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  MissBartlettatoncecameforward,andafteralongpreambleaskedagreatfavour:mightshegotochurch?Mr。Beebeandhismotherhadalreadygone,butshehadrefusedtostartuntilsheobtainedherhostess\'sfullsanction,foritwouldmeankeepingthehorsewaitingagoodtenminutesmore。

  \"Certainly,\"saidthehostesswearily。\"IforgotitwasFriday。

  Let\'sallgo。Powellcangoroundtothestables。”

  \"Lucydearest——\"

  \"Nochurchforme,thankyou。”

  Asigh,andtheydeparted。Thechurchwasinvisible,butupinthedarknesstothelefttherewasahintofcolour。Thiswasastainedwindow,throughwhichsomefeeblelightwasshining,andwhenthedooropenedLucyheardMr。Beebe\'svoicerunningthroughthelitanytoaminutecongregation。Eventheirchurch,builtupontheslopeofthehillsoartfully,withitsbeautifulraisedtranseptanditsspireofsilveryshingle——eventheirchurchhadlostitscharm;andthethingonenevertalkedabout——religion——

  wasfadinglikealltheotherthings。

  ShefollowedthemaidintotheRectory。

  WouldsheobjecttosittinginMr。Beebe\'sstudy?Therewasonlythatonefire。

  Shewouldnotobject。

  Someonewastherealready,forLucyheardthewords:\"Aladytowait,sir。”

  OldMr。Emersonwassittingbythefire,withhisfootuponagout-stool。

  \"Oh,MissHoneychurch,thatyoushouldcome!\"hequavered;andLucysawanalterationinhimsincelastSunday。

  Notawordwouldcometoherlips。Georgeshehadfaced,andcouldhavefacedagain,butshehadforgottenhowtotreathisfather。

  \"MissHoneychurch,dear,wearesosorry!Georgeissosorry!Hethoughthehadarighttotry。Icannotblamemyboy,andyetI

  wishhehadtoldmefirst。Heoughtnottohavetried。Iknewnothingaboutitatall。”

  Ifonlyshecouldrememberhowtobehave!

  Hehelduphishand。\"Butyoumustnotscoldhim。”

  Lucyturnedherback,andbegantolookatMr。Beebe\'sbooks。

  \"Itaughthim,\"hequavered,\"totrustinlove。Isaid:\'Whenlovecomes,thatisreality。\'Isaid:\'Passiondoesnotblind。

  No。Passionissanity,andthewomanyoulove,sheistheonlypersonyouwilleverreallyunderstand。\'\"Hesighed:\"True,everlastinglytrue,thoughmydayisover,andthoughthereistheresult。Poorboy!Heissosorry!Hesaidheknewitwasmadnesswhenyoubroughtyourcousinin;thatwhateveryoufeltyoudidnotmean。Yet\"——hisvoicegatheredstrength:hespokeouttomakecertain——\"MissHoneychurch,doyourememberItaly?\"

  Lucyselectedabook——avolumeofOldTestamentcommentaries。

  Holdingituptohereyes,shesaid:\"IhavenowishtodiscussItalyoranysubjectconnectedwithyourson。”

  \"Butyoudorememberit?\"

  \"Hehasmisbehavedhimselffromthefirst。”

  \"IonlywastoldthathelovedyoulastSunday。Inevercouldjudgebehaviour。I——I——supposehehas。”

  Feelingalittlesteadier,sheputthebookbackandturnedroundtohim。Hisfacewasdroopingandswollen,buthiseyes,thoughtheyweresunkendeep,gleamedwithachild\'scourage。

  \"Why,hehasbehavedabominably,\"shesaid。\"Iamgladheissorry。Doyouknowwhathedid?\"

  \"Not\'abominably,\'\"wasthegentlecorrection。\"Heonlytriedwhenheshouldnothavetried。Youhaveallyouwant,MissHoneychurch:youaregoingtomarrythemanyoulove。DonotgooutofGeorge\'slifesayingheisabominable。”

  \"No,ofcourse,\"saidLucy,ashamedatthereferencetoCecil。

  \"\'Abominable\'ismuchtoostrong。IamsorryIuseditaboutyourson。IthinkIwillgotochurch,afterall。Mymotherandmycousinhavegone。Ishallnotbesoverylate——\"

  \"Especiallyashehasgoneunder,\"hesaidquietly。

  \"Whatwasthat?\"

  \"Goneundernaturally。”Hebeathispalmstogetherinsilence;

  hisheadfellonhischest。

  \"Idon\'tunderstand。”

  \"Ashismotherdid。”

  \"But,Mr。Emerson——MR。EMERSON——whatareyoutalkingabout?\"

  \"WhenIwouldn\'thaveGeorgebaptized,\"saidhe。

  Lucywasfrightened。

  \"Andsheagreedthatbaptismwasnothing,buthecaughtthatfeverwhenhewastwelveandsheturnedround。Shethoughtitajudgment。”Heshuddered。\"Oh,horrible,whenwehadgivenupthatsortofthingandbrokenawayfromherparents。Oh,horrible——

  worstofall——worsethandeath,whenyouhavemadealittleclearinginthewilderness,plantedyourlittlegarden,letinyoursunlight,andthentheweedscreepinagain!Ajudgment!Andourboyhadtyphoidbecausenoclergymanhaddroppedwateronhiminchurch!Isitpossible,MissHoneychurch?Shallweslipbackintothedarknessforever?\"

  \"Idon\'tknow,\"gaspedLucy。\"Idon\'tunderstandthissortofthing。Iwasnotmeanttounderstandit。”

  \"ButMr。Eager——hecamewhenIwasout,andactedaccordingtohisprinciples。Idon\'tblamehimoranyone……butbythetimeGeorgewaswellshewasill。Hemadeherthinkaboutsin,andshewentunderthinkingaboutit。”

  ItwasthusthatMr。EmersonhadmurderedhiswifeinthesightofGod。

  \"Oh,howterrible!\"saidLucy,forgettingherownaffairsatlast。

  \"Hewasnotbaptized,\"saidtheoldman。\"Ididholdfirm。”Andhelookedwithunwaveringeyesattherowsofbooks,asif——atwhatcost!——hehadwonavictoryoverthem。\"Myboyshallgobacktotheearthuntouched。”

  SheaskedwhetheryoungMr。Emersonwasill。

  \"Oh——lastSunday。”Hestartedintothepresent。\"GeorgelastSunday——no,notill:justgoneunder。Heisneverill。Butheishismother\'sson。Hereyeswerehis,andshehadthatforeheadthatIthinksobeautiful,andhewillnotthinkitworthwhiletolive。Itwasalwaystouchandgo。Hewilllive;buthewillnotthinkitworthwhiletolive。Hewillneverthinkanythingworthwhile。YourememberthatchurchatFlorence?\"

  Lucydidremember,andhowshehadsuggestedthatGeorgeshouldcollectpostagestamps。

  \"AfteryouleftFlorence——horrible。Thenwetookthehousehere,andhegoesbathingwithyourbrother,andbecamebetter。Yousawhimbathing?\"

  \"Iamsosorry,butitisnogooddiscussingthisaffair。Iamdeeplysorryaboutit。”

  \"Thentherecamesomethingaboutanovel。Ididn\'tfollowitatall;Ihadtohearsomuch,andhemindedtellingme;hefindsmetooold。Ah,well,onemusthavefailures。Georgecomesdownto-morrow,andtakesmeuptohisLondonrooms。Hecan\'tbeartobeabouthere,andImustbewhereheis。”

  \"Mr。Emerson,\"criedthegirl,\"don\'tleaveatleast,notonmyaccount。IamgoingtoGreece。Don\'tleaveyourcomfortablehouse。”

  Itwasthefirsttimehervoicehadbeenkindandhesmiled。\"Howgoodeveryoneis!AndlookatMr。Beebehousingme——cameoverthismorningandheardIwasgoing!HereIamsocomfortablewithafire。”

  \"Yes,butyouwon\'tgobacktoLondon。It\'sabsurd。”

  \"ImustbewithGeorge;Imustmakehimcaretolive,anddownherehecan\'t。Hesaysthethoughtofseeingyouandofhearingaboutyou——Iamnotjustifyinghim:Iamonlysayingwhathashappened。”

  \"Oh,Mr。Emerson\"——shetookholdofhishand——\"youmustn\'t。I\'vebeenbotherenoughtotheworldbynow。Ican\'thaveyoumovingoutofyourhousewhenyoulikeit,andperhapslosingmoneythroughit——allonmyaccount。Youmuststop!IamjustgoingtoGreece。”

  \"AllthewaytoGreece?\"

  Hermanneraltered。

  \"ToGreece?\"

  \"Soyoumuststop。Youwon\'ttalkaboutthisbusiness,Iknow。I

  cantrustyouboth。”

  \"Certainlyyoucan。Weeitherhaveyouinourlives,orleaveyoutothelifethatyouhavechosen。”

  \"Ishouldn\'twant——\"

  \"IsupposeMr。VyseisveryangrywithGeorge?No,itwaswrongofGeorgetotry。Wehavepushedourbeliefstoofar。Ifancythatwedeservesorrow。”

  Shelookedatthebooksagain——black,brown,andthatacridtheologicalblue。Theysurroundedthevisitorsoneveryside;

  theywerepiledonthetables,theypressedagainsttheveryceiling。ToLucywhocouldnotseethatMr。Emersonwasprofoundlyreligious,anddifferedfromMr。Beebechieflybyhisacknowledgmentofpassion——itseemeddreadfulthattheoldmanshouldcrawlintosuchasanctum,whenhewasunhappy,andbedependentonthebountyofaclergyman。

  Morecertainthaneverthatshewastired,heofferedherhischair。

  \"No,pleasesitstill。IthinkIwillsitinthecarriage。”

  \"MissHoneychurch,youdosoundtired。”

  \"Notabit,\"saidLucy,withtremblinglips。

  \"Butyouare,andthere\'salookofGeorgeaboutyou。Andwhatwereyousayingaboutgoingabroad?\"

  Shewassilent。

  \"Greece\"——andshesawthathewasthinkingthewordover——

  \"Greece;butyouweretobemarriedthisyear,Ithought。”

  \"NottillJanuary,itwasn\'t,\"saidLucy,claspingherhands。

  Wouldshetellanactualliewhenitcametothepoint?

  \"IsupposethatMr。Vyseisgoingwithyou。Ihope——itisn\'tbecauseGeorgespokethatyouarebothgoing?\"

  \"No。”

  \"IhopethatyouwillenjoyGreecewithMr。Vyse。”

  \"Thankyou。”

  AtthatmomentMr。Beebecamebackfromchurch。Hiscassockwascoveredwithrain。\"That\'sallright,\"hesaidkindly。\"Icountedonyoutwokeepingeachothercompany。It\'spouringagain。Theentirecongregation,whichconsistsofyourcousin,yourmother,andmymother,standswaitinginthechurch,tillthecarriagefetchesit。DidPowellgoround?\"

  \"Ithinkso;I\'llsee。”

  \"No——ofcourse,I\'llsee。HowaretheMissAlans?\"

  \"Verywell,thankyou。”

  \"DidyoutellMr。EmersonaboutGreece?\"

  \"I——Idid。”

  \"Don\'tyouthinkitverypluckyofher,Mr。Emerson,toundertakethetwoMissAlans?Now,MissHoneychurch,goback——keepwarm。I

  thinkthreeissuchacourageousnumbertogotravelling。”Andhehurriedofftothestables。

  \"Heisnotgoing,\"shesaidhoarsely。\"Imadeaslip。Mr。VysedoesstopbehindinEngland。”

  Somehowitwasimpossibletocheatthisoldman。ToGeorge,toCecil,shewouldhaveliedagain;butheseemedsoneartheendofthings,sodignifiedinhisapproachtothegulf,ofwhichhegaveoneaccount,andthebooksthatsurroundedhimanother,somildtotheroughpathsthathehadtraversed,thatthetruechivalry——nottheworn-outchivalryofsex,butthetruechivalrythatalltheyoungmayshowtoalltheold——awokeinher,and,atwhateverrisk,shetoldhimthatCecilwasnothercompaniontoGreece。Andshespokesoseriouslythattheriskbecameacertainty,andhe,liftinghiseyes,said:\"Youareleavinghim?

  Youareleavingthemanyoulove?\"

  \"I——Ihadto。”

  \"Why,MissHoneychurch,why?\"

  Terrorcameoverher,andsheliedagain。Shemadethelong,convincingspeechthatshehadmadetoMr。Beebe,andintendedtomaketotheworldwhensheannouncedthatherengagementwasnomore。Heheardherinsilence,andthensaid:\"Mydear,Iamworriedaboutyou。Itseemstome\"——dreamily;shewasnotalarmed——\"thatyouareinamuddle。”

  Sheshookherhead。

  \"Takeanoldman\'sword;there\'snothingworsethanamuddleinalltheworld。ItiseasytofaceDeathandFate,andthethingsthatsoundsodreadful。ItisonmymuddlesthatIlookbackwithhorror——onthethingsthatImighthaveavoided。Wecanhelponeanotherbutlittle。IusedtothinkIcouldteachyoungpeoplethewholeoflife,butIknowbetternow,andallmyteachingofGeorgehascomedowntothis:bewareofmuddle。Doyourememberinthatchurch,whenyoupretendedtobeannoyedwithmeandweren\'t?Doyourememberbefore,whenyourefusedtheroomwiththeview?Thoseweremuddles——little,butominous——andIamfearingthatyouareinonenow。”Shewassilent。\"Don\'ttrustme,MissHoneychurch。Thoughlifeisveryglorious,itisdifficult。”Shewasstillsilent。\"\'Life\'wroteafriendofmine,\'isapublicperformanceontheviolin,inwhichyoumustlearntheinstrumentasyougoalong。\'Ithinkheputsitwell。Manhastopickuptheuseofhisfunctionsashegoesalong——especiallythefunctionofLove。”Thenheburstoutexcitedly;\"That\'sit;

  that\'swhatImean。YouloveGeorge!\"Andafterhislongpreamble,thethreewordsburstagainstLucylikewavesfromtheopensea。

  \"Butyoudo,\"hewenton,notwaitingforcontradiction。\"Youlovetheboybodyandsoul,plainly,directly,ashelovesyou,andnootherwordexpressesit。Youwon\'tmarrytheothermanforhissake。”

  \"Howdareyou!\"gaspedLucy,withtheroaringofwatersinherears。\"Oh,howlikeaman!——Imean,tosupposethatawomanisalwaysthinkingaboutaman。”

  \"Butyouare。”

  Shesummonedphysicaldisgust。

  \"You\'reshocked,butImeantoshockyou。It\'stheonlyhopeattimes。Icanreachyounootherway。Youmustmarry,oryourlifewillbewasted。Youhavegonetoofartoretreat。Ihavenotimeforthetenderness,andthecomradeship,andthepoetry,andthethingsthatreallymatter,andforwhichyoumarry。Iknowthat,withGeorge,youwillfindthem,andthatyoulovehim。Thenbehiswife。Heisalreadypartofyou。ThoughyouflytoGreece,andneverseehimagain,orforgethisveryname,Georgewillworkinyourthoughtstillyoudie。Itisn\'tpossibletoloveandtopart。Youwillwishthatitwas。Youcantransmutelove,ignoreit,muddleit,butyoucanneverpullitoutofyou。I

  knowbyexperiencethatthepoetsareright:loveiseternal。”

  Lucybegantocrywithanger,andthoughherangerpassedawaysoon,hertearsremained。

  \"Ionlywishpoetswouldsaythis,too:loveisofthebody;notthebody,butofthebody。Ah!themiserythatwouldbesavedifweconfessedthat!Ah!foralittledirectnesstoliberatethesoul!Yoursoul,dearLucy!Ihatethewordnow,becauseofallthecantwithwhichsuperstitionhaswrappeditround。Butwehavesouls。Icannotsayhowtheycamenorwhithertheygo,butwehavethem,andIseeyouruiningyours。Icannotbearit。Itisagainthedarknesscreepingin;itishell。”Thenhecheckedhimself。\"WhatnonsenseIhavetalked——howabstractandremote!

  AndIhavemadeyoucry!Deargirl,forgivemyprosiness;marrymyboy。WhenIthinkwhatlifeis,andhowseldomloveisansweredbylove——Marryhim;itisoneofthemomentsforwhichtheworldwasmade。”

  Shecouldnotunderstandhim;thewordswereindeedremote。Yetashespokethedarknesswaswithdrawn,veilafterveil,andshesawtothebottomofhersoul。

  \"Then,Lucy——\"

  \"You\'vefrightenedme,\"shemoaned。\"Cecil——Mr。Beebe——theticket\'sbought——everything。”Shefellsobbingintothechair。

  \"I\'mcaughtinthetangle。Imustsufferandgrowoldawayfromhim。Icannotbreakthewholeoflifeforhissake。Theytrustedme。”

  Acarriagedrewupatthefront-door。

  \"GiveGeorgemylove——onceonly。Tellhim\'muddle。\'\"Thenshearrangedherveil,whilethetearspouredoverhercheeksinside。

  \"Lucy——\"

  \"No——theyareinthehall——oh,pleasenot,Mr。Emerson——theytrustme——\"

  \"Butwhyshouldthey,whenyouhavedeceivedthem?\"

  Mr。Beebeopenedthedoor,saying:\"Here\'smymother。”

  \"You\'renotworthyoftheirtrust。”

  \"What\'sthat?\"saidMr。Beebesharply。

  \"Iwassaying,whyshouldyoutrustherwhenshedeceivedyou?\"

  \"Oneminute,mother。”Hecameinandshutthedoor。

  \"Idon\'tfollowyou,Mr。Emerson。Towhomdoyourefer?Trustwhom?\"

  \"ImeanshehaspretendedtoyouthatshedidnotloveGeorge。

  Theyhavelovedoneanotherallalong。”

  Mr。Beebelookedatthesobbinggirl。Hewasveryquiet,andhiswhiteface,withitsruddywhiskers,seemedsuddenlyinhuman。A

  longblackcolumn,hestoodandawaitedherreply。

  \"Ishallnevermarryhim,\"quaveredLucy。

  Alookofcontemptcameoverhim,andhesaid,\"Whynot?\"

  \"Mr。Beebe——Ihavemisledyou——Ihavemisledmyself——\"

  \"Oh,rubbish,MissHoneychurch!\"

  \"Itisnotrubbish!\"saidtheoldmanhotly。\"It\'sthepartofpeoplethatyoudon\'tunderstand。”

  Mr。Beebelaidhishandontheoldman\'sshoulderpleasantly。

  \"Lucy!Lucy!\"calledvoicesfromthecarriage。

  \"Mr。Beebe,couldyouhelpme?\"

  Helookedamazedattherequest,andsaidinalow,sternvoice:

  \"IammoregrievedthanIcanpossiblyexpress。Itislamentable,lamentable——incredible。”

  \"What\'swrongwiththeboy?\"fireduptheotheragain。

  \"Nothing,Mr。Emerson,exceptthathenolongerinterestsme。

  MarryGeorge,MissHoneychurch。Hewilldoadmirably。”

  Hewalkedoutandleftthem。Theyheardhimguidinghismotherup-stairs。

  \"Lucy!\"thevoicescalled。

  SheturnedtoMr。Emersonindespair。Buthisfacerevivedher。Itwasthefaceofasaintwhounderstood。

  \"Nowitisalldark。NowBeautyandPassionseemnevertohaveexisted。Iknow。ButrememberthemountainsoverFlorenceandtheview。Ah,dear,ifIwereGeorge,andgaveyouonekiss,itwouldmakeyoubrave。Youhavetogocoldintoabattlethatneedswarmth,outintothemuddlethatyouhavemadeyourself;andyourmotherandallyourfriendswilldespiseyou,oh,mydarling,andrightly,ifitiseverrighttodespise。Georgestilldark,allthetussleandthemiserywithoutawordfromhim。AmI

  justified?\"Intohisowneyestearscame。\"Yes,forwefightformorethanLoveorPleasure;thereisTruth。Truthcounts,Truthdoescount。”

  \"Youkissme,\"saidthegirl。\"Youkissme。Iwilltry。”

  Hegaveherasenseofdeitiesreconciled,afeelingthat,ingainingthemansheloved,shewouldgainsomethingforthewholeworld。Throughoutthesqualorofherhomewarddrive——shespokeatonce——hissalutationremained。Hehadrobbedthebodyofitstaint,theworld\'stauntsoftheirsting;hehadshownhertheholinessofdirectdesire。She\"neverexactlyunderstood,\"shewouldsayinafteryears,\"howhemanagedtostrengthenher。Itwasasifhehadmadeherseethewholeofeverythingatonce。”

  ChapterXX:TheEndoftheMiddleAgesTheMissAlansdidgotoGreece,buttheywentbythemselves。

  TheyaloneofthislittlecompanywilldoubleMaleaandploughthewatersoftheSaronicgulf。TheyalonewillvisitAthensandDelphi,andeithershrineofintellectualsong——thatupontheAcropolis,encircledbyblueseas;thatunderParnassus,wheretheeaglesbuildandthebronzecharioteerdrivesundismayedtowardsinfinity。Trembling,anxious,cumberedwithmuchdigestivebread,theydidproceedtoConstantinople,theydidgoroundtheworld。Therestofusmustbecontentedwithafair,butalessarduous,goal。Italiampetimus:wereturntothePensionBertolini。

  Georgesaiditwashisoldroom。

  \"No,itisn\'t,\"saidLucy;\"becauseitistheroomIhad,andI

  hadyourfather\'sroom。Iforgetwhy;Charlottemademe,forsomereason。”

  Hekneltonthetiledfloor,andlaidhisfaceinherlap。

  \"George,youbaby,getup。”

  \"Whyshouldn\'tIbeababy?\"murmuredGeorge。

  Unabletoanswerthisquestion,sheputdownhissock,whichshewastryingtomend,andgazedoutthroughthewindow。Itwaseveningandagainthespring。

  \"Oh,botherCharlotte,\"shesaidthoughtfully。\"Whatcansuchpeoplebemadeof?\"

  \"Samestuffasparsonsaremadeof。”

  \"Nonsense!\"

  \"Quiteright。Itisnonsense。”

  \"Nowyougetupoffthecoldfloor,oryou\'llbestartingrheumatismnext,andyoustoplaughingandbeingsosilly。”

  \"Whyshouldn\'tIlaugh?\"heasked,pinningherwithhiselbows,andadvancinghisfacetohers。\"What\'stheretocryat?Kissmehere。”Heindicatedthespotwhereakisswouldbewelcome。

  Hewasaboyafterall。Whenitcametothepoint,itwasshewhorememberedthepast,sheintowhosesoultheironhadentered,shewhoknewwhoseroomthishadbeenlastyear。Itendearedhimtoherstrangelythatheshouldbesometimeswrong。

  \"Anyletters?\"heasked。

  \"JustalinefromFreddy。”

  \"Nowkissmehere;thenhere。”

  Then,threatenedagainwithrheumatism,hestrolledtothewindow,openeditastheEnglishwill,andleantout。Therewastheparapet,theretheriver,theretotheleftthebeginningsofthehills。Thecab-driver,whoatoncesalutedhimwiththehissofaserpent,mightbethatveryPhaethonwhohadsetthishappinessinmotiontwelvemonthsago。Apassionofgratitude——

  allfeelingsgrowtopassionsintheSouth——cameoverthehusband,andheblessedthepeopleandthethingswhohadtakensomuchtroubleaboutayoungfool。Hehadhelpedhimself,itistrue,buthowstupidly!

  Allthefightingthatmatteredhadbeendonebyothers——byItaly,byhisfather,byhiswife。

  \"Lucy,youcomeandlookatthecypresses;andthechurch,whateveritsnameis,stillshows。”

  \"SanMiniato。I\'lljustfinishyoursock。”

  \"Signorino,domanifaremounogiro,\"calledthecabman,withengagingcertainty。

  Georgetoldhimthathewasmistaken;theyhadnomoneytothrowawayondriving。

  Andthepeoplewhohadnotmeanttohelp——theMissLavishes,theCecils,theMissBartletts!EverpronetomagnifyFate,Georgecounteduptheforcesthathadswepthimintothiscontentment。

  \"AnythinggoodinFreddy\'sletter?\"

  \"Notyet。”

  Hisowncontentwasabsolute,buthersheldbitterness:theHoneychurcheshadnotforgiventhem;theyweredisgustedatherpasthypocrisy;shehadalienatedWindyCorner,perhapsforever。

  \"Whatdoeshesay?\"

  \"Sillyboy!Hethinkshe\'sbeingdignified。Heknewweshouldgooffinthespring——hehasknownitforsixmonths——thatifmotherwouldn\'tgiveherconsentweshouldtakethethingintoourownhands。Theyhadfairwarning,andnowhecallsitanelopement。

  Ridiculousboy——\"

  \"Signorino,domanifaremounogiro——\"

  \"Butitwillallcomerightintheend。Hehastobuildusbothupfromthebeginningagain。Iwish,though,thatCecilhadnotturnedsocynicalaboutwomen。Hehas,forthesecondtime,quitealtered。Whywillmenhavetheoriesaboutwomen?Ihaven\'tanyaboutmen。Iwish,too,thatMr。Beebe——\"

  \"Youmaywellwishthat。”

  \"Hewillneverforgiveus——Imean,hewillneverbeinterestedinusagain。IwishthathedidnotinfluencethemsomuchatWindyCorner。Iwishhehadn\'t——Butifweactthetruth,thepeoplewhoreallyloveusaresuretocomebacktousinthelongrun。”

  \"Perhaps。”Thenhesaidmoregently:\"Well,Iactedthetruth——

  theonlythingIdiddo——andyoucamebacktome。Sopossiblyyouknow。”Heturnedbackintotheroom。\"Nonsensewiththatsock。”

  Hecarriedhertothewindow,sothatshe,too,sawalltheview。

  Theysankupontheirknees,invisiblefromtheroad,theyhoped,andbegantowhisperoneanother\'snames。Ah!itwasworthwhile;

  itwasthegreatjoythattheyhadexpected,andcountlesslittlejoysofwhichtheyhadneverdreamt。Theyweresilent。

  \"Signorino,domanifaremo——\"

  \"Oh,botherthatman!\"

  ButLucyrememberedthevendorofphotographsandsaid,\"No,don\'tberudetohim。”Thenwithacatchingofherbreath,shemurmured:\"Mr。EagerandCharlotte,dreadfulfrozenCharlotte。

  Howcruelshewouldbetoamanlikethat!\"

  \"Lookatthelightsgoingoverthebridge。”

  \"ButthisroomremindsmeofCharlotte。HowhorribletogrowoldinCharlotte\'sway!Tothinkthateveningattherectorythatsheshouldn\'thaveheardyourfatherwasinthehouse。Forshewouldhavestoppedmegoingin,andhewastheonlypersonalivewhocouldhavemademeseesense。Youcouldn\'thavemademe。WhenI

  amveryhappy\"——shekissedhim——\"Irememberonhowlittleitallhangs。IfCharlottehadonlyknown,shewouldhavestoppedmegoingin,andIshouldhavegonetosillyGreece,andbecomedifferentforever。”

  \"Butshedidknow,\"saidGeorge;\"shedidseemyfather,surely。

  Hesaidso。”

  \"Oh,no,shedidn\'tseehim。ShewasupstairswitholdMrs。

  Beebe,don\'tyouremember,andthenwentstraighttothechurch。

  Shesaidso。”

  Georgewasobstinateagain。\"Myfather,\"saidhe,\"sawher,andI

  preferhisword。Hewasdozingbythestudyfire,andheopenedhiseyes,andtherewasMissBartlett。Afewminutesbeforeyoucamein。Shewasturningtogoashewokeup。Hedidn\'tspeaktoher。”

  Thentheyspokeofotherthings——thedesultorytalkofthosewhohavebeenfightingtoreachoneanother,andwhoserewardistorestquietlyineachother\'sarms。ItwaslongeretheyreturnedtoMissBartlett,butwhentheydidherbehaviourseemedmoreinteresting。George,whodislikedanydarkness,said:\"It\'sclearthatsheknew。Then,whydidsheriskthemeeting?Sheknewhewasthere,andyetshewenttochurch。”

  Theytriedtopiecethethingtogether。

  Astheytalked,anincrediblesolutioncameintoLucy\'smind。Sherejectedit,andsaid:\"HowlikeCharlottetoundoherworkbyafeeblemuddleatthelastmoment。”Butsomethinginthedyingevening,intheroaroftheriver,intheirveryembracewarnedthemthatherwordsfellshortoflife,andGeorgewhispered:\"Ordidshemeanit?\"

  \"Meanwhat?\"

  \"Signorino,domanifaremounogiro——\"

  Lucybentforwardandsaidwithgentleness:\"Lascia,prego,lascia。Siamosposati。”

  \"Scusitanto,signora,\"herepliedintonesasgentleandwhippeduphishorse。

  \"Buonasera——egrazie。”

  \"Niente。”

  Thecabmandroveawaysinging。

  \"Meanwhat,George?\"

  Hewhispered:\"Isitthis?Isthispossible?I\'llputamarveltoyou。Thatyourcousinhasalwayshoped。Thatfromtheveryfirstmomentwemet,shehoped,fardowninhermind,thatweshouldbelikethis——ofcourse,veryfardown。Thatshefoughtusonthesurface,andyetshehoped。Ican\'texplainheranyotherway。

  Canyou?Lookhowshekeptmealiveinyouallthesummer;howshegaveyounopeace;howmonthaftermonthshebecamemoreeccentricandunreliable。Thesightofushauntedher——orshecouldn\'thavedescribedusasshedidtoherfriend。Therearedetails——itburnt。Ireadthebookafterwards。Sheisnotfrozen,Lucy,sheisnotwitheredupallthrough。Shetoreusaparttwice,butintherectorythateveningshewasgivenonemorechancetomakeushappy。Wecannevermakefriendswithherorthankher。ButIdobelievethat,fardowninherheart,farbelowallspeechandbehaviour,sheisglad。”

  \"Itisimpossible,\"murmuredLucy,andthen,rememberingtheexperiencesofherownheart,shesaid:\"No——itisjustpossible。”

  Youthenwrappedthem;thesongofPhaethonannouncedpassionrequited,loveattained。Buttheywereconsciousofalovemoremysteriousthanthis。Thesongdiedaway;theyheardtheriver,bearingdownthesnowsofwinterintotheMediterranean。

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