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  OneoftheBentleysisterscookedthelittleanimalandheateitwithgreatgusto。Theskinhetackedonaboardandsuspendedtheboardbyastringfromhisbedroomwindow。

  Thatgavehismindanewturn。Afterthatheneverwentintothewoodswithoutcarryingtheslinginhispocketandhespenthoursshootingatimaginaryanimalsconcealedamongthebrownleavesinthetrees。Thoughtsofhiscomingmanhoodpassedandhewascontenttobeaboywithaboy\'simpulses。

  OneSaturdaymorningwhenhewasabouttosetoffforthewoodswiththeslinginhispocketandabagfornutsonhisshoulder,hisgrandfatherstoppedhim。IntheeyesoftheoldmanwasthestrainedseriouslookthatalwaysalittlefrightenedDavid。AtsuchtimesJesseBentley\'seyesdidnotlookstraightaheadbutwaveredandseemedtobelookingatnothing。Somethinglikeaninvisiblecurtainap-

  pearedtohavecomebetweenthemanandalltherestoftheworld。\"Iwantyoutocomewithme,\"

  hesaidbriefly,andhiseyeslookedovertheboy\'sheadintothesky。\"Wehavesomethingimportanttodotoday。Youmaybringthebagfornutsifyouwish。Itdoesnotmatterandanywaywewillbegoingintothewoods。\"

  JesseandDavidsetoutfromtheBentleyfarm-

  houseintheoldphaetonthatwasdrawnbythewhitehorse。Whentheyhadgonealonginsilenceforalongwaytheystoppedattheedgeofafieldwhereaflockofsheepweregrazing。Amongthesheepwasalambthathadbeenbornoutofseason,andthisDavidandhisgrandfathercaughtandtiedsotightlythatitlookedlikealittlewhiteball。WhentheydroveonagainJesseletDavidholdthelambinhisarms。\"IsawityesterdayanditputmeinmindofwhatIhavelongwantedtodo,\"hesaid,andagainhelookedawayovertheheadoftheboywiththewavering,uncertainstareinhiseyes。

  Afterthefeelingofexaltationthathadcometothefarmerasaresultofhissuccessfulyear,anothermoodhadtakenpossessionofhim。Foralongtimehehadbeengoingaboutfeelingveryhumbleandprayerful。AgainhewalkedaloneatnightthinkingofGodandashewalkedheagainconnectedhisownfigurewiththefiguresofolddays。Underthestarshekneltonthewetgrassandraiseduphisvoiceinprayer。NowhehaddecidedthatlikethemenwhosestoriesfilledthepagesoftheBible,hewouldmakeasacrificetoGod。\"IhavebeengiventheseabundantcropsandGodhasalsosentmeaboywhoiscalledDavid,\"hewhisperedtohimself。

  \"PerhapsIshouldhavedonethisthinglongago。\"

  HewassorrytheideahadnotcomeintohismindinthedaysbeforehisdaughterLouisehadbeenbornandthoughtthatsurelynowwhenhehaderectedapileofburningsticksinsomelonelyplaceinthewoodsandhadofferedthebodyofalambasaburntoffering,Godwouldappeartohimandgivehimamessage。

  Moreandmoreashethoughtofthematter,hethoughtalsoofDavidandhispassionateself-lovewaspartiallyforgotten。\"Itistimefortheboytobeginthinkingofgoingoutintotheworldandthemessagewillbeoneconcerninghim,\"hedecided。

  \"Godwillmakeapathwayforhim。HewilltellmewhatplaceDavidistotakeinlifeandwhenheshallsetoutonhisjourney。Itisrightthattheboyshouldbethere。IfIamfortunateandanangelofGodshouldappear,DavidwillseethebeautyandgloryofGodmademanifesttoman。ItwillmakeatruemanofGodofhimalso。\"

  InsilenceJesseandDaviddrovealongtheroaduntiltheycametothatplacewhereJessehadoncebeforeappealedtoGodandhadfrightenedhisgrandson。Themorninghadbeenbrightandcheer-

  ful,butacoldwindnowbegantoblowandcloudshidthesun。WhenDavidsawtheplacetowhichtheyhadcomehebegantotremblewithfright,andwhentheystoppedbythebridgewherethecreekcamedownfromamongthetrees,hewantedtospringoutofthephaetonandrunaway。

  AdozenplansforescaperanthroughDavid\'shead,butwhenJessestoppedthehorseandclimbedoverthefenceintothewood,hefollowed。\"Itisfoolishtobeafraid。Nothingwillhappen,\"hetoldhimselfashewentalongwiththelambinhisarms。

  Therewassomethinginthehelplessnessofthelittleanimalheldsotightlyinhisarmsthatgavehimcourage。Hecouldfeeltherapidbeatingofthebeast\'sheartandthatmadehisownheartbeatlessrapidly。Ashewalkedswiftlyalongbehindhisgrandfather,heuntiedthestringwithwhichthefourlegsofthelambwerefastenedtogether。\"Ifanythinghappenswewillrunawaytogether,\"hethought。

  Inthewoods,aftertheyhadgonealongwayfromtheroad,Jessestoppedinanopeningamongthetreeswhereaclearing,overgrownwithsmallbushes,ranupfromthecreek。Hewasstillsilentbutbeganatoncetoerectaheapofdrystickswhichhepresentlysetafire。Theboysatonthegroundwiththelambinhisarms。Hisimaginationbegantoinvesteverymovementoftheoldmanwithsignifi-

  canceandhebecameeverymomentmoreafraid。\"I

  mustputthebloodofthelambontheheadoftheboy,\"Jessemutteredwhenthestickshadbeguntoblazegreedily,andtakingalongknifefromhispocketheturnedandwalkedrapidlyacrosstheclearingtowardDavid。

  Terrorseizeduponthesouloftheboy。Hewassickwithit。Foramomenthesatperfectlystillandthenhisbodystiffenedandhesprangtohisfeet。

  Hisfacebecameaswhiteasthefleeceofthelambthat,nowfindingitselfsuddenlyreleased,randownthehill。Davidranalso。Fearmadehisfeetfly。Overthelowbushesandlogsheleapedfrantically。Asheranheputhishandintohispocketandtookoutthebranchedstickfromwhichtheslingforshootingsquirrelswassuspended。Whenhecametothecreekthatwasshallowandsplasheddownoverthestones,hedashedintothewaterandturnedtolookback,andwhenhesawhisgrandfatherstillrunningtowardhimwiththelongknifeheldtightlyinhishandhedidnothesitate,butreachingdown,se-

  lectedastoneandputitinthesling。Withallhisstrengthhedrewbacktheheavyrubberbandsandthestonewhistledthroughtheair。IthitJesse,whohadentirelyforgottentheboyandwaspursuingthelamb,squarelyinthehead。Withagroanhepitchedforwardandfellalmostattheboy\'sfeet。WhenDavidsawthathelaystillandthathewasappar-

  entlydead,hisfrightincreasedimmeasurably。Itbe-

  cameaninsanepanic。

  Withacryheturnedandranoffthroughthewoodsweepingconvulsively。\"Idon\'tcare——Ikilledhim,butIdon\'tcare,\"hesobbed。AsheranonandonhedecidedsuddenlythathewouldnevergobackagaintotheBentleyfarmsortothetownofWinesburg。\"IhavekilledthemanofGodandnowIwillmyselfbeamanandgointotheworld,\"hesaidstoutlyashestoppedrunningandwalkedrap-

  idlydownaroadthatfollowedthewindingsofWineCreekasitranthroughfieldsandforestsintothewest。

  OnthegroundbythecreekJesseBentleymoveduneasilyabout。Hegroanedandopenedhiseyes。

  Foralongtimehelayperfectlystillandlookedatthesky。Whenatlasthegottohisfeet,hismindwasconfusedandhewasnotsurprisedbytheboy\'sdisappearance。BytheroadsidehesatdownonalogandbegantotalkaboutGod。Thatisalltheyevergotoutofhim。WheneverDavid\'snamewasmentionedhelookedvaguelyattheskyandsaidthatamessengerfromGodhadtakentheboy。\"IthappenedbecauseIwastoogreedyforglory,\"hedeclared,andwouldhavenomoretosayinthematter。

  AMANOFIDEAS

  HELIVEDWITHhismother,agrey,silentwomanwithapeculiarashycomplexion。Thehouseinwhichtheylivedstoodinalittlegroveoftreesbe-

  yondwherethemainstreetofWinesburgcrossedWineCreek。HisnamewasJoeWelling,andhisfa-

  therhadbeenamanofsomedignityinthecommu-

  nity,alawyer,andamemberofthestatelegislatureatColumbus。Joehimselfwassmallofbodyandinhischaracterunlikeanyoneelseintown。Hewaslikeatinylittlevolcanothatliessilentfordaysandthensuddenlyspoutsfire。No,hewasn\'tlikethat——

  hewaslikeamanwhoissubjecttofits,onewhowalksamonghisfellowmeninspiringfearbecauseafitmaycomeuponhimsuddenlyandblowhimawayintoastrangeuncannyphysicalstateinwhichhiseyesrollandhislegsandarmsjerk。Hewaslikethat,onlythatthevisitationthatdescendeduponJoeWellingwasamentalandnotaphysicalthing。

  Hewasbesetbyideasandinthethroesofoneofhisideaswasuncontrollable。Wordsrolledandtumbledfromhismouth。Apeculiarsmilecameuponhislips。Theedgesofhisteeththatweretippedwithgoldglistenedinthelight。Pouncinguponaby-

  standerhebegantotalk。Forthebystandertherewasnoescape。Theexcitedmanbreathedintohisface,peeredintohiseyes,poundeduponhischestwithashakingforefinger,demanded,compelledattention。

  InthosedaystheStandardOilCompanydidnotdeliveroiltotheconsumerinbigwagonsandmotortrucksasitdoesnow,butdeliveredinsteadtoretailgrocers,hardwarestores,andthelike。JoewastheStandardOilagentinWinesburgandinseveraltownsupanddowntherailroadthatwentthroughWinesburg。Hecollectedbills,bookedorders,anddidotherthings。Hisfather,thelegislator,hadse-

  curedthejobforhim。

  InandoutofthestoresofWinesburgwentJoeWelling——silent,excessivelypolite,intentuponhisbusiness。Menwatchedhimwitheyesinwhichlurkedamusementtemperedbyalarm。Theywerewaitingforhimtobreakforth,preparingtoflee。

  Althoughtheseizuresthatcameuponhimwereharmlessenough,theycouldnotbelaughedaway。

  Theywereoverwhelming。Astrideanidea,Joewasovermastering。Hispersonalitybecamegigantic。Itoverrodethemantowhomhetalked,swepthimaway,sweptallaway,allwhostoodwithinsoundofhisvoice。

  InSylvesterWest\'sDrugStorestoodfourmenwhoweretalkingofhorseracing。WesleyMoyer\'sstallion,TonyTip,wastoraceattheJunemeetingatTiffin,Ohio,andtherewasarumorthathewouldmeetthestiffestcompetitionofhiscareer。ItwassaidthatPopGeers,thegreatracingdriver,wouldhimselfbethere。AdoubtofthesuccessofTonyTiphungheavyintheairofWinesburg。

  IntothedrugstorecameJoeWelling,brushingthescreendoorviolentlyaside。Withastrangeab-

  sorbedlightinhiseyeshepounceduponEdThomas,hewhoknewPopGeersandwhoseopin-

  ionofTonyTip\'schanceswasworthconsidering。

  \"ThewaterisupinWineCreek,\"criedJoeWel-

  lingwiththeairofPheidippidesbringingnewsofthevictoryoftheGreeksinthestruggleatMara-

  thon。HisfingerbeatatattoouponEdThomas\'sbroadchest。\"ByTrunionbridgeitiswithinelevenandahalfinchesoftheflooring,\"hewenton,thewordscomingquicklyandwithalittlewhistlingnoisefrombetweenhisteeth。Anexpressionofhelp-

  lessannoyancecreptoverthefacesofthefour。

  \"Ihavemyfactscorrect。Dependuponthat。I

  wenttoSinnings\'HardwareStoreandgotarule。

  ThenIwentbackandmeasured。Icouldhardlybe-

  lievemyowneyes。Ithasn\'trainedyouseefortendays。AtfirstIdidn\'tknowwhattothink。Thoughtsrushedthroughmyhead。Ithoughtofsubterraneanpassagesandsprings。Downunderthegroundwentmymind,delvingabout。Isatonthefloorofthebridgeandrubbedmyhead。Therewasn\'tacloudinthesky,notone。Comeoutintothestreetandyou\'llsee。Therewasn\'tacloud。Thereisn\'tacloudnow。Yes,therewasacloud。Idon\'twanttokeepbackanyfacts。Therewasacloudinthewestdownnearthehorizon,acloudnobiggerthanaman\'shand。

  \"NotthatIthinkthathasanythingtodowithit。

  Thereitis,yousee。YouunderstandhowpuzzledI

  was。

  \"Thenanideacametome。Ilaughed。You\'lllaugh,too。OfcourseitrainedoverinMedinaCounty。That\'sinteresting,eh?Ifwehadnotrains,nomails,notelegraph,wewouldknowthatitrainedoverinMedinaCounty。That\'swhereWineCreekcomesfrom。Everyoneknowsthat。LittleoldWineCreekbroughtusthenews。That\'sinteresting。

  Ilaughed。IthoughtI\'dtellyou——it\'sinteresting,eh?\"

  JoeWellingturnedandwentoutatthedoor。Tak-

  ingabookfromhispocket,hestoppedandranafingerdownoneofthepages。Againhewasab-

  sorbedinhisdutiesasagentoftheStandardOilCompany。\"Hern\'sGrocerywillbegettinglowoncoaloil。I\'llseethem,\"hemuttered,hurryingalongthestreet,andbowingpolitelytotherightandleftatthepeoplewalkingpast。

  WhenGeorgeWillardwenttoworkfortheWines-

  burgEaglehewasbesiegedbyJoeWelling。Joeen-

  viedtheboy。ItseemedtohimthathewasmeantbyNaturetobeareporteronanewspaper。\"ItiswhatIshouldbedoing,thereisnodoubtofthat,\"

  hedeclared,stoppingGeorgeWillardontheside-

  walkbeforeDaugherty\'sFeedStore。Hiseyesbegantoglistenandhisforefingertotremble。\"OfcourseImakemoremoneywiththeStandardOilCompanyandI\'monlytellingyou,\"headded。\"I\'vegotnoth-

  ingagainstyoubutIshouldhaveyourplace。Icoulddotheworkatoddmoments。HereandthereI

  wouldrunfindingoutthingsyou\'llneversee。\"

  BecomingmoreexcitedJoeWellingcrowdedtheyoungreporteragainstthefrontofthefeedstore。

  Heappearedtobelostinthought,rollinghiseyesaboutandrunningathinnervoushandthroughhishair。Asmilespreadoverhisfaceandhisgoldteethglittered。\"Yougetoutyournotebook,\"hecom-

  manded。\"Youcarryalittlepadofpaperinyourpocket,don\'tyou?Iknewyoudid。Well,yousetthisdown。Ithoughtofittheotherday。Let\'stakedecay。Nowwhatisdecay?It\'sfire。Itburnsupwoodandotherthings。Youneverthoughtofthat?

  Ofcoursenot。Thissidewalkhereandthisfeedstore,thetreesdownthestreetthere——they\'reallonfire。They\'reburningup。Decayyouseeisalwaysgoingon。Itdoesn\'tstop。Waterandpaintcan\'tstopit。Ifathingisiron,thenwhat?Itrusts,yousee。

  That\'sfire,too。Theworldisonfire。Startyourpiecesinthepaperthatway。Justsayinbigletters\'TheWorldIsOnFire。\'Thatwillmake\'emlookup。

  They\'llsayyou\'reasmartone。Idon\'tcare。Idon\'tenvyyou。Ijustsnatchedthatideaoutoftheair。I

  wouldmakeanewspaperhum。Yougottoadmitthat。\"\'

  Turningquickly,JoeWellingwalkedrapidlyaway。

  Whenhehadtakenseveralstepshestoppedandlookedback。\"I\'mgoingtosticktoyou,\"hesaid。

  \"I\'mgoingtomakeyouaregularhummer。Ishouldstartanewspapermyself,that\'swhatIshoulddo。

  I\'dbeamarvel。Everybodyknowsthat。\"

  WhenGeorgeWillardhadbeenforayearontheWinesburgEagle,fourthingshappenedtoJoeWel-

  ling。Hismotherdied,hecametoliveattheNewWillardHouse,hebecameinvolvedinaloveaffair,andheorganizedtheWinesburgBaseballClub。

  Joeorganizedthebaseballclubbecausehewantedtobeacoachandinthatpositionhebegantowintherespectofhistownsmen。\"Heisawonder,\"theydeclaredafterJoe\'steamhadwhippedtheteamfromMedinaCounty。\"Hegetseverybodyworkingtogether。Youjustwatchhim。\"

  UponthebaseballfieldJoeWellingstoodbyfirstbase,hiswholebodyquiveringwithexcitement。Inspiteofthemselvesalltheplayerswatchedhimclosely。Theopposingpitcherbecameconfused。

  \"Now!Now!Now!Now!\"shoutedtheexcitedman。\"Watchme!Watchme!Watchmyfingers!

  Watchmyhands!Watchmyfeet!Watchmyeyes!

  Let\'sworktogetherhere!Watchme!Inmeyouseeallthemovementsofthegame!Workwithme!

  Workwithme!Watchme!Watchme!Watchme!\"

  WithrunnersoftheWinesburgteamonbases,JoeWellingbecameasoneinspired。Beforetheyknewwhathadcomeoverthem,thebaserunnerswerewatchingtheman,edgingoffthebases,advancing,retreating,heldasbyaninvisiblecord。TheplayersoftheopposingteamalsowatchedJoe。Theywerefascinated。Foramomenttheywatchedandthen,asthoughtobreakaspellthathungoverthem,theybeganhurlingtheballwildlyabout,andamidase-

  riesoffierceanimal-likecriesfromthecoach,therunnersoftheWinesburgteamscamperedhome。

  JoeWelling\'sloveaffairsetthetownofWinesburgonedge。Whenitbeganeveryonewhisperedandshookhishead。Whenpeopletriedtolaugh,thelaughterwasforcedandunnatural。JoefellinlovewithSarahKing,alean,sad-lookingwomanwholivedwithherfatherandbrotherinabrickhousethatstoodoppositethegateleadingtotheWines-

  burgCemetery。

  ThetwoKings,Edwardthefather,andTomtheson,werenotpopularinWinesburg。Theywerecalledproudanddangerous。TheyhadcometoWinesburgfromsomeplaceintheSouthandranacidermillontheTrunionPike。TomKingwasre-

  portedtohavekilledamanbeforehecametoWinesburg。Hewastwenty-sevenyearsoldandrodeabouttownonagreypony。Alsohehadalongyellowmustachethatdroppeddownoverhisteeth,andalwayscarriedaheavy,wicked-lookingwalkingstickinhishand。Oncehekilledadogwiththestick。ThedogbelongedtoWinPawsey,theshoemerchant,andstoodonthesidewalkwaggingitstail。TomKingkilleditwithoneblow。Hewasar-

  restedandpaidafineoftendollars。

  OldEdwardKingwassmallofstatureandwhenhepassedpeopleinthestreetlaughedaqueerun-

  mirthfullaugh。Whenhelaughedhescratchedhisleftelbowwithhisrighthand。Thesleeveofhiscoatwasalmostwornthroughfromthehabit。Ashewalkedalongthestreet,lookingnervouslyaboutandlaughing,heseemedmoredangerousthanhissilent,fierce-lookingson。

  WhenSarahKingbeganwalkingoutintheeve-

  ningwithJoeWelling,peopleshooktheirheadsinalarm。Shewastallandpaleandhaddarkringsunderhereyes。Thecouplelookedridiculousto-

  gether。UnderthetreestheywalkedandJoetalked。

  Hispassionateeagerprotestationsoflove,heardcomingoutofthedarknessbythecemeterywall,orfromthedeepshadowsofthetreesonthehillthatranuptotheFairGroundsfromWaterworksPond,wererepeatedinthestores。MenstoodbythebarintheNewWillardHouselaughingandtalkingofJoe\'scourtship。Afterthelaughtercamethesilence。

  TheWinesburgbaseballteam,underhismanage-

  ment,waswinninggameaftergame,andthetownhadbeguntorespecthim。Sensingatragedy,theywaited,laughingnervously。

  LateonaSaturdayafternoonthemeetingbetweenJoeWellingandthetwoKings,theanticipationofwhichhadsetthetownonedge,tookplaceinJoeWelling\'sroomintheNewWillardHouse。GeorgeWillardwasawitnesstothemeeting。Itcameaboutinthisway:

  WhentheyoungreporterwenttohisroomaftertheeveningmealhesawTomKingandhisfathersittinginthehalfdarknessinJoe\'sroom。Thesonhadtheheavywalkingstickinhishandandsatnearthedoor。OldEdwardKingwalkednervouslyabout,scratchinghisleftelbowwithhisrighthand。Thehallwayswereemptyandsilent。

  GeorgeWillardwenttohisownroomandsatdownathisdesk。Hetriedtowritebuthishandtrembledsothathecouldnotholdthepen。Healsowalkednervouslyupanddown。LiketherestofthetownofWinesburghewasperplexedandknewnotwhattodo。

  Itwasseven-thirtyandfastgrowingdarkwhenJoeWellingcamealongthestationplatformtowardtheNewWillardHouse。Inhisarmsheheldabun-

  dleofweedsandgrasses。Inspiteoftheterrorthatmadehisbodyshake,GeorgeWillardwasamusedatthesightofthesmallspryfigureholdingthegrassesandhalfrunningalongtheplatform。

  Shakingwithfrightandanxiety,theyoungre-

  porterlurkedinthehallwayoutsidethedooroftheroominwhichJoeWellingtalkedtothetwoKings。

  Therehadbeenanoath,thenervousgiggleofoldEdwardKing,andthensilence。NowthevoiceofJoeWelling,sharpandclear,brokeforth。GeorgeWillardbegantolaugh。Heunderstood。Ashehadsweptallmenbeforehim,sonowJoeWellingwascarryingthetwomenintheroomofftheirfeetwithatidalwaveofwords。Thelistenerinthehallwalkedupanddown,lostinamazement。

  InsidetheroomJoeWellinghadpaidnoattentiontothegrumbledthreatofTomKing。Absorbedinanideaheclosedthedoorand,lightingalamp,spreadthehandfulofweedsandgrassesuponthefloor。\"I\'vegotsomethinghere,\"heannouncedsol-

  emnly。\"IwasgoingtotellGeorgeWillardaboutit,lethimmakeapieceoutofitforthepaper。I\'mgladyou\'rehere。IwishSarahwereherealso。I\'vebeengoingtocometoyourhouseandtellyouofsomeofmyideas。They\'reinteresting。Sarahwouldn\'tletme。Shesaidwe\'dquarrel。That\'sfoolish。\"

  Runningupanddownbeforethetwoperplexedmen,JoeWellingbegantoexplain。\"Don\'tyoumakeamistakenow,\"hecried。\"Thisissomethingbig。\"

  Hisvoicewasshrillwithexcitement。\"Youjustfol-

  lowme,you\'llbeinterested。Iknowyouwill。Sup-

  posethis——supposeallofthewheat,thecorn,theoats,thepeas,thepotatoes,wereallbysomemira-

  clesweptaway。Nowhereweare,yousee,inthiscounty。Thereisahighfencebuiltallaroundus。

  We\'llsupposethat。Noonecangetoverthefenceandallthefruitsoftheeartharedestroyed,nothingleftbutthesewildthings,thesegrasses。Wouldwebedonefor?Iaskyouthat。Wouldwebedonefor?\"

  AgainTomKinggrowledandforamomenttherewassilenceintheroom。ThenagainJoeplungedintotheexpositionofhisidea。\"Thingswouldgohardforatime。Iadmitthat。I\'vegottoadmitthat。

  Nogettingaroundit。We\'dbehardputtoit。Morethanonefatstomachwouldcavein。Buttheycouldn\'tdownus。Ishouldsaynot。\"

  TomKinglaughedgoodnaturedlyandtheshiv-

  ery,nervouslaughofEdwardKingrangthroughthehouse。JoeWellinghurriedon。\"We\'dbegin,yousee,tobreedupnewvegetablesandfruits。Soonwe\'dregainallwehadlost。Mind,Idon\'tsaythenewthingswouldbethesameastheold。Theywouldn\'t。Maybethey\'dbebetter,maybenotsogood。That\'sinteresting,eh?Youcanthinkaboutthat。Itstartsyourmindworking,nowdon\'tit?\"

  IntheroomtherewassilenceandthenagainoldEdwardKinglaughednervously。\"Say,IwishSarahwashere,\"criedJoeWelling。\"Let\'sgouptoyourhouse。Iwanttotellherofthis。\"

  Therewasascrapingofchairsintheroom。ItwasthenthatGeorgeWillardretreatedtohisownroom。

  LeaningoutatthewindowhesawJoeWellinggoingalongthestreetwiththetwoKings。TomKingwasforcedtotakeextraordinarylongstridestokeeppacewiththelittleman。Ashestrodealong,heleanedover,listening——absorbed,fascinated。JoeWellingagaintalkedexcitedly。\"Takemilkweednow,\"hecried。\"Alotmightbedonewithmilk-

  weed,eh?It\'salmostunbelievable。Iwantyoutothinkaboutit。Iwantyoutwotothinkaboutit。

  Therewouldbeanewvegetablekingdomyousee。

  It\'sinteresting,eh?It\'sanidea。WaittillyouseeSarah,she\'llgettheidea。She\'llbeinterested。Sarahisalwaysinterestedinideas。Youcan\'tbetoosmartforSarah,nowcanyou?Ofcourseyoucan\'t。Youknowthat。\"

  ADVENTURE

  ALICEHINDMAN,awomanoftwenty-sevenwhenGeorgeWillardwasamereboy,hadlivedinWines-

  burgallherlife。SheclerkedinWinney\'sDryGoodsStoreandlivedwithhermother,whohadmarriedasecondhusband。

  Alice\'sstep-fatherwasacarriagepainter,andgiventodrink。Hisstoryisanoddone。Itwillbeworthtellingsomeday。

  Attwenty-sevenAlicewastallandsomewhatslight。Herheadwaslargeandovershadowedherbody。Hershoulderswerealittlestoopedandherhairandeyesbrown。Shewasveryquietbutbeneathaplacidexterioracontinualfermentwenton。

  Whenshewasagirlofsixteenandbeforeshebegantoworkinthestore,Alicehadanaffairwithayoungman。Theyoungman,namedNedCurrie,wasolderthanAlice。He,likeGeorgeWillard,wasemployedontheWinesburgEagleandforalongtimehewenttoseeAlicealmosteveryevening。Togetherthetwowalkedunderthetreesthroughthestreetsofthetownandtalkedofwhattheywoulddowiththeirlives。AlicewasthenaveryprettygirlandNedCurrietookherintohisarmsandkissedher。HebecameexcitedandsaidthingshedidnotintendtosayandAlice,betrayedbyherdesiretohavesome-

  thingbeautifulcomeintoherrathernarrowlife,alsogrewexcited。Shealsotalked。Theoutercrustofherlife,allofhernaturaldiffidenceandreserve,wastomawayandshegaveherselfovertotheemotionsoflove。When,lateinthefallofhersixteenthyear,NedCurriewentawaytoClevelandwherehehopedtogetaplaceonacitynewspaperandriseintheworld,shewantedtogowithhim。Withatremblingvoiceshetoldhimwhatwasinhermind。\"Iwillworkandyoucanwork,\"shesaid。\"Idonotwanttoharnessyoutoaneedlessexpensethatwillpre-

  ventyourmakingprogress。Don\'tmarrymenow。

  Wewillgetalongwithoutthatandwecanbeto-

  gether。Eventhoughweliveinthesamehousenoonewillsayanything。Inthecitywewillbeun-

  knownandpeoplewillpaynoattentiontous。\"

  NedCurriewaspuzzledbythedeterminationandabandonofhissweetheartandwasalsodeeplytouched。Hehadwantedthegirltobecomehismis-

  tressbutchangedhismind。Hewantedtoprotectandcareforher。\"Youdon\'tknowwhatyou\'retalk-

  ingabout,\"hesaidsharply;\"youmaybesureI\'llletyoudonosuchthing。AssoonasIgetagoodjobI\'llcomeback。Forthepresentyou\'llhavetostayhere。It\'stheonlythingwecando。\"

  OntheeveningbeforeheleftWinesburgtotakeuphisnewlifeinthecity,NedCurriewenttocallonAlice。TheywalkedaboutthroughthestreetsforanhourandthengotarigfromWesleyMoyer\'sliveryandwentforadriveinthecountry。Themooncameupandtheyfoundthemselvesunabletotalk。

  Inhissadnesstheyoungmanforgottheresolutionshehadmaderegardinghisconductwiththegirl。

  TheygotoutofthebuggyataplacewherealongmeadowrandowntothebankofWineCreekandthereinthedimlightbecamelovers。Whenatmid-

  nighttheyreturnedtotowntheywerebothglad。Itdidnotseemtothemthatanythingthatcouldhap-

  peninthefuturecouldblotoutthewonderandbeautyofthethingthathadhappened。\"Nowwewillhavetosticktoeachother,whateverhappenswewillhavetodothat,\"NedCurriesaidasheleftthegirlatherfather\'sdoor。

  Theyoungnewspapermandidnotsucceedinget-

  tingaplaceonaClevelandpaperandwentwesttoChicago。ForatimehewaslonelyandwrotetoAlicealmosteveryday。Thenhewascaughtupbythelifeofthecity;hebegantomakefriendsandfoundnewinterestsinlife。InChicagoheboardedatahousewheretherewereseveralwomen。OneofthemattractedhisattentionandheforgotAliceinWinesburg。Attheendofayearhehadstoppedwritingletters,andonlyonceinalongtime,whenhewaslonelyorwhenhewentintooneofthecityparksandsawthemoonshiningonthegrassasithadshonethatnightonthemeadowbyWineCreek,didhethinkofheratall。

  InWinesburgthegirlwhohadbeenlovedgrewtobeawoman。Whenshewastwenty-twoyearsoldherfather,whoownedaharnessrepairshop,diedsuddenly。Theharnessmakerwasanoldsoldier,andafterafewmonthshiswifereceivedawidow\'spension。Sheusedthefirstmoneyshegottobuyaloomandbecameaweaverofcarpets,andAlicegotaplaceinWinney\'sstore。ForanumberofyearsnothingcouldhaveinducedhertobelievethatNedCurriewouldnotintheendreturntoher。

  Shewasgladtobeemployedbecausethedailyroundoftoilinthestoremadethetimeofwaitingseemlesslonganduninteresting。Shebegantosavemoney,thinkingthatwhenshehadsavedtwoorthreehundreddollarsshewouldfollowherlovertothecityandtryifherpresencewouldnotwinbackhisaffections。

  AlicedidnotblameNedCurrieforwhathadhap-

  penedinthemoonlightinthefield,butfeltthatshecouldnevermarryanotherman。ToherthethoughtofgivingtoanotherwhatshestillfeltcouldbelongonlytoNedseemedmonstrous。Whenotheryoungmentriedtoattractherattentionshewouldhavenothingtodowiththem。\"Iamhiswifeandshallremainhiswifewhetherhecomesbackornot,\"shewhisperedtoherself,andforallofherwillingnesstosupportherselfcouldnothaveunderstoodthegrowingmodernideaofawoman\'sowningherselfandgivingandtakingforherownendsinlife。

  Aliceworkedinthedrygoodsstorefromeightinthemorninguntilsixatnightandonthreeeveningsaweekwentbacktothestoretostayfromsevenuntilnine。Astimepassedandshebecamemoreandmorelonelyshebegantopracticethedevicescommontolonelypeople。Whenatnightshewentupstairsintoherownroomshekneltonthefloortoprayandinherprayerswhisperedthingsshewantedtosaytoherlover。Shebecameattachedtoinanimateobjects,andbecauseitwasherown,couldnotbaretohaveanyonetouchthefurnitureofherroom。Thetrickofsavingmoney,begunforapurpose,wascarriedonaftertheschemeofgoingtothecitytofindNedCurriehadbeengivenup。Itbecameafixedhabit,andwhensheneedednewclothesshedidnotgetthem。Sometimesonrainyafternoonsinthestoreshegotoutherbankbookand,lettingitlieopenbeforeher,spenthoursdreamingimpossibledreamsofsavingmoneyenoughsothattheinterestwouldsupportbothherselfandherfuturehusband。

  \"Nedalwayslikedtotravelabout,\"shethought。

  \"I\'llgivehimthechance。SomedaywhenwearemarriedandIcansavebothhismoneyandmyown,wewillberich。Thenwecantraveltogetherallovertheworld。\"

  InthedrygoodsstoreweeksranintomonthsandmonthsintoyearsasAlicewaitedanddreamedofherlover\'sreturn。Heremployer,agreyoldmanwithfalseteethandathingreymustachethatdroopeddownoverhismouth,wasnotgiventoconversation,andsometimes,onrainydaysandinthewinterwhenastormragedinMainStreet,longhourspassedwhennocustomerscamein。Alicear-

  rangedandrearrangedthestock。Shestoodnearthefrontwindowwhereshecouldlookdownthede-

  sertedstreetandthoughtoftheeveningswhenshehadwalkedwithNedCurrieandofwhathehadsaid。\"Wewillhavetosticktoeachothernow。\"Thewordsechoedandre-echoedthroughthemindofthematuringwoman。Tearscameintohereyes。

  Sometimeswhenheremployerhadgoneoutandshewasaloneinthestoresheputherheadonthecounterandwept。\"Oh,Ned,Iamwaiting,\"shewhisperedoverandover,andallthetimethecreep-

  ingfearthathewouldnevercomebackgrewstrongerwithinher。

  Inthespringwhentherainshavepassedandbe-

  forethelonghotdaysofsummerhavecome,thecountryaboutWinesburgisdelightful。Thetownliesinthemidstofopenfields,butbeyondthefieldsarepleasantpatchesofwoodlands。Inthewoodedplacesaremanylittlecloisterednooks,quietplaceswhereloversgotositonSundayafternoons。Throughthetreestheylookoutacrossthefieldsandseefarmersatworkaboutthebarnsorpeopledrivingupanddownontheroads。Inthetownbellsringandoccasionallyatrainpasses,lookinglikeatoythinginthedistance。

  ForseveralyearsafterNedCurriewentawayAlicedidnotgointothewoodwiththeotheryoungpeopleonSunday,butonedayafterhehadbeengonefortwoorthreeyearsandwhenherlonelinessseemedunbearable,sheputonherbestdressandsetout。Findingalittleshelteredplacefromwhichshecouldseethetownandalongstretchofthefields,shesatdown。Fearofageandineffectualitytookpossessionofher。Shecouldnotsitstill,andarose。Asshestoodlookingoutoverthelandsome-

  thing,perhapsthethoughtofneverceasinglifeasitexpressesitselfintheflowoftheseasons,fixedhermindonthepassingyears。Withashiverofdread,sherealizedthatforherthebeautyandfresh-

  nessofyouthhadpassed。Forthefirsttimeshefeltthatshehadbeencheated。ShedidnotblameNedCurrieanddidnotknowwhattoblame。Sadnesssweptoverher。Droppingtoherknees,shetriedtopray,butinsteadofprayerswordsofprotestcametoherlips。\"Itisnotgoingtocometome。Iwillneverfindhappiness。WhydoItellmyselflies?\"

  shecried,andanoddsenseofreliefcamewiththis,herfirstboldattempttofacethefearthathadbe-

  comeapartofhereverydaylife。

  IntheyearwhenAliceHindmanbecametwenty-

  fivetwothingshappenedtodisturbthedullun-

  eventfulnessofherdays。HermothermarriedBushMilton,thecarriagepainterofWinesburg,andsheherselfbecameamemberoftheWinesburgMethod-

  istChurch。Alicejoinedthechurchbecauseshehadbecomefrightenedbythelonelinessofherpositioninlife。Hermother\'ssecondmarriagehadempha-

  sizedherisolation。\"Iambecomingoldandqueer。

  IfNedcomeshewillnotwantme。Inthecitywhereheislivingmenareperpetuallyyoung。Thereissomuchgoingonthattheydonothavetimetogrowold,\"shetoldherselfwithagrimlittlesmile,andwentresolutelyaboutthebusinessofbecomingac-

  quaintedwithpeople。EveryThursdayeveningwhenthestorehadclosedshewenttoaprayermeetinginthebasementofthechurchandonSundayeveningattendedameetingofanorganizationcalledTheEpworthLeague。

  WhenWillHurley,amiddle-agedmanwhoclerkedinadrugstoreandwhoalsobelongedtothechurch,offeredtowalkhomewithhershedidnotprotest。

  \"OfcourseIwillnotlethimmakeapracticeofbeingwithme,butifhecomestoseemeonceinalongtimetherecanbenoharminthat,\"shetoldherself,stilldeterminedinherloyaltytoNedCurrie。

  Withoutrealizingwhatwashappening,Alicewastryingfeeblyatfirst,butwithgrowingdetermina-

  tion,togetanewholduponlife。Besidethedrugclerkshewalkedinsilence,butsometimesinthedarknessastheywentstolidlyalongsheputoutherhandandtouchedsoftlythefoldsofhiscoat。Whenheleftheratthegatebeforehermother\'shouseshedidnotgoindoors,butstoodforamomentbythedoor。Shewantedtocalltothedrugclerk,toaskhimtositwithherinthedarknessontheporchbeforethehouse,butwasafraidhewouldnotun-

  derstand。\"ItisnothimthatIwant,\"shetoldher-

  self;\"Iwanttoavoidbeingsomuchalone。IfIamnotcarefulIwillgrowunaccustomedtobeingwithpeople。\"

  Duringtheearlyfallofhertwenty-seventhyearapassionaterestlessnesstookpossessionofAlice。Shecouldnotbeartobeinthecompanyofthedrugclerk,andwhen,intheevening,hecametowalkwithhershesenthimaway。Hermindbecamein-

  tenselyactiveandwhen,wearyfromthelonghoursofstandingbehindthecounterinthestore,shewenthomeandcrawledintobed,shecouldnotsleep。Withstaringeyesshelookedintothedark-

  ness。Herimagination,likeachildawakenedfromlongsleep,playedabouttheroom。Deepwithinhertherewassomethingthatwouldnotbecheatedbyphantasiesandthatdemandedsomedefiniteanswerfromlife。

  Alicetookapillowintoherarmsandheldittightlyagainstherbreasts。Gettingoutofbed,shearrangedablanketsothatinthedarknessitlookedlikeaformlyingbetweenthesheetsand,kneelingbesidethebed,shecaressedit,whisperingwordsoverandover,likearefrain。\"Whydoesn\'tsome-

  thinghappen?WhyamIleftherealone?\"shemut-

  tered。AlthoughshesometimesthoughtofNedCurrie,shenolongerdependedonhim。Herdesirehadgrownvague。ShedidnotwantNedCurrieoranyotherman。Shewantedtobeloved,tohavesomethinganswerthecallthatwasgrowinglouderandlouderwithinher。

  AndthenonenightwhenitrainedAlicehadanadventure。Itfrightenedandconfusedher。Shehadcomehomefromthestoreatnineandfoundthehouseempty。BushMiltonhadgoneofftotownandhermothertothehouseofaneighbor。Alicewentupstairstoherroomandundressedinthedarkness。

  Foramomentshestoodbythewindowhearingtherainbeatagainsttheglassandthenastrangedesiretookpossessionofher。Withoutstoppingtothinkofwhatsheintendedtodo,sherandownstairsthroughthedarkhouseandoutintotherain。Asshestoodonthelittlegrassplotbeforethehouseandfeltthecoldrainonherbodyamaddesiretorunnakedthroughthestreetstookpossessionofher。

  Shethoughtthattherainwouldhavesomecre-

  ativeandwonderfuleffectonherbody。Notforyearshadshefeltsofullofyouthandcourage。Shewantedtoleapandrun,tocryout,tofindsomeotherlonelyhumanandembracehim。Onthebricksidewalkbeforethehouseamanstumbledhome-

  ward。Alicestartedtorun。Awild,desperatemoodtookpossessionofher。\"WhatdoIcarewhoitis。

  Heisalone,andIwillgotohim,\"shethought;andthenwithoutstoppingtoconsiderthepossibleresultofhermadness,calledsoftly。\"Wait!\"shecried。

  \"Don\'tgoaway。Whoeveryouare,youmustwait。\"

  Themanonthesidewalkstoppedandstoodlis-

  tening。Hewasanoldmanandsomewhatdeaf。

  Puttinghishandtohismouth,heshouted。\"What?

  Whatsay?\"hecalled。

  Alicedroppedtothegroundandlaytrembling。

  Shewassofrightenedatthethoughtofwhatshehaddonethatwhenthemanhadgoneonhiswayshedidnotdaregettoherfeet,butcrawledonhandsandkneesthroughthegrasstothehouse。

  Whenshegottoherownroomsheboltedthedooranddrewherdressingtableacrossthedoorway。

  Herbodyshookaswithachillandherhandstrem-

  bledsothatshehaddifficultygettingintohernight-

  dress。Whenshegotintobedsheburiedherfaceinthepillowandweptbrokenheartedly。\"Whatisthematterwithme?IwilldosomethingdreadfulifI

  amnotcareful,\"shethought,andturningherfacetothewall,begantryingtoforceherselftofacebravelythefactthatmanypeoplemustliveanddiealone,eveninWinesburg。

  RESPECTABILITY

  IFYOUHAVElivedincitiesandhavewalkedintheparkonasummerafternoon,youhaveperhapsseen,blinkinginacornerofhisironcage,ahuge,grotesquekindofmonkey,acreaturewithugly,sag-

  ging,hairlessskinbelowhiseyesandabrightpur-

  pleunderbody。Thismonkeyisatruemonster。Inthecompletenessofhisuglinessheachievedakindofpervertedbeauty。Childrenstoppingbeforethecagearefascinated,menturnawaywithanairofdisgust,andwomenlingerforamoment,tryingper-

  hapstorememberwhichoneoftheirmaleacquain-

  tancesthethinginsomefaintwayresembles。

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