MissBartlettatoncecameforward,andafteralongpreambleaskedagreatfavour:mightshegotochurch?Mr。Beebeandhismotherhadalreadygone,butshehadrefusedtostartuntilsheobtainedherhostess\'sfullsanction,foritwouldmeankeepingthehorsewaitingagoodtenminutesmore。
\"Certainly,\"saidthehostesswearily。\"IforgotitwasFriday。
Let\'sallgo。Powellcangoroundtothestables。”
\"Lucydearest——\"
\"Nochurchforme,thankyou。”
Asigh,andtheydeparted。Thechurchwasinvisible,butupinthedarknesstothelefttherewasahintofcolour。Thiswasastainedwindow,throughwhichsomefeeblelightwasshining,andwhenthedooropenedLucyheardMr。Beebe\'svoicerunningthroughthelitanytoaminutecongregation。Eventheirchurch,builtupontheslopeofthehillsoartfully,withitsbeautifulraisedtranseptanditsspireofsilveryshingle——eventheirchurchhadlostitscharm;andthethingonenevertalkedabout——religion——
wasfadinglikealltheotherthings。
ShefollowedthemaidintotheRectory。
WouldsheobjecttosittinginMr。Beebe\'sstudy?Therewasonlythatonefire。
Shewouldnotobject。
Someonewastherealready,forLucyheardthewords:\"Aladytowait,sir。”
OldMr。Emersonwassittingbythefire,withhisfootuponagout-stool。
\"Oh,MissHoneychurch,thatyoushouldcome!\"hequavered;andLucysawanalterationinhimsincelastSunday。
Notawordwouldcometoherlips。Georgeshehadfaced,andcouldhavefacedagain,butshehadforgottenhowtotreathisfather。
\"MissHoneychurch,dear,wearesosorry!Georgeissosorry!Hethoughthehadarighttotry。Icannotblamemyboy,andyetI
wishhehadtoldmefirst。Heoughtnottohavetried。Iknewnothingaboutitatall。”
Ifonlyshecouldrememberhowtobehave!
Hehelduphishand。\"Butyoumustnotscoldhim。”
Lucyturnedherback,andbegantolookatMr。Beebe\'sbooks。
\"Itaughthim,\"hequavered,\"totrustinlove。Isaid:\'Whenlovecomes,thatisreality。\'Isaid:\'Passiondoesnotblind。
No。Passionissanity,andthewomanyoulove,sheistheonlypersonyouwilleverreallyunderstand。\'\"Hesighed:\"True,everlastinglytrue,thoughmydayisover,andthoughthereistheresult。Poorboy!Heissosorry!Hesaidheknewitwasmadnesswhenyoubroughtyourcousinin;thatwhateveryoufeltyoudidnotmean。Yet\"——hisvoicegatheredstrength:hespokeouttomakecertain——\"MissHoneychurch,doyourememberItaly?\"
Lucyselectedabook——avolumeofOldTestamentcommentaries。
Holdingituptohereyes,shesaid:\"IhavenowishtodiscussItalyoranysubjectconnectedwithyourson。”
\"Butyoudorememberit?\"
\"Hehasmisbehavedhimselffromthefirst。”
\"IonlywastoldthathelovedyoulastSunday。Inevercouldjudgebehaviour。I——I——supposehehas。”
Feelingalittlesteadier,sheputthebookbackandturnedroundtohim。Hisfacewasdroopingandswollen,buthiseyes,thoughtheyweresunkendeep,gleamedwithachild\'scourage。
\"Why,hehasbehavedabominably,\"shesaid。\"Iamgladheissorry。Doyouknowwhathedid?\"
\"Not\'abominably,\'\"wasthegentlecorrection。\"Heonlytriedwhenheshouldnothavetried。Youhaveallyouwant,MissHoneychurch:youaregoingtomarrythemanyoulove。DonotgooutofGeorge\'slifesayingheisabominable。”
\"No,ofcourse,\"saidLucy,ashamedatthereferencetoCecil。
\"\'Abominable\'ismuchtoostrong。IamsorryIuseditaboutyourson。IthinkIwillgotochurch,afterall。Mymotherandmycousinhavegone。Ishallnotbesoverylate——\"
\"Especiallyashehasgoneunder,\"hesaidquietly。
\"Whatwasthat?\"
\"Goneundernaturally。”Hebeathispalmstogetherinsilence;
hisheadfellonhischest。
\"Idon\'tunderstand。”
\"Ashismotherdid。”
\"But,Mr。Emerson——MR。EMERSON——whatareyoutalkingabout?\"
\"WhenIwouldn\'thaveGeorgebaptized,\"saidhe。
Lucywasfrightened。
\"Andsheagreedthatbaptismwasnothing,buthecaughtthatfeverwhenhewastwelveandsheturnedround。Shethoughtitajudgment。”Heshuddered。\"Oh,horrible,whenwehadgivenupthatsortofthingandbrokenawayfromherparents。Oh,horrible——
worstofall——worsethandeath,whenyouhavemadealittleclearinginthewilderness,plantedyourlittlegarden,letinyoursunlight,andthentheweedscreepinagain!Ajudgment!Andourboyhadtyphoidbecausenoclergymanhaddroppedwateronhiminchurch!Isitpossible,MissHoneychurch?Shallweslipbackintothedarknessforever?\"
\"Idon\'tknow,\"gaspedLucy。\"Idon\'tunderstandthissortofthing。Iwasnotmeanttounderstandit。”
\"ButMr。Eager——hecamewhenIwasout,andactedaccordingtohisprinciples。Idon\'tblamehimoranyone……butbythetimeGeorgewaswellshewasill。Hemadeherthinkaboutsin,andshewentunderthinkingaboutit。”
ItwasthusthatMr。EmersonhadmurderedhiswifeinthesightofGod。
\"Oh,howterrible!\"saidLucy,forgettingherownaffairsatlast。
\"Hewasnotbaptized,\"saidtheoldman。\"Ididholdfirm。”Andhelookedwithunwaveringeyesattherowsofbooks,asif——atwhatcost!——hehadwonavictoryoverthem。\"Myboyshallgobacktotheearthuntouched。”
SheaskedwhetheryoungMr。Emersonwasill。
\"Oh——lastSunday。”Hestartedintothepresent。\"GeorgelastSunday——no,notill:justgoneunder。Heisneverill。Butheishismother\'sson。Hereyeswerehis,andshehadthatforeheadthatIthinksobeautiful,andhewillnotthinkitworthwhiletolive。Itwasalwaystouchandgo。Hewilllive;buthewillnotthinkitworthwhiletolive。Hewillneverthinkanythingworthwhile。YourememberthatchurchatFlorence?\"
Lucydidremember,andhowshehadsuggestedthatGeorgeshouldcollectpostagestamps。
\"AfteryouleftFlorence——horrible。Thenwetookthehousehere,andhegoesbathingwithyourbrother,andbecamebetter。Yousawhimbathing?\"
\"Iamsosorry,butitisnogooddiscussingthisaffair。Iamdeeplysorryaboutit。”
\"Thentherecamesomethingaboutanovel。Ididn\'tfollowitatall;Ihadtohearsomuch,andhemindedtellingme;hefindsmetooold。Ah,well,onemusthavefailures。Georgecomesdownto-morrow,andtakesmeuptohisLondonrooms。Hecan\'tbeartobeabouthere,andImustbewhereheis。”
\"Mr。Emerson,\"criedthegirl,\"don\'tleaveatleast,notonmyaccount。IamgoingtoGreece。Don\'tleaveyourcomfortablehouse。”
Itwasthefirsttimehervoicehadbeenkindandhesmiled。\"Howgoodeveryoneis!AndlookatMr。Beebehousingme——cameoverthismorningandheardIwasgoing!HereIamsocomfortablewithafire。”
\"Yes,butyouwon\'tgobacktoLondon。It\'sabsurd。”
\"ImustbewithGeorge;Imustmakehimcaretolive,anddownherehecan\'t。Hesaysthethoughtofseeingyouandofhearingaboutyou——Iamnotjustifyinghim:Iamonlysayingwhathashappened。”
\"Oh,Mr。Emerson\"——shetookholdofhishand——\"youmustn\'t。I\'vebeenbotherenoughtotheworldbynow。Ican\'thaveyoumovingoutofyourhousewhenyoulikeit,andperhapslosingmoneythroughit——allonmyaccount。Youmuststop!IamjustgoingtoGreece。”
\"AllthewaytoGreece?\"
Hermanneraltered。
\"ToGreece?\"
\"Soyoumuststop。Youwon\'ttalkaboutthisbusiness,Iknow。I
cantrustyouboth。”
\"Certainlyyoucan。Weeitherhaveyouinourlives,orleaveyoutothelifethatyouhavechosen。”
\"Ishouldn\'twant——\"
\"IsupposeMr。VyseisveryangrywithGeorge?No,itwaswrongofGeorgetotry。Wehavepushedourbeliefstoofar。Ifancythatwedeservesorrow。”
Shelookedatthebooksagain——black,brown,andthatacridtheologicalblue。Theysurroundedthevisitorsoneveryside;
theywerepiledonthetables,theypressedagainsttheveryceiling。ToLucywhocouldnotseethatMr。Emersonwasprofoundlyreligious,anddifferedfromMr。Beebechieflybyhisacknowledgmentofpassion——itseemeddreadfulthattheoldmanshouldcrawlintosuchasanctum,whenhewasunhappy,andbedependentonthebountyofaclergyman。
Morecertainthaneverthatshewastired,heofferedherhischair。
\"No,pleasesitstill。IthinkIwillsitinthecarriage。”
\"MissHoneychurch,youdosoundtired。”
\"Notabit,\"saidLucy,withtremblinglips。
\"Butyouare,andthere\'salookofGeorgeaboutyou。Andwhatwereyousayingaboutgoingabroad?\"
Shewassilent。
\"Greece\"——andshesawthathewasthinkingthewordover——
\"Greece;butyouweretobemarriedthisyear,Ithought。”
\"NottillJanuary,itwasn\'t,\"saidLucy,claspingherhands。
Wouldshetellanactualliewhenitcametothepoint?
\"IsupposethatMr。Vyseisgoingwithyou。Ihope——itisn\'tbecauseGeorgespokethatyouarebothgoing?\"
\"No。”
\"IhopethatyouwillenjoyGreecewithMr。Vyse。”
\"Thankyou。”
AtthatmomentMr。Beebecamebackfromchurch。Hiscassockwascoveredwithrain。\"That\'sallright,\"hesaidkindly。\"Icountedonyoutwokeepingeachothercompany。It\'spouringagain。Theentirecongregation,whichconsistsofyourcousin,yourmother,andmymother,standswaitinginthechurch,tillthecarriagefetchesit。DidPowellgoround?\"
\"Ithinkso;I\'llsee。”
\"No——ofcourse,I\'llsee。HowaretheMissAlans?\"
\"Verywell,thankyou。”
\"DidyoutellMr。EmersonaboutGreece?\"
\"I——Idid。”
\"Don\'tyouthinkitverypluckyofher,Mr。Emerson,toundertakethetwoMissAlans?Now,MissHoneychurch,goback——keepwarm。I
thinkthreeissuchacourageousnumbertogotravelling。”Andhehurriedofftothestables。
\"Heisnotgoing,\"shesaidhoarsely。\"Imadeaslip。Mr。VysedoesstopbehindinEngland。”
Somehowitwasimpossibletocheatthisoldman。ToGeorge,toCecil,shewouldhaveliedagain;butheseemedsoneartheendofthings,sodignifiedinhisapproachtothegulf,ofwhichhegaveoneaccount,andthebooksthatsurroundedhimanother,somildtotheroughpathsthathehadtraversed,thatthetruechivalry——nottheworn-outchivalryofsex,butthetruechivalrythatalltheyoungmayshowtoalltheold——awokeinher,and,atwhateverrisk,shetoldhimthatCecilwasnothercompaniontoGreece。Andshespokesoseriouslythattheriskbecameacertainty,andhe,liftinghiseyes,said:\"Youareleavinghim?
Youareleavingthemanyoulove?\"
\"I——Ihadto。”
\"Why,MissHoneychurch,why?\"
Terrorcameoverher,andsheliedagain。Shemadethelong,convincingspeechthatshehadmadetoMr。Beebe,andintendedtomaketotheworldwhensheannouncedthatherengagementwasnomore。Heheardherinsilence,andthensaid:\"Mydear,Iamworriedaboutyou。Itseemstome\"——dreamily;shewasnotalarmed——\"thatyouareinamuddle。”
Sheshookherhead。
\"Takeanoldman\'sword;there\'snothingworsethanamuddleinalltheworld。ItiseasytofaceDeathandFate,andthethingsthatsoundsodreadful。ItisonmymuddlesthatIlookbackwithhorror——onthethingsthatImighthaveavoided。Wecanhelponeanotherbutlittle。IusedtothinkIcouldteachyoungpeoplethewholeoflife,butIknowbetternow,andallmyteachingofGeorgehascomedowntothis:bewareofmuddle。Doyourememberinthatchurch,whenyoupretendedtobeannoyedwithmeandweren\'t?Doyourememberbefore,whenyourefusedtheroomwiththeview?Thoseweremuddles——little,butominous——andIamfearingthatyouareinonenow。”Shewassilent。\"Don\'ttrustme,MissHoneychurch。Thoughlifeisveryglorious,itisdifficult。”Shewasstillsilent。\"\'Life\'wroteafriendofmine,\'isapublicperformanceontheviolin,inwhichyoumustlearntheinstrumentasyougoalong。\'Ithinkheputsitwell。Manhastopickuptheuseofhisfunctionsashegoesalong——especiallythefunctionofLove。”Thenheburstoutexcitedly;\"That\'sit;
that\'swhatImean。YouloveGeorge!\"Andafterhislongpreamble,thethreewordsburstagainstLucylikewavesfromtheopensea。
\"Butyoudo,\"hewenton,notwaitingforcontradiction。\"Youlovetheboybodyandsoul,plainly,directly,ashelovesyou,andnootherwordexpressesit。Youwon\'tmarrytheothermanforhissake。”
\"Howdareyou!\"gaspedLucy,withtheroaringofwatersinherears。\"Oh,howlikeaman!——Imean,tosupposethatawomanisalwaysthinkingaboutaman。”
\"Butyouare。”
Shesummonedphysicaldisgust。
\"You\'reshocked,butImeantoshockyou。It\'stheonlyhopeattimes。Icanreachyounootherway。Youmustmarry,oryourlifewillbewasted。Youhavegonetoofartoretreat。Ihavenotimeforthetenderness,andthecomradeship,andthepoetry,andthethingsthatreallymatter,andforwhichyoumarry。Iknowthat,withGeorge,youwillfindthem,andthatyoulovehim。Thenbehiswife。Heisalreadypartofyou。ThoughyouflytoGreece,andneverseehimagain,orforgethisveryname,Georgewillworkinyourthoughtstillyoudie。Itisn\'tpossibletoloveandtopart。Youwillwishthatitwas。Youcantransmutelove,ignoreit,muddleit,butyoucanneverpullitoutofyou。I
knowbyexperiencethatthepoetsareright:loveiseternal。”
Lucybegantocrywithanger,andthoughherangerpassedawaysoon,hertearsremained。
\"Ionlywishpoetswouldsaythis,too:loveisofthebody;notthebody,butofthebody。Ah!themiserythatwouldbesavedifweconfessedthat!Ah!foralittledirectnesstoliberatethesoul!Yoursoul,dearLucy!Ihatethewordnow,becauseofallthecantwithwhichsuperstitionhaswrappeditround。Butwehavesouls。Icannotsayhowtheycamenorwhithertheygo,butwehavethem,andIseeyouruiningyours。Icannotbearit。Itisagainthedarknesscreepingin;itishell。”Thenhecheckedhimself。\"WhatnonsenseIhavetalked——howabstractandremote!
AndIhavemadeyoucry!Deargirl,forgivemyprosiness;marrymyboy。WhenIthinkwhatlifeis,andhowseldomloveisansweredbylove——Marryhim;itisoneofthemomentsforwhichtheworldwasmade。”
Shecouldnotunderstandhim;thewordswereindeedremote。Yetashespokethedarknesswaswithdrawn,veilafterveil,andshesawtothebottomofhersoul。
\"Then,Lucy——\"
\"You\'vefrightenedme,\"shemoaned。\"Cecil——Mr。Beebe——theticket\'sbought——everything。”Shefellsobbingintothechair。
\"I\'mcaughtinthetangle。Imustsufferandgrowoldawayfromhim。Icannotbreakthewholeoflifeforhissake。Theytrustedme。”
Acarriagedrewupatthefront-door。
\"GiveGeorgemylove——onceonly。Tellhim\'muddle。\'\"Thenshearrangedherveil,whilethetearspouredoverhercheeksinside。
\"Lucy——\"
\"No——theyareinthehall——oh,pleasenot,Mr。Emerson——theytrustme——\"
\"Butwhyshouldthey,whenyouhavedeceivedthem?\"
Mr。Beebeopenedthedoor,saying:\"Here\'smymother。”
\"You\'renotworthyoftheirtrust。”
\"What\'sthat?\"saidMr。Beebesharply。
\"Iwassaying,whyshouldyoutrustherwhenshedeceivedyou?\"
\"Oneminute,mother。”Hecameinandshutthedoor。
\"Idon\'tfollowyou,Mr。Emerson。Towhomdoyourefer?Trustwhom?\"
\"ImeanshehaspretendedtoyouthatshedidnotloveGeorge。
Theyhavelovedoneanotherallalong。”
Mr。Beebelookedatthesobbinggirl。Hewasveryquiet,andhiswhiteface,withitsruddywhiskers,seemedsuddenlyinhuman。A
longblackcolumn,hestoodandawaitedherreply。
\"Ishallnevermarryhim,\"quaveredLucy。
Alookofcontemptcameoverhim,andhesaid,\"Whynot?\"
\"Mr。Beebe——Ihavemisledyou——Ihavemisledmyself——\"
\"Oh,rubbish,MissHoneychurch!\"
\"Itisnotrubbish!\"saidtheoldmanhotly。\"It\'sthepartofpeoplethatyoudon\'tunderstand。”
Mr。Beebelaidhishandontheoldman\'sshoulderpleasantly。
\"Lucy!Lucy!\"calledvoicesfromthecarriage。
\"Mr。Beebe,couldyouhelpme?\"
Helookedamazedattherequest,andsaidinalow,sternvoice:
\"IammoregrievedthanIcanpossiblyexpress。Itislamentable,lamentable——incredible。”
\"What\'swrongwiththeboy?\"fireduptheotheragain。
\"Nothing,Mr。Emerson,exceptthathenolongerinterestsme。
MarryGeorge,MissHoneychurch。Hewilldoadmirably。”
Hewalkedoutandleftthem。Theyheardhimguidinghismotherup-stairs。
\"Lucy!\"thevoicescalled。
SheturnedtoMr。Emersonindespair。Buthisfacerevivedher。Itwasthefaceofasaintwhounderstood。
\"Nowitisalldark。NowBeautyandPassionseemnevertohaveexisted。Iknow。ButrememberthemountainsoverFlorenceandtheview。Ah,dear,ifIwereGeorge,andgaveyouonekiss,itwouldmakeyoubrave。Youhavetogocoldintoabattlethatneedswarmth,outintothemuddlethatyouhavemadeyourself;andyourmotherandallyourfriendswilldespiseyou,oh,mydarling,andrightly,ifitiseverrighttodespise。Georgestilldark,allthetussleandthemiserywithoutawordfromhim。AmI
justified?\"Intohisowneyestearscame。\"Yes,forwefightformorethanLoveorPleasure;thereisTruth。Truthcounts,Truthdoescount。”
\"Youkissme,\"saidthegirl。\"Youkissme。Iwilltry。”
Hegaveherasenseofdeitiesreconciled,afeelingthat,ingainingthemansheloved,shewouldgainsomethingforthewholeworld。Throughoutthesqualorofherhomewarddrive——shespokeatonce——hissalutationremained。Hehadrobbedthebodyofitstaint,theworld\'stauntsoftheirsting;hehadshownhertheholinessofdirectdesire。She\"neverexactlyunderstood,\"shewouldsayinafteryears,\"howhemanagedtostrengthenher。Itwasasifhehadmadeherseethewholeofeverythingatonce。”
ChapterXX:TheEndoftheMiddleAgesTheMissAlansdidgotoGreece,buttheywentbythemselves。
TheyaloneofthislittlecompanywilldoubleMaleaandploughthewatersoftheSaronicgulf。TheyalonewillvisitAthensandDelphi,andeithershrineofintellectualsong——thatupontheAcropolis,encircledbyblueseas;thatunderParnassus,wheretheeaglesbuildandthebronzecharioteerdrivesundismayedtowardsinfinity。Trembling,anxious,cumberedwithmuchdigestivebread,theydidproceedtoConstantinople,theydidgoroundtheworld。Therestofusmustbecontentedwithafair,butalessarduous,goal。Italiampetimus:wereturntothePensionBertolini。
Georgesaiditwashisoldroom。
\"No,itisn\'t,\"saidLucy;\"becauseitistheroomIhad,andI
hadyourfather\'sroom。Iforgetwhy;Charlottemademe,forsomereason。”
Hekneltonthetiledfloor,andlaidhisfaceinherlap。
\"George,youbaby,getup。”
\"Whyshouldn\'tIbeababy?\"murmuredGeorge。
Unabletoanswerthisquestion,sheputdownhissock,whichshewastryingtomend,andgazedoutthroughthewindow。Itwaseveningandagainthespring。
\"Oh,botherCharlotte,\"shesaidthoughtfully。\"Whatcansuchpeoplebemadeof?\"
\"Samestuffasparsonsaremadeof。”
\"Nonsense!\"
\"Quiteright。Itisnonsense。”
\"Nowyougetupoffthecoldfloor,oryou\'llbestartingrheumatismnext,andyoustoplaughingandbeingsosilly。”
\"Whyshouldn\'tIlaugh?\"heasked,pinningherwithhiselbows,andadvancinghisfacetohers。\"What\'stheretocryat?Kissmehere。”Heindicatedthespotwhereakisswouldbewelcome。
Hewasaboyafterall。Whenitcametothepoint,itwasshewhorememberedthepast,sheintowhosesoultheironhadentered,shewhoknewwhoseroomthishadbeenlastyear。Itendearedhimtoherstrangelythatheshouldbesometimeswrong。
\"Anyletters?\"heasked。
\"JustalinefromFreddy。”
\"Nowkissmehere;thenhere。”
Then,threatenedagainwithrheumatism,hestrolledtothewindow,openeditastheEnglishwill,andleantout。Therewastheparapet,theretheriver,theretotheleftthebeginningsofthehills。Thecab-driver,whoatoncesalutedhimwiththehissofaserpent,mightbethatveryPhaethonwhohadsetthishappinessinmotiontwelvemonthsago。Apassionofgratitude——
allfeelingsgrowtopassionsintheSouth——cameoverthehusband,andheblessedthepeopleandthethingswhohadtakensomuchtroubleaboutayoungfool。Hehadhelpedhimself,itistrue,buthowstupidly!
Allthefightingthatmatteredhadbeendonebyothers——byItaly,byhisfather,byhiswife。
\"Lucy,youcomeandlookatthecypresses;andthechurch,whateveritsnameis,stillshows。”
\"SanMiniato。I\'lljustfinishyoursock。”
\"Signorino,domanifaremounogiro,\"calledthecabman,withengagingcertainty。
Georgetoldhimthathewasmistaken;theyhadnomoneytothrowawayondriving。
Andthepeoplewhohadnotmeanttohelp——theMissLavishes,theCecils,theMissBartletts!EverpronetomagnifyFate,Georgecounteduptheforcesthathadswepthimintothiscontentment。
\"AnythinggoodinFreddy\'sletter?\"
\"Notyet。”
Hisowncontentwasabsolute,buthersheldbitterness:theHoneychurcheshadnotforgiventhem;theyweredisgustedatherpasthypocrisy;shehadalienatedWindyCorner,perhapsforever。
\"Whatdoeshesay?\"
\"Sillyboy!Hethinkshe\'sbeingdignified。Heknewweshouldgooffinthespring——hehasknownitforsixmonths——thatifmotherwouldn\'tgiveherconsentweshouldtakethethingintoourownhands。Theyhadfairwarning,andnowhecallsitanelopement。
Ridiculousboy——\"
\"Signorino,domanifaremounogiro——\"
\"Butitwillallcomerightintheend。Hehastobuildusbothupfromthebeginningagain。Iwish,though,thatCecilhadnotturnedsocynicalaboutwomen。Hehas,forthesecondtime,quitealtered。Whywillmenhavetheoriesaboutwomen?Ihaven\'tanyaboutmen。Iwish,too,thatMr。Beebe——\"
\"Youmaywellwishthat。”
\"Hewillneverforgiveus——Imean,hewillneverbeinterestedinusagain。IwishthathedidnotinfluencethemsomuchatWindyCorner。Iwishhehadn\'t——Butifweactthetruth,thepeoplewhoreallyloveusaresuretocomebacktousinthelongrun。”
\"Perhaps。”Thenhesaidmoregently:\"Well,Iactedthetruth——
theonlythingIdiddo——andyoucamebacktome。Sopossiblyyouknow。”Heturnedbackintotheroom。\"Nonsensewiththatsock。”
Hecarriedhertothewindow,sothatshe,too,sawalltheview。
Theysankupontheirknees,invisiblefromtheroad,theyhoped,andbegantowhisperoneanother\'snames。Ah!itwasworthwhile;
itwasthegreatjoythattheyhadexpected,andcountlesslittlejoysofwhichtheyhadneverdreamt。Theyweresilent。
\"Signorino,domanifaremo——\"
\"Oh,botherthatman!\"
ButLucyrememberedthevendorofphotographsandsaid,\"No,don\'tberudetohim。”Thenwithacatchingofherbreath,shemurmured:\"Mr。EagerandCharlotte,dreadfulfrozenCharlotte。
Howcruelshewouldbetoamanlikethat!\"
\"Lookatthelightsgoingoverthebridge。”
\"ButthisroomremindsmeofCharlotte。HowhorribletogrowoldinCharlotte\'sway!Tothinkthateveningattherectorythatsheshouldn\'thaveheardyourfatherwasinthehouse。Forshewouldhavestoppedmegoingin,andhewastheonlypersonalivewhocouldhavemademeseesense。Youcouldn\'thavemademe。WhenI
amveryhappy\"——shekissedhim——\"Irememberonhowlittleitallhangs。IfCharlottehadonlyknown,shewouldhavestoppedmegoingin,andIshouldhavegonetosillyGreece,andbecomedifferentforever。”
\"Butshedidknow,\"saidGeorge;\"shedidseemyfather,surely。
Hesaidso。”
\"Oh,no,shedidn\'tseehim。ShewasupstairswitholdMrs。
Beebe,don\'tyouremember,andthenwentstraighttothechurch。
Shesaidso。”
Georgewasobstinateagain。\"Myfather,\"saidhe,\"sawher,andI
preferhisword。Hewasdozingbythestudyfire,andheopenedhiseyes,andtherewasMissBartlett。Afewminutesbeforeyoucamein。Shewasturningtogoashewokeup。Hedidn\'tspeaktoher。”
Thentheyspokeofotherthings——thedesultorytalkofthosewhohavebeenfightingtoreachoneanother,andwhoserewardistorestquietlyineachother\'sarms。ItwaslongeretheyreturnedtoMissBartlett,butwhentheydidherbehaviourseemedmoreinteresting。George,whodislikedanydarkness,said:\"It\'sclearthatsheknew。Then,whydidsheriskthemeeting?Sheknewhewasthere,andyetshewenttochurch。”
Theytriedtopiecethethingtogether。
Astheytalked,anincrediblesolutioncameintoLucy\'smind。Sherejectedit,andsaid:\"HowlikeCharlottetoundoherworkbyafeeblemuddleatthelastmoment。”Butsomethinginthedyingevening,intheroaroftheriver,intheirveryembracewarnedthemthatherwordsfellshortoflife,andGeorgewhispered:\"Ordidshemeanit?\"
\"Meanwhat?\"
\"Signorino,domanifaremounogiro——\"
Lucybentforwardandsaidwithgentleness:\"Lascia,prego,lascia。Siamosposati。”
\"Scusitanto,signora,\"herepliedintonesasgentleandwhippeduphishorse。
\"Buonasera——egrazie。”
\"Niente。”
Thecabmandroveawaysinging。
\"Meanwhat,George?\"
Hewhispered:\"Isitthis?Isthispossible?I\'llputamarveltoyou。Thatyourcousinhasalwayshoped。Thatfromtheveryfirstmomentwemet,shehoped,fardowninhermind,thatweshouldbelikethis——ofcourse,veryfardown。Thatshefoughtusonthesurface,andyetshehoped。Ican\'texplainheranyotherway。
Canyou?Lookhowshekeptmealiveinyouallthesummer;howshegaveyounopeace;howmonthaftermonthshebecamemoreeccentricandunreliable。Thesightofushauntedher——orshecouldn\'thavedescribedusasshedidtoherfriend。Therearedetails——itburnt。Ireadthebookafterwards。Sheisnotfrozen,Lucy,sheisnotwitheredupallthrough。Shetoreusaparttwice,butintherectorythateveningshewasgivenonemorechancetomakeushappy。Wecannevermakefriendswithherorthankher。ButIdobelievethat,fardowninherheart,farbelowallspeechandbehaviour,sheisglad。”
\"Itisimpossible,\"murmuredLucy,andthen,rememberingtheexperiencesofherownheart,shesaid:\"No——itisjustpossible。”
Youthenwrappedthem;thesongofPhaethonannouncedpassionrequited,loveattained。Buttheywereconsciousofalovemoremysteriousthanthis。Thesongdiedaway;theyheardtheriver,bearingdownthesnowsofwinterintotheMediterranean。