowhichallwomenarecondemned,andtoputloveandpassionintomarriage。Ah!itisalovelydream!itisnotimpossible;itisdifficult,butifrealized,mayitnotbetothedespairofsouls——forgivemethehackneyedword——\"incompris\"?

  Ifyouseekaplatonicfriendshipitwillbetoyoursorrowinafteryears。Ifyourletterwasajest,discontinueit。Perhapsthislittleromanceistoendhere——isit?Ithasnotbeenwithoutfruit。Mysenseofdutyisaroused,andyou,onyourside,willhavelearnedsomethingofSociety。Turnyourthoughtstoreallife;throwtheenthusiasmsyouhaveculledfromliteratureintothevirtuesofyoursex。

  Adieu,mademoiselle。Domethehonortograntmeyouresteem。

  Havingseenyou,oronewhomIbelievetobeyou,Ihaveknownthatyourletterwassimplynatural;aflowersolovelyturnstothesun——ofpoetry。Yes,lovepoetryasyouloveflowers,music,thegrandeurofthesea,thebeautiesofnature;lovethemasanadornmentofthesoul,butrememberwhatIhavehadthehonoroftellingyouastothenatureofpoets。Becautiousnottomarry,asyousay,adunce,butseekthepartnerwhomGodhasmadeforyou。Therearesouls,believeme,whoarefittoappreciateyou,andtomakeyouhappy。IfIwererich,ifyouwerepoor,Iwouldlaymyheartandmyfortunesatyourfeet;forIbelieveyoursoultobefullofrichesandofloyalty;toyouIcouldconfidemylifeandmyhonorinabsolutesecurity。

  Oncemore,adieu,adieu,fairestdaughterofEvethefair。

  Thereadingofthisletter,swallowedlikeadropofwaterinthedesert,liftedthemountainwhichweighedheavilyonModeste’sheart:

  thenshesawthemistakeshehadmadeinarrangingherplan,andrepaireditbygivingFrancoisesomeenvelopesdirectedtoherself,inwhichthemaidcouldputtheletterswhichcamefromParisanddropthemagainintothebox。ModesteresolvedtoreceivethepostmanherselfonthestepsoftheChaletatthehourwhenhemadehisdelivery。

  Astothefeelingsthatthisreply,inwhichthenobleheartofpoorLaBrierebeatbeneaththebrilliantphantomofCanalis,excitedinModeste,theywereasmultifariousandconfusedasthewaveswhichrushedtodiealongtheshorewhilewithhereyesfixedonthewideoceanshegaveherselfuptothejoyofhaving(ifwedaresayso)

  harpoonedanangelicsoulintheParisianGulf,ofhavingdivinedthatheartsofpricemightstillbefoundinharmonywithgenius,and,aboveall,forhavingfollowedthemagicvoiceofintuition。

  Avastinterestwasnowabouttoanimateherlife。Thewiresofhercagewerebroken:theboltsandbarsoftheprettyChalet——wherewerethey?Herthoughtstookwings。

  \"Oh,father!\"shecried,lookingouttothehorizon。\"Comebackandmakeusrichandhappy。\"

  TheanswerwhichErnestdeLaBrierereceivedsomefivedayslaterwilltellthereadermorethananyelaboratedisquisitionofours。

  CHAPTERIX

  THEPOWEROFTHEUNSEEN

  ToMonsieurdeCanalis:

  Myfriend,——Suffermetogiveyouthatname,——youhavedelightedme;Iwouldnothaveyouotherthanyouareinthisletter,thefirst——oh,mayitnotbethelast!Whobutapoetcouldhaveexcusedandunderstoodayounggirlsodelicately?

  Iwishtospeakwiththesinceritythatdictatedthefirstlinesofyourletter。Andfirst,letmesaythatmostfortunatelyyoudonotknowme。IcanjoyfullyassureyouthanIamneitherthathideousMademoiselleVilquinnortheverynobleandwitheredMademoiselled’Herouvillewhofloatsbetweentwentyandfortyyearsofage,unabletodecideonasatisfactorydate。TheCardinald’HerouvilleflourishedinthehistoryoftheChurchatleastacenturybeforethecardinalofwhomweboastasouronlyfamilyglory,——forItakenoaccountoflieutenant—generals,andabbeswhowritetrumperylittleverses。

  Moreover,IdonotliveinthemagnificentvillaVilquin;thereisnotinmyveins,thankGod,theten—millionthofadropofthatchillybloodwhichflowsbehindacounter。IcomeononesidefromGermany,ontheotherfromthesouthofFrance;mymindhasaTeutonicloveofreverie,mybloodthevivacityofProvence。Iamnobleonmyfather’sandonmymother’sside。Onmymother’sI

  derivefromeverypageoftheAlmanachdeGotha。Inshort,myprecautionsarewelltaken。Itisnotinanyman’spower,noreveninthepowerofthelaw,tounmaskmyincognito。Ishallremainveiled,unknown。

  Astomypersonandastomy\"belongings,\"astheNormanssay,makeyourselfeasy。Iamatleastashandsomeasthelittlegirl(ignorantlyhappy)onwhomyoureyeschancedtolightduringyourvisittoHavre;andIdonotcallmyselfpoverty—stricken,althoughtensonsofpeersmaynotaccompanymeonmywalks。I

  haveseenthehumiliatingcomedyoftheheiresssoughtforhermillionsplayedonmyaccount。Inshort,makenoattempt,evenonawager,toreachme。Alas!thoughfreeasair,Iamwatchedandguarded,——bymyself,inthefirstplace,andsecondly,bypeopleofnerveandcouragewhowouldnothesitatetoputaknifeinyourheartifyoutriedtopenetratemyretreat。Idonotsaythistoexciteyourcourageorstimulateyourcuriosity;IbelieveIhavenoneedofsuchincentivestointerestyouandattachyoutome。

  Iwillnowreplytothesecondedition,considerablyenlarged,ofyourfirstsermon。

  Willyouhaveaconfession?IsaidtomyselfwhenIsawyousodistrustful,andmistakingmeforCorinne(whoseimprovisationsboremedreadfully),thatinallprobabilitydozesofMuseshadalreadyledyou,rashlycurious,intotheirvalleys,andbeggedyoutotastethefruitsoftheirboarding—schoolParnassus。Oh!

  youareperfectlysafewithme,myfriend;Imaylovepoetry,butIhavenolittleversesinmypocket—book,andmystockingsare,andwillremain,immaculatelywhite。Youshallnotbepesteredwiththe\"FlowersofmyHeart\"inoneormorevolumes。And,finally,shoulditeverhappenthatIsaytoyoutheword\"Come!\"

  youwillnotfind——youknowitnow——anoldmaid,no,norapooranduglyone。

  Ah!myfriend,ifyouonlyknewhowIregretthatyoucametoHavre!Youhaveloweredthecharmofwhatyoucallmyromance。GodaloneknewthetreasureIwasreservingforthemannobleenough,andtrustingenough,andperspicaciousenoughtocome——havingfaithinmyletters,havingpenetratedstepbystepintothedepthsofmyheart——tocometoourfirstmeetingwiththesimplicityofachild:forthatwaswhatIdreamedtobetheinnocenceofamanofgenius。Andnowyouhavespoiledmytreasure!ButIforgiveyou;youliveinParisand,asyousay,thereisalwaysamanwithinapoet。

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