Timecame,perhaps,allsosoon,whenourthoughtsover-leapedthatnarrowboundary;whentherewassomeone(verydear,wethoughtthen,verybeautiful,andabsolutelyperfect)wantingtothefulnessofourhappiness;whenwewerewantingtoo(orwethoughtso,whichdidjustaswell)attheChristmashearthbywhichthatsomeonesat;andwhenweintertwinedwitheverywreathandgarlandofourlifethatsomeone’sname。
ThatwasthetimeforthebrightvisionaryChristmaseswhichhavelongarisenfromustoshowfaintly,aftersummerrain,inthepalestedgesoftherainbow!Thatwasthetimeforthebeatifiedenjoymentofthethingsthatweretobe,andneverwere,andyetthethingsthatweresorealinourresolutehopethatitwouldbehardtosay,now,whatrealitiesachievedsince,havebeenstronger!
What!DidthatChristmasneverreallycomewhenweandthepricelesspearlwhowasouryoungchoicewerereceived,afterthehappiestoftotallyimpossiblemarriages,bythetwounitedfamiliespreviouslyatdaggers——drawnonouraccount?Whenbrothersandsisters-in-lawwhohadalwaysbeenrathercooltousbeforeourrelationshipwaseffected,perfectlydotedonus,andwhenfathersandmothersoverwhelmeduswithunlimitedincomes?WasthatChristmasdinnerneverreallyeaten,afterwhichwearose,andgenerouslyandeloquentlyrenderedhonourtoourlaterival,presentinthecompany,thenandthereexchangingfriendshipandforgiveness,andfoundinganattachment,nottobesurpassedinGreekorRomanstory,whichsubsisteduntildeath?Hasthatsamerivallongceasedtocareforthatsamepricelesspearl,andmarriedformoney,andbecomeusurious?Aboveall,dowereallyknow,now,thatweshouldprobablyhavebeenmiserableifwehadwonandwornthepearl,andthatwearebetterwithouther?
ThatChristmaswhenwehadrecentlyachievedsomuchfame;whenwehadbeencarriedintriumphsomewhere,fordoingsomethinggreatandgood;whenwehadwonanhonouredandennobledname,andarrivedandwerereceivedathomeinashoweroftearsofjoy;isitpossiblethatTHATChristmashasnotcomeyet?
Andisourlifehere,atthebest,soconstitutedthat,pausingasweadvanceatsuchanoticeablemile-stoneinthetrackasthisgreatbirthday,welookbackonthethingsthatneverwere,asnaturallyandfullasgravelyasonthethingsthathavebeenandaregone,orhavebeenandstillare?Ifitbeso,andsoitseemstobe,mustwecometotheconclusionthatlifeislittlebetterthanadream,andlittleworththelovesandstrivingsthatwecrowdintoit?