Itmaybethattheytoohadtheir\"apprehension，\"butitsolittleranwithoursthat，wherewealreadyperceivedthe\"phrasing，\"theystillsawonlythefeeling——ourironywasforthemtruth，andsoon。AtthattimeIhadnotyetlearnttounderstandthattheywereinnowaytoblameforthis，andthatabsenceofsuchapprehensioninnowaypreventedthemfrombeinggoodandclevergirls。AccordinglyIlookeddownuponthem。
Moreover，havingoncelituponmypreciousideaof\"frankness，\"
andbeingbentuponapplyingittothefullinmyself，Ithoughtthequiet，confidingnatureofLubotshkaguiltyofsecretivenessanddissimulationsimplybecauseshesawnonecessityfordiggingupandexaminingallherthoughtsandinstincts。Forinstance，thefactthatshealwayssignedthesignofthecrossoverPapabeforegoingtobed，thatsheandKatenkainvariablyweptinchurchwhenattendingrequiemmassesforMamma，andthatKatenkasighedandrolledhereyesaboutwhenplayingthepiano——allthesethingsseemedtomesheermake-believe，andIaskedmyself：
\"Atwhatperioddidtheylearntopretendlikegrown-uppeople，andhowcantheybringthemselvestodoit？\"
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