Ourdevotionwasamixedandcasualsentiment,seldomverballyexpressed,orsolicitouslysought,orcarefullyretained。Inthemidstofpresentenjoyment,nothoughtwasbestowedonthefuture。Asaconsolationincalamityreligionisdear。Butcalamitywasyetatadistance,anditsonlytendencywastoheightenenjoymentswhichneedednotthisadditiontosatisfyeverycraving。
Mybrother\'ssituationwassomewhatdifferent。Hisdeportmentwasgrave,considerate,andthoughtful。Iwillnotsaywhetherhewasindebtedtosublimerviewsforthisdisposition。Humanlife,inhisopinion,wasmadeupofchangeableelements,andtheprinciplesofdutywerenoteasilyunfolded。Thefuture,eitherasanterior,orsubsequenttodeath,wasascenethatrequiredsomepreparationandprovisiontobemadeforit。Thesepositionswecouldnotdeny,butwhatdistinguishedhimwasapropensitytoruminateonthesetruths。
Theimagesthatvisiteduswereblithsomeandgay,butthosewithwhichhewasmostfamiliarwereofanoppositehue。Theydidnotgenerateafflictionandfear,buttheydiffusedoverhisbehaviouracertainairofforethoughtandsobriety。Theprincipaleffectofthistemperwasvisibleinhisfeaturesandtones。These,ingeneral,bespokeasortofthrillingmelancholy。Iscarcelyeverknewhimtolaugh。Heneveraccompaniedthelawlessmirthofhiscompanionswithmorethanasmile,buthisconductwasthesameasours。
Hepartookofouroccupationsandamusementswithazealnotlessthanours,butofadifferentkind。Thediversityinourtemperwasnevertheparentofdiscord,andwasscarcelyatopicofregret。Thescenewasvariegated,butnottarnishedordisorderedbyit。Ithinderedtheelementinwhichwemovedfromstagnating。Someagitationandconcussionisrequisitetothedueexerciseofhumanunderstanding。Inhisstudies,hepursuedanaustererandmorearduouspath。Hewasmuchconversantwiththehistoryofreligiousopinions,andtookpainstoascertaintheirvalidity。Hedeemeditindispensabletoexaminethegroundofhisbelief,tosettletherelationbetweenmotivesandactions,thecriterionofmerit,andthekindsandpropertiesofevidence。
Therewasanobviousresemblancebetweenhimandmyfather,intheirconceptionsoftheimportanceofcertaintopics,andinthelightinwhichthevicissitudesofhumanlifewereaccustomedtobeviewed。Theircharactersweresimilar,butthemindofthesonwasenrichedbyscience,andembellishedwithliterature。
Thetemplewasnolongerassignedtoitsancientuse。FromanItalianadventurer,whoerroneouslyimaginedthathecouldfindemploymentforhisskill,andsaleforhissculpturesinAmerica,mybrotherhadpurchasedabustofCicero。HeprofessedtohavecopiedthispiecefromanantiquedugupwithhisownhandsintheenvironsofModena。Ofthetruthofhisassertionswewerenotqualifiedtojudge;butthemarblewaspureandpolished,andwewerecontentedtoadmiretheperformance,withoutwaitingforthesanctionofconnoisseurs。
Wehiredthesameartisttohewasuitablepedestalfromaneighbouringquarry。Thiswasplacedinthetemple,andthebustresteduponit。Oppositetothiswasaharpsichord,shelteredbyatemporaryrooffromtheweather。Thiswastheplaceofresortintheeveningsofsummer。Herewesung,andtalked,andread,andoccasionallybanqueted。Everyjoyousandtenderscenemostdeartomymemory,isconnectedwiththisedifice。Heretheperformancesofourmusicalandpoeticalancestorwererehearsed。Heremybrother\'schildrenreceivedtherudimentsoftheireducation;hereathousandconversations,pregnantwithdelightandimprovement,tookplace;andherethesocialaffectionswereaccustomedtoexpand,andthetearofdelicioussympathytobeshed。
Mybrotherwasanindefatigablestudent。Theauthorswhomhereadwerenumerous,butthechiefobjectofhisvenerationwasCicero。Hewasnevertiredofconningandrehearsinghisproductions。Tounderstandthemwasnotsufficient。Hewasanxioustodiscoverthegesturesandcadenceswithwhichtheyoughttobedelivered。HewasveryscrupulousinselectingatrueschemeofpronunciationfortheLatintongue,andinadaptingittothewordsofhisdarlingwriter。Hisfavoriteoccupationconsistedinembellishinghisrhetoricwithalltheproprietiesofgesticulationandutterance。
Notcontentedwiththis,hewasdiligentinsettlingandrestoringthepurityofthetext。Forthisend,hecollectedalltheeditionsandcommentariesthatcouldbeprocured,andemployedmonthsofseverestudyinexploringandcomparingthem。
Heneverbetrayedmoresatisfactionthanwhenhemadeadiscoveryofthiskind。
ItwasnottilltheadditionofHenryPleyel,myfriend\'sonlybrother,tooursociety,thathispassionforRomaneloquencewascountenancedandfosteredbyasympathyoftastes。
ThisyoungmanhadbeensomeyearsinEurope。Wehadseparatedataveryearlyage,andhewasnowreturnedtospendtheremainderofhisdaysamongus。
Ourcirclewasgreatlyenlivenedbytheaccessionofanewmember。Hisconversationaboundedwithnovelty。Hisgaietywasalmostboisterous,butwascapableofyieldingtoagravedeportmentwhentheoccasionrequiredit。Hisdiscernmentwasacute,buthewaspronetovieweveryobjectmerelyassupplyingmaterialsformirth。Hisconceptionswereardentbutludicrous,andhismemory,aided,ashehonestlyacknowledged,byhisinvention,wasaninexhaustiblefundofentertainment。
Hisresidencewasatthesamedistancebelowthecityasourswasabove,butthereseldompassedadaywithoutourbeingfavouredwithavisit。MybrotherandhewereendowedwiththesameattachmenttotheLatinwriters;andPleyelwasnotbehindhisfriendinhisknowledgeofthehistoryandmetaphysicsofreligion。Theircreeds,however,wereinmanyrespectsopposite。Whereonediscoveredonlyconfirmationsofhisfaith,theothercouldfindnothingbutreasonsfordoubt。Moralnecessity,andcalvinisticinspiration,werethepropsonwhichmybrotherthoughtpropertorepose。Pleyelwasthechampionofintellectualliberty,andrejectedallguidancebutthatofhisreason。Theirdiscussionswerefrequent,but,beingmanagedwithcandouraswellaswithskill,theywerealwayslistenedtobyuswithavidityandbenefit。
Pleyel,likehisnewfriends,wasfondofmusicandpoetry。
Henceforthourconcertsconsistedoftwoviolins,anharpsichord,andthreevoices。Wewerefrequentlyremindedhowmuchhappinessdependsuponsociety。Thisnewfriend,though,beforehisarrival,weweresensibleofnovacuity,couldnotnowbespared。Hisdeparturewouldoccasionavoidwhichnothingcouldfill,andwhichwouldproduceinsupportableregret。Evenmybrother,thoughhisopinionswerehourlyassailed,andeventhedivinityofCicerocontested,wascaptivatedwithhisfriend,andlaidasidesomepartofhisancientgravityatPleyel\'sapproach。
ChapterIV
Sixyearsofuninterruptedhappinesshadrolledaway,sincemybrother\'smarriage。Thesoundofwarhadbeenheard,butitwasatsuchadistanceastoenhanceourenjoymentbyaffordingobjectsofcomparison。TheIndianswererepulsedontheoneside,andCanadawasconqueredontheother。Revolutionsandbattles,howevercalamitoustothosewhooccupiedthescene,contributedinsomesorttoourhappiness,byagitatingourmindswithcuriosity,andfurnishingcausesofpatrioticexultation。Fourchildren,threeofwhomwereofanagetocompensate,bytheirpersonalandmentalprogress,thecaresofwhichtheyhadbeen,atamorehelplessage,theobjects,exercisedmybrother\'stenderness。Thefourthwasacharmingbabethatpromisedtodisplaytheimageofhermother,andenjoyedperfecthealth。Tothesewereaddedasweetgirlfourteenyearsold,whowaslovedbyallofus,withanaffectionmorethanparental。
Hermother\'sstorywasamournfulone。ShehadcomehitherfromEnglandwhenthischildwasaninfant,alone,withoutfriends,andwithoutmoney。Sheappearedtohaveembarkedinahastyandclandestinemanner。Shepassedthreeyearsofsolitudeandanguishundermyaunt\'sprotection,anddiedamartyrtowoe;thesourceofwhichshecould,bynoimportunities,beprevailedupontounfold。Hereducationandmannersbespokehertobeofnomeanbirth。Herlastmomentswererenderedserene,bytheassurancesshereceivedfrommyaunt,thatherdaughtershouldexperiencethesameprotectionthathadbeenextendedtoherself。
Onmybrother\'smarriage,itwasagreedthatsheshouldmakeapartofhisfamily。Icannotdojusticetotheattractionsofthisgirl。Perhapsthetendernesssheexcitedmightpartlyoriginateinherpersonalresemblancetohermother,whosecharacterandmisfortuneswerestillfreshinourremembrance。
Shewashabituallypensive,andthiscircumstancetendedtoremindthespectatorofherfriendlesscondition;andyetthatepithetwassurelymisappliedinthiscase。Thisbeingwascherishedbythosewithwhomshenowresided,withunspeakablefondness。Everyexertionwasmadetoenlargeandimprovehermind。Hersafetywastheobjectofasolicitudethatalmostexceededtheboundsofdiscretion。Ouraffectionindeedcouldscarcelytranscendhermerits。Shenevermetmyeye,oroccurredtomyreflections,withoutexcitingakindofenthusiasm。Hersoftness,herintelligence,herequanimity,nevershallIseesurpassed。Ihaveoftenshedtearsofpleasureatherapproach,andpressedhertomybosominanagonyoffondness。
Whileeverydaywasaddingtothecharmsofherperson,andthestoresofhermind,thereoccurredaneventwhichthreatenedtodepriveusofher。Anofficerofsomerank,whohadbeendisabledbyawoundatQuebec,hademployedhimself,sincetheratificationofpeace,intravellingthroughthecolonies。HeremainedaconsiderableperiodatPhiladelphia,butwasatlastpreparingforhisdeparture。NoonehadbeenmorefrequentlyhonouredwithhisvisitsthanMrs。Baynton,aworthyladywithwhomourfamilywereintimate。Hewenttoherhousewithaviewtoperformafarewellvisit,andwasonthepointoftakinghisleave,whenIandmyyoungfriendenteredtheapartment。Itisimpossibletodescribetheemotionsofthestranger,whenhefixedhiseyesuponmycompanion。Hewasmotionlesswithsurprise。Hewasunabletoconcealhisfeelings,butsatsilentlygazingatthespectaclebeforehim。AtlengthheturnedtoMrs。Baynton,andmorebyhislooksandgesturesthanbywords,besoughtherforanexplanationofthescene。Heseizedthehandofthegirl,who,inherturn,wassurprisedbyhisbehaviour,anddrawingherforward,saidinaneagerandfaulteringtone,Whoisshe?whencedoesshecome?whatishername?
Theanswersthatweregivenonlyincreasedtheconfusionofhisthoughts。Hewassuccessivelytold,thatshewasthedaughterofonewhosenamewasLouisaConway,whoarrivedamongusatsuchatime,whosedulouslyconcealedherparentage,andthemotivesofherflight,whoseincurablegriefshadfinallydestroyedher,andwhohadleftthischildundertheprotectionofherfriends。Havingheardthetale,hemeltedintotears,eagerlyclaspedtheyoungladyinhisarms,andcalledhimselfherfather。Whenthetumultsexcitedinhisbreastbythisunlooked-formeetingweresomewhatsubsided,hegratifiedourcuriositybyrelatingthefollowingincidents。
\"MissConwaywastheonlydaughterofabankerinLondon,whodischargedtowardshereverydutyofanaffectionatefather。Hehadchancedtofallintohercompany,hadbeensubduedbyherattractions,hadtenderedherhishand,andbeenjoyfullyacceptedbothbyparentandchild。Hiswifehadgivenhimeveryproofofthefondestattachment。Herfather,whopossessedimmensewealth,treatedhimwithdistinguishedrespect,liberallysuppliedhiswants,andhadmadeoneconditionofhisconsenttotheirunion,aresolutiontotakeuptheirabodewithhim。
\"Theyhadpassedthreeyearsofconjugalfelicity,whichhadbeenaugmentedbythebirthofthischild;whenhisprofessionaldutycalledhimintoGermany。Itwasnotwithoutanarduousstruggle,thatshewaspersuadedtorelinquishthedesignofaccompanyinghimthroughallthetoilsandperilsofwar。Nopartingwasevermoredistressful。Theystrovetoalleviate,byfrequentletters,theevilsoftheirlot。Thoseofhiswife,breathednothingbutanxietyforhissafety,andimpatienceofhisabsence。Atlength,anewarrangementwasmade,andhewasobligedtorepairfromWestphaliatoCanada。Oneadvantageattendedthischange。Itaffordedhimanopportunityofmeetinghisfamily。Hiswifeanticipatedthisinterview,withnolessrapturethanhimself。HehurriedtoLondon,andthemomenthealightedfromthestage-coach,ranwithallspeedtoMr。
Conway\'shouse。
\"Itwasanhouseofmourning。Hisfatherwasoverwhelmedwithgrief,andincapableofansweringhisinquiries。Theservants,sorrowfulandmute,wereequallyrefractory。Heexploredthehouse,andcalledonthenamesofhiswifeanddaughter,buthissummonswasfruitless。Atlength,thisnewdisasterwasexplained。Twodaysbeforehisarrival,hiswife\'schamberwasfoundempty。Nosearch,howeverdiligentandanxious,couldtracehersteps。Nocausecouldbeassignedforherdisappearance。Themotherandchildhadfledawaytogether。
\"Newexertionsweremade,herchamberandcabinetswereransacked,butnovestigewasfoundservingtoinformthemastothemotivesofherflight,whetherithadbeenvoluntaryorotherwise,andinwhatcornerofthekingdomoroftheworldshewasconcealed。Whoshalldescribethesorrowandamazementofthehusband?Hisrestlessness,hisvicissitudesofhopeandfear,andhisultimatedespair?HisdutycalledhimtoAmerica。
Hehadbeeninthiscity,andhadfrequentlypassedthedoorofthehouseinwhichhiswife,atthatmoment,resided。Herfatherhadnotremittedhisexertionstoelucidatethispainfulmystery,buttheyhadfailed。Thisdisappointmenthastenedhisdeath;inconsequenceofwhich,Louisa\'sfatherbecamepossessorofhisimmenseproperty。\"
Thistalewasacopiousthemeofspeculation。Athousandquestionswerestartedanddiscussedinourdomesticcircle,respectingthemotivesthatinfluencedMrs。Stuarttoabandonhercountry。Itdidnotappearthatherproceedingwasinvoluntary。Werecalledandreviewedeveryparticularthathadfallenunderourownobservation。Bynoneofthesewerewefurnishedwithaclue。Herconduct,afterthemostrigorousscrutiny,stillremainedanimpenetrablesecret。Onanearerview,MajorStuartprovedhimselfamanofmostamiablecharacter。HisattachmenttoLouisaappearedhourlytoincrease。Shewasnostrangertothesentimentssuitabletohernewcharacter。Shecouldnotbutreadilyembracetheschemewhichwasproposedtoher,toreturnwithherfathertoEngland。
Thisschemehisregardforherinducedhim,however,topostpone。Sometimewasnecessarytoprepareherforsogreatachangeandenablehertothinkwithoutagonyofherseparationfromus。
Iwasnotwithouthopesofprevailingonherfatherentirelytorelinquishthisunwelcomedesign。Meanwhile,hepursuedhistravelsthroughthesoutherncolonies,andhisdaughtercontinuedwithus。Louisaandmybrotherfrequentlyreceivedlettersfromhim,whichindicatedamindofnocommonorder。
Theywerefilledwithamusingdetails,andprofoundreflections。
Whilehere,heoftenpartookofoureveningconversationsatthetemple;andsincehisdeparture,hiscorrespondencehadfrequentlysupplieduswithtopicsofdiscourse。
OneafternooninMay,theblandnessoftheair,andbrightnessoftheverdure,inducedustoassemble,earlierthanusual,inthetemple。Wefemaleswerebusyattheneedle,whilemybrotherandPleyelwerebandyingquotationsandsyllogisms。
ThepointdiscussedwasthemeritoftheorationforCluentius,asdescriptive,first,ofthegeniusofthespeaker;and,secondly,ofthemannersofthetimes。Pleyellabouredtoextenuateboththesespeciesofmerit,andtaskedhisingenuity,toshewthattheoratorhadembracedabadcause;or,atleast,adoubtfulone。Heurged,thattorelyontheexaggerationsofanadvocate,ortomakethepictureofasinglefamilyamodelfromwhichtosketchtheconditionofanation,wasabsurd。Thecontroversywassuddenlydivertedintoanewchannel,byamisquotation。Pleyelaccusedhiscompanionofsaying\"polliciatur\"whenheshouldhavesaid\"polliceretur。\"
Nothingwoulddecidethecontest,butanappealtothevolume。
Mybrotherwasreturningtothehouseforthispurpose,whenaservantmethimwithaletterfromMajorStuart。Heimmediatelyreturnedtoreaditinourcompany。
Besidesaffectionatecomplimentstous,andpaternalbenedictionsonLouisa,hislettercontainedadescriptionofawaterfallontheMonongahela。Asuddengustofrainfalling,wewerecompelledtoremovetothehouse。Thestormpassedaway,andaradiantmoon-lightsucceeded。Therewasnomotiontoresumeourseatsinthetemple。Wethereforeremainedwherewewere,andengagedinsprightlyconversation。Theletterlatelyreceivednaturallysuggestedthetopic。Aparallelwasdrawnbetweenthecataracttheredescribed,andonewhichPleyelhaddiscoveredamongtheAlpsofGlarus。Inthestateoftheformer,someparticularwasmentioned,thetruthofwhichwasquestionable。Tosettlethedisputewhichthencearose,itwasproposedtohaverecoursetotheletter。Mybrothersearchedforitinhispocket。Itwasnowheretobefound。Atlength,herememberedtohaveleftitinthetemple,andhedeterminedtogoinsearchofit。Hiswife,Pleyel,Louisa,andmyself,remainedwherewewere。
Inafewminuteshereturned。Iwassomewhatinterestedinthedispute,andwasthereforeimpatientforhisreturn;yet,asIheardhimascendingthestairs,Icouldnotbutremark,thathehadexecutedhisintentionwithremarkabledispatch。Myeyeswerefixeduponhimonhisentrance。Methoughthebroughtwithhimlooksconsiderablydifferentfromthosewithwhichhedeparted。Wonder,andaslightportionofanxietyweremingledinthem。Hiseyesseemedtobeinsearchofsomeobject。Theypassedquicklyfromonepersontoanother,tilltheyrestedonhiswife。Shewasseatedinacarelessattitudeonthesofa,inthesamespotasbefore。Shehadthesamemuslininherhand,bywhichherattentionwaschieflyengrossed。
Themomenthesawher,hisperplexityvisiblyincreased。Hequietlyseatedhimself,andfixinghiseyesonthefloor,appearedtobeabsorbedinmeditation。ThesesingularitiessuspendedtheinquirywhichIwaspreparingtomakerespectingtheletter。Inashorttime,thecompanyrelinquishedthesubjectwhichengagedthem,anddirectedtheirattentiontoWieland。Theythoughtthatheonlywaitedforapauseinthediscourse,toproducetheletter。Thepausewasuninterruptedbyhim。AtlengthPleyelsaid,\"Well,Isupposeyouhavefoundtheletter。\"
\"No,\"saidhe,withoutanyabatementofhisgravity,andlookingstedfastlyathiswife,\"Ididnotmountthehill。\"——\"Whynot?\"——\"Catharine,haveyounotmovedfromthatspotsinceIlefttheroom?\"——Shewasaffectedwiththesolemnityofhismanner,andlayingdownherwork,answeredinatoneofsurprise,\"No;Whydoyouaskthatquestion?\"——Hiseyeswereagainfixeduponthefloor。andhedidnotimmediatelyanswer。Atlength,hesaid,lookingrounduponus,\"IsittruethatCatharinedidnotfollowmetothehill?Thatshedidnotjustnowentertheroom?\"——Weassuredhim,withonevoice,thatshehadnotbeenabsentforamoment,andinquiredintothemotiveofhisquestions。
\"Yourassurances,\"saidhe,\"aresolemnandunanimous;andyetImustdenycredittoyourassertions,ordisbelievethetestimonyofmysenses,whichinformedme,whenIwashalfwayupthehill,thatCatharinewasatthebottom。\"
Wewereconfoundedatthisdeclaration。Pleyelralliedhimwithgreatlevityonhisbehaviour。Helistenedtohisfriendwithcalmness,butwithoutanyrelaxationoffeatures。
\"Onething,\"saidhewithemphasis,\"istrue;eitherIheardmywife\'svoiceatthebottomofthehill,orIdonothearyourvoiceatpresent。\"
\"Truly,\"returnedPleyel,\"itisasaddilemmatowhichyouhavereducedyourself。Certainitis,ifoureyescangiveuscertaintythatyourwifehasbeensittinginthatspotduringeverymomentofyourabsence。Youhaveheardhervoice,yousay,uponthehill。Ingeneral,hervoice,likehertemper,isallsoftness。Tobeheardacrosstheroom,sheisobligedtoexertherself。Whileyouweregone,ifImistakenot,shedidnotutteraword。ClaraandIhadallthetalktoourselves。
Stillitmaybethatsheheldawhisperingconferencewithyouonthehill;buttellustheparticulars。\"
\"Theconference,\"saidhe,\"wasshort;andfarfrombeingcarriedoninawhisper。YouknowwithwhatintentionIleftthehouse。Halfwaytotherock,themoonwasforamomenthiddenfromusbyacloud。Ineverknewtheairtobemoreblandandmorecalm。InthisintervalIglancedatthetemple,andthoughtIsawaglimmeringbetweenthecolumns。Itwassofaint,thatitwouldnotperhapshavebeenvisible,ifthemoonhadnotbeenshrowded。Ilookedagain,butsawnothing。I
nevervisitthisbuildingalone,oratnight,withoutbeingremindedofthefateofmyfather。Therewasnothingwonderfulinthisappearance;yetitsuggestedsomethingmorethanmeresolitudeanddarknessinthesameplacewouldhavedone。
\"Ikeptonmyway。Theimagesthathauntedmeweresolemn;
andIentertainedanimperfectcuriosity,butnofear,astothenatureofthisobject。Ihadascendedthehilllittlemorethanhalfway,whenavoicecalledmefrombehind。Theaccentswereclear,distinct,powerful,andwereuttered,asIfullybelieved,bymywife。Hervoiceisnotcommonlysoloud。Shehasseldomoccasiontoexertit,but,nevertheless,Ihavesometimesheardhercallwithforceandeagerness。Ifmyearwasnotdeceived,itwashervoicewhichIheard。
\"Stop,gonofurther。Thereisdangerinyourpath。\"Thesuddennessandunexpectednessofthiswarning,thetoneofalarmwithwhichitwasgiven,and,aboveall,thepersuasionthatitwasmywifewhospoke,wereenoughtodisconcertandmakemepause。IturnedandlistenedtoassuremyselfthatIwasnotmistaken。Thedeepestsilencesucceeded。Atlength,Ispokeinmyturn。Whocalls?isityou,Catharine?Istoppedandpresentlyreceivedananswer。\"Yes,itisI;gonotup;returninstantly;youarewantedatthehouse。\"StillthevoicewasCatharine\'s,andstillitproceededfromthefootofthestairs。
\"WhatcouldIdo?Thewarningwasmysterious。TobeutteredbyCatharineataplace,andonanoccasionlikethese,enhancedthemystery。Icoulddonothingbutobey。Accordingly,Itrodbackmysteps,expectingthatshewaitedformeatthebottomofthehill。WhenIreachedthebottom,noonewasvisible。Themoon-lightwasoncemoreuniversalandbrilliant,andyet,asfarasIcouldseenohumanormovingfigurewasdiscernible。
Ifshehadreturnedtothehouse,shemusthaveusedwondrousexpeditiontohavepassedalreadybeyondthereachofmyeye。
Iexertedmyvoice,butinvain。Tomyrepeatedexclamations,noanswerwasreturned。
\"Ruminatingontheseincidents,Ireturnedhither。TherewasnoroomtodoubtthatIhadheardmywife\'svoice;attendingincidentswerenoteasilyexplained;butyounowassuremethatnothingextraordinaryhashappenedtourgemyreturn,andthatmywifehasnotmovedfromherseat。\"
Suchwasmybrother\'snarrative。Itwasheardbyuswithdifferentemotions。Pleyeldidnotscrupletoregardthewholeasadeceptionofthesenses。Perhapsavoicehadbeenheard;
butWieland\'simaginationhadmisledhiminsupposingaresemblancetothatofhiswife,andgivingsuchasignificationtothesounds。Accordingtohiscustomhespokewhathethought。Sometimes,hemadeitthethemeofgravediscussion,butmorefrequentlytreateditwithridicule。Hedidnotbelievethatsoberreasoningwouldconvincehisfriend,andgaiety,hethought,wasusefultotakeawaythesolemnitieswhich,inamindlikeWieland\'s,anaccidentofthiskindwascalculatedtoproduce。
Pleyelproposedtogoinsearchoftheletter。Hewentandspeedilyreturned,bearingitinhishand。Hehadfounditopenonthepedestal;andneithervoicenorvisagehadrisentoimpedehisdesign。
Catharinewasendowedwithanuncommonportionofgoodsense;
buthermindwasaccessible,onthisquarter,towonderandpanic。Thathervoiceshouldbethusinexplicablyandunwarrantablyassumed,wasasourceofnosmalldisquietude。
SheadmittedtheplausibilityoftheargumentsbywhichPleyelendeavouredtoprove,thatthiswasnomorethananauriculardeception;butthisconvictionwassuretobeshaken,whensheturnedhereyesuponherhusband,andperceivedthatPleyel\'slogicwasfarfromhavingproducedthesameeffectuponhim。
Astomyself,myattentionwasengagedbythisoccurrence。
Icouldnotfailtoperceiveashadowyresemblancebetweenitandmyfather\'sdeath。Onthelatterevent,Ihadfrequentlyreflected;myreflectionsneverconductedmetocertainty,butthedoubtsthatexistedwerenotofatormentingkind。Icouldnotdenythattheeventwasmiraculous,andyetIwasinvinciblyaversetothatmethodofsolution。Mywonderwasexcitedbytheinscrutablenessofthecause,butmywonderwasunmixedwithsorroworfear。Itbegatinmeathrilling,andnotunpleasingsolemnity。Similartothesewerethesensationsproducedbytherecentadventure。
Butitseffectuponmybrother\'simaginationwasofchiefmoment。Allthatwasdesirablewas,thatitshouldberegardedbyhimwithindifference。Theworsteffectthatcouldflow,wasnotindeedveryformidable。YetIcouldnotbeartothinkthathissensesshouldbethevictimsofsuchdelusion。Itarguedadiseasedconditionofhisframe,whichmightshowitselfhereafterinmoredangeroussymptoms。Thewillisthetooloftheunderstanding,whichmustfashionitsconclusionsonthenoticesofsense。Ifthesensesbedepraved,itisimpossibletocalculatetheevilsthatmayflowfromtheconsequentdeductionsoftheunderstanding。
Isaid,thismanisofanardentandmelancholycharacter。
Thoseideaswhich,inothers,arecasualorobscure,whichareentertainedinmomentsofabstractionandsolitude,andeasilyescapewhenthesceneischanged,haveobtainedanimmoveableholduponhismind。Theconclusionswhichlonghabithasrenderedfamiliar,and,insomesort,palpabletohisintellect,aredrawnfromthedeepestsources。Allhisactionsandpracticalsentimentsarelinkedwithlongandabstrusedeductionsfromthesystemofdivinegovernmentandthelawsofourintellectualconstitution。Heis,insomerespects,anenthusiast,butisfortifiedinhisbeliefbyinnumerableargumentsandsubtilties。
Hisfather\'sdeathwasalwaysregardedbyhimasflowingfromadirectandsupernaturaldecree。Itvisitedhismeditationsoftenerthanitdidmine。Thetraceswhichitleftweremoregloomyandpermanent。Thisnewincidenthadavisibleeffectinaugmentinghisgravity。Hewaslessdisposedthanformerlytoconverseandreading。Whenwesiftedhisthoughts,theyweregenerallyfoundtohavearelation,moreorlessdirect,withthisincident。Itwasdifficulttoascertaintheexactspeciesofimpressionwhichitmadeuponhim。Heneverintroducedthesubjectintoconversation,andlistenedwithasilentandhalf-serioussmiletothesatiricaleffusionsofPleyel。
Oneeveningwechancedtobealonetogetherinthetemple。
Iseizedthatopportunityofinvestigatingthestateofhisthoughts。Afterapause,whichheseemedinnowiseinclinedtointerrupt,Ispoketohim——\"Howalmostpalpableisthisdark;
yetarayfromabovewoulddispelit。\"\"Ay,\"saidWieland,withfervor,\"notonlythephysical,butmoralnightwouldbedispelled。\"\"Butwhy,\"saidI,\"musttheDivineWilladdressitspreceptstotheeye?\"Hesmiledsignificantly。\"True,\"
saidhe,\"theunderstandinghasotheravenues。\"\"Youhavenever,\"saidI,approachingnearertothepoint——\"youhavenevertoldmeinwhatwayyouconsideredthelateextraordinaryincident。\"\"Thereisnodeterminatewayinwhichthesubjectcanbeviewed。Hereisaneffect,butthecauseisutterlyinscrutable。Tosupposeadeceptionwillnotdo。Suchispossible,buttherearetwentyothersuppositionsmoreprobable。
Theymustallbesetasidebeforewereachthatpoint。\"\"Whatarethesetwentysuppositions?\"\"Itisneedlesstomentionthem。TheyareonlylessimprobablethanPleyel\'s。Timemayconvertoneofthemintocertainty。Tillthenitisuselesstoexpatiateonthem。\"
ChapterV
Sometimehadelapsedwhentherehappenedanotheroccurrence,stillmoreremarkable。Pleyel,onhisreturnfromEurope,broughtinformationofconsiderableimportancetomybrother。
MyancestorswerenobleSaxons,andpossessedlargedomainsinLusatia。ThePrussianwarshaddestroyedthosepersonswhoserighttotheseestatesprecludedmybrother\'s。Pleyelhadbeenexactinhisinquiries,andhaddiscoveredthat,bythelawofmale-primogeniture,mybrother\'sclaimsweresuperiortothoseofanyotherpersonnowliving。Nothingwaswantingbuthispresenceinthatcountry,andalegalapplicationtoestablishthisclaim。
Pleyelstrenuouslyrecommendedthismeasure。Theadvantageshethoughtattendingitwerenumerous,anditwouldarguetheutmostfollytoneglectthem。Contrarytohisexpectationhefoundmybrotheraversetothescheme。Slightefforts,he,atfirst,thoughtwouldsubduehisreluctance;buthefoundthisaversionbynomeansslight。Theinterestthathetookinthehappinessofhisfriendandhissister,andhisownpartialitytotheSaxonsoil,fromwhichhehadlikewisesprung,andwherehehadspentseveralyearsofhisyouth,madehimredoublehisexertionstowinWieland\'sconsent。Forthisendheemployedeveryargumentthathisinventioncouldsuggest。Hepainted,inattractivecolours,thestateofmannersandgovernmentinthatcountry,thesecurityofcivilrights,andthefreedomofreligioussentiments。Hedweltontheprivilegesofwealthandrank,anddrewfromtheservileconditionofoneclass,anargumentinfavorofhisscheme,sincetherevenueandpowerannexedtoaGermanprincipalityaffordsolargeafieldforbenevolence。Theevilflowingfromthispower,inmalignanthands,wasproportionedtothegoodthatwouldarisefromthevirtuoususeofit。Hence,Wieland,inforbearingtoclaimhisown,withheldallthepositivefelicitythatwouldaccruetohisvassalsfromhissuccess,andhazardedallthemiserythatwouldredoundfromalessenlightenedproprietor。
Itwaseasyformybrothertorepelthesearguments,andtoshewthatnospotontheglobeenjoyedequalsecurityandlibertytothatwhichheatpresentinhabited。ThatiftheSaxonshadnothingtofearfrommis-government,theexternalcausesofhavocandalarmwerenumerousandmanifest。TherecentdevastationscommittedbythePrussiansfurnishedaspecimenofthese。Thehorrorsofwarwouldalwaysimpendoverthem,tillGermanywereseizedanddividedbyAustrianandPrussiantyrants;aneventwhichhestronglysuspectedwasatnogreatdistance。Butsettingtheseconsiderationsaside,wasitlaudabletograspatwealthandpowerevenwhentheywerewithinourreach?Werenotthesethetwogreatsourcesofdepravity?
Whatsecurityhadhe,thatinthischangeofplaceandcondition,heshouldnotdegenerateintoatyrantandvoluptuary?Powerandricheswerechieflytobedreadedonaccountoftheirtendencytodepravethepossessor。Heheldtheminabhorrence,notonlyasinstrumentsofmiserytoothers,buttohimonwhomtheywereconferred。Besides,richeswerecomparative,andwashenotrichalready?Helivedatpresentinthebosomofsecurityandluxury。Alltheinstrumentsofpleasure,onwhichhisreasonorimaginationsetanyvalue,werewithinhisreach。Butthesehemustforego,forthesakeofadvantageswhich,whateverweretheirvalue,wereasyetuncertain。Inpursuitofanimaginaryadditiontohiswealth,hemustreducehimselftopoverty,hemustexchangepresentcertaintiesforwhatwasdistantandcontingent;forwhoknowsnotthatthelawisasystemofexpence,delayanduncertainty?
Ifheshouldembracethisscheme,itwouldlayhimunderthenecessityofmakingavoyagetoEurope,andremainingforacertainperiod,separatefromhisfamily。Hemustundergotheperilsanddiscomfortsoftheocean;hemustdivesthimselfofalldomesticpleasures;hemustdeprivehiswifeofhercompanion,andhischildrenofafatherandinstructor,andallforwhat?Fortheambiguousadvantageswhichovergrownwealthandflagitioustyrannyhavetobestow?Foraprecariouspossessioninalandofturbulenceandwar?Advantages,whichwillnotcertainlybegained,andofwhichtheacquisition,ifitweresure,isnecessarilydistant。
Pleyelwasenamouredofhisschemeonaccountofitsintrinsicbenefits,but,likewise,forotherreasons。HisabodeatLeipsigmadethatcountryappeartohimlikehome。Hewasconnectedwiththisplacebymanysocialties。Whiletherehehadnotescapedtheamorouscontagion。Butthelady,thoughherheartwasimpressedinhisfavor,wascompelledtobestowherhanduponanother。Deathhadremovedthisimpediment,andhewasnowinvitedbytheladyherselftoreturn。Thishewasofcoursedeterminedtodo,butwasanxioustoobtainthecompanyofWieland;hecouldnotbeartothinkofaneternalseparationfromhispresentassociates。Theirinterest,hethought,wouldbenolesspromotedbythechangethanhisown。Hencehewasimportunateandindefatigableinhisargumentsandsolicitations。
Heknewthathecouldnothopeformineorhissister\'sreadyconcurrenceinthisscheme。Shouldthesubjectbementionedtous,weshouldleagueoureffortsagainsthim,andstrengthenthatreluctanceinWielandwhichalreadywassufficientlydifficulttoconquer。He,therefore,anxiouslyconcealedfromushispurpose。IfWielandwerepreviouslyenlistedinhiscause,hewouldfinditalessdifficulttasktoovercomeouraversion。MybrotherwassilentonthissubJect,becausehebelievedhimselfinnodangerofchanginghisopinion,andhewaswillingtosaveusfromanyuneasiness。Themerementionofsuchascheme,andthepossibilityofhisembracingit,heknew,wouldconsiderablyimpairourtranquillity。
Oneday,aboutthreeweekssubsequenttothemysteriouscall,itwasagreedthatthefamilyshouldbemyguests。Seldomhadadaybeenpassedbyus,ofmoresereneenjoyment。Pleyelhadpromisedushiscompany,butwedidnotseehimtillthesunhadnearlydeclined。Hebroughtwithhimacountenancethatbetokeneddisappointmentandvexation。Hedidnotwaitforourinquiries,butimmediatelyexplainedthecause。TwodaysbeforeapackethadarrivedfromHamburgh,bywhichhehadflatteredhimselfwiththeexpectationofreceivingletters,butnolettershadarrived。Ineversawhimsomuchsubduedbyanuntowardevent。Histhoughtswereemployedinaccountingforthesilenceofhisfriends。Hewasseizedwiththetormentsofjealousy,andsuspectednothinglessthantheinfidelityofhertowhomhehaddevotedhisheart。Thesilencemusthavebeenconcerted。Hersickness,orabsence,ordeath,wouldhaveincreasedthecertaintyofsomeone\'shavingwritten。Nosuppositioncouldbeformedbutthathismistresshadgrownindifferent,orthatshehadtransferredheraffectionstoanother。Themiscarriageofaletterwashardlywithinthereachofpossibility。FromLeipsigtoHamburgh,andfromHamburghhither,theconveyancewasexposedtonohazard。
HehadbeensolongdetainedinAmericachieflyinconsequenceofWieland\'saversiontotheschemewhichheproposed。HenowbecamemoreimpatientthanevertoreturntoEurope。Whenhereflectedthat,byhisdelays,hehadprobablyforfeitedtheaffectionsofhismistress,hissensationsamountedtoagony。Itonlyremained,byhisspeedydeparture,torepair,ifpossible,orpreventsointolerableanevil。
Alreadyhehadhalfresolvedtoembarkinthisveryshipwhich,hewasinformed,wouldsetoutinafewweeksonherreturn。
MeanwhilehedeterminedtomakeanewattempttoshaketheresolutionofWieland。Theeveningwassomewhatadvancedwhenheinvitedthelattertowalkabroadwithhim。Theinvitationwasaccepted,andtheyleftCatharine,Louisaandme,toamuseourselvesbythebestmeansinourpower。Duringthiswalk,Pleyelrenewedthesubjectthatwasnearesthisheart。Here-urgedallhisformerarguments,andplacedtheminmoreforciblelights。
Theypromisedtoreturnshortly;buthourafterhourpassed,andtheymadenottheirappearance。Engagedinsprightlyconversation,itwasnottilltheclockstrucktwelvethatwewereremindedofthelapseoftime。Theabsenceofourfriendsexcitedsomeuneasyapprehensions。Wewereexpressingourfears,andcomparingourconjecturesastowhatmightbethecause,whentheyenteredtogether。Therewereindicationsintheircountenancesthatstruckmemute。ThesewereunnoticedbyCatharine,whowaseagertoexpresshersurprizeandcuriosityatthelengthoftheirwalk。Astheylistenedtoher,I
remarkedthattheirsurprizewasnotlessthanours。Theygazedinsilenceoneachother,andonher。Iwatchedtheirlooks,butcouldnotunderstandtheemotionsthatwerewritteninthem。
TheseappearancesdivertedCatharine\'sinquiriesintoanewchannel。Whatdidtheymean,sheasked,bytheirsilence,andbytheirthusgazingwildlyateachother,andather?Pleyelprofitedbythishint,andassuminganairofindifference,framedsometriflingexcuse,atthesametimedartingsignificantglancesatWieland,asiftocautionhimagainstdisclosingthetruth。Mybrothersaidnothing,butdeliveredhimselfuptomeditation。Ilikewisewassilent,butburnedwithimpatiencetofathomthismystery。Presentlymybrotherandhiswife,andLouisa,returnedhome。Pleyelproposed,ofhisownaccord,tobemyguestforthenight。Thiscircumstance,inadditiontothosewhichpreceded,gavenewedgetomywonder。
Assoonaswewereleftalone,Pleyel\'scountenanceassumedanairofseriousness,andevenconsternation,whichIhadneverbeforebeheldinhim。Thestepswithwhichhemeasuredthefloorbetokenedthetroubleofhisthoughts。MyinquiriesweresuspendedbythehopethathewouldgivemetheinformationthatIwantedwithouttheimportunityofquestions。Iwaitedsometime,buttheconfusionofhisthoughtsappearedinnodegreetoabate。AtlengthImentionedtheapprehensionswhichtheirunusualabsencehadoccasioned,andwhichwereincreasedbytheirbehavioursincetheirreturn,andsolicitedanexplanation。HestoppedwhenIbegantospeak,andlookedstedfastlyatme。WhenIhaddone,hesaid,tome,inatonewhichfaulteredthroughthevehemenceofhisemotions,\"Howwereyouemployedduringourabsence?\"\"InturningovertheDellaCruscadictionary,andtalkingondifferentsubjects;butjustbeforeyourentrance,weweretormentingourselveswithomensandprognosticksrelativetoyourabsence。\"\"Catherinewaswithyouthewholetime?\"\"Yes。\"\"Butareyousure?\"\"Mostsure。