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  Therewasanangrygleaminthehunter’seye,butheturnedonhisheelandenteredthesteeragecompanionway,whereheremained,lookingupward。

  Allhandswereondecknow,andalleyeswerealoft,whereahumanlifewasatgrappleswithdeath。Thecallousnessofthesemen,towhomindustrialorganizationgavecontrolofthelivesofothermen,wasappalling。I,whohadlivedoutofthewhirloftheworld,hadneverdreamedthatitsworkwascarriedoninsuchfashion。Lifehadalwaysseemedapeculiarlysacredthing,buthereitcountedfornothing,wasacipherinthearithmeticofcommerce。Imustsay,however,thatthesailorsthemselvesweresympathetic,asinstancethecaseofJohnson;butthemasters,(thehuntersandthecaptain),wereheartlesslyindifferent。EventheprotestofStandisharoseoutofthefactthathedidnotwishtolosehisboat—puller。Haditbeensomeotherhunter’sboat—puller,he,likethem,wouldhavebeennomorethanamused。

  ButtoreturntoHarrison。IttookJohansen,insultingandrevilingthepoorwretch,fullytenminutestogethimstartedagain。Alittlelaterhemadetheendofthegaff,where,astridethesparitself,hehadabetterchanceforholdingon。Heclearedthesheet,andwasfreetoreturn,slightlydown—hillnow,alongthehalyardstothemast。Buthehadlosthisnerve。

  Unsafeaswashispresentposition,hewasloathtoforsakeitforthemoreunsafepositiononthehalyards。

  Helookedalongtheairypathhemusttraverse,andthendowntothedeck。Hiseyeswerewideandstaring,andhewastremblingviolently。I

  hadneverseenfearsostronglystampeduponahumanface。Johansencalledvainlyforhimtocomedown。Atanymomenthewasliabletobesnappedoffthegaff,buthewashelplesswithfright。WolfLarsen,walkingupanddownwithSmokeandinconversation,tooknomorenoticeofhim,thoughhecriedsharply,once,tothemanatthewheel:——

  \"You’reoffyourcourse,myman!Becareful,unlessyou’relookingfortrouble!\"

  \"Ay,ay,sir,\"thehelmsmanresponded,puttingacoupleofspokesdown。

  HehadbeenguiltyofrunningtheGhostseveralpointsoffhercourseinorderthatwhatlittlewindtherewasshouldfilltheforesailandholditsteady。HehadstriventohelptheunfortunateHarrisonattheriskofincurringWolfLarsen’sanger。

  Thetimewentby,andthesuspense,tome,wasterrible。ThomasMugridge,ontheotherhand,considereditalaughableaffair,andwascontinuallybobbinghisheadoutthegalleydoortomakejocoseremarks。HowIhatedhim!Andhowmyhatredforhimgrewandgrew,duringthatfearfultime,tocyclopeandimensions。ForthefirsttimeinmylifeIexperiencedthedesiretomurder——\"sawred,\"assomeofourpicturesquewritersphraseit。Lifeingeneralmightstillbesacred,butlifeintheparticularcaseofThomasMugridgehadbecomeveryprofaneindeed。IwasfrightenedwhenIbecameconsciousthatwasseeingred,andthethoughtflashedthroughmymind:wasI,too,becomingtaintedbythebrutalityofmyenvironment?

  ——I,whoeveninthemostflagrantcrimeshaddeniedthejusticeandrighteousnessofcapitalpunishment?

  Fullyhalfanhourwentby,andthenIsawJohnsonandLouisinsomesortofaltercation。ItendedwithJohnsonflingingoffLouis’sdetainingarmandstartingforward。Hecrossedthedeck,sprangintotheforerigging,andbegantoclimb。ButthequickeyeofWolfLarsencaughthim。

  \"Here,you,whatareyouupto?\"hecried。

  Johnson’sascentwasarrested。Helookedhiscaptainintheeyesandrepliedslowly:——

  \"Iamgoingtogetthatboydown。\"

  \"You’llgetdownoutofthatrigging,anddamnlivelyaboutit!D’yehear?Getdown!\"

  Johnsonhesitated,butthelongyearsofobediencetothemastersofshipsoverpoweredhim,andhedroppedsullenlytothedeckandwentonforward。

  AthalfafterfiveIwentbelowtosetthecabintable,buthardlyknewwhatIdid,formyeyesandbrainwerefilledwiththevisionofaman,white—facedandtrembling,comicallylikeabug,clingingtothethrashinggaff。Atsixo’clock,whenIservedsupper,goingondecktogetthefoodfromthegalley,IsawHarrison,stillinthesameposition。Theconversationatthetablewasofotherthings。Nobodyseemedinterestedinthewantonlyimperilledlife。Butmakinganextratriptothegalleyalittlelater,IwasgladdenedbythesightofHarrisonstaggeringweaklyfromtheriggingtotheforecastlescuttle。Hehadfinallysummonedthecouragetodescend。

  Beforeclosingthisincident,ImustgiveascrapofconversationI

  hadwithWolfLarseninthecabin,whileIwaswashingthedishes。

  \"Youwerelookingsqueamishthisafternoon,\"hebegan。\"Whatwasthematter?\"

  IcouldseethatheknewwhathadmademepossiblyassickasHarrison,thathewastryingtodrawme,andIanswered,\"Itwasbecauseofthebrutaltreatmentofthatboy。\"

  Hegaveashortlaugh。\"Likeseasickness,Isuppose。Somemenaresubjecttoit,andothersarenot。\"

  \"Notso,\"Iobjected。

  \"Justso,\"hewenton。\"Theearthisasfullofbrutalityastheseaisfullofmotion。Andsomemenaremadesickbytheone,andsomebytheother。That’stheonlyreason。\"

  \"Butyou,whomakeamockofhumanlife,don’tyouplaceanyvalueuponitwhatever?\"Idemanded。

  \"Value?Whatvalue?\"Helookedatme,andthoughhiseyesweresteadyandmotionless,thereseemedacynicalsmileinthem。\"Whatkindofvalue?

  Howdoyoumeasureit?Whovaluesit?\"

  \"Ido,\"Imadeanswer。

  \"Thenwhatisitworthtoyou?Anotherman’slife,Imean。Come,now,whatisitworth?\"

  Thevalueoflife?HowcouldIputatangiblevalueuponit?Somehow,I,whohavealwayshadexpression,lackedexpressionwhenwithWolfLarsen。

  Ihavesincedeterminedthatapartofitwasduetotheman’spersonality,butthatthegreaterpartwasduetohistotallydifferentoutlook。UnlikeothermaterialistsIhadmetandwithwhomhadsomethingincommontostarton,Ihadnothingincommonwithhim。Perhaps,also,itwastheelementalsimplicityofhismindthatbaffledme。Hedrovesodirectlytothecoreofthematter,divestingaquestionalwaysofallsuperfluousdetails,andwithsuchanairoffinality,thatIseemedtofindmyselfstrugglingindeepwaterwithnofootingunderme。Valueoflife?HowcouldIanswerthequestiononthespurofthemoment?ThesacrednessoflifeIhadacceptedasaxiomatic。ThatitwasintrinsicallyvaluablewasatruismIhadneverquestioned。ButwhenhechallengedthetruismIwasspeechless。

  \"Weweretalkingaboutthisyesterday,\"hesaid。\"Iheldthatlifewasaferment,ayeastysomethingwhichdevouredlifethatitmightlive,andthatlivingwasmerelysuccessfulpiggishness。Why,ifthereisanythinginsupplyanddemand,lifeisthecheapestthingintheworld。Thereisonlysomuchwater,somuchearth,somuchair;butthelifethatisdemandingtobebornislimitless。Natureisaspendthrift。Lookatthefishandtheirmillionsofeggs。Forthatmatter,lookatyouandme。Inourloinsarethepossibilitiesofmillionsoflives。Couldwebutfindtimeandopportunityandutilizethelastbitandeverybitoftheunbornlifethatisinus,wecouldbecomethefathersofnationsandpopulatecontinents。

  Life?Bah!Ithasnovalue。Ofcheapthingsitisthecheapest。Everywhereitgoesbegging。Naturespillsitoutwithalavishhand。Wherethereisroomforonelife,shesowsathousandlives,andit’slifeeatslifetillthestrongestandmostpiggishlifeisleft。\"

  \"YouhavereadDarwin,\"Isaid。\"Butyoureadhimmisunderstandinglywhenyouconcludethatthestruggleforexistencesanctionsyourwantondestructionoflife。\"

  Heshruggedhisshoulders。\"Youknowyouonlymeanthatinrelationtohumanlife,forofthefleshandthefowlandthefishyoudestroyasmuchasIoranyotherman。Andhumanlifeisinnowisedifferent,thoughyoufeelitisandthinkthatyoureasonwhyitis。WhyshouldIbeparsimoniouswiththislifewhichischeapandwithoutvalue?Therearemoresailorsthanthereareshipsontheseaforthem,moreworkersthantherearefactoriesormachinesforthem。Why,youwholiveonthelandknowthatyouhouseyourpoorpeopleintheslumsofcitiesandloosefamineandpestilenceuponthem,andthattherestillremainmorepoorpeople,dyingforwantofacrustofbreadandabitofmeat,(whichislifedestroyed),thanyouknowwhattodowith。HaveyoueverseentheLondondockersfightinglikewildbeastsforachancetowork?\"

  Hestartedforthecompanionstairs,butturnedhisheadforafinalword。\"Doyouknowtheonlyvaluelifehasiswhatlifeputsuponitself?

  Anditisofcourseoverestimated,sinceitisofnecessityprejudicedinitsownfavor。TakethatmanIhadaloft。Heheldonasifhewereapreciousthing,atreasurebeyonddiamondsorrubies。Toyou?No。Tome?

  Notatall。Tohimself?Yes。ButIdonotaccepthisestimate。Hesadlyoverrateshimself。Thereisplentymorelifedemandingtobeborn。Hadhefallenanddrippedhisbrainsuponthedecklikehoneyfromthecomb,therewouldhavebeennolosstotheworld。Hewasworthnothingtotheworld。Thesupplyistoolarge。Tohimselfonlywasheofvalue,andtoshowhowfictitiouseventhisvaluewas,beingdeadheisunconsciousthathehaslosthimself。Healoneratedhimselfbeyonddiamondsandrubies。

  Diamondsandrubiesaregone,spreadoutonthedecktobewashedawaybyabucketofsea—water,andhedoesnotevenknowthatthediamondsandrubiesaregone。Hedoesnotloseanything,forwiththelossofhimselfhelosestheknowledgeofloss。Don’tyousee?Andwhathaveyoutosay?\"

  \"Thatyouareatleastconsistent,\"wasallIcouldsay,andwentonwashingthedishes。TheSeaWolf:Chapter7CHAPTER7

  Atlast,afterthreedaysofvariablewinds,wehavecaughtthenortheasttrades。Icameondeck,afteragoodnight’srestinspiteofmypoorknee,tofindtheGhostfoamingalong,wing—and—wing,andeverysaildrawingexceptthejibs,withafreshbreezeastern。Oh,thewonderofthegreattrade—wind!Alldaywesailed,andallnight,andthenextday,andthenext,dayafterday,thewindalwaysasternandblowingsteadilyandstrong。

  Theschoonersailedherself。Therewasnopullingandhaulingonsheetsandtackles,noshiftingoftopsails,noworkatallforthesailorstodoexcepttosteer。Atnightwhenthesunwentdown,thesheetswereslackened;

  inthemorning,whentheyyieldedupthedampofthedewandrelaxed,theywerepulledtightagain——andthatwasall。

  Tenknots,twelveknots,elevenknots,varyingfromtimetotime,isthespeedwearemaking。Andeveroutofthenortheastthebravewindblows,drivingusonourcoursetwohundredandfiftymilesbetweenthedawns。

  Itsaddensmeandgladdensme,thegaitwithwhichweareleavingSanFranciscobehindandwithwhichwearefoamingdownuponthetropics。Eachdaygrowsperceptiblywarmer。Intheseconddog—watchthesailorscomeondeck,stripped,andheavebucketsofwaterupononeanotherfromoverside。Flying—fisharebeginningtobeseen,andduringthenightthewatchabovescramblesoverthedeckinpursuitofthosethatfallaboard。Inthemorning,ThomasMugridgebeingdulybribed,thegalleyispleasantlyareekwiththeodoroftheirfrying;whiledolphinmeatisservedforeandaftonsuchoccasionsasJohnsoncatchestheblazingbeautiesfromthebowspritend。

  Johnsonseemstospendallhissparetimethereoraloftatthecrosstrees,watchingtheGhostcleavingthewaterunderpressofsail。Thereispassion,adoration,inhiseyes,andhegoesaboutinasortoftrance,gazinginecstasyattheswellingsails,thefoamingwake,andtheheaveandtherunofherovertheliquidmountainsthataremovingwithusinstatelyprocession。

  Thedaysandnightsare\"allawonderandawilddelight,\"andthoughIhavelittletimefrommydrearywork,IstealoddmomentstogazeandgazeattheunendinggloryofwhatIneverdreamedtheworldpossessed。

  Above,theskyisstainlessblue——blueastheseaitself,whichundertheforefootisofthecolorandsheenofazuresatin。Allaroundthehorizonarepale,fleecyclouds,neverchanging,nevermoving,likeasilversettingfortheflawlessturquoisesky。

  Idonotforgetonenight,whenIshouldhavebeenasleep,oflyingontheforecastle—headandgazingdownatthespectralrippleoffoamthrustasidebytheGhost’sforefoot。Itsoundedlikethegurglingofabrookovermossystonesinsomequietdell,andthecrooningsongofitluredmeawayandoutofmyselftillIwasnolongerHumpthecabin—boy,norVanWeyden,themanwhohaddreamedawaythirty—fiveyearsamongbooks。

  Butavoicebehindme,theunmistakablevoiceofWolfLarsen,strongwiththeinvinciblecertitudeofthemanandmellowwithappreciationofthewordshewasquoting,arousedme。\"`Otheblazingtropicnight,whenthewake’saweltoflightThatholdsthehotskytame,Andthesteadyforefootsnoresthroughtheplanet—powderedfloorsWherethescaredwhaleflukesinflame。Herplatesarescarredbythesun,dearlass,Andherropesaretautwiththedew,Forwe’reboomingdownontheoldtrail,ourowntrail,theouttrail,We’resaggingsouthontheLongTrail——thetrailthatisalwaysnew。’\"

  \"Eh,Hump?How’sitstrikeyou?\"heasked,aftertheduepausewhichwordsandsettingdemanded。

  Ilookedintohisface。Itwasaglowwithlight,astheseaitself,andtheeyeswereflashinginthestarshine。

  \"Itstrikesmeasremarkable,tosaytheleast,thatyoushouldshowenthusiasm,\"Iansweredcoldly。

  \"Why,man,it’sliving!it’slife!\"hecried。

  \"Whichisacheapthingandwithoutvalue,\"Iflunghiswordsathim。

  Helaughed,anditwasthefirsttimeIhadheardhonestmirthinhisvoice。

  \"Ah,Icannotgetyoutounderstand,cannotdriveitintoyourhead,whatathingthislifeis。Ofcourselifeisvalueless,excepttoitself。

  AndIcantellyouthatmylifeisprettyvaluablejustnow——tomyself。

  Itisbeyondprice,whichyouwillacknowledgeisaterrificoverrating,butwhichIcannothelp,foritisthelifethatisinmethatmakestherating。\"

  Heappearedwaitingforthewordswithwhichtoexpressthethoughtthatwasinhim,andfinallywenton。

  \"Doyouknow,Iamfilledwithastrangeuplift;Ifeelasifalltimewereechoingthroughme,asthoughallpowersweremine。knowtruth,divinegoodfromevil,rightfromwrong。Myvisionisclearandfar。IcouldalmostbelieveinGod。But,\"——andhisvoicechangedandthelightwentoutofhisface,——\"whatisthisconditioninwhichIfindmyself?thisjoyofliving?thisexultationoflife?thisinspiration,Imaywellcallit?

  Itiswhatcomeswhenthereisnothingwrongwithone’sdigestion,whenhisstomachisintrimandhisappetitehasanedge,andallgoeswell。

  Itisthebribeforliving,thechampagneoftheblood,theeffervescenceoftheferment——thatmakessomementhinkholythoughts,andothermentoseeGodortocreatehimwhentheycannotseehim。Thatisall,thedrunkennessoflife,thestirringandcrawlingoftheyeast,thebabblingofthelifethatisinsanewithconsciousnessthatitisalive。And——

  bah!To—morrowIshallpayforitasthedrunkardpays。AndIshallknowthatmustdie,atseamostlikely,ceasecrawlingofmyselftobeallacrawlwiththecorruptionofthesea;tobefedupon,tobecarrion,toyieldupallthestrengthandmovementofmymusclesthatitmaybecomestrengthandmovementinfinandscaleandthegutsoffishes。Bah!Andbah!again。

  Thechampagneisalreadyflat。Thesparkleandbubblehasgoneoutanditisatastelessdrink。\"

  Heleftmeassuddenlyashehadcome,springingtothedeckwiththeweightandsoftnessofatiger。TheGhostploughedonherway。I

  notedthegurglingforefootwasverylikeasnore,andasIlistenedtoittheeffectofWolfLarsen’sswiftrushfromsublimeexultationtodespairslowlyleftme。Thensomedeep—watersailor,fromthewaistoftheship,liftedarichtenorvoiceinthe\"SongoftheTradeWind:\"\"Oh,Iamthewindtheseamenlove——Iamsteady,andstrong,andtrue;Theyfollowmytrackbythecloudsabove,O’erthefathomlesstropicblue。******ThroughdaylightanddarkIfollowthebark,Ikeeplikeahoundonhertrail;I’mstrongestatnoon,yetunderthemoon,Istiffenthebuntofhersail。\"TheSeaWolf:Chapter8CHAPTER8

  SometimesIthinkWolfLarsenmad,orhalf—madatleast,whatofhisstrangemoodsandvagaries。AtothertimesItakehimforagreatman,ageniuswhohasneverarrived。And,finally,Iamconvincedthatheistheperfecttypeoftheprimitiveman,bornathousandyearsorgenerationstoolateandananachronisminthisculminatingcenturyofcivilization。

  Heiscertainlyanindividualistofthemostpronouncedtype。Notonlythat,butheisverylonely。Thereisnocongenialitybetweenhimandtherestofthemenaboardship。Histremendousvirilityandmentalstrengthwallhimapart。Theyaremorelikechildrentohim,eventhehunters,andaschildrenhetreatsthem,descendingperforcetotheirlevelandplayingwiththemasamanplayswithpuppies。Orelseheprobesthemwiththecruelhandofavivisectionist,gropingaboutintheirmentalprocessesandexaminingtheirsoulsasthoughtoseeofwhatsoul—stuffismade。

  Ihaveseenhimascoreoftimes,attable,insultingthishunterorthat,withcoolandleveleyesand,withal,acertainairofinterest,ponderingtheiractionsorrepliesorpettyrageswithacuriosityalmostlaughabletomewhostoodonlookerandwhounderstood。Concerninghisownrages,Iamconvincedthattheyarenotreal,thattheyaresometimesexperiments,butthatinthemaintheyarethehabitsofaposeorattitudehehasseenfittotaketowardhisfellowmen。know,withthepossibleexceptionoftheincidentofthedeadmate,thatIhavenotseenhimreallyangry;nordoIwishevertoseehiminagenuinerage,whenalltheforceofhimiscalledintoplay。

  Whileonthequestionofvagaries,IshalltellwhatbefellThomasMugridgeinthecabin,andatthesametimecompleteanincidentuponwhichIhavealreadytouchedonceortwice。Thetwelveo’clockdinnerwasover,oneday,andIhadjustfinishedputtingthecabininorder,whenWolfLarsenandThomasMugridgedescendedthecompanionstairs。Thoughthecookhadacubby—holeofastateroomopeningofffromthecabin,inthecabinitselfhehadneverdaredtolingerortobeseen,andheflittedtoandfro,onceortwiceaday,likeatimidspectre。

  \"Soyouknowhowtoplay`Nap,’\"WolfLarsenwassayinginapleasedsortofvoice。\"ImighthaveguessedanEnglishmanwouldknow。IlearneditmyselfinEnglishships。\"

  ThomasMugridgewasbesidehimself,ablitheringimbecile,sopleasedwasheatchummingthuswiththecaptain。Thelittleairsheputonandthepainfulstrivingtoassumetheeasycarriageofamanborntoadignifiedplaceinlifewouldhavebeensickeninghadtheynotbeenludicrous。Hequiteignoredmypresence,thoughIcreditedhimwithbeingsimplyunabletoseeme。Hispale,wishy—washyeyeswereswimminglikelazysummerseas,thoughwhatblissfulvisionstheybeheldwerebeyondmyimagination。

  \"Getthecards,Hump,\"WolfLarsenordered,astheytookseatsatthetable。\"Andbringoutthecigarsandthewhiskeyyou’llfindinmyberth。\"

  IreturnedwiththearticlesintimetoheartheCockneyhintingbroadlythattherewasamysteryabouthim,thathemightbeagentleman’ssongonewrongorsomethingorother;also,thathewasaremittancemanandwaspaidtokeepawayfromEngland——\"p’yed’ansomely,sir,\"wasthewayheputit;\"p’yed’ansomelytoslingmy’ookan’keepslingin’it。\"

  Ihadbroughtthecustomaryliquorglasses,butWolfLarsenfrowned,shookhishead,andsignalledwithhishandsformetobringthetumblers。

  Thesehefilledtwo—thirdsfullwithundilutedwhiskey——\"agentleman’sdrink,\"quothThomasMugridge,——andtheyclinkedtheirglassestothegloriousgameof\"Nap,\"lightedcigars,andfelltoshufflinganddealingthecards。

  Theyplayedformoney。Theyincreasedtheamountsofthebets。Theydrankwhiskey,theydrankitneat,andIfetchedmore。IdonotknowwhetherWolfLarsencheatedornot,——athinghewasthoroughlycapableofdoing,——buthewonsteadily。Thecookmaderepeatedjourneystohisbunkformoney。Eachtimeheperformedthejourneywithgreaterswagger,butheneverbroughtmorethanafewdollarsatatime。Hegrewmaudlin,familiar,couldhardlyseethecardsorsitupright。Asapreliminarytoanotherjourneytohisbunk,hehookedWolfLarsen’sbuttonholewithagreasyforefingerandvacuouslyproclaimedandreiterated,\"Igotmoney。Igotmoney,Itellyer,an’I’magentleman’sson。\"

  WolfLarsenwasunaffectedbythedrink,yethedrankglassforglass,andifanythinghisglasseswerefuller。Therewasnochangeinhim。Hedidnotappearevenamusedattheother’santics。

  Intheend,withloudprotestationsthathecouldloselikeagentleman,thecook’slastmoneywasstakedonthegameandlost。Whereuponheleanedhisheadonhishandsandwept。WolfLarsenlookedcuriouslyathim,asthoughabouttoprobeandvivisecthim,thenchangedhismind,asfromtheforegoneconclusionthattherewasnothingtheretoprobe。

  \"Hump,\"hesaidtome,elaboratelypolite,\"kindlytakeMr。Mugridge’sarmandhelphimupondeck。Heisnotfeelingverywell。\"

  \"AndtellJohnsontodousehimwithafewbucketsofsaltwater,\"headded,inalowertoneformyearalone。

  IleftMr。Mugridgeondeck,inthehandsofacoupleofgrinningsailorswhohadbeentoldoffforthepurpose。Mr。Mugridgewassleepilysplutteringthathewasagentleman’sson。ButasdescendedthecompanionstairstoclearthetableIheardhimshriekasthefirstbucketofwaterstruckhim。

  WolfLarsenwascountinghiswinnings。

  \"Onehundredandeighty—fivedollarseven,\"hesaidaloud。\"JustasIthought。Thebeggarcameaboardwithoutacent。\"

  \"Andwhatyouhavewonismine,sir,\"Isaidboldly。

  Hefavoredmewithaquizzicalsmile。\"Hump,Ihavestudiedsomegrammarinmytime,andIthinkyourtensesaretangled。`Wasmine,’youshouldhavesaid,not`ismine。’\"

  \"Itisaquestion,notofgrammar,butofethics,\"Ianswered。

  Itwaspossiblyaminutebeforehespoke。

  \"D’yeknow,Hump,\"hesaid,withaslowseriousnesswhichhadinitanindefinablestrainofsadness,\"thatthisisthefirsttimehaveheardtheword`ethics’inthemouthofaman。YouandIaretheonlymenonthisshipwhoknowitsmeaning。\"

  \"Atonetimeinmylife,\"hecontinued,afteranotherpause,\"dreamedthatImightsomedaytalkwithmenwhousedsuchlanguage,thatImightliftmyselfoutoftheplaceinlifeinwhichIhadbeenborn,andholdconversationandminglewithmenwhotalkedaboutjustsuchthingsasethics。

  AndthisisthefirsttimeIhaveeverheardthewordpronounced。Whichisallbytheway,foryouarewrong。Itisaquestion,neitherofgrammarnorethics,butoffact。\"

  \"Iunderstand,\"Isaid。\"Thefactisthatyouhavethemoney。\"

  Hisfacebrightened。Heseemedpleasedatmyperspicacity。

  \"Butitisavoidingtherealquestion,\"Icontinued,\"whichisoneofright。\"

  \"Ah,\"heremarked,withawrypuckerofhismouth,\"Iseeyoustillbelieveinsuchthingsasrightandwrong。\"

  \"Butdon’tyou?——atall?\"Idemanded。

  \"Nottheleastbit。Mightisright,andthatisallthereistoit。

  Weaknessiswrong。Whichisaverypoorwayofsayingthatitisgoodforoneselftobestrong,andevilforoneselftobeweak——orbetteryet,itispleasurabletobestrong,becauseoftheprofits;painfultobeweak,becauseofthepenalties。Justnowthepossessionofthismoneyisapleasurablething。Itisgoodforonetopossessit。Beingabletopossessit,Iwrongmyselfandthelifethatisinmeifgiveittoyouandforegothepleasureofpossessingit。\"

  \"Butyouwrongmebywithholdingit,\"Iobjected。

  \"Notatall。Onemancannotwronganotherman。Hecanonlywronghimself。

  AsIseeit,IdowrongalwayswhenIconsidertheinterestsofothers。

  Don’tyousee?Howcantwoparticlesoftheyeastwrongeachotherbystrivingtodevoureachother?Itistheirinbornheritagetostrivetodevour,andtostrivenottobedevoured。Whentheydepartfromthistheysin。\"

  \"Thenyoudon’tbelieveinaltruism?\"Iasked。

  Hereceivedthewordasifithadafamiliarring,thoughhepondereditthoughtfully。\"Letmesee,itmeanssomethingaboutco[[Yacute]]peration,doesn’tit?\"

  \"Well,inawaytherehascometobeasortofconnection,\"answered,unsurprisedbythistimeatsuchgapsinhisvocabulary,which,likehisknowledge,wastheacquirementofaself—read,self—educatedman,whomnoonehaddirectedinhisstudies,andwhohadthoughtmuchandtalkedlittleornotatall。\"Analtruisticactisanactperformedforthewelfareofothers。Itisunselfish,asopposedtoanactperformedforself,whichisselfish。\"

  Henoddedhishead。\"Oh,yes,Irememberitnow。IranacrossitinSpencer。\"

  \"Spencer!\"Icried。\"Haveyoureadhim?\"

  \"Notverymuch,\"washisconfession。\"Iunderstoodquiteagooddealof`FirstPrinciples,’buthis`Biology’tookthewindoutofmysails,andhis`Psychology’leftmebuttingaroundinthedoldrumsformanyaday。Ihonestlycouldnotunderstandwhathewasdrivingat。Iputitdowntomentaldeficiencyonmypart,butsincethenIhavedecidedthatitwasforwantofpreparation。Ihadnoproperbasis。OnlySpencerandmyselfknowhowhardIhammered。ButIdidgetsomethingoutofhis`DataofEthics。’

  There’swhereIranacross`altruism,’andIremembernowhowitwasused。\"

  Iwonderedwhatthismancouldhavegotfromsuchawork。SpencerI

  rememberedenoughtoknowthataltruismwasimperativetohisidealofhighestconduct。WolfLarsen,evidently,hadsiftedthegreatphilosopher’steachings,rejectingandselectingaccordingtohisneedsanddesires。

  \"Whatelsedidyourunacross?\"Iasked。

  Hisbrowsdrewinslightlywiththementaleffortofsuitablyphrasingthoughtswhichhehadneverbeforeputintospeech。Ifeltanelationofspirit。Iwasgropingintohissoul—stuffashemadeapracticeofgropinginthesoul—stuffofothers。Iwasexploringvirginterritory。Astrange,aterriblystrange,regionwasunrollingitselfbeforemyeyes。

  \"Inasfewwordsaspossible,\"hebegan,\"Spencerputsitsomethinglikethis:First,amanmustactforhisownbenefit——todothisistobemoralandgood。Next,hemustactforthebenefitofhischildren。Andthird,hemustactforthebenefitofhisrace。\"

  \"Andthehighest,finest,rightconduct,\"Iinterjected,\"isthatactwhichbenefitsatthesametimetheman,hischildren,andhisrace。\"

  \"Iwouldn’tstandforthat,\"hereplied。\"Couldn’tseethenecessityforit,northecommonsense。Icutouttheraceandthechildren。Iwouldsacrificenothingforthem。It’sjustsomuchslushandsentiment,andyoumustseeityourself,atleastforonewhodoesnotbelieveineternallife。Withimmortalitybeforeme,altruismwouldbeapayingbusinessproposition。

  Imightelevatemysoultoallkindsofaltitudes。Butwithnothingeternalbeforemebutdeath,givenforabriefspellthisyeastycrawlingandsquirmingwhichiscalledlife,why,itwouldbeimmoralformetoperformanyactthatwasasacrifice。Anysacrificethatmakesmeloseonecrawlorsquirmisfoolish,——andnotonlyfoolish,foritisawrongagainstmyselfandawickedthing。ImustnotloseonecrawlorsquirmifIamtogetthemostoutoftheferment。NorwilltheeternalmovelessnessthatiscomingtomebemadeeasierorharderbythesacrificesorselfishnessesofthetimewhenIwasyeastyandacrawl。\"

  \"Thenyouareanindividualist,amaterialist,and,logically,ahedonist。\"

  \"Bigwords,\"hesmiled。\"Butwhatisahedonist?\"

  HenoddedagreementwhenIhadgiventhedefinition。

  \"Andyouarealso,\"Icontinued,\"amanonecouldnottrustintheleastthingwhereitwaspossibleforaselfishinteresttointervene?\"

  \"Nowyou’rebeginningtounderstand,\"hesaid,brightening。

  \"Youareamanutterlywithoutwhattheworldcallsmorals?\"

  \"That’sit。\"

  \"Amanofwhomtobealwaysafraid——\"

  \"That’sthewaytoputit。\"

  \"Asoneisafraidofasnake,oratiger,orashark?\"

  \"Nowyouknowme,\"hesaid。\"AndyouknowmeasIamgenerallyknown。

  Othermencallme`Wolf。’\"

  \"Youareasortofmonster,\"Iaddedaudaciously,\"aCalibanwhohasponderedSetebos,andwhoactsasyouact,inidlemoments,bywhimandfancy。\"

  Hisbrowcloudedattheallusion。Hedidnotunderstand,andquicklylearnedthathedidnotknowthepoem。

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