Butmyfather,I’msure,hastakenupsomenotionof—nevermind;onlytheendofitisthatheholdsOsbornestillintacitdisgrace,andismiserablehimselfallthetime。Osborne,too,issoreandunhappy,andestrangedfrommyfather。Itisjustwhatmymotherwouldhaveputrightverysoon,andperhapsyoucouldhavedoneit—unconsciously,Imean—
forthiswretchedmysterythatOsbornepreservesabouthisaffairsisattherootofitall。Butthere’snousetalkingaboutit;Idon’tknowwhyIbegan。’Then,withawrench,changingthesubject,whileMollystillthoughtofwhathehadbeentellingher,hebrokeout,—’Ican’ttellyouhowmuchIlikeMissKirkpatrick,Molly。Itmustbeagreatpleasuretoyouhavingsuchacompanion!’’Yes,’saidMolly,halfsmiling。’I’mveryfondofher;andIthinkIlikeherbettereverydayIknowher。Buthowquicklyyouhavefoundouthervirtues!’’Ididn’tsay\"virtues,\"didI?’askedhe,reddening,butputtingthequestioninallgoodfaith。’YetIdon’tthinkonecouldbedeceivedinthatface。
AndMrsGibsonappearstobeaveryfriendlyperson,—shehasaskedOsborneandmetodinehereonFriday。’’Bitterbeer’cameintoMolly’smind;butwhatshesaidwas,’Andareyoucoming?’’Certainly,Iam,unlessmyfatherwantsme;andI’vegivenMrsGibsonaconditionalpromiseforOsbornetoo。SoIshallseeyouallverysoonagain。ButImustgonow。Ihavetokeepanappointmentsevenmilesfromhereinhalfanhour’stime。Goodlucktoyourflower—garden,Molly。’
chapter22CHAPTERXXIITHEOLDSQUIRE’STROUBLESAffairsweregoingonworseattheHallthanRogerhadlikedtotell。Moreover,verymuchofthediscomforttherearosefrom’meremanner,’aspeopleexpressit,whichisalwaysindescribableandindefinable。QuietandpassiveasMrsHamleyhadalwaysbeeninappearance,shewastherulingspiritofthehouseaslongasshelived。Thedirectionstotheservants,downtothemostminuteparticulars,camefromhersitting—room,orfromthesofaonwhichshelay。Herchildrenalwaysknewwheretofindher;andtofindher,wastofindloveandsympathy。Herhusband,whowasoftenrestlessandangryfromonecauseoranother,alwayscametohertobesmootheddownandputright。Hewasconsciousofherpleasantinfluenceoverhim,andbecameatpeacewithhimselfwheninherpresence;justasachildisatcasewhenwithsomeonewhoisbothfirmandgentle。Butthekeystoneofthefamilyarchwasgone,andthestonesofwhichitwascomposedbegantofallapart。Itisalwayssadwhenasorrowofthiskindseemstoinjurethecharacterofthemourningsurvivors。Yet,perhaps,thisinjurymaybeonlytemporaryorsuperficial;thejudgmentssoconstantlypasseduponthewaypeoplebearthelossofthosewhomtheyhavedeeplyloved,appeartobeevenmorecruel,andwronglymetedout,thanhumanjudgmentsgenerallyare。Tocarelessobservers,forinstance,itwouldseemasthoughthesquirewasrenderedmorecapriciousandexacting,morepassionateandauthoritative,byhiswife’sdeath。Thetruthwas,thatitoccurredatatimewhenmanythingscametoharasshim,andsometobitterlydisappointhim;andshewasnolongertheretowhomheusedtocarryhissoreheartforthegentlebalmofhersweetwords。Sothesoreheartachedandsmartedinternally;
andoften,whenhesawhowhisviolentconductaffectedothers,hecouldhavecriedoutfortheirpity,insteadoftheirangerandresentment:’Havemercyuponme,forIamverymiserable。’Howoftenhavesuchdumbthoughtsgoneupfromtheheartsofthosewhohavetakenholdoftheirsorrowbythewrongend,asprayersagainstsin!Andwhenthesquiresawthathisservantswerelearningtodreadhim,andhisfirst—borntoavoidhim,hedidnotblamethem。Heknewhewasbecomingadomestictyrant;itseemedasifallcircumstancesconspiredagainsthim,andasifhewastooweaktostrugglewiththem;else,whydideverythingindoorsandout—of—doorsgosowrongjustnow,whenallhecouldhavedone,hadthingsbeenprosperous,wastohavesubmitted,inveryimperfectpatience,tothelossofhiswife?