Hebecomesosmall，weourselvessawMissLucy，ereshewasatpeace，slipthroughahairbreadthspaceatthetombdoor。
Hecan，whenoncehefindhisway，comeoutfromanythingorintoanything，nomatterhowcloseitbeboundorevenfusedupwithfire，solderyoucallit。Hecanseeinthedark，nosmallpowerthis，inaworldwhichisonehalfshutfromthelight。Ah，buthearmethrough。
“Hecandoallthesethings，yetheisnotfree。Nay，heisevenmoreprisonerthantheslaveofthegalley，thanthemadmaninhiscell。
Hecannotgowherehelists，hewhoisnotofnaturehasyettoobeysomeofnature\'slaws，whyweknownot。Hemaynotenteranywhereatthefirst，unlesstherebesomeoneofthehouseholdwhobidhimtocome，thoughafterwardshecancomeasheplease。
Hispowerceases，asdoesthatofallevilthings，atthecomingoftheday。
“Onlyatcertaintimescanhehavelimitedfreedom。
Ifhebenotattheplacewhitherheisbound，hecanonlychangehimselfatnoonoratexactsunriseorsunset。
Thesethingswearetold，andinthisrecordofourswehaveproofbyinference。Thus，whereashecandoashewillwithinhislimit，whenhehavehisearth-home，hiscoffin-home，hishell-home，theplaceunhallowed，aswesawwhenhewenttothegraveofthesuicideatWhitby，stillatothertimehecanonlychangewhenthetimecome。Itissaid，too，thathecanonlypassrunningwaterattheslackorthefloodofthetide。
Thentherearethingswhichsoafflicthimthathehasnopower，asthegarlicthatweknowof，andasforthingssacred，asthissymbol，mycrucifix，thatwasamongstusevennowwhenweresolve，tothemheisnothing，butintheirpresencehetakehisplacefaroffandsilentwithrespect。
Thereareothers，too，whichIshalltellyouof，lestinourseekingwemayneedthem。
“Thebranchofwildroseonhiscoffinkeephimthathemovenotfromit，asacredbulletfiredintothecoffinkillhimsothathebetruedead，andasforthestakethroughhim，weknowalreadyofitspeace，orthecutoffheadthatgivethrest。
Wehaveseenitwithoureyes。
“Thuswhenwefindthehabitationofthisman-that-was，wecanconfinehimtohiscoffinanddestroyhim，ifweobeywhatweknow。Butheisclever。
IhaveaskedmyfriendArminius，ofBuda-PesthUniversity，tomakehisrecord，andfromallthemeansthatare，hetellmeofwhathehasbeen。
Hemust，indeed，havebeenthatVoivodeDraculawhowonhisnameagainsttheTurk，overthegreatriverontheveryfrontierofTurkeyland。
Ifitbeso，thenwashenocommonman，forinthattime，andforcenturiesafter，hewasspokenofasthecleverestandthemostcunning，aswellasthebravestofthesonsofthe`landbeyondtheforest。\'
Thatmightybrainandthatironresolutionwentwithhimtohisgrave，andareevennowarrayedagainstus。TheDraculaswere，saysArminius，agreatandnoblerace，thoughnowandagainwerescionswhowereheldbytheircoevalstohavehaddealingswiththeEvilOne。
TheylearnedhissecretsintheScholomance，amongstthemountainsoverLakeHermanstadt，wherethedevilclaimsthetenthscholarashisdue。Intherecordsaresuchwordsas`stregoica\'witch，`ordog\'and`pokol\'Satanandhell，andinonemanuscriptthisveryDraculaisspokenofas`wampyr，\'whichweallunderstandtoowell。
Therehavebeenfromtheloinsofthisveryonegreatmenandgoodwomen，andtheirgravesmakesacredtheearthwherealonethisfoulnesscandwell。
Foritisnottheleastofitsterrorsthatthisevilthingisrooteddeepinallgood，insoilbarrenofholymemoriesitcannotrest。“
WhilsttheyweretalkingMr。Morriswaslookingsteadilyatthewindow，andhenowgotupquietly，andwentoutoftheroom。
Therewasalittlepause，andthentheProfessorwenton。
“Andnowwemustsettlewhatwedo。Wehaveheremuchdata，andwemustproceedtolayoutourcampaign。WeknowfromtheinquiryofJonathanthatfromthecastletoWhitbycamefiftyboxesofearth，allofwhichweredeliveredatCarfax，wealsoknowthatatleastsomeoftheseboxeshavebeenremoved。
Itseemstome，thatourfirststepshouldbetoascertainwhetheralltherestremaininthehousebeyondthatwallwherewelooktoday，orwhetheranymorehavebeenremoved。
Ifthelatter，wemusttrace……“
Herewewereinterruptedinaverystartlingway。
Outsidethehousecamethesoundofapistolshot，theglassofthewindowwasshatteredwithabullet，whichricochettingfromthetopoftheembrasure，struckthefarwalloftheroom。
IamafraidIamatheartacoward，forIshriekedout。
Themenalljumpedtotheirfeet，LordGodalmingflewovertothewindowandthrewupthesash。AshedidsoweheardMr。Morris\'voicewithout，“Sorry！IfearIhavealarmedyou。
Ishallcomeinandtellyouaboutit。“
Aminutelaterhecameinandsaid，“Itwasanidioticthingofmetodo，andIaskyourpardon，Mrs。Harker，mostsincerely，IfearImusthavefrightenedyouterribly。
ButthefactisthatwhilsttheProfessorwastalkingtherecameabigbatandsatonthewindowsill。
IhavegotsuchahorrorofthedamnedbrutesfromrecenteventsthatIcannotstandthem，andIwentouttohaveashot，asI
havebeendoingoflateofevenings，wheneverIhaveseenone。
Youusedtolaughatmeforitthen，Art。“
“Didyouhitit？”askedDr。VanHelsing。
“Idon\'tknow，Ifancynot，foritflewawayintothewood。“
Withoutsayinganymorehetookhisseat，andtheProfessorbegantoresumehisstatement。
“Wemusttraceeachoftheseboxes，andwhenweareready，wemusteithercaptureorkillthismonsterinhislair，orwemust，sotospeak，sterilizetheearth，sothatnomorehecanseeksafetyinit。
Thusintheendwemayfindhiminhisformofmanbetweenthehoursofnoonandsunset，andsoengagewithhimwhenheisathismostweak。
“Andnowforyou，MadamMina，thisnightistheenduntilallbewell。
Youaretooprecioustoustohavesuchrisk。Whenweparttonight，younomoremustquestion。Weshalltellyouallingoodtime。
Wearemenandareabletobear，butyoumustbeourstarandourhope，andweshallactallthemorefreethatyouarenotinthedanger，suchasweare。“
Allthemen，evenJonathan，seemedrelieved，butitdidnotseemtomegoodthattheyshouldbravedangerand，perhapslessentheirsafety，strengthbeingthebestsafety，throughcareofme，buttheirmindsweremadeup，andthoughitwasabitterpillformetoswallow，Icouldsaynothing，savetoaccepttheirchivalrouscareofme。
Mr。Morrisresumedthediscussion，“Asthereisnotimetolose，Ivotewehavealookathishouserightnow。
Timeiseverythingwithhim，andswiftactiononourpartmaysaveanothervictim。“
Iownthatmyheartbegantofailmewhenthetimeforactioncamesoclose，butIdidnotsayanything，forIhadagreaterfearthatifIappearedasadragorahindrancetotheirwork，theymightevenleavemeoutoftheircounselsaltogether。
TheyhavenowgoneofftoCarfax，withmeanstogetintothehouse。
Manlike，theyhadtoldmetogotobedandsleep，asifawomancansleepwhenthoseshelovesareindanger！
Ishallliedown，andpretendtosleep，lestJonathanhaveaddedanxietyaboutmewhenhereturns。
DR。SEWARD\'SDIARY
1October，4A。M——Justaswewereabouttoleavethehouse，anurgentmessagewasbroughttomefromRenfieldtoknowifIwouldseehimatonce，ashehadsomethingoftheutmostimportancetosaytome。
ItoldthemessengertosaythatIwouldattendtohiswishesinthemorning，Iwasbusyjustatthemoment。
Theattendantadded，“Heseemsveryimportunate，sir。
Ihaveneverseenhimsoeager。Idon\'tknowbutwhat，ifyoudon\'tseehimsoon，hewillhaveoneofhisviolentfits。“
Iknewthemanwouldnothavesaidthiswithoutsomecause，soIsaid，“Allright，I\'llgonow，“andIaskedtheotherstowaitafewminutesforme，asIhadtogoandseemypatient。
“Takemewithyou，friendJohn，“saidtheProfessor。“Hiscaseinyourdiaryinterestmemuch，andithadbearing，too，nowandagainonourcase。
Ishouldmuchliketoseehim，andespecialwhenhismindisdisturbed。“
“MayIcomealso？”askedLordGodalming。
“Metoo？”saidQuinceyMorris。“MayIcome？”saidHarker。
Inodded，andweallwentdownthepassagetogether。
Wefoundhiminastateofconsiderableexcitement，butfarmorerationalinhisspeechandmannerthanIhadeverseenhim。
Therewasanunusualunderstandingofhimself，whichwasunlikeanythingIhadevermetwithinalunatic，andhetookitforgrantedthathisreasonswouldprevailwithothersentirelysane。
Weallfivewentintotheroom，butnoneoftheothersatfirstsaidanything。HisrequestwasthatIwouldatoncereleasehimfromtheasylumandsendhimhome。
Thishebackedupwithargumentsregardinghiscompleterecovery，andadducedhisownexistingsanity。
“Iappealtoyourfriends，“hesaid，“theywill，perhaps，notmindsittinginjudgementonmycase。Bytheway，youhavenotintroducedme。“
Iwassomuchastonished，thattheoddnessofintroducingamadmaninanasylumdidnotstrikemeatthemoment，andbesides，therewasacertaindignityintheman\'smanner，somuchofthehabitofequality，thatIatoncemadetheintroduction，“LordGodalming，ProfessorVanHelsing，Mr。QuinceyMorris，ofTexas，Mr。JonathanHarker，Mr。Renfield。“
Heshookhandswitheachofthem，sayinginturn，“LordGodalming，IhadthehonorofsecondingyourfatherattheWindham，Igrievetoknow，byyourholdingthetitle，thatheisnomore。
Hewasamanlovedandhonoredbyallwhoknewhim，andinhisyouthwas，Ihaveheard，theinventorofaburntrumpunch，muchpatronizedonDerbynight。Mr。Morris，youshouldbeproudofyourgreatstate。ItsreceptionintotheUnionwasaprecedentwhichmayhavefar-reachingeffectshereafter，whenthePoleandtheTropicsmayholdalliancetotheStarsandStripes。
ThepowerofTreatymayyetproveavastengineofenlargement，whentheMonroedoctrinetakesitstrueplaceasapoliticalfable。
WhatshallanymansayofhispleasureatmeetingVanHelsing？
Sir，Imakenoapologyfordroppingallformsofconventionalprefix。
Whenanindividualhasrevolutionizedtherapeuticsbyhisdiscoveryofthecontinuousevolutionofbrainmatter，conventionalformsareunfitting，sincetheywouldseemtolimithimtooneofaclass。
You，gentlemen，whobynationality，byheredity，orbythepossessionofnaturalgifts，arefittedtoholdyourrespectiveplacesinthemovingworld，ItaketowitnessthatIamassaneasatleastthemajorityofmenwhoareinfullpossessionoftheirliberties。
AndIamsurethatyou，Dr。Seward，humanitarianandmedico-juristaswellasscientist，willdeemitamoraldutytodealwithmeasonetobeconsideredasunderexceptionalcircumstances。“Hemadethislastappealwithacourtlyairofconvictionwhichwasnotwithoutitsowncharm。
Ithinkwewereallstaggered。Formyownpart，Iwasundertheconviction，despitemyknowledgeoftheman\'scharacterandhistory，thathisreasonhadbeenrestored，andIfeltunderastrongimpulsetotellhimthatIwassatisfiedastohissanity，andwouldseeaboutthenecessaryformalitiesforhisreleaseinthemorning。
Ithoughtitbettertowait，however，beforemakingsograveastatement，forofoldIknewthesuddenchangestowhichthisparticularpatientwasliable。SoIcontentedmyselfwithmakingageneralstatementthatheappearedtobeimprovingveryrapidly，thatIwouldhavealongerchatwithhiminthemorning，andwouldthenseewhatIcoulddointhedirectionofmeetinghiswishes。
Thisdidnotatallsatisfyhim，forhesaidquickly，“ButIfear，Dr。Seward，thatyouhardlyapprehendmywish。
Idesiretogoatonce，here，now，thisveryhour，thisverymoment，ifImay。Timepresses，andinourimpliedagreementwiththeoldscythemanitisoftheessenceofthecontract。
IamsureitisonlynecessarytoputbeforesoadmirableapractitionerasDr。Sewardsosimple，yetsomomentousawish，toensureitsfulfilment。“
Helookedatmekeenly，andseeingthenegativeinmyface，turnedtotheothers，andscrutinizedthemclosely。
Notmeetinganysufficientresponse，hewenton，“IsitpossiblethatIhaveerredinmysupposition？”
“Youhave，“Isaidfrankly，butatthesametime，asIfelt，brutally。
Therewasaconsiderablepause，andthenhesaidslowly，“ThenIsupposeImustonlyshiftmygroundofrequest。
Letmeaskforthisconcession，boon，privilege，whatyouwill。
Iamcontenttoimploreinsuchacase，notonpersonalgrounds，butforthesakeofothers。Iamnotatlibertytogiveyouthewholeofmyreasons，butyoumay，Iassureyou，takeitfrommethattheyaregoodones，soundandunselfish，andspringfromthehighestsenseofduty。
“Couldyoulook，sir，intomyheart，youwouldapprovetothefullthesentimentswhichanimateme。Nay，more，youwouldcountmeamongstthebestandtruestofyourfriends。“
Againhelookedatusallkeenly。Ihadagrowingconvictionthatthissuddenchangeofhisentireintellectualmethodwasbutyetanotherphaseofhismadness，andsodeterminedtolethimgoonalittlelonger，knowingfromexperiencethathewould，likealllunatics，givehimselfawayintheend。
VanHelsingwasgazingathimwithalookofutmostintensity，hisbushyeyebrowsalmostmeetingwiththefixedconcentrationofhislook。HesaidtoRenfieldinatonewhichdidnotsurprisemeatthetime，butonlywhenIthoughtofitafterwards，foritwasasofoneaddressinganequal，“Canyounottellfranklyyourrealreasonforwishingtobefreetonight？
Iwillundertakethatifyouwillsatisfyevenme，astranger，withoutprejudice，andwiththehabitofkeepinganopenmind，Dr。Sewardwillgiveyou，athisownriskandonhisownresponsibility，theprivilegeyouseek。“
Heshookhisheadsadly，andwithalookofpoignantregretonhisface。TheProfessorwenton，“Come，sir，bethinkyourself。
Youclaimtheprivilegeofreasoninthehighestdegree，sinceyouseektoimpressuswithyourcompletereasonableness。
Youdothis，whosesanitywehavereasontodoubt，sinceyouarenotyetreleasedfrommedicaltreatmentforthisverydefect。
Ifyouwillnothelpusinourefforttochoosethewisestcourse，howcanweperformthedutywhichyouyourselfputuponus？
Bewise，andhelpus，andifwecanweshallaidyoutoachieveyourwish。“
Hestillshookhisheadashesaid，“Dr。VanHelsing，Ihavenothingtosay。
Yourargumentiscomplete，andifIwerefreetospeakIshouldnothesitateamoment，butIamnotmyownmasterinthematter。
Icanonlyaskyoutotrustme。IfIamrefused，theresponsibilitydoesnotrestwithme。“
Ithoughtitwasnowtimetoendthescene，whichwasbecomingtoocomicallygrave，soIwenttowardsthedoor，simplysaying，“Come，myfriends，wehaveworktodo。Goodnight。“
As，however，Igotnearthedoor，anewchangecameoverthepatient。
HemovedtowardsmesoquicklythatforthemomentIfearedthathewasabouttomakeanotherhomicidalattack。
Myfears，however，weregroundless，forhehelduphistwohandsimploringly，andmadehispetitioninamovingmanner。
Ashesawthattheveryexcessofhisemotionwasmilitatingagainsthim，byrestoringusmoretoouroldrelations，hebecamestillmoredemonstrative。IglancedatVanHelsing，andsawmyconvictionreflectedinhiseyes，soIbecamealittlemorefixedinmymanner，ifnotmorestern，andmotionedtohimthathiseffortswereunavailing。
Ihadpreviouslyseensomethingofthesameconstantlygrowingexcitementinhimwhenhehadtomakesomerequestofwhichatthetimehehadthoughtmuch，suchforinstance，aswhenhewantedacat，andIwaspreparedtoseethecollapseintothesamesullenacquiescenceonthisoccasion。
Myexpectationwasnotrealized，forwhenhefoundthathisappealwouldnotbesuccessful，hegotintoquiteafranticcondition。
Hethrewhimselfonhisknees，andhelduphishands，wringingtheminplaintivesupplication，andpouredforthatorrentofentreaty，withthetearsrollingdownhischeeks，andhiswholefaceandformexpressiveofthedeepestemotion。
“Letmeentreatyou，Dr。Seward，oh，letmeimploreyou，toletmeoutofthishouseatonce。Sendmeawayhowyouwillandwhereyouwill，sendkeeperswithmewithwhipsandchains，letthemtakemeinastraitwaistcoat，manacledandleg-ironed，eventogaol，butletmegooutofthis。Youdon\'tknowwhatyoudobykeepingmehere。
Iamspeakingfromthedepthsofmyheart，ofmyverysoul。
Youdon\'tknowwhomyouwrong，orhow，andImaynottell。Woeisme！
Imaynottell。Byallyouholdsacred，byallyouholddear，byyourlovethatislost，byyourhopethatlives，forthesakeoftheAlmighty，takemeoutofthisandsavemysoulfromguilt！
Can\'tyouhearme，man？Can\'tyouunderstand？Willyouneverlearn？
Don\'tyouknowthatIamsaneandearnestnow，thatIamnolunaticinamadfit，butasanemanfightingforhissoul？Oh，hearme！
Hearme！Letmego，letmego，letmego！”
Ithoughtthatthelongerthiswentonthewilderhewouldget，andsowouldbringonafit，soItookhimbythehandandraisedhimup。
“Come，“Isaidsternly，“nomoreofthis，wehavehadquiteenoughalready。
Gettoyourbedandtrytobehavemorediscreetly。“
Hesuddenlystoppedandlookedatmeintentlyforseveralmoments。
Then，withoutaword，heroseandmovingover，satdownonthesideofthebed。Thecollapsehadcome，asonformeroccasions，justasIhadexpected。
WhenIwasleavingtheroom，lastofourparty，hesaidtomeinaquiet，well-bredvoice，“Youwill，Itrust，Dr。Seward，domethejusticetobearinmind，lateron，thatIdidwhatI
couldtoconvinceyoutonight。“
CHAPTER19
JONATHANHARKER\'SJOURNAL
1October，5A。M——Iwentwiththepartytothesearchwithaneasymind，forIthinkIneversawMinasoabsolutelystrongandwell。
Iamsogladthatsheconsentedtoholdbackandletusmendothework。
Somehow，itwasadreadtomethatshewasinthisfearfulbusinessatall，butnowthatherworkisdone，andthatitisduetoherenergyandbrainsandforesightthatthewholestoryisputtogetherinsuchawaythateverypointtells，shemaywellfeelthatherpartisfinished，andthatshecanhenceforthleavetheresttous。
Wewere，Ithink，allalittleupsetbythescenewithMr。Renfield。
Whenwecameawayfromhisroomweweresilenttillwegotbacktothestudy。
ThenMr。MorrissaidtoDr。Seward，“Say，Jack，ifthatmanwasn\'tattemptingabluff，heisaboutthesanestlunaticIeversaw。
I\'mnotsure，butIbelievethathehadsomeseriouspurpose，andifhehad，itwasprettyroughonhimnottogetachance。“
LordGodalmingandIweresilent，butDr。VanHelsingadded，“FriendJohn，youknowmorelunaticsthanIdo，andI\'mgladofit，forIfearthatifithadbeentometodecideIwouldbeforethatlasthystericaloutbursthavegivenhimfree。
Butweliveandlearn，andinourpresenttaskwemusttakenochance，asmyfriendQuinceywouldsay。
Allisbestastheyare。“
Dr。Sewardseemedtoanswerthembothinadreamykindofway，“Idon\'tknowbutthatIagreewithyou。IfthatmanhadbeenanordinarylunaticIwouldhavetakenmychanceoftrustinghim，butheseemssomixedupwiththeCountinanindexykindofwaythatIamafraidofdoinganythingwrongbyhelpinghisfads。
Ican\'tforgethowheprayedwithalmostequalfervorforacat，andthentriedtotearmythroatoutwithhisteeth。
Besides，hecalledtheCount`lordandmaster\'，andhemaywanttogetouttohelphiminsomediabolicalway。Thathorridthinghasthewolvesandtheratsandhisownkindtohelphim，soIsupposeheisn\'tabovetryingtousearespectablelunatic。
Hecertainlydidseemearnest，though。Ionlyhopewehavedonewhatisbest。Thesethings，inconjunctionwiththewildworkwehaveinhand，helptounnerveaman。“
TheProfessorsteppedover，andlayinghishandonhisshoulder，saidinhisgrave，kindlyway，“FriendJohn，havenofear。
Wearetryingtodoourdutyinaverysadandterriblecase，wecanonlydoaswedeembest。Whatelsehavewetohopefor，exceptthepityofthegoodGod？”
LordGodalminghadslippedawayforafewminutes，butnowhereturned。
Heheldupalittlesilverwhistle，asheremarked，“Thatoldplacemaybefullofrats，andifso，I\'vegotanantidoteoncall。“
Havingpassedthewall，wetookourwaytothehouse，takingcaretokeepintheshadowsofthetreesonthelawnwhenthemoonlightshoneout。
WhenwegottotheporchtheProfessoropenedhisbagandtookoutalotofthings，whichhelaidonthestep，sortingthemintofourlittlegroups，evidentlyoneforeach。Thenhespoke。
“Myfriends，wearegoingintoaterribledanger，andweneedarmsofmanykinds。Ourenemyisnotmerelyspiritual。
Rememberthathehasthestrengthoftwentymen，andthat，thoughournecksorourwindpipesareofthecommonkind，andthereforebreakableorcrushable，hisarenotamenabletomerestrength。Astrongerman，orabodyofmenmorestronginallthanhim，canatcertaintimesholdhim，buttheycannothurthimaswecanbehurtbyhim。
Wemust，therefore，guardourselvesfromhistouch。
Keepthisnearyourheart。“Ashespokeheliftedalittlesilvercrucifixandhelditouttome，Ibeingnearesttohim，“puttheseflowersroundyourneck，“herehehandedtomeawreathofwitheredgarlicblossoms，“forotherenemiesmoremundane，thisrevolverandthisknife，andforaidinall，thesesosmallelectriclamps，whichyoucanfastentoyourbreast，andforall，andaboveallatthelast，this，whichwemustnotdesecrateneedless。“
ThiswasaportionofSacredWafer，whichheputinanenvelopeandhandedtome。Eachoftheotherswassimilarlyequipped。
“Now，“hesaid，“friendJohn，wherearetheskeletonkeys？
Ifsothatwecanopenthedoor，weneednotbreakhousebythewindow，asbeforeatMissLucy\'s。“
Dr。Sewardtriedoneortwoskeletonkeys，hismechanicaldexterityasasurgeonstandinghimingoodstead。
Presentlyhegotonetosuit，afteralittleplaybackandforwardtheboltyielded，andwitharustyclang，shotback。
Wepressedonthedoor，therustyhingescreaked，anditslowlyopened。ItwasstartlinglyliketheimageconveyedtomeinDr。Seward\'sdiaryoftheopeningofMissWestenra\'stomb，Ifancythatthesameideaseemedtostriketheothers，forwithoneaccordtheyshrankback。TheProfessorwasthefirsttomoveforward，andsteppedintotheopendoor。
“Inmanustuas，Domine！”hesaid，crossinghimselfashepassedoverthethreshold。Weclosedthedoorbehindus，lestwhenweshouldhavelitourlampsweshouldpossiblyattractattentionfromtheroad。
TheProfessorcarefullytriedthelock，lestwemightnotbeabletoopenitfromwithinshouldwebeinahurrymakingourexit。
Thenwealllitourlampsandproceededonoursearch。
Thelightfromthetinylampsfellinallsortsofoddforms，astherayscrossedeachother，ortheopacityofourbodiesthrewgreatshadows。
Icouldnotformylifegetawayfromthefeelingthattherewassomeoneelseamongstus。Isupposeitwastherecollection，sopowerfullybroughthometomebythegrimsurroundings，ofthatterribleexperienceinTransylvania。
Ithinkthefeelingwascommontousall，forInoticedthattheotherskeptlookingovertheirshouldersateverysoundandeverynewshadow，justasIfeltmyselfdoing。
Thewholeplacewasthickwithdust。Thefloorwasseeminglyinchesdeep，exceptwheretherewererecentfootsteps，inwhichonholdingdownmylampIcouldseemarksofhobnailswherethedustwascracked。
Thewallswerefluffyandheavywithdust，andinthecornersweremassesofspider\'swebs，whereonthedusthadgatheredtilltheylookedlikeoldtatteredragsastheweighthadtornthempartlydown。
Onatableinthehallwasagreatbunchofkeys，withatime-yellowedlabeloneach。Theyhadbeenusedseveraltimes，foronthetablewereseveralsimilarrentsintheblanketofdust，similartothatexposedwhentheProfessorliftedthem。
Heturnedtomeandsaid，“Youknowthisplace，Jonathan。
Youhavecopiedmapsofit，andyouknowitatleastmorethanwedo。
Whichisthewaytothechapel？”
Ihadanideaofitsdirection，thoughonmyformervisitI
hadnotbeenabletogetadmissiontoit，soIledtheway，andafterafewwrongturningsfoundmyselfoppositealow，archedoakendoor，ribbedwithironbands。
“Thisisthespot，“saidtheProfessorasheturnedhislamponasmallmapofthehouse，copiedfromthefileofmyoriginalcorrespondenceregardingthepurchase。Withalittletroublewefoundthekeyonthebunchandopenedthedoor。
Wewerepreparedforsomeunpleasantness，foraswewereopeningthedoorafaint，malodorousairseemedtoexhalethroughthegaps，butnoneofuseverexpectedsuchanodorasweencountered。
NoneoftheothershadmettheCountatallatclosequarters，andwhenIhadseenhimhewaseitherinthefastingstageofhisexistenceinhisroomsor，whenhewasbloatedwithfreshblood，inaruinedbuildingopentotheair，butheretheplacewassmallandclose，andthelongdisusehadmadetheairstagnantandfoul。
Therewasanearthysmell，asofsomedrymiasma，whichcamethroughthefoulerair。Butastotheodoritself，howshallIdescribeit？
Itwasnotalonethatitwascomposedofalltheillsofmortalityandwiththepungent，acridsmellofblood，butitseemedasthoughcorruptionhadbecomeitselfcorrupt。Faugh！Itsickensmetothinkofit。
Everybreathexhaledbythatmonsterseemedtohaveclungtotheplaceandintensifieditsloathsomeness。
Underordinarycircumstancessuchastenchwouldhavebroughtourenterprisetoanend，butthiswasnoordinarycase，andthehighandterriblepurposeinwhichwewereinvolvedgaveusastrengthwhichroseabovemerelyphysicalconsiderations。
Aftertheinvoluntaryshrinkingconsequentonthefirstnauseouswhiff，weoneandallsetaboutourworkasthoughthatloathsomeplacewereagardenofroses。
Wemadeanaccurateexaminationoftheplace，theProfessorsayingaswebegan，“Thefirstthingistoseehowmanyoftheboxesareleft，wemustthenexamineeveryholeandcornerandcrannyandseeifwecannotgetsomeclueastowhathasbecomeoftherest。“
Aglancewassufficienttoshowhowmanyremained，forthegreatearthchestswerebulky，andtherewasnomistakingthem。
Therewereonlytwenty-nineleftoutofthefifty！
OnceIgotafright，for，seeingLordGodalmingsuddenlyturnandlookoutofthevaulteddoorintothedarkpassagebeyond，Ilookedtoo，andforaninstantmyheartstoodstill。
Somewhere，lookingoutfromtheshadow，IseemedtoseethehighlightsoftheCount\'sevilface，theridgeofthenose，theredeyes，theredlips，theawfulpallor。Itwasonlyforamoment，for，asLordGodalmingsaid，“IthoughtIsawaface，butitwasonlytheshadows，“andresumedhisinquiry，Iturnedmylampinthedirection，andsteppedintothepassage。
Therewasnosignofanyone，andastherewerenocorners，nodoors，noapertureofanykind，butonlythesolidwallsofthepassage，therecouldbenohidingplaceevenforhim。
Itookitthatfearhadhelpedimagination，andsaidnothing。
AfewminuteslaterIsawMorrisstepsuddenlybackfromacorner，whichhewasexamining。Weallfollowedhismovementswithoureyes，forundoubtedlysomenervousnesswasgrowingonus，andwesawawholemassofphosphorescence，whichtwinkledlikestars。
Weallinstinctivelydrewback。Thewholeplacewasbecomingalivewithrats。
Foramomentortwowestoodappalled，allsaveLordGodalming，whowasseeminglypreparedforsuchanemergency。Rushingovertothegreatiron-boundoakendoor，whichDr。Sewardhaddescribedfromtheoutside，andwhichIhadseenmyself，heturnedthekeyinthelock，drewthehugebolts，andswungthedooropen。Then，takinghislittlesilverwhistlefromhispocket，heblewalow，shrillcall。
ItwasansweredfrombehindDr。Seward\'shousebytheyelpingofdogs，andafteraboutaminutethreeterrierscamedashingroundthecornerofthehouse。Unconsciouslywehadallmovedtowardsthedoor，andaswemovedInoticedthatthedusthadbeenmuchdisturbed。
Theboxeswhichhadbeentakenouthadbeenbroughtthisway。
Butevenintheminutethathadelapsedthenumberoftheratshadvastlyincreased。Theyseemedtoswarmovertheplaceallatonce，tillthelamplight，shiningontheirmovingdarkbodiesandglittering，balefuleyes，madetheplacelooklikeabankofearthsetwithfireflies。
Thedogsdashedon，butatthethresholdsuddenlystoppedandsnarled，andthen，simultaneouslyliftingtheirnoses，begantohowlinmostlugubriousfashion。Theratsweremultiplyinginthousands，andwemovedout。
LordGodalmingliftedoneofthedogs，andcarryinghimin，placedhimonthefloor。Theinstanthisfeettouchedthegroundheseemedtorecoverhiscourage，andrushedathisnaturalenemies。
Theyfledbeforehimsofastthatbeforehehadshakenthelifeoutofascore，theotherdogs，whohadbynowbeenliftedinthesamemanner，hadbutsmallpreyerethewholemasshadvanished。
Withtheirgoingitseemedasifsomeevilpresencehaddeparted，forthedogsfriskedaboutandbarkedmerrilyastheymadesuddendartsattheirprostratefoes，andturnedthemoverandoverandtossedthemintheairwithviciousshakes。Weallseemedtofindourspiritsrise。
Whetheritwasthepurifyingofthedeadlyatmospherebytheopeningofthechapeldoor，orthereliefwhichweexperiencedbyfindingourselvesintheopenIknownot，butmostcertainlytheshadowofdreadseemedtoslipfromuslikearobe，andtheoccasionofourcominglostsomethingofitsgrimsignificance，thoughwedidnotslackenawhitinourresolution。Weclosedtheouterdoorandbarredandlockedit，andbringingthedogswithus，beganoursearchofthehouse。
Wefoundnothingthroughoutexceptdustinextraordinaryproportions，andalluntouchedsaveformyownfootstepswhenIhadmademyfirstvisit。
Neveroncedidthedogsexhibitanysymptomofuneasiness，andevenwhenwereturnedtothechapeltheyfriskedaboutasthoughtheyhadbeenrabbithuntinginasummerwood。
Themorningwasquickeningintheeastwhenweemergedfromthefront。
Dr。VanHelsinghadtakenthekeyofthehalldoorfromthebunch，andlockedthedoorinorthodoxfashion，puttingthekeyintohispocketwhenhehaddone。
“Sofar，“hesaid，“ournighthasbeeneminentlysuccessful。
NoharmhascometoussuchasIfearedmightbeandyetwehaveascertainedhowmanyboxesaremissing。
MorethanalldoIrejoicethatthis，ourfirst，andperhapsourmostdifficultanddangerous，stephasbeenaccomplishedwithoutthebringingthereintoourmostsweetMadamMinaortroublingherwakingorsleepingthoughtswithsightsandsoundsandsmellsofhorrorwhichshemightneverforget。
Onelesson，too，wehavelearned，ifitbeallowabletoargueaparticulari，thatthebrutebeastswhicharetotheCount\'scommandareyetthemselvesnotamenabletohisspiritualpower，forlook，theseratsthatwouldcometohiscall，justasfromhiscastletophesummonthewolvestoyourgoingandtothatpoormother\'scry，thoughtheycometohim，theyrunpell-mellfromthesolittledogsofmyfriendArthur。
Wehaveothermattersbeforeus，otherdangers，otherfears，andthatmonster……Hehasnotusedhispoweroverthebruteworldfortheonlyorthelasttimetonight。
Sobeitthathehasgoneelsewhere。Good！Ithasgivenusopportunitytocry`check\'insomewaysinthischessgame，whichweplayforthestakeofhumansouls。
Andnowletusgohome。Thedawniscloseathand，andwehavereasontobecontentwithourfirstnight\'swork。
Itmaybeordainedthatwehavemanynightsanddaystofollow，iffullofperil，butwemustgoon，andfromnodangershallweshrink。“
Thehousewassilentwhenwegotback，saveforsomepoorcreaturewhowasscreamingawayinoneofthedistantwards，andalow，moaningsoundfromRenfield\'sroom。Thepoorwretchwasdoubtlesstorturinghimself，afterthemanneroftheinsane，withneedlessthoughtsofpain。
Icametiptoeintoourownroom，andfoundMinaasleep，breathingsosoftlythatIhadtoputmyeardowntohearit。
Shelookspalerthanusual。Ihopethemeetingtonighthasnotupsether。Iamtrulythankfulthatsheistobeleftoutofourfuturework，andevenofourdeliberations。Itistoogreatastrainforawomantobear。Ididnotthinksoatfirst，butIknowbetternow。ThereforeIamgladthatitissettled。
Theremaybethingswhichwouldfrightenhertohear，andyettoconcealthemfromhermightbeworsethantotellherifonceshesuspectedthattherewasanyconcealment。
Henceforthourworkistobeasealedbooktoher，tillatleastsuchtimeaswecantellherthatallisfinished，andtheearthfreefromamonsterofthenetherworld。
Idaresayitwillbedifficulttobegintokeepsilenceaftersuchconfidenceasours，butImustberesolute，andtomorrowIshallkeepdarkovertonight\'sdoings，andshallrefusetospeakofanythingthathashappened。
Irestonthesofa，soasnottodisturbher。
1October，later——Isupposeitwasnaturalthatweshouldhavealloversleptourselves，forthedaywasabusyone，andthenighthadnorestatall。EvenMinamusthavefeltitsexhaustion，forthoughIslepttillthesunwashigh，Iwasawakebeforeher，andhadtocalltwoorthreetimesbeforesheawoke。
Indeed，shewassosoundasleepthatforafewsecondsshedidnotrecognizeme，butlookedatmewithasortofblankterror，asonelookswhohasbeenwakedoutofabaddream。
Shecomplainedalittleofbeingtired，andIletherresttilllaterintheday。Wenowknowoftwenty-oneboxeshavingbeenremoved，andifitbethatseveralweretakeninanyoftheseremovalswemaybeabletotracethemall。
Suchwill，ofcourse，immenselysimplifyourlabor，andthesoonerthematterisattendedtothebetter。
IshalllookupThomasSnellingtoday。
DR。SEWARD\'SDIARY
1October——ItwastowardsnoonwhenIwasawakenedbytheProfessorwalkingintomyroom。Hewasmorejollyandcheerfulthanusual，anditisquiteevidentthatlastnight\'sworkhashelpedtotakesomeofthebroodingweightoffhismind。
Aftergoingovertheadventureofthenighthesuddenlysaid，“Yourpatientinterestsmemuch。MayitbethatwithyouIvisithimthismorning？
Orifthatyouaretoooccupy，Icangoaloneifitmaybe。
Itisanewexperiencetometofindalunaticwhotalkphilosophy，andreasonsosound。“
Ihadsomeworktodowhichpressed，soItoldhimthatifhewouldgoaloneIwouldbeglad，asthenIshouldnothavetokeephimwaiting，soIcalledanattendantandgavehimthenecessaryinstructions。
BeforetheProfessorlefttheroomIcautionedhimagainstgettinganyfalseimpressionfrommypatient。
“But，“heanswered，“Iwanthimtotalkofhimselfandofhisdelusionastoconsuminglivethings。HesaidtoMadamMina，asI
seeinyourdiaryofyesterday，thathehadoncehadsuchabelief。
Whydoyousmile，friendJohn？”
“Excuseme，“Isaid，“buttheanswerishere。“Ilaidmyhandonthetypewrittenmatter。“Whenoursaneandlearnedlunaticmadethatverystatementofhowheusedtoconsumelife，hismouthwasactuallynauseouswiththefliesandspiderswhichhehadeatenjustbeforeMrs。Harkerenteredtheroom。“
VanHelsingsmiledinturn。“Good！”hesaid。
“Yourmemoryistrue，friendJohn。Ishouldhaveremembered。
Andyetitisthisveryobliquityofthoughtandmemorywhichmakesmentaldiseasesuchafascinatingstudy。
PerhapsImaygainmoreknowledgeoutofthefollyofthismadmanthanIshallfromtheteachingofthemostwise。
Whoknows？”
Iwentonwithmywork，andbeforelongwasthroughthatinhand。
Itseemedthatthetimehadbeenveryshortindeed，buttherewasVanHelsingbackinthestudy。
“DoIinterrupt？”heaskedpolitelyashestoodatthedoor。
“Notatall，“Ianswered。“Comein。Myworkisfinished，andIamfree。
Icangowithyounow，ifyoulike。“
“Itisneedless，Ihaveseenhim！”
“Well？”
“Ifearthathedoesnotappraisemeatmuch。
Ourinterviewwasshort。WhenIenteredhisroomhewassittingonastoolinthecenter，withhiselbowsonhisknees，andhisfacewasthepictureofsullendiscontent。
IspoketohimascheerfullyasIcould，andwithsuchameasureofrespectasIcouldassume。Hemadenoreplywhatever。
\'Don\'tyouknowme？\'Iasked。Hisanswerwasnotreassuring。
“Iknowyouwellenough，youaretheoldfoolVanHelsing。
Iwishyouwouldtakeyourselfandyouridioticbraintheoriessomewhereelse。Damnallthick-headedDutchmen！\'
Notawordmorewouldhesay，butsatinhisimplacablesullennessasindifferenttomeasthoughIhadnotbeenintheroomatall。
Thusdepartedforthistimemychanceofmuchlearningfromthissocleverlunatic，soIshallgo，ifImay，andcheermyselfwithafewhappywordswiththatsweetsoulMadamMina。
FriendJohn，itdoesrejoicemeunspeakablethatsheisnomoretobepained，nomoretobeworriedwithourterriblethings。
Thoughweshallmuchmissherhelp，itisbetterso。“
“Iagreewithyouwithallmyheart，“Iansweredearnestly，forIdidnotwanthimtoweakeninthismatter。“Mrs。Harkerisbetteroutofit。
Thingsarequitebadenoughforus，allmenoftheworld，andwhohavebeeninmanytightplacesinourtime，butitisnoplaceforawoman，andifshehadremainedintouchwiththeaffair，itwouldintimeinfalliblyhavewreckedher。“
SoVanHelsinghasgonetoconferwithMrs。HarkerandHarker，QuinceyandArtarealloutfollowingupthecluesastotheearthboxes。
Ishallfinishmyroundofworkandweshallmeettonight。
MINAHARKER\'SJOURNAL
1October——ItisstrangetometobekeptinthedarkasIamtoday，afterJonathan\'sfullconfidenceforsomanyyears，toseehimmanifestlyavoidcertainmatters，andthosethemostvitalofall。
ThismorningIsleptlateafterthefatiguesofyesterday，andthoughJonathanwaslatetoo，hewastheearlier。Hespoketomebeforehewentout，nevermoresweetlyortenderly，buthenevermentionedawordofwhathadhappenedinthevisittotheCount\'shouse。
AndyethemusthaveknownhowterriblyanxiousIwas。Poordearfellow！
Isupposeitmusthavedistressedhimevenmorethanitdidme。
TheyallagreedthatitwasbestthatIshouldnotbedrawnfurtherintothisawfulwork，andIacquiesced。Buttothinkthathekeepsanythingfromme！AndnowIamcryinglikeasillyfool，whenI
knowitcomesfrommyhusband\'sgreatloveandfromthegood，goodwishesofthoseotherstrongmen。
Thathasdonemegood。Well，somedayJonathanwilltellmeall。
AndlestitshouldeverbethatheshouldthinkforamomentthatIkeptanythingfromhim，Istillkeepmyjournalasusual。
ThenifhehasfearedofmytrustIshallshowittohim，witheverythoughtofmyheartputdownforhisdeareyestoread。Ifeelstrangelysadandlow-spiritedtoday。
Isupposeitisthereactionfromtheterribleexcitement。
LastnightIwenttobedwhenthemenhadgone，simplybecausetheytoldmeto。Ididn\'tfeelsleepy，andIdidfeelfullofdevouringanxiety。
IkeptthinkingovereverythingthathasbeeneversinceJonathancametoseemeinLondon，anditallseemslikeahorribletragedy，withfatepressingonrelentlesslytosomedestinedend。Everythingthatonedoesseems，nomatterhowrightitmebe，tobringontheverythingwhichismosttobedeplored。
IfIhadn\'tgonetoWhitby，perhapspoordearLucywouldbewithusnow。
Shehadn\'ttakentovisitingthechurchyardtillIcame，andifshehadn\'tcomethereinthedaytimewithmeshewouldn\'thavewalkedinhersleep。
Andifshehadn\'tgonethereatnightandasleep，thatmonstercouldn\'thavedestroyedherashedid。Oh，whydidIevergotoWhitby？
Therenow，cryingagain！Iwonderwhathascomeovermetoday。
ImusthideitfromJonathan，forifheknewthatIhadbeencryingtwiceinonemorning……I，whonevercriedonmyownaccount，andwhomhehasnevercausedtoshedatear，thedearfellowwouldfrethisheartout。
Ishallputaboldfaceon，andifIdofeelweepy，heshallneverseeit。
Isupposeitisjustoneofthelessonsthatwepoorwomenhavetolearn……
Ican\'tquiterememberhowIfellasleeplastnight。
Irememberhearingthesuddenbarkingofthedogsandalotofqueersounds，likeprayingonaverytumultuousscale，fromMr。Renfield\'sroom，whichissomewhereunderthis。
Andthentherewassilenceovereverything，silencesoprofoundthatitstartledme，andIgotupandlookedoutofthewindow。
Allwasdarkandsilent，theblackshadowsthrownbythemoonlightseemingfullofasilentmysteryoftheirown。
Notathingseemedtobestirring，butalltobegrimandfixedasdeathorfate，sothatathinstreakofwhitemist，thatcreptwithalmostimperceptibleslownessacrossthegrasstowardsthehouse，seemedtohaveasentienceandavitalityofitsown。
Ithinkthatthedigressionofmythoughtsmusthavedonemegood，forwhenIgotbacktobedIfoundalethargycreepingoverme。
Ilayawhile，butcouldnotquitesleep，soIgotoutandlookedoutofthewindowagain。Themistwasspreading，andwasnowcloseuptothehouse，sothatIcouldseeitlyingthickagainstthewall，asthoughitwerestealinguptothewindows。Thepoormanwasmoreloudthanever，andthoughIcouldnotdistinguishawordhesaid，Icouldinsomewayrecognizeinhistonessomepassionateentreatyonhispart。Thentherewasthesoundofastruggle，andIknewthattheattendantsweredealingwithhim。
IwassofrightenedthatIcreptintobed，andpulledtheclothesovermyhead，puttingmyfingersinmyears。
Iwasnotthenabitsleepy，atleastsoIthought，butImusthavefallenasleep，forexceptdreams，Idonotrememberanythinguntilthemorning，whenJonathanwokeme。
IthinkthatittookmeaneffortandalittletimetorealizewhereIwas，andthatitwasJonathanwhowasbendingoverme。
Mydreamwasverypeculiar，andwasalmosttypicalofthewaythatwakingthoughtsbecomemergedin，orcontinuedin，dreams。
IthoughtthatIwasasleep，andwaitingforJonathantocomeback。
Iwasveryanxiousabouthim，andIwaspowerlesstoact，myfeet，andmyhands，andmybrainwereweighted，sothatnothingcouldproceedattheusualpace。AndsoIsleptuneasilyandthought。
Thenitbegantodawnuponmethattheairwasheavy，anddank，andcold。
Iputbacktheclothesfrommyface，andfound，tomysurprise，thatallwasdimaround。ThegaslightwhichIhadleftlitforJonathan，butturneddown，cameonlylikeatinyredsparkthroughthefog，whichhadevidentlygrownthickerandpouredintotheroom。
ThenitoccurredtomethatIhadshutthewindowbeforeIhadcometobed。Iwouldhavegotouttomakecertainonthepoint，butsomeleadenlethargyseemedtochainmylimbsandevenmywill。
Ilaystillandendured，thatwasall。Iclosedmyeyes，butcouldstillseethroughmyeyelids。Itiswonderfulwhattricksourdreamsplayus，andhowconvenientlywecanimagine。ThemistgrewthickerandthickerandIcouldseenowhowitcamein，forIcouldseeitlikesmoke，orwiththewhiteenergyofboilingwater，pouringin，notthroughthewindow，butthroughthejoiningsofthedoor。
Itgotthickerandthicker，tillitseemedasifitbecameconcentratedintoasortofpillarofcloudintheroom，throughthetopofwhichIcouldseethelightofthegasshininglikearedeye。
Thingsbegantowhirlthroughmybrainjustasthecloudycolumnwasnowwhirlingintheroom，andthroughitallcamethescripturalwords“apillarofcloudbydayandoffirebynight。“Wasitindeedsuchspiritualguidancethatwascomingtomeinmysleep？
Butthepillarwascomposedofboththedayandthenightguiding，forthefirewasintheredeye，whichatthethoughtgatanewfascinationforme，till，asIlooked，thefiredivided，andseemedtoshineonmethroughthefogliketworedeyes，suchasLucytoldmeofinhermomentarymentalwanderingwhen，onthecliff，thedyingsunlightstruckthewindowsofSt。Mary\'sChurch。
SuddenlythehorrorburstuponmethatitwasthusthatJonathanhadseenthoseawfulwomengrowingintorealitythroughthewhirlingmistinthemoonlight，andinmydreamImusthavefainted，forallbecameblackdarkness。Thelastconsciouseffortwhichimaginationmadewastoshowmealividwhitefacebendingovermeoutofthemist。
Imustbecarefulofsuchdreams，fortheywouldunseatone\'sreasonifthereweretoomuchofthem。IwouldgetDr。VanHelsingorDr。Sewardtoprescribesomethingformewhichwouldmakemesleep，onlythatIfeartoalarmthem。
Suchadreamatthepresenttimewouldbecomewovenintotheirfearsforme。
TonightIshallstrivehardtosleepnaturally。IfIdonot，Ishalltomorrownightgetthemtogivemeadoseofchloral，thatcannothurtmeforonce，anditwillgivemeagoodnight\'ssleep。LastnighttiredmemorethanifI
hadnotsleptatall。
2October10P。M——LastnightIslept，butdidnotdream。
Imusthavesleptsoundly，forIwasnotwakedbyJonathancomingtobed，butthesleephasnotrefreshedme，fortodayI
feelterriblyweakandspiritless。Ispentallyesterdaytryingtoread，orlyingdowndozing。Intheafternoon，Mr。Renfieldaskedifhemightseeme。Poorman，hewasverygentle，andwhenIcameawayhekissedmyhandandbadeGodblessme。
Somewayitaffectedmemuch。IamcryingwhenIthinkofhim。
Thisisanewweakness，ofwhichImustbecareful。
JonathanwouldbemiserableifheknewIhadbeencrying。
Heandtheotherswereouttilldinnertime，andtheyallcameintired。IdidwhatIcouldtobrightenthemup，andIsupposethattheeffortdidmegood，forIforgothowtiredIwas。
Afterdinnertheysentmetobed，andallwentofftosmoketogether，astheysaid，butIknewthattheywantedtotelleachotherofwhathadoccurredtoeachduringtheday。
IcouldseefromJonathan\'smannerthathehadsomethingimportanttocommunicate。IwasnotsosleepyasIshouldhavebeen，sobeforetheywentIaskedDr。Sewardtogivemealittleopiateofsomekind，asIhadnotsleptwellthenightbefore。
Heverykindlymademeupasleepingdraught，whichhegavetome，tellingmethatitwoulddomenoharm，asitwasverymild……Ihavetakenit，andamwaitingforsleep，whichstillkeepsaloof。IhopeIhavenotdonewrong，forassleepbeginstoflirtwithme，anewfearcomes，thatImayhavebeenfoolishinthusdeprivingmyselfofthepowerofwaking。
Imightwantit。Herecomessleep。Goodnight。
CHAPTER20
JONATHANHARKER\'SJOURNAL
1October，evening——IfoundThomasSnellinginhishouseatBethnalGreen，butunhappilyhewasnotinaconditiontorememberanything。Theveryprospectofbeerwhichmyexpectedcominghadopenedtohimhadprovedtoomuch，andhehadbeguntooearlyonhisexpecteddebauch。
Ilearned，however，fromhiswife，whoseemedadecent，poorsoul，thathewasonlytheassistantofSmollet，whoofthetwomateswastheresponsibleperson。
SooffIdrovetoWalworth，andfoundMr。JosephSmolletathomeandinhisshirtsleeves，takingalateteaoutofasaucer。
Heisadecent，intelligentfellow，distinctlyagood，reliabletypeofworkman，andwithaheadpieceofhisown。
Herememberedallabouttheincidentoftheboxes，andfromawonderfuldog-earednotebook，whichheproducedfromsomemysteriousreceptacleabouttheseatofhistrousers，andwhichhadhieroglyphicalentriesinthick，half-obliteratedpencil，hegavemethedestinationsoftheboxes。
Therewere，hesaid，sixinthecartloadwhichhetookfromCarfaxandleftat197ChicksandStreet，MileEndNewTown，andanothersixwhichhedepositedatJamaicaLane，Bermondsey。
IfthentheCountmeanttoscattertheseghastlyrefugesofhisoverLondon，theseplaceswerechosenasthefirstofdelivery，sothatlaterhemightdistributemorefully。
ThesystematicmannerinwhichthiswasdonemademethinkthathecouldnotmeantoconfinehimselftotwosidesofLondon。
Hewasnowfixedonthefareastonthenorthernshore，ontheeastofthesouthernshore，andonthesouth。
Thenorthandwestweresurelynevermeanttobeleftoutofhisdiabolicalscheme，letalonetheCityitselfandtheveryheartoffashionableLondoninthesouth-westandwest。
IwentbacktoSmollet，andaskedhimifhecouldtellusifanyotherboxeshadbeentakenfromCarfax。
Hereplied，“Wellguv\'nor，you\'vetreatedmevery\'an\'some“，I
hadgivenhimhalfasovereign，“anI\'lltellyerallIknow。
IheardamanbythenameofBloxamsayfournightsagointhe\'Arean\'\'Ounds，inPincher\'sAlley，as\'owhean\'
hismate\'ad\'adararedustyjobinaold\'ouseatPurfleet。
Thereain\'tamanysuchjobsasthis\'ere，an\'I\'mthinkin\'
thatmaybeSamBloxamcouldtellyesummut。“
Iaskedifhecouldtellmewheretofindhim。Itoldhimthatifhecouldgetmetheaddressitwouldbeworthanotherhalfsovereigntohim。
Sohegulpeddowntherestofhisteaandstoodup，sayingthathewasgoingtobeginthesearchthenandthere。
Atthedoorhestopped，andsaid，“Look\'ere，guv\'nor，thereain\'tnosenseinmeakeepin\'you\'ere。ImayfindSamsoon，orImayn\'t，butanyhowheain\'tliketobeinawaytotellyemuchtonight。
Samisarareonewhenhestartsonthebooze。Ifyoucangivemeaenvelopewithastamponit，andputyeraddressonit，I\'llfindoutwhereSamistobefoundandpostityetonight。
Butye\'dbetterbeuparter\'imsooninthemornin\'，nevermindtheboozethenightafore。“
Thiswasallpractical，sooneofthechildrenwentoffwithapennytobuyanenvelopeandasheetofpaper，andtokeepthechange。
Whenshecameback，Iaddressedtheenvelopeandstampedit，andwhenSmollethadagainfaithfullypromisedtoposttheaddresswhenfound，Itookmywaytohome。We\'reonthetrackanyhow。
Iamtiredtonight，andIwanttosleep。Minaisfastasleep，andlooksalittletoopale。Hereyeslookasthoughshehadbeencrying。
Poordear，I\'venodoubtitfretshertobekeptinthedark，anditmaymakeherdoublyanxiousaboutmeandtheothers。
Butitisbestasitis。Itisbettertobedisappointedandworriedinsuchawaynowthantohavehernervebroken。Thedoctorswerequiterighttoinsistonherbeingkeptoutofthisdreadfulbusiness。
Imustbefirm，foronmethisparticularburdenofsilencemustrest。
Ishallnoteverenteronthesubjectwithherunderanycircumstances。
Indeed，Itmaynotbeahardtask，afterall，forsheherselfhasbecomereticentonthesubject，andhasnotspokenoftheCountorhisdoingseversincewetoldherofourdecision。
2October，evening——Alongandtryingandexcitingday。
BythefirstpostIgotmydirectedenvelopewithadirtyscrapofpaperenclosed，onwhichwaswrittenwithacarpenter\'spencilinasprawlinghand，“SamBloxam，Korkrans，4PotersCort，BartelStreet，Walworth。Arskforthedepite。“
Igottheletterinbed，androsewithoutwakingMina。
Shelookedheavyandsleepyandpale，andfarfromwell。
Ideterminednottowakeher，butthatwhenIshouldreturnfromthisnewsearch，IwouldarrangeforhergoingbacktoExeter。
Ithinkshewouldbehappierinourownhome，withherdailytaskstointeresther，thaninbeinghereamongstusandinignorance。IonlysawDr。Sewardforamoment，andtoldhimwhereIwasoffto，promisingtocomebackandtelltherestsosoonasIshouldhavefoundoutanything。
IdrovetoWalworthandfound，withsomedifficulty，Potter\'sCourt。
Mr。Smollet\'sspellingmisledme，asIaskedforPoter\'sCourtinsteadofPotter\'sCourt。However，whenIhadfoundthecourt，IhadnodifficultyindiscoveringCorcoran\'slodginghouse。
WhenIaskedthemanwhocametothedoorforthe“depite，“heshookhishead，andsaid，“Idunno\'im。Thereain\'tnosuchaperson\'ere。
Inever\'eardof\'iminallmybloomin\'days。Don\'tbelievethereain\'tnobodyofthatkindlivin\'\'ereoranywheres。“
ItookoutSmollet\'sletter，andasIreadititseemedtomethatthelessonofthespellingofthenameofthecourtmightguideme。
“Whatareyou？”Iasked。
“I\'mthedepity，“heanswered。