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  AndsointotheroomintheeveningcameyoungEnoch\'sfriends。Therewasnothingparticularlystrikingaboutthemexceptthattheywereartistsofthekindthattalk。Everyoneknowsofthetalkingartists。Throughoutalloftheknownhistoryoftheworldtheyhavegatheredinroomsandtalked。Theytalkofartandarepassionately,almostfeverishly,inearnestaboutit。T1heythinkitmattersmuchmorethanitdoes。

  Andsothesepeoplegatheredandsmokedciga-

  rettesandtalkedandEnochRobinson,theboyfromthefarmnearWinesburg,wasthere。Hestayedinacornerandforthemostpartsaidnothing。Howhisbigbluechildlikeeyesstaredabout!Onthewallswerepictureshehadmade,crudethings,halffin-

  ished。Hisfriendstalkedofthese。Leaningbackintheirchairs,theytalkedandtalkedwiththeirheadsrockingfromsidetoside。Wordsweresaidaboutlineandvaluesandcomposition,lotsofwords,suchasarealwaysbeingsaid。

  Enochwantedtotalktoobuthedidn\'tknowhow。

  Hewastooexcitedtotalkcoherently。Whenhetriedhesputteredandstammeredandhisvoicesoundedstrangeandsqueakytohim。Thatmadehimstoptalking。Heknewwhathewantedtosay,butheknewalsothathecouldneverbyanypossibilitysayit。Whenapicturehehadpaintedwasunderdiscussion,hewantedtoburstoutwithsomethinglikethis:\"Youdon\'tgetthepoint,\"hewantedtoexplain;\"thepictureyouseedoesn\'tconsistofthethingsyouseeandsaywordsabout。Thereissome-

  thingelse,somethingyoudon\'tseeatall,somethingyouaren\'tintendedtosee。Lookatthisoneoverhere,bythedoorhere,wherethelightfromthewindowfallsonit。Thedarkspotbytheroadthatyoumightnotnoticeatallis,yousee,thebeginningofeverything。ThereisaclumpofelderstheresuchasusedtogrowbesidetheroadbeforeourhousebackinWinesburg,Ohio,andinamongtheeldersthereissomethinghidden。Itisawoman,that\'swhatitis。Shehasbeenthrownfromahorseandthehorsehasrunawayoutofsight。Doyounotseehowtheoldmanwhodrivesacartlooksanxiouslyabout?ThatisThadGraybackwhohasafarmuptheroad。HeistakingcorntoWinesburgtobegroundintomealatComstock\'smill。Heknowsthereissomethingintheelders,somethinghiddenaway,andyethedoesn\'tquiteknow。

  \"It\'sawomanyousee,that\'swhatitis!It\'sawomanand,oh,sheislovely!Sheishurtandissufferingbutshemakesnosound。Don\'tyouseehowitis?Sheliesquitestill,whiteandstill,andthebeautycomesoutfromherandspreadsovereverything。Itisintheskybackthereandallaroundeverywhere。Ididn\'ttrytopaintthewoman,ofcourse。Sheistoobeautifultobepainted。Howdulltotalkofcompositionandsuchthings!WhydoyounotlookattheskyandthenrunawayasIusedtodowhenIwasaboybackthereinWinesburg,Ohio?\"

  ThatisthekindofthingyoungEnochRobinsontrembledtosaytotheguestswhocameintohisroomwhenhewasayoungfellowinNewYorkCity,buthealwaysendedbysayingnothing。Thenhebegantodoubthisownmind。Hewasafraidthethingshefeltwerenotgettingexpressedinthepictureshepainted。Inahalfindignantmoodhestoppedinvitingpeopleintohisroomandpresentlygotintothehabitoflockingthedoor。Hebegantothinkthatenoughpeoplehadvisitedhim,thathedidnotneedpeopleanymore。Withquickimagina-

  tionhebegantoinventhisownpeopletowhomhecouldreallytalkandtowhomheexplainedthethingshehadbeenunabletoexplaintolivingpeo-

  ple。Hisroombegantobeinhabitedbythespiritsofmenandwomenamongwhomhewent,inhisturnsayingwords。ItwasasthougheveryoneEnochRobinsonhadeverseenhadleftwithhimsomees-

  senceofhimself,somethinghecouldmouldandchangetosuithisownfancy,somethingthatunder-

  stoodallaboutsuchthingsasthewoundedwomanbehindtheeldersinthepictures。

  Themild,blue-eyedyoungOhioboywasacom-

  pleteegotist,asallchildrenareegotists。Hedidnotwantfriendsforthequitesimplereasonthatnochildwantsfriends。Hewantedmostofallthepeo-

  pleofhisownmind,peoplewithwhomhecouldreallytalk,peoplehecouldharangueandscoldbythehour,servants,yousee,tohisfancy。Amongthesepeoplehewasalwaysself-confidentandbold。

  Theymighttalk,tobesure,andevenhaveopinionsoftheirown,butalwayshetalkedlastandbest。Hewaslikeawriterbusyamongthefiguresofhisbrain,akindoftinyblue-eyedkinghewas,inasix-

  dollarroomfacingWashingtonSquareinthecityofNewYork。

  ThenEnochRobinsongotmarried。Hebegantogetlonelyandtowanttotouchactualflesh-and-

  bonepeoplewithhishands。Dayspassedwhenhisroomseemedempty。Lustvisitedhisbodyandde-

  siregrewinhismind。Atnightstrangefevers,burn-

  ingwithin,kepthimawake。HemarriedagirlwhosatinachairnexttohisownintheartschoolandwenttoliveinanapartmenthouseinBrooklyn。Twochildrenwereborntothewomanhemarried,andEnochgotajobinaplacewhereillustrationsaremadeforadvertisements。

  ThatbegananotherphaseofEnoch\'slife。Hebegantoplayatanewgame。Forawhilehewasveryproudofhimselfintheroleofproducingciti-

  zenoftheworld。Hedismissedtheessenceofthingsandplayedwithrealities。Inthefallhevotedatanelectionandhehadanewspaperthrownonhisporcheachmorning。Whenintheeveninghecamehomefromworkhegotoffastreetcarandwalkedsedatelyalongbehindsomebusinessman,strivingtolookverysubstantialandimportant。Asapayeroftaxeshethoughtheshouldposthimselfonhowthingsarerun。\"I\'mgettingtobeofsomemoment,arealpartofthings,ofthestateandthecityandallthat,\"hetoldhimselfwithanamusingminiatureairofdignity。Once,cominghomefromPhiladel-

  phia,hehadadiscussionwithamanmetonatrain。

  Enochtalkedabouttheadvisabilityofthegovern-

  ment\'sowningandoperatingtherailroadsandthemangavehimacigar。ItwasEnoch\'snotionthatsuchamoveonthepartofthegovernmentwouldbeagoodthing,andhegrewquiteexcitedashetalked。Laterherememberedhisownwordswithpleasure。\"Igavehimsomethingtothinkabout,thatfellow,\"hemutteredtohimselfasheclimbedthestairstohisBrooklynapartment。

  Tobesure,Enoch\'smarriagedidnotturnout。Hehimselfbroughtittoanend。Hebegantofeelchokedandwalledinbythelifeintheapartment,andtofeeltowardhiswifeandeventowardhischildrenashehadfeltconcerningthefriendswhooncecametovisithim。Hebegantotelllittleliesaboutbusinessengagementsthatwouldgivehimfreedomtowalkaloneinthestreetatnightand,thechanceoffering,hesecretlyre-rentedtheroomfac-

  ingWashingtonSquare。ThenMrs。AlRobinsondiedonthefarmnearWinesburg,andhegoteightthousanddollarsfromthebankthatactedastrusteeofherestate。ThattookEnochoutoftheworldofmenaltogether。Hegavethemoneytohiswifeandtoldherhecouldnotliveintheapartmentanymore。Shecriedandwasangryandthreatened,butheonlystaredatherandwenthisownway。Inrealitythewifedidnotcaremuch。ShethoughtEnochslightlyinsaneandwasalittleafraidofhim。

  Whenitwasquitesurethathewouldnevercomeback,shetookthetwochildrenandwenttoavillageinConnecticutwhereshehadlivedasagirl。Intheendshemarriedamanwhoboughtandsoldrealestateandwascontentedenough。

  AndsoEnochRobinsonstayedintheNewYorkroomamongthepeopleofhisfancy,playingwiththem,talkingtothem,happyasachildishappy。

  Theywereanoddlot,Enoch\'speople。Theyweremade,Isuppose,outofrealpeoplehehadseenandwhohadforsomeobscurereasonmadeanappealtohim。Therewasawomanwithaswordinherhand,anoldmanwithalongwhitebeardwhowentaboutfollowedbyadog,ayounggirlwhosestock-

  ingswerealwayscomingdownandhangingoverhershoetops。Theremusthavebeentwodozenoftheshadowpeople,inventedbythechild-mindofEnochRobinson,wholivedintheroomwithhim。

  AndEnochwashappy。Intotheroomhewentandlockedthedoor。Withanabsurdairofimpor-

  tancehetalkedaloud,givinginstructions,makingcommentsonlife。Hewashappyandsatisfiedtogoonmakinghislivingintheadvertisingplaceuntilsomethinghappened。Ofcoursesomethingdidhap-

  pen。ThatiswhyhewentbacktoliveinWinesburgandwhyweknowabouthim。Thethingthathap-

  penedwasawoman。Itwouldbethatway。Hewastoohappy。Somethinghadtocomeintohisworld。

  SomethinghadtodrivehimoutoftheNewYorkroomtoliveouthislifeanobscure,jerkylittlefig-

  ure,bobbingupanddownonthestreetsofanOhiotownateveningwhenthesunwasgoingdownbe-

  hindtheroofofWesleyMoyer\'sliverybarn。

  Aboutthethingthathappened。EnochtoldGeorgeWillardaboutitonenight。Hewantedtotalktosomeone,andhechosetheyoungnewspaperre-

  porterbecausethetwohappenedtobethrownto-

  getheratatimewhentheyoungermanwasinamoodtounderstand。

  Youthfulsadness,youngman\'ssadness,thesad-

  nessofagrowingboyinavillageattheyear\'send,openedthelipsoftheoldman。ThesadnesswasintheheartofGeorgeWillardandwaswithoutmean-

  ing,butitappealedtoEnochRobinson。

  Itrainedontheeveningwhenthetwometandtalked,adrizzlywetOctoberrain。Thefruitionoftheyearhadcomeandthenightshouldhavebeenfinewithamoonintheskyandthecrispsharppromiseoffrostintheair,butitwasn\'tthatway。

  ItrainedandlittlepuddlesofwatershoneunderthestreetlampsonMainStreet。InthewoodsinthedarknessbeyondtheFairGroundwaterdrippedfromtheblacktrees。Beneaththetreeswetleaveswerepastedagainsttreerootsthatprotrudedfromtheground。IngardensbackofhousesinWinesburgdryshriveledpotatovineslaysprawlingontheground。Menwhohadfinishedtheeveningmealandwhohadplannedtogouptowntotalktheeve-

  ningawaywithothermenatthebackofsomestorechangedtheirminds。GeorgeWillardtrampedaboutintherainandwasgladthatitrained。Hefeltthatway。HewaslikeEnochRobinsonontheeveningswhentheoldmancamedownoutofhisroomandwanderedaloneinthestreets。HewaslikethatonlythatGeorgeWillardhadbecomeatallyoungmananddidnotthinkitmanlytoweepandcarryon。

  Foramonthhismotherhadbeenveryillandthathadsomethingtodowithhissadness,butnotmuch。Hethoughtabouthimselfandtotheyoungthatalwaysbringssadness。

  EnochRobinsonandGeorgeWillardmetbeneathawoodenawningthatextendedoutovertheside-

  walkbeforeVoight\'swagonshoponMaumeeStreetjustoffthemainstreetofWinesburg。Theywenttogetherfromtherethroughtherain-washedstreetstotheolderman\'sroomonthethirdflooroftheHeffnerBlock。Theyoungreporterwentwillinglyenough。EnochRobinsonaskedhimtogoafterthetwohadtalkedfortenminutes。Theboywasalittleafraidbuthadneverbeenmorecuriousinhislife。

  Ahundredtimeshehadheardtheoldmanspokenofasalittleoffhisheadandhethoughthimselfratherbraveandmanlytogoatall。Fromtheverybeginning,inthestreetintherain,theoldmantalkedinaqueerway,tryingtotellthestoryoftheroominWashingtonSquareandofhislifeintheroom。\"You\'llunderstandifyoutryhardenough,\"

  hesaidconclusively。\"IhavelookedatyouwhenyouwentpastmeonthestreetandIthinkyoucanunderstand。Itisn\'thard。AllyouhavetodoistobelievewhatIsay,justlistenandbelieve,that\'sallthereistoit。\"

  Itwaspasteleveno\'clockthateveningwhenoldEnoch,talkingtoGeorgeWillardintheroomintheHeffnerBlock,cametothevitalthing,thestoryofthewomanandofwhatdrovehimoutofthecitytoliveouthislifealoneanddefeatedinWinesburg。

  HesatonacotbythewindowwithhisheadinhishandandGeorgeWillardwasinachairbyatable。

  Akerosenelampsatonthetableandtheroom,althoughalmostbareoffurniture,wasscrupulouslyclean。AsthemantalkedGeorgeWillardbegantofeelthathewouldliketogetoutofthechairandsitonthecotalso。Hewantedtoputhisarmsaboutthelittleoldman。Inthehalfdarknessthemantalkedandtheboylistened,filledwithsadness。

  \"Shegottocominginthereaftertherehadn\'tbeenanyoneintheroomforyears,\"saidEnochRobinson。\"Shesawmeinthehallwayofthehouseandwegotacquainted。Idon\'tknowjustwhatshedidinherownroom。Ineverwentthere。Ithinkshewasamusicianandplayedaviolin。EverynowandthenshecameandknockedatthedoorandI

  openedit。Inshecameandsatdownbesideme,justsatandlookedaboutandsaidnothing。Anyway,shesaidnothingthatmattered。\"

  Theoldmanarosefromthecotandmovedabouttheroom。Theovercoatheworewaswetfromtherainanddropsofwaterkeptfallingwithasoftthumponthefloor。WhenheagainsatuponthecotGeorgeWillardgotoutofthechairandsatbesidehim。

  \"Ihadafeelingabouther。Shesatthereintheroomwithmeandshewastoobigfortheroom。I

  feltthatshewasdrivingeverythingelseaway。Wejusttalkedoflittlethings,butIcouldn\'tsitstill。I

  wantedtotouchherwithmyfingersandtokissher。Herhandsweresostrongandherfacewassogoodandshelookedatmeallthetime。\"

  Thetremblingvoiceoftheoldmanbecamesilentandhisbodyshookasfromachill。\"Iwasafraid,\"

  hewhispered。\"Iwasterriblyafraid。Ididn\'twanttolethercomeinwhensheknockedatthedoorbutIcouldn\'tsitstill。\'No,no,\'Isaidtomyself,butIgotupandopenedthedoorjustthesame。Shewassogrownup,yousee。Shewasawoman。I

  thoughtshewouldbebiggerthanIwasthereinthatroom。\"

  EnochRobinsonstaredatGeorgeWillard,hischildlikeblueeyesshininginthelamplight。Againheshivered。\"IwantedherandallthetimeIdidn\'twanther,\"heexplained。\"ThenIbegantotellheraboutmypeople,abouteverythingthatmeantany-

  thingtome。Itriedtokeepquiet,tokeepmyselftomyself,butIcouldn\'t。IfeltjustasIdidaboutopen-

  ingthedoor。SometimesIachedtohavehergoawayandnevercomebackanymore。\"

  Theoldmansprangtohisfeetandhisvoiceshookwithexcitement。\"Onenightsomethinghap-

  pened。IbecamemadtomakeherunderstandmeandtoknowwhatabigthingIwasinthatroom。I

  wantedhertoseehowimportantIwas。Itoldheroverandover。Whenshetriedtogoaway,Iranandlockedthedoor。Ifollowedherabout。Italkedandtalkedandthenallofasuddenthingswenttosmash。AlookcameintohereyesandIknewshedidunderstand。Maybeshehadunderstoodallthetime。Iwasfurious。Icouldn\'tstandit。Iwantedhertounderstandbut,don\'tyousee,Icouldn\'tletherunderstand。Ifeltthatthenshewouldknowevery-

  thing,thatIwouldbesubmerged,drownedout,yousee。That\'showitis。Idon\'tknowwhy。\"

  Theoldmandroppedintoachairbythelampandtheboylistened,filledwithawe。\"Goaway,boy,\"saidtheman。\"Don\'tstayherewithmeanymore。Ithoughtitmightbeagoodthingtotellyoubutitisn\'t。Idon\'twanttotalkanymore。Goaway。\"

  GeorgeWillardshookhisheadandanoteofcom-

  mandcameintohisvoice。\"Don\'tstopnow。Tellmetherestofit,\"hecommandedsharply。\"Whathappened?Tellmetherestofthestory。\"

  EnochRobinsonsprangtohisfeetandrantothewindowthatlookeddownintothedesertedmainstreetofWinesburg。GeorgeWillardfollowed。Bythewindowthetwostood,thetallawkwardboy-

  manandthelittlewrinkledman-boy。Thechildish,eagervoicecarriedforwardthetale。\"Isworeather,\"heexplained。\"Isaidvilewords。Iorderedhertogoawayandnottocomeback。Oh,Isaidterriblethings。AtfirstshepretendednottounderstandbutIkeptatit。Iscreamedandstampedonthefloor。I

  madethehouseringwithmycurses。Ididn\'twantevertoseeheragainandIknew,aftersomeofthethingsIsaid,thatIneverwouldseeheragain。\"

  Theoldman\'svoicebrokeandheshookhishead。

  \"Thingswenttosmash,\"hesaidquietlyandsadly。

  \"Outshewentthroughthedoorandallthelifetherehadbeenintheroomfollowedherout。Shetookallofmypeopleaway。Theyallwentoutthroughthedoorafterher。That\'sthewayitwas。\"

  GeorgeWillardturnedandwentoutofEnochRobinson\'sroom。Inthedarknessbythewindow,ashewentthroughthedoor,hecouldhearthethinoldvoicewhimperingandcomplaining。\"I\'malone,allalonehere,\"saidthevoice。\"ItwaswarmandfriendlyinmyroombutnowI\'mallalone。\"

  ANAWAKENING

  BELLECARPENTERhadadarkskin,greyeyes,andthicklips。Shewastallandstrong。Whenblackthoughtsvisitedhershegrewangryandwishedshewereamanandcouldfightsomeonewithherfists。

  SheworkedinthemillineryshopkeptbyMrs。KateMcHughandduringthedaysattrimminghatsbyawindowattherearofthestore。Shewasthedaugh-

  terofHenryCarpenter,bookkeeperintheFirstNa-

  tionalBankofWinesburg,andlivedwithhiminagloomyoldhousefaroutattheendofBuckeyeStreet。Thehousewassurroundedbypinetreesandtherewasnograssbeneaththetrees。Arustytineaves-troughhadslippedfromitsfasteningsatthebackofthehouseandwhenthewindblewitbeatagainsttheroofofasmallshed,makingadismaldrummingnoisethatsometimespersistedallthroughthenight。

  WhenshewasayounggirlHenryCarpentermadelifealmostunbearableforBelle,butassheemergedfromgirlhoodintowomanhoodhelosthispoweroverher。Thebookkeeper\'slifewasmadeupofinnumerablelittlepettinesses。Whenhewenttothebankinthemorninghesteppedintoaclosetandputonablackalpacacoatthathadbecomeshabbywithage。Atnightwhenhereturnedtohishomehedonnedanotherblackalpacacoat。Everyeveninghepressedtheclothesworninthestreets。

  Hehadinventedanarrangementofboardsforthepurpose。Thetrouserstohisstreetsuitwereplacedbetweentheboardsandtheboardswereclampedtogetherwithheavyscrews。Inthemorninghewipedtheboardswithadampclothandstoodthemuprightbehindthediningroomdoor。Iftheyweremovedduringthedayhewasspeechlesswithangeranddidnotrecoverhisequilibriumforaweek。

  Thebankcashierwasalittlebullyandwasafraidofhisdaughter。She,herealized,knewthestoryofhisbrutaltreatmentofhermotherandhatedhimforit。Onedayshewenthomeatnoonandcarriedahandfulofsoftmud,takenfromtheroad,intothehouse。Withthemudshesmearedthefaceoftheboardsusedforthepressingoftrousersandthenwentbacktoherworkfeelingrelievedandhappy。

  BelleCarpenteroccasionallywalkedoutintheeveningwithGeorgeWillard。Secretlyshelovedan-

  otherman,butherloveaffair,aboutwhichnooneknew,causedhermuchanxiety。ShewasinlovewithEdHandby,bartenderinEdGriffith\'sSaloon,andwentaboutwiththeyoungreporterasakindofrelieftoherfeelings。ShedidnotthinkthatherstationinlifewouldpermithertobeseeninthecompanyofthebartenderandwalkedaboutunderthetreeswithGeorgeWillardandlethimkisshertorelievealongingthatwasveryinsistentinhernature。Shefeltthatshecouldkeeptheyoungermanwithinbounds。AboutEdHandbyshewassomewhatuncertain。

  Handby,thebartender,wasatall,broad-shoulderedmanofthirtywholivedinaroomupstairsaboveGriffith\'ssaloon。Hisfistswerelargeandhiseyesunusuallysmall,buthisvoice,asthoughstrivingtoconcealthepowerbackofhisfists,wassoftandquiet。

  Attwenty-fivethebartenderhadinheritedalargefarmfromanuncleinIndiana。Whensold,thefarmbroughtineightthousanddollars,whichEdspentinsixmonths。GoingtoSandusky,onLakeErie,hebegananorgyofdissipation,thestoryofwhichafterwardfilledhishometownwithawe。Hereandtherehewentthrowingthemoneyabout,drivingcarriagesthroughthestreets,givingwinepartiestocrowdsofmenandwomen,playingcardsforhighstakesandkeepingmistresseswhosewardrobescosthimhundredsofdollars。OnenightataresortcalledCedarPoint,hegotintoafightandranamucklikeawildthing。WithhisfisthebrokealargemirrorinthewashroomofahotelandlaterwentaboutsmashingwindowsandbreakingchairsindancehallsforthejoyofhearingtheglassrattleonthefloorandseeingtheterrorintheeyesofclerkswhohadcomefromSanduskytospendtheeveningattheresortwiththeirsweethearts。

  TheaffairbetweenEdHandbyandBelleCarpen-

  teronthesurfaceamountedtonothing。Hehadsuc-

  ceededinspendingbutoneeveninginhercompany。

  OnthateveninghehiredahorseandbuggyatWes-

  leyMoyer\'sliverybarnandtookherforadrive。

  Theconvictionthatshewasthewomanhisnaturedemandedandthathemustgethersettleduponhimandhetoldherofhisdesires。Thebartenderwasreadytomarryandtobegintryingtoearnmoneyforthesupportofhiswife,butsosimplewashisnaturethathefounditdifficulttoexplainhisintentions。Hisbodyachedwithphysicallongingandwithhisbodyheexpressedhimself。Takingthemillinerintohisarmsandholdinghertightlyinspiteofherstruggles,hekissedheruntilshebecamehelpless。Thenhebroughtherbacktotownandletheroutofthebuggy。\"WhenIgetholdofyouagainI\'llnotletyougo。Youcan\'tplaywithme,\"hede-

  claredasheturnedtodriveaway。Then,jumpingoutofthebuggy,hegrippedhershoulderswithhisstronghands。\"I\'llkeepyouforgoodthenexttime,\"

  hesaid。\"Youmightaswellmakeupyourmindtothat。It\'syouandmeforitandI\'mgoingtohaveyoubeforeIgetthrough。\"

  OnenightinJanuarywhentherewasanewmoonGeorgeWillard,whowasinEdHandby\'smindtheonlyobstacletohisgettingBelleCarpenter,wentforawalk。EarlythateveningGeorgewentintoRansomSurbeck\'spoolroomwithSethRichmondandArtWilson,sonofthetownbutcher。SethRichmondstoodwithhisbackagainstthewallandremainedsilent,butGeorgeWillardtalked。ThepoolroomwasfilledwithWinesburgboysandtheytalkedofwomen。Theyoungreportergotintothatvein。Hesaidthatwomenshouldlookoutforthemselves,thatthefellowwhowentoutwithagirlwasnotresponsibleforwhathappened。Ashetalkedhelookedabout,eagerforattention。HeheldthefloorforfiveminutesandthenArtWilsonbegantotalk。

  Artwaslearningthebarber\'stradeinCalProuse\'sshopandalreadybegantoconsiderhimselfanau-

  thorityinsuchmattersasbaseball,horseracing,drinking,andgoingaboutwithwomen。HebegantotellofanightwhenhewithtwomenfromWines-

  burgwentintoahouseofprostitutionatthecountyseat。Thebutcher\'ssonheldacigarinthesideofhismouthandashetalkedspatonthefloor。\"Thewomenintheplacecouldn\'tembarrassmealthoughtheytriedhardenough,\"heboasted。\"Oneofthegirlsinthehousetriedtogetfresh,butIfooledher。

  AssoonasshebegantotalkIwentandsatinherlap。EveryoneintheroomlaughedwhenIkissedher。Itaughthertoletmealone。\"

  GeorgeWillardwentoutofthepoolroomandintoMainStreet。FordaystheweatherhadbeenbittercoldwithahighwindblowingdownonthetownfromLakeErie,eighteenmilestothenorth,butonthatnightthewindhaddiedawayandanewmoonmadethenightunusuallylovely。With-

  outthinkingwherehewasgoingorwhathewantedtodo,GeorgewentoutofMainStreetandbeganwalkingindimlylightedstreetsfilledwithframehouses。

  Outofdoorsundertheblackskyfilledwithstarsheforgothiscompanionsofthepoolroom。Becauseitwasdarkandhewasalonehebegantotalkaloud。

  Inaspiritofplayhereeledalongthestreetimitatingadrunkenmanandthenimaginedhimselfasoldiercladinshiningbootsthatreachedtothekneesandwearingaswordthatjingledashewalked。Asasoldierhepicturedhimselfasaninspector,passingbeforealonglineofmenwhostoodatattention。

  Hebegantoexaminetheaccoutrementsofthemen。

  Beforeatreehestoppedandbegantoscold。\"Yourpackisnotinorder,\"hesaidsharply。\"HowmanytimeswillIhavetospeakofthismatter?Everythingmustbeinorderhere。Wehaveadifficulttaskbe-

  foreusandnodifficulttaskcanbedonewithoutorder。\"

  Hypnotizedbyhisownwords,theyoungmanstumbledalongtheboardsidewalksayingmorewords。\"Thereisalawforarmiesandformentoo,\"

  hemuttered,lostinreflection。\"Thelawbeginswithlittlethingsandspreadsoutuntilitcoversevery-

  thing。Ineverylittlethingtheremustbeorder,intheplacewheremenwork,intheirclothes,intheirthoughts。Imyselfmustbeorderly。Imustlearnthatlaw。Imustgetmyselfintotouchwithsomethingorderlyandbigthatswingsthroughthenightlikeastar。InmylittlewayImustbegintolearnsome-

  thing,togiveandswingandworkwithlife,withthelaw。\"

  GeorgeWillardstoppedbyapicketfencenearastreetlampandhisbodybegantotremble。Hehadneverbeforethoughtsuchthoughtsashadjustcomeintohisheadandhewonderedwheretheyhadcomefrom。Forthemomentitseemedtohimthatsomevoiceoutsideofhimselfhadbeentalkingashewalked。Hewasamazedanddelightedwithhisownmindandwhenhewalkedonagainspokeofthematterwithfervor。\"TocomeoutofRansomSurbeck\'spoolroomandthinkthingslikethat,\"hewhispered。\"Itisbettertobealone。IfItalkedlikeArtWilsontheboyswouldunderstandmebuttheywouldn\'tunderstandwhatI\'vebeenthinkingdownhere。\"

  InWinesburg,asinallOhiotownsoftwentyyearsago,therewasasectioninwhichliveddaylaborers。Asthetimeoffactorieshadnotyetcome,thelaborersworkedinthefieldsorweresectionhandsontherailroads。Theyworkedtwelvehoursadayandreceivedonedollarforthelongdayoftoil。Thehousesinwhichtheylivedweresmallcheaplyconstructedwoodenaffairswithagardenattheback。Themorecomfortableamongthemkeptcowsandperhapsapig,housedinalittleshedattherearofthegarden。

  Withhisheadfilledwithresoundingthoughts,GeorgeWillardwalkedintosuchastreetontheclearJanuarynight。Thestreetwasdimlylightedandinplacestherewasnosidewalk。Inthescenethatlayabouthimtherewassomethingthatexcitedhisal-

  readyarousedfancy。Forayearhehadbeendevot-

  ingallofhisoddmomentstothereadingofbooksandnowsometalehehadreadconcerningfifeinoldworldtownsofthemiddleagescamesharplybacktohismindsothathestumbledforwardwiththecuriousfeelingofonerevisitingaplacethathadbeenapartofsomeformerexistence。Onanimpulseheturnedoutofthestreetandwentintoalittledarkalleywaybehindtheshedsinwhichlivedthecowsandpigs。

  Forahalfhourhestayedinthealleyway,smellingthestrongsmellofanimalstoocloselyhousedandlettinghismindplaywiththestrangenewthoughtsthatcametohim。Theveryranknessofthesmellofmanureintheclearsweetairawokesomethingheadyinhisbrain。Thepoorlittlehouseslightedbykerosenelamps,thesmokefromthechimneysmountingstraightupintotheclearair,thegruntingofpigs,thewomencladincheapcalicodressesandwashingdishesinthekitchens,thefootstepsofmencomingoutofthehousesandgoingofftothestoresandsaloonsofMainStreet,thedogsbarkingandthechildrencrying——allofthesethingsmadehimseem,ashelurkedinthedarkness,oddlydetachedandapartfromalllife。

  Theexcitedyoungman,unabletobeartheweightofhisownthoughts,begantomovecautiouslyalongthealleyway。Adogattackedhimandhadtobedrivenawaywithstones,andamanappearedatthedoorofoneofthehousesandsworeatthedog。

  Georgewentintoavacantlotandthrowingbackhisheadlookedupatthesky。Hefeltunutterablybigandremadebythesimpleexperiencethroughwhichhehadbeenpassingandinakindoffervorofemo-

  tionputuphishands,thrustingthemintothedark-

  nessabovehisheadandmutteringwords。Thedesiretosaywordsovercamehimandhesaidwordswithoutmeaning,rollingthemoveronhistongueandsayingthembecausetheywerebravewords,fullofmeaning。\"Death,\"hemuttered,night,thesea,fear,loveliness。\"

  GeorgeWillardcameoutofthevacantlotandstoodagainonthesidewalkfacingthehouses。Hefeltthatallofthepeopleinthelittlestreetmustbebrothersandsisterstohimandhewishedhehadthecouragetocallthemoutoftheirhousesandtoshaketheirhands。\"IftherewereonlyawomanhereIwouldtakeholdofherhandandwewouldrununtilwewerebothtiredout,\"hethought。\"Thatwouldmakemefeelbetter。\"WiththethoughtofawomaninhismindhewalkedoutofthestreetandwenttowardthehousewhereBelleCarpenterlived。

  Hethoughtshewouldunderstandhismoodandthathecouldachieveinherpresenceapositionhehadlongbeenwantingtoachieve。Inthepastwhenhehadbeenwithherandhadkissedherlipshehadcomeawayfilledwithangerathimself。Hehadfeltlikeonebeingusedforsomeobscurepurposeandhadnotenjoyedthefeeling。Nowhethoughthehadsuddenlybecometoobigtobeused。

  WhenGeorgegottoBelleCarpenter\'shousetherehadalreadybeenavisitortherebeforehim。EdHandbyhadcometothedoorandcallingBelleoutofthehousehadtriedtotalktoher。Hehadwantedtoaskthewomantocomeawaywithhimandtobehiswife,butwhenshecameandstoodbythedoorhelosthisself-assuranceandbecamesullen。\"Youstayawayfromthatkid,\"hegrowled,thinkingofGeorgeWillard,andthen,notknowingwhatelsetosay,turnedtogoaway。\"IfIcatchyoutogetherI

  willbreakyourbonesandhistoo,\"headded。Thebartenderhadcometowoo,nottothreaten,andwasangrywithhimselfbecauseofhisfailure。

  WhenherloverhaddepartedBellewentindoorsandranhurriedlyupstairs。FromawindowattheupperpartofthehouseshesawEdHandbycrossthestreetandsitdownonahorseblockbeforethehouseofaneighbor。Inthedimlightthemansatmotionlessholdinghisheadinhishands。Shewasmadehappybythesight,andwhenGeorgeWillardcametothedoorshegreetedhimeffusivelyandhurriedlyputonherhat。Shethoughtthat,asshewalkedthroughthestreetswithyoungWillard,EdHandbywouldfollowandshewantedtomakehimsuffer。

  ForanhourBelleCarpenterandtheyoungre-

  porterwalkedaboutunderthetreesinthesweetnightair。GeorgeWillardwasfullofbigwords。Thesenseofpowerthathadcometohimduringthehourinthedarknessinthealleywayremainedwithhimandhetalkedboldly,swaggeringalongandswinginghisarmsabout。HewantedtomakeBelleCarpenterrealizethathewasawareofhisformerweaknessandthathehadchanged。\"You\'llfindmedifferent,\"hedeclared,thrustinghishandsintohispocketsandlookingboldlyintohereyes。\"Idon\'tknowwhybutitisso。You\'vegottotakemeforamanorletmealone。That\'showitis。\"

  Upanddownthequietstreetsunderthenewmoonwentthewomanandtheboy。WhenGeorgehadfinishedtalkingtheyturneddownasidestreetandwentacrossabridgeintoapaththatranupthesideofahill。ThehillbeganatWaterworksPondandclimbedupwardtotheWinesburgFairGrounds。Onthehillsidegrewdensebushesandsmalltreesandamongthebusheswerelittleopenspacescarpetedwithlonggrass,nowstiffandfrozen。

  AshewalkedbehindthewomanupthehillGeorgeWillard\'sheartbegantobeatrapidlyandhisshouldersstraightened。SuddenlyhedecidedthatBelleCarpenterwasabouttosurrenderherselftohim。Thenewforcethathadmanifesteditselfinhimhad,hefelt,beenatworkuponherandhadledtoherconquest。Thethoughtmadehimhalfdrunkwiththesenseofmasculinepower。Althoughhehadbeenannoyedthatastheywalkedaboutshehadnotseemedtobelisteningtohiswords,thefactthatshehadaccompaniedhimtothisplacetookallhisdoubtsaway。\"Itisdifferent。Everythinghasbecomedifferent,\"hethoughtandtakingholdofhershoulderturnedheraboutandstoodlookingather,hiseyesshiningwithpride。

  BelleCarpenterdidnotresist。Whenhekissedheruponthelipssheleanedheavilyagainsthimandlookedoverhisshoulderintothedarkness。Inherwholeattitudetherewasasuggestionofwaiting。

  Again,asinthealleyway,GeorgeWillard\'smindranoffintowordsand,holdingthewomantightlyhewhisperedthewordsintothestillnight。\"Lust,\"

  hewhispered,\"lustandnightandwomen。\"

  GeorgeWillarddidnotunderstandwhathap-

  penedtohimthatnightonthehillside。Later,whenhegottohisownroom,hewantedtoweepandthengrewhalfinsanewithangerandhate。HehatedBelleCarpenterandwassurethatallhislifehewouldcontinuetohateher。Onthehillsidehehadledthewomantooneofthelittleopenspacesamongthebushesandhaddroppedtohiskneesbesideher。Asinthevacantlot,bythelaborers\'

  houses,hehadputuphishandsingratitudeforthenewpowerinhimselfandwaswaitingforthewomantospeakwhenEdHandbyappeared。

  Thebartenderdidnotwanttobeattheboy,whohethoughthadtriedtotakehiswomanaway。Heknewthatbeatingwasunnecessary,thathehadpowerwithinhimselftoaccomplishhispurposewithoutusinghisfists。GrippingGeorgebytheshoulderandpullinghimtohisfeet,heheldhimwithonehandwhilehelookedatBelleCarpenterseatedonthegrass。Thenwithaquickwidemove-

  mentofhisarmhesenttheyoungermansprawlingawayintothebushesandbegantobullythewoman,whohadrisentoherfeet。\"You\'renogood,\"hesaidroughly。\"I\'vehalfamindnottobotherwithyou。I\'dletyoualoneifIdidn\'twantyousomuch。\"

  OnhishandsandkneesinthebushesGeorgeWillardstaredatthescenebeforehimandtriedhardtothink。Hepreparedtospringatthemanwhohadhumiliatedhim。Tobebeatenseemedtobeinfinitelybetterthantobethushurledignominiouslyaside。

  ThreetimestheyoungreportersprangatEdHandbyandeachtimethebartender,catchinghimbytheshoulder,hurledhimbackintothebushes。

  TheoldermanseemedpreparedtokeeptheexercisegoingindefinitelybutGeorgeWillard\'sheadstrucktherootofatreeandhelaystill。ThenEdHandbytookBelleCarpenterbythearmandmarchedheraway。

  Georgeheardthemanandwomanmakingtheirwaythroughthebushes。Ashecreptdownthehill-

  sidehisheartwassickwithinhim。Hehatedhimselfandhehatedthefatethathadbroughtabouthishumiliation。Whenhismindwentbacktothehouraloneinthealleywayhewaspuzzledandstoppinginthedarknesslistened,hopingtohearagainthevoiceoutsidehimselfthathadsoshortatimebeforeputnewcourageintohisheart。Whenhiswayhomewardledhimagainintothestreetofframehouseshecouldnotbearthesightandbegantorun,wantingtogetquicklyoutoftheneighborhoodthatnowseemedtohimutterlysqualidandcommonplace。

  \"QUEER\"

  FROMHISSEATonaboxintheroughboardshedthatstucklikeaburrontherearofCowley&Son\'sstoreinWinesburg,ElmerCowley,thejuniormemberofthefirm,couldseethroughadirtywindowintotheprintshopoftheWinesburgEagle。Elmerwasputtingnewshoelacesinhisshoes。Theydidnotgoinreadilyandhehadtotaketheshoesoff。Withtheshoesinhishandhesatlookingatalargeholeintheheelofoneofhisstockings。ThenlookingquicklyuphesawGeorgeWillard,theonlynewspa-

  perreporterinWinesburg,standingatthebackdooroftheEagleprintshopandstaringabsentmindedlyabout。\"Well,well,whatnext!\"exclaimedtheyoungmanwiththeshoesinhishand,jumpingtohisfeetandcreepingawayfromthewindow。

  AflushcreptintoElmerCowley\'sfaceandhishandsbegantotremble。InCowley&Son\'sstoreaJewishtravelingsalesmanstoodbythecountertalk-

  ingtohisfather。Heimaginedthereportercouldhearwhatwasbeingsaidandthethoughtmadehimfurious。Withoneoftheshoesstillheldinhishandhestoodinacorneroftheshedandstampedwithastockingedfootupontheboardfloor。

  Cowley&Son\'sstoredidnotfacethemainstreetofWinesburg。ThefrontwasonMaumeeStreetandbeyonditwasVoight\'swagonshopandashedfortheshelteringoffarmers\'horses。Besidethestoreanalleywayranbehindthemainstreetstoresandalldaydraysanddeliverywagons,intentonbringinginandtakingoutgoods,passedupanddown。Thestoreitselfwasindescribable。WillHendersononcesaidofitthatitsoldeverythingandnothing。InthewindowfacingMaumeeStreetstoodachunkofcoalaslargeasanapplebarrel,toindicatethatordersforcoalweretaken,andbesidetheblackmassofthecoalstoodthreecombsofhoneygrownbrownanddirtyintheirwoodenframes。

  Thehoneyhadstoodinthestorewindowforsixmonths。Itwasforsaleaswerealsothecoathang-

  ers,patentsuspenderbuttons,cansofroofpaint,bottlesofrheumatismcure,andasubstituteforcof-

  feethatcompanionedthehoneyinitspatientwill-

  ingnesstoservethepublic。

  EbenezerCowley,themanwhostoodinthestorelisteningtotheeagerpatterofwordsthatfellfromthelipsofthetravelingman,wastallandleanandlookedunwashed。Onhisscrawnyneckwasalargewenpartiallycoveredbyagreybeard。HeworealongPrinceAlbertcoat。Thecoathadbeenpur-

  chasedtoserveasaweddinggarment。BeforehebecameamerchantEbenezerwasafarmerandafterhismarriageheworethePrinceAlbertcoattochurchonSundaysandonSaturdayafternoonswhenhecameintotowntotrade。Whenhesoldthefarmtobecomeamerchantheworethecoatconstantly。Ithadbecomebrownwithageandwascoveredwithgreasespots,butinitEbenezeralwaysfeltdressedupandreadyforthedayintown。

  AsamerchantEbenezerwasnothappilyplacedinlifeandhehadnotbeenhappilyplacedasafarmer。Stillheexisted。Hisfamily,consistingofadaughternamedMabelandtheson,livedwithhiminroomsabovethestoreanditdidnotcostthemmuchtolive。Histroubleswerenotfinancial。Hisunhappinessasamerchantlayinthefactthatwhenatravelingmanwithwarestobesoldcameinatthefrontdoorhewasafraid。Behindthecounterhestoodshakinghishead。Hewasafraid,firstthathewouldstubbornlyrefusetobuyandthuslosetheopportunitytosellagain;secondthathewouldnotbestubbornenoughandwouldinamomentofweaknessbuywhatcouldnotbesold。

  InthestoreonthemorningwhenElmerCowleysawGeorgeWillardstandingandapparentlylis-

  teningatthebackdooroftheEagleprintshop,asituationhadarisenthatalwaysstirredtheson\'swrath。ThetravelingmantalkedandEbenezerlis-

  tened,hiswholefigureexpressinguncertainty。\"Youseehowquicklyitisdone,\"saidthetravelingman,whohadforsaleasmallflatmetalsubstituteforcollarbuttons。Withonehandhequicklyunfastenedacollarfromhisshirtandthenfasteneditonagain。

  Heassumedaflatteringwheedlingtone。\"Itellyouwhat,menhavecometotheendofallthisfoolingwithcollarbuttonsandyouarethemantomakemoneyoutofthechangethatiscoming。Iamoffer-

  ingyoutheexclusiveagencyforthistown。TaketwentydozenofthesefastenersandI\'llnotvisitanyotherstore。I\'llleavethefieldtoyou。\"

  ThetravelingmanleanedoverthecounterandtappedwithhisfingeronEbenezer\'sbreast。\"It\'sanopportunityandIwantyoutotakeit,\"heurged。

  \"Afriendofminetoldmeaboutyou。\'SeethatmanCowley,\'hesaid。\'He\'saliveone。\'\"

  Thetravelingmanpausedandwaited。Takingabookfromhispockethebeganwritingouttheorder。StillholdingtheshoeinhishandElmerCow-

  leywentthroughthestore,pastthetwoabsorbedmen,toaglassshowcasenearthefrontdoor。Hetookacheaprevolverfromthecaseandbegantowaveitabout。\"Yougetoutofhere!\"heshrieked。

  \"Wedon\'twantanycollarfastenershere。\"Anideacametohim。\"Mind,I\'mnotmakinganythreat,\"

  headded。\"Idon\'tsayI\'llshoot。MaybeIjusttookthisgunoutofthecasetolookatit。Butyoubettergetout。Yessir,I\'llsaythat。Youbettergrabupyourthingsandgetout。\"

  Theyoungstorekeeper\'svoicerosetoascreamandgoingbehindthecounterhebegantoadvanceuponthetwomen。\"We\'rethroughbeingfoolshere!\"hecried。\"Weain\'tgoingtobuyanymorestuffuntilwebegintosell。Weain\'tgoingtokeeponbeingqueerandhavefolksstaringandlistening。

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