Iexpressmyselfbadly。Butdoyouwish,Lord,thatIshouldincloseinpoorandbarrenwordssentimentswhichtheheartalonecanunderstand?”
Imightmultiplycasesalmostindefinitely,butthesewillsufficetoshowyouhowreal,definite,andmemorableaneventasuddenconversionmaybetohimwhohastheexperience。
Throughouttheheightofitheundoubtedlyseemstohimselfapassivespectatororundergoerofanastoundingprocessperformeduponhimfromabove。Thereistoomuchevidenceofthisforanydoubtofittobepossible。Theology,combiningthisfactwiththedoctrinesofelectionandgrace,hasconcludedthatthespiritofGodiswithusatthesedramaticmomentsinapeculiarlymiraculousway,unlikewhathappensatanyotherjunctureofourlives。Atthatmoment,itbelieves,anabsolutelynewnatureisbreathedintous,andwebecomepartakersoftheverysubstanceoftheDeity。
Thattheconversionshouldbeinstantaneousseemscalledforonthisview,andtheMoravianProtestantsappeartohavebeenthefirsttoseethislogicalconsequence。TheMethodistssoonfollowedsuit,practicallyifnotdogmatically,andashorttimeerehisdeath,JohnWesleywrote:——
“InLondonaloneIfound652membersofourSocietywhowereexceedingclearintheirexperience,andwhosetestimonyIcouldseenoreasontodoubt。Andeveryoneofthesewithoutasingleexceptionhasdeclaredthathisdeliverancefromsinwasinstantaneous;thatthechangewaswroughtinamoment。Hadhalfofthese,oronethird,oroneintwenty,declareditwasGRADUALLYwroughtinTHEM,Ishouldhavebelievedthis,withregardtoTHEM,andthoughtthatSOMEweregraduallysanctifiedandsomeinstantaneously。ButasIhavenotfound,insolongaspaceoftime,asinglepersonspeakingthus,Icannotbutbelievethatsanctificationiscommonly,ifnotalways,aninstantaneouswork。”[122]