Therewasanangrygleaminthehunter’seye,butheturnedonhisheelandenteredthesteeragecompanionway,whereheremained,lookingupward。
Allhandswereondecknow,andalleyeswerealoft,whereahumanlifewasatgrappleswithdeath。Thecallousnessofthesemen,towhomindustrialorganizationgavecontrolofthelivesofothermen,wasappalling。I,whohadlivedoutofthewhirloftheworld,hadneverdreamedthatitsworkwascarriedoninsuchfashion。Lifehadalwaysseemedapeculiarlysacredthing,buthereitcountedfornothing,wasacipherinthearithmeticofcommerce。Imustsay,however,thatthesailorsthemselvesweresympathetic,asinstancethecaseofJohnson;butthemasters,(thehuntersandthecaptain),wereheartlesslyindifferent。EventheprotestofStandisharoseoutofthefactthathedidnotwishtolosehisboat—puller。Haditbeensomeotherhunter’sboat—puller,he,likethem,wouldhavebeennomorethanamused。
ButtoreturntoHarrison。IttookJohansen,insultingandrevilingthepoorwretch,fullytenminutestogethimstartedagain。Alittlelaterhemadetheendofthegaff,where,astridethesparitself,hehadabetterchanceforholdingon。Heclearedthesheet,andwasfreetoreturn,slightlydown—hillnow,alongthehalyardstothemast。Buthehadlosthisnerve。
Unsafeaswashispresentposition,hewasloathtoforsakeitforthemoreunsafepositiononthehalyards。
Helookedalongtheairypathhemusttraverse,andthendowntothedeck。Hiseyeswerewideandstaring,andhewastremblingviolently。I
hadneverseenfearsostronglystampeduponahumanface。Johansencalledvainlyforhimtocomedown。Atanymomenthewasliabletobesnappedoffthegaff,buthewashelplesswithfright。WolfLarsen,walkingupanddownwithSmokeandinconversation,tooknomorenoticeofhim,thoughhecriedsharply,once,tothemanatthewheel:——
\"You’reoffyourcourse,myman!Becareful,unlessyou’relookingfortrouble!\"
\"Ay,ay,sir,\"thehelmsmanresponded,puttingacoupleofspokesdown。
HehadbeenguiltyofrunningtheGhostseveralpointsoffhercourseinorderthatwhatlittlewindtherewasshouldfilltheforesailandholditsteady。HehadstriventohelptheunfortunateHarrisonattheriskofincurringWolfLarsen’sanger。
Thetimewentby,andthesuspense,tome,wasterrible。ThomasMugridge,ontheotherhand,considereditalaughableaffair,andwascontinuallybobbinghisheadoutthegalleydoortomakejocoseremarks。HowIhatedhim!Andhowmyhatredforhimgrewandgrew,duringthatfearfultime,tocyclopeandimensions。ForthefirsttimeinmylifeIexperiencedthedesiretomurder——\"sawred,\"assomeofourpicturesquewritersphraseit。Lifeingeneralmightstillbesacred,butlifeintheparticularcaseofThomasMugridgehadbecomeveryprofaneindeed。IwasfrightenedwhenIbecameconsciousthatwasseeingred,andthethoughtflashedthroughmymind:wasI,too,becomingtaintedbythebrutalityofmyenvironment?
——I,whoeveninthemostflagrantcrimeshaddeniedthejusticeandrighteousnessofcapitalpunishment?
Fullyhalfanhourwentby,andthenIsawJohnsonandLouisinsomesortofaltercation。ItendedwithJohnsonflingingoffLouis’sdetainingarmandstartingforward。Hecrossedthedeck,sprangintotheforerigging,andbegantoclimb。ButthequickeyeofWolfLarsencaughthim。
\"Here,you,whatareyouupto?\"hecried。
Johnson’sascentwasarrested。Helookedhiscaptainintheeyesandrepliedslowly:——
\"Iamgoingtogetthatboydown。\"
\"You’llgetdownoutofthatrigging,anddamnlivelyaboutit!D’yehear?Getdown!\"
Johnsonhesitated,butthelongyearsofobediencetothemastersofshipsoverpoweredhim,andhedroppedsullenlytothedeckandwentonforward。
AthalfafterfiveIwentbelowtosetthecabintable,buthardlyknewwhatIdid,formyeyesandbrainwerefilledwiththevisionofaman,white—facedandtrembling,comicallylikeabug,clingingtothethrashinggaff。Atsixo’clock,whenIservedsupper,goingondecktogetthefoodfromthegalley,IsawHarrison,stillinthesameposition。Theconversationatthetablewasofotherthings。Nobodyseemedinterestedinthewantonlyimperilledlife。Butmakinganextratriptothegalleyalittlelater,IwasgladdenedbythesightofHarrisonstaggeringweaklyfromtheriggingtotheforecastlescuttle。Hehadfinallysummonedthecouragetodescend。
Beforeclosingthisincident,ImustgiveascrapofconversationI
hadwithWolfLarseninthecabin,whileIwaswashingthedishes。
\"Youwerelookingsqueamishthisafternoon,\"hebegan。\"Whatwasthematter?\"
IcouldseethatheknewwhathadmademepossiblyassickasHarrison,thathewastryingtodrawme,andIanswered,\"Itwasbecauseofthebrutaltreatmentofthatboy。\"
Hegaveashortlaugh。\"Likeseasickness,Isuppose。Somemenaresubjecttoit,andothersarenot。\"
\"Notso,\"Iobjected。
\"Justso,\"hewenton。\"Theearthisasfullofbrutalityastheseaisfullofmotion。Andsomemenaremadesickbytheone,andsomebytheother。That’stheonlyreason。\"
\"Butyou,whomakeamockofhumanlife,don’tyouplaceanyvalueuponitwhatever?\"Idemanded。
\"Value?Whatvalue?\"Helookedatme,andthoughhiseyesweresteadyandmotionless,thereseemedacynicalsmileinthem。\"Whatkindofvalue?
Howdoyoumeasureit?Whovaluesit?\"
\"Ido,\"Imadeanswer。
\"Thenwhatisitworthtoyou?Anotherman’slife,Imean。Come,now,whatisitworth?\"
Thevalueoflife?HowcouldIputatangiblevalueuponit?Somehow,I,whohavealwayshadexpression,lackedexpressionwhenwithWolfLarsen。
Ihavesincedeterminedthatapartofitwasduetotheman’spersonality,butthatthegreaterpartwasduetohistotallydifferentoutlook。UnlikeothermaterialistsIhadmetandwithwhomhadsomethingincommontostarton,Ihadnothingincommonwithhim。Perhaps,also,itwastheelementalsimplicityofhismindthatbaffledme。Hedrovesodirectlytothecoreofthematter,divestingaquestionalwaysofallsuperfluousdetails,andwithsuchanairoffinality,thatIseemedtofindmyselfstrugglingindeepwaterwithnofootingunderme。Valueoflife?HowcouldIanswerthequestiononthespurofthemoment?ThesacrednessoflifeIhadacceptedasaxiomatic。ThatitwasintrinsicallyvaluablewasatruismIhadneverquestioned。ButwhenhechallengedthetruismIwasspeechless。
\"Weweretalkingaboutthisyesterday,\"hesaid。\"Iheldthatlifewasaferment,ayeastysomethingwhichdevouredlifethatitmightlive,andthatlivingwasmerelysuccessfulpiggishness。Why,ifthereisanythinginsupplyanddemand,lifeisthecheapestthingintheworld。Thereisonlysomuchwater,somuchearth,somuchair;butthelifethatisdemandingtobebornislimitless。Natureisaspendthrift。Lookatthefishandtheirmillionsofeggs。Forthatmatter,lookatyouandme。Inourloinsarethepossibilitiesofmillionsoflives。Couldwebutfindtimeandopportunityandutilizethelastbitandeverybitoftheunbornlifethatisinus,wecouldbecomethefathersofnationsandpopulatecontinents。
Life?Bah!Ithasnovalue。Ofcheapthingsitisthecheapest。Everywhereitgoesbegging。Naturespillsitoutwithalavishhand。Wherethereisroomforonelife,shesowsathousandlives,andit’slifeeatslifetillthestrongestandmostpiggishlifeisleft。\"
\"YouhavereadDarwin,\"Isaid。\"Butyoureadhimmisunderstandinglywhenyouconcludethatthestruggleforexistencesanctionsyourwantondestructionoflife。\"
Heshruggedhisshoulders。\"Youknowyouonlymeanthatinrelationtohumanlife,forofthefleshandthefowlandthefishyoudestroyasmuchasIoranyotherman。Andhumanlifeisinnowisedifferent,thoughyoufeelitisandthinkthatyoureasonwhyitis。WhyshouldIbeparsimoniouswiththislifewhichischeapandwithoutvalue?Therearemoresailorsthanthereareshipsontheseaforthem,moreworkersthantherearefactoriesormachinesforthem。Why,youwholiveonthelandknowthatyouhouseyourpoorpeopleintheslumsofcitiesandloosefamineandpestilenceuponthem,andthattherestillremainmorepoorpeople,dyingforwantofacrustofbreadandabitofmeat,(whichislifedestroyed),thanyouknowwhattodowith。HaveyoueverseentheLondondockersfightinglikewildbeastsforachancetowork?\"
Hestartedforthecompanionstairs,butturnedhisheadforafinalword。\"Doyouknowtheonlyvaluelifehasiswhatlifeputsuponitself?
Anditisofcourseoverestimated,sinceitisofnecessityprejudicedinitsownfavor。TakethatmanIhadaloft。Heheldonasifhewereapreciousthing,atreasurebeyonddiamondsorrubies。Toyou?No。Tome?
Notatall。Tohimself?Yes。ButIdonotaccepthisestimate。Hesadlyoverrateshimself。Thereisplentymorelifedemandingtobeborn。Hadhefallenanddrippedhisbrainsuponthedecklikehoneyfromthecomb,therewouldhavebeennolosstotheworld。Hewasworthnothingtotheworld。Thesupplyistoolarge。Tohimselfonlywasheofvalue,andtoshowhowfictitiouseventhisvaluewas,beingdeadheisunconsciousthathehaslosthimself。Healoneratedhimselfbeyonddiamondsandrubies。
Diamondsandrubiesaregone,spreadoutonthedecktobewashedawaybyabucketofsea—water,andhedoesnotevenknowthatthediamondsandrubiesaregone。Hedoesnotloseanything,forwiththelossofhimselfhelosestheknowledgeofloss。Don’tyousee?Andwhathaveyoutosay?\"
\"Thatyouareatleastconsistent,\"wasallIcouldsay,andwentonwashingthedishes。TheSeaWolf:Chapter7CHAPTER7
Atlast,afterthreedaysofvariablewinds,wehavecaughtthenortheasttrades。Icameondeck,afteragoodnight’srestinspiteofmypoorknee,tofindtheGhostfoamingalong,wing—and—wing,andeverysaildrawingexceptthejibs,withafreshbreezeastern。Oh,thewonderofthegreattrade—wind!Alldaywesailed,andallnight,andthenextday,andthenext,dayafterday,thewindalwaysasternandblowingsteadilyandstrong。
Theschoonersailedherself。Therewasnopullingandhaulingonsheetsandtackles,noshiftingoftopsails,noworkatallforthesailorstodoexcepttosteer。Atnightwhenthesunwentdown,thesheetswereslackened;
inthemorning,whentheyyieldedupthedampofthedewandrelaxed,theywerepulledtightagain——andthatwasall。
Tenknots,twelveknots,elevenknots,varyingfromtimetotime,isthespeedwearemaking。Andeveroutofthenortheastthebravewindblows,drivingusonourcoursetwohundredandfiftymilesbetweenthedawns。
Itsaddensmeandgladdensme,thegaitwithwhichweareleavingSanFranciscobehindandwithwhichwearefoamingdownuponthetropics。Eachdaygrowsperceptiblywarmer。Intheseconddog—watchthesailorscomeondeck,stripped,andheavebucketsofwaterupononeanotherfromoverside。Flying—fisharebeginningtobeseen,andduringthenightthewatchabovescramblesoverthedeckinpursuitofthosethatfallaboard。Inthemorning,ThomasMugridgebeingdulybribed,thegalleyispleasantlyareekwiththeodoroftheirfrying;whiledolphinmeatisservedforeandaftonsuchoccasionsasJohnsoncatchestheblazingbeautiesfromthebowspritend。
Johnsonseemstospendallhissparetimethereoraloftatthecrosstrees,watchingtheGhostcleavingthewaterunderpressofsail。Thereispassion,adoration,inhiseyes,andhegoesaboutinasortoftrance,gazinginecstasyattheswellingsails,thefoamingwake,andtheheaveandtherunofherovertheliquidmountainsthataremovingwithusinstatelyprocession。
Thedaysandnightsare\"allawonderandawilddelight,\"andthoughIhavelittletimefrommydrearywork,IstealoddmomentstogazeandgazeattheunendinggloryofwhatIneverdreamedtheworldpossessed。
Above,theskyisstainlessblue——blueastheseaitself,whichundertheforefootisofthecolorandsheenofazuresatin。Allaroundthehorizonarepale,fleecyclouds,neverchanging,nevermoving,likeasilversettingfortheflawlessturquoisesky。
Idonotforgetonenight,whenIshouldhavebeenasleep,oflyingontheforecastle—headandgazingdownatthespectralrippleoffoamthrustasidebytheGhost’sforefoot。Itsoundedlikethegurglingofabrookovermossystonesinsomequietdell,andthecrooningsongofitluredmeawayandoutofmyselftillIwasnolongerHumpthecabin—boy,norVanWeyden,themanwhohaddreamedawaythirty—fiveyearsamongbooks。
Butavoicebehindme,theunmistakablevoiceofWolfLarsen,strongwiththeinvinciblecertitudeofthemanandmellowwithappreciationofthewordshewasquoting,arousedme。\"`Otheblazingtropicnight,whenthewake’saweltoflightThatholdsthehotskytame,Andthesteadyforefootsnoresthroughtheplanet—powderedfloorsWherethescaredwhaleflukesinflame。Herplatesarescarredbythesun,dearlass,Andherropesaretautwiththedew,Forwe’reboomingdownontheoldtrail,ourowntrail,theouttrail,We’resaggingsouthontheLongTrail——thetrailthatisalwaysnew。’\"
\"Eh,Hump?How’sitstrikeyou?\"heasked,aftertheduepausewhichwordsandsettingdemanded。
Ilookedintohisface。Itwasaglowwithlight,astheseaitself,andtheeyeswereflashinginthestarshine。
\"Itstrikesmeasremarkable,tosaytheleast,thatyoushouldshowenthusiasm,\"Iansweredcoldly。
\"Why,man,it’sliving!it’slife!\"hecried。
\"Whichisacheapthingandwithoutvalue,\"Iflunghiswordsathim。
Helaughed,anditwasthefirsttimeIhadheardhonestmirthinhisvoice。
\"Ah,Icannotgetyoutounderstand,cannotdriveitintoyourhead,whatathingthislifeis。Ofcourselifeisvalueless,excepttoitself。
AndIcantellyouthatmylifeisprettyvaluablejustnow——tomyself。
Itisbeyondprice,whichyouwillacknowledgeisaterrificoverrating,butwhichIcannothelp,foritisthelifethatisinmethatmakestherating。\"
Heappearedwaitingforthewordswithwhichtoexpressthethoughtthatwasinhim,andfinallywenton。
\"Doyouknow,Iamfilledwithastrangeuplift;Ifeelasifalltimewereechoingthroughme,asthoughallpowersweremine。knowtruth,divinegoodfromevil,rightfromwrong。Myvisionisclearandfar。IcouldalmostbelieveinGod。But,\"——andhisvoicechangedandthelightwentoutofhisface,——\"whatisthisconditioninwhichIfindmyself?thisjoyofliving?thisexultationoflife?thisinspiration,Imaywellcallit?
Itiswhatcomeswhenthereisnothingwrongwithone’sdigestion,whenhisstomachisintrimandhisappetitehasanedge,andallgoeswell。
Itisthebribeforliving,thechampagneoftheblood,theeffervescenceoftheferment——thatmakessomementhinkholythoughts,andothermentoseeGodortocreatehimwhentheycannotseehim。Thatisall,thedrunkennessoflife,thestirringandcrawlingoftheyeast,thebabblingofthelifethatisinsanewithconsciousnessthatitisalive。And——
bah!To—morrowIshallpayforitasthedrunkardpays。AndIshallknowthatmustdie,atseamostlikely,ceasecrawlingofmyselftobeallacrawlwiththecorruptionofthesea;tobefedupon,tobecarrion,toyieldupallthestrengthandmovementofmymusclesthatitmaybecomestrengthandmovementinfinandscaleandthegutsoffishes。Bah!Andbah!again。
Thechampagneisalreadyflat。Thesparkleandbubblehasgoneoutanditisatastelessdrink。\"
Heleftmeassuddenlyashehadcome,springingtothedeckwiththeweightandsoftnessofatiger。TheGhostploughedonherway。I
notedthegurglingforefootwasverylikeasnore,andasIlistenedtoittheeffectofWolfLarsen’sswiftrushfromsublimeexultationtodespairslowlyleftme。Thensomedeep—watersailor,fromthewaistoftheship,liftedarichtenorvoiceinthe\"SongoftheTradeWind:\"\"Oh,Iamthewindtheseamenlove——Iamsteady,andstrong,andtrue;Theyfollowmytrackbythecloudsabove,O’erthefathomlesstropicblue。******ThroughdaylightanddarkIfollowthebark,Ikeeplikeahoundonhertrail;I’mstrongestatnoon,yetunderthemoon,Istiffenthebuntofhersail。\"TheSeaWolf:Chapter8CHAPTER8
SometimesIthinkWolfLarsenmad,orhalf—madatleast,whatofhisstrangemoodsandvagaries。AtothertimesItakehimforagreatman,ageniuswhohasneverarrived。And,finally,Iamconvincedthatheistheperfecttypeoftheprimitiveman,bornathousandyearsorgenerationstoolateandananachronisminthisculminatingcenturyofcivilization。
Heiscertainlyanindividualistofthemostpronouncedtype。Notonlythat,butheisverylonely。Thereisnocongenialitybetweenhimandtherestofthemenaboardship。Histremendousvirilityandmentalstrengthwallhimapart。Theyaremorelikechildrentohim,eventhehunters,andaschildrenhetreatsthem,descendingperforcetotheirlevelandplayingwiththemasamanplayswithpuppies。Orelseheprobesthemwiththecruelhandofavivisectionist,gropingaboutintheirmentalprocessesandexaminingtheirsoulsasthoughtoseeofwhatsoul—stuffismade。
Ihaveseenhimascoreoftimes,attable,insultingthishunterorthat,withcoolandleveleyesand,withal,acertainairofinterest,ponderingtheiractionsorrepliesorpettyrageswithacuriosityalmostlaughabletomewhostoodonlookerandwhounderstood。Concerninghisownrages,Iamconvincedthattheyarenotreal,thattheyaresometimesexperiments,butthatinthemaintheyarethehabitsofaposeorattitudehehasseenfittotaketowardhisfellowmen。know,withthepossibleexceptionoftheincidentofthedeadmate,thatIhavenotseenhimreallyangry;nordoIwishevertoseehiminagenuinerage,whenalltheforceofhimiscalledintoplay。
Whileonthequestionofvagaries,IshalltellwhatbefellThomasMugridgeinthecabin,andatthesametimecompleteanincidentuponwhichIhavealreadytouchedonceortwice。Thetwelveo’clockdinnerwasover,oneday,andIhadjustfinishedputtingthecabininorder,whenWolfLarsenandThomasMugridgedescendedthecompanionstairs。Thoughthecookhadacubby—holeofastateroomopeningofffromthecabin,inthecabinitselfhehadneverdaredtolingerortobeseen,andheflittedtoandfro,onceortwiceaday,likeatimidspectre。
\"Soyouknowhowtoplay`Nap,’\"WolfLarsenwassayinginapleasedsortofvoice。\"ImighthaveguessedanEnglishmanwouldknow。IlearneditmyselfinEnglishships。\"
ThomasMugridgewasbesidehimself,ablitheringimbecile,sopleasedwasheatchummingthuswiththecaptain。Thelittleairsheputonandthepainfulstrivingtoassumetheeasycarriageofamanborntoadignifiedplaceinlifewouldhavebeensickeninghadtheynotbeenludicrous。Hequiteignoredmypresence,thoughIcreditedhimwithbeingsimplyunabletoseeme。Hispale,wishy—washyeyeswereswimminglikelazysummerseas,thoughwhatblissfulvisionstheybeheldwerebeyondmyimagination。
\"Getthecards,Hump,\"WolfLarsenordered,astheytookseatsatthetable。\"Andbringoutthecigarsandthewhiskeyyou’llfindinmyberth。\"
IreturnedwiththearticlesintimetoheartheCockneyhintingbroadlythattherewasamysteryabouthim,thathemightbeagentleman’ssongonewrongorsomethingorother;also,thathewasaremittancemanandwaspaidtokeepawayfromEngland——\"p’yed’ansomely,sir,\"wasthewayheputit;\"p’yed’ansomelytoslingmy’ookan’keepslingin’it。\"
Ihadbroughtthecustomaryliquorglasses,butWolfLarsenfrowned,shookhishead,andsignalledwithhishandsformetobringthetumblers。
Thesehefilledtwo—thirdsfullwithundilutedwhiskey——\"agentleman’sdrink,\"quothThomasMugridge,——andtheyclinkedtheirglassestothegloriousgameof\"Nap,\"lightedcigars,andfelltoshufflinganddealingthecards。
Theyplayedformoney。Theyincreasedtheamountsofthebets。Theydrankwhiskey,theydrankitneat,andIfetchedmore。IdonotknowwhetherWolfLarsencheatedornot,——athinghewasthoroughlycapableofdoing,——buthewonsteadily。Thecookmaderepeatedjourneystohisbunkformoney。Eachtimeheperformedthejourneywithgreaterswagger,butheneverbroughtmorethanafewdollarsatatime。Hegrewmaudlin,familiar,couldhardlyseethecardsorsitupright。Asapreliminarytoanotherjourneytohisbunk,hehookedWolfLarsen’sbuttonholewithagreasyforefingerandvacuouslyproclaimedandreiterated,\"Igotmoney。Igotmoney,Itellyer,an’I’magentleman’sson。\"
WolfLarsenwasunaffectedbythedrink,yethedrankglassforglass,andifanythinghisglasseswerefuller。Therewasnochangeinhim。Hedidnotappearevenamusedattheother’santics。
Intheend,withloudprotestationsthathecouldloselikeagentleman,thecook’slastmoneywasstakedonthegameandlost。Whereuponheleanedhisheadonhishandsandwept。WolfLarsenlookedcuriouslyathim,asthoughabouttoprobeandvivisecthim,thenchangedhismind,asfromtheforegoneconclusionthattherewasnothingtheretoprobe。
\"Hump,\"hesaidtome,elaboratelypolite,\"kindlytakeMr。Mugridge’sarmandhelphimupondeck。Heisnotfeelingverywell。\"
\"AndtellJohnsontodousehimwithafewbucketsofsaltwater,\"headded,inalowertoneformyearalone。
IleftMr。Mugridgeondeck,inthehandsofacoupleofgrinningsailorswhohadbeentoldoffforthepurpose。Mr。Mugridgewassleepilysplutteringthathewasagentleman’sson。ButasdescendedthecompanionstairstoclearthetableIheardhimshriekasthefirstbucketofwaterstruckhim。
WolfLarsenwascountinghiswinnings。
\"Onehundredandeighty—fivedollarseven,\"hesaidaloud。\"JustasIthought。Thebeggarcameaboardwithoutacent。\"
\"Andwhatyouhavewonismine,sir,\"Isaidboldly。
Hefavoredmewithaquizzicalsmile。\"Hump,Ihavestudiedsomegrammarinmytime,andIthinkyourtensesaretangled。`Wasmine,’youshouldhavesaid,not`ismine。’\"
\"Itisaquestion,notofgrammar,butofethics,\"Ianswered。
Itwaspossiblyaminutebeforehespoke。
\"D’yeknow,Hump,\"hesaid,withaslowseriousnesswhichhadinitanindefinablestrainofsadness,\"thatthisisthefirsttimehaveheardtheword`ethics’inthemouthofaman。YouandIaretheonlymenonthisshipwhoknowitsmeaning。\"
\"Atonetimeinmylife,\"hecontinued,afteranotherpause,\"dreamedthatImightsomedaytalkwithmenwhousedsuchlanguage,thatImightliftmyselfoutoftheplaceinlifeinwhichIhadbeenborn,andholdconversationandminglewithmenwhotalkedaboutjustsuchthingsasethics。
AndthisisthefirsttimeIhaveeverheardthewordpronounced。Whichisallbytheway,foryouarewrong。Itisaquestion,neitherofgrammarnorethics,butoffact。\"
\"Iunderstand,\"Isaid。\"Thefactisthatyouhavethemoney。\"
Hisfacebrightened。Heseemedpleasedatmyperspicacity。
\"Butitisavoidingtherealquestion,\"Icontinued,\"whichisoneofright。\"
\"Ah,\"heremarked,withawrypuckerofhismouth,\"Iseeyoustillbelieveinsuchthingsasrightandwrong。\"
\"Butdon’tyou?——atall?\"Idemanded。
\"Nottheleastbit。Mightisright,andthatisallthereistoit。
Weaknessiswrong。Whichisaverypoorwayofsayingthatitisgoodforoneselftobestrong,andevilforoneselftobeweak——orbetteryet,itispleasurabletobestrong,becauseoftheprofits;painfultobeweak,becauseofthepenalties。Justnowthepossessionofthismoneyisapleasurablething。Itisgoodforonetopossessit。Beingabletopossessit,Iwrongmyselfandthelifethatisinmeifgiveittoyouandforegothepleasureofpossessingit。\"
\"Butyouwrongmebywithholdingit,\"Iobjected。
\"Notatall。Onemancannotwronganotherman。Hecanonlywronghimself。
AsIseeit,IdowrongalwayswhenIconsidertheinterestsofothers。
Don’tyousee?Howcantwoparticlesoftheyeastwrongeachotherbystrivingtodevoureachother?Itistheirinbornheritagetostrivetodevour,andtostrivenottobedevoured。Whentheydepartfromthistheysin。\"
\"Thenyoudon’tbelieveinaltruism?\"Iasked。
Hereceivedthewordasifithadafamiliarring,thoughhepondereditthoughtfully。\"Letmesee,itmeanssomethingaboutco[[Yacute]]peration,doesn’tit?\"
\"Well,inawaytherehascometobeasortofconnection,\"answered,unsurprisedbythistimeatsuchgapsinhisvocabulary,which,likehisknowledge,wastheacquirementofaself—read,self—educatedman,whomnoonehaddirectedinhisstudies,andwhohadthoughtmuchandtalkedlittleornotatall。\"Analtruisticactisanactperformedforthewelfareofothers。Itisunselfish,asopposedtoanactperformedforself,whichisselfish。\"
Henoddedhishead。\"Oh,yes,Irememberitnow。IranacrossitinSpencer。\"
\"Spencer!\"Icried。\"Haveyoureadhim?\"
\"Notverymuch,\"washisconfession。\"Iunderstoodquiteagooddealof`FirstPrinciples,’buthis`Biology’tookthewindoutofmysails,andhis`Psychology’leftmebuttingaroundinthedoldrumsformanyaday。Ihonestlycouldnotunderstandwhathewasdrivingat。Iputitdowntomentaldeficiencyonmypart,butsincethenIhavedecidedthatitwasforwantofpreparation。Ihadnoproperbasis。OnlySpencerandmyselfknowhowhardIhammered。ButIdidgetsomethingoutofhis`DataofEthics。’
There’swhereIranacross`altruism,’andIremembernowhowitwasused。\"
Iwonderedwhatthismancouldhavegotfromsuchawork。SpencerI
rememberedenoughtoknowthataltruismwasimperativetohisidealofhighestconduct。WolfLarsen,evidently,hadsiftedthegreatphilosopher’steachings,rejectingandselectingaccordingtohisneedsanddesires。
\"Whatelsedidyourunacross?\"Iasked。
Hisbrowsdrewinslightlywiththementaleffortofsuitablyphrasingthoughtswhichhehadneverbeforeputintospeech。Ifeltanelationofspirit。Iwasgropingintohissoul—stuffashemadeapracticeofgropinginthesoul—stuffofothers。Iwasexploringvirginterritory。Astrange,aterriblystrange,regionwasunrollingitselfbeforemyeyes。
\"Inasfewwordsaspossible,\"hebegan,\"Spencerputsitsomethinglikethis:First,amanmustactforhisownbenefit——todothisistobemoralandgood。Next,hemustactforthebenefitofhischildren。Andthird,hemustactforthebenefitofhisrace。\"
\"Andthehighest,finest,rightconduct,\"Iinterjected,\"isthatactwhichbenefitsatthesametimetheman,hischildren,andhisrace。\"
\"Iwouldn’tstandforthat,\"hereplied。\"Couldn’tseethenecessityforit,northecommonsense。Icutouttheraceandthechildren。Iwouldsacrificenothingforthem。It’sjustsomuchslushandsentiment,andyoumustseeityourself,atleastforonewhodoesnotbelieveineternallife。Withimmortalitybeforeme,altruismwouldbeapayingbusinessproposition。
Imightelevatemysoultoallkindsofaltitudes。Butwithnothingeternalbeforemebutdeath,givenforabriefspellthisyeastycrawlingandsquirmingwhichiscalledlife,why,itwouldbeimmoralformetoperformanyactthatwasasacrifice。Anysacrificethatmakesmeloseonecrawlorsquirmisfoolish,——andnotonlyfoolish,foritisawrongagainstmyselfandawickedthing。ImustnotloseonecrawlorsquirmifIamtogetthemostoutoftheferment。NorwilltheeternalmovelessnessthatiscomingtomebemadeeasierorharderbythesacrificesorselfishnessesofthetimewhenIwasyeastyandacrawl。\"
\"Thenyouareanindividualist,amaterialist,and,logically,ahedonist。\"
\"Bigwords,\"hesmiled。\"Butwhatisahedonist?\"
HenoddedagreementwhenIhadgiventhedefinition。
\"Andyouarealso,\"Icontinued,\"amanonecouldnottrustintheleastthingwhereitwaspossibleforaselfishinteresttointervene?\"
\"Nowyou’rebeginningtounderstand,\"hesaid,brightening。
\"Youareamanutterlywithoutwhattheworldcallsmorals?\"
\"That’sit。\"
\"Amanofwhomtobealwaysafraid——\"
\"That’sthewaytoputit。\"
\"Asoneisafraidofasnake,oratiger,orashark?\"
\"Nowyouknowme,\"hesaid。\"AndyouknowmeasIamgenerallyknown。
Othermencallme`Wolf。’\"
\"Youareasortofmonster,\"Iaddedaudaciously,\"aCalibanwhohasponderedSetebos,andwhoactsasyouact,inidlemoments,bywhimandfancy。\"
Hisbrowcloudedattheallusion。Hedidnotunderstand,andquicklylearnedthathedidnotknowthepoem。