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  ——Tryingtorefinethemalsooutofexistence,saidLynch。

  Afinerainbegantofallfromthehighveiledskyandtheyturnedintotheduke\'slawntoreachthenationallibrarybeforetheshowercame——

  Whatdoyoumean,Lynchaskedsurlily,bypratingaboutbeautyandtheimaginationinthismiserableGodforsakenisland?Nowondertheartistretiredwithinorbehindhishandiworkafterhavingperpetratedthiscountry。

  Therainfellfaster。WhentheypassedthroughthepassagebesideKildarehousetheyfoundmanystudentsshelteringunderthearcadeofthelibrary。

  Cranly,leaningagainstapillar,waspickinghisteethwithasharpenedmatch,listeningtosomecompanions。Somegirlsstoodneartheentrancedoor。LynchwhisperedtoStephen:——

  Yourbelovedishere。

  Stephentookhisplacesilentlyonthestepbelowthegroupofstudents,heedlessoftherainwhichfellfast,turninghiseyestowardsherfromtimetotime。Shetoostoodsilentlyamonghercompanions。Shehasnopriesttoflirtwith,hethoughtwithconsciousbitterness,rememberinghowhehadseenherlast。Lynchwasright。Hismindemptiedoftheoryandcourage,lapsedbackintoalistlesspeace。

  Heheardthestudentstalkingamongthemselves。Theyspokeoftwofriendswhohadpassedthefinalmedicalexamination,ofthechancesofgettingplacesonoceanliners,ofpoorandrichpractices——

  That\'sallabubble。AnIrishcountrypracticeisbetter——

  HyneswastwoyearsinLiverpoolandhesaysthesame。Afrightfulholehesaiditwas。Nothingbutmidwiferycases——

  Doyoumeantosayitisbettertohaveajobhereinthecountrythaninarichcitylikethat?Iknowafellow——

  Hyneshasnobrains。Hegotthroughbystewing,purestewing——

  Don\'tmindhim。There\'splentyofmoneytobemadeinabigcommercialCity——

  Dependsonthepractice——

  Egocredoutvitapauperumestsimpliciteratrox,simplicitersanguinariusatrox,inLiverpoolio。

  Theirvoicesreachedhisearsasiffromadistanceininterruptedpulsation。

  Shewaspreparingtogoawaywithhercompanions。

  Thequicklightshowerhaddrawnoff,tarryinginclustersofdiamondsamongtheshrubsofthequadranglewhereanexhalationwasbreathedforthbytheblackenedearth。Theirtrimbootsprattledastheystoodonthestepsofthecolonnade,talkingquietlyandgaily,glancingattheclouds,holdingtheirumbrellasatcunninganglesagainstthefewlastraindrops,closingthemagain,holdingtheirskirtsdemurely。

  Andifhehadjudgedherharshly?Ifherlifewereasimplerosaryofhours,herlifesimpleandstrangeasabird\'slife,gayinthemorning,restlessallday,tiredatsundown?Herheartsimpleandwilfulasabird\'sheart?

  Towardsdawnheawoke。Owhatsweetmusic!Hissoulwasalldewywet。

  Overhislimbsinsleeppalecoolwavesoflighthadpassed。Helaystill,asifhissoullayamidcoolwaters,consciousoffaintsweetmusic。Hismindwaswakingslowlytoatremulousmorningknowledge,amorninginspiration。

  Aspiritfilledhim,pureasthepurestwater,sweetasdew,movingasmusic。Buthowfaintlyitwasinbreathed,howpassionlessly,asiftheseraphimthemselveswerebreathinguponhim!Hissoulwaswakingslowly,fearingtoawakewholly。Itwasthatwindlesshourofdawnwhenmadnesswakesandstrangeplantsopentothelightandthemothfliesforthsilently。

  Anenchantmentoftheheart!Thenighthadbeenenchanted。Inadreamorvisionhehadknowntheecstasyofseraphiclife。Wasitaninstantofenchantmentonlyorlonghoursandyearsandages?

  Theinstantofinspirationseemednowtobereflectedfromallsidesatoncefromamultitudeofcloudycircumstancesofwhathadhappenedorofwhatmighthavehappened。Theinstantflashedforthlikeapointoflightandnowfromcloudoncloudofvaguecircumstanceconfusedformwasveilingsoftlyitsafterglow。O!Inthevirginwomboftheimaginationthewordwasmadeflesh。Gabrieltheseraphhadcometothevirgin\'schamber。

  Anafterglowdeepenedwithinhisspirit,whencethewhiteflamehadpassed,deepeningtoaroseandardentlight。Thatroseandardentlightwasherstrangewilfulheart,strangethatnomanhadknownorwouldknow,wilfulfrombeforethebeginningoftheworld;andluredbythatardentrose-likeglowthechoirsoftheseraphimwerefallingfromheaven。Areyounotwearyofardentways,Lureofthefallenseraphim?

  Tellnomoreofenchanteddays。Theversespassedfromhismindtohislipsand,murmuringthemover,hefelttherhythmicmovementofavillanellepassthroughthem。Therose-likeglowsentforthitsraysofrhyme;ways,days,blaze,praise,raise。Itsraysburneduptheworld,consumedtheheartsofmenandangels:theraysfromtherosethatwasherwilfulheart。Youreyeshavesetman\'sheartablazeAndyouhavehadyourwillofhim。

  Areyounotwearyofardentways?Andthen?Therhythmdiedaway,ceased,beganagaintomoveandbeat。Andthen?Smoke,incenseascendingfromthealtaroftheworld。AbovetheflamethesmokeofpraiseGoesupfromoceanrimtorimTellnomoreofenchanteddays。Smokewentupfromthewholeearth,fromthevapouryoceans,smokeofherpraise。Theearthwaslikeaswingingswayingcenser,aballofincense,anellipsoidalfall。Therhythmdiedoutatonce;thecryofhisheartwasbroken。Hislipsbegantomurmurthefirstversesoverandover;thenwentonstumblingthroughhalfverses,stammeringandbaffled;thenstopped。

  Theheart\'scrywasbroken。

  Theveiledwindlesshourhadpassedandbehindthepanesofthenakedwindowthemorninglightwasgathering。Abellbeatfaintlyveryfaraway。

  Abirdtwittered;twobirds,three。Thebellandthebirdceased;andthedullwhitelightspreaditselfeastandwest,coveringtheworld,coveringtheroselightinhisheart。

  Fearingtoloseall,heraisedhimselfsuddenlyonhiselbowtolookforpaperandpencil。Therewasneitheronthetable;onlythesoupplatehehadeatenthericefromforsupperandthecandlestickwithitstendrilsoftallowanditspapersocket,singedbythelastflame。Hestretchedhisarmwearilytowardsthefootofthebed,gropingwithhishandinthepocketsofthecoatthathungthere。Hisfingersfoundapencilandthenacigarettepacket。Helaybackand,tearingopenthepacket,placedthelastcigaretteonthewindowledgeandbegantowriteoutthestanzasofthevillanelleinsmallneatlettersontheroughcardboardsurface。

  Havingwrittenthemouthelaybackonthelumpypillow,murmuringthemagain。Thelumpsofknottedflockunderhisheadremindedhimofthelumpsofknottedhorsehairinthesofaofherparlouronwhichheusedtosit,smilingorserious,askinghimselfwhyhehadcome,displeasedwithherandwithhimself,confoundedbytheprintoftheSacredHeartabovetheuntenantedsideboard。Hesawherapproachhiminalullofthetalkandbeghimtosingoneofhiscurioussongs。Thenhesawhimselfsittingattheoldpiano,strikingchordssoftlyfromitsspeckledkeysandsinging,amidthetalkwhichhadrisenagainintheroom,toherwholeanedbesidethemantelpieceadaintysongoftheElizabethans,asadandsweetlothtodepart,thevictorychantofAgincourt,thehappyairofGreensleeves。

  Whilehesangandshelistened,orfeignedtolisten,hisheartwasatrestbutwhenthequaintoldsongshadendedandheheardagainthevoicesintheroomherememberedhisownsarcasm:thehousewhereyoungmenarecalledbytheirchristiannamesalittletoosoon。

  Atcertaininstantshereyesseemedabouttotrusthimbuthehadwaitedinvain。Shepassednowdancinglightlyacrosshismemoryasshehadbeenthatnightatthecarnivalball,herwhitedressalittlelifted,awhitespraynoddinginherhair。Shedancedlightlyintheround。Shewasdancingtowardshimand,asshecame,hereyeswerealittleavertedandafaintglowwasonhercheek。Atthepauseinthechainofhandsherhandhadlaininhisaninstant,asoftmerchandise——

  Youareagreatstrangernow——

  Yes。Iwasborntobeamonk——

  Iamafraidyouareaheretic——

  Areyoumuchafraid?

  Foranswershehaddancedawayfromhimalongthechainofhands,dancinglightlyanddiscreetly,givingherselftonone。Thewhitespraynoddedtoherdancingandwhenshewasinshadowtheglowwasdeeperonhercheek。

  Amonk!Hisownimagestartedforthaprofanerofthecloister,ahereticfranciscan,willingandwillingnottoserve,spinninglikeGherardinodaBorgoSanDonnino,alithewebofsophistryandwhisperinginherear。

  No,itwasnothisimage。Itwasliketheimageoftheyoungpriestinwhosecompanyhehadseenherlast,lookingathimoutofdove\'seyes,toyingwiththepagesofherIrishphrase-book——

  Yes,yes,theladiesarecomingroundtous。Icanseeiteveryday。

  Theladiesarewithus。Thebesthelpersthelanguagehas——

  Andthechurch,FatherMoran?——

  Thechurchtoo。Comingroundtoo。Theworkisgoingaheadtheretoo。

  Don\'tfretaboutthechurch。

  Bah!hehaddonewelltoleavetheroomindisdain。Hehaddonewellnottosaluteheronthestepsofthelibrary!Hehaddonewelltoleavehertoflirtwithherpriest,totoywithachurchwhichwasthescullery-maidofchristendom。

  Rudebrutalangerroutedthelastlingeringinstantofecstasyfromhissoul。Itbrokeupviolentlyherfairimageandflungthefragmentsonallsides。Onallsidesdistortedreflectionsofherimagestartedfromhismemory:theflowergirlintheraggeddresswithdampcoarsehairandahoyden\'sfacewhohadcalledherselfhisowngirlandbeggedhishandsel,thekitchen-girlinthenexthousewhosangovertheclatterofherplates,withthedrawlofacountrysinger,thefirstbarsofByKillarney\'sLakesandFells,agirlwhohadlaughedgailytoseehimstumblewhentheirongratingin0thefootpathnearCorkHillhadcaughtthebrokensoleofhisshoe,agirlhehadglancedat,attractedbyhersmallripemouth,asshepassedoutofJacob\'sbiscuitfactory,whohadcriedtohimoverhershoulder:——

  Doyoulikewhatyouseenofme,straighthairandcurlyeyebrows?

  Andyethefeltthat,howeverhemightrevileandmockherimage,hisangerwasalsoaformofhomage。Hehadlefttheclassroomindisdainthatwasnotwhollysincere,feelingthatperhapsthesecretofherracelaybehindthosedarkeyesuponwhichherlonglashesflungaquickshadow。

  Hehadtoldhimselfbitterlyashewalkedthroughthestreetsthatshewasafigureofthewomanhoodofhercountry,abat-likesoulwakingtotheconsciousnessofitselfindarknessandsecrecyandloneliness,tarryingawhile,lovelessandsinless,withhermildloverandleavinghimtowhisperofinnocenttransgressionsinthelatticedearofapriest。Hisangeragainstherfoundventincoarserailingatherparamour,whosenameandvoiceandfeaturesoffendedhisbaffledpride:apriestedpeasant,withabrotherapolicemaninDublinandabrotherapotboyinMoycullen。Tohimshewouldunveilhersoul\'sshynakedness,toonewhowasbutschooledinthedischargingofaformalriteratherthantohim,apriestoftheeternalimagination,transmutingthedailybreadofexperienceintotheradiantbodyofeverlivinglife。

  Theradiantimageoftheeucharistunitedagaininaninstanthisbitteranddespairingthoughts,theircriesarisingunbrokeninahymnofthanksgiving。OurbrokencriesandmournfullaysRiseinoneeucharistichymnAreyounotwearyofardentways?

  WhilesacrificinghandsupraiseThechaliceflowingtothebrim。

  Tellnomoreofenchanteddays。Hespoketheversesaloudfromthefirstlinestillthemusicandrhythmsuffusedhismind,turningittoquietindulgence;thencopiedthempainfullytofeelthemthebetterbyseeingthem;thenlaybackonhisbolster。

  Thefullmorninglighthadcome。Nosoundwastobeheard;butheknewthatallaroundhimlifewasabouttoawakenincommonnoises,hoarsevoices,sleepyprayers。Shrinkingfromthatlifeheturnedtowardsthewall,makingacowloftheblanketandstaringatthegreatoverblownscarletflowersofthetatteredwallpaper。Hetriedtowarmhisperishingjoyintheirscarletglow,imaginingarosewayfromwherehelayupwardstoheavenallstrewnwithscarletflowers。Weary!Weary!Hetoowaswearyofardentways。

  Agradualwarmth,alanguorouswearinesspassedoverhimdescendingalonghisspinefromhiscloselycowledhead。Hefeltitdescendand,seeinghimselfashelay,smiled。Soonhewouldsleep。

  Hehadwrittenversesforheragainaftertenyears。Tenyearsbeforeshehadwornhershawlcowlwiseaboutherhead,sendingspraysofherwarmbreathintothenightair,tappingherfootupontheglassyroad。Itwasthelasttram;thelankbrownhorsesknewitandshooktheirbellstotheclearnightinadmonition。Theconductortalkedwiththedriver,bothnoddingofteninthegreenlightofthelamp。Theystoodonthestepsofthetram,heontheupper,sheonthelower。Shecameuptohisstepmanytimesbetweentheirphrasesandwentdownagainandonceortwiceremainedbesidehimforgettingtogodownandthenwentdown。Letbe!Letbe!

  Tenyearsfromthatwisdomofchildrentohisfolly。Ifhesenthertheverses?Theywouldbereadoutatbreakfastamidthetappingofegg-shells。

  Follyindeed!Herbrotherswouldlaughandtrytowrestthepagefromeachotherwiththeirstronghardfingers。Thesuavepriest,heruncle,seatedinhisarm-chair,wouldholdthepageatarm\'slength,readitsmilingandapproveoftheliteraryform。

  No,no;thatwasfolly。Evenifhesenthertheversesshewouldnotshowthemtoothers。No,no;shecouldnot。

  Hebegantofeelthathehadwrongedher。Asenseofherinnocencemovedhimalmosttopityher,aninnocencehehadneverunderstoodtillhehadcometotheknowledgeofitthroughsin,aninnocencewhichshetoohadnotunderstoodwhileshewasinnocentorbeforethestrangehumiliationofhernaturehadfirstcomeuponher。Thenfirsthersoulhadbeguntoliveashissoulhadwhenhehadfirstsinned,andatendercompassionfilledhisheartasherememberedherfrailpallorandhereyes,humbledandsaddenedbythedarkshameofwomanhood。

  Whilehissoulhadpassedfromecstasytolanguorwherehadshebeen?

  Mightitbe,inthemysteriouswaysofspirituallife,thathersoulatthosesamemomentshadbeenconsciousofhishomage?Itmightbe。

  Aglowofdesirekindledagainhissoulandfiredandfulfilledallhisbody。Consciousofhisdesireshewaswakingfromodoroussleep,thetemptressofhisvillanelle。Hereyes,darkandwithalookoflanguor,wereopeningtohiseyes。Hernakednessyieldedtohim,radiant,warm,odorousandlavish-limbed,enfoldedhimlikeashiningcloud,enfoldedhimlikewaterwithaliquidlife;andlikeacloudofvapourorlikewaterscircumfluentinspacetheliquidlettersofspeech,symbolsoftheelementofmystery,flowedforthoverhisbrain。Areyounotwearyofardentways,Lureofthefallenseraphim?

  Tellnomoreofenchanteddays。

  Youreyeshavesetman\'sheartablazeAndyouhavehadyourwillofhim。

  Areyounotwearyofardentways?

  AbovetheflamethesmokeofpraiseGoesupfromoceanrimtorim。

  Tellnomoreofenchanteddays。

  OurbrokencriesandmournfullaysRiseinoneeucharistichymn。

  Areyounotwearyofardentways?

  WhilesacrificinghandsupraiseThechaliceflowingtothebrim。

  Tellnomoreofenchanteddays。

  AndstillyouholdourlonginggazeWithlanguorouslookandlavishlimb!

  Areyounotwearyofardentways?

  Tellnomoreofenchanteddays。Whatbirdswerethey?Hestoodonthestepsofthelibrarytolookatthem,leaningwearilyonhisashplant。TheyflewroundandroundthejuttingshoulderofahouseinMolesworthStreet。TheairofthelateMarcheveningmadecleartheirflight,theirdarkquiveringbodiesflyingclearlyagainsttheskyasagainstalimp-hungclothofsmokytenuousblue。

  Hewatchedtheirflight;birdafterbird:adarkflash,aswerve,aflutterofwings。Hetriedtocountthembeforealltheirdartingquiveringbodiespassed:six,ten,eleven:andwonderedweretheyoddoreveninnumber。Twelve,thirteen:fortwocamewheelingdownfromtheuppersky。

  Theywereflyinghighandlowbuteverroundandroundinstraightandcurvinglinesandeverflyingfromlefttoright,circlingaboutatempleofair。

  Helistenedtothecries:likethesqueakofmicebehindthewainscot:

  ashrilltwofoldnote。Butthenoteswerelongandshrillandwhirring,unlikethecryofvermin,fallingathirdorafourthandtrilledastheflyingbeaksclovetheair。Theircrywasshrillandclearandfineandfallinglikethreadsofsilkenlightunwoundfromwhirringspools。

  Theinhumanclamoursoothedhisearsinwhichhismother\'ssobsandreproachesmurmuredinsistentlyandthedarkfrailquiveringbodieswheelingandflutteringandswervingroundanairytempleofthetenuousskysoothedhiseyeswhichstillsawtheimageofhismother\'sface。

  Whywashegazingupwardsfromthestepsoftheporch,hearingtheirshrilltwofoldcry,watchingtheirflight?Foranauguryofgoodorevil?

  AphraseofCorneliusAgrippaflewthroughhismindandthenthereflewhitherandthithershapelessthoughtsfromSwedenborgonthecorrespondenceofbirdstothingsoftheintellectandofhowthecreaturesoftheairhavetheirknowledgeandknowtheirtimesandseasonsbecausethey,unlikeman,areintheorderoftheirlifeandhavenotpervertedthatorderbyreason。

  Andforagesmenhadgazedupwardashewasgazingatbirdsinflight。

  Thecolonnadeabovehimmadehimthinkvaguelyofanancienttempleandtheashplantonwhichheleanedwearilyofthecurvedstickofanaugur。

  Asenseoffearoftheunknownmovedintheheartofhisweariness,afearofsymbolsandportents,ofthehawk-likemanwhosenameheboresoaringoutofhiscaptivityonosier-wovenwings,ofThoth,thegodofwriters,writingwithareeduponatabletandbearingonhisnarrowibisheadthecuspedmoon。

  Hesmiledashethoughtofthegod\'simageforitmadehimthinkofabottle-nosedjudgeinawig,puttingcommasintoadocumentwhichheheldatarm\'slength,andheknewthathewouldnothaverememberedthegod\'snamebutthatitwaslikeanIrishoath。Itwasfolly。Butwasitforthisfollythathewasabouttoleaveforeverthehouseofprayerandprudenceintowhichhehadbeenbornandtheorderoflifeoutofwhichhehadcome?

  Theycamebackwithshrillcriesoverthejuttingshoulderofthehouse,flyingdarklyagainstthefadingair。Whatbirdswerethey?Hethoughtthattheymustbeswallowswhohadcomebackfromthesouth。Thenhewastogoawayfortheywerebirdsevergoingandcoming,buildingeveranunlastinghomeundertheeavesofmen\'shousesandeverleavingthehomestheyhadbuilttowander。Benddownyourfaces,OonaandAleel。

  IgazeuponthemastheswallowgazesUponthenestundertheeavebeforeHewandertheloudwaters。Asoftliquidjoylikethenoiseofmanywatersflowedoverhismemoryandhefeltinhisheartthesoftpeaceofsilentspacesoffadingtenuousskyabovethewaters,ofoceanicsilence,ofswallowsflyingthroughthesea-duskovertheflowingwaters。

  Asoftliquidjoyflowedthroughthewordswherethesoftlongvowelshurtlednoiselesslyandfellaway,lappingandflowingbackandevershakingthewhitebellsoftheirwavesinmutechimeandmutepeal,andsoftlowswooningcry;andhefeltthattheauguryhehadsoughtinthewheelingdartingbirdsandinthepalespaceofskyabovehimhadcomeforthfromhisheartlikeabirdfromaturret,quietlyandswiftly。

  Symbolofdepartureorofloneliness?Theversescroonedintheearofhismemorycomposedslowlybeforehisrememberingeyesthesceneofthehallonthenightoftheopeningofthenationaltheatre。Hewasaloneatthesideofthebalcony,lookingoutofjadedeyesatthecultureofDublinInthestallsandatthetawdryscene-clothsandhumandollsframedbythegarishlampsofthestage。Aburlypolicemansweatedbehindhimandseemedateverymomentabouttoact。Thecatcallsandhissesandmockingcriesraninrudegustsroundthehallfromhisscatteredfellowstudents——

  AlibelonIreland!——

  MadeinGermany——

  Blasphemy!——

  Weneversoldourfaith!——

  NoIrishwomaneverdidit!——

  Wewantnoamateuratheists——

  Wewantnobuddingbuddhists。

  Asuddenswifthissfellfromthewindowsabovehimandheknewthattheelectriclampshadbeenswitchedoninthereader\'sroom。Heturnedintothepillaredhall,nowcalmlylit,wentupthestaircaseandpassedinthroughtheclickingturnstile。

  Cranlywassittingovernearthedictionaries。Athickbook,openedatthefrontispiece,laybeforehimonthewoodenrest。Heleanedbackinhischair,inclininghisearlikethatofaconfessortothefaceofthemedicalstudentwhowasreadingtohimaproblemfromthechesspageofajournal。StephensatdownathisrightandthepriestattheothersideofthetableclosedhiscopyofTheTabletwithanangrysnapandstoodup。

  Cranlygazedafterhimblandlyandvaguely。Themedicalstudentwentoninasoftervoice:——

  Pawntoking\'sfourth——

  Wehadbettergo,Dixon,saidStepheninwarning。Hehasgonetocomplain。

  Dixonfoldedthejournalandrosewithdignity,saying:——

  Ourmenretiredingoodorder——

  Withgunsandcattle,addedStephen,pointingtothetitlepageofCranly\'sbookonwhichwasprintedDiseasesoftheOx。

  AstheypassedthroughalaneofthetablesStephensaid:——

  Cranly,Iwanttospeaktoyou。

  Cranlydidnotanswerorturn。Helaidhisbookonthecounterandpassedout,hiswell-shodfeetsoundingflatlyonthefloor。OnthestaircasehepausedandgazingabsentlyatDixonrepeated:——

  Pawntoking\'sbloodyfourth——

  Putitthatwayifyoulike,Dixonsaid。

  Hehadaquiettonelessvoiceandurbanemannersandonafingerofhisplumpcleanhandhedisplayedatmomentsasignetring。

  Astheycrossedthehallamanofdwarfishstaturecametowardsthem。

  Underthedomeofhistinyhathisunshavenfacebegantosmilewithpleasureandhewasheardtomurmur。Theeyesweremelancholyasthoseofamonkey——

  Goodevening,gentlemen,saidthestubble-grownmonkeyishface——

  WarmweatherforMarch,saidCranly。Theyhavethewindowsopenupstairs。

  Dixonsmiledandturnedhisring。Theblackish,monkey-puckeredfacepurseditshumanmouthwithgentlepleasureanditsvoicepurred:——

  DelightfulweatherforMarch。Simplydelightful——

  Therearetwoniceyoungladiesupstairs,captain,tiredofwaiting,Dixonsaid。

  Cranlysmiledandsaidkindly:——

  Thecaptainhasonlyonelove:sirWalterScott。Isn\'tthatso,captain?——

  Whatareyoureadingnow,captain?Dixonasked。TheBrideofLammermoor?——IloveoldScott,theflexiblelipssaid,Ithinkhewritessomethinglovely。ThereisnowritercantouchsirWalterScott。

  Hemovedathinshrunkenbrownhandgentlyintheairintimetohispraiseandhisthinquickeyelidsbeatoftenoverhissadeyes。

  SaddertoStephen\'searwashisspeech:agenteelaccent,lowandmoist,marredbyerrors,and,listeningtoit,hewonderedwasthestorytrueandwasthethinbloodthatflowedinhisshrunkenframenobleandcomeofanincestuouslove?

  Theparktreeswereheavywithrain;andrainfellstillandeverinthelake,lyinggreylikeashield。Agameofswansflewthereandthewaterandtheshorebeneathwerefouledwiththeirgreen-whiteslime。Theyembracedsoftly,-impelledbythegreyrainylight,thewetsilenttrees,theshield-likewitnessinglake,theswans。Theyembracedwithoutjoyorpassion,hisarmabouthissister\'sneck。Agreywoollencloakwaswrappedathwartherfromhershouldertoherwaistandherfairheadwasbentinwillingshame。Hehadloosered-brownhairandtendershapelystrongfreckledhands。Face?Therewasnofaceseen。Thebrother\'sfacewasbentuponherfairrain-fragranthair。ThehandfreckledandstrongandshapelyandcaressingwasDavin\'shand。

  Hefrownedangrilyuponhisthoughtandontheshrivelledmannikinwhohadcalleditforth。Hisfather\'sjibesattheBantrygangleapedoutofhismemory。Heheldthematadistanceandbroodeduneasilyonhisownthoughtagain。WhyweretheynotCranly\'shands?HadDavin\'ssimplicityandinnocencestunghimmoresecretly?

  HewalkedonacrossthehallwithDixon,leavingCranlytotakeleaveelaboratelyofthedwarf。

  UnderthecolonnadeTemplewasstandinginthemidstofalittlegroupofstudents。Oneofthemcried:——

  Dixon,comeovertillyouhear。Templeisingrandform。

  Templeturnedonhimhisdarkgipsyeyes——

  You\'reahypocrite,O\'Keeffe,hesaid。AndDixonisasmiler。Byhell,Ithinkthat\'sagoodliteraryexpression。

  Helaughedslyly,lookinginStephen\'sface,repeating:——

  Byhell,I\'mdelightedwiththatname。Asmiler。

  Astoutstudentwhostoodbelowthemonthestepssaid:——

  Comebacktothemistress,Temple。Wewanttohearaboutthat——

  Hehad,faith,Templesaid。Andhewasamarriedmantoo。Andallthepriestsusedtobediningthere。Byhell,Ithinktheyallhadatouch——

  Weshallcallitridingahacktosparethehunter,saidDixon——

  Tellus,Temple,O\'Keeffesaid,howmanyquartsofporterhaveyouinyou?——

  Allyourintellectualsoulisinthatphrase,O\'Keeffe,saidTemplewithopenscorn。

  HemovedwithashamblinggaitroundthegroupandspoketoStephen——

  DidyouknowthattheForstersarethekingsofBelgium?heasked。

  Cranlycameoutthroughthedooroftheentrancehall,hishatthrustbackonthenapeofhisneckandpickinghisteethwithcare。

  Andhere\'sthewiseacre,saidTemple。DoyouknowthatabouttheForsters?

  Hepausedforananswer。Cranlydislodgedafigseedfromhisteethonthepointofhisrudetoothpickandgazedatitintently——TheForsterfamily,Templesaid,isdescendedfromBaldwintheFirst,kingofFlanders。HewascalledtheForester。ForesterandForsterarethesamename。AdescendantofBaldwintheFirst,captainFrancisForster,settledinIrelandandmarriedthedaughterofthelastchieftainofClanbrassil。

  ThentherearetheBlakeForsters。That\'sadifferentbranch——

  FromBaldhead,kingofFlanders,Cranlyrepeated,rootingagaindeliberatelyathisgleaminguncoveredteeth——

  Wheredidyoupickupallthathistory?O\'Keeffeasked——

  Iknowallthehistoryofyourfamily,too,Templesaid,turningtoStephen。DoyouknowwhatGiraldusCambrensissaysaboutyourfamily?——

  IshedescendedfromBaldwintoo?askedatallconsumptivestudentwithdarkeyes——

  Baldhead,Cranlyrepeated,suckingatacreviceinhisteeth——

  Pernobilisetpervetustafamilia,TemplesaidtoStephen。

  Thestoutstudentwhostoodbelowthemonthestepsfartedbriefly。Dixonturnedtowardshim,sayinginasoftvoice:——

  Didanangelspeak?

  Cranlyturnedalsoandsaidvehementlybutwithoutanger:——

  Goggins,you\'retheflamingestdirtydevilIevermet,doyouknow——

  Ihaditonmymindtosaythat,Gogginsansweredfirmly。Itdidnooneanyharm,didit?——

  Wehope,Dixonsaidsuavely,thatitwasnotofthekindknowntoscienceasapaulopostfuturum——

  Didn\'tItellyouhewasasmiler?saidTemple,turningrightandleft。Didn\'tIgivehimthatname?——

  Youdid。We\'renotdeaf,saidthetallconsumptive。

  Cranlystillfrownedatthestoutstudentbelowhim。Then,withasnortofdisgust,heshovedhimviolentlydownthesteps——

  Goawayfromhere,hesaidrudely。Goaway,youstinkpot。Andyouareastinkpot。

  Gogginsskippeddownontothegravelandatoncereturnedtohisplacewithgoodhumour。TempleturnedbacktoStephenandasked:——

  Doyoubelieveinthelawofheredity?——

  Areyoudrunkorwhatareyouorwhatareyoutryingtosay?askedCranly,facingroundonhimwithanexpressionofwonder——

  Themostprofoundsentenceeverwritten,Templesaidwithenthusiasm,isthesentenceattheendofthezoology。Reproductionisthebeginningofdeath。

  HetouchedStephentimidlyattheelbowandsaideagerly:——

  Doyoufeelhowprofoundthatisbecauseyouareapoet?——

  Cranlypointedhislongforefinger——

  Lookathim!hesaidwithscorntotheothers。LookatIreland\'shope!

  Theylaughedathiswordsandgesture。Templeturnedonhimbravely,saying:——

  Cranly,you\'realwayssneeringatme。Icanseethat。ButIamasgoodasyouanyday。DoyouknowwhatIthinkaboutyounowascomparedwithmyself?——

  Mydearman,saidCranlyurbanely,youareincapable,doyouknow,absolutelyincapableofthinking——

  Butdoyouknow,Templewenton,whatIthinkofyouandofmyselfcomparedtogether?——

  Outwithit,Temple!thestoutstudentcriedfromthesteps。Getitoutinbits!

  Templeturnedrightandleft,makingsuddenfeeblegesturesashespoke——

  I\'maballocks,hesaid,shakinghisheadindespair。IamandI

  knowIam。AndIadmititthatIam。

  Dixonpattedhimlightlyontheshoulderandsaidmildly:——

  Anditdoesyoueverycredit,Temple——

  Buthe,Templesaid,pointingtoCranly,heisaballocks,too,likeme。Onlyhedoesn\'tknowit。Andthat\'stheonlydifferenceIsee。

  Aburstoflaughtercoveredhiswords。ButheturnedagaintoStephenandsaidwithasuddeneagerness:——

  Thatwordisamostinterestingword。That\'stheonlyEnglishdualnumber。Didyouknow?——

  Isit?Stephensaidvaguely。

  HewaswatchingCranly\'sfirm-featuredsufferingface,litupnowbyasmileoffalsepatience。Thegrossnamehadpassedoveritlikefoulwaterpouredoveranoldstoneimage,patientofinjuries;and,ashewatchedhim,hesawhimraisehishatinsaluteanduncovertheblackhairthatstoodstifflyfromhisforeheadlikeanironcrown。

  ShepassedoutfromtheporchofthelibraryandbowedacrossStepheninreplytoCranly\'sgreeting。Healso?WastherenotaslightflushonCranly\'scheek?OrhaditcomeforthatTemple\'swords?Thelighthadwaned。

  Hecouldnotsee。

  Didthatexplainhisfriend\'slistlesssilence,hisharshcomments,thesuddenintrusionsofrudespeechwithwhichhehadshatteredsooftenStephen\'sardentwaywardconfessions?Stephenhadforgivenfreelyforhehadfoundthisrudenessalsoinhimself。AndherememberedaneveningwhenhehaddismountedfromaborrowedcreakingbicycletopraytoGodinawoodnearMalahide。Hehadlifteduphisarmsandspokeninecstasytothesombrenaveofthetrees,knowingthathestoodonholygroundandinaholyhour。Andwhentwoconstabularymenhadcomeintosightroundabendinthegloomyroadhehadbrokenoffhisprayertowhistleloudlyanairfromthelastpantomime。

  Hebegantobeatthefrayedendofhisashplantagainstthebaseofapillar。HadCranlynotheardhim?Yethecouldwait。Thetalkabouthimceasedforamomentandasofthissfellagainfromawindowabove。Butnoothersoundwasintheairandtheswallowswhoseflighthehadfollowedwithidleeyesweresleeping。

  Shehadpassedthroughthedusk。Andthereforetheairwassilentsaveforonesofthissthatfell。Andthereforethetonguesabouthimhadceasedtheirbabble。Darknesswasfalling。Darknessfallsfromtheair。Atremblingjoy,lambentasafaintlight,playedlikeafairyhostaroundhim。Butwhy?Herpassagethroughthedarkeningairortheversewithitsblackvowelsanditsopeningsound,richandlutelike?

  Hewalkedawayslowlytowardsthedeepershadowsattheendofthecolonnade,beatingthestonesoftlywithhissticktohidehisreveryfromthestudentswhomhehadleft:andallowedhismindtosummonbacktoitselftheageofDowlandandByrdandNash。

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