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  \"Verywell,\"Mrs。Traversassented,seriously。\"Butinthatcasewehadbetternotremaintogether。\"Sheasked,then,d’AlcacertogobelowandsitwithMr。Traverswhodidn’tliketobeleftalone。\"Thoughhe,too,doesn’tseemtowanttobetoldanything,\"sheadded,parenthetically,andwenton:\"ButImustaskyousomethingelse,Mr。d’Alcacer。Iproposetositdowninthischairandgotosleep——ifIcan。Willyoupromisetocallmeaboutfiveo’clock?Iprefernottospeaktoanyoneondeck,and,moreover,Icantrustyou。\"

  Hebowedinsilenceandwentawayslowly。Mrs。Travers,turningherhead,perceivedasteadylightatthebrig’syard—arm,verybrightamongthetarnishedstars。Shewalkedaftandlookedoverthetaffrail。Itwasexactlylikethatothernight。Shehalfexpectedtohearpresentlythelow,ripplingsoundofanadvancingboat。Buttheuniverseremainedwithoutasound。Whensheatlastdroppedintothedeckchairshewasabsolutelyattheendofherpowerofthinking。\"Isupposethat’showthecondemnedmanagetogetsomesleeponthenightbeforetheexecution,\"shesaidtoherselfamomentbeforehereyelidsclosedasifunderaleadenhand。

  Shewokeup,withherfacewetwithtears,outofavividdreamofLingardinchain—mailarmourandvaguelyrecallingaCrusader,butbare—headedandwalkingawayfromherinthedepthsofanimpossiblelandscape。Shehurriedontocatchupwithhimbutathrongofbarbarianswithenormousturbanscamebetweenthematthelastmomentandshelostsightofhimforeverintheflurryofaghastlysand—storm。Whatfrightenedhermostwasthatshehadnotbeenabletoseehisface。Itwasthenthatshebegantocryoverherhardfate。Whenshewokeupthetearswerestillrollingdownhercheeksandsheperceivedinthelightofthedeck—lampd’Alcacerarrestedalittlewayoff。

  \"Didyouhavetospeaktome?\"sheasked。

  \"No,\"saidd’Alcacer。\"Youdidn’tgivemetime。WhenIcameasfarasthisIfanciedIheardyousobbing。Itmusthavebeenadelusion。\"

  \"Oh,no。Myfaceiswetyet。Itwasadream。Isupposeitisfiveo’clock。Thankyouforbeingsopunctual。Ihavesomethingtodobeforesunrise。\"

  D’Alcacermovednearer。\"Iknow。Youhavedecidedtokeepanappointmentonthesandbank。Yourhusbanddidn’tuttertwentywordsinallthesehoursbuthemanagedtotellmethatpieceofnews。\"

  \"Ishouldn’thavethought,\"shemurmured,vaguely。

  \"Hewantedmetounderstandthatithadnoimportance,\"statedd’Alcacerinaveryserioustone。

  \"Yes。Heknowswhatheistalkingabout,\"saidMrs。Traversinsuchabittertoneastodisconcertd’Alcacerforamoment。\"I

  don’tseeasinglesoulaboutthedecks,\"Mrs。Traverscontinued,almostdirectly。

  \"Theverywatchmenareasleep,\"saidd’Alcacer。

  \"Thereisnothingsecretinthisexpedition,butIprefernottocallanyone。Perhapsyouwouldn’tmindpullingmeoffyourselfinoursmallboat。\"

  Itseemedtoherthatd’Alcacershowedsomehesitation。Sheadded:\"Ithasnoimportance,youknow。\"

  Hebowedhisassentandprecededherdownthesideinsilence。

  Whensheenteredtheboathehadthescullsreadyanddirectlyshesatdownheshovedoff。Itwassodarkyetthatbutforthebrig’syard—armlighthecouldnothavekepthisdirection。Hepulledaverydeliberatestroke,lookingoverhisshoulderfrequently。ItwasMrs。Traverswhosawfirstthefaintgleamoftheuncoveredsandspitontheblack,quietwater。

  \"Alittlemoretotheleft,\"shesaid。\"No,theotherway……

  \"D’Alcacerobeyedherdirectionsbuthisstrokegrewevenslowerthanbefore。Shespokeagain。\"Don’tyouthinkthattheuttermostfarthingshouldalwaysbepaid,Mr。d’Alcacer?\"

  D’Alcacerglancedoverhisshoulder,then:\"Itwouldbetheonlyhonourableway。Butitmaybehard。Toohardforourcommonfearfulhearts。\"

  \"Iampreparedforanything。\"

  Heceasedpullingforamoment……\"Anythingthatmaybefoundonasandbank,\"Mrs。Traverswenton。\"Onanarid,insignificant,anddesertedsandbank。\"

  D’Alcacergavetwostrokesandceasedagain。

  \"Thereisroomforawholeworldofsufferingonasandbank,forallthebitternessandresentmentahumansoulmaybemadetofeel。\"

  \"Yes,Isupposeyouwouldknow,\"shewhisperedwhilehegaveastrokeortwoandagainglancedoverhisshoulder。Shemurmuredthewords:

  \"Bitterness,resentment,\"andamomentafterwardbecameawareofthekeeloftheboatrunninguponthesand。Butshedidn’tmove,andd’Alcacer,too,remainedseatedonthethwartwiththebladesofhisscullsraisedasifreadytodropthemandbackthedinghyoutintodeepwateratthefirstsign。

  Mrs。Traversmadenosign,butsheasked,abruptly:\"Mr。

  d’Alcacer,doyouthinkIshallevercomeback?\"

  Hertoneseemedtohimtolacksincerity。Butwhocouldtellwhatthisabruptnesscovered——sincerefearormerevanity?Heaskedhimselfwhethershewasplayingapartforhisbenefit,oronlyforherself。

  \"Idon’tthinkyouquiteunderstandthesituation,Mrs。Travers。

  Idon’tthinkyouhaveaclearidea,eitherofhissimplicityorofhisvisionary’spride。\"

  Shethought,contemptuously,thattherewereotherthingswhichd’Alcacerdidn’tknowandsurrenderedtoasuddentemptationtoenlightenhimalittle。

  \"Youforgethiscapacityforpassionandthathissimplicitydoesn’tknowitsownstrength。\"

  Therewasnomistakingthesincerityofthatmurmur。\"Shehasfeltit,\"d’Alcacersaidtohimselfwithabsolutecertitude。Hewonderedwhen,where,how,onwhatoccasion?Mrs。Traversstoodupinthesternsheetssuddenlyandd’Alcacerleapedonthesandtohelpheroutoftheboat。

  \"Hadn’tIbetterhangaboutheretotakeyoubackagain?\"hesuggested,asheletgoherhand。

  \"Youmustn’t!\"sheexclaimed,anxiously。\"Youmustreturntotheyacht。Therewillbeplentyoflightinanotherhour。IwillcometothisspotandwavemyhandkerchiefwhenIwanttobetakenoff。\"

  Attheirfeettheshallowwatersleptprofoundly,theghostlygleamofthesandsbaffledtheeyebyitslackofform。Faroff,thegrowthofbushesinthecentreraisedamassiveblackbulkagainstthestarstothesouthward。Mrs。Traverslingeredforamomentneartheboatasifafraidofthestrangesolitudeofthislonelysandbankandofthisloneseathatseemedtofillthewholeencirclinguniverseofremotestarsandlimitlessshadows。

  \"Thereisnobodyhere,\"shewhisperedtoherself。

  \"Heissomewhereaboutwaitingforyou,orIdon’tknowtheman,\"

  affirmedd’Alcacerinanundertone。Hegaveavigorousshovewhichsentthelittleboatintothewater。

  D’Alcacerwasperfectlyright。LingardhadcomeupondecklongbeforeMrs。Traverswokeupwithherfacewetwithtears。Theburialpartyhadreturnedhoursbeforeandthecrewofthebrigwereplungedinsleep,exceptfortwowatchmen,whoatLingard’sappearanceretreatednoiselesslyfromthepoop。Lingard,leaningontherail,fellintoasombrereverieofhispast。Reproachfulspectrescrowdedtheair,animatedandvocal,notinthearticulatelanguageofmortalsbutassailinghimwithfaintsobs,deepsighs,andfatefulgestures。Whenhecametohimselfandturnedabouttheyvanished,allbutonedarkshapewithoutsoundormovement。Lingardlookedatitwithsecrethorror。

  \"Who’sthat?\"heaskedinatroubledvoice。

  Theshadowmovedcloser:\"It’sonlyme,sir,\"saidCarter,whohadleftorderstobecalleddirectlytheCaptainwasseenondeck。

  \"Oh,yes,Imighthaveknown,\"mumbledLingardinsomeconfusion。

  HerequestedCartertohaveaboatmannedandwhenafteratimetheyoungmantoldhimthatitwasready,hesaid\"Allright!\"

  andremainedleaningonhiselbow。

  \"Ibegyourpardon,sir,\"saidCarterafteralongishsilence,\"butareyougoingsomedistance?\"

  \"No,Ionlywanttobeputashoreonthesandbank。\"

  Carterwasrelievedtohearthis,butalsosurprised。\"Thereisnothinglivingthere,sir,\"hesaid。

  \"Iwonder,\"mutteredLingard。

  \"ButIamcertain,\"Carterinsisted。\"Thelastofthewomenandchildrenbelongingtothosecut—throatsweretakenoffbythesampanswhichbroughtyouandtheyacht—partyout。\"

  HewalkedatLingard’selbowtothegangwayandlistenedtohisorders。

  \"Directlythereisenoughlighttoseeflagsby,makeasignaltotheschoonertoheaveshortonhercableandloosehersails。Ifthereisanyhangingbackgivethemablankgun,Mr。Carter。I

  willhavenoshilly—shallying。Ifshedoesn’tgoattheword,byheavens,Iwilldriveherout。Iamstillmasterhere——foranotherday。\"

  Theoverwhelmingsenseofimmensity,ofdisturbingemptiness,whichaffectsthosewhowalkonthesandsinthemidstofthesea,intimidatedMrs。Travers。Theworldresembledalimitlessflatshadowwhichwasmotionlessandelusive。Thenagainstthesouthernstarsshesawahumanformthatisolatedandloneappearedtoherimmense:theshapeofagiantoutlinedamongsttheconstellations。Asitapproachedheritshranktocommonproportions,gotclearofthestars,lostitsawesomeness,andbecamemenacinginitsominousandsilentadvance。Mrs。Travershastenedtospeak。

  \"Youhaveaskedforme。Iamcome。Itrustyouwillhavenoreasontoregretmyobedience。\"

  Hewalkedupquiteclosetoher,bentdownslightlytopeerintoherface。ThefirstofthetropicaldawnputitscharacteristiccoldsheenintotheskyabovetheShoreofRefuge。

  Mrs。Traversdidnotturnawayherhead。

  \"Areyoulookingforachangeinme?No。Youwon’tseeit。NowI

  knowthatIcouldn’tchangeevenifIwantedto。Iammadeofclaythatistoohard。\"

  \"Iamlookingatyouforthefirsttime,\"saidLingard。\"Inevercouldseeyoubefore。Thereweretoomanythings,toomanythoughts,toomanypeople。No,Ineversawyoubefore。Butnowtheworldisdead。\"

  Hegraspedhershoulders,approachinghisfaceclosetohers。Sheneverflinched。

  \"Yes,theworldisdead,\"shesaid。\"Lookyourfillthen。Itwon’tbeforlong。\"

  Helethergoassuddenlyasthoughshehadstruckhim。Thecoldwhitelightofthetropicaldawnhadcreptpastthezenithnowandtheexpanseoftheshallowwaterslookedcold,too,withoutstirorripplewithintheenormousrimofthehorizonwhere,tothewest,ashadowlingeredstill。

  \"Takemyarm,\"hesaid。

  Shedidsoatonce,andturningtheirbacksonthetwoshipstheybegantowalkalongthesands,buttheyhadnotmademanystepswhenMrs。Traversperceivedanoblongmoundwithaboardplanteduprightatoneend。Mrs。Traversknewthatpartofthesands。Itwasheresheusedtowalkwithherhusbandandd’Alcacereveryeveningafterdinner,whiletheyachtlaystrandedandherboatswereawayinsearchofassistance——whichtheyhadfound——whichtheyhadfound!Thiswassomethingthatshehadneverseentherebefore。Lingardhadsuddenlystoppedandlookedatitmoodily。

  Shepressedhisarmtorousehimandasked,\"Whatisthis?\"

  \"Thisisagrave,\"saidLingardinalowvoice,andstillgazingattheheapofsand。\"Ihadhimtakenoutoftheshiplastnight。

  Strange,\"hewentoninamusingtone,\"howmuchagravebigenoughforonemanonlycanhold。Hismessagewastoforgeteverything。\"

  \"Never,never,\"murmuredMrs。Travers。\"IwishIhadbeenonboardtheEmma……Youhadamadmanthere,\"shecriedout,suddenly。Theymovedonagain,LingardlookingatMrs。Traverswhowasleaningonhisarm。

  \"Iwonderwhichofustwowasmad,\"hesaid。

  \"Iwonderyoucanbeartolookatme,\"shemurmured。ThenLingardspokeagain。

  \"Ihadtoseeyouoncemore。\"

  \"ThatabominableJorgenson,\"shewhisperedtoherself。

  \"No,no,hegavememychance——beforehegavemeup。\"

  Mrs。TraversdisengagedherarmandLingardstopped,too,facingherinalongsilence。

  \"Icouldnotrefusetomeetyou,\"saidMrs。Traversatlast。\"I

  couldnotrefuseyouanything。YouhavealltherightonyoursideandIdon’tcarewhatyoudoorsay。ButIwonderatmyowncouragewhenIthinkoftheconfessionIhavetomake。\"Sheadvanced,laidherhandonLingard’sshoulderandspokeearnestly。\"Ishudderedatthethoughtofmeetingyouagain。Andnowyoumustlistentomyconfession。\"

  \"Don’tsayaword,\"saidLingardinanuntroubledvoiceandnevertakinghiseyesfromherface。\"Iknowalready。\"

  \"Youcan’t,\"shecried。Herhandslippedoffhisshoulder。\"Thenwhydon’tyouthrowmeintothesea?\"sheasked,passionately。

  \"AmItoliveonhatingmyself?\"

  \"Youmustn’t!\"hesaidwithanaccentoffear。\"Haven’tyouunderstoodlongagothatifyouhadgivenmethatringitwouldhavebeenjustthesame?\"

  \"AmItobelievethis?No,no!Youaretoogeneroustoameresham。Youarethemostmagnanimousofmenbutyouarethrowingitawayonme。DoyouthinkitisremorsethatIfeel?No。Ifitisanythingitisdespair。Butyoumusthaveknownthat——andyetyouwantedtolookatmeagain。\"

  \"ItoldyouIneverhadachancebefore,\"saidLingardinanunmovedvoice。\"ItwasonlyafterIheardtheygaveyoutheringthatIfelttheholdyouhavegotonme。HowcouldItellbefore?

  Whathashateorlovetodowithyouandme?Hate。Love。Whatcantouchyou?Formeyoustandabovedeathitself;forIseenowthataslongasIliveyouwillneverdie。\"

  Theyconfrontedeachotheratthesouthernedgeofthesandsasifafloatontheopensea。Thecentralridgeheapedupbythewindsmaskedfromthemtheverymastheadsofthetwoshipsandthegrowingbrightnessofthelightonlyaugmentedthesenseoftheirinvinciblesolitudeintheawfulserenityoftheworld。

  Mrs。Traverssuddenlyputherarmacrosshereyesandavertedherface。

  Thenheadded:

  \"That’sall。\"

  Mrs。Traversletfallherarmandbegantoretracehersteps,unsupportedandalone。Lingardfollowedherontheedgeofthesanduncoveredbytheebbingtide。AbeltoforangelightappearedinthecoldskyabovetheblackforestoftheShoreofRefugeandfadedquicklytogoldthatmeltedsoonintoablindingandcolourlessglare。ItwasnottillaftershehadpassedJaffir’sgravethatMrs。Traversstoleabackwardglanceanddiscoveredthatshewasalone。Lingardhadlefthertoherself。

  Shesawhimsittingnearthemoundofsand,hisbackbowed,hishandsclaspinghisknees,asifhehadobeyedtheinvinciblecallofhisgreatvisionshauntingthegraveofthefaithfulmessenger。ShadinghereyeswithherhandMrs。Traverswatchedtheimmobilityofthatmanofinfiniteillusions。Henevermoved,heneverraisedhishead。Itwasallover。Hewasdonewithher。

  Shewaitedalittlelongerandthenwentslowlyonherway。

  Shaw,nowactingsecondmateoftheyacht,cameoffwithanotherhandinalittleboattotakeMrs。Traversonboard。Hestaredatherlikeanoffendedowl。Howtheladycouldsuddenlyappearatsunrisewavingherhandkerchieffromthesandbankhecouldnotunderstand。For,evenifshehadmanagedtorowherselfoffsecretlyinthedark,shecouldnothavesenttheemptyboatbacktotheyacht。ItwastoShawasortofimpropermiracle。

  D’AlcacerhurriedtothetopofthesideladderandastheymetondeckMrs。Traversastonishedhimbysayinginastrangelyprovokingtone:

  \"Youwereright。Ihavecomeback。\"Thenwithalittlelaughwhichimpressedd’Alcacerpainfullysheaddedwithanoddownward,\"andMartin,too,wasperfectlyright。Itwasabsolutelyunimportant。\"

  Shewalkedonstraighttothetaffrailandd’Alcacerfollowedheraft,alarmedatherwhiteface,atherbrusquemovements,atthenervouswayinwhichshewasfumblingatherthroat。Hewaiteddiscreetlytillsheturnedroundandthrustouttowardhimheropenpalmonwhichhesawathickgoldringsetwithalargegreenstone。

  \"Lookatthis,Mr。d’Alcacer。ThisisthethingwhichIaskedyouwhetherIshouldgiveuporconceal——thesymbolofthelasthour——thecallofthesuprememinute。Andhesaiditwouldhavemadenodifference!Heisthemostmagnanimousofmenandtheuttermostfarthinghasbeenpaid。Hehasdonewithme。Themostmagnanimous……butthereisagraveonthesandsbywhichI

  lefthimsittingwithnoglancetospareforme。Hislastglanceonearth!Iamleftwiththisthing。Absolutelyunimportant。A

  deadtalisman。\"Withanervousjerksheflungtheringoverboard,thenwithahurriedentreatytod’Alcacer,\"Stayhereamoment。

  Don’tletanybodycomenearus,\"sheburstintotearsandturnedherbackonhim。

  LingardreturnedonboardhisbrigandintheearlyafternoontheLightninggotunderway,runningpasttheschoonertogiveheraleadthroughthemazeofShoals。Lingardwasondeckbutneverlookedonceatthefollowingvessel。DirectlybothshipswereinclearwaterhewentbelowsayingtoCarter:\"Youknowwhattodo。\"

  \"Yes,sir,\"saidCarter。

  ShortlyafterhisCaptainhaddisappearedfromthedeckCarterlaidthemaintopsailtothemast。TheLightninglostherwaywhiletheschoonerwithallherlightkitesabroadpassedcloseunderhersternholdingonhercourse。Mrs。Traversstoodaftveryrigid,grippingtherailwithbothhands。Thebrimofherwhitehatwasblownupwardononesideandheryachtingskirtstirredinthebreeze。Byhersided’Alcacerwavedhishandcourteously。Carterraisedhiscaptothem。

  Duringtheafternoonhepacedthepoopwithmeasuredsteps,withapairofbinocularsinhishand。Atlasthelaidtheglassesdown,glancedatthecompass—cardandwalkedtothecabinskylightwhichwasopen。

  \"Justlosther,sir,\"hesaid。Allwasstilldownthere。Heraisedhisvoicealittle:

  \"YoutoldmetoletyouknowdirectlyIlostsightoftheyacht。\"

  ThesoundofastifledgroanreachedtheattentiveCarterandawearyvoicesaid,\"Allright,Iamcoming。\"

  WhenLingardsteppedoutonthepoopoftheLightningtheopenwaterhadturnedpurplealreadyintheeveninglight,whiletotheeasttheShallowsmadeasteelyglitterallalongthesombrelineoftheshore。Lingard,withfoldedarms,lookedoverthesea。Carterapproachedhimandspokequietly。

  \"Thetidehasturnedandthenightiscomingon。Hadn’twebettergetawayfromtheseShoals,sir?\"

  Lingarddidnotstir。

  \"Yes,thenightiscomingon。Youmayfillthemaintopsail,Mr。

  Carter,\"hesaidandherelapsedintosilencewithhiseyesfixedinthesouthernboardwheretheshadowswerecreepingstealthilytowardthesettingsun。PresentlyCarterstoodathiselbowagain。

  \"Thebrigisbeginningtoforgeahead,sir,\"hesaidinawarningtone。

  Lingardcameoutofhisabsorptionwithadeeptremorofhispowerfulframeliketheshudderofanuprootedtree。

  \"Howwastheyachtheadingwhenyoulostsightofher?\"heasked。

  \"Southasnearaspossible,\"answeredCarter。\"Willyougivemeacoursetosteerforthenight,sir?\"

  Lingard’slipstrembledbeforehespokebuthisvoicewascalm。

  \"Steernorth,\"hesaid。

  End

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