Whenthemarksofthediseaseclearedaway,theydidnot,itistrue,leavefurrowsorscarsonherface(exceptone,perhaps,onherforeheadoverherlefteyebrow);butthedelicacyofherrosycolorandcomplexionwasgone:hereyeshadlosttheirbrilliancy,herhairfell,andherfacelookedolder。Itwasasifacoarsehandhadrubbedoffthedelicatetintsofthatsweetpicture,andbroughtit,asonehasseenunskilfulpainting—cleanersdo,tothedeadcolor。Also,itmustbeowned,thatforayearortwoafterthemalady,herladyship\'snosewasswollenandredder。
Therewouldbenoneedtomentionthesetrivialities,butthattheyactuallyinfluencedmanylives,astrifleswillintheworld,whereagnatoftenplaysagreaterpartthananelephant,andamole—
hill,asweknowinKingWilliam\'scase,canupsetanempire。WhenTusherinhiscourtlyway(atwhichHarryEsmondalwayschafedandspokescornfully)vowedandprotestedthatmylady\'sfacewasnonetheworse——theladbrokeoutandsaid,\"ItISworseandmymistressisnotnearsohandsomeasshewas;\"onwhichpoorLadyCastlewoodgavearuefulsmile,andalookintoalittleVeniceglassshehad,whichshowedher,Isuppose,thatwhatthestupidboysaidwasonlytootrue,forsheturnedawayfromtheglass,andhereyesfilledwithtears。
ThesightoftheseinEsmond\'sheartalwayscreatedasortofrageofpity,andseeingthemonthefaceoftheladywhomhelovedbest,theyoungblunderersankdownonhisknees,andbesoughthertopardonhim,sayingthathewasafoolandanidiot,thathewasabrutetomakesuchaspeech,hewhohadcausedhermalady;andDoctorTushertoldhimthatabearhewasindeed,andabearhewouldremain,atwhichspeechpooryoungEsmondwassodumbstrickenthathedidnotevengrowl。
\"HeisMYbear,andIwillnothavehimbaited,Doctor,\"myladysaid,pattingherhandkindlyontheboy\'shead,ashewasstillkneelingatherfeet。\"Howyourhairhascomeoff!Andmine,too,\"sheaddedwithanothersigh。