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  HANDS,concerningWingBiddlebaumPAPERPILLS,concerningDoctorReefyMOTHER,concerningElizabethWillardTHEPHILOSOPHER,concerningDoctorParcivalNOBODYKNOWS,concerningLouiseTrunnionGODLINESS,aTaleinFourPartsI,concerningJesseBentleyII,alsoconcerningJesseBentleyIIISurrender,concerningLouiseBentleyIVTerror,concerningDavidHardyAMANOFIDEAS,concerningJoeWellingADVENTURE,concerningAliceHindmanRESPECTABILITY,concerningWashWilliamsTHETHINKER,concerningSethRichmondTANDY,concerningTandyHardTHESTRENGTHOFGOD,concerningtheReverendCurtisHartmanTHETEACHER,concerningKateSwiftLONELINESS,concerningEnochRobinson。

  ANAWAKENING,concerningBelleCarpenter\"QUEER,\"concerningElmerCowleyTHEUNTOLDLIE,concerningRayPearsonDRINK,concerningTomFosterDEATH,concerningDoctorReefyandElizabethWillardSOPHISTICATION,concerningHelenWhiteDEPARTURE,concerningGeorgeWillardTothememoryofmymother,EMMASMITHANDERSON,whosekeenobservationsonthelifeaboutherfirstawokeinmethehungertoseebeneaththesurfaceoflives,thisbookisdedicated。

  THEWRITER,anoldmanwithawhitemustache,hadsomedifficultyingettingintobed。Thewindowsofthehouseinwhichhelivedwerehighandhewantedtolookatthetreeswhenheawokeinthemorning。Acarpentercametofixthebedsothatitwouldbeonalevelwiththewindow。

  Quiteafusswasmadeaboutthematter。Thecar-

  penter,whohadbeenasoldierintheCivilWar,cameintothewriter\'sroomandsatdowntotalkofbuildingaplatformforthepurposeofraisingthebed。Thewriterhadcigarslyingaboutandthecar-

  pentersmoked。

  Foratimethetwomentalkedoftheraisingofthebedandthentheytalkedofotherthings。Thesoldiergotonthesubjectofthewar。Thewriter,infact,ledhimtothatsubject。ThecarpenterhadoncebeenaprisonerinAndersonvilleprisonandhadlostabrother。Thebrotherhaddiedofstarvation,andwheneverthecarpentergotuponthatsubjecthecried。He,liketheoldwriter,hadawhitemustache,andwhenhecriedhepuckereduphislipsandthemustachebobbedupanddown。Theweepingoldmanwiththecigarinhismouthwasludicrous。Theplanthewriterhadfortheraisingofhisbedwasforgottenandlaterthecarpenterdiditinhisownwayandthewriter,whowaspastsixty,hadtohelphimselfwithachairwhenhewenttobedatnight。

  Inhisbedthewriterrolledoveronhissideandlayquitestill。Foryearshehadbeenbesetwithno-

  tionsconcerninghisheart。Hewasahardsmokerandhisheartfluttered。Theideahadgotintohismindthathewouldsometimedieunexpectedlyandalwayswhenhegotintobedhethoughtofthat。Itdidnotalarmhim。Theeffectinfactwasquiteaspecialthingandnoteasilyexplained。Itmadehimmorealive,thereinbed,thanatanyothertime。

  Perfectlystillhelayandhisbodywasoldandnotofmuchuseanymore,butsomethinginsidehimwasaltogetheryoung。Hewaslikeapregnantwoman,onlythatthethinginsidehimwasnotababybutayouth。No,itwasn\'tayouth,itwasawoman,young,andwearingacoatofmaillikeaknight。Itisabsurd,yousee,totrytotellwhatwasinsidetheoldwriterashelayonhishighbedandlistenedtotheflutteringofhisheart。Thethingtogetatiswhatthewriter,ortheyoungthingwithinthewriter,wasthinkingabout。

  Theoldwriter,likeallofthepeopleintheworld,hadgot,duringhislongfife,agreatmanynotionsinhishead。Hehadoncebeenquitehandsomeandanumberofwomenhadbeeninlovewithhim。

  Andthen,ofcourse,hehadknownpeople,manypeople,knowntheminapeculiarlyintimatewaythatwasdifferentfromthewayinwhichyouandI

  knowpeople。Atleastthatiswhatthewriterthoughtandthethoughtpleasedhim。Whyquarrelwithanoldmanconcerninghisthoughts?

  Inthebedthewriterhadadreamthatwasnotadream。Ashegrewsomewhatsleepybutwasstillconscious,figuresbegantoappearbeforehiseyes。

  Heimaginedtheyoungindescribablethingwithinhimselfwasdrivingalongprocessionoffiguresbe-

  forehiseyes。

  Youseetheinterestinallthisliesinthefiguresthatwentbeforetheeyesofthewriter。Theywereallgrotesques。Allofthemenandwomenthewriterhadeverknownhadbecomegrotesques。

  Thegrotesqueswerenotallhorrible。Somewereamusing,somealmostbeautiful,andone,awomanalldrawnoutofshape,hurttheoldmanbyhergrotesqueness。Whenshepassedhemadeanoiselikeasmalldogwhimpering。Hadyoucomeintotheroomyoumighthavesupposedtheoldmanhadunpleasantdreamsorperhapsindigestion。

  Foranhourtheprocessionofgrotesquespassedbeforetheeyesoftheoldman,andthen,althoughitwasapainfulthingtodo,hecreptoutofbedandbegantowrite。Someoneofthegrotesqueshadmadeadeepimpressiononhismindandhewantedtodescribeit。

  Athisdeskthewriterworkedforanhour。Intheendhewroteabookwhichhecalled\"TheBookoftheGrotesque。\"Itwasneverpublished,butIsawitonceanditmadeanindelibleimpressiononmymind。Thebookhadonecentralthoughtthatisverystrangeandhasalwaysremainedwithme。Byre-

  memberingitIhavebeenabletounderstandmanypeopleandthingsthatIwasneverabletounder-

  standbefore。Thethoughtwasinvolvedbutasimplestatementofitwouldbesomethinglikethis:

  Thatinthebeginningwhentheworldwasyoungtherewereagreatmanythoughtsbutnosuchthingasatruth。Manmadethetruthshimselfandeachtruthwasacompositeofagreatmanyvaguethoughts。Allaboutintheworldwerethetruthsandtheywereallbeautiful。

  Theoldmanhadlistedhundredsofthetruthsinhisbook。Iwillnottrytotellyouofallofthem。

  Therewasthetruthofvirginityandthetruthofpassion,thetruthofwealthandofpoverty,ofthriftandofprofligacy,ofcarelessnessandabandon。

  Hundredsandhundredswerethetruthsandtheywereallbeautiful。

  Andthenthepeoplecamealong。Eachasheap-

  pearedsnatcheduponeofthetruthsandsomewhowerequitestrongsnatchedupadozenofthem。

  Itwasthetruthsthatmadethepeoplegrotesques。

  Theoldmanhadquiteanelaboratetheoryconcern-

  ingthematter。Itwashisnotionthatthemomentoneofthepeopletookoneofthetruthstohimself,calledithistruth,andtriedtolivehislifebyit,hebecameagrotesqueandthetruthheembracedbecameafalsehood。

  Youcanseeforyourselfhowtheoldman,whohadspentallofhislifewritingandwasfilledwithwords,wouldwritehundredsofpagesconcerningthismatter。Thesubjectwouldbecomesobiginhismindthathehimselfwouldbeindangerofbecom-

  ingagrotesque。Hedidn\'t,Isuppose,forthesamereasonthatheneverpublishedthebook。Itwastheyoungthinginsidehimthatsavedtheoldman。

  Concerningtheoldcarpenterwhofixedthebedforthewriter,Ionlymentionedhimbecausehe,THEBOOKOFTHEGROTESQUE7

  likemanyofwhatarecalledverycommonpeople,becamethenearestthingtowhatisunderstandableandlovableofallthegrotesquesinthewriter\'sbook。

  HANDS

  UPONTHEHALFdecayedverandaofasmallframehousethatstoodneartheedgeofaravinenearthetownofWinesburg,Ohio,afatlittleoldmanwalkednervouslyupanddown。Acrossalongfieldthathadbeenseededforcloverbutthathadproducedonlyadensecropofyellowmustardweeds,hecouldseethepublichighwayalongwhichwentawagonfilledwithberrypickersreturningfromthefields。Theberrypickers,youthsandmaidens,laughedandshoutedboisterously。Aboycladinablueshirtleapedfromthewagonandattemptedtodragafterhimoneofthemaidens,whoscreamedandprotestedshrilly。Thefeetoftheboyintheroadkickedupacloudofdustthatfloatedacrossthefaceofthedepartingsun。Overthelongfieldcameathingirlishvoice。\"Oh,youWingBiddlebaum,combyourhair,it\'sfallingintoyoureyes,\"commandedthevoicetotheman,whowasbaldandwhosener-

  vouslittlehandsfiddledaboutthebarewhitefore-

  headasthougharrangingamassoftangledlocks。

  WingBiddlebaum,foreverfrightenedandbesetbyaghostlybandofdoubts,didnotthinkofhimselfasinanywayapartofthelifeofthetownwherehehadlivedfortwentyyears。AmongallthepeopleofWinesburgbutonehadcomeclosetohim。WithGeorgeWillard,sonofTomWillard,theproprietoroftheNewWillardHouse,hehadformedsome-

  thinglikeafriendship。GeorgeWillardwasthere-

  porterontheWinesburgEagleandsometimesintheeveningshewalkedoutalongthehighwaytoWingBiddlebaum\'shouse。Nowastheoldmanwalkedupanddownontheveranda,hishandsmovingnervouslyabout,hewashopingthatGeorgeWillardwouldcomeandspendtheeveningwithhim。Afterthewagoncontainingtheberrypickershadpassed,hewentacrossthefieldthroughthetallmustardweedsandclimbingarailfencepeeredanxiouslyalongtheroadtothetown。Foramomenthestoodthus,rubbinghishandstogetherandlookingupanddowntheroad,andthen,fearovercominghim,ranbacktowalkagainupontheporchonhisownhouse。

  InthepresenceofGeorgeWillard,WingBid-

  dlebaum,whofortwentyyearshadbeenthetownmystery,lostsomethingofhistimidity,andhisshadowypersonality,submergedinaseaofdoubts,cameforthtolookattheworld。Withtheyoungreporterathisside,heventuredinthelightofdayintoMainStreetorstrodeupanddownontherick-

  etyfrontporchofhisownhouse,talkingexcitedly。

  Thevoicethathadbeenlowandtremblingbecameshrillandloud。Thebentfigurestraightened。Withakindofwriggle,likeafishreturnedtothebrookbythefisherman,Biddlebaumthesilentbegantotalk,strivingtoputintowordstheideasthathadbeenaccumulatedbyhismindduringlongyearsofsilence。

  WingBiddlebaumtalkedmuchwithhishands。

  Theslenderexpressivefingers,foreveractive,for-

  everstrivingtoconcealthemselvesinhispocketsorbehindhisback,cameforthandbecamethepistonrodsofhismachineryofexpression。

  ThestoryofWingBiddlebaumisastoryofhands。

  Theirrestlessactivity,likeuntothebeatingofthewingsofanimprisonedbird,hadgivenhimhisname。Someobscurepoetofthetownhadthoughtofit。Thehandsalarmedtheirowner。Hewantedtokeepthemhiddenawayandlookedwithamaze-

  mentatthequietinexpressivehandsofothermenwhoworkedbesidehiminthefields,orpassed,drivingsleepyteamsoncountryroads。

  WhenhetalkedtoGeorgeWillard,WingBid-

  dlebaumclosedhisfistsandbeatwiththemuponatableoronthewallsofhishouse。Theactionmadehimmorecomfortable。Ifthedesiretotalkcametohimwhenthetwowerewalkinginthefields,hesoughtoutastumporthetopboardofafenceandwithhishandspoundingbusilytalkedwithre-

  newedease。

  ThestoryofWingBiddlebaum\'shandsisworthabookinitself。Sympatheticallysetforthitwouldtapmanystrange,beautifulqualitiesinobscuremen。Itisajobforapoet。InWinesburgthehandshadattractedattentionmerelybecauseoftheiractivity。

  WiththemWingBiddlebaumhadpickedashighasahundredandfortyquartsofstrawberriesinaday。

  Theybecamehisdistinguishingfeature,thesourceofhisfame。Alsotheymademoregrotesqueanal-

  readygrotesqueandelusiveindividuality。Wines-

  burgwasproudofthehandsofWingBiddlebauminthesamespiritinwhichitwasproudofBankerWhite\'snewstonehouseandWesleyMoyer\'sbaystallion,TonyTip,thathadwonthetwo-fifteentrotatthefallracesinCleveland。

  AsforGeorgeWillard,hehadmanytimeswantedtoaskaboutthehands。Attimesanalmostover-

  whelmingcuriosityhadtakenholdofhim。HefeltthattheremustbeareasonfortheirstrangeactivityandtheirinclinationtokeephiddenawayandonlyagrowingrespectforWingBiddlebaumkepthimfromblurtingoutthequestionsthatwereofteninhismind。

  Oncehehadbeenonthepointofasking。Thetwowerewalkinginthefieldsonasummerafternoonandhadstoppedtosituponagrassybank。Allafter-

  noonWingBiddlebaumhadtalkedasoneinspired。

  ByafencehehadstoppedandbeatinglikeagiantwoodpeckeruponthetopboardhadshoutedatGeorgeWillard,condemninghistendencytobetoomuchinfluencedbythepeopleabouthim,\"Youaredestroyingyourself,\"hecried。\"Youhavetheincli-

  nationtobealoneandtodreamandyouareafraidofdreams。Youwanttobelikeothersintownhere。

  Youhearthemtalkandyoutrytoimitatethem。\"

  OnthegrassybankWingBiddlebaumhadtriedagaintodrivehispointhome。Hisvoicebecamesoftandreminiscent,andwithasighofcontentmenthelaunchedintoalongramblingtalk,speakingasonelostinadream。

  OutofthedreamWingBiddlebaummadeapic-

  tureforGeorgeWillard。Inthepicturemenlivedagaininakindofpastoralgoldenage。Acrossagreenopencountrycameclean-limbedyoungmen,someafoot,somemounteduponhorses。Incrowdstheyoungmencametogatheraboutthefeetofanoldmanwhosatbeneathatreeinatinygardenandwhotalkedtothem。

  WingBiddlebaumbecamewhollyinspired。Foronceheforgotthehands。SlowlytheystoleforthandlayuponGeorgeWillard\'sshoulders。Some-

  thingnewandboldcameintothevoicethattalked。

  \"Youmusttrytoforgetallyouhavelearned,\"saidtheoldman。\"Youmustbegintodream。Fromthistimeonyoumustshutyourearstotheroaringofthevoices。\"

  Pausinginhisspeech,WingBiddlebaumlookedlongandearnestlyatGeorgeWillard。Hiseyesglowed。Againheraisedthehandstocaresstheboyandthenalookofhorrorsweptoverhisface。

  Withaconvulsivemovementofhisbody,WingBiddlebaumsprangtohisfeetandthrusthishandsdeepintohistrouserspockets。Tearscametohiseyes。\"Imustbegettingalonghome。Icantalknomorewithyou,\"hesaidnervously。

  Withoutlookingback,theoldmanhadhurrieddownthehillsideandacrossameadow,leavingGeorgeWillardperplexedandfrighteneduponthegrassyslope。Withashiverofdreadtheboyaroseandwentalongtheroadtowardtown。\"I\'llnotaskhimabouthishands,\"hethought,touchedbythememoryoftheterrorhehadseenintheman\'seyes。

  \"There\'ssomethingwrong,butIdon\'twanttoknowwhatitis。Hishandshavesomethingtodowithhisfearofmeandofeveryone。\"

  AndGeorgeWillardwasright。Letuslookbrieflyintothestoryofthehands。Perhapsourtalkingofthemwillarousethepoetwhowilltellthehiddenwonderstoryoftheinfluenceforwhichthehandswerebutflutteringpennantsofpromise。

  InhisyouthWingBiddlebaumhadbeenaschoolteacherinatowninPennsylvania。HewasnotthenknownasWingBiddlebaum,butwentbythelesseuphonicnameofAdolphMyers。AsAdolphMyershewasmuchlovedbytheboysofhisschool。

  AdolphMyerswasmeantbynaturetobeateacherofyouth。Hewasoneofthoserare,little-

  understoodmenwhorulebyapowersogentlethatitpassesasalovableweakness。Intheirfeelingfortheboysundertheirchargesuchmenarenotunlikethefinersortofwomenintheirloveofmen。

  Andyetthatisbutcrudelystated。Itneedsthepoetthere。Withtheboysofhisschool,AdolphMyershadwalkedintheeveningorhadsattalkinguntilduskupontheschoolhousestepslostinakindofdream。Hereandtherewenthishands,caressingtheshouldersoftheboys,playingaboutthetousledheads。Ashetalkedhisvoicebecamesoftandmusi-

  cal。Therewasacaressinthatalso。Inawaythevoiceandthehands,thestrokingoftheshouldersandthetouchingofthehairwereapartoftheschoolmaster\'sefforttocarryadreamintotheyoungminds。Bythecaressthatwasinhisfingersheex-

  pressedhimself。Hewasoneofthosemeninwhomtheforcethatcreateslifeisdiffused,notcentralized。

  Underthecaressofhishandsdoubtanddisbeliefwentoutofthemindsoftheboysandtheybeganalsotodream。

  Andthenthetragedy。Ahalf-wittedboyoftheschoolbecameenamoredoftheyoungmaster。Inhisbedatnightheimaginedunspeakablethingsandinthemorningwentforthtotellhisdreamsasfacts。

  Strange,hideousaccusationsfellfromhisloose-

  hunglips。ThroughthePennsylvaniatownwentashiver。Hidden,shadowydoubtsthathadbeeninmen\'smindsconcerningAdolphMyersweregalva-

  nizedintobeliefs。

  Thetragedydidnotlinger。Tremblingladswerejerkedoutofbedandquestioned。\"Heputhisarmsaboutme,\"saidone。\"Hisfingerswerealwaysplay-

  inginmyhair,\"saidanother。

  Oneafternoonamanofthetown,HenryBrad-

  ford,whokeptasaloon,cametotheschoolhousedoor。CallingAdolphMyersintotheschoolyardhebegantobeathimwithhisfists。Ashishardknuck-

  lesbeatdownintothefrightenedfaceoftheschool-

  master,hiswrathbecamemoreandmoreterrible。

  Screamingwithdismay,thechildrenranhereandtherelikedisturbedinsects。\"I\'llteachyoutoputyourhandsonmyboy,youbeast,\"roaredthesa-

  loonkeeper,who,tiredofbeatingthemaster,hadbeguntokickhimabouttheyard。

  AdolphMyerswasdrivenfromthePennsylvaniatowninthenight。Withlanternsintheirhandsadozenmencametothedoorofthehousewherehelivedaloneandcommandedthathedressandcomeforth。Itwasrainingandoneofthemenhadaropeinhishands。Theyhadintendedtohangtheschool-

  master,butsomethinginhisfigure,sosmall,white,andpitiful,touchedtheirheartsandtheylethimescape。Asheranawayintothedarknesstheyre-

  pentedoftheirweaknessandranafterhim,swear-

  ingandthrowingsticksandgreatballsofsoftmudatthefigurethatscreamedandranfasterandfasterintothedarkness。

  FortwentyyearsAdolphMyershadlivedaloneinWinesburg。Hewasbutfortybutlookedsixty-

  five。ThenameofBiddlebaumhegotfromaboxofgoodsseenatafreightstationashehurriedthroughaneasternOhiotown。HehadanauntinWines-

  burg,ablack-toothedoldwomanwhoraisedchick-

  ens,andwithherheliveduntilshedied。HehadbeenillforayearaftertheexperienceinPennsylva-

  nia,andafterhisrecoveryworkedasadaylaborerinthefields,goingtimidlyaboutandstrivingtocon-

  cealhishands。Althoughhedidnotunderstandwhathadhappenedhefeltthatthehandsmustbetoblame。Againandagainthefathersoftheboyshadtalkedofthehands。\"Keepyourhandstoyour-

  self,\"thesaloonkeeperhadroared,dancing,withfuryintheschoolhouseyard。

  Upontheverandaofhishousebytheravine,WingBiddlebaumcontinuedtowalkupanddownuntilthesunhaddisappearedandtheroadbeyondthefieldwaslostinthegreyshadows。Goingintohishousehecutslicesofbreadandspreadhoneyuponthem。Whentherumbleoftheeveningtrainthattookawaytheexpresscarsloadedwiththeday\'sharvestofberrieshadpassedandrestoredthesilenceofthesummernight,hewentagaintowalkupontheveranda。Inthedarknesshecouldnotseethehandsandtheybecamequiet。Althoughhestillhungeredforthepresenceoftheboy,whowasthemediumthroughwhichheexpressedhisloveofman,thehungerbecameagainapartofhisloneli-

  nessandhiswaiting。Lightingalamp,WingBid-

  dlebaumwashedthefewdishessoiledbyhissimplemealand,settingupafoldingcotbythescreendoorthatledtotheporch,preparedtoundressforthenight。Afewstraywhitebreadcrumbslayonthecleanlywashedfloorbythetable;puttingthelampuponalowstoolhebegantopickupthecrumbs,carryingthemtohismouthonebyonewithunbe-

  lievablerapidity。Inthedenseblotchoflightbeneaththetable,thekneelingfigurelookedlikeapriestengagedinsomeserviceofhischurch。Thenervousexpressivefingers,flashinginandoutofthelight,mightwellhavebeenmistakenforthefingersofthedevoteegoingswiftlythroughdecadeafterdecadeofhisrosary。

  PAPERPILLS

  HEWASANoldmanwithawhitebeardandhugenoseandhands。Longbeforethetimeduringwhichwewillknowhim,hewasadoctoranddroveajadedwhitehorsefromhousetohousethroughthestreetsofWinesburg。Laterhemarriedagirlwhohadmoney。Shehadbeenleftalargefertilefarmwhenherfatherdied。Thegirlwasquiet,tall,anddark,andtomanypeoplesheseemedverybeauti-

  ful。EveryoneinWinesburgwonderedwhyshemar-

  riedthedoctor。Withinayearafterthemarriageshedied。

  Theknucklesofthedoctor\'shandswereextraordi-

  narilylarge。Whenthehandswereclosedtheylookedlikeclustersofunpaintedwoodenballsaslargeaswalnutsfastenedtogetherbysteelrods。Hesmokedacobpipeandafterhiswife\'sdeathsatalldayinhisemptyofficeclosebyawindowthatwascoveredwithcobwebs。Heneveropenedthewin-

  dow。OnceonahotdayinAugusthetriedbutfounditstuckfastandafterthatheforgotallaboutit。

  Winesburghadforgottentheoldman,butinDoc-

  torReefythereweretheseedsofsomethingveryfine。AloneinhismustyofficeintheHeffnerBlockabovetheParisDryGoodsCompany\'sstore,heworkedceaselessly,buildingupsomethingthathehimselfdestroyed。Littlepyramidsoftruthheerectedandaftererectingknockedthemdownagainthathemighthavethetruthstoerectotherpyramids。

  DoctorReefywasatallmanwhohadwornonesuitofclothesfortenyears。Itwasfrayedatthesleevesandlittleholeshadappearedatthekneesandelbows。Intheofficeheworealsoalinendusterwithhugepocketsintowhichhecontinuallystuffedscrapsofpaper。Aftersomeweeksthescrapsofpaperbecamelittlehardroundballs,andwhenthepocketswerefilledhedumpedthemoutuponthefloor。Fortenyearshehadbutonefriend,anotheroldmannamedJohnSpaniardwhoownedatreenursery。Sometimes,inaplayfulmood,oldDoctorReefytookfromhispocketsahandfulofthepaperballsandthrewthematthenurseryman。\"Thatistoconfoundyou,youblatheringoldsentimentalist,\"

  hecried,shakingwithlaughter。

  ThestoryofDoctorReefyandhiscourtshipofthetalldarkgirlwhobecamehiswifeandlefthermoneytohimisaverycuriousstory。Itisdelicious,likethetwistedlittleapplesthatgrowintheor-

  chardsofWinesburg。Inthefallonewalksintheorchardsandthegroundishardwithfrostunder-

  foot。Theappleshavebeentakenfromthetreesbythepickers。Theyhavebeenputinbarrelsandshippedtothecitieswheretheywillbeeateninapartmentsthatarefilledwithbooks,magazines,furniture,andpeople。Onthetreesareonlyafewgnarledapplesthatthepickershaverejected。TheylookliketheknucklesofDoctorReefy\'shands。Onenibblesatthemandtheyaredelicious。Intoalittleroundplaceatthesideoftheapplehasbeengath-

  eredallofitssweetness。Onerunsfromtreetotreeoverthefrostedgroundpickingthegnarled,twistedapplesandfillinghispocketswiththem。Onlythefewknowthesweetnessofthetwistedapples。

  ThegirlandDoctorReefybegantheircourtshiponasummerafternoon。Hewasforty-fivethenandalreadyhehadbegunthepracticeoffillinghispock-

  etswiththescrapsofpaperthatbecamehardballsandwerethrownaway。Thehabithadbeenformedashesatinhisbuggybehindthejadedwhitehorseandwentslowlyalongcountryroads。Onthepaperswerewrittenthoughts,endsofthoughts,beginningsofthoughts。

  OnebyonethemindofDoctorReefyhadmadethethoughts。Outofmanyofthemheformedatruththatarosegiganticinhismind。Thetruthcloudedtheworld。Itbecameterribleandthenfadedawayandthelittlethoughtsbeganagain。

  ThetalldarkgirlcametoseeDoctorReefybecauseshewasinthefamilywayandhadbecomefright-

  ened。Shewasinthatconditionbecauseofaseriesofcircumstancesalsocurious。

  Thedeathofherfatherandmotherandtherichacresoflandthathadcomedowntoherhadsetatrainofsuitorsonherheels。Fortwoyearsshesawsuitorsalmosteveryevening。Excepttwotheywereallalike。Theytalkedtoherofpassionandtherewasastrainedeagerqualityintheirvoicesandintheireyeswhentheylookedather。Thetwowhoweredifferentweremuchunlikeeachother。Oneofthem,aslenderyoungmanwithwhitehands,thesonofajewelerinWinesburg,talkedcontinuallyofvirginity。Whenhewaswithherhewasneveroffthesubject。Theother,ablack-hairedboywithlargeears,saidnothingatallbutalwaysmanagedtogetherintothedarkness,wherehebegantokissher。

  Foratimethetalldarkgirlthoughtshewouldmarrythejeweler\'sson。Forhoursshesatinsilencelisteningashetalkedtoherandthenshebegantobeafraidofsomething。Beneathhistalkofvirginityshebegantothinktherewasalustgreaterthaninalltheothers。Attimesitseemedtoherthatashetalkedhewasholdingherbodyinhishands。Sheimaginedhimturningitslowlyaboutinthewhitehandsandstaringatit。Atnightshedreamedthathehadbittenintoherbodyandthathisjawsweredripping。Shehadthedreamthreetimes,thenshebecameinthefamilywaytotheonewhosaidnoth-

  ingatallbutwhointhemomentofhispassionactuallydidbitehershouldersothatfordaysthemarksofhisteethshowed。

  AfterthetalldarkgirlcametoknowDoctorReefyitseemedtoherthatsheneverwantedtoleavehimagain。Shewentintohisofficeonemorningandwithouthersayinganythingheseemedtoknowwhathadhappenedtoher。

  Intheofficeofthedoctortherewasawoman,thewifeofthemanwhokeptthebookstoreinWines-

  burg。Likeallold-fashionedcountrypractitioners,DoctorReefypulledteeth,andthewomanwhowaitedheldahandkerchieftoherteethandgroaned。

  Herhusbandwaswithherandwhenthetoothwastakenouttheybothscreamedandbloodrandownonthewoman\'swhitedress。Thetalldarkgirldidnotpayanyattention。Whenthewomanandthemanhadgonethedoctorsmiled。\"Iwilltakeyoudrivingintothecountrywithme,\"hesaid。

  Forseveralweeksthetalldarkgirlandthedoctorweretogetheralmosteveryday。Theconditionthathadbroughthertohimpassedinanillness,butshewaslikeonewhohasdiscoveredthesweetnessofthetwistedapples,shecouldnotgethermindfixedagainupontheroundperfectfruitthatiseateninthecityapartments。InthefallafterthebeginningofheracquaintanceshipwithhimshemarriedDoc-

  torReefyandinthefollowingspringshedied。Dur-

  ingthewinterhereadtoheralloftheoddsandendsofthoughtshehadscribbledonthebitsofpaper。Afterhehadreadthemhelaughedandstuffedthemawayinhispocketstobecomeroundhardballs。

  MOTHER

  ELIZABETHWILLARD,themotherofGeorgeWillard,wastallandgauntandherfacewasmarkedwithsmallpoxscars。Althoughshewasbutforty-five,someobscurediseasehadtakenthefireoutofherfigure。Listlesslyshewentaboutthedisorderlyoldhotellookingatthefadedwall-paperandtheraggedcarpetsand,whenshewasabletobeabout,doingtheworkofachambermaidamongbedssoiledbytheslumbersoffattravelingmen。Herhusband,TomWillard,aslender,gracefulmanwithsquareshoulders,aquickmilitarystep,andablackmus-

  tachetrainedtoturnsharplyupattheends,triedtoputthewifeoutofhismind。Thepresenceofthetallghostlyfigure,movingslowlythroughthehalls,hetookasareproachtohimself。Whenhethoughtofherhegrewangryandswore。Thehotelwasun-

  profitableandforeverontheedgeoffailureandhewishedhimselfoutofit。Hethoughtoftheoldhouseandthewomanwholivedtherewithhimasthingsdefeatedanddonefor。Thehotelinwhichhehadbegunlifesohopefullywasnowamereghostofwhatahotelshouldbe。Ashewentspruceandbusiness-likethroughthestreetsofWinesburg,hesometimesstoppedandturnedquicklyaboutasthoughfearingthatthespiritofthehotelandofthewomanwouldfollowhimevenintothestreets。

  \"Damnsuchalife,damnit!\"hesputteredaimlessly。

  TomWillardhadapassionforvillagepoliticsandforyearshadbeentheleadingDemocratinastronglyRepublicancommunity。Someday,hetoldhimself,thefideofthingspoliticalwillturninmyfavorandtheyearsofineffectualservicecountbiginthebestowalofrewards。HedreamedofgoingtoCongressandevenofbecominggovernor。Oncewhenayoungermemberofthepartyaroseatapoliticalconferenceandbegantoboastofhisfaithfulservice,TomWillardgrewwhitewithfury。\"Shutup,you,\"heroared,glaringabout。\"Whatdoyouknowofservice?Whatareyoubutaboy?LookatwhatI\'vedonehere!IwasaDemocrathereinWinesburgwhenitwasacrimetobeaDemocrat。

  Intheolddaystheyfairlyhunteduswithguns。\"

  BetweenElizabethandheronesonGeorgetherewasadeepunexpressedbondofsympathy,basedonagirlhooddreamthathadlongagodied。Intheson\'spresenceshewastimidandreserved,butsometimeswhilehehurriedabouttownintentuponhisdutiesasareporter,shewentintohisroomandclosingthedoorkneltbyalittledesk,madeofakitchentable,thatsatnearawindow。Intheroombythedeskshewentthroughaceremonythatwashalfaprayer,halfademand,addressedtotheskies。

  Intheboyishfiguresheyearnedtoseesomethinghalfforgottenthathadoncebeenapartofherselfre-

  created。Theprayerconcernedthat。\"EventhoughI

  die,Iwillinsomewaykeepdefeatfromyou,\"shecried,andsodeepwasherdeterminationthatherwholebodyshook。Hereyesglowedandsheclenchedherfists。\"IfIamdeadandseehimbecomingameaninglessdrabfigurelikemyself,Iwillcomeback,\"shedeclared。\"IaskGodnowtogivemethatprivilege。Idemandit。Iwillpayforit。Godmaybeatmewithhisfists。Iwilltakeanyblowthatmaybefallifbutthismyboybeallowedtoexpresssome-

  thingforusboth。\"Pausinguncertainly,thewomanstaredabouttheboy\'sroom。\"Anddonotlethimbecomesmartandsuccessfuleither,\"sheaddedvaguely。

  ThecommunionbetweenGeorgeWillardandhismotherwasoutwardlyaformalthingwithoutmean-

  ing。Whenshewasillandsatbythewindowinherroomhesometimeswentintheeveningtomakeheravisit。TheysatbyawindowthatlookedovertheroofofasmallframebuildingintoMainStreet。

  Byturningtheirheadstheycouldseethroughan-

  otherwindow,alonganalleywaythatranbehindtheMainStreetstoresandintothebackdoorofAbnerGroff\'sbakery。Sometimesastheysatthusapictureofvillagelifepresenteditselftothem。AtthebackdoorofhisshopappearedAbnerGroffwithastickoranemptymilkbottleinhishand。ForalongtimetherewasafeudbetweenthebakerandagreycatthatbelongedtoSylvesterWest,thedruggist。

  Theboyandhismothersawthecatcreepintothedoorofthebakeryandpresentlyemergefollowedbythebaker,whosworeandwavedhisarmsabout。

  Thebaker\'seyesweresmallandredandhisblackhairandbeardwerefilledwithflourdust。Some-

  timeshewassoangrythat,althoughthecathaddisappeared,hehurledsticks,bitsofbrokenglass,andevensomeofthetoolsofhistradeabout。OncehebrokeawindowatthebackofSinning\'sHard-

  wareStore。Inthealleythegreycatcrouchedbehindbarrelsfilledwithtornpaperandbrokenbottlesabovewhichflewablackswarmofflies。Oncewhenshewasalone,andafterwatchingaprolongedandineffectualoutburstonthepartofthebaker,Eliza-

  bethWillardputherheaddownonherlongwhitehandsandwept。Afterthatshedidnotlookalongthealleywayanymore,buttriedtoforgetthecon-

  testbetweenthebeardedmanandthecat。Itseemedlikearehearsalofherownlife,terribleinitsvividness。

  Intheeveningwhenthesonsatintheroomwithhismother,thesilencemadethembothfeelawk-

  ward。Darknesscameonandtheeveningtraincameinatthestation。Inthestreetbelowfeettrampedupanddownuponaboardsidewalk。Inthestationyard,aftertheeveningtrainhadgone,therewasaheavysilence。PerhapsSkinnerLeason,theexpressagent,movedatruckthelengthofthestationplat-

  form。OveronMainStreetsoundedaman\'svoice,laughing。Thedooroftheexpressofficebanged。

  GeorgeWillardaroseandcrossingtheroomfumbledforthedoorknob。Sometimesheknockedagainstachair,makingitscrapealongthefloor。Bythewin-

  dowsatthesickwoman,perfectlystill,listless。Herlonghands,whiteandbloodless,couldbeseendroopingovertheendsofthearmsofthechair。\"I

  thinkyouhadbetterbeoutamongtheboys。Youaretoomuchindoors,\"shesaid,strivingtorelievetheembarrassmentofthedeparture。\"IthoughtI

  wouldtakeawalk,\"repliedGeorgeWillard,whofeltawkwardandconfused。

  OneeveninginJuly,whenthetransientguestswhomadetheNewWillardHousetheirtemporaryhomehadbecomescarce,andthehallways,lightedonlybykerosenelampsturnedlow,wereplungedingloom,ElizabethWillardhadanadventure。Shehadbeenillinbedforseveraldaysandhersonhadnotcometovisither。Shewasalarmed。Thefeebleblazeoflifethatremainedinherbodywasblownintoaflamebyheranxietyandshecreptoutofbed,dressedandhurriedalongthehallwaytowardherson\'sroom,shakingwithexaggeratedfears。Asshewentalongshesteadiedherselfwithherhand,slippedalongthepaperedwallsofthehallandbreathedwithdifficulty。Theairwhistledthroughherteeth。Asshehurriedforwardshethoughthowfoolishshewas。\"Heisconcernedwithboyishaf-

  fairs,\"shetoldherself。\"Perhapshehasnowbeguntowalkaboutintheeveningwithgirls。\"

  ElizabethWillardhadadreadofbeingseenbyguestsinthehotelthathadoncebelongedtoherfatherandtheownershipofwhichstillstoodre-

  cordedinhernameinthecountycourthouse。Thehotelwascontinuallylosingpatronagebecauseofitsshabbinessandshethoughtofherselfasalsoshabby。

  Herownroomwasinanobscurecornerandwhenshefeltabletoworkshevoluntarilyworkedamongthebeds,preferringthelaborthatcouldbedonewhentheguestswereabroadseekingtradeamongthemerchantsofWinesburg。

  Bythedoorofherson\'sroomthemotherkneltuponthefloorandlistenedforsomesoundfromwithin。Whensheheardtheboymovingaboutandtalkinginlowtonesasmilecametoherlips。GeorgeWillardhadahabitoftalkingaloudtohimselfandtohearhimdoingsohadalwaysgivenhismotherapeculiarpleasure。Thehabitinhim,shefelt,strengthenedthesecretbondthatexistedbetweenthem。Athousandtimesshehadwhisperedtoher-

  selfofthematter。\"Heisgropingabout,tryingtofindhimself,\"shethought。\"Heisnotadullclod,allwordsandsmartness。Withinhimthereisasecretsomethingthatisstrivingtogrow。ItisthethingI

  letbekilledinmyself。\"

  Inthedarknessinthehallwaybythedoorthesickwomanaroseandstartedagaintowardherownroom。Shewasafraidthatthedoorwouldopenandtheboycomeuponher。Whenshehadreachedasafedistanceandwasabouttoturnacornerintoasecondhallwayshestoppedandbracingherselfwithherhandswaited,thinkingtoshakeoffatremblingfitofweaknessthathadcomeuponher。

  Thepresenceoftheboyintheroomhadmadeherhappy。Inherbed,duringthelonghoursalone,thelittlefearsthathadvisitedherhadbecomegiants。

  Nowtheywereallgone。\"WhenIgetbacktomyroomIshallsleep,\"shemurmuredgratefully。

  ButElizabethWillardwasnottoreturntoherbedandtosleep。Asshestoodtremblinginthedarknessthedoorofherson\'sroomopenedandtheboy\'sfather,TomWillard,steppedout。Inthelightthatsteamedoutatthedoorhestoodwiththeknobinhishandandtalked。Whathesaidinfuriatedthewoman。

  TomWillardwasambitiousforhisson。Hehadalwaysthoughtofhimselfasasuccessfulman,al-

  thoughnothinghehadeverdonehadturnedoutsuccessfully。However,whenhewasoutofsightoftheNewWillardHouseandhadnofearofcominguponhiswife,heswaggeredandbegantodrama-

  tizehimselfasoneofthechiefmenofthetown。Hewantedhissontosucceed。Heitwaswhohadse-

  curedfortheboythepositionontheWinesburgEagle。Now,witharingofearnestnessinhisvoice,hewasadvisingconcerningsomecourseofconduct。

  \"Itellyouwhat,George,you\'vegottowakeup,\"

  hesaidsharply。\"WillHendersonhasspokentomethreetimesconcerningthematter。Hesaysyougoalongforhoursnothearingwhenyouarespokentoandactinglikeagawkygirl。Whatailsyou?\"TomWillardlaughedgood-naturedly。\"Well,Iguessyou\'llgetoverit,\"hesaid。\"ItoldWillthat。You\'renotafoolandyou\'renotawoman。You\'reTomWillard\'ssonandyou\'llwakeup。I\'mnotafraid。

  Whatyousayclearsthingsup。Ifbeinganewspapermanhadputthenotionofbecomingawriterintoyourmindthat\'sallright。OnlyIguessyou\'llhavetowakeuptodothattoo,eh?\"

  TomWillardwentbrisklyalongthehallwayanddownaflightofstairstotheoffice。Thewomaninthedarknesscouldhearhimlaughingandtalkingwithaguestwhowasstrivingtowearawayadulleveningbydozinginachairbytheofficedoor。Shereturnedtothedoorofherson\'sroom。Theweak-

  nesshadpassedfromherbodyasbyamiracleandshesteppedboldlyalong。Athousandideasracedthroughherhead。Whensheheardthescrapingofachairandthesoundofapenscratchinguponpaper,sheagainturnedandwentbackalongthehallwaytoherownroom。

  AdefinitedeterminationhadcomeintothemindofthedefeatedwifeoftheWinesburghotelkeeper。

  Thedeterminationwastheresultoflongyearsofquietandratherineffectualthinking。\"Now,\"shetoldherself,\"Iwillact。Thereissomethingthreaten-

  ingmyboyandIwillwarditoff。\"ThefactthattheconversationbetweenTomWillardandhissonhadbeenratherquietandnatural,asthoughanunder-

  standingexistedbetweenthem,maddenedher。Al-

  thoughforyearsshehadhatedherhusband,herhatredhadalwaysbeforebeenaquiteimpersonalthing。Hehadbeenmerelyapartofsomethingelsethatshehated。Now,andbythefewwordsatthedoor,hehadbecomethethingpersonified。Inthedarknessofherownroomsheclenchedherfistsandglaredabout。Goingtoaclothbagthathungonanailbythewallshetookoutalongpairofsewingscissorsandheldtheminherhandlikeadagger。\"I

  willstabhim,\"shesaidaloud。\"HehaschosentobethevoiceofevilandIwillkillhim。WhenIhavekilledhimsomethingwillsnapwithinmyselfandI

  willdiealso。Itwillbeareleaseforallofus。\"

  InhergirlhoodandbeforehermarriagewithTomWillard,Elizabethhadborneasomewhatshakyrep-

  utationinWinesburg。Foryearsshehadbeenwhatiscalled\"stage-struck\"andhadparadedthroughthestreetswithtravelingmenguestsatherfather\'shotel,wearingloudclothesandurgingthemtotellheroflifeinthecitiesoutofwhichtheyhadcome。

  Onceshestartledthetownbyputtingonmen\'sclothesandridingabicycledownMainStreet。

  Inherownmindthetalldarkgirlhadbeeninthosedaysmuchconfused。Agreatrestlessnesswasinheranditexpresseditselfintwoways。Firsttherewasanuneasydesireforchange,forsomebigdefi-

  nitemovementtoherlife。Itwasthisfeelingthathadturnedhermindtothestage。Shedreamedofjoiningsomecompanyandwanderingovertheworld,seeingalwaysnewfacesandgivingsome-

  thingoutofherselftoallpeople。Sometimesatnightshewasquitebesideherselfwiththethought,butwhenshetriedtotalkofthemattertothemembersofthetheatricalcompaniesthatcametoWinesburgandstoppedatherfather\'shotel,shegotnowhere。

  Theydidnotseemtoknowwhatshemeant,orifshedidgetsomethingofherpassionexpressed,theyonlylaughed。\"It\'snotlikethat,\"theysaid。

  \"It\'sasdullanduninterestingasthishere。Nothingcomesofit。\"

  Withthetravelingmenwhenshewalkedaboutwiththem,andlaterwithTomWillard,itwasquitedifferent。Alwaystheyseemedtounderstandandsympathizewithher。Onthesidestreetsofthevil-

  lage,inthedarknessunderthetrees,theytookholdofherhandandshethoughtthatsomethingunex-

  pressedinherselfcameforthandbecameapartofanunexpressedsomethinginthem。

  Andthentherewasthesecondexpressionofherrestlessness。Whenthatcameshefeltforatimere-

  leasedandhappy。ShedidnotblamethemenwhowalkedwithherandlatershedidnotblameTomWillard。Itwasalwaysthesame,beginningwithkissesandending,afterstrangewildemotions,withpeaceandthensobbingrepentance。Whenshesobbedsheputherhanduponthefaceofthemanandhadalwaysthesamethought。Eventhoughhewerelargeandbeardedshethoughthehadbecomesuddenlyalittleboy。Shewonderedwhyhedidnotsobalso。

  Inherroom,tuckedawayinacorneroftheoldWillardHouse,ElizabethWillardlightedalampandputitonadressingtablethatstoodbythedoor。A

  thoughthadcomeintohermindandshewenttoaclosetandbroughtoutasmallsquareboxandsetitonthetable。Theboxcontainedmaterialformake-

  upandhadbeenleftwithotherthingsbyatheatricalcompanythathadoncebeenstrandedinWines-

  burg。ElizabethWillardhaddecidedthatshewouldbebeautiful。Herhairwasstillblackandtherewasagreatmassofitbraidedandcoiledaboutherhead。

  Thescenethatwastotakeplaceintheofficebelowbegantogrowinhermind。Noghostlyworn-outfigureshouldconfrontTomWillard,butsomethingquiteunexpectedandstartling。Tallandwithduskycheeksandhairthatfellinamassfromhershoul-

  ders,afigureshouldcomestridingdownthestair-

  waybeforethestartledloungersinthehoteloffice。

  Thefigurewouldbesilent——itwouldbeswiftandterrible。Asatigresswhosecubhadbeenthreatenedwouldsheappear,comingoutoftheshadows,steal-

  ingnoiselesslyalongandholdingthelongwickedscissorsinherhand。

  Withalittlebrokensobinherthroat,ElizabethWillardblewoutthelightthatstooduponthetableandstoodweakandtremblinginthedarkness。Thestrengththathadbeenasamiracleinherbodyleftandshehalfreeledacrossthefloor,clutchingatthebackofthechairinwhichshehadspentsomanylongdaysstaringoutoverthetinroofsintothemainstreetofWinesburg。InthehallwaytherewasthesoundoffootstepsandGeorgeWillardcameinatthedoor。Sittinginachairbesidehismotherhebegantotalk。\"I\'mgoingtogetoutofhere,\"hesaid。\"Idon\'tknowwhereIshallgoorwhatIshalldobutIamgoingaway。\"

  Thewomaninthechairwaitedandtrembled。Animpulsecametoher。\"Isupposeyouhadbetterwakeup,\"shesaid。\"Youthinkthat?Youwillgotothecityandmakemoney,eh?Itwillbebetterforyou,youthink,tobeabusinessman,tobebriskandsmartandalive?\"Shewaitedandtrembled。

  Thesonshookhishead。\"IsupposeIcan\'tmakeyouunderstand,butoh,IwishIcould,\"hesaidearnestly。\"Ican\'teventalktofatheraboutit。Idon\'ttry。Thereisn\'tanyuse。Idon\'tknowwhatIshalldo。Ijustwanttogoawayandlookatpeopleandthink。\"

  Silencefellupontheroomwheretheboyandwomansattogether。Again,asontheothereve-

  nings,theywereembarrassed。Afteratimetheboytriedagaintotalk。\"Isupposeitwon\'tbeforayearortwobutI\'vebeenthinkingaboutit,\"hesaid,risingandgoingtowardthedoor。\"SomethingfathersaidmakesitsurethatIshallhavetogoaway。\"Hefumbledwiththedoorknob。Intheroomthesilencebecameunbearabletothewoman。Shewantedtocryoutwithjoybecauseofthewordsthathadcomefromthelipsofherson,buttheexpressionofjoyhadbecomeimpossibletoher。\"Ithinkyouhadbet-

  tergooutamongtheboys。Youaretoomuchin-

  doors,\"shesaid。\"IthoughtIwouldgoforalittlewalk,\"repliedthesonsteppingawkwardlyoutoftheroomandclosingthedoor。

  THEPHILOSOPHER

  DOCTORPARCIVALwasalargemanwithadroopingmouthcoveredbyayellowmustache。Healwaysworeadirtywhitewaistcoatoutofthepocketsofwhichprotrudedanumberofthekindofblackci-

  garsknownasstogies。Histeethwereblackandirregularandtherewassomethingstrangeabouthiseyes。Thelidofthelefteyetwitched;itfelldownandsnappedup;itwasexactlyasthoughthelidoftheeyewereawindowshadeandsomeonestoodinsidethedoctor\'sheadplayingwiththecord。

  DoctorParcivalhadalikingfortheboy,GeorgeWillard。ItbeganwhenGeorgehadbeenworkingforayearontheWinesburgEagleandtheacquain-

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