Ihavealreadysaid,thattheentranceintothisclosetwasbesidemybed,which,ontwosides,wascloselyshrowdedbycurtains。Onthatsidenearestthecloset,thecurtainwasraised。AsIpassedalongIcastmyeyethither。Istarted,andlookedagain。Iborealightinmyhand,andbroughtitnearermyeyes,inordertodispelanyillusivemiststhatmighthavehoveredbeforethem。OncemoreIfixedmyeyesuponthebed,inhopethatthismorestedfastscrutinywouldannihilatetheobjectwhichbeforeseemedtobethere。
ThisthenwasthesightwhichCarwinhadpredicted!Thiswastheeventwhichmyunderstandingwastofindinexplicable!Thiswasthefatewhichhadbeenreservedforme,butwhich,bysomeuntowardchance,hadbefallenonanother!
Ihadnotbeenterrifiedbyemptymenaces。Violationanddeathawaitedmyentranceintothischamber。SomeinscrutablechancehadledHERhitherbeforeme,andthemercilessfangsofwhichIwasdesignedtobetheprey,hadmistakentheirvictim,andhadfixedthemselvesinHERheart。Butwherewasmysafety?Wasthemischiefexhaustedorflown?Thestepsoftheassassinhadjustbeenhere;theycouldnotbefaroff;
inamomenthewouldrushintomypresence,andIshouldperishunderthesamepollutingandsuffocatinggrasp!
Myframeshook,andmykneeswereunabletosupportme。I
gazedalternatelyattheclosetdoorandatthedoorofmyroom。
Atoneoftheseavenueswouldentertheexterminatorofmyhonorandmylife。Iwaspreparedfordefence;butnowthatdangerwasimminent,mymeansofdefence,andmypowertousethemweregone。Iwasnotqualified,byeducationandexperience,toencounterperilslikethese:or,perhaps,IwaspowerlessbecauseIwasagainassaultedbysurprize,andhadnotfortifiedmymindbyforesightandpreviousreflectionagainstascenelikethis。
Fearsformyownsafetyagainyieldedplacetoreflectionsonthescenebeforeme。Ifixedmyeyesuponhercountenance。Mysister\'swell-knownandbelovedfeaturescouldnotbeconcealedbyconvulsionorlividness。Whatdirefulillusionledtheehither?Bereftofthee,whatholdonhappinessremainstothyoffspringandthyspouse?Tolosetheebyacommonfatewouldhavebeensufficientlyhard;butthussuddenlytoperish——tobecomethepreyofthisghastlydeath!HowwillaspectaclelikethisbeenduredbyWieland?Todiebeneathhisgraspwouldnotsatisfythyenemy。Thiswasmercytotheevilswhichhepreviouslymadetheesuffer!Aftertheseevilsdeathwasaboonwhichthoubesoughtesthimtogrant。Heentertainednoenmityagainstthee:Iwastheobjectofhistreason;butbysometremendousmistakehisfurywasmisplaced。Buthowcomestthouhither?andwherewasWielandinthyhourofdistress?
Iapproachedthecorpse:Iliftedthestillflexiblehand,andkissedthelipswhichwerebreathless。Herflowingdraperywasdiscomposed。Irestoredittoorder,andseatingmyselfonthebed,againfixedstedfasteyesuponhercountenance。I
cannotdistinctlyrecollecttheruminationsofthatmoment。I
sawconfusedly,butforcibly,thateveryhopewasextinguishedwiththelifeofCATHARINE。AllhappinessanddignitymusthenceforthbebanishedfromthehouseandnameofWieland:allthatremainedwastolingeroutinagoniesashortexistence;
andleavetotheworldamonumentofblastedhopesandchangeablefortune。Pleyelwasalreadylosttome;yet,whileCatharinelivedlifewasnotadetestablepossession:butnow,severedfromthecompanionofmyinfancy,thepartakerofallmythoughts,mycares,andmywishes,Iwaslikeonesetafloatuponastormysea,andhanginghissafetyuponaplank;nightwasclosinguponhim,andanunexpectedsurgehadtornhimfromhisholdandoverwhelmedhimforever。
ChapterXVII
Ihadnoinclinationnorpowertomovefromthisspot。Formorethananhour,myfacultiesandlimbsseemedtobedeprivedofallactivity。Thedoorbelowcreakedonitshinges,andstepsascendedthestairs。Mywanderingandconfusedthoughtswereinstantlyrecalledbythesesounds,anddroppingthecurtainofthebed,Imovedtoapartoftheroomwhereanyonewhoenteredshouldbevisible;sucharethevibrationsofsentiment,thatnotwithstandingtheseemingfulfilmentofmyfears,andincreaseofmydanger,Iwasconscious,onthisoccasion,tonoturbulencebutthatofcuriosity。
Atlengthheenteredtheapartment,andIrecognizedmybrother。ItwasthesameWielandwhomIhadeverseen。Yethisfeatureswerepervadedbyanewexpression。Isupposedhimunacquaintedwiththefateofhiswife,andhisappearanceconfirmedthispersuasion。AbrowexpandingintoexultationI
hadhithertoneverseeninhim,yetsuchabrowdidhenowwear。
Notonlywasheunapprizedofthedisasterthathadhappened,butsomejoyousoccurrencehadbetided。Whatareversewaspreparingtoannihilatehistransitorybliss!Nohusbandeverdoatedmorefondly,fornowifeeverclaimedsoboundlessadevotion。Iwasnotuncertainastotheeffectstoflowfromthediscoveryofherfate。Iconfidednotatallintheeffortsofhisreasonorhispiety。Therewerefewevilswhichhismodesofthinkingwouldnotdisarmoftheirsting;buthere,allopiatestogrief,andallcompellersofpatiencewerevain。
Thisspectaclewouldbeunavoidablyfollowedbytheoutragesofdesperation,andarushingtodeath。
Forthepresent,Ineglectedtoaskmyselfwhatmotivebroughthimhither。Iwasonlyfearfuloftheeffectstoflowfromthesightofthedead。Yetcoulditbelongconcealedfromhim?Sometimeandspeedilyhewouldobtainthisknowledge。Nostratagemscouldconsiderablyorusefullyprolonghisignorance。
Allthatcouldbesoughtwastotakeawaytheabruptnessofthechange,andshutouttheconfusionofdespair,andtheinroadsofmadness:butIknewmybrother,andknewthatallexertionstoconsolehimwouldbefruitless。
WhatcouldIsay?Iwasmute,andpouredforththosetearsonhisaccount,whichmyownunhappinesshadbeenunabletoextort。Inthemidstofmytears,Iwasnotunobservantofhismotions。Thesewereofanaturetorousesomeothersentimentthangriefor,atleast,tomixwithitaportionofastonishment。
Hiscountenancesuddenlybecametroubled。Hishandswereclaspedwithaforcethatlefttheprintofhisnailsinhisflesh。Hiseyeswerefixedonmyfeet。Hisbrainseemedtoswellbeyonditscontinent。Hedidnotceasetobreathe,buthisbreathwasstifledintogroans。Ihadneverwitnessedthehurricaneofhumanpassions。Myelementhad,tilllately,beenallsunshineandcalm。Iwasunconversantwiththealtitudesandenergiesofsentiment,andwastransfixedwithinexplicablehorrorbythesymptomswhichInowbeheld。
AfterasilenceandaconflictwhichIcouldnotinterpret,heliftedhiseyestoheaven,andinbrokenaccentsexclaimed,\"Thisistoomuch!Anyvictimbutthis,andthywillbedone。
HaveInotsufficientlyattestedmyfaithandmyobedience?Shethatisgone,theythathaveperished,werelinkedwithmysoulbytieswhichonlythycommandwouldhavebroken;buthereissanctityandexcellencesurpassinghuman。Thisworkmanshipisthine,anditcannotbethywilltoheapitintoruins。\"
Heresuddenlyunclaspinghishands,hestruckoneofthemagainsthisforehead,andcontinued——\"Wretch!whomadetheequicksightedinthecouncilsofthyMaker?Deliverancefrommortalfettersisawardedtothisbeing,andthouarttheministerofthisdecree。\"
Sosaying,Wielandadvancedtowardsme。Hiswordsandhismotionswerewithoutmeaning,exceptononesupposition。ThedeathofCatharinewasalreadyknowntohim,andthatknowledge,asmighthavebeensuspected,haddestroyedhisreason。Ihadfearednothingless;butnowthatIbeheldtheextinctionofamindthemostluminousandpenetratingthateverdignifiedthehumanform,mysensationswerefraughtwithnewandinsupportableanguish。
Ihadnottimetoreflectinwhatwaymyownsafetywouldbeeffectedbythisrevolution,orwhatIhadtodreadfromthewildconceptionsofamadman。Headvancedtowardsme。Somehollownoiseswerewaftedbythebreeze。Confusedclamoursweresucceededbymanyfeettraversingthegrass,andthencrowdingintOthepiazza。
Thesesoundssuspendedmybrother\'spurpose,andhestoodtolisten。Thesignalsmultipliedandgrewlouder;perceivingthis,heturnedfromme,andhurriedoutofmysight。Allaboutmewaspregnantwithmotivestoastonishment。Mysister\'scorpse,Wieland\'sfranticdemeanour,and,atlength,thiscrowdofvisitantssolittleaccordedwithmyforesight,thatmymentalprogresswasstopped。Theimpulsehadceasedwhichwasaccustomedtogivemotionandordertomythoughts。
Footstepsthrongeduponthestairs,andpresentlymanyfacesshewedthemselveswithinthedoorofmyapartment。Theselookswerefullofalarmandwatchfulness。Theypryedintocornersasifinsearchofsomefugitive;nexttheirgazewasfixeduponme,andbetokenedallthevehemenceofterrorandpity。ForatimeIquestionedwhetherthesewerenotshapesandfaceslikethatwhichIhadseenatthebottomofthestairs,creaturesofmyfancyorairyexistences。
Myeyewanderedfromonetoanother,tillatlengthitfellonacountenancewhichIwellknew。ItwasthatofMr。Hallet。
Thismanwasadistantkinsmanofmymother,venerableforhisage,hisuprightness,andsagacity。Hehadlongdischargedthefunctionsofamagistrateandgoodcitizen。Ifanyterrorsremained,hispresencewassufficienttodispelthem。
Heapproached,tookmyhandwithacompassionateair,andsaidinalowvoice,\"Where,mydearClara,areyourbrotherandsister?\"Imadenoanswer,butpointedtothebed。Hisattendantsdrewasidethecurtain,andwhiletheireyesglaredwithhorroratthespectaclewhichtheybeheld,thoseofMr。
Halletoverflowedwithtears。
Afterconsiderablepause,heoncemoreturnedtome。\"Mydeargirl,thissightisnotforyou。Canyouconfideinmycare,andthatofMrs。Baynton\'s?Wewillseeperformedallthatcircumstancesrequire。\"
Imadestrenuousoppositiontothisrequest。Iinsistedonremainingnearhertillshewereinterred。Hisremonstrances,however,andmyownfeelings,shewedmetheproprietyofatemporarydereliction。Louisastoodinneedofacomforter,andmybrother\'schildrenofanurse。Myunhappybrotherwashimselfanobjectofsolicitudeandcare。Atlength,I
consentedtorelinquishthecorpse,andgotomybrother\'s,whosehouse,Isaid,wouldneedmistress,andhischildrenaparent。
Duringthisdiscourse,myvenerablefriendstruggledwithhistears,butmylastintimationcalledthemforthwithfreshviolence。Meanwhile,hisattendantsstoodroundinmournfulsilence,gazingonmeandateachother。Irepeatedmyresolution,androsetoexecuteit;buthetookmyhandtodetainme。Hiscountenancebetrayedirresolutionandreluctance。Irequestedhimtostatethereasonofhisoppositiontothismeasure。Ientreatedhimtobeexplicit。I
toldhimthatmybrotherhadjustbeenthere,andthatIknewhiscondition。Thismisfortunehaddrivenhimtomadness,andhisoffspringmustnotwantaprotector。Ifhechose,IwouldresignWielandtohiscare;buthisinnocentandhelplessbabesstoodininstantneedofnurseandmother,andtheseofficesI
wouldbynomeansallowanothertoperformwhileIhadlife。
EverywordthatIutteredseemedtoaugmenthisperplexityanddistress。Atlasthesaid,\"Ithink,Clara,Ihaveentitledmyselftosomeregardfromyou。Youhaveprofessedyourwillingnesstoobligeme。NowIcalluponyoutoconferuponmethehighestobligationinyourpower。PermitMrs。Bayntontohavethemanagementofyourbrother\'shousefortwoorthreedays;thenitshallbeyourstoactinitasyouplease。Nomatterwhataremymotivesinmakingthisrequest:perhapsI
thinkyourage,yoursex,orthedistresswhichthisdisastermustoccasion,incapacitatesyoufortheoffice。SurelyyouhavenodoubtofMrs。Baynton\'stendernessordiscretion。\"
Newideasnowrushedintomymind。IfixedmyeyesstedfastlyonMr。Hallet。\"Aretheywell?\"saidI。\"IsLouisawell?AreBenjamin,andWilliam,andConstantine,andLittleClara,aretheysafe?Tellmetruly,Ibeseechyou!\"
\"Theyarewell,\"hereplied;\"theyareperfectlysafe。\"
\"Fearnoeffeminateweaknessinme:Icanbeartohearthetruth。Tellmetruly,aretheywell?\"
Heagainassuredmethattheywerewell。
\"Whatthen,\"resumedI,\"doyoufear?Isitpossibleforanycalamitytodisqualifymeforperformingmydutytothesehelplessinnocents?IamwillingtodividethecareofthemwithMrs。Baynton;Ishallbegratefulforhersympathyandaid;
butwhatshouldIbetodesertthematanhourlikethis!\"
Iwillcutshortthisdistressfuldialogue。Istillpersistedinmypurpose,andhestillpersistedinhisopposition。Thisexcitedmysuspicionsanew;butthesewereremovedbysolemndeclarationsoftheirsafety。Icouldnotexplainthisconductinmyfriend;butatlengthconsentedtogotothecity,providedIshouldseethemforafewminutesatpresent,andshouldreturnonthemorrow。
Eventhisarrangementwasobjectedto。Atlengthhetoldmetheywereremovedtothecity。Whyweretheyremoved,Iasked,andwhither?Myimportunitieswouldnotnowbeeluded。Mysuspicionswereroused,andnoevasionorartificewassufficienttoallaythem。Manyoftheaudiencebegantogiveventtotheiremotionsintears。Mr。Hallethimselfseemedasiftheconflictweretoohardtobelongersustained。SomethingwhisperedtomyheartthathavochadbeenwiderthanInowwitnessed。Isuspectedthisconcealmenttoarisefromapprehensionsoftheeffectswhichaknowledgeofthetruthwouldproduceinme。Ioncemoreentreatedhimtoinformmetrulyoftheirstate。Toenforcemyentreaties,Iputonanairofinsensibility。\"Icanguess,\"saidI,\"whathashappened——Theyareindeedbeyondthereachofinjury,fortheyaredead!Isitnotso?\"Myvoicefalteredinspiteofmycourageousefforts。
\"Yes,\"saidhe,\"theyaredead!Deadbythesamefate,andbythesamehand,withtheirmother!\"
\"Dead!\"repliedI;\"what,all?\"
\"All!\"repliedhe:\"hesparedNOTONE!\"
Allowme,myfriends,toclosemyeyesupontheafter-scene。
WhyshouldIprotractatalewhichIalreadybegintofeelistoolong?Overthissceneatleastletmepasslightly。Here,indeed,mynarrativewouldbeimperfect。Allwastempestuouscommotioninmyheartandinmybrain。Ihavenomemoryforoughtbutunconscioustransitionsandruefulsights。Iwasingeniousandindefatigableintheinventionoftorments。I
wouldnotdispensewithanyspectacleadaptedtoexasperatemygrief。EachpaleandmangledformIcrushedtomybosom。
Louisa,whomIlovedwithsoineffableapassion,wasdeniedtomeatfirst,butmyobstinacyconqueredtheirreluctance。
Theyledthewayintoadarkenedhall。Alamppendantfromtheceilingwasuncovered,andtheypointedtoatable。Theassassinhaddefraudedmeofmylastandmiserableconsolation。
Isoughtnotinhervisage,forthetingeofthemorning,andthelustreofheaven。Thesehadvanishedwithlife;butIhopedforlibertytoprintalastkissuponherlips。Thiswasdeniedme;forsuchhadbeenthemercilessblowthatdestroyedher,thatnotaLINEAMENTREMAINED!
Iwascarriedhencetothecity。Mrs。Halletwasmycompanionandmynurse。WhyshouldIdwellupontherageoffever,andtheeffusionsofdelirium?Carwinwasthephantomthatpursuedmydreams,thegiantoppressorunderwhosearmI
wasforeveronthepointofbeingcrushed。Strenuousmuscleswererequiredtohindermyflight,andheartsofsteeltowithstandtheeloquenceofmyfears。InvainIcalleduponthemtolookupward,tomarkhissparklingrageandscowlingcontempt。AllIsoughtwastoflyfromthestrokethatwaslifted。ThenIheapeduponmyguardsthemostvehementreproaches,orbetookmyselftowailingsonthehaplessnessofmycondition。
Thismalady,atlength,declined,andmyweepingfriendsbegantolookformyrestoration。Slowly,andwithintermittedbeams,memoryrevisitedme。ThescenesthatIhadwitnessedwererevived,becamethethemeofdeliberationanddeduction,andcalledforththeeffusionsofmorerationalsorrow。
ChapterXVIII
Ihadimperfectlyrecoveredmystrength,whenIwasinformedofthearrivalofmymother\'sbrother,ThomasCambridge。Tenyearssince,hewenttoEurope,andwasasurgeonintheBritishforcesinGermany,duringthewholeofthelatewar。Afteritsconclusion,someconnectionthathehadformedwithanIrishofficer,madehimretireintoIreland。Intercoursehadbeenpunctuallymaintainedbyletterswithhissister\'schildren,andhopesweregiventhathewouldshortlyreturntohisnativecountry,andpasshisoldageinoursociety。Hewasnowinanevilhourarrived。
Idesiredaninterviewwithhimfornumerousandurgentreasons。WiththefirstreturnsofmyunderstandingIhadanxiouslysoughtinformationofthefateofmybrother。DuringthecourseofmydiseaseIhadneverseenhim;andvagueandunsatisfactoryanswerswerereturnedtoallmyinquires。IhadvehementlyinterrogatedMrs。Halletandherhusband,andsolicitedaninterviewwiththisunfortunateman;buttheymysteriouslyinsinuatedthathisreasonwasstillunsettled,andthathiscircumstancesrenderedaninterviewimpossible。Theirreserveontheparticularsofthisdestruction,andtheauthorofit,wasequallyinvincible。
Forsometime,findingallmyeffortsfruitless,Ihaddesistedfromdirectinquiriesandsolicitations,determined,assoonasmystrengthwassufficientlyrenewed,topursueothermeansofdispellingmyuncertainty。Inthisstateofthingsmyuncle\'sarrivalandintentiontovisitmewereannounced。I
almostshudderedtobeholdthefaceofthisman。WhenI
reflectedonthedisastersthathadbefallenus,Iwashalfunwillingtowitnessthatdejectionandgriefwhichwouldbedisclosedinhiscountenance。ButIbelievedthatalltransactionshadbeenthoroughlydisclosedtohim,andconfidedinmyimportunitytoextortfromhimtheknowledgethatI
sought。
Ihadnodoubtastothepersonofourenemy;butthemotivesthaturgedhimtoperpetratethesehorrors,themeansthatheused,andhispresentcondition,weretotallyunknown。Itwasreasonabletoexpectsomeinformationonthishead,frommyuncle。Ithereforewaitedhiscomingwithimpatience。Atlength,intheduskoftheevening,andinmysolitarychamber,thismeetingtookplace。
Thismanwasournearestrelation,andhadevertreateduswiththeaffectionofaparent。Ourmeeting,therefore,couldnotbewithoutoverflowingtendernessandgloomyjoy。HeratherencouragedthanrestrainedthetearsthatIpouredoutinhisarms,andtookuponhimselfthetaskofcomforter。Allusionstorecentdisasterscouldnotbelongomitted。Onetopicfacilitatedtheadmissionofanother。Atlength,ImentionedanddeploredtheignoranceinwhichIhadbeenkeptrespectingmybrother\'sdestiny,andthecircumstancesofourmisfortunes。
IentreatedhimtotellmewhatwasWieland\'scondition,andwhatprogresshadbeenmadeindetectingorpunishingtheauthorofthisunheard-ofdevastation。
\"Theauthor!\"saidhe;\"Doyouknowtheauthor?\"
\"Alas!\"Ianswered,\"Iamtoowellacquaintedwithhim。Thestoryofthegroundsofmysuspicionswouldbepainfulandtoolong。Iamnotapprizedoftheextentofyourpresentknowledge。TherearenonebutWieland,Pleyel,andmyself,whoareabletorelatecertainfacts。\"
\"Spareyourselfthepain,\"saidhe。\"AllthatWielandandPleyelcancommunicate,Iknowalready。Ifanythingofmomenthasfallenwithinyourownexclusiveknowledge,andtherelationbenottooarduousforyourpresentstrength,IconfessIamdesirousofhearingit。PerhapsyoualludetoonebythenameofCarwin。Iwillanticipateyourcuriositybysaying,thatsincethesedisasters,noonehasseenorheardofhim。Hisagencyis,therefore,amysterystillunsolved。\"
Ireadilycompliedwithhisrequest,andrelatedasdistinctlyasIcould,thoughingeneralterms,theeventstransactedinthesummer-houseandmychamber。HelistenedwithoutapparentsurprizetothetaleofPleyel\'serrorsandsuspicions,andwithaugmentedseriousness,tomynarrativeofthewarningsandinexplicablevision,andtheletterfounduponthetable。Iwaitedforhiscomments。
\"Yougatherfromthis,\"saidhe,\"thatCarwinistheauthorofallthismisery。\"
\"Isitnot,\"answeredI,\"anunavoidableinference?Butwhatknowyourespectingit?Wasitpossibletoexecutethismischiefwithoutwitnessorcoadjutor?Ibeseechyoutorelatetome,whenandwhyMr。Halletwassummonedtothescene,andbywhomthisdisasterwasfirstsuspectedordiscovered。Surely,suspicionmusthavefallenuponsomeone,andpursuitwasmade。\"
Myunclerosefromhisseat,andtraversedthefloorwithhastysteps。Hiseyeswerefixedupontheground,andheseemedburiedinperplexity。Atlengthhepaused,andsaidwithanemphatictone,\"Itistrue;theinstrumentisknown。Carwinmayhaveplotted,buttheexecutionwasanother\'s。Thatotherisfound,andhisdeedisascertained。\"
\"Goodheaven!\"Iexclaimed,\"whatsayyou?WasnotCarwintheassassin?Couldanyhandbuthishavecarriedintoactthisdreadfulpurpose?\"
\"HaveInotsaid,\"returnedhe,\"thattheperformancewasanother\'s?Carwin,perhaps,orheaven,orinsanity,promptedthemurderer;butCarwinisunknown。Theactualperformerhas,longsince,beencalledtojudgmentandconvicted,andis,atthismoment,atthebottomofadungeonloadedwithchains。\"
Iliftedmyhandsandeyes。\"Whothenisthisassassin?Bywhatmeans,andwhitherwashetraced?Whatisthetestimonyofhisguilt?\"
\"Hisown,corroboratedwiththatofaservant-maidwhospiedthemurderofthechildrenfromaclosetwhereshewasconcealed。Themagistratereturnedfromyourdwellingtoyourbrother\'s。Hewasemployedinhearingandrecordingthetestimonyoftheonlywitness,whenthecriminalhimself,unexpected,unsolicited,unsought,enteredthehall,acknowledgedhisguilt,andrenderedhimselfuptojustice。
\"Hehassincebeensummonedtothebar。Theaudiencewascomposedofthousandswhomrumoursofthiswonderfuleventhadattractedfromthegreatestdistance。Alongandimpartialexaminationwasmade,andtheprisonerwascalleduponforhisdefence。Incompliancewiththiscallhedeliveredanamplerelationofhismotivesandactions。\"Therehestopped。
Ibesoughthimtosaywhothiscriminalwas,andwhattheinstigationsthatcompelledhim。Myunclewassilent。Iurgedthisinquirywithnewforce。Irevertedtomyownknowledge,andsoughtinthissomebasistoconjecture。IranoverthescantycatalogueofthemenwhomIknew;Ilightedonnoonewhowasqualifiedforministeringtomalicelikethis。AgainI
resortedtoimportunity。HadIeverseenthecriminal?Wasitsheercruelty,ordiabolicalrevengethatproducedthisoverthrow?
Hesurveyedme,foraconsiderabletime,andlistenedtomyinterrogationsinsilence。Atlengthhespoke:\"Clara,Ihaveknowntheebyreport,andinsomedegreebyobservation。Thouartabeingofnovulgarsort。Thyfriendshavehithertotreatedtheeasachild。Theymeantwell,but,perhaps,theywereunacquaintedwiththystrength。Iassuremyselfthatnothingwillsurpassthyfortitude。
\"Thouartanxioustoknowthedestroyerofthyfamily,hisactions,andhismotives。ShallIcallhimtothypresence,andpermithimtoconfessbeforethee?ShallImakehimthenarratorofhisowntale?\"
Istartedonmyfeet,andlookedroundmewithfearfulglances,asifthemurdererwascloseathand。\"Whatdoyoumean?\"saidI;\"putanend,Ibeseechyou,tothissuspence。\"
\"Benotalarmed;youwillnevermorebeholdthefaceofthiscriminal,unlesshebegiftedwithsupernaturalstrength,andseverlikethreadstheconstraintoflinksandbolts。Ihavesaidthattheassassinwasarraignedatthebar,andthatthetrialendedwithasummonsfromthejudgetoconfessortovindicatehisactions。Areplywasimmediatelymadewithsignificanceofgesture,andatranquilmajesty,whichdenotedlessofhumanitythangodhead。Judges,advocatesandauditorswerepanic-struckandbreathlesswithattention。Oneofthehearersfaithfullyrecordedthespeech。Thereitis,\"continuedhe,puttingarollofpapersinmyhand,\"youmayreaditatyourleisure。\"
Withthesewordsmyuncleleftmealone。Mycuriosityrefusedmeamoment\'sdelay。Iopenedthepapers,andreadasfollows。
ChapterXIX
\"TheodoreWieland,theprisoneratthebar,wasnowcalleduponforhisdefence。Helookedaroundhimforsometimeinsilence,andwithamildcountenance。Atlengthhespoke:
\"Itisstrange;Iamknowntomyjudgesandmyauditors。WhoistherepresentastrangertothecharacterofWieland?whoknowshimnotasanhusband——asafather——asafriend?yethereamIarraignedascriminal。Iamchargedwithdiabolicalmalice;Iamaccusedofthemurderofmywifeandmychildren!
\"Itistrue,theywereslainbyme;theyallperishedbymyhand。Thetaskofvindicationisignoble。WhatisitthatIamcalledtovindicate?andbeforewhom?
\"Youknowthattheyaredead,andthattheywerekilledbyme。Whatmorewouldyouhave?Wouldyouextortfrommeastatementofmymotives?Haveyoufailedtodiscoverthemalready?Youchargemewithmalice;butyoureyesarenotshut;
yourreasonisstillvigorous;yourmemoryhasnotforsakenyou。
Youknowwhomitisthatyouthuscharge。Thehabitsofhislifeareknowntoyou;histreatmentofhiswifeandhisoffspringisknowntoyou;thesoundnessofhisintegrity,andtheunchangeablenessofhisprinciples,arefamiliartoyourapprehension;yetyoupersistinthischarge!Youleadmehithermanacledasafelon;youdeemmeworthyofavileandtormentingdeath!
\"WhoaretheywhomIhavedevotedtodeath?Mywife——thelittleones,thatdrewtheirbeingfromme——thatcreaturewho,asshesurpassedtheminexcellence,claimedalargeraffectionthanthosewhomnaturalaffinitiesboundtomyheart。Thinkyethatmalicecouldhaveurgedmetothisdeed?Hideyouraudaciousfrontsfromthescrutinyofheaven。Takerefugeinsomecavernunvisitedbyhumaneyes。Yemaydeploreyourwickednessorfolly,butyecannotexpiateit。
\"ThinknotthatIspeakforyoursakes。Hugtoyourheartsthisdetestableinfatuation。Deemmestillamurderer,anddragmetountimelydeath。Imakenotanefforttodispelyourillusion:Iutternotawordtocureyouofyoursanguinaryfolly:butthereareprobablysomeinthisassemblywhohavecomefromfar:fortheirsakes,whosedistancehasdisabledthemfromknowingme,IwilltellwhatIhavedone,andwhy。
\"ItisneedlesstosaythatGodistheobjectofmysupremepassion。Ihavecherished,inhispresence,asingleanduprightheart。Ihavethirstedfortheknowledgeofhiswill。
Ihaveburntwithardourtoapprovemyfaithandmyobedience。
\"Mydayshavebeenspentinsearchingfortherevelationofthatwill;butmydayshavebeenmournful,becausemysearchfailed。Isoliciteddirection:Iturnedoneverysidewhereglimmeringsoflightcouldbediscovered。Ihavenotbeenwhollyuninformed;butmyknowledgehasalwaysstoppedshortofcertainty。Dissatisfactionhasinsinuateditselfintoallmythoughts。Mypurposeshavebeenpure;mywishesindefatigable;
butnottilllatelywerethesepurposesthoroughlyaccomplished,andthesewishesfullygratified。
\"Ithankthee,myfather,forthybounty;thatthoudidstnotaskalesssacrificethanthis;thatthouplacedstmeinaconditiontotestifymysubmissiontothywill!WhathaveI
withheldwhichitwasthypleasuretoexact?NowmayI,withdauntlessanderecteye,claimmyreward,sinceIhavegiventheethetreasureofmysoul。
\"Iwasatmyownhouse:itwaslateintheevening:mysisterhadgonetothecity,butproposedtoreturn。ItwasinexpectationofherreturnthatmywifeandIdelayedgoingtobedbeyondtheusualhour;therestofthefamily,however,wereretired。
\"Mymindwascontemplativeandcalm;notwhollydevoidofapprehensiononaccountofmysister\'ssafety。Recentevents,noteasilyexplained,hadsuggestedtheexistenceofsomedanger;butthisdangerwaswithoutadistinctforminourimagination,andscarcelyruffledourtranquillity。
\"Timepassed,andmysisterdidnotarrive;herhouseisatsomedistancefrommine,andthoughherarrangementshadbeenmadewithaviewtoresidingwithus,itwaspossiblethat,throughforgetfulness,ortheoccurrenceofunforeseenemergencies,shehadreturnedtoherowndwelling。
\"HenceitwasconceivedproperthatIshouldascertainthetruthbygoingthither。Iwent。Onmywaymymindwasfulloftheseideaswhichrelatedtomyintellectualcondition。Inthetorrentoffervidconceptions,Ilostsightofmypurpose。SometimesIstoodstill;sometimesIwanderedfrommypath,andexperiencedsomedifficulty,onrecoveringfrommyfitofmusing,toregainit。
\"Theseriesofmythoughtsiseasilytraced。Atfirsteveryveinbeatwithrapturesknownonlytothemanwhoseparentalandconjugalloveiswithoutlimits,andthecupofwhosedesires,immenseasitis,overflowswithgratification。Iknownotwhyemotionsthatwereperpetualvisitantsshouldnowhaverecurredwithunusualenergy。Thetransitionwasnotnewfromsensationsofjoytoaconsciousnessofgratitude。Theauthorofmybeingwaslikewisethedispenserofeverygiftwithwhichthatbeingwasembellished。Theservicetowhichabenefactorlikethiswasentitled,couldnotbecircumscribed。Mysocialsentimentswereindebtedtotheiralliancewithdevotionforalltheirvalue。Allpassionsarebase,alljoysfeeble,allenergiesmalignant,whicharenotdrawnfromthissource。
\"Foratime,mycontemplationssoaredaboveearthanditsinhabitants。Istretchedforthmyhands;Iliftedmyeyes,andexclaimed,O!thatImightbeadmittedtothypresence;thatminewerethesupremedelightofknowingthywill,andofperformingit!Theblissfulprivilegeofdirectcommunicationwiththee,andoflisteningtotheaudibleenunciationofthypleasure!
\"WhattaskwouldInotundertake,whatprivationwouldInotcheerfullyendure,totestifymyloveofthee?Alas!thouhidestthyselffrommyview:glimpsesonlyofthyexcellenceandbeautyareaffordedme。Wouldthatamomentaryemanationfromthyglorywouldvisitme!thatsomeunambiguoustokenofthypresencewouldsalutemysenses!
\"Inthismood,Ienteredthehouseofmysister。Itwasvacant。ScarcelyhadIregainedrecollectionofthepurposethatbroughtmehither。Thoughtsofadifferenttendencyhadsuchabsolutepossessionofmymind,thattherelationsoftimeandspacewerealmostobliteratedfrommyunderstanding。Thesewanderings,however,wererestrained,andIascendedtoherchamber。
\"Ihadnolight,andmighthaveknownbyexternalobservation,thatthehousewaswithoutanyinhabitant。Withthis,however,Iwasnotsatisfied。Ienteredtheroom,andtheobjectofmysearchnotappearing,Ipreparedtoreturn。
\"Thedarknessrequiredsomecautionindescendingthestair。
IstretchedmyhandtoseizethebalustradebywhichImightregulatemysteps。HowshallIdescribethelustre,which,atthatmoment,burstuponmyvision!
\"Iwasdazzled。Myorganswerebereavedoftheiractivity。
Myeye-lidswerehalf-closed,andmyhandswithdrawnfromthebalustrade。Anamelessfearchilledmyveins,andIstoodmotionless。Thisirradiationdidnotretireorlessen。Itseemedasifsomepowerfuleffulgencecoveredmelikeamantle。
\"Iopenedmyeyesandfoundallaboutmeluminousandglowing。Itwastheelementofheaventhatflowedaround。
Nothingbutafierystreamwasatfirstvisible;but,anon,ashrillvoicefrombehindcalleduponmetoattend。
\"Iturned:ItisforbiddentodescribewhatIsaw:Words,indeed,wouldbewantingtothetask。Thelineamentsofthatbeing,whoseveilwasnowlifted,andwhosevisagebeameduponmysight,nohuesofpenciloroflanguagecanpourtray。
\"Asitspoke,theaccentsthrilledtomyheart。\"Thyprayersareheard。Inproofofthyfaith,rendermethywife。ThisisthevictimIchuse。Callherhither,andhereletherfall。\"——Thesound,andvisage,andlightvanishedatonce。
\"Whatdemandwasthis?ThebloodofCatharinewastobeshed!Mywifewastoperishbymyhand!Isoughtopportunitytoattestmyvirtue。LittledidIexpectthataprooflikethiswouldhavebeendemanded。
\"Mywife!Iexclaimed:OGod!substitutesomeothervictim。
Makemenotthebutcherofmywife。Myownbloodischeap。
ThiswillIpouroutbeforetheewithawillingheart;butspare,Ibeseechthee,thispreciouslife,orcommissionsomeotherthanherhusbandtoperformthebloodydeed。
\"Invain。Theconditionswereprescribed;thedecreehadgoneforth,andnothingremainedbuttoexecuteit。Irushedoutofthehouseandacrosstheintermediatefields,andstoppednottillIenteredmyownparlour。