Andperhapshavetakenitunblushinglyeversince\"therainySunday,\"and\"thestatelyPantheon,\"and\"thebeatificdruggist\"of1804?Evenso。AndhowdoIfindmyhealthafterallthisopium-
eating?Inshort,howdoIdo?Why,prettywell,Ithankyou,reader;inthephraseofladiesinthestraw,\"aswellascanbeexpected。\"Infact,ifIdaredtosaytherealandsimpletruth,though,tosatisfythetheoriesofmedicalmen,IOUGHTtobeill,I
neverwasbetterinmylifethaninthespringof1812;andIhopesincerelythatthequantityofclaret,port,or\"particularMadeira,\"whichinallprobabilityyou,goodreader,havetaken,anddesigntotakeforeverytermofeightyearsduringyournaturallife,mayaslittledisorderyourhealthasminewasdisorderedbytheopiumIhadtakenforeightyears,between1804and1812。HenceyoumayseeagainthedangeroftakinganymedicaladvicefromAnastasius;indivinity,foraughtIknow,orlaw,hemaybeasafecounsellor;butnotinmedicine。No;itisfarbettertoconsultDr。Buchan,asIdid;forIneverforgotthatworthyman’sexcellentsuggestion,andIwas\"particularlycarefulnottotakeabovefive-
and-twentyouncesoflaudanum。\"TothismoderationandtemperateuseofthearticleImayascribeit,Isuppose,thatasyet,atleast(i。e。in1812),Iamignorantandunsuspiciousoftheavengingterrorswhichopiumhasinstoreforthosewhoabuseitslenity。Atthesametime,itmustnotbeforgottenthathithertoIhavebeenonlyadilettanteeaterofopium;eightyears’practiceeven,withasingleprecautionofallowingsufficientintervalsbetweeneveryindulgence,hasnotbeensufficienttomakeopiumnecessarytomeasanarticleofdailydiet。Butnowcomesadifferentera。Moveon,ifyouplease,reader,to1813。InthesummeroftheyearwehavejustquittedIhavesufferedmuchinbodilyhealthfromdistressofmindconnectedwithaverymelancholyevent。Thiseventbeingnowaysrelatedtothesubjectnowbeforeme,furtherthanthroughthebodilyillnesswhichitproduced,Ineednotmoreparticularlynotice。Whetherthisillnessof1812hadanyshareinthatof1813
Iknownot;butsoitwas,thatinthelatteryearIwasattackedbyamostappallingirritationofthestomach,inallrespectsthesameasthatwhichhadcausedmesomuchsufferinginyouth,andaccompaniedbyarevivalofalltheolddreams。Thisisthepointofmynarrativeonwhich,asrespectsmyownself-justification,thewholeofwhatfollowsmaybesaidtohinge。AndhereIfindmyselfinaperplexingdilemma。Either,ontheonehand,Imustexhaustthereader’spatiencebysuchadetailofmymalady,orofmystruggleswithit,asmightsufficetoestablishthefactofmyinabilitytowrestleanylongerwithirritationandconstantsuffering;or,ontheotherhand,bypassinglightlyoverthiscriticalpartofmystory,Imustforegothebenefitofastrongerimpressionleftonthemindofthereader,andmustlaymyselfopentothemisconstructionofhavingslipped,bytheeasyandgradualstepsofself-indulgingpersons,fromthefirsttothefinalstageofopium-eating(amisconstructiontowhichtherewillbealurkingpredispositioninmostreaders,frommypreviousacknowledgements)。